#in this case it’s £40 and my sanity

[e-von-dahl]

Ok the curiosity is getting to me, I need to know what the fuck is going on with the onlyfans account, my soul craves context and my money stash is way too easily accessible for someone with my terrible impulse control

[thatbanjobusiness]

The trend of modern, flimsy record storage needs to die in a hole. It only proves that vinyl is a fad, for display and clout rather than practicality.

Extra points for the stackable, collapsible, cloth boxes that are "for vinyl." Because that's not record damage waiting to happen.

And like. It's one thing if there are good alternatives easily available on the market. But 95% of what I see is an accident waiting to happen in some form or fashion. The remaining 5% is expensive as twice butt and stores a paltry sum.

I'm going to become a box maker out of spite. I am. Going to be. A box maker. The best box maker in the damn world. Out of S P I T E.

[its-moopoint]

We saw who were the people at the funeral. No question about T holding his son than C holding him with T next to her. We saw C and her younger brother sitting together in the same row with their mom and sisters. No son in law with them. All of them were in the second row. But, OL shippers have crossed the line of decency and sanity a long time ago to still be shocked by the lies they tell their followers. They are psychotic.

Anonymous asked:

I have some questions about the funeral pics. I haven't seen the footage myself but Ive heard that Tony was there holding the baby. Was he there with the baby? If so, wouldn't the baby want to reach for his real parents ?

odessa-2

Please refer to my previous recent post of Kevin v Sam pics. Tony was not holding a baby. In fact I do not think he was present at all. He was subsequently photoshopped into that train wreck of a photoshop 'funeral pap shot'. Kevin was the black masked bandit holding a baby. They cleverly played some musical chairs in the church in an attempt to bamboozle. It only worked on some.

They had to quickly come up with a game plan for Mr Balfe's sudden and unexpected demise and the panicked foray resulted in the ultimate revelation of the truth. We got the proof we were all finally looking for under very unfortunate and tragic circumstances.

As for the baby and to who he belonged to. I feel that it's irrelevant at this point. Sam was clearly in attendance not only merely attending his 'costar's' father's funeral, but sitting right next to her, embracing her and and comforting her mother. Whether the baby was theirs and being held by uncle Kev, or whether it was a nephew of Cait's doesn't matter.

If you watched the stream carefully, it was evident that SC did turn around to face the baby and look at him. It was also clear that Sam was very familiar with another little boy who went up to the alter. So familiar in fact that when he turned his head sideways to show us his big ol forehead (purposely imo), we saw that he was authoritatively directing the young lad and instructing him what to do. That raised my antennae. Sam even stood up. We see you Captain .

It was such an explosion of truth and such a threat to their almost 10 year whopper of a lie some serious damage control was pencilled in. Hence why they dragged out McGoul for the 40 day memorial service and vanished Sammy boy.

balfeheughanmm

i really don't like having t’s face on my blog. if you scroll down you will see that i am telling the truth. lately this has been happening because of the issues we have been talking about here, but never before. my blog is about sc.

sometimes, to talk about a truth (or a lie), we need photos to better explain the narrative. THIS IS THE POST! this explains so much, guys. as i said before, Sam Holand Heughan was there so comfortably. so we see that no lie lasts forever. we all already know the truth. some still don't want to see.

and about the paternity of these children? for god’s sake! i can't believe a narrative in which she is actually married to t and has a real child with him and cheats on him with s. that's crazy. INSANE.

the only truth i believe is: s is the father of one or more children. they are a couple. a family. and the truth about this family came out at a funeral. so sad. actually everything about this is so sad and has become increasingly sad for me. i think that's why people leave the fandom. i start to understand them. and YES, they know that we know. when will they stop?

mariaae

Reblog for the truth!

jclovely

Death has a sting, in this case TRUTH was revealed. Hope SC will stop lying. It causes destruction and more destruction. We do not wish it to them, that is why we warn them. STOP TRUTH SETS YOU FREE.

citrinesun

There was much discussion at the time about the blond child C is holding. I’m not saying that’s not her child, but this pic of the child on the right does look suspiciously similar. The baby on the right is William, Prince of Wales at at the same age, more or less.

auburncurlslass

Wigs that can be purchased off the internet. Sam was wearing a wig to hide the fact that he had recently gotten hair implants. The shortness of his hair is evidence that plugs were removed and inserted into the frontal crown of his skull. To have this procedure done, the person's hair must be nearly buzzed to the scalp. Sam wore the wig to disguise his recent procedure. The number receipt is the shape of Sam's large forehead. There's no doubt it is Sam Heughan next to Caitriona. As for those Las Vegas photos...it's called AI and/or latergrams. Remember, he's an actor...all the tools of the trade are at his disposal.

Anonymous

Was t at the funeral ?

odessa-2

Not from what I could see.

2truthsandalie5

Agree!

I read blah blah blah rubbish blah blah blah. And it all sumps up in one thought: if they are able to manipulate and lie about stuff we are all are seeing happen live imagine the fanfic they've written over the years and share as canon that never took place.

[mysticcomfort]

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[kidflashimpulse]

honestly in terms of the treadmill i assumed that it was wrecked beyond repair (it's not like they can get MORE 31st century tech to replace certain parts) and that when Baby showed up at the north pole they just brought it with them so they could dispose of it themselves later because Bart was like "there is NO WAY we're leaving this here". like let's be real. Bart's original time machine was never even brought up again after Bloodlines. for my sanity i'm assuming this is a similar case lol

i guess i associate seeing wreckage as something visibly being beyond repair (like the legions sphere) so when the cosmic treadmill was in essence spat out by bioship (lol) even though it glitched i didn’t think it looked bad as it was in one piece. But I think ur point is reasonable and good to consider to pace my expectations (and like u mentioned sanity 🥲)

the biggest reason i was thinking it’s something to consider for hypothetical (oh this hurts 😂) future plots is because of what it is, i.e the cosmic treadmill, something that’s quite a major thing to speedster lore, like what the fortress of solitude or phantom zone is to superman lore or what the utility belt as equipment etc is it to batman, lasso of truth, bracelets to wonder woman etc

basically something so iconic to the related lore that it’s crazy (painful 💀) for me to perceive it as a one time thing.

also, the thing that separates it from something like the time sphere or his original time machine being irreparable is that it’s something bart built in the present, not his original timeline of 40 years in the future of an alien post apocalyptic earth (assuming that the time/alien element gave him more sophisticated components to work with despite it being the apocalypse) nor something that is built from a thousand years in the future. he built it in the now (with the assumed help of current day tech (total side note, i assumed that the stolen zeta core he stole from the Watchtower inventory was for building the treadmill/a spare component)), knows exactly what’s going on with it and can work with tech of the present for it. His OG time machine was explicitly built as a one time thing, because as sophisticated as its base technology might be, it was also a little scrappy in design, assuming that he really worked with what was available to his immediate surrounding (like scraps of metal), so it was only natural it would essentially be “fried” by something like time travel.

for the treadmill it seemed to be built as something pretty durable for its intended long term use like space travel.

i’d just assume that the components of the 31st century especially from something like the time sphere that he managed to salvage from are a little more durable than his OG machine (the parts that he managed to save from being intentionally damaged by Lor). Combining that with it being built in the present, it really didn’t cross my mind that it was something beyond repair or even remotely properly damaged in the first place.

when he was the first to leave the Arctic i felt like it was such an emergency (fighting the zods) that he didn’t really think twice about anything. then the rest of the heroes were split between Dick and Mganns team (with LOSH) also hurrying, and those who were tending to the wounded. I didn’t really think about this part any further tbh but I’d assume that the medical team portion would collect it or something. But just the image of bioship spitting it out it’s like she wouldn’t want it anywhere near her 😭 lmfao. So team LOSH and co maybe managed to “quickly” take it with them (also considering LOSH knowing what it is) but the urgency of the situation just had me thinking initially it was abandoned at the pole at the time 😭

also something that is only the result of me entirely overthinking things is the way the treadmill was designed in YJ. The fact that it’s compatible with bioship/baby makes me think that if YJ wants to do serious time traveling throughout the season in the future, rather than in S2/4 where it’s more of a plot device than a used tool (atleast for the heroes, Lor was the one who used it the most in S4), i can imagine the treadmill being somehow used for it. Like originally it was built for space travel, but this is time traveler bart we r talking about here lol i don’t think it would be impossible for it to be redesigned for its original comic purpose. Also more importantly, it allows big teams of people to travel with it, rather than just bart running on it.

So yeah, this is all the mess of thoughts that makes it appeal to me as an ideal checkhovs gun for future seasons, but honestly with all things YJ who genuinely knows at this point 😭

Anyway, thanks for sharing i love reading about ppls thoughts on these things <3

[raisengen]

Today I’d like to explain/advertise how to use Nine-Colored Deer’s E0 workshop skill. There are more in-depth discussions on places like Gamepress, so I’m going to try to keep to the key points here.

Assign 9CD to the workshop, and a counter “0/40” will appear. Every time she fails to produce byproduct on a recipe that costs 4 Morale or less, the counter increases by the Morale cost. If the counter would hit 40/40, it resets to 0 and gives you a guaranteed byproduct instead. (The counter value is saved if you remove 9CD from the workshop.)

This means that once the counter hits 36/40, you can set 9CD to produce a 4 Morale purple recipe and you’re guaranteed a blue-tier material. (Sorry, it doesn’t work on gold recipes.) Note that since she has a base 10% chance to produce byproducts, there’s a chance you’ll get a byproduct and the counter will remain at 36/40, in which case you can try again until the counter resets.

Low-tier byproducts are worth much less than high-tier ones, so the trade of fewer low-tier byproducts for more high-tier ones is a good deal. Her output value is about 14% / 8% higher than the next-best combination of workshop skills (including Blemishine) on the same recipes if you fodder her with green / blue recipes respectively, or 95% / 56% if you’re just using the common +80% skills. It’s free materials!

However, if you want to be really cheesy, you can use carbon sticks as fodder. Their recipes have no LMD cost and you get them passively from logins, so it’s basically free materials. Right now I have about 50 byproduct’s worth of carbon sitting in my storage.

Of course, there is a downside to this that you may have noticed. It takes upwards of 40 Morale for 9CD to guarantee a single byproduct, about 2 full Morale bars, while a standard workshop operator does 8 of those recipes in a single bar. 9CD isn’t useful if you urgently need a large number of purple materials, so you’re still going to want to use standard skills in those times. 9CD is someone you rotate between dormitories and the workshop in the background, slowly and steadily upcycling your low-value materials.

(9CD’s second skill unlocks at E2, and applies the same mechanic to 8 Morale gold-tier recipes. However, since it only applies to gold recipes, you can’t game it by using low-tier recipes to build up points. As such it’s statistically equivalent to a +90% workshop skill, and using Morale on the E2 skill means you’re not using her E0 skill. Since the difference between +90% and +80% is only worth about 1 sanity point per craft, so it’s not really worth it.)

[scentofdriedflowers]

My my what a mess of a crossover 😬 hopefully they ger rid of this showrunner next year. Imma just focus on the best scene that is the rolivia scene, because having these 2 back together, acting together elevates the show to a higher place again. Kelli and Mariska are so good together, I could watch 40 minutes of just them.

I sooo missed them having their talk in the captain office. The way Liv got her in the first 30 seconds 💀 knew it sdfghjklkjhfdsfgh -I can see it from a mile away Amanda lol- there's no way Carisi doesn't know something is up tho, c'mon if there's one person that knows her like Liv does is Sonny AND he lives with her, no matter how good she is at compartmentalize he definitely noticed something he's just probably giving her space to come to him and he's gonna be okay with it... if they -you assholes- wouldn't have deleted the rollisi scene MAYBE we would have see them talk about it a bit!

Liv was so happy to see Amanda back at the precinct, she had heart eyes lol, and happy to see her back that excited to solve mysteries, yeah she belongs there at svu nothing else makes sense. I was almost waiting on her screaming out in the bullpen 'Oi Brunoo!! Clean up the desk now! Get yourself another one, my georgia peach is coming back!' 😂

also lol their 'banter':

'anyone outwardly destructive...it starts with them'

'speaking from experience?!' 💀😬

Okay ouch fair I'll allow it lol 😂

'are you sorry you left' read it more like 'are you (dw) sorry you made her leave?'

'I love my students' 'yeah but you love all of us more' yeah she does❤ AND THAT LAUGH KELLI IS BACK I missed her laugh so much! 😭

I swear that if after all this talk she ain't coming back in any capacity next season I'll riot (who am I kidding, get her her first grade rank as detective you cowards, they promoted left and right last night -no offense to Jet I love her to pieces and she made look mcgrath like the moron he is lol I hope he leaves too I can't stand him- and Amanda didn't get anything for almost dying and all her years of expertise and solved cases since season 21?! Please, go figures) Also did they just try to compare Liv's reaction to Rollins and Stabler leaving to her future reaction to Muncy leaving?! Lol what?💀 sdfghjklkjhfdsfgh gurl please lol who write these things DG?!

Also her in Ohio with all the people around her with vests on and she gallivanting around with nothing on but her big belly guuurl 😱, if Liv would have been there she would have wrapped her in bubble wrap thrice and gave her 3 vests to put on lol are yOu KIdDiNg?! At least Fin was there. Has somebody checked on Carisi? I bet his heart rate went so high lol and his hair so greyer lol! little rollisi baby got their first adventure on tho 👍😬😄

Next season I need her to be back for my own sanity and probably Liv's lol

[goosetrainer]

Mari's Last Minute Tera Raid Guide # 11 - Empoleon

Ooof much trying, such fail. Found the solution tho, fear not :D I have a Florges set! Man I love Florges. Reminder that I can lend it via Home trading if needed

Apparently Skill Swap works in raids now. It wasn't always the case, right? I'm not going senile, right???

Florges lv.100

Tera type: Steel

Ability: any~

Item: Shell Bell

Nature: Modest (/Mild)

IVs: all max except attack and defense

EVs: 252 sp.atk., 252 sp. def., 4 HP

Moveset:

-Tera Blast (TM)

-Calm Mind (TM)

-Skill Swap (TM)

-Moonblast (level up) / Psychic (TM) / Energy Ball (TM)

Usage:

First things first: do yourself a favor and flee immediately if you see you have an NPC ally with Intimidate (Arcanine, Staraptor, Tauros).

Empoleon has an ability that raises his special attack twice every time his stats get lowered by the opponent, so you're very easily starting the battle with an enemy with +4 sp. atk. if you try it with Intimidate. Don't do it!

The same ability is the whole reason I'm bringing Skill Swap: I checked the NPC list and there's like. 3. Of them. That can't lower Empoleon's stats in any way, and that's a very small number and we do not want to lose our sanity resetting for them (if you DO want to lose your sanity, though, I won't stop you. They're Clodsire, Dudunsparce, and Heracross).

The max speed is needed to act asap and possibly before one of your allies tries a stat-lowering move; if that's not enough and you see Empoleon's Competitive being activated, again, flee. It's not worth it

The following strategy works pretty reliably, but the remaining time is very little. Do not lose too much time thinking and waiting.

The main reasons for failure are: Competitive activated at least once, time ran out, you got freezed, and failure to trigger both player stats resets soon enough (see below).

Now that the foreword is over, to the battle. Once you have non-Intimidating NPCs, mock that penguin's pitiful attempt at Blizzarding you (but flee if it freezes you...), then QUICKLY use Skill Swap. That'll take care of Competitive permanently! Congrats! You can forget about it now! 50% of the battle is done!

And now for the boring part. Florges have astronomical special defense, but they're still weak to Flash Cannon. Which is why we need the steel type tera btw. You ARE going to die, but not before the third turn. Until then, you're going to use the non-tera-blast damaging move (so, Moonblast/Energy Ball/Psychic), twice. (Re: choosing the move: Moonblast is more powerful because STAB, needs no TM, and has a chance of lowering the opponent's special attack; the other two are basically the same move but in different types, they have a chance of lowering the special defense instead. The secondary effect doesn't activate all too often anyway, so choose whatever. Energy Ball may be sliiiightly better than Psychic but only if you end up with Arboliva as an ally - it gets more powerful with Grass Field). Once you come back from the inevitable K.O., use the same move once more so that your tera orb is charged.

This is where you have to start keeping count of the moves you used: Empoleon resets your stats at 80% HP left and at 50% time left; they should happen very closely, but make sure you trigger both asap. Terastallize as you start using Calm Mind; 3 Calm Minds in a row and 2-3 Tera Blasts should be enough to reach the 80% HP treshold, while the time will pass regardless. The time-triggered one should activate first in my experience; you'll have to attack once or twice more to activate the second (it's not easy to see, but it should be slightly to the left of the mid-point between the left-most end of the shield and the 100% HP point).

Once you see the second player's reset (and probably Empoleon's stats reset too), you can start setting up again. The time bar should be at around 30-40% now, it may seem too little but should be enough. It's pretty straightforward from now on, 6x Calm Minds in a row (ideally you should not need to heal now) and then as many Tera Blasts as needed. The main difficulty now is that at some point, towards the end, Empoleon starts acting twice each turn; not too worrisome for your HP since you'll be beefed up by then, but it wastes precious time for nothing and there's a chance he'll use Ice Beam - which could freeze you. Just keep spamming A to attack and pray (I suggest putting Tera Blast in the first slot because of this).

I have won once with literally 0 time left, and once more with enough time bar to cover the clock symbol (so before you see the warning that the pokémon is collecting energy), so it's doable but may be scary. May need a couple of tries.

Also: I didn't pay too much attention to the NPCs except to avoid the ones with Intimidate, but if you're having a hard time you may want to reset some more for better ones: Sylveon has a move that can lower Empoleon's special attack; Umbreon, Drifblim, Arboliva, and Gardevoir can lower his special defense; Bellibolt can use Light Screen and paralyze even during the shield. If you need to go to these lenghts, I suggest checking the trick to keep the same NPCs for more than one raid, I should have the link in a past guide!

TL;DR: Skill Swap, Moonblast/Energy Ball/Psychic x2, die, Moonblast/Energy Ball/Psychic x1, terastallize, Calm Mind x3, Tera Blast x1-3, keep attacking until you're sure Empoleon reset your stat modifications TWICE, Calm Mind x6, Tera Blast xwhatever, be quick.

Pros:

-no DLC no version exclusives required

-any ability will do

-once you're terastallized you'll basically not die, very reliable

Cons:

-needs a tera type change

-lots of setting up + one inevitable K.O. will leave you very little time (unless you somehow manage to drop Empleon's special defense. I couldn't)

-you have to avoid some common NPCs

-crits and freezing are rare but can happen and they will ruin the entire run

I'll stop adding the screenshots because it's too many steps and I hope you guys believe me by now...

[ganryuart]

🎊On the 9th of Febuary is my 1st affiliate annevasary on twitch! 🥳🎉

We're celebrating by playing a randomized Nuzlocke of Pokémon Ruby. We gonna embark on the adventure at 12pm GMT+1 and will be exploring Hoenn for 8 hours. As seen above, there are ways for you to help me out or cause some mischief. 😇😈

I'm looking forward to playing with you! ᓬ(•ᴗ•)ᕒ

Ganryu’s Lotl-Locke Pokémon Ruby Randomized Nuzlocke

Viewer participation Use item in battle one time

Potion 190 bits

Super potion 440 bits

Hyper potion 750 bits

Max potion 1500 bits

Full restore 1800 bits

Antidote 60 bits

Paralyze Heal 130 bits

Awakening 150 bits

Burn Heal 150 bits

Ice Heal 150 bits

Full heal 390 bits

1 Sub = Reroll the most recent encounter. The streamer has to add the new Pokémon to the team and can’t remove it. (once per area)

3 Subs = Switch any team member with an alive Pokémon in the PSS. The streamer can’t remove it.

5 Subs = Revive or kill one Pokémon.

30 Subs = !Divine intervention! Overwrite a Game Over

Nuzlocke Rules

Only catch the first wild Pokémon in each area. Gift Pokémon count as caught in the area you got them. You can verify by looking at the Pokémon's Summary page to see where they were "Met" in order to confirm whether it's a new location or not.

Any Pokémon that faints is considered dead and must be put in the Pokémon Storage System (PPS). If you run out of living Pokémon, you've failed the challenge and must restart the game. A black out/white out is considered to be "game over", even if there are live Pokémon left in the Pokémon Storage System.

The streamer must nickname all of their Pokémon after chat participants.

The streamer may not voluntarily reset and reload the game to undo progress.

No items in battle, except Pokéballs and held items. Items outside of battle are allowed.

The streamer may trade Pokémon with in-game trainers.

The battle style must be changed to "set" in the options menu.

The Day Care may not be used.

The streamer may not flee from battle.

The Exp. Share may not be used.

Randomizer Settings

Change impossible evolutions

Make evolutions easier. Mid stage latest at Lvl30; Final stage latest at Lvl40

Starter Pokémon: completely random (random held item; ban bad items)

Static Pokémon: completely random

In-Game Trades randomize both requested & given Pokémon

Update move data to Gen.5

ban game-breaking moves

Pokémon movesets: completely random (reorder damaging moves; force 40% of good damaging moves)

Trainer Pokémon: completely random (Rival carries starter through game; No early Wonder Guard; force fully evolved at Lvl40; percentage Lvl modifier +25%)

Wild Pokémon: completely random (randomize held item; ban bad items)

THs&HMs completely random (TM/ Levelup move sanity; force 40% good damaging moves; TM/HM compatibility completely random)

Field items: completely random; ban bad items

Misc. tweaks: Running shoes indoors; Lower case Pokémon names; randomize catching tutorial

[lilysundragon]

Hope this is helpful in case anyone is planning to get an SCR in the future but here's a comparison of the difference between my 17% bonus during Hot Limit

And my 75% bonus during Ariadne

It's about 29k dia saved which means the bonus isn't life or death if you have enough dias. My advice would be to save up as many scout tickets as possible and use those on the scout banner rather than the dia you plan to use on the event.

The one thing that the bonus scout does do, however, is make the grind a little faster. I had VIP II active for Hot Limit and cleared the event in 40 hours. I spent significantly less time on Ariadne and did not have VIP II active. It's a matter of conveniency.

So tldr: If you aren't going to scout for any kind of bonus, have about 90k dia ready. If you are scouting for bonus, keep in mind that you shouldn't dip into any dia you'll need for the event card.

If you are going for SCRs, this game isn't worth your health or sanity! Make sure to take breaks and stay hydrated if you're going to go all in for your fave. Good luck to everyone!

[oldweedsmokingbf]

update on my situation since i made a donation post weeks ago: ive been too sad to even think about this aspect of my life more than i have to bc its been affecting me a lot mentally so i havent touched on it publicly for my own sanity lol but i did have that apnt on halloween and they saw some arthritis in the lumbar? thoratic? spine region but im still in a ridiculous amount of pain (numbness, pinching, sharp pain, tension migraines, ect) so to do an mri i have to go to more physical therapy as a formality for my insurance company (since bum fuck workers comp wont cover my spine) so ill be doing physical therapy 4 days a week now and i have a $20 copay for 2/4 appointments each week now so that's $40 a week i need to dish out as well as an $100+ orthopedic bill that i thought worker's comp is supposed to pay for... but my case manager hasnt messaged me back in at least a month so. fun! i have some money set aside that was donated to me for copays but that might cover two weeks at most. im trying to expand my art so i can get commissions but even that feels like im screaming at a brick wall since im not the most talented artist out there and people would rather use ai than have someone draw art for them. love america love capitalism love feeling at my wits end

[handlewithcharacter]

I was reading your tags for Kara/Lena and Drarry and got so curious about the supergirl fandom what happened??? Was the supergirl actress homophobic?? The one who was in glee and that’s why she wasn’t?!?

OH MY GOD OKAY I AM SO SORRY FOR WHAT IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN

The place? San Diego Comic Con. The year? 2017. Everything seems normal. Casts of shows are doing interviews, cracking jokes, it's a good time. And then the Supergirl cast are interview by MTV. And Jeremy Jordan sings a little musical recap of the previous season, in which he jokes that Kara and Lena are just friends. Well, I say joked...he very enthusiastically insists they're just friends. It is, shall we say, tactless. The cast seems surprised but are all laughing to various extents. Later on in the interview they're asked about shipping, and Jeremy Jordan says he's probably going to get some hate for his having "debunked Supercorp." Melissa Benoist tells him that he's "very brave."

Thus ends the part of this story that physically takes place at Comic Con 2017, but the real drama is just getting started.

(the page break is here for dramatic effect, but also because this somehow got very long)

You have to understand, anon, this is in between the second and third seasons of Supergirl. Karamel (Kara and Mon-El) were season 2's highly divisive power couple and the Karamel stans were making it everyone's business to know they had come out of the season on top. And you'd think they'd be in the midst of a great ship war with Karolsen (Kara and James) who decided to just be friends at the start of the season, but nope! No, their big enemy was the Supercorp fans. It was heated. It was tense. There was a block list that got circulated.

I'd say the Supergirl ship wars were the worst I'd ever encountered, but I would go on to join the Timeless fandom, and learned the very hard lesson of why small fandoms and ship wars should not mix. That being said, I'd put the Supercorp/Karamel drama as worse than the Clexa/Bellarke drama, if that helps put things into context for you at all.

So, suffice it to say, the internet was in upheaval over this.

Since I was firmly on the Supercorp side of the Supercorp/Karamel divide at the time, I can't say with much certainty how Karamel shippers reacted, though I assume they were pleased with themselves. But Supercorp fans were not okay. See, anon, I don't know when you started your journey into fandom, but in case it was after this, 2017 was a much different time. Lesbian ships weren't really shipped with the intention of them becoming canon since it was only recently that lesbian ships had started becoming canon, and wlw fandom spaces were all still reeling from the Great Lesbian Purge of 2016, in which roughly 40% of the canon queer women on television were killed off during the television season. (To this day I will watch shows and a queer woman will unexpectedly die for seemingly only shock value, and I'll be horrified, until I see the date the episode aired. Spring of 2016? Yeah, that tracks. Deep sigh. Lost another one to the Bury Your Gays.) Lesbian ships did not have the strength in canon that straight ships had, or the mainstream nerd appeal that gay male ships had. Not only did you have to contend with bitter ship wars, you had to contend with everyone telling you that you shouldn't be shipping the ship in the first place, that having a vested interest in a ship that would never happen was a lost cause and a question of sanity. To be a fan of a wlw ship was to be shut down at every single turn when you weren't even asking to go down the road and were just looking to see a potential view.

(Supercorp was far from the only ship to ever have to put up with this. If you take a look at fandom history, you'll see this countless times. Heck, the Xena fans who wanted Xena to end up with Ares were very determined that the lesbians would not overtake their show.)

But for some people, Supercorp was their first wlw ship. Their first queer community. Their first validation that it wasn't wrong to look at the main character of an incredibly popular show and wonder what it would be like if she kissed her same-gender best friend. I sincerely hope, anon, that whatever flavor you may favor, you have found that kind of validation in your media. It's liberating.

And now here you had Jeremy Jordan and Melissa Benoist "debunking" the myth that Kara and Lena could ever have feelings for each other. In all ways except physical, it was like the Supercorp fandom had just participated in the ice bucket challenge. And, whether it was as part of the Supergirl fandom or elsewhere, the Supercorp fans had already been through hell. It got ugly. Then there were memes. Then there was a lot of hate tweeting. Then there were people yelling about the hate tweeting. Mostly everyone was just a weird mix of angry and sad. These were two actors, two of the leads on this show, engaging in this behavior. It was a gut punch when everyone was already down.

Friday night, Jeremy Jordan releases an apology. It's not really an apology. It's an "I'm sorry you're upset" with a lot of condemnation and self defense. It has the general vibes that we'd describe in 2023 as "it's not that deep," but instead of addressing it to the fans, he condescendingly addresses it "Hey Kids."

Yeah, he'd spend the weekend regretting that.

Sunday, Jeremy Jordan would put out another apology. It was a sincere one this time, admitting he messed up and didn't truly understand the implications of what he was saying or the deep roots of homophobia in fandom culture. Most people accepted this - he was an idiot who made a mistake. Time would tell if he made it again. (Spoiler alert: he did not.) Some people, however, are still mad.

And then there was Melissa Benoist. Mind you, I don't think she personally acknowledged any of this at all. But her publicist sent out a statement (according to the fact checking I'm doing as I write this, it was in a private email to a fan, who then posted the response to tumblr) that Melissa was a proven ambassador of LGBT acceptance, as shown by her work on Glee. Uh, yeah. So that became a meme.

This, more or less, is where our story ends, unless you count a since-deleted Blind Item put out by TVLine that may or may not have been about the cast of Supergirl (but was heavily speculated to be about the cast of Supergirl) in which someone overheard two actors fighting before an interview the following day about one of their behavior, that ended when the other said "I just can't talk about this right now." (I am so bummed I cannot link this article, anon, you have no idea.) (The leading theory was that Katie McGrath, who of course came to Supergirl already having amassed a sizable queer following from her role in Merlin and also possibly her role in Dracula, gave Mr. Jordan a piece of her mind about what was and wasn't acceptable to say to a queer fan.)

And that's my tale. In addition to the season they were promoting, the cast of Supergirl would go on to do four more seasons and manage to get out of the Arrowverse without overstaying their welcome or being cancelled unceremoniously. And they moved on. Jeremy Jordan went back to New York, where he returned to Broadway and Off-Broadway and he's soon to be Off-Off-Broadway in the premiere of The Great Gatsby: the Musical. He also along the way ended up playing one of Hallmark's very first gay main characters. Katie McGrath went on to be a bisexual character on an Irish show, do the audiobook narration for a lesbian period romance novel, and is a masked evil lady in the new John Wick tv show. And Melissa Benoist went on to do a lot of incredible things in her personal life that don't necessarily belong in this little essay I've written here.

Genuinely, I wish everyone in that cast all the best.

Anon, I am so sorry this got as long as it did. I hope this answered your question!

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🤍🍭🤲

🤍what's one fic of yours you think people didn't "get"?

I don't have a fic I feel people didn't get. I've had comments that completely missed the mark on what I was doing, the characterisation I was going for, etc. But it's rare. It happens most often on my biggest fic, Fathers and Daughters. I don't think there's an issue with either the fic or the readers. It's simply that when you have a story with 130k hits, you're bound to get a few commenters who either don't gel with your style or truly don't 'get' it.

Interestingly the most blatant case of 'not getting it' always happened with people who were completely new to fandom and didn't understand the concept of AUs. I've had people argue with me with stuff that was so fucking dumb like 'Silco would never swear'.

My friend, they're trying to stick to a rating and they already have a child swearing once. Do you really want to argue with me in my comments about the crimelord from the undercity saying 'fucking' once? (yes, they did)

🍭why did you start writing?

Oh shit, you sure picked a funny one. Buckle up for some TMI.

I was on a working holiday visa to Australia, fairly depressed from having had to leave NZ against my better wishes, and I had to do some 'remote' work in order to earn the right for an extansion to my visa. I picked the wrong person. A batshit crazy lady in Grafton in horse training for races. She basically ran us (she had two people at the same time) like slaves. I was doing WAY more work than I should, entirely unpaid, and getting manipulated and gaslit into doing extra work as a photographer.

It was swelteringly hot. Most days I worked in a bikini and shorts, ankle deep in mud when it was raining, and the rain was basically good enough to be a shower. My own showers were often via garden hose. So many flies. You can see me here in front of the 'feed shed' prepping the wet meal.

As soon as you locked the doors to that container it'd be SWARMING with roaches. I was expected to go in there and spray every night. They'd fly everywhere… I was also supposed to lift the feed bags and sic the dogs on mice nest under them. And carry the 50kg bags on my back from the truck. And much the truck. And go everywhere with her. And babysit the awful kids. And spray for spiders. Killed so many redbacks, not even funny. Their dogs had a litter and we had problems (due to not feeding the bitch enough) that resulted in a ton of bacrking right outside of my flimsy little window. I would do all the physical labour and proceed to be totally unable to sleep.

It drove me to the brink of sanity. Like genuinely losing my shit. I grabbed a series and started reading the Black Dagger Brotherhood series. Highly repetitive Vampire smut. I think I read up to book 6 in a week? I can't express how mentally unwell I was lol

Oh, and I couldn't get away because I had like 50$ in my bank account.

So yeah, I spiralled and started writing, like stuff was swirling in my head and putting it down was a lifeline. I still have it… a 40 pages manuscript on shitty paper written in pencil about immortal being that live off of life-force and struggle to live alongside humans in a post apocalyptic world. It had ghouls and roof gardens. lmao.

Anyway, I eventually left (in crazy circumstances) to another horse trainer in Orange (haha).

There I lived on a mattress on the floor at the end of stables, making food on a camping stove. Ruined my mental health even more by reading The Collector by John Fowles. It was so bad, I tried to read The Exorcist as a Palate Cleanser.

I was mucking stables all day, listening to Benedict Cumberbatch reading Metamorphosis on repeat, buffing my already pretty OP shoulders… Here I am atop an enormous pile of horse shit.

So at that stage writing to myself just wasn't cutting it. Talking to horses wasn't fulfilling my basic human needs for social interactions… So I joined an oline scifi and fantasy forum. Someone suggested I join their monthly writing competition, where you were given a topic and had 1.5k words to write about it. I wrote my first one in a feverish haze that day. Then we voted on the best story, and gave each other concrit.

It was my first sserious Writer Serotonin injection. I've never looked back. I went back to civilisation (Melbourne), got a decent job, a shit room (typical East Coast gig), and I carried on writing monthly for… 7 years! Whenever I was in a bad spot it was a real life saver.

I think it's a lot to do with preventing negative thoughts from spiraling. I'm not looking at how shit MY life is, but instead this little witch is in supernatural beings jail and she has to lick the fucking walls to make a potion in that special hidden organ of her and the last ingredient is the blood of her favourite warden and---

You feel me? It's a great way to help regulate my own moods and feelings and explore ideas. I'll stop before I feel like I' m reinventing the wheel.

TL;DR : I started writing because my sanity was crumbling and my life depended on it.

🤲what do YOU get out of writing?

I think I've made my point there. Once I have a good story in mind, it practicaly begs to be written. But sometimes characters, original or not, are some of the best company you have in difficult times. And then people tell you how your story touched them and they're grateful to you, for playing with your little dolls? It's an insane thing. A communion with strangers, over something that comes right from your soggy little frog brain?

Fantastic!

[thatscarletflycatcher]

Been seeing lately a lot of memes about Argentina’s messed up economy. How’s Uruguay doing? Idk how influenced y’all are by your neighbor’s circumstances.

Hi!! And thanks for the concern :D

It's not very easy to answer because for my own sanity, I'm not knee deep in the news. What I can tell you is this:

The Argentinian economy has been in some form of free fall/broken parachute for several years now; it was with 2020 that things got very serious.

The Uruguayan economy, like many other things, used to be closely tied to that of its next door neighbours till about 2003-2004, where the 2001-2002 crisis was such a horrible thing there was a silent agreement across the political lines to cut as many ties of dependence as physically possible in order to avoid sinking the next time. Which, kudos to them (not that we are absolute winners in this; we just, for example, depend a whole lot on China. Which isn't an ideal situation. The ideal would be to be tied to the region. But as MERCOSUR goes, Argentina and Brazil play only for themselves, and in the case of the former, they don't even play well.)

Right now we are of course still a Latin American country, and still on the aftermath of the pandemic, with a long drought on top which "ended" in March, but is still a problem (the fields are getting some water, but in MVD the running water is starting to get brackish because the source is not recovering fast enough to keep up). We could be better, we could be worse.

Comparatively speaking? Uruguay has been getting more and more immigrants since the late 2010s, from Venezuela, Dominican Republic and Cuba, and recently, Argentina. Criminality has gone up and down several times in the past 3 years. The dollar, thanks to decent management and the American inflation, stays around 38 to 40 Uruguayan pesos per dollar. The Argentinian peso is worth about 0.20 Uruguayan peso. Politically the government is stable, and the population as a whole is moderately satisfied as things go.

What is affecting us now more specifically of the Argentinian situation is commerce on the borders. Long standing custom is that on the Argentinian and Brazilian borders there's usually a level of free trade and downright smuggling going on, that, depending on exchange rate, availability, etc, sometimes benefits Uruguay, sometimes the neighbors, it's a bit of a back and forth. But now the exchange rate is so advantageous on the Argentinian side for Uruguayans, that it's creating serious issues for shops on this side of the border; government is now considering a zero kilo decree (so that Uruguayans cannot cross the border back from Argentina with anything over a kilo in products purchased on the other side) or something similar.

We are fine. Just fine. Will most likely be fine whatever happens on the other side. But it worries me sometimes because I have good friends in Argentina I care about, and whom I miss a lot and because of mostly these economic and restlessness reasons, I have been unable to see in a while.

[asknarashikari]

Revice 38:

Papa-San decides to risk himself to perfect Giffard Rex.

Ikki, Vice, and Sakura's trio go to hold off an attack by Juniors and Giffterians.

Vail reveals to Ikki that Papa-San is in danger.

Ikki breaks the containment of Giffard Rex, and it decides to GTFO to Giff.

Ikki justifaizes his way into getting it, and we get the Tranaformation Sequence.

Revi and Vice, fully Seperated.

The opposite of how it worked until now.

This ain't even the same type of Phase 4 Doc Olt was.

However, with Ultimate Revi and Ultimate Vice, there's now a chance of defeating Giff.

Revice 39:

HANA AND TAMAKI HAVE REGAINED THEIR PROPER PLACE IN THE THEME SONG!!!!

Hikaru beware, you know what happened to the last guy those teo hung out with.

Weekend has much more resources then We've seen.

Much of the populace is believing in the Kamen Riders, that's good.

George made Mass Produced Demons Driver.

He says he's sorry because he's impressed by Hiromi's mental Strength. Not the same thing as actually being sorry.

Hikaru's fake mom's dead.

Now I'm convinced Hikaru grew up in Weekend, and his fake parents mentored him before the fake family thing.

Daiji'll never convince those under weekend's proteftion that Giff is unbeatable.

Honestly, worst case scenario, all rider kick.

Revice canonically takes place in an all rider world.

Daiji has completely lost his sanity.

Revice 40:

Ikki and Daiji duel in this one.

And we get a scene of Sakura as a Main Rider with her secondary and territary.

Hikaru's fake dad died.

He lost his real family to the Deadmans.

And he did see Hikaru as a son, affirming my theory from the previous episode.

Anyway, Akaishi actually cares about Daiji in his own way. Which is a much less fucked up way than Vail or even Kagero.

Revice 41:

Hikaru must've lost his real parents too, and at a very young age.

He was reliving his trauma after tasuke died.

Vail, and thus Papa-San, is dying.

Papa-san decides to become a rider again.

After A battle between our heroes and Akaishi and Vail, Masumi appears, to try, and fail, to transform.

And at this point, Tamaki not being a Rider is a Running Gag.

Next time, Destream!

Revice 42:

And thus concludes the Story of Kamen Rider Vail.

But Revice's endgame is upon us.

Crimson Vail and Destream looked pretty cool.

Vail's ed theme featured in this episode.

It really was the end of Papa-San's story with Vail.

Daiji rejoined the heroes.

So I assume Evility Live is in the Next one.

Revice 43:

Okay, so, I was wrong.

Daiji is still not exactly there.

But Evility is definitely next episode, alongside the return of SpiderDemons!

Hiromi Parker, one last time.

But before that....

Hikaru went further than any user of the Demons System ever has before. Full Genomix.

And Daiji straight up headshotted Akaishi. Well done.

Oh, and Regarding Masumi's Demon.

As Masumi said, His Demon *influenced* George's personality. There's not a question of "how much of George is George", there's a question of "is Masumi's Demon now a part of George" and "how heavily was George influenced". Some stuff, like his Rider Obsession, seem to have Nothing to do with Masumi, so it's probably just the level of amorality George is at. But it's still his free will. He was just influenced because he was injected with it before he was a preteen, and brains are easy to influence until late teens.

Revice 44:

Okay, so Giff is an Alien Demon that feeds on Lower Demons. And he finally has a Voice. Oh, And Olteca's alive.

George has too much respect for Hiromi to allow him to keep saying he'll lay down his life.

And Hiromi Parker's Back baby, the Incredible SpiderDemons, one last Time!

HiroDai hug, how romantic.

Kagerou's fragmented Remains inside the Holy Wing ViStamp have been restored into Kagerou! Perfect Wing, one Angelic, One Demonic, HE! IS! BATMAAAAAAAANNN!!!!!

The Sankyoudai and Hiromi, all together once again. Our First Four Riders.

Meanwhile, George missed Saying Goodbye to his Father. Causing the mental Anguish that would cause him to spiral and Go Insane after Giff is Defeated.

Revice 45:

Olteca's back.

Hana makes it clear she intends to serve Jailtime once they're done saving the world.

Lovekov's molting.

Sakura sees her as a pet.

Tamaki can't stand being sidelined anymore.

Clone Deadmen.

Return of Evil Bat, Live Bat, and Live Jackal.

And Red. Eyed. Vice.

Revice 46:

SUBARASHI!

Hiromi Barton, Kagerou&Daiji, MAGNIFICENT.

HikaGo, Great!

Over Demons Tamaki, Great as well!

But Kamen Rider Julio needs to happen, post series.

Sakura and Lovekov, Invibcible Jeanne, GOOD, GREAT, OUTSTANDING, AMAZING!!

did not expect the return of the Giff Statue, but it was good.

Oh, and when this ep came out, I had the Mental Image of Tamaki and Hikaru calling Sakura "Sakura-Ohsama", because King Cobra.

The Revice Rider Kick at both Giff bodies with split screen, just Mwahh!

Then the six, three humans and three demons, Sankyoudai delivering a Speech at Giff and a Sankyoudai Rider Kick, MOST INCREDIBLE!!

Honestly, could've been a Good actual Finale with a Crossover Epilogue instead of the segway into two epilogues we got.

By that I mean, this wasn't anticlimactic at all. Could've been better slower, taking at least one more episode, but still.

Next Time, Girls Remix!

You just made me want to rewatch all the Hiromi scenes from this arc so that I can simp and swoon over him all over again. This was the arc that got me pumped to write again, and it's all thanks to Kadota Hiromi being the MVP.

HiroDaiji was strong in this arc. Episode 44 had Build/W/OOO level of heated drama between men. Hiromi being 200% romantic on main. "I will devote my life to helping you change" is this season's "Banjou/Sento and I are the Best Match" and "You are my one and only partner". And Hiromi being Daiji/Kagerou's guardian angel shooting down demons from high above to protect him was just.... dreamy...

Sigh, Daiji if you won't have him hand him over, because I need a man like that in my life

Also, Hiromi was just fucking hot as an archer.

Invincible Jeanne was the shit. And Lovekov was bamf. She truly is the best of the inner demons. The only bad thing is that they didn't use the part of her RAPPING when they used Cherry-ish! as an insert theme. That would've been epic.

[solardick]

I see. Card letter Rr temperance would fallow card letter Xx-rus. Except that in this case card Cc claims captivating.

Take card Xx-rus. The cherub and the toil. Trees are bare. Whats left on the top is out of reach. Everythign else is dead or picked clean. The peaks speak of christmas. And a place of warmth. The cherub. Gardian of the gate to the gardennof eden. In this case. The tops. To be reserved. For cheer and holi. Prob’em issue is here with the person toiling, encumbered. There’s no reservation. All consumption. In this case, as a c’ash, speaks for the cherub to say. “Uh, no.”

But i foond somethign fun too.

Card letter Фф, for at the moment,- ehich originally gave letter F to the emperor. And yes that works.- but here in this case card letter Bb, is being used for the jcuzen set. As images a man behind a table. Card letter Cc as the virgin priestess. With the old letters BcD on it. And card letter Ww the moon card, to all be tied up with card letter Дд, russian Dd.

A curios for the symbols Фф compared the Bb. Purely symbolically speaking of the form.

Im pulling the moon card out completly. Fuck that card. The only thing boiling up to the surface for me is my pecker.

But, guess this feeling is here to stay to remind me hiw they wasted over 25 years of my life. Neglected my childhood to shit and then raped me. Somy entire existance from birth on is nothing but bs by ither people fucken around with my existance. I dont want to be alive anymor w

Sorry i selflessly helped out a member of the opposite sex yesterday. I deserve to feel like i just got fucked up the ass all night.

Im juts going to

Start trashing awomen and fagskets from now on. Like it matters on my karma.

Ive been being treated as trash simce i was born. 40 years later nothings changed. Well it dorsnt seem to have anything yo do with ciggareetes. Might ascwell keep smoking. Ive barely snoked at all in four days. And its wirse now than it has for the last couple weeks. Oh its a mars venus aspects again. Lets give him another dose of dick in ass desease. Instant suicidal idealization. Motovation to boot.

Y’all traininf me like a fuxken dog.

Yay. Another biolent putburst. Rape me sone mote. Its bever been that intense in the morning.

Honna lise my shit one day and go on a killing spree.

I got a few neighbours that need to go. My ebyire family needs to go. The history tracher from highachool neesa to go. And along with have the people ive ever met withholding personall information about me from me with sly cicksuckers smiles. They all need to die too.

Its ok myqyeer side doesnt have any moral barriors. Thats whyni killed it when i was 14. That blond from the billards…. List fgoes on.

But i want to take my sweet time with my father and two ilder brothers. My mother can watch and lise ger sanity. And then ill tell how much i love her.

Hurry up nato get russia to throw a preliminary warning missile to the states. It’ll get shot down but the message would have been made.

Im sick of being alive anyway. All there is in the world is fucken harm to my person. Everywhere ive ever beensince my first memeory. The only

Consistency ive evwr had.

Well, nit so much, they’re doing a miraculous job at ruining my entire existence, my will’s been broken for over 25 years. And all they do is make such it never mends.

This dick and ass desease theyve given me. Is just going to keep me in a self-destructive spiral away from nirvana. Which is just a infantile glowing golden light.

And there s nothing i can do about it. Just dwell on 40 years of sick memories. And people

Laughing at me.

Look at this crap.

The only way this chart makes any sense is the natural system. Or (whole -1=aries) what a load of crap. I dont want this. Send it back.

Keep the fire burning for a long lost hope.

No family, no fun, no growth. Juno and vesta. Before ine walks into pluto. And saturn cutting the bud of any solar acheivement. Wanting peace, calm and goid things. Held back into the shadows of scorpio and orhers peoples bs. Mars goes to the moon for somwthing substantial yet, destructive and intoxicating. Pluto pluing into neptune as the midheaven. Creating his reputation for him.

Jupiter is a sham and doesnt makevany sense other than a large group of people making the decisions. In opposition to nessus. And the poison seeping in from his desperation and misery and reactions from all the chaos and harm to his person. From all the stress.

Any harm done by him. Is emmidiatly fallowed by care and concern. Which is mostly fue to other peoples interference. Even if its disrupting their peace. “ i didn’t want to intrude…” i dont mean to offend” or. I wasn’t aware. Because its slways hardship. They can play nice. But they just quip in that saturn at the end.

Pholus opposition vesta. Hahah. They’ll make you lose the flame everytime. And then things get dark. Anddsly smiles come out from perversion grooves of mildread.

It says. There is no help.

And yet at the end of any connection. A flame is lit. A good deed is made. Before being forced in by external forces by obsessive personalities. It’s the same light he tries to share withanother. Holding their hand watching them die. And moving on. But it is not his power. And the forced changes are never pleasant and nothing good comes out from them. He can still look back at that one “last” lit flame and know that he is still himself.

If thats the power of the hermit. I know him better than anybody.

Seeing how his family is leo/cancer dominant. They run the monopoly as being the source of toxicity. The nessis chariclo whathave you. Stelium on 14 leo. Conjuncts the pluto of his pstents. The mother is uranus in sag. She being a sag. Always home. Always absent beyond her erratic tendencies of violent outbursts. Off away in another faraway land inside her head. Yet gifting him an appreciation for beautiful things. Father is cancer and leo. Alwaysl absent. Never present. Erratic and violent himself. As he was never home. Always off in some far land somewhere fucken his hookers. So they’re both uranus.

Both distant relatives that you dont know very well but, you do know they exist.

….. juno, the asteroid of anothe rof jupiter consorts, signifier of marriage, commitment and pregnancy, conjunct the descendent. Point of paterneships and marriages. In the personal experimece in which it is found to history as his father holding the torch of marriage to a dead relationship. Seeing to his life’s work goes to the support of his memory. Though shat over every other part of it. Same one i carry seems to be. But to personal experience. Theres not much to trust. Cant count on the line up of women set and pressed to dis-stress any positive attachment to. But they all seem to be women in the whole spectrum of age fertility. In the last few years. A woman, with a child, a baby, or a soon to be. The older ones are better. Carry the torch through the rough. See to the necessities.

But, needs or way over there, compassion, temperance as she really is. The virgin priestess. As all new mothers are. All the choas and roughhousing the spyche lead to needs of peace and calm and absence of family and harm not harmony. It was all scorpio shit. The sex becomes flaccid theres too much negative energy being stung out of there that there can be no loving attendance.

They can gift wrap it in rainbows and corrupt the core by letting the victim invite dracula in his home. Kind of hard to be one with nature.

Y is counted as a consonant but plays its part as a vowel. In -ony, as in one, ona, oni, onu, ono, its really only one, with an e, thats starts with a w-y sound. As one may get from Yne. Pronounce Y with ne. If you get when. Then. Thats acceptable too. May call the final judgement card harm and harmony. Man and woman. The eerie part of it is. It has a time. Resolute, it intimidates.

But, all torches aside. Im not going to survive.

And that is him. All bundled together in aries. Everything else outthere. Isnt him.

He’s not going to be alive no more, he’s gonna be dead

Sing with me. Bring some holi into this bs. 🎶he’s not going to be alive no mo-re. He is going to be dead. 🎶

Hurry up ww3 so people can leave me the fuck alone.

🎶dick in ass desease. He‘s gonna be dead.🎶

He‘s not gonna be alive no more. He’s gonna be dead. He’s not gonna be alive anymore. He’s gonna be dead. 🎶 why is he at work? He has nothing to fo but walk around and sing.

All he wants to donis sooth his ass. But its a futile endeavor because its chronic. And he’ll end up doing nothing else but fiddling with his ass every day. Multiple times a day. Not a life worth living

Just a while longer. Ans he can be dead. He’s not surviving this life. He was never foing to. It was alreasy before he was born. He’s a dead man.

All he can do is game. And even that is hoghly conditionign and manipilative of the psyche but its the only thing he can do to forget about suicide.