#it came to my mind because there is a lot of stuff with a charachter named Crowley in my feed

[vodrae]

One time, when they were still teenagers, and when they had their flirt, Bruce broke into the biggest church in Gotham to play Mr Crowley by Ozzy to Zatanna on the organ.

And he sang as well, we all know since Diana became a pig he has a great voice.

It's still a fond memory for them both. But Bruce lives in fear awaiting the day she will play the memory for his kids and they will learn he broke into a cathedral. They won't spare him for sure, but it's fair.

[skinner17]

Dissecting Red Spider Arc-The arc that non shipper find it disturbingly (For those who mind) Shippy

I’ve been watching gintama for the past couple of weeks. And since lately I encounter sleeping problem, lets turn this energy to talk about one of my favorite arc. The controversial arc that invite polarized opinion among Gintama fans.

For  Tsukuyo fans, Red spider is a certain favorite together with Yoshiwara in flame and Courtesan of the nation.  This arc fleshed her background and deepen her bond with yorozuya, especially Gintoki

For casual fans, this arc is the first time they see a glimpse of gintoki past, The first time  gintoki in a berserk mode, the first time he act by his own volition. And somehow he appeared like a true shonen hero saving the heroine.

By then tsukuyo was far from heroine status. She just recently introduced a couple episodes back. Yoshiwara in flame focused more on Hinowa and seita story. But Tsukuyo already  rose in ranking because her unique character design (in sacchan word, she has a lot of ‘hooks’) aside being badass in general.

For naysayers, Red spider arc is that arc that destroy Tsukuyo character. Reduced her into damsel in distress, mere love interest and what not. Of course its people’s right to interpret a work however they see fit. People enjoying entertainment in a different way afterall. Maybe they are a strict feminist type who wanted a true xena like character?  disappointed when a strong female charachter ended up saved by the male hero? (Tho I wonder why they don’t care with preceeding events where Tsukuyo saved gintoki a couple of time)  

The other would say this arc is such a big jump from previous arcs. A sudden transition they would say. And heck they’re right. Red spider arc  Is different compared to other serious arc before it.  Its lustrously dark, whispery,  not much emphasis on family nor comedy, not much explosion nor machismo.

And more importantly, its uncharacteristically Intimate.  

What do you expect? It took placein Yoshiwara-The Red light District- afterall.

The curtain raised with Jiraiya, the ex teacher of Tsukuyo, the main villain of this arc, On his post coital glow pondering about his object of creation. After enjoying the service of yoshiwara, He looked at the moon and probably feeling another rush of excitement reminiscing his dear beautiful student and the plan he’d set for her.

Not long after, Tsukuyo feel someone dangerous infiltrating her city. She and her Hyakka squad has been working hard to push down the crime that on the rise after the city lost its night king. Nearing their limit, she turned to Yorozuya, wondering if they can help with the drug problem.

Somehow, Tsukuyo and Gintoki teamed up just the two of them investigating the shady group with spider tattoo trademark. The result was assortment of classic romantic comedy skit : To-Love-Ru type of ‘accident’ and pretend couple.

Ok at this point its just natural that people start to see the two as potential couple. When they bicker they’d scream their heart silly, forgetting  whatever  adult persona they had in mind. Yet when the time come, they play along really well with the others bullshit act. They are on the same frequency already.

Back to the story, Later, they found out the drug lord is Jiraiya who apparently the long dead master (teacher who take care of  protegee under their wing) of Tsukuyo. With his unique ability he nearly killed Gintoki and captured Tsukuyo.

Some Naysayers disappointed at this point because Tsukuyo who supposedly a good fighter became useless in front of jiraiya. Ok let me use this opportunity to explain the technicality of how that’s possible.

She was shocked.

It was a surprise attack

Jiraiya, knew his student fighting ability the best and knew how to immobilize her.

Even Gintoki Almost killed because of his weird technique

She used the last of her strength to saved gintoki from jiraiya’s final blow.

“Huh? But gintoki didn’t turned into a useless mess when he met his long dead master alive?”

Lol what are you smoking? The old master  would split gintoki’s head from his body if not because Kagura’s help.  Also Utsuro/Shouyo goal was to crushed the rebels and nothing to do with Gintoki. While Jiraiya’s goal was to capture Tsukuyo. Understand the difference?  

Ok now that its out of my system lets continue.

Later Gintoki learned about the nature of Jiraiya and what this student-master relationship actually are from Zenzou. She-who believed every word of him and followed his foot step- was his creation and his prey at the same time. This method is sickening for Gintoki who loved his master to death.

For Gintoki a master should be more or less like shoyo. Strong, kind, wise and selfless. The kind of sage who gave his life for his student. Its infuriating to learn that a good women like tsukuyo has a psychotic monster as a master.

“see..Its not because of Tsukuyo that gintoki willingly revert to his shiroyasa self. Its because the master-student thingie that made him mad af”

Was the stuff I read from naysayers.  And for this one, I kinda agree. The main thing that infuriate gintoki about Jiraiya was that he used  master student relationship for some psychotic goal. As we know later, whenever topic about his own master brought on, Gintoki turned into a different beast.

Even I can see this arc’s intent beside telling tsukuyo’s past and cementing her as one of the recurrent character was also to foreshadow  Shoyo related arcs in the future.

However among all of that baggage brought by this arc, theres this one dialogue that caught my attention.

G : "give up already, theres nothing in your web. This entire time there was only a pathetic little spider spinning thread into sky while gazing at distant moon"

J : "What are you babbling about?I already knew that long ago"

The ones who ascociate Tsukuyo with the moon are the one who cherish her like hinowa and the hyakka squad  or the bastard who obsessed at her like Jiraiya. It’s a secret nickname people gave to her beside Shinigami Tayuu / courtesan of death. Wt  

At that  moment, Gintoki  speak about what Tsukuyo is to Jiraiya existence : A moon to a little insignificant spider. This confirm that Gintoki understand Tsukuyo’s epithet-wich means at that point of story he is familiar toward  Tsukuyo more than the viewers aware of.

To add, This is probably just me but the way he said that stuff about Jiraiya, whispering  while gazing at the sky, as if its applied to him aswell.  

Well, I just think that because throughout the fight he keep rambling about being on the same level as Jiraiya.

G: Do you know how to survive the spider nest? By eating the spider.

G : She is stronger than you ever be. A coward like me is enough for a coward like you

To Fight Jiraiya, Gintoki  drew parrarel between himself and Jiraiya. And its not impossible that parrarel extended until that moment.    

I  came to the conclusion At that moment Gintoki  already  admire Tsukuyo. Wether  her virtue, her  face, her quirk  or her phisycal attractiveness, it could be anything. The fact is Tsukuyo basically embodies everything gintoki like in a women.   

However because of his mindset and his self sabotaging lifestyle, he understood Jiraiya’s point of view of admiring an existence that is too good for them.

The episode ended with Tsukuyo learning his master’s past  and accepting his flaw after killing him. The moment when Gintoki implied that he would never be a good student to their master as tsukuyo is pretty touching too.

The last episode of this arc is a short one with majorly comedic skits. Another To Love Ru accident. And  a classic wingman setup to force a couple to be alone together.

Lol too much couply stuff happening in this arc.

Later after the crazy terminator drunken stupor, Tsukuyo asked gintoki if she didn’t has this scar, would her life be any different?

At this point I realize the pain endured by her, even though she said she was fine, physically and mentally, she actually struggling with the realization that all her past was something different than she perceived to be, that rather than genuine student master relationship, its an elaborate plan by her master to kill himself.

Its like realizing that we are adopted after all this time living in a loving family. From the surface it might not changed anything because its all in the past, But it changed everything within. It changed the foundation  of what we stood upon all these time.

Gintoki then assured her that her life is one that she choose, No one make her choose that. wether it’s  driven by a psychotic manipulation or a trust in a teacher who wanted make her strong. The life is still hers to behold and cherish

Gintoki further assured that her face Is not ugly, Its pretty face carrying clean soul. Or something to that effect (since translation vary)

As you see “Soul” is the overarching concept on Gintama. Its like “Adventure” on One piece and “Hard Work” On Naruto. It’s the Idea that the shounen protagonist holds dear.  

Shoyo first teaching to Gintoki was  how to protect his soul. In the war Gintoki choose to kill Shoyo to save his master’s soul. Means he choose Shoyo over his friends and himself. In effect, one of the friend’s soul was corrupted. While Gintoki turned himself into a vessel  whose purpose was merely to protect people he deemed fit and procasinating on his own growth.

Gintoki speak about Tsukuyo’s soul in her face is another testament of how deep their trust and bond has formed. 

Even though Gintoki has innate ability to peek into the human character, its not his fashion to directly address it. He usually find a roundabout way to make the others understand that they are being understood. But with Tsukuyo, everything he do about her  is direct.

“Don’t be a stranger, Lean on me, laugh with me and cry with me. I’d be there, cry and laugh with you ” Said Gintoki to tsukuyo.

 The Gintoki who often avoid emotional baggage from a stranger.

In conclusion, Red Spider Arc is such an awesome arc. The vibe is cool, the soundtrack is awesome and its has an intense emotionally charged action.

It is also the breeding ground for gintsu shipper, wich probably gonna make some part of fandom upset. But it is what it is and we can just enjoy or choose not to.

[tiny-little-bird]

Jonsa isn't happening. The show wouldn't waste time on creating a relationship between Jon and Daenerys only to forget about it in season 8. There is only 6 episodes left. Not enough time for anything. JONSA ISN'T HAPPENING. I'm even a fan of the ship but I know it's not happening in the show (or the books)

The show wouldn’t have wasted time on creating a relationship FULL of romantic tropes and parallels between Jon/Sansa and Ned/Cat, Jaimie/Brienne, Gilly/Sam, Robb/Talisa, and even Cercei/Jaimie, only to forget about it in Season 8 🙃

They would not have wasted screentime on creating a relationship, between Jon and Sansa, where they work as a team, where they take back their home TOGETHER, where Sansa is the mind and Jon is the sword, where they complement each other, where Jon starts acknowledging her intelligence, and actually begins listening to her, where they deeply bond and form a strong relationship based on trust, openness, partnership, companionship, communication, love and support, only to forget about it in Season 8 🙃

Jon is as closed as a pearl shell with Dandelion, he hasn’t told her A SINGLE thing about himself. Idk abt you, but I’m 1000% sure Jon isn’t in love with her, and 1000% sure that Dany is in love with the idea of him, and that’s it. 

Like for crying out loud, she doesn’t know anything about him! He hasn’t shared not even a small piece of personal information with her. THAT is HOW you bond with a person, the bonding has happened on her part only, only she, kept sharing personal stuff with him, it has been one sided since day 1. Which, has literally given Jon access to HER weaknesses and soft spots.

All she knows about him, is that he’s honorable, brave, a good commander/fighter, that the people love him and admire him, thus they chose him to be their King, to lead them, and that he took a knife to the heart, died for his people, and then came back to life. 

I repeat, she’s in love with the idea of him, because, she thinks, she sees herself in him, because she thinks he’s as magical as her lol Only, they could not be more different from one another. They have different goals, different ways of approaching certain situations, one would die to protect those he loves, for the greater good, the other has seen the army of the dead, 100.000+ of them, and yet still hesitates to help, because she is too self absorbed and obsessed with power and ruling. But she doesn’t know just how different they are, she doesn’t know what and how he really thinks, because she knows/because he hasn’t shared NOTHING personal about him/himself. I mean look at it this way, boasts around all these titles, “the unburnt”, while jon calls himself The King In The North and that’s pretty much it, we don’t see him calling himself, “the resurrected”, or “the undead”, idk, they ARE opposite of each other. 

Dandelion is entitled, tyrannical, pyromanic, narcissistic, power hungry, unpredictable, impulsive, doesn’t know how to rule, has no respect for other cultures and their traditions, doesn’t care about “the people”, she likes to say that she does, I think part of her/her ego believes that she does, but she doesn’t, at all, it’s all about her image, how she wants to be perceived, it’s all a facade, deep down she’s not like that at all. She wants people falling at her feet in adoration, that’s her narcissistic side, she has a golden child too (Drogon), also part of being a narcissist, she like to be in the center of the attention, she likes power. Shecan sometimes display mercy and goodness, but only if it serves to preserve her image, and even then, her impulsiveness can get in the way of her “I am a good person, I care for the people” idea of herself and murder in cold blood (Randyll and Dickon)

Jon is none of those things, idk how some of you

He hasn’t told her anything about Sansa, about Bran and Arya, as if they don’t exist, he doesn’t give any info away to her about himself about his family, because he’s weary of her, and fears/he thinks she might find his weakness, or the Starks’ weakness, and use them against him, his family and his people, he can’t afford something like that. He does not trust her, and love, cannot exist without trust. Just look at how quickly he opened up to Gendry, he smiled, and laughed, and joked with him, from second 1 lmao THAT is how our Jon is, and not this “weary, always calculating and watching what he says” version we’ve seen with Dandelion.

I honestly don’t know where y'all Jondelion fans see love between them, but you do you, whatever floats your boat, I guess 😅😅

Their bond is supposedly based on what? Oh yes, talking about the Night King, and about the Wights, oh and yes, talking about the Night King, and of course the Night King too, also the White Walkers, oh and I almost forgot, The Night King as well, you lost two brothers too *crickets*, The army of the dead, The Night King, you took a knife to the heart *doesn’t open up about it, denies it (but he did tell Sansa all about it and more)*, the Night King, they’re going to come see you for WHAT you are (not WHOM, but WHAT, that s*it sounds ominous af), The Army ofthe dead, and the The Night King, we’re all gonna die if you don’t help, the Night King, the Wights. Like seriously, what even lmao

WHERE is the bonding? Just, WHERE?

Jon looks at Sansa in a way he’s never looked at Dany, he looses himself in her eyes, more times than we can count, and Sansa was fully clothed the whole time, just sayin’ 🤗 Sansa “can TWIST him, like no one else”. We’ve never seen Jon look at Dany tenderly, smiling tenderly and genuinely at her, we never saw him, sighing at her, while he lingered longingly on her eyes, he never longingly stared at her lips, not even in the boatbang scene lol The lip staring, seems like something Kit does, a lot, when he’s around a love interest in movies etc. it’s kind of his signature move. I mean he did it with Sansa/Sophie, why not doit with Dany/Emilia too? If he’s so in love with her? hm?

Care to explain the need of this VERY “platonic” scene, with VERY “platonic” looks and lip staring contests? 🙃

The above scene was intense AF. You can try and fight me on this. I agree brothers might give their sisters a foreheard kisses, I get it, okay, but that forehead kiss is usually followed by a sweet, tender smile, a pat on the back or a pat on the head even, idk, but in no universe brothers stare with that type of intensity in their sister’s eyes after a forehead kiss, okay? 

If y'all brothers do that, they’re broken, and need repairing asap lol Jokes aside, I’d be worried and creeped tf out, if my brother kissed me like that, and then leaned in a little, stared deeply, intensively, and seriously into my eyes, and THEN stared at my LIPS!!! Oh hell no 🤢😷😖😖

There should’ve been a smile from the two of them, if they meant to pass this forehead kiss as platonic, the smiles would’ve added a familial feel to the kiss. Instead, Jon is all serious and has intense heart eyes for her, in the first gif, he LEANS IN towards her, after ending the kiss (for a second there, many people thought he was gonna kiss her. I watched that episode, with two male friends, whom I should add, both have sisters, and let me tell you, they were confused af by this kiss). 

Sansa was just as bloody confused as my friends (lol), by what Jon kissing her made her feel, you can literally see it on her face (3rd GIF), when Jon ends the kiss, she had to legit take a moment to recollect herself and, then, she looked at his lips for a moment, and then straight up in his eyes, no smile from her either, instead, she looked at him with a rather, vulnerable, confused look.

Care to explain these very “platonic” looks and strong “platonic” moments between them too?

Have y'all see Jon laugh or smile with Dandelion, like at all? Cause I sure didn’t.

And this very “platonic” arm grab and spin around, which is LITERALLY taken out of the “How to show Two Charachters are in Love, for Dummies” book? Care to explain this one too? 

D&D have used said book, A LOT, for Jon and Sansa. I mean come on! He looks at her, then at her hand, and then back up, which she kept there on his arm, she didn’t let go of him, when he spun around. So why, why have these scenes, if they mean nothing, they’ve had so many romantic tropes in their scenes, that at this point is RIDICULOUS lol 😆😆

Jaimie and Tyrion are legit going to be like,

when they watch them interact “platonically” in season 8 lol 🙈😂😂

Not to mention that, Jon and Sansa have had more scenes, and more screentime together, than Jondelion. lol

So don’t come here telling me, “they won’t have time for Jonsa to happen in 6 episodes”, because Jondelion boatbanged in roughly 4 episodes, with no bloody build up too lmao Jonsa already has a more than SOLID foundation, they don’t need more buildup, cause they were already built up in season 6 and 7. 🤗

After the secret is out, watch Sansa propose the match herself, it’s the most logical of things, she knows it’ll strengthen the North, and will secure her place at Winterfell, Littlefinger unknowingly planted the seed in her head, when he talked about a marriage alliance between Dandelion and Jon. By marrying him, she would never have to leave her home, ever again, she won’t ever have to marry some stranger, she’d marry someone she loves and whom she knows loves her back, someone she knows will NEVER hurt/harm her in any way, someone who has been nothing but, kind, gentle, loving towards her, and whom she knows respects her and appreciates her. 

And Jon, he would finally become a Stark. I 100% see Jon taking the Stark name through Sansa, thus finally becoming a Stark, something he’s always wanted. He’d have a strong, intelligent, kind and beautiful woman by his side, he’d finally have the family he’s always dreamed of. Once The secret about Jon comes out, not even a marriange alliance between Jon and Dandelion will make sense, they’d be gaining nothing from it lol The north would hate them and oppose them both, and they would NOT be uniting the South with the North like so many Jondelion fans say. A Jonsa marriage is inevitable in S8.

Jondelion was rushed af, and yet you come in my askbox saying that there’s not enough time for Jonsa to happen? lol When they had plenty of scenes togeter in 9 episides, and even after they parted, they kept popping up in each other’s conversations? They have a strong bond based on trust and love. They are open with each other, Sansa yells at him, he yells at her, they fight, they make up, they talk it out, just like a real married couple 😆. Jon gives Sansa a sense of security, he’s made her feel cared for, and safe, after so many years of feeling anything, but that, and she’s returned that love a thousandfold, she would do anything in her power to keep him safe, to make sure he doesn’t end up like Robb and Ned, you know, dead and without a head, and as I’ve said, he’d die for her, he went on this “suicude mission” to Dragonstone, for her, so he’d have a better chance at defeating the NK, and therefore at keeping her safe. He did it for the realm too, yes, but Sansa was the MAIN reason, Sansa is what drove all his actions, ever since they reunited, she is his 1st priority (“I’ll protect you, I promise”), for going to Dragonstone.

They can easily set things in motion for Jonsa in 3 episodes, that’s all it’s needed, they’re already very close, they’ve been through a lot together, they’ve had plenty of screentime together, they’ve already pretty much used all the romantic tropes, that are used to built up a romance between two characters, all that is needed now, is for the secret to be out. That, will be the cataclysm that will set everything in motion. Jon will find out first, in the first episode, and we’ll see him behave even more weirdly/ambiguously towards Sansa after finding out, there’ll be even more tention between them, especially coming from him. Y'all will see. 

So yeah, please don’t use the “'There’s not enough time” excuse/argument ever again, because it’s pretty pathetic, considering how fast they made Jondelion bang, with no build up, no foundation, no nothing. 

And if you can’t see how obvious Jonsa is, and how bland, rushed and built on nothing Jondelion is, I must say, you’re lying, you’re not a Jonsa shipper, but clearly a Jondelion one.

*thinks to herself - how do I always end up writing essays when I reply to asks?* 😅😅🙈🤣🤣

[multiplefandomfics]

Grimes sisters chapter 3

So as promised here comes chapter 3.

warnings: post charachter death, angst, blood,

Fabienne POV

It had only been a few minutes ago when we had helped to receive Loris baby by c-section and she had died. The shock was still evident in all of our faces and we could also still hear the ringing of the shot out of Carl’s gun. He just stepped out of the cell without any kind of facial expression. Unreadable. Nobody could have known in that moment how he must have felt. Maggie just took him in her arms and pressed him to her heart. Suddenly the thought of Rick shot through my head. Damn it, how were we supposed to tell him. One time he was not here and then something like that happened. I feared he would have had a complete melt down after hearing those terrible news.

About an hour later the door to the hallway the guys went through only hours ago opened again and I immediately saw Daryl and Rick… wait… where was Shane?

They put the boxes and bags down with the goods they found. They looked pleased.

It broke my heart that we had to tell him about Loris demise. When Rick looked into our faces he knew something was up. The smile on his face disappeared.

The silence was broken by Carl coming around a corner with his sleeping sister in his arms. My little niece. She was so beautiful.  “Rick… I’m so sorry. Lori didn’t make it.” Maggie swallowed hard putting her hand on is arm. “We tried everything we could. She lost so much blood.” she added. Rick didn’t let us finish and stormed into the cell where Loris lifeless body was covered up with a sheet on her bed. “The baby was laying the wrong way around and we had to do a c-section.” Maggie explained. But I was sure he wasn’t listening to us in that moment at all.  Rick broke down next to her bed crying and we all felt with him. She was my sister in law and she was a good wife and mother to Carl. There would be no day we wouldn’t be feeling that loss. He took the bed-sheet off of her face and kept on crying. We all stepped out to give him the time and privacy in that moment to realize what had happened.

“Daryl, where is Shane?” I confronted him. “We had to leave him in a small room. He hurt his foot and wasn’t able to walk all the way back. He wanted to wait until….” But I was not gonna let him finish that sentence. They just left him with all those damn walkers out there. “What the hell?! Are you kidding me?! You can’t just leave him there!!” I yelled at Daryl angrily. I got back up to my cell to grab my knife. “Whatcha’ doin’? He said he’d follow us as soon ‘s he can”  Daryl grumbled seriously. “You just left him out there!!! That is not fair!!” I almost screamed at him with angry tears in my eyes. I tried to wiggle myself past Daryl who blocked my way. “If you go I go!” my sister claimed suddenly. Daryl rolled his eyes but didn’t move a muscle to let us through so we pulled back for now. He couldn’t stand there forever. When he grabbed a bite or just got bored that would have been our chance to sneak out and help Shane.

We observed our way out until the coast was clear and then made a run for the door. “You don’t have to come, ya know?!” I whispered to my sister. But I was actually very relieved to have her having my back. We had no idea where to turn. It was an endless confusing labyrinth of hallways. We hoped that our instinct would lead the way to Shane. Suddenly we heard footsteps behind us. We turned around knifes in hand. Ready to attack. Luckily it was only Carl. “what are you doing here Carl?” “Did you follow us?” “You could have been hurt!” we threw at him. If Rick found out he was gonna kill us. “I wanna help find Shane.” he said. They had always been close. Shane had been Ricks partner in who knows how long. He was Carl’s godfather. It was Shane who had taught Carl how to aim and shoot a gun back at Hershels farm.

But wasn’t is enough already to look out for ourselves? Now we had to have an eye on the boy as well. Great. If we went back then we could have been caught and forced to stay back. It was no option to send Carl back on his own. Definitely too dangerous.

We looked through every damn door but no sight of Shane. Suddenly we heard biters close behind us. That was the last straw. That was the first time I doubted our mission. If there had been too many we would have had a problem. I looked left and right but Alex had already decided to go right. She was better in making rational decisions under pressure than I was. As we rounded the corner we came face to face with a few of the dead bastards. Shit! Next to us there was a door almost hidden by its color in the wall. I gripped the handle but it didn’t budge an inch. In that moment I started to panic. We weren’t gonna make it out of that situation alive, I thought. My mind raced a thousand miles per minute and I just wished to see Shane’s face just once more in my life. Little did I know that my wish should have been granted shortly. When the door swung open after numerous pulls from our side we stumbled into the dark and shut the door behind us rapidly to be cut off from those dead fuckers. Completely out of breath from the almost panic attack my eyes had adjusted to the light and I saw Shane sitting on the floor looking at us in disbelief. When that look turned into one of anger as if he wanted to lecture us I stumbled out: “We… ehm I hear that… ehm they left you out here and I just had to find you. Carl then followed us because he was worried too.”  He looked real angry but the worry was also evident in his eyes. Still he decided to give us a talk “I told them to leave me behind and not come looking for me either. I was supposed to catch up later. Somehow I would have managed.” he gritted out through his teeth. That was the side of him that I didn’t like all that much. The side the others always warned me of. “I was just worried.” I tried to explain. It wasn’t so much what he’d said but how he did it. It hurt my feelings a lot. In that moment I just wanted to start crying but the walkers were still out there and he did not deserve to make me cry. Or at least to know he did. But he seemed to have noticed that I tried to hold back tear because suddenly his demeanor changed. “If something happened to you I would have never forgiven myself.” he mumbled lowly and slowly pushed himself up against the wall. Wonderful. Now we had to wait in awkward silence till the walkers had moved past us. Then we could have snuck out and back to base. Oh man we could await a lecture from Rick surely. I could not wait!

Rick POV

I was sitting next to Lori for I don’t even k now how long. Could have been minutes or hours. But it didn’t matter. I loved her and kissed her and a minute later she was dead. The mother of my children. My daughter would never know her mother and I wasn’t sure if I could raise her and Carl on my own. I stroked her cheek once more and pulled the sheet back over her. Then I breath in deeply after I stepped out of the cell. Daryl stood in front of me with my newborn daughter in his arms. She was sleeping. Daryl seemed to be good with her. He was a real friend and I was so thankful to have him. “Hey sweetheart.” he whispered when he noticed her eyes staring a little unfocused at him. She still had to learn that. Daryl seemed so enthralled by her it was almost magical. I had never seen him like that with anyone. He would make a good dad I smiled to myself.  

Suddenly I noticed that I couldn’t find my sisters or my son for that matter. I took my girl out of Daryl’s arms. I look deeply into her beautiful little eyes. “Do you know where Alex, Fabi and Carl are?” I asked Daryl. “Well, Fabi threw a tantrum when she foun’ out we left Shane on the run and Alex backed her up. The last time I saw Carl was outside some time ago when I took the baby from him.” After that statement I decided to go outside to look for him.

Strangely I didn’t find him anywhere and nobody knew anything. They couldn’t have been dumb enough to build a search party and try to find Shane. That would have been a suicide mission.

Carol, Beth and Hershel step close to me to express their condolences and have a look at my daughter. We really needed to come up with a name I even heard Daryl call her “little asskicker” and that couldn’t stay that way. Hershel apologized deeply again and again because he wasn’t there when Lori died. I thought that even he couldn’t have prevented her death. We just didn’t have the medical stuff to do such an operation. I tried to fight against my tears but failed and let a few drops slip at some point. I glance at my daughter and she makes me smile again. I could never give her the blame for Loris death. How could anyone? I turned to walk back inside. After my talk with Hershel I had given the baby back into Beth’s care because I finally wanted to know where the rest of my family was and bring Lori outside together with Daryl to soon have a proper burial. She deserved that. I thought back to Carl and how he had to shoot his own mother to keep her from turning into one of those zombies. No little boy should have to do something like this. He is so very strong. As I was on my way to the door where we went through that morning it suddenly swung open and revealed Carl and behind him my sisters who were supporting Shane to walk. At first I was a little baffled that they had really managed that on their own but I couldn’t have shown that. Even if I was proud of them they needed to know going without my permission was wrong. I was the boss here and even my sometimes roguish sisters needed to have respect. As my eyes fell on Shane he just shook his shoulders and said:”Don’t look at me. I already told them this was a bad idea.” and stumbled to his cell to prop up his leg. “Are you nuts?  You could have gotten yourselves killed! Shane wanted to stay behind! He was save.” I yelled at them. “Fabi we need to talk!” I look serious at her. I knew this had to have been her idea. She was the one with the crush on Shane.

“The hell we need!” she hissed back and stormed outside. “Women” Shane shook his head Alex jumped on that train immediately:”She went out there and risked her life because of you dumbass.” “Calm down people that doesn’t help anyone.” I tried to defuse the situation. That was something we definitely couldn’t use then.

Maggie’s POV

After everything went down I had made my way over to Glenn who was currently standing guard on the watchtower. I had to get away from it all for now. I was concerned that they all hated me after what happened with Lori. It was my fault after all. I let her bleed out. I couldn’t find my dad so it was my duty to save her and I couldn’t. When Glenn looked at me he knew that something went terribly wrong and I started to cry. He took me in his arms and just stayed silent. He knew I needed that. “Lori died. I couldn’t save her. We got the baby by c-section and she just bled out.” As if the walkers weren’t enough already. “You did everything you could.” Glenn comforted me. I tried to get my mind off of things and stayed with Glenn during his shift. Up here overcame me a feeling of security but we still had to keep and eye out. I was still curious why there were no other survivors or groups who found the prison before us. I thought that maybe the prison seemed to be too crowded with walkers before we came. No small group could have handled that. And to find and keep a big group alive was becoming harder and harder each day. Be it killed by walkers or starvation and exhaustion. Didn’t matter we had found our personal little sanctuary.

“Well it seems that Alex and Fabi have vanished this afternoon to find Shane. Fabienne was really shocked to hear that they left him behind.” I changed the topic. “On their own?” Glenn asked baffled. I nodded. Sure they knew how to handle themselves but it still was a damn dumb idea.

Alex POV

Who did he think he was?? Fabienne and I did so much to save him. Risked our own lives and he couldn’t even mutter a “thanks, nice of you to help me”?? Fabi was completely wrecked. She really liked  him and that’s how he thanked her. Bravo! We knew when we stepped through that door that Rick would be major pissed at us. And we still did it. For Shane. And of course I had to go with her. She would have gone alone anyways so better with my help than without.

I was just on my way outside when Daryl stepped in my way “give her some space to think first.” he suggested and pushed the baby in my arms. “ baby looks good on you.” he winked at me and nudged my side slightly. “So I’m gonna go huntin’ sweethearts.” he rasped in that handsome southern drawl of his, smiled at us and left. I had never really seen him smile. He wasn’t the person for a lot of feelings and emotions. I really liked Daryl even if he didn’t think I was tough enough for this world and had to be protected 24/7. he always had everyone’s backs. He was a special kind of guy. Daryl was the kinda guy who intrigued me even before all this started. The notorious badboy with a motorcycle who gets himself into trouble all the time but has a real soft spot for the ones that mean something to him. Plus he is good with kids, what woman wouldn’t want a man like that?

The infant was still sleeping in my arms. She remembered me a lot of Carl when he was that small. The same nose and high cheekbones. I decided to take her with me and sat down on my bed. I cradled her against my chest and leaned against he gray stone wall. So much had gone down over the last days.

When the Virus broke out about a year ago everything went haywire. We had to leave our homes and fortunately we were with Lori and Carl when it happened because we swapped shifts at Rick’s bed at the hospital. Shane got us out of town and to the camp. Without him we probably would have been toast months ago. Our first plan to go to a military basis was destroyed when we became notice that it no longer existed. There had been no way to get through there anyways. It was a fight for life and death from the very beginning. We could call ourselves lucky when we found Hershel and his families farm. But that luck only stayed for so long. When we were overrun there and could barely flee I thought we’d never find a suitable and safe home again but here we were. I never thought I’d want to break into a prison in my life. I thought of the newest member of our group in my arms and what life she was gonna get to know and live in. I made me incredibly sad to know that she would only know running and hiding and fighting monsters. No security no real life without always having to look over your shoulder. While I was so in thoughts I didn’t even hear Rick coming in “Hey you two.” he greeted us. “Hey you alright?” I asked him. What kind of a dumb question is that to a man who just lost his wife in childbirth?? I mentally palmed myself. After he took his girl out of my arms I could see that he seemingly found his peace in her. “The burial is tomorrow.” he added shortly. I just nodded. I wanted to notify everyone. They would all have been encouraged to come.

“I saw some nice flowers outside maybe we can...” Carol who had just arrived behind Rick suggested. He smiled to her lovingly in thanks. I took Carols hint and went outside to find someof those flowers with her. On the yard I noticed Fabienne laying in the grass enjoying the afternoon sun. She seemed lost in thought. Probably still thinking about Shane and his shenanigans earlier. “Look Alex, those are nice don’t you think?” Carol asks me for my opinion. Indeed they were wonderful and I smiled at her in agreement. I excused myself for a second and waltzed over to my sister. “Hey.” I greeted her. She opened her eyes and looked at me but didn’t say a word. “You know that Shane can be an ass sometimes. Don’t take it to seriously. You know it’s not his intention to hurt you.” Was I really protecting Shane?? Hmm I would have done everything to see my sister smile again. “I know but I just wanted to help him and he yells at me like that. Would a thank you have been too much? It’s unfair. I am not a child. I am 26 years old Alex.” She started to justify herself. She was definitely right.