#in all seriousness tho.. fuck that fucking scumbag

[mikafever]

NYR was 8-2-1 prior to nov. 7th, and 5-8-0 since nov. 7th. u do the math. fuck trump

[niningtori]

the way we were before | preview(s)

pairing: choi beomgyu x you

summary: you've been in love with beomgyu for as long as you've known him. deep down, you've always thought that he loved you, too; so when he tells you that he's engaged to another woman, you decide to break it all off after a nasty fight in which he shows you just how little you mean to him. a life-ending accident seems to put your feelings to rest for good. just when you think it's all over, however, you awaken to a time before everything fell apart; and you're determined not to repeat the same mistakes. it's just that beomgyu can't seem to let you go.

genre: ANGST (literally so much angst it's not even funny), romance, second chance!au, rebirth!au

warnings: mcd (and rebirth), depictions of death, suicidal thoughts

notes: below are snippets for you all to get an idea of what's to come. this work contains a lot of angst... and that's coming from ME. this might be too sad to the point of being corny but luckily i was born on the cob. don’t be mean to me tho i'm going thru it rn

"but you can't expect me to just owe you my feelings,” he snaps.

“that's not what this is about, and you know it.”

“seriously? that's exactly what this is about. you're the altruistic angel who does nothing wrong, and i'm just a fucking scumbag who takes advantage of you, right? well, i'm sorry, but it's not my fault that you're acting so goddamn crazy over something so stupid.” your eyes burn with an intensity so great, it feels like they're being seared out of your skull. in this moment, you realize that he will never, ever respect you enough to consider you worthy of being leveled with. he doesn't think you're even worth the time. you're his silly, lovesick best friend who's absolutely delusional to the point of being laughable for suggesting that he actually take you seriously, for once. and that revelation breaks you like nothing else.

you won’t do this anymore. you couldn’t even if you wanted to, and you don’t.

-

the collision is bone-shattering in the literal sense. you’d think you’d feel adrenaline alone in such a situation, but you can feel pain bursting out of every cell of your body as you feel yourself stilling after being thrown back and forth in your seat. every organ, every bone, feels like it’s just been crushed, and not for the first time today, you’re struggling to breathe.

as you feel yourself slipping out of consciousness, one immovable thought resounds in your head: i wish i never met him.

-

“don’t even bother finishing that sentence. you don't like me at all,” you sneer. “you just don’t like seeing me move on.” this makes him pause, and even you don’t have the heart to pretend like you can’t see the hurt in his eyes.

notes pt. 2: yeah...

if you would like to be tagged in this work, please let me know by commenting or sending an ask! thank u <3

[hispipsqueak]

Just One Time

Asahi x F!Reader - NSFW

TW: Angsty, cheating, scumbag reader, manipulation, pregnancy trapping, unprotected sex, sugar daddy Asahi, age gap (reader in mid twenties tho not specified) Asahi in 50′s, unprotected sex, daddy kink

WC: 2.5K

Summary: Asahi’s in a bad marriage and you are there to liven it up...or are you?

A/N: I woke up today and chose violence I guess. @cozykozume and @hiskittyyywrites​ read this and yelled at me so if you want to yell, I feel that. This started off as a sugar daddy Asahi fic but....we got this instead. Also I really want to hug Asahi. I apologize in advance.

All characters are 18+

It was only supposed to be one time.

Fuck.

It wasn’t even supposed to be one time.

Asahi wasn’t sure how the hell he ended up like this. You were hired to work on his show, doing makeup for the models. His job in the fashion industry put him around beautiful men and women every day, dressing them and posing them. Hell, he saw them naked and yet you, just you sitting there sipping on the glass of champagne at the after party for yet another successful campaign launch had his stomach in knots.

You smirked into your glass as you saw the older designer not so subtly watching you from across the room. Standing up you walked over to the tall man and placed a hand on his chest.

“Great show Mr. Azumane.” You smiled at him. You could feel him tense under his button up shirt.

“Uh, oh you can just call me Asahi. Y-yeah, you did an excellent job on their makeup as well. Your name is Y/N right?” 

You laughed, “Oh it’s so sweet you remembered. Most designers never pay attention to the crew...though you are certainly not like most designers.” With this, you slid your hand down his chest. “You’re so built for a fashion designer too.”

Asahi’s face reddened, and he choked on his drink.

“Uh, I uh, used to play volleyball a lot...and work out and stuff...sort of.” He stammered out and you let out another flirty giggle. 

“Clearly. You look amazing. Is there anything you can’t do?” 

Asahi was hyper aware of your hand on his chest roaming toward his bicep. Your nails grazed his skin. You gazed into his eyes and winked, before finishing your drink and putting the empty glass on the shelf behind him.

“Well...I guess I’m going to head out. Would you walk me out? I’m a little tipsy.”

The next thing you knew, you and Asahi were in the bathroom, his mouth on your neck. Your dress was tugged down below your chest and his fingers made quick work of your bra, throwing it across the room. He groped your tits, pinching and tugging at your nipples. You moaned out and he clapped his hand over your mouth.

“Shh...we can’t get caught.” His dark eyes stared into yours and yours widened.

“Of course.”

 Your eyes fell to the silver band on his left hand and your heart raced. Yes of course sleeping with an older married man was probably going to send you to hell, but fuck...it was hot.

You could see him becoming unsure, so you slid your hands to his belt, undoing it before dropping to your knees. You gazed up at him, doe-eyed and Asahi’s resolve crumbled, as he nodded. Your fingers grazed his boxer-clad member.

“Fuck, you’re so big. Can’t wait to taste you.” You whispered, pressing a kiss against his lower abs.

Asahi groaned out as you pulled out his cock, stroking him. Your other hand cupped his balls and he bit his lip to stifle his moan. Slipping him into your mouth, you swirled your tongue around the tip, keeping your eyes locked on his.

“Fuck that f-feels incredible.” Asahi’s panted out. He placed his hands above your head, nervous to put any pressure on you. You grinned.

“You can touch me. Let me take care of you daddy.” 

You took him further down your throat, and his hands fell to your hair as you bobbed up and down his cock. You moaned around him, the vibrations causing him to grip your hair tightly.

“F-fuck Y/N. You feel amazing. You’re so good.” Asahi muttered, his eyes closed. It had been so long, too fucking long since someone had worshipped him like this. Your mouth was divine and your moans caused his whole body to tremble. He could feel your throat clench around his cock, as you took him impossibly deeper and he looked down at you. Your eyes were glassy, your lipstick was smudged and you looked so incredibly lewd as you swallowed around his cock.

“Want to make you feel good. Let me have you.” Asahi grunted, pulling you up and bending you over the sink. You met his eyes in the mirror as he lined himself up with your entrance, before digging around in his slacks.

“Shit, condom. What…” He started. You giggled. 

“Don’t worry, I’m on the pill.”

You could see the hesitation in his eyes. You arched your back more and looked up at him.

“Please, daddy?”

Fuck it. Asahi sunk into you and you pressed your hand over your mouth. The stretch burned, and you felt like you were being split in half on his cock. He towered over you as he continued pushing his length into you and finally stilled to a stop.

“You okay?” He asked, seeing your body quivering in the mirror. You grinded your hips slowly as a response, stretching yourself on him. As you moved, the pain subsided until all you felt was pleasure. Seeing you work yourself on his cock had Asahi feral. His hands kneaded your ass and hips, feeling how your body begged for him and craved his touch,

“God, beautiful. You take me so well. You’re so fucking perfect.” He whispered out, slowly pumping himself into you. He looked in the mirror as he fucked you, watched as your lips parted to spill moans that sounded like heaven to his ears. He could see your tits bounce with every thrust and it spurred him on even more. He knew it was wrong, knew he shouldn’t be fucking a girl twenty years younger than him in a bathroom at his party but when you looked up at him in the mirror, your eyeliner running down your cheeks and begged for daddy to fuck you harder, well he could only thrust into you faster and harder.

The sound of slapping skin filled the small room, only broken up by soft pants from both of you in an attempt to keep quiet, though you were failing. You could feel his thrusts becoming sloppy and felt yourself slamming towards your peak as well.

“I’m so close, so close angel.” Asahi mumbled, his hand clutching the counter so tightly you were sure it would break.

“Cum inside me, fill me up. Fuck fuck FUCK!”, you moaned out as your cunt clenched around his cock. His hips stuttered and you felt him shoot his load deep inside your hole. You could feel his cock throbbing as it filled you, and he could feel the fluttering of your pussy as it sucked every drop out of him.

The two of you collapsed in a heap on the counter, and as you cleaned yourself up, you placed a quick kiss on his cheek before sneaking out of the room. Asahi ran some cold water, splashed his face, and tried to bury the memory of this occurrence.

It was just supposed to be one time.

But when he got home to a dark house, he couldn’t help but be consumed by thoughts of you. He quietly slipped into his bedroom, praying his wife wouldn’t suspect a thing. He undressed, slipping into bed.

“Sorry I’m so late, the party ran pretty…”

“Can you just hush? I’m trying to sleep and you have to be so loud.” his wife snapped, turning her back to him.

Asahi mumbled a soft apology, and placed his hand on her shoulder.

“Asahi, seriously I’m not in the fucking mood, can you just go to bed?” She shrugged him off. He turned to stare at the ceiling.

It was just one time...right?

Days passed and he tried to push past the guilt he felt by going out of his way for his wife. He set up a reservation for a fancy dinner at an exclusive restaurant in the city, The owner had a daughter who was apparently a big fan of Asahi’s designs so he was able to pull some strings and get a table. 

“Hey honey, I got us reservations for dinner tonight. You can wear that pretty red dress I like.” He smiled at her. She didn’t look up from her phone.

“I hate that dress. Why are we even going out? That place is ridiculously expensive.” 

Asahi felt his face get hot.

“W-well okay, what would you like to do tonight?”

Still fiddling with her phone, she shrugged.

“Why do we have to do anything? We aren’t young people. God, you don’t get enough partying with your little fashion stuff?” 

Asahi looked down at the floor.

“The place was pretty hard to get in. We really should go.” He stammered out, hoping she would change her mind.

She yawned. “Can’t you just take someone from work or something?”

-----

That was how one time turned to two.

Asahi couldn’t help it. You were so...fun. You hung onto his every word, asking him questions and laughing at his jokes. Your hands were always on him, his thighs, his arms, his chest. You looked at him like he hung the moon.

In turn, he loved spoiling you, lavishing you with high fashion pieces, unreleased from his collection. His guilt for not spending all his time with you led to him making up for it in material goods, which you definitely didn’t mind.

And the sex. God the sex.

You worshipped his cock, begged for him to ruin you. You were adventurous, letting him take control of you, teasing him in public, your fingers grazing his cock through his slacks, shooting him flirty looks as he blushed furiously.

Two times turned into five times, which soon led to a full blown affair. Asahi “worked late” so often, he was sure he’d be caught, but his house was always dark when he came home, his wife in bed asleep.

Yet, his phone had pictures of you, pictures you had taken in his clothes, in the lingerie he bought you that cost more than some people’s entire outfits.

His body still thought about you, the faces you made as you pleaded for his cock. He could imagine the chanting of “daddy” that fell from your lips as he fucked you brainless. Many nights, like tonight, he headed to his shower just to jack off to pictures and videos of your escapades. Your breathy moans filled his ear buds as he gripped the wall, imagining your writhing body underneath him, your warm cunt clamping down on his cock instead of his hand.

He came with a groan, cum splattering on the tile wall. Breathing hard, he turned the hot water on full blast.

Coming down, he watched the water wash his mess down the drain. He hated this feeling, the aftermath of his actions. Knowing his wife was asleep in the next room while he was getting off to his side piece. What kind of man was he? Yes, things had been not so great with his wife recently. But he still loved her...right?

Even if he didn’t want to answer that question and unpack that whole mess, she deserved respect. Not a husband who snuck around behind her back. He had to decide.

His eyes cast themselves down to his wedding band. It felt heavy on his hand.

He had to end things with you.

----

“Y/N, we need to talk.” Asahi’s voice shook, as he sipped his glass of water. The two of you were at his studio, a place he knew his wife would never be at. He hadn’t wanted to be in public when he broke the news to you so he invited you over, though now he was a little nervous to be alone with you.

“Asahi, I feel the same way.” You looked at him, biting your lip.

He breathed out a sigh of relief.

“Thank God. This was fun but I feel terrible and I really need to work things out with my wife…”

Your eyes narrowed.

“What are you talking about?” There was an edge to your voice, something he hadn’t heard coming from you.

Asahi’s dark eyes widened. “U-uh, this affair? We need to end it. Isn’t that what you meant?” His voice stammered as he watched your arms cross over yourself.

“Asahi, I’m pregnant.”

The room started spinning. The overhead lighting became harsh and he felt like he was underwater as those words repeated in his brain.

Pregnant....pregnant...pregnant

“Wh- what?! What about the pill?” He practically yelped, his face heating up. 

“It didn’t work I guess. I’m carrying your baby...and you’re trying to leave me?” You asked, your voice rising as you stood up. 

“I’m not trying to, I mean, I’m, I…” Asahi fumbled his words.

“You just said you want to work things out with ‘your wife’.” You spat the words out in disgust.

“I didn’t know you were pregnant! Are you...are we…?” He trailed off, looking at your stomach, which obviously had no visible changes and yet had visibly changed everything.

“Are you asking me if I’m keeping our baby?” Your eyes widened and Asahi could feel your anger seeping through the air. He quickly shook his head, desperately trying to diffuse the situation.

“No, no I’m n– I just meant...what should I do?” Asahi’s mouth went dry. His body felt like it was going to explode and he wanted the earth to swallow him, anything to get him out of this situation.

“You’re going to help me raise our child, Asahi. It’s our baby.” Your voice was cold. No longer the carefree, fun person he knew but instead a disconnected stranger, who he was now tied to forever.

Asahi put his head in his hands. He was ruined. His marriage was over. And now he was a father, at the ripe old age of 50 to a 20-something year old’s baby. This couldn’t be happening.

He felt your hands touch his shoulder and he looked up at you. Your eyes glittered with a look he couldn’t identify. 

“We have some announcements to make, don’t we daddy?” You smiled at him. He stared into space, before taking your hand and following you out the door.

Your heart soared as you prepared on how to tell his wife that she’d be moving out. Maybe you weren’t pregnant yet, but he didn’t have to know that. It’s not like you wouldn’t be soon enough.

After all, it was never just one time. 

[your-greatest-queen]

RANT

-Sorry, it's messy and unorganized, but I don't care because I just need to spill some of the anger out of my body with this post-

Hate having to sit and listen to my mother go on rants with people about how she doesn't give a shit about black history month or pride month or days of sorrow for Indigenous communities etc. because she thinks it's creating modern racism/homophobia

Like mom there's nothing modern about it

These events aren't pitting people against each other in a new era

All of the old problems still exist. There's nothing new because the old is still here and thriving

If straight white people start to hate minorities for celebrating their history/found freedom without getting celebratory opportunities for themselves, then they are still the problem

She said just the other day, and I'm paraphrasing, "I don't care who you FUCK, it doesn't affect me. Why do we need to keep fighting for this? In my opinion, the fight is over."

First of all, it's not all sex. It's love, freedoms, rights, the fact that we're human beings who are struggling with our right to live and love in this world. Second, how the FUCK would you know if the fight was over if you don't talk to minority groups unless you're telling them how unimportant and overexaggerated their struggles are.

Like I'm sorry, you think you're woke because your brother is gay and you didn't shun him and you went to a few marches when you were younger so we could have the right to get married

But that's not how that fucking goes. When my brother came out at 10 years old you told him he was just confused

My older brother had a crush on a trans woman one time and my mom sat him down and showed him a string of photos of attractive trans women and every time he agreed they were attractive she told him that the woman was a man

She also complains CONSTANTLY about how "being gay isn't a personality"

I have a friend who's a trans guy and he was a student of hers (she does music) and she told him straight out when he corrected her on his pronouns that she would NOT call him by he/him in front of a class full of little girls because they shouldn't have to know what that means

And this friend was young and queer and excited about being a new member of the community and so he talked about being gay a lot (which I loved because at the time, I was still learning to accept myself and his passion made me feel so much more comfortable)

But my mom HATED it

Every time he left our house she would complain about him

It's been two years since we've seen him and she STILL complains about him sometimes

I tell my somebody that my mother is homophobic and they do not believe me because "she's so cool tho"

Nobody takes me seriously and I'm left sitting here, listening to my mom talk so horribly about my community, biting my tongue so I don't get in trouble for trying to educate her, or worse, outed.

Also to touch on the race part-

She dated a Nigerian man once and he was a cheating scumbag who lied about everything and instead of being cautious of lies, she decided not to date black men anymore

Her last name is Métis in origin and my dad's/mine is white European and she told me that if I were, for whatever reason, on a reserve or in a neighbourhood with lots of native folks, I should ALWAYS use her last name instead of mine so they don't attack me

She has an Egyptian friend who I don't even know the name of because she exclusively calls him "King Tut"

She thinks she's supportive and woke because her brother is gay and because she adopted boys of colour, but she has no idea how harmful the things she says and does are

And anytime I've ever tried to tell her, I've been screamed at with things like "YOU THINK YOU KNOW MORE THAN ME???" and "WHY DOES THIS EVEN HAVE TO BE AN ISSUE WITH YOU"

She doesn't get it and she won't listen and it hurts

I feel for my Indian brother who she laughed at when he accidentally ate pork rinds

I feel for my African brother who she laughed at when he explored black culture in North America

I feel for my little brother who she dismissed when he came out as a lesbian at 10 and who doesn't even know he's not actually her little girl because he's too scared to tell her

I feel for my queer friends- my flamboyantly gay buddy who she jokes about "he sounds like he wants to be a woman" and such things because he's feminine. My trans buddy who she complains about constantly because of how open he is with his gender and sexuality. My wlw friends who have to sit and listen to her lecture them about dating boys because they mentioned in earshot of her that they had a crush. etc.

And I'm devastated that I can't stand up for anybody without putting myself in a bad situation.

Anyway, sorry for the rant, I just had to get it out there.

[baepsrae]

Hi ~ sorry to bother you but I was just wondering what are your feelings about sj? I don't know much about them and I only see people either writing them all off as problematic assholes or blindly defending them. You said recently that they're not all bad but you definitely criticise them, so I was wondering what your take is?

Sungmin: loml! He's so talented and funny and pretty like ok can you please calm down king leave something for everyone else!!! He's also really cute and sweet alshsksjsl. He just seems like a genuinely good person tbh. he's just vibing. The PETTINESS of him and saeun on miss trot... Obsessed with his relationship with saeun, they're so good together. they look so in love, and I love how they are just vibin on tiktok!

Truly an underrated legend. Don't don era... truly an iconic look I loved his hair. People say his fashion sense is awful but honestly who else could pull off a mullet and a visor? just look at these looks:

You call it bad fashion sense, I call it innovation. Also his friendship with sunny was always cute to me.

also I know we HATE any "fun" stage where men dress up as women badly, but sungmin was seriously serving looks. before heechul was Gross Predator Confirmed™ a lot of gay kpop stans said fuck suju only heechul and often talked about heechul serving looks in drag.... my man sungmin served much better looks.

heechul wishes he was as a bad of a bitch! Love this man with my whole bisexual heart. subscribe to liu studio on youtube and stream orgel!!! Also he said one of his goals for 2021 is a second solo so TAKE NOTE AND SUPPORT HIM IF HE DOES!

yesung: racist.

ryeowook: ok but vocals! his version of the high notes in it's you... the way he hit them with absolute ease! chefs KISS!! when I was an elf he was second on my bias list, but now it's zhou mi. soft spot for him though.

siwon: homophobic. his friendship with sungmin... I pretend I do not see it.

kyuhyun: kind of a problematic fave? I mean, I don't really keep up with what he's doing because I don't really listen to their new music and I don't really like his solo stuff but... I honestly have a such soft spot for kyu. I like him. I really do! He makes me laugh! and he's really talented like omg his voice 😍 I have conflicting feelings tho... I know that infamous moment with hara on radio star was scripted and he apologised to her. but. it was horrible to see. And It was the start of the witch hunt against hara and... idk. It just feels weird. I'm not blaming him, that would be absolutely out of pocket and the people who I think are obviously much more accountable are netiziens who bullied and harassed her, her abusive ex and the system that let him walk free. but that fact is netiziens hated her after that moment on radio star. I think he's a good person at heart and it was in a script so there was no malice behind what he said... but I think about it a lot. I don't hold it against him or blame him personally, but I often think about it if I think about him for too long. Hindsight is 20/20. I have conflicted feelings. The reason it took me so long to reply is I really want to convey I don't blame him but also we need to acknowledge and analyse what happened here.

Zhou mi: LOVE him. I really do!! Great vibes from him, he seems like a great guy. Truly an icon. Really deserved better and sm absolutely wasted his talent. Rewind and whats your number were the two best solos from any suju member. I love that he vibes with yoongi.

shindong: literally just a sexist and racist loser. get a hobby.

Donghae: again, I have a soft spot. he's ok. great dancer and pretty attractive. he's on thin ice... not for anything specific I just... hmm asqkshsdjsnalkak

eunhyuk: I don't hate him but he doesn't pass the vibe check. tell iu I said get well soon girl!

Heechul: his relationship with momo is gross, we should have known considering how weird he was about sohee. jessica too. I despise him.

Leeteuk: oh god. well here we go. I don't like this man. first of all, known misogynist telling suzy to loose weight?? like? fix ur face before you speak to her!!! he literally gives me fight or flight. last person who should have ever been the leader of a group. I was wary of him because of how the members talked about how he was mean to kyu when he first joined the group, but the fact that he literally admitted that one time sungmin, shindong and eunhyuk were teasing him and it was all fun until he suddenly got annoyed and grabbed eunhyuk by the throat... and not even because eunhyuk specifically pissed him off but because he's the least likely to defend himself and because he knows shindong is bigger than him and sungmin wouldn't fucking hesitate bitch... imagine admitting to that! and then he said eunhyuk was so upset he didn't show up tp work later. I don't blame him! that's scumbag behaviour! that just made me very uncomfortable. Also he was blatantly cold towards and excluded sungmin since his engagement was announced, it was fucking weird. I wasn't surprised at all to find out he was messaging girls who are new to the industry and 13 years younger than him, and apparently he was messaging other younger women as well saying shit like "you should know who I am". I'm not saying he's abusive, idk him like that so that would be a big accusation and out of pocket. but from what I can see there's a pattern of targeting people who are like... more vulnerable than him? and I don't like it.

Past members:

kibum: go girl! give us nothing! interested to see what he brings to masked singer because he like... never sang in suju. glad he's doing stuff and free from sm.

Henry: the violin solo in don't don is iconic! He's racist tho and I don't like him.

hangeng: his solo music is so good. clown mask fucking slaps!!! I'm happy he's happy and I also am relieved that, like sungmin, he's fucking normal and married to a woman the same age as him. Really like him, he passes the vibe check.

Kangin: a terrorist. I despise him. he's not a person he is a list of crimes committed. only think about him when I'm thinking about suju on intimate note talking about how he did NOT pass sungmins vibe check. he's a misogynist and idc about him.

[jean----ralphio]

IT’S BoB LIVEBLOG TIME

Episode 1 is under the cut!

Warning, I swear a lot... and am very in love with RSJ so a lot of this was just me pointing at the screen and screaming RICH and then remembering you can’t see me so writing it down...

Episode 1: Curahee! Curaahhee? Curraahhee? I can’t spell so I’m renaming it Ross is a punk bitch

Buckle up my babies, this will be a carcrash!

00:01 Here we fucking go aw yis

00:11 Aw who’s this? I wish they named the gentlemen at the start of the episodes, I wanna know who is who :s

00:25 Shifty, is that you my angel son?

00:41 OMG you guys… these men are breaking my heart </3

01:06 Lord, men were committing suicide because they couldn’t go to fight? That mentality… man. Oh my God, you angels. Babies.

01:36 No jokes allowed, every man is <3

01:40 Now that I’m humbled and we’re all well and truly miserable…the credits, ugh, my heart. The score is amaziiiing. Some of the footage is actual war-time footage, I read, which is a brilliant touch.

02:01 DICK <3

02:13 DICK’S HUSBAND <3

02:18 RSJ’S NAAAAAME

02:27 JFC this music makes me so emotional. Look there’s Matthew Settle’s face. That makes me emotional too

02:48 Ah it’s Roe <3

03:48 I’m trying to pick them all out in the line-up but I can’t tell who is who. Are we supposed to be able to? There’s a short one in the middle, is that Harry?

03:49 I’m not drunk enough to handle this

04:10 Upottery? Ah it’s so English I love it. That’s not a name! Wtf is up with English place-names, you guys have the weirdest names. Upottery? Seriously? Is it only potters that live there? I’m so confused

04:22 Close up of Roe! Perfect. I approve.

04:32 Is that the guy from Line of Duty? I think it is

04:39 Lip <3

04:44 Ew. GTFO Cobb. He doesn’t even go here

04:47 IS THAT RICH? RICH. ILY. ILY RICH. Please note that 94% of this will be a Rich-watch

04:53 Lieb stop. I am sure you are not a certified hairdresser

04:56 RICH. SMOKING. SMOKING RICH. More like smoking hot do you see what I did there?

05:20 I can categorically say that I love Joe Toye. I do. I love him. But every time I see Kirk Acevedo, all I think of is Charlie my baby from Fringe (awesome show, please watch it). And I just. Charlieee <3

05:39 Aw. They’re so sad

05:55 They’re so despondent. Guys. It’s fine

06:05 Fassy?? FASSY!!

06:18 God Damien is pretty

06:25 Nix that’s not how you flirt

06:57 Lol at Dick noting its happy hour. Thinking about taking Nix on a date, are we? I bet you are. Now THAT is how you flirt!

07:24 OMG the fucking flirting! GUYS. “And give up all this?” NIX SAYS AS HE CHECKS HIM OUT

07:37 Yeah, Nix, you’ll take him ‘to Chicago’ huh? Is that what they call it nowadays.

07:44 Do you want to be that cigarette? ‘Cos there is nothing heterosexual about that lingering look, Dick

08:18 ‘Murica time

08:25 Ross, fuck off. Nice jacket though. “You PEOPLE are at the position of attention” ugh GTFO. Dick’s sideye tho lol

08:52 NGL Ross does a great job at being super unlikeable

09:05 Noooo you don’t want it with Johnny Martin. You wont win. Yeah, walk away Ross

09:15 Careful around Lip too, or Speirs will materialize out of thin air and snap your neck

09:33 RICH. Don’t be scared of that douchebag, baby

09:43 What kind of question is that, there is nothing Lieb wants more!

09:50 It’s weird hearing Ross swear tho

10:26 Don’t argue with Johnny, baby. Also Roe OMG <3 Shane is freaking fit

10:43 Wow Lip is ripped

10:48 Oh no, poor baby. Lip leave him be ☹ </3

11:10 LOL I just noticed the drum by the door. It says ‘butts’ and it took me a seconds to realise it was for cigarettes. I am an adult (31-year-old married woman). I’ll laugh at the word butts if I want.

11:11 RICH

11:18 Lieb omg lol

11:39 RICH BABY NO! FUCK OFF ROSS! LEAVE HIM ALONE OR I WILL HAVE SPEIRS CUT YOU

11:52 I can’t take Ross seriously in those shorts. Hi-ho GTFO

12:07 Ew fuck off running up that, I’d just nope out like nah babe imma go chill with that sweet baby back in the butts cabin

12:18 Aw Dick <3 The juxtaposition of Dick as a leader compared to Sobel who sure he might be honing them into something formidable and skilled but he’s an asshole. He’s not a leader. He’s a bullying, abusive scumbag. Dick is an actual leader who protects them and supports them and encourages them and IHAVEALOTOFFEELINGSOK

12:43 You don’t deserve that sick jacket, Ross. Seriously. That is a boss jacket, I want it

13:04 Have they not stopped fucking working out all this time? Ugh

13:23 Oh good, Dick gets a boss jacket too. He deserves it.

13:30 I wish people had to ask me for permission to speak.

13:53 I just. He. I can’t with Dick Winters, you guys. I cannot. I have lost the ability to can. Like they’re so upset and tired and low and just with that little joke he boosts their morale back up from where Sobel fucking beat it down into the mud and makes everything lighter and they laugh and are less tense and I just. Fucking love you, Dick.

14:00 Is that my angel son? I see you Shifty, love you baby

14:03 RICH. DON’T TOUCH MY RICH.

14:07 Oh my God, address them yourself you weirdo, Ross. They’re right there, you’re right there! I had a colleague that used to do the same, would get me to speak to my employees for her when they were right there in front of her like… ‘can you tell x to do y for me pls…’ … I was like wtf you know you CAN talk to them… you won’t catch poor just by speaking to people lower down the pecking order

14:22 Fassy! Wtf they’re not supposed to drink? Dehydration is legit one of the most dangerous things, how tf can you turn them into high-key supersoldiers if they’re dehydrated? How is this man so dumb? The guy in front of Fassy tho omg. I bet Fassy’s boss wife Alicia Vikander won’t like her husband being treated that way… she’s so badass tho right?

14:26 He’s so dramatic! Ugh

15:11 Piss off omg

15:24 oh my DVD flipped its shit here, only picked back up at 16:30 don’t @ me

16:52 RICH WHAT ARE THEY DOING TO YOU RICH

17:21 Shifty my angel son

17:46 so sweet

18:04 Sink, babe, no he is the worst, stop

18:20 LOL no, he’s jel as fuck babe

18:32 NO FUN ALLOWED. Im sorry, that tie is so ugly

18:44 Simon Pegg??!!

18:51 Ross is so dramatic God shut up. it’s not a conspiracy, weirdo

19:10 “It’s a can of peaces, sir.” Iconic.

19:11 Dick’s tiny smile is equally iconic.

19:17 SHUT UP ROSS

19:44 He wants to be punched, I think, like he’s goading them. The sick fuck.

20:47 DON’T TRUST HIM, DICK!

21:02 ROE <3

21:31 Hoobler, aw <3

21:37 I warned you not to trust him, boys

21:54 Ah boys, oh no

22:04 RICH. Kick him, baby

22:17 Bull, punch him, seriously

22:24 Oh Luz <3

22:26 Yeah GTFO, suck it, bitch

23:06 Who is this? Fella’s hot

23:40 RICH. FASSY. WEB. TAB.

24:19 Suck it, Ross

24:30 Real footage?

24:41 Lol you suck Ross

25:23 RICH. SMOKING RICH.

25:26 Bill omg

25:45 Perco, baby, no. don’t talk to Johnny Martin. Don’t look at Johnny Martin. Don’t so much as think about Johnny Martin. He will fuck you up with his gaze alone, baby

25:56 Ah Luz

26:06 OK. That’s hot. Joe/Charlie don’t be hot. It confuses me

26:42 Winnix being husbands in the corner

27:42 YOU’RE in the wrong position, dumbass, it’s no one else’s fault

27:46 Dick’s come to save the day

27:56 Ross knows nothing omg

28:05 RICH. Even my Rich is confused, Ross, you dweeb

28:20 Lol at Dick dropping down ready for a fight

28:36 Fassy isn’t happy. That means Alicia Vikander is coming for you. Joe/Charlie is definitely not happy. Lip is upset. Think about your life, Ross, think about your choices. You know you’ve failed when Roe is judging you

28:57 Nix is like lol where tf is the alcohol tho

28:59 Harry! Harry is here! But yes, baby, you’re interrupting the husband’s foreplay, leave immediately

30:00 Lol at the Nix vs Ross staredown. Nix won

30:17 RICH. GUYS IT’S RICH

30:33 Do it, Lieb. Drop the grenade. Just don’t upset my angel son Shifty

30:40 He is a literal angel. Don’t corrupt him Lieb

30:59 Nix is having another crack at flirting. “Going my way” so suave omg. Omg stop. No wait don’t

31:09 “I’m not the intelligence officer.” Neither is Nix half the time babe let’s be fair

31:14 “If I told you I’d have to kill you.” Nix is getting better at flirting! He’s been attending flirting 101 classes it seems

31:40 They’re legit such husbands prove me wrong

32:00 He’s not joking, Dick

32:06 Harry’s like oh yay yes please

32:11 Lol Nix

33:03 Ugh. Men. I feel like that hold smells so bad.

33:09 RICH. Naw, Rich is sad he’s missing out on the flamingos.

33:32 Joe/Charlie you deserve a day to commemorate you tbh. I love you.

33:46 “My brother’s in North Africa, he says it’s hot.” Bill is iconic.

34:34 Lieb, honey, don’t, please

34:49 I feel you, random hot guy. Tipper?

35:05 Eyyy this place is nice, let’s all move there.

35:17 Shifty, my angel son, my baby <3

35:26 Yay, Harry gets a boss jacket too!

36:22 Mum and Dad of Easy. I’m low-key living for Lip’s little worried faces.

36:33 THAT JACKET IS SICK AS FUCK I WANT 20

36:38 The fence is there, Ross, because you’re so fucking dumb

36:51 Guys, look, cows

37:06 He’s fucking useless. Hi Simon Pegg.

37:22 RICH

37:25 This whole scene gives me life and waters my crop

37:31 RICH <3. YOU GUYS. I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH. RICH RICH RICCCCHHHH

37:42 Poor Tip is so done

37:58 Simon Pegg is so confused

38:04 Good job, Tipper, I’m proud of you and your pretty face

38:10 Iconic

38:15 Keep it together Tip

38:54 The hand signals, no, I’d be like BABY. WHAT. I CAN’T UNDERSTAND YOU WTF. I’d last like a millisecond in the military lmao. Does my country even have one? Tbh probably not. Us Kiwis are too chill, cbf’ed with anything. Too busy watching rugby, drinking, and sulking that we can’t afford houses cos our housing market is fucked. But at least we beat Covid *shrugs*

39:06 ILY, old guy. You are the best thing in this episode, aside from Rich

39:22 But wait, there’s more weird Americans hopping out yo’ bushes

39:26 “Bloody hell!” Mood

39:47 “You’ve done it now, yanks, you’ve captured me!” He is such a mood. I love him.

39:54 FUCK OFF ROSS. “Would that be the enemy?” “As a matter of fact, yes.” DICK IS SO VALID I LOVE HIM THIS IS ICONIC.

40:25 Be free, moo-cows

40:40 LAMO GET WRECKED

41:00 Guys imma be straight with you. I’m on my third whiskey lmao.

41:10 Simon Pegg, please refrain from being a douchebag. Leave Dick and his husband to flirt in peace.

41:23 I love how Nix is like instantly suspicious. He knows.

41:39 Worried husband

41:45 “Misspelled court-marital.” Iconic

42:14 Ross, why you lying? So threatened and jel that you gotta lie omg.

42:50 God Damien is freaking hot. Guys.

42:57 Punk bitch Ross.

43:22 Dick is so BDE. It’s fucking hot.

43:30 Ross is shooketh tbh. Punk bitch.

43:36 AH! IT IS HIM! THE GUY FROM LINE OF DUTY S5!

43:50 That underbite must have hurt FJH a lot omg so committed.

44:02 Hey Lip <3

44:09 Johnny Martin has absolute BDE

44:22 God they’re willing to be killed just to not follow Ross. Same tbh.

44:57 This whole scene is BDE.

46:00 But Sink has the most BDE let’s be honest

46:44 The respect for Dick. Even after what they just went through. I AM EMOTIONAL.

46:58 He’s so worried like omg what have my troublesome sons done now

47:09 ROSS WHY YOU ALWAYS LYING??

48:09 Weak

48:24 Yeah, fuck off back to ‘Murica

48:34 Legit, can we acknowledge Ross did a great job (the actor). Really really well done, one of the best performances on the series tbh.

49:48 LMAO GET WRECKED PUNK BITCH

50:06 Dick just wanders about a lot on his own, huh?

50:50 What? What? I understand nothing of what the cockney guy is saying.

50:55 Me too, Hoob, the fuck.

51:00 RICH I SAW YOU

52:19 “Never put yourself in a position where you can take from these men.” Don’t omg I can’t, Dick, I’m weak, I can’t deal with these fucking feelings.

52:36 DAFUQ

52:40 OHHHH I get it. Right. Dick, you’re so smart. It’s a little sad they have to do all that just to get some answers and guidance but tbh it’s probably fair? Gotta be top secret so punk bitches like Ross can’t screw things up.

53:30 Hey Nix. Speak French to me any day.

53:48 Unf.

54:08 LMAO Lieb, how many cigarettes do you need!

54:10 NGL I paused here for a little while.

55:05 We could ALL use some brass knuckles, Joe/Charlie. Mood.

55:25 LOL Lieb is so nosy.

56:15 Oh no

57:00 Luz LMAO

57:10 Oh babies

57:13 Bill LMAO that’s not ice cream, yuck it looks like soup

57:28 God. All that effort. Not just logistically but emotionally, mentally, psychologically, to prepare, just to have it put off. Fuck.

57:38 That movie again. Poor boys.

57:47 That’s actually a really smart move, Johnny.

58:41 Oh no. I would lose it completely. Oh Bill </3

59:11 Naw, Dick dawdling around again

59:49 RICH I SEE YOU

1:00:08 AAAHHHH IT’S TOO CONFRONTING DON’T

1:00:48 NOOO I CAN’T aw Bill

1:01:09 Naww

1:01:16 RIIIIICH

1:01:20 It’s like they’re kiddies on a field trip and Dick is the teacher wrangling them lol

1:01:47 Lol their crap is so heavy Dick has to help pull them up. That’s actually really sweet.

1:01:51 I wish I could hold Rich’s hand

1:02:08 Oh God. I can’t. Like he’s helping them up BUT IT’S ALSO HIS WAY OF SAYING GOOD LUCK AND GOODBYE AND HAVING LIKE A MOMENT TO CONNECT WITH EACH OF THEM I CAN’T LIKE THE EYE CONTACT NO DICK STOP

1:02:19 LMAO at them having to shove each other into the plane

1:02:23 That look between him and Roe. Ugh. Like. You two gotta take care of your boys together. Brotp

1:03:22 Can someone explain the block on that guy’s helmet to me?

1:03:55 I’m sad. And scared. This series is so confronting. I’ve watched in annually since I was like 16 and I’m still so nervous for them.

1:05:37 Rich, I see you! I recognized his chin lmao

1:06:16 God, Dick be careful

1:10:00 This show. The feels. Every time.

[femininenachos]

When does Lexa call Clarke tho 👀👀👀👀 (we all know she will, that thirsty gay)

Previously on Make America Gay Again 1 | 2 | 3 | 4

A week goes by, during which Clarke’s phone is never far from her side.

She fidgets with it constantly, scrolling through social media, aggregated news feeds and the Google alert she set up for Lexa Woods. Heart leaping every time a text or call comes through, only for a vague sinking feeling to settle in the pit of her stomach when it turns out to be Raven, Kane or her Mom. In hindsight, maybe she should’ve just asked for Lexa’s number, but she didn’t want to push too far, too quickly, wary of scaring their potential inside woman away.

Because the fact is this situation requires delicacy and patience, two things Clarke isn’t exactly renowned for having an abundance of.

Her frustration spills over one day at campaign headquarters when Jasper messes up a deployment to the website, bringing the whole thing down, and she flies off the handle at him for his negligence.

Calmer heads prevail once Raven hears the commotion and steps in.

“Alright, Jesus, don’t panic. We have a server backup from last night. Jasper, Monty, get on it. And you,” a pointed look and a crooked finger directed at Clarke, “come with me.”

Releasing a cleansing sigh, Clarke follows her best friend to the small patio area outside and sits on the bench beside her.

Raven squints up at the clouds as she rubs at the spot mid-thigh where the brace ends. Some days the discomfort is more severe than others and this appears to be one of them, although Raven is too proud to admit it.

“Want to explain why you’re grumpier than usual today? Who pissed in your cornflakes?”

After a moment of internal debate, Clarke reveals, “I haven’t heard a thing from Lexa.” Unable to keep the note of disappointment out her voice, she picks at a splintered bit of wood beside her knee. Shrugs, “Guess she chickened out.”

A scoff. “Did you seriously expect that Stepford Wife-in-training to grow a conscience overnight? Face it, Clarke, she was never going to come through for us. Self-interest always wins out with those Tea Party fuckers in the end.”

“She isn’t as heartless as you make her out to be. I believe she cares.” Clarke bites her lip, growing pensive. “I’d be fucking terrified to take a stand too if I’d had such a toxic upbringing. Like, how much internalised homophobia must she carry around as the daughter of that monster?”

“Tons. Case in point: no self-respecting lesbian would choose to keep her nails that long unless she was under duress to conform to heterosexist ideals. God, the thought of those talons being anywhere near my vagina…”

They share a mutual grimace, a shudder.

“It’s just—she has a lot to lose by coming out, so I understand the reluctance.”

“Yeah, well, if pop gets re-elected she can kiss goodbye to a whole lot more: marriage equality, recognition of same sex domestic partners as next of kin, adoption rights, protection against discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation, reproductive body autonomy…”

“What can I do though, Rae? I won’t force her out the closet to help our cause.”

Raven rolls her eyes. “I wasn’t suggesting that. What kind of scumbag do you take me for? All I’m saying is that you have a computer genius at your disposal. I could get you her cellphone number, email, even the name of her gynaecologist.”

“That would be totally unethical.”

“But preferable to watching you mope around here like a sad, dejected tween because the girl you have a crush on doesn’t like you back.”

“What? That’s—I don’t—“ Clarke scowls, seeing the devious smirk Raven wears now. “Oh, fuck off.”

Dark eyebrows wiggle. “Don’t you mean fuck Lexa?”

“I’m not having this conversation with you,” Clarke retorts, mouth forming a thin line of disapproval.

There’s a pregnant pause.

“I mean, yeah, obviously she’s objectively good-looking but I could never be with someone whose views on income inequality and economic policy are so far opposed to mine.”

Raven’s sly amusement turns to incredulity. “Slow down, Griff. Did I tell you to marry her? All that passionate discourse and political tension could lead to some sizzling hot sex, you know? Just, let her stuff your ballot box once or twice.” Raven grins at Clarke’s appalled expression. “Provided she clips her claws first.”

Clarke shakes her head. “You’re the worst.” But she loosens a small chuckle in spite of Raven’s awful advice, which would be bound to backfire anyway; no point in entertaining it.

“So, shall I work my magic and—“

The phone in Clarke’s hand starts to vibrate then, shutting Raven up for the time being. They both peer at the screen and Clarke’s eyes bulge as soon as she spots the unknown number beginning with a Polis area code.

“Oh shit, I think it’s her.”

Part 6

[maryonnacross]

So, this has been eating me alive, so I have to write about it to get it off my mind. Please ignore this stupid post because it’s just me blowing off steam and trying to let some pent up sadness out.

Anyway, I developed major feelings for someone that I only really saw once and a while, he and I worked together, he would always be there for me when I seemed down, but he never seemed to want to commit. And this has been years of cat and mouse.

He re-enters my life, we hook up a few times and make plans to stay in touch and work on things. During the new year I told him that I was tired of dancing around things and that I wanted to seriously date him.

He then tells me that the timing is bad and that he has *soooo* much work and can’t make the time to see me.

Okay, life happens.

He recently resurfaced and we were again talking, and we had a flirty, sexual exchange, only to go on fucking Facebook and see that he entered a relationship, a fucking day after we talked and he was flirting with me.

To say I was gutted, can’t really even describe how I feel. I sent him a lengthy message about how I was feeling and essentially told him to fuck off entirely because I am so hurt.

Like why the fuck is the distance okay for this girl, but for me, I was only used for hookups. I feel so used and broken up over this and it sucks because even tho we weren’t together, the way he was consistently hitting me up made me feel like we could have had something.

I keep wanting to message him again and just remind him that what he did was shitty, because that’s easier than taking the high road and moving forward, and I am trying to move on.

I did date other people on and off through the time frame that we’ve known each other because he would legitimately disappear, every time I was over him, he’d come back into my life telling me exactly what I wanted to hear.

Why did he have to use me, knowing all the stuff I confided in him. He could have told me about her instead of making me feel like a scumbag for flirting with someone else’s partner. I feel guilty for that.

Like why wasn’t I enough, what about me chases people away. I feel like I’m better off on my own.

[bwaldroop]

╰☆╮ MAYA HAWKE ,  21 , CIS FEMALE , SHE/HER ☆ — wait , is that BARBARA WALDROOP? dean lockwood has been looking for them . you didn’t hear it from me but , apparently the JUNIOR might know something about the whole omega chi & kappa tau situation . while they can be COARSE & FLIPPANT, they’re far too WAGGISH & EASYGOING to be involved , right ? those who know them say they’re reminded of BITS OF TOBACCO UNDER YOUR PHONE CASE, 80'S SLASHERS, STICK AND POKE TATTOOS, LISTENING TO BANDS NO ONE HAS HEARD ABOUT, PIERCING YOUR FRIEND’S NOSE DURING FREE PERIOD whenever they’re around .  honestly , the VISUAL ARTS major should try to keep their head down . after the events of last semester , lockwood is out for blood . did you know that BABS is a member of ZETA ALPHA THETA? that might explain why their name is being brought up .  

wow this is incoherent af

born barbara vlahakis to a then seventeen year old tabitha vlahakis. she was the unwanted child, the spontaneous hook-up in a bathroom stall gone wrong. her parents gave her up for adoption when she was around two months old. 

the new family consisted of two loving dads, an all-american, former hippie, ex- musician and a danish philosophist. if we’re being all formal, her full name in the papers is actually barbara waldroop-sønnichsen, but, you know, just waldroop is fine. 

she grew up in a suburban neighborhood in utah. 

when she was five, her dads adopted a second child, a two year old girl. when she was seven, a six months old boy joined the household. and believe it or not? they were such a fucking happy family.

tw: kidnapping, murder, grief, cancer

that is, until her the youngest child, only seven years old, went missing. one moment he was playing at the park, just right across the road and the next? gone. vanished. and they searched for him like crazy, the police was on it, the whole fucking neighborhood. sadly, it wasn’t until four months later that the body was discovered in a lake, about three hours from the town. 

god, they were devastated. suddenly, life just became terrifying, unbearable for this family, and it would only get worse. 

they move to indiana. try to start over. 

two years later, mr.  sønnichsen gets diagnosed with liver cancer. he dies within a year. 

they move again, this time to connecticut, where they finally settle down for longer, make the place their new home. it took some time to adjust, but they got there eventually. 

it’s been the three of them for the longest while now and they’re super close. even though she’s now in college, a full on sorority girl, she still makes sure to phone home at least 4 times a week. she’s got the softest spot for her fam. 

mm m mm, but aside from that, personality wise … she’s v sarcastic. bitter, sharp and outspoken, appears constantly unimpressed and easily bored. has a lot of thoughts to share but bottles up emotions. bad at expressing how she feels so she usually deals with it on her own or cracks some dumb jokes ‘bout it. sort of distant. picky, pretentious enough. doesn’t trust easily. loyal to few, doesn’t seem to give a damn about the rest. huge skeptic, always ready for the worst and so okay with it at this point. legit has a resting bitch face all the time. appears rough around the edges but a lot of it is just an act. seems like the quiet type but then when u actually approach she can babble for days?? most of what she says tho is utter garbage. she loves nonsense, shit that’s absolutely out the window. the more ridiculous the better. 

doesn’t like to take herself seriously at all. she has p much seen life at its’ worst and it’s kind of her thing to ... laugh in its’ face?? does that make sense??? 

a lot of the shit she does, she does out of pure spite. don’t tell her she can’t do smth, bc, uhh ... guess what’s gonna happen?? 

has always been super fuckin visionary and creative as heck. super into visual arts, performing arts. lowkey breathes absurdism. 

fluent in four languages ya’ll !!

can play the guitar and is actually a pretty lit singer?? she takes after her dad.

chainsmoking bitch. rolls her own cigarettes and laces them with weed so she’s constantly slightly high. 

has a septum piercing & a vocabulary that consists mostly of.... well, profanity.

rly into horror movies.

huge ADD. 

dated an abusive scumbag for like a year when she was seventeen. has been v careful not to fall in love ever since. 

hooks up with ppl but it’s v occasional. 

dude-bro @ heart. 

wcs: lets brainstorm tbh??? sdfgh

[cannotgiveafuck]

finished punisher s2, spoilers ahead:

-loved the acting, again all of em are superb

-frank being an angry protective dad, nice nice

-the parallels between Dinah and Brett, in that she shifted from the optimistic get em attitude to slightly jaded and changing tactics bc shes refinding herself - and she sees her old self in Brett (also I kinda lowkey ship em?). Like, her character had taken a backslide bc of last season and this one was her trying to go forward, and i love female characters having that depth

-Curtis is....so done. please let that man rest

-Amy was...such a lil shit, but like, in that realistic teenage way where she tries to be tough and smart, but she wants a sense of security and when she finally opens up to Frank and trusts him, it's like an imprint and....fuckin adorbs. they're perfect for each other.

-Dr Dumont reminded me hardcore of Harley Quinn, I'm saying that now. And I found it interesting storywise, but jfc that was fucked up. Like...yeah when the dude who's choking you that you just stabbed starts kissing, go with it I guess. It was a downward spiral and like a trainwreck to watch

-Whenever the Pilgrim John spoke...like, I just imagined him trying that shit with Matt and how theyd just murder each other with religious arguments. And I enjoyed how utterly tired his and Frank's last fight was, theyd been thru so much.

-Felt very uncomfortable about the driving narrative plot being about a gay senator, tbh. Tho the saving grace for it was literally all the good characters saying it shouldn't matter and the homophobic parents being fuckin scumbags

-Alright, so Billy.... I....was seriously expecting more direct interactions with Frank, and billy either coming to terms with the shitty person he had become (and the shitty things he did) and accepting it or trying to redeem himself, and we got tastes of it...but...he just sorta had one small freakout and then forgot about it. didnt dig into or remember it all. I am kinda really disappointed with his ending tbh. like, him wanting to be with Dumont and run away with her, except shit happened - that was great, a good parallel with Frank at the beginning. But then the last episode, his ending...was sooo rushed.

-Frank being surrounded by strong women while hes defeated and injured in the hospital? nice

Now I'm gonna try to stop myself from writing AUs where Amy stays with him and he takes the CIA job, or where he interacts with Matt.

[meredoubt]

That post didn’t have maybe the most scathing part which was Meadows bringing out Patton and Cummings as like, the Token Black Friends to prove Trump’s not racist, gag, at least Tlaib called it out later explicitly

And there’s a back and forth between Cohen and Patton that just makes your stomach sick, cause you can like, I don’t know how other people get but you just feel terrible seeing people let themselves be used that way. Or convincing themselves they’re different or seeing them not care I guess

so Patton says (paraphrased) she'd never work for a racist, and Cohen says (paraphrased) as the son of a Holocaust survivor, yeah, I shouldn’t have, either. And then his follow up after a sentence of two (this is foggy, forgive me) is (to Meadows, who tried to use these two human beings as a trump card), how many Black executives are at the Trump Org

and the answer of course is zero

It was just this very concise moment of like, ah. The thing was full of shit like that.

and like, yeah, Michael’s a scumbag criminal shady bastard, right. But as a non-politician, he was more prepared and like, he ran fucking rings around the Republicans in particular. we’d found out at that point both Trump, his sons, and that Florida congressman all threatened him prior to the hearing. It was something fucking else, man. I doubt it’ll change anything but, I’m curious what happens to him. And I’ll be honest with you, in comparison to Comey it was night and day. Of course Comey’s a free man who got the lucrative book deal. They’re all criminals but I’ll be honest with you, it does strike me as odd the pattern of...who the cronies are going to jail so far. I’m probably being paranoid but if I can see a pattern, so can others. Not in the immediate future, maybe, but I honestly feel like...i don’t know. Between Sanders, Pittsburgh, and this, it’s making me antsy. It’s about who’s seen. Anyway that’s not actually important, What GETS me tho is Cohen is, as stated, a shady bastard. A criminal. No one denies that. But nobody could answer what that says about Trump and the RNC, who knew about his shady connections and practices and worked with him for years?? I seriously felt like the lead up to a hallucination like, this says something about you! The people asking the questions! This feels like a tribunal none of us can win cause it’s rigged! (It is, of course)

[upuptowonderland]

Open letter of pure emotion and feelings that are trapped, and i cant express when in a negative mind frame.

I have never in my life lied about anything that is truly traumatic. Yeah, duh, I've lied before, I'm only human. I wouldny lie about things that are serious horrible events.

But, I recently have run into a non concent issue, and fealt violated. No details needed, but i will speak about my feelings towards this situation bc my feelings are fucking valid, and I haven't felt this bad for a while.

Dear whoever i even have left in my life anymore.

I have lost someone who I absolutely love very much. That I was starting to build a life with. But...they left me for believing that; I "cheated" on them, and intentionally tore them apart fully out of spite and "revenge". WHICH IS ABSOLUTELY NOT THE TRUTH.

To sum up the most difficult and fucked up disagreement we had;

I owned up to my wrongs. Yes, I wasn't the grestest person for communicating and going out of my way to hang out with a guy you werent quite comfortable with. But, he truly was only a friend of mine. A persom who has a big part in my life, and kind of lingers in my life forever.if i like it or not.

I sat there...looking you in your beautiful eyes, and agreed to your statement only to an extent, not cheating but not being the best me.i. couldve. I watched your heart crack, and that's when the flames were thrown. And you were jusy...so so torm and full of rage that i could barley get a sentence in. And due to my panic attack i could barley breath and speak.

I was trying to just tell you that i was forced into doing a sexual act AFTER I DID NOT GIVE CONCENT. But all i was thinking, and could say is im sorry. The thingd you said made me ALMOST believe that being a victim, in a non concent SEXUAL act was cheating. IT'S NOT. kept saying harsh ztuff.it just made my mind questuon mydelf on "was being assulted chesting? Im a piece of zhit. Im the reason vor it. I guess.i shoupdbe been a better person amd not have been ghere, it wouldnt have happened". You made me.feel a hesvy amount of.guily that i didnt deserve to feel.

You didn't know how it reslly happened, the only thing you were set on knowing, is that i "cheated" on you.

I didn't mention the assault until 2 weeks after it happened. My reasoning? I was terrified. But unsure of how to handle the situation. I gave him the benefit of the doubt, and convinced myself he didnt meam to do what he did to me, bc he was under ghe influence. I faked a smile every dsy after that. You onow? It's very difficult to get away from someone that is a friend of your number 1 HOMIES. So hes over every day, and i acted like things were.okay, didnt tell anyone. Reasonsings for not telling snyone also, i truly believed that i would get hurt. And that me telling everyone, would just create moxed emotions amd i beliebed id get acused as a liar, not tsken seriously, and my friendship pushed aside for a scumbag.

I FINALLY TOLD YOU THO! I FINALLY.TOLD YOU THAT I DIDNT CONCNET. I TOLD YOU WHAT HAPPENED. NO! I didnt tell you this to in anyway try and make you comenback into my life. I TOLD YOU because i thought you'd love me.enough to understand the pretty traumatic incident i went through. But no....i was wrong....you say im a whore...and.that its something that I "LEAD" on. Yelled st me for not doing something about it. While feelomg so helpless amd disgusting amd frightened?

Then started to give a notice of like...wow, it happened so horribly and i ghess.i was.being extra without knowing every detail. THAT'S NOTNIT THO! YOU then proceeded to tell me you cant beliebe me not that in lying, but couldnt trust my story fully becsuse im an aparent "manipulato" , and still told me that if were mesnt to be, well see eachother agaim when its time.

Every ounce of my happiness drained from my body. When you had the roommate, kick me out, and have the WHOLE house againdt me. When they truly have no clue what happened to me. But as always, like a woman, i got up and fucking left. Lol, THE AFTERMATH? OF ACCUSING ME OF SOMETHING I WOULD NEVER DO TO THE ONE I LOVE. you ready gor it? I'm homeless again, in the winter. Lets see, i lost ghe fu king man im in love with over something that wasnt my fault. And looked at as a liar and false acuser. Lost the people that i jave grown to adore, and relate to amd feel 100% confident. Becsuse you made me out to be s Cheater. And a liar they coupdnt trust. Lost my happieness i worked.zo hard go recive. My home. And my heart.

I personslly dont think i deserve the harsh consequences and treatment im reciving from the ones i thought cared for me.

Yea, i spoke about it kind of late after, but i would never acuse someone of such a harsh crime, if they didnt reslly do it.

BUT this truly....opened my eyes to...wow, dont get comfortable with people easily, because no matter how.close you are, people are able to change like its nothing.

I'm finally recovering from my sadness. And depression and fright of my.assult. I'm PROUD of myself right now...I got a new job, I have been sober now for more than a week. I see my dsughter so much snd my life is made. I'm still living, and if the people ive grown go love and care for truly decide they're no longer a person in mg life, jtll hurt. And ill be hurt gor s while. But i will have to remind myself that....was it truly a friendship if i get abandon for zomething i had no control over.

My head is fu ked up. I truly didnt want to lose Zachary. And I do want to hope to myself that sometime for him to cool down, and then we'll be eschothers again. I have no friends anymore...ni home.

BUT I'M NOT GIVING UP. whatever happens eith us, will happen how it needs too. I love you eo much...but you never give.up on someone you love...and thisnis your 2md time giving up pn me.

I'll continue to strive for me, kick ass, become the best person i can. And grow to learn to never let someone else destroy you.

[sheismental]

I’m trying to sleep, you shithead. PART II

| part one |

Pairing: Jason Todd x female reader.

Summary: Your neighbor, Jason, decides to blast classic rock music at 3 am in the morning, and you’re not to keen on that.

Request:  Hi! Could you please do this au with Jason? I love classic rock and I feel like Jason would blast it. “it’s 3 am and you’re blasting off classic rock at full volume and your music taste might be awesome but sOME PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO FUCKING SLEEP YOU SHITHEAD”

Tagged: @natasha-baggins @lovingbabybird @queen-fighter @sarcasmismyfirstlove @cherrycat @agentsbarnes-parker @multifandombackpack @lampingtonthe3rd

WARNING: implied smut.

MASTERLIST

You’re overly exhausted when you return to your apartment, you unlock the door of your apartment and throw yourself in bed almost immediately. Your phone dings and you groan as you take your phone and check the message.

Clarissa: ‘Hey dumbass,,,get dressed, we are going out tonight xx’

You throw your head back into the pillow and groan, why did Clarissa pick out today - when all you wanted to do was sleep - out of all days.

You: ‘Forget it, Clary, i’m not in the mood.’

Clarissa: ‘It wasn’t a question tho?? there’s this nice ass bar and i got us some fine ass company for tonight. plEASE COME!.’

‘i will go to your house and bring you out, idc if you look like a witch, y/n.’

‘you have two hours, and we will pick you up.’

And the texts keep coming. You huff and stand up, glancing at the clock; 8:00pm, you had to look at least half decent tonight. No matter how tired you were and how much you wanted to strangle Clarissa. Clarissa was that co-worker that through the years became your friend, she was as lonely as you - Only difference is that she was looking for someone and you truly didn’t care.

You took a quick shower, and put on one of the nicest dress you owned; the skin tight red dress, Clarissa was very much familiar with it since you wore it everytime you two went out. You even take the time to curl your hair (a/n: if you have curly hair then it’s straighten) Once done with that you do your makeup and pair it with a red lipstick. 

Clarissa didn’t lie, at 10:00pm your phone starts ringing, she simply says ‘we are here’ and hangs up. You roll your eyes and walk out of your apartment in your black heels. As soon as you are out of the building, Clarissa whistles and motions you to twirl, you do it with a smug smile and then you see two guys besides her.

“You look hot!.” She compliments and kisses your cheek and you roll your eyes.

“You have seen me in this dress like a couple of hundred times.” You mumble and she chuckles.

“Yeah but they don’t know that.” She whispers in your ear and the turns to the two guys. “Okay Y/N, this is David Spellman and Isaiah Jones, they are our fine company tonight.” 

You mumble your hello’s. Clarissa couldn’t have picked worst dates, David looked like a total douchebag; Blond hair slicked back and that stupid cocky smile on his thin lips, and even worst he was clearly checking you out without any respect whatsoever. Isaiah wasn’t so bad, except for the fact that he was looking at Clarissa the entire time, his green eyes followed her everywhere. So there goes your chance of having a good time tonight.

You climb on the car which belonged to David, his cheap cologne filled the Porsche. You scrunch up your nose at the smell and try to make yourself comfortable on the leather seats. Your headache was only increasing and you simply hoped that the night will be over soon.

Arriving at the bar wasn’t much of a big fuss, when David’s hand touches your waist you flinch out of his touch, he notices this but keeps on trying to touch you in any way he can while you simply try to get out of his reach. 

The bar smelled like every other bar; Barf and beer. And although you weren’t a fan of that misxture your nostrils had become familiar with it. 

“Ohh let’s get some shots!.” Clarissa says excitedly and you nod feverishly, if alcohol could help make this night any faster you would certainly try it. 

“So Y/N...” David trails off and the mere sound of his voice makes you want to puke. You fake smile and hum. “What’s your favorite position?.” 

You want to slap him in the face so hard that it will make it rotate 360 degrees. 

“Excuse me?!.” You ask in disbelief. “Who do you think you are?.” You ask and he shrugs, with his drink in hand.

“It was a question! I was trying to get to know more about you-.”

“That’s not the way to do it.” You huff and share looks with Clarissa who looks at David disgustingly. 

You try to ignore it and turn back to face the bar. There’s a stage a couple of feet away and a crowd standing in front of it, you order a beer and drink it while you watch a band start to get ready on stage. You are so distracted by your thoughts when a cold hand touches your thigh, your eyes open wide and the beer slips off your hands, crashing on the ground with a thenderous sound causing many people turn to look at you. 

You turn to look at David (whose hand is still laying on your thigh), your face fillled with anger. “What the actual fuck is wrong with you!.” You yell and as you lift your hand to slap him, you are interrupted by a fist colliding with David’s left cheek - making him stumble backwards and falling onto the ground. Your mouth falls open.

“Don’t you ever touch a woman without her permission, understood you fucking idiot?!.” The man that hit David is kneeled beside him and he is grabbing him by the hair and shouting in his ear. David mumbles something and the man smashes David’s face against the ground. The man stands up and fixes his brown jacket before turning around. “Oh hello neighbor.” He smirks and your breath hitches.

“Ja-jason?.” You stutter and he nods. 

“Last time i checked that was my name.” He replies and approaches you, “You are still a little flustered, are you okay?.” He asks seriously, looking down at you, a geniune worried look on his face.

“I’m okay, i’m just trying to wrap my head around it.” You confess and let out a breath that you didn’t know you were holding. “I had it handled by the way but thanks.” You mumble and Jason snickers.

“I know you did, but i wanted to hit someone.” He replies and you stiffle a chuckle.”I can’t believe you would rather come to listen to the classic rock band with mister scumbag here-.” He points at David, who struggles to stand up. “-Than with me.” 

You raise an eyebrow. “This is the bar you told me about?.” He leans on the table of the bar and nods. “I had no idea, my friend dragged me here.” 

“Where’s your friend now?.” He asks, furrowing his eyebrows.

“She probably left with her date.” You huff and order another beer.

Jason finally looks at you up and down and grins. “You clean up nice, neighbor.” He says and you narrow your eyes at him.

“Thanks for that god awful compliment, shithead.” You reply jokingly and take a sip of your beer. He clicks his tongue, and turns to face the bartender.

“Whiskey neat.” He blurts out, you take that time to stare at him. His brown leather jacket fits him perfectly, his biceps flex as he reaches for the glass of Whiskey and his white streaks fall on his forehead. “All jokes and unrequired sarcasm aside, you do look stunning Y/N.” He mumbles before taking a sip of Whiskey. You nod and something in your stomach turns.

“Thanks, Todd.” You mumble and look down at your hands. Jason bites his bottom lip. 

“Hey everyone! we are ‘Stick & Stones’ and we will be playing some classic rock tunes for you tonight, hope you enjoy.” 

The band starts playing ‘Sweet Emotion’ by Aerosmith and you chuckle to yourself.

“They are pretty good.” You mutter and Jason nods.

“I told you, they are amazing.” He says and glances at the band before looking at you. There are some bags under your eyes. “I’m sorry about yesterday.”

You turn to face him and cock an eyebrow. “For being a shithead?.”

He grins. “Yes for being a shithead, it takes a lot of restrain for me not to be one and yesterday i didn’t even try not to be one.” He says and you nod understandingly. “And, pissing you off has become a very entertaining thing to do.” He says chuckling and you grin.

“I can tell, i’m glad i’m so amusing to you.” You say sarcastically and he licks his lips, there was something about you that made him feel lees on edge, it was strange - he thought -. Talking to you was so different and calming. 

“How do yo do it?.” He asks and you look at him confused. 

“Are you drunk yet, Todd?.” You ask and he shakes his head. 

“You’re so gorgeous.” He blurts out and quickly clears his throat and looks the other way. “Forget i said that.”  

Your eyes widen and then you laugh softly. 

“What if i don’t want to forget it?.” You ask teasingly and he looks at you, his blue eyes locking with you. You bite your bottom lip nervously, you truly had no idea if the alcohol had already kicked in or what was making you so attracted to Jason. Unless you had always been attracted to Jason and you disguised it with hostility.  

Jason leans in, your faces only inches away. You didn’t know it, but Jason was somewhat nervous. He connects your lips together and everything pieces together, his broad shoulders relax and your hands move up to the nape of his neck as his hands are placed strongly on your hips. His expert lips move against your clumsy ones, and the kiss becomes more lustful. You tug on his hair and he tries to stiffle his moan against your lips. You giggle and depart from his lips, his eyes are glued to his lips.

“Want to keep me up all night once again?.” You ask teasingly and he snickers; how could you drive him so crazy?.

“Only if you don’t yell at me and threaten to slap me again.” He replies and you hum. 

“I can do that.” You say and he catches your lips with his once again, biting your bottom lip slightly. 

That was the second night in a row where you didn’t get any sleep.

Here you guys go! hope this is good.

[msrenai21]

TAG GAME-EXTREME EDITION

I saw @conretewings​ do this and I wanted to as well

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

last

drink - Coke

phone call – my hair dresser

text message - my girlfriend

song you listened to – Zant Battle from Twilight Princess

time you cried – an hour ago

ever

dated someone twice? – nope

kissed someone and regretted it – unfortunately

been cheated on – My ex was a super scumbag and went after girls between ages 17 and 40 

lost someone special - Yes

been depressed – I have depression so yeah; it’s especially bad right now

gotten drunk and thrown up – Never, I don’t like to drink

fave colours

Pink

Red

Purple

in the last year have you…

made new friends – Yeah!

fallen out of love - No.

laughed until you cried – Yeah

found out someone was talking about you –Of course. I’m so used to it I don’t give a fuck.

met someone who changed you – Not really

found out who your friends are - yeah??

kissed someone on your facebook friends list - I don’t have a Facebook

general

how many of your facebook friends do you know irl – I don’t have a Facebook

do you have any pets - 1 old dog and 1 hyper cat

do you want to change your name - I actually changed my last name two years ago to something of my choice

what did you do for your last birthday – Went to another state to visit my gf and we went to dinner

what time did you wake up today – 11:30am to go to class

what were you doing at midnight last night – Disassociating to music

what is something you can’t wait for – To not want to die every day, to not be so anxious talking to people that I hide in my room, and to live a stable life

what are you listening to right now – about to listen to Zant’s battle theme again

have you ever talked to a person named tom – Nope

something thats getting on your nerves – Myself and how useless and annoying I am

most visited website - Tumblr, Youtube, and WordReference 

hair colour – half pink and half brown

long or short hair – short

do you have a crush on someone – I still have a crush on my gf

what do you like about yourself – I guess I have a good memory

want any piercings? – I have 4 ear piercings (2 in each ear); I’d get more but I have such a low tolerance for pain (and bad grooming skills bc of depression so for sanitary’s sake I won’t)

blood type – I’d like to know myself but I can never get a doctor to tell me

nicknames – Jenny (all my other nicknames came from bad people so I can’t use them anymore)

relationship status - In a serious, committed relationship

zodiac - Pisces

pronouns - xe/xem/xyr

fave tv shows – Pokémon: Sun and Moon series, Great British Bake Off

tattoos – None but eventually I want some (again, going back to very low pain tolerance)

right or left handed - I use my right hand to draw and write but left hand for literally everything else, so I guess kinda both?

ever had surgery - Does wisdom teeth removal count?

piercings – 4 in my ears

sport – I don’t care for sports

drinking – I just finished a glass of coke

i’m about to watch – I’m just watching Youtube videos now bc I’m procrastinating on writing my French essay

waiting for – myself to get off Youtube and do my French essay

want - To be a normal human being and stop being so useless and obsessed over childish shit (seriously, when the fuck am I ever going to grow up? This is sad now)

get married – One day (to my gf ofc)

career – I’m in college to be a translator

which is better

hugs or kisses - I like both

lips or eyes - Eyes (fanfic cliché over here)

shorter or taller - Don’t care

older or younger - Any age is okay for friendships, but honestly anything outside of the 5 year range in relationships is super fucking gross

nice arms or stomach - Uhh paunches are nice

hookup or relationship - Relationship, only if it’s the right person tho, otherwise none

troublemaker or hesitant - uhhh...?

have you ever

kissed a stranger - Never

drank hard liquor - Nope

lost glasses - Not lost like super bad? Just misplaced them once

turned someone down - Never had someone ask me out that I wasn’t interested in (I’m not exactly desirable lmao)

sex on first date - How about no sex

broken someones heart - No

had your heart broken - Yeah

been arrested - Nope (my mother’s a police officer y’all know how bad that’d be??)

cried when someone died - Yes

fallen for a friend - My gf is my friend so???

do you believe in

yourself – No

miracles - No

love at first sight – No

santa claus - Yikes

kiss on a first date - Maybe?

angels - No

other

best friend’s name - Taylor

eye colour – Blue

fave movie - All Jurassic Park movies (including World), End of Evangelion, The Shape of Water, and some others but I can’t remember atm

fave actor – Don’t have any

As for tags, these are a lot of questions, so please don’t feel obligated to do this if it’s too daunting but @saphruikan, @tyrannobro, @jiggliesrufflestein, @kristinrebel, @vogelimkafig120, @howlingxhunters, and any other who see this and wanna do it

[tokidokifish]

THANK YOU EVERYONE that asked me dragon age questions for my birthday, i will now start answering them, tho i am always ready for more. [waggles eyebrows]

@audrey-scorne asked for 1, 9, 10 for surana/amell, @falsecargo asked for all ten for casrien, and @zwierzodudle asked for 3 for everyone so imma start with the brat because of course i am.

1. Did Surana/Amell have any memories of their life before the Circle? If so, what of? If not, how did they feel about not knowing where they’re from?

hahaaaa oh yes. i mean casrien was not young when his clan was wiped out, so he has like… the majority of a childhood being the happy son, and then first, of a keeper in a dalish clan. he still remembers the elvish that he was taught by his mother and managed to train himself in a form of magic the circle denies even exists (shapeshifting) because he started learning it before he was brought to the tower. i’m sure there were times, when things were very, very bad, that he wished he didn’t remember a time before, when he was happy and free, but it’s not like he’d actually trade those memories for anything, especially when that’s all that’s left - besides him - of his clan.

as an aside, i’ve integrated the idea that minaeve’s assertion that her clan abandoned her in the woods because they had too many mages wasn’t actually (just) a bullshit retcon to demonize the dalish and was instead propaganda fed to her by the circle until she believed it herself with casrien’s backstory to adopt the headcanon that minaeve was another survivor, and suffice to say he would be fucking HORRIFIED to learn what she thinks happened.

2. What was Surana/Amell’s relationship with Jowan like? What did they think of the revelation of him being a blood mage? and 9. Did Surana/Amell decide to help Jowan and Lily, or did they tell Irving of their plans? Why?

i’ve talked about this before - casrien didn’t particularly like jowan anymore than he liked anyone else, and he doesn’t even think jowan particularly liked HIM all that much in return, but jowan remembered what everyone else had forgotten about casrien: when casrien was first brought to the circle, he actively set things on fire. he escaped every chance he got, and was dragged back screaming, and he only stopped because they had started talking about things like tranquility. jowan didn’t particularly like casrien, but he asked for casrien’s help because casrien had the access jowan needed, and jowan was banking on him agreeing out of sheer, simmering resentment - which is exactly why casrien agreed. that’s why he always agrees, whether or not it’s a universe where duncan is around to bail him out when they get caught. (he also doesn’t particularly care about jowan being a blood mage, either, because as far as he’s concerned there’s no such thing as “evil magic”, simply evil people, and jowan is many things, but he’s not evil.)

as for why: when Irving puts on the disappointed grandfather voice and asks why casrien did it, casrien laughs in his fucking face. “you stole me from my people and trapped me here and you’re asking how i could I betray your trust? i may have learned how to pretend to be meek and submissive, but i am dalish. i do not forget, and i do not forgive.”

3. How prepared was Surana/Amell for their Harrowing?

i’d say as prepared as one could be for a secret test they literally don’t tell anyone anything about. i’ve always said that casrien thinks he’s a better mage than most of the other members of the circle, and in most cases is correct in thinking that, simply because he was brought up not fearing his magic, so it wasn’t like he was ever scared of it.

4. What was Surana’s/Amell’s reaction to first entering the Fade?

considering dragon age 2 shows the dalish have their own ritual that can send people into the fade, i imagine it was actually one of the first things his mother did when she took him on as a first, as an introduction to the nature of spirits and magic. it probably only happened the once, but i imagine his reaction to entering it during the harrowing was probably something to the tune of, “oh, of course this is what they would play up to be so dangerous.”

5. Did Surana/Amell believe in “Mouse?” What did they think of his story?

casrien didn’t believe he was a trapped apprentice, no, but he didn’t think he was a demon, either. apparently since inquisition made it clear that mortal expectations shape how spirits appear, there’s this idea that mouse wasn’t actually a demon but simply appeared that way because that’s what a scared apprentice would expect to face in the fade, and i’m down with that, so i imagine the conversation at the end of the harrowing actually went quite a bit differently, considering casrien wouldn’t have come into the situation with those expectations. probably something to the tune of “so is this the part where you turn out to be the actual demon testing me?” “well, that’s usually how it goes, but it doesn’t really seem worth the effort, if i’m being honest.”

6. How did Surana/Amell feel about living in the Circle?

well, i used to say casrien has mellowed out since i made him, but i recently realized i’ve just been figuring out what he’s actually like as opposed to the personality that formed due to, you know, the whole fucking imprisonment and abuse thing, so suffice to say he wasn’t super happy about the situation.

7. Did Surana/Amell favour a particular Fraternity? What did they think about Circle politics in general?

if he had any stake in the conversation, he would have probably been a resolutionist. fortunately for the chantry, however, casrien considered himself an elf first and a mage second, so he was always more interested in getting out of the circle and preferably back to his people than he was in the freedom for mages cause.

8. How did Surana/Amell feel about working with tranquil mages?

he… avoided it. there was actually a rumor in the circle that they had tried to make him tranquil, but something went wrong, and that’s why they had to keep letting him come to classes, but the fact is he just… numbed himself emotionally so he wouldn’t act out and risk ACTUALLY being made tranquil. there’s literally nothing he hates more than tranquility, nothing about the circle that infuriates or disgusts him more, so he avoids working with tranquil mages because there’s few things that test his carefully constructed facade as much, and he can’t afford that.

10.  How did Surana/Amell feel about returning to the Circle, and seeing it in chaos?

to be fair, there are versions of casrien that might be a little upset about the innocent mages that got killed, but warden casrien? the casrien that escaped the yoke of one organization just to be IMMEDIATELY put in another one? that casrien doesn’t have a fucking lot of sympathy to spare.

FINALLY, @wantedplantlife asked what my wardens thought of the awakening companions, so i’ll be answering that for everybody too.

after considerable thought (and, again, realizing what casrien is actually like, under the defensive misanthropy), i’ve realized anders would... probably have been the closest thing to a friend casrien had in the circle, though i SERIOUSLY doubt they were allowed to spend much time with one another, so i imagine he would have been pleased to see him again AND have the opportunity to make sure anders never had to go back to the circle. 

on the other hand, i bet casrien and nathaniel had a BIG fukkin problem with one another at first, because yeah, nate, he killed your dad, but your dad was a murderous scumbag who was selling elves into slavery so casrien isn’t gonna have a lot of apologies or regret to offer.

it would take a stronger man than casrien to dislike sigrun, and he’s always been more inclined to get along with non-human races, since they never imprisoned him in a tower, so i imagine he’s quite fond of her.

i’ve mentioned before that casrien doesn’t get all... solas about spirits, so i imagine he was just fine with justice, as opposed to like... super close conversation partners, or anything. 

as for velanna, an angry elven first attacking humans? honestly, #mood.

seriously though, casrien would be... so fucking close to velanna. like holy shit. i mean his best friend in origins was morrigan, and this is like morrigan except OH YEAH, casrien and velanna are even more alike. it’s nice to think about.

and oghren is... well, probably the last person from origins that casrien would have wanted to be palling around with again. rip.

[seraph-shield]

i don't understand why mineta exists. his whole personality is: pervert. how is that okay? what's the appeal to fans? why does horikoshi want to have fans like that? does he actually want fans to relate to mineta? is horikoshi actually that gross and perverted himself that he thinks it's NOT weird? don't even get me STARTED on momo's character design! her quirk is so powerful! as a reader, i'm interested by her faltering self worth, but seriously? i can't NOT look at her boobs. am i just niaïve?

Hey there. I’ve had this ask for a while, thinking about how to answer it. I usually try to keep negativity off this blog. These are my opinions too of course. I don’t make excuses for any of these problems. I don’t agree with them. But idk I just don’t post about them a lot? I try not to let the negatives keep me from enjoying everything else that is really great. Because there are negatives literally everywhere, and it is too exhausting for me to think about them continuously. But I’ll go ahead and use this ask to let my word out lolol

I completely, totally agree that mineta is a huge rotten perverted scumbag, and I greatly await the day that he learns his fucking lesson. Like major repercussions, not just funny quips from various characters to temporarily put him in his place. How is it okay for a person like this to be a hero? When his actions and comments would make literally over half the population very uncomfortable? I would literally rather be crushed to death in the hands of a villain than for a pro hero mineta to lay his hands on me. I want Aizawa to lay into him man, I want to see it so bad.

I’m not sure where horikoshi is going with him tbh? Based on some of his comments i’ve seen, he seems like a but of a perv himself tbh. He probably is putting his own hidden humor within mineta. As well as that, Mineta unfortunately DOES represent a specific type of 15 year old boy. If you have a class of newly pubescent teen boys, there are at least a few that are just as bad as him, unfortunately :/ However, I don’t think the fans are suppose to relate to him? And least the majority of them. It is a thing meant for comic relief, which is disgusting bc perverseness is in no way ok or laughable. But to look at mineta in the most optimistic way i can think of: maybe we are supposed to find more humor/relatableness in the way other characters react to him? Since we all know ppl like him, maybe its a feel good thing like what I wouldn’t give to slap some pervs the way tsuyu does smh. This doesn’t seem realistic tho. hhh. 

On Momo, she is probably my favorite girl tbh. I love her quirk. I love her strengths and her weaknesses. There’s a lot I can identify with within her character. I love all of her character except the character design itself. And I don’t think it’s naive of you, since they are RIGHT THERE it could be a little hard not to? I think her costume design wouldn’t be that bad if she wasn’t a LITERAL CHILD. Like as an adult, who consents to it and understands what it would mean, with her quirk it would make sense to have the chest within easy access. Boobs are just giant stores of fat basically, and they would probably logically provide a lot of use to her quirk. (Functionally would make A LOT more sense to at least have a fucking bra and maybe a zipper too goddamn) But this is definitely not an excuse for this sort of design to be used on a 15 year old girl. Not at all. And being ‘logical’ doesn’t come first in this situation when it is clear that the design is obviously sexualizing her as well.

Momo herself doesn’t seem to think twice about it though. This contrasts to how Ochako was really self-conscious when she first got her hero suit and saw how tight it was. Shes young and sheltered enough that maybe she wouldn’t yet realize the implications? Or find them annoying enough not to be bothered. I dunno. This still definitely is not an excuse though, and kind of insulting to Momo to assume she would be that ignorant to society. imo, it should be like, a school rule, that the hero suits cant be provocative in anyway until they are graduated/are an adult smh. 

(It’s also problematic how Hagakure is literally fucking naked just for the oh no! someone accidentally touched my boob! jokes. i wish quirks weren’t used as an excuse to sexualize)

all in all, sexualization of girls and general perverted jokes are a HUGE problem in anime/manga tbh. I can’t think of a single shonen anime that isn’t bad with this. except maybe fma but I’m sure there’s SOMEthing but tbh, looking from a distance, bnha isn’t AS bad as most shows are, as far as I can tell? The physical designs are bad in a few cases, but the perverted comments are at least contained within the one character -.- that’s why i typically just ignore it and focus on the better parts. I love bnha; it doesn’t stop me from seeing the negativities, but I also don’t let them ruin the show for me. This turned into the length of a small essay but i don’t care, I’ve never posted my thoughts about this before now.