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barbie-necromancer · 7 months
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Cancelled my ad-free tumblr due to Tumblr not being able to control their CEO. This truly is Elon Musk-type behavior. If it wasn’t so disgusting, such as Matt literally following users to different platforms, if Matt had Listened To His Lawyers And Shut His Damn Pie Hole, things would not be a volatile as they are now.
Personally, I think a CEO does have an obligation to their employees to ensure they are safe and yeah, death threats aren’t cool. Yes, even if the threat seems insignificant or like someone’s bad creative writing project, a professional boss should still care about the safety of their employees. We all know that as tumblr users we have been desensitized to threats, and they are seen as part of tumblr culture, but to an outsider, to courts, this tumblr culture Will Not Matter. It can and will make things worse for us, especially those of us who are marginalized, to be taken seriously.
All this is to say, Matt should have let lawyers handle this, all of this. I cannot in good faith continue to give money to a website that will fund a man like this. I don’t like people who don’t listen to their legal counsel, and I think that these people should not be this in charge of something so important.
Oh. Right. There’s also the [unverified] AI rumor which. No. Do Not.
So, I will be on tumblr mobile for a while more since my ad-free just went through for the month (literally the day before all this started💀), and then after that I am switching to desktop only.
I will reinstate ad-free once Matt is no longer CEO of Automattic or if Tumblr is sold
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Really nervous about this team lead promotion LOL. Yes I spend all this time on here bitching about my job but this promotion would be SO NICE and I am worried I am not """qualified enough""" for it. Like I KNOW I could be really good at the job if they gave me a chance but some people who applied are really good employees 😭😭😭
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natsudragneelgf · 4 months
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quietautumn · 4 months
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this is literally not fucking true if you actually understand a thing about his character other than the fact that he killed people.
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noinou · 9 months
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its so deeply fucked that being poorly socialized makes you less desirable like oh your strange and off putting so now you get even less opportunity to become familiar sorry. and also like if i can sense you want it too badly im not gonna be around you. like what the fuck is that
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fatsmyname · 2 years
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i’m transmasc butch too but tbh your art literally just looks like it’s of cis men. what’s even the point.
well sorry my ocs look like people then lol. it’s kind of the point 🤨
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bhaalbabe · 1 year
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excuse her goofy helmet but it’s scenes likes this that makes me wish that platonic routes were given as much attention as the romantic ones
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quidam-sirenae · 1 year
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What religion is close enough to Christian that it’s comforting but far enough away that it’s not triggering? Important: accepts gays. I have a deep yearning for religion even despite my lack of faith in any Christian god that lets the world run the way it does.
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doppelnatur · 1 year
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to a certain degree i don't think there is such a thing as purely internalized and internally directed bias. i don't think directing bias at yourself is morally much better than directing it at others it's just a lot harder to stop. that said, as soon as your self cruelty begins to affect anyone else it's just cruelty. a gay man being homophobic is not any more justifiable than a heterosexual man. then again, maybe this entire way of thinking shows a lack of compassion for myself and is a form of bias.
#Idk I'm being mean to myself about capacity and ability stuff.#I'm. Very aware I still hold a lot of ableism. I really really try treating others with kindness and like noticing when something is an#Ableist impulse and seeing it looking at it and letting it go. And I think I usually do a good job. I do. But it's so much harder when it's#It's me and there's no other expert on my experience and my normality than me and I just don't trust me to. Actually know what's going on#Idk I think ableism is the most active unlearning I'm having to do. With both racism and queerphobia it was very gradual#Fatphobia I feel like i never really like. Took in. Idk why and obviously there's some just straight up misinformation that I'm correcting#But that's all so different#Learning about ableism was such a huge thing for me and it helped me let go of so much self loathing and all that all at once#And to also just be kinder to the people in my life. Like significantly. I think I'd be an absolute pos if not for the autistic community#But like. I feel like I've hit a plateau and there's just. Part of this belief system that's just. My character at this point and I don't#I don't know that I'll ever be able to get over it and I think it makes me a bad person or at least a worse person like. In an unfixable wa#Maybe I need to think of myself like the world. Where I don't think an ideal utopia can be built but that just means we have to keep trying#And get as close as possible and watch all the lik e easy fail points carefully and mend and repair.#Like part of the reason I could let go of self hate is just that I genuinely became a significantly better person#Not just the internalized ableism part but the external butt they're the same kind of anyways right#Idek it's 1am
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lordelmelloi2 · 2 years
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I wrote all that stuff yesterday about being lonely and coping and then proceeded to get into an argument with my father over text in which he said I didn’t deserve his or my stepmom’s love & attention bc of something I can’t even remember that happened when I was severely mentally ill like 8 years ago so I’m like. Well. Emotionally crushed. Happy birthday to Rose tomorrow I guess 
#How am I supposed to feel joy about being alive when the people who brought me into this world don't even treat me like a human being#And then my father still refuses to admit his role in the conflicts we've had#Or that his method of approaching emotional matters is abusive#I'm just like. sick to death of all of this...#sorry I swore to not like write about stuff as they happen anymore on this blog but this is so soul crushing to me to just have it like#admitted up front like this by my father. like okay awesome great Both my parents actively despise me for not being their Ideal Child#both my parents refusing to acknowledge the ways they've made me mentally ill and constructively work on it OR get me therapy#and then being upset when that has consequences. the lack of foresight with both of them is making me insane#If You Had Listened To Me. And Gotten Me In Therapy. Things Would've Been Better. Why Are You So Fucking Obstinate About That#note that my father doesn't even know I have DID because he doesn't believe we have severe mental illness at all he just thinks we're like#intrinsically choosing to be fucked up all the time for some reason#I just feel so sick to my stomach anymore like cool awesome both my parents admit they do not think I deserve love at all. Okay#Okay awesome we're in Rose is Inherently Undeserving of Love World. That's the world we live in#Cool great thanks I'll just live the Rest of my Life desperate to figure out how to be Deserving of Love. And devour myself in that Cycle#Awesome the fact that Rose was born is a Scourge on the World I guess because I am an Inherently Bad Person because I was Born. Great!#okay enough tag spamming fuck life i am going to go eat a turkey sandwich but ugh fuck. fuck everything fuck being alive
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windupaidoneus · 3 months
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now some people may not like to hear it but even the worst people who exist are still people & there is no human being who has More right than others to decide whether others deserve to live or die (does not mean i personally condemn murder in self defense or anything of the sort or killing fascists or whatever i'm just saying as a baseline This Is How it Is) & this is why the death penalty is not a good thing no matter how good & trustworthy the people in any government might be. people on average also deserve the chance to learn to do better. & no, someone who's been forcefed propaganda their entire life will not let go of that deeply entrenched mindset so easily, it's not particularly unrealistic & it absolutely sucks to deal with but in the context of tangibly working toward world peace it's also not an issue to try & help such people both in material ways & in helping them learn better rather than cut them down or abandon them to a grim fate. all this to say that's why i don't think garlemald is written badly, as unpleasant as the experience might be. walks off the stage
#ffposting#also if you hate garlemald's writing THIS much but like emet-selch i think theres a disconnect there i just dont understand.#like he made it that way. you do understand this is all because of him right. maybe you should be more upset about that.#garlemald is very uncomfortable & the real life parallels it draws make it a very very touchy Thing to deal with#but i do not think it is handled badly.#their supremacy is entirely gone by the time of edw the people there have known nothing but propaganda#the populares are known to be a minority. people like cid or jenomis aren't that common. this is why they get along#the propaganda is such that even occupied domans like asahi fell for it & feel absolutely nothing for their kin#thats what propaganda does. there is absolutely a degree of responsibility regarding what they do & i would never say otherwise#however the idea that we should let them die & not get a chance to rebuild after theyve lost everything (again) is like. huh.#when you want to work toward world peace in a meaningful way you cant just abandon anyone like that.#like thats a whole people. they suck! but it is not immutable & they deserve the opportunity to do better like any other#id much rather they face retribution for their actions in meaningful ways including working toward reparations#wrt all the peoples the empire occupied than to round them up to kill them or worse let them die to the telophoroi#OR to becoming blasphemies. that would make things so extremely worse.#i just dont understand how you can have sympathy for jullus when he was just like everyone else at first#but you want to leave the rest of them to die. & i dont get how you can like emet & want them to die.#like he fucking did this its a pretty notable very fucking bad thing that he did. no doubt varis has made it worse#but varis was in power for like 2 years at best.#that emet was playing a role & did not actually believe in or care about what he was doing does not erase that he did it#& i personally find it hypocritical to like him if you balk at the idea of garlemald restoration. clears throat#i believe in killing fascists but i also dont believe in punitive justice#& by the time of edw garlean civilians do not hold the systemic power they once mightve#which i think is also important. their entire country is in shambles.#if anything its the ideal opportunity for them all to start anew & learn better. shed their preconceptions as one might say#that said i still skip garlemald cutscenes bc i dont need cunts calling me a savage ✋-_-#do not take any of this for garlean apologia i fucking hate dealing with them on an individual level as a xaela player lmfao#also as a jew. notably as a jew. the similarities w both nazi germany & israel have not escaped my notice believe me.#but yeah. if you can feel pity for livia who is a military general WHO HAS ACTIVELY KILLED YOUR FRIENDS#but not for the civilians whove never been exposed to anything other than propaganda. idk man. 30 tags. fly free my post
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nomaishuttle · 10 months
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thinking abt my apt layout.. something like this might be nice so the bedside table can double as a little next 2 the couch table..
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neverendingford · 11 months
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#tag talk#vent#idk. I've been dissociating worse than normal recently. leaving the stove on. forgetting to clock out at work.#I've caught myself spacing out more. staring at the same place and I know how long it's been because I look back through my music queue#I'll flip back five songs until I finally find one I remember listening to. I can't do anything without constant music or other audio#I feel like I'm not myself. or.. idk. not in my body. and I don't know who's piloting it. we're both tired and dead.#I don't know what autopilot program is running this body but it's not very good.#I keep realizing that time is passing but I'm not the one spending those minutes#I'm afraid to drive anywhere because I don't know if I can safely drive. I've just been so faded into the background#I just. idk. this stress is fucking me up and I need to keep moving forward I need to keep moving forward I need to keep moving forward I n#but everything is so hard everything takes so long everything is going to be so much more work#and I keep fighting the trained bit in my head that keeps reminding me how well we slept the day after I drained my blood into the tub#how empty and clear my head was in the three days I recovered from opening myself up#I want to be back there. a closed environment. no more worries about my responsibilities.#to be fair. I did spend a pretty bad night with panic attacks and flashbacks and shit so I shouldn't idealize it so much#yeah. hmmmm. I think I've done my best to not think about. but it wasn't all That great#idk. I just. I'm so distant right now. the input lag is hard to work with. I'm zooming in just to see anything.#I'm traveling backwards at constant acceleration and yet somehow I'm still present in the world#my ears drone and the pressure builds in the back of my head but I still have work tomorrow and I can't afford to die#I have too many things to do and I know I will feel better in a few weeks#but also. Christmas is coming up. religious trauma is gonna be a constant zap in my brainstem until January#I was gonna rip a new one but I decided to shower first And Then do it but I lost motivation after the shower so uh I guess I've healed?#like. I just... don't wanna anymore. which is a testament to my recovery over the past five years I suppose.#idk. I'm gonna make it through but I'm not gonna be happy about it
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asakamasanobu · 1 year
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simply overcome with feelings for ricchan today …… i love him so much i must speak this out into the world
#it’s not that every day i find a new reason to love him but i do every day is a reminder that he’s my world#i like how hardworking he is ….. how driven he is to improve himself and be the best version of himself even at things he’s not good at#or maybe especially bc it’s not something he’s good at …… and it’s through working hard that he shows his worth#because he overcomes the limits of himself and pushes through it all to become his ideal#every bit of that is so inspiring to me like oh my god oh my god there’s never been a character written better#like . it’s hard having to work hard! to work twice as hard to get to a level where others get to easily! but he doesn’t give up#it’s important to him to reach an otherwise unattainable level and it’s so important for me to cheer him on all the way too#and it also makes me cry that like . even though he struggles and suffers through it just being acknowledged for his efforts is enough#it’s enough for him he says he’s so simple for just a little bit of praise washing his hard work and pain away but UEEEE#it’s so endearingly human of him ….. and i just want him to always be happy and continue working hard and being acknowledged ;_; i love him#i also love how assured he is of being gay like he’s never once shown inertia to or hesitation to his relationship with takano just because#they’re both men like it’s always other issues like him being his boss and their messy past and i just appreciate that! so much!#i like ricchan and how he is so rational and doesn’t have any internalised homophobia he just has feelings#and an insatiable drive to work hard and prove his worth like oh girl don’t we all#tldr looking at ch4 made me cry today and i love ricchan so much !!!!! if that’s not clear
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i wanna see fabba again sooo bad but unfortunately my dumbass parents are dumbass divorced so i have to fucking coordinate with them.
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chuluoyi · 6 months
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࿐ ࿔ 🕰️ 「 03:12 A.M 」
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tw: pregnancy. just a little something based on ask~ gojo annoys you on daily basis, so now you return the favor and he can't refuse it bc you're his baby mama😋
a part of gojo's love entries
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“satoru— your baby is hungry,” you pouted, poking his cheek repeatedly. “sa-to-ru!!”
it was 3 in the morning, and ideally, you would have been sleeping... only that suddenly you were awoken by rumbles from your growing belly.
yet your husband was still sound asleep without any care in the world, prompting you to poke him until you succeeded in making him hear you out.
satoru begrudgingly cracked his eyes open, still having his face tucked under the blanket and yawning. “ngh, sweets… what is it?”
his sleepy voice was thick, low and raspy. usually you’d swoon and leave a hickey or two on his neck but not now, as the overwhelming hunger made you almost curl.
“baby is craving mochi,” you said, eyes shining up to him ever so innocently. “get it for me, satoruuu.”
“oh?” if he wasn’t awake before, now he was after hearing your nagging tone drawling his name. he faced you and drew you closer. “what do you want again, hmm?”
“ice cream mochi!!”
“oooh that.” satoru scratched his head at the memory of him eating the last of it yesterday. “but we ran out of them, sweetheart… wait till morning, yeah? i’ll go to market to get some.”
“but...”
“can’t baby wait a few more hours, hmm?”
“no! want it— now!”
satoru blinked at your insistence. you looked positively adorable while sulking at him too.
“why mochi all of sudden, huh?” he decided to humor you. “you used to say they taste bland.”
“that’s because of your sperm infecting me,” you sullenly accused. “and don’t pretend you haven’t been feeding me mochi for weeks. baby likes it more than i thought.”
“hey! don’t bash my sperm! they did no wrong and completed the deed splendidly!”
“you’re just a one-time donor, don’t be smug.”
he whined and you huffed, before suddenly your stomach grumbled loudly and you curled up. “mmhm.”
“hey… what’s wrong?” satoru quickly sat up and placed his hand on your baby bump. “really hungry? wait, i’ll get you something to nibble on first.”
he rummaged through his work uniform and found several bite-sized chocolate bars he brought around, and unwrapped the foil. “here.”
you immediately devoured the treat to sate your hunger, but still, your baby longed for more—
“mochi…” you mumbled despondently, your expression turning heartbroken. and one second later satoru realized how much he wanted to squeeze your cheeks, and relented.
“okay, okay, sweets~” he gave your head several comforting pats, making you look up. “i’ll go and get the mochi, yeah? you stay put and wait for me, 'kay?”
“yay.” a little smile bloomed in your face and satoru chuckled, finding you so unbearably endearing.
and so, for you, he ventured out to the closest 24-hour convenience store, picking up some ice cream mochi along with other treats to replenish your stock, before teleporting back home.
he was expecting that you'd still be all sulky while waiting for him, but instead, he found you peacefully asleep, hogging his pillow.
each breath that caused your chest to rise and fall made you appear all the more vulnerable and soft in his eyes.
you looked so irrevocably precious to him. his sweet little wife... in that moment, satoru felt like he was the luckiest man alive, getting to have you as his.
“you naughty girl.” he let out an amused laugh before reclaiming his spot next to you. the hold you had over him— you made him go through the cold night air, and now you were monopolizing his pillow and he had to resume sleeping without one at all.
and yet all he could feel was love. for you and your baby, as he pulled you close to his chest.
“both of you sure love teaming up against me, huh?”
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