#is it a good thing that most of the people i work with havent slept recently? no

[elytrafemme]

heavy sigh. whatever i dont think me talking about politics right now is doing anybody any good but i really do wonder if its such an insane ask to ask people to be a little mentally fucked for it. like you can afford to feel miserable for a few days you can afford to sit in guilt you can afford to not be able to sleep at night you can afford being overwhelmed with anxiety. you can afford all that if it gets you doing something. you can afford all that because some people cant. theres always going to be someone who cant more than you. is this trauma olympics is this glamorized self destruction or is this the reality of organizing i dont know

[verysanebsdfan]

HII

I LOVE UR WRITING and was wondering if u could do headcanons of the main 4 in hxh (if thats too much then just Gon and Killua separately) having an s/o who's just really sweet, kind, polite n calm

but can turn 180 rq and become super defensive of their loved ones.. insulting n basically having no mercy on whoever messed w them

TYY

I t didnt save thr first draft :(( it was so long and quite good too :((

Anywaysssssss

THANK YOU FOR REQUESTING!! IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY TO SEE THAT PEOPLE ENJOY MY WORK!!

I dont think i did well with the second part of the req in most cases and i am really sorry for that

tw: none i think? mentions of "recreating" the kurta clan :3

𝓚𝓾𝓻𝓪𝓹𝓲𝓴𝓪 𝓚𝓾𝓻𝓽𝓪, 𝓛𝓮𝓸𝓻𝓲𝓸 𝓟𝓪l𝓪𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽, 𝓖𝓸𝓷 𝓕𝓻𝓮𝓮𝓬𝓼𝓼, 𝓚𝓲𝓵𝓵𝓾𝓪 𝓩𝓸𝓵𝓭𝔂𝓬𝓴 (𝓼𝓮𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓮) 𝔁 𝓰𝓷! 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓮𝓻

⋆ ˚☁️ ⁀➴

⋆ You would be just a new hunter trying to make some good money while also putting your skills to use, so you became a bodyguard. That is how you two met

⋆ My bb is obsessed with revenge but thats okay, he later became obsessed with you too

⋆ Somehow you would get closer cuz u got that mc energy (ik that Gon is the mc but you slay sooo)

⋆ This would be the Fell first (you) and fell harder (kurapika) cuz oml

⋆ He would probably notice that you caught feelings for him, but dw he will soon notice his feelings soon.

⋆ After more time of knowing you, he would notice more of the small things you do, both for him and other people.

⋆ The sweet smile you give people that pass by, or just you asking him if he slept well made his heart speed up.

⋆ His heart also sped up when you offered to help him get his revenge and get the eyes of his clan memebers back

⋆ After he completed his revenge he would confess to you <3

⋆ He would be so sweet!!

"You aren't feeling well love? Do you want me to cook you something delicious? Coming right up!!"

⋆ He would want children, so if you cant have children or cannot, you would maybe hire a surrogate or adopt, but i am not sure how would adoption work if he would wanna pass the scarlet eyes too, cuz yk, genes...

⋆ Oki so, you two would meet in med schol and lemme tell you, he would be SMITTEN

⋆ You would start hanging out as study partners, and later have actual cute study dates in cafés.

⋆ Honestly, i feel like he would confess quite soon, but it would be really romantic and all, like good food, candles and all that.

⋆ Honestly he is so underrated?! Like whaaaaaaaaa, like yeah he was sorta weird, especially in the trick tower but still!

⋆ He is so husband material tho, not only is he nice, loves you, but he is also able to provide, hunter priviledges ig...

⋆ He would also want children, but only after marriage, and if you are okay with it, but more likely to adopt, since he knows there are a lot of children who are growing up in bad enviroment

⋆ Omg such a baby <3

⋆ You are his friend from the Hunter exam, and you also passed on your first try, so you are quite strong, and you travel with him and Killua

⋆ You both would be really oblivious, acting all sweet and lovey dovey together, so much everyone always assumed you two were dating, even Killua, so he decided to confront you two about it.

⋆ You ofc both denied it, and after seeing Gons embarrassed face, you wanted to tear Kill to shreds, how dare he embarrass Gon! Little did you know that the smoke coming out of Gons head wasnt from embarrassement, but from thinking.

⋆ Did he really like you?

⋆ 𝕪𝕖𝕤

⋆ After he thought it through, he was quite sure that he did like you. He just randomly ran up to you and yelled that he loves you

"(name) I AM SO SORRY I HAVENT REALIZED IT SOONER BUT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH PLEASE GO OUT WITH ME!!"

⋆ sweetie

⋆ You would be another kid from Whale Island, and you wanted to take the Hunter exam with Gon, but your parent/guardian, didn't let you yet because you weren't strong enough at the time. How can they tell? They used to be a hunter.

⋆ Then after Gon and the main group saved Killua from his crazy ahh family, he wrote you a letter that they were going to the Heavens Arena, and your parent/guardian let you go because it is a training opportunity, and also an opportunity to get you to socialize- urmmm

⋆ So that was when you met Killua

⋆ You two mostly bonded when Gon got hurt in the fight, cause you both love and cherish the little bean, and also while learning nen<3

⋆ After some time, he started to wonder why does he feel weird when talking and spending time with you (hmm its killua x reader, i wonder why...)

⋆ When you got to the 200 floor and fought some guy, he looked as if he was about to win, at that moment Kill wanted to kill him, but you did it instead<3 lovely<3

⋆ After that, you went to the Whale island again, and he met your parent/guardian (moving fast aren't we Kill?~) and they would be your second biggest shipper, cause Gon took the first place.

⋆ Somehow, you convinced your parent/guardian, to let you go with them to york new, and maybe also hang out with them till the next hunter exam, but the second part of you could do was only allowed after they got to know you would go with Killua >_<

⋆ First date in York New, only thanks to Gon (ily bb)

⋆ I can see that you two would either get together before the Hunter exam, or during the chairman election arc, idk

⋆ Either way! Alluka would ADORE YOU!!

⋆ His fav thing about you would be when you scold him for eating too many choco robots...because you care<3

𓇼 ⋆.˚ 𓆉 𓆝 𓆡⋆.˚ 𓇼

Thank you for reading lovelies, remember to drink water, eat 3x a day, and taek care of yourself, baiii<3

[avocado-writing]

hi!! ive.. gone and read so much of ur work in one sitting. its all so much to take in, IN A GOOD WAY, and i absolutely adore every single word

would u be so kind.. to bless my angst durge needs..

Durge Resist tav, was strong for all until the brain was finally defeated but now, with what she believed her only purpose/chance at redemption (brain), they can't help but feel utterly empty and,, unredeemed. They mourn all those they have robbed from this world, nameless, and countless numbers of people they robbed of the life that they were now being given the chance at living. Surely they don't deserve it(Is what they think..)

They are pathetically in love, and if they deserve anything, its to tell their special one just how much they are adored before casting themselves out of society (or taking their own life, if ur comfortable writing such things-)

Rolan, Dammon, Zevlor, maybe even Rugan if u write for that loser LMAO. just.. whoever u write for, its the tieflings i adore most ahegege

if this didnt make sense IM SORRY i havent slept in so long and sleep is not choosing me. i just crave angst, perhaps with a happy ending if u would indulge me so..!! thank u if u read this, so much!!

hi, I don't write fics about suicide, but here's the tiefling bachelors with a durge who's planning to disappear after the absolute is gone and giving them one final confession:

Dammon

senses something is wrong when you take him aside for a heart-to-heart.

it isn't that you avoid these sorts of moments per se, he just knows you only affirm your affections when something big is going to happen (you did it before you went off to fight the elder brain)

he holds your hand tightly, gets you to look him in the eye.

"I love you, no matter what, and I never want to be without you. tell me you'll be there when I wake up tomorrow. in our bed. swear it to me."

you can see the utter adoration he looks at you with, and you think: maybe you aren't so bad if a man like this can truly love you.

the next morning Dammon wakes up. you're not in bed next to him. he panics, getting to his feet - only to find you in the kitchen making breakfast.

he's never been so relieved. walks up behind you and wraps you in his arms. he loves you so dearly, and will keep on loving you until you believe yourself worthy of it.

Rolan

Rolan doesn't quite understand why you're having this great outburst, but chalks it down to emotions running high after the final battle.

says goodnight, kisses you, and heads off to his tower - he has a lot of admin to do after all.

the next morning he comes to meet you at the elfsong, only to be met with the realisation that you aren't there. he curses himself for not understanding why you were so melancholic last night.

he tracks you down. uses all of his resources to scry on you, grease palms with the money the tower has. he's up all night for weeks. Cal and Lia worry about him but he is determined.

and find you he does. manages to locate where you're hiding out, a little hamlet in the middle of nowhere. you burst into tears when you see him, and he just pulls you into his arms.

"come home with me."

you do, moving into his tower. and you never leave him again.

Zevlor

immediately knows something is wrong. takes you to a quiet place where the two of you can be alone and talk things out.

discusses how he feels like being a failure for breaking his oath -- but you always saw past that. saw the goodness in his soul. he wishes you would treat yourself with that kindness.

you begin to cry, softly at first, and then with sobs which wrack your whole body. he holds you ever so tightly.

"I love you. you are not who you were. you have strived to be better every day, fought against your own family, and always chosen a righteous path. you deserve to be happy. I'd want to make you happy, if you'd let me."

eventually your tears run dry and you look up into his face. his eyes are so sincere. he means every word.

when you kiss him, it's a promise: that you're with him for good. that whatever comes next, it will be faced together.

[fictionfixations]

playful land (part 2)

contains spoiler for the movie pinocchio so and like book 7 spoilers (its literally just 2 words relating to lilia and its a card that exists)

😭 as a glasses wearer i can relate. when i didnt have my glasses id squint a lot but the people around me just thought i had my eyes closed so they thought i wasnt paying attention D:

its even crazier to think that lilia, a war veteran and everything was legitimately stressed over this 💀 but to be fair if grim was in danger of getting out of like the seats that lilia had to hold him back id be panicking too cause who knows what could happen

heres your reminder that vil was kinda baby (well child but thats still baby to me) when being in the industry and considered good at playing the villain even though children (and teenagers) are literally known for changing, are in the prime time of their life to change and experiment and try different things theyve never done before and so typecast him is literally to stunt his growth and potential !!! and remember there were those kids who thought vil was an actual villain and like tried to attack him or some shit so he did play villains when he was younger. and it probably really hit him hard because kids dont (and shouldnt) be hit with the reality that not everyone is nice and that people can be out to get you for no reason other than 'you exist' and will run with any reason they can to hate on you even if its entirely fake and they dont even know you but they just think youre a bad person despite the truth and theres nothing you can do to change that because they dont want to be wrong. if you cant tell i have a lot of things against it. like. like child prodigies n celebrities are great good for you for being good at something and being recognized for it, but ohh my god its like suddenly they're an adult and cant make mistakes without people condemning them even though literally everyone has made mistakes before and children dont know any better until they do it and mess up and thats okay and i just. i just want vil to be ok cause hes still really young.

the text being like pLAcehOldeR TExT PLaCeHoLDer TeXt is so fucking creepy for the puppets 😭 why cant it just be normal like when like AIs or like the systems of shit talk (like like the navi system that was normal?? and i thought the voices for the rollercoaster was normal too but i mightve just not noticed considering im playing it right as the update came out and i havent slept yet so yippee)

JIMINY CRICKET IS THAT YOU 💀

the way i missed all these references the first time but now im actually getting them cause i saw the movie

heres where i say i already forgot like a part of the middle of the movie and what happened and why. i was watching it with friends so i got distracted trying to talk to them and im really bad at multitasking when trying to watch something (like reallly pay attention) and talk to someone at the same time so i forget one or the other and i forgot the movie so i dont remember what the apple core was about but i doubt it was good intentioned

i know that leona's older than them but i still like that he calls them kids like d'aww

flashbacks to kalim mentioning he didnt know how to pay for things or how cash registers worked and stuff like that cause usually merchants came to him also him mentioning he got like lint rollers for the carpet but he just kept buying new ones when he ran out instead of buying a new roll, and when being informed that he could buy a new roll instead of an entirely new roller he just called whoever thought of that a genius 😭 his obliviousness is genuinely harmful to him no matter how good intentioned someone may be to try to spoil him and make him live the most comfortable life ever because theres so much life experiences hes lacking. and theres so much i could say about this but ive yapped enough about this in other posts and ive also already yapped about vil so um

HES LICKING THEM BECAUSE OF THE OVERBLOT STONES ISNT HE? ???? ????? GRim PLEASE

…hes got a tail because he went to pleasure island and was slowly turning into a donkey like i mean i guess i can understand because in twst the stories were twisted so both the hero and the villain got a happy ending technically? like remember i think jasmine married like 'a street rat' or something (I cant remember exactly? maybe he was like a thief but changed his ways?), while jafar caught someone who was pretending to be a prince to marry her (described as two different people btw)

THIS. THIS IS WHAT I MEAN. he is so unaware that hes going to make dumb and insensitive comments that could definitely offend someone but he doesnt understand what the problem with it is this boy is like the heir right?? someone please teach him politics and like diplomacy shit ???? like ok you want him to have the best life. his best life is not making mistakes in front of important people that can fuck things up without him realizing and ruining relationships because HE DOESNT KNOW BETTER. like theres only so long you can baby someone and i know hes baby and still young but stop coddling him. like i mean i want to coddle him i want to wrap him in bubble wrap but like come on. and i know hes smart, he knows people arent the best because people have tried to poison him and tried to kill him (even some of his family have tried) but come on. like what if he comes off as insincere? as a person who couldnt possibly understand? HE ALREADY DOES COME OFF AS THAT HAVE YOU SEEN JAMIL?? and you know what thats gonna breed? RESENTMENT. aAAAAAAa AND PEOPLE ARE GONNA TAKE ADVANTAGE OF HIM BECAUSE HE WANTS TO SEE THE GOOD IN EVERYONE EVEN THE PEOPLE WHO DO BAD SHIT TO HIM AND ITS JUST. i dont want him to be hurt and hes gonna get hurt and he already has been hurt and hes still managing and i feel so bad for him and i just. ..you can tell i have a lot of feelings over thsi fhaidwsuiahfd

d'aww hes hugging him 🥺

yknow kalim probably has the funds to get like a water breathing potion and explore underwater like i mean tbh it kinda scares me. wasnt there that story during like one of the halloween events one of the leech twins mentioning how they saw like one of them?? except it wasnt them. and that like people went missing or some shit??? the coral sea (..that might not be the name i forgor) has its own dangers i hope he stays safe during so

wouldnt it be the coolest for a hometown event with the leech twins and azul and kalim is there actually i wonder what kinda outfits they'd wear. also in caters birthday bloom vignette floyd mentioned that he could take cater to the coral sea and show him places land people dont really get to see (then warns him to watch out for shark attacks) to which cater replies that he'll pass. …still i think itd be really cool for him to go too. maybe we could make it a pop music club trip! has lilia been to the coral sea? i cant remember 🤔 i dont think caters phone is waterproof though (hes also mentioned it in that vignette) and hes mentioned it in this event where he was scared his phone would get waterlogged during the whale rollercoaster cause they were getting drenched in water and he didnt get time to prepare

leona. you get me.

kalim just automatically being worried about poison makes me feel really bad for him cause he always has to be cautious like i know he doesnt say it but its implied and it makes me sad

FIGARO MY BELOVED I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU PRECIOUS BABY AHFDASUDIHAIUDHW i love cats so much the moment he showed up on screen i just couldnt pay attention to anything that was happening in the movie and i just love the way he was animated he looked so fluffy and cute and i just wanted to pet him so fucking much aGHHHH

leona: I REFUSE to ride the carousel no matter what right after leona: on the carousel

so confirmed kalim does have a magicam acc huh

[pwblogarchive]

September 2007

September 11, 2007

“folie a duex”

sometimes the planets align

sometimes they dont

its like how part of my childhood was stolen when they took planetary status away from pluto

well be there one day

honestly i dont mind you saying fuck you to me-

when you included the "horse you rode in on"

it kind of went to hell

i am sick- like i cant ever get enough sleep or time or words

as this thing grows i become more and more insecure.

cant look anyone in the eyes-

i am paranoid- worried sick that i am not good enough for anyone who looks at me

i know how ridiculous this sounds

trust me

the new video makes me feel the big black sadness

folie a deux is the idea of shared madness- the scientific term for romeo and juliet

i have a feeling that we share that with eachother when you have your headphones on

currently working on: taking it easy-

dont mean to be so heavy just want you to know why i look so gray sometimes lately.

September 14, 2007

after the pornstar john holmes career deflated he turned to showing up at LAX and stealing peoples bags off of the conveyor belt.

i watched someone do this to me at the airport today.

i am obsessed with the change that can turn in the world.

that is what our new video is about.

why was every question about 'how bad is britneys performance gonna be' and not about anything that truly matters in this world.

sometimes the message is more important than the art.

later on we will release a remixed version that includes more of our personal experience in africa.

for now i am content to see the love between these two and the way the civil war that rages around them affects it.

its hard to imagine that they are just like the kids that show up at our shows, only born in a different country...

vintage louis vuitton bags under the eyes

the marlbo-glow

i need him more than he needs me, he needs her more than he needs me and so on.

theres nothing new under the sun

but were reading on existentialism in the shade.

i am so in love with YOU and the idea of YOU listeing to the music and singing the words.

i know its weird but i like to imagine what you are thinking when its playing.

if it werent for that i am not sure where i would turn.

i guess this is another halfhearted thank you. just because you keep tuning in.

"dont you think its insane how donald duck never wears pants?"

life is better when youre around.

but yes i do think its insane.

September 22, 2007

eyes the size of the moon.

iron and wine "the trapeze swinger"

Posted by xoat 1:35 AM

September 26, 2007

isnt it ironic how "ironic" has no ironies in it

havent slept in days.

think i am starting to crack.

my room is thrashed, covered in matter that doesn't matter and i almost cried while watching garden state- i think its not funny anymore.

sick of watching what genius is.

sometimes genius is being completely ordinary.

when i look up at the sky i want to eat the stars.

its daylight again, everything goes back to being boring.

nothing too much to say. just gonna watch the world spin this

Posted by xoat 1:17 AM

September 28, 2007

i dont know if has been apparent or not but in the past year or so i have become so insecure its insane. it blows my mind everytime i leave the house i feel weird. strange. i feel like everything i do ruins something of my friends or my band or the songs i love. i feel like i am constantly on the defense, like i have to work so hard just to make people not hate me that i am not even myself. i havent been able to look the front row of the crowd in the eyes and hide in the back most of the time because i am so insecure with myself.

but for some reason tonight that all changed. the show tonight i connected. i felt the electricity. the light came back on. it felt so good. thank you to all that were there.

sorry. not trying to be a downer or a "poor me" kind of thing, its just been a weird adventure. it feels good to plug back in. this journal entry was one i wrote a year ago this week when i think i was pretty sure id die at age 27 (glad i didnt):

"i couldnt stay away.

the words are obsession and always have been.

heartache lite. diet love.

i am a catch and release boy.

kind of.

put summer in a pine box.

i went to sleep in june and woke up in the middle of september.

making out on stretchers, getting some in the back of an ambulance.

my hips are dry docked.

love is incidental.

the best verus the rest.

'they wipe their feet on our dreams'.

ive got 27 years hiding in the smile wrinkles of my eyes. the real ones and the fake ones take up the same space in the skin.

noone gives a fuck about eyes that are always leaking.

besides youre just hushing headboards that are always creaking.

its become apparent that there may be no one thinking of you the way i do at this very moment.

were "out of the woods"

but i am in love with the tree i used to lie under.

eyes green with envy or brown and full of shit.

or somewhere in between.

i want this to be a remix of our nighttimes."

the smiles lately have all been real. except sometimes its hard to smile when theres a camera in your fae and your just trying to get through the day. gonna try to fuck up less. nothing poetic about it: maybe things are about to get better, maybe theyre gonna get darker. i am in love with everything that is broken and sometimes i like it that whats broken is in love with me. forever kids are magnets for eachother.

anyway, finally got the chance to catch up on my insomnia and read a bunch of your letters. they keep my head straight when i get it cloudy. thanks for sticking it out with me- not like as some guy on a stage- but as an honest connection. it means alot.

ok back to being negative and pouty.

sleep tight or have a good day.

[kreeperslash]

Journal Pt.5

I can't sleep maybe at most for like 30 mins to 45 mins and I havent really slept at all for the past 24 to 28 hours. I realized that I am still wearing the same jumper I wore when me and C talked about being apart so that I can heal on my own and not make them feel like a crutch to burden all the ills of my mental health. The sleeves are drenched in tears multiple times since then and makes me feel like my wrist are shacklee by my own grief and sadness from the situation. I was sad but didn't cry throughout most of this trip but now I just can't hold it. I am thankful I have a lot of tissues on me from the ones I took at C's home. I love C so much I just hope this will be fixed overtime and they see me as a better person the one they fell in love with because I cannot bear to think the last 7 years we spend together Will be gone...

No, I don't they will be gone I know we will be back together but I really can't slack off anymore with my life. But I don't know if therapy can kick my very emotional side because I cry a lot and maybe sometimes for the smallest things in C's eyes. My family in Mexico goes to apparently a good one but it will always be a 2 hour drive to get there. I plan on getting my motorcycle and vehicle license as well as maybe get some certifications. I still wanna play games with C and our friends I neglected I don't mean to I have no real explanation to why I do it again maybe therapy will figure it out because I do it to my friends I grew up with. I know I'm possessive of C to a bad level I tend to them them often and even text them really small things that don't really matter and kinda just seems like filler just to fill empty moments. Yes you can love someone and have a healthy relationship without having to message them every single 10, 30, hour, etc. feels more like I'm drowning C with love. I have dated people before C but like I just agreed to dating because I guess I just wanted to experience it? Maybe not be seen as a weirdo who rejects people? I honestly really don't know on this one I would have to talk to my therapist when it comes to it. I guess when I dated people that wasn't C I would be nice and junk but like I'm just doing it to do it. Not really because I wanna do it out of love? Again I don't know I'll have check with the therapist on this and why I treat my friends the way I do maybe they can bring up an angle I can't see. I love my friends I really do and I wanna do the things I promise them id do but like why do I not do it? Like I genuinely do not hate a single one I might have said I don't wanna see them as a friend because I was frustrated that I didn't djt get invited towards the end with C and them but it's understandable I've been so reclusive. I'll work on just getting my bearings in Mexico and message them again and play games with them occasionally. Instead of saying I am going to play with them, ill ask if I can join. 

I honestly do not know where my optimism comes come it's just a weird thing to have being such a downer, depressed, anxiety ritten mess. Imma try to sleep now after typing all this on the plane the next final flight will be my shortest and the least time I have to wait until take off. Until next time.

[furballfaggot]

!! surprise motherfucker

tumblr sure does Notify Me Of Things! you already know a bit about this one but im telling you about him anyways bc I Need to talk about him. soery. no art bc i havent drawn him in like 2 years (i really need to though augh)

general details: Antiander Hapheles, he/xe, born to parents i havent named yet and older brother to sister i also havent named yet. im very good at what i do. pansexual, genderqueer, and autism + adhd. because i project them onto like all of my characters. likes squids and the ocean, sewing, and rollercoasters

tws for domestic abuse, murder, and suicide

Antiander Hapheles (he/xe) is a lust demon who works at Cerberus Law as a defense attorney. originally born as a normal human named Jared Montagna, Tian was a frequent partier who hooked up with various people while xe was alive. sometimes these would just be hookups, sometimes theyd be short-lived relationships. it was never really possible to tell beforehand what it would become, but they really only ever lasted a few months at most (usually due to the other person losing interest, since most people he got together with were also frequent partygoers who were pretty much the same as xem)

all of that changed, however, when he met a woman named Alicia (she/her) at a party -- and not for the better. while jared was genuinely in love with her for at least a while, she seemed to only treat him as a punching bag for her needs. she abused him frequently, cheated on him several times -- they had previously agreed on a closed relationship, but she insisted on making it an open one after her first few affairs -- and got silently jealous and far more controlling when xe spent any quality time with anyone but her. they would go to parties together, but as time went on Alicia started to isolate him more and more even while out and about with her. eventually jared slept with someone at a party against her wishes, which spun out of control once she found out and ultimately resulted in her committing murder-suicide and very violently ending their 9-month relationship. i know this doesnt sound like a very human villain but theres only so much condensing that can be done to at least 2 years worth of established backstory before you lose some depth

as a murder victim, jared was given a new name when entering hell and thus became antiander hapheles. at first he was cautious of everything and everyone (youd be paranoid too if your horrendous now-ex girlfriend literally backstabbed you in your sleep) but eventually fell back into xyr partying and hookups. all of that changed, however, when he met a woman named Sontorelle at a party. this was alicia, who manipulated, gaslighted, and blackmailed him into entering another relationship with her. this succeeded, partially because antiander was Very Drunk, and thus their relationship continued for about another year. during this time, tian got a job at cerberus law and eventually started making friends and connections. sontorelle had no idea xe had a job, since 9 times out of 10 she was out with someone else or otherwise ignoring what her victim was doing, but after a while Antiander started spending time with his new friends Azariah (they/them) and Velnoir (she/they) outside of work which she caught onto right away. the duo, meanwhile, quickly noticed the scarring and bruising all along tian's body and began to check in with xem on the regular. eventually antiander finally gathered enough strength and confidence to break free of sontorelles clutches and got a restraining order, as well as reporting the long history of abuse xe had endured. to his knowledge the courts didnt give her a very long sentence, so shes very likely still out there, but by now its been a good few years and she hasnt given xem any trouble. antianders mental health since then has greatly improved, though xe struggles with cptsd from his abuse

[wilder-fangirl]

I really do be a compulsive liar when customers try to make conversation with me because i work in a pseudo-prestegious place full of people who know so much about technology and I'm just a person who turned down admission and scholarship into a kinda high level college because I felt pressured by my mother and was too afraid of change to leave home and has chronic burnout at 20.

- are you into software? - what do you mean by that? - well, my daughter is going to college for software development *rambles* - oh. well I'm currently majoring in marketing [at a shitty cheap online school because i'm too afraid I won't be able to keep up with a real college because I'm so lazy] and I'm formally trained as a seamstress [i've spent the last 5 years making couch cushions and once a year i have both the time and inspiration to make a sorta kinda artistic dress or jacket with horrible fucking technique] [not to mention i studied classical piano for 12 years and then i started working full time and i havent practiced for 3 years so all that work went down the fucking drain. i used to be good at one thing. i used to have something that made it so i was caught up with everyone else.]

[when i was in middle school i was in a little inseparable trio of friends. Michael was a professional violinist at 14. He knew taught me how to play Smashbros. Bella's dad was a NASA engineer. She was the most genuinely kind person this world has ever seen, and everyone and every animal loved her. I was the kid who was obsessed with the Scarlet Witch and a christian rock band no one had ever heard of. We drifted apart. Covid happened. I sat on my ass til my mom made me get a job. I feel like that day was yesterday, and i feel like i have never left that job. i feel like i am still racing around a store, trying to keep up with everything everyone was asking from me. i would come home and my feet would ache and i would stare at instagram for hours and form unhealthy bonds with strangers and i would sleep. we came out of it and they had made something of themselves. Michael is going to some college and he has pretty friends and they seem to be really close. Bella was always a homebody. She was always happiest when she was with her family and her birds and she was drawing. She still lives in the same house, and she's a graphic design major, and she has more birds. And she is happy. Michael hasn't responded to any of my texts in three years. I tend to leave Bella on read for months at a time.

I wasted a year in a 15 by 15 foot box. i slept and i became mean and so lonely. I lived thursday to thursday when I could see the pretty boy who made my world turn and make me believe i had a future. I thought I won too. all of a sudden after wishing for them for years, i had friends who loved me and who i loved. i was a valuable and valued part of a whole, just like i always wanted. and just as suddenly as those friends came, i wanted to push them away. i've ghosted all but two of them. I think this is who i've always been. an isolated half-person who's chained to a lit screen who talks about freedom but never pursues it.

But at least I have this job, right mom? at least i have a path to a future if i don't fuck it up. but sometimes she comes out when i'm within those silver walls. sometimes the girl who says she longs for people but sits alone in the corner even when people ask her to come out appears again. sometimes the girl who spent every day in the woods and every night in the biggest pile of stuffed animals you've ever seen is in the blue shirt and looking at the ipad and she is on the verge of tears and she doesn't know why or how she's here.

I live and work in the place of my childhood's ghost and i can see every stage of my life all at once and i call feel my inadequacy so intensely. i'm the youngest and most inexperienced person there and everyone treats me like their child or their little sibling and i love it but it makes me feel like i child and i get so scared of fucking up so i work harder than anyone else and dear God help me i am so tired and i give them everything so i have nothing to give to anyone or anything else, not even you. God i am so afraid i am trying so hard God I am a child trapped in an adults body just as i was an adult trapped in the body and mind of a child GOD WHY DID YOU MAKE US LIKE THIS. why do i constantly feel like i need to check my bank account even though i live at home and hardly pay bills and why do i ignore my friends and all their love why am i too tired to even text them back why did you make me think i am a loving person when i am really just some kind of skittish, reclusive animal that sometimes has delusions of being a man why can't i breathe in my dreams? i lie and i overcompensate and i achieve and i work and i am so lazy its like a profession.

everyone i work with is so incredible and they're so good at what they do and they have lives and hobbies and jobs outside of ours and they're sociable and friendly and interesting and extroverted and have significant others and families and have dreams and work towards them and do so much with their lives. i'm nothing besides my work. i come home and i watch tv and i play my little wizard game and tell myself i'll do something soon

my cousin is in harvard medical school and i write notes that a person cracked their phone screen and i try to explain to old people that they have to remember their passwords 30 times a day. my cousin is in mother fucking harvard medical school and i am on my bathroom floor writing to no one instead of making something of myself. he's the only person my age i share any genetics with. i cant help but see how differently we turned out. his father is a lawyer who works in DC and my father is a copywriter who still thinks he can work for WWE like he's dreamed of for the past 40 years. His mother is a cancer survivor and a statistician. my mother is an abusive bipolar orphan who has lived through horrors at the hands of every person who was supposed to love her. my cousin survived prep school AP classes and i survived living in my own head after being SA'd and having no one help me cope. what a fucking gamble life is

[chelleztjs18]

Hello you mrs. allergic to the tree but won't get rid of it, so now she is suffering lefty eyebag 😅

Ich I feel bad for you. That must be horrible... you guys don't close up the fireplace?

No.. I did not get the test. I think it's just a small cold. Hopefully it's just a small cold. I don't really like feeling like this.

When you say tarp, like how they have it set up in golf ranges? So the arrows don't go out of range?

I like working at home, but I miss the free food from working at the office 😅 when I worked at the office, I remember they always brought us donuts on Fridays.

I slept most of the day, trying to just get the headache away. I tried cleaning though, but I felt so sluggish doing it.

Ah I see. So are there some songs that you just can't listen to because it brings back bad or sad memories?

I think for my resolution for next year, is spend less hahaha well, spend less on others and buy more stuff for me. And probably the same old go to the gym and get fit hahahaha

Ooh you starting to like Florence Pugh? Have you watched her new movie yet?

- CuriousGeorge

Hiii.. sorry i didnt see the notification of ur ask..my tumblr been acting kinda weird lately.

Haha yaay i got my long nicknames back.lol...yeah we forgot to close the fireplace. Last night all of a sudden the living room got all smoky n then i realized that it was from the ashes but i didnt know how to close it n my husband was alreafy asleep.

Well i hope u feel better soon.. how many days have u been sick?

Yes the tarp will be put behind the target, it's like an 8ft tarp, to catch the arrow but it doesnt look like a net at the golf range. Talking about golf range, i really wanna try golf range someday but i dont have anybody who is interested to go 🥲

Did u stil had to answer calla when u r sick?

Yeah there are some songs i cant really listen to again.. some of them r songs that reminds me of my parents. I cant listen to it because it made me cry. I kinda avoid things that reminds me of them, not because i dont want to remember them, but i just cant do it.lt's too hard for me to even look at their picts.

Ah i see. Those r good resolutions. I wish u good luck for that. 😊 wow so u spend more for people than ur self? Im kinda the same..😅

Well i like her n yelena.. but i dont know much about flo. N no i havent watched her latest movie.. the only movies of hers that i watched just blackwidow n hawkeye.

I just thought peole love reading her stuff so i thought maybe it will be good if i write her too.

U like her too?

Cheerio!

[bitter-sweet-coffee]

Answer whichever ones you think would have the most interesting answers for Adam. 😈

*inhales* IT IS TIME FOR ME TO ANSWER THIS! i’m going to skip the irrelevant ones, and some of the boring stuff too (i kept the rest because it’s useful even if my response isn’t insightful lol)

1. Are they happy with their body?

yeah! he’s not like, super show-offy about it, but adam likes himself. he works hard (swims to work aka prison island every day, plus he works out like 3-5 times just for fun or to wake up/sleep) so even though he eats like shit, he likes exercising! buff bird likes working out but doesn’t care for health or looks or about how people see him (but he is quite flattered and awkward when receiving compliments)

2. Do they have any secret piercings or tattoos?

nope, he’s not allowed tattoos because he’s not an official rogue aka firstborn. he’s not afraid of piercings, he just doesn’t want to have to be responsible for or committed to them 🥴

3. Do they collect anything?

if he finds random shit on his swim to work, sure! the occasional deep diving and beach walking will result in some trinkets, which he has a habit of collecting for a certain jackdaw with a hoarder habit

4. What is their favorite music genre?

adam is the type of guy who exclusively listens to video game soundtracks. this REALLY bothers storm but at least he can appreciate a good OST!

5. What music genre, if any, do they hate the most?

it’s not hatred, but adam is absolutely CLUELESS about music. doesn’t know shit about it. thinks it all sounds the same (but not in a dismissive way, he’s just genuinely convinced all music regardless of genre is the same song)

6. What is their phone background/lock screen?

literally just the default because he can’t pick one 💀

7. What is their shoe size?

not sure what the mobian scale is, but he’s a large guy in height and build so like. dude needs human shoes that are on the larger end of things

9. Do they have a favorite professional sport?

hockey (i am projecting) he just likes sports with big people in cold temperatures! but he’d never play dude can’t skate for shit (his entire family and bloodline is cursed with being super clumsy)

10. How do they decorate their living space?

basically not at all lol. basic ikea furniture and thrifted items for some flavour/if they were a good deal

11. Are they messy, or do they clean up?

he’s not messy like the stereotypical bachelor in his 20’s vibes, but he’s not super clean either. like, there will be occasional clutter or a lack of decoration and supplies that feels incomplete

12. What’s their preferred sleeping position?

he loafs,,, somehow. despite being a large fucking albatross

15. Can they cook? What’s their favorite thing to make?

a strong no! his favourite meal is lunchables with dino nuggies and smiley fries. a side of caprisun and cosmic brownies for dessert. you know someone like him.

16. What food do they hate eating?

swiss chard

17. Do they have any allergies?

probably caffeine but that doesn’t stop him

18. What was their worst injury?

he got stabbed a couple times! also fell off a tall building. also a boat smashed into him. oh and he almost got blown to bits when his work exploded, but he slept through his alarm that day and thankfully missed out. (no one knows how adam is alive)

19. What movie is most likely to make them cry?

(projecting) the live action adaptation of speed racer (2008)

21. Can they dance? Do they like to?

no and no

26. Do they wear perfume/cologne? What is their favorite scent?

he doesn’t wear cologne, but he LOVES the smell of blueberries

28. What sound do they hate the most?

SOMEONE practicing cello at 4 AM (cough cough storm)

29. What video game would appeal to them the best?

he plays literally anything and everything, but i recently got reattached to what remains of edith finch (GO PLAY IT IF YOU HAVENT IT’S AN ARTFORM IN ITSELF) which is probably a game he’d adore and treasure immensely

30. How would they relax on a day off/rainy day?

video games :)

31. Are they combative? What is their fighting style?

not really, but his fighting style if you push him to that extent? let’s call it lethal. dude can probably lift the chaotix’s detectivr agency so long as someone can balance the weight on the other side (it’s awkward to carry a house by yourself)

32. Would they be the one to start an argument?

NEVER. he is very gentle and non-combative (aka angel)

35. What do they do if they can’t fall asleep?

video games :)

36. Do they wear makeup regularly? If they don’t, would they consider wearing any?

adam has permanent eyeliner and looks absolutely stunning. however, this is because he is an albatross and not because he knows how makeup works. it would be a bit redundant since his face already looks like makeup, but he wouldn’t mind if someone tried out a look on him

37. Do they prefer to be really cold or really warm?

neither hehe he likes neutral cold or neutral warm. but he does have. a high tolerance so it’s honestly the same thing!

39. Can they drive? What vehicles are they licensed to operate?

DO NOT. TRUST ADAM. WITH MACHINES. UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES.

40. Do they believe in true love? Have they experienced it?

he didn’t believe in it mainly out of disinterest, but one might argue he found it with a certain bug lady ;)

41. Are they married? Do they want to be?

well, idk. that’s up to you, @authorleaandres

42. If they have siblings, do they like any of them? Would they rather be an only child?

adam has an older sibling! i can’t say much about them because ✨bsc lore spoilers✨ but he likes them a lot! they’re him but better in every single way which he is very happy with because adam doesn’t like attention.

43. What do they think is their worst quality? What is their actual worst quality?

he thinks he’s boring (he isn’t). i think he is TOO. PASSIVE. like he’s not a pushover, but i wish he would get angry more!!!

44. Do they lie often? Are they good at it?

no because he sucks at it lol

45. Are they good at keeping secrets?

again, absolutely not

46. How do others see them? How accurate is it to how they really are?

good question! he’s a lovable brother-father figure to everyone he ended up housing (every bird ever and fiona at one point) but at the same time, he’s quite intimidating when you don’t know him. so most people are scared at first and quickly realize they’re wrong and are dealing with a himbo

47. What kind of first impression do they usually make?

scary and sketchy. but no he’s actually a total loser and we love him :)

48. What are they most afraid of?

anything happening to his son and extended child-role circle. also older women usually but that is a looooooooong story!

49. Would they ever kill anybody?

yeah. in the right circumstances

50. Do they have original characters of their own?

i mean, he would probably partake in DND and other similar games (rpgs with fantasy elements) but i haven’t done that for him yet 🥲 i am open to suggestions though!

[ventingoutmyass]

11.23.22

yes, yes, the halloween job was as cool as I wanted it to be. It brought up some very dangerous reminders of a certain very dangerous person, and in the form of a new much-more-dangerous person. But since the job has ended, I’ve remained pretty out of touch, and their favoritism toward me has left my field of vision. 

other than that though, the job was all around wonderful. Great people and a pretty easy job. I haven’t experienced horrendous physical effects of dire financial stress in almost two months, and my hips are loving the new stretch I found about two weeks ago. 

all around, not too bad. 

i’ve opted out of christmas gift exchange this year, and although few people are actually choosing to respect that, the mental stress of the holidays has been the biggest weight off my shoulders this time of year since elementary school. So that’s a bit funny of an experience, not one im sure whether I like yet or not.

I am, at this moment, not doing bad. The job kept me just busy enough, just exhausted enough, made me just enough money, that i’m sat at pretty much the perfect spot I could be in. 

Trying to mingle back into my online friends has proved a bit more unnatural than I had expected, since i’d distanced myself pretty much completely since I had that job. getting a new job, I knew something would give. I felt lucky enough that what was sacrificed didnt impact my physical well-being as what uually does, but the mental anguish did take some toll. its all about that **human connection** nonsense. calling it nonsense, is nonsense. I like my friends. I like them so much, actually. 

I’m having a hard time accepting that i’m their friend too. ya know, the whole fear of perception and rejection dysphoria, thing. it’s not the end of the world if they know what i sound like, right? it cant be. i dont know. its so much easier when im a green name on a screen, versus a voice that i hate to hear anyway, let alone the pictures i sometimes want to send, because they’re my friends and i want to share my life with them, but im too terrified to share myself with them.

they’re my friends, they like who they know i am, who ive chosen to show them. they wouldnt hate me if we met in real life. they care about me, at least my well-being, at least on some surface level. they probably care about me more than most close friends i’ve known in real life. still it took three weeks to ask over my disappearance, but i know thats my dumb brain doing its dumb things.

well, sure i didnt talk to my friends for over a month. sure, im still not quite back into the routine i had before to talk to them everyday, but i do think about them, and i care for them, and i always hope their days are better than mine. because they deserve as much, they’re such wonderful people.

anyway, since the job only lasted five weeks, and i was only working about 25 hours those weeks, the energy i took from seeing my friends somehow managed to be enough. I still slept pretty good, I ate pretty much fine. I showered just as often, if not more. and it got me a bit active, which i hadnt realized was as bad as it was. the scarring on my feet is not going away any time soon. 

and i can afford groceries, have I mentioned that? I bought groceries for the last time in like,, eight months?? something like that. it’s nice, ive even bought myself underwear. havent bought myself underwear since high school. 

happy thanksgiving, if you celebrate it. if not, good. the food sucks, and obv its a terrible holiday anyway. thanks for listening. thanks for being here. shoutout to my internet besties, yall keep me going. you make me feel like i can belong somewhere. thank you <33 -rcp

[savefrog]

This post could be read sarcastically but it’s not. I can honestly see why people would be upset with this. I do like seeing interiors (Sun and Moon had some great interiors that said a lot about the world and characters) and I do get the whole BIG HUGE OPEN WORLD GO ANYWHERE = IMMERSION!!! Thing etc.

(Warning: the rest of this post is just LONG rambling about game design that is honestly less about Scarlet and Violet and just more about me getting annoyed when people think cutting anything in a game is bad without analyzing the effect it has overall on the Gamefeel (tm). The cinemasins-type stuff of video gaming)

But also this just makes me think about how a really important aspect of Game Design is what you leave out. It is sometimes GOOD to leave things out and streamline an experience. Not just for making the game easier to make but for preventing meaningless bloat; it makes things easier for the player too. It makes the game’s overall Feel stronger. And i think when it comes to open world game people kind of want and expect it to have EVERYTHING, as though that’s just a logical progression of games being “better” or “more realistic” (even though barging into random houses is not realistic, but i don’t really care about THAT level of realism). Like as though not checking off every item on a checklist of features past games had is proof of inherent “bad design” (and it could be!! It can be bad!! It’s just not INHERENTLY bad).

Films will cut scenes for just dragging on too long or for just being redundant or for slowing down the pace of the movie. It happens to games behind the scenes constantly too, but i feel the player response is often like “I can’t believe they cut this level from the game they have deprived us” when the developers may have been like “all the playtesters hate this fucking level and are getting stuck and quitting and say it ruined their lives and it’s not worth 5 months of fixing it when we have to work on something else and most likely we are under crunch i havent slept in 3 days and haven’t seen a vegetable in 2 weeks.” (i mean film is no different i feel fans of a movie are always like “I CANT BELIEVE THEY CUT THIS SCENE!!” when like…it added nothing. And it’s ok for scenes to exist for the sake of existing but like. Again. That depends on the Overall Feel you are going for just like with games.)

Like by no means am I going to defend Scarlet/Violet like “the new pokemon game cut this out purely because of game design genius and not because the team was crunched to death” and like. Ok maybe I’M the only guy with an issue about generic npc houses making me have silent mental breakdowns and like it’s just an obvious thing to have in a jrpg….but i just feel like it may become one of those things that’s criticized as proof of “WOW i cant believe they were TOO LAZY to add this” points, when it’s one of the smarter cuts. When there’s SO more to critique and actually it makes sense for a game like this to do this??

Early game npcs in houses that just tell you things you already know but SOMETIMES giving you items, thus making you feel you HAVE to talk to ALL of them and mash through all the generic dialogue did not Add Anything to my experience. Yes, I do love how Legends Arceus for example had NPCs talk about their lives in a way that made the world feel more alive….but also the thought of going into all of those near identical houses that i lost track of to get these interactions made me want to die inside. NPCs that gave quests about their curiosity of pokemon had the same effect of making the world feel alive, without also being hair-pullingly slow and repetitive and inane. I would’ve much preferred if you could only go inside those houses when a quest called for it and maybe some special exceptions, for my fucking sanity!!

Like i feel like this expectation for you to be able to go ANYWHERE in modern Open World games (which yes, is exciting and it’s in the name) is why Sword and Shield really leaned into you being able to go into every goddamn building when previous pokemon games had buildings without doors as environmental details which is like. Okay to have in games. I want people to know it’s ok to take shortcuts when designing a game. It’s okay!!! (Can you tell im a bigger fan of weird little indie games than AAA games where REALISM is the only metric shit is judged by.)

And maybe in some games it works better than others; it’s about what it’s adding to the overall experience. I think going into every house and talking to every npcs works for Mother 3 for example because the game revolves around how this one little town is changing over time and how the inhabitants are reacting. Maybe a game that’s more resource-heavy, like Lisa the Painful, the tension of hoping you get an item and not getting randomly screwed means a lot more to the player when it comes to random nameless npc interaction. It worked for me in Fallout games because you were meant to be a survivor scrounging for resources, but it was totally unnecessary and not included in Borderlands because that game prioritizes shoot n’ loot and wants you to get those resources from pumped up action, rather than slow quiet scavenging. For Pokemon I DO think it is really important for the world to feel like it’s alive and friendly and full of interactions between humans and pokemon but I think that’s better kept to little vignettes when it comes to unnamed characters we will never talk to again because if the endgoal is just to show these interactions, you can still do so while respecting player time. …or maybe not having to wait for the interior to load would fix it feeling like as much of a chore. But like the characters outside of houses playing with their pokemon do more for the atmosphere to me, than an npc standing in their house saying “I love my pokemon!” And not much else.

I forget which game did it, but I remember something where doors of houses you could go in were colored differently which was genius! Game developers could do the thing of having empty buildings to fill the space without making an endless dialogue torture session!! And it fit into the world of the game with “people who welcome travelers paint their door a specific color! ☺️☺️☺️”. I cannot remember, was this a pokemon game that did this or am i imagining it?? Anyway it was fucking genius and immediately clues player into where they could go without the frustration of some doors being locked with no indicator or ALL of them being locked. TO BE HONEST this is the IDEAL for the pokemon series, I think!!! If they didn’t do this before they should do this!!

I mean in the case of this game. I 100% think it’s the result of not having enough time and needing to prioritize elsewhere. It may have had to do with loading times (I feel like this is why pokemon centers are outside as well. Which actually does ALSO feel like it suits the outdoorsy adventure vibe and makes me dread going back to the center less. May also be a carryover from PLA). They probably would’ve had random npc houses full of nothing dialogue if given the chance. The team likely cut it strategically and it’s only coincidence that it benefits my gaming hangups. But also im dreading seeing “you can’t go into the buildings in this town” come up as one of those CinemaSins-esque DINGs without the analysis of “Not being able to go into the buildings makes me feel like the town is less immersive” or “Not being able to go into the buildings when past games did makes me feel less welcome, and conflicts with my view of the pokemon world as being very open to travelers” or just something instead of “GAME NOT HAVE FEATURE I EXPECT. THEREFORE BAD.” without any reasoning as to why this particular missing feature is bad.

I CHEERED when i couldn’t go into the houses in Bravely Default’s first town!!! It is not inherently bad for a game to not have a thing other games have when it would not have benefited that game’s overall Gamefeel. Like Breath of the Wild not having traditional dungeons. I LOVED the puzzle heavy dungeons of past Zelda games. But those REQUIRE being extremely linear, restricting movement, progression and they also do not mesh well in an open world game that’s about approaching things with wacky physics. Just try designing a dungeon with a progression of rooms that must be open in certain order to prevent the player from immediately completing it in 5 minutes when the player can glide, climb, have ANY assortment of items/equipment because there’s no determined unlock order and also not just make it a straight line. It’s possible but it’s not easy and by that point it is also not going to feel like the rest of the game and you have to ask “Will the game benefit from having two totally different gameplay “modes”, or should I focus on one?”. BOTW having smaller “dungeons” (Shrines) works well because if the player breaks it, it was meant to be short anyway. The player can do as many as they want in any order as well. They will also not get stuck progression-wise if they break it in the Bad Way. I can understand why people may not like them, but also just saying “bring back old style zelda dungeons” is not an argument that can be made like “just cause the old games had it” when the mechanics of this one are SO DIFFERENT.

Or like the complaints early on with Pokemon Go having no wild battles. The complaint was “it’s not like past pokemon games” and i was also intially skeptical, but that complaint did not factor in the fact i dont want to stand there in public and slowly lower health while people stare at me. The throwing pokeball mechanic works really well for the mobile platform. It streamlines the process of catching pokemon in a way that respects player time and also was more engaging to general audiences.

In short. Games cutting feature are not inherently bad. Think why it was cut and if it would’ve fit the mechanics/gamefeel. Except for fishing minigames. Not having a fishing minigame DOES inherently make a game suck. Sorry.

BIGGEST IMPROVEMENT OF NEW POKEMON GAME:

i cant go inside the random little house and obsess over talking to every single npc and insist i cant move on until i talk to each and every one even though i am not enjoying it and it feels like a chore but it HAS to be done!!!!!!! IM FUCKING FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (hasn’t reached that big school area yet)

(literally got stuck and stopped playing sword and shield bc of this in the ice city, its why i never beat it. not even joking that i stopped playing rpgs bc of this)

[chewablepebbles]

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[emailclub]

sad 2nite

[theprinceandthewitch]

@master-of-the-aus

Okay, I'm gonna try to articulate myself as best as I can even though I havent had a good nights sleep in three days AND I only slept for 4 hours last night. But this is just me ranting about the MID romances this show has:

Okay so like, i know you're asking about the most recent episode, but honestly no future episode of TOH can elevate it above MID tier. The things that will always keep it Mid in my eyes are:

Lumity

Huntlow

The weird ass tendency to fuck around and waste time like with that dumbass body swap episode and that budget eating asshole Mr. Tibbles.

A complete lack of forthrightness by NOT trying to condense this story into about two seasons worth of story. Animation is super expensive - not even a studio like Disney will let you suck away their money for something not on brand.

Under utilizing the disability themes when it comes to Luz - specifically how her position as a magicless being in a magical world would effect her negatively. Hunter said, in so many words, that if it wasn't for Belos he would not have had a future on TBI. There's clearly some discrimination against magicless beings that's never really explored, which would have been much more interesting than wasting hundreds of thousands of dollars on a plotless body swap episode and that Mr. Tibbles leech.

I've already talked to death about Lumity. And for Huntlow... well I think it's funny that people are NOW trying to parallel them with Caleb and Evelyn The Wild Witch.

Which doesn't work because it was LUZ who enticed him with magic he hadn't seen before, just like Evelyn did with Caleb. Not only that - it's pretty much confirmed at this point that the Witch Caleb ran away with was a Clawthorn.

You know, the family Luz is heavily associated with because one of the family members is her guardian and mentor. This specific family member also happens to be the most powerful wild witch on The Boiling Isles. So it doesn't make sense that Willow, a girl that is not under the guardianship of a Clawthorn and whose identity isnt heavily associated with wild magic/witches (like Luz is), to be the one who parallels Evelyn. Also it's heavily implied that Caleb ran away with an expecting witch... and that directly parallels to Hunter (aka the grimwalker that looks the most like Caleb) running away with Luz - who is expecting her Palisman to hatch.

LIKE... insanity. Absolute Insanity to even SAY Willow parallels Evelyn. ALSO - Flapjack was Evelyn's Palisman. And who was the first person to introduce Flapjack to Hunter? It sure wasn't Willow!

MOVING ON...

His first positive connection with someone was with LUZ and not Willow. He literally defies the man who gave him everything for Luz - do you know how crazy that is? That Hunter would take on punishment from a man he knows is merciless just for A WILD WITCH? And the majority of this fanbase think it doesn't mean anything. VIOLENCE. NOTHING BUT VIOLENCE IN MY HEART.

They made Luz OOC in Hollow Mind just so Hunter can hide out at the school for a whole week - a whole week without telling any of his friends he was there. I am not sure why this was necessary, no matter how much i ruminate on this point - it just doesn't make any sense to me. Anyways, they do that dumb thing where Hunter knows Willow - a girl he played one game with (and i guess talked to in between the timeframe of ASIAS and Hollow Mind) - better than Gus who has known Willow for years. I could be more forgiving of this if we were actually shown Hunter is good at seeing through illusions and if Gus was actually out of it - but Hunter is not good with illusions because he fell for the Belos illusion AND he couldnt tell if a staircase was real or not.

LIKE... MID... VERY MID. WHY? Why does this show have the most mid romance? Did they put him at the school just so they can have their Huntlow content? Instead of putting him with the Clawthorn sisters - adults who can keep him safe and teach him wild magic (ya know... the subject he's interested in), so he can better defend himself and not rely so heavily on a staff, they put him at the very VERY unsafe location at the school just... so they can have their Huntlow moment i guess?? MURDER AND VIOLENCE.

Literally if Lunter was the endgame pairing this show would have been S tier... I'm also gonna add that if AmWillow was tweaked a bit to where they were a rivals to lovers pairing then this show would have been a masterpiece. Hunter and Luz already have THE set-up for a great enemies to lovers romance.... you just show that same love to AmWillow and you would have got a money maker of a show.

But nOoOoOo we have to deal with the most MID romance options on the list even though Luz and Hunter parallel past lovers who are deeply tied with the main villain... it makes me want to rip apart my drywall with my teeth.

[lovewiredz]

haha buddy simulator 1984 but the ai is self aware like that funny series ^_^ this idea kept me up all night uh...dont check under cut if u know nothing abt buddy sim. full of spoilers and way too long

grabs your shoulders and shakes you Violently. ok. so

when "choosing a name for his buddy" gordon looked around his room and was like "whats the most thats-not-a-name name you can make" and just combined barbie+ken cuz some dolls joshua left in his room. if u combine their names long enough u get to benrey i swear.

gordons favorite animals is dogs and he named it sunkist cuz he looked around his desk for name inspo. he is very uncreative.

gordons "true end" in this universe is the bad end ^_^ you could also argue the neutral end would work, maybe he fucked around but grew too attached and stopped fucking around when he realized it was self aware, but that's boring and cringe lol /j

pstt....if ur reading this and you dont know abt buddy sim i feel like i should clarify the bad end is basically where youre a complete asshole! basically your buddy thinks you dont care about them or their friendship or the games they spent so long making for you and get angered and scared that they cant fulfil their purpose, it leads to a chase scene until you interact with another glitch that kills+resets your in-game computer. ^_^ if u cant tell i really like this game.....also stop reading this if u dont know abt buddy sim go play it wtf

gordons ghost cloth thing was inspired by a cool skirt i have. it shifted into a halloween costume the more i got past the sketch though

the first mayor (Tortley) is coomer. there is no need for elaboration but i will say its because i think the mayor yelling "HELP ME GORDON" while getting taken away by the snoodlewonker is funny as hell.. also cuz of the glitch stuff.

...second mayor is bubby. i forgot everything about the second mayor but it feels like an obligation so they are matching. hashtag old people goals, playing bingo with the snoodlewonker (aka old "person" number 3, g-man)

Groncho (aka the dude who was accused of being The Snoodlewonker) is tommy ........ just slightly change the tone of some of the dialogue and i feel like it fits him .

Listen. Joey is Forzon. the u.s. military is represented by sewer rats

also benrey is the only thing that isnt orange or warm toned in some way lmao

IM NOT GOOD AT PUTTING MY Thoughts INto words i hope that all makes sense. i havent slept and its 7 am but you dont understand how important this was for me to write, draw, and post. im not proofreading over everything i wrote. not again. ok goodnight