#in photos from 5 years ago i look miserable and insecure in myself

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A lot of things happened in the past three weeks and I am overwhelmed to state it down.

1. I got properly introduced to Bangtan Boys(BTS) two months ago by Soumi Basu and since then, there was no looking back. She is an amazing hooman btw.

2. My mental health improved a lot(i mean it), so much that I rarely face self-doubt now, smile a lot, saw my ex's photo and instead of feeling sad(the burden which I had been bearing for almost 3 years suddenly faded) and I laughed at him, and realised he never deserved me in the first place, anyway. I am more confident of my abilities now. I started doing things, I didn’t know I could do.

3. I stopped letting people cross my boundaries and when they did I made sure they face my sarcastic tone to show them their place. I also grew more compassionate towards myself and others. I was able to push away my insecurities and indulge in productivity. I started loving my body more.

4. I fell in Love, this time with Kim Namjoon and the other members of BTS, but mostly RM.

5. I can sleep well know, except I don't sleep but spend nights reading story books. Yes I am reviving my nerdy habits. I rarely get tensed or anxious now.

6. I am more patient now and suddenly discovered I can apply kajal on the upper part of my eye and my right eye without smudging them. Earlier I had tried this many times and failed miserably but not this time.

7. Today I went out to buy biri and some pastries, wore a tight jeggings(from 11th standard) which fit me well in spite of my staying in my bed for 7 months straight and rarely getting down, which implies I didn’t gain weight.I don't know how to feel about this. I applied lipstick and kajal after a long time doing perfect in the first go.

8. Couldn't find pastries, hence ended up buying icecream. I was out at 9p.m and the roads was almost empty and it felt heavenly for sure. I tasted freedom after months.

I clicked this picture after coming back and relishing my treat.

I feel young and happy once more. I am starting to love myself, thanks to Soumi and her contribution. You're the best human.

Soumi, I am finally healing and I don’t know how to thank you. 🥺🌺💜

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What is your favorite color for cars? I always just preferred white cos it looks sleek and elegant on cars. What is your favorite color for bridesmaid dresses? Something a little off-white, like shades of dirty white so as not to clash with the bride’s white dress. I like to keep things looking neat or minimalist, so I’ve always thought white is the way to go for mostly everything. What is your favorite color? Haha I’m gonna jump ship here, from white to pastel pink. Do you do drugs? Other than the caffeine in my coffee if it counts, no. If not, do you want to try drugs? I’m open to trying the mild(?) ones like weed, not sure if that’s the word for it but yeah. Definitely nothing hard - I’ve watched enough Breaking Bad and BoJack Horseman to see what those can do to the human body lmao.

Where are you dreaming of moving to? I’ve always thought of moving to Canada, but I feel like it’s too far from where I come from and I fear the possibility of ending up lonely and depressed from the distance. Australia or New Zealand seem like safe choices. What do you do to avoid contemplating suicide? I usually get into such a hole when I spend too much time in my room, so when I feel the thoughts coming in I make the effort to get up and move to the living room so I get some light and background noise. It’s usually enough for me. Would you kill yourself if you had no family and friends? What an insensitive and triggering question. Do you love someone who is a jerk and an idiot? My friends have some idiotic tendencies but I do love them, if that counts. Do you know anyone who should be in jail but isn't? I dunno anyone personally but I’ve read a number of cases where criminals escaped jail or got such a short useless sentence. Has a police officer ever committed a crime against you? No but I’ve had grouchy traffic enforcers yell at me for violations I didn’t know about. I’ve gotten pulled over in cities 20, 30 km away from my city and I don’t know the traffic rules for each city, so it pisses me off when I get yelled at for violations I have no idea I committed??? I get so scared driving out of town because of this lol. Do you want more stuff or less stuff? More. I’ve never denied how materialistic I tend to be. Do you own a pair of Lularoe leggings? If so, do you recommend them? No but this question definitely pops up on a lot of these surveys... Do you think shoplifting for a homeless person is ok? No, but I also don’t think anybody ever has to resort to stealing just to get a necessity. Do you wish you could have love? Deep question, but I think I already get enough of it. Have you ever had a pastor tried to kill you? A lot of priests have killed my Christianity, that’s for sure. Do you want to just disappear? I’d get this feeling sometimes, but the urge hasn’t been seriously bad for a while now. What color is your cellphone? The official name is Space Grey but really it’s just a light shade of black. What's your favorite youtube channel right now? I don’t have a favorite that I regularly tune into these days, but I do catch myself watching old Good Mythical Morning episodes from time to time. Who is the cutest baby in your facebook newsfeed? Ate Jarica will sometimes share photos or videos of her twin godkids and they are the cuuuuutest set of twins I’ve ever seen. I’ve never seen a more attractive pair of kids. Do you feel terrible today? Yeah I felt a little sluggish all day because the weather’s back to being all warm and tropical and electric fans don’t help anymore cos all they do is blow out hot air lmaoooo. I literally slept from noon to 5 PM just to avoid dealing with the heat. Are there any good churches in your town? I dunno what classifies as a ‘good church’ but I generally don’t trust anything Catholic anymore. Where would you travel to if you had cash and a car? La Union. Are you afraid of where you're going after you die? No. I just see death as permanent sleep and honestly it doesn’t sound like such a bad idea. Do you sing into your hairbrush? I don’t. What are your favorite songs sung by Christina Grimmie? I never did listen to any of her songs nor was a big fan, but I was destroyed by what happened all the same. Dove Cameron or Hilary Duff? Hilary Duff. Never heard of the other person. Hilary Duff or Lindsay Lohan? Still Hilary. Lizzie McGuire was my life. Who stands out to you as the most down-to-earth celebrity? Hugh Jackman, Tom Hanks, or Jennifer Garner. Have you ever had to live with someone who abused you? Yuh. Do you think attempted murder should be a crime? ...Is it not????? How many people have tried to kill you and gotten away with it? Groan, what are these questions... Are you wondering if there's anywhere you can go where you'll be safe? I don’t wonder about it, I know there’s a couple of places I can go where I know I’ll be kept safe. Why do you think people bully others so much? There’s no one reason for it. They might be insecure, they might be getting abused at home and have no idea how to cope with it, it might be for the simple reason that they’re kids. If you're a bully, why do you do it? Because I got bullied before it. Has anyone ever tried to kill you because they were jealous of you? No wtf? Do you know any racist colored people? Filipinos are among the MOST RACIST people to ever walk this planet, and we’re brown lol. Are you wondering if something that happened to you is sexual abuse or not? No, but these questions are so triggering and offensive that I’ll start deleting future questions that strike me as being such. Which country's flag do you like the best? Nepal’s and Switzerland’s, just because they’re giant middle fingers to all the other flags. Is it hell where you live? Literally, because it’s so hot here; and figuratively, because our government CAN’T DO SHIT. Which big city is your favorite that you've visited? The nightlife in Shanghai was amazing. I wish I got to stay longer there. Which big city do you want to visit that you've never been to before? Chicago. Could you be a contortionist? Never. Do you wish you could make longer survey questions on here? I don’t make surveys. Is your "blocked users" list on facebook long? Not on Facebook, but on Twitter yes. Are you happy? I have days where I am. But I think most days I’m just simply meh. Not happy, but not too said either; and mostly just tired and waiting for the day to end, and trying not to get too burned out while I’m at it. Would you kill someone for money? I don’t think so. Is there anything you care about more than money? Very few things, like my dog and some loved ones. But generally, I’m pretty selfish when it comes to money HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Do you know anyone who would kill for money? Probably.

How many years has it been since you last shared your heart with someone? I’m currently ~sharing it~ if we’re really gonna use that term. But it’s been around four years since I started doing it. Can you remember that last time you had someone who cared about you? Yeah, right now. What's one thing you lose a lot? Pens. Do you know anyone who isn't a bully? I know more non-bullies than bullies. Do you have anyone you can trust? Yep. Which Paramore song do you feel you can relate to the most? Right now it’s probably Caught In The Middle, but only particular lyrics: “I don’t need no help, I can sabotage me by myself, don’t need no one else, I can sabotage me by myself,” and the backing vocals that go with it, “All the glory days are gone, it’s over now, I’m on my own.” Do you have an Invisible Children shirt? I do not. Have you ever had to use an epi pen? Nope. Do you know what Invisible Children is? I wasn’t too familiar with the name at first until I Googled it and the Kony documentary that took YouTube and the world by storm in 2012 came rushing back. Did you have a To Write Love on Her Arms shirt? I did not, but it was the cool campaign to follow like a decade ago lmao. Did you ever celebrate To Write Love on Her Arms Day? I’m sure I did, or at least Tumblr made us celebrate it back then. What holiday is closest to your birthday? It’s usually Easter Sunday. Has anyone ever made your birthday miserable? Yes. Who do you dream of getting revenge on the most? I don’t think of that these days. What color is your favorite pair of shorts? Blue. Are you more boho, hipster, scene, sporty, or girly? I dunno, girly I guess? I don’t really fit into the other types. Fringe or lace? Lace. Dinosaurs or unicorns? Dinosaurs. Do you have a mandala tapestry? I do not. Elephants or koalas? Elephants. What's your favorite Japanese name? I don’t think I have one. I don’t really have enough of a grasp on Japanese names to figure out which ones sound nice to me. Do you wonder if there will ever be anyone who cares about you? There are a number people I know who do. Have you ever shopped at Sleeping Tiger Imports? No. Do you believe in unicorns? No. Do you believe in mermaids? No. Would your rather have wings or fins? Idk, wings. Do you wish you had parents that loved you? They do. Do you own any bellbottoms? No. Do you want to move away? I’ve been planning it a lot, yeah. Can you remember a time when you weren't lonely? Honestly I don’t think so. Have you ever been loved? I am right now. Who do you love the most? Gab. Do you love anyone? ^ Who was the best camp counselor you've ever had? Never went. Are you jealous of anyone? Sure.

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surveyss 008.

1. Can you remember what you were doing at 8:15 this morning? I was just staring at my ceiling. 2. In your phone’s contacts, who is the first person listed under the letter ‘R’? When did you last see that person? Rana. Uhhh, I don’t think we ever really saw one another in person because of Covid, but maybe once or twice in passing 2 years ago. 3. If someone is sticking their nose into your business where it isn’t wanted, how would you deal with that? Would you say something to them?I tend to either withdraw entirely, change the subject, or just flat out say well that isn’t something I feel comfortable discussing. I’m kind of over spending so much energy to make everyone else comfortable and myself miserable.

4. What did you have for lunch today? Or, if you haven’t had lunch yet, what do you think you will have? I had a bagel for breakfast/lunch.

5. Is there someone you desperately want to see/speak to atm, but you can’t? Yeppppppp. I really want to talk to and see kile, but that won’t happen. He won’t message, or try to contact. I’m pretty convinced he never wanted to come out here anyway, so I guess it’s for the best. It’ll get easier.

6. Do you and your significant other have a special song? What is it? no sig other at the moment. 7. If you HAD to sing something on karaoke, what song would you choose? Turn on the radio by reba is the first one that came to mind hahaha.

8. Can you remember the last time you felt ill? What was wrong with you? Yeah, today! I think some of it is stress related.. not sleeping, not eating the best, but I have been having these awful headaches and it’s been making me super nauseated. 

9. What time is it now? Are you tired?  It is 10:35 pm and I’m not really tired. Mentally I’m freaking wiped, but I won’t be able to shut my brain off for some time. 10. If you wear make-up, do you take it with you, to reapply throughout the day? Does your make-up stay for a long time after you first apply it, or do you find that you need to reapply often? Are you wearing any make-up atm? I seldom take it with me unless I plan on being super warm, wet, or gone overnight. It typically stays for a long time. I have a little left over but I am not feeling up to going and washing it off.

11. What if you found the last person you kissed, in bed with the last person you texted? Hahahahahaha, well I know that they are both straight so I doubt it would happen. If it was the last opposite sex situation uhh, it would be very surprising because she is happily in a relationship and he has no idea really where she is. 12. The last person you held hands with - have you ever kissed them? Not yet.

13. Can you remember what your parents bought you for Christmas last year? My mom got me so many lovely gifts. She got me an awesome speaker, art stuff, slippers, perfume, etc. She spoils me. My dad has never gotten me anything for Christmas.

14. Think about the person you fell hardest for. Why do you think your feelings for this person were so strong? How is he/she different compared to everyone else you’ve had feelings for? Oooo boy. There are two people that I have had really strong feelings for that are completely different from one another. One of them was just... so .. in sync with me. I could flirt shamelessly with him, he calmed every insecurity, had this smile that melted me, and we were like the most beautiful fit at the worst possible time. He was smart, super dang funny, helpful, patient, kind, driven, talented, hard working, thoughtful, and made me feel so safe and so special. The other guy I had fought feelings for for a while. I was determined not to like him because he was self-centered, hard-headed, cocky, and it just bothered me. However, over time he morphed into this like... completely different person. He began to work on himself and he poured SO MUCH time, effort, money, and energy into making me feel like the most incredible creature he’d ever encountered. He is intelligent, stubborn, generous, and was my very best friend that I just felt whole when talking to him. We didn’t live near one another, but it felt like I took him with me everywhere every day because we just stayed in contact constantly. He became this amazing version of himself that just... so fit me.

30. Have you ever caught your friend cheating on their boyfriend/girlfriend? If you have, what did you do about it? If you haven’t, what do you think you would do? Yeah I have and I called her out on it haaaaaaard core. Her sig other found out and even saw the texts of me saying “you need to tell him NOW.”

31. When your last relationship ended, how long was it before you felt ready to think about being with someone else? I think it’ll be a while. I wasn’t even in an official relationship this last time, though it felt like it. The previous one it took me maybe a year or so before I dated again, but a lot of that was because I just genuinely didn’t have the schedule. 

32. Has any of your friends ever had a boyfriend/girlfriend that you found attractive, and you would secretly have liked to have for yourself? Hmmm.. I’ve found some attractive, but no not for myself. I’m very picky and (without sounding terribly cocky) I know what I am worth. I bring a LOT to the table and I just don’t want to settle. The guys that I’m thinking of are PHENOMENAL fits for the girls they are with, but not for me. My needs are different.

33. How many guys do you know named Matthew? Love that name. always wanted to marry a matthew. I know probably 5? --- none are marriage material HA

34. Think about the last person that made you cry. Would that person be there for you if you needed help? Uhhh, I guess it depends on the help. I honestly think a couple months ago he would have dropped anything to help me any time for any reason. He was always dependable. But now it kind of seems like .. idk. He just doesn’t care about me. I think if I needed help that was financial? maybe he would step in. But beyond that, no I don’t think so. Wow, thats.. hard to think about.

35. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to sleep last night? Do you remember what you talked about? Kile. We talked about how we were done. We discussed an airbnb for some reason.

36. Has someone of the opposite sex made you cry at any point during the last 24 hours? Yeppppppppppppppppppp. Which is unusual for me, but this is the loss of a really very close relationship. It’s the adjustment period.

37. Is there anything you would like to say to your most recent ex? Depends on what you call an ex. an official boyfriend, gosh no. I am very much OK not ever talking to him again. If it is this semi-relational situation, yeah there’s a lot I would say, but it doesn’t quite seem.. no. 

38. If your friends are sexually active but you aren’t, does that bother you? Have you ever felt pressured to have sex before you were ready, because your friends had done it? It doesn’t bother me at all. My friends have different viewpoints regarding sex and they know mine is totally different than theirs because of my trauma. Definitely never felt pressured by them.

39. In your opinion, what is the difference between having a crush and being in love? Have your own experiences helped you to realise that there is a difference? Crushes are like “eek, I hope he looks at me! I hope we bump into one another! I hope our hands “accidentally” brush against one another” whereas love is just consuming. It’s loyalty. It’s the deeper... passionate and steady feelings. It’s working towards making another persons life better without looking for anything in return.

40. Did the last person you hugged have any of these letters in their name: T, R, K, P, J? R 41. What’s the most unhealthy thing you’ve eaten in the last 24 hours? m&ms

42. What was the last compliment you received from someone of the opposite sex? I was just asked if I could be someone’s sugar baby because “your eyes scream beauty while looking trustworthy and genuine” lololol. 43. Who did you last say ‘I love you’ to? What colour are that person’s eyes? My sister, blue eyes.

44. If you took away the first and third letters of your name, what would you then be called? Ina.

45. Name 7 things that make you happy, and explain how it might affect you if you had to give them up. Benny, family, school, air conditioning, pools, bobs burgers, bread --Some of these things I don’t have access to and lemme tell you it is BRUTAL. Some of these things would destroy me if I lost them.

46. Think about your Facebook profile photo. What kind of assumptions do you think a stranger might make about you, from seeing that photograph? Would any of these assumptions be correct? Yikes I don’t even know what that photo is. They’d probably think “wow, thats an old looking photo and why doesn’t she ever update her profile” and each of those statements would be correct.

47. You buy a bar of chocolate, but you decide that you don’t want to eat it now, and put it in the fridge. When you go back later, half of it’s gone - someone else has started eating it! Who are you most likely to blame? My grandma forrrrrrrrrr sure.

48. Choose 5 friends, and talk briefly about each person’s longest/most serious relationship. Who was the relationship with, and how long did it last? Oye. No. 49. Do you think it’s wrong for someone to commit themselves to a long-term relationship at a young age? Explain. No. I think the only downside is that you lose the ability to learn who you are on your own, your beliefs, values, standpoints, non-negotiables, standards, etc. without the influence of the other person. Plus, getting together really young takes away the ability to think about yourself solely which is kind of a bummer. 50. Is there something happening in the near future, that you’re looking forward to? The distraction of the holiday will be wonderful.

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EXPECTATIONS

I often expect greatness, creativity, grace and a form of unattainable perfection out of myself, most of us do. For me it's in the videos I post, how I spend those few hours in the morning I have before work or how well I take care of my money, space, relationships and belongings. Being perfect isn't a thing, you knew that.

I want to hone in on my own and probably most people's expectations out of themselves and whatever kind of content is being produced (or not) that I've unknowingly been holding over my own head for however long. I'm not sure if this is gonna be a story time here or if I'm trying to help?? Or preach some of my VERY generalized knowledge I've created over the years, we'll see.

I've been putting out videos and putting myself out there since I was about 10 or 11 years old. That's 6 or 7, I really don't know, years of fully embarrassing myself and or inspiring the people who continue to or have watched my videos before, but that's FAR fetched:) I've had to learn a lot and be knocked down a couple times, I'm still learning everyday. I say embarrassing because you see, I thinkthat the videos I post are good, but I FULLY know that there are people out there absolutely CRYING, bawling. Their eyes out at my feet, the way I move or whatever it may be. That underlying knowledge of that random person, teacher or dancer out there, is a thought I had to completely ignore to keep doing what I love to do. The point of me mentioning that is that maybe nobody is thinking that, maybe I'm just my biggest critic, which i'm sure everyone has heard that saying before because it is so! true! Everyone should hear it. I don't think there's been one time where I've been in a class and thought to myself, "Wow they look kinda dumb!" So why would anyone else be looking at me in class?? How selfish of us to believe that everyone cares about what we're doing!

It is a different story however, when you're putting yourself on Instagram, Youtube, etc, to be watched over and over however many times, sent in dms to be laughed at by Sally and her friends. Your pride is something you set aside when you take to social media. Your ability to not be made fun of is taken away, you're a punching bag for people who believe they are superior. They might be though! They very well could be better then you. But the way they take away the value of your work, takes away their ability to be anything less than perfect. The people who do these things that make you feel less than claim they SO PERFECT. Perfect enough that they can send you, your own Instagram story, that you thought was good enough to post and make fun of you, directly to your face actually! But I've learned in situations like that, whether it's a second hand, "I heard it from this person, who heard it from her, that this person said that you are absolutely ass at dancing" or directly to you, you take it, you laugh because you've worked your butt off, (or you just simply thought your video to "Dancing with a Stranger" that took about 5 minutes to make was good). You have understand that your worth is defined by you and your mindset ONLY, not the miserable girl behind a screen who doesn't even know you. Because that is just silly.

I hope everyone gets to a point where they understand that just because not everyone thinks you're good and just because some people don't understand what you do, which I guarantee someone will make fun of you along the way, it's still important. I hope you know that your journey is still valuable, there is no end to progress and you are good. If you love what you're doing, you will exude joy, people will notice. You are good, when you are doing everything for the right reasons. I hope you know that they're having a bad day, they are miserable and they need love. Laugh at them but not to their face because you trust your ability and THEY NEED LOVE.

By putting yourself out there, you gain the skill of being unapologetic and you set yourself apart, by being honest and vulnerable. I did not know this level of maturing was what I was getting myself into when I decided to make my account, dance in my living room and post it at age 10. Nobody expected social media to over take every aspect of our lives in the way it has and we've had to adapt immensely, which is especially hard when you're growing and learning. It is definitely nothing compared to our queen Charli out here but it's the same idea. We are all put on a pedestal by ourselves because of what we see everywhere, to be an Insta model, Autumn Miller (if you post dance videos), take the best pictures, do cool things for a photo or a video, for what? Live your life to the fullest some would say, capture moments and you'll realize how cool your life is without even trying. Do what you love, post what you want and your audience and circle will come to you. You will be amazed when you start being honest and people start messaging you saying how much you helped them or how much they love what you put out by posting something you weren't even too sure about or you thought was out of your comfort zone. Just post it! People respect and find value in reading or seeing things they have also felt, so be brutally and painfully honest. Even if you think you sound dumb. You're your biggest critic, it's not dumb. You've heard this before but our Instagrams and such are all highlight reels, nobody actually looks the way they do or acts the way they portray most of the time. Do not be hard on yourself.

I bow down to people who on the other side, hustle and practice in private, who don't share their work, who can motivate themselves and don't need recognition, who work silently and come out with great, just as rewarding and even better of results. You don't need to post. Some people don't find value in Social media and honestly some days I have a hard time figuring out why I'm so drawn to sharing everything I do. We should all recognize that our paths are all different. We are all experiencing life and the obstacles in millions of different ways and how we choose to move forward everyday in our work and our dreams is just as valuable as the next person. Be empowered by your path, respect the way you hustle, be inspired by others success and be sympathetic in everybody's trial and error. It's important to understand, respect and support the way someone goes about the things that bring them joy and fulfillment.

This leads me into the idea that comparison will always KILL your happiness. It doesn't matter what you do, there will always be someone better than you, in your mind that is (Nobody is better than anyone if you think hard and long about it. Being better than anyone does not exist.) On the other side, there's people who want what you have, whether it be materialistic or talent. Someone is working for what you have. Be thankful and confident in the things you do and understand that no amount of "things" can make you as happy as you think. As perfect as you think Alexis Ren is, she has issues and maybe even more than you. Romanticize everything you do and you'll start to appreciate the little things in your life, like the 15 minute drive to work, the early rise for class, grocery shopping. Make everything glamourous.

Better car, cooler parents, more flexible, whatever. Someone will always have more than you. You WILL find someone who has more no matter how much you accomplish. You need to find comfort in where you are at in every stage. Even the ones such as quarantine, failure, rejection or a break up that leaves you paralyzed in bed. It's alllll apart of the process. You will find goodness eventually, even if that means only going through another set back within a few weeks. Imagine how boring life would be If you were perfect all the time. Soooo boring. Kylie Jenner is bored. You can't compare yourself to people who have had more time, more training, as much as you want to ask yourself why you aren't at the same level as her, or her, it doesn't make sense. You can't compare yourself to Jane who is beside you at a Dance convention who has been training for 12 years, to you, who learned off Dance Moms for 6 years and is only in her second year?? That just sounds silly. I'm still working on that and I've become a lot more comfortable in taking risks and understanding I don't deserve the same opportunities that seasoned beautiful beautiful dancers get. But I still owe myself a shot for the honest work I've done. I learned recently put aside my insecurities, I've gone In red faced and embarrassed but leaving proud and fulfilled because I truly love dancing, more then most things. (This whole thing was supposed to be about dance??)

If I continued to discredit my work (basement dance videos) and the time I give, I'd continue to feel like a failure. I'm not a failure, I work hard, I put myself out there, my story is just different from most. No two are the same. As your Kindergarten teacher probably told you. We are all perfect. We all need to find our level of expertise and run with it and be sooo incredibly proud. Even if you can't do a triple turn, you are no less valuable then the girl that can. It sounds ridiculous when you someone says it out loud right?

"You can always start again. Clean out your social media. Create a new account for your new taste in music. Study or work in a new city. Start socialising with new people. Choose a new signature scent and style and purge the outdated parts of yourself. If you don't like where you're at, but don't know what to do about it - try starting again."

"Trust your hard work, it's unlocking doors you can't see yet"

Now this, just might be my favourite thing I've ever read. I read this before I started writing this about two weeks ago and I knew I wanted to leave you with it. I wish I was more like this.

"Deep down you know exactly what you're capable of. There's even moments where you get a glimpse of all the potential you have. You can get there. You just have to be willing to sacrifice the habits, things and situations that are standing in the way of your success."

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