#istg if you met me irl...

[studentbyday]

whenever i see my tumblr stats, it feels absolutely insane. 🙈

overall in a good way, i guess...

thank you for visiting my corner of the internet 💌

[kaleidoscopiccc]

little things i loved about trinity theatre's production of rtc (because i love this cast more than life and am totally not biased) (Ferris wheel cast btw)

 Feral Ocean (she kept trying to fight literally everyone)

Jane and Constance my darlings

Karnak laughing at his own jokes

Mischa kissing both Noel and Ricky out-of-song just for the hell of it

Noel and Constance friendship

"Talia" was a woman randomly picked from the audience and they all sung and danced around her

Noel doing basically the whole show in heels

The extra cats in SABM

The parts of the script from 2016 (Ricky kept his disability!!!)

Jane giving Noel a hug after Noels Lament (they are so best friend coded istg)

All. Of. Their. Voices

Mischa had a mullet

The extra bits they added

The actors looked exactly what I imagine their respective characters look like in my head (POC Noel, curly haired Ocean, literally everything about Constance)

SPEAKING OF CONSTANCE

OH MY GOD I LOVE HER

IM USUALLY NOT THE BIGGEST CONSTANCE FAN

BUT HOLY SHIT TIFFANY POLITE MADE HER EASILY MY FAVORITE CHARACTER

TRINITY CONSTANCE IS MY WIFE FUCK YOU

Jane making the doll clap after Ocean's speech

Just the doll in general

Ocean coming out with a little sombrero after Karnak mentions the song about affordable Mexican cuisine

Ricky playing the violin in Noel's Lament

Janes movements and eyes

Noel and Mischa cuddling after TNBS

Penny's dog is named Savannah

CONSTANCE SMILED AT ME DURING TBOJD I NEARLY DIED RIGHT THEN AND THERE

Ricky and Jane playing with the accordion and doll to make a rollercoaster after the Savannah scene

"FORNICATION UNDER CONSENT OF THE KINGGG" "no."

ESGAL kazoos

They changed the notes in Sugar Cloud to make it more fit for an altos range and I honestly liked it better than the og

Penny became a roller coaster engineer

Prop cameos in Penny's house

Jawbreaker and Sugar Cloud was surreal irl I will never shut up about how good Constance was

Virgil was just a projected video of a mouse eating cheese it was hilarious

Jane sung TBOJD while spinning on one of those the magicians boards

Constance had 2 party hats during TNBS, one on each space bun, she was adorable

Noel and Mischa started hyping Constance up after she punched Ocean

Noel and Ocean making up at the end

Ocean angrily sweeping the feathers from the boa after Noel's Lament

Noel was so sassy but supportive I love him

Jane disappearing behind the curtain after her entrance and Constance jump scaring her and everyone else when she opens it to see no one there… twice

Jane tying a ribbon around her neck then untying in the beginning and end Dream of Lifes

Ocean looked like that one character from over the garden wall with her party hat in TNBS

Constance crossing herself when Karnak brings up her virginity like Ocean

Ocean stealing the halo from Jane after the erection line

Ocean stretching and doing vocal warmups every time Constance tried to start the improv

THE ACTORS

HOLY HELL THEY WERE SO NICE

I LOVED ALL OF THEM

ESPECIALLY MIA

SHE WAS THE SINGLE COOLEST PERSON I HAVE EVER MET HOLY SHIT

[employee052]

Ik you're probably sick of hearing this but uh

You're like my biggest inspiration and like the coolest most awesome person I've ever met- Online or IRL. I love watching you stream and talking with you while you do them(since its really the only time I feel confident enough to talk to you) I talk about you all the time to my friends and they probably are sick of me at this point.

So its funny to me that I do genuinely want to be your friend but im still too scared to talk to an adult on the internet (even if I already do)

But short and sweet, you're really cool and im so glad I joined the platform and found you and more people that are so nice and kind.

You're awesome dude- never forget that.

hello what if i cried /vvvpos

but in all seriousness YO????? TYSM???? this is so sweet and istg im gonna sob full on rivers from this kasjdhkjsdh

and thats totally fair yo! i totally get that anxiety esp with tumblr dms but my dms here are always open for you whenever u feel comfortable messaging me!

ALSO ALSO tysm for tuning into the streams!!!! i love seeing you and ppl ik here pop into chat im so glad yall like them (even if sometimes im barely there or if im yapping aksjdkajdsh)

tysm for this ask yo. i didnt expect all these sweet asks at all but theyre making my week so much and im sending so much good vibes ur way n to everyone else 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

[moshieee]

Hello it is I, random anon who does not know you and has never interacted with you before, what is your opinion of your mutuals?

Oh hi @bixell-pixell I'll include you even if we're not mutuals I think you're pretty chill all things considered

That's kinda it idk you that well

Anyways

You didn't specify so I'm going to list all my mutuals in the order of oldest to newest on my following page that I remember sorry of I missed anyone and for the @ s

*inhales*

@e-the-village-cryptid (I don't have a tag for e yet but it would probably just be E)

Not only the first person who I became friends with here but also the first one I ever started sharing my stories with, even if we don't talk too much I'm glad Every time we do and I see them on my dash, (they bring some of my favorite posts and when I do send posts sometimes I mix up and send them their own reblogs) I'm so glad we're still friends, thanks for letting me ramble about stuff for 6 hours hehe

@jaqofallgenders (no tag for jaq yet either)

my in person friend and the longest friendship I've ever had with someone, love you 🫶. I'll be more specific on Monday if our ADHD doesn't kick in and make us both forget

@strawberry-seal77 (seal-berry!!!)

Hi hi hi yellows my friend 👋 the person I consider to be the second ever friend I made on here, a lovely person as well and wait waaa and an amazing artist too 👀??? Love you silly goofball and the amazing posts and jokes you have we should chat more often I thinkith.

@rabid-mercenary16 (Rabid jumpscare)

Hey hey hey .... BWAMP! Hope you feel better soon

I probably have the most to say about Rabid but all try to make it a bit shorter. besides being the first artist to do art jokes and include me, with we also became mutuals and interacting around a time when my life started to get a lot better. Even if she's not the only factor in that I definitely associate her with stuff improving, and she did play a big factor in it (I already explained a lot on my Valentine's Day gift to her and the others). Also she's just an awesome person to spend time with and be goofy, amazing sense of humor and I just love being friends with such an awesome person and artist.

@dia-smthidk (Dia fren)

I'm assuming you don't want a bowl of soup

I also said a lot about them in my Valentine's Day gift, but we've become closer friends sense then even if we don't get to chat as much as I'd like to. I relate a lot and am surprised how we have so much in common. Amazing artist and person as well and I wish we could hang out more, idc if they think they're bringing down the mood when/if they bring stuff up about irl, and maybe I won't figure out their timezone but oh well, please take care of yourself gender sibling.

@bunnybunnsowo (BUN BUN BROTHER!!)

little brother 🫶🫶💝💞🫶��👋❤️!!!

(I could have sworn we became mutuals before Dia?)

another person I shared a lot about with the Valentine's Day gift, I love you my little brother! Seriously one of the kindest people I've met and I'm so glad they have bug in his life. Bun deserves the world and they keep sending me opposum images!!! Gona die from cuteness and his kindness one of these days istg

@spookykittyzzz (greaah why don't I have a tag for you???)

A very kind person and artist I don't know too much sense we're not that close yet but love the few chats we have had so far. Hope we get to hang out more even if I'm awful at reaching out to others and saying hi.

@glitchyk (goop buddies)!!

Nooo the parallels

One of the first people who was interested to deep dive into my creations and ask about my stories and worlds They're probably competing with Rabid with how much I have to say about her/silly. Seriously it's incredible how much we have in common and now I get to share and collaborate our sonas stories together it's amazing. And as someone once said "you can yap for hours". I love how creative and clever they are, I just wish they would be kinder to herself. One day I'll make glichy see how awesome she is.

@unfunnyaceartist (Floridian disadvantage) I feel like I should change that

When I say I was shookith when ace asked to be friends I mean I was shookith first person so show up and ask that (the others kinda just happened). Amazing artist and don't believe her lies she is funny. I'm so heckn glad we're friends., love the goofy and silly idc if she's a bit of a simp they've helped me a lot start to understand slang and references I'm supposed to understand shhshsh (such is the curse of how I grew up) we need to make our mafia sonas interact at some point I can already imagine the chaos /silly

@neptunestoast (plushy slime)

Hugs hugs hugs*

Trying my best not to baby talk I swear. amazing person first person to show up and be like "hey I Wana do something for you and your friends". Love their humor and another gender sibling!!! Hugs for ever for as long as they're ok with it. I love their creativity as well and Noodle is so adorable. I just want to pick them up in a hug so much. Kibbity/silly

@ner5y (no tag woops ill figure something out)

What are you doing here??? How are we friends???

I was absolutely confused and startled when they followed me especially since it was during a spoons argument . Amazing artist like holy heck I wish I was allowed to curse on this blog. Their humor also took me by surprise when I got invited to the discord, and even if they doubt how well they're running it I think they're doing amazing. And I love our silly interactions like this one

@vexation-816 (chaotic ADHD buddy!!!)

Why did it take me so long to follow you istg

ADHD ADHD ADHD my buddy oh pal we both got that and it's driving us insane/silly. Love how creative he is and the ideas for his sona and character lore. Also one of the first people who shared a character they added to my nightlight au. This is getting twords the end and I'm tired of whiting so much and am on a timer oh no. But your amazing dude don't ever forget thag

@butlerbugbunny (anxiety bunny buddy)

This is why I didn't respond to the DM yet hshsh

New friend who I feel anxious talking to sometimes but a wonderful kind bunny who I'm also incredibly happy to be friends with. Love his art so much it's amazing (shoot shoot timer is going off) I'm glad he's their for bun and wish them the best I possibly can 🫶.

@lilithloves-you (lillith my be-loathed?) need to change that

Don't you dare bring up grilled cheese

Glitchys friendo who I'm also friends with now. We don't interact too much but I've sent her on missions to go hug glitchy (to help both of them feel better but shhh). I hope we become closer friends in the future.

[ecstarry]

hello !! first of all. arcane js eating my brain. second of all. 12 & 21 for the ask game 🫶

del!! <3

firstly tho, i cannot believe i have not gotten a single yap about arcane smh

12. Talk about a new friend you made this year

this is going to make me so emotional oh my god. i know it says one but damn this year my friendships have done so so many things for me. two of my best friends have been in my life for some years now and while i felt incredibly happy with them, this year i've just been fucking blessed honestly. i got way way closer to some college friends, i see them like 3 times a week and i'm even starting a year long work project with one of them, they have made my life so so much happier.

and now oh god, i joined this fandom in february this year so the friendships i've made this year have been so beautiful and istg make my heart fuller <3

some have been since the beginning like my broriage, ngl atp renn deserves monetary compensation for listening to my drama all year he he some came a tini bit later like my turkish-brazilian-mexican trio, some friends we might not talk as much atm but we are up to date with each other even through insta stories like angel and anna and then during the second half i met even more amazing people like eli, my parents and jesoops and ofc my precious baby who i can't believe how lucky i am to have in my life <3

i know this is long af i know i know but fr this year was so so intense for me with so many changes that i just could not had gone through all of it without my irls and online friends like legit no words

21. What’s something new about your place of residence (room, home, or general location) now vs the start of the year?

i changed the curtains in my room and oh my god it looks so so much better shoutout to my best friend for doing my home renovation

end of the year asks

[whampiire]

why are tally hall and homestuck fans all garbage people like I've met like 2 tolerable ones 😭 tally hall makes good music but it did NOT need a fandom 😭 ppl sending u death threats for not liking a fucking BAND is insane 💀💀💀 reminds me of the time I got sent gore for saying msi was a disgusting band you shouldn't listen to ❤️ (I know seperate the art from the artist or whatever but msi music directly links to there irl activities there's multiple songs about jimmy being a pedo)

msi fans are a different breed istg 🙁 a lot of them are punk posers too, I've noticed

[ratten-man]

no true scotsman nonsense online

Istg the amount of arguments people get into online about whether someones a poser or not is ridiculous shsh

the amount of online teen crusties that accuse others for being posers bc of the most insane reasons is crazyy, Ive had multiple crusties online that have accused me of being a poser...... Even though i listen to the same music as them and have traveled with crusties to watch crust shows multiple times..... Like not a single crustpunk has had a problem with me irl and ive met dozens of crustpunks

One crustie called me a poser because.... I have politics on my jacket..... Hmm

I dont think ppl should get blasted for looking like posers (educating them and encouraging them is how you get less posers) but istg im sometimes so tempted to start poser wars with some of them because they reek of insecurity when people come up with such reasons to call ppl posers. Are they a Poser or are they just a beginner? Are they a poser or do you just not like their jacket?

Youre a poser if you dont understand the base principles of punk and dont care for the music. Thats it. Someone having a meme patch is not reason enough to call then posers, and even if they are, COMMUNITY SUPPORT, RESPECTFULLY TEACH THEM BETTER.

With how prominent no true poser arguments are, every punk has been called a poser lol so the longer youre a punk the more desensitized you become to it but like leave the newbies alone guys shahshsh

[oakthefrog]

My Tribute to Shorts Wars

(Spoilers for all 3 seasons and the finale) (and chat istg I'm trying to keep this 'short' BUT I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS I JUST CAN'T)

I was a fan since day one. It was the first week of summer for me, after one of the worst school years I've ever had (at the time). It instantly became a hyperfixation.

One of my only memories from that summer was watching and rewatching shorts wars, being ecstatic for every video, it gave me a routine to follow and a community to stand behind.

That summer was possibly one of the hardest times of my life so far. Hell, the Dear Danno channel is probably a reason why I'm still here today. Shorts Wars got my through it.

The build-up to season two was probably the lowest point in my life, mentally, at least. The anticipation for a new wave of theorising, content and joy got me through it all.

I remember sitting on the school bus right after my final class would end, and I'd watch the everyone's short for the day on the way home. It was truly a 'you-had-to-be-there' thing for me.

The only reason I have a discord account is so I could join the boss's server, and on there I met my first internet friends, who I've stuck with ever since (if you're reading this guys, thanks for being so nice to me this whole time :]).

And tumblr, oh boy tumblr... I won't sugar coat it, it's been a hell of a ride that's for sure (in a good way, the best way possible). It wasn't that long ago that I was squealing over the moss arc 'final' fight and making my first roleplay blog (Joe Caine). And now I have like 11+ alt blogs, I've met A MUTUAL IRL (you were so cool to meet and talk to if ur reading this :3).

And oh boy this is long as fuck so I'm gonna wrap this up-

Season 3 came at a great time for me, I've made so many friends bc of this, my art's improved, my mental state has improved and this ARG has been my constant through all the shit I've gone through in the last 12 months (ish).

I've laughed, I've screamed, I've cried and I've almost thrown up out of fear, joy and overall sickness. All in the last 2 hours. I bet some quotes from the finale will engrain into my skull, become inside jokes and/or vocal stims and I hope I never forget any of it. The good, the bad and the scary.

From the bottom of my heart,

Thank you Rumble Pack and anyone who's worked on Shorts Wars. I hope you're as proud of what you did as we all are, and I hope YOU GET SOME SLEEP BECAUSE GOOD GOD-

-Oak (aka Alex bc signing this long-ass kinda depressing post off with a silly internet name seems odd-)

[your-mommy-ems]

⭐️ - hi ems!! okay first of all, its very obvious that youre one of my fav mutuals bc like i am irl, i tend to have a small circle to die for and here youre basically a part of that bc ily sm!! so where do i start, ( bro idk how we met istg ) anyways, youre extremely talented, like goddamn if you ever get married or even date i mean your man better be in a chokehold bc his girl can bake ( you made brownies i think idk ) , she can write, she can edit?????? your future man BETTER be grateful or im coming for him. but anyways, youre so so nice, and carinf, and sweet and js like, overall have the best qualities in a good friend yk? so ily ems <3

ok ok so um do you hear that rlly high pitched screaming and sobbing? thats me rn.

omfg nadsies. ily so so so so much. wtf?? this is like the nicest thing anyones ever said to me ever. like its actually incomprehensible how much i love you.

you are like the most wonderful, talented and beautiful, person i've ever met. like seriously you're like one of my favourite people ever. your energy shines so brightly and you've got a gorgeous gorgeous soul. i love you so so so so so so SO much <3333

[mothergold]

happy new years friends and followers! i remember doing one of these when i first joined fanfic tumblr and i’m feeling nostalgic so i thought i’d make one since it’s been awhile and i have some (positive) things to say!!

okay here goes!! putting everything under a readmore to not clog the dash <3

@tighnarly — hi baby. my princess, cupcake, gum drop, bunny baby <3 i’m so happy and grateful to have you as my future wife and i can’t wait for the day we get married. i know i mostly post about my fictional fav (albedo :p) but you’re truly all i want and need 🫶🏻 everytime i write a fanfic i’m thinking of you and me. every word i write is a love letter to you from me. i know i’m not the best with words but i hope one day you’ll be able to see you the way i see you. trust me when i say you are the most beautiful and kind human i have ever met in my life, and i’m gonna personally fight everyone and anyone who hurts you 😗 anywaysss hehe i love you sunshine 💖🫶🏻

@neuvillettes — bestieeeeeee my bestie from the westie 🫶🏻 i’m so glad we met and connected online bc now we legit our roommates and it’s so fun 😭🤚🏻 like i legit dont know how to tell you how much our friendship means to me. ur fr that one person that just GETS me. you’re so kind and funny and fun to be around, but i also love that ur not afraid to be honest with me, especially when i need that tough love approach. i love you oh so much bestie 💖 oh and thank you for the art tablet i literally am still screaming over it hehe.

@suyacho — my beloved bestie 🫶🏻 there is no one i love rambling about my selfship thots about more than you. i love how i can talk to you about anything and everything 🥹🫶🏻 i especially love how patient and supportive you’ve been of me this year, because it meant the entire world to me. i’m so glad we’re besties and i can’t wait for the day i meet you irl 🫶🏻💖mwah ily bestie hehe me, kaeya, and albedo are smoochin u rn 💖 (platonic)

@auphelia — mootie sweet sweet mootie. it always makes me happy seeing you on the dash, and i especially smile whenever i see u in my tags whether it’s a fic or just a regular old post. i get so giddy whenever i talk to u bc u are fr one cool pal!! i’m so glad we’re mooties! and i have to say i can’t wait to see what more you write because you are very talented 💖

@fleur-de-leap — leap!! i know i am very sporadic with my messages but i legit get so happy to interact with you and even more so when i see/read ur art/writing! you’re so fucking talented in so many ways and every day it truly impresses me! when we made the server together that day it made me SO happy and i get so happy seeing i get messages from you 💖 thank you for being my friend through all these years, truly it’s been a blessing.

@shig-a-shig-ah — bestie!!!!! my BESTIEEEE 🥹🫶🏻 i hope u know u mean the entire world to me. i can’t believe we’ve been friends since the beginning of my writing journey, it’s wild! istg ONE DAY BESTIE, ONE DAY we will meet and it will be the best day ever 🥹🫶🏻 ily bestie mwah

@blkladyelle — elle!! my beloved!! it’s so nice whenever i see you on the dash, and i’m always especially happy whenever i get a dm from you! i hope you feel loved and happy this upcoming year and that it holds so much positivity for you. because fuck i need you to have a good year!!! i love you sm and wanted to let you know my dm’s are always open for you 🫶🏻💖

@nc-vb — mootie aka my fellow albedo lover i get so happy whenever i see u interact with me, and i want you to know i’m always rooting for you! you’re writing is so good and honestly you’ve been such a joy to talk to in dm’s, and you’re so easy to talk to. i hope this year good things happen to you, because you truly deserve the world bub 🫶🏻

@4izawas — bestie cas!! i know we just became mutuals but u are legit one of the coolest people on this app! ur writing is fucking god tier and you are legit one of the funniest fuckers i know 😭💖 can’t count the amount of times u’ve made me giggle from something u said 🤭 i’m manifesting that aizawa confesses his love to u this year!!! 💖

if you’re not listed here it’s purely either because i forgot or we didn’t talk too much this year. so, please don’t take it personally if i didn’t include you!! i love all me mooties 🫶🏻💖

[minkieater]

tace omg omg new lore abt my fav boy (kicks legs giddily)

gahdamn I KNEW i had read moirai somewhere but this and joong referring nana as supernatural beings oh wow... this reminds me there are 3 goddesses in three fates, and they also are called triumph of death? or the three times joong met (sort of interacted?)or nana tweaked his brain chemicals in a way, they can be the three sisters, clotho the spinner, lachesis the alotter and altropos the cutter of life thread. MAYBE im reading into the symbolism too much but literature is about each interpretation to its own and reading between the lines (im more worried abt sounding confusing and dumb but MEHHHH i wanna talk abt this so i will) you really ate with the symbolism (im a whore for that istg)

okay them sharing the same universe gives me hope because the last bit showcased immense mental strength of hongjoong despite the regression. and his values are so similar with captain irl i cant help but really really keep this story close to me.

ZORO ZORO ZORO DHEHAKGDJDHDJBR I JUST REMEMBERED JOONGIE BOY HAD HIS EYE ON HIM ALWAYSHDGEHVEBE YOURE SO EVIL WITH THAT i was like searching wikifandom who the hell is noa then gave up.

i think if joongie boy had confronted nana, which would make his walls fall more further than he wanted to. far from his comfort zone to even build it back up, and i can agree with that because sometimes i would just pschewww away from a situation because confronting it just another mental breakdown.

i was eerily content with the ending maybe thats why i never pointed out that they should've just talked about labels and all that jazz. (am i stupid, or am i single tune in to find out).

MY JOONGIE BOY IM SOS SOSKDO PROUD OF HIM ☹️☹️ I SEE MYSELF IN HIM😞😞😞😞💘 THANK YOU TACE FOR WRITING THIS (scoops up melted heart matter and gives it to you) 🫂 city boy!joongie will keep me company for the rest of my adulthood

you’re not reading into the symbolism too much at ALL its all about your take on it and what makes sense to you 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

i’m obsessed with how much you ARE reading into it genuinely this message literally made me want to giggle like a school girl im so happy omg

when i first got into atz mingi immediately pulled my ass under (i am a simple woman i love one man) but hongjoong… i am obsessed with him. my soul sister i see so much of myself in him sometimes, the big sister in me can’t help but read into everything he does and pick apart every part of his personality, i have no outlet except writing to bring all of these scenarios i think up about him into fruition. captain joongie is so layered i adore him i need to sit down and have a conversation with him to unravel each one, my feelings for him pour into each piece i write abt him (ill shut up i can talk about him forever)

i am also still a simple woman with my love for zoro, i love big man 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ he follows me everywhere and i keep him close to me always (so valid for searching for a noa. i couldn’t name him zoro its too OBVIOUS)

i honestly wonder if joongie ever would talk to nana, im unsure if it fits his personality to leave himself so vulnerable, to inevitably admit his feelings through what could be a simple conversation 😔 i was also comfortable with the ending i feel like it made sense but they also work together, they’ll see each other often & there’s no way they just ignore each other in the hallways 😭 at least i hope not tbh joongie might end up walking past her like he did in the lobby IDK

i also see myself in him we are similar and it makes sense that we both feel so many things toward him!!! thank you so much for reading it and loving my boy as much as i do<3 city joongie will live inside me forever

[magixfairyix]

Zia Reacts 02

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RIP to Dignity—I wrote this four years ago so I shall not be held accountable for my past self's actions, I apologize for my crimes, and this is gay as hell but I didn't realize it at the time.

Like, fucking unaware of lesbian-ism me made it obvious through her writing. Yes, just a little torture scene. NOTHING gay about it.

Gonna publish this before I regret it. The irl's are gonna have fun with this one.

Also, takes place after season 6 after Iorda had become a thorn in the Trix's side for the seasons before this. Iorda, my oc, is blackmailed by the Trix. Her family's lives are threatened, and so, she wakes up in a cell after falling unconscious after one of Icy's attacks.

Torture occurs. Icy via knife slashes Iorda across the face, and then they leave.

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Iorda's POV

A while more passed, and it was beginning to dim. I was still in the same spot. I heard the sound of walking outside, soon I saw Darcy outside the cell.

(A/N: *sigh* Lord help me)

I stood up. Then she walked into the room. I pressed against the wall.

(A/N: I'm gonna yeet myself off my couch istg)

"Well, Icy had some fun with you, didn't she?" Darcy smiled. "But she's not the only one who wants to get you back for all the times you've ruined out plans," she started walking towards me.

I was about to bolt but Darcy saw it so she gripped my neck and pushed me against the wall.

(A/N: Nothing homo about this! Lol this is actually the second time I wrote Iorda getting tortured via choking by Darcy. It's normal, children).

"No! Please!" I cried out in fear. Tears started to fall.

(A/N: I am in misery typing this. Also, Iorda is a weak bastard)

Darcy tightened her grip so I couldn't breathe. "As I said in the Labrynth, we have an old score to settle," she tightened her hand more and nails dug into my skin. "But this time we won't be interupted by any of your frinds."

My eyes were wide with pleading fear and my tears and crying increased. I couldn't talk, but I continued to mouth my pleads for Darcy to stop, but I could do little against her.

(A/N: Four-years-ago me thought this was normal. To write shit like this. Now I know I was just a closeted simp)

"Do you know why this is more satisfying than the last time you were in this position? It's because this time no one can help you," Darcy hissed in my ear. "Not Musa, not the Winx, no one can help you now. I can, and will drive you as far as possible to death. And no one can help you."

(A/N: Hot—WHO SAID THAT?)

Darcy continued to strengthen her hold. And I continued struggling verbally. Soon I began coughing out my last bits of air, and my head was begining to ache. My body was weakening.

Tears still fell strongly. Soon I could hear my head and heart pounding. My vision was starting to cloud.

Then I felt Darcy's hand release from my neck and I fell to the floor. I breathed in quickly and heavily. Soon I got air, and then I let out a quiet whimper and I shuddered.

Darcy kneeled down in front of me with her eyes fixed on my fearful ones. She raised my head up to meet hers and then pushed her pointer finger to my neck before stroking it with her nail. I was shaking.

(A/N: Little me was more of a simp than I can ever hope to be)

"It's almost laughable how easily I can frighten you," Darcy said while smiling. "I think you know now how this is going to go. We are the ones who control weather or not you live or die."

Darcy's hand drifted over and her finger traced the cuts on my neck. "You are at our mercy..." Her hand tightened around my neck again. "You are at my mercy. Never forget that," Darcy hissed in my ear.

(A/N: Yes ma'am. Dear god I'm still gay)

She pulled away then walked to the other side of the room and walked through the barrier. She met my eyes again through the bars.

"I won't let you forget it, my Oscuruita," she said menecingly then she walked away.

A few seconds passed. I pulled my knees in and began crying. All my fear came out through crying. I was shaking so much.

Oscurita... darkness... her darkness.

I let out a small cry.

(A/N: *deep inhale* Little me, ur gay. You want Darcy to step on you)

I didn't want to stay awake. The living nightmares will go into a dreamless sleep. Though only to wake up to another nightmare tomorrow.

They Winx don't know that I'm here... how would they find out?

I don't know.

I lay down on the ground. I was still shaking and it wouldn't subside anytime soon. Soon I closed my eyes after believing the witches weren't coming back again tonight.

(A/N: I'm honestly surprised I knew the word 'subside' at the time I wrote this)

Please let tomorrow not be worse than this...

Just let to be pain and not something like this...

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Um so... ehehe.

Yeah.

Four year ago me was oblivious as hell.

She knew what gay people were. She's thought that women are obviously more attractive, but in her words, that didn't mean she was gay.

AND YET.

She thought, "no, this is normal."

OH YEAH, while writing back then this I thought I was feeling fear. Especially during the "my Oscurita" and "it's almost laughable how easily I can frighten you" lines.

It wasn't fear.

It was just gay panic and I didn't know wtf that was.

[virtue-and-beneviolence]

Let's play a game ^^

Rank on your moot based on how fun it'll probably be irl if you met them <33

If you want to play ofc

Well I thought I posted this this am but anyway

Okay so I'm at the gym but I have 40 min of cardio to burn so fuck it we ball but I don't have a list of moots here so I'm flipping between d and tryna remember who's ask boxes I've been in lately so ily guys istg I'm not tryna be exclusive or anything. This is just a shortlist of ppl I've known for a while here.

@feitania Eris - duh. Even if I get relentlessly bullied I wanna hang out and also meet their friends. There has been a threat that I would buy matching friendship necklaces and I stand by it. baking bread sounds,,, so fun,,, pls

@drakenlvr Killian - will we get tattoos? Will we disappear for a few days and emerge missing a limb or two between us? Will we set a city on fire?? Who's to say?

@bertholdts--butt Cay- we have an insane amnt in common and I think we'd talk till we were blue in the fuckin face I think dhskwkdkfv

@the-travelling-witch Holly - I'm dying to cash in on holly doodles on eris and vi hours, talk mad shit and learn more Abt you and watch you blush over inui in person sksks.

@violettierre Violet- I think we could talk forever and your stories are insane lol. We're not always super in touch but 🥺🥺 I care sm Abt you. And also I think you have ppl I'd like to fight in your life. But bread's tag does explicitly say not to steal her and I need to ask you to respect that lololol

@benkeibear rhy -I think we click p well and I need to meet Ace and Dobby so badly T.T the best puppy play date ever. And I'll protect you from all the giant men by biting their ankles (all I can reach).

@sleepy3 Sleepy- cash in on cuddle parties and have a self care night?? Im sold. Maybe hit the gym and put me to absolute shame? Also sold.

@l-tora-l and @a-pair-of-socks - I have a lot I'd like to learn from y'all. Lots of hobby talk here. Plus I need socks to stretch me and laugh at my stubby non ballet approved legs. (A joke- bc anyone can do ballet if they wanna)

@offtaskotaku and @vivianette - I feel like we'd have a hell of a fandom party. I wanna chatter Abt blorbos all day long w y'all. 🥺🥹

[cowgirlcherrie]

What is it with girls I date/have situationships with and popping up randomly.

When I was in school I lived on a small island and istg people only knew me because I dated or slept with this girl or another.

I attract such a weird genre of queer girls, never been stalked more in my life (both irl and socially.)

Weird times… and the joke is is that I was hardly a casanova- I just got around by accident 😧

🪴🪴 (weird thoughts (its 1 am))

NO BC UR RIGHT BABY the same thing has been happening to me and I started wondering is it me?? or do I just attract people not good for me because I try to see the good in people who shouldn’t deserve an ounce of my time

oh noo the way I understand you 100% especially if you are in a location where people are chatty or people know each other people blow your romance experience out of proportion — and the crazy thing is dating is such a harder more complex experience for gay people and its like a big web of people who have met in some way, shape or form

and I thought the ‘real life L word’ jokes people were a joke until I experienced it…my ex/ex-situationship is friends with damn near every crumb of a gay person at my college.

even crushes I’ve had are nearly impossible to maintain because if I fuck around with one I can’t with anyone else its so cursed

I’m also just a sweet flirty person and half of the time I don’t notice until someone says I am LOL

dating apps have been my safety…but its so scary bc I get weird ppl

[starglitterz]

Quill!!! if it's not too intrusive, pls give us your top 10 y/n moments lol!!!!

HAHAHSKDJKJSD omfg who sent this in 😭😭😭 this is so funny tho i'll def do it (shameless plug btw, i have a whole series based on my irl experiences w romance called to all the boys i've loved before [totally original, ik] u should check it out!!)

these aren't in any particular order btw it's just the ones i rmb HAHA also i think these are pretty recent i tried not to include any of the ones i alrdy have in the series 👍

10. when i went for an anime con and i had just arrived, and after taking a pic w this one cosplayer his friend (in a kirito cosplay) came up to me and asked if he could princess carry me for a pic HSKJDK

9. when i visited my highschool for a festival thing and found out that one of my juniors had a crush on me (and still did??) and had told all his friends abt how cute and pretty he thinks i am HAHAHA (a total ego boost tbh someone should have told him that i am actually not all that)

8. being in a love triangle except it wasn't really a triangle it was like my two guy best friends had crushes on me at the same time and had a falling out over me (not to be amy dunne from gone girl but i did always want 2 guys to fight over me GOODBYE)

7. this one guy that was texting me and asking me on a date kept flirting w me and it was so stupidly lame that it was cute

6. going for my college orientation party and having a few guys ask me for my insta (honestly i had never expected this would happen I WAS SO KJASKJDKSJD ABT IT)

5. at the same orientation party some random older guy tried to hit on me so i ran away and this other guy i had met earlier was rlly nice and waited w me until my transport arrived and texted later to ask if i had gotten home safely 🥺 (the bar for men is like 700 feet under the ground)

4. at the anime con (same as earlier) i got kabedoned by this girl cosplaying gojo and she said i looked rlly cute and i nearly collapsed

3. HAHA I CANT BELIEVE I ALMOST FORGOT THIS BUT on my birthday i went on the bus to get home and the guy behind me was in my course, and he recognised me so we were talking for a bit until he realised it was my bday, and he literally asked the guy next to him to please switch places so we could sit tgt and he could wish me properly 😭it was so cute he had like golden retriever vibes HAHA and we were talking the entire time it was vv fun

2. yk that thing where u compare hand sizes but then they hold your hand HAHAHA that actually happened to me w one of my new friends 💀 he has rlly nice hands tho so no complaints here PLSKJWDKJS

1, ok guys now this one is some real life kdrama bs istg i felt like it was a movie while it was happening 😭 so basically the bus was pretty much full and i ended up sitting next to this rlly cute guy. and my brain was going 'damn i wanna talk to him', but i had to put my purse away first. so i was trying to put it in my bag, but it slipped and fell onto the floor and he was like 'oh!', and then i had to bend down and pick it up while thinking 'NOO this is so embarrassing he probably thinks im a dumbass'. and then i managaed to embarrass myself further 👍 guess what? while trying to sit back up again i literally hit my head against the chair in front of me and went 'ow!' out loud and the guy was like 'oh no are you okay 😭⁉' and i was like 'yeah... just super embarrassed HAHA' and we started talking from there KJSDKSJD i could talk abt this forever bc so much cute stuff happened but tldr he was like the total package but then i got ghosted BYE

ok thanks for coming to my ted talk as u can see i love talking abt myself pls feel free to ask more but i don't think i have any more romantic experiences atm 😭😭😭 i'm currently trying to manic pixie dream girl one of my guy friends in college so we can see how that goes ig LMAO,,, anyways thanks 4 reading ! interact w this post and give me validation please and thanks <3 (/hj)

[bulldyke-rider]

ok hi imma rant idc idc idc just plz tolerate the mental illness for a min so sorry i h8 sending asks bc i feel like ppl will get mad at me bc i type silly and interacting irl is so much easier for me but i know no one i can say these things to irl. but anyways whoever tf keeps shitting on gnc lesbians can stfu like your gender conforming hettie ass will never understand. it is so fucking lonely and isolating being a masc lesbian (or any kind of gnc woman) i desisted my senior year and ended up in a mental hospital partially bc i knew literally no one like me. like fucking imagine you go out every day and you literally never see a person like you. idk whenever i beat the dysphoria all the way (i am almost there cbt is a beautiful thing) im goin back to my based idc about pronouns era but no one better give me shit for temporarily choosing what is currently the most socially acceptable route for gnc lesbians. like how tf am i supposed to function i get scowled at in public ppl avoid me i know exactly 2 masc lesbians i met one in the psych ward the other im tryna fuck but idk if she’s ghosting me or in court ordered rehab rn soo. im not attracted to feminine women whatsoever it’s so sad bc they are all in love wit me and i can’t even tell my friends im not attracted to them bc they’ll be like “oh you’re lesbian/str8 that means you’re attracted to femininity kinda transphobic to be exclusively into masculine afabs” bc everyone equate woman wit femininity i am so close to being t4t gay trans man istg at least then i’d have a dating pool bc all the masc women transitioned and like it’s understandable like i get it fr i was there too i’m still there sort of. like they did nothing wrong they were just lied to and i’m so sad for them bc like i remember being suicidal bc of dysphoria but like there’s things you can do to make it better i wish i could tell them i wish it wasn’t so fucked up i wish it wasn’t so lonely i wish i had some drugs im too broke rn i wish she would get out of rehab and text me back she’s so hot i just want 1 person who knows and understands but like ughhhh i want gender to be abolished i hate it

plz be nice 2 me ik im weird i just want someone to listen fr 😸

Girl, I hope she gets out of rehab and you live happily ever after