#including before midnight which is in the list but i thought i would add it in anyways
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Since The Dragon Prince is ending (or at least the second arc is ending) in December I'll celebrate that by listing the funniest things I've witnessed in the fandom during these years:
-The Great Aaravos Thirst of 2019.
-Knowing The Thirstâą had been even greater if Tumblr wouldn't have banned porn just a year earlier.
-Aaravos' character designer being very happy with all the thirst posting.
-The Great Virst of 2019 that was balanced out by the people who thought Viren was a total troll.
-Rayla-Claudia-Callum love triangle speculations before s3.
-"Viren actually killed everyone, including Sarai and his ex-wife", speculations during s1-3.
-Aaravos Is A Good Person and a cinnamon roll -speculations.
-Fandom calling Ethari "The Tinker" before his name was revealed and also correctly predicting him and Runaan being a couple long before it got confirmed.
-Jason Simpson (Viren's VA) being grumpy about people shipping Aaravos and Viren while Todd Erik Dellums (Aaravos's VA) egged the fans on and seemed to find the ship pretty funny.
-After the Midnight Star poem's full English translation got released some fans concluded that Elarion was a human girl Aaravos once was in love with and thus Elavos was born. You can still search the ship name on Tumblr to experience the time campsule of 2019 era of the fandom. Yes, people shipped Aaravos with a literal city and I think that's beautiful.
-The drought period of 2019-2022 hiatus where it was just a couple really weird terminally online fans posting their harmless headcanons, including a small fandom of a. ten people forming around Viren's ex-wife Lissa.
-Unhinged TDP fan theories like "Aaravos is Callum's Dad" and "Callum will learn every primal source" aka wanting TDP to be Avatar 2.0 but with elves.
-The fan response that parodied these theories including "Everyone is a Startouch elf, especially Bait"
-The Great FartGate of 2022 aka all of TDP Twitter collectively complaining about the fart jokes in s4.
-These 2024 Valentine's Day posts most likely done by the lead writer Devon Giehl.
-If you search Aaravos on Google the most frequently asked question is about his gender.
-TDP wiki gleefully listing Aaravos and Viren as Sir Sparklepuff's parents after s5.
-The fandom never letting go of the "Viren imprisoned Harrow in Pip" theory.
-Which Primal Source Are You -Quiz from 2018 foreshadowing events of the show like "where would you hide a dangerous magical object" and one of the answers being "in the bottom of the sea" possibly referring to Aaravos' pearl.
-A tweet fans thought was a mistake actually foreshadowed Aaravos being a giant.
I'll add more later if I feel like it.
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ok one more: behold, one of the most popular TDP posts on Tumblr
#btw I think a VA disliking a ship is 100% ok#It's actually kind of refreshing that a VA just states their honest opinion isntead of trying to please fans in every turn.#as a Fandom Old I find fans asking about shipping extremely weird and I don't wanna get involved#I literally have almost all of the official staff blocked on Twitter lol#tdp fandom#sarasade text#fandom wikies are usually full of mistakes so I'm not that fond of them in general but the Sir Sparklepuff thing was funny#tdp s6#tdp s6 spoilers#tdp s5#the dragon prince#viravos
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Hi!!! This ask will probably be all over the place but I wanted to reply! Sorry it's kinda late..like not right away like I hoped but I also wanted to give the tracks a few more listens before saying my opinion. I also meant to send one before 9 simply saying enjoy listening! But then I didn't wanna risk any lyric spoilers since it was already like 9:30..lol. I actually did not get around listening to it until midnight.
I would love a live album of surprise songs on tour, and I like the version of Cruel Summer on tour when she adds the with you near the end. I love mosaic broken hearts too..I think the whole song flows really well but I love the beat and drums of the original over the acoustic. She also doesn't really have another song that sounds like it. I was also shocked there weren't as many mashups on tour, but I do like how it is. I also did not expect her to go era by era but I think that might be a reason there's less mashups too. The tour is almost more theatrical than previous tours and that's something I like about it.
Holly's album is good but I also think Cocoon is one of my favorites after hearing it more and I can't believe I didn't list that one. The OC lyric really stands out lol. Maybe I confused it with another song at first but I mostly agree with you about the album and I do like all the songs. Idk when I will hear it again though with 1989 out.
Haha I did hear that about Jordan Fisher a lot too so I hope he can handle the role. I liked him from what I heard from him in Dear Evan Hansen and Sweeney Todd but Orpheus is pretty different vocally, but I hope he's good. When are you seeing it on tour? I loved the Come From Away proshot so I hope you get a chance to watch it sometime. I'm sure Sara is amazing since she wrote the music so I hope to watch it. I think Newsies will always be my favorite proshot though lol. I do not know much about the little women musical actually and am having a hard time imagining it as a musical lol. If you like it, it's probably a pretty good adaptation though. With Gatsby, I think it's hard cuz I just read the reviews of people that went apparently and everyone will like different things so idk if it makes that much of a difference yet. I totally relate to not watching a lot though..cuz my sister and I were just looking at a list of musicals we watched..like bootlegs or movies, and there was only like 5 or 6 including live performances in the last year and a half..lol.
So the book I started the other day was Tomorrow Tomorrow Tomorrow..cuz I read you were not liking it and I wanted to see what I thought. Idk how much that you read but I only read 2 chapters and the main thing that stuck out to me was it being in 3rd person. That will take getting used to for me cuz I honestly can't remember the last time I read a book in 3rd person lol. But if you don't like it so far, then I will start and focus on the Night Circus..but I actually think thats in 3rd person too haha. Ooh maybe I will try to find The Starless Sea cuz I do like reading authors books at the same time and comparing them. Which one is your favorite out of the two? I will try to keep that in mind about the timeline..thank you for letting me know!
I do love the Midnight Rain part of the show with the umbrellas so I don't mind it on the setlist. It did remind me of the How You Get the Girl performance from the 1989 tour..which was one of my favorites! I do think Midnights and 1989 are definitely the most similar more than rep or Lover but I can't really explain why. This became clear with the vault tracks in a way too..based on sound. But we actually listened to Maisie first! This vault it seemed clear why songs were left out. I didn't have an obvious favorite and some of the songs seemed a little off from verse to chorus..like they just didn't flow well, but I really enjoyed the last two songs which almost had an older Maisie style. Unfortunately I've only heard these songs once so far, so my opinions could change. What did you think?
I think this rerecording is one of the best cuz I can barely hear a lot of differences in the original songs. Like How You Get the Girl Shake it Off and I Know Places seem pretty identical to me, but I wouldn't look for differences that much either. I did notice the blank space drum seems pretty loud and noticeable throughout the song when I heard it again. I listened on shuffle and I think it really worked for 1989.
Omg you were right about the coffee lyric being from is it over now?! These songs actually did have a slower dreamy sound more than I thought..which was surprising to me. At first, the songs didn't feel that 1989 to me for that reason, but they also did in a way. Now that We Don't Talk kinda sounded like I Wish You Would and Is it Over Now definitely reminds me of Our of the woods. So the order I heard the songs in, mixed between original songs, were Now that we don't Talk, Say Don't Go, Suburban Legends, Slut! And Is it Over Now..and I wonder if that affected my impressions. Honestly I did not have an immediate favorite..like how I pretty much liked Speak Now vaults instantly..so maybe the sound just threw me off at first. I've still been listening on shuffle and it seems like they do fit 1989 after more listens and have grown on me. My favorites are "Slut and Say Don't Go and Suburban Legends. Slut is the dreamy sound I was predicting but I didn't think it would be this song lol but I love it! Then Say Don't Go does sound kinda like a slow 80s ballad too with more listens. Suburban Legends was a fun upbeat song and still different than the original album. Now that we Don't Talk has grown on me with more listens and I really like the way she sings some parts of the song. I was most surprised or disappointed with Is it Over Now. Some of that is lyrics that shocked me but the song is just okay.I think cuz I was expecting some deeper song like Clean and it did not fit as a closer at all, even if she said why she chose it there. It felt short and even after a few listens, I have a hard time remembering it..but I do think it's very 1989. One of my favorite songs ever is called I Know it's over by the Smiths and maybe I was expecting something like that based on the title and this was not that at all..there's no longing in the song either so I was wrong based on the coffee lyric..but its growing on me more. Okay what did you think???
Yes I play it daily with my family and sometimes it's hard but other times it's easier. That could be cuz I have help though. Is it mostly easy for you or sometimes difficult? I also do wordle spelling bee and the mini. Well I don't really have any plans since I went to Les Mis last week so This weekend I might just watch a few sort of spooky movies, not scary, before Halloween and listen to 1989TV of course!!! What are your plans? I hope you have a great weekend friend! đ©·
hi hi friend!! i hope you had a good weekend! did you watch any good movies? i am not a scary movie watcher, but i did really enjoy happy death day, which i watched with my friend jamie a while ago! my weekend was okay, just hectic, but i didn't get a ton of time to read as a result!
i love the way she says PROVE IT in the eras film/in that audio; it scratches an itch in my brain haha. the other day i literally had "PROVE IT" stuck in my head, not even any cruel summer lyric, just the specific way she said PROVE IT. i do agree it feels a lot more theatrical than other ones (except maybe speak now)! i also didn't expect her to go era by era, but i'm glad that she did!
"i've been paralyzed for more than a week but don't let you scare you this is fairly routine" and "i've become a taxidermy version of myself" are some of my favorite lyrics on the album; it's why i immediately latched onto cocoon, i think (although i had heard a snippet of cocoon earlier and had already loved it).
i'm seeing hadestown on tour next saturday! i am just so, so excited!! this is going to be my mom's first time seeing it, so i hope she likes it! i haven't watched a bunch of bootlegs lately, but i do have some saved that i've been meaning to watch!
i really struggled with tomorrow x3 â i don't know why! i am fine with 3rd person, but i just really struggled with that one. night circus and starless sea are both in 3rd person â and i love them both a LOT! they do take some time to get into though, so take your time!! the starless sea is my favorite out of the two, but the night circus is more romantasy!
i loveeeeeed the maisie vaults! i've been listening to them nonstop, i think my ranking is: yoko â truth is â the last one â the song â holy revival â guy on a horse but i love all of them!! holy revival definitely grew on me, i was worried i wouldn't like it but i actually love it! i also miss older maisie music; i wonder if she'll ever release some of the things she's teased :( (probably not, but one can hope)
i was also surprised by "slut!"; i think everyone was! i think my favorite is now that we don't talk, or suburban legends, or is it over now? but i'm not really sure â i wasn't immediately attached to any songs like i was fearless vault, red vault or speak now vault, and i've mostly been listening to good witch deluxe! the way she sings "oh lorddddd" is so good! i was also expecting something more similar in sound to clean, or this love, and was surprised by the sounds but it is growing on me a lot more!
sometimes it's difficult! i usually do it right when i wake up â or if i wake up in the middle of the night â but sometimes i'll look at it and just close out of the tab and forget to do it till later, if i do! i used to do wordle but haven't in a while, and sometimes i'll do the spelling bee or the mini if i'm bored but i am definitely more of a sudoku girlie than i am a crossword one!
hope you have a good week ahead đ€ đ€
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Helloooo just curious if you were to give a list on your favorite romantic movies what would be on it? :)
love this question! iâm pretty sure iâm gonna forget a bunch but off the top of my head, in no particular order (see under the cut):
the more lighthearted romance movies:
the philadelphia story (1940)
bringing up baby (1938)
you were never lovelier (1942)
ball of fire (1941)
ninotchka (1939)
barefoot in the park (1967)
sunday in new york (1963)
the more the merrier (1943)
vivacious lady (1938)
practically all the fred and ginger movies (except the story of vernon and irene caste (1939) because the ending is sad so itâs not lighthearted), but especially top hat (1935), swing time (1936), carefree (1938), and the gay divorcee (1934)
roman holiday (1953)
my man godfrey (1936)
for me and my gal (1942)
the voice of the turtle (1947) (we do not talk about the leading man in this, but this movie and eleanor parker are so cute)
cover girl (1944)
you can't take it with you (1938)
bells are ringing (1960)
what's up, doc? (1973) (if you like bringing up baby please watch this!!)
amelie (2001)
pride and prejudice (2005)
emma. (2020)
saving face (2004)
pillow talk (1959)
desk set (1957)
indiscreet (1958)
the princess bride (1987)
his girl friday (1940)
but i'm a cheerleader (1999)
northanger abbey (2007)
sabrina (1954)
born to dance (1936)
the more ~dramatic~ romance movies:
random harvest (1942)
i'll be seeing you (1944)
hiroshima mon amour (1959)
brief encounter (1945)
the umbrellas of cherbourg (1964)
notorious (1946)
a place in the sun (1951)
romeo and juliet (1968)
waterloo bridge (1940)
now, voyager (1942)
all that heaven allows (1955)
the handmaiden (2016)
in the mood for love (2000)
portrait of a lady on fire (2019)
goodbye again (1961)
charade (1963)
the before trilogy (1995-2013)
the way we were (1973)
#there are still a lot of romance movies that i haven't seen yet tho#including before midnight which is in the list but i thought i would add it in anyways#there aren't many film noirs here because as much as i love them and they do very much have romance in them i just don't think of them as r#*them as romance#recs#asked and answered#Anonymous
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Living After Midnight - Chapter 2 (Eddie Munson X F!Carver Reader)
Pairing - Eddie Munson x Fem!Carver! Reader
Summary - Direct follow up after what happened in chapter 1
Word Count - 4.8k (yes I know I went overboard)
Warnings - None! (so far)
Authors Note - Since people really seemed to like living after midnight and I CANNOT stop thinking about what it would be like to be related to Jason and secretly dating Eddie this is becoming a series, if youâd like to be included on the tag list let me know or add yourself (list can be found on my blog)
Living After Midnight - Chapter 1
The obnoxious ringing of her alarm clock woke her with a jolt. The blinding early morning light shone through her bedroom window. She had forgotten to pull the curtains shut after sneaking in just a couple of hours earlier. She was still wearing Eddieâs sweatshirt, not wanting to change out of it. The article of clothing brought her some sense of peace.
Having it meant that last night wasnât a dream or a desperate part of her longing. It had been real; she had been in that trailer park in his arms and in his bedroom. And even though it hadnât been the first time, far from it, in fact, some part of her was still scared she would wake up with it all being a dream.
But this piece of clothing still smelled like him and proved that it was real. That what they shared was real, and that for now, that would have to be enough.
She could hear the loud rustle of her other family members scurrying to get ready for the day ahead, the sound of the shower running, and the toaster pinging, signaling that breakfast was ready.
The sweatshirt Eddie had given her was blue, dark blue. A deep, rich blue that could only be matched by the Hawkins night sky. Holding her bottom lip between her teeth, she couldnât make herself part with the comfort of the shirt just yet. Instead she decided on pulling on a plain button up before returning to the sweatshirt. No one would know, other than them. It would be their little secret.
It was only a sweatshirt; it couldnât do any harm she told herself. Besides, she wasnât so sure she cared anymore. That little part of her brain, which had seemingly abandoned all rational thought, just wanted to scream it from the rooftops. Scream and declare that she is in love with Eddie Munson.
Slinging her school bag over her shoulder and she headed downstairs. Checking the clock on the oven, she realised she was a little behind the new schedule Jason had implemented. She knew that if she wanted a ride to school, she would have to make do, hence she threw two pop tarts in the toaster and patiently tried to wait while the pastries warmed.
Jason of course, was already up and ready, dressed in his basketball Letterman jacket and standing by the door jangling his keys, signaling to her without words that it was time to go.
âGive me a second! The world wonât end if youâre a couple of minutes late.â She laughed and grabbed the pastries in a napkin before heading out the door. Sliding into the passenger seat of Jasonâs car and throwing her bag into the backseat.
âYou look exhausted.â Jason looked over at her as she rubbed sleep away from her eyes; her under eyes were puffy and slightly swollen. âBad nightâs sleep.â She mumbled out the half assed excuse and tried to explain it away. Praying he hadnât heard her sneaking in last night. And that if he did, that he wouldnât bring it up. Of course not like she never heard him sneaking in late at night from a night out with the basketball team or with Chrissy.
She hoped he would have the decency to return the favour, keep his mouth shut, and not ask any questions about it. âNew shirt?â He asked, and her blood ran cold for a second. She froze in her seat. âWhat?â was all she could muster saying.
âThatâs my shirt! Youâve stolen that from me!â She exhaled the breath she had been holding, silently thanking whoever had answered her silent prayer. âOh. Yeah, I must have taken yours by mistake, sorry.â
She rested her head against her hand, breathing in Eddie's scent.
It was the same drive to school as always. They sat in their shared comfortable silence as she ate what could barely be described as breakfast with the radio playing quietly in the background. Outside, the little town of Hawkins was zooming by, endless fields and forests which quickly slipped into the suburban area of downtown Hawkins.
Indiana in spring was beautiful. The spring flowers had just started peeking out of the frozen ground to say hello and welcome the weather change. Unfortunately, however, the weather this time of year was always horrible; it was either too hot or too cold and never seemed to find that perfect lull in between.
But it was spring, which meant it was ramping up towards the end of the basketball season, and it seemed to have the entire school on edge, especially her brother. Morning and evening practices had just been extended by another half an hour in the desperate hopes of the Tigers winning another championship. Teachers were buzzing with excitement, and Coach was constantly trying to rally the students into showing up for games to cheer on the team.
The Hawkins high student body also seemed to change, suddenly people cared for the outcome of games and how well the team did. School spirit was only increasing the better the season went and the more games they won.
One of these days, she felt her head would explode if Jason spoke any more about basketball strategies or college recruiters. But she also couldnât blame him; he was just excited. How could he not be? He was the captain of the basketball team, which was looking at winning their first championship in decades, and he was dating the Queen of Hawkins High. He had every right to be excited.
Sometimes she did wonder how Chrissy managed to deal with all his chatter, but at the same time, she couldnât help but admire Chrissy for her strength and mental toughness.
They were early to school, half an hour to be exact, so the only cars in the parking lot belonged to the members of the basketball team.
The Friday morning air was cool against her skin as she stepped out of the car. The sun had just started rising, threatening to turn Indiana dangerously hot come the afternoon.
Her eyes darted around the parking lot, searching for the old beat up van that deep down she knew wouldnât be there just yet. They were early, and since it was school, Eddie was chronically late. But it still didn't stop her from having that little bit of hope.
The Hawkins High building was really ugly. She was convinced it had not changed since it was built; many years ago. The low brick building was decorated with the Tigers logo, with the school gym and football field not far off.
The building must be ancient given the standard it now was in, the brick was old and weather torn and pieces of the ceiling tiles had started coming loose. However, there was some charm to it, regardless of how daunting itâs nature was.
Jason said his goodbyes and joined his team members before heading to the gym for their morning practice, running whatever drills they needed for tonightâs game. And as they headed towards the gym, she headed towards the school building.
Hawkins High was surprisingly peaceful at this time of the day; only a couple of teachers had arrived and begun their lesson plans and preparations, and the hallways were practically void of any students.
Speaking of school spirit, this morning a couple of cheerleaders were hanging up a banner in the hallway, advertising tonight's homecoming game and encouraging students to buy tickets and attend. It was actually really nice they cared so much.
Walking through the endless corridors lined with metal lockers and decorated with graffiti scribbles, she headed for the one place she knew someone would be this early in the morning, the newspaper room.Â
It was Friday so Nancy Wheeler would be in her regular spot tucked away in the Hawkins High School News Paper room. Ever since Jonathan left eight months ago, she had poured herself into every project and hobby she picked up, the school newspaper being the one she was the most involved with. It was difficult to tell if she was doing it because she wanted to or if she was trying to avoid something. In all reality, it was most likely both that were driving her.
Nancy was headed to college in the fall, a full ride to Emmerson. Her thick college acceptance letter had arrived not even a month ago, and she was already ready to leave the ghost town of Hawkins behind. Still it was clear she was also nervous.
As she pushed the door into the newspaper room, she was parked behind the Editor in Chiefâs desk. Two paper cups stood between the mess of papers strewn about in the most organised chaos she had ever seen.
Slumping down into the chair opposite Nancy, she didnât even have to say anything as Nancy was so buried in her own work she simply handed her one of the paper cups marked with her initials.
This had become their little tradition, morning coffee in the newsroom before classes started.
âThis isnât from Johnâs.â She raised an eyebrow questioningly and looked over at Nancy after taking a sip of the dark liquid. Nancy finally looked up from where she was sitting; it was as if she could see the wheels turning in Nancy's brain. That was the best way she could describe Nancy, a fast well-oiled machine. âNo- no, it's not.â Nancy flashed her a smile and took a sip from her own cup.
âIâll never understand how you taste the difference.â
âItâs obvious, this?â She gestured to her cup. âThis is hot water with a hint of coffee flavouring, which means you went to Joanneâs, and she cannot make a decent cup of coffee to save her life.â She shot Nancy an ironic death glare before taking another sip from her coffee, still happy to drink anything that would wake her up.
âWait, is that a new shirt?â Nancy scanned her face as she tried to change the topic of conversation. âOh, no, I just dug this out of the back of my closet. Forgot I owned it.â
It was a very thin lie, and Nancy was way too observant to believe it, but at least for now, she didnât say anything. If anyone had become suspicious of her behaviour over the past couple of months, it was Nancy.
Instead, Nancy only rolled her eyes, pretending to ignore her and went back to work. While Y/N fished a notebook bound in black leather out of her bag and pulled her legs up in the chair. Practically ripping the cap off her pen with her teeth, she let the notebook fall open to the last page she had been working on. Her handwriting decorating the pages, ink smudged where she had been writing too fast. She tapped her pen against the edge of the notebook, scanning the pages and waiting for the right sentences to fall in place in her mind.
The longer she stared at the page in front of her, the less encouraged she was to write, the words seemed to stand still that morning. Instead, she flipped to the back of the notebook and scribbled a quick message on the paper before ripping it out and sticking the note in her pocket. It was clear this wasnât the first time she had done this; the back of the notebook was abused from where she had ripped out countless pages previously to write notes.
Before they realised how much time had passed, the first bell of the morning rang, signaling there were 15 minutes left until the start of first period. With a subtle sigh, they both left their comfortable seats and headed out of the editors room to join up with the rest of the school.
Through the windows, she could see the yellow school buses had pulled up, and a sea of students had started making their way into school for their days of classes.
It was clear what day of the week it was just by the sheer amount of green in the sea of students. Friday was the day all the jocks wore their leatherman jackets and the cheerleaders went to classes in their uniforms, trying to rally some bit of school spirit. Which seemed ridiculous given how little spirit there was left in Hawkins after the past couple of years. But hey, at least someone was trying.
But it was Friday, which meant it wasnât just the jocks and cheerleaders in uniforms. There were way fewer of them, but if you knew how to look, they were just as easy to spot in their black and white shirts, decorated with the Hellfire logo.
Her school bag was slung over her shoulder as she made her way down to her first period English class. Friday meant five classes, one free period, and lunch midway through the day. Whatever free moments she had would probably be spent hidden away with Nancy in the newspaper room. She wasnât a writer for the paper, even though Nancy had asked her on more than one occasion. But Nancy would let her have lunch there as long as she didnât get any crumbs on the floor. And it beat eating in the cafeteria by a long shot, and the newspaper kids were a little strange at times.
The hallway filled with students until it was almost difficult to walk through without bumping into someone else. Mr. Fletcherâs English class was located at the end of the language hallway and was quite a trek. As she walked, she clutched the now half full cup of coffee in her hands. Half full, not empty, she decided, a little optimism was needed for days like this.
If the Tigers won tonight, it meant they went on to play in next week's championships, a week straight of home and away games leading up to the finals on Friday a week from today, if they managed to make it that far.
But before she could get too lost in thought, there he was. His curly hair was still a mess, indicating he rushed out the door this morning which did not surprise her in the slightest. His layered leather and denim vest hung over his black and white hellfire shirt, and she could spot the guitar pick hanging in its regular chain around his neck.
She couldnât help but break into a smile as she looked at him; even after all this time, he still managed to make butterflies appear in her stomach. Even though he was older than the traditional high school senior, there was almost something boyish about him. He looked up and made eye contact with her immediately. He noticed which shirt he was wearing, and she could have sworn she saw a slight blush. It was difficult to not wave at her, or grab her hand, or press a kiss to her cheek or really anywhere at all.
Quickly she fished the note she had written out of her pocket, and as they passed each other, she pressed it into his hand as inconspicuous as possible. His hand squeezed hers in that brief second, and they both hoped there were enough students around that no one saw what they had just done.
And with that, the long day of sitting through classes pretending to be focused started. She spent her entire first period staring down at the half filled page from this morning, replaying her moment with Eddie in the hallway over and over again in her head. At this point, they both knew each otherâs schedule by heart; currently, he would be sitting down the hall in Mr. Fleming's literature class.
Probably avoiding whatever discussion was going on about Pursuations. The same thing she was doing in her class. She knew she should be paying attention to what was being said, their book report assessments were due just next week, and she had barely outlined an introduction. But Mr. Fletcherâs voice was always so quiet, and he spoke so slowly that it was difficult to pay attention in class.Â
Sheâd joked with Eddie that the hardest part about their relationship wasnât sneaking around and keeping secrets; it was staying on top of all her school work. Her time had been stretched thin enough as it was; adding Eddie to the already complicated equation of her life didnât make it any easier. But deep down, she knew she wouldnât want to change it for anything else.
Because for the first time in what seemed like forever, she was actually happy. She had something to look forward to every day, something that, even after all these months, made her feel that spark of excitement in her stomach. And that was invaluable to her.
Eddie had snuck in the window with the promise to help her study for her algebra test next week. And he did for the first fifteen minutes, but he so rarely got to see her room that he couldnât help but be distracted. He sat himself on the floor to look through her rows upon rows of books, noting which ones he had read.Â
âI know youâve been held back, but donât think youâre pulling me down with you.â She had joked, and Eddie had fallen to the floor, faking his hurt about the comment. âWhat if I just want you around for a little longer?â He raised an eyebrow at her. âCan you blame me?â
âDonât say that; youâre graduating this year.â Eddie just looked at her with a slightly questioning expression. âI know it.â She reassured him.
âEighty-Six, baby.â He smiled and moved to peck at her lips. âThen we get out of here, togetherâ
The bell ran, pulling her from her daydreams. She realised she had wasted the entirety of first period, she had no idea what had been said and her notebook lay open and unused on the desk in front of her.
Another two hours of classes remained before the lunch bell would ring. At least the other students seemed just as distracted as she was this morning; if it was with their own things or with the game, she wasnât sure. Words seemed to go in one ear and out the other this morning, and she was unable to stay focused on what was happening in front of her.
Shoving her notebook and pen into her bag before she and the other students shuffled out of class and proceeded to their next classes. She tugged gently at the sleeves of the shirt, pulling it down to cover her palms. There was something intoxicating about wearing Eddieâs shirt out in public. She had worn his clothes on multiple occasions, but always when it was just the two of them who could see. This was something else entirely, and it brought forward a pit of excitement in her stomach.
The rest of the day passed in a blur; listening in classes and note taking bled together until she couldnât tell how much time had passed since the morning or what class she was in. Before she knew it, she had ended up by her locker at the end of the day. She hadnât seen Eddie for the rest of the day, which wasnât uncommon.
They were both high school seniors with busy schedules that didnât line up. If they were lucky, they shared the free period on Wednesdays, but she had science block before, and Mr. Fleming always ran over time, leaving them swamped with work and notes.
Two pieces of paper fell out of her locker as she opened it, a small folded note and a ticket for tonightâs homecoming game.
She could guess who the note was from, quickly picking it up, and unfolding it to reveal a location. She couldnât help but laugh a little to herself, carefully placing the note in her pocket along with the ticket before heading towards their usual meet up spot.
Friday afternoons before games were the perfect time to sneak around. Jason thought she went home, her parents were at work, and Eddie had an extra half an hour before Hellfire began.
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âYou look so good in that shirt, sweetheart.â Eddie had her pinned firmly up against the wall, confident no one would be walking by. âMight have to let you keep it.â
âIf you keep giving me your clothes, you wonât have any left.â She raised an eyebrow at him and gave him a sly smile. âI can work with that.â Eddie grinned back at her before kissing her again. Gently just letting his lips graze over hers, his nose brushing lightly against hers. Eddieâs fingers trailed over her body above her clothes, sending shivers down her spine.
And she could feel his hair gently tickling her face as he leaned in to kiss her.
âArenât there kids waiting for you to lead them on a quest?â She whispered against his lips. âThey can wait; I have more pressing matters to tend to.â And with that, Eddie kissed her again, this time with full force, his hands coming up to cup her face in his palms. âBeen thinking about you all day, you know.â He said between kisses.
She hummed into the kiss in agreement, letting him know she hadnât been able to think about anything other than him. Her hands were resting against his forearms, gripping tighter onto him as they kissed.
Eddie pulled away to look at her, his arms moving and settling around her waist so he could pull her closer and off the wall. âBeen waiting to have you in my arms.â He sighed, happy to finally get to be close to her again.
It felt like an eternity had passed since they were together last when, in reality, it had been less than twelve hours.
It was perplexing to her how Eddie could go from zero to a hundred so fast and then back down again. But he was just so happy and excited to see her after the day he had been having. Her presence always seemed to calm him down, to let him settle.
She laid her head against his shoulder, and Eddie rested his chin on her head. Her arms moved around his neck, her fingers mindlessly playing with the loose strands of hair at the nape of his neck.
âEveryone is going to be at the game.â Eddie started to speak, and she only hummed in agreement, not sure where the conversation was about to go. âNo one would know if you slipped out or didnât show up at all.â He continued. âWhat are you suggesting, Munson?â
âCome to Hellfire.â He moved his head and brushed a couple pieces of hair away from her forehead so he could press a kiss to her temple. âAnd donât make me beg, please.â She couldnât help but laugh at that.
âSeriously, and besides, we could use another player for tonight since StClair insists on warming the bench.â Eddie continued, and sheâd be lying if she said she wasnât tempted. âYou know youâd be welcome; the little gremlins seem to look up to you; theyâd like having you there playing with them.â He pulled away so he could look her in the eyes, âIâd like to have you there.â The room was dark, and they were crammed in, but she swore she could see him blush.
âI thought you said you didnât want to beg.â She raised an eyebrow at him and earned a pinch in return. âYouâre impossible.â
"So will you come?" Eddie rested his hand against her cheek and she felt the cool metal of his rings against her flushed skin. They were pretty cramped together in the closet and she wondered why he hadn't suggested his van instead.
"Eds-" She started to speak and based only on her tone Eddie knew what was coming and cut her off. âNo, don't give me that, tell me what is actually going on.â
"What's going on in there?" He gently tapped his ring finger against her temple. "Tell me what's going on." She hesitated for a moment and held her breath. Her eyebrows knitted deeply together as she was unable to find the words to tell him.
"You know I don't mind being a secret right? In fact I find it kind of exciting." Eddie laughed trying to get her to relax a little bit. "But I do mind if you keep secrets from me." She slowly nodded in response and she looked at him.
His dark brown eyes looked almost black in the dimly lit room and she felt she could almost see her own reflection in them. He was being so soft, so gentle.
"It's stupid." She mumbled under her breath and hid her face away in his shoulder. Eddie moved his hand into her hair so he could gently run his fingers through it. "I don't believe you."
"And you don't have to tell me now, ok?" He reassured her. "We can talk about it later." His voice was soft and she could feel the vibrations in his chest as he spoke. "I'm sorry." She whispered.
"Pretty girl, what do you have to be sorry about?" He used his hand to move her head, forcing her to look him in the eye and so he could press a kiss to her forehead. "Ruining the mood?" She asked questionably to which Eddie laughed. A laugh deep from his chest which quickly reduced her anxiety to almost none, almost.
"You haven't ruined anything." Eddie leaned in to kiss her again, this time it was slow, patient. He was still using his hands in her hair as a vantage to manipulate her right where he wanted her.
"I love you." He whispered to her between kisses, one of his hands finding its spot on her waist, fingers gently digging into the soft flesh. "So much."
She never realised right until they were back together just how much she longed for him, for his touch and his kisses. She craved feeling his touch, he was like her own personal drug she could never get enough of.
Her hands had wrapped around his shoulders to steady herself, her hands finding his face to hold him closer and Eddie deepened the kiss, pressing her back up against the wall. They were both losing themselves to the kiss, to each other.
Their kisses became needy and desperate. Kissing until they were both desperate for air, but not wanting their lips to ever part.
When Eddie pulled away their lips were slightly swollen and they were both breathing heavily for air. Eddie tenderly pushed some hair out of her face so he could look at her. "So beautiful." He whispered.
"I love you too." She whispered to him, and as she said the words his wrist watch beeped letting them both know their time was up for now. She wanted to do nothing more than to smash that watch into a million pieces.
"I believe your kids are waiting for you." She gave him a half hearted smile
"Go to the game, we'll be fine. Go support your stupid jock brother." Eddie pressed a quick kiss to her lips and grinned. "On one condition." He flashed her his evil grin which signalled that she was up to no good.
"I come by your house to pick you up, and you prepare to stay the night." His hand found hers in the dark and he quickly laced their fingers together, lifting her hand up to press a kiss to the back of it. She nodded in return, unable to take her eyes off him. "Ok." She smiled and nodded.
Eddie leaned towards her again, pressing another kiss to her lips. âLast kiss.â He grinned at her. "Go first." Eddie cracked the door open ever so slightly checking if the coast was clear before letting her step out of the janitor's closet. The hallway was empty of students, with everyone headed to the gym for the basketball game.
She was going to need to convince Robin to do her a solid favour and cover for her tonight, but she was determined to make it work.
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The game was finally starting to let out, and the Hawkins students flooded out of the gym in celebration and into the parking lot. The gaggle of nerds excited the drama department, shared excitement buzzing between them that she could pick up at even from a distance.
Eddie was holding onto his old and beat up black Dungeons and Dragons binder which was stuffed to the brim with his ideas and occasional sketches. They both stood still for a moment looking at one another from across the parking lot, massive grins plastered to both of their faces.
Eddie turned his head to see if anyone was looking at them, and when they weren't he blew her a kiss and gave her a bow before running off to his van.
Nothing mattered but him, over the past year he had slowly been infiltrating every aspect of her life. He had become her life just as she had become his.
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the duke and his general.
synopsis : in which seonghwa is the duke youâre arranged to, while youâre the general of the royal army.
pairing : seonghwa x reader
themes : angst, comedy & smut. ( tw : blood / war )
word count : 22k ( part two )
you expected everything to go like this, ever since the two of you shared that night together, youâve never wanted to see him after. the sheer embarrassment and hurt appalled over you, and you were in a complicated state of mind.Â
and thatâs when you started to avoid him like a plague, no, literally.Â
youâve been waking up before he can, getting ready and successfully leaving before he could wake up. coming back to your room before he comes, showering and sleeping before you could see him.Â
youâve pretended he doesnât exist for the past four weeks; never once did you look at him in the eye. head down and a small bow or greeting, you walked right pass him whenever you saw him.
simply because, you canât do it.Â
you busied yourself with the duties and the separate military ones, despite the tension between you and seonghwa, none of your comrades questioned anything if they even noticed.Â
itâs not like there hasnât been more than one instance where you walk in the rooming thinking you were early, only to see seonghwa sitting on his bed, a book in his hands and legs crossed.
you would quickly walk away from his sight and youâre sure a deep sigh rings the room, itâs not as if you would keep avoiding him. itâs just that, what you did was awkward and embarrassing for you. you two have no feelings for each other and thus there is no point in making the marriage work.
plus, as written, it is only a contract that lasts for a few months before ultimately you two break off and he marries someone who actually suits him.Â
so, when you walk out the bathroom, youâre immediately pushed to the wall and trapped by none other than seonghwa himself.Â
his body emits heat and your jaw ticks, he doesnât say anything for the first few minutes, and you choose to look away. âwill you keep avoiding me?â he finally cracks.
thereâs a deafening silence between you two, a warm lump that you swallowed quickly almost makes you cough. when you donât speak or glance at him, he lifts his hand to your chin and forces you to face him.Â
his grip isnât tight or bruising, just enough to guide your face up so he can look the other in the eye.
âwill you not even look at me now?â he whispers, âlook at me in the eye when iâm speaking to you.âÂ
âyour highness, itâs almost midnight,â you pause, âwe should sleep.âÂ
âwe are not falling asleep till i finish my talk,â he grits out and you finally look him in the eye and sigh.Â
he grabs your hand and pulls you to sit on his bed, you bite your lower lip at the memories you had on this bed just a few weeks prior.
your eyes are stuck on the pretty carpet on the floor, the only noise being his steady breathing and your heartbeat beating in your ears.Â
he hesitates for a moment, leaving a few beats of silence that makes you swallow multiple times. his own self nervous to speak, seeing how quiet it is.
âdo you,â he starts, âlike someone elseâ or are you involved with someone outside our marriage.â he plays with his fingers until you answer, mind whirling up the most ridiculous answers you could potentially reply with.
âno, your highness.â you respond quickly, shaking your head.
âstop calling me that.â
âyes, your highness.â
he exhales loudly and then turns into a more serious stance, âhave you ever thought about working this marriage out?â
you bite the insides of your cheek; this was exactly the question you were trying to stray away from.
âi-â you start, turning your head away from him, to glance outside the window. âwe are binded together through a piece of contract, your highness. i donât think iâve had a single thought on trying to figure out the marriage to potentially make it work.â
ânot even once?â he asks, voice now on a lower pitch.
â. . not even once.âÂ
you avoid looking his way, eyes tiredly focusing outside the window where rays of sun poured through. Â
âbut i have,â he cracks, âiâve thought about making our marriage work, i donât think we both could survive in a loveless marriage, itâll only hurt us emotionally.â
âbut all you did was start fights, bother me just because you wanted a reaction out of me.â you mutter, and he chuckles a little.
âyou were the one who started this thing, i told you, you should marry someone not me!â you tell him, voice not raising from your regular calmer tone.Â
âyes, i was the one who created this entire contract thing.â he pauses, âiâll rip it apart.âÂ
you swallow thickly at his words and the atmosphere made around you, the way he talks so smoothly has you curling your toes. youâve always been the authoritative one but hearing his lowered voice has shut your mouth up.
âyes, weâve had our immature arguments on baseless topics.â he lists, âhad differences in tastes, opinions, and the way we think.â
âmostly just you,â you add, âyou made me almost loose my mind.âÂ
he bites his lip to stop him from breaking out in a laugh, the expression on your face not helping him. âokay yes i did, but i want to forget that ever happened, instead we should try and sit down to talk.â
you stare at him with narrowed eyes, pressing your lips together.
âi know this is probably a little shocking to you, but i want to make this marriage work.â he eyes you, âit wonât be easy, but iâd like to take the step further.â
you furrows your eyebrows at him, âwhat do you mean?â
he abruptly stands up, âletâs start from the beginning, forget the contract.â and extends his hand out to you. âitâll seize to exist.â
âiâm park seonghwa.â you blink repeatedly at him, who stared at you, waiting.
â-duke of eden, firs-â
âpark seonghwa, only.â he corrects you with a smile.Â
you stare at his hand and then back to his face, he watches you with a smile and slightly tilts his head. with a small smile, you lift your hand to meet his.
âi.. iâm y/n.â he smiles at that and holds onto your hand.
âthen miss y/n, letâs start as friends.âÂ
âew.â
âew?âÂ
seonghwa stares at you wide eyed, your gaze stuck on the red wine placed on the table. ever since the two of you started being âfriendsâ, which you were fairly very awkward at, youâve actually had a decent chat with him.
he officially showed you around the palace, from his library nooks to the secret passageways connecting to different rooms to his personal office. taking you two the hidden rooms, the ones that showcase the stunning beauty of the sea through the windows.
it had only been two days and youâre actually kind of enjoying this, it is still awkward but nonetheless itâs a step further to making this marriage work.
âyou donât drink?â
âyou do?â you ask him, lifting your eyes to glance at the apricot hued horizon.Â
the two of you were sitting in the balcony that connected to your room, it was almost nightfall, and the entire kingdom was lit up. you could see everything from the secluded space you two had, the small markets, houses, and parliamentary buildings all had their lights turned on.
âshould we play a game?â he suggests, resting his arms on the armrest.
âletâs get to know each other through questions,â you hum once again and this time you feel his eyes on you.Â
âgo on, your highness.âÂ
he chuckles, âokay then general, how long have you been in the army?âÂ
you press your lips in a firm line, remembering. âhm, for as long as i can remember, maybe when i was twelve? dad used to teach me a lot, unofficially at twelve and then officially at eighteen.âÂ
he nods, impressed and sips on is wine. âthatâs quite interesting, youâve spent almost your entire childhood serving here huh?â
you smile, âi have,â
âdo you regret it?â
ânot one bit.âÂ
he smiles, âi remember seeing you as a teen,â he pauses to remember. âwith a hard stare and a small badge you had on your chest.â
you tick your eyebrow up in surprise, âi do too, just occasional glances at you, wherever you were, i was too.â
âhow about you, your highness.â you ask this time, and he turns to look at you. âhow many proposals have you rejected before accepting this one?â
he raises an eyebrow at your question, no in malice but in amusement. âif you count every kingdom including empire, and a few from outside then around, uh, seventeen?â
your eyes grow wide at his answer, âseventeen? thatâs quite a lot.âÂ
he nods, âhow about you, iâve heard that your mother tried to set you up with a few nobles.â
you snort, grabbing the wine from the table to your surprise and seonghwaâs. âI didnât want to get married, and all the ones she choose were just not my type.â you cringe, âall i remember is their mothers wanting me to quit working here.â
he smirks, eyes falling from your eyes to the nose bridge and then to your lightly tinted lips. âcanât imagine you with one of those flimsy guys,â he lets out and you squint your eyes at him.
âwhat? you almost punched me!â he retorts, âand made me kneel to you!â you shake your head at his whining.
âyou asked for both of them.âÂ
he shakes his head and then continues, âhow many wars or even battles have you fought?â
you bring your knees to your chest as your eyes peer out the horizon, âi think three wars? one for ecuador and the other two with elias-â
âah, that useless one.â he lets out a quiet gasp as he drinks the wine.
âyeah,â you continue, âand then the battles eden has had, some smaller stuff.â you pause.
âiâve honestly forgotten how many i have fought,â you say as the wind sifts through your hair and seonghwa finds purchase in staring at you.
âdo you have any scars?â he asks, feeling a smile curl up on his lips.Â
âplenty,â you laugh, remembering the one on your thigh, back, neck and right under your lip. youâre proud of them, because youâve earned every bit of them by fighting for your kingdomâs protection.Â
âwhat do you even do?â you break in and ask, âaside from cornering girls that is.âÂ
he laughs at your question and your heart rate quickens, âwell, i handle all my fatherâs work, heâs going to step down soon so i have to follow his footsteps.âÂ
âaccompanying him at travels, visit the town once in a while, make sure everythingâs been done correctly with no errors.â Â
âand then sign a bunch of documents for eden, then repeat.â
you nod, reaching forward to grab the wine glass he had just lifted and bring it your lips to gulp it down.Â
his wide eyes watch you, âwhy did you want to make this marriage work, you know, considering how adamant you were about that contract?â
he seems to glance of at the scenery, thinking about the question. âi donât think iâd wanted get married again,â he looks at you. âafter the months that are over, that is.â
âi didnât want marriage because i was, letâs say, scared.â he pauses, âwhich made me reject everyone.âÂ
you nod slowly, âiâve seen how some weddings have ended and, the ones iâve heard growing up. it was scary but to think about it, yâknow?â
he lets out a loud exhale, âi didnât want to take the risk for it.âÂ
you nod slowly, âdid you eventually wanted to get married? seeing, youâll be taking the crown in a matter of months.â
he hums, âat one point i did, i wanted a marriage, just not a bad one.â you snort.Â
âyet you were trying to make it a bad one,â you say, and he laughs, nodding.
âdid you want this?â he asks, and you pause.Â
ânot like this,â you sip the wine, remembering how this all started. âi wanted simple love, where the two of us live by the seashore and grow old together.â
âhave kids at some point and live a simple life, but this, is totally opposite that.âÂ
he smiles, âi mean to let you know, i have a palace near the seashor-â
âno thanks.â you interrupt him, closing your eyes.
âah thereâs a question i want to ask,â you hum, asking him to continue. âwhat impresses you?â
âa lot of things actually,â you pique, licking your lips.Â
he grins, stretching his arms forward before slyly putting it behind the frame of the couch, behind you. âiâm not the one who usually shows off but i own the country if that impresses you?â
you stare at him blankly, âiâm good.â he nods, bringing his arms back to him.Â
you two then stare off into the horizon, enjoying the comfortable silence. the wind blowing onto your faces, warm yet cool. a series of relaxed sighs would leave you too from time to time and you spared him some glances. Â
you could see the way his face had no flaws, perfect skin and face. your eyes then stare at his plumpy lips, quickly looking away before he could catch you.
âdo you want kids?â he suddenly asks, and you chuckle, he grinned, it felt good hearing you laugh.Â
âat some point, of course.â you cradle your face on your palm, âdo you?â
you see his face break out in a bright smile, âof course! iâve always loved kids, theyâre so cute and little and just happy all the time!â
you hum, âyou know they cry loudly, poo everywhere and wonât let you sleep at night?â
he turns to face you, âstill cute.â
you shake your head and then tie your hair up, then you stand up after a few beats of silence. with a small wave at seonghwa you walked inside, leaving the man alone.Â
âiâll see you tomorrow, seonghwa.â
he nods and then stops dramatically. âdid you just call me by my name!?â
âitâs your first visit home after our marriage, isnât it?â you nod, a smile gracing your lips while your eyes glance around your town.
âuh huh,â you say as one of the doors to your house opens, revealing all your aunts and uncles with arms wide open.
you laugh nervously and lean over to seonghwa whoâs already waving his hand at them beautifully, âokay, just behave and act like my nice husband for ten seconds and theyâll be gone.âÂ
he smiles as you walk past him, and he follows with his hands folded behind his back.Â
once you two enter your house, all your relatives seemed to be lined up with big smiles on their faces. âhow lovely.â you tightly smiled, and he snorts beside you.
and then your eyes meet your aunts who stare between you and the man standing beside you, clearing your throat you introduce him.
âeveryone,â you phase to give seonghwa a look, âthis is seonghwa, my husband.â
seonghwa feels his heart swell, a never-ending cheeky smile on his face and the though of you calling him âmy husbandâ for the first time thrills him.
he goes forward to greet them while his eyes meet yours from time to time, and thatâs when you notice heâs mouthing the seconds to you.
âten,â he greets your uncles, ânine.â aunts.
âeight and seven,â when near your cousins.
âsix, five and four-â when he stops beside your father and gives him a salute, to which your dad chuckles at, very surprisingly.
you find yourself snorting at seonghwa, however your eyes follow every movement of his. the smile that reveals his pearly whites, he turns his head to whisper âthree and two.â and you nod.
the shiny eyes of his when he talks to your brother and laugh at something he said, which makes you think it was your brother exposing you.
once heâs done greeting everyone, they all start to slowly leave and seonghwa finds his arms around your waist, shooting butterflies in your stomach as he jerks you closer to him.Â
âyou can let go now,â you say, eyes on that one aunt who isnât leaving. âtheyâre all gone.â
the next few hours were perhaps the most weirdest ones, seonghwa had seemed to befriend your mother in a jiffy while your brother wiggles his eyebrows at you for anything seonghwa does that impresses you family even more.Â
âstop it, sehun.â you stick your tongue out at him while walking to help your mother with the dinner.
âahh, did you see all your relatives gush over him?â the minute you enter, your mother corners you.
you scoff, âi did,â and pause, your relatives sure did seem too interested in him more than you. Â
âtheyâre probably going to ask him to divorce me for their dau-â you didnât even get the chance to finish your sentence because your very own mother hit you with a green onion.
âwhy would seonghwa ever do that?â she glares, and you almost laugh out loud, spilling the beans of the contract you two had.Â
âboth of you look great together,â you turn to your mom, leaning your back on the counter so that the kitchen entrance is in your viewpoint. âthe way he looks at you, itâs all visible!â
youâre about to retort back that you see seonghwa standing at the door, you urge him to come in, but he places a finger on his lips, as if to not talk. you squint your eyes at him but agree anyways.
your mother who seems absolutely oblivious to the situation opens her big mouth, âjust give me the baby news already! i want to be a grandma before i die.âÂ
your wide eyes immediately land on seonghwaâs, his eyebrows shoot up to his forehead while your mother rants about wanting to see more grandkids.
âyour oldest child has two, mom, twins at that.â you refer to your older sister, and her two devil of kids.
you see how his lips form a smirk, his head nodding to everything your mom talks about. he then uses his two fingers to poke his cheeks, eyes shiny and wide as he bobs his head.
âi donât think youâll hear that news soon,â you say, eyes still on him.Â
he tilts his head and mouths a, âwhy not?â
âwhy not?â your mother asks, âyou both would be lovely parents.â and seonghwa nods.
âseonghwa wouldnât want them.â you narrow your eyes at him, âwe havenât discussed anything yet.â
he leans on the door frame and lifts his hands up, âhow many do you think you want?â your mother asks, and you just want to leave the room already.
seonghwa jumps in his spot to get your attention, hands waving at you frantically, your eyes travel from your mother to his.Â
he lifts one, two, three, four and five of his fingers, your eyes widen in shock.
âfive?!â you yell out loud, making your mother flinch.Â
âyou want five kids?â your mother questions you with shock and seonghwa nods with a teasing smile before leaving the room, leaving you to deal with her.
âi- no!â with that you glared out the door, sparing your mother a glance before walking out to find him.
the rest of the night was everyone having fun, seonghwa making everyone laugh while your brother and mother spade you amused glances whenever theyâd him talk.Â
when the visit was over, you wave to your family with big smiles, your hands carried random gifts your mother prepared for you and seonghwa.Â
the two of you walk back to the car prepared for you, arms and shoulders brushing each otherâs, all on purpose, as you walk back in silence. Â
âtoday was fun,â he says, cheeks heating up at the memory of few moments prior. âi like your family.â
you find yourself smiling too, âit was, they loved you.â
he snorts, âwho wouldnât.âÂ
you roll your eyes and walk faster, leaving a whining seonghwa behind. he runs after you as you keep walking with a smile, and a totally different reason to why your heart was beating so rapidly.
once the two of you sat down in the cars, you lean back in the seat and close your eyes. a sigh escapes your lips, and you get comfortable in your seat, the ride back to the palace was a long one and getting a nap was what you wanted.
seonghwa does the same, but before he shuts his eyes, he leans down to press his lips against your cheeks, your eyes shoot open at that and he smiles against your skin.Â
he then brushes his lips against your ear, âone and zero.â
your eyes blinked at the flash, so bright and blinding. eyes focusing on the room containing a man standing behind the big camera, a big smile on his face as he jumped around.Â
âjust tilt your head to the side,â he instructs, and you feel seonghwa tilt his head towards you, his gaze roaming your side profile.
âwas this necessary,â you ask, pressing your lips in a tight smile as you lifted your hand to neatly place on his chest.Â
head facing the front with a smile that could only be called fake, âtraditions, y/n, traditions.â he hums bringing you closer by your waist.
family portraits were one of the things every family had to do, to ensure that the future generations knew who the heirs, couples, kids and kings and queens were.
this is what you two were doing, dressed in matching clothes as the man in front of you snapped pictures with his vintage camera.
you find yourself fully paying attention to the camera man that, you almost donât feel a hand creeping up your back. âwhat?â you whisper-yelled, looking over your shoulder.
ânothing,â he responds with a grin, âfocus on the camera.â fingers drawing circles on your back, going up with each one.
youâre now sat beside him, shoulders touching intentionally and the heat of his body radiating to you. instinctively you lean towards him, both your heads tilt and a smile forms over your lips.Â
and then you feel his fingers start to dwindle with your zipper, you stiffen. side eyeing his face thatâs bright and happily smiling, one hand neatly placed on your thigh while the other is flat in your back.
âseonghwa,â you warn the man, who only responds with a hum in a singing tone that made your heartbeat fasten.
âyes, sweetheart.â he lowers his chin to place on your shoulder, and you swallow staring at the man ahead who only showed a thumbs up with both of his hands.
âthis isnât the right place to-â you bite on your tongue when you feel him unzip your dress from the back, slowly, while he nuzzles his cheeks into yours and you break out into a smile.
âeverything is a right place if you make it,â he hushes you. slowly unzipping your dress and you shiver when the cold air hits your back, his long and slim fingers caress your skin softly.
his fingertips are hot against your skin and you fight the urge to not stare at him, because you feel that stare, he does. the one where his eyes grow darker, and a glint of playfulness covers him.Â
you feel his breathe hit your neck and you turn your head to him, âwe canât, the manâs right the-â
he interrupts you by placing his feverish lips on your cheek, your eyes wide in surprise while the camera man squeals something about the right pose.Â
seonghwaâs lips form into a boyish grin, his dark hair cover his eyes and it makes him more enticing. you swallow once again, looking ahead as your cheeks start to get warmer.
one thing he loved to do was, to see your reaction to his touch. he loved the way you twitch out of embarrassment when he touches you or avoid his holds when youâre surrounded by people and heâs sure that it effects you as much as it does to him.
he then wraps a hand around your shoulder, a hand reaching out to gently run through your hair. he hears you inhale shakily and turns his gaze to the front.
eyeing the man in front of him, he cocks up an eyebrow at the man who timidly, yet hastily bows and leaves the room. not before tripping over a few wires on his way out.Â
the second the doors shut; it doesnât take seonghwa a second to pin you on the red couch. you let out a small noise of surprise when he brings your arms above your head.
you canât control the breathy exhale your lips leave, he dips his face closer to yours and his eyes, filled with every emotion that could possibly decipher lust, desire and playfulness.Â
âseonghwa,â you mutter, shakily. eyes frantically searching the room because anyone could walk in, at any given time.
ây/n...â he whispers, lips quirking up into a smirk and he lowers his head down to just inches away from your lips.Â
âthatâs the thrill baby,â he doesnât let you speak more as he smashes his lips against yours, a moan leaves your lips seconds later and he presses his lips against yours even more.
his hands run down your curves, up and down as one of them makes its way to your back.Â
both your eyes are shut close, lips moulding into each otherâs such such finesse that it has him letting out a groan. lips parting for air, tongues crashing as you two moan breathily in unison.
you rake a hand to cup his cheek and his hand that rests on your back, brings the straps of your dress down your shoulders. leaving it up just enough so he can see your cleavage and the goosebumps that come with.
he grabs onto your waist firmly, arching your back to him and he slows down the kiss, turning it more sensual and rhythmic before parting away completely all sloppy and wet and soft.
his lips then hover over the shell of your ear, âwonât you make those pretty noises for me?â he mumbles between kisses he places down your neck, nuzzling his nose into your hair while doing so.
âhm?â he quirks, âi want to hear every single one of those noises, i want everyone to hear them.âÂ
his tongue flees out his mouth and he licks a circle over the small skin, you let out a tiny mewl and grip his white shirt.
âbe louder, baby,â you moan louder when he bites down on your skin. âi want everyone to know how good i make you feel.â
you squirm under him when you feel him suck harshly, mouth hung open in silent cry. his other hand trails down to bunch up your dress over your waist, fingers gingerly lingering over your inner thighs.Â
âh-hwa,â you let out a broken whine and he stops all together and then looks into your eyes and it has you gushing with arousal, youâre sure he can feel the heat as his hand rests closer to your underwear.
âwhat did you say?â he whispers, and you can only stare back in response before he pecks your lips again. âsay that again, baby.â
you part your lips when he grinds on you, âhwa,â when he hears you repeat it, he swears heâs never liked that name so much in life.
and you assume he likes it when you call him that, of course he does, it makes him swallow and he feels his cock harden in his pants.
when he looks into your eyes, hooded and full of lust it as him forgetting just who you are and what you could do to him.
his eyes go down to your lips that youâre biting while staring at him with curiosity, his fingers toy with the band on your underwear as he stares at you poking your tongue out.
you see how his swollen lips form into a smile, his eyes this time not only showing desire but something... else you can quite comprehend.
you mirror his smile, but it falters into a loud moan when he slips his fingers under your band and brushes against your pussy, your mouth falls open and he closes it with his lips.
you feel them feverishly trail down your neck and then to your collarbones, while his fingers slip in and out of you. âgod, youâre so wet.â he groans against your lips.
your legs spread wide open when he lazily drops your underwear lower, he watches you shiver but only responds by sucking on your skin, marking you with his creation.
you let out moans that can only be described as high pitched, and almost borderline pornographic. he hums and groans against you, letting out moans of his own.Â
you exhale his name out loudly and he brings his lips to connect with yours once again, you grind yourself to his fingers while he bites down on your lower lip.
âare you close?â he asks, speeding his fingers down your clit, curling around your g-spot so perfectly that it has you rolling your eyes and head back.Â
you can only moan in response, wailing your head to the side as he fastens his speed. bunching up your dress higher and you feel the cold hit your skin, he nuzzles into your neck while shamelessly numbing âgood girlâ âthatâs my babyâ âhm, whoâs are you?â to which youâd respond with his.Â
once you let out a loud cry of his name it hushes you with his lips, mumbling for you to âcome on my fingers,â and you do as he says, wrapping your arm around his shoulder.
he then tilts his head, bringing the same fingers that he had in you seconds ago to his mouth. he swirls his tongue around them, and you moan just at the look of that, he then brings those fingers to your lips.
and you wrap your mouth around them, sucking on them as your spit mixes with his. he holds back a growl when he sees how your eyes meet when you swirl your tongue around his fingers, he feels his cock twitch when your eyes roll back.
he ignores the faint noise of the door clicking and lowers his lips to your clothed chest. he feels your boobs all hard and perky and lulls his head back to hold himself in.Â
he moves his lips to the strap of your dress; his teeth graze the fabric of the top and bites onto it lightly. your hand takes through his hair and he hums in delight.
his intense eyes stare into yours while he brings down the top of your dress, slowly unraveling your naked chest and he growls looking into your eyes.Â
the corner of his lips rises, and he licks his lower lip, pointing his tongue out at your nipple. heâs just about to touch it but a loud cracking nose interrupts you two, your wide eyes stare into his, in panic.
completely forgetting your surroundings, seonghwa lifts his eyes to see where the crash came from and cocks his eyebrow up.
âgod damnit, san, that was ancestral.âÂ
your fingers tighten against his shirt when you hear the familiar name, hiding your face into his neck in sheer embarrassment as your cheeks heat up.
âsorry,â you hear his response, almost strained.
âwhatâre you doing here?â seonghwa asks, he feels you tighten your grasp against his shirt, and he softly caresses your skin.
âi-,â the said man chokes up, eyes wandering everywhere except the two.Â
but heâs already seen it, him on top of you, your moans being pathetically loud and pretty.Â
heâs also equally shocked and turned on at the same time, he watches you just seconds prior arching your body up to the duke as your lips parted in ecstasy.Â
you feel seonghwa hum against you and he turns to look at you, âtrust me,â he places his lips onto your again and you smile slightly.
âhow much did you watch?â seonghwa asks the man once again, this time sitting up and you cover yourself, but he stops you.Â
his fingers graze your hardened nipples, and you hiss lowly, swallowing as your gaze is stuck on his side.Â
âjust a little,â san lets out, suddenly finding the floor extremely interesting.Â
seonghwa caresses your waist and you lift yourself on your elbows, finally sparing san a glance.Â
he stands in a corner, hands folded in front of him making the tent heâs hiding very obvious.Â
you eye seonghwa and he smirks, âwell then, whatâre you waiting for? join us.âÂ
âw-what,â you and san blink at the man, making swallow and look at san, who had two toned hair.
sanâs eyes meet yours briefly before they flicker back to seonghwa who shrugs his shoulders, âiâm sure you had a reason to stay and watch,â he mutters, standing up.
sanâs eyes finally fall over yours for a few minutes longer, he sees your red dress bunched up to your waist, your hair tousling over one another and how your boobs peeked out the dress.Â
heâd never think heâd see his general like this, and he thinks he quite likes it.Â
he swallows when seonghwa lifts two of his fingers for him to come further, and he hesitantly takes step forward not before giving you a glance.
you nod and slowly perch yourself up, legs spread open to a distance, revealing everything to the manâs vision.
you werenât oblivious to the stares the man would give you, sometimes those that linger longer than before.Â
you have confronted him about it on a drunk nigh when he revealed his crush on you, you laughed it off and told him âthere will be a much better person for you to be with.â
but it seems as if his fantasies had caved him in, when he heard you and seonghwa going at it just as he walked the hallways. he thinks it really was godâs wish when he decided to peek in.
seonghwa gives you a glance, as if asking you if that was okay. you nod slowly, and he goes to lean on the wall opposite you.
âsan,â you call out and he lifts his head up, eyes wide like a deer. âcome here.âÂ
he does what you say and stops when heâs standing between your legs, seonghwa clears his throat from the back.
âno kiss on the lips.â
you tilt your head to the side, meeting your hair fall over your shoulders prettily and it makes san bite his lips.
âonly once san,â you say, âi know you want it, so here i am.â
âgo on,â you and seonghwa say together.
he watches you with wide eyes, âare you sure?â you nod, tucking your leg to the side and itâs the way something in him awakens and he places his knee in-between your legs.Â
he cups your jaw and lowers his lips to chastely kiss your cheek, âthen i will follow every order my general gives me.âÂ
you donât miss the way his eyes darken at that, and the way seonghwa taps his feet.
you smile when he hides his face in your hair, lips grazing your neck and you shiver when his lips touch the sweet spot right under your ear.
he places his lips softly over your skin, humming as he inhaled your scent. he already knows the marks done on your neck are by seonghwa, but it doesnât stop him from sucking on your skin, to create his own mark on you.
you breath shakily when his knee moves closer to your center, his hand cupping your jaw while the other travels down to hold onto your boobs.Â
he stifles back a moan of his down when your lips touch his cheek, his hands knead and squish the soft skin of your breasts.Â
your lips let out broken whines that has him riling, he harshly sucks on your neck and you donât stop the airy âsan,â that leaves your lips, and he stops all together, when he feels your leg wrapping around his knee.
his eyes glance at your lips and you raise your eyebrow at him, lulling your head back, puckering your lips as if taunting him to touch him with his own.
he smirks but only dips his head lower to your breast and you whine when he moulds his mouth over your bud, circling his tongue all over and coating it with his saliva.
he sucks and hums against your sensitive nipple while you let out strangled moans that has his cock hardening in his pants.Â
itâs only then when he finally looks up, the distance between you two barely any. he stares at your lips and his lips let out a mewl, he wants to taste you but the man standing behind with daggers in his eyes make him think otherwise.
âsan,â your voice fills his ears, and he looks up, âkiss me.âÂ
you jut your chin to his, eyes challenging him to kiss you. his hand tightens around your jaw, ây/n...âÂ
as much as he wants to fulfil your wish, and his. he knows seonghwa would get mad, but the way youâre looking at him, puckering your lips to his.
he thinks, itâs a once in life chance.
san looks over his shoulders and sees seonghwa leaning against the wall, arms crossed.
san then looks over at you, and then back at seonghwa and mutters a. âsorry, seonghwa.â although not really sorry.
before crashing his lips onto yours, you gasp when he does so but it turns into a muffled moan. his tongue barely touches yours that heâs yanked off from you, your chest heaves up and down while seonghwa straightens the man.
asking him to leave, and so he does.
you feel seonghwa stare at you fixing your dress up, when you do stand up he grabs the back of your neck and slams his lips to yours.
âi told him not too,â he says between the kisses, using his tongue to swipe across your lips softly and you smile. âmine, you understand that?âÂ
he pulls away and looks at you, âiâll be right back.âÂ
âwhere?â you ask.
âiâve to deal with san.âÂ
âwhen did that happen?âÂ
âi donât know, all i know is we have to hurry because everyone is already there!â you stand there looking at seonghwa run around the room, flinging his tuxedo and tie on the bed while running gel through his hair.
when he dramatically pauses to look at you, âwhat, go get ready.â he walks to you, dressed in his silk pyjamas that fit him loosely.
âunless you want me to dress you?â he quirks up an eyebrow, bringing you to him by the use of his arm. âhm?âÂ
you smack his arm away, walking to where your clothes were as he panics in the background while you take your sweet time to pick out your stuff.
when you find yourself all dressed, seonghwa leans on the canopy bed frame watching you struggle to put a piece of earring in your ear.
he watches you lean over the vanity, curves on display in the black and white dress, your red lips mumbling some cursing which he finds unusually hot.Â
a small frown on your face as you struggle with the earrings he brought, he pushes himself off and comes to stand right behind you. your back flush against his towering self, he holds onto your wrist, gently refraining you.
he grabs onto the earring and places it on the vanity, you watch him do so through the mirror. the strangely intimate atmosphere quickened the speed of your heart, his fingers fondle with your hair, eventually covering the ear without the accessory.
he then holds onto your forearms and squishes his cheek into yours, âyouâre hot.â shifting his hands to your waist, which he squeezes slightly.Â
your lips break out into a smile and grab his hands, turning around you wrap your arms around his neck.Â
with a giggle you donât know what comes over you, that you place a peck on his lips. âthank you mr. park, youâre not bad yourself.â
âthank you mrs. park, now, shall we?â he suddenly lowers his voice to a british accent and you pretend to fake a gasp, âof course.â
you two leave in laughter and return back tired, or more so you leaning on seonghwaâs shoulder while he supports you. giggling at some joke he said that has the two of you laughing loudly in the otherwise quiet palace.Â
he asks if youâre tired and you nod against his shoulder, he smiles because in the end of the day, he knows you have a tiring job. how youâre so uptight and working with your entire body and brain, he loves that youâre like this with him.
comfortable, he likes the sound of that, a lot.Â
itâs the only time heâs dared to run a hand through your hair, poke your cheek, make you laugh, tickle you, and then pick you up.
he knows youâre too tired to protest, and you give in. head laid on his chest and arms wrapped around his neck, he mumbles a few jokes softly in a attempt for you to keep awake.
every giggle or chuckle you let out has his heart beating and cheeks warming up, he looks down at you, nuzzling into his chest with a smile on your face.Â
âstay awake for me y/n,â he hums, and you somehow nod through a sleepy phase.
when he enters the room, he walks straight to the bathroom. placing you onto the toilet seat while he goes to grab your pyjamas, when he returns, he sees you perching your head on the counter.
hair covering half your face and your eyes shut, he works quickly and comes to kneel by you.Â
timidly he reaches out to brush your hair to the side, smiling at your cheek squishing against the counter he holds onto your face and taps your cheeks.
âwake up y/n,â he mutters, âbaby?âÂ
you let out a whine when stands up, one hand interlinked with yours while the other uses a cotton swab with a remover on it to bring it to your face.
âclose your eyes for me,â he settles himself between your legs, holding your chin as he wipes off all the makeup in one go.Â
he then asks you to stand up and wash your face, you do as he says with closed eyes and he watches you with a worried glance when you stumble to the sink, washing your face successfully.
with a gasp from your lips, he plops you on the counter. smiling widely when you wrap your arms around his waist and it has butterflies erupting in his stomach, he likes this a lot.Â
he likes the feeling of this solace, just you two alone in a warm atmosphere on a dark night, where itâs quiet, and the lightings comforting. when he slips out some puns and you whine in response, when heâs about to grab a little lotion, you ask him to wash his face too.
confused he does it nonetheless and you grab two out some lotion on your hands, âthank you for doing this hwa,â you mumble lazily, tapping the lotion in dots over his face before rubbing them across.
âitâs nothing,â he responds, puckering his lips when your fingers brush his lips.Â
he repeats the same thing as you and then shoves you your set of pyjamas he bought recently, but instead of grabbing them you raise your arms, eyes closed and a smile on your face.
âwhat?â you say, âdidnât think iâd be like this?âÂ
he shakes his head with a smile before coming in closer to tie your hair up, he smirks at the proximity and itâs as if you can feel him smirking you slap his chest, and he feigns a pained groan.
he presses his lips gently on the apples of your cheek before backing away, âdo you want me to change you?â you nod.
âwhatâs there to hide anyways,â you mumble lowly, âyouâve seen it all.âÂ
he hums in acknowledgment, grabbing the top and then draping it over you but not buttoning it fully. then, he reaches underneath the shirt to lift down your straps, making sure itâs comfortable enough when itâs all the way down.
you button the rest of your shirt up and wear your pants, not realizing the matching pyjamas you walk out the room and head for the couch.
âwhere are you going?â he interrupts, fixing the blanket right as he walks out.
âbed,â you point to the couch, making your way towards it but youâre pulled by the back of your collar to meet with seonghwaâs towering front.Â
he dips his head to your ear, âbut thatâs your bed.â he nods towards the one he sleeps at and you swallow.Â
âcome,â he ushers you onto the soft bed and he walks to the other side.Â
âwill you be sleeping on the couch then?â you ask he and stops, âno? why would i, this is our bed.â
he stops, âwe sleep here, together.âÂ
â-flip it like thatâ yeah, thatâs it!â you yell, holding onto jonghoâs arm with force.Â
the man whines beside you and you stifle out a laugh, âwhy do you always pick on me,â he says, pouting.
âiâm not picking on you ho, you learn things quicker than others.â you explain, moving his arm to the right, âso you can help others understand better, when iâm not there.â
âso what youâre saying is, i take your position after you retire and whatever?â you smack the back of his head lightly and he once again whines.
âoh, whereâs san?â you ask, motioning jongho to copy what you were doing.
âheâs-â he pauses to take a breathe, âheâs gone back to eros, something came up about some people missing into thin air.â
you frown, âthatâs weird,â telling jongho to take a break.
âyou know whatâs weirder? seeing your husband stand there looking at me as if heâll kill me.â jongho points his finger at the man leaning on the column.
when you turn your head to him, he immediately straightens himself and you realize heâs in his pyjamas, hair all fluffy, eyes shinning and his cheeks puffy.
âhe really woke up early to watch you practice?â hongjoong teases from the side and you smirk, shrugging your shoulders.
âmayhaps,â tossing your weapons to the side you bid them all a bye and an good morning before running to seonghwa.
a smile graces your lips when his eyes brighten, his arms are widespread, and you link yours with his. âletâs get you back to bed,â you mutter, dragging his sleepy yet clingy self back to your chambers.
you realize that this wasnât the first time heâs woken up early to come and watch you practice, and whenever youâd ask him why his response only made your insides flip.
âwhy do you come to watch us practice every day?â
heâd grin and wrap his arms around you like a bear, âbecause the bed isnât warm without you,â youâd laugh at his attempts to keep you by him whenever you had to leave.
sometimes during the dark hours of night, when the field is only illuminated by torches. seonghwa waits for you to finish the last off, two drinks in his hands, fresh and cold.Â
when youâre done, the two of you walk to the roof of the castle. a balcony only the two of you use that showcases the entirety of the kingdom, with drinks in your hands, sitting on the wall with your feet hanging off in air.
chatting away about really anything, sharing glances that were not so awkward anymore. the breeze up high would be so fast, that the two of you have almost fell.Â
poking each other where youâre ticklish the most, seonghwa sitting with his back faced in between your legs while you played with his hair. or when heâd grab those same hands and bring them to his lips, mumbling something thatâd make you laugh.
in the matter of months, the relationship between you two had completely flipped.Â
itâs as if you two know almost anything about each other, what makes you smack him, what makes you laugh, the jokes, the massages, and the spontaneous trips you two take in the middle of the night on your horses.
this one time when he had marched into your office, hands full of chips and other food.Â
you lift your head up from the amount of paper works scattered on your desk, âoh? seonghwa, do you need anything?â you ask the man standing at your doorstep, a pout formed on his lips.
heâs standing there wearing his pyjamas that only he looks good in, you throw your pen away and lean back on your chair, crossing your arms.
he walks in with his hands placed by his waist, cheeks puffed. âwhy do you not pay attention to me?â he asks, and you have to stop yourself from cooing at him.
âi told you, thereâs a few problems at the borders,â you pause to look at his face. âi need to finish a few paper works.â
âbut youâve been busy all week,â he lifts his hand up, âone, youâre always on the fields outside.â he brings down a finger.
âand then you loudly yell the marching chants that make me flinch!â he whines, and you laugh at his words.
âreally? am i that loud?â you ask him, and he nods.
he suddenly stands up and does a aggressive salut, âsoldiers!â he imitates your tone, âin line now, if you donât get in the line, thirteen laps around the palace!âÂ
you laugh at the way heâs marching back and forth, imitating the scared looks of your soldiers whenever they have to run or when you yell at them.
or when you would walk in during evening to see him sitting on his bed, deep in thought. you pause, âare you alright?â you question, and he finally lifts his head up.
âno,â he responds.
you frown, âno?âÂ
he hums with a pout, and you walk near him and kneel down to his level, wondering what exactly had happened for him to be sitting all alone.Â
âno,â he pauses, âbut a kiss can help.â
you smack his knee and get up but he grabs your wrist and turns you to him, your body falls on him and he holds onto your waist as you two fall back slowly.
âplease,â he pouts, puckering his lips and you laugh. shaking your head and then placing a small peck but he takes the chance to deepen it.
and considering how close you two have gotten, and the level of comfort thats between you two.Â
seeing that, you and him have done it almost everywhere in the palace.
it usually ends up with you two being borderline caught by some older advisors who roam the halls often.
the ball party was where it all first started.Â
âwhere- seonghwa the guests, theyâre waiting!âÂ
âbaby, i couldnât care less about those guests,â he backs you up against the door, âi want to hear you, right now.âÂ
heâd growl and bunches up your dress, asking you to hold it while he traces his fingers over the lacy panties you had worn.Â
youâd shiver when he would part the fabric to the side, feel his hot breath over your pussy before heâd dive his tongue in you.Â
lapping, swirling and circling all over your clit, gathering all the juices youâd spill out, and using his tongue at different speeds. heâd hold onto your thighs, one leg over his shoulder and his mouth doing wonders.Â
while your head was thrown back and your mouth was letting out breathy and airy moans of his names that youâre sure someone would hear.Â
but that wonât stop him from using his slim and long fingers to curl up inside you, his face hidden in your neck while he fingered your already sensitive clit.
heâd place soft kisses over your neck while moaning your name out, youâd shut your eyes tightly when he would start to nibble on your earlobe and quickening his pace on your pussy.Â
âthatâs my good girl,â he groans against you, slowing down the speed of his fingers thatâd only have you crying his name out in pleasure.
the hallways.
âi hate you so much,â you say between your laughs and he cages you between his arms, grabbing your hands to put them above your head.
âdo you now?â he closes the distance between you two, âthatâs not what you say when youâre screaming my name, hm?âÂ
your lips break out into a smile when he placed his softer ones on yours, he himself enjoying the bond you two had.
âyou know if we keep doing this,â you gasp, âyouâll be a father in no time.â
he smirks, nuzzling into your neck. âyou finally understood my intentions?â
his free hand moves down to grip your waist, and you whine when he does so, nibbling on your lower lip, swiping his tongue over your lips.Â
the sound of lips smacking against one another rings the empty hallway, teeth clashing and muffled moans the two of you cry out in unison.
you move your hands to wrap around his neck, and his places his hands on the curve of your ass. pushing you to the wall while he weighs onto you, you would be daring enough to bite his lip which would have him tighten the grip on your ass.
your fingers play with with his hair, tugging on them which would have him humming against your lips. you two would only part away when the sound of footsteps start to come closer.
hurriedly pushing each other away and fixing your clothes and making a run for it to the other side of the palace, laughing and giggling over the thrill of being caught.
then there was the time when you would push him against the mirror, cupping his cheek and smashing your lips onto his. or when he would fiddle with your dress straps only to start placing feathery kisses up your neck, grabbing your chest and squeezing them through the fabric.
or when youâd take off his shirt and climb over him, hands grazing his stunning built yet large and lean body. straddling his waist while sucking on his skin, leaving your own mark on him.
where he would throw his head back, hands gripping your ass as you slowly grind over him. his lips would part, and low and deep moans would leave his mouth, you would bite your lips and start to move faster.
his eyebrows would touch, and he would bite his lips, youâd him against his skin, using your tongue and curling, twirling and swirling over his neck.
it would lead him to trail his hands under your shirt, glancing at you and then letting out a mewl when you hadnât worn your bra, his larger hands coming to cup them.Â
his fingers graze your hardened nipples, tweaking and rolling it while squeezing and kneading your perky doubles. and then trailing his hands down your stomach and under your pants, then he would flip you over and overtake you.
âyouâre so wet,â he would coo in your ear and youâd nod, wrapping your arms around his broad shoulders. your own moan would follow when heâd curl his fingers around a particular bundle of nerves.Â
your head would fall back on the bed, âall for me, hm? y/n, all for me?â
âf-for you,â youâd let out when the heat in you became unbearable and you came.
and thatâs when you heard something youâve never thought you would, âgod, i love you so much y/n.âÂ
your head would fall back, chest heaving up and down heavily and your heart beating for an entirely different reason.
the next time you two are together was when he had to go away for a few days, you were extensively busy coming up with problems to fix the conflict thatâs been looming over you.Â
it was during nighttime when you had finally walked to your room, plopping onto your bed like a star fish. just as you try to close your eyes, a particular voice made a smile creep up your lips.
âhey,â seonghwa jumps onto the bed, making your body jump slightly. you lift open your eyes and see his face right above yours, a cheeky smile on his pink lips.Â
âyouâre back,â you mutter lowly, lifting your hands to cup his face. âhow was the trip?â
he puckers his lips in a pout, âyouâre not going to ask how i am?â he grabs your hand and brings it to his hair, and you start to play with them, he hums happily.
âokay, seonghwa,â you chuckle, âhow are you?â
âi missed you,â he mumbles, âa lot.âÂ
he lowers his face, puckering his lips like a fish. âyour smile, your lips, your laugh and you, i missed you baby.â
âi did too,â you shut your eyes, remembering how he would call you whenever he would get the time. Â
how he would whine in your ear about wanting to see you already, and youâd ask him to focus on his work saying, âiâm right here hwa, go now, focus on your work.â
he snorts when you get up, ready to change out of your clothes and he spins on his back, leaning on his elbows.Â
âyouâre.. i get why you donât express your undying love for me,â he starts, and you hum out a why.
âbecause youâre tsundere,â he pauses when he watches you unbutton your shirt through the reflection of the mirror, âor at least thatâs what the teens there said.â
he watches you chuckle, âyou talked about me to the kids there?â nodding he positions himself with his head on the bed frame.Â
âthey said you were like that, you donât show your love for me.â you take off your shirt, leaving you in a tank top that makes him lick his lips.Â
âoh yeah?â you ask him, quietly turning around.Â
â...do you love me?â he asks, and you told your head to the side, a small smile on your face.
his wide eyes bore into yours as you come to sit on the bed, or more so on him, straddling his waist which he welcomed happily. already having his arms around your hips.Â
you hold onto his hands, fiddling with his fingers, the one where his band sat. you lift your head to meet his eyes, âiâm not hesitant to show my affection to you, i-i just havenât felt that way for someone, so this is new to me.â
you caress his hands quietly and he watches you in anticipation, lifting his hand to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear.Â
you let out a sigh, and hesitatingly ask. âdo you...love me?âÂ
he smiles slightly, âi do,â he breathes in.Â
âa lot,â he continues in his deep voice, âyou make me happy.â
he wants to say so much more, that you make him feel giddy, have butterflies erupt in his stomach whenever heâs by you. the stares you give him, the ones full of tease and playfulness that makes him laugh in the most inappropriate places.
how you tap your thighs and spread them, and heâd press his lips into a thin line, trying not to break out into a smirk. or when you back him up to a wall, teach him how to fight by holding his hands or how to work a sword.
but by seeing the look on your face, he knows you know everything heâs thinking. youâve always been observant, so he knows for a fact that youâre probably reading his mind right now.Â
âthen you should know my answer,â you say, giving him a smile that makes his heart swell.Â
both of you canât believe that this is where you two ended up, from a loveless marriage to one thatâs full of love and affection to the point no one has to stay it verbally.Â
âlet me hear it then,â he mutters, moving his hands from your hips to intertwine with yours. âsay it once in for all.âÂ
you look down quietly, finding it hard to form the words together. you know you want to say something, but you canât seem to form them together, instead all you do is stare into his eyes.
he smiles, and in seconds he has you flipped onto the bed. both of you rolling on it with a grunt, you stare into each otherâs eyes contently.Â
ignoring the surrounding and communicating through your expressions, you look down at his lips and make the move to peck them, moving away slowly and placing your leg over his torso.
he grins at your actions and brings you closer so that your heads resting on his chest, âi didnât know you were shy too,â he mumbles, and you bite the insides of your cheek.Â
hiding your face in his chest, you fist his shirt with your hands. you maybe be all dominant with your personality, but youâre yourself with him.Â
he wraps his arm around your shoulders and sighs, tucking your head under his chin. he then remembers something, leaving your hold for a second and searching something in his drawer.
âwhatâre you looking for?â you ask out of curiosity and all he responds with is a âsurprise.â
âactually, meet me tomorrow night at the gazebo you cornered me at.â he says and you nod.Â
âif you try to kill m-â
ây/n, no, baby, sleep.âÂ
you stare at yourself in the mirror, dressed in a white ensemble that was requested by seonghwa for whatever heâs going to do tonight, and you hope it isnât him killing you.Â
you know heâs standing by the gazebo waiting patiently for you, but you canât help but try and look a bit presentable before walking out towards the gardens.Â
hands sweaty, and heart pounding as each and every step you take roots nervousness in your gut.
when you see him standing there with his back faces to you, in an all-black fit, you canât help but look at him in amuse. the way his larger and built body is shown off by the clothes sticking to him.
shaking your thoughts away, you call out for him. âseonghwa,â
he turns around with a smile, you swallow before walking to him, hands neatly folded behind your back.Â
âyou came,â he says, snaking an arm around your waist.Â
âof course,â you mumble back, letting him hold you. he then points at the corner; your eyes follow his and they immediately widen.
âseonghwa, t-thatâs stunning.â your lips part in surprise and he smiles, ushering you forward by the small of your back.
your eyes fall upon the fluffy blanket he has laid on the ground, a small basket near the corner, pillows scattered around the blanket and two bottles of wine.Â
âyouâre insane,â you mumble quietly, tightening your hold onto his shirt. you hear him chuckle, pulling you to sit by him on the blanket.
your eyes shine when they fall over the water, the atmosphere was weirdly intimate. you two sat by the running water under the moonlight, sitting right by one another in silence.
the air sifted through your hair, playing with it slightly. âdo you like it?â he asks, nervousness washing over him.
you nod twice, âi do, oh my god,â you pause. âi do, i love it.â he breaks out into a smile, rubbing a hand over your back.
he grabs you by the waist and settles you in between his legs, your insides flip when your back hits his broad front. Â
you lean back and he wraps his arms around you, placing a peck on your temple. you smile and place your hands over his, intertwining them together.
âdo you know why i brought you here?â he asks, rocking you side to side.
you shake your head and feel your heart swell at his low voice humming, âthereâs something iâve been wanting to give you,âÂ
his fingers fiddle yours when you feel him slide the black ring out, you watch him quietly slide it over to your right hand.Â
he then reaches behind his back and pulls a velvet box, your smile falters and he uses both his hands to open it in front of you.Â
âremember when i went out to ecuador?â he says, âi bought this for you.â
he opens the box fully and your eyes widen, âseonghwa, why?â
your eyes fall upon the stunning ring he shows off to you, itâs a light emerald diamond sitting nearly on a thin silver band.Â
he takes your fingers in his and slides it on your ring finger, âi know when we first got married, we didnât care about one another.â
âin fact, we both didnât even want the wedding.â he pauses to recollect, âit looked like a fairytale but there were no sincere emotions from us.â
âi wanted to restart it,â he says, squishing his cheek against yours. âso i brought a new one, the one i chose.âÂ
your eyes fall upon the ring in your hands, âwill you marry me, again, this time with all the happiness?âÂ
you hear his voice falter, and you smile, turning your body around fully. âdo i have any choice?â you ask with a sheepish smile when his eyes meet yours.
he chuckles, âwell not really because youâre already mine,â and you grin. âbut for formality sakes, will you, the y/n, marry me, solidifying our marriage once again?â
you shake your head at his silliness, âof course, you idiot.â you say between giggles.
he then pulls you to his chest and you both fall back unexpectedly, letting out a yelp when falling but he grabs you before you could hit the ground.Â
you lay on top of him, his hands firmly resting on your hips. he looks down at you and smirks, brushing your hair back from your face. Â
âdid you have a good flight?â he teases, and you sit up right on his waist, hands resting on his stomach.Â
he raises his eyebrows, poking his tongue against the wall of his cheek. tapping his hands on your hips before bringing them behind his head.Â
you then lean front and place a peck on his lips, surprising him. âthank you,â he smiles at that but that smile quickly turns into a groan when you shift on him.
he grips your hips at that, making you swallow when the colour of his eyes darken. âwhatâre you doing?â he asks, voice airy and strained.Â
you look at him in confusion, ânothing?â and he bites his lower lip, sitting up right so now heâs directly in front of you.Â
âoh yeah?â he quips, a smirk growing on his lips as he inches closer.
you shift once again and it lets out a low growl, and thatâs when you realize what he means because you feel something poke at you.
you suck in a breath and try to get up, but heâs got his hands over you, holding your thighs. you feel his stare searching your face and then landing on your lips, and then a little lower.
he finds himself staring at the strap of your dress thatâs fallen down, he swallows he sees that you arenât wearing a bra and that he can see the trace of your boob and the hardened nipples poking through the material. Â
âi-itâs cold,â you whisper, feeling his stare. he lifts his hand up to play with the strap, fiddling with it before he tugs it down.
he does the same to the other strap, fiddling with it and the tugging it down. enough so that he can see the top your breasts and he looks at you, your eyes already onto his.
his fingers graze them through the dress, and he lowers his mouth to place a soft kiss, you hiss at the way he licks at the skin right after.
his large hands come to grab your breasts, softly squeezing them and your thighs twitch. making the man grit his jaw, when you move your dress rides up and it leaves him to little to no imagination.
he brushes his lips over your neck, and you shiver, he bunches your hair to the side and attaches his lips right under your ear.
you whine when he pokes his tongue out, the mood changing from all nice and fluffy one to a one thatâs full of desire.
âseonghwa,â you let out shakily, he hums.
âlet me take care of you too,â you wrap and arm around his shoulder, lowering him to the ground and bringing your hand to his crotch.
he says something incoherent and then proceeds to unbuckle his pants, you help him lower them before quirking an eyebrow at him.
ânow whoâs in a hurry?â you say, tracing his waistband that makes him twitch.
you chuckle and bring his briefs down, running a hand down his cock. he twitches when you do so, eyes shutting and eyebrows meeting.
you then take your own panties off and take a hold of his wet cock in your hands; he groans and grunts at the pressure and rolls his eyes back when he feels you sink down him slowly.Â
you hang open your mouth at the silent cry of pleasure, hands landing beside his face to support your body and his hands landed in your ass, moving slowly around him.Â
your lips brushed against his neck and you sat straight, hands on his toned stomach as you moved up and down, your breasts bouncing with the impact and seonghwa gets a hold on your breasts, tweaking and rolling them.Â
you moan breathily as your legs shuddered at the immense amount of pleasure coming over you in a short time. hearing his cry for you name has you going faster, ây/n- fuck.âÂ
you hum before leaning over to place your lips over his, muffling his own moans. his hands bring down your dress to your waist as you kept on getting him to a new high.
âi-iâm close,â he responds, voice strained, and you moaned at the sensation and it only makes you go faster, and he eventually comes inside you.Â
you pull yourself out of him and plop your sweat lined body next to his, chests heaving up and down as the two of you breathed out loudly.Â
âlet me help you now baby,â he turns to hover over you, bunching your dress to your waist and you let out a whine of his name.
he brings his cock and lines it down your wet folds, he enters in slowly and you hear the wetness at the friction.
he holds your arms beside your head and rolls his hips into yours, âh-hwa, what if someone c-comes!â
he smirks, âlet them baby, let âem see us.â he groans, thrusting into you as you moaned out his name as quietly as you could.
âlouder y/n,â he demands, âlet them hear.â
and as if on time, he does a particular thrust that made you cry his name out loud. his hair falls over his eyes, ticking over your forehead slightly.Â
he watches your face contorting to the pleasure, and it riles him to go faster, grunting and grinding to you. loving the way, you say his name and the way it rolls of your tongue with a hint of airiness at the end.
you eyes roll back and your back arches to his, grinding at his own pace before falling back and letting him take control.Â
âwhoâs are you?â he growls, and you wail your head to the side, responding with yours to which he says, âthatâs my good girl.âÂ
before he stops, breathing heavily and pulling it out of you. slumping on you and then braking you to his chest, âi love you.â he says and you nod against his chest.
âme too,â he snorts and then smacks your ass at the answer you gave.
âgeneral, whatâs the deal at the border?â you hear yunho ask, mingi standing by him.
âi, i think someoneâs scheming something against us.â you look up from the number of files, âcheck at the soldiers who patrol the border, see anything suspicious and immediately report that to me.â
âwhy?â jongho buts in, and you rub your temples.
âbecause,â you pause, and they all stare at you in anticipation.
âwe might be going at war.âÂ
âshit.â wooyoung speaks from the back, âsan isnât back eros yet, the situation there is worse but if we had him, and even if thereâs a war, if san was here, we would win no matter what.â
âwell yeah, he is a literal demon reincarnated.â hongjoong snorts and you laugh, âbut, me and yunho will go look over at the border.âÂ
âiâll look over at the hidden entrances of eden,â mingi exclaims, âmight find something there.â
âwooyoung, help me by finding out just who the enemy could be with you connections.â your remark and he offers a salute from the couch. Â
âand please,â you stop wooyoung, âdonât go seducing someone.â
jongho snorts at you, âsays that one who does it everywhere.â
you throw a paper weight at the man, picking your tongue out. âew please, i hear it sometimes too.â
âgo away!â you yell, cheeks warming up. âyouâre dismissed!âÂ
âsheesh,â mingi says and you glare at him, watching all of them hurry out.Â
just as they leave, you hear them whistle in the hallways and then the door opens. revealing a smiling seonghwa, eyed wide and cheeks puffed.
you clear your throat and stand up, âh-hey,âÂ
he walks to you with a smile and wraps his arm around you, âhey baby, look!â his wide eyes bore into yours, showing the bouquet of red flowers. âfor you milady.â
you laugh at him, squishing his cheeks before walking behind your desk.Â
âah,â he starts, âi might have to leave for a trip soon, something with a few kingdoms needing help.â
you nod, âalone?â
he nods, pressing his lips into a thin line. âdad might want me to take the guys, jongho would be staying if that what youâre asking.â
he comes to lean on your desk, âwhen will you be leaving?â
âtomorrow morning,â
âfor how long?â
he sighs, âi donât know.âÂ
you pause, watching his face turn into a frown. you reach forward to take his hands into yours, rubbing your thumbs over his skin.
âiâll wait, go do your duties.â you say, âour future king.âÂ
he snorts and you smile, âiâll be back super quick, i promise.â he extends his pinky at you, shaking your head you joined them anyways.
he grins and his eyes turn into crescents, he decides to spend the entire day with you. eating your favourite dishes, then playing nonsensical jokes, him helping you with half your work also the only time you two were serious.
heâd constantly keep having his hands somewhere on you, to which you at first would shove it away, but now youâre more lenient.Â
and so when the day ended, you were left with the sentence he kept repeating over and over again.Â
âiâll be back soon, wait for me.âÂ
when seonghwa left for a trip, you expected it to be short and sweet. it was supposed to be short, but then it quickly escalated to one week, to two weeks and now to five extra weeks.Â
you hadnât seen the man in almost one and a half month, except only hearing his voice through the telephone in your office and the bedroom.Â
itâs as if he went back to the navy again, but in reality, he was off to visit the kingdomâs outside empire.Â
the ones who had fallen because of the low economic growth and high unemployment rates, to take care of that, the heirs of each kingdom had been sent off for aid.
leaving only, you and jongho in the palace, teaching the new trainees the basic skills. which was mostly resulting in jongho bossing them over until you came in and told jongho to stop bossing them around.
you had taken over the responsibility to fill in for seonghwaâs position as an heir in eden as well. doing his work while conversing with him over the phone as he instructs you on what to do and what not too.
along with that, you were barely leaving your office. sometimes even spending the nights in there, sleeping on the couch because your room felt too lonely.Â
the warm interior of your office gave you the warmth that was similar to seonghwaâs, the work had been piling up for you to sign and read every time you would wake up.Â
and it had been like this for an entire month, you working, waking up early for your training sessions, eating, getting into the palace work, reading documents sent in by the king, switching to go watch over the soldiers outside, then eat, look over a few files before eventually passing out on your chair.
resulting in you waking up with a neck cramp, but hey, at least you got majority of the work done. Â
when you finally sit down on the couch for the first time today, it doesnât last long as jongho enters the room with a tray of tea and food.Â
âfor you,â he says, placing the test on the table beside you before walking out to his own room.
âthanks, ho.â you tell him, a hand reaching to grab the tea to which you gasped quietly after tasting.Â
you lean back on your chair, eyeing the room until your eyes land on the telephone and immediately a smile creeps up your lips and you reach out for it.Â
your fingers trace the phone softly until punching in the numbers, the number that he calls you from.Â
you bring it your ear and wait for the bell to go, to hear seonghwaâs deep voice that made you curl your toes. hear him greet you happily even though you know heâs dead tired, but when you got no response from the other side you placed the phone down and got up.Â
grabbing a few papers before leaning you front on the table, reading them through while munching on the treats jongho brought.
but that doesnât last long, because only five minutes later you hear the door crack open and a pair of arms snaking your waist.Â
you fall back because you immediately who it is, the expensive scent all too familiar to your nose.Â
âhey baby,âÂ
you hear his low voice rumble in your ear, âhi, seonghwa.âÂ
he wraps around your waist tightens and he buries his face in your neck, sending a tingly feeling all over your body that youâve missed.Â
âhow are you? tired?â he nods against your neck and you reach back to ruffle his hair a little.Â
ânever tired for you,â he places a peck on your neck and spins you around by your waist.Â
when your eyes meet his, the speed of your heart doubles. heâs standing there with a shit eating grin on his face that youâve come to love, black hair carefully pushed back and a smile that has your insides flipping.
he takes the papers from your hand and chucks them away, your wide eyes flickering to them as you try and grab them, but he beats you to it.
instead, he grabs your arms and places then around his neck, jerking you closer. âyou must be tired, letâs go to bed.â you whisper out, but he shakes his head, eyes falling down in your lips.
he towers over you completely, he looks down at you with softness and yet playfulness that shoots you warm ness to your face, feeling a thick tension building in the air as you stare at each other.
âi missed you,â you nod shakily, inhaling sharply when he brings his hand to tuck your hair behind.
âi-i did too,â you stutter out when he pushes his weight on you, and you let out the smallest of whines that as him clenching his jaw.Â
his minty breath tickles over your lips, âhm?â he asks, tilting his head tauntingly.Â
you donât hold back the breathy exhale when he swiped his thumb over your lower lip, you stare at him while his eyes are over your lips.
âdid you know how much i missed you?â his other hand lowering the band of your pants, âcan i show you how much i missed you, hm? what i would think about doing when you werenât by me? when i couldnât fall asleep and missed you?â
your breathing wavers and you unbuttons your pants, âdid you know how many times i had to get off at the thought of my pretty little baby?âÂ
âseonghwa,â you say, voice coming out airy and strained when he brings his other hand down to push down your pants slowly, revealing you to the cold.Â
he hums, dipping his head to your neck and you suck in a breath. âyou know much i wanted to touch you but i couldnât?âÂ
the atmosphere darkens with every bit of list and desire, his eyes are dark and intense as he stares at you biting your lip.
he places a soft peck under your ear, and you hold onto his forearm, âhow much i wanted to hear your pretty voices crying my name?âÂ
you could only let out a moan at his words, desperate and whiney that has him smirking. âtell me you thought of me,â he grips on your waist, slowly running a hand down your leg.
âi did,â you inhale sharply when he wraps your leg around his torso. âi missed you so much, you had no idea.âÂ
thereâs a strong feeling of arousal pooling in between your kegs and you canât help but stare at him.Â
he holds back a groan of his own and it takes him a second to push your arms back and slam his lips over yours. a moan escapes you when you finally feel his lips after days of nothing.
the way your lips mould together like puzzles, so desperate and so whiny. itâs the way your lips smash against one another, battling not for dominance but for the feeling you two have missed.
the sound of teeth clashing, lips smacking and small mewls and moans echo the room. seonghwa grips onto your hips firmly, planting you on your desk. you let out a noise of surprise and he grins against your lips.
softly yet rhythmically moving together, never letting the other part away even a moment. your arms reaching up behind his neck and deepening the kiss, lips moving in sync with each other, groaning softly when he bites on your lip and you tug on his dark locks.Â
you have to push him away to breathe out loud, chest heaving up and down and he rests his forehead on yours.
âgod, i missed you so much,â he whines, pressing his lips on your neck. trailing down to your collarbone while placing open mouthed kisses all long.
he grabs onto your shirt, and slowly starts to unbutton it, while you find yourself staring at his lips. pecking them every now and then until you hear him moan when his eyes land on your breasts.
you bite your lips, probably hard enough to draw blood when he licks his lips and cups your breasts. growling at the softness and the fact that you were braless, his large hands squish your skin and you through your head back.
he swallows and kneads and pinches with both his hands and you let out his name like a mantra, âyouâre stunning,â he whispers before lowering his lips to mould on your breast.
while he sucks and circles his tongue relentlessly on your boob, his other hand tweaks and rolls your hardened and sensitive nipples.Â
eliciting cries for his name, âh-hwa-â you moan out when he delivers a harsh suck on your skin, pulling away with a pop.Â
a wave of heat forms in your panties that has you grinding on table, his lips are onto your boobs, placing soft feathery yet ticklish kisses all over. he growls out how much of a pretty baby youâve been as he continues his sweet torture.
when he feels you grind against him, he throws his head back. watching your face through his hooded eyes, how your mouth hung open and how quickly you bit down on your lip.
your eyebrows crossing as your eyes shut tight, his hands then trail down to your stomach, massaging it softly before caressing his fingers over your clothed clit.
âseonghwa,â you whine, feeling wetness starting to firm in your pants.Â
you shake when he growls, hands reaching for his shirt and throwing it away, your fingers grazing down his toned body while he plays with the band of your black panties.
he lets out a noise from the back of his throat when you lick a stripe down his neck, slowly and feverishly.Â
âi need you,â he grits, âright now baby, right now.âÂ
it takes him a second to push you back on the desk, bribing your pants down leaving you only in your panties as you leaned up on your elbows.
he traces his fingers slowly over your panties and when he feels the wetness, he lets out a groan of your name. ây/n...âÂ
and you nod at that, letting him slowly drag your underwear down to your ankles.
âfuck, baby.â he lets out a whine when he wyes your wetness, âi wanna fuck you so bad,â you fail to not let out a pathetic whine.
he trails a finger down your folds, and you shake, âi want to feel you, make you cry and moan my name out again and again and then fill you up with me, all of me.â
you let out a broken whimper when he kneels down, his hot breath fanning your inner thighs before it reaches you wet folds. Â
he places soft kisses and long licks where he twirls his tongue on your inner thighs before he slips in his finger and presses his mouth onto your clit.
his hot mouth breathing against already wet and aching cunt, âseonghwa...â you whimpered pathetically, clutching the table as he licked a strip down your folds making you shudder underneath him.Â
you let out a loud cry of his name when he does so, feeling him pump his finger in and out so slowly at your legs start to weaken.
it feels like itâs been forever since youâve felt him, and he feels the same because he eats you out like heâs been starving. his long tongue circles and sucks on the bundle of nerves while you let out strangled moans that has his cock hardening in his pants.Â
âso pretty,â he says before diving his tongue in making you let out a moan for his name as he moved in and out of you skillfully. alternating from long slow licks to small circles with his fingers to his tongue lapping sinfully against your clit until he's had his fingers easily sliding in and out of you.
you arch your back to his fingers and you feel the immense coil of heat starting to become unbearable, you lips moan out a âseonghwa,â which he hums in response against your pussy, and you feel the vibrations.
âi-âÂ
âcome, come on me.â he says and almost immediately you find yourself coming off the high, heâs quick with his tongue and licks out every juice that comes out you.
you fall back on the desk, breathing out heavily and shutting your eyes. seonghwa stands up and you hear the unbuckling of his pants and you canât help but let out a chuckle.
âyouâre so needy,â you mock him, rising up to grab the back of his neck and bringing your lips to his.
he gets rid of his pants and briefs; you wrap your legs around his waist and he groans at his own sensitivity. you smile against his soft and now swollen lips, tasting yourself faintly on his tongue.Â
he holds onto your waist, squeezing it slightly. âdesk or couch,â he asks in-between the kiss, and you whisper out a couch.
and he immediately picks you up, your naked bodies grazing again one another, emitting warmth that contrasted with the otherwise chilly room.
you giggle once he lays you on the couch and finds himself chuckling, âwhy are you like this,â asking about how youâre laughing at him being serious.
âbecause,â you reach to cup his cheeks, âitâs you.âÂ
he smiles, the one with dimples. and moves his lips to your neck, you close your eyes and let him roam around.Â
his lips brush against the shell of your ear and you shiver when his deep and gruff voice fills them. âlet me fill you up y/n,â he pleads, and your heart rate accelerates.
âfill you up,â he brushes his lips against your cheeks, âfill you up so good, all of me, hm?â
he lowers his voice, âlet me fuck you so bad, so youâre crying my name out. i want everyone to know how good i make you feel,âÂ
you nod and reach for his cock, thatâs not already dripping with pearls of pre cum over his pink tip. you whine at the vision and pushes you back, pumping a hand down his length he settles between your thighs.
âfuck me seonghwa,â you say and his eyes darken, âfill me up, with you, only y-â
your next sentences are muffled into cries when he lines his cock against your clit, teasing the tip up and down before entering you inch by inch.Â
feeling yourself stretch out at his thick length, he pounds into you at a fast speed as if heâs never done before, your body moving against the bed as he grunts and groans and grinds himself into you.
your head falls back, mouth hung open as he starts to roll his hips into yours and you let out a cry that could only be described as borderline pornographic.Â
âseonghwa- you feel so- so good.â you let out as he continues to go at different speeds, the room filling with his own loud moans.
âf-fuck,â your eyes roll back when he hits that certain spot in you, again and again, you let out a cry, throwing your head back on the pillow while releasing moans and whimpers of his name in pleasure.Â
he drops his head down to your shoulder, burying his face into your neck. âiâm so close baby, hold on for me hm?â you wrap and arm around his shoulder, throwing your own head back at the pleasure.
he whines and groans into you when he feels you clench around him and he pounds into you again, fast and hard and deep and you let a tiny, pleasurable moan as the heat in you becomes unbearable and you came once again.Â
âi-iâm close,â he responds only seconds later, voice strained, and you moaned at the sensation and it only makes him go faster and he eventually comes inside you.
he pulls out you carefully, watching you wince at the sensitivity. sweat lines both your bodies and he slumps down on you, wrapping his arms around you.Â
he pecks your forehead, nose and then heâs about to place on your lips that the two of you roll off the couch and right onto the floor.Â
you both fall into fits of laughter and he pulls you close to him, sighing happily when he turns to you. pointer finger poking your cheek and you open your eyes, staring at him with a playful glint.
you two pause and then burst out laughing, the room echoing with your happiness. he bites at your ear and you squeal, slapping his chest.
when he rolls off of you and slides to your side, both of you lay in the middle of the room, naked. hair spread on the carpet below, sighing and humming happily.
âare we planning to-â
âi love you.â
you bite the insides of your cheek, looking the opposite way when you feel his stare on you. he leans up hurriedly and hovers his face over yours, you shyly avoid his face until he holds into your jaw softly.
âw-what did you say?â he asks, eyes wide and sparkly, âsay it again.âÂ
when you stare at him intently and donât say anything, he taps your cheek. âsay it again y/n, you have no idea how much iâve been dying to hear those words.â
you smile playful, bringing your hands to his cheeks. âi said i love you, silly.â
he tries to smile, âsay it again,âÂ
âi love you,â you tilt your head, and the glint in his eyes switch.
âagain,â he lowers himself.
âi love you.â
âone more time,âÂ
âi love you.â
âjus-â
âi take it ba-âÂ
he doesnât let you finish your sentence, his lips slam onto yours. âdonât, donât ever take it back.âÂ
âunderstand?â he asks, and you nod.
âunderstood sir.â you grin, and he laughs.
âiâll make you happy, i swear.â he mumbles as he hides his face in your hair, you smile and shut your eyes.Â
âand iâll protect you, i swear.â
you run down to your room, leaving the meeting about the war. the war that at this point was confirmed, yunho and hongjoong had found a loophole when they visited the border.Â
only confirming every suspicion, you had, the enemy wasnât in any of the eight kingdoms. but instead, outside from those kingdoms who seonghwa had gone to help at his last trip a few months ago.Â
from wooyoungâs special sources, heâs found out exactly when they will attack. exactly two days from now.
it felt like a betrayal, but you knew something else was up but thatâs not what you were thinking about right now.Â
instead, a bigger thing was on your mind.Â
you walk out the bathroom, one hand on your stomach and the other running through your hair.Â
âyeosang,â you squeak, âare you a hundred percent sure?âÂ
both you and yeosang decided to talk in private, him joining you as you ran out the meeting. which only confirmed his suspicions over your habits these days, heâs leaning on the wall opposite of yours.Â
hands crossed over his chest while a small smile plays on his lips, he nods slowly, and you shut your eyes.
âyouâre feeling it arenât you?â he muses, he runs a hand through his blond locks and a smile creeps up his lips.Â
your mouth drops and you could feel you heart hammering against your rib cage, swallowing you look up to him walking towards you.
âyeosang, weâre at a war,â you realize, ât-this canât be happening right now, i have to go fight in the war in two days and i canât do it like this!âÂ
your outburst is understandable, yeosang not only sympathizes with you but also is excited about how a new change will affect both you and seonghwa.
ây/n, i know-â he pauses, âyou should tell seonghwa.âÂ
you sit down on your bed and yeosang exits the room, a sigh slips down your lips and you fall back onto the bed. your hair falling prettily around you, slowly you trail your hand over your stomach and bite your lip.
you smile but it fades away quickly, the threat of enemies attacking the kingdom any time in the coming two days scares you. but this time it scares you for a different reason and youâre angry, frustrated and irritated even because the timing of everything wasnât right.Â
you shot up from your bed and started to march down the hallway, ignoring the guards who immediately shoot a salute as you ran down the hall.
once you reached seonghwaâs office, you burst open the door and the man inside flinches, dropping his files.Â
his wide eyes soften when they land on you. âoh, bab-â
âyou!â your finger points at him and he raises his eyebrows as you walk towards him, backing him up to the wall behind, his hands coming up by his head.Â
you grab his collars, âyou, you! you finally got what youâve been trying to do.âÂ
he tilts his head, eyes confused. âand that is?â
âiâm pregnant and y-â
âyou what,â
you pause, your shoulders dropping. his face drops and you swallow, âare yo-â
âi knew it!â he interrupts, yelling and then he cups your face, heâs got the biggest smile, his pearly whites show, and he smiles so big it almost eyes are hidden.
he presses his lips against yours, again and again. wrapping his arms around you he lifts you and twirls you around, âp-put me down!âÂ
âoh my god, oh my god, weâll be parents oh god.â he whispers, placing his forehead on yours. âi love you so much, you have no idea.âÂ
he keeps pressing his lips onto yours repeatedly, you can feel him smile against them as he whispers i love youâs in between.Â
you cup his face and force him to look at you, the pad of your thumb rubs near his eyes, wiping away the tears pooling around his eyes.Â
âhow long?â he asks.
âone and a half months.âÂ
heâs got a pout on his face and his eyebrows are almost touching, something youâve noticed he does whenever heâs about to cry.
âwhy are you crying?â you ask, and he cups your hands with his, pecking your hands.Â
âyou just gave me the biggest gift of my entire life, how can i not cry?â he mumbles against your hands, eyes pouring out fat tears and he sniffles. you laugh at his words and pull him into a hug.
he immediately wraps his around your waist, burying his face in your neck deeper, he places soft kisses over your shoulder. you giggle and wrap your hands around him tighter, you could feel his rapid heartbeat syncing with yours.
he kneels down and taps your stomach with wide eyes, once you pull back though, your face falls and he notices right away. âseonghwa, what about the war?âÂ
he visibly stiffens and grips on your waist, âno, no, no!â he whispers, âyouâre not going out there to fight.âÂ
âseonghwa,â you grasp his hands, âi have to fulfil my duty, i-iâll put extra shields around myself so no-â
âyour duty is our kid growing in your stomach,â he interrupts, moving his hand to your stomach.
you sigh, âi have to follow through my orders with the soldiers! after all, weâre fighting for your land.â
âmy title or my status or land doesnât mean a god damn thing if the only thing iâve ever wanted would be taken away from me.â this time he holds onto your shoulders and shakes you slightly.
you shake your head, âseonghwa, i know, but my job is to protect you and everyone who lives under eden.â
he leans closer, âiâve vowed to protect you y/n, twice, and now with our kids,â he spared a glance at your stomach. âweâll go to war, iâll run it.â
âseonghwa you canât, you have no experience in what iâm in.â you pause, âgranted you were in the navy, but this, this is different hwa.âÂ
his eyes soften at the use of his name that you only ever called in more intimate moments, âi donât care baby, if it means you two would be safe, iâll go.â his intertwines his fingers with yours.Â
âbesides,â he dramatically flips his hair, âat least i can win sword fights.âÂ
âhwa,â
âtrust me.âÂ
you stare at him in worry, considering what you had found out just last night. but when he pouts, you chuckle at him and he pulls you into his embrace, âfine,â you sigh, âyou can go, but only on one condition.âÂ
he smiles and caresses your hair, âand that is?â
âi need the father of our baby to be alive,â you bury further in his chest, âif you die, i will go find you and then kill you myself.â
he laughs and you feel his chest vibrate, âonly the father of our child? what about your husband?â he teases, and you lightly smack his back.Â
âi want both of them back.âÂ
seonghwa had been going around, yelling and screaming loudly to everyone in the palace that you were pregnant. you had to hide your face behind him as he told away with a big smile on his face, his parents were all ecstatic and immediately showered you with presents and blessings.
âyouâre really excited, huh?â you grin, fixing the blanket of your bed. glancing swiftly at seonghwa sitting on the couch in his night wear, supporting a book in his hand.
âyou have no idea,â you stop and lean on the bed frame, your eyes go over his face and smile.Â
he sees you staring and puts his book to the table beside him, he spreads his thighs wide, tilts his head and then pats his thighs at you.Â
wiggling his eyebrows at you, âyour throne, my queen.â and then pats his thighs again, you snort out loud and walk to your side of the bed.
he joins with a pout quickly and sits beside you, a hand around your shoulder, he presses his lips against your temple.Â
you sigh and lean onto him more, eyes closing slowly. his hand caresses your shoulder while his lips maintain near your face.Â
âdo you think we would have a boy or a girl,â you mumble against him, and he brings his hand over to your hair.Â
âit doesnât matter,â he says, and you nod with a smile, âbut, i do hope whoever is in there is a boy.âÂ
you open your eyes at that and tilt your chin up, âand what if itâs a girl?â
he smiles, âif itâs a girl, i donât think i would have the heart to marry her away.â your heart swells at his words, he pulls you into a hug and stays like that until your eyes start to fall heavy.
âi love you,âÂ
he whispers and when you donât respond, he assumes youâve fallen asleep. smiling he gets himself comfortable around you and closes his eyes.Â
âi know.âÂ
the next two days were intense, even the word intense was an understatement. everyone in the palace had been moving around every day, from the workers in the palace and those in the kingdom. all and every soldier available and those who had retired were in the field practicing.
you could hear the swords clashing against one another, grunts and groans of soldiers as they battled each other. every field was packed with men, the archery field, the open grounds and even the main property of the palace.Â
youâre walking around and guarding the rest, helping them here and there while teaching them how to do the right thing.Â
seonghwa and you had been monitoring everything, last two nights and days were spent in your office. planning out everything that would lead to eden winning, rearranging soldiers at different points around the battlefield, cannons, bombs and even artillery were numbered.
both of you wanted the least damage and had even sent a letter to the rivalry group for a better understanding to mend things out, but once they denied and initiated war by killing a few of your men.Â
both of you had no choice but to run the war, everything had to be perfect, for the kingdom and for you three.Â
and now, all of you stand together in lines. seonghwa stands left of you while yunho stands to the right, both his parents are standing at the balcony a level above.
âi know this is hard everyone,â seonghwa starts, âyour general wonât be able to join you in this, so iâll be taking the position.âÂ
you step forward, collectively gathering their attention. âi want every single one of you back,â you say, eye glancing to every corner.Â
âif one of you is missing,â you pause, âiâll come to the field myself and find you, and then iâll kill you.âÂ
a roar of laugh echoes the grounds, and it lessens the weight on you, as the rest get busy you turn to your battalion.Â
âyou all better come back, be careful and use your mind.â you tell them, and they respond with a smile, âand you,â you turn to seonghwa who raises his eyebrows.
âdonât go overboard! donât do useless things-â
âi wonât!â he whines.
âi know you will,â you sigh and he chuckled before coming to place his hands around your neck, âremember how at south there will be people there, list-â
âi know, mom.â he says and leans down to press his lips onto yours, you hear the low âoohâsâ of the crowd and pull back.Â
âiâll be right back, wait for me okay?â he says with a grin and you manage to smile back, he then nods at everyone else who start to make their way out the palace grounds.Â
you watch them leave the grounds and you swallow thickly, instinctively placing a hand on your stomach. a sickening feeling starting to loom over you, and you turn around to yeosang standing there.
he nods at you and the two of you walk to his quarters, âare you sure?â he asks, handing you your armour that you wear on top of your clothes. âi donât want you to go there and potentially hurt yourself knowing youâre pregnant.âÂ
âwe have no choice yeo, you know what your patient said yesterday.â
last night, yeosang burst through your office doors, yanking your arm and dragging you to his office without even getting the chance to say hi.
âyeosang, w-whatâs going on?â you ask the man holding your wrist, stepping in his room only to see a patient bandaged over his legs, arms and head.
you glance at yeosang in confusion, asking him to explain why exactly he brought you here especially when thereâs someone heâs tending to.
before yeosang gets the chance respond, the man in front immediately stands up, hissing and then bowing.Â
âgener- your highness,â his low and gritty voice goes onto introduce himself, âi canât reveal my name, but i have to tell you something.â
you exchange glances with yeosang who nods, ushering you to a chair, and he comes to stand behind you.Â
âwhat happened to you?â you ask out of worry, eyeing the white bandages over him.
âdorado,â the man says, âdorado is after you.â
you place the chained veil around your waist, securing it by placing your armour on top. âi am sure, and as for that, itâll be alright.â
âheâll be mad,â he mutters while tightening the chain around your forearms. âvery mad.â
you pause to look at him, âi know how to protect myself yeo... and as for seonghwa, itâll be okay, he wonât even know iâm there.âÂ
he gives you a look that you respond with a grin, he breaks into a chuckle and pats your shoulders.Â
âthen iâm coming with,â he says, grabbing his own artillery from under his desk. surprising you, you wouldâve never thought the doctor would have weapons with him too.
âi knew you were a sadist.â you laugh before the two of you walk out, hiding away from the guards and your parents.
âmingi i swear to god! stop screaming every two seconds!â san yells through the thick air, slashing his sword the through the wind.Â
âi canât help it, he fucking stabbed me! twice!â mingi yells back, riding his horse as he cuts through the enemies with ease.
the rest are fighting with their own group of people who seem to be attacking the face, âgod, why do you all go after the faces!â wooyoung yells, kicking the other in the stomach before twisting his arm.Â
âwhereâs seonghwa?â hongjoong cries out, clutching his bleeding arm while fighting.Â
âayo, park seongh- oh my god heâs got a whole army on him, no wonder, they all hate him!âÂ
seonghwa stands between the men crowding him in a circle, he grips on his sword tightly and smirks. raising his hand to motion them to come forward, as if taunting them with his fingers.Â
the men groan out loudly and launch themselves at him, seonghwa successfully dodges all the punches thrown at him except the one that landed on his chest, making him stumble back.Â
the barbaric man grabs seonghwaâs collars and yanks him to the floor, seonghwa grabs his sword and shoves it down the manâs chest all the way through. the man freezes and sees the duke smirk at him before throwing his now dead body off him.
men throw himself at seonghwa one by one and he fights his best, getting a few splotches of blood on his face while his arms bleed through his running wounds.Â
a man from behind comes over to attack seonghwa, his breathing so loud and raspy yet still faded into the chaos of the war. he grips his sword and raises it above his head ready to cut through seonghwaâs body.
âhey,â a voice yells and the man freezes, seonghwa keeps on putting his attention on those who attack him.Â
âthatâs my husband youâre trying to kill.â before the man can even turn around, a sword slides through his entire neck and his blood splatters through air to the ground.
âgeneral!âÂ
sanâs voice cries at you, youâre surprised heâs back. you hadnât seen him ever since he went back, but you notice he looks much better and throw him a smirk.
he notices you sitting on your horse dressed in your armour and a sword in hand, looking all majestic and a smirk forms over his lips and suddenly the rage to fight increases. you shake your head at him, mouthing to not mention you, and as if you were his fuel to his fire, he lunges at the attackers.Â
with a snort, you pull on the two ropes coming from the horsesâ head and rode through the battlefield with your sword in hand.
the wind streamed by you, whipping your hair back to show the eyes, dark and brooding and raging. those you sped past widen their eyes in fear as they start to run, your sword plays with the air, as the cloth decorating your horse flies.Â
itâs almost a haunting image, you on the white horse while blood drips down the sword youâre holding. your eyes are turned into slits, jaw clenched, and your rank insignia shines intimidatingly under the gloomy day.Â
you spot yunho and hongjoong from a far and wave at him. they stop to look at you for a quick second before making their way towards you, their jaws clenched and face bloodied. the three of you were known as a trio that worked together on the battlefield and made sure the kingdom won, you nod at them and they immediately know what to do.
âgeneral, be safe.â you nod and begin to ride down the grounds.Â
yunho goes out in the south, calling for the cannons to be released. hongjoong goes to the frontline with his men as they handle the ones there, you stay in the middle, eliminating any enemy who dare attack you.Â
at some point in the battle, you go off your horse. dangerous for the condition you were in, but you managed to wipe off any men who attacked you, swinging your leg in their faces.Â
those who attacked you from behind, you grabbed their forearms and and yank them forward with the strength you had.Â
the wind blew in your face, a thin layer of sweat coating your face and your body under all the armour. your hair stuck to your forehead as you walked the grounds, dragging your sword behind you.Â
the noise it created, tickled the ears of those passing by who immediately ran off. every step you took on the now bloody sand, dripped with the blood of those you fought with.Â
your armour dripped blood; your sword poured the red liquid as you dragged it across the field. your face on the other hand, had a big splashes of blood, maybe even yours along with your rival enemies.Â
it feels like itâs been hours since the battle started, hongjoong had managed to bring down the front lines while yunho had successfully attacked with cannons. the rest had been taking care of the ones in the middle, including you.Â
now all you had to do was escape, so that seonghwa wouldnât see you.Â
which would be impossible considering heâs standing just meters away from you, if you had to escape, you had to do it quick.Â
luckily, yeosang sees you and the two of you make your way back hurriedly. both of you laugh as you run away from them successfully before finally reaching the palace grounds.Â
âiâll meet you at your quarters, clean up good.â yeosang says and you immediately speed off to your room, hurriedly grabbing your towel, incense and fresh clothes to change into.
picking up anything suspicious, the two of you take showers in a record time. which was impossibly fast considering the blood on you two, and the time it took for you to drain it all out to finally being able to walk out all dressed like before.Â
once youâre done, yeosang walks in and both your eyes widen. âfuck! the floor!â you two yell and instantly look for something to get the blood off the floor.Â
yeosang brings in a bucket of water which spills halfway through and so he has to go for a round two, and you grabbed a random shirt to wipe the floor. the two of you used water and literally anything to get it off as you two panicked.Â
not only were you two shaking but laughing at the misery you were in, but once the panic slowly calmed down. you both sighed in relief, sitting on the ground as you piled up the cloths for laundry.Â
âtake rest,â he exhaled, âiâm sure youâre devastatingly tired.âÂ
âthank you yeosang, really.â you reach over to pat his shoulders.
ânow just, get ready for our very own duke.â he laughs, and you join him, shaking your head at the consequences youâre about to experience.
you heard the horns go off in distance not a few hours later, âtheyâre here, weâve won.â you grin widely and walk out the room, yeosang following suit.
the second you walk out, itâs quite literally a mess. more than a few of your soldiers are injured, some getting carried to hospital beds. yeosang spares you a quick look and you nod, he runs down the hall, no longer was he yeosang but a doctor on duty.
you step down to help a few of the men yourself, you applaud and thank them for staying alive. when youâre helping a particular one though, he stops you and looks at you in confusion.
âgeneral, arenât you going to go to his highness?â you furrow your eyebrows, âheâs injured.âÂ
your eyes immediately widen, âh-heâs what?â you whip your head to the entrance as a group of men stride in on horses.Â
you run, eyes searching for the one man youâre looking for. âmingi, whereâs seonghwa?â you ask, your voice desperate, scared and panicky.
âheâs coming,â he smiles through the blood on his face, âdonât worry y/n, he put up a great fight.â
the worry on your face shows, your heartbeat hammering against your rib cage as your eyes wandered everywhere to meet seonghwaâs.Â
and when they do, you slump down in relief. eyebrows almost meeting each other while your eyes water slightly, his face is cleaned off, but you could still see the smears of blood.Â
his black hair is a mess, sticking to his forehead. he was head to toe sprinkled with blood as he rode on his horse, when his eyes meet yours, he immediately smiles.Â
âi told you iâd come back.âÂ
you walk towards him slowly and he jumps down to take your hands in his, âwhere are you injured?â your eyes go over all his body, turning him around back and forth and he laughs.
you smack his shoulder, and he immediately hisses, his hands clench his shoulders, and you mumble out a sorry. he groans dramatically and you this time, slap his chest.Â
âstop scaring me,â you hold his hand tighter, âletâs go, iâll clean you up.âÂ
âhmm,â he grins, âyouâll clean me up?â and wiggles his eyebrows, your eyes roll to the back of your head.Â
youâre so used to his nature and yet it still brings butterflies to your stomach, wrapping your arm around his waist you guide him towards yeosangâs private office.Â
while youâre walking there, seonghwa talks about what he did on the field, and as if you werenât there to see it all, you nod and praise him at what he tells you.Â
ânow donât move,â you sit him down, âand let me clean your wounds, grab my hand if it hurts, okay?â you tell him gently and he nods.
you reach down to take strip his upper half down, which wasnât easy considering he would mutter sexual innuendos and how heâd hiss in pain.
you grab a big cotton swab and drench it the antiseptic, bringing it up to his shoulder. you frowned at the large cut on his skin, his eyes staring at you intently as you catered his wound.Â
ignoring him making kissing faces, weird faces and him blowing air to your face. or how is fingers play with your shirt, how his hand wraps around you, how he hides his pain by burying his face in your stomach. sometimes mumbling something to the baby inside.Â
you chant sweet nothings to him while he bites down on his lips, once youâre done stitching his wound you wrap a white bandage around his shoulder.Â
he finds playing with your hair as you patch him up, ây/n.â he mumbles.Â
you hum in response, hands still fixing the bandage. âwhyâs there blood on your neck,âÂ
you freeze visibly, âo-oh it must be yours, mustâve been from when we walked here.âÂ
he stays quiet and raises his fingers to bring over your neck, you feel them hover a bit before he lowers them down to your neck. you shut your eyes and breath shakily when the blood coming from an unknown wound touches his fingers.Â
âwhat is this,â he whispers, âwhy are you bleeding, y/n.âÂ
when you donât respond, you feel his eyes on your face. âlook at me.â your shiver at his tone, so low and deep that it cut through the tension.Â
when you do look at him, youâre sure your eyes look guilty, sad and even worse. âwhere were you?âÂ
you shake your head, ânowhere hwa, iâm telling you itâs your bl-â
he suddenly raises your hair up in a bunch and yanks down your shirt, eyes stuck on the cut right behind your neck. âthis isnât mine,â he clenches his jaw and you feel his breathing fan your skin.
he turns his head to look into your eyes, eyebrow raising as his face turns bitter. âwhere were you y/n,â when you try and interrupt him, âanswer me right now, and donât you dare lie.âÂ
âme and yeosang were practicing,â oh, only if you didnât stutter, he wouldâve believed you, his eyes bore into your side and your eyes drop to the floor.Â
when the room goes silent, you could hear the ringing noises in your ear. the faded groans of others getting their wounds tended at, seonghwaâs hand around your waist tightens and he forces you to look at him.Â
âyou went to the war,â he breathes.Â
âwithout telling me,â he pauses, âwith our child.âÂ
dread pools over you so quick that you almost forget to breathe, your eyes are glued shut and you hear his breathing get harsh.Â
âanswer me y/n, did you, or did you not go to the war.âÂ
you stay quiet for a few moments, knowing youâre in the wrong. thereâs no need to hide it from him as it could possibly become a bigger deal.
ây/n.âÂ
âi did,â you nod and almost immediately he softly pushes you away from him, âhwa, i know iâm wrong i sh-â
âdonât âhwaâ me right now,â he warns, eyes fueling with anger. âhow- who in the right mind would go to a war, pregnant!âÂ
he then steps towards you and you look at him in the eye, ây/n, are you fucking stupid? how, how- i donât even have the fucking words!â he yells, and you shut your eyes.
âdo you know how dangerous that is?âÂ
âhwa, iâm okay.â you interrupt him, âiâm alive.â
âand what if you werenât?â he yells, âhuh? what if you died? what if someone shot you or stabbed you? what if our child... died, y/n?âÂ
you suck in a deep breathe, ânothing happened seonghwa, iâm here! iâm standing in front of you, with our child!âÂ
âyou willingly went to the war,â he points a finger at you, âyou put yourself and the kid in such danger, y/n are you out of your god damn mind?!â
âjust listen to me pl-â
âwhat if something happened to our child? youâre already injured, god forbid something mightâve happened!â he cries out loud and you notice him choking up. âdid you even think of that or did you just think itâll be okay?!âÂ
the room is so quiet, so quiet that you hear no footsteps from outside. because you know theyâre hearing everything, the silence pains you and you know youâre wrong. you know that, but you did it anyway.Â
âseonghwa, please iâm sorry, i know iâm wrong but please listen to m-â
âwhy should i listen to you?â he angrily asks, âso that you can preach about you saving the kingdom?â he grabs the nearest object and throws it on the floor, yeosangâs favourite glass now sits shattered into hundreds of pieces.Â
âthatâs not the point, seonghwa!â you yell this time, âjust please let me explain to you why i did it!â
his face screams pain, his eyes are dropping tears while he breathes harshly, hands curled up into fists and eyes glaring daggers at you.Â
âi just wanted to protect you hwa,â your voice cuts through the silence, âiâm experienced en-â
he suddenly grabs your shoulders, and your wide eyes look at his, âiâd rather get killed than see you die with our child.âÂ
âwhat you did was dumb, reckless and horrible.â he spits, âyouâre horrible, i canât believe that you would do this.âÂ
you donât even realize that youâre shaking, that your eyes are pooling with tears and yet they donât drop. the heat in your throat is getting unbearable and your eyes are staring into his.Â
but the only difference is, yours are filled with love and his are with hate.Â
âyouâre so selfish y/n,â he glares, âso damn selfish.â he whispers, and you swear you heard your heart crack.Â
âplease, please hear me out hwa, iâm sorry, iâm so sorry- i, know iâm wrong for doing this but at least look at me.âÂ
he reaches beside you and grabs his shirt, you stand still, not knowing what to do. he wonât even spare you a glance, his hands wipe the tears that keep falling of his face while yours are shaking by your side.
when heâs about to walk past you, you hastily hold onto his arm. âhwa-âÂ
he turns around with such anger that you let go of his arm, âitâs your highness for you.â and without looking back, he walks out.
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"Woman" - Wolfstar x reader (Prequel)
A/n: I've found this sitting in my drafts and thought that this would be a perfect prequel for "woman".
Warnings: drinking, fluff
Word count: 1.2K
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It was Saturday night. Well, Sunday early morning really since it was past midnight. However, careless of the time, a group of Griffindor sat around the fire in their common room. They were engaged in a very lively game of truth or dare. Their voices often rising whenever someone revealed an outrageous truth or did a weird dare until one of them, Remus, shushed them to lower their voices.
It was a harmless game, really. The goal was to spend the time together, drink and have fun. Most of the dares were absurd. Their point was to either get the person to drink or to amuse the others with their hilarious outcome. Some of them were already drunk, read Peter and Marlene. The rest of the Marauders were much better at holding their liquor while the two other girls, Lily and Y/n, were more mindful of their drinking dreading to wake up with a terrible hangover like the last time they did this.
Another round had started and it was y/n's turn while Sirius asked the question. Knowing the boy, the girl braced herself either to reveal an uncomfortable truth or at the idea of getting through whatever Sirius asked her to.
"So, y/n, truth or dare?"
Still feeling a bit nauseous after being dared to eat as many tarts she could in a minute, y/n chose truth. Exactly as Sirius expected.
"Which one of the Marauders would you date?" Leaning back onto his hands, the long-haired boy smirked at the blush that formed on y/n's cheeks.
"Now, that's a tricky question." Rolling her eyes, she huffed already regretting choosing the "safest" option. There was no safety when it came to the Marauders, not when they were playing.
"Seems pretty straightforward to me," Remus muttered beside her.
"You see, the choice is actually between two of you." Seeing as the four boys were looking at her quizzically, she went to explain her point.
"James has been completely and utterly in love with Lily since the first year. Anyone thinking they could get his attention is simply delusional., she started listing her points with the help of her fingers.
"And Peter, well, I don't think he's really into girls for that matter so even in this case, delusional." She shrugged pointing to the almost fainted boy in front of her.
"That leaves the two of you, my dear Wolfstar," she wrapped her arms on the boys' shoulders before she continued, "and that simply means that I have one choice to make because I'm not in the habit of being a hit and run."
Turning her head so that she was facing Sirius, she lifted her arm on Remus' shoulders only so that she could point at him while talking, "we all know that Remus is the best choice here. You know, if he didn't make it a point to deprive his life of every chance of being happy, I'd say he's the perfect boyfriend."
It may have seemed that the conversation y/n was having with Sirius was of the utmost secrecy when in fact, if the red tips of Remus's ears were of any indication, he had heard everything. Marlen was giggling at something in the fire, Peter was passed out on the floor while James and Lily were whispering Merlin knows what. This conversation was as private as it was going to get, only including those directly involved.
"I'm deeply offended, I can be a perfect boyfriend thank you very much." One of Sirius' hands shot on his chest as if she had actually wounded him. His face twisted in stupor and offence. It wasn't y/n's intention to hurt him but Sirius' ways were known to every at Hogwarts. She was merely pointing out a fact.
"Of course you can," she tutted reaching out pat the hands closest to her.
"Prongs! Tell her." Not happy, Sirius turned to James trying for him to back him up but y/n didn't want this to get everyone's business. Before James could answer and come to Sirius' aid even though he knew y/n was right, she put a hand up.
"Listen, no one can be the best at everything, Pads. Besides, that doesn't mean that you're less trustworthy. I still love you dearly and you're still one of my favourite people." She added, her finger under his chin to get him to look at her.
"One you won't date," he mumbled unhappily, his eyes flickering between hers.
"I'm not going to date Moony either, am I? This was all speculation." She added in the pursuit of soothing him, pointing to the curly boy on her other side.
"I'm not opposed to that." Came Moony's ushered voice.
"What?" Both Sirius and Y/n asked, surprise evident in their voices.
"I didn't think you'd be interested so I never asked," he shrugged trying to come off as aloof. If only the red of his cheeks didn't betray him...
"Anyone who's not interested in you is either a fool or a lesbian," y/n murmured almost automatically since her brain was still processing the fact that one of the cutest boys she knew was interested in her.
"Way to go and steal my girl, Moony!" Sirius loudly grumbled, not liking in the least how his best friend was flirting with the girl he wanted to date.
"I'm not your girl," y/n lightly pointed out at the same time Remus said,
"That's not what I'm doing."
"Then, what are you doing?" Sirius asked completely ignoring her.
"She doesn't have to choose between one of us," he explained turning fully to his friend, "of course, only if she's okay with it." He then added, his eyes quickly glancing to you.
It took a while for her and Sirius to understand what Remus was hinting at. But, eventually, they did. Sirius then turned around to look expectantly at y/n as well while y/n... well she was having a hard time believing that this was really happening.
Maybe she had drunk more than she had thought.
"You don't have to answer us right now." Mistaking your reaction as hesitancy, Remus added to reassure you.
But he had gotten it completely wrong. This the best thing that could have ever happened to you. Two of the best boys you knew wanted to date you. This must be a dream.
"Provided that this is not a dream," she started, "I'm more than okay with it." She said, alternating his eyes from Sirius to Remus to goad their reactions.
Out of nowhere, she felt a sharp pain in her left arm. Snapping towards it, she was met with Sirius' grin, "so you know this is not a dream." The bastard smugly replied.
Remus frowned at him while you glared, cradling your arm to your chest.
"You really want to start this relationship with you hurting me?" you glowered.
He held a finger to his chin, lightly tapping it in an expression of mock content before it morphed into a smirk.
"On a second thought," he trailed before his finger held your chin up and his mouth met yours.
Merlin's balls.
If this was how he kissed then it's no wonder why every girl was after him.
When he finally pulled away, he gave you a small kiss which you promptly returned before pecking him again. Hell, if you could spend all your time kissing you, you would. Then someone cleared their voice and you turned to find Remus looking at you.
Before he could say anything, you leaned into him, leaving a kiss on his lips too. Then you pulled away and Sirius leaned over you to kiss him as well.
And the rest, as they say, is history.
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JK Day 2021
...and what a day it was. I know weâre a bit late with this when looking at KST but in our time zone itâs still September 1st so it counts, right? Besides I wanted to wait until the day was over for them so I could have everything the members would post for JK so I could put it in this post as memory for us to look back on in the future.
Furthermore, as extension for the celebrations, I want to finally sit down, write and post our post about JK and his bonds with the hyung line since itâs been so long since two anons asked us about that so what better time than the weekend after JK day, right?
Anyway, letâs get into it, shall we?
The day before JKs birthday he came onto Weverse and posted three different things, including a cute selca:
Everyone of course turned up their creativity to post something for JK and also wondered among themselves what he planned on using those lyric comments for, and if he would use them for anything at all.
Sometime later before the new RUN episode aired, Seokjin appeared on Weverse and, for whatever reason, commented birthday wishes for JK under the Weverse post about the upcoming RUN episode. Because of course he did.
More than an hour before midnight KST everyone got a notification from vlive that JK had gone live:
And truly, considering it was about to be his birthday, I love how it felt more like it was ours with the gift that kept on giving that this vlive turned out to be.Â
Lots more below the cut:
Remember those posts that JK made in the morning on Weverse? As many, including myself, had guessed, JK gathered some of the lyric comments he liked most, or thought would work best, and proceeded to turn them into an actual song right before our eyes. The instrumental was gorgeous with a acoustic guitar and ballad like melody and it was truly fascinating watching him figuring out how to sing the lines, record them, redo them whenever he felt he could do it better, add adlibs in some places, and slowly but surely a song was created with lyrics in both English and Korean.
This really was the content Iâve always craved and Iâm so, so happy we got to watch JK do this instead of him just showing us the final thing. You could see him having fun, even when he got a little frustrated at times or he wasnât quite sure how he wanted to continue or how he wanted the words to sound like, and that he really knows what heâs doing. So many claim that Bangtan have no idea about producing and recording songs, which truly is such a stupid argument to make considering Yoongi is literally Producer SUGA and we know that, if the members want to make mixtapes they have to do them themselves, which we know Namjoon, Yoongi and Hobi have done. So JK doing all of that in the vlive? Checkmate against those idiots. Especially since it also isnât the first time weâve seen members work on tracks, like the behind the scenes of rap line working on DDAENG or Hobi working on songs, or even JK with Stay, even if we didnât know itâs Stay at the time.
Once the song was finished JK went on to show us several more instrumentals he couldâve worked with, each one with a different vibe, before switching to singing a song by Justin Bieber saying he really loves his songs a lot. And then it was nearing midnight so he unpacked the cake he got, white icing/fondant with purple lettering spelling out STILL WITH YOU JK, very cute.
Right as midnight hit someone started to bang on the door so JK got up to see whoâd come and, surprise, it was a very excited Hobi wishing him a happy birthday including singing the birthday song for him upon JKs request while JK lit up his golden heart shaped candle.
Hobi again returned two minutes after heâd left (between when at 1:18h JK mentioned that, for the first time that night, heâd do one more song to finish off the vlive, ha) to give him an ice cream cake heâd prepared, but also to get his phone which heâd accidentally forgotten in the room JK was in.
Once Hobi really left and JK got a taste of his ice cream cake, as well as the white cake which turned out to be chocolate flavored, the vlive concert began and, at the time, none of us knew what we were in for since we all thought heâd really do one or two more songs and that would be it. And yet that very much is not what happened, at all, and Iâm so grateful for it.
This might just be the funniest screenshot in existence (please take note of the time stamps):
No wonder that, eventually, Seokjin decided to come onto Weverse to post wishes for JK a second time while also saying this (the picture is from their unit photoshoot for Winter Package):
The imagine of Seokjin just sitting in bed or whatever watching JKs vlive and hearing him say last song every like ten minutes and every time he just kept going...and going...and going while Seokjin is just waiting...and waiting...and waiting? Hilarious. But itâs also really cute how heâd wanted to wait until JK was done to not interrupt him or pull ARMYs attention away from the vlive. Truly I adore their bond, itâs adorable and chaotic and so wonderfully them.
Yoongi also posted his wishes for JK while the vlive was still going.
The one who waited until it was over was actually Namjoon who, with what he said in his tweet, actually revealed that heâd watched JKs vlive as well. In his vlive JK said that at the end of their concerts Namjoon used to always give his speech like a (school) principal, as in his long ending ment speeches, and thatâs why Namjoon âsignedâ his tweet with principal as well.
Truly I love how JK was just having fun singing their songs, taking requests from ARMY, rediscovering songs, like him wondering if they really have a song called Paradise (since the Korean title is different) and finally fulfilling ARMYs wish of hearing BTS sing it live, as well as being surprised and confused by requests for Heartbeat asking himself if them really have a song like that. But since ARMY kept asking for it, he finally looked it up and his reaction to realizing that, yes, it is a real song of theirs and also that thatâs the song we were talking about which heâd completely forgotten about? Hilarious but also kind of heartbreaking for all the Heartbeat enthusiasts.
Here is the full list of all the songs he sang, some for longer, some shorter:
One thing that this vlive showed really well was just how amazing of a singer JK really is. Itâs easy for people to dismiss his talent during concerts or performances, since they could always argue that him and the others get help due to the backing track etc., but here we had his raw voice singing along to their songs much the way any of us do. And he sounded stunning beginning to end. Heâs such a talented singer and heâs worked so hard on his technique and voice and itâs really showing. Thinking back to what he said in his BE comeback Weverse interview about how heâd like to one day he brave enough to do a three hour concert on his own, Iâd say this vlive shows that really shouldnât be any kind of problem at all. If ARMY can listen to him essentially do karaoke for one and a half hours, then attending and enjoying a full on JK concert would be no issue whatsoever. Itâd actually be amazing, Iâm certain, and Iâd totally be down to seeing that potentially become a reality one day in the future.
After two and a half hours, the vlive ultimately came to a close and JK said his goodbyes.
Hours later Hobi appeared on Weverse wondering what pictures of JK he could/should post for his traditional picture âspamâ and everyone was immediately super excited. Hobiâs gallery holds some wonderful treasures so we all looked forward to what he would end up posting, though it would take a few hours until it would happen.
The funny thing is that he posted the first twt twice since the picture with Namjoon in it had Hobiâs iPhone in it which, as good Samsung representative, was a no, no, so he deleted the twt and posted it again with some stickers covering the phone. So cute. And his picture choices are wonderful. I particularly love that picture of JK in the white room dressed in black from back in 2019 when they performed Boy with Luv. And also their picture from a dinner the two of them went on together back in 2018.
In the meantime before Hobi posted his pictures, as requested in the picture that BH had posted for JKs birthday on the staff BTS account at midnight, one of the members posted his meal though itâs unclear which one of them it mightâve been. Looks super yummy though, wow.
And eventually the final member to come and wish JK a happy birthday was Jimin (and yes, I know Jiminâs twt came before Hobiâs but considering Hobi already wished him a happy birthday at midnight, that makes Jimin the last one):
Trans (cr. haruharu_w_bts):
our maknae happy birthday i wish <you a happy birthday> a lot and a lot #KkookieHappyBirthday #JIMIN #HAPPYJKDAY
Taehyung didnât post anything but considering his track record of doing something for the members off social media for their birthday, like giving Namjoon a forehead kiss, sending birthday wish videos to Seokjin (including roping others into doing it as well), or wishing Jimin a happy birthday as part of the MOTS ON:E exhibition, I wasnât all that surprised by this.
And with that JK day 2021 came to a close. It started with a surprise (as in both the song based on ARMY comments and also the concert afterward) and ended with one as well, as in the In The SOOP Season Two announcement.
I hope JK had a wonderful day, celebrated happily with his members, friends and family however much thatâs possible in these times, as well as with their busy schedule, and that this new year will be a happy one for him full of success, personal but also career wise. Iâm curious and excited to see what will happen.
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Not A Christmas Movie
Genre/Rating: Fluff and Sweetness of the holiday variety, T
Summary:Â Tom and Astrid find themselves in a unique situation on Christmas Eve.Â
Authorâs Notes: My first sappy romantic Christmas one shot, yâall! Move over, Hallmark! I tried to cover some of the best cheesy themes, I hope you enjoy it. Thank you to Pillow Talk and Lolo for proofing. Â
The sound of the wind and snow raced through the trees and whipped against the walls of the cabin, the remote mountainous location devoid of any welcoming lights from neighbors. The two travelers dropped their luggage upon crossing the threshold and rushed to push the heavy door shut behind them.  Â
âWhen we get through this, neither you nor my sisters are ever allowed to make fun of my emergency preparedness again! Weâd be in major trouble without it!â Astrid declared, brushing snow off her jacket and holding up the lantern from the referenced emergency preparedness with her other hand as Tom attempted to lock the door.
âI think I can safely and assuredly,â he paused to run his tongue over his perpetually chapped lips in concentration, âgive you my word as an Englishman that I shall never,â a grunt of effort, âallow either myself or your sisters to utter a syllable of criticism on that score.â Â
She couldnât help but giggle at his struggle with the lock. Â
âRemember when you had the brilliant idea to build a set for one of our backyard holiday productions? Was that when you played Scrooge? Your word as an Englishman may be good as gold, but your complete lack of skill with anything slightly mechanical is something I wouldnât swear by.â
Even in the dim light of the lantern, the slight twitch of a smile was visible on his face, the vision of the pathetic attempt so vivid in his memory. Â
âNo one is going to believe this,â she sighed, shivering and looking around for a light switch.
âTruth is stranger than fiction,â Tom quipped. âThe best intentions of a Christmas surprise, a series of unfortunate events, a comedy of errorsâŠâ
âI blame my soon to be ex-mechanic, the weatherman, Anya and Arlyss and their crazy idea about trying to organize our families into coming out here to the wilderness to have some kind of storybook Christmas,â she huffed, fumbling along the wall, but finding the switch and flipping it to On in relief.
They both groaned when nothing happened. No electricity, no heat.
âThey must have disconnected the electricity during renovations, fantastic.â He followed close behind her as they made their way around the cabin. Although the snowstorm was in full force and there werenât any outside lights on the driveway, they could see evidence of construction as they had pulled up a few minutes earlier. Â
âWell, at least thereâs a fireplace and I think there is actually a pile of wood next to it,â Astrid pointed as she spoke. âHow about that. Must have been stocked by the same person who left the door unlocked. Remind me never to hire this company, whoever they are.â
âI could go outside and check for theâŠuhmâŠtheâŠâ Tom stuttered and gestured, making what she assumed was meant to be a square shape of some kind.
âThe breaker box?â she asked dryly. Â
âExactly, yes,â he answered in a tone of false bravado, clearing his throat. âI was merely waiting to see if you knew the name.â
âSanta doesnât bring presents to little boys who lie, ya know.â She set the lantern on the mantle next to a small glass dish of matches. âEspecially little boys who grew up in a centuries-old estate and have servants who take care of locking the doors and fixing the electrical problems.â
âThey are not servants, they are staff, Miss Sassy, and I doubt Father Christmas knows we are here, no one does,â he replied. âAdd the one forgotten mobile and the other with no service to the list of things that wonât be believed.â
âWell, anyways, Professor,â she went on in an exaggerated manner, âI may have a First Aid kit in my emergency supplies, but I am not equipped to perform any surgery on wounds you would most certainly incur from trying to play Electrician.â
He knew she was correct and they both smiled, cheeks rosy with cold.
âI suppose it was fortuitous that I ended up teaching Classics rather than embarking upon a career in carpentry.â
Astrid got a fire going and they were able to scope out their surroundings more thoroughly. A last-minute change of plans had allowed the visiting Tom and originally scheduled-to-work Astrid to join their families in the mountains for Christmas, but a quick succession of unforeseen events had brought them here, stranded close to midnight in a semi-livable cabin during a snowstorm on Christmas Eve.
The owners must have been undergoing some kind of renovations. The cabin obviously had been inhabited previously, but half the interior wasnât complete, including the kitchen.
âThe toilet flushes!â she shouted from the bathroom. âAnd thereâs running water in the sink!â
âUnfortunately there is no sofa or chairs of any sort and only one bedroom,â he reported when she came back into the main room, âNo fireplace, but it does have a bed with linens.â
âWell, my kit has extra batteries so we should be okay with the lantern in there,â she assured him, completely missing his point about the issue of a single bed.
He noticed that her shivering wasnât decreasing as much as it should, looking her up and down in concern. She was wearing an ankle-length corduroy skirt in a shade that matched her eyes, with a long-sleeved but thin sweater. Â
âI think we should go through our luggage and put on a couple of more layers. That centuries-old estate was a bit drafty, so I am accustomed to an indoor chill,â he informed her with a tinge of that irritating blend of both humility and privilege.
She rolled her eyes, but went over to her suitcase and started sifting through her clothes. Â
âYou and the twins have always been bossy. Itâs a wonder how I have managed to get through life as an adult without the three of you hovering over me like you did when I was a kid.â
He pulled on another shirt and grinned at her.
âI still remember the day you were born. I was visiting Dad and Roberta that year for Christmas,â referring to the alternating schedule their families had of who went to which country for the holidays. âAnd your sisters and I were old enough to be excited rather than jealous of a new child coming.â
Astrid turned away from him, hoping he wouldnât see her reaction. Why did it please her so much to hear him speak of her birth with such affection? It must be this ridiculous situation. And the holiday. And her birthday. And this sparkling blue-eyed man whose place in her life she had never been quite able to define. Not a blood relation, but as close as a family member, certainly more than a friend. But more than a friend, in that sense? College and adulthood had made the unanswered question less important, as the shared summers and holidays of their childhood had grown fewer and fewer. She didnât let herself ponder why he hadnât married and had a dozen children to help him keep up that manor. Any woman would be elated at the prospect of sharing her life with him; she knew he had a string of casual relationships, just as she had, but their age difference had made her sure years ago that he would be a distant memory by this time. Â
âBorn on Christmas Day to parents named Joseph and Mary, merely the beginning of my lifeâs trajectory of âYou wonât believe this!â events, continuing to this bizarre night that has practically every plot point needed for a cheesy holiday movie except that we arenât secretly pining for each other.â She zipped up the windbreaker over the thicker sweater before reaching for her parka, not seeing the brief flicker in his eyes.
âDid you know that Arliss wanted to call you Snowflake and Anyaâs choice was Mistletoe?â Tom picked up her scarf and hat that he had placed on the hearth so they would be toasty and walked back to her.
âI hear that story every year, along with all the suggestions from everyone to aunts and uncles to the postman. Thank God my parents went with something on theme, but not silly.â She pulled on her boots after a second pair of socks and looked up at him.
His expression changed and he drew in a short breath.
âDo you like your name?â
The inquiry was brimming with something that sounded like hope to her.
âOh, yes, Iâve always loved it. In fact, I love it as much as Iâve disliked having a birthday on Christmas because it is beautiful and unique and it made me feel beautiful and unique.â
A wave of pure delight lit up his face and something clicked in her mind. Her parentsâ version of where her name came from was always that someone had mentioned it to them and they couldnât remember who it had been.
âIt was you, wasnât it,â Astrid said. And it wasnât a question. âIt was your suggestion.â
He worried at his lower lip, a tic sheâd come to know years ago that was a sure indication of him being both pleased and embarrassed.
âYes,â the soft affirmation punctuated by the crackles and pops from the fire. âAnd your description is precisely how I thought of it then, thanks to having just started Latin in school, and,â a heartbeat of silence, âit is how I think of you now.â
He was standing directly in front of her and paused to survey her face for a few seconds before tapping lightly under her chin. Â
Without even thinking about it, it seemed, she looked up at the ceiling so he could wrap the heated scarf around her neck. The warmth felt wonderful, although the feeling caused by this stunning revelation about her name and the look on his face was already warming her up in a way she tried to herself wasnât happening.
He tucked her hair behind her ears and pulled the hat down while she argued with herself that he was simply being affectionate in the manner of a friend.
âWell,â she said, a little too loudly, stepping back from him, âThat down comforter is calling to me, I guess we should be getting to bed.â
Good heavens, the bed, she thought. As in one bed. Â
As in here, as in they were stuck with a snowstorm swirling around them. Â
In a cabin that was being renovated. With no power or heat. Â
On Christmas Eve. Â
This couldnât be real, it was not a Christmas movie.
âI suppose we should,â still in that soft voice. Â
A distraction. She needed a distraction.
âOh! I just remembered! I have my favorite Christmas movie downloaded on my phone, we can watch it before we go to sleep.â
Less than two hours later, David Niven was giving his sermon and Loretta Young was gazing up at him while Cary Grant walked away in the snow. Tom was propped up a bit against the headboard and had insisted on holding the phone so she could stay under the blankets. Somehow she had ended up almost pasted to his side as the story progressed and his arm was around her. About halfway through, theyâd had a little tussle about whether or not he should leave the warm cocoon of the bed and get them another candy cane from her Snack Pack. He argued that they had already brushed their teeth, but a sincere plea from her with an affectionate âBe naughty with me, Professor!â addition was something he simply couldnât resist. Â
She sighed and closed her eyes, contented and drowsy and finally no longer cold, too tired and confused to attempt to figure out what was happening, how years of ignoring what was just below the surface had nearly bubbled over. It was impossible. He wasnât interested. He was just being Tom. Typical Tom. Caring, attentive, making you feel like you were the only person in the room. She wouldnât think about this anymore right now. Maybe tomorrow. Or not. Â
Tom closed the app on her phone and noticed the time.
âHey there, itâs 12:01.â
âMmhhmm,â she murmured, feeling herself about to drift off. He was so familiar, so comforting, so exactly like Christmas itself should be. She wanted to enjoy this moment before she went back to being the little kid and he the olderâŠthe older what?
âHappy Birthday,â he said and dipped his head to kiss her forehead, his breath sweet from the earlier candy cane.
She turned upwards toward him without opening her eyes to give him a peck on the cheek, almost without knowing what she was doing in her sleepy state, but she miscalculated and missed his cheek, her mouth landing on his.
He didnât jerk back in shock. Or horror.
Itâs now or never, she thought, suddenly wide awake and ready to throw caution out the window that was probably frozen shut by now.
Ten seconds later, ten minutes later, she wasnât sure which, he pulled back breathlessly and she opened her eyes.Â
âWhat are you doing?â he asked in bewilderment, in surprise, but not in accusation.
âIâm kissing you, do you mind?â she responded, quickly pulling off her mittens and his beanie so she could sink her fingers into his curls.
âI, uhmâŠâ
âHave no fear for your virtue, Thomas,â she teased in a low voice, tugging on a fistful of those ginger locks and causing a sharp gasp from him that thrilled her and gave her courage. âWe are wrapped up like a couple of stuffed sausages in this icebox and there is a foot of clothing between us.â Â
His gaze narrowed and focused on her lips.
Another kiss, sweet and shy, but sure.
âI thought we werenât secretly pining for each other,â he quoted her words back to her.
âI lied,â Astrid admitted while placing a string of kisses down his nose and nipping the tip.Â
The gasp changed to a growl, his grip on her upper arms tightening.
âSanta doesnât bring presents to little girls who lie,â using her words against her, again.
She kissed him, again. Longer, lingering.
They were side by side now, the blankets becoming tangled.
âDid you lie?â she whispered, not knowing what to do next if he denied it, but also feeling like she couldnât let another minute pass without settling the matter.
He propped himself up on an elbow and raised an eyebrow at her.
âI donât recall either confirming or denying your assertion at the time,â wanting to tease her in return.
âBut,â he rushed to continue upon seeing her immediately crestfallen, âI will make it absolutely clear now,â each word followed by a brush of his lips across her jaw and down her neck, âthat you,â lifting his head to smile at her, âare the one I desire.â
Tears of happiness welled up and slipped down her cheeks. Â
âHappy Christmas, my starshine,â he whispered against her lips.
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€ âȘïž STARRING: hajime iwaizumi; gn!reader
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€ âȘïž THEMES: mutual pining? kinda sad
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€ âȘïž WORD COUNT: 4.6k words
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€ âȘïž SYNOPSIS: this is the story of you and hajime, and how your friendship crumbled when he found out something that was meant to be a secret moments after it was said.Â
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€ âȘïž INTERMISSION: this is a part of @samusangelâ âs songfics! the song for this fic is ex by kiana ledĂ©. do listen to that song because itâs bop! also, i have finally interpreted my real life story of my 7-year unrequited crush:) yes, most of this fic is based on what happened to me, not all though. iâm kinda hoping to do the ending too lmao. please donât get too attached to hajime:) enjoy! oh btw i had to add arms on iwaâs pic so if you noticed it, iâll give yo 10m points (also for the reference for that line haha)
when you first met hajime iwaizumi, it felt as if you had someone who will always have your back, someone youâd always trust, someone whoâd continually care about you, through and through.Â
thatâs how being friends are, right?Â
yet why is it that his name alone could hurt you better than anyoneâs? why can you still remember the stolen glances and lingering touches that were barely there?Â
why is it that even after eight years, youâre still regretting why you said hello that day?Â
why?Â
from oikawa: hey! from oikawa: i heard that youâre in the photography club from oikawa: please please speak to my friend iwa-chan he can be kinda shy to oikawa: uhm who is this? do i know you? from oikawa: oh my y/n from oikawa: did you really not have the one and only oikawa tooruâs number?! me?? to oikawa: ...oikawa how did you get my number? to oikawa: and whoâs iwa-chan??
âhey iwaizumi-san! come sit here!â you exclaimed, a huge grin on your face as both you patted the seat beside you, eyes looked over at the boy that had just entered the room, a sense of relief passing by his expression the moment he found your gaze.Â
âweâre in the same class, right? and i think makki mentioned you before. whatâs your name again?â he says the moment he sat on the same chair you urged him to sit on.
â(y/n),â you held out your hand. â-itâs nice to meet you.âÂ
hajime takes it willingly, a friendly look on his face when he does so all the while responding with, âitâs nice to meet you too. and since i can call you with your first name, then you can call me hajime, if youâd like.âÂ
âwell, hajime it is then.âÂ
the smiles that you shared were harmless, not even an ounce of hesitating thought crossed your mind when you had your very first conversation with him, as well as the next ones.Â
âhey hajime, whatâs your number?âÂ
âhm? have i not given it to you yet? here, let me type it for you.âÂ
from iwaizumi: hey :) to iwaizumi: yeah yeah i received it hajime from iwaizumi: oh come on from iwaizumi: is saying a hello that hard?? to iwaizumi: hello to iwaizumi: you happy? from iwaizumi: yeah :)
â(y/n), want to join us for lunch? we have a free seat right here.âÂ
âhajime! i saw a good movie! letâs watch it later? snacks are on me as long as itâs your turn next time.âÂ
smiles, giggles, laughs, whispers or notes whenever the class is ongoing, always beside each other during club meetings, you and hajime even share each otherâs secrets and random text conversations during midnights. in just a short time, you were able to trust him, and he did the same for you. for you, that is indeed an unusual feat--you never trusted people that easily to be honest.Â
âhave you heard of the name wakatoshi ushijima? i once liked him, yâknow.â you say in a low volume, making sure none else hears not just because your words were meant to be a secret that was never to be talked out loud, but itâs since you and hajime are currently in a club meeting, and you would hate your name to be added in the noisy list.Â
âyou meant that big guy in section five? are you serious?â hajme scoffs, as if you just said a very insulting thing to him. âyou could do better, you know that.â
you scoff, chuckling. âare you blind? heâs as handsome as you could be.âÂ
âis that your way of saying i am handsome?â he smirks, âi knew iâm your type all along.âÂ
you playfully smacked him on the leg, making him recoil a bit from your form.Â
âyou wish,â you muttered, brushing off his claims, not really expecting much by that time.Â
still, fate decides to surprise you with a gift you can never take back.Â
âhey, what do you think of iwaizumi? you two are quite close, arenât you?âÂ
âwell,â you say, humming as you try to think of a reply whilst writing down the remaining notes that you should write before the teacher decides to erase the contents of the blackboard. the subject itself made it difficult because it was math--and you always fail on math thus this matter is more important than the topic that your friend was chatting about.Â
so you gave a mindless answer. âheâs a dork, but he can be cute sometimes.â you say, a memory of when you had to endure an entire hour of hajime talking about dinosaurs flashing in your mind a ghost of a smile crossing your lips as you continued writing on your math notebook.Â
then a tragedy came in almost an instant, not even a single warning to try and prevent that from happening.Â
and it changed your whole life.Â
it was childish, you could say, and it was the start of a neverending downfall for not only you, but for your friendship with hajime.Â
âheâs cute?! hey, hajime, (y/n) thinks youâre cute!âÂ
when the roars of your classmates reached your ears, you were already sitting upright, eyes wide open, forehead knitted, and mouth slightly ajar.Â
what?
the moment your gaze met his, you knew that he believed it; the childish statement that was meant to be platonically true.Â
you were misunderstood.
bye everyone, including hajime.Â
and by the next day, when the club where you and he first met came, he didnât want to sit next to you. whatâs more, is that he purposely asked his other seatmate to change seats with him.Â
he ignored you, the whole time.Â
to iwaizumi: hey to iwaizumi: you don't believe that right from iwaizumi: what? to iwaizumi: what happened earlier to iwaizumi: itâs not true yknow that from iwaizumi: uh from iwaizumi: yeah sure
âyou like him, donât you?âÂ
you glared at hanamaki, one that could even send daggers his way if it could. âno, i donâtâ
âthen why are you so worried? i mean, he still responds to your chats, right?â he mutters, munching on his sandwich all the while watching a volleyball match of your seniors, eyes trained at the ball.Â
you frowned, biting your lower lip in contemplation as you recalled when you talked to hajime last night about school work, which was a thing for the two of you before too.Â
âyeah,â you say, glancing at the other side of the gym, where hajime sat next to toru, his childhood best friend who was from another class. by then, a rush of sadness and loneliness flushes away your appetite, the sandwich on your hand almost forgotten. â-but heâs completely ignoring me in real life.â
it didnât bother you much by that time.Â
âyouâre staring, y/n.â
âyeah, like they do always.âÂ
you could only roll your eyes at hanamaki and matsukawa, who were your best friends at that time due to the fact that you three had been at the same class during elementary and had continued being close since then. when you became friends with hajime, you merely did so just to have someone to talk within that one club that you shared with him and not with the rest of your classmates. aside from that, you felt comfortable talking to the guy. he really did look friendly and welcoming that it was quite easy to hit him up with a conversation.Â
but it didnât mean that you like hajime.Â
right?
you scoff, muttering for the two to shut up before proceeding to enter your classroom, the two leaving you alone since they were not a part of your class. now, you could only bow your head down as you make your way to your seat, trying not to make much of a peep in hopes that no one will have to talk to you and most likely bring up the topic of you âcrushingâ on hajime when itâs not true at all.Â
but guess what? itâs not going to happen when the fact that your seatmate is toru oikawa himself.Â
âhey (y/n)! have you had a great lunch?â
the smile that creeped to your face was forced, honestly speaking. although if oikawa had noticed it, he didnât ask for it further. âyes i did, how about you?â
âwell, it was nice, but donât you think it will be nicer if you join me and iwa-chan instead?âÂ
the thing with oikawa is that heâs not just chatty with you, but he also tends to tease you with hajime, before that unfortunate day even came. the story behind that is that oikawa merely saw you talking with hajime one time after the club that you two shared and then he confided to you the next day, saying âyou and iwa-chan look cute together, (y/n), i swear one day one of you will fall in love with the other, iâm sure of it.âÂ
okay, you confirm to yourself that you didnât like hajime that way is not because you wanted to prove oikawa wrong, but it does seem like toru oikawa was challenging you ever since he said those words to you.Â
and of course, youâll win it, no matter if it was a real challenge or not.Â
âhow about you, do you have any ideas?âÂ
eyes followed as soon as the conversation turned to you, including hajimeâs--to which you have met as soon as your mind returned to the reality that you temporarily exchanged for the train of thoughts that continued to operate inside of your mind.Â
âhuh?â
âif youâve got any ideas for the project,â says oikawa, being the automatic leader of the group due to his ability to instantly get along with everyone and having the real capability of leading them. apparently, the teacher decided to group you with the two, along with two other classmates that you never really bothered to get along well with. âif none, we can just go with what we gathered so far.âÂ
you broke your contact with hajime after he did, turning your gaze to oikawa with a shake of your head. âno, i donât have any.âÂ
the worst part of the situation between you and hajime was that everything seems like a lie. the friendship--it seemed like a lie that you never bothered to correct or initiate to stop. why?Â
yeah, you kept wondering why.Â
maybe itâs because you always treasure your friends, or that you wanted to prove that what they are claiming is a fake, a lie--that you didnât have a crush on hajime, and you will never ever will.Â
but what if you really did?Â
what if all these denials are making you believe that it is true as well? you had been thinking about that for quite some time now and the thought of it alone scares you. sure, youâve had crushes or youâve had people whom you liked or had feelings before, but not one that was your friend. it makes you wonder if these so-called âfeelingsâ could have been due to wanting to always be with him and talk to him, but not in a romantic way. in fact, those are what you were feeling towards hajime.Â
thereâs really nothing you should overthink about.Â
you like hajime as a friend, but not as someone you could see being with doing all the romantic stuff that other people do with their significant others.Â
for all you know, that thought was sooner diminished.Â
âdid you cut your hair?âÂ
âhm? yeah i did-â looking up, a sight that you never bothered to ever think about before was suddenly in front of you--hajime, with all the beauty of his wide shoulders and the muscles of his arm peaking through under his sleeve, extending down to his exposed skin to hi beautiful, veiny hand.Â
the only reason you were able to be brought back to school and to where you are exactly was when you felt a fleeting touch by your forehead, brushing away a couple of strands of hair that was on your forehead, the action waking you up in almost an instant to find hajime iwaizumi stepping back to give you back your personal space, an embarrassed look on his face that he sooner had to look away sideways to âhideâ it from you.Â
and then he walked away. just like that.Â
you didnât know how many seconds or even minutes you were sat frozen on that bench, the sight of the people practicing dancing in front of you to prepare for the upcoming intramurals that has a cheerleading competition in its event. your mind was floating; maybe up in the sky, plunging through the clouds, thinking about only one thing--or person.Â
why he did that, you had no idea. you could only think about all the questions that suddenly popped in your head, the scene continuing on playing like a broken television, replaying and replaying and replaying.Â
from iwaizumi: hey that hairstyle looks good on you from iwaizumi: you should keep it to iwaizumi: i ainât keeping a hairstyle just coz you like it :p to iwaizumi: but⊠does it really suit me? from iwaizumi: yes :)
âdo you like iwa-chan, y/n?â
you were sure you didnât before but now is a different matter. not after that very small moment that youâve had in real life after hajime ignored you continually on the outside.Â
leaving oikawaâs question unanswered was not a good idea, and he kept pestering you, asking you the very same thing, even as you were with others, merely whispering the words by your ear whenever he has a chance. you knew it was merely oikawaâs way of trying to set his two friends up--thatâs if you treat him as a friend anyway.
you ignored oikawa, only until he whispered a different statement one day.Â
âi heard one of our classmates likes him.â
now that had caught your attention, unconsciously making you lock eyes with oikawa, who visibly looked pleased with the reaction that he was able to pull out from you.Â
âwho?â
âthe same one who asked you if you like iwa-chan.âÂ
maybe it was out of curiosity or maybe something else, but either way, that specific reason made you glance towards where oikawa was pointing at, the very same person he was referring to in his words was sitting next to hajime, such an unfamiliar sight for basically anyone since hajime was indeed seated far away from them before, and for you to see them beside each other, it was, what was that word?--unsettling.Â
âthey obviously like him, donât you think?â oikawa mutters next to you, his lips pursed together, his eyes narrowed at the same way you were looking as well, the very subjects of your gazes minding their own business, as if they were the only ones left in the world.Â
you looked away before you could think about them further, however the scene is still in your mind, evading it and also blocking the previous memory that was stuck in your mind for days--when hajime finally made a âconversation,â with you. well, he didnât really talk much that time but it was still better than nothing.
 and now, just when he was not ignoring you, this person shows up and flirts with him-
wait, stop thinking about it y/n!
you blamed it on oikawa, like you had always done, ignoring the fact that those blames should be pointed to you instead--you who had an indecisive mind and the one that thought of all of this as a challenge of a game--a game where you should beat all the teasings by ignoring all of them. rather than doing that, you overthought all of them--it was all your fault.Â
it was your fault that youâre now having feelings for hajime.Â
unbeknownst to you, they slowly built up inside of your heart, his grasps creeping and creeping the more you longed for him in real life and not just behind the gadget that you two had; behind the chats that were merely there, inside an application where you can never know what his real reactions were due to the fact that you couldnât see him as you two converse.Â
it was you.Â
it was you whose heart started fluttering as time went by.Â
âcome on, hug them! itâs a punishment.â everyone cheers, and yet beyond the noise is the panic that rushes through your entire system, your eyes glazed over at hajime, who was looking embarrassed the more seconds passed by.Â
you stood there, fidgeting and unable to stop yourself from moving your feet, walking towards mattsun to makki to oikawa, begging them to stop this with merely your eyes, your lips refusing itself to open and say something that youâll regret. after fully accepting the fact that you were slowly having these pesky feelings towards hajime, you still kept denying it to others. you were still afraid of what hajime would think. yes, sure, he was still talking to you through chats and text messages, even calling you a few times, and you knew that he wouldnât be that pleased to have others teasing the two of you like this. he gets particularly annoyed whenever heâs âembarrassedâ for stupid stuff like this. he deems it âpointlessâ in his own words.Â
it hurts, and thatâs why you were also willing to indulge with oikawa and the others during moments like these, the hidden desires of your heart coming true to life even for just this single moment.Â
when you finally felt hajimeâs arms around you, you felt as if you were protected, nurtured, and secured--and it felt very different. whenever you hug someone, youâll feel comfortable, yes, but never this kind. in hajimeâs arms, you felt a shield that physically safeguarded you from your surroundings, even from the noises that were supposed to erupt by your ears. instead, you heard of nothing but your heartbeat, pounding like a madman inside of your chest, continually for only one person.Â
by then have you realized how much you have craved for him.Â
you have hugged hajime a couple of times before, but it was the very first time that you have felt that kind of sensation pass through every cell in your body, releasing a rush of contentment only a millisecond after youâve felt it. the embrace didnât last for long, but for you, it was enough. for now.Â
that night, he didnât reply to your text messages.Â
to iwaizumi: hey to iwaizumi: are you asleep already? to iwaizumi: itâs still early though... to iwaizumi: just uhm message me when you read this okay?
when you felt like everything was going back into order before the hug, fate does something again.Â
actually, it was you who did it and fate merely attracted you to doing it.Â
people are afraid of confessions, most of the time. and apparently, youâre one of those people. no matter if itâs a confession for a petty thing such as telling your friend that they smell a bit or a stranger when you see them having some dirt on their face or stain on their clothes. yet, despite being nervous about it, you still do it.Â
for some reason, it applies to your feelings about a confession towards hajime as well.Â
the moment you had fully accepted to yourself that you liked him more than a friend would, you knew it was the end for your friendship with him- that you can never bring back whatever that was lost or what was supposed to had been before any of these shenanigans ever happened.Â
weeks and months went by, until it had been a year and more since you first claimed that you liked him. by now, you werenât at the same class as him anymore and guess what? you two were not talking or texting anymore either.Â
it seemed as if the friendship just⊠faded. and even if you had feelings for him, you let it slip from your hands, and yet it was the very thing that you were convinced that you wanted to have all this time--to not let this friendship die. since there was no possible way hajime would ever like you, at least youâll have the friendship, youâll still have him with you, by your side, even not as someone you secretly desired him to be.Â
âhow is he?â you let out, barely able to look at oikawa as you gazed at your feet and the ground, something that is not even that interesting--to which the other knew and noticed. yet instead of speaking of it, oikawa answered your question.Â
âyou meant iwa-chan, or me? if me, iâm alright, just a little hungry, do you want to go eat?âÂ
still, oikawa is oikawa and he did everything to make you look up to him, even if it were of a soft glare, like youâd always do--and you did, earning yourself a satisfied smirk from oikawa, slightly snickering at your reaction.Â
âjust kidding. iwa-chan is doing fine, just his usual self; iwa-chan being iwa-chan. no one is with him still, if you want to know--which i know you were.â he says, even so far as learning by your side, as if attempting to mutter the last statement by your ear.
even if your and hajimeâs friendship were slowly fading away, you and oikawa still kept in touch. you had no idea why but, he eventually became your friend while in the process of this hajime ordeal, plus he was also your seatmate the whole year when you were at the same class.Â
oh, and heâs also the only one connected to hajime, so of course, being friends with him was also an advantage for you. at least, there was a mutual friend whom you could talk and confide to about his own friend, hajime.Â
âwhat happened to your confession anyway? i was quite positive you had a chance with iwa-chan this whole time.â you couldnât see what he was looking at as he was saying those words but you were sure you heard him huff, which meant that he was making this funny expression in his face, one that made you chuckle a bit at the mental scene.Â
yet that chuckle turned into a smile--a smile that oikawa could admit that he had never seen in your face before.Â
âi confessed i like him, but, well, itâs pretty obvious that he didnât like me. if he does, weâd probably be dating right now.âÂ
usually, oikawa would be amused at your sarcastic remarks, but this one, he did not lie it one bit, just like the sad expression that you were making. he felt as if he was in your place, and his heart broke for you, the friend whom his bestfriend had rejected.Â
unbeknownst to you, oikawa tried to help you, even so far by âmatchmakingâ or âpromotingâ you to hajime. however, it seems the things only worsen the more oikawa does it.Â
âwhy? donât you like them?âÂ
âitâs not that.â the very same knitted brows appear on hajimeâs expression and oikawa immediately recognized it since it was the same face that heâll always give when they talk about a conflict--one that hajime doesnât like talking about.Â
oikawa thinks it's childish-- the way hajime ignores all of this and the way you still stay hopelessly devoted to this man. itâs like youâre both prolonging the discomfort and pain that you two were feeling. he wanted you two to just talk it all out so that he wouldnât be caught in between the two of you, and also because he didnât like having you and hajime to be in this situation. he loathed having to see you both suffer from your own decisions and actions.Â
hajime is a broken man--that much you knew. oikawa once mentioned to you that hajime had his heart broken by someone he liked for several years, and now, he was rather reluctant in liking someone. when you came in the picture, he was already a broken man. thatâs why you were fine with having to love him without him loving you back.Â
you didnât mention that it was not painful otherwise.Â
âhajime,âÂ
the recognition that plays by his face amuses you, and you couldnât help but smile at the sight of him too; his face is not really much different than before, but it was obvious that he had matured a lot and puberty really gifted him with such a handsome, chiselled face. not only that, but his build changed too, even if he did have strong, muscley arms before. now, he looks like a very mature young man.Â
which he is anyway, why are you even paying attention to those things?
âlong time no seeâ you say, halting in front of you and for him to fully turn to face you.Â
ây/n?â hearing your name being called by him gives you a feeling you once had before. however, you merely brushed that thought away, just in time for him to finally break off of his surprise.
âyeah, it had been.â he says, then pulling out the chair beside him, patting it. âhere, let me treat you to a drink.âÂ
you hesitated, and it seems as if hajime noticed it. âitâs alright if youâre in a hurry, we can just catch up some other day.â
âyeah, i think we should.â you nervously chuckled, and just when you were about to panic at how awkward the sudden encounter was, you were reminded by something. âwe can have coffee some other day, but i have something for you.âÂ
hajime watches as you rummage your bag, your attention focused on whatever you were finding as he takes this opportunity to actually look at you.Â
you look beautiful and mature, not so different from before, but you surely bloomed and become a really attractive person. if hajime were to be asked, he would have asked you on a date in almost an instant. yet, it will be proving to be difficult due to the history that you and him had.Â
the thought alone makes him want to regret his decisions from before, but he was not willing to say or express it out loud.Â
if you would give him a chance though, heâs pretty sure he would take it. heâs very different from who he was before, much mature and capable of being in a relationship.Â
heâs ready.Â
âhere,â you suddenly were extending your hand to him, holding out a piece of envelope that looked very much like a letter. and before he could question it, you spoke.Â
âiâm inviting you to our wedding. toshi and i are trying to find people from our previous schools soâŠ. here.âÂ
the smile that was on your face was bright, and hajime was having a hard time processing everything that was happening in his mind and before he knew it, you were saying goodbye, leaving the invitation on his hand before leaving the cafe, saying that you had some errands to attend to.Â
when he was left alone, it took hajime a full minute to open the invitation, seeing the names written on it and reading everything else. he was surprised, but what shocked him the most is that he actually felt different.Â
he wasnât heartbroken, no. it was as if someone had poured ice-cold water on him, the same memory of when you and him talked about the very same man you were marrying playing in his mind over and over.Â
it was amazing how fate brought you two in this situation, but it sure didnât occur in hajimeâs mind. when he first met you, he felt like heâd just met someone who will always be by his side, and he knew you deserve the best, thatâs why he thought that he did not deserve you.Â
now he can only question himself as he looks at the invitation to your marriage with another man, drinking coffee alone and without anyone by his side anymore.Â
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Muscle Memory, full wip, unedited 4.7k, scroll at ur own risk; tagging some people who showed previous interest @halleiswriting @chazzawrites @pe-ersona @druidx and also @pens-swords-stuff this is what Iâve been up to lately
Saint Josephâs Catholic Church bustles with activity. Itâs peculiar, for it being a weekday. More peculiar still that the bustling is being done by young men and women who could very well be engaging in⊠more satisfying summer indulgences.
The Youth Groupâs power couple sweeps in an hour late, ever put together even when, by all rights, they ought to be melting right out of their fancy outfits. Cheers rise from the crowd when they appear, each splitting off in their own directions to their own stations.
Y Nhi beelines for the painters, flicking her sleek ponytail to make sure itâs out of the way. The girls hand her a brush while detailing whatâs left to be done. Vinny bustles for the sound technicians - who, really, are already done for the day, but are staying for the social factor.
Two things to note about St. Josephâs power couple:
Y Nhi isnât sure she believes in God very much anymore.
They are not a couple, but itâs easier to let everyone think so than to correct it.
âJude,â Mary says (everyone calls her Jude because she and Vinny made a big deal of it years ago), âAre you sure you canât help out during the week?â
Y Nhi shrugs. Sheâs not busy or anything, but it feels wrong to shepherd children into a religion sheâs falling out of - even if Vacation Bible School had been one of her favorite summer memories for her entire life. Thatâs where she met Vinny, after all.
Vinny, laughing with the guys at the sound booth. To be more accurate, Vinny himself is only smirking, but thatâs as close to a laugh as he gets around here. Stupid smirk. Stupid boy.
âI have work. Unfortunately,â Y Nhi mutters, dragging her brush across a cardboard cutout. âVinnyâs taking the week off, so Iâm picking up his slack.â
Mary grins widely at that. âI swear itâs like youâre married.â
For whatever reason, Y Nhiâs heart clenches at that. Picturing herself and Vinny in wedding attire on the altar sickens her, but putting a faceless someone in her place makes her feel worse. But itâs not like she likes him. Sheâs sworn to herself that sheâd become a cat lady in her old age - her army has already begun with a fluffy black kitten. Itâs not looking too good for her future; Toothless likes Vinny more than her. Sheâs already failed as a parent.
Belatedly, Y Nhi realizes sheâs supposed to be engaging in a conversation, not thinking about Vinny and their co-parenting of a cat. If it can be called that.
âDonât hold your breath. The wedding is a long way off,â she says tightly. Like. Never. Never is a long, long way off.
âI wouldnât be too sure.â
This time, Y Nhi lets the comment slide. She paints while singing under her breath, as she always does. A long time ago, she had no qualms about belting it out, but time has weathered away her volume, reducing it to only this. No oneâs noticed the change or found it strange.
The conversation turns to something - anything - else. Degrees, internships, other boys who donât dress in all black and arenât named Vincent Truong. Y Nhi listens, but doesnât contribute.
By the time the call goes out for a lunch break, Y Nhi is finishing three tasks at once. One of the other girls brings her a burger, slathered with ketchup and mayo and tomatoes. Y Nhi thanks her and continues wrapping one of the white pillars in cardboard paper to simulate a palm tree.
Not long after, someone nudges her. Eyes flickering upward, sheâs met with the bored eyes of her very best friend. âBite.â
She doesnât, not yet.
Vinny wiggles the burger heâs holding in front of her mouth. âOnly half a slice of cheese. No tomatoes. Freshest patty of the batch. Eat.â
She still doesnât take the bait, even though heâs tailored this burger to her weirdly specific tastes.
Vinny sighs. âJude. No oneâs watching you. I promise all they can see is my back.â
âThatâs not what Iâm worried about.â Itâs true she had a complex about eating in public for a while, for reasons sheâs never told anyone including him. âJust not hungry.â
âNot very Gucci of you to lie in the house of God.â
âNot very Gucci of you to breathe.â
âJude! The fuck, man.â But heâs grinning. Not the half-assed grin he gives everyone else, but an honest, mirthful grin reserved for Toothless and Y Nhi only (usually Toothless. Damn cat).âJust eat this, okay? Iâll eat the other one.â His whole demeanor softens as he picks up the burger she had ignored - the one that is surely cold by now.
She is hungry. After all, the reason they were late is because Vinny had to coax her to every step of getting ready this morning. He even applied her eyeliner with the even strokes of a practiced hand - so practiced that even Y Nhi admits it looks like her own work. If she had a choice, she would waste away in bed for the day, but Vinny has never been much of a fan of that plan.
According to her own plan, Y Nhi had been wasting away since before yesterdayâs dinner. Famished might be a better word to describe her present state.
But today is one of those days that she feels guilty cementing the married couple narrative any more than it needs to be. Theyâre not getting any younger, Vinny and Y Nhi, and just because sheâs sworn off marriage doesnât mean he has. Howâs he supposed to get a nice girlfriend if she keeps hanging around?
Objectively, itâs a stupid reason to risk passing out in a church of all places, but something about him just makes her stupid. Always has.
The longer she ignores his peace offering, the twitcher he gets. He finishes his own burger in ten massive bites. When Y Nhi still doesnât eat hers, he eats that whole thing too. âWeâre leaving early. Say an hour? Think about what you want to eat.â
With that, heâs gone. Y Nhi is not hyper aware of his presence as it moves through the open space. She does not miss having him next to her. Not even a little.
-
Y Nhi writes, appetite??? in her journal when she gets home. Itâs the third time something of this nature has appeared on its list which isnât titled - but if it was it would be something like âThings About Vinny T. that Donât Make Sense.â
Even after inhaling two burgers, he took her out for pho and Thai tea, and he ate so slow that his noodles expanded in the broth. Still, he finished a medium bowl with relative ease, and Y Nhi was content after sheâd finished a small.
How does someone who eats like that look like that? It has to be some sort of stupid freaky metabolism. Genetic polymorphism, she thinks, then adds that she might be incorrectly using the term sheâd heard in class about two semesters ago.
She writes freeloading on the list. Itâs not technically true, but he spends enough time at her place to make it feel like it. Right this minute, heâs setting up the living room to sleep in, awaiting her delivery of the overnight bag he always leaves stocked in her apartment for emergencies.
That goes on the list too. Definition of âemergency.â
According to recent months, an alarming amount of things fit under this category of Vinnyâs mind. It might be nearing time to stage an intervention, but whoâs Y Nhi to tell him to relax when sheâs the one bordering on anxiety attacks all the time? Only god knows how many times heâs clutched her shaking hands until they stopped.
Y Nhi closes the journal. Snaps the band over the cover. Shoves it under her pillow. Vinny wouldnât dare read it to begin with, but for some reason, she doesnât even want him to know of its existence.
Quickly divesting herself of the impeccable outfit sheâd worn for the day, she slips easily into one of Vinnyâs large, large shirts and the shorts she affectionately calls game day shorts. Ever since high school, sheâs worn them for events that require equal amounts of comfort and courage - or just for comfort, to be honest.
âHey, loser,â she greets Vinny, emerging from her room. Heâs got her guitar in hand, and is humming some tune that she recognizes but canât place. âYour stuff is on my bed. Have you seen Toothless?â
He nods, and keeps playing. Itâs in experience, being stared at with such intense eyes while trying not to stare at the other partyâs stupid pretty hands playing her guitar. Fuck him, honestly, she thinks angrily.
Leaving him there, she pours each of them a glass of water in the kitchen. A shadow looms on top of the fridge, and she jumps. âToothless, baby. Please stop napping on the fridge.â
Toothless is not napping. He stands up, shakes his tiny body and hops to the counter, then to the floor, twining around Y Nhiâs feet before scuttling off.
Vinny is singing now. Itâs a new song, she supposes, and it sounds like a love song.
Slowly, Y Nhi moves around the kitchen, making as little noise as possible while doing absolutely nothing. She just wants to listen to Vinny and his new love song without him watching her reaction.
Once she gets past the lyrics about gentle touches and midnight escapades, she realizes something. Re-entering the living room, she deposits his water on the table. âIs that my melody? Why would you steal it?â
The guitar is placed awkwardly on the floor, the neck of it leaning on the couch. âOh, is that where itâs from? Thought it was familiar,â he says with mild disinterest. âWell, I wasnât that attached to it anyway.â
âAre you saying it sucks?â Y Nhi settles on the floor on the other side of the table, pulling her knees into her chest. Glancing through her lashes, Y Nhi watches Vinnyâs expressions.
âIâm saying Iâm not taking your work, you brat.â Then he hesitates. âI mean. Can I, just for one person?â
âWhat the fuck.â
Vinny twitches, finally. âI⊠Wrote the song for someone⊠So Iâd like to sing it for her, just once.â
Something vile rises in her throat, and she wishes Toothless would notice her distress. Hugging the cat might make her feel a little better about the fact that Vinnyâs written a song about a girl using her melody - and itâs not about herself and for some odd reason, that bothers her.
âCan- Can I hear it?â Y Nhi asks in a tiny voice. Itâs easier than No, you cannot take my song to sing to some other girl who will take you away from me.
âHavenât you been hearing it?â
âVincent.â Because thatâs easier than You colossal idiot, what shit are you pulling after two years?
âJude-â
She stands suddenly, fleeing to her room. Shutting the door, locking it, she tries to breathe. Of all people, Vinny should be the last person to push her to this reaction. She doesnât know what to think.
Vinny knows.
Vinny knows where her hard limits are. Technically, he hasnât passed them. But heâs pretty damn close.
Y Nhi slips into the shower, leaving it on the hottest setting to boil the emotions out.
-
For the next two days, Y Nhi doesnât emerge from her room. Her phone dies, and she lets it. Her body self-destructs in hunger and dehydration from crying, and she lets it. She stays in bed for most of it. Whether Vinny continues to sleep on the other side of the wall for those nights, she doesnât know. Nor care.
Itâs punishment for believing she might be ready to give love another chance.
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The third day, a letter slips under her door.
She almost flushes it down the toilet without reading it. Everything is in position to do so, paper fluttering in unsteady hands above the toilet bowl. But she wants to know. What can Vinny possibly say for himself?
Jude. I wrote the song for you. I didnât mean to steal your tune - honest to god, I didnât. But when I found out, I thought it was fitting that weâd worked on it together. (âTogetherâ)
Jude, the song is up to your interpretation, but itâs yours. I wrote it from my core, and itâs yours. Charge your fucking phone and check the lyrics I sent you.
Take a shower, and call me when youâre ready. You have a few daysâ worth of takeout in the fridge. Please take care of your health; I know youâre not right now. I mean it in the best way.
It cuts off there. Unceremonious and blunt, and so very him. She hates it very much.
Y Nhi charges her phone while she showers. Working quickly because sheâs so unsteady on her feet, she does the bare minimum before stumbling into the kitchen for food.
While she nibbles on the stir fried noodles he left, she pens her own note.
Vinny,
I will not read the lyrics. I donât want to know, and you donât have to pretend itâs about me.
Your joke took two years to reach completion. Congratulations. I hope I was amusing and that my downfall wall be the stunning conclusion you wanted.
She tapes it on her front door so heâll see it the next time he comes over. Soon, probably.
Momentarily, she wonders if sheâs being rash. Is it so impossible to think that he could find romantic attraction to her?
Then she remembers. Y Nhi is not built to be loved, if her history is anything to go by. Even if sheâs wrong, even if Vinny loves her for real, she will resist. Losing him this way is better than the alternative: watching him dissolve to some monstrosity while loving her.
-
Nothing changes after that. Apart from Vinnyâs absence from her apartment, they interact in exactly the same way.
Vinny says something borderline rude.
Y Nhi retorts with something blatantly rude.
They laugh about it and move along.
There are no gentle touches to avoid because Vinny rarely touched her to begin with - despite the way he slings his arm around everyone else, he wasnât like that with her. No arm around her shoulder, no hugs, not even extended contact with her hair.
Y Nhi pretends not to notice when he goes through a full dinner with an arm draped over the back of his friend Justinâs chair. He leans on it, adding the tiniest space between himself and Y Nhi. He still passes her the condiments and spices she likes before she asks for them. He takes her home at the end of it.
This should be enough. Up until now, it always had been. These tiny acts were his long distance hugs. It had always been enough, but now it isnât, and Y Nhi doesnât know what to do.
Isnât this what you wanted? For him to get a life away from you?
âHowâs that girl?â She asks on the way home, just because the silence is killing her and perhaps because sheâs a masochist. âThe one you wrote the song for?â
Vinny looks at her for a brief moment, something like grief in his eyes. Itâs a confusing expression. âShe hasnât really talked to me since.â
Y Nhi tries not to sit straighter at this revelation. âOh, really? Hm. That sucks.â
âYeah.â
Something about the word is profoundly heartbroken. She can almost feel the emotions hurtling off him in waves, but he doesnât lash out at her. All it does is enclose each passenger of the car in a separate bubble. This is the closest theyâve been in a long time, but Y Nhi has never felt so isolated.
Her throat constricts, and her hands start to shake. âDo you⊠Know why?â
Vinny thinks for a moment, tapping his fingers on the wheel. âI think she doesnât believe me. But I donât really think itâs me, I think she thinks that love is meant for everyone except herself. Sheâs pretty bent on self-destruction now, as far as I can tell - No, donât say anything yet.â
Every girl Vinnyâs talked to in the last week pops up in her mind. Which of them seems most self-destructive? If she canât keep herself by his side, he should at least have someone who can care for him. She could talk to them, probably, if she knew who it was.
âI⊠She thinks this is sudden, but Iâve been in love with her since I was fifteen. Or something. Like it kind of just happened over time, and I thought she knew.â
Fifteen means Vinnyâs been futilely in love with someone else while she fell for the guy who ended up cheating on her.
They were happy in high school. It was college that broke them. Distance. The communications became less frequent in an inverse relationship to Y Nhiâs alcohol intake. Her grades suffered, and she convinced herself that she was too stupid for higher education. On his birthday, she drove for hours to his dorm to surprise him, only to find him making out with another girl. Sober.
Not that any level of inebriation could excuse him, but perhaps it wouldâve hurt a little less.
Vinny isnât done. âI fucking cut fruit for her every time we hung out. I did her dishes sometimes. I donât know, I- I thought I did everything right. My mom thought I was doing everything right.â
âYou tell your mom about your love life?â
Y Nhi doesnât. Her parents donât care enough to know anything about it beyond that she let go of a future doctor and that sheâll never find another because sheâs past her prime. Thatâs what it feels like, anyway.
Sheâs literally twenty four. She has time.
âNot really. But theyâve met.â Vinny parks the car in front of her apartment, but he makes no move to get out or to let Y Nhi get out. âJude, listen to me.â
âIâm listening,â she says. Training her eyes on her kitchen window, she thinks about the dishes she hasnât done yet, the fruit she hasnât cut yet, and how she hates thinking about it because it reminds her Vinny is fading.
Human adaptability is a remarkable thing. One more week, and this new normalcy will cement itself.
âThe girl I love is you. Okay? Iâve walked around the topic for years, and I understand if youâre still not ready for it. But I know youâre getting the wrong idea in that head of yours. Itâs you, and itâs always been you, and Iâll spend the rest of my life proving it if you let me. Iâll also bow out forever if thatâs what you need from me. But I need you to talk to me. I-â
Holy shit, is he about to cry? With wild eyes, she glances at him. If sheâs made him cry, heâll return the favor five-fold. No, she backtracks. Thatâs not Vinny. Thatâs the behavior of her second ex, the one that reduced her to a stiff puppet of a girl.
âCome back to me,â he says in a small, strangled voice. âI donât even care if you break me in the process, but please come back to me. You can do whatever you want, as long as you do it by my side.â
For the longest moment, they say nothing. Then Y Nhi opens the car door. âCan you cut my strawberries for me? They taste better when you cut them.â
-
Vinny washes her dishes and her strawberries and quarters the already small fruit for her. He deposits the snacks in front of her and watches her eat - slowly, since theyâve just come back from dinner, after all.
âSo itâs me?â
âAlways has been.â
âAnd you never said anything.â
âI did. You ignored it on purpose.â
âNo, Iâm just a stupid hoe.â
âYouâre not stupid. Or a hoe.â
âYouâre always calling me stupid.â
âNot like that, stupid.â
âYouâre going to have to undo a lot of damage if we date.â
âI know. Iâve been working on it already, didnât you notice?â
âYeah, but itâs gonna get worse if we date.â
âHave you considered therapy?â
âVinny, Iâll be a pariah.â
âA happy one, maybe.â Hesitantly, he reaches for one of her hands. Halfway, he flips the palm up and waits for her to complete the gesture on her own. âYou donât have to decide right away. Itâs just a thought.â
She puts her hand in his a little too eagerly, then pulls back a little too harshly. It feels like touching the flame of a candle.
A defeated look momentarily crosses Vinnyâs eyes, but Y Nhi barely has the time to look at it before she steels her nerves and takes hold of his hand again. The coldness of his rings grounds her somehow. âWe need a list,â Y Nhi says, âof things. First, youâre going to Google touch starvation.â
Her best friend jerks in a little victorious motion, jamming his knee unceremoniously on the table leg as he does. âFuck, that hurt.â
âWhat was that about?â
âI wasnât sure if you were actually touch starved or if you didnât like men touching you.â
âAnd you didnât ask?â Y Nhi is incredulous.
âHow am I supposed to ask? âJude, when I touch you, does it remind you of your sleazy ex boyfriends?â Youâd say no. Like a liar. Or so I thought.â He pauses. âAnyway, this means I can hug you now, right? 24/7.â
âIf you ease into it.â
âAnd youâll stop wearing those gigantic shirts that literally drown you.â
â...No. What?â
âOkay, never mind, nothing. What else? What other boundaries do we have?â
Of all questions sheâs been asked today, this one is probably the most confusing. Her previous relationships are no help; she hasnât exactly had the best exposure to âhealthy relationships.â Sheâs aware that the bare minimum counts as decadence for her, so the question has her a little frozen.
After watching her face flicker through whatever emotions itâs displaying, Vinny rubs a thumb over her knuckles. âHow about this: I have a specific thing I want your help with, and when things come up, we can talk about it.â
Y Nhi nods, though they both know she wonât talk about shit. But perhaps watching Vinny sort out whatever issue he needs sorted will give her inspiration on how to approach this. âCan we-?â She starts and stops abruptly.
Vinny blinks, then feeds her a strawberry slice. âGo ahead.â Itâs a tactful move. Putting food in her mouth means she has to chew, meaning she has a few more seconds to gather herself and her thoughts, or at the very least, the desire to continue speaking.
âCan we not label this?â She finishes. âWhatever is between us.â
To her surprise, Vinny nods and acts like she hasnât asked the bitchiest question of the night. âSure.â You can do whatever you want, heâd said, as long as you do it by my side.
âAnd⊠Get rid of Jude.â
âWhat?â
âJude. You remember why I picked that name?â
âBecause of some fictional fairy queen that had the same name? You thought she was a conniving boss ass bitch and-â
âShut up. Saint Jude. Patron saint of?â
Technically speaking, he hasnât been wrong about the fairy queen bit. Unlike the suckers who fell for Cardan Greenbriar, Y Nhiâs wimpy ass was all in for Jude Duarte, mortal queen of the fae. And it was easier to admit that than to admit the truth that was dawning on Vinnyâs face in 3⊠2...
âHopeless causes,â Vinny answers easily. Then his expression sobers. âOh.â
Y Nhi nods. âBut the me with you isnât a hopeless cause. I donât want her to be, anyway.â
Thereâs a lot that goes unsaid, but sheâs certain Vinny hears it. Logically, she canât keep relying on whatever instinct says, Heâll understand because heâs Vinny, but up to this point, it should work out okay.
Gently, he says, âY Nhi,â reacquainting himself with the syllables of her given name. âY Nhi.â
âYes, Vinny?â She says just as gently.
He lowers his voice to a husky whisper, âYouâve never been a hopeless cause. You were a cause for hope.â
-
Vinnyâs request is this: that Y Nhi teach him to be soft again.
The request makes her question if she and Vinny exist in the same dimension because who the hell convinced him he wasnât soft? Hardened, prickly souls donât master winged eyeliner for the sake of their loved ones. They donât volunteer extra hours at Vacation Bible School while working graveyard shifts at the hospital. Donât do the dishes because as much as they hate them, their roommate hates them more.
Vinny is soft, and Y Nhi is out for blood. âI need names, Vincent. And addresses if you have them.â
âMy ex,â he says.
An awkward sound emerges from Y Nhiâs throat.
He raises an eyebrow at her. âWhat? I dated around. Didnât think I should be hung up on you, but nothing ever went as planned. Anyway, my one ex did a really good job making me become someone I wasnât. I didnât like the person she made me, but it was kind of too late to turn around.â
Again, Y Nhi is confused. The narrative is promising, though, so she lets him continue in hopes that itâll clear something up.
âIf you donât know me, how would you describe me?â
âVinny.â She doesnât have an answer, she just doesnât want to say it. Itâs not all good, and they just came back from an awkward fight. Was it a fight?
Theyâve slipped back into their normal existence so easily. Nothing has changed, but at the same time, everything has.
âJust- The rings and the black and the tattoos. Youâd think I drove a motorcycle or something, right?â
âYou drive a Lexus. Itâs the same in terms of your fuck boy vibes.â
âY Nhi!â
âBMW wouldâve sealed the deal. How many Hennessys do you drink a night, again?â
A pout settles on his face. She likes this version of him. âI see you get my point. I look like a baddie.â
âYeah. Bad at life.â
âI swear to god.â
âDonât do that, thatâs a sin. Donât use the lordâs name in vain and all.â
âAnyway. You of all people know I am soft, actually. She didnât like that. And so I gained a second personality and-â
Itâs rude, the way Y Nhi interrupts, but Vinny doesnât seem to mind at all. âSo if youâre always soft, whatâs left for me to help you with?â
âYouâll see,â he says. âActually. No, Iâm going to tell you. I get embarrassed about my relationships. So if it ever looks like Iâm pushing you away⊠Iâm just really fucking embarrassed, at least for this first stage. Do what you will with that.â
- bonus/epilogue -
They return home for Y Nhiâs momâs birthday. Theyâve always rode home together, since they are neighbors no matter where they are. No one finds it odd that they hold hands more than before, that Y Nhi is still averse to touching everyone but him.
They appear at social events hanging on each otherâs arms. Commentary about their status as a âmarried coupleâ breeze over their heads, but they never confirm nor deny anything. In public, they remain aloof to each other. They show tenderness in only the smallest of gestures.
In private, they are as they ever were. Vinny still does her eyeliner on her bad days, but now she cuddles him on the couch on his bad days. Between the two of them, there are a lot of bad days, days when they almost threw in the towel.
But they didnât. Instead, theyâve introduced all manner of pet names (Vinnyâs favorites to use are love, darling, and lately, em. Y Nhiâs favorites are Vinny and anh). They write songs to each other, for each other, with each other. Every morning, they make the choice to keep loving each other the way they have since they were fifteen - and while they joke that they wasted so much time, it was a necessary time for them to spend apart to learn how to exist together and how to choose each other even when itâs the harder choice than letting go.
Even I get lonely too
Itâs not hard
Every questionâs got an answer
And mine is you
Where you go then I will follow
All my life
Youâre the name that I will whisper to the night
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For anyone who would like to know the contents of the Ghosts Empire Spoiler Special, Iâve summarized the discussion below.
There are two episodes, both centered on series 2, excluding the Christmas special. The first is Martha, Ben and Larry and the second is with Matt and Jim (and is better in terms of how deep they go into characterization and the writing process). Iâll skip the bits that are just chatter.
Iâm not going to transcribe it all, but Iâll spend a few posts talking about the key points. Iâll do the second one first, because itâs the richest.
Writing process-
Storylining is done half a series at a time as a big group and then who writes each episode depends on availability and not being engaged on other projects. People will often write an episode because the plot was their idea, but it can work out that they write up an episode based on someone elseâs outline.
They knew they wanted to show characters going against type - angry Pat and vulnerable Captain - and that they wanted to explore love between the Ghosts. They wanted to show humanity, add complexity and depth to characters and allow a range of movement into the present and the past. It was harder to write than Yonderland because there isnât a new character with an âadventure of the weekâ.
Episode 1 -
The original idea for Patâs DJ spot was that he would give an intro to Dexyâs Midnight Runners âCome on Eileenâ and hum the first few bars, but it turned out to be ÂŁ1000s to obtain the rights. Jim was so thrilled that it got such a laugh in rehearsal he considered paying himself. They tried a few others (2,4, 6, 8 Motorway) and then Jim improvised âChicken and Chipsâ thinking heâd have a lot more tries, but Tom Kingsley moved them on before he could.
(Btw, they had no problems getting Kylie to agree to use of âI Should be so Luckyâ because she loves the show! Music Club presented the same problem of having to ask for clearance and pay. Apparently thereâs no standardized system so they had to think of something and ask, rather than picking from options with a price list.)
Episode 2 -
They came up with Danteâs plot to give Alison some way of moving through the house and interacting with everyone. They went with the Ghosts natural reactions to partying. Pat was conflicted between fun and the right thing. The plague ghosts and Mick giving everyone the plague was based on a play Matt was in years ago about a village where this happened.
They structured the episode by using the principle âwhatâs the worst thing that could happen next?â a la Curb Your Enthusiasm and thought the answer was the plague ghosts coming upstairs and there had to be a cause of that. The archaeologist was a good person to deal with the question of how is it theyâve just found out what Mick did.
Mary x Robin came from them thinking someone would end up having some intimacy with someone in hundreds of years without much stimulation or any other people, or even things, to touch. They joked about everyone having had ghost sex(!!) with everyone else at one point. (Editorâs note: I canât really see this. Kitty doesnât know what it is, Cap and Fanny are too uncomfortable with it so that leaves Julian, Thomas, Humphrey and Pat, who I suspect is too loyal to his wife).
Episode 4 - The Thomas Thorne Affair
There was an awareness that Thomasâs character could become a âone note jokeâ with no capacity for development. Jim described him as potentially like Pepe Le Pew. Matt asked Charlotte how she felt about the sameness of some of their interactions. They thought about having Alison just lay down the law as it were, but that would change who he was too much. They needed to âplay the same tune with a different dynamicâ in Thomasâs arc. They considered making his character a peeping Tom, but thought that would bore everyone quickly.
Episode 4âs plot structure came about because they wanted to promote the unreliable narrator idea. They knew some ghosts would have witnessed Thomasâs death and that, plus familiarity with characters, let them play with the format. Matt didnât want to have the flashbacks to deaths to be done the same way each time. Patâs in series 1 was obvious because he âwears his deathâ (Jim). Jim did an improv of Patâs death in the writerâs room when they first had the idea of how he died. It worked because although itâs quite horrific, the audience knows heâs ok, in a sense, afterwards, so it can be comedic too.
Matt felt a bit guilty about being front and centre of the story he wrote. The unifying thread was Mike and Alisonâs issues with truth / perspective. His death also establishes that some ghosts are present at others deaths.
They developed Thomas by writing about why he is as he is. Matt thinks that because Thomas died âheartbroken and fixatedâ Maryâs observation that âyou stays how you diesâ is psychologically true, too. They always knew he died in a duel over a woman, but elaborated it to include dying thinking heâd been abandoned. He transferred this state of unrequited obsession onto Alison. Thomas canât cope with Robinâs point, re monogamy, about what would he do if both Isobel and Alison were alive.
They still arenât sure if heâs a good poet - they wrote it so we know itâs bad BUT he can believe itâs good and the audience within the show are a bit confused about whether itâs just confidently delivered rubbish or not. They think heâs capable of good work but gets too caught up in his fixed ideas of what being a good poet is and tries too hard (the implication being that this blocks genuine creativity/ originality). His vulnerability is quite charming (Matt).
The idea of the cousin betrayal was thought up once they started. The first idea was just that Thomas tells a story and others interject to say it wasnât like that and Kitty would tell her version which the audience would know to be true because she has no guile. The contrast was originally just in Thomasâs grand passion cruelly interrupted story versus the actuality of a not very good poet being deluded about a random woman who barely knew who he was. The twist of the cousin was a spark in the writers room that everyone was immediately excited about and that matches Thomasâs sense of the melodramatic.
(As an aside, they always knew there were different groups of people in the house before the Buttons and intended to use that to explore other stories and characters throughout history.)
Matt is a bit embarrassed that they didnât really have space to give Francis a proper motivation for orchestrating his cousinâs death. They put in a bit about him appreciating Button House and added a line from Thomas - âdonât embarrass me, cousinâ - to suggest perhaps Thomas bullied him a bit. They thought about giving Francis lines about having gambling debts to create an urgent need to marry into money, but that made it too obvious that Francis was a bad guy.
To be continued...
#bbc ghosts#ghosts#matt baynton#jim howick#podcast#empire online spoiler special#writing#thomas thorne#pat butcher
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Letter prompt list
»Oh, hello! Are you here for the prompts? Well if so, I'm pleased to tell you that they are open right now! But you should take into consideration that I'm working on 3 as of right now.
Okay now, it's pretty easy to request something!
First of all, would you mind telling me a bit about yourself?«
1. Preferred pronouns.
I think that's pretty obvious, right? The pronouns you want me to use in the letter! If you prefer not to tell them, I will use they/them.
2. Gender.
Also pretty self-explanatory. I just need to know which gender I am writing for! If you prefer not to tell me, it will be gender-neutral.
3. Preferred nicknames/petnames.
If you have any nicknames or petnames you want or that you don't want, list them here. If you don't have any or don't wanna tell but I end up needing names, I will use "baby, darling, love and precious".
4. Other things you want me to include.
If there's any detail about you you want me to include, list them and I will include them. This isn't required, but if there's anything you would like to see in the letter, tell me!
»Alright, noted! You seem like an interesting person to write for and I'm really excited already! But that was just the first step. Next you'll need to choose a group and a member! These are the groups you can choose from as of right now.«
đ€Ą Stray Kids
đș Bang Chan
đ° Lee Know
đ· Changbin
đ Hyunjin
đżïž HAN
đ€ Felix
đ¶ Seungmin
đŠ I.N
đ€ BTS
đš RM
đč Jin
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đž Fluff
This is for rather soft friendship letters or a fresh relationship.
Note; Some of these make more sense in a long distance relationship/friendship. I will mark them with 'đ', but if you want them specifically not to be long distance, please tell me!
Their first love letter to you.
Them confessing to you.
Them inviting to you to a secret midnight date/meeting.
Them writing you from when they're on vacation.
Your internetfriend sending you their first letter.vđ
Them being too shy to talk, so they write a letter.
Passing notes in class.
Catching up to you after a while of barely talking. (cr. @hyunsluvv ty <3) đ
Staying in contact over letters after you moved. (cr. @hyunsluvv ty again <3)
Sending you a get well basket with letter. (and again thank you so much and cr. @hyunsluvv )
Them sharing old memories with you.
Them sharing secrets with you.
Them talking about dreams they had with you. đ
They coming up with date or meeting ideas.
âYour own idea...
đč Romance
This is similar to fluff but not so focused on being cuddly and soft and rather about a long-term relationship.
Note; Some of these make more sense in a long distance relationship/friendship. I will mark them with 'đ', but if you want them specifically not to be long distance, please tell me!
Planing to meet. đ
Love letter but not their first one.
Valentine's Day letter.
Them talking about how much they miss you. đ
Birthday love note.
Their invite to a fancy and well planned out date
Them proposing.
Them writing you open letters.
Talking about your first meeting/kiss/date.
Them apologizing after a harsh argument. đ
Them cheering you up when you're having a rough time. đ
Them wanting to introduce you to their parents. đ
Them wanting to get/adopt a child or pet with you. (Please specify!)
Them wanting to move in with you. đ (cr. @hyunsluvv thank you once again!)
âYour own idea...
⥠Angst (TW; death, breakup, obsessive behaviour, hate, cheating, illness, ghosting)
Those are rather sad and heartbreaking thoughts. Some of them aren't as bad as others, so I tried listing those that are worse in my opinion later.
Note; if you choose 15 you can request whatever you want. I chose not to list some special things to not give of the feeling that I don't take such things serious. However, I don't think we should be silent about such things and I know how writing or reading about it can help people deal with it.
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Them venting to you. đ
Them sharing their biggest fear.
Them explaining the reason they ghosted you. đ (You can either specify a reason yourself or leave it up to me!)
Finding your address again you broke up contact. đ
Them sending a hateful letter during an argument. đ
Them breaking up. đ
Them confessing they cheated.
Them telling you they accidentally killed/lost your pet. (Please specify!)
Them telling you they can't get children. đ
Them hating themselves and decide to leave you for your own best.
Them trying to force you into a relationship.
Them giving up on you. đ
Them telling you about their dangerous/deadly illness.
Them writing a letter to their passed friend/partner. (Please specify!)
âYour own idea...
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can you do a natewyn soulmate au? I saw this once but when one person turns 18, the first thing they write appears on the hand of their soulmate and since Bronwyn is older, Nate sees what she writes? But it's something strange as heck like maybe some class notes or something?
Yes!
âYouâre eighteen!â Maeve Rojas trills as she jumps on her sisterâs bed on the morning of her birthday.
âOnly technically,â the sleep deprived birthday girl responds, pushing her sister off the bed. Maeve lands on the floor and bounces back up like nothing happened.Â
âTechnically?
âI was born at eleven in the morning, remember?â
Maeve, who was born three minutes after midnight and therefore was already a year older when she wakes up on the morning of November sixteenth every year, mulls that over as Bronwyn rolls out of bed and looks through her dresser for her favorite grey pullover.
âFine. Well then, how do you plan on finding your soulmate?â
Bronwyn turns to look at her sister, a green woolen sweater handing from her hand. âWhat?â
âOh come on youâre eighteen. The first thing you write at eleven will show up on your soulmateâs hand. So how do you plan on finding them?â
Bronwyn rolls her eyes. She knows that soulmates exist - Maeve had already found hers a few weeks ago after a very random grocery list showed up on her hand at three in the morning - but Bronwyn doesnât believe that she has one. âHow do you know that Iâm older? Maybe the other person is older.âÂ
This is another soulmate rule. The second one to turn eighteen is the one who has writing appear on their hand. Maeve is a year younger than Luis Santos, which is why his writing showed up on her hand instead of vise versa.
Maeve huffs and looks at her sister like sheâs insane. âGod Bronwyn I thought you were supposed to be the smart one. If your soulmate was older than you then their handwriting would show up. Since it didnât, and youâre eighteen, then youâre the older one.â
âOr,â Bronwyn says, moving away from the dresser with her sweater in hand, âI have no soulmate. Just because you have one doesnât mean the whole world does.â
âSpoilsport!â Maeve calls after Bronwyn as she heads to their shared bathroom.
Five hours later Bronwyn pulls out her astronomy notebook and places it in the space between her and her best friend Addy on their lab bench. Both girls regretted taking the class about five minutes into the first lesson, and now, three weeks later, they spend the whole time writing back and forth to each other in Bronwynâs notebook under the guise of taking shared notes.Â
Happy birthday! Addy writes.
Thanks! Bronwyn writes back.
Any special drink youâre gonna order from the cafĂ©? Addy asks right as the clock - unknown to both girls - strikes eleven. She is, of course, referencing the cafĂ© Bronwyn and Addy work at every Friday, their day off from Until Proven, the law firm owned by Addyâs brother-in-law.Â
Bronwyn thinks for a moment. She never really gets anything from the cafĂ© since she doesnât drink coffee, but some of the iced lattes look interesting. I donât know. Maybe an iced London fog with vanilla sweet cream? Maeve gets it when Mom doesnât want her to drink coffee
Moments after Bronwyn finishes writing her note someone cries out in surprise from the back of the room. Everyone, including old Mr. Avery, who never interrupts his lectures for anything, turns around to stare at the back lab bench where Nate Macauley and Cooper Clay sit. To call the friendship between all star athlete and all around golden boy Cooper and drug dealer Nate unexpected is an understatement, but Addy is close friends with Cooper, and she says they make it work.
âBoys, everything all right back there?â Mr. Avery asks.
âYep!â Cooper says right away. Bronwyn has never spoken to Cooper or Nate (she only stares at Nate from afar while simultaneously assuring Addy that she does not have a crush on him) but even she can tell that everything is not alright.Â
Nate catches Bronwynâs eye as sheâs about to turn back to the board, and much to her surprise, he mouths happy birthday. Bronwyn, unsure how to respond, just turns back around.
Bronwyn is my soulmate is the only thought swirling around Nateâs head as he enters the mostly empty cafĂ©.Â
Most people assume that motorcycle driving leather jacket wearing Nate Macauley doesnât believe in soulmates, but to his eternal surprise, he does. His parents had a terrible relationship before his mother left, and he was cynical about love for a while. But now, as he stares down at the neat, round handwriting on his left hand, he knows that Bronwyn is his soulmate. If the date doesnât prove it (September ninth, he remembered that from when he and Bronwyn went to the same elementary school), then the note itself proved it. The person had written Maeve and Mom in the same sentence. Only one person had a sibling called Maeve at Bayview High School, and it was Bronwyn. Of course, Nateâs soulmate could be living in Ireland, where he was sure the Maeve was common, which is where his third and final reasoning comes in. When he wished Bronwyn a happy birthday during astronomy, she had turned as white as a sheet. He was no Sherlock Holmes, but all the clues pointed to Bronwyn being his soulmate. Which is why he had asked Cooper to ask Addy where Bronwyn worked, and then drove there on his motorcycle right as it was closing so he could talk to Bronwyn in private.Â
But, to his dismay, Bronwyn isnât at the cafĂ© when he enters it. Addy Prentiss is though. She smirks at him when she sees him. âBronwyn isnât here. She went home early. Itâs her birthday. Although you know that, donât you future Mr. Rojas?â
Nate considers playing dumb, but he is too disappointed. âHowâd you know?â
âCooper told me.â
Of course he did. âWell, I guess Iâll talk to her on Monday.â
âYeah. Itâs too bad you donât have the time to drive to eleven Thorndike Street,â Addy agrees, nodding wisely. Nate grins at her. âWell, Iâll see you later,â she says, starting to turn from him.Â
âWait!â
Addy turns to him, startled.Â
âActually I want to order something.â Nate looks down at his hand, where the note is starting to fade.
Addy, who catches the movement, smiles knowingly. Â
Half an hour later, Nate rings the doorbell of a large grey house. If heâs being honest, itâs practically a mansion. Thereâs a pounding of footsteps from the house and then the door flies open to reveal a short, amber eyed girl wearing a jumpsuit in some burnt umber color. A tall guy Nate recognizes from the football team is behind her. âHi!â the girl says pleasantly. Â
âHi. Iâm Nate. I was looking for Bronwyn?â
âYeah?â a new voice calls. The guy steps back and lets Bronwyn step forward. Sheâs wearing an elegant black gown, her hair twisted up. Nate always knew Bronwyn is beautiful, but as she stands in front of him with her grey eyes bright against the dark dress (Nate didnât even know Bronwyn had grey eyes since she always wears glasses), he realizes that even without the soulmate tag, he would have fallen in love with Bronwyn. Maybe he was always in love with her.Â
Bronwyn studies him. âHi.â
âHi. Happy birthday.â
âThanks.â
âI brought you something.â Nate holds up the drink Addy prepared for him. âIced London fog with vanilla sweet cream.â
Bronwyn pauses. âHow did you know m-â Nate interrupts her question by holding up his left hand. The writing is still there, and he swears that itâs clearer than it was earlier. Bronwyn seems rooted in place as she reads the words on the back of his hand. The other girl who Nate can only assume is Maeve, Bronwynâs sister, is not frozen at all. She shrieks, gabs Nateâs hand, reads the words, looks at her sister, and shrieks again.Â
Nate takes a step back in surprise that the other boy notices. He puts his hands on Maeveâs shoulders and pulls her back into his chest. âOkay Maevey, love, donât scare the poor guy.â After hearing the guyâs voice, Nate realizes itâs Luis Santos, Maeve Rojasâs soulmate. Or at least thatâs what Cooper tells him.Â
âThanks. Um, Bronwyn?â
Bronwyn shakes herself and looks at him as if seeing him for the first time. âI donât believe in soulmates,â she says. She must see the look of hurt on Nateâs face (or maybe she hears her sisterâs snort of disgust) because she quickly adds, âbut if Iâm being honest, I kind of always had a crush on you.â
Nate half smiles. âMe too.â
Bronwyn smiles. âWeâre going out for dinner with my parents, but after, weâll talk.â
âOkay,â Nate says, a bright grin overtaking his face. âBut, I need your number.â
Bronwyn reaches forward and squeezes his hand. âIâll write it on the back of my hand, youâll see it. Thatâs a soulmate thing right?â
Nate laughs and nods.Â
âAnd she says she doesnât believe in soulmates,â Maeve mutters. Everyone laughs, and Bronwyn and Nate grin at each other.Â
He wraps an arm around Bronwyn as they all walk down the drive to their respective vehicles. Bronwyn is about to climb into her car when she quickly stands on her toes and kisses Nate for one fleeting moment.
Nate watches her drive away. Yes, Bronwyn Rojas most certainly is his soulmate.Â
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Midnight Motorist - An Essay
I promised this awhile ago, but my thoughts on Midnight Motorist... This mini-game has literally kept me awake for hours on two separate occasions trying to figure it out, lol! So, reading the Updated Freddy Files *suggests, not confirms* that Toy Chica: The High School Years may be how William lured each child. I made notes on this, of course.
Although I listed who was used as a stand in for each, it has no bearing on the actual child killed.
The first, represented by Foxy, is already dead. I assumed this was a stand in for Norman/CC.
Second, represented by Freddy, was lured away with promises to help with homework.
Third, represented by Wolf. Run over their dog. We all know this is referring to Susie/Chica.
Fourth, represented by Toy Bonnie. It was suggested that their house be set on fire and then Chica uses her body to put out the flames. Best I could settle for this one was perhaps pulling a fire alarm at the restaraunt, or something similar.
Fifth, Funtime Foxy. Live hostages. Presumably luring a child away with promises that their friend / missing friend is in the back room.
Sixth, the Puppet. This one is the most interesting and why I'm including it here. Chica says "I'll come over to their house later, maybe break through a window, or set the house on fire and smoke them out [IIRC, I am paraphrasing a little]" The window, in my honest opinion, has to refer to Midnight Motorist. Scott has made a point of adding things in a following game to clarify the game before (starting at least since Sister Location). With the other one referencing Susie and Fruity Maze, I think this theory holds up, although it doesn't really help solve Midnight Motorist I think it's very important to note. (William has as much of an obsession with fire as Henry, huh?)
Lastly, there is Pigpatch. It's implied William would have knocked out a child and told them he rescued them after being "kidnapped". I really like this one.
The number of victims adds up to the number of children: BV, Freddy, Foxy, Bonnie, Chica, Golden Freddy, and Puppet.
Now that that's out of the way, I feel this heavily implies the footprints outside the window in MM are William's. The feet match the Glitchtrap suit, which most of us assume is a prototype for Spring Bonnie. Not only that, but obviously the springlock suits wouldn't work in the rain. Second, if you take some logic to it and see Charlotte as the first victim (no suit, no hiding the body, developing MO) then this killing would be the start of his MO--kind of an "in-between" point where he's evolving. Now, as to who the people in the house are...
In my fic, I kept the general idea that it was William as mustard man (thank you MatPat, this is my fav name for our mysterious fellow). Mostly because despite the evidence listed there is still a ton of evidence supporting it:
Later That Night - this is the name of the game file for MM.
Rain - Due to the in-game rain and this title its heavily implied to be just after Charlotte's death.
Grey Text - Michael is the only one to have the grey text and has similarities to Chair Person. (Note: I think Matpat did point out the color is slightly different, but it's still grey.)
Purple Car - William is the only one seen with a Purple Car back in one of the mini-games (FNAF 2, IIRC). To further support this, the car is also seen as an easter egg in the Dreadbear DLC of Help Wanted (with purple headlights). This is probably the most damning evidence that Mustard Man is William, in my opinion... but then how do the footprints make sense?
In my fic, I explained it away as footprints from the evening before (it was the best I could muster at the time) but this is super weak :V So this kind of brings us to alternative theories. If it is William, the supporting evidence is... good evidence of that. So, the other options are:
A Child Victim's Family - This is my second favorite theory because I think it could possibly work for, say, TOYSNHK [The One You Should Not Have Killed, hereby pronounced Toy-Shnuck] (who I made Cassidy). The problem with this is the child's gender is referred to as male. And there's a huge debate on Cassidy being female in game lore and TOYSNHK/GF being male. It IS a gender neutral name and wouldn't be the first time Scott changed a gender (see: Puppet), BUT it's pretty weak since all the info we have on TOYSNHK is recent. It could be another child that isn't Susie, though, but why show some random child as opposed to an important one? PizzaSim's games all revolve around specifics like Puppet (the first to die overall) and Susie (the first to die of the main five).
Henry is Mustard Man - This is the theory my wife likes. I can sort of see it and I even considered it at one point, but there isn't much evidence to go on. Why is the car purple is the biggest wrench for me. I also have problems with Mustard Man's attitude ("This is MY house", "He'll be sorry") Even if Henry was torn up about Charlotte, I can't see him treating his kids this way. This would also heavily imply the missing window kid to be Sammy, which hasn't been referenced in the game lore at all. He was barely mentioned in the novel trilogy, even. This also makes Gray Text either Aunt Jen or Henry's wife. There's just not enough to support this, in my opinion.
UPDATE 5/28/21 - Please see this post analyzing Fazbear Frightâs story âWhat We Foundâ for a more detailed look at what Iâm about to explain that supports the Henry theory: Also from the books, CC / Norman is now referred to as Evan.
For this to work, we must assume Henry is an alcoholic after Charlotteâs death. I think the âlater that nightâ evidence becomes somewhat irrelevant, because if this was the night of Charlotteâs death it wouldnât really make sense. Part of me wondered if it took place after FNAF 2âČs Springtrap cutscene, but the footprints donât match. It has to be Spring Bonnie or Glitchtrap. Also, Evan and Elizabeth have also died by this point because neither are seen in the mini-game in this theory. You also must assume, based on the story evidence, that Henry married / stayed with Mrs. Afton after William either âdiedâ or they divorced--they had to have been together for an x amount of time as for Mrs. Afton to be living with Henry but also the fact that Mrs. Afton kept Michael and the purple car. Henry using Williamâs car wouldnât be unheard of if Mrs. Afton kept the car and the house, I just donât feel Henry would use it unless he had been using the vehicle awhile. This also explains the Bonnie-esque footprints outside since William would want to come get / visit his kid heâs [most likely] no longer allowed to see. He may even be taking Michael back to the FNAF 4 house (implying that the house we see in MM is Henryâs). Speaking of, if we assume Williamâs intentions are [likely] bad, heâs probably taking Michael back to experiment with the Funtime-Nightmares, if you believe this theory. I think this theory is probably true considering the random grave (which, in this context has no answer except a Twisted animatronic aka a Nightmare) AND because the blueprints in Sister Location SHOW the Nightmares on the display during Funtime Freddyâs repair, implying they are real and not imagined. This is also assumed to be punishment for Michael killing Evan. I think Michael goes WITH William because of his tumultuous relationship with a now mentally ill and drunkard Henry. Henry probably knows that William killed Charlotte and a common theme in some works is a parent seeing their child (or a murderer) in a child aka Michael reminds Henry of William, so he neglects him (which in itself wouldnât be out of place for Henry, since he already wasnât a very attentive parent).
The main issue with this theory is that it sort of assumes that CC was Michael and not Evan. I donât think thatâs the case, though.
While we're on this version, I also want to discuss evidence for the MM driver being drunk. Not only are you driving on the opposite side of traffic, the Files book explicitly states "crashing" into the secret road for the mini-game. Not that Henry couldn't be drunk, especially if he just found Charlotte dead, but... for me personally it seems a stretch. And I already mentioned the car.
William's Father - This is an interesting idea, but the foot prints kind of rule it out. At least there's an explanation for the car, though, right? Still, it doesn't explain the foot prints unless you assume maybe his father was more alike Afton than we thought. But then why bother showing us background on our killer so late with no pay off? I easily dismiss this theory.
A new theory, at least one I haven't seen posed yet:
Vanny - That's right. Vanny. What if she survived/lived? Some leaks even suggest she may be related to the Aftons. Mustard Man's color is similar to Princess Quest's heroine. It explains the footprints, but doesn't explain the car. This would make for a nice foreshadowing of Vanny, IMO, but itâs weak at best.
You know when Matpat discusses "that one puzzle peice that we're missing"? That's this entire mess of a mini-game. Don't get me wrong, the music is bawlin and it's fun to talk about, otherwise I wouldn't write about it, but it is undoubtedly FRUSTRATING.
What are your opinions?
I also wanted to point out some other interesting things from the Files book I haven't seen discussed: There is confirmation of two sets of gold suits. Not only is there the FNAF 2 phone call, but the text specifies between Spring Bonnie/Springtrap and Fredbear/Golden Freddy. IE: FNAF 4 suit is Springtrap but the one from Stage 01 is Spring Bonnie. This could be oversight, but... I don't think it is. I'm sure most of the fandom does ASSUME this anyway, but I felt it was worth noting. (In my fic, they are the same suit, but the second sets are upgraded after the original failures).
The poster behind Scraptrap. Nothing really interesting here, but there is an image of a building with two gargoyle (lion?) statues behind him. Presumably this would be a police station or Fazbear Fright. I just thought it was cool since I never noticed this in the image. My initial thought was this might be a reference to the hospital in Man in 1280, but thatâs a stretch.
Jr's. This is the random building in Midnight Motorist in which Green Man says "gtfo" to our Mustard Man. I should mention I feel that is good evidence to it being William or Henry, depending what the building is. We can 100% say it is NOT a bar (in my fic, that's what I used, even though it doesn't make sense. I don't see a drunk person driving to a second bar so close to their home when they could have gone there initially, BUT then I am a home-drinker when I do drink, so I don't know the night life). The Files refer to it as simply "a restaraunt". Whether this IS a FNAF location (also referred to as restaraunts) or just some random eatery, it's something to contemplate. I am in the camp that it isn't FNAF 2, at least.
I have some other things from Fazbear Frights' Blackbird I wanna discuss, too, but I'll wait until the book is out to help you all avoid spoilers.
Now, this is all just my thoughts on it. Please don't take anything too seriously (as Scott says don't rack your brain on this, it's not worth it). I just think these are some points that haven't been discussed before.
Also, if you wanna read my theory on why Scraptrap is partly the Golden Freddy suit, I have that theory here.
Thanks for coming to my ted talk? <-- is that a dated reference? Probably.
#fnaf theory#fnaf theories#midnight motorist#updated freddy files#the freddy files#fan theory#fan theories#five nights at freddy's
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First Line Tag Game
Thank you so much for the tag @narrativefoiltrope! You are the best! :D
Rules: List the first lines of your last 20 stories (if you have less than 20, just list them all!). See if there are any patterns. Choose your favourite opening line. Then tag some of your favourite authors!
This is just making me realize just how awful my opening lines are haha! (Most of the time, I just have the first line be a lead in into the next one, to which that is my true âopenerâ) (Yours are wonderful Erin!)
So, I was having trouble figuring out what to add to this list, since I was not going to include other peopleâs detectives requests, but the other thing that I have been doing besides that has been letters, and those are a bit different haha! Hopefully these are okay?
1.Words Held Back- Sally x Andrew
The lump in Andrewâs throat had only gotten worse as the hours had went on.
2.On an ordinary night- Natasha and Adrien platonic pairing, background Adam x Natasha and Adrien x Felix
The summer sun had finally started to set on one of the longest days of the year, quickly making the lights of the bar the only source of light in the quiet town of Wayhaven, most people having retired for the night long before.
3.The Seventh Letter- Felix x Thea
Itâs even later then when I last wrote one of these, but my mind is burning again with the need for my thoughts to go somewhere, and strangely, I donât feel as tired as I did earlier.
4.Beautiful Risks- Sally x AndrewÂ
Realizing that she had feelings for her childhood best friend managed to change everything, and nothing all at once. Â
5.The Sixth Letter- Felix x Thea
So much has happened tonight, and I know I should be getting ready to leave, because itâs already past midnight and I have to be at work tomorrow, but I have to write this somewhere
6.The Fifth Letter- Felix x Thea
I find myself forever surprised by you- that even the time that I believe that I have seen everything and it could not possibly get better- you show me something that I have never had before.
7.The Fourth Letter- Felix x Thea
 What exactly is optimism?
8.Valentineâs Day- Felix x Thea
Felix had known about Valentineâs Day for the past seven years.
9. Valentineâs Day- Adam x Natasha
Natasha was not one to leave things for the last minute.
10. Wayhaven Valentine- When I look at the stars- Mason x JuniperÂ
The night sky seemed to stretch on and on forever, dark as ebony for as far as the eye could see, but was scattered with more stars than anyone could ever count. Small bits of light that made all of the darkness beautiful.
11. Guilt- Gray x Raisa
There was always something inspiring about Raisa.
12. The Ball- Felix x Thea
The only light in the room was candlelight, flickering softly almost like fireflies on a lazy summer night.
13. Emerging Feelings- Sally x Andrew
Andrew Wiseman had not changed much since the day that Sally had first met him.
14. The Third Letter- Felix x Thea
I donât think this smile of mine is ever going to fade.
15. The Second Letter- Felix x Thea
Tomorrow hardly feels real.
16. The First Letter- Felix x Thea
They say that absence makes the heart grow fonder.
17. Broken Ice- Adam x Natasha
At first glance, it was as if Natasha was unreadable.
18. Warm Melodies- Felix x Thea
âI could if you wanted me toâ
19. Conflicted- Mason x Mariana
She would rather forget the past day even happened.
20. Connection- Nate x Pearl
Trying to find a connection to Pearl was all that Nate could think of the last few months.
I have no idea who has been tagged yet, but Iâll tag (as always, no pressure!) @gloynporslen, @lilyoffandoms, @lividlyinlove, @pearlsandsteel and whoever else wants to do this! :D
#smalltowndetective#tag game#so many of these are for Felix and Thea oh my goodness haha!#(And also I have horrible titles!)#I'm not sure what my favorites of this list would be to be honest#Warm Melodies is one of my favorite Felix and Thea pieces I've written ever#And I do really love the letters!#And I will try to write more for Nate and Pearl and Mason and Mari in the future haha!
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LGBTQ+ Novels/Memoirs
Here is the book list from my LIS 618 class. The links will bring you to their Goodreads pages.
The 57 Bus by Dashka Slater (2017) *based on a true story* "One teenager in a skirt. One teenager with a lighter. One moment that changes both of their lives forever. If it weren't for the 57 bus, Sasha and Richard never would have met. Both were high school students from Oakland, California, one of the most diverse cities in the country, but they inhabited different worlds. Sasha, a white teen, lived in the middle-class foothills and attended a small private school. Richard, a black teen, lived in the crime-plagued flatlands and attended a large public one. Each day, their paths overlapped for a mere eight minutes. But one afternoon on the bus ride home from school, a single reckless act left Sasha severely burned, and Richard charged with two hate crimes and facing life imprisonment. The case garnered international attention, thrusting both teenagers into the spotlight."
Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Saenz (2012) "Aristotle is an angry teen with a brother in prison. Dante is a know-it-all who has an unusual way of looking at the world. When the two meet at the swimming pool, they seem to have nothing in common. But as the loners start spending time together, they discover that they share a special friendship--the kind that changes lives and lasts a lifetime. And it is through this friendship that Ari and Dante will learn the most important truths about themselves and the kind of people they want to be."
The Art of Being Normal by Lisa Williamson (2016) "Two boys. Two secrets. David Piper has always been an outsider. His parents think heâs gay. The school bully thinks heâs a freak. Only his two best friends know the real truth â David wants to be a girl. On the first day at his new school Leo Denton has one goal â to be invisible. Attracting the attention of the most beautiful girl in year eleven is definitely not part of that plan. When Leo stands up for David in a fight, an unlikely friendship forms. But things are about to get messy. Because at Eden Park School secrets have a funny habit of not staying secret for longâŠ"
Felix Ever After by Kacen Callender (2020) "Felix Love has never been in loveâand, yes, heâs painfully aware of the irony. He desperately wants to know what itâs like and why it seems so easy for everyone but him to find someone. Whatâs worse is that, even though he is proud of his identity, Felix also secretly fears that heâs one marginalization too manyâBlack, queer, and transgenderâto ever get his own happily-ever-after. When an anonymous student begins sending him transphobic messagesâafter publicly posting Felixâs deadname alongside images of him before he transitionedâFelix comes up with a plan for revenge. What he didnât count on: his catfish scenario landing him in a quasiâlove triangle...."
Gender Queer by Maia Kobabe (2019) "In 2014, Maia Kobabe, who uses e/em/eir pronouns, thought that a comic of reading statistics would be the last autobiographical comic e would ever write. At the time, it was the only thing e felt comfortable with strangers knowing about em. Now, Gender Queer is here. Maia's intensely cathartic autobiography charts eir journey of self-identity, which includes the mortification and confusion of adolescent crushes, grappling with how to come out to family and society, bonding with friends over erotic gay fanfiction, and facing the trauma of pap smears. Started as a way to explain to eir family what it means to be nonbinary and asexual, Gender Queer is more than a personal story: it is a useful and touching guide on gender identity--what it means and how to think about it--for advocates, friends, and humans everywhere."
I Wish You All the Best by Mason Deaver (2019) "When Ben De Backer comes out to their parents as nonbinary, they're thrown out of their house and forced to move in with their estranged older sister, Hannah, and her husband, Thomas, whom Ben has never even met. Struggling with an anxiety disorder compounded by their parents' rejection, they come out only to Hannah, Thomas, and their therapist and try to keep a low profile in a new school. But Ben's attempts to survive the last half of senior year unnoticed are thwarted when Nathan Allan, a funny and charismatic student, decides to take Ben under his wing. As Ben and Nathan's friendship grows, their feelings for each other begin to change, and what started as a disastrous turn of events looks like it might just be a chance to start a happier new life."
Little & Lion by Brandy Colbert (2017) "When Suzette comes home to Los Angeles from her boarding school in New England, she isn't sure if she'll ever want to go back. L.A. is where her friends and family are (along with her crush, Emil). And her stepbrother, Lionel, who has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, needs her emotional support. But as she settles into her old life, Suzette finds herself falling for someone new...the same girl her brother is in love with. When Lionel's disorder spirals out of control, Suzette is forced to confront her past mistakes and find a way to help her brother before he hurts himself--or worse."
The Music of What Happens by Bill Konigsberg (2019) "IMax: Chill. Sports. Video games. Gay and not a big deal, not to him, not to his mom, not to his buddies. And a secret: An encounter with an older kid that makes it hard to breathe, one that he doesn't want to think about, ever. Jordan: The opposite of chill. Poetry. His "wives" and the Chandler Mall. Never been kissed and searching for Mr. Right, who probably won't like him anyway. And a secret: A spiraling out of control mother, and the knowledge that he's the only one who can keep the family from falling apart. Throw in a rickety, 1980s-era food truck called Coq Au Vinny. Add in prickly pears, cloud eggs, and a murky idea of what's considered locally sourced and organic. Place it all in Mesa, Arizona, in June, where the temp regularly hits 114. And top it off with a touch of undeniable chemistry between utter opposites."
Odd One Out by Nic Stone (2018) "Courtney "Coop" Cooper Dumped. Again. And normally I wouldn't mind. But right now, my best friend and source of solace, Jupiter Sanchez, is ignoring me to text some girl. Rae Evelyn Chin I assumed "new girl" would be synonymous with "pariah," but Jupiter and Courtney make me feel like I'm right where I belong. I also want to kiss him. And her. Which is . . . perplexing. Jupiter Charity-Sanchez The only thing worse than losing the girl you love to a boy is losing her to your boy. That means losing him, too. I have to make a move. . . . One story. Three sides. No easy answers."
Ramona Blue by Julie Murphy (2017) "'Ramona was only five years old when Hurricane Katrina changed her life forever. Since then, itâs been Ramona and her family against the world. Standing over six feet tall with unmistakable blue hair, Ramona is sure of three things: she likes girls, sheâs fiercely devoted to her family, and she knows sheâs destined for something bigger than the trailer she calls home in Eulogy, Mississippi. But juggling multiple jobs, her flaky mom, and her well-meaning but ineffectual dad forces her to be the adult of the family. Now, with her sister, Hattie, pregnant, responsibility weighs more heavily than ever."
Rethinking Normal by Katie Rain Hill (2014) "Have you ever worried that you'd never be able to live up to your parents' expectations? Have you ever imagined that life would be better if you were just invisible? Have you ever thought you would do anything--anything--to make the teasing stop? Katie Hill had and it nearly tore her apart. Katie never felt comfortable in her own skin. She realized very young that a serious mistake had been made; she was a girl who had been born in the body of a boy. Suffocating under her peers' bullying and the mounting pressure to be "normal," Katie tried to take her life at the age of eight years old. After several other failed attempts, she finally understood that "Katie"--the girl trapped within her--was determined to live."
They Both Die at the End by Adam Silvera (2017) "On September 5, a little after midnight, Death-Cast calls Mateo Torrez and Rufus Emeterio to give them some bad news: Theyâre going to die today. Mateo and Rufus are total strangers, but, for different reasons, theyâre both looking to make a new friend on their End Day. The good news: Thereâs an app for that. Itâs called the Last Friend, and through it, Rufus and Mateo are about to meet up for one last great adventureâto live a lifetime in a single day."
Two Boys Kissing by David Levithan (2013) "New York Times bestselling author David Levithan tells the based-on-true-events story of Harry and Craig, two 17-year-olds who are about to take part in a 32-hour marathon of kissing to set a new Guinness World Recordâall of which is narrated by a Greek Chorus of the generation of gay men lost to AIDS. While the two increasingly dehydrated and sleep-deprived boys are locking lips, they become a focal point in the lives of other teen boys dealing with languishing long-term relationships, coming out, navigating gender identity, and falling deeper into the digital rabbit hole of gay hookup sitesâall while the kissing former couple tries to figure out their own feelings for each other."
We are the Ants by Shaun David Hutchinson (2016) "Henry Denton has spent years being periodically abducted by aliens. Then the aliens give him an ultimatum: The world will end in 144 days, and all Henry has to do to stop it is push a big red button. Only he isnât sure he wants to. After all, life hasnât been great for Henry. His mom is a struggling waitress held together by a thin layer of cigarette smoke. His brother is a jobless dropout who just knocked someone up. His grandmother is slowly losing herself to Alzheimerâs. And Henry is still dealing with the grief of his boyfriendâs suicide last year. Wiping the slate clean sounds like a pretty good choice to him. But Henry is a scientist first, and facing the question thoroughly and logically, he begins to look for pros and cons: in the bully who is his perpetual one-night stand, in the best friend who betrayed him, in the brilliant and mysterious boy who walked into the wrong class. Weighing the pain and the joy that surrounds him, Henry is left with the ultimate choice: push the button and save the planet and everyone on itâŠor let the worldâand his painâbe destroyed forever."
You Should See Me in a Crown by Leah Johnson (2020) "Liz Lighty has always believed she's too black, too poor, too awkward to shine in her small, rich, prom-obsessed midwestern town. But it's okay -- Liz has a plan that will get her out of Campbell, Indiana, forever: attend the uber-elite Pennington College, play in their world-famous orchestra, and become a doctor. But when the financial aid she was counting on unexpectedly falls through, Liz's plans come crashing down . . . until she's reminded of her school's scholarship for prom king and queen. There's nothing Liz wants to do less than endure a gauntlet of social media trolls, catty competitors, and humiliating public events, but despite her devastating fear of the spotlight she's willing to do whatever it takes to get to Pennington. The only thing that makes it halfway bearable is the new girl in school, Mack. She's smart, funny, and just as much of an outsider as Liz. But Mack is also in the running for queen. Will falling for the competition keep Liz from her dreams . . . or make them come true?"
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