#it basically triggers the entire goddamn fandom that IS aware of this bullshit and i Get That Now
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
...i have learned more about the batman canon/dc universe against my will and i think i get it now
i think i get why everyone is angry
because right now?
right now i'm furious
#congrats whoever has been running dc because now i HATE batman and its your fault#motherfucker is ON. MY. SHITLIST.#right at the TOP#just below the joker and just above The Bat Who Laughs because at least that second motherfucker HAD AN EXCUSE#i want to kill the bat i want to kill the bat i want to KILL the bat#honestly i think the only reason ANY of us like batman anymore is because we don't know/remember this comic bullshit#and none of the movies or games GET THAT FAR because they only have a few hours of run time to do so in#this is like the fictional version of Never Meet Your Heroes/ Favorite Celebrities#this also kind of explains why everyone fucking hates batman beyond#because it STARTS OFF in the aftermath of a lot of this bullshit and so can't handwave it away as easily#it basically triggers the entire goddamn fandom that IS aware of this bullshit and i Get That Now#which makes WHY i liked it so much fucking ironic as shit#i was too traumatized to believe in the wholesome shit#so one that went 'you were a shit tier man and that affected your heroing but i'll be BETTER than YOU' made more sense#fuck you DC my canon now - we're starting from scratch and i'm flushing most of this shit down where it belongs
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
Here’s the thing.
// Generally when drama occurs, I tend to only see the backlash. Like, usually for whatever reason, I’m not following the person who causes whatever ‘issue’? So I’m not able to judge for myself who is right or wrong, or even entirely what happened. And I kind of don’t even want to know, because I’m afraid the issue won’t really be that bad, and the community is just going on another morality crusade, twisting intentions and thinking with their fault-finding brains instead of using rationality and tolerance? Like, community-wide drama really upsets me and makes me feel unsafe and unable to trust. I see everybody just vaguely discoursing ‘problematic’ issues, arguing amongst themselves, claiming to be blocking people, forcing people to think they have to grovel to the rest of the community, and generally just spreading the hysteria with reaction posts.
I’m trying to paint a picture here, of why this is fucking toxic. Because last night, I literally had to drop everything I was doing and put myself to bed before I did anything worse to myself. I hesitate to ever use the word “trigger” because of the misunderstanding between the two definitions--one being specifically PTSD symptoms (with which I am not diagnosed) and the other more broadly meaning “something that produces an extreme involuntary psychological/emotional response”. But experiencing drama/discourse is definitely the latter definition for me. Like, feeling so upset/agitated/isolated that I want to hurt myself or die is pretty extreme.
I have this crippling fear of social isolation (sometimes to the point of paranoia), particularly in the forms of rejection, abandonment, and people suddenly turning everybody against me, framing every disagreement in opinion as a moral issue and condemning me for what I think and how I am (except portrayed in a twisted and negatively biased view) (basically all of toxic tumblr culture). And maybe it is something PTSD-like, because this has actually happened to me a significant number of times, being gaslit the hell out of by unstable or just plain cruel people, feeling so surrounded by hostility that I have the urge to resort to some self-destructive escape. It makes it really hard to trust anybody not to screw me over or prey on my vulnerabilities, and I feel I have to walk on eggshells all the time just to be accepted. So I hope you can imagine what it’s like seeing my dash covered in this kind of bullshit.
True enough, my mental health issues are foremost my own responsibility. But I hope this will help some people understand why contributing to drama and discourse can be so harmful to some of us in the community? I don’t want to have to choose between cutting off my passion for RP/fandom and trying really hard to go back to sleep when I can’t sleep any more because I don’t want to get up to face being alive. I just want to portray my muse in a way that satisfies me, express my perceptions and theories on characters/events, and hopefully bond with others over such.
Consider putting your stance on broadcasting discourse in your blog rules, so people can be aware and refrain from following if they see necessary? (I try to examine others’ rules closely for judgmental language, because I feel it says a lot about a person’s character and potential behavior.) At the very least, I staunchly request that you tag your goddamn discourse, drama, and negativity. Like, even little things? Social justice? “Should’s” and “shouldn’t’s”? Like, I get that you find whatever issue you’re talking about important, but tag it. It can be triggering. Help people be able to participate while still keeping themselves safe and sane.
And maybe consider unfollowing somebody instead of going on a witch hunt or broadcasting your condemnation to the world? I sure as heck unfollowed a boatload of people today and last night, because holy hell I cannot stand morally judgmental language/behavior or people that empower that kind of interaction. But just think about it--how nice would the community be if people were mostly chill and let others do their own thing regardless of their own opinion on it? It’s happened before in other fandoms, and I can tell you it’s pretty lovely, actually. Let’s try it for this one, perhaps.
#cw: suicide mention#cw: self harm#cw: discourse#cw: drama#cw: anxiety#cw: depression#cw: negative#Gonna try to be done with this now that I've gotten it off my chest#But IDK if I can be around much today#I feel bad bc I need to be more active#But at the same time I just feel too isolated and depressed to write for threads that aren't super angst#Sorry if I have contributed needlessly to anybody's stress#Feel free to talk to me RESPECTFULLY about this#But know that it's a fragile issue for me#And I may have to end the conversation at any point to any degree for my own mental health#OOC#personal#info#Would this help to be under a Read More or no?
2 notes
·
View notes