#in 2023 it was literally 2 days before my cat died

[reinemichele]

Man whose fucking idea was it to adjust my medication 2 days before I petsit for 2 weeks (slash sarcastic)

It wasn't working before, I was sleeping 14 hrs a day on what I was previously on, but this is day 4 of weaning myself off and day 2 of petsitting and I feel like cuh-rying . I could go into detail, but I don't want to bc I know it's mainly the adjustment and I just need to weather it 🥲

[bellascool]

I wish I never existed Pablo Gavi imagine

Posted : 29/01/2023

Posted : 29/01/2023

My life is so damn worthless.

I was standing on the edge of a cliff, watching the large city of Barcelona, thinking about leaving everything in that city and starting a new life alone.

I have a girlfriend, dating her for 2 years now. She's wonderful, she helps me when I feel down but I just wanted to be alone right now.

Everything was good in my life, I was good with money, my love situation was nice too, my family loves me and I have a nice career on football but I still wanted to leave everything behind me.

"Damn, I wish everyone could just forget about me like I never existed." I said to myself, watching the large city by night.

I suddenly felt a heavy headache come from nowhere as I sat down, feeling deezy. My eyes slowly shut down and everything went dark.

When I opened my eyes, it was still night and it seemed like nothing changed, I checked my phone to see the time, it was 19:32 (7:32pm), damn only 10 minutes passed.

I went back to where I parked my car to only find a vacant parking spot.

Oh shit. Don't tell me my car got stolen please.

After some minutes of searching, I gave up. My car was definitely stolen.

I walked to my shared apartment with Y/n, which was 10 minutes away.

What a nice day. I want to disappear, someone stole my car, it's cold and my phone died.

As I was walking, I saw a familiar shape.

"Pedri!" I yelled, running up to him but when I taped his shoulder, I was met by an unknown look.

Definitely not Pedri.

"Oh I'm sorry I thought you were someone I know." I apologized, the man just nodded and kept on walking.

After some minutes, I finally arrived at my apartment but when I tried to put my keys on the lock, it just didn't work. 

Oh well, maybe I didn't pay attention and took the wrong keys.

I knocked on the door, waiting for Y/n to open and greet me with a hug as she always did, but instead all I got was a strange gaze.

"Y/n!" I said with a smile, leaning to kiss her but she took a step back

"Excuse me but do I know you?" She said, still suspicious 

Okay now what the actual fuck

"Nice joke, amor, but I won't fall for it" I said chuckling a bit but immediately stopped when I saw her serious face 

"I'm sorry but I really don't know who you are, maybe you went to the wrong person? And how do you know my name?" She asked with a confused tone

"We're literally dating, stop with your joke Y/n. I don't find it funny." I finally said with a serious face

"Yeah sure we're dating and I'm the queen of Spain. Now if you'll excuse me, I have something to do. Have lovely night." She tried to close the door but I stopped it by putting my foot, starting to panic.

"Look, please let me in and I'll explain to you." I begged, she seemed to hesitate before letting me in

It was cosy and sophisticated, just like her. She always loved when everything was clean and I always loved to take her to expensive hotels when I had a match, the smile on her face seeing how clean it was had no value for me.

I sat down on the couch as she did the same with the opposite one.

"So.." She started, waiting for me to continue

"Look, we've been dating for 2 years, you love cats, specially when they have long hair, you also love baking cupcakes, red velvet are you favorites. You always have a cinnamon candle in your room because it reminds you of your mother, Angelina. You absolutely love visiting new places and going to the beach helps you when you had a hard day." I said in one time, my eyes filling up with tears as I watched her confused face turning into a sad one. 

She sighed

"I don't know how you know that much about me but I do not know you! I don't even know what's your name and I don't have a single memory with you. I'm really sorry." She sadly said "But maybe if you tell me what happened before coming there, I'll have some memories?" Her eyes met mines, small smile on her face

"I'm Pablo Gavi, remember? I had a shitty day, I messed everything at training and even got mad at Pedri for nothing." I took a pause, regretting everything I've done before continuing "When I came home, you baked me some chocolate chips cookies, you always add some cinnamon in them because you love the taste." I smiled to myself, thinking that I had an amazing girlfriend "But I fucked up again, I didn't pay a single attention to you and just got out." tears almost rolled down my cheeks as I spoke, feeling like shit for treating my girlfriend like that. "I drove to the nearest cliff and wished that I never existed. Then I just fainted and when I woke up, my car was gone and the key I had for our apartment didn't work so here I am." I finally said, a single tear dropping from my eye. 

She looked at me with a sad face before looking down

"Look, Pablo, I have something to tell you." She marked a pause before continuing "Pedri, he died months ago, he was hit by a bus and didn't make it." 

What. 

My sad face changed into a shocked one, I couldn't believe it.

"And.. you're telling me that you play for the Barcelona team but.. There's no Pablo Gavi in there. And finally I'm so sorry but I'm already dating someone. His name is Joao Felix and we've been together for a year and half now." She said, feeling bad as she looked at her feet

My heart broke into several pieces, tears were now covering my red cheeks as I took my head in my hands

Why? What did I do? How?

I lost my bestfriend, my dream job and the woman of my life who's now dating a guy that I hate.

I just couldn't believe it.

She stood up and sat next to me, hugging me.

"Look, I'm so sorry for you, I do believe everything you told me and maybe if you came back to that cliff it will go back?" She said stroking my back

Maybe she was right?

I stood up and took her hands on mines "Y/n, even though you don't remember me, I promise that everything will go back. It'll be fine." I said before leaving her alone, running to that cliff.

I climbed and saw someone standing in the edge, the same position as me a hour before

"Hello?" I said, suspiciously

"Why are you crying Pablo? Isn't what you wanted?" He asked me, turning to face me

"No! I don't want that, I regret it, I want everything back! I want Pedri to live, I want Bella to love me, not Joao! I want to play to play for Barca again! Please!"

I yelled, falling into my knees

"Pablo, you wanted the world to be as if you never existed thinking your existence was worthless. But look, if you never existed, Pedri would be dead, you were the one who saved him from the bus accident. If you never existed, Y/n would've fallen for another one, for someone who would love her cookies after a harsh day and of course, you wouldn't play for Barca. Isn't that what you wanted, Pablo?" He calmly said looking down at me

"No, I didn't mean it. I promise I'll never get mad at Pedri for nothing, I promise I'll treat Y/n like she's the last woman on the hearth. I'll never get mad at her again. I promise, I'll always do my best! Please just give me back my old life!" I whispered, not knowing if he heard me or not.

I suddenly felt a cold breeze hit my soaked cheeks and when I looked up again, the man was gone.

After some minutes of sobbing, I got up, wiped my tears and went down.

Suddenly, I noticed something on the parking slot.

It was my car!!

I ran, unlocking it with my key, a hopeful smile on my face.

I drove as fast as I could to my apartment and when I parked, I noticed a familiar shape.

I ran up and jumped on his back, tears filling my eyes.

"Pedri! Oh I missed you so much, my bestfriend." I said hugging him tightly

He chuckled, hugging me back "What happened buddy, weren't you supposed to be mad at me?"

"Fuck that, I'm so glad to see you again." I smiled

"I'm glad too then, I'm happy to see you but I have to do something now. I'll see you tomorrow" he said before going to his car

I ran upstairs and took out my keys, praying that they'll work. I put them on the lock before opening wide the door.

A sweet cinnamon smell filling my nose as I heard Cinnamon girl by Lana Del Rey play

"Pablo? Is that you?" Y/n came from the kitchen a sad smile on her face "I'm so sorry for earlier, I didn't mean to hurt y-" I cut her off by hugging her tightly as if she would disappear if I let her go 

"No. I'm sorry for getting mad at you, I'm so happy to have you as my girlfriend and I wouldn't change it for the world. I love you so much, you don't have an idea of how much I missed you" I said happy to have her in my arms

She laughed, hugging me back "I'm so happy to have you too, Pablo. I baked you some red velvet cupcakes to comfort you" 

I chuckled, breaking the hug to look at her

She's there and she loves me.

"I'll be honored to try them." I said a big smile on my face before grabbing her chin and connecting our lips on a soft and passionate kiss, placing my other hand on her hip

I stopped the kiss, still smiling "Come on now let's try your cupcakes, I'd like to see if you put cinnamon in them." I said taking her hand

"I did! They taste soooo good, it reminds me of-"

"Your mom's cupcakes." I said cutting her

"Exactly!" She laughed before handing me one

I wouldn't change my life for anything in this world.

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Hi! This is my first time posting an imagine so forgive my mistakes :)

Also, this is inspired by someone, I don’t remember who but as soon as I find it I’ll put the credits!

[technicallypalewombat]

I loved the film monster 2023 so much. I've been thinking about it the entire day. Before I make any efforts to move on i want to leave my take on the ending here. After watching the movie twice and the final scenes more times than I can count I've come to the following conclusions. Either:

1. Minato and Yori are dead and the final scene could be purely imaginary. I've read numerous analysis and although many have spoken/written about the director mentioning that they are both alive this assumption still stands considering the ambiguity of the ending.

2. The two boys have entered a non-metaphorical, literal realm separate from their real world (emphasis on the non-metaphorical) - in this case the assumption that the characters are alive and didn't die, as most of us would like to believe, is a possibility. Given, the realm in question does exist. Although this would shift the movie from a realistic to a fantasy coded film and I'm not sure that's something the director was going for.

3. Afterlife - the boys are dead and the final scene takes place in afterlife where the gate previously present no longer exists depicting freedom.

Now I know and as most people would like to point out that Yori asks if they had been reborn to which Minato states that they were still the same meaning their bodies were still the same as before i.e they are still humans with the same features from before . Nothing had changed atleast not physically. This is a reference to multiple scenes in the movie where the characters particularly the boys talk of rebirth and that once you die you are not longer you. A cat once dead is no longer a cat and one could be reborn but as a different creature which, for instance, in case of minato's father : a stinkbug/giraffe/horse or whatever creature sans human (in relation to a conversation between Minato and his mom). Atleast that's what the kids believe (and that is the only thing that matters in this scenario). Therefore in their terms, Not losing their physical body=They haven't been reborn=They aren't dead. So yes, maybe they had died. Because not being reborn i.e retaining their physical bodies doesn't necessarily mean they're alive. Or maybe not. Maybe they hadn't died. Whatever the reality of the end is maybe we'll never really know. Maybe the genuine happiness and delight on their faces at the end as they ran.. maybe that's all that matters.

[tenpintsof-sundrop]

Can we please have a more detailed story about how you got your cat?? I'm intrigued now!! (Also what's their name and could we please have a picture 🥺)

Aah I love that you're intrigued now 🥰

His name is Leo - and I actually just remembered that it's the one year anniversary of when I got him omg!!!!!!

Cause we got him on July 1st last year and my parents were freaking out because it's Canada Day long weekend and all the stores were closed and they were like "where the fuck are we gonna get cat food and a litter box" - and they ended up taking a random storage bin that we had and cutting a notch out of the side so that Leo could step into it because he was so small 😭

So here is a picture of him now vs a picture when we first got him:

He is so big and FAT now 🥰

So the full story is:

We had another cat - we actually had 2 cats at the same time and unfortunately one of them passed away in 2020 and one of them passed in April 2023. And everyone in our house was really mourning because in 3 year span we went from a 2 cat household to an empty mourning 0 cat household and all of us were really upset. So at the time, my sister was dating someone and it was a very unserious relationship. They had been on like 2 or 3 dates, and my sister randomly called me "you have to come outside, you have to come see this"

And my first instinct was that someone was in danger - and so I put on my slippers and ran outside and my sister was holding this little grey kitten. Because her girlfriend had heard that our cat passed away and that we were all sad bitches about it and she just - acquired a cat? I still know incredibly minimal about where Leo came from.

(And don't worry - we have taken great care of him. He has gotten all of his vet visits and shots and he has gotten fixed before turning a year old.)

The only thing I really know about his backstory is that his birthday is May the Fourth - Star Wars day, and his name was Luke Skywalker before we got him. And we named him Leo because at the time we got him I was obsessively watching the Ninja Turtles and I told my sister a good name would be after one of the Turtles. So technically he's named after Leonardo from the Ninja Turtles.

And like I said - he was SOOO tiny and because our other cat passing away really gutted us, we got rid of a lot of his cat items really soon after his passing, so we didn't have any cat bowls, we didn't have a litter box, we didn't have any extra litter - all we had was a few of the old cat toys. And I fully thought that my mom was gonna be like "we have to take him to a shelter because I can't emotionally handle having another cat right now"

But my mom held him in her arms and she was like "oh, he's so small... WE NEED A LITTER BOX" and then she shoved him back in my arms and ran out the door and found one of the only open stores. And she got him litter and kitten food and we had to makeshift a litter box

And the first weeks with him was literally like having an infant baby - because he couldn't be left alone AT ALL. Because he kept trying to eat paper and chew on cords and if someone babysitting him fell asleep he would get mad and lick your face until you woke up - because he thought if you fell asleep you died.

But yeah - he's my boy. He's my baby. I love him to death and I spoil him and I wouldn't have it any other way

[nathaniel-donovan]

Filled the hole in my head with prescriptive medication, and I forgot how to cry, who am I, who am I to complain.

FULL BIO HERE.

BACKGROUND. (tw: emotional abuse, depression, substance abuse, death mentions)

Second child to Harold and Meredith Donovan; was always pushed to follow in his father's footsteps, with an idealization (on Harold's part) for him to inspire to gain a career within law enforcement.

If Nate could have chosen his own path in life, he would have succeeded the title of aerospace engineer, being that he always had a fascination of building/fixing things, combining that with his love for space his dream was to work for NASA. To be able to say I built that was always a teenage goal, one that was quickly stamped out by his emotionally abusive alcoholic father.

He dove into the educational path set out for him in fear of disappointing his father, becoming depressed during his late teens that carried on into his twenties, enrolling in the police academy and it was there he gained an injury that (fortunately on reflection) had him incapable of performing his daily tasks. Something that spiralled into an identity crisis, kick starting his drop out from the police force and awakening full vocal disapproval from Harold, he also became reliant on OxyContin at this time.

Found himself diving into an intense toxic love with an ex gf when he was 22. They were equally good for each other as they were bad. This relationship was pivotal to Nate in the sense of him choosing to remain on the single side of life once they broke up after years of dating.

At 23 he joined the Hellraisers as a prospect, with Leon Best (former MC President) giving him the push he needed to do so, in turn he learned the true meaning of family. His loyalty to the Sons knew no bounds, even despite Nate constantly pushing through everyday on softer drugs.

A few years later he turned to harder drugs (with his ex) and it wasn't until his sister, Logan found him unresponsive that she called 911, kick starting Nate's journey to sobriety (a sobriety he became lenient with, in terms of limiting himself to 2 beers if he wanted so).

When he was 28 his mother died in a car accident, days before he had a disagreement with her and the last thing he ever said to his mom was "No", something he regrets and cannot move on from.

Nate has owned The Raven for five years; the high-end strip club being his legitimate business.

In 2023 his sister, Cassie Donovan, died and Nate began to struggle with the mental toll of her loss, blaming himself with the burden of not doing enough to help her with her own substance abuse issues. He relapsed and started leaning onto the pills he was taking and finding comfort in the form of alcohol. Since hitting rock bottom, Nate has been trying to pick himself back up from the ground and his aim is to keep to his sobriety and have no leniencies. Nate is trying to focus on himself, find himself, and remain clear headed for the family that surrounds him.

HEADCANONS.

Has a one-eyed silver Maine Coon called Chip. Nate ensured the life of this cat was saved and has had and adored Chip for four years. He would literal die for this cat. His sister, Logan, got him an orange cat called Cheddar for Christmas '23.

Avid boxer, as well as gym-goer. These activities helps him not only to stay fit, but he finds they help him mentally.

He was a massively into Pokémon when he was younger.

His mom used to called him Nathan, as well as her "little monkey", a nod to that is the cute monkey tattoo he has on his (right) inner wrist. Adding to this he has a full tattoo sleeve (right arm), as well as the Sons reaper on his back. Also has an Aquarius constellation tattoo on his (right) inner wrist as a nod to his ex gf (his first personal tattoo).

His middle name is Joseph.

[daysofourlivesrecaps]

Monday, 12 June 2023

Today was an old lady heavy day on Days. And that suits me, because this show has at least half a dozen fantastic old ladies.

First, though: Dead Wife Chad visits the grave of Abigail (his dead wife) on the one-year anniversary of her death.

Which means this is also the one-year anniversary of when I started watching! But I doubt he knows that. He enjoys even one quiet, contemplative moment here and if there’s one person who absolutely cannot abide that happening…

…it’s Julie.

In fairness, she does offer to leave, but Chad asks her to stick around. Which is entirely fair because it’s much easier to do all those tearful monologues with someone else in the scene with you.

Chad admits that when Julie first showed up, he thought it may have been Abigail’s ghost. Probably because that actually happened when he came here upon discovering who killed her last September.

And then again last Christmas when the angel at the top of her family’s Christmas tree came to life and it was her.

(She also appeared to her mother just before she ran over Gwen, whom Abigail despised in life. Lest we start to take the ���angel” talk too literally.

This was a genuinely creepy-as-fuck scene because Jennifer was whacked out on painkillers and Abigail just sat there in the car with her and didn't say a word.)

So Chad’s not entirely out of line thinking he may have encountered an Abighost at the Abigrave. Then Julie winds up to quote Hamlet at him.

But it’s that same tired line everyone quotes from Hamlet. Seriously, Julie? You couldn’t have pulled my favorite one about the hawk and the handsaw?

Then Chad realizes he needs to get on with his life (the third or fourth time he’s had this realization onscreen) and removes his wedding ring.

Oh right, over in another, largely inconsequential set of scenes, Alex mentions to Stephanie that Chad (his former — and possibly current? — romantic rival) hasn’t taken off his ring. So now he has. Take that, Alex. Also, take that, Chad’s grieving process.

At the newspaper, Xander and Chloe are still a thing.

Then Old Lady #2 (Maggie) shows up and inexplicably offers Xander a job at Titan. Specifically Alex’s old job at Titan. Which was an extremely senior position.

This is inexplicable because Xander not only kidnapped two women (one of whom died as an indirect result of this and also had a cat named after her in my household) somewhat recently, but also seriously broke Maggie’s daughter (Sara)’s heart.

Speaking of Sara, Bonnie (Old Lady #3, wearing David Byrne’s Stop Making Sense jacket) manages to keep the secret of her pregnancy (by Xander) for all of one scene change.

She does at least convince her husband Justin to take her on as a legal client and hands him $1 first. You know, the old “attorney-client privilege” routine. But still, Bonnie. Come on.

Then Maggie enters, having overheard a bunch of this, and Bonnie makes up some clumsy lie about her own daughter being pregnant. After she leaves, Justin hilariously suggests that Bonnie’s daughter had better hurry up and get pregnant to protect that lie.

Well, I thought it was funny.

Back at the Salem Inn, Dimitri is about to knock Leo’s block off (and Leo, unsurprisingly, interprets this as a sex thing.)

Then Gwen returns home and demands a stop to this nonsense at once. Because they have nonsense of their own to be getting to.

Then Dimitri gets a text from Megan reminding him that he needs to keep Gwen happy because he’s supposed to be seducing her into marrying him.

Then they sit down for their interview and Gwen gets progressively thirstier as this goes on so I think this evil plot has a pretty solid chance of actually happening!