#istg tumblr is against me or smth

[onlyseokmins]

touch • l.s.m.

Pairing: lee seokmin x afab!reader Genres: smut (minors dni!) Warnings: lower-case intended, self-indulgent... maybe some swearing, MUCH SHAME (for me, myself, and i - not any of you or even seokmin himself), jdkskakwkw i genuinely have no words good lord lmk if i should add smth WC: tumblr mobile bby 💀 A/N: it was SUPPOSED to be a 1/4 of how long it ended up but the only warning i have for this is it is fully elv indulgent ofc so take it as you will but i hold 0 responsibility. fyi this is all @duhnova's fault tbh as always for making me think abt this nonstop grrrr 😭😂 OKAY and i'll try and stop writing seok content istg

"no," you scold and bat away one of seokmin's trembling hands that get a little too close to your thigh, "no touching."

he whimpers. full on whimpers, tears threatening to spill out from his half-closed eyes. it's a little unfair if he thinks about it. that is - if he can even properly form a thought in his fucked-out, clouded state of mind.

there's something feral that engulfs your entire being. it's lit like a spark from the way his cheeks are flushed, perspiration lining where messy bangs flop against the pillows. the rest of his hair frazzled adorably after tossing and turning futilely while you'd marked up his neck with little bites and kisses. long fingers grip and twist at the bedsheets, veins protruding and forearm muscles rippling at his desperation.

yet seokmin listens and behaves. even as his biceps twitch and his chest stutters at each labored breath he inhales. hips remaining still as he can because of your earlier command, yet a tiny spasm jerks through them at such strained efforts. but he still obeys.

it's so unfair how pretty he is. the pants and whines and moans escaping his mouth only add more to the salvitating experience.

but it's awfully unfair how he can't touch YOU. oh, how he wants to. so bad. his mind spins. you're everywhere. plush thighs squeeze around his waist, ass cheeks resting on top of his shaking thighs, fingernails running across his abs and up to tweak at his nipples before palms press against his shoulders just to lift yourself up ever so slightly.

"oh," and "ohhh," he gasps helplessly. both out loud and as the singular ringing thought bouncing inside the emptiness of his poor brain.

"what's wrong, baby?"

you dirty little vixen.

"wanna... touch.. wanna touch you... so bad."

"but you are touching me, my sweet."

indeed. your warm, wet, sweet, tight pussy is enveloping his cock inside its velvety walls. clenching around him every so often as his thickness jolts and twitches whenever you shift. the tip brushes just right against the bundle of nerves he's memorized to find, though this time it's of your own doing. you continue to tease him. which is almost so mean and cruel as you coo at him with an ego-induced smirk.

"not the s-same."

he's complaining but you actually feel so good. delightful. oh, how he wants to touch you so bad himself. hands confusingly jealous of his cock that gets to be inside and experience exhilarating contact with your lovely body. exactly where he wants it, where it should be, and thankfully it's being taken care of. but he still longs to feel your skin buried beneath his fingertips.

seokmin bites down on his lip. your gaze lazily flickers to the action, watching as his eyebrows furrow and unfurrow. thrillingly, they match in time with the pulsating of your cunt around him as he tries to hold off his impending release.

how delicious he is.

sweat droplets trickle down the length of his flexed and tense arms, dripping onto the sheets. almost worried he'll rip them and fearing an injury to his pretty lips, you lean down. supple breasts sliding against the hard planes of his upper body. teething at the release of his lower lip that juts out in a pout before swiping your tongue across it.

he welcomes your mouth against his, a messy but loving kiss. full of spit and gnashing of teeth. and the only reason you pull away is to simply whisper in his ear, "go ahead and touch, my good boy."

and with a relieved, guttural groan - seokmin does. breathlessly thanking you. his appreciative actions are fast and sloppy. you'd laugh at how similar he is to a kid in a candy store who's allowed to pick whatever they want. but the following series of events steal away any playful humor and you are left with only shock and awe.

because as soon as seokmin feels the sensation of your soft, sweaty skin he knows so well - a reverent yet feeble graze against the juncture of your hips that he normally holds when you're riding him - he's gone. barely even touching you like he so wanted, the lightest brush of your skin sets him off and he's throbbing achingly inside of you. absolutely shredding the slipping leash on his collared control. painting your walls white and you watch slack-jawed as he convulses beneath you with a deep moan and subsequently, heaving a ginormous sob.

and you have no choice but to milk him for all he's worth, a couple of quick bounces while his release still dribbles out of his cock and what doesn't stay inside of your cunt soils the ruined bedsheets. your walls flutter around him and he's whimpering again - this time at the oversensitivity. but the sound is pathetic enough to trigger your climax. praises fall from your mouth even though he came without permission. but that doesn't matter to you because everything is perfect about him. he knows this by your own loving death grip over one of his large hands that dig into your sides.

"i love you," he can't help but murmur dazedly and you slump against him, nibbling gently on his collarbone as you come down from your high.

"i love you more."

you whisper sweet nothings to one another while cuddling, little kisses exchanged between soft words because he refuses to let you go. his hands innocently run up and down the curves of your body, clingy as ever when he's denied the privilege to touch you during sex. and you love it. taking full advantage of his neediness whenever you can. and of course, he lets you whenever you want because he's your very own sweet beloved, good boy.

[ayahtiicoree]

literally me venting ab my parents bc tumblr is my emotional support animal feel free to ignore

oh and TW, abuse su1cide, SH

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ok no but genuinely I acc don’t get why my parents, mostly my dad, hate me sm. they genuinely just don’t fucking like me and I lowk just don’t gaf anymore?? And why is my dad so bipolar bro bc one sec he’s literally beat me with his charger WIRE💜 (I’m being deadass btw) and the next second he’s bringing me chocolates and asking for my forgiveness?? Ho stfu

lowk feel like my mum doesn’t give a shit ab me either bc why is it that when she first found out I SH she literally shrugged it off and the second time when she found out I relapsed she told me to not do that shit again and threatened to have me wheeled off to a psych ward?? Hi hello good evening to you too?? What happened to familial love wtf?

and idk but I literally always get in trouble for stuff and my brothers never do. Like for example, the other day my brother chewed up a fruit bar and spat it out into my drink when I wasn’t looking and when I told my mum she said she didn’t care and she was too tired to deal with it, so I went and poured out my drink obviously?? But my sink has a filter so it collected all the chewed up shit in my drink so I took the filter out of my sink and poured the chewed up shit into my brothers literal tap water, and he went and told me off and then I got the Sri Lankan beaten out of me 😟😟

and the other day my brother literally poured water all over me for no fucking reason, and I was washing the dishes so I splashed water at him, and obv he snitched on me and I literally got in sm trouble?? My mum could quite literally see water dripping from my hair and clothes but he never gets into trouble.

whenever I retaliate against my brothers, why to do they always get away with it, but I don’t?? And my parents say it’s bc I’m more mature than him as if he isn’t only a year younger than me. Like when my parents were out so my brother decided to make some oven pizza and he asked me how to do it. And I didn’t open it for him bc, and ISTG, I’ve showed him how to do it a multitude of times, so I told him to figure it out. (All he had to do was look at the back of the box to see how long the cook for and what temperature, turn on the oven and then set the temperature and timer, and my oven is REALLY simple). But instead he called my mum and told her I was being rude bc I wouldn’t help him, and when my dad got home he called me a nasty bitch bc ‘just because I know doesn’t mean he should know’. Like what 😭😭 stfu bc he literally knows how to do it, IVE been showing him since he was 10 years old, and your son is big big 18years old??

ISTG whenever I go to my mum bc my brothers being a nasty piece of shit, she literally gets angry at ME and says that I’m disturbing her peace, to just ignore it because she doesn’t wanna deal with it because she’s tired, but if I splash a little water at him I literally get beat 😭 excuse me??

and then they ask me why I’m like this and why I SH?? Like when my mum found out I relapsed back in November last year she said it was bc of the internet and bc I was doing it for attention. Like pls what 😭😭 byee bc you and my dad are literally the reason I’ve tried to kms several times, istg my ONLINE friends and my platonic wife @/tsurihana are lowk the only reasons I’m still on this planet bye like are you fucking dumb or smth??

And this morning I couldn’t find my headphones and I was lowk freaking out bc my headphones are basically like my life support and my mum got so pressed about it like HOE💜💜 I would much rather listen to The Neighbourhood and Artic Monkeys than have to listen to you and my dad scream at each other 😍😍 hoes js be dumb there’s no fixing her

Anyways that’s basically it, if you acc read this then thank uu for listening to me rant!! Ily!!

Oh and for some context, I live with my younger brothers, the older one is 18 and the youngest one is 14. And I have 2 half sisters (on my dads side) who don’t live with us

[khlorismakara]

sunmork having sexual tension

[hyungkyun]

I’M P SURE THE ONE WITH THE SOCKS OVER THE PANTS WAS JOOHEON. I remember because my mom said that was a crime against good taste……. like, excuse me??? it’s called fashion, look it up :// JH INVENTED HATS TBH. i’d steal half of his hats. some of them are downright ridiculous (like that thing he wore @ the MAMA stage…. why did he wear a bear…..) but i’d try all of them. that’s my life goal now –santa dude 🎅

Anonymous said:this was the other ask tumblr ate!! i wanted to know ur thoughts on this: mxfansignnotes (.) tumblr (.) com/post/168510146310 huehuehue. also, you get a soft ask today: describe ur ideal date with ck :-) have fun~~~ –mbb secret santa

DKSJAH are u santa dude now? lmaomoaoo

oh remember when joo wore hats All. The. Time? wasnt the reason behind it that his parents always made him wear hats when he was a kid so he just felt weird not wearing one dfkgjhsdfkjd please thats……..adorable

he kinda stopped now but still!!!! king of hats truly ://///my fav was the shark one he wore on no.mercy!!! i want that omg

how the HECK can u ask me to describe my ideal date with ck after making me see THAT again :):):):::):):)::hes so cheesy i hate him? like i literally wanna slap him whats up with him and these post-its istg he writes the greasiest shit and then comes up with stuff that ???? ‘ ? ‘ ‘? ?’????? remember when he wrote smth like “i wanna be inside u” like shhUHURT HTH EUFFKC . UPP?????? JE SU EUS….WHAt a weirdo….

anyway i guess i :// gotta do the date thing uh ://///// ure lucky bc im vv soft lately i guess i love him or smth idk ://// so :/ my ideal date is: eating stuff we love for lunch!!! eating a lot and being happy bc food! we! love! together! then were super full?? we had plans for the afternoon but…..were too full so i guess its time to nap……oh no….terrible……….this was actually my plan all along…….i lov nap dates…………when we wake up we should do stuff right? too bad its too cold so we stay inside warm and cuddled up and idk we watch cute puppy videos ://////// icb i wrote this,, can u guess im emo and all i need is to: 1. nap and 2. cuddle? :///////