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me as an imogen’s selfishness built from her isolation is one of the most interesting things about her truther (which, before someone vagues me on twitter . i don’t think this doesn’t mean she can’t and hasn’t been altruistic but that’s a separate post) + someone who loves when my favourite characters have their lives threatened and/or they die. i am eating well after last night’s ep.
as someone who cares for the world of exandria and despises everytime ashton opens his mouth about the gods and clocked into ashton and ludinus wearing the same hat a while ago . having to listen to them talk about how they’re better than ludinus because (checks notes) they want to do exactly what ludinus wants to but their motives (the exact same kind of trauma that made him tell ludinus to “grow up” . me BEGGING him to take his own advice) are better ??? i’m not eating as well but what can you do.
my grip on this campaign as a completionist who Is enjoying cr even if i don’t think this is a particularly strong campaign is truly resting on the shoulders of imogen impulsive-and-single-minded temult, fearne “if the world’s burning i want a front row seat” calloway, orym “only member of the group capable of a thought for the ‘little guys’ the party claims to stand for” of the air ashari, and chet who is there for vibes (and to protect his family). also shout out to braius for joining the one party where betraying them would make him easily break into the top 3 morally upstanding members of the party.
#do i think the party has to be morally good? absolutely not. should they be if they’re waxing poetic about how hard they’re trying to make#the right decision while refusing to even look at what it obviously the right decision for more than one second?#yeah i think so#cr3#cr spoilers#critical role#imogen temult#anyway imogen’s stuff DELICIOUS as someone who has a shitty jot note maybe someday essay in my drafts about how imogen was forced to grow#out of the single-mindedness and self interest that characterize a lot of her and laudna’s dispositions towards group choices/commitments#has been mostly prompted by the lack of access and permissibility from the group she has to going off the deep end#versus laudna who remained quite stagnant for much longer because there Was permissibility that she go off the deep end because yk. delilah#fucking Psyched that the Minute imogen has an excuse that is quasi informed by the group that she gives in. because in every other#situation where she pondered giving in bh was encouraging her to fight (tho the cast may have been encouraging her to give in)#i’m just. smiling in laura bailey characters with extremely twisted moral systems that spell out exactly the kinds of people they are#(judgemental but affectionately so)
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#i have to vent#i've come to the conclusion that in real life i must just be an extremely forgettable person#'oh but i'm sure that's not true'#it is. it really is.#i can't believe otherwise until people stop forgetting about me.#my brain doesn't work that way.#it feels like it causes cognitive dissonance to believe something that goes against all of my lived experiences#if i wasn't forgettable people wouldn't forget me.#'God will never forget you' i know.#i know that.#but His people do and will. time and time again.#and maybe i shouldn't care so much.#but i do.#it just feels like if i want something too much that's basically a guarantee that it will not work out#if i want someone to care about me and remember me that's a guarantee that they won't.#there's no secret great nobility to being alone all the time#surprise i actually just want to die.#anyways. i won't die but.#i will remember this shitty day for a long time.
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felix being referred to more or less exclusively as "your soldier" in-game speaks to how little the writers put into his character beyond his noggin full of sith secrets & his relationship with the consular; still, i do find it kind of sweet and funny, in a way. he's not a republic soldier, not even your personal bodyguard; he's your soldier. the consular is a small nation-state in and of herself
#accurate.#felix iresso#swtor#jedi consular#open tags for My Rant:#going back through rishi and doing the cute little holocron quest got me brooding - as i often do - on my best boy felix#that the writers could not think to give him anything in KOTXX that wasn't Torture Angst is deeply shitty but a little understandable.#all the other consular comps kind of have a way forward that isn't consular-related when the consular goes away#nadia has the jedi. zenith has balmorra. tharan has his old illustrious career. qyzen has little baby clan and also his religious directive#meanwhile felix isn't involved with your order or a supergenius or a politician or even someone with a lifelong goal#he was a guy doing his best at a dead-end job that turned into a far more enjoyable but still lowkey dead-end job#i would argue they could (should) have sent him to ossus but i can see them balking because Doc was already there#that's a little narratively redundant especially bc Doc has an extremely useful set of non-martial skills you would want to center#when telling a story about survival and persistence against the odds like with ossus#(also he was in the group of companions second-closest in proximity to the emperor in base game)#HOWEVER.#because i am immensely sexy and cool and have a huge brain i think i've cracked it#the way to give felix a compelling story post-consular is to put him the fuck in charge.#no longer your soldier or anyone's. his own. maybe even in charge of a large group of people in need of someone to follow#considering he used to be really good at that#a group like...idk...maybe the rest of the people incarcerated on his prison colony?#much to think about.
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If I was crazy rich I would pay the cast and writers of Santa Clarita Diet an unacceptable amount of money to make a 2 hour movie finishing the show, and then pay Tom Holland and Paul King an unacceptable amount of money to not make a movie about Fred Astaire.
#I've got nothing against fred astaire it's not that#but he was an extremely private person and hated the idea of a biopic EVER being made about him#he literally had it written into his will that a biopic never be made of his life. like he specifically put that in his will.#which obviously isn't legally binding to anyone anywhere but he just REALLY wanted it known that he didn't want this#which..... tbh I'm not sure you can still be against things when you're dead#and in a way none of this matters because so little is known about fred astaire's personal life (except that he loved skateboarding lol)#so it's not like the movie can even really be about him when you get down to it#and yet it still seems like such a shitty thing to do idk#can't really blame Tom Holland though because it wouldn't be the first time someone was bamboozled into taking a role like that#Lily James claims she was told Pamela Anderson approved the show about her and I believe her#op#shitpost
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trying to write a book about the same 2 characters for like 5 years except I never figured out what was wrong with the story and now I have mega turbo writer's block that I might never recover from. the two of you are never getting out of here, but neither am I. do you want to get ice cream
#l&tsw#idk.....#someone pointed that out to me the other day#that i had been working on this book for years. right through some extremely formative stuff#when my mental health was at its worst point it was part of what kept me going#and its like. yeah the two of you are not Real but#you've been there with me forever. you might always be if i cant finish the story#thats interesting. thats ok#even if all i can write forever more is just shitty unfinished oneshots about you its okay#where do you want to go this week? what would you like to see?#let me know
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at long last, I present my headcanon about Luis's education/career timeline + why he kept working for Umbrella while knowing how fucked all of it was
First off there's enough 16 and younger high up Umbrella scientists that it's easy to just accept that shit in the RE world is just Like That and a 12 year old Luis rocking up to enroll in university just makes sense within the logic of the world, but my personal headcanon is way more expansive than that. I like to imagine him actually going to a school operated by Umbrella. The Umbrella boarding school in the Arklay Mountains was shut down, but I headcanon that it wasn't the only one. Umbrella having boarding schools for child prodigies just makes perfect sense- I mean just read a file about the Executive Training School.

Going after/investing in younger kids is a logical thing to do because they're so much easier to manipulate and brainwash into being exactly what Umbrella wants.
And since Umbrella Europe had that rivalry where they were always trying to compete with their sister branch, I can imagine them seeing what happened to the Executive Training School as an opportunity: Umbrella US fucked up the concept, so they can outdo them by simply running their own competently, without it completely falling apart.
Now you're probably thinking there's a hole in my headcanon, the fact that Hunnigan's report mentions Luis enrolling in university and working for Umbrella after graduating.
My counterpoint is that Umbrella is sketchy as fuck. The whole "James Marcus being a crazy person and performing fucked up experiments on his own students" shit show happened when Luis was just a toddler. So I like to think that inspired them to get a little more cautious when it came to their fucked up child prodigy shenanigans, in time for them to have a solid system worked out by the time Luis is orphaned. And by that I mean they'd find a university to bribe into giving them cover. A new child prodigy graduates from the Umbrella school, Umbrella coughs up some cash, and suddenly that kid attended a university they never actually stepped foot in, and has a diploma with no direct ties to Umbrella. They 100% had the resources and pull to swing some type of arrangement like that.
And Luis is literally the most perfect target for a school like this. He's not just young, he's from an extremely isolated place, making him even easier to manipulate. He also has nothing. They can single him out and crack the whip and push him harder than any of his peers, and he'll just accept it, because what else can he do?
It's Umbrella, or the streets for him.
And I think he probably caught on to the fact that he had made a deal with the devil pretty quickly after starting on the Nemesis Project, but he had made his bed and had to lie in it. Because even after he graduates/becomes a legal adult, they have him completely locked in. There's literally no paper trail or anything official supporting the fact that he's a person who exists. The only thing is the university records Umbrella paid for. Umbrella can hand over some chump change and make those go away too. He wouldn't even be able to start from scratch without a degree, because they could go after him for fraud too. Claim he showed them his degree when they hired him, but discovered it must have been a fake, because the university has no records of him. Who would the courts side with, the kid without a birth certificate, or the pharmaceutical giant that can afford an army of lawyers? It's probably not enough to be all that life ruining, but threats don't necessarily have to be true to work. With Luis's unique life, he's most likely going to be scared of any threat like that, he just doesn't have any experience or context to help him get a grip and really think about it, he's just scared shitless at the thought of going to prison.
And ending this with a point that's independent of my other headcanons in the post and can work on its own. When discussing why Luis stayed for years, we can't forget about Rockfort Island.
On the island, there is also a prison camp and an airport. The prison camp especially, represents an especially dark side of Umbrella. Potential industrial saboteurs and traitors to Umbrella are captured and sent there to be used as human guinea pigs in biological experiments. Once inside, prisoners are held there indefinitely.
(emphasis mine)
I think the common assumption is that Luis fucked off back to Valdelobos because of Raccoon City and being afraid of governments/law enforcement coming after Umbrella, but I really think it was actually Umbrella he was running from. Umbrella would have seemed untouchable at this point, they had the blessing of the government to do what they did in Raccoon City, I doubt anyone there genuinely thought there would ever be legal consequences for any of that. Legal consequences were maybe a far-off possibility that wasn't guaranteed, while Umbrella was very much a real, present, active danger.
But if he got to a point where he couldn't handle the guilt of what he was doing anymore, his options were to disappear completely, or risk being captured and taken to a concentration camp. (Even just resigning normally, without taking any actions against Umbrella, would leave him terrified. A well-liked rising star like him just suddenly resigning, and offering no explanation, likely would have seemed suspicious, and given that Rockfort inmates were a resource for experiments, I can't imagine the bar for what makes someone a "traitor to Umbrella" is very high.)
#luis serra#my headcanons#also one more thing is that i imagine him being extremely hesitant to tell leon about it#like objectively he should want to bc the fact umbrella got their claws into him so young supports the fact he wasn't a shitty person#just someone who was manipulated into doing shitty things#but i imagine he gets this irrational anxiety that leon will think umbrella getting into luis's head at such a young age#means that the brainwashing must have been deep and some day it might resurface and luis would do something shitty again#and tbh now that im typing this i can see luis genuinely believing that himself#not just being afraid it's what leon would think#⛓𝓛𝓮𝓸𝓷𝓼 𝓟𝓻𝓲𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓼𝓼⛓
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what the actual fuck y'all
#drama /#negative /#>> TBD.#>> OUT.#i am genuinely so confused#where is the anger coming from#are we in high school... why the spite why the pettiness#why the 'especially someone i considered a friend' evolving into 'isn't even a friend'#a thirdhand connection to someone shitty & one vent post warrants an entire dni campaign? like. why. esp when u Also make those posts#???? i just do not get it.#whatevs man. i guess ppl are just gonna keep dropping me for an extremely petty reason and i cant control that! so. im gonna go touch grass#tbd tbd i wont harp on this too much i'm just very confused and upset
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honestly the lest*****s trying their hardest to belittle and ignore both piarles and maxiel when the piarles and maxiel girlies stay winning is just *chef's kiss*
anon, I will try to sit on two chairs at once with this because, frankly, anyone's entitled to see any ship as appealing as they please. anyone can be mean to anyone. two people can look at the same picture/situation and see two vastly different things. personally I have friends that enjoy all three ships that you listed. it really depends cause I wouldn't deny that there are individuals who like to blow things way out of proportion.
this isn't "us versus them" situation. I guess the most important is to maintain a certain level of civility otherwise we would not have a good space to enjoy the shipping, let alone the sport itself.
#i understand what exactly you mean anon but i wouldn't generalize to the extreme#and ya know... see something you don't like? filter and scroll babyyyy#asks#anon#and like i personally do not get lestappen but i won't be going around policing what others should or should not enjoy#but god forbid someone acts shitty to my friends or me regarding shipping. i will bite relentlessly
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i understand that its like the most normal question on earth but idk if ill ever be comfortable being asked what i do for work as long as the only way i can answer that is by talking about my medical situation
#im not saying dont ask people that lol this is just a personal anxiety of mine#im just always ready to either be called a benefits scrounger#or like. every possible way people can be shitty about chronic illness/invisible disability#ORRRR they ask for more details#dont ever do that one with someone you just met lol#i know im pretty open about stuff on here#bc 99% of tumblr is extremely chill about that stuff#but i heavily dislike talking about it to people irl that i dont know very well
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Sometimes I prefer to live in blissful ignorance when it comes to the darker corners of this fandom, I just hate seeing good people being treated so awfully and then this whole mess just unfolds and you're like "wooow."
#not gonna say more it's resolved#but to do it to someone so kind and respectful is extremely shitty#so on brand though#I got more upset on their behalf than mine#but didn't want to escalate matters further for their sake#we were both in shock though because everyone is minding their own business these days
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im gonna say something so controversial but so brave. seeing one of the last Joe love songs repurposed for That Man makes me feel so gross and icky and it gives me the heebie jeebies and this isn't to say that I miss Joe but even now I still like him more than I like Travis. my distain for Travis is so strong that I simply cannot let some of these songs get reassigned to him.
#i don't even like labyrinth very much#like sorry all Taylor and everyone else may be ready to move on but i simply am not#not with that wretched beast#i love taylor. i had an extremely upsetting day because i love taylor. somehow my hatred for travis is even larger right now tho.#and I'm not trying to put taylor in the basement or whatever the hell im not trying to write some kind of narrative about her life#it comes down to: i hate football. i hate travis. i hate how fucking overexposed this relationship is.#do i need to take a break? god yes#but i try to take a break from here in other communities and it ends in me wanting to kms because someone said something shitty about taylor#I'm so stuck between a rock and a hard place i really just need a couple weeks without internet period#anyone wanna send me and my bestie on a cruise?
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idk if it's dysphoria or just regular ol insecurity or if maybe i just have a more Autistic Face/Body Language than i realized but when i see pictures of myself smiling there's like a 90% chance i look at them and kind of flinch. i've never seen a picture of someone else smiling and thought they looked bad but i feel like i look like a huge dork in pictures when i'm just candidly happy and it makes me really sad that other people just sort of effortlessly look good in photos and no matter what i do i look like the Bullied Social Reject Who Gets Asked To Prom By A Popular Kid Who Wants To Come Off As Kind And Empathetic
#eugh sorry this is such a shallow insecurity#literally one of my biggest sources of dysphoria is just. My Lips. as a kid i would constantly get asked if i was wearing lipstick#and that question lessened overtime because it's like. expected that someone who's usually read as a woman would be wearing lipstick#i used to literally practice holding my face/doing expressions in the mirror in a way that would minimize how much my lips stood out lmao#it's not even a feminine trait!!!! like it's not my fault western beauty standards expect men to have thin colorless lips#almost all the (cis) men on my mom's side of the family have Big Red Feminine Lips and it's. like. fine. lips aren't fucking gendered#but dysphoria knows know logic and that compounded with the fact that my expressions genuinely tend to be a little wonky#just. makes me feel Really Bad about my face in pictures#idk i just Hate My Smile and i feel like it makes me look ugly and like. i'm not gonna go get plastic surgery about it or whatever because#for me at least that feels really extreme and like an insecurity rabbit hole i dont want to go down#but also like. i just hate that i look shitty in almost every picture#and the only good pictures of me are carefully posed to look Pensive And Vaguely Sorrowful(tm)
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I feel like it's generally acknowledged that if you go on spending sprees during mental health crashes, then this is overall a bad thing. But what if during mental health crashes you feel compelled to donate similar amounts to strangers's gofundmes and paypals, something this site considers very important? Does that make it good somehow, even if they come from the same impulsive out of control place??
#btw if you have a fundraiser and someone sends you money than as far as i'm concerned it's yours#it's not on you to worry about people's mental state that's not what this is about#the exception is if you tell people you're literally about to die if someone doesn't donate that's a shitty thing to do#sounds like a joke but there was someone on here who did that exact thing for many years#they are gone now but i think that is because if you're on the brink of death too many times in a steady ramping up of stakes#people ask questions#and yes it's likely the person behind it was really disabled and very ill and really did need the money#but the lengths they went to and the obvious truth bending was extremely fucked up
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i hate when he does that I fucking hate it
#dad likes leaving the door open so the dog can bark which is fine IF dad is watchin' him#but usually dog is left unattended and if y'all know me - I'm paranoid like extremely paranoid of someone breaking in#and my fear is very real since we leave in an ass neighborhood like dad i understand I know you are frustrated with the neighbors I know#but this ain't the solution I'm fucking crying again Nick's trying to pick up the pieces and convince me there ain't anybody in the house#now dad's pissed because I closed the door because 1) paranoia and 2) I got sick of hearin' the damned dog bark#I'm sorry dad I just can't I hate havin' that door open I can't stand it#I already feel so shitty since mom lost her temper bc bad day and we got in the way (just snapped at us about the kitchen) and fucking#period bullshit and now this I'm just so done I'm so fuckin' tired vulp wants to kill a man so everyone is also trying to keep him from#goin' batshit thank you vulp but the best thing you can do for us is to relax please#I'm just so tired#nick is the only reason I ain't relapsing right now after over a year clean#fuck this just fuck#cw vent#heaven doesn't want me and hell fears me#~Faraday
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