#it feels so stupid to be this upset about this but it's like everything else is so bad

[strungnews]

Mark peels his eyes open when he hears the chime of his phone. He’d ignore it if it were anyone else, his beauty sleep too precious for anyone’s demands at this hour, no exception.

Except one, that is.

He personalized his text notification for you, just because, he reasoned. You’d text him late at night, this was no different. You loved showing him all kinds of curious stuff he never knew existed. Usually it was pretty lively, or quiet.

But came another ping, quickly followed by another, then it went quiet.

That was less than usual. Odd.

He opens it up, lockscreen practically blinding his eyes while he tries to decipher what you’re texting. It’s punctual, direct, just your usual self.

Mark. Do you have any glue that can stick anything together.

Its important.

Odd, eery, okay.

At this hour?

What for?

. . .

No reply. The bubbles on the screen disappears, left on seen.

Okay. He needs to check up on you, right now.

“Please don’t do anything stupid.” He mutters under his breath, quickly flying over to you like a bullet to the head.

Your blinds are closed, typically. Lights are open, dim, no shadow casts near the window the closer he goes, the latch isn’t locked. Concerning.

“Hello?” He softly calls out. If this was really an emergency, him calling out to you would most likely be the cause of your death. And he wouldn’t know whether or not to laugh or grimace at that when he’s standing by the headstone of your grave. Who needs some strong ass glue for a scenario like that?

“Im just gonna let myself in…” Its the smell that hits his nose first when he slides it up, like fixing his busted nose by snapping it back into place, he can take a deep breath again. Everything is so strong, so pungent, so headache inducing.

“Why does it smell like rugby in here?” He groans, pinching his nose. It’s so quiet in here.

Usually the soft whirrs of your dingy fan was enough to be white noise, or the sound of your phone playing music faintly by the bed. But nothing, just dead silence and that familiar beat of a heart.

Mark softly calls you out, his socked feet thudding lightly on your floor. Your back’s to him, and he watches as you just eye at something by your feet.

Your favorite umbrella. It was those old fashioned ones, popular in the 1960’s since people raved about a lot of things that essentially made little to no impact back then. Now its handle has been broken and separated, the pungent glue is lathered lazily and hastily, like a doctor trying to revive a patient on the spot.

So much supplies are scattered just at the side, he guesses it was your quick panicky feeling at trying to salvage this.

Mark bought it for you at some antique shop, since you wouldn’t stop eyeing it whenever you’d coincidentally pass by the same row at the place. 100 percent from japan, the tag and the lady at the counter said so!

You paraded that thing around when you first got it, yet hesitant to even use it when you’d actually go out.

‘What if someone steals it?’ ‘What if I forget about it and I cant find it anymore?’ You’d complain, as if you weren’t opening up the thing in your room. Just sitting under it while you typed away like there was a storm inside the place. It was cute.

“Oh, man.” Immediately, he sits next to you and drapes an arm while squeezing at your shoulder.. Enough to let you lean in if you wanted, and enough room to pull away. An option in case you were ever overwhelmed.

Its a bit hard to gauge your expression and emotions in this state. You’re kind of just staring at it with a blank face, eyes while tracing over it like you’re committing it to memory, before blinking it away. Repeating the process.

“Im upset.” You finally say. Your tone doesn’t indicate you’re as upset as he’s thought you’d be. Just like a disappointed sigh kind of upset, the one he’d get from his mom whenever she caught him lazying a second too long.

“I really liked that umbrella.”

“I know.” He leans further onto you when you do first. You both sit there, watching the broken handle of the umbrella and its body just to the side. Like a wielder’s sword put to rest. Boxed and put in a glass in admiration, the rough patches and jaggedness a story of its history, of its past.

“I think Paul could help with this.”

“You think so?”

“He’s a man of many tricks, trust me.” Mark starts to rock the both of you lightly, your body now fully leaning onto him.

“Really now? I think your mom would know more about that than him honestly.” You two giggle, tracing spiraling patterns on his knee.

“Im so telling mom that.”

—

It seemed no glue would be enough to fix that crack in your umbrella shaped heart. It got fixed, of course. But the fear of it breaking even more doubled by the time you’d received it back in one rather than two.

Paul helped install a small hook to attach it at the wall of your room, presented in all its yellow glory.

Mark shortly surprises you by taking you to the same antique shop, this time they were on sale!

“It was like it was meant to be.” You said, pushing the door as the bell above jingles.

“You breaking your umbrella?” That earned a heavy yet light hearted smack on his shoulder. Too early.

It wasn’t all that hard to look for a substitute, the bright yet soft color of green had already caught your eye the moment you started looking, and he thinks there was no changing your mind.

“Look Mark! It even has a crocodile for a handle!” You beamed, brighter than that old umbrella of yours, brighter than the screen of his phone at a late night.

Man, that’ll never get old.

A/n: im so sad (?) that the handle my umbrella broke because i was too busy chasing away the ants in my room and i stepped on it sob. Here it currently lies on my floor still broken and in disrepair

[rip-cod-brainrot]

So I fed some pigeons and grackles/jackdaws today at the city station. This girl sits down next to me. And she’s apparently upset by the pigeons being near her, judging by the way she kept shooing them away with a frown.

Like. Girl. YOU are the one who sat next to the person obviously feeding pigeons. Who has pigeons literally diving under her feet to grab some peanuts. There are going to be pigeons. Why would you sit here if you do not want pigeon????

Anyways it’s so stupid funny I’m coming up with headcanons about how they (read: cod bois + maybe even perhaps some gals) will react sitting next to you, a stranger. Feeding pigeons

Characters; Price, Gaz, Ghost, Soap, Laswell, Alejandro, Rudy, Graves, Nikolai, Valeria, Makarov

PRICE -He doesn’t understand what you are doing. Aren’t pigeons dirty??? That one specifically looks like it has mange?????? -He is discreetly scooting away. Especially when the pigeons start hopping up to sit next to you on the bench to try and get more peanuts. He might shoo them away, but gently, with only furrowed eyebrows. -Says nothing to you, but also doesn't give you more than one confused look, because he's a gentleman.

GAZ -Yeah, he noticed the pigeons. Oh. Wait - he didn't see that you were feeding them. -He does panic internally - just a bit - when they start swarming your shoes as you drop some food. But then you just... giggle? Because the pigeons are... well, they are kind of cute. -Wait - never mind, one of them is staring at him with those beady red eyes. Never mind, they're more disconcerting than anything. Don't trust those gentle coos... they clearly hide evil pigeon intent

GHOST -??? Yeah there's somebody feeding pigeons, so what? The seat's free, he's gonna sit there. -Oh, the pigeons are starting to come closer to him because he's sitting still? Oh. Well. He doesn't mind that much. He'll just have to wash his clothes real well. Mites and all that. -Doesn't say anything, but he does give you a nod and a grunt when you compliment that they seem to like him. -Next time you're there he's feeding the pigeons too??? Who the fuck is this guy

SOAP -He is not discreet. He's leaning over curiously to try and look closer at the pigeons, eyebrows raised. -It's only a matter of time before he starts asking questions. "How'd you get them to come so close? Do you feed them that every time? How do you know they like it? What else do you feed 'em?" -He is actively excited by this Disney Princess(tm) shit happening in front of him. He might leave you with a torn out page of his sketchbook; a quick drawing of you, surrounded by the birds, smiling.

LASWELL -People feed pigeons all the time. Why should she care? She's just going to keep her distance and- -Oh, one of them hopped up next to her, and it's coming towards her. No, Kate doesn't have any feed for this thing, go away- -Actively goes to sit at the far end of the bench, putting her bag between herself and the birds. She does wave at them and wiggle her foot so that they don't come near her.

ALEJANDRO -Feeding the local wildlife? That's sweet. But can't they feed themselves? What the hell do pigeons eat anyways- -May or may not jump and shit himself when one of the pigeons suddenly flaps up to stand on his knee. Absolutely does not hurt the pigeons on purpose!! But if he swats a little too fast at one of them, he ain't missing, and he feels AWFUL about it. -Damn soldier reflexes. Next thing he knows he's holding a pigeon in his hands while you check it over, fussing over the thing even though it's looking around like nothing happened. -(Pigeon is ok btw. Turns out he just kinda... pushed it, and it flew back fast enough to avoid any real harm.)

RUDY -Oh he's absolutely into it, he knows the birds are hopping onto the bench and everything. He noticed it as he was coming up. -If one of them comes next to him or hops up onto his knee, he's smiling. But he does gently nudge them back over to you. "No tengo nada portigo, pajarito. Go to them." -Strikes up a conversation with you about what you're feeding them. You have a clear love for these birds, and he thinks it's wonderful that such love exists in the world.

GRAVES -Didn't even notice you were feeding pigeons. He just knows the damn things go everywhere, wherever they want. -Wait wtf you're feeding them? What are you, an old grandma???? Graves fully believes in the sky rat idea of pigeons. The hell are you doing??? -Jumps up when one of them flies right at him. "What in the hell-" -He has decided to sit somewhere else. Unless you strike him up in conversation and talk him down. (They're just birds, bro calm down)

NIKOLAI -Oh he sat next to you BECAUSE you're feeding birds. This looks like fun. -He asks if he can have a handful of the stuff so he can feed them, too. Or pulls out some spare packet of nuts he had in his pocket. He's enjoying feeding them, look at those little guys go. -He soon strikes up a conversation with you, smiling and laughing over the warm little birds so focused on getting the food that they're swarming around your feet.

VALERIA (because I think she would say smth 'bout it) -Didn't care that you're feeding the pigeons. Whatever. People do stuff like feed the wildlife in the city. Who cares. -Raises an eyebrow when one lands next to her, staring at her expectantly. "Que quieres? No tengo no comida portigo. Ve a tu amigo alli." -She brushes it away, back towards you. "You keep these birds too fat, they're gonna bother everybody, you know?" she hums. "You feed them every day?" -Soon enough, you're bantering back and forth. She likes a small conversation every once in a while, knowing that whatever civilian she's talking to hasn't the slightest idea how easily she could have them wiped from the face of the earth... MAKAROV (because I need more content of This Guy(tm)) -You're just another civilian doing civilian things. Feeding the birds. Yeah, whatever. -Frowns at the pigeons when they try to hop up next to him. Shoos them away, not out of any real malice, but in slight annoyance. -That annoyance does spill over, though. But at you. "Why are you feeding them? These are wild animals, do you think they cannot feed themselves?" -If you're just like 'they're cute', then he scoffs and ignores you for the rest of the time he has to wait. He refuses to move. But if you have a logical reason - "I want to make sure they're eating something that they can actually digest, and the more I feed them, the more often I can check to see if they're sick" - then he's pretty intrigued. Maybe you're not a stupid civilian, at least.

[strange-anni]

Even though I've now changed my mind about the ship I was also a jncy shipper once and earlier seasons were indeed where they were at their best. That's was also the time when they were still just friends and I do think this plays a huge part of why they were working together so well back in the day.

It all starts to go down the drain when they are a couple and attempt to work together like we've seen in S3. Whereas working together isn't really what Nancy and Jonathan are doing in early S3 either. It's more like Nancy says what they should be doing and Jonathan can do nothing more then agree with her and follow her lead.

She isn't listening to what he says at all and she doesn't really care either. Jonathan doesn't want to destroy his car and doesn't want to get fired either. None of which Nancy cares for in the slightest. She even admits it to her mother later in the season. She says she wasn't thinking about Jonathan or anyone at all.

I know Jonathan gets more involved in the case of the missing rats later but that's also after he suspects it might concern Will. That's also just who Jonathan is: If someone he cares about is in danger or if it' about someone else who someone he cares about cares a lot for (meaning Nancy cares a lot about Barb and Jonathan cares a lot about Nancy) then he's in it no questions asked.

This is also why early S3 jncy feels so real to me despite the fact that the entire season has a lot of weird things going on. Until Will got involved it was just about the two of them. Just Nancy and Jonathan and how they would fare together if they were to share a working environment and the answer to that question is not good at all.

It's also that not everything in life is always directly connected to the people you love the most and sometimes (most of the times really) you just gotta go to work and do the job. We get to see what this would look like for Nancy and Jonathan and while I do not know how the US college system works I do suspect we'd get a very similar dynamic if they were to go to college together. Duffers over there are quietly dismantling jncys future by showing us how they don't work together very well after all.

Some people just live to work (Nancy) while others work to live (Jonathan.)

By now I am also wondering if stncys communication really is as bad as it seems or if it's just easier to see how bad they are for each other because they discuss their problems more openly?

I am thinking of this moment when Steve asked Nancy to tell him that she loves him which of cause she doesn't do because she doesn't love him. It's out there in the open for everyone to see.

It was also really brave of Steve to do that and try to face the truth head on. If we are thinking this from his perspective it goes something like this: His girlfriend is upset because of the death of her best friend. He then tries to help her by distracting her and going to a party which kind of works for a while until she's drunk and tells him everything they are is just a stupid lie which of cause upsets him a lot and to top it of it's the other guy (Jonathan) who later gets her home. Come next day she comes to him and is upset because he didn't pick her up and drove her to school which then leads to a discussion of their entire relationship and Steve asking for validation and an admittance that she still loves him.

It's not really an unreasonable thing to ask for if you ask me. It also shows us how stncy could never work.

Meanwhile we have Jonathan in S4 who's quietly also waiting for some kind of proof that Nancy still loves him ("Part of me expected her to be on that plane... or something..." I have talked about it here) but he never really confronts Nancy with it. He just does it the round about way later when they are fixing the cabin which also doesn't work and you know? At least Steve outright asked for it and got rejected. Jonathan doesn't have the courage to do that just yet.

Personally I really doubt Jonathan would ever become like his father. I think he is way more at risk of turning out like his mother which in turn doesn't mean good things for Nancy if you catch my drift. I think we also get a good impression of this during the fixing the cabin scene when they get outright paralleled to Lonnie. Their relationship is on it's best way to turn into an abusive one.

And Murray was the guy who started it by wanting them to kiss.

I also don't really know what his true role in the story is because to me it also seems like he isn't always wrong either. I think he probably also had the best intentions when he played that little game with Jonathan and Nancy (although he also really should have known better because despite it all: Nancys and Jonathans personal lives are none of his business no matter what) and it set them on a path that is not good for either of them.

The conformity is in forcing romance when people don't really want it.

This is very much true. It's what we see happening with Murray but he isn't the only one who engages in it. Once I realized that pretty much everyone in the show engages in it it changed my view entirely.

Barb does it by telling Nancy it'd be good if she were to date Steve because that'd make her more popular. Jonathan does it by lying to Nancy that Steve asked him to bring her home. Dustin does it by pushing Steve to date Robin which he calls creepy after he's already told him that Robin is not his type. And of cause Will also does it big time when he's trying to get milkvan back together. Lucas does it when he pushes Mike towards El. Robin does it and Eddie of all people does it too when they try to fix stncy and I'm sure there are plenty more.

It's like everyone else just always knows better and what's best for you except you yourself of cause.

Then to top all of this of it's Karen the conservative mom who tells Nancy to just unapologetically be herself (and also to completely disregard Jonathans feelings in all of this)

Complex characters. We just love them, don't we?

What is wrong with Joyce's boy?

Joyce of cause said this in regards to Will and while it leaves us without an answer as to what is wrong with him, we do get a transition to a scene with her other boy Jonathan in it.

So is there possibly a reason why Joyce would need to ask such a question in regards to Jonathan as well?

Note: This is about the infamous Murray scene with Nancy and Jonathan (and how he started their doomed relationship)

Jonathan and his friend Nancy who at the time are are probably only 17 years old get some vodka from this old conspiracy guy Murray

2. Leave it to the teenagers(!) to be the reasonable ones ones in this situation as they name very good reasons as to why they should stop drinking. Jonathan still has to drive and they want to go home.

3. Yet they get pressured into staying and possibly even more drinking

4. They also get pressured into staying in the same room

5. A suggestion said teenagers ignore because they don't really want to at this point although both agree that it is late

6. Old man is confused teenagers don't react like he expects them to

7. Still both Nancy and Jonathan are politely correcting him and telling him what they are: friends (It also makes me think of Dustin continuedly pressuring Steve into dating Robin in S3 which Steve also doesn't want and asks Dustin to stop and you know at least Dustin and Steve know and care about each other)

Imho it could have stopped here. Murray should have just accepted their word for it. It's none of his business anyway if they are friends or not.

Also notice how pressure comes from all sides? From the people we love, cherish and who are also our best friends and from people we barely even know like Jonathan and Nancy barely know Murray and he doesn't know them.

8. And we see Murray being completely dismissive of everything Nancy and Jonathan have to say -> He's just laughing at them

9. How does he even know if they're telling the truth or not? And even he's right and they did lie.. he has no idea of the reasons why. Not that would be any of his business either.

10. Look at these patient little babies and how they are still politely correcting Murray.

Also notice Jonathan is thinking.

11. What a bunch of utter nonsense. Even if we assume all of this to be true Jonathan and Nancy don't have to date just because of it. If they don't want to then they don't have to.

Also all of it is true for Steve and Robin in S3 and they are also not dating.

(sorry if Nancy looks a bit weird in that shot)

But also look at how attentive Jonathan looks here. It's like he's got someone on his mind which fits that description as well, doesn't he?

12. Murray is pressing Jonathans buttons and it's getting personal here. It's also none of his business.

13. Now he's getting REAL personal -> again that's none of Murrays business AT ALL.

14. They are trying to defend themselves again and are looking slightly uncomfortable. Plus Jonathan seems to be thinking again.

15. He's also only seeing what he wants to see and he's pressuring these young teenagers into conforming to his wishes

16. He also has no business of needing to read them at all!

Plus is it even true? Is Nancy harder to read than Jonathan?

17. Because Jonathan over here looks completely closed off. Guarded. Hugging himself, shoulders slightly raised and he also looks a bit scared tbh

18. Nancy also looks so uncomfortable here.

Plus retreating back to the safety of..

19. Notice how it is Jonathan who says Steve's name here and not Nancy? I really feel like Murray could have accidentally seen right trough Jonathan by sheer luck. Not that that would make any of this better at all.

20. Maybe Murray is right here. Maybe someone really does like Steve. Or suspects he could like him or maybe even just wants to talk to him to hear what he had wanted to say when he came to his doorstep in S1

But make no mistake as this is still meddling to the extreme as none of this is any of Murrays business at all. AGAIN.

Also Jonathan seems to be thinking again.

21. None of Murrays business

22. Jonathan still looks super guarded and Murray is making Nancy uncomfortable again

23. I would really like to know what Jonathan is thinking here

24. NOW they are getting told how cute they are as in you two should get together because that's be so cute

25. And just like that Murray acts like he's never said anything at all! Like he hasn't just meddled with them and their thoughts and told them what they should do and feel

Tbc in a reblog because I've reached image limit

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[king-lena]

they should invent a period that doesn’t feel like dragging around a cursed amulet for at least seven days

[simptasia]

being in the DS9 fandom, you'll discover there are so many ways for people to be wrong about julian bashir

[fromgotham]

haha once again my dad shows me he could not give a fuck about my issues with audio or me because he's got the tv unnecessarily loud again :)

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

god !!!!!!

[brilliant-soul]

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[coolspacequips]

I miss rping so fucking much and it's so hard to start a successful thread it's so weirdly crushing and depressing

[jawnjendes]

wowwwwwweeeeeeee

[kindacreepy-kindaugly]

haven't been sad like this in a long time

[maryibgarry102]

This is a "complain into the void about being annoyed" post so feel free to ignore lol

ok like i get being mad about the a/c not being fixed as fast as you'd like and the various other legitimate maintenance problems ppl have been dealing with when they shouldn't have to be. but pls don't get mad at the maintenance workers not being able to give you a timeline for a fix because of the ADMIN not having tracking info for a part they need for your a/c repair as if they were the ones who manufactured the part and handle it's transport like babe not only do the guys who come in to do your work likely not handle this shit themselves separate from the admin, but the housing org and the a/c part ppl are seperate businesses, ran by people with limited time/resources/staff and high demand like. The ppl could literally just not have stuff to tell you because THEY weren't given a way to track it themselves by the a/c part seller? You don't always get tracking info, like when a teacher i know had issues with getting a part shipped for an oven issue they were fixing or with some international orders. Did ya think that maybe they aren't purposefully trying to slight you in any way but are just ppl with limited info and resources who ALSO would rather just fix your issue and be done with it like? Be mad about the high cost of living with an administration that isn't as efficient as it should be considering the scope of their work and the high demand, be mad with issues like your a/c or water not working properly considering the price you pay for maintenance and the space itself, but don't get mad at the repair workers for issues outside of their control or make a fuss because of a "problem" that really is just how life goes sometimes, instead of acting like it was meant to be a personal slight just cause it's not the most convenient or what you wanted

[chaosandthe-deadblog]

aaahhhh. i never learn

[venomgender]

like tbh all the things on my christmas list are either things my father has said he would buy me before, Things I Need, or a 5 dollar 16gb micro sd card. so like. so like

[connormoving]

ive always wanted to play dnd but truly i think its too late for me and i just dont have it