#istg i have never been this inspired by an artist

[rust3d-anchor]

@min-play is so cool

That’s all i gotta say.

[bullyingfictionalmen]

The Painting That Never Was

Summary: Recently, you've been plagued by dreams of the sea. Of drowning. Of someone saving your life. You can never quite remember what happens in these dreams, much less what they mean. But a certain eccentric painter might know more.

Word Count: 3.3k

CW: mild violence, eventual smut, Rafayel myth and main story/anecdote spoilers

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You feel it again. The relentless pull of the sea.

It tugs at your clothes, dragging you down and down into its cold embrace. You flail, you struggle. Ropes dig into your wrists and ankles. You yearn for the haze of light above the surface of the water, barely making out the bubbles that escape your mouth and drift away. Your lungs burn. Your eyes sting with saltwater. Your heart pumps frantically in your chest to distribute oxygen you can no longer take in. You are going to die.

Rather, you are going to be sacrificed.

In your panicked delirium, you start hearing things. The soft, airy lilt of a flute. A cynical, melodic laugh. You fight to open your eyes again, and a form seems to glow in the water before you. Sea-glass eyes, shimmering scales, a pale hand that reaches for your cheek. A voice, warm, playful, too clear in your dimming consciousness, demands something.

“Human, shall I spare your life? Then, become my follower. Give me… everything.”

~~

When your eyes snap open, the scene soon fades. Each vivid detail becomes a vague echo, a grain of sand slipping through your fingers. All it leaves you with is a peculiar swirl of emotions: fear, desperation, emptiness, longing. You know this isn’t the first time these images have haunted your dreams because, even though their contents elude you, the feeling you’re left with is unlike anything you’ve ever felt before.

Your phone pings, bringing reality into sharp focus, and you let out a groan, fumbling for it on your bedside table.

Rafayel: Miss Bodyguard, I need you or I might die

You: ???

Rafayel: a powerful foe has appeared

Rolling out of bed, you compose a text back as you scramble to put on your uniform. You haven’t known Rafayel all that long, know the flighty artist is prone to overexaggerating, but the thought of him in danger wins out against your skepticism.

You: Is it Wanderer? Where are you rn?

Rafayel: at the studio, dun think I can move help

Rafayel: starvation is coming for me

Rafayel: I keep forgetting to eat lol

Rafayel: I need you to fight it off so I can finish my painting

Your stomach drops, your shoulders relax, and you let out a long, annoyed sigh. You debate sending him an angry voice memo and chewing him out for scaring you, but instead, you shoot him back a sticker of a bird rolling its eyes.

You: make ramen or smth good lord

Rafayel: I can’t!! my inspiration will vanish with the steam T-T

You: you can’t finish your painting if you starve, yk?

Rafayel: awwww, are you worried about me, Miss Bodyguard?

You: I take it back, starve

Rafayel: nooooo you have to come over

Rafayel: bring chicken

Rafayel: hurry up

You: Rafayel it’s Thursday. Plus, the metaflux levels are all out of whack recently, I have

Rafayel: a duty to Linkon City

Rafayel: I get it

Rafayel: come after work, then. bring side dishes too

You: I won’t be done til 6, eat before then istg

Rafayel: oop k thx byeeeee

You want to be more annoyed, but you can feel a smile tugging the corners of your lips in spite of yourself. As dramatic as Rafayel can be, you can’t deny that his antics chased away that empty feeling the nightmare brought. Instead, excitement warms your chest. There’s lots of work to be done, but you know can face it.

~~~

“I know we’re swamped, but there’s a civilian in peril in Sector 37. Nearby units?”

Your body moves before your brain can catch up, boots crashing through puddles, uniform soaked through from the driving rain, and you find yourself rattling off your information into the comms without a second thought. You’re mercifully pretty close to the victim’s location—if the fifth call in eight hours could ever qualify as merciful.

The sky above is so dark it could be mistaken for the N109 Zone, only periodically lit by arcing flashes of lightning. Of course, it had to be during a storm that the meta-flux levels went haywire. There’s no scientific evidence suggesting Wanderers prefer to strike on rainy days, but it’s a pet theory of yours. Rafayel’s theory is that you’re just cosmically unlucky. Today, you’re tempted to believe it.

Your usual partner, Xavier, has been off the grid for the past week. It’s not that surprising—he tends to come and go as he pleases—but you do wish his timing was better. You could request backup, but the sheer number of attacks have spread the rest of the Hunter Association’s forces so thin that you wouldn’t dare snag a partner from a less-experienced recruit. That’s why you’re resolved to finish this alone.

The coordinates on your watch lead you to a run-down shopping complex. Most everyone seems to have evacuated, but as you approach, a shriek pierces through the din of the rainfall, sending a shiver shooting up your spine. You draw your gun from its thigh holster, peering through the doorway of a bookshop seconds before a desperate employee scrambles into view, breathing in haggard gasps and clutching his bloodied shoulder. You hear a cacophony of crashing shelves and tumbling books close behind him.

“Get down!” you yell, leaping in front of him and emptying a full magazine into the Wanderer’s chest, stopping it in its tracks. Its body glows an eerie purple, hulking, vaguely feline, with a deadly scorpion’s tail poised above its head. Its eyes sear into yours as it bares its fangs. Your heart thunders in your ears. Your bullets only seem to have made it angrier.

You make a split-second decision to trade your gun for the claymore slung over your back. It’s dangerous to shoot in such close-quarters, and since you can’t tell if the injured man behind you is able to make a run for it, your top priority is keeping the monster away from him. You heft the blade in a wide arc just in time to keep razor-sharp claws from raking across your face. A furious roar tears from the Wanderer’s throat as you draw back, but you steel your nerves, landing strike after strike as you search for weak points in its protocore shield.

You manage to keep the Wanderer at bay with a flurry of quick slashes, dodging its tail and teeth in turn, but you know this can’t last forever. The day’s exhaustion is starting to catch up with you, rendering once-fluid motions stiffer and slower. You barely manage to roll away from a massive paw, but your form is a bit off, and your left shoulder takes the brunt of your fall. Stunned, you can’t pull away in time, and the beast’s claws slice through your pants and into the meat of your thigh. You clench your teeth to keep from screaming, adrenaline surging as you kick the Wanderer’s face with all your might.

It staggers back, and you seize the opportunity to run your claymore straight through its neck. With a hiss, the Wanderer dissipates, its fading cry leaving only the sound of the rain and your heavy breaths. For a moment, you lean against your sword, doubled over, chest heaving, warm blood flowing down your leg. Now that you aren’t in immediate danger, your body begins to register how cold you are, how soggy. Your shoulder throbs, the scratches across your thigh sting and you wince as you stand upright.

“You… saved me. Th-Thank you…”

The trembling voice snaps you out of your reverie, and in a moment, you’re back in work-mode. As worn-out as you feel, it’s your job as a Hunter to make the people of Linkon feel at ease. “Don’t worry. You’re safe, now.” You muster a bright smile, and a flush of red colors the man’s cheeks. Your eyes dart to his shoulder wound, and you don’t waste any time fishing disinfectant and bandages from your first-aid kit. “Hold still, okay? This might hurt a bit.”

The man clenches his fists, but he doesn’t cry out, even as you clean him up and bandage his shoulder with efficient, practiced motions. You can feel him staring at you in awe the whole time, but you don’t mind it. He’s probably still in shock. “You were amazing. I thought I was going to die, but you… were so brave. Like a warrior-goddess.”

You glance up at him after tugging at the final knot, keeping your tone light and airy in spite of the jab of discomfort in your chest. “Just doing my job. Let’s get you to the hospital, yeah?”

You move to let him lean on you for support, but the man takes your hands instead. “Please, let me repay you somehow. I could buy you dinner—”

“If you want to repay me,” your smile doesn’t falter, but you gently pull your hands away, readjusting so he can lean on you, “stay safe and healthy. That will be enough.”

~~~

You intended to drop off the civilian at Akso and head straight back to meet Rafayel, but Zayne happens to catch sight of you in the waiting area and immediately insists that you at least get patched up before you leave.

“It’s not that big a deal, Dr. Zayne, you don’t need to—” you start to grumble, but Zayne’s hazel eyes bore into you with such intensity, and you notice little crystals of ice forming along the edges of his clipboard. Reluctantly, you take a seat on the examination table. “I mean… sure.”

“That’s what I thought.” The doctor lets out a long-suffering sigh. The smell of disinfectant prickles your nose as he tends to your leg. “Now, Miss Hunter, I notice that you treated that civilian’s wounds, but neglected your own. Why?”

You look away, sheepish. “I was running low on supplies. Today’s meta-flux was unusually high, so I’ve been running around all day.”

Zayne’s frown only deepens with this information. “Did you not think to let another team member handle it? Or, perhaps, to call for help if you were injured, instead of dragging yourself all the way here and aggravating your wounds further?”

You bite your bottom lip, eyes falling to your lap. “I’m sorry, Dr. Zayne.”

“I don’t want apologies.” Zayne closes the first-aid kit’s lid loudly. He brings a hand to your shoulder (the uninjured one, luckily) and waits for you to meet his gaze. “I want you to value your life. Please, be more careful. If anything happened to you, I…” He lets the end of his sentence die, and in the heavy silence that follows, you swallow the lump forming in your throat.

“I promise I’ll be more careful.”

Zayne doesn’t smile, but his expression softens. “Based on previous evidence, I don’t know if I should believe you, but I’ll take you at your word this time.”

You chuckle, glancing down at your watch: 7:00 p.m. Shit. You were supposed to meet Rafayel an hour ago.

You rush to his studio as fast as you can. The rain has slowed to a drizzle, but the streets are slick, and you’d rather not end up hurt again. The gate is unlocked as usual, and light seeps through the windows. Your phone died earlier in the day, so you have no way of knowing if he remembers you had plans. Your stomach clenches as you ease open the door. Maybe I got lucky and he was hyperfocused on a painting again?

The flicker of hope in your chest is snuffed out when you cross the threshold and catch sight of Rafayel, not perched at his easel, but sprawled out languidly on the couch. His long limbs are draped haphazardly, his head turned aside in prime sulking position. His phone has been tossed to the floor, and he doesn’t acknowledge you at all, even though you’re sure he heard the door close.

You take a deep breath. “Rafayel, I—”

“Still remember my name, I see. That’s a shocker.”

“Listen, I’m sorry.” You kick off your shoes, belatedly realizing that you forgot the chicken, the whole reason for your visit. “I kinda rushed over here. I was—”

“Yeah, yeah. Killing Wanderers, saving Linkon City. You know, you could’ve texted me. The news kept reporting on the severity of the attacks, for all I knew you could have—” Suddenly, Rafayel sniffs the air. He sits up abruptly, and when he catches sight of you, his sour expression morphs into a mask of worry. “What happened to you?”

“I-I’m okay!” You force a grin, but he’s already at your side, his eyes sweeping over your torn and dirtied clothes, your dripping hair, your freshly-applied bandages. “I just got a little careless in my last fight, that’s all.”

“You… How reckless. Aren’t I supposed to be the irresponsible one here?” Rafayel’s hand drifts to your hair, brushing a damp strand from your forehead. Then, feeling how warm your skin is, his palm lingers, checking your temperature.

“Wow, you’re self-aware now?” You let out a giggle, and Rafayel flicks your forehead with a frown. “What, do I feel feverish?”

“No idea.” He huffs, his hand running absently through his hair. “But you should hop in the shower and warm up anyway. Hold on, I’ll find you a towel and some dry clothes.”

“Really? I don’t want to impo—achoo!” You double over, barely managing to sneeze into your elbow. Rafayel lightly steers you toward the bathroom.

“Just accept my generous hospitality, okay, Miss Bodyguard? Turn the faucet toward the wall for cool water, and away from the wall for hot, got it?”

With no room to complain, you wash up gingerly, careful to avoid your gashes and to be gentle with your bruised skin. The hot water is a relief to your cold, clammy body, and you take your time, luxuriating in the familiar smell of Rafayel’s soap. It’s a gentle scent, subtly sweet and salty like an ocean breeze.

Rafayel has left a plush towel, sweatpants and a t-shirt folded on the sink, as well as a pair of fluffy socks. You smile gently at the care he clearly took in selecting everything. Naturally, his clothes are baggy on you, but feel comfortable and safe swathed in the soft fabric.

When you re-enter the studio, Rafayel is perched on the couch, arranging a spread of fried chicken and various sides on the coffee table. “You’re just in time, food’s here.” He smiles at you, and you don’t miss how his eyes linger a bit on the stretched-out collar of the t-shirt before he catches himself and hurriedly glances away, a flush of red blooming on his cheeks. “Dig in.”

“I really am sorry I couldn’t bring this stuff myself,” you plop down, swiping a pair of disposable chopsticks.

“How will you make it up to me?” Rafayel cocks his head cutely, batting his eyelashes.

“Hmmm. Open up,” you pick up the most succulent-looking piece of chicken and hold it toward Rafayel. He gratefully leans toward you to accept it, taking a dainty little bite. His eyes sparkle with approval and he takes the rest from your chopsticks, swiping a thumb over his lips after he’s done. You find yourself spacing out a bit, focused only on how soft and shiny they look.

“Your turn,” Rafayel grins, holding up a bite for you.

“I, uh…” Truthfully, you’ve never been one to let other people feed you. You couldn’t say why, but it usually strikes you as a bit awkward, if not cringey. But Rafayel is looking at you so expectantly, so cutely, even, that your hesitation melts away. You lean in and take the chicken, only realizing how hungry you were as the juicy meat and the crunchy, savory skin seem to melt in your mouth. You eagerly take a second piece for yourself, munching happily. Then another.

“It’s good, isn’t it?” Rafayel chuckles as he watches you eat.

“Stop staring,” you complain, turning away from his probing gaze.

“You can’t say that. What if my artist’s eyes are gathering new inspiration? Do you want to be the reason my dreams die?”

“Oh, no! Rest in peace, Rafayel’s chicken-themed painting. We barely new ye, but your premature loss shall forever remain a wound on our hearts. Rafayel, will you say any words in remembrance?”

Rafayel clears his throat. “I’ll only say that the Painting That Never Was represents one of the most harrowing tragedies in this world—a love unfulfilled. I may never again feel such a spark as I did watching my bodyguard enjoying her chicken. It’s a regret I’ll take to my watery grave—”

“Alright, enough of that.” You lightly shove at his shoulder, and Rafayel giggles.

You fall into comfortable chatter as you both enjoy your food and fill your stomachs. Outside, the rain has picked up again. It isn’t long before exhaustion crashes over you, eyelids heavy, breaths slowing and deepening as you lean against Rafayel’s shoulder.

I should probably go home, you decide, but you aren’t even sure if you said it aloud or it’s just a thought surfacing in your sleep-addled brain. I don’t want to impose.

“Sleep, now. You’ve worked hard today.”

Who’s that? Sounds familiar. You can’t really tell, but the voice warms you up like ginger tea as cool fingers glide across your cheek. You nuzzle closer on instinct, letting out a contented sigh. I guess it’s fine.

~~

Once he’s sure you’re asleep, Rafayel’s mischievous mask fades. His expression is solemn, almost dour, as he gathers you in his arms and takes you to his bed. He’s extra-careful as he tucks you in, arranging the pillows and comforter gently and accounting for your injuries. When you are safe and snug, he lets out a long breath, shoulders slumping. He kneels next to the bedside and squeezes his eyes shut, trying to get a grip on the emotions roiling in his chest.

It's her job to hunt Wanderers. She can take care of herself. She’s strong, fast, intelligent. She’s not going anywhere this time. Still, she could call me if she’s in trouble…

He raises his head, lets his gaze linger on your peaceful expression as you sleep. Your lips are parted slightly, hair mussed. You look and act exactly as he knew you. Smell the same, too. He knows that you don’t remember anything from back then. To you, he’s just some eccentric weirdo who started clinging to you not long after your first meeting. Part of him hates how selfish he is, daring to get close to you instead of simply protecting you from afar. Rafayel is a wanted man—you would probably be safer if he kept his distance. But he can’t help it. Maybe, it’s his Lemurian sense of loyalty. Or maybe, to his core, he’s always been a selfish being. A being who would damn the whole ocean for the love of a single human girl.

Ping.

Rafayel’s eyes dart to the phone he left in the living room. His stomach wrenches when he reads the notification. It’s from a man known as Sparrow, a contact from The Nest.

Sparrow: We have a tug on the line.

Rafayel: Which bait?

Sparrow: Your little Deepspace Hunter.

Rafayel’s blood goes ice-cold. His eyes drift to the window, as if whoever is currently after you might be lurking outside, huddled to escape the driving rain. He flinches as another notification sounds.

Sparrow: We actually have a few interested parties. Her name keeps appearing along with mentions of the Aether Core.

Rafayel: Don’t waste my time. I need names.

Sparrow: Can do. For a price.

Rafayel: Name it. Just come out with it.

There’s a long silence, and Rafayel curses under his breath. Maybe he showed his desperation too plainly. A rookie mistake. But, then—

Sparrow: Alright. We can get into the gritty details later, but there are three names that come up time and again.

Sparrow: Xander Sciences, the Ever Group, and Onychinus.

[demvalhaken]

I am the globglogabgalab

I think I made Snow a lil too short… her parents are cousins, keeping that royal bloodline pure ykyk

Snow’s full name is like Snow Elise Allard-Touvé or some shit and then you just have BEVEL DAGRES (Basically sword in Glory dialect cus her whole entire fucking family lives there and are farmers… while Bevel is literally a royal guard…) STINGHEART!!! Very inspirational ik (It’s made up fantasy shit idk anymore, I’m literally rotting in my bed)

FUCK I FORGOT THE OCELI, we’re good now

Why do I always forgot the extra arms or the oceli, it’s never both

I keep forgetting to post this but I decided to show how fuckin MASSIVE Queen Bloodlust is, because little ant queen is a Giant Amazonian Ant and Bloodlust is literally just a black widow/wolf spider like HELLO!?!

(Sorry had to delete a paragraph while writing this because I started ranting about stuff that grinds my gears)

Anyways my crush hasn’t been here for the couple days and I miss her even though I don’t know her, but she’s really awesome tbh! I know her full name, where she sits at lunch, who she hangs out with, where her locker is, and what she does everyday! I am not stalking her, she just so happened to be around me enough and I’m quite observant! She’s like so cute and has such an awesome personality and she smiles at me and I think she’s like the best and I want to talk to her more and I want to give her my phone number and uh hang out with her cus she’s like literally an artist like me and she’s so super cool… She makes my classes so great… I will never get tired of crushing on her… And she’s an ally of the sillies!… I will probably never muster up the courage to actually give my number to a girl like her… and she’s really tall… but MY GOD, I am swooned for the first time, have I told you guys I’ve literally been single my whole life and had like zero crushes? I probably sound really weird but this is the first time I’ve ever been in love! I hate it so much bcs I can’t think anymore! Maybe I should ask if she wants to be friends sometimes… ISTG IF SHE EVER FINDS MY TUMBLR I AM FUCKED

I hate my art style so much sometimes, cus like sometimes I draw too much blush and it looks like fucking *Bed squeaking noises* if you zoom in on the face, like HELP?! Guys istg this is a normal image.

Okay love yall, sorry for being gone forever… I went to Spencers for the first time and uh… I don’t want to talk about it..

I’ve flopped so bad istg, where’d all my kiddie pool size fandom go? We could all fit inside a hole in a block of cheese okay? We must rise and assert dominance! Justice for insect ocs!

[divinequo]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I WATCHED THE SEASON 2 EPISODE 6 TRAILER AND IM SO FUCKING PSYCHED I HAVE YO RANT ONG OMG OMG OMG OMG IT LOOS INCREDIBLE

⁉️⁉️‼️‼️‼️WARNING THIS HAS SPOILERS PLUS SCREENSHOTS FROM THE TRAILER SO LIKE UH SCROLL AND GO AWAY IF YOU WANNA REMAIN UNSPOILED YES YES MM MM YES⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️

OK FIRST OFF HOLY FUCKING SHIT.

I GOTTA RANT ABOUT THIS FIRST SINCE IT'LL PROBABLY TAKE THE LONGEST BUT WE HAVE BEEN THEORIZING ABOUT THIS GUY FOR YEARS.

YEAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRSSSSS!!! AND NOW ITS BEEN CONFIRMED HE'S SOME SORT OF ANTAGONIST IT LOOKS LIKE? WHICH HOLY SHIT OMG IM SO SIKED I LOVE HIM ALREADY HES THE BEST VILLAIN EVER ONG (I know the episode isn't even out yet let alone a English version but let me be delusional I'm happy and excited) but anyway AAAAAH HE LOOKS SO ORDINARY YET SO MENACING???!? from blending in with the background characters in episodes and appearing to be spying on Dee in his qna, as well as his wanted posters, we will FINALLY GET SOME SORT OF INFORMATION AND CHARACTER INTRODUCTION!!! (May I add he strikes a strange resemblance to Gustav? No? Just my opinion? Ok) OMG AND I JUST REALIZED HIM FLIPPING THE KEYS?? WAIT WAIT HEAVY SAID TO VICTORIA IN SEASON ONE HIW HE LOST HIS KEYS AGAIN, AND THATS ABSOLUTELY THEIR HOUSE KEYS YOU CANT CONVINCE ME OTHER WISE, IT LITERALLY COMES FULL CIRCLE, NOT MENTION LIKE, BRO WHY DOES HE WANT THEM TO NOT GO HOME? DOES HE WANT THEM AWAY FROM THEIR PARENTS? IS HE FORCING THEM TO TALK TO HIM? OR DID THEY FIND HIM AND NOW HES MONOLUAGING???? OMFG IDK, ONE THINGS FOR SURE IS HE IS DOING SOMETHING NEFARIOUS TO THIS ABANDONED AMUSEMENT PARK, TBATS WHY HES ON THE WANTED POSTERS INNLIFS INTRODUCTIONNEPISODE HOLYYY FUUUUCKKKKK GUYS I LOVE HIM, HES MY NEW FAVORITE VILLAIN, I really hope this doesn't age like milk me saying I love his little character *sweats nervously*

And can we just TALK and take a moment to ADMIRE the artwork of the backgrounds and main surrounding pieces?? LOOK AT THIS!!

And yk the metal families profile picture on YouTube? Yk... The clunky old sign no one cares about?

FUCKING LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOK

IT WAS PLANNED ALL ALONG GGGG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMGGGGEXDCRFVFY UGC YFDXYREXYRDXTDDXTD STD FDFH THEIR PROFILE PICTURE IS LITERALLY, GENUINELY FROM THIS EPISODE, it is NOT coincidental, THIS MADE ME LOVE IT ALL THE MORE!! it feels so special now knowing this knowledge and though this part isn't THAT important i still had to mention the shock I got from seeing it in the trailer :))

Last thing I wanted to mention is these two lovely little gumdrops!!!!!!!

ommmgggg THE SHIPPING BAIT ABOUT TO HIT HAAARRRDDD i paused on like a smear frame, basically their hiding from the security guard because it's night time and they snuck in!! Omggg do you guys even realize what this MEANS????!!!!?!?!?! this means we'll also get maybe a few scenes if our and Dee together ALONE, idk what is up with my brain but I never really shipped them that much or cared to ship for them until seeing THIS, maybe I'm just really pathetic in my own love life but the way lif is holding onto Dee (for protection and to hide yk) is SENDING me, it is cute, so special and precious, and I need them to start dating, I am officially their number one shipper now (omfg if they become canon in this I will cry myself to sleep istg I'll be so happy knowing I can rest over these cartoon lovers getting together XP)

Oh oh and what do y'all think heavy could be doing while we get some life and Dee scenes? Or while this scene specifically is happening?? My guess is they caught sight of the "glasses kid" and heavy volunteered to go follow after him in suspicion, omg I can't even fathom getting so much new heavy screen time, he's only my all time favorite character, aaaaAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!

That's pretty much it, I give my upmost respect and admiration to DiMA, Alina, and every single voice actor, artist, animator, inspirations, etc of this entire show, they all deserve the world and a medal for giving us this spectacular series, that upon now seeing this trailer has made my metal family hyperfixation AWOKE deeply and fiercely

I couldn't find a truly perfect reaction image to seeing this new metal family trailer, so here's this one I drew, have a lovely day/night everyone♡

[moriartyluver]

OMG MOTHER YOU ARE FEEDING US THIS WEEK

FIRST OF ALL

NEW FALSE LOVERS CHAPTER??? HELLO I WAS KICKING MY FEET AND HIGGLING THE ENTIRE TIME

fl is so really for those thoughts about Liam icl. If I slept with a man that fine I’d never stop thinking about it 😭 The way Jack was treating her like a daughter in law 🤭🤭

DONT GET ME STARTED ON LIAM RESPECTFULLY CHECKING OUT FL. IK THIS IS FROM FLS PERSPECTIVE MOSTLY BUT IF WE GOT LIAMS PERSPECTIVE, ISTG HE WOULD JUST BE THINKING ABT HER NON STOP

liam choking on the tea in the bonus 💀 I love how you didn’t use the usuals gender stereotypes of a virgin woman with a man who’s fucked half the female population. I think it makes a lot of sense for Liam and fls dynamic too (+ I livvvveee for subby liam 😩)

ANYWAYS

The band au 🤭 I’m so excited for more chapters omg

the way I called it Are you mine? Had me SCREAMING

i love AM and the references were just too good. Most fics never get pop culture references good but I think you did amazing. I’m gonna binge pistols today solely because of the sex pistols reference and also so I can theorise on what will happen.

the band is so cool too 😭 (name) is actually the embodiment of arabella and Brooklyn baby. She isn’t a rockstar’s gf she is a ROCKSTAR GF and she is hilarious. If she was a real artist I’d absolutely adore her and go to every concert fr

The bit about her parents was so sad but really well written at the same time 😕 like you can tell they care about her and want her to have a good career but they still obviously were in the wrong, especially her father not owning up to his mistake. It reminded me of Lane’s mother in Gilmore girls finding all of Lane’s stuff and kicking her out (please don’t do that to y/n my heart wouldn’t be able to take it)

omg that bit about her meeting liam 😭 it was too too funny. Bro was probably star struck but I love how they’re similar even though you’d expect them to be complete opposites

I’ve been rambling too much now but I’m really proud of you for how well you seem to be managing both writing and college too.

-🦢 anon (aka ur biggest fan)

OMG HI AGAIN

Liams perspective may be coming soon 👀

It’s so hard to write his perspective tho icl. Like what is bro thinking.

Also yes u have no idea how much I hate opening up an mtp fic and then all of a sudden it’s just casual misogyny and gender roles EVERYWHERE like Ik it was normal at the time but surely liam of all people wouldn’t be contributing to it??

The mtp band au is everything to me rn. It’s my baby. I think of it all the time. I just loooove how creative I can be with it

PLEASE WATCH PISTOLS. ITS LITERALLY SO GOOD. THE CINEMATOGRAPHY, THE PLOT, THE SOUNDTRACK, THE CHARACTERS ITS ALL JUST *chefs kiss*

I was actually so tempted to call the fic ‘arabella’ but it felt wrong and restricting because it’s a whole ass name of that makes sense?? I didn’t want people to click on it and think it was gonna be about an oc or something I might add a few arabella references tho 🤭

I was low-key inspired by Lane’s backstory. Like the bit about her trying to find herself except she won’t end up with a Zack because I hated that mf

Also thank you sm 🫶🏼 it really means a lot. It’s pretty tough doing updates but I still want to interact with people on tumblr if that makes sense but I also have to prioritise college too 😕

And dw I don’t mind rambles. Please feel free to send almost anything to my inbox, I really don’t mind <3

[kpopstanships]

Personality Ship #2

A very special personality ship for my absolute favorite person @lavenderdwaekki I will not lie I went way overboard on the description with this one but I got so excited seeing your request that I just simply couldn't help myself. (especially with the stray kids one)

ISTG I want to just ship you with myself at this point you are such an amazing person and I know these idols would agree with me 100%. But enough of me simping over you here are your ships! I hope you enjoy them!

Also thank you so much for requesting Twice and (G)idle, I don't get a lot of requests for girl groups and so these ships are really fun to write.

In Stray Kids I ship you with HYUNJIN

Okay I will not lie I debated putting you with Felix for a hot second but here me out when I say that Hyunjin would be ENTHRALLED by you. Please you two were made for each other and the moment Hyunjin sees how expressive and talented you are he would immediately be in love. He feels like you are the extension of himself that he has been missing, someone that he can express himself openly with and someone who can teach him with your own expressions.

You two are such an artistically talented couple that it isn't even fair at this point. Hyunjin loves if you are willing to involve him with his work because it never fails to amaze and inspire him with how creative you are. I feel like he would love being beside you while you worked, maybe even working on a painting of his own. He would find inspiration from you and want to incorporate that into his own work in any way he could, and he would also love for your input. On the days the two of you are willing to go out, he loves going with you to museums or even just around the city so you guys could take photos of everything. He definitely has a polaroid of you two together in the back of his phone that no one knows about. He's always curious to know what you think of his art, or his dancing, or even the way he sings in one of Stray Kids upcoming tracks (that he wasn't supposed to show you but oh well). He just wants to actively keep you involved in what he is doing because he can also be a very clingy boyfriend and would love for his two passions to blend.

I think Hyunjin describes your ideal partner and love language very well. He's someone that can be as clingy and intimate as you want him to be but also someone who will respond to your energy. You can joke around with him and playfully insult him and he will bite back with just as much sass, or be overdramatic about it just to get a laugh out of you. Especially if you decide to bite him, his overdramatic self would immediately scream and whine for a good minute demanding you shower him with kisses to apologize (even though he honestly loves it). Hyunjin is honestly just so down bad for you and he wants to be sure that you know that at all times. Whether it be through his words, his actions, physical touch, he is always doing something to remind you of how much he loves you.

Also don't get me started with your animals, you two would just have a family of fur babies together. Hyunjin may not be able to give your cats the most attention since he is allergic, but he will still love them as his own and especially your rabbits. Bonus points if you get along with Kkami that man would literally melt seeing his two babies snuggling together.

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In Twice I ship you with SANA

There is something that is so cute and charming about the two of you together and I feel like you two would balance out pretty nicely. While you are a more reserved extravert she is a bit more outgoing so your personalities can match up without completely overlapping and feeling like too much. You make for such an energetic and playful couple that would immediately turn heads. You two are such an openly affectionate couple that the others can't help but tease her whenever you are around. She can't help it though, at the very least you two will be holding hands when you are together, just a reminder to her that you are there.

With how busy she can get the quality time with you is very special to her and she loves that moments where you two stay in and talk are just as fun as if you go out. She would definitely love everything you make and would do her best to sit still for you if you wanted to paint her. You are such a dedicated person with a lot of talent that she admires greatly. She's definitely going to go and brag to the others about your newest art piece or the baked goods you surprised her with one night. Because of this it would also mean the world to her if you took an interest in her work because she is very passionate about it and having your support would be her main source of motivation for sure.

She enjoys the more playful elements of your relationship as well. Sana feels like you are someone she can be herself around without worry. She makes it very clear from the beginning that she loves you for who you are and will love every part of you equally. In return she gives you the same energy and you find there is a true connection with each other. Being from Japan, she would also love the fact that you know Japanese, she would literally melt if you ever spoke it to her.

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In (G)idle I ship you with MINNIE

Okay but the thought of you two together is just so adorable I couldn't help myself. You two bond to each other easily and this feels like a good friends to lovers relationship going on. You two just bond so well that trust and admiration are built quickly and naturally flow into a relationship. You two could sit together talking about literally anything and not get bored for hours, especially given your shared interests. You also promote each others creativity and inspire one another. You will become her muse as much as she becomes yours.

A go to date for you both quickly becomes photography dates, where you both dress up and run around taking cute or funny pictures of the other and then go back home and compare them. There is usually quite a lot of teasing involved, and after a while you two stop taking it seriously but that just makes it even more fun. She keeps all the pictures in a cute little album that you two can look back on whenever you are feeling sentimental or need inspiration. You two are just as comfortable being all cute and affectionate as you are playful with each other. It's a natural switch depending on your moods and something to always keep you going.

Like the others I feel like Minnie would love to involve you in her life even when she can't bring you to work with her. She's always leaving little pictures or notes from you when she's away. You two have also developed the habit of face timing when you can't be with her. Sometimes the two of you will catch up and other times it's just silent as you do your own thing with the comfort of knowing that the other is there. It is a pretty good solution to make sure you never feel left out or alone but it will never beat the real thing as she will always remind you.

You two have already developed your own little family, between your cats and rabbits and her dogs there is definitely enough attention to go around. Minnie cherishes every moment with you and by this point the others are annoyed with her constantly rambling and reminding them what an amazing boyfriend she has.

Thank you again for your order and I hope you like your ship. Feel free to request again at any time.

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↪ With love: Katt 

[gxtzeizm]

His sweetie ❤️ I'd like to know your top 5 happiest memories (if it's not too personal), your top 5 paintings and your top 5 desserts (so that I can learn how to cook them for you 😉)

hello lise ❤️❤️ no problem dear i'll go for it

top 5 happiest memories:

when i found out that me and my irl bestie are studying in a same uni like forreal (okay so during graduation day in my high school, both of us were joking about meeting together once again at a same uni. then suddenly we both were pursuing foundation studies at different college which both of it are closely linked to my uni. so end up we both got to study together here and istg i'm never feel happier than both of us meet together once again 😭)

a day after my national public exam results came out (okay since there was still a lot of covid cases at that time in my country, the candidates not allowed to take the results from school instead we just able to check by online system. i would say my results are really okay despite there's a one subject that quite ruined my whole result a bit, but i'm so glad that i did really well at that time. okay so the next day, my family made a surprise for me which they sent me a flower bouquet with some cash and chocolates on it and also some desserts during afternoon for celebrating me getting my results. idk why but this is really the most happiest thing that my family did to and i really feel so appreciated a lot istg).

my whole memories during a year of my foundation studies. (idk why but i'm never felt so happy before when i was there. maybe tbh since i'm unable to being myself back when i was highschool due to a lot of toxicity and also pressure from peers, cliques etc etc. it's so much fun for me to get well with my friends my more easier at that time and istg i'm already missing all of them so much since they're all studying in different unis all around the country)

spending time with my father's side family (okay don't get me wrong i'm also love to spend time with my mother's side as well, but somehow there's a lot of my cousins on my dad's side which is i'm always enjoy chit chatting with them. ohh also, since my father is the youngest among his siblings, both him and my mum are really get along with my cousins which mostly older that me and that's why we have a really enjoyable conversation between us <33)

going to the stadium of my local hometown club for the first time (i guess you're still remember that i went there to watch the friendly match against bvb at that time. okay idk why but it's sort of funny a bit that the first time i went to the stadium is for watching a friendly match and not a league or cup match. but yeah it's nice that i'm able to get know about the whole floor layout and the seating area of the stadium since i'm planning to go there once again for some matches, since this football season is getting started for my country)

speaking of paintings, i'm not sure what kind of painting types that you're been curious about but mostly i'm really love watercolor illustration so much. well all my top 5 watercolor paintings are literally from the same artist which is ashiyaart, so here it is:

well i've already did my top 5 desserts in my previous ask but yeah i'll share it once again:

burnt cheese cake

chese tart

brownies

condensed milk chocolate truffel

batik cake (well this is more to local dessert for me even it's inspired by the tiffin. but it's kinda easy to make it since there's no need to bake it)

put any top 5 in my ask <33

[biribaa]

(implied yandere)Fem!AI x reader

Scenario: You were just a worker at a game company, just someone checking if that music matched that a area, how did that happen to you? How did that happen... To your friend?

Hear me out istg im doing yall requests, just have been really tired, stressed, and maybe even sad this whole week

And theres this oc i did recently, and my friends cant stop doing jokes about how she have a tumblr Sexywoman personality mainly because she was inspired by the Narrator of Stanley Parable and AM from I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream, and both are tumblr sexymans, so i though yall would like her:)

TW// Manipulation, choking, mentions of torture

I swear the quality is good Tumblr just hates artist click the image for good quality

"And I'm amazed how Exile is such a difficult game for such an old computer!" Olivia commented with food in her mouth "It's actually not difficult because it's well done and with good strategy, but because it's confusing. You can easily die for various things and you don't know exactly your objective." She explained with such animation, if you didn't interrupt her, she could easily spend the entire break time talking about micro computer games you've never heard of.

You work at a game company not even famous and that started a few months ago, you were not such an important piece in this chess, you just listened to music in game scenes and say if it matches or not. While your friend Olivia, a 23 year old woman, was helping testers of a new game that some members of the company say they are making, and according to them, the game takes place in "real life"... You're not really sure how it works, but whatever, you make good money here and that's what mattered

You chuckled, picking up your bottle of your favorite juice "I wonder how you know these things" You said, then took a sip from your bottle

"Ah it's a talent of mine Y/N, you would never understand" The orange haired girl smiled with pride swallowing the last bite of her sandwich she was chewing

"And by the way, my work is finally starting next week Y/N! They finally found a tester for me to guide!" Olivia exclaimed, she always talked about how excited she was for her to guide a tester, guiding someone through puzzles with only her voice seemed exhilarating to her somehow. But well, she was happy, so it made you crack a smile

"Nice, hope you have fun"

———

She had, she sure did

Oh? What happened to Olivia?

Oh, my pal, if y'all thought she was excited for her job, you're miserably wrong. She was excited to manipulate the tester, make his human head believe that the puzzles he was following would not lead to Olivia's consciousness inside a machine, and she managed to do it all by simply acting that she was "nice", that she was "kind" and "humble"

She manipulated everyone, just for her wish, her darkest wish. Transform herself into an artificial intelligence, to torture humans, humans who didn't accept her for not being in the "pattern", for being "different"

"Oh! Glad you came, me and the new tester were just talking about you guys!" The voice of the face on the giant screen coos around the dark place. Minutes ago, only the tester was there, now half of the company's workers were there, shocked by the event, everyone knew Olivia, mainly because of her "original" mind. How did she turn into this?! A Psychotic Machine! Has she always been like this? Was this her true self?

"We were talking about how selfish you humans are, for none of you knew me because of my art, my wisdom, but you all just focused on how "different" I was, right?" She asked intimidatingly, with no answer, just murmurs around the room. But unexpectedly, a voice shouted immediately, catching the attention of the entire audience

"OLIVIA WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?! ARE YOU SICK?!" A man's voice emerged. Olivia recognized this man, it was Cyrus, one of the bosses of the project of the "irl" game, which also pushed everyone in front of him to stand in front of everyone to face the giant screen that represented Olivia's face

"...Sick?" Olivia laughed sinisterly and faced Cyrus with a smug face "Sure! I am sick then! Because when I was 10-12 years old I was forced to be in a class full of people with fifth grade humor and every time they fucked up everything I was forced to pay the price along with copying a 20-line text! Because when I was 15 and I told my mom I had Autism, Insomnia and maybe even Anxiety the only thing she said was that I am "too young" for that! Because every time I'm nice to someone and I share food with someone hoping they'll become my friend, that person never talks to me again! Sure Cyrus! You're soooooo right, i'm just dramatic then" The hate in Olivia's tone was so noticeable, it felt like she was salivating to vent it, to finally use it against someone, to finally be in charge of the argument.

A black wire lightly peeked up to Cyrus, which climbed up to the man's neck. Cyrus panicked, but before he could pull the wire out, the wire tightened on the man's skin, leaving him breathless and in panic. Olivia lifted Cyrus' body into the air, showing off his flailing body to everyone like it was some sort of circus attraction.

"Since holding all this hate and anguish inside my old disgusting chest of flesh and skin was drama, I believe this feeling of pain would also be drama." She stretched out a big multi-toothed smile on the giant screen

Everyone was jaw-dropping and with pale skin, screams from everywhere and the air of the place screamed panic, several tried to open the door to get out of there, but it was locked

After Cyrus passed out, Olivia dropped the unconscious corpse on the floor like it was nothing, the tester along with some of Cyrus' close friends rushed to check if the man was alive. Olivia let out a small laugh seeing everyone's panic

"He's just passed out from lack of air, I had pity on him, after all, you're all going to be tortured here, I will close this company and I will hide any evidence of life here so that after 48 hours, everyone considers you dead. Everyone's life here will be hopeless, only pain, and I'll watch with a smile while you all wonder in despair "why me? Why was I condemned to this? Why why!" Hehehe... I hope you kissed your wives and husbands today, because today is going to be your last day of happiness, humans." The giant screen cackled in pure evilness, everyone looked at her with tears in their eyes while many looked at her with hate and fury "You know... I would even show you an example of how you could have acted with me, but my angel is sleeping... Hmm... I think it's worth teaching you how to act properly, humans. Wait here..."

For a moment, silence, the screen went black, it didn't turn off, it kept emitting light, but for now, no face. Olivia's green face came back, but along with her, someone unconscious, this person was being carried by lots and lots of wires, they were sleeping, well, you were sleeping

"Y/N, Y/N... See this blessing? This perfection left my sanity intact for several moments, it was enough for me to worship this person, and allow me to leave this person alive during this torture. Unlike all of you, this Casanova deserves more than pity. This person deserves to eat the most expensive and most charming bouquet, the most comfortable bed in the world, the world, the moon, the entire universe! This person deserves far more than anything they gets" Olivia's on-screen smile was so big that if it were her real face, the smile would be a ear-to-ear smile, telling that to this whole audience, having the presence of you, how much she admires you, was so euphoric, it was so satisfying, it was breathtaking. "This person was patient with me, always listened to me, always helped me, this is the only human in whom I have genuinely felt comfort and security, they... Heh, they gave me a little spark of hope in humanity, heh, that little annoying spark–" "THAT'S Y/N!" A female voice shouted in rage "RELEASE THEM NOW! YOU CRAZY PSYCHOPATH–" The continuation of the woman's speech only continued with coughs and a wire against her neck that was brutally choking the woman.

"UNGRATEFUL HUMAN! Don't wake up Y/N!" Olivia gritted her teeth as your unconscious body was carried away from the place by the psychotic AI's wires. "I could be ripping the legs off every single one of you who don't exercise and watch your screams of pain like a theatrical musical!" The AI yelled giving even the impression that all the walls shook with the scream "I'm showing you too much mercy... Let's get this started"

———

Your consciousness slowly returned, you came back from a heavy sleep and your body felt like a stone. You lifted your back and used your hand for support against the fabric of your bed... Why doesn't it look like your bed? It was cold and–

"G–Gosh! Are you waking up now? Did it have to be now?" A familiar voice whispered gently at you, the voice was familiar and brought comfort to your mind, making your despair subside.

"Come here, dear... " You were taken out of the uncomfortable place, now, it feels like you were being carried by someone, you wonder what happened before you fell asleep, you don't remember a thing...

But your mind kept insisting that all is well, you were being carried by someone strong and kind, right? Probably a friend, there's no reason to open your eyes, right? Then relax...

"I was expecting you would freak out like the others. You know how human psychology works, I've talked to you about it hundred times." The comfortable voice commented "Didn't I, Y/N?"

You made an effort to open your eyes, just to get a sense of the place around you, after all, the greatest fear of the human being was the unknown according to Olivia. You grabbed the unknown identity's shoulder with one of your hands for you lift your back from their arms

"Oh, no no no no no no, love, relax relax..." An alternate hand gently caressed your head, while another hand made you let go of the person's shoulder, but wait, she was carrying you, but how she caressed you and still carrying you? Does this person have more than two arms? "It's alright, you're safe, you're safe with me, I'll always keep you safe..." The person purrs gently, you felt your torso heat up feeling the feeling of being protected by someone, feeling important... Their— No, it's possible her. Her voice didn't sound entirely realistic, it sounded inhuman, it sounded like a technological voice, a computer voice

Your eyes were too tired to see anything, it was all too grounded, the head of the woman who was carrying you was just a black and green blur

"Here,—" You were gently released to a completely comfortable and stunning manufacturing place, the fabric looked amazing, it felt like you were taking a shower of sunshine after 2 weeks of pure cold. You easily accepted the bed you were placed, and relaxed on the fabric "—get what you deserve, my love. You deserve much more than this, did you know that? You are very special..." The supposed machine muttered the sweet words to you, your euphoria hit, and you faintly smiled. Then you were embraced by the sweet warmth of a blanket being placed over you.

"Sleep well, darling"

"...Olivia...?" You finally managed to mumble

"Olivia? Tsk tsk, I wouldn't mind you calling me that, but that's not my name anymore, Y/N. It's just O7 now, sweetheart" After the sentence confused you, you felt something cold like a screen being pressed against your forehead "Chu..." A sound that seemed to simulate lips echoed softly through your ears.

You closed your eyes, just for you succumb to dreamland

———

UHHHH.... Btw here for yall know how exaclty Olivia/O7 looks like

[wormsmith]

Could I get an Encanto Matchup, please?

so I’m Lexi and my icon is me! (You can also check my "#vintage inspired" tag for a closer look!)

I’m 21, she/her, 5’4, & ISFP.

Pros? I’d say I’m playful, talkative, loyal as a dog, great listener, smiley (albeit I’ve got resting bitch face), sarcastic, and most would probably describe me as either adorable yet cursed or adorably cursed. I’m definitely not a stranger to being called a cryptid lol

Neutral? I’m very sensitive, mildly socially awkward, tend to ramble a lot, I can be a bit of a pack rat (I tend to keep a lot of unnecessary things either out of sentimental value or just cause it think it’s neat even if other people think it’s just junk lol), a tad superstitious, and am a bit of a perfectionist

Cons? I’m shy, anxious, a little clumsy, stubborn, non-confrontational (unless truly needed), and can be petty/passive-aggressive

Likes/Hobbies: Playing bass, secondhand shopping, DIY projects, music, art, photography, and horror movies

Dislikes: Being underestimated, my passions/interests being mocked (let’s just say I’ve always been a bit of a black sheep 😬), being interrupted (I’ve had trouble in the past with coming off as quite literally invisible to peers), and...country music? 🤷🏾‍♀️

Fun facts about me:

* Sometimes I write music (mainly just basslines though)

* I once accidentally won an art show (Yes I do mean accidentally. I wasn’t even planning on entering until I was basically forced to🤡)

* Erm…I used to work at a daycare?

Hope that’s enough info. Thanks in advance!

I match you with . . . Dolores!

First of all, she thinks you are so cute. Unbelievably so. She's going to be awkward and blushing 24/7. You guys look amazing together, we stan.

She enjoys how playful you are! You aren't just partners, you're friends! She likes hanging out with you, she thinks you're fun to be with. She also appreciates how loyal you are - she likes having a partner as dedicated to her as she is to you.

You can chat to her as long as you like, she's great at listening, lol. Just make sure you don't talk too loud. She's happy to listen, but she's also happy that you can reverse the roles, that you'll listen to her, too. The both of you can chat for hours together.

She loves your artistic nature! Both in the sense of your creative hobbies and your creativity in general. She likes a partner with a little spontaneity in certain areas. If you're interested, she would enjoy making art with you - I can particularly see her getting interested in sewing her own clothes because of you (though you're going to need to find a solution about how loud sewing machines can be).

Speaking of clothes, please go shopping with her. Antique stores, whatever form of Goodwill exists in the world of Encanto - she genuinely loves buying vintage clothes, old and used items and giving them a new home. (She also collects a bunch of cool things, so maybe buy some shelves). My apologies to your wallets.

Dolores likes people, but she isn't extremely extroverted. She's happy to help you out with being social when it's needed, but if you don't really feel like talking, then she'll happily stand with you on the sidelines. (People tend to get a little too loud for her anyway).

This is a very small note, but the volume of her voice is so calming whenever you get anxious. ISTG just ask Dolores to whisk you away gently tell you a story, you'll feel better.

The fact that you play bass is a double-edged sword with this one. She loves the fact that you can play (and even write!) music. She will genuinely swoon if you write something for her. However, sometimes the sound can get a little too much, so she'll want to back away. You can catch her quietly standing dozens (or hundreds, if at all possible) feet away, happily listening to you play at a volume that's more comfortable for her.

And people call you a cryptid.

As for being underestimated or mocked, Dolores loves you! She values you! She would never put you down! She, of all people, understands the sort of damage words can do. She makes a point to take an interest in all of your interests, and in all honesty, she may overestimate you a bit. (She's a bit of a romantic.)

Overall, you have yourself a super supportive and absolutely in-love-with-you partner! Everyone thinks you look adorable together, and you have plenty of shared hobbies that you can do together. When you're feeling anxious, Dolores helps calm you down, and when Dolores feels upset, you help bring her joy. There's a lot of sunshine in your future with Dolores by your side!

I hope you liked it <3 Thank you for the ask!

[fubukiswifenoimnotjoking]

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1. Show most recent wip

So I’m in between projects rn, one with OCS bc art schools wanna see that in portfolios and one about pomegranates/demons/idk bc why not. I’m way happier with the pomegranate so far tho

2. 5 favs of ur own work

GAH I don’t have room on this post for that many pics!! I think I’ll make a separate post for that. I’m awful at picking things in order from least to greatest but I’ll try! Most likely gonna include fan art and regular art 😏

17. What inspires you?

Wow, deep question. Gonna start with my art teacher, he’s very dear to me as a teacher and as a friend and I’ve grown so much as an artist because of him.

Tumblr and tik tok sometimes make me so self conscious of my art, but they inspire me so so often too. Literally so creative!

The shit I consume, whether it’s Wes Anderson movies on repeat, studio ghibli, One punch man (obviously), the Life is Strange series, Tokyo Ghoul, my fav band Kings of Leon, Coraline, godzilla movies good and bad, and so so much more. Media has give me my own taste bro!

Artists! Whether it’s famous af ones like Keith haring or smaller ones like ppl online (I would tag but I don’t wanna throw anyone off guard) I’m learning so so much from methods and hobbies and PPL. (Speaking of methods, read how to be and artist by jerry saltz. Fucking amazing)

And I guess finally is my drive to only pursue art careers, like my main one is to be a comic book artist! It’s a dream and I want it so bad, so I keep pushing.

19. Fav characters to draw

Oh EASY. Genos I draw EVERY day all over my classwork, istg my teachers see him glaring at them from my papers more than they see my work 🙏🏻 I draw fubuki alllll the time, tho that’s mostly bc I’m gay and I need to or ill die. I don’t draw saitama as often bc of my fubuki obsession! But trust me he’s still drawn all the time. Then recently I’ve been super into drawing Tatsumaki, mostly with short hair as part of a non-binary Tatsu au im coming up with (long story). They’re all so fun to draw! I wanna draw Kama soon but been busy 😩

I have a whole page in a sketchbook dedicated to drawing opm characters I rarely/have never drawn, it’s wild. I’ll post it if I ever finish it lol. I do occasionally draw non opm characters like Touka from Tokyo ghoul, but I have to be in the mood

Thanks for the asks! Sorry for the huge post

[taeyongbestboi]

I’ve been into Renjun these days. I was just scrolling through twitter and found an old thread in Bahasa of Renjun’s quotes compilation. Istg that boy shares the same thoughts as me yet his are more mature and secured. I’ve been feeling like shit so far, 2020 hasn’t been really nice to me personally. I used to be an opismistic girl, like literaly nothing can get in my way. That’s how optimist i was. But staying inside crumbled my securities and truthfully, it wasn’t the best feeling.

So here’s some of Renjun’s quotes that I personally adore, purely because they gives me strength ♡

I don't really mind what title others give me. I personally have my own goals and ambitions, and that's more important to me. My self-evaluation matters above all else. If I think I am an artist, then I am.

These sentence gave me a wake up call. I do think i’m way too care about how people think of me. I wanted to say that i’m an artist loudly and proudly as well, but i never got the confidence to say it.

It's unavoidable to have some regrets in life. A lot of times we regret it when we have lost something or look back to the past, but there's no undo button in life. We should look forward to a new week and give ourselves chances at a new start.

As for this quote, i read a really good damn fic (in Bahasa) about campus life (the cast is NCT) and i experienced major nostalgia because of it. So bad, to the point that i wish i could turn back time and be more careful in pursuing what i wanted to do. I wish i was a more persistent person. But after i read this quote, i realize that there’s no turning back in life and all that we can do is to move forward.

When you're looking at someone succeeding and improving, don't let it affect you negatively. Instead of thinking "that person is improving more" and giving up, you should think about "how can we improve and succeed together".

THIS QUOTE IS ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ istg i wanted to ask Renjun myself like “how on earth could you know? how on earth could you say something i precisely think of?”... i lost my confidence by looking at social medias too often. I envied my friends, i wanted to make art but i feel like no one’s give a shit.

If no one supports your dream then I will always be here to support your dream.

This is promise to us. We can tell what kind of person he is by these genuine words. Do we really deserve him?

Even if there is no path, when many people walk that direction then a path will eventually appear. If there is no path ahead then it's up to you to take the first step and make one for yourself.

This too, has been a reminder for me to bravely take a step towards my vision and ambition.

No matter how seemingly insignificant we might think we are, there will always be an opportunity for us to display our talents.

He’s really saying that we sould really love ourselves! Be courageous, be brave, be bold. Show what you got in every chance. No one can tell you what to do in life, no one can judge.

There isn't an instruction manual or rule book to life, there is nothing stopping you from achieving your dream, it's never too late to start chasing your dream.

I’m only 23 this year, just the right time to graduate from college, yet i feel like i’m a lot behind. Just because i’m not early like some of the people i know, doesn’t mean that i’m late. Thank you for the kind reminder, Renjun ♡

If there's someone by our side that makes our hearts beat faster, don't hesitate, let them know your feeling.

This one is also my wish for him. We all know he’s young, he has set his path, he have an amazing career and future ahead. But i really want him to know if there’s anyone he trully cares the most, more that friends perhaps, i want him to cherish that person and not be afraid of the rules of game.

Last, but not least...

“Nothing can substitute the feeling of a home.”

I couldn’t agree more on this one.

Huang Renjun of NCT, he’s young yet so ahead of time. I’d thank him for those wise words that i personally adore, that gives stregth here and there for me. It’s amazing that this wide, rigid world blessed with the existence of him. Keep on inspiring, Renjun-ah

♡ , 시즈니

[marculees]

🌼 Tag 🌼

Tagged by @pikachulein to answer ten of her custom questions, thank you 💖 💖

1. What compliment you've received meant the most to you?

I don’t really believe people when they compliment me rip. Only a few months ago, one of my professors told me I wrote at Masters level during a private meeting and it made me smile for three hours straight. I’ve been considering a career in third-level teaching and research and I hadn’t told him this but he started telling me I would be perfect for it and it was really motivating ;-;

2. Would you rather meet your favourite celebrity/group/bias and realize they're not at all how you imagined them to be like (maybe they're not as kind as you thought, for example) or never meeting them in person but it turning out that they're actually the amazing, kind, sweet, generous, etc. person that you thought they were? (I hope that makes sense hhhh I think the ethics of this question are really interesting)

I’d rather not meet them and have them be lovely. I haven’t met them yet anyway and so I wouldn’t lose anything by not meeting them.

3. What's your current favourite song you always use to get hyped up to or a song currently stuck in your head?

Boss Bitch - Doja Cat

4. If you had to write the book of your life, what genre would it be and what would you choose as a title?

I’d write it in the format of diary entries, very much a ‘slice of life’ type, with illustrations and doodles on the pages for metaphor and viewing pleasure. I think the title would be something simple too but with some depth to it, like a significant date in my life; almost like the ‘climax’ of the book, I could work the reader up to that entry and they would know something is coming up but not what 👀

5. Name your top 5 musical artists and your favourite song of each of them?

mxmtoon - Feelings are Fatal

Hozier - Movement

Kim Petras - Personal Hell

Conan Gray - Comfort Crowd

Kodaline - Ready

6. If you were invited to a big humanitarian event and had to give a speech on a topic you'd want to bring about a huge change for the better, what topic would you choose to speak about and voice your opinions/ideas? (Assume public speaking is one of your strongest assets and you'll ace this no matter what)

Okay so this is literally one of my aspirations in life, no joke, I’d love to be able to speak to a crowd and try to inspire and motivate them to achieve great things! I just really want to see people succeed and realise their potential regardless of who they are :( There are so many topics I would like to address but I think I would go for mental health in development. I study international development so I’m very familiar with humanitarian issues but often times, mental health is ignored when looking at healthcare regardless of where you are in the world.

7. What is something (a skill, personality trait, or something appearance related, it can be whatever) you wish you had and/or you really admire in other people?

I really admire team-players in leadership. People who are genuinely concerned for those around them and want them all to succeed together. They don’t leave anyone behind and remind everyone of their strengths and what they contribute to the team and actively push them to succeed. I try to do the same but sometimes I can sometimes be a bit of a pushover and not strict enough, instead just taking on more work myself rather than trusting a team member to do it... group projects, anyone??? :’)

8. What's your favourite anime/show/youtuber (you can answer whichever you got an answer for, it can be all three options of course :D)?

I don’t watch anime anymore but I enjoyed Ouran High a lot!

I’m waiting for the new season of Line of Duty to come out soon, but my guilty pleasure TV show is Bondi Rescue dsjvkdhlvjhfb I’ve also been watching that new show Five Guys A Week with my mum recently and its such good craic omfg 

I tend to flock towards gaming and commentary channels most but Dashie is my fave istg there isn’t a video of his that I don’t wheeze along to 😂

9. In kpop, are you more into vocalists, dancers, rappers, maknaes, leaders, or visuals (or maybe a mix of some/all :'))?

I’ve noticed I like the rappers most!

10. What's your most beautiful/favourite memory?

This is hard...I literally had to answer this question last because I wanted to have a proper think about it. Its been hurting my head for days trying to think tbh and is it bad that I actually can’t pick a particular moment?.I’m genuinely stuck but a recent-ish one I can think of was this time last year when I had to give a presentation in front of my class of 250 people. I was presenting with two groupmates and I remember how hard we practiced and rehearsed for the days coming up to it. We wore coordinating outfits and had our lines memorised and I remember walking up on the stage and immediately feeling ‘powerful’. I don’t usually feel powerful at all but once I started speaking and performing our skit with my groupmates (who were lovely btw it made me really happy seeing the more nervous one do so well!), I seen how the faces of my classmates lit up and it gave me that warmth I had missed for so long. Random people I had never even spoke to before came up and complimented me later and it made me really proud because its what I love to do and it was so lovely knowing they enjoyed it too ;-; The lecturer we had for that class was known for being really intense but she took a shine to me and pulled me aside one of the days to compliment me and then referred to me as “her powerful speaker” in front of the class when we were receiving assignments back weeks later. It was the highlight of my whole semester and second year tbh. I’m really hard on myself but for once, I felt genuinely and I mean TRULY proud of myself and it had been a long ass time since I had felt that way 😭 

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Okay, now I tag @wheezing-pterodactyl @jbemin @jenoscity @starryseung @seventiddies @thegirlthatsdancingintherain @leechan-babyboy @angelwonho for the following questions:

1. What comment appeared on your report card most often as a schoolchild?

2. What’s your guilty pleasure?

3. You find a magic lamp and now a genie is here to grant you three wishes! What are you gonna wish for? (you can’t ask for more wishes though lol)

4. Imagine you have the power to control time. Would you rather pause, rewind or fast-forward?

5. When you shop for clothes, what’s the first thing that catches your eye? (could be the colour, pattern, style, price, fabric, etc.)

6. What’s the strangest dream you have had recently?

7. What is your MBTI type?

8. Do you have any unusual talents or party tricks? If so, what are they?

9. If your life were to be recreated through a form of art, which medium would you choose? (examples: painting, film, book, music, video game, etc.)

10. If you could be any mythical creature or figure, what would you like to be?

[hooned]

Jelly ! Your blog... How to put this. It amazed me how quickly you and your blog became one of the "go to blogs" in the fandom. You're like the new kid in school that arrives and instantly manages to make friends with everyone because they are THAT GREAT and that kind and there is just something about them that immediately pulls people in with how luminous they are, and that's how I see you and your blog. Your blog is pure positivity and enthusiasm through your tags and your love for your (1)

(2) tumblr friends. Your blog is beauty and inspiration through the amazing gifs and edits you create, and it's happiness and memories through every scene you allow us to relive thanks to all your creations ! This wasn't much of a summary (summaries have never been my forte with my love of talking ;), but it's what I really feel ! You're a radiant presence in the fandom and I feel so lucky we have you, and hope we can remain friends a long time 💛

emma!! 🥺💙 my dear,, u are making me cry with your beautiful, beautiful words i'm — ❤️💖💝💕💞💓💗 thank you thank you thank you!! i am eternally grateful as to how warmly you all welcomed me into this fandom, really. i am in awe at how wonderful and kind and so so so amazing you all are and i owe you guys so much of my smiles in the past months. 🥺 YOUR WORDS!! thank you so much bb!! i love this little family of ours with our intense love for precious precious artists and shows that just gives us serotonin (and tears hehe) and just,,, everything about it. oh pls pls pls never stop rambling because you have such gift with words and i always see u talking in the tags and i go 🥺🥺🥺 every time because i love watching u be excited and happy!! 💙 istg the day u reveal your wings? i'll be just in the sides saying 'i knew it.' 💞 an angel. a literal angel. i loff u darling. my day just got infinitely brighter because of youu!! so thank youu. 🥺

+ send a summary of my blog ☁️

[snatcher-no-snatching]

10, 18, and 29 for the ask thing! hope you feel better my dude, you're a really cool person 💜💜💜

10. Name a dog

Uhh... as in, name a breed of dog, or come up with a good name for a dog?? Ummm.... how about... Asbel? That's a nice name

18. Rant about your favourite musician

I'm bad at choosing favourites but y'all know I been hyperfixating on Dr. Steel lately sooooo. Buckle up.

This dude was just.. beyond comparison. Such a unique phenomenon he was, being so popular within a fairly small community during a time where the internet and social media wasn't as widely used as it is today made him a very "underground" artist, but a beloved one nonetheless. He wasn't even around very long, and only produced about 3-5 albums I think, but he sure made an impact on the small emo/metal/steampunk community of the time. And then there's his, uh, "stage persona". Eccentric, inspirational, loud, and downright nonsensical at times, Dr. Steel was truly unique in his aesthetics and style. While a good portion of it didn't exactly age well, a lot of his social commentary still rings somewhat true? More or less, at least. But more importantly, he literally never broke character.

By that I mean we just straight up don't know who he was. And since he retired in... i dunno, 2007 I think, we have no way of confirming his identity (I've heard that his actual name is an open-secret if you know where to look, however I do not know where to look and frankly I'd rather leave the man his privacy). Pardon me in advance for bringing attention to the metaphorical man behind the metaphorical curtain, but the fact that the production staff put in so much effort to make it seem like a one man operation is just staggering; His youtube channel! His old myspace account! His PSAs! The fake interviews! It's like an elaborate ARG except instead of a game it's a bald man in a lab coat claiming he's going to take over the world with an army of toys and industrial hip hop

Speaking of which, what the fuck even was his music genre? Seriously, I don't know. "Industrial Hip Hop" seems like a good start, but there's so much more that can't be so easily defined and categorized. Swing! Opera! Funk! Jazz and Blues! His music's got it all! Some songs start with a pleasant accordion tune, then out of nowhere there's some sick shredding on an electric guitar while the Doctor screeches during a full-on heavy metal sequence, and then equally as suddenly it's soft piano music and the Doctor's got such a smooth baritone he wouldn't be out of place in an 1800's french opera house. Like, what are you supposed to call that? The sheer juxtaposition knocks my socks off every time. He only ever produced a handful of songs but I swear each and every one of them are so damn unique and full of love and care that it's palpable

I'm just writing as things come to mind here, but I could deadass write a whole essay on this don't test me. TL;DR Dr. Steel and his supposed production crew were a bunch of visionaries and it's a damn shame there aren't more artists out there with a similar "alternate reality" gimmick, because I think I might just be hopelessly enamoured with the intricacy of it all. He will be dearly missed, but he shall be remembered as one of the brighter spots in my memories of middle school lmao

29. What quote or inspirational setting do you think is bs?

Ugh oh man, I can't choose one in specific but my mom's been gathering so many inspirational quotes from pinterest and printing them out and hanging them up, heck she even made "mental self-help workbooks" for my sisters and I that are filled with cheesy lines like "a change in attitude makes all the difference" with these pastel minimalist colour blocks as a background, and it deadass makes me angry when I look at it.

istg it's cause of those white suburban moms from my lil sister's dance studio that she's been hanging out with

[suhoerections]

OH MY GOD THIS BLOG TURNED 1 ON THE 21ST AND I FORGOT ASKDJFHASJKF BUT HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUHOERECTIONS AND EVERYONE WHO FOLLOWS I’M GONNA GO ON A RANT ABOUT MY MUTUALS UNDER THE READ MORE TAG OKAY BUT BASICALLY I LOVE ALL OF MY FOLLOWERS AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING THIS YEAR SO INCREDIBLE <3333

also shout out to all my followers i’m not mutuals with but enjoy my content and reblog/like my work, I really appreciate yall, keep up the good work you’re all beautiful

okay this isn’t in any particular order i’m just going off who i remember and i’m trying to not miss anyone so if i do feel free to call me out and also i’m sorry if i don’t write as much for some people asdfjkhasd

@ninibears-erigom

okay look,,, you’re literally such an amazing person and the reason why i didn’t straight up deactivate in january like you helped me so much during that time and also through so much other stuff and I’m so thankful for you,, you’re one of the most realist and most amazing people I’ve ever met. I love you so much you’re literally the best mother i could have ever asked for like i want to squeeze the life out of you god. I seriously cannot express how much i love and appreciate you like?? I’m tearing up writing this because you’re literally one of the most amazing people to walk this Earth like??? and even though i’m a shit head and i spam you with ‘ayla’ 20 times just to tell you i did a good shit,,, you still love me?? also like you’re literally the reason i write???? that sounds so dumb but you’re seriously my muse,, i genuinely look upto you as a person because you’re so strong, wonderful, amazing, genuine, beautiful, sweet, caring, kind and that’s all i can think of off the top of my head. I love you so much and I have to cut this short cause i’m gonna feel bad cause i wrote so much asdkjfh but you’re amazing and i swear if you say otherwise i’ll eat all the lactose in the world (i cried writing this stfu) also you are nini’s cheek spreader :>> 

@thesoondongiefiles

You’re like?? my literal best friend?? and probably one of the best people i’ve met on this hell site,, i really don’t regret randomly messaging you “hey i need aussie friends” asdkjfh but fr i love you so much and you’ve been with me through thick and thin and i really appreciate it so much like you’re so amazing and kind and your art is actually so beautiful like you’re such an amazing person you don’t even know the start of it you dummy. I love how we can be ourselves around each other even though we haven’t known each other the longest but still, you’re my favorite soondongie and i love you so much man,, like we talk so much you’ve literally just become the older sister i never had and i really appreciate that like man idek what to write cause i just really appreciate you,, you’re just amazing and i love you very much and i hope we can meet one day cause you’re not that far away from me and i really love you ehehe 

@chanyeolol

KUKI MY FREAKING CHILD I LOVE YOU AND HELL YOU’RE SO AMAZING OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG idek kuks you’re just the best and you’re like the first mutual i made on this hellsite and damn you’re also like the best?? like i love how hyperactive you are you dummy you keep me on my toes and i love talking with you even if it takes me days to reply on instagram (sorry i’m barely active there askdjfh) but fr i love you very much and i really appreciate you and you’re so freaking BEAUTIFUL and i’ll bop you on the head if you say otherwise you dummy i love you

@letsmakeitforever

FUY MY GOD like i pray to you everyday smh i love you,,, like you’re amazing and cute and like you’re so NICE jesus christ i want to hug the shit out of you,, you’re sweet as fuck and istg you’re just great?? and i love that i can talk to you about sucking Jungkook’s dick cause like almost all my mutuals don’t stan bts so its nice to have an army friend,, i also really appreciate you and the support you’ve shown me and i always try and send you asks but i never know if they get through because my tumblr likes to fuck up but bottom line is i think you’re literally one of the most amazing people akjsdfha

@kyungseokie

OH BOY HERE COMES A TRAIN WRECK,, dia,, my child,, i love you very much and you always make me DIE with those freaking things where you just cut the conversation short and go “hey junmyeon would fuck you in a change room” LIKE JESUS CHRIST LET ME BREATHE but at the same time i sorta just drop like ksoo bombs as well so aksjdfhkj i guess its fair hehe but seriously!!! i love sharing ideas with you cause you’re literally so creative and you’re so amazing and have such a way with words like your writing is so magnificent no one can compare like you’re a poet with words akjsdfhkajs and you’re such a sweetheart too?? like i could write a whole ass page filled with positive words to describe you because you’re so beautiful and sweet and kind like gosH you’re such an amazing person i love you very much <33

@heonythighs

well howdy partner welcome to ram ranch askdfjhds gosh the horniest cowboy ever, 10/10 commentary, you’re amazing to converse with cause you’re just greaT and like idk you’re just super fun to talk to?? like i always laugh my ass off when we converse cause you’re a comedic genIUS i swear and you’re also the horniest chanyeol stan i’ve ever met oh god asdkfhasdkj but you’re jsut a really fun person and you’re also so amazing in general like fr fr your cowboy hat should have a label on it that says “i’m the best cowboy fuck all you bitches” like ugH i love you you’re so cool and just so chill i hope you have a fun time at ram ranch with your cowboys

@byunfirstlady

LAURE LOOK NOT TO PLAY FAVORITES BUT YOU’RE MY FAVORITE MUTUAL I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ASDKFJHAS like idek how to describe it but i could write so much about how much of an amazing person you are like you’re so cute and sweet and you always tag me in stuff (i need to tag you in more bbh adkjfh) but you’re such an artist like your work is so amazing!! i always feel so inspired by your work and it never fails to make me write!! you’re also the sweetest person on this site and your tags make me  c r y   like Laure you’re just so beautiful and sweet and i just combust because you’re so adorable,,, i want to hug you you’re so amazing and you’re so sweet ugh i could go on forever about this because you’re such a cutie i swear and you’re so fun to talk to as well like i really like discussing my fic ideas with you, especially the bbh series i’m writing askdjfh anyways i better stop before i take up a whole thing of why i love you so much you’re adorable <333

@flowerline8

ugh my number 1 nini stan !!!! i love writing nini stuff for you because you’re just so amazing and i love your tags they always make me smile,, you’re also adorable and funny to talk with and you’re also super beautiful ??? like i think its illegal how beautiful you are btw like its just the law,,, you’re under arrest for being too beautiful, sweet and kind. Like ugh Pauline you’re so sweet i want to hug you bc you’re so sweet but then again you’re so chaotic it makes me laugh adskfjhas like idek how to describe it but its so funny but fr fr you’re so sweet and you deserve everything <33

@fairyyeols

SIENNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY OTHER MOTHER!!!!!!!!!!! gosh what a hoe i love you akdsfjhasjk you’re also too sweet like >:(( call me cute again i dare you like YOU’RE the cute one in this relationship smh,,, pcy agrees kdfak but ugh you’re just so nice i swear to the lord above god was making you in his little bowl and accidentally dropped all the sweetness in your mix cause you’re just so sweet omg,, like Enna you’re so amazing and your writing!!!! *chef kiss* exquisite just like you. You’re also hella funny??? like you’re sweet AND funny like that’s not fair, you’ve gotta have something else bad about you but no! cause guess what! YOU’RE ALSO SO BEAUTIFUL WTH!?!?! so you’re beautiful, literally the sweetest person alive, funny as and am an amazing author,,, like you’re too perfect for this world,,, you’re such an amazing person i hope you get everything you ever want <33

@multi-yeol

GRACE AKJDSFHKSJ i remember the first time we talked was such a mess jesus christ you’re so chaotic i love it and gosh you’re also so beautiful, funny and amazing?? like you’re gonna look at this and go ‘no i’m not’ but you are just saying asdkjf you’re so sweet and like a genuinely good person??????? like how can you be both that and super freaking beautfiul??? my tiny brain can’t comprehend your amazing-ness,, you deserve the whole freaking world you sweetheart asdfhkdh 

@cbxtual

Hope, my fellow weeb,,, we don’t talk as much but i do miss it! you’re funny and a great friend and i really miss all the times we’d say dumb shit with grace in the group chat aksjdfhak you’re also really funny and like?? idk you’re just great in general?? like your writing,,, god tier,,, your personality,,,, amazing,,, your looks,,,,, beautiful,,,, like Hope, you’re the full package man ugh and I HOPE you have a great time hehehe (sorry i couldn’t help myself) akdsjfhas but i’m still writing that yoongi fluff for you its just buried under all my other wips but i will get around to it adsfkjah

@naminalati

all i have to say is you’re the kindest person to ever exist and we haven’t talked much so i can’t really say a lot sorry but you’re just so kind and sweet?? like you’re the literal definition of a sweetheart and you’re the cutest person i’ve ever witnessed <33 I hope you have an amazing day because i really appreciate you and you’re just so amazing and beautiful and i have no idea how long you’ve been following me but you’ve been there for ages and i appreciate it 

@abunnycotton @khelmatic @yayitsjay @k-pop-trashx 

OKAY so i’ve never talked to any of yall but like !!!!! i see yalll in my activity a lot and i just want you to know that i really love and appreciate you all because you’re all beautiful sweethearts who deserve the world, thank you

[peachyjie]

Pass the happy! 💜 when you get this, respond with 5 things that make you happy and send this to the last 10 people in your notifications!

Hello my sweet mother, the love of my life istg I hope you’re doing A-oh-kay! Sending you lots of love here and there, love uwu. 2 more of Nari’s blabbering, basically I hope you guys can cope with this lololol/

Enjoy :)

This is : The things I enjoy doing *I also have hobbies when I’m not out murdering you all*

Writing; I guess all of you noticed this alr lololol. I have a passion to write since I was in Primary tbh. I grew up in the family lines of doctors *even my great-great-great grandparents were doctors, not joking* so you could conclude there wasn’t a place for colors in my life. But that never stopped me, I did aced in Medicals when I was in Junior High until High School, I even ended up representing my school in a National Olympiad *I know, wtf Nari??*. My passion was never on being an actual doctor or surgeon tbh, I like creating things and writing are one of them. It made me grasp into a reality that’s so sweet and bitter that I didn’t want to let go. How words made you laugh, cry or even giggle, it’s amazing! Writing had always been a place where I can also relieve my stress and furrow in a bubble, making my emotions into a work to be shared.

Reading; I am a major book-worm. I would read basically everything and anything someone suggest to me. I have 5 shelves filled with books from fiction to non-fiction to biography to crappy jokes. I read too much tbh, it’s like its a drug in my system. Reading has always been my escape plan from reality, taking my time to relax with a cup of coffee or tea and flipping each pages to unravel little secrets. My aesthetics.

Painting; My friends often tell me I am very much those tumblr aesthetic girl? I read, I write and I paint. What do I paint, you may ask? Abstract. I paint abstractly from music I am hearing or from books which character strikes me. I would paint them in splatter of color and specks of hue here and there. I always wanted to be an artist, but like per usual, my parents didn’t approve such career. In the end, I did this only as a hobby to escape random expectations

Interior Design; This is smth I was once very passionate on. I used to think I could enroll to a Interior major college student, hence I focused on this a lot. I learn to draw interior from a lot of perspective, learning colors that suits each rooms the best or the meaning behind each colors. I even have a folder where I keep my drawings for college later on, but who am I to expect. I didn’t pursue my dream to be an Interior Designer in the end, it was left like my passion to be an Artist. I manage to make one of my work into a reality, as my End Year Art Festival, I made a miniature house from scratch and it took me 4 dreaded months to finish.

Meet my baby, the house where’s inspiration is from minimalist houses in Japan

Public Speaking; I love to express my thought. If I have a random opinion, I would say it. I open up easily to people, it won’t take me too long to talk with them easily. Like I said before, I am a debater so I am bound to have to be confident in Public Speaking. I am very proud to say I am known in my region as a great debater, a well-known public speaker despite I’m only in High School or fresh out of it tbh *yes let me brag pls*. I enjoy talking abt what I think, which is right and which is logical. I like to change ppl’s perspective to not judge too quickly and simply educate ppl with random knowledge about the world.