#is it realy worth it lol

[humongousabysmal]

Speakking of twitter why do people even use that site anymore especially after all the trashy updates (not to brag but i havent updated since june 2022 so. Heh). Its just fancier 4chan tou stroll on your tl and see cute sonic fanart and youre like aww :) shut up and take my like and rt! lets be moots! Next scroll you see a decapitated woman

[beautifulfuckup99]

Can I request a Drabble of yoongi fucking you in the middle of like a college party? Like blatantly in front of a circle people just casually screwing you? It’s been on my mind for a while but I can’t think of the scenario fully for it TT

I understand the frustration, lol. I'll take it from here...

Title: Keep me calm...

Warning(s): Public S!x (Obviously lol), D!rty Talk, Voyeur!sm, Curs!ng, Dom!Yoongi, Sub!Y/N, R!ding, Orga$m Den!al, Creamp!e, Possessive/Aggressive S!x, and I will give you some fluff to top it all off lol

Author's Note: "Non-Idol!AU". I really hope you enjoy it, babe!

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"Y/N." The call of your name cuts through the thick tension between you and the guy who was now pressed against you while you gripped the drinks in your hands. You turn your head and spot your best friend sat on the couch, looking impatient.

"Uh... Excuse me." You smile sheepishly and rush off towards the couch. "Sorry. I'm back." You sigh and hand him his drink. He frowns and shifts a bit in his seat.

"This party's shit." He says bluntly and you roll your eyes.

"Yoongi. This is our chance to make ourselves known! This is COLLEGE! The time to be social and get out there. We need to make friends." You say. "More friends, Yoongi. We need to make MORE friends." You clarify the second Yoongi opens his mouth. He closes it with a slight glare and huff.

"Just sit back and lets get tipsy enough to enjoy ourselves!" You declare with a bright smile as if trying to save tonight. You two clink glasses and down the alcohol in them. It helps fuzz your brain long enough to get up and try pulling Yoongi up to dance, but he refuses, acting as dead weight.

You giggle and back away from the couch, swaying your hips when you feel it. A sharp slap to your ass cheek, so hard that it makes you jump. And Yoongi notices. That's what scares you more.

Yoongi might've been five-foot nine, but that man fought like he was seven feet tall. He was always quick to anger, and the last thing you wanted was for him to get up at this party and knock some random frat boy's teeth in. You rush over to him fast and place your hands on his chest as he tries to stand up, making him grab your waist. He looks over your shoulder at the guy.

"You think that's fucking funny? Hm?" He snaps at the guy who laughs while holding up his hands.

"It's a nice-looking ass, man." The asshole defends and you have to get in Yoongi's way again as you try to distract him fast.

"Yoongi! Breathe. He's not worth it!" You say as you rub his chest while he continues trying to move away from you, eyes trained on the guy in front of him who's still laughing and telling him to 'chill'.

"Y/N, move!" Yoongi orders.

"No! Come on, Yoongi, sit down!" You practically beg as you grab at his face to make him look at you. "Don't make me act like one of those cringy main character girls who say 'look at me', and 'this isn't you'..." You fuss and Yoongi finally looks at you.

"Let's go then." He orders and you frown.

"Yoongi, come on. The night is still young-" He cuts you off.

"Fine. You wanna stay? And you want me to calm down? Make me." He orders and you open your mouth in confusion before he sits on the couch and yanks you to his lap. You're stunned by the actions of your friend.

He holds your back to his chest and his face goes to your neck to begin kissing and licking along your skin. Your eyes widen at the actions, and you pant softly while trying to keep your mind from going blank. "Wha-What-" You're cut off once more by Yoongi pulling your hips, so you're sat directly on his crutch.

"Either we leave... Or I knock that asshole's teeth in." He growls in your ear as you shiver.

"N-No." You pant.

"Then distract me." He orders lowly as he grips your thighs that were barely covered by your short dress. His rough hands glide along your soft skin as your face goes red. His slender fingers wiggle between your clenched thighs and he pries your legs apart.

"H-Here?" You gasp instantly as realization dawns on you. You're on a couch, in a dimly lit frat house party, with tons of people around. Yeah, there was loud music and people were high and/or drunk and probably wouldn't realize Yoongi's hand was now between your legs-oh! Oh, his hand was right between your legs...

You moan as your head rolls back on to his shoulder while he rubs his palm into your already moist crutch, your clit throbbing against the attention. You can't stop yourself from pushing harder against his hand as he laughs lowly in your ear.

"You were saying?" He taunts in your ear as you squeak in response. You look around the room and spot some random dude leaned against the wall, eyeing you. You blush as you try closing your legs only to be met with I sharp swat to your inner thigh. "Keep them fucking open. Let him see." Yoongi whispers and you pant more, eyes rolling shut at the idea of this random guy watching you grind on your best guy friend's hand.

Yoongi's other hand pulls the top of your dress down a bit more and gropes your breast to tease your nipple while his other hand disappears into your underwear.

"Keep looking at him. Let him know who you belong to." Yoongi pants, you can feel him getting harder beneth your ass. Grinding against his hand meant rubbing against his bulge. Made you feel trapped. Ya know, between a rock and a hard place?

Before you can even mentally laugh at the dumb joke, you're pulled from your own head by a rough tug to your nipple, making you moan louder. Thank god for the loud music. "Look. At. Him..." Yoongi orders and you whine softly but do just that, being used by Yoongi as this stranger licks his lips and nudges his buddy to also watch you get finger fucked.

You ride Yoongi's three fingers, just leaking the more new eyes fell onto you. A few people blush and avert their eyes while others leave the area, but a few people... They stay. Not daring to stop the free show.

"Oh! Oh! Oh my god..." You moan, getting close already.

"You're gonna cum?" Yoongi whispers in your ear and you nod fast as you grind down faster.

"Yes! Please! Almost..." You practically cry out, only to be halted right at the edge. "Wha... What are you doing?!" You complain as you reach down to try and get yourself relief.

"Did I say you could cum?" Yoongi whispers as he stops you roughly, pinning your hands behind you. A few guys snicker at the sight of you whining over being denied.

"N-No..." You say as you pout while only looking at Yoongi.

"Then you can't fucking cum." He says like you're dumb as he grabs your face roughly. "I own this body tonight. It listens to me." He whispers before he leans back on the couch.

"Get my cock out. Feels fucking painful against my jeans." He huffs and you make quick work of undoing the button on his pants as those guys continue watching from across the room, but no one says anything, not wanting to break the tension clearly between you and Yoongi.

You pull his throbbing member out and Yoongi makes you look up at him. "Sit on it." He orders and you can't stop the moan that comes from your lips. You nod fast and get up only to be forced down on his lap by his strong arms. He sits you right on his cock with a low growl and you don't know what's better. The way Yoongi grips your waist as he makes you ride him, or the hunger in those strangers' eyes as they watch on like you're their favorite show.

"Got all eyes on you now, Y/N..." Yoongi taunts in your ear as you clench around his cock at that fact. "You like that?" He whispers and you moan his name as a response, the only response your brain can come up with, that is.

"You know what I like?" He pants. "That everyone on campus... Is gonna know... That you're mine after this." He growls in your ear as you can't help but fall back against his chest and grind your hips down on his cock.

"I'm gonna ruin you for anyone else." He whispers in your ear, and it makes you shiver. He pushes you forward, and you fall on to the coffee table, so you're bent over it now.

"Ruin me..." You gasp out as he grabs your hips hard. You watch as those guys across the room are starting to palm at their dicks while some others just take their cocks out, the pain of their stiff cocks pressing against their pants being too much to bear.

Yoongi slams you back against his cock and you press your forehead against the cold coffee table to hide your face till you feel his hand tangle in your hair. "Look at them. Poor fucks. Jerking it to what they can't have. Isn't that sad?" Yoongi mutters in your ear and you blush hard. "Show them how you take my cock." He says as he smacks your ass. You can't help but give him what he wants, moaning his name loudly.

His other hand travels between your legs, rubbing your clit as your eyes roll. You can barely hear the music anymore. You're so far gone thanks to the cock plowing you fast and hard. It only brings you closer to the edge. "You're so fucking tight..." Yoongi growls and you shiver.

"I-I have to cum!" You cry out, not wanting to be denied again. Yoongi makes you look at him.

"Ask me if you can cum..." He smirks and you nod fast.

"Yes! Yes... C-Can I cum, Yoongi?" You gasp out.

"Master..." He taunts against your quivering lips, and you blush hard at the request.

"Can I c-cum? Mm... M-Master? Please! C-Can I please cum, Master?!" You cry out as he hits your spot relentlessly.

"Cum! Cum, Y/N. My good fuck-toy..." He praises as he turns your head so you're only looking at him. You knew why. He wanted to be the only one to see you cum. That thought alone, sends you over the edge.

You cum hard around his cock and he pumps faster in and out of you as he holds you in place. "You're mine." He grunts. "I'm gonna make sure you're mine." He pants and you open your mouth only to be met with the answer to your unspoken question when you feel the first few spurts of cum seep into you. It makes you moan more.

You're both a panting mess, and you're blinking to try and get your eyesight back to normal when Yoongi kisses your ear. "Can we leave now?" He pants softly in your ear, and you blush sheepishly at that, mind floating on cloud nine right now. You nod, unable to find your voice. He smirks and covers you up before fixing himself and then scooping you up.

[north-noire]

Hey hey.

Just wanted to say how much I love ur Hidden Hands Au🤌🤌🤌. I am craving for that sh1t. Realy great work, my (wo?)man. I am so but exited for the whole fanfic, but no pressure🙃. Wanted to ask you if you could describe the character traits of the characters a bit more. Thx. Allright dunno how to end stuff like this.

Bye bye.

lol

Hello, germanstonks! Thanks for the ask! Sorry that this ask took me SO long to answer, I really wanted to do my guys a little justice - now that especially I actually have the fic up, but I think it's worth noting how their general personalities will be in the fic with a little past context :] Check it out if you'd like, link's in my bio! (Don't worry I read your other ask, totally fine with the pronouns)

Just note that these are mostly going off from in-between Post-Bite and before Charlie dies (so like, a bit of a prequel before the fic happens). MCI kids and other few notable characters like Jen/Jennifer Emily, etc. are just as important, but they come in a little later. Okay, let's get right to it. Feel free to read at your own pace since this will be a bit of a long post for the AU.

William Afton - family man, extroverted frugal fast-talking businessman, but genuinely has a soft spot for children, especially his children, loves them a lot, would destroy the whole world for them if he had to. Can be cunning and manipulative. Post-Bite wise he tends to compensate for Evan's passing by trying his best to treat his kids nicely. Doesn't really know how to handle his emotions well, just bottles it up in the hopes it'll be okay. (it's not.) Lisa Afton - introverted businesswoman who has William as her husband. Straightforward and always cuts to the chase, can be a little sassy, doesn't like sugarcoating things. Hardworking and very career-driven, but still cares about the kids in her own way. Can come off cold sometimes.

Michael Afton - post-Bite wise, he's generally wanted to be left alone and prefers to just stay in his room. Used to be adventurous, but now he'd prefer following rules to a T and just sticks by his mom or dad more - regrets a lot about what he had done to Evan. Loves video-games and sometimes sketches in his spare time. A bit anxious and can be scared of taking risks. Quiet, careful, reserved. Has a strange fascination with the supernatural. Talks to himself a lot, but can still be sarcastic at times.

Elizabeth Afton - post-Bite wise, doesn't quite understand the loss of Evan yet, but misses him a lot. Can be manipulative, but not in a malicious sense. Can come off naive, but picks up on details easily, and stubborn if she really wants something. Can be blunt and just says what's on her mind, but she isn't a bad person, just a troubled kid but she's still nice when you get to know her. Also has a strange fascination with horror movies and horror in general. Still has quite the child-like energy, just a bit more subdued.

Evan Afton - used to be timid and afraid, prefers to be left alone to his own things. Once he dies and is left in the afterlife, however... he grows resentful towards Michael and internalizes a lot of the anger and resentment about all the things that Michael had done to him. He tends to be observant, but had become quite cynical over the years. Lets his emotions get the best of him sometimes.

Henry Emily - a neurodivergent widowed man trying his best. Post-Bite wise, he mostly laid his head low from the guilt of losing Evan. Can be distant from people, preferring to just work all by himself, he's introverted and very blunt with his words, and intimidates people/unintentionally scares them sometimes. But he has warmth for the very people close to him, especially Charlie. Can be a bit of a workaholic, much to Charlie's dismay. Is really passionate about what he does with robotics.

Charlie Emily - neurodivergent too, like her dad. post-Bite wise, she's become someone who pours out a lot of emotional support for Michael and sometimes her father. She's grown to have an interest in investigating things and keen eyes for details, and a good listener - loves playing baseball sometimes. Sometimes she tends to stretch herself out a bit too thin for her own good, though.

Hope this helps! Sorry for the long post, I really hope I explained them properly!! I write them better in actual fic form than short explanatory stuff like this, but yeah! </3

[sam-is-my-safe-word]

Happy Friendiversary Dreamer!!

Do you believe in platonic soulmates. No, get your mind out of fandom for like five mins. I'll be realy quick & we can all get back to the sweet release of fiction. Do you believe in friendship soulmates? Two people who are perfectly made for each other, but not in a romantic way. (Normalise platonic love, people) I didn't. I love my friends dearly. I'd jump in front of a car for them. I keep living for them. But that was it.

Then I was scrolling through ao3 two years ago today & saw a really interesting fic.

(Ignore the last tag, it wasn't there when I found the fic, but since Run It All Over is a podfic now, D added that one lol)

Now normally I'd scroll right on past that. Minimal tags, minimal description. I like to know what porn is contained within lol. But that Brotherly Platonic Handjobs just grabbed me.

The universe aligned that day & brought me & Dreamer together. And I thank the fanfic gods every day for that.

I don't know how to sum up the last 2 years. It's been wild. We quickly outgrew the ao3 comments section, and then exchanged thousands of emails. Seriously, I have the transcripts. THOUSANDS. We're verbose mfs. And then we moved to fb & the convos could happen in real time y'all. Google docs & discord servers, facebook & group chats, hours upon hours spend on voice chats that I wish we'd recorded.

Hundreds of story ideas sparked to life in those places and hundreds more thoughts about life discussed and dissected and investigated.

It's very hard to sum up what the last two years have meant to me. We've weathered a few storms of mental health, helping the other up and being helped in equal measure. She shares my pain & my joy with equal attention. She encourages me to care for myself when I don't think I deserve it. And she thinks I'm funny. Which is like, the best compliment ever really.

Through a series of gentle but persistent prods, she is starting to believe her own self-worth & honestly, what greater joy is there in life than to see a loved one flourish?

There's a theory out there that soulmates are formed because two people's atoms were near each other when the universe formed and are forever drawn back to each other. I like that theory. It's funny, cos physically, me & D could not be further apart on this planet lol. But still our atoms found their creation buddy.

Happy Friendiversary @runawaydr3amerao3. Love you endlessly <3

[fizzigigsimmer]

It’s early days yet, but I already love the character of Gator Tillman. And what I specifically mean by that is I think the character is well thought out, well developed, well portrayed, challenging, and complex. I love to think about this character. Which inspires me to write stories about them. I’m emotionally invested, which again inspires me creatively. I’m also a kinky bastard so, that’s fun! My love of this character does not condone or support the bad things they do being done in real life, because that would be insane. This should go without saying, but we’re on the internet and I guess it doesn’t hurt to be clear.

Now that that is done with, onto the fun exercise I like to call “How do you think these two characters you love would bet along?” because I LOVE to think about these kind of impossible scenarios.

If Steve met Gator: Ignoring the doppelgänger situation, I think these characters would be enemies to besties, for the reason that they are the same guy. And I don’t mean because they’re played by Joe. I talked about this a little before on another post, but Steve & Gator share a character type. Actually, Steve, Billy, & Gator are all shades of the same character (which yum, threesome, but STAY ON TARGET) so it’s no big surprise why they’re so similar. What I really love about examining Steve & Gator side by side is all the ways you can realy start to picture how Steve might have been worse in a different setting, with less privilege etc. Anyway I think there would be real friction between them at first because Steve’s more emotionally developed (not to mention progressive lol) and he’s not about Gator’s punk ass. Honestly there would be a similar kind of friction/chemistry that Billy sparked when he burst in acting a fool, and if they could get past that and see how alike they are I think they’d be magnets. Could there be some sexual chemistry? Personally I find it weird when couples look too similar so it will never be my one true ship or anything, but definitely. The studies have been done, and it’s a real thing!

If Billy met Gator: See this one I’m torn on. It’s because they’re kind of a perfect storm. They’d be so competitive and there would be so much fucking posturing lol. The friction would be so thick. They would resent everything about each other, which is ironic because they are strikingly alike. I would say more alike even than Steve & Billy are, because Gator is a darker shade of blue if you catch my drift. Gator is who Steve might be if the Duffers had never created Billy, and I think Gator is what Neil thinks he wants Billy to be - even though we all know Neil’s flavor of toxic abuse doesn’t actually allow for Billy to ever get it right, even if he did try and please Neil the way Gator tries to please Roy. Billy and Gator are both motherless living under controlling and abusive fathers, trying to live up to a toxic standard of manhood in order to prove their worth. They both gravitate to positions of power and admiration that allow them to control the people around them and feel safe from a position of authority. They both ‘make their own law’ and are taking their anger and pain out on their enviorment. They would initially bring out the absolute worst in each other, and whether it was as friends or as enemies it would be ELECTRIC. But for the same reasons they would be an utter shit show, they’d get each other better than anyone ever has before. They’d sizzle.

[flyonthewallmedstudent]

In what finding your passion looks like in medicine. maybe.

I work in IM.

Where most of the time it's a desk job. 80% of my patients can't realy communicate. My notes are often, "pleasantly confused" or agitated.

Plans are "collateral history" which means, call their fam on a phone. At my desk. then taking notes on a computer. ordering labs. ordering imaging. making a referral also consists of logging it in a computer, then making a phone call.

I enjoy my job, but it never makes for great television. There is literally a reality show being filmed in my hospital. And they're never interested in filming anything my dept does. I mean, I wouldn't watch what I do on television. My medical students I'm sure are confused by this job. The new ones anyway. Most of the job is sitting at a computer and looking at numbers. Unless they're really sick, in which case that becomes a code or a terrible conversation with families.

When I try do regular people stuff, like taking calls from I don't know, someone trying to sell me something or offer a service, while I'm at a code, in resus or giving a family bad news. I literally don't know what to say sometimes. The other side will ask, is this a bad time almost out of courtesy - and literally it is a terrible time. So, no I cannot actually carry on a 30 second conversation about an upgrade to my mobile plan while my patient is dying and the fam are here. I know they're doing a job. Not like they realize how extreme my job can be. It becomes a very surreal moment in my life. Or worse, I can't really tell my kids at the age they are, why I'm late to pick them up because literally someone's dying.

In the reverse situation. My junior coworkers freak out about waking up family in the middle of the night sometimes for their patients. I have to tell them, this is a 'new' normal, when your loved one is in hospital you'll want that middle of the night update no matter what, just call and wake them. We work in an abnormal situation all the time.

So when it's bad it's bad. When it's mundane, it's really mundane.

Anyway. Watching youtube/netflix on what the average person makes on the job etc. and what they do. I.e. on Mr Beast, an archeologist makes 100k a year to look at bones outside (sounds amazing by the way).

I think about what I make.

Actually most days I don't even think about it. I go to work. it's busy. Shit happens. It's an adrenaline rush. I go home to my kids, it's busy. After it all winds down I'm vegging in front of youtube again.

what's in a job anyway. if it's about the money, clearly i picked the wrong direction multiple times. I don't know how to describe the intensity of it sometimes.

The time I've left to myself is really used to relax after the highs and lows of work and life with kids.

Or worse. Time left is used to try to forget some of the intense moments that happen. Whether a bad outcome or a conflict with someone at work. Or not getting to the meaningful diagnosis or management issue in time, IM is a constant puzzle and some cases are challenging (these moments make you feel dumb and perpetuates imposter syndrome). It's a lot to take it. In some ways, "you get used to it." Which is the most over used phrase ever. How to to normalize things over time. Other times it's working on getting past it

It's pretty consuming job. When you enjoy something and it gives you meaning. Most of the time anyway. Slowing down to find balance is the hard part. We're not built to be machines that just go to work. You can make a lot of money in medicine if you tried, but you won't have energy or time to spend it. People go big when it comes to vacations now or honeymoons if they can take it. Because sometimes all you can do is take the day off to attend your own wedding. For parents who are not the primary caregiver, often all you get is 1-2 weeks off. Is it really worth any money? lol what's the value. I know a cardiologist who works too much cause they have 4 kids and childcare is expensive. But they love that job.

Is it a job? or a strange addiction.

[aerospectrum]

No honestly I’m a Beth girl through and through but it’s 100% John’s fault for like you said enticing enough fear in both of them that they felt they couldn’t go to him. I do imagine Beth thought at least John would’ve ended up sending Rip away or at worst killing him. Sure; he was a good fit for the ranch but he had no where else to go and no one would be looking for him. As much as I like the show I do know John is both the main character and the villain at the same time. I think he’s quite interesting because while he does what he thinks is right for his family and the ranch, his methods are totally flawed and he goes about things the wrong way. He feeds of off of his children’s trauma and darkness in order to keep the place going. I wonder how the rest of the series will go without him being in the picture tbh.

ahhhh I’m gonna put this under a read more just in case it gets too long lol

I love Beth so much too aaahhh if I could write with a Beth my whole soul would be soothed lol!! sometimes I feel like the writing has gotten a bit lax on the show with just making Beth and Jamie so intensely vindictive towards one another that’s it’s almost become the primary personality trait for both of them and the rest of their personality has fallen to the wayside. their beginning intensity was so intriguing and I thought well crafted.

They absolutely gave the “middle siblings” energy I love and live for in life lol. I feel like Beth and Jamie have a weird chemistry with one another and I’m telling you if they teamed up to take down Market Equities or any of the bad guys they’d be unstoppable. Beth is cutthroat and more or less fearless, hence “I’m the bigger bear” quote and Jamie is empathetic in a very witty manner but knows how to make use of his seemingly timid nature to his benefit and advantage. I think they both know how to pull their punches when it’s necessary and I think that’s why together they’d be such a powerhouse for the Yellowstone.

but I totally agree, I think Beth and Jamie both knew that Rip was a runaway kid with nobody out there to search for him I think John even mentions it in one of the flashback eps, but I think they both probably though oh yeah our dad will for sure kill this kid and have no remorse for it. Given the fact he tried to force Kayce to take Monica to the clinic for an abortion herself and when he refused literally gave his own son a brand I think John has- or maybe had no qualms about sacrificing his children for the assumed betterment of the ranch for sure!

I do love the show but yeah I’m on your page John is for sure the villain and that’s the cool thing about him as a protagonist because so many people are used to protagonist being the perceived “good guys” and the Duttons are not that, lmao, and I love it! I think John’s ego is intrinsically tied to the “worth” of the land and his children are in fact offerings to that success. Gosh John realy traumatized all his children and when faced with that reality he actively works to tear them down and make them feel worse for calling him on his toxicity. I’m super curious how it’ll end without him there too, I’m curious how the writing will go or make up for his lack of presence and part of me is worried it’ll be a bit phoned in, but I mean I think that’s normal worries for most media these days because once you really like something anything below what you’ve come to expect probably feels like an insult. I hope they wrap it up in a meaningful and worthwhile way!!

this got so long oh my god lmao I’m so sorry but my mind gets going and I go down all these rabbit trails and forget to stay on track. But I’ve loved your messages for real, they’ve been really insightful and really fun to read and respond back to thank you so much my dude for sending them!!!

[souwrrr]

also!!!!! im super duper intrigued by tartaglias whole story its actually really interesting i wish he got more screen time in chapter iv 🙁🙁 i saw this REALY good animatic about his experience in the abyss and stuff with the fatui abd all the awful stuff hes been through !!! it was genuinely so cool but its also kinda what brought me back into this game and i am not happy abt it

i kinda wonder abt childes opinions on all of the other harbingers as well as his battle hunger?? he realllyy idolizes getting stronger and fighting everything and everyone he can and its definitely bc of skirk and what had happened in the abyss that mustve been hell for him

i also wonder what he would do if teucer and tonia found out about all the people he has hurt??? ofc he has done SO much to help them and keep them safe and ig if traveler can overlook it so can they but i do wanna see a genuine reaction from them.... i also want to see their reaction to the damage tartaglias delusion has done to him!! considering he went back to ice kingdom or whatever after his fight with that whale, wouldnt they have seen him in his weakened state ?? honestly hes prob really good at hiding it as a means to not scare his siblings since he cares for them so much. i wonder why childe continues using his delusion despite its danger? like he even gave traveler his vision before trying to pick a fight with clorinde but he kept his delusion? i mean i get that the vision was malfuctioning but the delusions is really. Bad. i wonder if he thinks its worth it because it makes him so much more powerful?

okay back to opinions on other fatui... scara doesnt seem to respect him all that much? idk about the knave their voice overs about each other are interesting but theyve interacted pretty positively and even trash talked other fstui members LOL since its pretty obvious thry dont trust each other that much i guess they just have to pretend to like each other but id like to think they get along in unique ways.... but scara said that they all use each other for benefit so he kind of admitted it wasnt so good. i remember the first impression players had of him was that he was super strong and important and stuff (not that he isnt!!!!!!) but he is still the eleventh harbinger .... so i guess thats why hes looked down on so much and seen as reckless (but thats also just bc he is.....) i am glad that we still get more interactions w him but lowkey i think he is going to die soon and i seriously do not like that he 😭😭😭😭 hes a character i genuinely have come to like!! at least 4 now

i wish i paid more attention to him earlier on in the game bc i would always just get pissed off everytime he said anything bc i likd many at the time that he was an annoying ed sheeran water guy and i am so embarrassed i thought that for SO LONG i think i was annoyed bc everyone had a crush on him or at least a few people i didnt like being obsessed with him and not even his story just how he looks brah like come ONNNN i might have more thoughts in the future but these are a few for neow

[plural-affirmations]

Hi again,

I'm actually very much able to converse with my headmates, just meant that it'd be nice to be able to talk to people other than my headmates about all of this. Also just haven't figured out what the right words to describe us are, and certainly haven't become comfortable using them lol.

Either way, might be good to introduce who we have here? If it's not yet obvious, I don't entirely know what I'm doing. Going to avoid names for the sake of anonymity, which admittedly is going to make this annoying.

First of all, there's me. I'm pretty sure it's correct to refer to me as the host and core? I'm the only one who's controlled the body (so far). Then there's my headmates - there's currently three of them, all of them dragons.

The eldest I'm pretty sure is willogenic? I was bored while shopping and decided to imagine a little dragon following me, and then she was there. Comforted me when I got stressed later that day, and basically has been doing that since (minus two separate occasions where I forgot about her for a bit). If I remember correctly, the His Dark Materials series influenced me to even try that, and also shaped how I thought about her in the beginning. She's been the most active one generally (which I do feel a bit bad for, like I'm playing favourites?).

The other two I am significantly less able to classify in any way. For both of them, there was some sort of… presence? It's realy hard to describe, but there was some feeling for a few days before they arrived, which they did suddenly? It's really hard to describe, especially working only from memory.

Happened two separate times obviously, both times in periods where I was stressing about upcoming events, the more recent actually being in the process of composing the original ask I wrote lol.

Either way, desperately hoping I'm not oversharing lol. If I used any words wrong or there any others that you think might be useful please do tell me. Hope you're having a good day either way, thanks for reading my ramblings.

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Ah, my apologies for misunderstanding! I've kind of been doing that a lot lately >_<"

Also, the terminology varies quite a lot! For example, "core" has quite a loaded meaning in my opinion. The concept of an "original" alter doesn't really exist in DID/OSDD-1 due to the way alters initially form (if you put any stock into the Theory of Structural Dissociation, anyways. That's a whole other can of worms I won't get into unless someone asks though 💀).

However! DID/OSDD-1 certainly aren't the only plural experience, and I think in your case with most likely being willogenic, it's totally ok to call yourself that. I mean, it'd be fine to call yourself that regardless, but you hopefully know what I mean.

Agh, sorry for rambling! Back to the first topic:

Thank you for sharing your experiences with us!! We think it's super cool to see how other multiples perceive the world, and what they think about their life/lives.

I see you mentioned stress being a contributing factor though... have you considered traumagenic or stressgenic? Both are worth looking into if you haven't considered it. Even if you come out on the other end deciding you aren't either of those, I think experimenting with labels is healthy and facilitates self exploration. There's also mixed origins, which is what we are! You're not limited to just one option!

But, again, this is just my dumbass opinion, and all I am is about 100 dudes in a trenchcoat. (/lh)

Sorry this was all over the place, it's 2:00 in the morning here, but this is the first chance I've had to sit down and sift through my inbox without interruption.

Thanks for understanding! I wish you luck!

🖤💜💙💚💛

[deathshallbenomore]

I'll be visiting Torino soon and I saw you post about it before so I wanted to ask, do you have some recommendations that wouldn't be found on a tourist guide? Grazie 💖

hiiiii (or, as the locals would say, cerea <3) :)

first of all, i'm so so happy you're visiting this beautiful city! i hope you'll love it at least half as much as i do (which is a lot. like. a lot)

under the cut!

as for my recommendations, i guess my biggest advice would be to just walk around and let the streets themselves guide you because a) the city centre (as in the very very centre and the neighbourhoods surrounding it) is not that big, so you could set some reference points, go for a long walk, and both see the main attractions and get to have a look at the city herself, b) because it's so worth it, torino really is so beautiful that even walking her streets is an experience by itself, c) torino is probably one of the easiest cities in the world to navigate because it was literally built like this:

in any case, here's a list of my favourite places/spots that oh my god you have to see/things you really need to do*

monte dei cappuccini (+ the church + the friars' back terrace in case they decide to open it to the public); the hill area is also really nice so i warmly suggest you get to the monte on foot

this is a classic, but the gran madre church - piazza vittorio - via po - piazza castello route is a must (and you can do it right after the monte dei cappuccini, to reach the city centre)

castello and parco del valentino (and especially the giardino roccioso) is beautiful (also psss the borgo medievale is fake lol)

close to the valentino, you can take a walk around the san salvario neighbourhood (my beloved) which feels a little bit bohemien and quite vibrant and lively. lots of beautiful churches, lots of interesting architectural styles, Thee synagogue (which you cannot visit, but it's breathtaking even from the outside)

close to piazza castello, the galleria subalpina is BEAUTIFUL and once you've seen it, instead of going back to piazza castello you can go straight to piazza carlo alberto, then piazza carignano and then reach via roma. you know. 'cause they're all beautiful and classy areas of the city centre

another galleria that i really recommend is the galleria san federico, which can take you from via roma to the embarrassingly beautiful piazza san carlo

the quadrilatero romano area might be a bit touristy (bc it's close to piazza castello) but it's so peculiar and i just love taking walks there. feels a bit like paris, but maybe let's not tell the locals. lol

the porta palazzo market is definitely An Experience; bonus points on saturdays and on the 2nd sunday of each month you will find the (gran) balon flea markets. definitely give them a go!

ah of course the mole, but that's like. Top 1 things you should see in torino so;

but! quite close to the mole, in corso san maurizio, go take a look at the "fetta di polenta". it's a building that literally looks like a slice of something

museums, duh

the lungo po is a great location for a lazy walk at sunset :)

for god's sake don't go looking for a pizza and a cappuccino in via po at 4pm but try to find a place that looks genuinely piedmontese because the local cuisine is amazing. you can also find quite a number of "piole" (they're called like that) that are supposed to be quite cheap but very good and "local"

bonus (totally out of context): piazza carlina (I’m so local now that I forgot its real name lol) and giardini reali superiori (if you’re lucky you might find the newly restored extra area open to the public, fingers crossed!)

eat a lot of gianduia, drink good wine and definitely try san simone (thee local amaro) [of course if you're into any of that, ça va sans dire]

just walk. fill your eyes, mind and heart with beauty <3

here’s some pics :)

[deergroove444]

3 november

i watched mlp in the morning hehe. And read SoA!! Its literally my favourite and i love it but the way their dynamic is represented isnt my favourite, it makes it seem like they are constraining themselves from talking or are tense bruh.

hannah picked me up w sabrina to go to work! i made them drinks <3 i was really happy to see them, we listened to music in the car and i couldn’t get out at first LOL! i couldn’t give a proper bye but i saw them dancing the cha cha outside <3 im really glad to have friends like that

moving is shitty. i hate moving. ive been working on my mindset and realised i really need to work on my self worth and that i sm not below otgers. at work i always ask if i can have food or go to the bathroom but they dont, i dont have to! but they’re also not so mature sometimes…abd they make me dk the dirty work. I GOT SO MANY TIPS YESTERDAY!!!! IM MAKING BANK!!!!! THANK YOUUUU YIPIEEEE! sushi waitjng friday hehehehehhehhe……the guy from morimito brought me bao buns! I ASKED FOR THEM AND JAMIE JUST TOOK THEM OH MY GOD AND ITS NOT A BIG DEAL BUT THEN TGEY GET UPSET AT SALTY AT ME WHEN I WANT TO YAKE FOOD HOME AHHHHHDHDHHSGSGSGGSHS ATLEQFT ASK IH MY HOMYY SHITTYTT

the bao bun was pretty good!! my coffe fav is cold brew with cold foam and syrups hehehe! this realy nice lady came in and gave us cookies <333 i heard crows today and i found my rose quarts necklace!! i cleansed it :3 im trying to be nicer. i stretched more today!

My ideal life rn is to just be secure, living in a safe and stable place with no anger or fear.

we finally got a kettle omlll now i just need an espesso machine, a cello, a guitar, a piano, a bunkbed, and a bunch of tea. i kind of want a boyfriend ☹️☹️ that morimoto cook is cuteeee, he was listening to duki! its rap my a mexican artist! the chef from los agaves has such a sweet vibe! today was the first time i actually talked to him! it was pretty outside & i listened to amarys messages <3 i started texting people back faster and sending arianna tik toks AHAHAHA! i did ny makeup real nice today! Hope tomorrow goes betterrr!

I assume that i have all my desires. Its that easy! Logic does not exist, manifesting is not logical honey! You have everything you need, YOU are the creator. Believe in yourself and surround yourself with unconditional love because you are filled with it. <3 dont be hard on yourself and dont be afraid to stand your worth and rights! <3 youre amazinggggg darling.

[the-firebird69]

Judge Engoron Tears Donald Trump to Shreds (msn.com)

im usng donald trump and the macs parallel. it is not donald trumps paralel. so dont get the wrong idea. but we need to buy him out then he may go to prison. and he fels we dont control prison nor courts and you see here we did not have him go to court and expose the fact s all are after us due to the 250m number it was is the macs who have a force plan and it is not like yours ok. nope. they ruin almst all attemts to nab mykiind.

some clans are rogue they say macs and morrissonand die off and are not protected.

but the long and the short of it the city of new york has to fire their appaisers. and the tad collector. estimating value of lands in this day and age can be done using several methods. yet the ones the city used may not be based in reality. in other words ways of appraisng property are based mostly on real property. what is in place. stone concrete steel walls and infrastrucure. and to valuate it they simply see how much it is to buy one. oversimplistic in this case as it is nyc. and things are based on reality not quasi valaution. and the ohterissue i hear it is zoned mixed residential and no it is not it is mixed commerical and partly residential and they say there are more units and by nyc standards it costs more. and sure to buy. but when getting a loan in nyc it is real value not replacement value and due to teh volume of people and Thor Freya helped wiht the zone ing question. but i remember functions of estimating there were different and odd even and in LA. and told the estimating co lennax too and they started getting big and couldnot handle it and our son is smart didnt do it on purpose. and realy macs know about it an that our son knows this stuff Thor Freya add.

so i am thinking

he overvalued it to get the loan and that are the residential units that are occupied would be false they are worth more

and overvalued the commercial properties and no they are commercial properties. and are worth more and due to the high cost of rent for commerical properties innyc and the lack of availability

and trumps values were low if anything and per any bank so the bank is wrong too and they will face charges.

not that trump is not a criminal but in this case he is not and they are nuts ok ruin it they say no are ignorant retarded people and garth a sichopahnt homo for our son.

they are finding other things. but it is illegal to do that in court no. and tons of threeats. and no not right.and his lawerys should be fired.

and we conclude by saying you all suck and some of you knew nope. mstly your stupid. the accotants msised it yes. and he will attack the bank and the ppl are psudo empire and they say cant do it on the real thing....and no thats stupid your dumb ok.

Thor Freya

and the old way is right no it is not common pracitce iied to by the appariser and it is garth and he is the judge bilks him and we file suit now

mike t

and true saw it he and his face and going down now and is an ass and pushes and does not stop

mac

your fired garth your idiotshow and im the plaintif and they want me out and ok they did it...and to pous us out to stophis ss and we see it and that will come out andprob not lol andnot funnythe bankand he willget bassetd by them good

corine

and mean but ok we are stupid and will see this through. let him off and watch the bank it is pwuduedo empire and he wants thier dogh see it and it is illegal and to use court to do it. we se how had them appraise itand are after thier jobs we do this

and i mean my job damnit

garth

and we see ittoo and he will try for the bank and we hit and we hold him off. the court is how. yoiu did this.had yoru empoyee and she was his employee. firedher ok and ti works for us

mike tew

overvalued it by saying it is replacement cost and it is not why and it is bank fraud to the bank. and not the bank. and it is to take it over. same with the commercial prperty and it is also a crime on pourpose. so he is asking for a criminal trial. and no wanted to sue the bank and its empooyees that the cure

Thor Freya

Olympus

[potatobugz]

i don't remember why i followed you

but i get a lot of homestuck content

so i may read it lol

(also you're realy cool)

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sorry for the late reply but thank you ^u^!!

I can confirm Homestuck is really good 👍 it's pretty long so it's understandable if you are deterred by that but it's definitely worth it I think. thank you for the kind words, also :]

[videostak]

also started rewatching cowboy bebop and evangelion today :D its been soooo long since i last saw those two i swear its been like over 10 years or smthn i mustve seen them when i was 13 or 14 lol. excited especially to rewatch evangelion cause i htink i was too dumb when i firsst watched it to like actually enjoy it lol. like i was dumb and 13 so i didnt get it. so as far as anime goes im currently already deep in dragon ball and then started rewatching cowboy bebop, evangelion, and yu yu hakusho :) might also try to rewatch initial d since thats also on hulu but ill see cause i did  watch that again not too long ago. but it is really dope so itd be worth rewatching tho it just has the first two series.also might start ranma again soon. really well ok just wanan watch cool cartoons lol but like also realy do wanna go back to watching things in japanese consistently so that when i ressume my studies n stuff i have it all around meee.

[goatpaste]

How do you read so fast with Steel Ball Run and JoJolion?

im insane <3

[ali-dance]

idk maybe i should become religious. like if i can’t love myself, and no one will love me, then like at least god will love me? saw this line that said “i ask myself, ‘why would i hate someone god loves so much? why should i slap him in the face? he’s the one who made me, and for a very special reason.’ there’s no one in the world just like you. that person, you, is worth loving.”

like if i can’t come up with a reason to live for myself then i could probably find comfort in letting god do that for me

not even joking about it really because i just can’t even imagine myself living happily without completely numbing my brain function 24/7. if believing in god can give me a sense of purpose, of happiness, of stability, of love, then maybe it wouldn’t be so bad.

cuz idk all this “you’re valid! live for something, even if it’s just your cats!” isn’t really cutting it