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Hi Gela :) itâs been over 6 months since we last spoke and I miss you very much. I hope you see these somehow.... have a good day! â€ïž-đș
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i know itâs been a long while but i accidentally opened my account here while logging on to my other account but hello! how are all of you? i hope everyone is having a really great day/night!
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the inevitability of you and me
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€ âȘïž STARRING: kenma kozume; gn!reader
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€Â âȘïž THEMES: soulmates!au, highschool to college timeskip, unrequited love (read thru the ending:)), kinda angst but not much, fluffy too
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€ âȘïž WORD COUNT: 7.7k words (look who was totally biased and posted the most word count for this blog yes i love kenma so what)
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€ âȘïž SYNOPSIS:Â this is not your regular soulmates au where they met and fell in love. in this story, (y/n) and kenma met, but only one fell in love. would this be a tragic love story or will fate be stronger than them all?
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€ âȘïž INTERMISSION: this is a collab with @yamagucjiâ and several other writers, i reblogged the masterlist so you guys can just check it out, the plots were all very interesting i might read them too when i have time:) also, this serves as my goodbye fic here in this blog. as i have posted before, i am leaving sunseteyes and basically this account, but i am not deactivating. i might come back as a new blog, but i wonât be revealing it unless i knew it was the right time. i have a new writing style, honestly so it might be hard to hunt me anytime soon. for now though i am focusing on writing for ao3 since iâll be posting oc fanfictions in the next few weeks hehe. i am currently addicted to xiao of genshin and pls pray for me that iâll roll him this week!!! aaa xiao pls come home to me baby T_T anyway, hope you all would enjoy! i gave my full effort writing this fic and yes, itâs my longest oneshot yet. goodbye everyone, and happy valentines day!
the day you met kenma was the very first time that you saw the sunset.Â
orange. youâve never really appreciated it much during the first few years of your life. why? well, itâs not like youâve ever seen it before. sunsets, the orange fruit, tangerines, carrots, begonias, chrysanthemums, marigolds, tulips, you didnât get to see any of them. and yet, if you were asked, you only had gotten used to everything since it was merely inevitable, something that you couldnât change even if you wanted to--even if anyone does, anyway.Â
soulmates. another term that you learned at an early age throughout your life.Â
âmom? why canât i see oranges and golds?â
the scene replays in your mind, your voice as a little child still engraved in your memory as if it had only happened yesterday. and then came your motherâs voice.Â
âwhat do you mean, (y/n)?âÂ
âmy classmates could see them, also the color of the sun when it sets during the afternoon to welcome the night, opening the gates made of clouds, letting the moon in and the sun out. at that time, you could remember how everyone kept talking about watching sunsets together and when you joined your friend one afternoon, you were curious and envious at how your friend was able to see the beauty of that moment, and you couldnât sure, the sky was beautiful, but with the mixture of the darkened version in your sight, you always fail to see and appreciate what other people are astonished of.Â
to be honest, you felt lonely, in some way.
that day when you asked your mother about it, your mother told you of the story of her and your father-- their love story, she said. that was when you had gotten curious about your own soulmate. with the way your mother was talking, the way her eyes were sparkling without a presence of a dominant light, or the way she was smiling the whole time, looking dreamy as she recalls in her mind of how everything came to be--it made you think if it would be the same for you. you were excited, of course.Â
meeting kenma, it seemed like it came from a fairytale book youâve read from the library, or watched from a disney movie, to be honest.Â
from what you could recall, it was supposedly a normal day for you--it all starts with a normal day until something unexpected happens and your perspective would change of the day itself. itâs how fast people change their mind, and for you, it was the same.Â
you were coming home from school, just taking your usual walk from the train station as you were enjoying the way the music fills your ears and calms your mind, the fresh air traveling from your nose to your lungs, before then getting distributed to your body and eased muscles, all the stress from your school being pushed to the back of your mind, letting yourself rest and pull away, even just for a little while.Â
and then, he catches your eye.Â
it happened so suddenly, like the lightning striking the two of you the moment your eyes met, and then, everything was just silent. then, it all comes back with a clap of thunder, reality rushing in.Â
you were blinded for a minute or two, because the golden hues from behind him caught your attention, ripping you away from his eyes, only for your mouth to hang open when you saw the sight behind him.Â
the sunset--it was beautiful.Â
there was a sense of peace and calm that overcame your entire body, like a flower emerging, blooming under the sun and the atmosphere, beholding its beauty into this ugly, cruel world.Â
the sight almost made you forget of the situation that you had gotten yourself in. for others, this very momentâs focus would have been directed towards the person who was the reason for such a beautiful sight, even asking them to watch and urging them to tour around the place to find the colors that neither had the luxury to see.Â
your story was different--you were different.Â
kenma knew that very well by then, and yet instead of being disappointed by it, he felt the opposite.Â
he marvels at the sight, not of the sunset itself, but of you. he was enamored of the beauty of the flower that showed itself to him.Â
for him, the story was different. it is to the point that if anyone would ask your âsoulmate story,â you would point out how youâve watched the sunset, and kenma might say he watched it with you--but we all know itâs not the sunset for him.Â
âwhatâs your name?â it was you who spoke first, turning to look at him fully, one thing that you should have done minutes ago. you even thought that he already left you for making him wait, thinking that he might have not noticed the sudden change that you felt and saw. when you did see him still standing there, looking directly at you and meeting your eyes just like he did earlier, it was when you finally opened your lips to talk.Â
you were interested in him, of course, but not the same way that normal people would probably feel and think. you were curious of the thought of him as your soulmate, thatâs all.Â
like earlier, it was different for him.
âkenma,â he replied, swallowing the lump on his throat that almost made him stutter his own name. âkenma kozumeâ
ânice to meet you,â you say, raising your hand hesitatingly, offering a small smile before saying your name, introducing yourself to this stranger that was deemed to be your soulmate by the universe, or by fate, or by anyone out there who was assigned to do the job of figuring out who your soulmate is.Â
you questioned that idea, to be honest. from when you were a child to high school and even the future, you had so many questions, but now that you found your âsoulmate,â you couldnât seem to voice them out in excitement.Â
it just feels⊠very different; unreal.Â
is he certainly your soulmate?
âdo you uhm-want me to-â
âdo you want to go drink coffee? iâm free anytime so the day depends on you.â you interrupted him, knowing full well what he was going to say anyway. he had this look on his face that told you about it, yet you didnât know how you were so sure why so.Â
âyeah, sure,â he responded, fiddling with his fingers absentmindedly. âthat⊠sounds nice.âÂ
you smirked, âyou donât seem pleased at all. why?â you wanted to tease him if he did not like your appearance, but you held it back, not wanting to turn him off just yet. maybe itâs because you were afraid that he may regret being your soulmate or not, but you concluded it that way anyway.Â
âitâs not-iâm not... displeased,â he argues weakly. you couldnât even stop yourself from chuckling in response to the way this timid boy was acting. he looked cute, you do admit that, but it all just seems so fast that your mind was still catching up on the events of today.Â
âwell, it is indeed nice to meet you, kozume-kun. iâll get going now.â you waved at him and turned away, but before you could step forward, he suddenly spoke clearly and much louder than he had since earlier.Â
âkenma, â he says, âyou⊠you can call me kenma instead.âÂ
you could remember yourself smiling back then, liking how he had a sudden change of demeanor. you were amused, to be honest.Â
thatâs why you faced him again, flashing him a smile before, âsee you next time, kenma.âÂ
his name felt different when you said it, and you knew it might have been the fact that you two were bound to a title that everyone else has to their supposedly significant other, not even having time to decide for themselves whether it is real or not.Â
for you, you thought about those too late. at first, you assumed that everything would go well--that merely just a title of being âsoulmatesâ was enough for this kind of relationship--if you would even call it that--to work.Â
when you met him the next time and the next few times, he wasnât bad. he was quite interesting, you could say. despite being an introvert and addicted to games, he only says necessary words or statements, knowing what he should and shouldnât say. he could be straightforward though, but you liked that about him.Â
still, something feels wrong.Â
the more that you two went on dates or met each other, you were feeling as if things were not quite enough. no, itâs not about kenma, not at all. heâs just a sweet boy who had been tied to someone like you--someone who could never give him what he wants and deserves. you liked kenma as a person, but it was just not enough to cross the line for lovers to confirm how much they feel towards their partner or partners.Â
it was not because of him, but it was definitely because of the two of you.Â
like walking on an upwards hill and immediately finding yourself falling, thatâs how you could describe what you felt towards kenma. no, itâs not about you falling in love with kenma, close, but not quite. it was how you hoped into having those feelings--falling in love, only for your hopes to drop down, pulled by gravity as you found yourself not even near that.Â
you were not falling in love with kenma, and yet he was falling in love with you.Â
you resented the soulmate bond, honestly. you hated how unfair it was for kenma, but also to you, who was bound in this âred string of fate,â as if you were arranged to marry this boy without any other choice. you hated it.Â
âwhy? why do you think so?âÂ
you sipped from your drink, eyes averting to the person in front of you, contemplating about the question before placing down the cup on the table, still not ready to answer.Â
âwhat do you mean why?â you questioned, despite already knowing what your friend meant with that question. it was one of your ways of trying to buy time. youâve used this kind of tactic often more times than not, and mostly, itâs because of how indecisive you are, and it can be shown with how much youâve been trying to stall in this ârelationshipâ with kenma.Â
âyou know what i mean,'' natsu says, her eyes wide open, showing interest in the topic, obviously since it was because of soulmates. not everyone finds their soulmate as young as thirteen, and natsu herself knows that.Â
âwhy have i still not fawned over kenma like any other person towards their newly-found soulmate?â you say, adding a bit of a sarcastic tone, tired of the question from being asked about it countless times from your other friends. âwell, i just canât, as simple as that.âÂ
âi mean,â natsu leans to her chair, pouting her lips and crossing her arms, âhow can you not fall in love with your soulmate? maybe heâs not-â
âheâs my soulmate,â you immediately interject, âonly he has eye colors like that, iâm pretty sure heâs the person that fate tied me with til the day i die.âÂ
natsu frowns, âbut heâs four years older than you.âÂ
âand youâre three years younger than me.â you pointed at her, sipping from your cup again. you then looked at your wristwatch, pushing yourself from the chair. âi gotta go. kenma wants to meet me at the front of his school.âÂ
âoh are you going to have dinner at a restaurant again?â she queries, making you shrug your shoulders.Â
âmost likely,â you say, taking off to ride the bus and to where his school was. since you were of lower grade, it was you who usually comes out first, your schedule much shorter and letâs say, much free. whereas he, since heâs a high school student, he was busier. although, that didnât affect you much since itâs not as if you always look forward to seeing him and being with him. for you, heâs like a friend that you only just met and got connected with, not someone whom you could label as crossing the line of that said friendship.Â
âi see that youâre here to see kenma again.â it was kuroo who you heard and saw first, considering from his height and build that he was not that unrecognizable and unnoticeable. itâs really hard not to miss him, honestly.Â
âhello.â you greeted, not giving him a chance to further tease you and his friend, immediately going straight in front of kenma. âletâs go?âÂ
smiling at kuroo when he greeted goodbye, you and kenma stepped away, walking side by side.Â
âi feel bad for the both of them.â kuroo says, watching you and his friend from afar, making sure it was not heard by either of you.âÂ
âshouldnât you feel worse to kenma? itâs obvious heâs the one who likes them.â yaku, one of those who have been a witness to you and kenmaâs relationship questions, the mere thought making him frown.Â
âitâs not their fault,â kuroo mutters, turning to walk away as well, yaku the following suit. âitâs not as if it was their choice to be suddenly entangled with someone whom you could only identify in just a split second.âÂ
the walk home was silent at first, as per usual. it was always you who initiated the conversation since you noticed how he was still not that comfortable in that. in his mind, heâs probably still contemplating what to say and how to say it. to do him a favor, youâd start it anyway.Â
you cared for the older boy, thatâs for sure. he was a kind person and youâre flattered of how heâd basically do anything for you. you two are not in a serious relationship for the simple reason that you two were still young, and you think kenma also knows that you didnât like him back as much as he does.Â
âdo others tease you about finding your soulmate too?â you question him, natsuâs words echoing in your mind, recalling how your other friends do the same, so interested in your own business to mind theirs.Â
âuh-not really, i donât have⊠that many friends.â he answered, âwhy? were you?â
you hummed, shrugging your shoulders. âapparently, not many people get to meet their soulmates around my age. do you think iâd get a guinness record? maybe i should apply for one.â you muse, kenma finding himself getting familiar with the way you used that tone again. for a reason, he doesnât feel pleased with it, but of course, he would not tell it to you, he simply couldnât change your mind and your thoughts towards the âsoulmate thing.â he knows you were not liking this setup, it was fairly obvious. yet, he couldnât just leave you and find another person, or maybe stay single his whole life. he likes you, and he couldnât do anything else to change that. still, it doesnât stop the fear that creeps inside of him, slowly crawling and wandering by his chest, as if it was hugging his heart and lungs, suffocating him.Â
âwould we stay friends even if you leave me?â he wanted to ask. of course, there were other people who were like you, not appealed by their soulmates so they left them. kenma reads all of those stories, finding himself reading them at nights when he overthinks about not being good enough for you.Â
instead, he questioned, âdo you want me to walk away?â
and again, under a sunset, you stared into kenmaâs eyes, scanning them as you wondered what couldâve been his thoughts for him to say those sudden words.Â
âdo you want to?â you repeated, partly because you were unable to think of an answer to his question. for some reason, despite not having any sort of romantic feelings towards him, he still was someone you have a connection with--the only one, your only soulmate.Â
kenma looks away, unable now staring up at the sunset, recalling full well of the memory when you and he first met, only for you two to separate under the same skies, colors, and light, all because he was willing to give up.Â
âi donât,â he answers without any hesitation, âbut i donât want to force myself into you as well. if you donât like me, i wonât bother you again.â
âbut i donât mind it-â
âi do,â kenma countered, cutting you off, âitâs okay for me to think we can be friends, but my friends donât. even without saying anything, they wanted to call me off when they noticed that you didnât like me.âÂ
you purse your lips, unable to speak up and respond. you didnât know what to say, conflicted no matter how you knew yourself that you already chose to feel this way towards him. it would never change.Â
or would it?
âi understand,â you say, turning to look at the sunset, the same sight he was also watching. ust when you did, kenma looked at you, eyes boring and filled with longing, something that he had always done whenever you werenât looking. this momentâs very familiar for him--it was as if he came back to the time when you and he first met, first met eyes, first had a conversation.Â
walking side by side with him as you both head home, there was a certain heaviness in your chest, knowing full well that this might be the very last time this will happen. kenma had always insisted to do so since it was the only way you two could see or even talk to each other. in those afternoons that you were with kenma, you found a person that you could never find in anyone else--and you liked that person, just not romantically. youâd hate to lose those afternoons, but if he was uncomfortable with having his friends worry about him, youâd give up that desire and fulfill his wish. it was the only thing you could give to him aside from your friendship.Â
âthank you,â you say, turning around as you stood on your porch, staring into his eyes--the same one that holds the color that you grew up with for years without.Â
âi suppose this is the last time, yeah?âÂ
âyeahâŠâ kenma nods, seemingly unsure. actually, you wanted to stop him, but who were you to decide for him? you were merely a soulmate without giving back what he wants to give, itâs obviously unfair.Â
âgoodby, kenma.âÂ
âgoodbye, y/n.âÂ
it all ended like that.Â
or did it really?
for fate has its own plan for two people who left so many unsaid things behind. and perhaps, it was destinyâs way of giving a chance to both of you--the connection you once or always had.Â
you never talked about kenma after he left you alone, nor had you talked to each other afterward. there were a couple of times when you see kenma during the first few weeks; standing by the court by the neighborhood, watching his friends play volleyball or basketball, sitting by the cafe with kuroo or yaku, playing a game on his phone or switch. you see him, but he never looked at you.Â
you thought when he said heâd walk away, it was just as a role of being a soulmate, you didnât expect him to act so coldly to you, as if you were a stranger.Â
or maybe it was because you were really a stranger. you only knew him because he was your soulmate, but he needed nothing else from you, you were no one for him.Â
and he was no one for you, supposedly.Â
âexcuse me, do you mind?â your eyes travel up to the person who has been standing in front of you as if he doesnât see you reaching out to the tray of food, and yet you couldnât because he was blocking the way. if it werenât for him, you would be eating right now with your burger, fries, and coke float, not minding the time because you still have plenty left for the next class. what you didnât expect is that the line in mcdonalds will be longer than it usually would, which means you have to quickly eat after getting your food or else youâll be reprimanded by your professor again.Â
âoh sorry about that.â the man merely says before stepping aside for you to take your tray.Â
âthank you,â you say, and just when you were about to walk away with your food, you looked up.Â
âwow.âÂ
your brow scrunched up as instant as the word slipped out of his mouth, a strand of bright orange hair falling in front of his eyes, which held a pair of big brown eyes. his face reminded you of the sun. no, not the sunset like it was with kenma. this boy, he reminded you of the sun that was high up in the sky, shining ever so bright, sometimes too hot, sometimes not. at just the first look, you knew this boy has a personality like that. if not, youâll just have to not admit that you thought about it.Â
âwhat?â
âoh! uhm-nothing!â he responded even though it was not nothing. he obviously wanted to say more, but you remembered you had a class in a few minutes and you were hungry as hell.Â
you walked away, not saying anything else as you strutted to a random empty table and ate as fast as you can--which you were lucky you found one, anyway. you were too late to realize you could have just ordered a take out and ate your food at your seat before the professor could arrive.Â
âexcuse me?â your eyes instantly shot up when a figure looms in front of you, almost as if he was tempted to sit on the seat by your table, but he wasnât anyway, which is good. and heâs also the same guy as earlier--the sunny man.Â
âyes? what do you want?â actually, you didnât mean for your reply to be as harsh as it sounded, but now that youâre in a rush and have a schedule, it makes it hard not to do so, especially if you will get embarrassed again if you really became late.Â
âoh! iâm sorry if iâm a bother-â he stutters almost every word, looking scared as hell, but you canât blame him anyway. âi just-i wanted to know if youâre from the same college as i go to. you look familiar so,â
your gaze travels to the identification card clipped by his shirt, and indeed you were able to recognize it.Â
your attention then diverted to your food, swallowing the rest of your meal and standing up from your own seat.Â
âyeah, i am,â you muttered before walking away, not bothering the way the boyâs eyes brighten up, even more, a wide grin on his face, ready to burst out from joy.Â
âhey kenma, did you see that?âÂ
his sunset eyes look up to the same irides that you unknowingly gazed up to seconds earlier, his blonde hair resting peacefully by the side of his face, ready to fall down any minute he will move.Â
âtheyâre from the same school as us! do you think i have a chance?âÂ
kenma shrugs without a word, not minding his friend one bit.Â
âah! i hope i do!â the other says, sitting in front of kenma. âi donât have a soulmate so-â
oh, sorry. âdonât talk about soulmates, shouyou,â alright, i remember donât worry!âÂ
without a doubt, kenma thinks of you again, but he didnât know that if he looked up anytime earlier, he would have seen you and his friend.Â
if he did that, he would have saved himself from what was about to happen.Â
how unfortunate of him.Â
âhey, i think that guyâs been staring at you, do you know him?â
your brows furrow, your eyes darting to the same way that your friend was pointing, and alas you saw that guy from mcdonalds again--the sunny man. now that youâve seen him properly and with ease, you had a feeling that he looks familiar--that youâve seen him somewhere before, aside from earlier.Â
âyeah, i saw him earlier,â you answer, narrowing your gaze at him as the boy shyly looks away,Â
ah, you think, he does look familiar.Â
your direction slowly changed, strutting towards the boy with a question and purpose in mind. he remained seated on one of the few benches left at school, a book raised to his face, attempting to hide.Â
you brought down the book with ease, revealing him looking more nervous as seconds pass by.Â
âshouyou,â you mutter, crossing your arms and looking down at him. âwhy didnât you say thatâs you?â
âhuh?âÂ
âhowâs natsu, by the way? she didnât tell me you also go to school here.âÂ
shouyou hinata. natsu, his sister, had a lot of resemblance to her brother that youâre rather disappointed in yourself for not recognizing him earlier than you should have. natsu was one of the friends you have had for years that even if you two havenât been seeing each other for months, you still exchange occasional talks, asking the other how they are and so on.Â
âoh! thatâs you! right!âÂ
your brow shot up at his unusual attitude, but you werenât that surprised since heâs natsuâs brother, after all. from what you heard from her, her brotherâs kind of awkward to others, especially when itâs not because of volleyball. youâve seen shouyou quite a few times whenever you visit natsu at her house, but youâve never really hung out with him, so you canât really blame him couldnât recognize you too.Â
âuhm-whatâs your name again?â he nervously laughs, scratching the side of his face. you could sense the awkwardness in the air and you were ready to bolt, you just had to think of a way to say goodbye without actually offending him, much like what you did earlier--and you were feeling regretful by it, by the way.Â
â(y/n),â you say, then raising your arm, âand i have to go, i still have classes.âÂ
you have to praise yourself for the good acting you displayed since shouyou didnât seem to have noticed that you were just trying to get away from the situation.Â
as you walked away, you then felt a gaze behind you. you assumed that it was shouyou, who already said goodbye to you, but heâs just watching you. thus, you figured itâs best not to look back.Â
what you didnât know, it was not only shouyou who was staring at your retreating figure with a look of longing in his eyes. behind him was kenma, who just appeared at the scene, realizing what had just happened when he wasnât there with his friend.Â
and now, the plot thickens.Â
âshouyou,â kenma calls his friendâs attention, who whipped his head to turn to him with a wide grin, his face as bright as the sun above.Â
âkenma! did you-â
âdo you know them?â he interjects, his tone very much different than usual. shouyou was not an idiot enough to neglect and not notice it. that was when the curve on his lips slowly drop, now focused on his friend.Â
âtheyâre natsuâs friend, and also the person who i met earlier. why? do you? are they your enemy?â
enemy? kenma wanted to laugh. if he were to refer the situation to a game, he didnât know whether this was a part two of the challenge he thought he had closed and accomplished earlier or not. so, were you an enemy, or someone he should save?
âi know them,â he answered, not saying anything more.Â
it had been years since he had last seen you--three, two? probably four. itâs not as if he had forgotten you, no, that is an impossible feat that was already proven through time. yet, it doesnât erase the fact that things should have ended that way instead of fate trying to bring you two back together--or was this not it? was he only thinking this way because-
âwhy did you lose your soulmate, shouyou?â he turns to his friend, erasing the thought in his mind as if the moon was trying to illuminate something from the dark depths in his brain.Â
âmy soulmate? well, i havenât really seen them, but one day, i just started seeing the world clearly. i was worried, you know, and thatâs when i knew that something that is unstoppable must have happened for that to happen. i heard a lot of stories from others too, and i know that iâm not the only one. soulmates getting together are really rare these days, but it would have been nice if i married mine.â
throughout the time that kenma spent alone, kenma had found other people who had the same sentiments as shouyou, even yaku has almost the same kind of situation, thatâs why he kept telling kenma to move on and move forward, marry and love someone else.
but at the same time, he never found someone else.
itâs funny how fate works, but the feelings he had or had always had, theyâre genuine--at the least, he knows that much.Â
kenma abruptly stood his ground and he found himself strutting to wherever you had gone, no thoughts being entertained more now that he had finally decided.Â
âkenma? where are you going?â shouyouâs words echoed in his mind, and his question was the same thing that he asked himself, but his feet were still moving, heart now drumming.Â
when he saw your form by the end of the hall he had just entered, the coil on his throat started appearing again like it once did before. it feels as if he was going back to high school, where it all started and ended.Â
he called your name, but it was too soft for you to hear.Â
âwait,â he tries again, but all he could do was to follow your trail and see if he could catch you before you were out of sight.Â
âkenma? where are you going? what-â kuroo stops himself as he finally sees what was going on, tracing the pathway where the boy was blindly looking at. just when kuroo decides to visit his friend to see how he is, no he already knew that his visit was in vain since, at the moment, kenma wouldnât give him attention with you all over his mind. truth be told, he was one of those who were in favor of what kenma did a few years ago, but when he saw the effects that it had on kenma, he wanted him to meet you again; may it be as some sort of closure or to try and give the connection a chance once again. maybe, just maybe, everything will work out the way fate entails it would.Â
âwhereâs kenma? i thought weâd hang out with him today?âÂ
kuroo slips the car door closed as he leaned back with a heavy sigh on the car seat whilst closing his eyes. ânah, i couldnât find him. he may already be eating with that new friend of his.âÂ
yaku chuckles, starting the car again to head off somewhere else, âyou mean that guy from karasuno high? well, they were quite close now, arenât they?â
âyeah,â
if yaku could sense the uncertainty in kurooâs tone, he spoke none of it. it was a good thing though because it would mean that kuroo wouldnât be able to lie to a friend.Â
on the other hand, kenma wasnât able to catch up with you. considering the time it took for him before he chose to chase you instead of pulling away as he did before. he knew each time that your paths crossed days and even weeks after the last time that you two talked, under that certain sunset. he knew how you gazed at him, may not be with the same longing, but nevertheless, he knew you wanted to talk to him.Â
and he wanted that too. instead, he saved himself from the pain, thinking everything would be temporary and this moment would merely be fleeting.Â
yet again, his eyes flew up on the sky, his breath uneven, his body slumped over from exhaustion. every time he sees the sunset, he remembers you, no matter if your eye color were different from the sun or not, it still reminds him of you. this is the sky where he first met you, and also where he last had contact with you. no matter how inevitable his feelings were for you, the sunset--itâs both yours and his.Â
âkenma?âÂ
the moment he turned around and gazed at you, the first thought that comes to mind was how beautiful they were--your eyes, much like the thought he had when he first met you, his fated soulmate. it felt as if the lost colors formed their way back to his eyesight, reminding him of the beauty of the world and how grateful he should be to be blessed by it.Â
when he said your name, it was his heart that skipped a beat. he missed it--he didnât know he would miss it this much.Â
âis that really you?â you questioned, squinting at his form, trying to see if you had made a mistake or not, but you didnât need that much time to do that anyway because you instantly recognized his eyes. for sure, those were kenmaâs indeed--the irides of your soulmate.
his hair grew, the once full-blonde strands looked more like highlights on the edges of his hair. youâve never really seen him with dark hair, but now that you have, youâd say that it fit him well, not that the blonde was any different. his face didnât change much, but he did look more mature, and with more bags under his eyes, is he even sleeping? is college really that hard? well, now youâll know since youâre in your first year, good luck with that.Â
âitâs been a long time, hey.â so far, it was only you who spoke, and itâs beginning to make you feel awkward, honestly. you have not seen him for years, you didnât know if youâd rather ask questions to catch up on his life or if you shouldnât. would he like it more if you pretend that this moment happened and ignore him as he did to you before? of course, you wanted to ask him how he had been and at least hang out with him. after all, you two bonded for quite a while before, when you two were teenagers, much younger than you were right now. now, you two were adults, mature, maybe, but surely something has changed.Â
was there really?
âyeah, it has,â kenma responds, âhow have you been?âÂ
his voice didnât change much either, but you could sense that his facade was more controlled, careful, as if he was keeping a distance from you, closing his walls on you.Â
is it really too late?Â
that question, unbeknownst to both of you, was the question that you and he were thinking about.Â
âiâve been good, though iâm pretty anxious about college,â you answered, your shoulders easing themselves up as you become comfortable talking to him like you had been before. âhow about you? how are your studies?â you wanted to ask him how his life had been, but itâs not like you could do that right away.Â
âgood,â he shrugs, looking away, âweâre packed right now since weâre about to graduate, but all is good.âÂ
âyeah, alright,â you nodded, awkwardly shifting from one side to the other with your feet, not knowing what to do next.Â
now what? normally, youâd know how to talk to someone, especially someone you know.Â
but why is this any different? heâs your soulmate, right? you should know how to talk to him.Â
âdo you want to go out?âÂ
you glance at him, surprised at his sudden offer. he had not made eye contact with you yet again, but you saw a light behind his words, something that flickered that was once there before.Â
âah, now youâre talking.â you grinned, your demeanor suddenly changing. âthis is just about the time when i eat at the stalls downtown, do you want to come down there?âÂ
âhuh?â he looks up, now interested, apparently. âyou eat there too after class?âÂ
âhm? yeah, every day.âÂ
âi eat there too, with my friends.â he quietly replied, sounding rather regretful. why though?Â
âwell, do you want to go there with me today? i mean, we can include your friends-â
âno,â he interjected hastily, âletâs go there together, without anyone else,â he pauses, now sounding hesitant. âif you want to.âÂ
you didnât know how many seconds you stood there, focused on him as you thought of how much kenma had grown and become different--a good difference. before, he would be stuttering and very indecisive, leaving you to decide for the both of you since he always wanted to do what you wanted to. itâs not like you were complaining, but you also were interested in what he also likes or dislikes. you were always too careful when you were suggesting things since he might not like it, even if he insists to follow your suggestion instead. it mostly applies to choosing where to eat, since from what you could remember, it was always you who gets to decide the place where you two will hang out next.Â
youâre proud of him, and you couldnât help but let out a smile before turning around, trying to hide it.Â
it was no use though. kenma saw it, and it only confirmed how much this decision was a good one--he need not be regretful of chasing you and this connection once again.Â
âhey kenma, have you tasted this yet?âÂ
he then shakes his head, adding âdoes it taste good?â
âof course!â your eyes lit up, then dragging him towards the stall. âexcuse me? four sticks of ikayaki please.âÂ
âfour?âÂ
âwhat? if you donât like it, i can finish them all, donât worry.â you raised your thumb up, signaling to him joyfully. kenma could still remember how much of a foodie you were, and he sure is relieved that that part of you had not changed yet, nor will it ever be, it seems, which is a good thing. the way your face brightens, your mood instantly swings as if it was on the other way, your exhaustion becoming almost invisible--kenma adores them all. if food could make you happy, he was glad enough to witness it all.Â
âso, i took you to my favorite stall, whereâs yours?âÂ
kenma bits his lip as he ponders, âi donât have a particular favorite, but i know somewhere we can get good drinks.âÂ
âyouâre right, we do need drinks,â you muse, smirking. âyou really are quite a tactician, kenma-kun.âÂ
âwhy did you suddenly call me thatâŠâÂ
you laughed at his reaction, ânow, now, donât tell me you didnât like it. i call most of my friends like that.âÂ
âi didnât say i didnât like it, but itâs unusual for you to call me that all of a sudden.âÂ
âokay, okay, kenma-senpai it is then.â
âsenpai?â he makes a weirded-out look and you could immediately tell that he wasnât used to having someone call him that. âi see that you havenât changed at all, huh.âÂ
you totally agree with him though. way before, you were used to teasing him as well, mostly harmless since it was not like youâve known him for more than a year or so. technically, you had been friends for at least three months, but he had been one of those whom you could trust with your secrets and in general, you. being open to someone is a hard thing for you, probably just a trait of yours, although when it comes to kenma, you felt safe. must be the soulmate thing or so, but it may also be because he is a pleasant man himself, well thatâs in your opinion. anyone who didnât bother to actually be friends with kenma would tell otherwise since you knew how anti-social he is--not really anti-social but maybe close to that. after all, kenma is the type of person who preferred to surround himself with people with whom he was comfortable, much like you.Â
âwhat are you thinking about?âÂ
you snapped out of your thoughts and realized you had been silent for a while, to the point that kenma actually sounded worried at your sudden silence.Â
âoh no, nothing much,â you reassure him, gesturing with your hands as well, âi was just thinking of how long weâve been apart, and now that we saw each other again, it feels as if i was back as a teen once again.â
your statement, no matter how personal it was, was also what kenma had in mind, he just didnât pay no heed to it since he didnât want to overthink this connection like he did before. if he opens this side of him again, he might just pursue you and try to win your heart. he knew he had always liked you, maybe it just takes time for you to feel the same for him.Â
will it be worth it?Â
he knows it will be, especially if you two would end up together, but what if the opposite happens? would he be strong enough to accept the rejection, twice, even.Â
ânow itâs you whoâs thinking.â you suddenly mused, âwhat are you thinking about, kenma?â
âyou,â kenma replies, instantly, out of impulse, âi kept thinking about you.âÂ
there it was; your heart skipped a beat. you didnât expected him to still have feelings for you, and you didnât know either if you were merely just surprised or-
âdo you think we have a chance?â kenma was looking away, of course. itâs not as if he had asked someone a question like that, but he also felt comfortable saying it to you. it was you, and he trusts you, even if you would break his heart.Â
his question was a real question indeed, you muse. if he hadnât said it, it wouldâve been you who have opened it up first. sure, you never bore the same kind of love that you could feel, radiating from his treatment towards you, but you cared for him enough to know what the answer to that question was.Â
âyeah, i do,â you responded smoothly, the words flowing straight out of your lips without any hesitation that kenma noted it as well. âif i were asked, iâd say youâre someone whom i wouldnât let go of.âÂ
but that statement was not something he anticipated.Â
âi knew iâd run into you someday,â you chuckled, âi saw kuroo hanging around here a few months before i moved college here, and i just knew that youâd be here too, and i did prepare myself. iâm just a little disappointed that you didnât get to notice me just as much as i did, to be honest.âÂ
âi must be rambling, sorry,â you suddenly apologized, âthe point is, i want to be selfish when it comes to you, kenma. though i also know that in order for that to happen, iâd let you be selfish of me too, and guess what?âÂ
you didnât let him answer, but he was speechless either way, for he knew what was about to happen. the moment your eyes met, he knew what you'd say.Â
âi felt okay with that.â you smiled up at him, one that he will surely remember and engrave in his mind as long as he lived.Â
âso if youâre asking if we have a chance, i think we do. after all, i donât think iâll be able to escape fate from making me want to meet you again and again.âÂ
kenma moves, and he felt his own hand touch yours, no matter how cliched that sounded. normally, kenma would pull away, embarrassed at how he suddenly touched another personâs hand unintentionally. but that evening he didnât.Â
âkenma, iâm now ready to commit to this connection. are you?â you think your pitch broke a bit, but this time, it felt as if you were the one who was in his position years back.Â
would he accept you again?Â
or not?
so this is what he felt during those times. you couldnât help but feel bad, but you werenât ready to sacrifice your freedom yet. you were a child, a child forced to commit into a relationship you barely had any grasp on. if you were asked to step into a time machine, you would refuse to make it go back at that time to change your mind, but youâd rather go straight to the past kenma and tell him to not give up on you, because in the future, when youâre ready, it was him who wasnât there for you to say it and break the news on.Â
although what if he gave up on you?Â
kenmaâs grip on your hand became noticeable that you were forced out of your spiral of negative thoughts, revealing a sight of kenma with a curve on his lips, that despite having tired eyes, you could still feel the genuineness that he had put an effort in showing in front of you. there was a slight tint dusting his cheeks, and if you would peek, his ears were red too. back then, you wouldnât have expected youâd be faun over this image, but you were not your past self.Â
he calls your name first, breaking you out of your reverie. then,Â
âand here i thought i would be rejected again. seriously, you should just go straight to the point.âÂ
it took you probably a few seconds before a chuckle that eventually turned into a laugh escaped your lips. kenma thought you were making fun of him, but in truth, you just felt happy, feeling the weight on your shoulders and back lift off of you all of a sudden.Â
you two truly have the same thoughts. after all, what youâd want to say after hearing his statement was the same thing. you thought heâd reject you, and it seems like it was what he was thinking as well.Â
even if this soulmate connection is whatâs making all of this to happen, it didnât matter much to you. even if he wasnât your soulmate, you knew that you two would still meet, and youâd instantly click, like two lovebirds.Â
it was inevitable--this connection, this relationship; you and him.
fin
to everyone who read this, thank you so much. please do remember that i will come back, i may not announce it as soon as possible, but i will anyway. goodbye for now, and see you next time!:D take care everyone! i love you all<3
#kenma kozume#kenma x reader#kenma oneshot#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu x you#kenma x you#kenma kozume oneshot#haikyuu oneshoot
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the inevitability of you and me by @sunseteyes
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please take care everyone<3 i will miss all of you but iâm logging out now! i am about to cry from your messages đđ please stay safe and letâs get through life!
#and to all who play at the asian server in genshin#add me 817941445 !!!!#itâs my addiction these days pls
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Will I get to see you again??
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iâm on the verge of tears too:(( i probably wonât... i am going to try and see, but the likely of me coming back to this account is very very low. if I do come back iâll message you:)
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goodbye
i have been thinking about this for over a month and i have finally decided to leave this blog. please click see more to read more:)
the days were good and fun until it lasted. i shared lots of smiles, and laughs but i think this is the time to finally stop and let go.Â
i donât know if this will be permanent or just for the time being, but i admit i have been very discouraged to post here again. i donât want to make anyone guilty, not at all. i just have been not in a right place and i have tried to go back and try to refresh my good feelings here in this blog, but something just seemed different and heavy, i could not stand it. that is the reason why i only post fics and rarely post or send an ask for my regular checkups. iâm really sorry, but i knew all of this from the start of the year when the tarot cards told me i will finally let go of something that i didnât want to let goâthe first thing i thought about was this blog. i love this blog, i love everyone, but i should love myself more. i donât feel like myself whenever i post here anymore, sure i have been before and i also post fics recently, but thatâs because i love writingâitâs my only sense of self left. i think iâm becoming unfair the more i post fics and never interact, iâm really sorry. i kept wanting interaction but i guess itâs my fault at the same time.Â
to everyone i have met here, thank you. you guys have been very welcoming and kind i am so glad to meet you.Â
i might be deleting my discord app as well so if you want to kick me out on the server,,, i wonât be mad hahah.Â
in short, I am going to turn my back to the things that remind me of this blog. yes, i will still write at the sidelines, but iâm just-it hurts me to be on this blog anymore. iâm⊠sorry if it ended up this way⊠but if i regain my love for this blog, i may go back, but there are really no guarantees.Â
also a special mention to map anon for being the only anon who have been so interactive at me and for making me smile everytime i see themâi love you so much! i hope that weâd get to interact if i ever come back here or in another blog. you are my only pride and joy<3 hahahah thank you so much i hope the best for you :D
to my wifey and one of my closest, @giyuus-wife & @tinytravelerkitten ohgod you guys are the best. iâm not the best at communicating but youâre both still there for me itâs insane. i love you both so much!! and ai, omg your drawings are so beautiful please donât ever waste your talent !!Â
to @shintaroos you are so so kind to contact me even through my break iâm so sorry iâm just not the best to talk to i feel so bad:((( me and kou loves you mari !!!Â
to @eitabun i was so looking forward to our friendship but,, it hurts me to be here anymore. i also want to co-op with you in genshin and tbh i started playing it again when you mentioned it across my dash. iâve been addicted since hehehe. thank you so much for everything, i was really flattered when you tagged me as kenmaâs player two i was like âomgâ and i was just-i wanted to be much closer to you. iâm really sorry that we didnât get to talk more. if you ever want to connect, just tell it to me:)Â
and lastly to @katsukichu babe i cannot thank you enough you are so so so kind and sweet and lovely to send me motivations and stuff thank you very much. my day turns a little bit brighter i see your notif (which is the only notif i have for discord btw nxnsjsj sad life). i hope you will be happy and have someone who treats you just as you treated me. youâre such a huge blessing, thank you.Â
and thatâs it! this is gela from sunseteyes production, signing out! see you when i see you<3Â
(also iâll have a very last kenma fic coming up! Itâs a collab and itâs the oneshot iâve been working on as of the moment. Iâm not yet halfway there and i think it will be my longest fic yet? Hopefully, it would be recognized more but i wonât be here anyway so it doesnât matter. Please stay safe everyone, goodbye!)
#very last intermission#please rb when you can#map anon please see this#to all who have been my friends and character anons thank you#and goodbye
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âȘâ«.ılılıll your voice ËË- finale
TENTH SONG â MY LIFE FINALE
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TRIVIA
daichi sawamura became the basketball team captain hahaha just kidding
i personally wanted to add more but i knew i should end this smau already
y/n asked kenma to be their bf lmao if itâs not yet obv
i was supposed to caption the ig post as âi said yesâ but i forgot about it,,, either way itâs cute this way too
y/n and semi are good friends nowđ„ș
might make a oneshot for y/n and semi tho are ya guys interested
INTERMISSIONS
finally!!!! it is FINISHED! i am so sorry i got late in updates lately and itâe because of GENSHIN please blame that game and ganyu for still not coming home to me jxjsjsj. god i want ganyuđ„ș to anyone playing at the asia server, please message me your uid and letâs co-op thanks
#kenma x reader#kenma smau#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu smau#haikyuu socmed au#kenma kozume#kenma x you#rb#icymi!
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hello i have an announcement later:) to everyone who still knows iâm alive, thank you
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âȘâ«.ılılıll your voice ËË- finale
TENTH SONG â MY LIFE FINALE
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TRIVIA
daichi sawamura became the basketball team captain hahaha just kidding
i personally wanted to add more but i knew i should end this smau already
y/n asked kenma to be their bf lmao if itâs not yet obv
i was supposed to caption the ig post as âi said yesâ but i forgot about it,,, either way itâs cute this way too
y/n and semi are good friends nowđ„ș
might make a oneshot for y/n and semi tho are ya guys interested
INTERMISSIONS
finally!!!! it is FINISHED! i am so sorry i got late in updates lately and itâe because of GENSHIN please blame that game and ganyu for still not coming home to me jxjsjsj. god i want ganyuđ„ș to anyone playing at the asia server, please message me your uid and letâs co-op thanks
#kenma x reader#kenma smau#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu smau#haikyuu socmed au#kenma kozume#kenma x you#your voiceđ€
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finale for your voice tonightđđ itâs not really grand but well i finally get to finish itđđ
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Then be prepared rose... đđ
đ€§đ€§đ€§ all right i shall prepare my casket now thenđ€§đ€§đ€§
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I've been good! A lot has happened on my blog but it's too much to explain in one ask đ€§đ€§đđ I finished all my homework and I feel so refreshed đ„șđ
omg iâm happy for you! i saw you have a milestone event so did you just passed a milestone?đ„°đ„° congrats bby! also for the homeworks! now you can rest~
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I hope you don't forget our deal last year đ
i kinda forgot.,,,, omg should i be scaredđ„¶đ„¶
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Hello, wifeyy đ„șđ Hiw have you been? Have drunk water and eaten something đ€§đ
WIFEYđ„°đ„°đ„° iâve been fine~ doing lots of editing because iâm planning on posting on youtube đŹđŹđŹ tho i havenât eaten lunch iâm still at classđ€§ hbu babe?? how are you???
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I'm bz lately... đ
And valentine 12 days to go... đ
omg why do u have a smirk right theređ
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and yeah! i didnât wanna do an event but i just mightđđđđđ
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