#is this 100 ways?? i don’t actually know if it’s 100 ways

[rivetgoth]

Not sure what it’ll take to fix the massive misconception that testosterone HRT is something you take for a series of superficial / external changes and then stop. I mean it’s obviously fine to do that if you’re doing so with intentionality but all the time I see guys casually say stuff about “having gotten all the changes” or “the changes have plateaued” or “it’s not doing anything anymore” and citing that as reason to stop taking it. That just objectively isn’t how HRT works.

The external changes are great but hormones are doing way more behind the scenes than just giving you facial hair and a deeper voice, especially when it comes to aging. Individuals with T-dominant endocrine systems and individuals with E-dominant endocrine systems age differently. Fat distribution isn’t a one and done thing; those patterns continue to change and evolve over the course of your life. You as an old man on T for decades will look different than someone who has had an E-dominant endocrine system for that same amount of time. Tbh I think a lot of it is the fact that guys are accessing T at younger ages now and it’s just par for the course that young people don’t take aging into consideration lol. At 18-19 and younger you aren’t even really comprehending that you’re going to age, and for a group statistically more likely to be suicidal that’s tenfold. Lack of substantial research on the longterm effects of both HRT and stopping HRT play into this too.

That said though I think detransition fearmongering and even sort of misdirected transmisogyny kinda comes into play here as well. Testosterone as a substance that causes “permanent damage” is largely weaponized against trans women but it is also used to threaten us not to transition in the first place. The word “permanent” carries with it a lot of weight and you see all these people talk about the “permanent” effects of T but what’s lost in these conversations is what cisgender society is threateningly calling a “permanent” change is like… different than what these changes in an estrogen-dominant body do actually look like. We talk a lot about facial and body hair being a “permanent” change on T, but transmascs who stop T and trans women on E alike can report that estrogen causes these hairs to grow in softer and lighter; they won’t look how they did on T. Bottom growth is another “permanent” change that can shrink as erections soften. Your voice (another often-described-as-permanent effect) can change as E changes the body’s ability to grow and retain muscle. I think beyond splash damage from societal transmisogyny I’d even say some of the lack of understanding here comes from intracommunity transmisogyny & trans men not fully comprehending the level of change possible on estrogen, internalizing the sentiment that trans women’s changes are less meaningful than ours and not talking to trans women about what estrogen-based transition really looks like.

And again I’m not saying this to berate the people who intentionally go on T, know what to expect by stopping it, and do so with intentionality because they have a vision for what they want. That’s awesome, 100% valid. Do you. It’s more the wider misconception I see of HRT as something that “plateaus” and leaves a series of permanent unchanging effects while no longer doing anything else. And to overstep just a little I honestly think there are some men who would be happier if they continued to take T and are falling victim to larger transphobic institutions that have convinced them it’s unnecessary. As itskobold said on my post about HRT timelines you will keep changing forever. So it’s best to really consider what you want the layout of your endocrine system to be as those changes continue to occur.

[sprinklesoncake]

While I sip on my apple tea and eat my apple pie, let me tell you another my opinion of Calebs storyline.

Warning: Spoilers!

First of all, I was always a Caleb stan the moment I saw him and chapter 4 broke me back then. My worry was, how the devs will handle him in the story. It is hard writing a character who is suppose to be dead in MCs eyes.

His introduction was🥵 him in uniform and then using his evol against an assassin had me feel things and then the scene where the fleet landed and him in his sunglasses AHHHHHH!

The interrogation was also hot af! But that’s not my point, I could go on for days talking about how sexy Caleb is lol When they hugged you could actually feel the relief on both sides. Let me say this but MC in this story was better than before in my opinion.

And I know a lot are creep out by his possessiveness but knowing that he also lost his parents as a young child he probably was already traumatised and then MC came into his life, someone who gave him warmth, that little boy wanted to start protecting his sun so bad. In his anecdotes there is a hint that Caleb was already possessive like he is now. He almost lost his life too during his training as an aerospace pilot but the only thing that kept him fighting was the thought of MC. And now after the explosion he took the sacrifice to be an experiment so that MC won’t have to go through that. In his mind it’s better to be alive than letting MC fight on her own.

And that chip??? Every soldier seems to have in the fleet where they basically become cold and emotionless soldiers? Or when that kid was crying for his sister’s death and the chip realised an error? MC in his myth was implementing one into herself (Might be wrong but I think it is heavily implied) and the chip made her go crazy. She thought there is no tomorrow! Maybe that chip also makes Calebs fear even bigger and that’s why he’s like that now. And possessiveness might not be count as a “weak feeling” by the system.

His possessiveness throughout the main story makes more sense now if you keep that in mind. Am I still mad that he drugged us? Absolutely! But it shows me how easy it is for love turning into possession, the fear he feels makes him do things he normally wouldn’t act out. He wants to protect his sun so bad.

MC however wants to go back in time where everything was still alright. She sees that Caleb is in pain, that someone who had no secrets with her suddenly is not telling her everything. Unlike Zayne, who MC met again as basically “a stranger”, Caleb was constantly in her life and both of them didn’t want to be separated ever. It is understandable that she can’t grasp the “new Caleb” yet.

Both of them yearn for each other so badly and want whats best for the other one but they need to understand that none of them is the same as before. MC is not a child, she knows things about herself which she can’t ignore anymore and Caleb needs to accept that. MC on the other hand needs to accept that after the explosion, Caleb due to circumstances is not the Caleb she knew before.

I was so happy when the start of his myth told us that they found a way to coexist but you could feel that they don’t fully accept it 100%. Yet both of them are ready to die for each other.

And let’s not forget that MC is possessive herself. In his 4* where MC kisses his cheek, the story was about how MC thought he got a love letter and knowing how Caleb never accepted one before, she got curious. She vaguely asked Caleb in 3rd person and he thought she had a crush on someone. Both of them were restless and who tf gets restless not knowing your best friend crush?? UNLESS you yourself are possessive for that person. And the promise they both made at the end? “You promise to not ever get a girlfriend!” That is one cruel promise to make UNLESS again, you are possessive if each other and deep down you know you’ll end up together😂Crazy finds crazy😂

I really like how the devs wrote this story. It is exactly how I thought the vibe would be between those two and I can’t wait for the next story cards and main story.

What is your thought, dear reader?

[sqh3e]

who would say i love you first in RIIZE

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sungchan :

he’s definitely not afraid to admit he loves you, imagine you two have been dating for a about 2-3 months now and you both have seen eachother at your worst and your best. he would 100% be upfront about his feelings not beating around the bush with you, telling exactly what he wants, which is you. i don’t think this would be something he plans i think it would slip out and he’d just go with it. but of course if you don’t say it back he’d press you about it, not in a serious way but more in a playful way. if you don’t feel the same way he does he would just want to know.

seunghan :

he’d also be open about his feelings towards you, it’s something he isn’t necessarily used to but for you he’ll do anything. he knows that he loves you so why wait to say it? imagine you two have been together for a month now, it would be something he planned to say like the “perfect” way to say i love you. but nothing goes according to plan which would make him visible upset throughout the date until he just eventually says it.

anton :

he would DEFINITELY say it first idk, i think one day he’d get a strong wave of confidence and just say it. i could name a thousand scenarios of how it would go and how he would say it, anton would say it and say it and say it and say it. i feel like after he officially says it any little thing you do he’ll say he loves you, i don’t think this is something he would plan out i think he’d let whatever happens happen. i imagine you both been together a few months now, you were wondering why he didn’t say it yet so you were planning on saying it but he beat you to it.

shotaro :

he’d definitely get shy saying it for the first time, i think he’ll warm up to getting more and more comfortable saying it as the days go by he knew from the first few weeks of you both dating he loves you but he felt like there was never a right time until he realized there will never be a “right time” so he just went for it. i think he would be hesitant being the one to say it first just cause he wants to know if you feel the same way and vice versa which is why he just said it, i he wouldn’t beat around the bush about his feelings he just gets flustered talking about them.

wonbin :

he’s 100% confident with his feelings but he just feels like saying “i love you” is the next step in your relationship, he wants to take the lead and say it but he’s just to shy, he would get flustered just thinking about saying it to you. no matter how much he plans and thinks about it he just can’t seem to gather the confidence to say it, it’s not his feelings it’s just him overthinking things. eventually you tell him you love him and he says it back with no hesitation, makes you think he’s been wanting to say it.

eunseok :

oh i 100000% believe eunseok would NOT hesitate to tell you he loves you, but i also believe he’d want to hear you tell him first idk i get that vibe from him, it’s really 50/50 he’d want you to say it first but he’d also let his pride over take him and he’d want to beat you to it, like he’d want you to say it first but if you actually do it he’d probably go somewhat insane. he knows you love him and vice versa, imagine you two been together for about month and he’s been ready to say the words but never do wait for you too say then then you finally do.

sohee :

sohee wouldn’t tell you he loves you first, he’d be overly shy quickly flustered. even when you tell him i feel like he’d bury his face in your neck, he’d love the affection and of course he’d say it back i don’t think he would say it back the same day or even the next day. he’d say it back though i think he’d be overwhelmed by the affection he likes it, but saying “i love you” is something he’d want to ease into. he’s sure about his feelings but he’s also doesn’t want to feel like he’s rushing something you both aren’t ready hence is why he wouldn’t say it first.

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[zahri-melitor]

Okay, question for the audience as I simply don’t get it:

I understand why some people don’t like how Zdarsky characterises Damian (in that he’s petulant, violent, has needed to be rescued, and has fully committed to steadfastly believing the ‘wrong’ thing several times in the run…because he’s desperately trying to support Bruce).

I understand why some people don’t like how Zdarsky characterises Jason (in that Zdarsky is actually fully carrying through on ‘You Were A Villain, Jason, During Late Post-Crisis’ in terms of both Jason’s beliefs and tendency to kill).

Yeah. He’s cynical about the ethically dubious pair who are working in different ways for redemption, rather than coddling.

What I do NOT get is how or why anyone would cite Dick or Babs as OOC in Zdarsky’s run.

Babs is pretty standard with how she’s currently characterised, has exclusively appeared as Oracle, coordinates things and acts as conversation mediator (just like how Dick and Tim used to bring her their problems), is getting characterised as somewhat more ruthless in terms of violence and crime than Dick and Tim (and Bruce), which is good old fashioned Babs, and just seems like she’s back in the role of classic Oracle, as she appeared in plenty of titles she wasn’t featuring in.

Dick’s flippy, quippy, taking the lead with the rest of the fam against Bruce, knows a bunch of exclusive stuff to try and sort out Bruce clearly being off his rocker, is mad at Bruce but trying to avoid getting into a stand up fight too often…like, that’s Dick?

Sure, neither of them are featured in the book like Tim is, but you don’t actually need to use every character, and Zdarsky’s picking people for the roles he needs?

His Steph is in the ‘tending towards agreeing with Jason’ in the family sliding scale, which is what’s been happening in a number of titles recently, and is more interesting than bubbly Steph. (Plus Rosenberg was simultaneously using her as Jason’s One Ally in the family in The Joker: TMWST)

Cass and Duke barely appear, which look I understand the structural complaints about how this happens, but also, aside from the standard complaint every single time Cass goes down in a fight, they feel reasonably like themselves. Cass has been getting solid appearances in Tec and Spirit World and now picked up her own title again.

And if I’m hard hearted about it, Duke is 100% the first character I’d drop for overcrowding reasons in storylines heavily focused on Bruce’s mental health, because every single other character has better insight and longer baselines into Bruce being Bruceish than Duke has. (Also for the same reason I’d drop Steph)

People keep reciting to each other that ‘everyone in the Batfam but Tim is out of character’ and I don’t see it, other than Zdarsky using versions of Jason and Damian that their fans don’t enjoy?

[katesattic]

I’m sorry you are falling for the scams of copy-paste asks. These are not real accounts. These accounts are created for the scam, using googled images with “[x]fam” as their username asking for donations from sites that do not operate in Gaza.

And to the real people: unsolicited asks are NOT the way to go to get support. So many people put their backs up when they get an ask soliciting donations because of hoe rampant scammers are on this site - Gaza or not. Scammers have moved on from luring you in with sex to luring you in with empathy.

I 100% support vetted charities and resources but thanks to being on the internet for most of my life (and on Tumblr for literally 1/2 of my life), I know a scam when I see one. These are not personal pleas for support they are copy-pasta scams - same emojis, same images, just the family name has changed.

I am not callous to the genuine suffering of real people. I am callous to getting donation scams in my inbox - and that is the whole point of this post.

Be empathetic, be kind, be generous, but don’t let scammers take advantage of those qualities and donate your money real organisations that can actually make a difference rather than a fake, copy/pasted, sob story taking advantage of humans’ ability to sympathise and empathise.

I'm starting to feel callous for saying this:

Please, Please, Please, if you are in a situation where you need money or have a go-fund-me started, DO NOT send people asks about it.

Make a post with places to donate instead, spread awareness through reblogs, but don't go into strangers DMs or Ask Boxes soliciting donations. It makes you look like a bot, not a real person needing help.

The big scam one I'm seeing right now is individuals "in Gaza" asking for donations. Before Gaza they said the donations were because of an illness. Bots/scammers are using Gaza to pull at your heartstrings and scam you.

Donate to places you can trust. Like Amnesty International, Free The Children/WE Charities, UN Crisis Relief, Red Cross, etc. Places you know are credible.

I feel callous for deleting/blocking/reporting asks like that but just know it is a scam. It's using your empathy against you. Do not fall for those asks. Donate to causes, raise awareness, but delete and block those asks/dms because they are not real people. it's the same copy/pasted story on each one. Do your research before donating and be safe online.

[motleyfam]

Right now, i'm staying at my parents house because of uni vacations. I study abroad, so i'm living alone for the majority of the year. Naturally, as a kind of functioning adult, I can take care of cooking for myself, doing laundry, running errands, etc.

HOWEVER, the second i set a foot in my parents house, I become the MOST USELESS PERSON ALIVE. Suddendly, my rooms a mess, im forgetting to do the most stupid stuff, I HAVE ZERO SURVIVAL INSTINCTS.

(Obviously my brain is turning off because it knows it's safe and we can stop worrying about Everything)

All of this to ask: who do you think would have the hardest time with their brain going off?

First I thought it would be Tim. The latchkey kid whos been handling Everything since he's seven and now doesnt have to be responsible for every single aspect of his life.

But then obviously we have Jay who had to take care of his mother and had to worry about SURVIVING. (My bets on him rn)

And also just, Dick staying at the Manor for a long weekend and fucking up the eggs he was cooking.

Jason: How are you not dying of starvation.

Dick, confused cause he cooks breakfast everyday???: I SWEAR IM AT LEAST COMPETENT

Ohhh this is a cool concept. In the SOB universe, it’s 100% Dick. He can be a functioning adult—don’t get him wrong—he just takes every opportunity to be a kid while he still can.

I think a huge part of it is just him trying to show his younger siblings, who are also hyper competent people who grew up too fast, that it’s okay to be a kid and let others take care of you, and the best way he knows to do that is by example. Because if the grown-ass legal adult can still be silly, then the actual minors feel a little more entitled to act their age.

[greenesmyfavcolor]

I find it interesting how in the last two scenes of the entire show, Ned and Lily share very similar lines of dialogue that are each said to their respective loved ones, Chuck and Vivian. (obviously don’t read this if you don’t want spoilers for the ending!)

Ned says to Chuck, "I try to put your happiness before my own,” and Lily says to Vivian, "I did what I have done since the day you were born, chose your happiness over mine."

They’re very much parallels of each other, wanting to protect the people they love from potential harm, but not executing it in the way they should. Ned prevented Chuck from ever letting her aunts know she was alive again not only to protect themselves, but because Ned feared that if he let Chuck see her aunts again, she would choose them over him and leave him. Lily never told Vivian that she slept with her fiancé not only to protect Vivian from getting hurt, but because she feared Vivian would hate her afterwards and leave her.

The key difference between them being that Ned eventually realized that he wasn’t actually putting Chuck’s happiness over his own because if he did, he would have let her see her aunts again. When he finally realizes this, he states, "I'm finally putting your happiness before my own,” and allows her to see them again.

Meanwhile, Lily never truly put Vivian’s happiness over her own, even if she thought she did, because if she did, she would have told her the truth about her affair and stopped lying to her or better yet, she wouldn’t have stolen her fiancé in the first place. Vivian even knows this was never 100% true as she rejects Lily’s defense saying, “you don’t have to anymore.”

For Lily, it was all about protecting herself similar to what Ned was doing, but unlike Lily, Ned actually realized his faults. He finally put Chuck’s happiness over his own, all while knowing there was a possibility that Chuck might leave him, but she ended up not leaving him after all (at least I would assume based on the comics and the scrapped season 3 concept). Lily however never truly put Vivian’s happiness over her own so her worst fears ended up coming to life with Vivian kicking her out and presumably never wanting to speak with her again.

[castellanpilled]

Thoughts on Hermes and Luke’s relationship? Personally I’ve always had trouble viewing Hermes as actually having “tried his best” with Luke- to me, it’s always felt messed up that he left Luke with May for so long.

Like, I mean if Aphrodite can set off ALL the events of the titans curse with no consequence and she’s viewed as a “lesser” goddess by the other deities and campers, I’m sure Hermes could’ve done something more to help

Also what are your opinions on May and all the stuff with the oracle and how it affected Luke? I’ve always thought that was one of the things that really set him up for manipulation by Kronos, but you have really interesting things to say and I love reading your posts!!!

Oooh this is a really interesting one!!

(This is all talking about Pjo!Hermes, not the actual deity)

I think that Hermes was always aware of Luke; but after the whole oracle thing with May, he kind of just didn’t want to be around Luke because he knew that things would get worse. I don’t think he tried his best at all, though. Thing is, he didn’t send any kind of help to Luke, atleast not like he did with Percy in SoM. He just flat out,,, ignored Luke? And then obviously Hermes goes back to May AGAIN when Luke is 14, which I find stupid because if he was willing to visit May then surely he could’ve visited Luke. Furthermore, if we’re talking SHOW Luke, Hermes is even worse!! He’s out gambling at Lotus Casino!! He HAS TIME to visit his son! He literally proved that he’s not always busy!!

I think that he may have tried at some point, but it wasn’t actually enough. The guy “exists out of time and space,” so surely he could’ve come up with SOME WAY to visit his son? I also kind of think that he may have viewed Percy as Luke if it “went well” and that may have been why he tried to help Percy.

Luke’s anger for him also probably grew when he found out he had other kids who he was also ignoring. I’m sure he wasn’t happy when he found out that he was supposedly the favourite; the bar is realllllll low! I think that when Luke was younger, like, before his quest, he really did want his dad to pay attention to him; he really did care. All he wanted was fatherly love. Of course, then his quest happened, and that was the breaking point. He was vulnerable, so Kronos took control of that. I think if the quest had gone slightly different and Kronos had still tried to take control of Luke, he would’ve had atleast some mental clarity to say no. But he didn’t, and that was the difference.

Tldr; Hermes barely tried and did the bare minimum for his children

May and the oracle is complicated. I don’t really blame her for what happened; I also don’t think Luke did either. He was just so traumatised though that it was hard for him to see his mother in a positive light.

Obviously the curse of the oracle still affected her even after Luke left, and I don’t think it ever stopped affecting her. It wasn’t just “until your son dies,” because that would make no sense. It was for the rest of her life. I think that May is a really interesting character and the fact that she’s such a mystery just drives that. We know so much yet so little about her.

Anyways, it 100% was a factor in Kronos manipulating Luke. I mean, we know that he was plagued with nightmares from Kronos after the whole Ares thing, and a lot of those nightmares probably consisted of May and the oracle. Kronos definitely used it against him. I think there’s also a chance that Kronos was telling Luke that it was his fault it all happened; making him feel lesser, and then telling him that it can all be redeemed by joining him. Idk maybe that’s just me though :P

I do think May did try though, it’s just that the Oracle completely ruined her, so it was hard. I think she genuinely believed she could stop it all from happening if she just kept her son safe, but of course, the oracle kept her from being sane.

Also tysm AHFHFJFJ it means a lot to me omg 😭🫶

[cute-little-fly]

We don’t agree on some part, but I will just say that not all the fans of Helluva Boss accused Octavia. (and actually I am making this comment just because you said this, otherwise I usually don’t like to interact with critics of the show because even if I think you are not analyzing it fairly, you can have the opinion you want)

Actually, a lot of us are fans of her, and we have made tons of posts explaining and defending Octavia’s position (because yes is true that a lot of people had those nasty comments; but actually inside the core of the defenders lr the show most of us defended Octavia); so yeah there are all kinds of opinions here. Is not fair to accuse all the fanbase of something just to sustain your criticism. We don’t all think the same.

Is a complex situation, where Stolas is depressed and was unable to be the father she deserved. But the thing is that he loves her, and he can improve and try.

She will decide if she forgives him, but the bond they shared and all the years Stolas took care of Octavia is what will make her forgive him (all the drawings of the paintings and pictures in the Sinsmas episode are proof but the show had already hinted that).

I don’t know why most of the Stolas critics dismiss this so much. I know that the series don’t show much of their previous interactions (like before Blitzø) for us to understand better, but why dismiss this? It was a lot of sacrifice and he did it for love and without asking for anything. Years and years of being for her, even in an unhappy marriage. No wonder why he felt into depression. He gave everything to her, and no one gave anything to him.

I would say the same about Stella, but she is distant with her and we don’t know her side of the story yet. She is meant to be evil and that’s fine.

I also would be fine with her being a 100% innocent victim along Stolas by the way, but the story is formulated in this way, because is the story they want to tell. They know what will happen later and what they want to do with Stella, so I prefer to give them the benefit of the doubt for now and respect their story. I actually would even agree (in this AU scenario) with a story where at the end Octavia understands everything and forgives both of his parents, is not because of “baby Stolas”. So please, can we just respect the story? This is not a flaw of the narrative, is just that you don’t like the situation the characters are put in… and you don’t like that Stolas is forgiven and Stella isn’t, but you know, these kind of mothers can exist.

In my country, there is one legal case that was very famous, where a trans woman earned the custody of a boy that was malnourished and hurt with his biological mother, that was unable to take care of him. So, why so much reticence to have an evil mom? This shit happens guys, these stories have all the right to be told, no matter if the good parent is a mother or a queer dad. The rest of moms in helluva boss are also good (they had tragic endings I know, just Millie’s mom is alive but still…).

The only evil female character that I remember is Stella, because Verosika will clearly be redeemed or at least she will have peace and closure at some extent, and probably be neutral to Blitzø at the end… Still, you complain.

I know that Stella could have been done better even as a villain, but her character error is not that she isn’t good or victim enough. Victims can also become abusers, and bad people if they are not treated or intervened early.

Lastly, I will just put a question to think:

Would you say the same if Stolas was Stella and Stella was Stolas? Like, would you say that Stolas is villainized so Stella can be the victim? I believe that a lot of people would not… if the answer is no, you have double standards.

A lot of critics also don’t want to understand that liking this story or couples doesn’t mean completely endorsing everything they do. We don’t see a baby Stolas (if you see something like that is just that we love the stupid owl, but most of those people won’t deny his mistakes), we see a broken man that was abused, neglected and alone his whole life that does terrible choices/actions bc of that trauma and that sadly, ended up damaging the people he loves the most because all of that.

You know they are trying, but sometimes they fuck up, but you also understand why and where they come from. This is a story where it is assumed that you are trying to understand why the characters do what they do (this includes Octavia) and that you look at them with compassion but also wishing them to improve and be the best they can be. Not that you just blindly endorse them, neither villainize them from their flaws.

Helluva Boss fans expect Octavia to be a bigger person than her own damn father. She's 17 and expected to be patient and hear out the father that, in her perspective, chose a man he cheated with over her. They put it on Octavia to be understanding of her poor daddy because "he was abused and how could she be so selfish whe should hear him out-"

Like I understand the writing of this show is middle school level and Stella is reduced to a stupid vapid evil flat cardboard of a character so Stolas can be free from all wrong doing because he has to be the victim-

But Octavia is a fucking kid. Stolas is a fucking adult. You can't put all the blame on Stella for Stolas's actions towards his own daughter. He did choose Blitzo over her.

Im not hear to talk about Stolas and Blitzo and Stella because that's a can of worms of sexual coercion and abuse and shit thats not handled with any dignity or grace and im tired of arguing about.

But Octavia is a kid and to see yall crucifing her because she's acting like a kid in a shit situation because your poor uwu owl boy got his feelings hurt.

Im tired of this fandom and this show only catering to Stolas and acting like he's the victim of everything.

And i know later the show will have Octavia found out about how her mom is just a cardboard flat bitch and the show will make her come to Stolas apologizing as if she's not the kid and he's the father in the situation.

Like I'm tired

[mediumgayitalian]

Nico wakes up to gagging and a soft glow coming from the bathroom.

His first thought is, bizarrely, that Hazel’s home. But her bunk is still empty, and her shoes aren’t by the door, and she didn’t wake him when she came in. She always wakes him when she comes in, even if it’s four thirty in the damn morning, because nothing makes her cackle quite like Nico choking back curses and tweaking under her smothering pillow.

“Shit,” comes a small voice from the bathroom, followed by more retching. “Shitshitshit, no —”

Nico bolts for the door.

“Hi,” Will says, or tries to. His scarred knuckles clench with every gag, wrapped too tightly around the rim of porcelain to tremble like the rest of him.

Something about the wobbly smile he keeps trying to form in between gags. Something about the sweat that has drenched his t-shirt, something about the deep circles under his eyes, something about his spot in the bed completely cold, wrinkled.

Something is not adding up.

“You’re not sick,” Nico murmurs, pressing the back of his hand to Will’s forehead. Will mutters something about bliss, leaning into Nico’s hand; he smiles again, but it is strained, and at odds with the glassy look in his eyes. The sharp, rapid breaths.

“Just don’t — feel good.”

Every word is punctuated by a big, heaving gasp, like he’s trying to breathe through heavy cotton. On a hunch, Nico slides his hands down Will’s face, brushing the goosebumps on his neck, the irritated, pulsing tendons, and rest flat against his chest, over his heart.

His heart that is pounding, so quickly it is actually challenging to recognise as a beat rather than a buzz.

“You’re having a panic attack,” Nico says quietly.

Will shrugs. He gags again, but clamps his mouth shut before it goes anywhere, breathing deeply and carefully through clenched teeth, squeezing his eyes shut. His heart pounds faster, and the rapid movement of his chest grows shallow, but he manages to choke back his bile, swallow down whatever nausea is plaguing him.

“I’m — fine.” His laboured breathing is the loudest sound in the cabin. In the camp. “I’m handling it.”

Nico watches him. Watches him clench his jaw and squeeze his eyes shut and make a noise like he is being betrayed, like he is being sold for thirty silver by his own body, his own mind; watches him flex his muscles rigid and hold himself still like he can stop the nails and thorns from coming. He thinks of wide smiles and far away eyes and mental health pamphlets and cheerful slogans on infirmary walls.

“I think one of those things are true.”

“I don’t need —”

Whatever he doesn’t need is forgotten, because he is heaving again, only this time his body finds something to dredge up, even if that something is stomach acid and he cries as it burns its way up his throat, and in between heaving he wheezes, horrible whistling gasping noises, and his hair plasters to his forehead, and his body slumps into Nico’s hold and jerks away from him like rocky waves against a lakefront.

“How long have you been here?”

Will just shrugs again, and he cries, and he says “Leave, please,” and Nico wraps an arm tighter around his waist, and presses a kiss to his sweaty temple, lingering, holding, tasting salt from Will and from his tears both, and squeezing his eyes shut, and holding back the anger. Gritting his teeth and softening his hold, deliberately, resting his fingers delicately on the dip of Will’s hip, the raised pink of the stretch marks along his ribs.

“I hate it when you run from me,” he murmurs, and Will sobs again.

“I can’t breathe,” he says, and Nico squeezes and promises he can. “I’m dying. I’m dying, I’m gonna —”

“I’m here, Will.” He doesn’t say you’re not dying. He doesn’t say you’re fine, because this is the longest they’ve sat together in five days, because it is the the quiet middle of June, because yesterday Kayla spent half her shift screaming at Will to get out and ignoring him when he shouted back. Because the bandage around Will’s wrist has been worn to threads, because Lee’s hoodie has not been washed in weeks, because there is a newcomer named Michael and Will cannot even look at him. Because it has been bad. “I’m here.”

It is as much a reminder as it is a plea as it is a reprimand as it is a fruitless nothing, because when Nico struggles he gets angry, when Nico struggles he gets mean and biting and violent, but when Will struggles he wants the world to kill him. And for all that Nico is halfway to the grave he has clawed and chewed and fought his way to survival. And when Will scratches at the skin around his ears and screams into his hands and opens the chapped over scars on his lips his palms his fingers, Nico can only hold him, Nico can only gently pry his nails from his flesh and tell himself that one day they will get to the point where Nico wakes up. Where Will wakes him up, where he burrows into the place between his arms and his chest and hides in someone else for once. Where he trusts someone outside of himself enough to bare his back.

“I’m here,” he whispers again, and he presses his lips to Will’s hair and holds him as he sobs, “I’m here, I’m here, I’m here.”

[echo-of-the-eye]

Can’t stop thinking about Viktor and Jon parallels cause I have tma brainrot and anytime I see anything even remotely similar I go “is that a magnus reference?”

Anyways thinking about the differences in the choices they did and did not make and how both of them came back from the dead and were involved in ending the world.

I talked a bit about it before but Jon chooses to come back to life and become a monster. Granted it wasn’t a fair choice but he did choose it. Meanwhile the end of the world was not his choice. As much as he thinks otherwise it was not his fault. He didn’t “accidentally” start the apocalypse, he wasn’t “manipulated into it” he straight up did not end the world. Jonah did. Using Jon. Yes he was manipulated to prepare for the ritual (still not his fault), but actually ending the world? Jonah did that. He straight up took control of his body. Jon was the tool. The key to open the door. Jonah shaped the key and turned it.

Viktor is the opposite. He did not choose to come back to life. In fact he had basically accepted his death and was actively suicidal. Jayce brought him back (and I don’t really blame him for that. He didn’t know the consequences and he was trying to save the man he loved). Viktor did however, almost end the world (and succeeded in some timelines? I’m confused). Now it’s hard to say how much of that was Viktor. He was heavily influenced by the arcane, but Jon was also heavily influenced by the Eye (not that you can really compare them). We don’t know how sentient the arcane is but we can guess that its main goal/instinct is to spread. If it worked through Viktor or if it was simply influenced him, altering his thoughts and feelings to more easily rationalize what he was doing. Either way Viktor would not have done what he did without the arcane. But he did do it. The arcane isn’t a person. You can’t really put all the blame there. And we did see that Viktor was still in there, deep down, enough that he could change his mind. Meaning that to a certain degree, he did choose it. Viktor’s actions were his own, even if they were influenced. He’s the most responsible for what happened. Jayce also carries some responsibility for bringing Viktor back in the first place and creating hextech alongside Viktor, but again, he did not know the consequences of that. Neither did Viktor at first. So how much are they to blame?

I just find it fascinating how such similar events (even if they are still vastly different) happen in two completely different series and how the characters had different levels of agency throughout it.

[idontmindifuforgetme]

I’m happy for the little life I built for myself

[wawataka]

i know this jokes been made like a million times but here’s my take

[oneofthosecrazycatladies]

Word of advice to incoming university students from someone whose been a university student for nearly a decade now:

Having a good professor seriously makes all the difference. I just had finals for the summer and I took a math class. On the final exam, there was one question I didn’t know how to do so I just skipped it and left it blank…my professor didn’t take off any points for that.

My professor also dropped my lowest test score which raised my overall grade a couple percentage points.

I mean, if you’re just a genius or child prodigy or something then maybe you don’t care about what professors you have, but if you’re just a regular-brained peasant like me, make sure you do your research and actually put thought into the classes you take because who teaches them can make all the difference.

[fisherrprince]

oh so alisaie’s exaggerated bully behavior is 80% fanon. saying this she casually picks up a large rock

[seaweedstarshine]

RIP Krakoa 🌹 I can’t lie I’ve been kinda behind since midway through Fall of X I’m gonna catch up before my first SDCC this summer but I hear Vulcan didn’t see much action anyway. Anyway my hand slipped and I found myself looking into the eyes of my canonically psychotic son the best Summers brother who’s never done anything wrong in his entire life, (he’s done lotsa wrong things but I love him more for it)