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allsoftinsiide · 3 months ago

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- ̗̀ ( cis woman, she/her ) ̖́- ⎯ amiria hall has been an austin resident for ten years . the forty eight year old is an owner of treasure trove in atx . residents of garden views say that amiria is nurturing , but can also be sensitive . [ a cup of tea at 3.a.m, the need to fill silence with speech, texting someone multiple times if they haven’t responded, flowing garments ] + kate, 26, gmt, she/her

mentions: mental illness, psychosis, mental breakdown, abuse

amiria, the second child of a woman that already had a daughter. her parents weren't the best of friends and it was a situation-ship that quickly fell apart. it was agreed that her father would take her and raise her. she wouldn't really feel rejected by her mother until much later on, when her sister would much later on. there would be a jealousy but admiration for her sister and that would be one that couldn't be tainted.

she was always a creative child, one described as having too much of an imagination. amiria always preferred fiction over fact, playing different people and would try to put on a show to her father but he never seemed to be bothered. if anything, it made him less interested in her because he saw her as someone who'd grow to like theatres and musicals - he hated those kind of people.

school was something she'd always wanted to do well in, she tried but was easily distracted by others. amiria was one to always be easily influenced by her peers. she was intelligent but as soon as she learnt that getting full marks on tests would leave to incessant teasing, she'd get things wrong on purpose to 'balance herself out'. despite her need to be in a creative environment, to stand out, she wanted to fit in.

that was no different when her father finally let her join an amateur dramatics group. if he were to be truthful, he loved her singing voice but anything else wasn't for his ears. she loved being on stage, the idea of it but when it came down to it, she'd bottle all of it. still, she stuck with it. leaning more towards theatre and plays was a challenge in itself, the very friends that she'd made my losing those marks on tests icing her out because she was 'odd' or a 'theatre kid'. her father was telling her to be one way and her peers another - it was extremely confusing for her sense of self. her sister, kora, didn't help with that.

there would be many nights where she'd completely break, either going off on tangents about things she believed were happening or just uncontrollably crying. her family wasn't equipped to deal with it and frankly, they didn't want to. she wasn't 'strong' therefore she was an embarrassment. even her sister stopped talking to her because people were beginning to talk. it didn't take much for amiria to highlight herself as the common denominator in these scenarios. she was begging kora to take her back, that she was sorry, that she'd do better but there was an extreme wedge between them. it became more apparent when her sister became a mother and she didn't want her there because she didn't trust her...

her teachers were concerned about her as her grades were dropping considerably, she was distracted all of the time and she couldn't sleep. it was getting worse and her own family was just letting her implode. if it weren't for one of her father's friends, she would have imploded entirely. the woman tried to get her on track as much as possible, even encouraged her to apply to study abroad because she knew she was built for better things but in reality, her mental health was suffering and she needed an out.

that support would go leaps and bounds. amiria would audition and be accepted to drama school in the usa, the woman would also pay for her to do a business course at the same time in case it failed - she'd set her up for success as much as she could. for a few years she would make it and start building herself up as a stage actor. she'd made it and that made her elated. there was a lot of pressure, there was bound to be but she felt like she could handle it. she was having difficulty with the harsh criticism but most of it was all in her head.

the woman was always someone to take care of other cast and crew members but as she spiralled, she seemed to drop that role completely. it all came to a head on a night out when she'd not been making any sense, that she was suspicious of all of them plotting her downfall and the night ended up with her in the emergency room.

it was the night that highlighted she needed help after suffering with an undiagnosed mental illness for years. after a brief stint in inpatient care, she went to live with one of the crew members she'd become close to in austin. her run in the production was over and her understudy took her place without a hitch. they helped her get back on her feet, even helped her with her application to become an artistic director - it was successful. then, she felt like a little was missing - the space now called treasure trove was bought on a whim, something that wasn't really thought out, perhaps an impulsive purchase but it was her own little project that made sure that she didn't lose touch with people, to keep her grounded and it worked for her. there was a worry that she was doing too much but she seemed to thrive on it. now, it's her full time job but sees it more as a hobby.

she wants to be liked and it's so obvious. she tries to be kind, to the point where she could be described as a door mat and also quickly attaches herself to people. she tries to be a good friend but can be Too Much sometimes.

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