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peers out into the abyss, in the year 2024. dusts off spy au tag after nine (??????) years. anyone still here?? hello. i finally bring more of it. here it is on ao3 if tumblr is rude about it.
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It all comes out rather mechanically and professionally, but Annabeth thinks that might make it all worse. She knows there are aspects of her life she isn’t allowed to share, and she avoids details like who exactly she works for. It’s almost like she’s giving a summarizing report to a superior, not a boyfriend. But at the look on his face as she unweaves her life, she realizes she should probably stop thinking of Percy Jackson as her boyfriend. She is an infiltrator who steamrolled her way over his life, and he watches her with a deep undercurrent of hurt and hostility. “I was just supposed to find out more about what was happening with Jason’s dad,” she says, her voice hollow and apologetic. “With the company. I didn’t expect…” Luke and gunshots. Dragging Percy through a dangerous situation when he was only meant to be a window into information. Piper and Jason to be solid, lovely friends. Percy Jackson to arguably be the best relationship she’s ever had.
“I’m sorry.”
Percy’s quiet. He’d stayed quiet the whole time she spoke, graciously allowed her the uninterrupted time to explain herself, even when she knew she hadn’t deserved it. Annabeth feels like she’s standing on glass, but she’s not about to make the next move. He looks at her, then looks around the room, then back at her. Percy is an unexpectedly thoughtful guy, but this level of silence churns her gut. She swears she hears the clock ticking. “So, do you like, not even care about penguins?”
She stares at him, befuddled. “What?” Percy crosses his arms, angrily tapping his fingers against his bicep. “That’s what you talked to me about, when we met. You asked me about penguins.” The fact that he remembered really shouldn’t surprise her. Her face falls; her reply is haphazard. “Everybody cares about penguins.” “Good, because if you lied about penguins on top of everything else, we might really have a problem.” His tone is bitingly sarcastic, a bullet of its own kind, and she flinches, however deserved. “I’m sorry,” she mutters, again. “Annabeth, you lied. About everything. About - about - ” He trails off and throws his hands up in the air, before grabbing his water and chugging about half to cool himself down. She doesn’t really know how much it’ll actually cool him down, but it’s his go-to. “I was going to tell you. That’s why I wanted to meet you - before Luke showed up -” Percy glowers. “Then what? You just - you thought everything would be fine?” She shakes her head. “I didn’t know what! I just knew I had to stop lying!” “Yeah? Took you how many months?” He pauses. “Months. You’ve been pretending to date me for months.” It’s like the reality of that finally, wholly sinks in for him, and his anger flashes with heartbreak heavy enough to punch her own. She can’t even reach out to him. The urge is there, but she restrains it, knowing full well she’s lost the privilege of touching him. “It was my job, Percy,” she says after a moment, a weak attempt at some sort of defense she knows won’t hold up. “You’re not even an architect.” He says it like that surprises him most of all, but she supposes she had been rather passionate about it. She knows as much about design as she does intelligence. “No,” she admits, then admits something else not many people do know. “But I almost was.” He looks at her again, with regret, anger, and even a sort of empathy she doesn’t think she deserves. “I watched you shoot someone.” Her demeanor betrays her, as she feels her eyes well up. “I had to.” “I know,” he says quietly, frowning. He closes his eyes and turns away from her, pressing his hands against the kitchen counter and leaning against it, like somehow it’s another realization that hammers in the reality of his girlfriend.
Annabeth uses the brief respite to furiously wipe at her eyes. She doesn’t know how to salvage this. She wants to, badly. She’s simultaneously done one of the best and worst jobs she’s ever been assigned. Discovering Luke changed the game. Falling in love with Percy altered her life entirely.
It takes a few minutes, but Percy finally turns back around to look at her. He watches her like she’s a stranger despite the knowing flicker to his eyes. He knows a lot about her, the side of her that isn’t a spy, the side of her she sometimes wishes could be present more often. But she is a spy too, and part of the job description includes sabotage. She’s always been very good at that. She’s just never sabotaged herself before.
“I told you I loved you,” he says, and that hurts most of all, because it sounds like he doesn’t believe it. Like he can’t believe he’d gone and fallen for her, that he played right into her hands.
Her expression shatters. “I know,” she says, the words catching. She has to tell him now, because she doesn’t know if she’ll get another chance. It’s a ruinous confession but there’s no escaping it. “And I - I fell in love with you too, Percy. I wanted to tell you so badly.”
He looks gobsmacked. “How? When it was all just - just bullshit to you?”
Annabeth shakes her head. “No. It wasn’t. It might have started that way, but -”
“How am I supposed to believe that, Annabeth? How can I possibly know anything you say to me is going to be the truth at this point? I just watched you - watched you take on some guy, shoot him in the leg, and work with a whole team of super spies, and now you’re here trying to tell me you love me?” He almost sounds desperate to believe it himself. Like he doesn’t want to not love her. He runs a hand through his hair, and Annabeth doesn’t know what to say to any of that. “Fuck. Jason and Piper, they trusted you too.”
“I -”
His face darkens. “I introduced you to my mom.” He whirls on her, eyes hard. “Is my mother safe?”
Annabeth nods immediately, and the look he gives her might be the worst one yet. “I had a team check on her apartment. And someone’s watching outside, just to be sure.”
Relief washes over him, but anger still bubbles under the surface. Maybe she never should have gone to meet Sally. Maybe this wouldn’t be happening now, because somehow it feels like Sally Jackson is one of the pieces that made everything feel more real. But that’s wishful thinking, because there was no future with Percy Jackson in the cards under the circumstances in which she first came into his life to begin with. She foolishly allowed herself to feel like maybe there could be - like the laughing and the cuddling and the smiling and the happiness that swarmed inside her could be genuine, if she let go of so many other pieces. If she stopped being a liar.
Luke always did bring out the worst in her, but she doesn’t even know if she can wholly blame him. Percy’s reaction to the truth was doomed to exist, no matter how she admitted herself to him. Perhaps they were doomed from the start too. She knows that. She just wishes she didn’t know that.
“It explains some things,” Percy says slowly, like he doesn’t want to say it at all. “I guess I tried to ignore them. I really wanted this to work. I’ve never met anyone like you before.”
“You’re one of the best people I’ve ever met. I don’t want to lie to you anymore, Percy.”
His face is crestfallen. “And I feel like I don’t even know who you are, Annabeth.”
He looks at her for a very, very long time. Annabeth doesn’t keep track. She’s run out of things to say, run out of excuses, run out of apologies, and Percy looks burnt out on his anger. He’s cradling it, afraid to let go, but tired of holding it.
He deflates. “I can’t…”
Annabeth swallows. Waiting. It feels like something of an end.
“Get out. Just go, please.”
She does.
#percy jackson#annabeth chase#percabeth#heroes of olympus#i don't even know what the kids are using for tags these days#is it still only the first five????#spy auing#tomato writes#god i havent posted in so long i have no idea if this looks ok formatting wise i guess let me know and i can fix it#the new post editor sucks
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Non-Canadians of tumblr!
if you picked one of the options lemme know in the tags how you heard about them (or if you have a totally different canadian band you know and want to rant about!)
#canada#polls#canadian music#queer musicians#hey tash why are you making 500 polls about canadiana?#idk leave me alone it's been a weird week#rock music#punk music#french music#foreign music#heavy metal#singer songwriter#indie music#indie pop#indie rock#does tumblr still only use the first five tags? or did it change to 20#i can't remember and also refuse to look it up
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heeey guess what, I'm obsessed with this idiot flamingo now
#art#ride kamens#ride kamens spoilers#maybe? i don't know when to stop tagging for main story stuff#i took a while getting through it but my god has gambit win taken over my entire brain#especially this moron. he fascinates me#he won't tell anyone his age and the only name he'll give is fralio#he's never had a job in his life. he paints his toenails but not his fingernails. he dresses like a comic relief yugioh villain.#i 100% believe this man taught himself how to speak six different languages but doesn't know what a fraction is#an evil cult brainwashed him into being a villain but couldn't stop him from constantly being distracted by shiny plastic toys and anime#his special skill is animal impersonations#i want to put him on a slide and study him under a microscope. he's everything to me.#kakeru will be the first person to tell you how much fralio sucks and he still spent five whole years pining after this dipshit#then decided to just up and dedicate his entire life to rescuing his stupid friend and bringing him home#and honestly i get it. i've only had not-evil fralio for like two chapters and i'm already ready to pledge my life to him#and i was pretty ready before he got his memory back tbh#give 👏 him 👏 an 👏 audition 👏
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お大事に、ウィルスン‼
this is over a year old now but i never posted it! i guess i wanted to do a few more finishing touches...
now available as a print!
#deltarune#utdr#kris dreemurr#ralsei#noelle holiday#my signature is less obtrusive in the print version#susie#kris deltarune#ralsei deltarune#noelle deltarune#susie deltarune#deltarune fanart#deltarune chapter 2#fanart#color#print#procreate#ipad#inprnt#does it still work that only the first five tags even matter?
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All of my illustrations for Angeltober this year. I didn't include the excerpts, they will probably get their own post.
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#angeltober#illustration#my art#angel art#biblically accurate angel#seraph#seraphim#cherub#cherubim#still don't know if only the first five tags show up or if that's been fixed
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so, iterators are kinda 1/2 1/2 metal n flesh right?
What if it slowly got more biological over time? Science progressing n all that.
I think it'd be cool if iterators from different eras looked completely different from each other :3
#art#original art#rain world#rainworld#iterator#five pebbles#rw five pebbles#rw slugcat#rw iterator#rw looks to the moon#rw no significant harassment#rw seven red suns#srs#rw sliver of straw#rw hunter#rw spearmaster#ive seen mostly just robotic iterators out there#so more squishy looking or just full on creatures would be cool#i also fell to just kinda “silly lil humanoid bot” thing too#but i wanna experiment a lil more now#and FP being a bug hehehe#i just thought NSH would be a lil softer#still no fur though only skin n stuff#fucks with cooling the systems n all that#also snake moon is a fun idea#thought dolphin first but thats just too easy#anyhoo#WHAT THE FUCK WHY DID MY WILD ROBOT THING GET THOUSANDS OF NOTES
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I love him. He doesn't have to care about me. I don't have to be his number one. But he must not hate me. Do you get it? I get you. In fact, I get you so damn well.
Only Friends (2023) dir. Jojo Tichakorn & Ninew Pinya
#only friends#only friends the series#onlyfriendsedit#oftsedit#ofts#ofts sand#first kanaphan#sandray#raysand#yes this is a heartbroken sand gif compilation#and there's still five episodes left!#plenty of time for more suffering#:)#cw strobe#cw flashing
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Your childhood crush next door barely knows you exist despite you both living in the smallest town on the planet. To get her attention, you join the military, inspired by your celebrity crush. You don't have a great time, but you eventually do get a boyfriend. You then get to go on the mission of a lifetime with your boyfriend and your celebrity crush! The mission takes you back to your hometown on a journey during which you are accompanied by your childhood crush! Your celebrity crush has a bad time and burns the town, and, as far as you're aware, murders your childhood crush, while mortally wounding yourself and your boyfriend. After recovering for a while, your boyfriend breaks out of captivity with you and sets off to cross the planet with the intention of returning to the apparent safety of his girlfriend who he won't stop talking about. Your boyfriend is then murdered mere steps before you reach your long-sought destination. After arriving in his stead, you unexpectedly run into... your childhood crush! You're so happy she's alive you agree to help her terrorist organization seek revenge on those responsible for your celebrity crush burning your hometown (and for murdering your boyfriend who you're suddenly having a tough time remembering). In the process, you run into your boyfriend's girlfriend! She joins your cause and after travelling together for a little while, she becomes your girlfriend! All seems well until your celebrity crush returns from the dead to murder your girlfriend and your boyfriend's girlfriend, who are the same person. You and your boyfriend are also the same person now, making her your girlfriend twice, technically. You and your celebrity crush are also also the same person now, apparently, meaning, in a way, you and your boyfriend both murdered your girlfriend and your boyfriend's girlfriend who is your girlfriend. You are Cloud Strife.
#clerith#clack#cloud strife#sephiroth#zack fair#aerith gainsborough#tifa lockhart#zerith#cloti#sefikura#rebirth spoilers#ffvii spoilers#I'm pretty sure tumblr still only shows posts in the first five tags that you list but I am physically incapable of being less thorough
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NAM HAENG SEON & wardrobe Crash Course in Romance (2023)
#crash course in romance#jeon do yeon#kdramaedit#kdramaladies#kdramadaily#nam haeng seon#crashcourseinromanceedit#perfect opportunity to make my fave kind of set#😩💘#this is only from the first five eps and still I had to narrow it down. overwhelmed!#she's soooooooooooooooo-#*edits#kdrama
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sequel to this ramble cause the way james talks bout the reduced cherik scenes throughout the xmen films in this video is making me want to kill people. 'we'll always have paris darling' what if we all blew up.
#xmen#xmen first class#xmen dofp#xmen apocalypse#xmen dark phoenix#cherik#snap chats#im gonna be sick ive rewatched this like five times#IM STILL PISSED AWF AND THEN HEARING HIS COMMENTARY ABOUT IT OUUUUGGHHHH#OOOH WHAT IF I THREW ROCKS#LIKE WHAT THE HELL WAS CUT. aside from that gorgeous 'where are you doing' scene in first class ofc BUT WHAT ELSE#im forced to believe there was a make-up and/or hate sex scene in dofp because wdym they were worried about censorship#LIKE WHAT. WHAT DID THEY CUT. CAUSE CENSORSHIP OVERSEAS IS ONLY FOR EXPLICITLY QUEER THINGS INNIT#maybe paris can be our always i hate it here NO I LOVE HOW THE PARIS BIT IS EVEN /THEIR/ COPE#LIKE PLEAAAAASSE im throwing up. maybe if i draw cherik ill feel better#on the real its genuinely so sad. like even outside of shipping this is still art being reduced#and what we have is still good but the thought that it coudlve been BETTER ...#again their connection is already good from what we have in the final but just ... the lost emphasis of it all if that makes sense#ESPECIALLY outside of first class and dofp- like their relationship really is so sparse in DP and apocalypse its so sad#i think what makes it esp sad is how upset james is about the cut material like its so nice that hes so invested in their relationship too#and its just gotta be so. Excuse Me What when youre told 'hey so your characters cant having a deeper relationship or we're fucked'#'even though the relationship between these two is one of the most fascinating aspects of this generation of xmen films'#is it so hard to want to see like .. even just an intimate 'friendship'. like would it be so bad to see them be so heartfelt#or even just bein a bit silly. or hell ill take them fighting again ANYTHING I BEG YOU the humanity between them is so important#LIKE PLEASE im gonna cope and seethe forever i fear#and when he said 'i thought 'its probably the last time we get to do this to each other'' :((((((((((((((((((((( shoot me#at least we'll always have paris ....
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encore nnks
#you guys have no clue how many times I've drawn this stupid scene.#(<- enjoys it every time)#I think this is my first time actually Posting it though#usually I'm too nervous....lmao#and now I'm finally posting it :DDD good job me#my art#my aus#encore au#project sekai#nenekasa#nene kusanagi#tsukasa tenma#by the way. I spent like three or four hours on this. jesus.#I usually only spend ~1hr on like everything#but also this is Completely Painted#like. I didn't even do lineart. I made a very messy sketch and colored in messy then Did Shit#until it looked good#I kept having to redo nenes handssss#I don't really like her right hand still#but also there wasn't really a sketch I drew five lines as fingers and rendered them#so I think I did pretty good.#whenever I look at tsukasa your adventure plays in my mind cause I put it on loop and spent SO LONG struggling on his clothes#i had to do another sketch for his clothes. i literally pulled thed esign out of my ass becuase i didnt wanna pull out my old ref from like#a year ago#anywaanywayfnwaybywa. post
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blessings roll call! add on in the tags if you so wish <3
#new (to me) car! huge answer to prayer!#was lowkey so stressed about car issues I was actively losing sleep over it.#having a reliable comfy and relatively cheap car now is such a blessing#dad very generously emptied his CDs out of the cool 30-yr-old compact holder I've been coveting for years and gave it to me#so now I get to party like it's 2007 driving around with my CDs expertly contained and catalogued#got accepted into the OTA program I was applying for all through the summer!#so gotta set up classes for that#more good school news is I've already done all the the co-reqs for next semester's OTA classes#meaning I only have 2 classes + choir which I'll do for fun and thus can work more hours and also have time for an actual life#looking forward to a more restful semester#time with family and friends has been so precious lately#even though it's been scarce it's been lovely and joyful when it happens#looking forward to the holidays actually for the first time in years!#usually they're dreaded because of family drama but I think I can manage to find joy anyway#and also choose to spend less time or no time in or around the drama#looking forward to break. three more weeks of classes and then freedom for five glorious weeks.#looking forward to Advent especially!#also made soup today and it's so good#thankful for a good job and for getting along with my coworkers#and immensely thankful for books especially audiobooks without which I would not have survived this year#and for the Gospel of John. it's holding me together rn. struggling through some faith questions and some anger towards God#the last few months#but as long as I can stay in scripture...it still seems worth it.#blessings
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“Curly deserved better” “curly deserved so much more” “curly didn’t deserve what happened to him”
No no no no that’s the POINT. Curly is just as bad as Jimmy. He let so many of the giant red flags that tumbled out of Jimmy’s mouth slide. He was told multiple times about the abuse Jimmy was inflicting on Anya. He ignored Anya even when she pushed so far as to hide the gun on the ship bc she genuinely feared what Jimmy would do to her. Curly heard it all- saw it all- and he chose to do nothing. He had every opportunity to intervene before the crash but he didn’t. He chose not to. He blathered on and on about responsibility, about his willingness to do anything for his crew, but when they needed him most he did nothing. He just stood there and watched and let it happen.
And now he can’t do anything. He has lost the ability to make that choice. He physically can’t intervene now. His chance to change things and take responsibility has passed him by. Now, he has to just sit there and watch how the mask formed from all those red flags he so willfully ignored peels away and reveals the monster that was always there beside him. Now, he has to just sit there and watch as one by one, Jimmy manipulates and drives each and every one of the people that he swore up and down he would protect to the very edge, and kills them. Now, he just has to sit there and watch as Jimmy justifies each of his actions by blaming everyone else for the situation he put them in- the situation that Curly allowed him to put them in. He has to sit there and watch as Jimmy does everything in his power to create a palatable, sanitized narrative of what happened all so he can cover up what he was doing.
And Curly chose to stand there passively and allowed all of it until he physically didn’t have a choice anymore.
And in the end, Curly is the only one left to tell the story. The story of how it was all his responsibility, how he was supposed to do anything for his crew. And now, it’s all his fault because he couldn’t do just one thing. He has to live with that fact for the rest of his life. He has to live with the fact that his willful ignorance, his choice not to act, cost four people their lives. He will live with those physical and mental scars forever. But even worse, he has to live knowing that that’s the truth. And that in some cruel, twisted way, Jimmy was right.
The truth doesn’t really get rid of that awful taste in your mouth though, does it?
#hello I have very normal thoughts#idk man I am just very tired of people defending curly as if he is not just as bad as Jimmy#the only person worse than the predator is the one who knows they they’re actively victimizing people#and CHOOSES to turn a blind eye to it#knowingly enabling the abuse to avoid simply dealing with a conflict??#especially when you’re the CAPTAIN???#nah. straight to jail#and yes I know people say pony express would have penalized the whole crew for one person’s actions#we know that bc it happens within the first five minutes of the game#but three things:#first off if curly’d reputation is half as good as is mentioned then I feel like he could have swayed the blowback to just be on Jimmy#second of all even if upper management is an issue there were still tons of measures he could have taken to stop Jimmy#lock him up. or keep him monitored at all time between curly and Swansea. stick him in the cryopod. etc#and third. THE COMPANY WENT UNDER ANYWAY. THERE WAS NOTHING HOLDING HIM BACK EXCEPT HIS OWN FUCKIN NEPOTISM#There is no way you can spin this to make curly look good I’m sorry#he is one of Jimmy’s victims. yes. absolutely. but before he was his victim he was still Jimmy’s accomplice#a very willing accomplice at that#and no amount of sanitizing the story will change that fact#and he has to live with that now#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#panda posting
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For all the complaining about Grian knowing what the wild cards are I do appreciate that so far it seems that he barely has an advantage
#session one he still managed to nearly kill himself by shrinking on the edge#and i haven't watched his session two yet but considering it randomizes every 30 min intreval#he has only has the advantage for the first like five minutes and then when everyone figures it out they're all in the same boat again#like he did a good job and y'all doubted him 😔#grian#wild life#life series spoilers#rabbit rambles
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Chapter 419 Analysis or "How to make allies not pawns" a helpful guide from League of Villains (part 2)
This is now a second part of Tomura character analysis.
With chapter 419 being probably our last time seeing Tomura for a while, since we need to learn what happened with Aizawa now is time to remember that not only bad things exist it Tomura's life.
Warning of spoilers to the whole manga to the point of chapter 419! All of the warnings from My Villain Academy side of manga are applicable
So like... mentions of death, killing other people, manipulation, emotional abuse and many more!
This is Part 2 - See here for Part 1 of this depressing mess
With AFO being so sure that he knows better and actually controlled every single part of Tenko's life creating a Symbol of Fear without any redeeming qualities or even hope for saving after he destroys him. There's one thing that AFO still doesn't understand about Tomura and never did - and that's his allies, or the League of Villains that he created.
Even Kurogiri, being a Nomu who's views do not stray from what AFO thought was important didn't exactly understand what did Tomura think about his allies quick to assume that he thought of them as pawns all the was back in the Training Camp arc. With Tomura making game examples to explain the situation, he still didn't think of LoV as just pawns on a desk, like AFO does.
At the time of USJ arc there weren't many people Tomura called this, which could make you wonder how much it was just AFO's plan rather than Tomura's with him never worrying about those other villains yet getting so worked up over losing Nomu not only because he was strong enough to defend him from All-Might, but treating his defeat as something that must be avenged.
And that was long before Stain even entered the picture, the first of three people who greatly affected Tomura's view of his own motives alongside AFO's manipulation of literally everything else.
Tomura was terrified of fighting All-Might seconds before this and yet as this goes on it's becoming more noticeable - Tomura doesn't care for his own fear or worries as long as he's fighting for someone else's good. Not so different from how Izuku is ready to disregard himself for the sake of others, resulting in many injuries and being so close to dying so many times.
It never was a secret that Tomura is highly dependent on others to keep himself from losing confidence, or even will to fight, getting either too anxious to continue without anyone's reassurance.
And while AFO's "help" was mostly given only with some kind of lesson as we saw in "Tomura Shigaraki: Origin", with AFO literally sitting there, saying how Tenko is weak for not killing but showing some restrain instead suffering himself, never actually helping or comforting him. Only offering what he deemed nessesary for his own plan of making Tenko kill those thugs not caring that he's feeling sick from those hands.
But in USJ it's not AFO who's there with Tomura, it's Kurogiri, who was shown to still have some care that Shirakumo had that even Aizawa and Mic couldn't argue that it's similar to how Shirakumo couldn't just leave a kitten in the rain. No matter the responsibility that it would bring with taking a little one in.
A helpless little kitten that didn't get the help it needs from anyone else. Sounds way too familiar.
This never was a direct order from AFO other than he needs to "tend and protect" for Tomura, which can mean anything from just looking out when Tomura's sick, or protect him from any tread like someone trying to kill him.
Not helping him getting over his anxiety to fight or helping him and guiding him to do better as a leader of the League calming him if it got out of control. Which is somewhat opposite to the way AFO deals with Decay and Tomura's temper - letting him destroy anything even the hands that he gave him, just offering new ones when he succeedes and never really caring for his pawns, he can always get new ones.
And surely not asking if Tomura's well the first thing while talking to Heroes.
Which then leads us back to how Tomura never viewed anyone that he chose as pawns calling them his allies, with the word '仲間' which can even be translated as friends in needed context, but usually used as comrade or ally when Tomura says it. And the same thing is usually translated as "friend" when used by Twice.
In any case Tomura never once doubted his allies since he saw them as reliable, even if his first meeting with Toga and Dabi went so wrong that Kurogiri had to stop them from killing each other.
Up to the point of Training Camp AFO describes as him teaching Tomura to be independent which was at that point too far from the truth than he thought. If Tomura begging for AFO to leave with them is any indicator he actually was even less independent after All-Might almost caught them, making him doubt his own worth as a leader. Even if AFO's defeat finally let him think and wonder about himself and his past.
AFO believed that Tomura just knowing how to recruit people would suddenly make him great at using those new "pawns" which was proven wrong by Overhaul no so long after that. Showing how Tomura believed the same thing AFO did as well, fully trusting his judgement of anything including himself, all the while parroting what AFO says without fully understanding what it means.
Only after losing both Magne and Mr. Compress arm does Tomura slowly start making progress in becoming someone more than AFO tells him to do. Even if as we see in part 1 it used Decay as the ground to make it stable since he believed it was his quirk. And yet.
Even if Tomura didn't simply instruct his allies how to choose who to recruit, he never blamed them for it. On the opposite, when Twice was hard on himself after bringing Overhaul to them Tomura just looked at them for the first time without a hand on his face, or even on himself at all, showing how he trusts them as much as he would trust himself and believes that they can do it.
Taking off hands of his family would mean not relying on the conflicting feelings that they bring into the picture, something AFO would very much dissaprove, since he was now like an equal to everyone in LoV instead of being above them. He
And with this instead of making them blindly trust his decisions and following him from fear or adoration like people had been following AFO or Overhaul, he instead was an equal to them both in failure and victory that wasn't even all that guaranteed yet.
Each one of them had their own somewhat selfish goal that just seemed like they were just using each other without any worry being each other's pawns. Or maybe that's just how AFO would see them.
Yet it doesn't explain why did Toga care for Twice's trauma response of not having his mask on, since he already did his part and all that they both needed to do was done. But LoV was never about following orders or giving them, expecting for the pawns to follow without question. It was about a leader of the group that would stand up for his allies while allowing them full freedom, except when they needed to also accept that something is needed to be done for their own sake.
Like following Overhaul for a while all for cutting off his hands leaving him with nothing. Did that sound like something reasonable to do? No! They literally lost their chance at having sushi instead of just living at some abadoned building all the while occasionally searching for money or food, stealing and killing just to survive all while Tomura was just... waiting.
Nothing was really stable at the start of what we call My Villain Academia and yet no one from the LoV left while their state was... bad at the very least. No matter how AFO was teaching Tomura he was still left mostly waiting for something to happen rather than doing something to change the situation himself.
Sure, Tomura now was a famous leader of League of Villains that suddenly needed to be stopped rather that underestimated like before. But that was in the future, now LoV was laying low on funds and slowly Tomura showing his face became the norm, with him usually never wearing hands around LoV.
And with Tomura becoming more and more comfortable around LoV, the LoV itself was becoming more like a place that had one core value that accepted anything else added without anyone wondering about the past of others, like Compress said. Just some selfish people, who still followed their own needs first.
And yet somehow Toga, who joined just because she loved Stain and disliked how life was too hard found her place in the LoV alongside Twice who just needed to be trusted and trust in return. If Tomura only followed what AFO deemed to be the best way to lead no one would actually feel like they're accepted in the LoV as much as they were.
Goal or no goal Tomura succeeded even without having the whole world at the palm of his hands by just never pressing anyone to actually follow him - if they wanted to they could've just left here and there, but since they chose to follow he did what he thought was the obvious best - let his allies do what they wanted.
Which was okay for someone like Toga or Dabi who were either already comfortable by just being allowed to be themselves or being free to plan their own things for their own goals.
But not exactly that for Spinner. Who was instead literally searching for someone to show him what to do, not so different from Tomura, who still only followed whatever 'his Sensei' deemed worthy for him to look into, like letting Kurogiri go find unknown "power" that AFO left along with contact with Doctor.
And while Spinner was not fine with still being hollow even while following Tomura pretending that it's the same thing as following Stain... all it took for him to look differently at how exactly was Tomura thinking was the last real "barrier" that there was - Tomura basically spilling his whole backstory and motivations mostly for LoV to listen to, since Doctor was just testing Tomura's will all according to AFO's plan.
And after that it didn't took too long for Spinner to now follow Tomura, even if it was still not the time to really see the 'warped horizon that was waiting for them'. And yet in times where Tomura still showed some doubt over his decisions - that one old trait of his showing up like it was always at the back of his head not so different from USJ, only thing changing that Tomura got better and better at not letting his emotions control him so easily.
Since the price of that would literally be lifes of his allies.
And neither that or using their emotions to his own benefit was ever in his plans, contrast to AFO manipulating Tomura to do just that. Letting his emotions consume him completely just for his own goal and for his own sake. But as a person who was so familiar with this Tomura still was adamant at NOT allowing something like this to happen to his friends allies.
Effectively creating a bond between all six of them, including Toya that in the end kept them together until the very final arc, with Spinner keeping what Tomura would've thought and with him waking up and calling Machia to get LoV first and foremost Spinner did understand their's leader wishes, as well as Twice's who literally died for his friends.
With all that happening in the War arc the moment AFO returned with both being in control of Tomura's body and just abadoned anything that Tomura would care for like leaving Mr. Compress and Machia behind just to punish him for not getting OFA or not even caring to show any actual respect for Tomura's wishes. Instead showing how little he actually cared for anything but his own good.
But while AFO made so many pawns that he could change like gloves at any given moment, threating them and manipulating them with his power and quirks, Tomura only had 6 allies who stayed after AFO was caught and who were willing to die just to live the life they wanted.
And AFO couldn't give them that.
Even if Decay isn't Tenko's quirk and even if he has so much guilt for killing without it being a little bit justified by it...
LoV still followed him as a person who allowed them to live as they please and so what they want, not some all-powerfull overlord but an ally and a leader who had his flaws and fallings.
#bnha#shigaraki tomura#tenko shimura#league of villains#bnha manga spoilers#bnha analysis#character analysis#character study#kurogiri#toga himiko#twice#dabi#spinner#mr compress#and All For One can go to hell I won't tag him again#with the Kurogiri part you may notice how I just want to see Kurogiri actually helping Tomura#it's either him or mr. compress now#and yeah the fact that both Twice and Himiko died remembering LoV was painful#AFO calling Tenko weak all the while he himself didn't make any lasting good empression like that on anyone#while Tenko just was like 'yeah my friends need something they'll get it'#insert that one page where he literally just got them sushi first thing after becoming a new MLA commander#how dares AFO call Tenko pitiful if he literally did his best with what he had#all the while AFO just made his life insufferable for him to be angry and hateful#and yes I didn't call them family or friends for the most part since the canon INSISTS that Tomura is saying allies#which is a really neutral way to say friends imo#I'm still thinking about a Tangled crossover with LoV like Tomura literally got his only taste of freedom with LoV by his side#bnha 419#my villain academia#five years later and it's still the best arc of MHA#an honestly it's more of a ch 418 analysis
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Happy anniversary, VRAINS. It's been five long years without you, but the love is still going strong ♥♥♥
#my art#ygo vrains#vrains#revolver (vrains)#playmaker#fujiki yuusaku#kougami ryouken#datastormshipping#I went into my tags to reblog this for today's anniversary#only to discover I never posted this here in the first place#I still like it so...#have it five years later ♥#now watch me pop off to continue with the VN
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