#inafamaolek

[lisablasstudio]

💡Dawn encounters, weather systems of fall and late summer, felt. Bonjour.💡 Chaser(s), v. 7, v. 8, v. 9, Ink, watercolor, gouache, pigment on paper, 40x30 centimeters, 2022….. • • • • • #dawnstudio #92x58 #paintingonpaper #dürer #oceania #fightefuaighte #inafamaolek #archipelago #routes #roots #linework #aujourdhui (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CkdtSiprvno/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[run671]

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[wilcastro]

more and more familia coming out. #cantstop #wontstop #inafamaolek (at Umatac, Guam) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8Qe9JUF63i/?igshid=1lq7bgks4kahl

[hattalom]

Let she honest. How do I really feel about R? A mixed of anger and mahalang, rage and understanding. I thought I loved him, but I loved the idea of him, not the person. Over the years, he has constantly failed me, used and abused my care and compassion, but wrap it up in this self-pity. I am sorry, you don’t get have your feelings be more important than the person you hurt. Get out of here with that immature shit. You are an immature shit. And I say that lovingly. For myself. Because I know that in my life, I have held back my anger and my resentment towards you for the good of the relationship. Or was it? It wasn’t, and I am now paying for it.

To be honest, I don’t find care or compassion or happiness when I think of him. Or when I am around him. Or even being in creative proximity to him. He is an energy vampire who used me and then threw me away.

So true. I was never really jealous until I met him. You don’t get jealous when you are secure in yourself and your relationship. Opening up our relationship triggered my insecurity, and r did not care. He only cared about getting what he wanted, which was not me. And that is something I am finding hard to navigate. Like, there were moments when I felt connected, but then there were moments when I felt completely invisible, like I was a burden, a nuisance to his hoe goals. Fuck that. I deserve better. I deserve someone who doesn’t make me feel like I am too much, that my feelings and my reactions are important. That dumb bitch would always “your feelings are valid”, yet do nothing to care for the impact that his actions did. He does this thing where he knows he did wrong, but then focuses back on himself, like he was the one who got hurt. That calling him out was worse that actually taking accountability to the hurt he did. Fuck him. Again I know that is his trauma, but after so many years of “understanding him”, I am done. I need to understand myself. Right now, he is not the one for me. He is still the same user and abuser who pretends that he is gods gift to the world. Go off. If that is what you need to feel something, then do it. But I am done with that game. He doesn’t make me happy. And I don’t know how he can do that now. He was perfidious, disloyal and unfaithful, untrustworthy. And I don’t want that energy around me.

I can try to forgive, which has been hard. Because I think about how naive I was to ignore all these red flags. Again, I know I may not have been the best, but I didn’t deserve any of that. I deserved respect and care, especially from someone who considered me a friend. He was not a friend. And I was not a friend to myself.

So now, I tell myself, don’t put yourself in situations where you arent your full self. If that means lessening my contact with him, then so be it. I accept. Because I can be everything he is too. It is already in me. Just like W. Everything I liked about him, I already have.

Creativity

Passion

Joy

Artistry

Sexiness

Sensuality

And I have more than that

Compassion

Empathy

Gentleness

Foresight

Inafamaolek

Seriously, maybe my inafamaolek was done for self-preservation. So now I deserve that too.

So to be honest with myself, I don’t feel safe around r. And I don’t want to give him any more of my energy . And I don’t want to collaborate with him anymore. That energy was never reciprocal, given out of love and care. I know I shouldn’t assume, but that is how I felt, what my intuition has told me. Get the fuck away from him because he doesn’t want to see you grow.

But I want to see me grow. Grow into the person that I used to be, joyful, curious, caring and open. I am still those things. And I want to be those things away from him and everything that reminds me of him. It is time to forget him. And remember myself. 😀😀

[peacelovenunity]

We live in an interconnected system. What we do to one, we do to all.

[lisablasstudio]

Opening tonight: February 1, 2023 | "In the Studio : New York Academy of Art Faculty Exhibition", 6-8 pm

I am pleased to show recent work along with my colleagues at The New York Academy of Art! Please join us for the opening tonight, all welcome.

Opening Reception: February 1, 2023 | 6-8pm

On view: February 1 – March 5, 2023 Open Daily, 10am–6pm Closed February 20, 2023

New York Academy of Art 111 Franklin Street New York, NY 10013 212-966-0300

 For inquiries please contact exhibitions@nyaa.edu

[lisablasstudio]

💡Routes, en route, on a freezing winter day, bonjour. 💡 • • • • • #dawnstudio #92x58 #paintingonpaper #dürer #oceania #fightefuaighte #inafamaolek #archipelago #routes #roots #linework #windchill (at Hudson River) https://www.instagram.com/p/CmZJ_Grr60m/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[lisablasstudio]

💡✨Let all the coziness flow, amid December’s chilly blue skies__a wreath in situ, plus ornaments I made with layered fragments of painted paper, from earlier collage work. Here’s to the afterlife of materials.💡✨ • • • • #dawnstudio #92x58 #paintingonpaper #dürer #oceania #fightefuaighte #inafamaolek #archipelago #routes #roots #recycle #holidayseason #wreath (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CmHRzbqLo-x/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[lisablasstudio]

💡Sketchbook encounters pose questions, thinking through form, bon week-end. 💡 “…..the gaze no longer explores space, space entered into thought. No, it invaded and encircled it at the same time.” • • • • • #dawnstudio #92x58 #paintingonpaper #dürer #oceania #edouardglissant #fightefuaighte #inafamaolek #archipelago #routes #roots #linework #sketchbook (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/ClwL62fOlkA/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[lisablasstudio]

💡Dawn encounters and Tar’s fur weaving its way through my peripheral vision. Bonjour.💡 Chaser(s), v. 4 v. 5, v. 6, Ink, watercolor, gouache, pigment on paper, 40x30 centimeters, 2022….. • • • • • #dawnstudio #92x58 #paintingonpaper #dürer #oceania #fightefuaighte #inafamaolek #archipelago #routes #roots #lematin #aujourdhui (at Hudson River) https://www.instagram.com/p/CkLZ0hALf-p/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[lisablasstudio]

💡Gazing at water on water, rainy Monday morning…💡 Chaser(s), v. 1, v. 2, v. 3, Ink, watercolor, gouache, pigment on paper, 40x30 centimeters, 2022….. • • • • • #dawnstudio #92x58 #paintingonpaper #dürer #oceania #fightefuaighte #inafamaolek #archipelago #routes #roots #lematin #aujourdhui (at Hudson River) https://www.instagram.com/p/CkGJDG7rue1/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[lisablasstudio]

💡Lisa Blas | Wayfinding, v. 6, Watercolor, acrylic ink, dye-based ink and acrylic on canvas, 30 x 30 centimeters, 2022 | Private collection, Ireland💡 💡 From a series of new paintings, begun during my artist residency @uillinnwestcorkarts last summer. Constellations, routes, and roots reaching across 12,166 kilometers. 💡 • • • • #lisablas_studio #dawnstudio #92x58 #artcollection #painting #oceania #fightefuaighte #inafamaolek #guam #ireland #artistinresidence #skibbereen #westcorkartscentre #summer2022 (at Skibbereen, Ireland) https://www.instagram.com/p/CiP0wxdLt8L/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[lisablasstudio]

💡💡Interlocking routes, roots. 💡💡 • • • • #artistinresidence #ireland #lisablas_studio #92x58 #paintingdetail #oceania #chamoru #fightefuaighte #inafamaolek #craigsantosperez #teulevā #fragmentsinconstellation @_regroup (at Skibbereen, Ireland) https://www.instagram.com/p/CgOgvMYM_eP/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[wilcastro]

<Humåtak Mobile Office> smile! It’s Friday 🤩 This is really the best part of our office... reaching out and meeting our own people in their village and above all else, sharing smiles, waves and good vibes. #mobileoffice #senatorwilcastro #4reals #luvall #inafamaolek #WDC20 (at Umatac, Guam) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8QYW6JlxEC/?igshid=1ispyqt896w9f