#im worried about maya and my mom!!

[loveeari]

why i think riley erica matthews is misunderstood and overheated

and no you can't change my mind

Source? me watching girl meets world from the very first episode and its release when i was like 14 or 15 and now im 18.

one thing that i always always alwayssss will hate about how people characterize riley is her treating maya like some passion project or a pet. i can't put into words how mad this makes me feel because honestly its always maya maya maya. like i get it the girl had a hard life her dad left her, her mom is a waitress and is not home all the time. like I GET IT, and the whole identity crisis bs that happened.

yeah i hated that storyline but honestly i wasn't as mad and pissed about as you guys are making it our to be.

Riley's a worrier like its in her nature she worries about like everything and may i remind you like how everyone likes to remind me

RILEY WAS A TEENAGE

OMG BIG SHOCK FANATASTIC DISCOVERY

what did ya'll expect???? like genually

maya had acted a set ways for a period of time and riley was always there for through the highs and low. the friendship wasn't always as one sided as you guys made it out to. sure there absolutely needed to be told to the girls that there relationship was a bit unhealthy that there are lines that are crossed blah blah blah. that's a whole nother thing.

broski like im confused WERE WE WATCHING THE SAME SHOW????????

maya supported riley

riley supported maya

when the whole thing happened with lucas and that weird love triangle riley tried to make sure that lucas and maya could happen and that blew up in her face and they were like what 15???

hoenstly i just wanna know why you guys always alwyas alwayssss make excuses for maya??

i don't see people point out that she made disparaging comments to lucas, no you would retaliate that it was "enemies to lovers" and its that cute back and forth banter

ok...

but when the riley reacted the way she did when maya was supposedely turning into her or whatever and yall talked about destorying maya's self esteem and making her seem like irredemable bitch whose just the same sad and lonely girl as before.

bro the same riley who WANTED for maya to get her happy ending

the same riley who schemed to get mayas mom and shawn together

the same fucking girl who kept her bay window open and her family so maya could have a genuine support system, people who fed her clothed her gave her a living space without expecting ANYTHING in return at like what seven or something.

THAT GIRL???????

:(

[meowsticmarvels]

im curious. who are your fav characters from each mainline persona game that you have played 🤔🤔 (take this as an invitation to ramble about them)

YIPEEEEEEEE here we go will be long so im hiding it under a readmore again. also since you said mainline im not including toshiro or eri but you Know...... im abnorma, abt them

i have NOT played p1 and i've just barely started p2is (though ive watched snippets of someone elses's playthrough) but i will say. based on my limited knowledge i rly like hidehiko, ayase, naoya, tatsuya, jun, eikichi, yukino, maya, and lisa

p3 and p4 are difficult bc theyre the ones im the most autistic abt and the main entire casts as a whole are comforts for me. but anyways. going to talk about p3 first Yes I Will Include SLs too. im abnormal. top 3 main insaners for p3 though are akihiko, yukari, and junpei. for me

makoto/minato sooo so gender envy. im obsessed with his design a lot. his character i do also like hes a little goofy and so mecore but mainly his design is something i love a lot

same with kotone. also love how she has a sort of distinct personality that you can tell with slight dialogue changes that her counterpart doesnt say. shes rly real. love reload but i miss her...

as stated yukari's one of my favs. she didnt Use to be (i did like her but Not as much) but she's slowly become one and man. i love that silly girl. her haters will not survive the winter actually. it does piss me off though because like. yeah shes not perfect no character rly is but she's a traumatized mentally ill teenage girl with a dead dad and a neglectful mom cut her some slack maybe? god forbid women do anything. idk. but im obsessed with her. her character is actually so interesting to me and not a lot of people talk about it? like her whole fear of death causing issues with summoning her persona like at the beginnning, her dad being involved with the kirijo groups shit, how she puts on a cheerful front but is actually deeply really lonely :(, her kinda playful insult friendship with junpei (deep down they do care abt eachother. i wish that was explored more. i found a rly good fic abt it once.) and etc etc. idrk what to say but shes sooo. i also love how she initially HATES mitsuru and is super jealous of her and then. Well. gay tension is real. anyways shes a transfem lesbian to me btw. yukamitsu ftw

junpei's also become one of my favs. somehow. in a similar vein to yukari in that he wasn't initially my main fav character but i think his character's also pretty interesting and has. a lot of unexplored potential. he's very silly and i love him for that a lot but something i don't see many people talk about is like. his Issues. like yeah hes silly but he's also got some fucked up self-worth issues!!! remember the scene on 5/9 where he kinda gets really upset and goes off on his own and stuff. for example. like i think him being imperfect and having these moments where he's NOT cheerful and goofy all the time and actually deeply really jealous of you because he feels that fighting's all he's good for and he's not worth much else is what makes him interesting. do you get it. like him being tbe silly funny guy isn't all he is as a person yk!!!!! also as far as characterization I point a lot to the scene where yukari's more than willing to go confront the people in the alley while junpei's worried, or scene near the end of the game where yukari teases junpei and he snaps at her, confessing that while he doesn't show it he really is terrified. they all are, at that point. yk what I mean? also people don't acknowledge his trauma with his father enough (maybe because it's only really discussed at all in femc's route... his SL is so good but not enough ppl see it... BUR YEAH did not think I'd go off on a tangent about junpei fucking iori tonight but he's real. hashtag brokeback tartarus. also he's an adhder to me. (oh yeah also want to point out this line in his SL where he says "maybe I have anxiety or something". yeah. that's a line!)

akihiko fucking sanada. ohhhh man. this guy. where do i even START. he's so so crazy like what if your local high school upperclassman boxing champion guy was also really gay for his dying childhood friend and autistic as hell and also traumatized. and he's doing boxing in the first place to overcompensate because the death of his sister made him fear losing anyone else again snd he needs to feel like he has power. he needs control. yk? like this guy made me insane for like several months straight in 2023 and he still makes me ill. to this day. as you can probably tell by my distaste for people seeing yukari and junpei at face value you can probably gather that I hate the protein jokes and i Do. he said it like. Once in p3. it never rly was funny????? and what they did in spinoffs esp p4a to just make him look like a gym rat and nothing more makes me upset bc of the REASON he's obsessed with fighting. he's not just a dumb jock (he also isn't dumb lol he canonically scores very high on his exams) he's overworking himself because feelings of self doubt from trauma have caused him to feel the need to overcompensate so he never loses anyone again. you know? it would've been interesting to see him relapse in p4a if theyd actually done it well. like he doesnt rly give himself time or room to grieve in game (theres rhat onw scene on 10/5 and then he barely talks about it again. man i wish it was developed more...) so realizing that grieving isnt a linear process that he can just repress for a long time and even years after it can still hurt would go INSANE. but no they just turned him into i love protein joke number 20. okay!!! (im very angry) thinking about when my non persona friend after hearing me explain some of the plot described p3 as like a greek tragedy because like. damn. he and shinji were doomed from the start with personas like polydeuces and castor huh. anyways. yeah. continuing writing now that i've watched october 4th in reload AND akihiko's breakdown as a reuslt and i wanna scream and cry and throw up that will be for another post but ooh man it mad eme cry like 3 times. and I KNOEW WHAT HAPPENS. THEYRE SOOOOOOOOOO if you know me im an insane akishinji truther. im just. i wanna talk abt other charactrs so ill stop here but always ask me about akihiko + akishinji + ships i like in general. i am really normal. oh btw transmasc akihiko is forever real to me. also he's autistic and a ptsder. to me (tbf what persona character Doesnt have some form of truama but like. this guy in particular). up there with my highest blorbos

i dooont wanna go on for too long abt every other character in p3 so ill keep this next part short and sweet but if u wanna hear me talk more abt any of them. feel free to. starting with fuuka i love he rmy transfem autistic girlie who has every disease. i also love mitsuru a lot who i Wish had people acknowledge her deeper aspects more. like. she was experimented on and also very sheltered and also a little bit of a girlfail. shes not fully the girlboss you all say she is shes also just a teenage girl!!!!!!!!!! koromaru can do no wrong hes forever the best. i love that dog. ken makes me so so sad he is just a kid!!! what the hell!!!!!! :(. and oh man. shinji. guy who is so wracked with guilt. guy that is dying no matter what happens. guy that dies in his lover's arms

as far as non-sees characters. i rly like strega. esp jin and chidori. dont think abt them enough. also as far as SLs i like keisuke, hidetoshi, bunkichi and mitsuko, kazushi, yuko, and etc etc...i need to see rio and saoris links too they look real. oh also i LOVE ryoji

p4 time !!!!!!

again gonna cut this short so i can actually Fit it all in one post. but wow. i do like all of the IT so so much but im just focusing on my favs. anyways i love yu so much his autistic swagger esp in the animation is amazing. like he is not a "chad" he's just an autistic teenager. ok. also the animation broke me when nanako gets kidnapped he sounds fucking distraught there. love when people delve into yu's issues also bc hes a bit fucked up but Man. ouch. just like me fr tho

i love yosuke in a similar way to why I like junpei because he's kind of a loser /pos snd has some insane issues that his shadow delves into that are Kind of Insane for the FIRST shadow of the game. like ok damn. i really do love his social link in general tho his was the first one I maxed out in my (unfinished because i didn't want to finish it) p4g playthrough so!!!!! many things wrong with him and also the lgbt community has forgiven yosuke hanamura. also similarly to junpei he's adhd as hell. souyo ftw

naotos probably my fav p4 character I think which is Pretty Painful Sometimes. sometimes I need to kill both other persona fans and atlus if ykwim. but anyways i hc him as transmasc for one thing but also if atlus weren't cowards and actually made his story abt rhat it would've hit so hard. his shadow in general is often overlooked apart from that bc what about the part where he talks about being mistreated by others and feeling utterly alone and not allowing himself to act like a kid!!!! it fucks me up!!! he's also super autism btw like god damn. but YEAH point is I love naoto so much and i hate how both some fans and atlus tjemself treat him because his whole arc and shadow had the potential to be super compelling

apart from who i listed above i do like the rest of the IT so much they're such silly friends (i love you chie i love you yukiko i love you kanji i love you rise i love you teddie.). can't think of any SLs off the top of my head that were crazy but I do like daisuke and kou. OH ALSOO the dojimas..... 😢💧😢😢💧 love them

p5 time :3 I'm into it less so than p3 or p4 but Still

yusuke's my favorite p5 character probably. i domt know what it is apart from the common trend of my favs being autistic as hell (see: akihiko and naoto) but he's like. such a fucked up guy. he's traumatized. he loves art. something is deeply wrong with him. obsessed with this gug

i also do like ren/akira, ryuji, futaba, and also mishima (unfortunately. but in my defense there is something deeply wrong with him slash positive). i don't know a lot abt all of p5's confidants but i like iwai I think.... this reminded me I need to make more progress in p5 what the hell. i miss you futaba (i haven't even got to her palace yet im still on kaneshiros LOL)

but YEAH! thank you for asking!!! from the ones I've played my top favs are akihiko + naoto + yusuke respectively so👍👍👍 loved answering this :3 if u have any thoughts on a particular character feel free to ask and ill elaborate :3

[dykesbites]

ok im gonna focus my anger on to something else. anyways i rewatched night at the museum with my mom and it reminded me of how great the original one was and how god awful the sequel was. like yeah there were some iffy things in the first movie (larry going "civil war guys stop fighting slavery is bad" and they immediately stop fighting and agree with him + the romans and the cowboy miniatures allowed to roam free while the maya are locked up + avid bison hunter teddy roosevelt dating sacagawea + despite their incredibly rich history there's zero black people present etc) but overall the film itself was fun and had a plotline that made sense. it was cheesy and kind of obvious but its a kids movie. then the sequel happened.

ohh my god this movie was so so so bad. like racist/misogynistic bad but also narratively unsatisfying. the worst crime to me was that they literally removed almost all of the old iconic characters from the first film? teddy only shows up in the beginning and the end, ahkmenrah is completely irrelevant, scagawea and attila are locked up most of the time, jed is stuck in the hourglass...none of them have any importance to the actual action despite being THE reason that larry returns to the museum!!

oh and larry totally ditches his son like nick gives him a bunch of information then he loses service on his phone and then...never attempts to contact him again. this poor kid is probably worried sick that his father is being killed by lions or sabretooth tigers.

second worst thing to do with characters: literally all of the new characters were so so incredibly boring, and also didn't have like. a theme around them? it just felt so messy and thrown together, lacking the cohesion that everyone at the natural history museum had. none of the villains have much in common with each other either... and like im not a history expert but i find it very hard to imagine that al capone would work with royalty like come on. oh and kahmunrah was so boring, no real motivations at all. also whyyy is there an octopus.

actually i lied this is probably a worse crime. the mischaracterization of historical figures. i feel like im watching fucking hamilton here! im sorry but napoleon would not give a shit about larry and amelia's potential relationship and that joke wasn't even that funny anyway. WHY DID ABRAHAM LINCOLN ACT LIKE THAT (he was much more tolerable when he came back to the rescue but he was so awful when we met him). the einsteins were annoying. i could go on and on brother

ok moving away from bad writing to address the stuff that's just morally messed up. um. everything about general custer oh my fucking god. i will never forgive them for making sacagawea put up with his stupid ass. he is quite literally most famous for the fact that he tried to kill indigenous people. yeah it wasn't in sacagawea's lifetime but i find it hard to believe that things would just be totally chill between them. not to mention the fact that custer literally contributed nothing, he has an entire moment where larry coddles him for being a failure, then goes into the fight, immediately gets knocked out, and then tries to act like he led the battle. classic white man behavior.

and again, massive lack of black history. there's a moment of solidarity with amelia and the tuskeegee which was nice! genuinely sweet moment. but despite yknow being the race that has existed longer than any other. the tuskeegee are the only black people we see.

and of course the elephant in the room, the obnoxious focus on romance throughout the entirety of the film. the cherubs were super annoying. the thinker showing off his muscles to some random nymph statue or whatever. very weird. and the constant never ending awkward flirting between amelia and larry. like amelia is supposed to be a trailblazer for being a woman doing something impressive that was considered a man's job! so why are you reducing her to a pretty girl who punches people sometimes but mostly just kisses the protagonist even when he says he's not interested!! part of what made the og movie so good was that there were women in the story but none of them were romantically involved with him at all. even rebecca, who seemed like she was set up to be a love interest, was just a good friend of larry's. they were independent women with agency (aside from sacagawea but she shares that lack of agency with the other museum displays) and their own wants needs etc. and of course they had to add in the weirdness of having larry repeatedly say he's not interested in amelia (which makes sense, it would feel out of character for him to immediately be into it) and then have amelia kiss him anyways. really gross. oh and they cast amy adams to play amelia which. nothing against amy adams she's a brilliant actress but not the one for this role. google amelia earhart she's a pretty masculine/rougher woman. not the femme fatale in the movie.

ok i don't have a real conclusion here just my thoughts all dumped. if you read all of this o7 i salute you. feel free to comment/rb with your thoughts btw!

[yeonggisbitch]

min-hyuk: omg that was tiring! i need to breathe a bit!

shin-ae: yeong-gi used to breathe…

[harryhoney-bee]

Hey bub!! I love your writing. I don’t know if your taking any requests or anything but if you are, could you write a little blurb about Harry and Y/N little girl having tantrums all day since she’s in her terrible twos age? Then at the end of the day Y/N and Harry finally settle her down and just cuddle on the couch and spend quality time with each other. Hope your having a great day/night. Love ya 🥰❤️

hi baby! Sorry, I took so long to answer you, but here it is, hope you like it. Love you, hope you had a good day <3

Word count: 1.3K

“(Y/n), could you please take her,” Asked Harry with a tired tone, Maya, the two-year-old on his arm, pout already placed in her angelical face, ready for another tantrum. “I need to answer emails and she just keeps screaming, I already tried giving her toys.”

It’s been like that all day, the phase of the terrible two was tiring, Maya was the sweetest baby, but sometimes she could just drop down on the floor, having full meltdowns because she didn't get to watch tv before bed. The past few months Maya’s been challenging (Y/n) and Harry at every second, she would find a reason to fight her parents no matter what.

If they didn’t let her run around naked? She would scream her lungs out. If they didn’t let her eat candy before dinner? She would lay down on the floor crying.

Of course, they were not bending to her wishes, (Y/n) more than anyone else was determined to teach Maya that she couldn’t and wouldn’t get things her way, normally Harry was the calmer one when it came to Maya’s tantrum, telling (Y/n) to take a breath while he talked to the girl, but even now Harry was annoyed, and that tells a lot about how stubbornly Maya was acting.

“Come on baby, let’s take a bath, it’s almost bedtime.” Said (Y/n) in an excited voice, trying another round of crying, she took Maya in her arms at the same time the girl started screaming.

“No bedtime, I want daddy.” Her little arms were fussing on (Y/n)’s body, trying not to be held. (Y/n) hated when this happened, she was her kid, why wouldn’t she want to spend time with her?.

The situation wasn't easy for Harry either, his eyes softened the moment he heard Maya calling for him.

“Maya, princess, you have to go with mommy now,'' cooed him, putting her curly hair behind her ear. “ Mommy is so fun, you love bathing with her.” Harry met (Y/n)’s eyes, a quiet 'im sorry’. He knows (Y/n) felt hurt whenever Maya rejected her like that.

“It’s just a phase” He would say, trying to smooth this wife out.

"I will even put bubbles baby! Let's go, say bye to daddy," (Y/n) smiled, looking at her daughter's face, no pout in it, just a smile.

"Bubbles, mommy?" Asked the girl, happiness in her eyes, she always loved bubble baths. "Can we play with Nemo too?"

"Of course!" Nemo was her rubber fish creatively named by harry.

"Bye angel, daddy will read you a story later," Said Harry, kissing Maya's hair and winking at (Y/n).

When they found a smart way to manage Maya's tantrums they would always wink at each other, a way to say 'we are a team and we did it!'

(Y/n) brought the little girl to the bathroom while Harry went to his office to finish his work, in a peaceful place now that Maya wasn't with him.

Since they had Maya the couple almost couldn't spend time alone, they were always working at each other's offices in the house, trying to keep the little girl entertained.

Today was one of the days they barely spoke, the day was chaotic and Maya was fussy, hopefully, they would get some alone time later.

"The water is warm baby, come on," (Y/n) placed the little girl in the bath, giving her Nemo, while also handing her other small toys so she could stay still while (Y/n) washed her beautiful hair.

"Mommy, I want the bunny book." Said the girl while splashing water around, (Y/n) splashed some on her back, making the girl laugh.

"When daddy is done he's gonna read it to you, don't worry, angel." She was almost done with her hair, a few more minutes and she would be squeaky clean, maybe (Y/n) could let her play some extra minutes to tire her out so that she would sleep more easily.

Maya was so cute when she was playing. At the moment she was doing a fish race with all of her toys, (Y/n) saw that her eyes were getting heavy. Harry was probably almost done so it was time to dry Maya's hair and put her in new pajamas.

"We are all done, Maya," said (Y/n) with a pink towel in hand, ready to wrap the girl from the cold. "Let's get out and put on some warm clothes."

The moment (Y/n) said those words, Maya started crying

"No! I don't wanna." Said the girl, not letting (Y/n) take her off the tub. "Wanna stay here.”

(Y/n) really didn't have the patience to deal with her anymore. "Maya, stop it, there is a time for everything, and now it's time to get ready for bed."

At the same time Maya started crying harder, Harry appeared at the door.

"Hey, what's wrong, why is she crying again?." Asked Harry, looking from one girl to another.

"Well, your child is being very difficult right now." Whispered (Y/n) to Harry so Maya wouldn't hear her.

"My child, huh?" Asked Harry playfully. "Why don't you go downstairs and turn on Netflix and I’ll take care of her, she must be tired." He suggested kissing his wife forehead, trying to calm her down.

"Are you sure? I can he–"

"No, love, you can go, me and Maya are gonna read some stories right, Maya?"

At the mention of her name Maya stopped crying, she looked at Harry with teary eyes. "The bunny book, daddy?"

"Yes, the bunny book, but only if you apologize to mommy for being stubborn," He said, taking Maya off the bathtub and putting the towel around her body.

"I'm sorry mommy," mumbled the girl looking down, now in Harry's arms, her little curls all over the place.

"It's alright baby, mommy loves you so much." (Y/n) gave her a kiss on her wet cheek. "Now daddy's gonna get you ready and you will read the bunny story!" Cheered (Y/n) to the little girl, who smiled back.

"Let's go to your room, princess," Harry said, now looking at (Y/n), winking at her. "And I'll see you downstairs."

And with that Harry left the bathroom with Maya in his arms, (Y/n) decided to brush her teeth while she was in the bathroom and go down to the living room.

She turned the TV on, putting on a nice and light movie while she laid down, waiting for Harry, a big and soft duvet wrapped around her body. The night was a bit chilly so she couldn't wait to feel Harry's warm body against her.

"So you started the movie without me, how rude," (Y/n) heard Harry saying from behind her, his voice soft, "Not even Caesar was betrayed like that."

He sat on her side, putting his arm around her shoulder bringing her closer, his finger gently caressing her skin.

"It's Nothing Hill, Harry, you know all the lines," Teased (Y/n), placing her head on his shoulder. "How was Maya? I didn't hear a peep, so I guess everything was okay?'

"Yes, she went down without a fight. After page 2 she was snoring just like her mom." Laughed Harry mirroring (Y/n) and putting the duvet around his body, holding his wife's hips so she could straddle him.

"I don't snore!" (Y/n) protested a pout on her face. "Neither do Maya."

"Be real baby, you snore, but it's ok because I love all the sounds you make," said Harry suggestively, biting her lips softly.

"Oh I love this part,'' said Harry suddenly, fixing his eyes on the TV. (Y/n) didn't care to move her head, letting it rest on her husband's chest.

"Tired baby? Don't wanna watch it?" Asked Harry, stroking her hair, his other hand on her back.

"Yes, but you can watch, I’m just gonna take a nap." Whisper (Y/n) against Harry's body. "I’m sorry, I know it's been some time since we don't spend quality time–"

"Don't be silly, love whenever moment I spend with you is amazing, ok? Go take a nap, today was a hard day."

(Y/n) did as she was told, slowly drifting to sleep at the background noise of the tv.

[artreider]

Station 19 rewatch: 4x14

Going to try to do another rewatch before my family wakes up. We have a lot to do today and there is a dark cloud over the house after loaing our cat this week. Here's hoping i can get through one of my favorite episodes before they get up.

Surrera is so cute here and the whole food thing, like girl where is our payoff on this baby that was so clearly teased. Or is there another medical condition that could be blamed on her excessive eating.

Im so glad maya and andy are friends again. I loge their friendship.

I'm glad andy acknowledges that getting married doesnt fix things; but i worry that if maya and carina hit a rough patch, andy will remind maya of this conversation or use her own issues with sullivan and their marriage as an i told you so.

Danielle is beautiful but does anyone else think she lost weight, random question but just looking at her in her uniform there she seems smaller and it worries me. Didnt really notice last time i watched this episode but am i alone in this.

Oh carina baby you so dont want to go. I just want to hug you.

Jack is so cute, he deserves a family so much but i really do fear he'll be killed off.

Im surprised ben reached out to Sullivan instead of dean.

I love this outfit on maya. Carina your girl is flirting with you and thinking of happier times, engage with her.

I love that maya opens up with carina about her dad and the protests and the happenings in the world with him. It shows so much growth and im here for it. Also anyone else annoyed that one carina answered gabriella's phone call when maya is opening up to her and two that she didnt turn it off for their last few hours together.

The look of like disappointment/devestation on maya's face when carina answers the call and walks away from her is too much hurt.

So sad that bailey isnt there and that ben is alone for even a second of this.

I'm glad andy and sullivan came to be there with ben. Like i get why they wanted andy but im sad after ben and Dean's episode dean wasnt there.

Oh jack, i dont even know what to say besides oh jack lol.

The drama with trash girl is too much lmao. I know its important for jack/inara but its just too much.

Carina packing up her knives being a trigger for maya like she's leaving forever is heartbreaking.

Carina snapping at maya hurts, dont be mean to baby. Also the kitchen sign is totally carina's doing and though she hadnt confided in maya yet that she is her home its a dead giveaway.

I really need screen grabs of the changing words on the sign.

The kids talk, the coming out talk and the marriage talk are all things that should not be done while packing or doing anything else.

Wait it totally sounded like she said "it felt pregnant" lmao or i just have babies on the brain.

Now carina being flirty and maya not reciprocating.

Maya you shouldve pushed the marriage talk now if it was what you really wanted. Instead of letting carina drop the i never wanted to get married bomb and walk away.

Andy and ben together, this friendship is beautiful. I feel like it took several seasons for ben to really get in good the team. Im trying to think of other moments besides the prt support and such when he really connected with folks before this season and none come to mind. He has been an outlier from my memory, tell me im wrong with examples please.

Lmao "you slept with my wife which means we are in a pod", things a pandemic makes funny.

Thats just wrong, giving gibson shit still. Dont hit the puppy with the newspaper when he's doing nothing wrong.

Once again with gabriella, seriously carina turn off your phone and be present with maya and maya alone.

Maya's jealousy is everything. This argument ugh, so good and just the tip of the iceberg.

I hope that maya does take the month break and the months after to really get to know the us immigration system and what it will take for carina to become an american citizen as well as learn more italian. I dont need her fluent but id love to see her use some italian with carina. She lost her brother who she spoke to in her native tongue itd be nice for her to gain that in her wife.

I love how carina stops herself as she raises her voice at maya, like she realizes it may be triggering to maya. I really do think the show and actresses put in a lot in this episode to show how well they know each other and have grown. I feel like they talk more even if we dont see it and maya is working on her issues with carina's love and support. I also do love how this argument ends though ;)

Once again maya opening up and finally carina is there and not sidetracked. And its nice carina opens up as well.

Ben's dream with the different versions of himself and his mom is funny and heartbreaking.

Joey in the dream lmao.

The nice thing about ben is if he gets hurt on the job and cant be a firefighter anymore he has other professions to fall back on.

Oh jack. I just want you to get your happy ending.

I still think its so weird to be talking about jack after they had sex but im glad they are in a place that is so comfortable and can laugh about him.

Once again another bomb dropped, kids. This is something that needs to be discussed properly.

Oh maya dont drop the marriage bomb like that. And i guess i dont underatand the outrage of the "just because", like why would carina think it was anything but that when it was dropped on her like that and after she said she didnt want to get married. This fight is so much about misunderstandings and hurtful comments.

I get how maya's fear gets the best of her here especially after carina said they just moved in together because they didnt want to be apart (asif that is a bad thing) and it was bureaucracy.

And i can understand why maya's fear hurts carina but they both needed to take a minute to breathe and try to talk it out.

I do like when carina tells maya to breathe, again like she knows her triggers and feels maya is on the verge of a panic attack.

If carina felt she married maya when she moved in i really dont see the harm in making it official. Would her having been moved out in italy for 6 months or more have felt like a divorce. I really need to know more about her logic here.

I agree why not just do it.

You've both said enough carina. I hate that she just walks away, so un carina like.

How did jack end up at the hospital? Was he called or what?

Andy is such a good friend this episode, checking on everyone.

Gabriella is so right noone wants to be proposed to the way maya kind of did. Like i cant help but wonder how carina would've taken a true proposal.

Im so glad gabriella spoke some truth to carina and turned her around on the marriage idea.

If we let the wrong decisionss rule how we live our lives things in the world would be so different. Less babies possibly and fewer marriages among other things.

Once again andy being a good friend this episode.

If carina hadnt shown up im curious what maya's next move wouldve been after talking to andy.

Love the proposal and love how its carina who announces they are getting married.

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Gonna leave my comments on the latest fic here instead of ao3, hope it's fine!

Starting off strong with that second paragraoh already hurting me in the heart. Never have I seen such a painful yet accurate description of Luke, and it hurts.

fhkxjg Peanut shitting on Luke's bed. Best threat I've ever seen, and it worked! Kind of! If you pretend!

Luke taking down his entire combat class on his own is terrifying. Now I fear Luke too.

Shifting the repetition from "and yet he follows" to "try" hurts my soul. Luke has gone through so, so much, and he keeps trying and trying to continue onwards. He deserves to rest for once.

Oh boy drunk Luke is a hilarious mess. I burst out laughing when he started singing. "The song he's singing is from the 90s. He's not okay." only made it worse. I absolutely adore Aaron in this.

Aaron cares! He should get a raise for this, I'm pretty sure Luke has risen his blood pressure a concerning amount.

Luke feeding stray cats melts my heart. How people still think he's horrifying after that I'll never know, Luke needs a group of friends to feed cats with.

I love that Angie just knows disaster means Luke at this point, it speaks volumes on how many times this exact scenario has happened.

Oh my god Luke's still singing. Go Luke go, this is the best thing I've ever read.

Ah, the angst is back. Luke fearing Ria being scared of him hurts. Thank goodness she isn't in canon, I don't want to know how he would've reacted if Ria/mc had pushed him away after learning of his work.

Luke called Aaron dad!!!! He's absolutely not wrong, Aaron is best dad. Besides, Luke needs a father figure in nsb.

Just like all your other fics, I adored reading this. I've always loved reading the main cast's interactions with the side characters they're close to, and this was a lovely fic for Aaron and Luke.

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HI, MILKYWAAAAAAAYYY :DDD. leaving ur comments for the fic here is totes fine and waaAAAAHHH THIS ASK MADE MY NIGHT LAST NIGHT

im rlly glad you liked the second paragraph!!! that was actually something i added like, just a few hours before posting. it wasnt in my outline originally, but i wanted to like. give a more solid context to aaron's protectiveness adding onto his dad-ish tendencies. luke got into all this before he could even get a driver's license. aaron could not leave him

kbkJBKJSFS i recently read the first part of SSR Twinkling Eyes and peanut knows how to be a rascal when needed!

luke tries :((((. it's one of the key things i see in him as a character, hes always trying his best to achieve the goodness he has in his head. problem is, that image of goodness in his head is skewed towards him devaluing himself. but once he gets it through his head that theres a better way, one that involves being kind to himself, he tries his damndest.

glad drunk!luke was fun to see be a mess kJBSKDJFKDJFS. drunk!luke in future cn server canon inspired me but i took it like, wayyyy further. i wanted to make him sing more songs, i wanted WONDERWALL IN HERE, but i couldnt make it fit kjbkas

writing aaron's wife who i pulled into existence is super fun!!! if aaron is the swiss army knife dad that can be multi-dad to his actual child and his pseudo son who he just adopted, i like to think mrs. angie yishmir is swiss army knife multi-mom

and i named aaron's daughter for reasons. (reasons being: mayhaps a follow up fic of the dinner and maya bosses luke around to let her put a lot of bright colorful bows in his hair)

tHANK GOODNESS MC IS A CHAMP AND NOT SCARED OF LUKE AS WELLLLLLLL. in Lost Gold, the whole overarching thing of luke wanting to always be the person mc wants followed by mc inevitably seeing luke nearly slit a dude's throat (rmr how that happened? WILD....) and she was still mostly unphased like, "hey, no matter what, you'll always be luke to me" I HAVE EMOTIONS. luke has nothing to worry about, about this. but luke is great at worrying anyway kasbkfjsa

luke pearce: you are my daaaaaad, boogie woogie woogie

thank you so so much for this ask, milkyway!!! im rlly happy u enjoyed the fic :')

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Febuwhump Day 5 - Catching Up  Alt. Prompt 4 - “I dreamt you were alive”  Fandom: Ace Attorney  Characters: Maya Fey  Rating: G  TW: canonical character death  Maya: Hey sis, it's been a while. The weathers really nice out here in kurain this time of year. I mean, you know that but it's like EXTRA nice this year. You should SEE the maple tree. Its gorgeous every year but its so VIBRANT this year its like fire  Maya: also pearly says hi 

Maya: anyways you should have seen the new steel samurai episode last night it was the best one yet

Maya: Actually? Scratch that i'm MAKING you watch the new steel samurai episode. You're totally powerless against my powers of suggestion besides pearly missed it too so we're watching it together

Maya: sometimes i think she takes her training more seriously than me 

Maya: I MEAN IM TAKING IT SERIOUS TOO PINKY PROMISE

Maya: a movie night would be really good for her you know? I think she takes it TOO seriously. 

Maya: Oh god you'll never guess what i found yesterday btw, the fucking picture mom took of us BREAKING THE SACRED URN, was i always that much of a crybaby? NO DONT ANSWER THAT 

Maya: you always looked so put together, even when you were that young. Which is totally not fair by the way i'm suing you for emotional damages. Maya: last night, i dreamt you were still alive

Maya: I'm trying to keep it together, i promise. But it's so hard. Why? Why did this have to happen to us?? Why did you have to go? I never even wanted the stupid master title. I guess you didn't either. Guess it's better this way because otherwise poor pearly would have had to do it. She already overworks herself, i don't even want to imagine what it would be like if she had to do this too Maya: she's so small 

Maya: I guess you knew before me, but mom's dead now too. And aunt morgan's in jail which is probably for the best. I'm all pearly's got left. I guess there's nick but he's so worried about everyone else that he doesn't even stop to sleep. I feel bad for leaving him in the city but i have to take care of pearly. 

Maya: he's taking good care of your office btw 

Maya: i miss you so bad Maya: its selfish i know but i just want to wake up like it aws all a bad dream 

Maya: we're gonna go in to the city together in a few days and have dinner together, i wish you could be there too 

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LONG POST

So, I know it may be weird to some people that I post so often about animals. If you have known me for awhile, you know I wasnt always like this, so I understand your confusion. I wasnt ANTI-animal at all, I was just unaware of how they could change a life.

My family had a few pets growing up, but they were largely independent and spent most of the days outside so I hardly saw them. And the one dog we had, Kato, kept nipping at our ankles and was allegedly given to a ranch in northern California (still skeptical about this but my mom still swears it's what happened).

Then, around 2003, a beautiful german shepard-collie mix found me and my ex-husband, and we named her Schatzie. I really did love her but I never really connected with her as I kept her off of the bed, the couch, etc. This is so regrettable because I couldnt imagine a more perfect dog than her.

Around 2011, my life started to unravel and I began to feel my then-partner disconnect from me. By 2013, I had disintegrated into something unrecognizable and, desperate for connection, I let the darkness swallow me up. Between 2014 and 2016, I was completely torn down, unrecognizable to even myself. I was ready to die until I recognized a small light inside of me; a light that I knew was me.

This light was my desire to help people. I love helping and I love encouraging. This is what started me on my way back to myself, and to rebuilding me. I was afraid of other people because of the trauma that loving others can inflict on me. I was concerned I had lost the capacity to love. In my excitement to rebuild myself stronger, I worried I had forgotten to make myself deeper.

During the initial stages of my remodeling, I went through a lot of tough times and I was scared to go through them alone.

Then I met Bear.

He was the first dog I ever met that understood what was going on inside my heart. During the three weeks I spent with him, he became something of a big brother and confidant. He was my protector. I didnt know animals could do that.

A few years later, I met Kiko. When my roommate propsed the idea of taking him off of his family's hands, I fell into my old script: fine but no cat in the bed, no cat on the furniture, im not cleaning out the litter box. However, when I met him, I suddenly just saw this pure little heart and understood that, "Hey. This little man was found in a parking lot alone. I can help him. We get the chance to show him he is loved and will never have to be alone again." And then I felt this huge surge of love inside of me and I realized that, it wasnt that I forgot to make my heart deeper, its just that I didnt know where to pour out this excess of love.

And then little miss Maya, with her playful heart and eagerness to love, I am in love yet again! I was so scared I lost the capacity to love and animals, especially those who have been rescued and given another chance to find a forever home, have shown me that I absolutely have not.

When I let these lovely little lives into mine, i understood that my capacity for love had grown and that I felt safe letting them have the love I wanted to give. I cant imagine not letting them into every part of my life, including the bed and the couch!

I dont know what happened exactly, but as I have grown and done things to repair myself, my heart has become bigger and all of this love has filled it up and I need a place to let it all go, and POOF! Suddenly I am an animal person, melting at the sight of a furry friend, and cry-laughing at The DoDo videos 🤷‍♀️

So please know that although this newfound understanding of animals is new to me, it has always been a part of me. Because they are helpers, and they let me help them, I understand that they are a part of that light that I recognize as myself. It just took a bit of breaking to find myself whole.

Take some time out today to love on and appreciate animals. Whether it be loving on the ones you have, spreading the word about ones that still need to find their forever homes, or donating to a shelter or animal rescue, let yourself love and BE loved!

[purplesimmer455]

Meanwhile, in Brindleton Bay, Luna’s moms were visiting her grandma Alicia. Now that Alicia was starting to get older, Maya and her siblings would check in on her, and make sure everything was okay at the house. Alicia had recently fallen from a stool while trying to reach a jar of jam in her kitchen cupboard and hurt her hip, and her kids had panicked a little over it. Luckily, Maya’s niece Laurel lived a few minutes walk away with her husband and kids, and they'd visit Alicia at least every other day and make sure she was taking the medicine the doctor had given, so that added some assurance. Once Maya had checked up on her mom, Kaitlyn came up to her and tried to scare her by pretending to vampirically bite her, and Maya got startled.

Maya: Kaitlyn! Simsus llama, I have eight billion things going on right now, can you not do that?

Kaitlyn: (biting her lip) I'm sorry Maya, I just thought I'd goof around with you and cheer you up.

Maya: (sighing) I know. I'm sorry, I've just been so stressed about mom. Abby told me that the last time she visited with the kids, mom kept asking where dad was, and Abby had to gently remind her 2 times that he passed away. Honestly, I'm scared, cause I dont know what's happening with her, and if its serious or its just cause her memory isnt as good as it was.

Kaitlyn: Oh my llama. (gently) Why didn't you tell me about that, Maya?

Maya: I felt bad cause you have your work with the Finchwick theater and starring as Amara in the Nova Battles movie, and we only saw each other a couple days this past month. I didnt want to worry you, so I just stuck with her not feeling well in general.

Kaitlyn was like it doesnt matter, I want to know everything so I can be there for you and you don't have to do it alone, and she wrapped Maya in a bear hug. Maya stiffened at first but hugged Kaitlyn back, and Kaitlyn was like sit down and relax, Im gonna take care of the yard work. Maya laughed and was like alright, Chen.

[zmayadw]

Hello to all :)

My free time is so limited lately, I barely have any time for wtiting :( And it's so frustrating!

Anyway, here is the next part of the story.

Wish you all a nice and relaxing weekend! :)

CALL OF THE RAVEN

PART 23

Mayas POV

In the following days the calls stopped. Nothing was happening actually, and I didn't know what to think of it. Was that a good thing? Or was there something worse coming my way? I did feel a bit calmer with the calls gone, but that sinister feeling was still much present with me. Jake left when we woke up, saying he has to go do something, grinning at me before leaving. He seemed less worried too about everything, but I had a feeling something else was bothering him. I dont know how long it passed, I was lost in my work, when he entered the room, smiling at me from the door „Right where I left you.“ „Hey you.“ I said smiling back, taking my headphones down. „What you been up to?“ „Wouldn't you want to know.“ He grinned „Come on, get up and get dressed.“ „Oh god, not that again.“ I said desperatly, and he laughed. „Dont worry, nothing happened. Just do it.“ „All right.“ I said, getting up and dressing. „What's this all about?“ I asked curious when I was done, and he just walked to the doors, opening them „You'll see.“ „Ok, mister 'oh-so-mysterious'.“ I was about to take my phone „No,no, leave it, you dont need it.“ I turned surprised to him „All right, now I really want to know what's this all about.“ I said, crossing my hands at my chest. He rolled his eyes, walking to me. He gave me a quick kiss, taking my hand pulling me towards the door „Just trust me, and come on already.“

Leaving the motel, Jake lead me to the car, popping the trunk. He took out the blanket handing it to me, and a big paper bag filled with stuff, I couldn't see with what exactly. He closed the trunk, and started walking towards the woods. He turned to me when he realized I was still standing confused by the car. „Coming?“ he grinned at me. I raised my eyebrow „To the woods?“ He smirked „Awww, dont be scared, angel, I'll hold your hand.“ He winked and continued. When did he get so cocky? I quickly followed after him, and he grinned as I catched up with him, holding his hand out for me. I stuck my tongue at him, he just shook his head and smiled. „Whats in the bag?“ I asked after we walked for a while, trying to peep in it. He just shifted it under his other hand „You'll see.“ „Fine, I wont ask anything anymore.“ I said making a pouty face. He looked sideway at me „That face wont work on me, I'm still not telling you anything.“ „Come on, thats not fair.“ I protested, but he just laughed again „Can't you just be patient a little?“ „I can“ I said „I'm just too curious of a person.“ I grinned. „You do know what they say of 'curiosity' and the 'cat'?“ he said teasingly to me. „Ah, but the cat has nine lives.“ I countered and grinned again. „And besides“ I said „ going for a movie, or dinner would be less..uncomfortable, then wandering through the woods.“ He looked at me grinning „ Admit it, you just desperatly want to see that new movie with Chris Hemsworth.“ I laughed „I'm surprised you actually know what's playing in the cinema at the moment.“ I said teasingly. „Why so surprised? I do watch movies.“ He said and grinned. „Good to know your whole world doesn't revolve arround computers.“ I said grinning back at him. „Oh, I can assure you it doesnt.“ He said. „But, yes, computers are my biggest passion for sure, been that way since I was a kid.“ I was taken aback by his words, he never before said anything remotely similar, so I just stared at him. He turned to me „Why are you looking at me like that?“ „Like what?“ I asked, still surprised. „So astonished.“ „Well, to be honest“ I said „Because I never heard you talk like this before. About yourself.“ „Well, Maya“ he said and smiled „You never asked me anything about it.“ „And if I did, you would tell me?“ i asked surprised. „Ofcourse.“ He said without hesitation. „Anything I ask, you would answer?“ I asked again and he stopped walking, turning to me. „Look, I know you are curious, and yes, you can ask me anything. I might decide not to answer some questions, but it wont mean I dont trust you or anything like that. So, please, just keep that in mind, all right?“ I just looked at him for a moment. „All right.“ I said finaly. „Good.“ He said and continued walking. „Can you tell me now where are you taking me?“ I asked teasingly and grinned coming beside him. He looked at me and groaned „Dont make me regret this.“

After walking for a while longer, we finaly emerged from the woods, and I stopped and stared at the sight in front of me, smile widening on my face. The Blackwater lake was even more beautiful seeing it with my own eyes. The sun was out, making the color of the water silvery, soft wind blowing making the ripples on the surface sparkle like diamonds. The woods surrounding the lake and the singing of birds gave a serene atmosphere to it. It was amazing, so I just closed my eyes, the sun warm on my face, making a mental picture of it in my mind. I opened my eyes, turning to Jake. He was looking at me with a smile, his phone in his hand. „Did you just take a picture of me?“ I asked, walking towards him. „Yes I did.“ He said, and I groaned desperatly „Ugh, delete it, please, I turn out terrible on pictures.“ He smiled, his eyes sparkling „Nonsence, you looked beautiful just now.“ I blushed a bit, I was never good at receiving compliments. „I think the sun is making you delusional, maybe I should be the judge of it.“ I said grinning. He laughed „I'm not showing you the picture, you will just delete it without looking at it.“ „Fine“ I said, squinting my eyes at him „I'll just do it while you sleep.“ „Ha! Good luck with breaking my password first.“ He grinned at me. I pouted my lips „And its not fair, why do you have your phone, but I couldnt take mine? I like to take pictures, too!“ He smiled, hugging me arround my waist „Because, you are here with me, and nothing can happen to you, so you dont need your phone for me to be at peace.“ He leaned and kissed me softly. „And besides“ he said and smiled „I wanted to have you all for myself, with no distractions.“ I smiled. „But, what if something happens to you, and I have to call for help?“ I said all serious. „You have to tell me your password, it's for your own protection.“ I grinned, and he sighed and shook his head „You so ruined the moment.“ He said, taking the blanket from me, spreading it on the ground. „Oh, I'm sorry, don't be cross at me.“ I said, feeling guilty for it. „I'll make it up to you.“ I said, as we both sat down. He streched on the blanket, leaning back on his elbows „Hmm, I dont know, you would have to come up with something really good.“ „Something really good..“ I said toughtfully. „What could that be..“ I said, biting at my lower lip, my other hand playing teasingly with the zipper of his hoodie. His breathing got heavier, and I leaned slowly to him, stopping so close, my lips barely brushing his. „How am I doing so far?“ I breathed it out almost whispering, looking him in the eyes. He swallowed hard „Pretty damn good.“ I smiled, kissing him softly and unzipping his hoodie. His hands wrapped arround me, and he deepened the kiss, laying me on my back. He broke the kiss after a moment, his eyes sparkling „And you are lucky, because I just cant resist you.“

Jakes POV

„Are you really asking me that?“ I said laughing. She was laying with her head on my stomach, eyes closed, and I played with her hair. She turned to me „Yes.“ She grinned „Why? Are you embarrassed to give me an honest answer?“ I chuckled „No, but are you sure you want to hear the honest answer?“ I raised my eyebrow „I was pretty wild when I was younger.“ „Ugh“ she groaned „Alrighty, next question.“ I laughed again „Come one, dont tell me you wer and 'angel' back then?“ She blushed a bit, averting her look from me. „All right, all right, I said next question.“ She asked after a moment „Ok, where did you grew up?“ Ah, here we go, I thought, personal questions, but I didnt mind, I was expecting it. „Well,not that far from here, actually. My mom moved back with my grandma when she found out she was pregnant.“ „You said before, Hannah and Lily are the only family you have left, so I persume she passed?“ she asked. „Yes, when I was 12.“ „Oh, im sorry to hear that.“ She said softly. „Its fine.“ I said. She was silent for a while „Do you think your life would turn out differently if she was still alive?“ „I dont know“ I answered honestly after a moment. „I was always fascinated by computers and all this 'hacking' stuff, so I can't really know if something would end up different.“ „What was she like?“ she asked then. I was silent for a moment, memories coming back. „I'm sorry if its too personal.“ She said to me. „No, it's all right.“ I smiled at her. „She was amazing. She was firm, but soft when needed, she always stood her ground. She was tough on me, but showed me nothing but love.“ It was strange for me talking about my mom to someone, but it felt nice. I was amazed how easily it was for me to say all this to her. And she was genuinely interested, intensly listening to my every word. I smiled again „She would always say to me 'Jakey, my boy, always listen to your heart, not your head, no matter what. The heart knows best.'“ „It sounds to me like she was a wonderful person, and a great mom.“ She said to me, smiling softly. „She was.“ I said smiling back at her. „She would have liked you very much.“ „Wish I could have met her.“ She said and smiled. Her face got serious „What happened to her, if you don't mind me asking?“ „I dont mind“ I said. „She got sick, it was getting worse fast, and she passed some months after we found out about it.“ She turned, staring at the sky. „Its not fair.“ She said after a moment. „What isn't?“ I asked. She turned to me „That good people like that leave so soon.“ Her eyes got watery so she turned her head away, and my heart skipped a beat. I turned her head back to face me, her eyes glazed. „Dont get sad on me now.“ I said smiling softly at her, tucking the loose hair behind her ear. „I'm sorry“ she said, giving me a small smile „I'm soft on things like that.“ I just stared at her. Her emotions surprised me once more, her sadness was so real, so sincere, I was amazed. And I knew, right here, right at this moment, my heart belongs to her forever. I knew I was in love. I pulled her to me, kissing her gently. „You really are an angel.“ I said to her, and she blushed a bit before smiling. „Dont praise me, or you might end up disappointed.“ „Thats not possible.“ I said kissing her once more. She smiled again before moving to lay back. „What happened after she passed? Did you stay with your grandma?“ she asked. „Yes“ I said „Until I was 18, then I left.“ „Where to?“ „Well, I found a group of people who shared my interests, so I joined them. I was with them for quite long, and learned much from them.“ „I'm sensing a 'but' here.“ She said and I smiled at her „You are right.“ I said. „But, they became a bit too extreem for my taste, so I moved on.“ „So you joined someone else?“ she asked. „No, I was on my own from then. I did meet some new people after it, but never joined any groups.“ „What about friends?“ she asked serious. I laughed „Yes, angel, I do have friends. Some of them are really good friends of mine, the ones I trust.“ „Thats good to hear.“ She grinned „Maybe I will meet them one day.“ „Hm, if

you stick with me long enough, maybe.“ I said and winked. She smiled, before getting serious again. „How did you find out about Hannah and Lily?“ I sighed „Well, I didnt get along well with my grandma after my mom passed, so after I left I havent really seen or heard from her much. I found out later some lawyer was trying to contact me when she passed, so I met with him.“ „What happened?“ she asked curious. „He told me my grandma left everything to me, since there wasnt any other beneficiary. So I went back, collected important stuff, and sold the house. It wasnt really till few years back, when I went through some old stuff from my mom that I found out about them.“ She turned to me „It must have been hard finding out like that.“ „It was.“ I admitted. „I was really angry at first, at my mom, and my grandma, for not telling me anything about it. It took me a while to cope with it.“ „What happened then?“ „Well, the rest you actually know.“ She looked puzzled at me. I sighed „After I cooled of, I decided to contact Hannah. I was curious. At the same time, thats when i ended up in trouble. And all the other things that happened. So there, that's it basicly, now you know the whole story.“ „All right“ she said „But, can you tell me anything about the trouble you got in? Or why you are so mysterious about the 'people' you do things for now?“ „I had a hunch you will ask that eventually.“ I said. „Can you blame me?“ she asked „It worries me. If I knew more of it, I might get calmer a bit.“ She looked so intensly at me, I knew I had to tell her at least something. „All right“ I said „I wont go into much details, and I want you to promise me, you won't ask anything more then what I'm gonna tell you about it after. Can you do that?“ She just looked at me for a while. „All right.“ She siad finaly. „And I need one more promise from you.“ „No, I won't tell anyone about what you will tell me.“ She grinned. „That's no it.“ I said, and her face got serious and worried. „Then what?“ I sighed „You have to promise me, you won't feel guilty after I tell you this.“ „Guilty? Me?“ she asked surprised. „Why would I? What's it got to do with me?“ „Do you want to know or not?“ I asked. „Ofcourse!“ she exclimed „Now even more then before.“ „Then I'm serious, Maya. No guilty feelings, ok?“ „Ok,ok, I promise.“ She said, but I knew it will affect her eitherway. „All right.“ I said, taking a deep breath. „I got a hold of some information, something that I wasnt suppose to find. And I got caught doing it. So thats when all this shit started happening. I had to move constantly, as you know already. I kept what I found, hoping one day that information will serve as my ticket out of anything if needed.“ „Ok, that doesn't sound that bad so far.“ She said. „Well, my plans changed abruptly.“ I said, looking for the right words to continue this. „Why?“ she asked. I had no idead how else to say this, so I just did. „You.“ „Me?“ she asked, and I just nodded. She didn't say anything for a while. „But, what I have to do wit...“ she fel silent. I could see on her face her mind was racing, connecting the dots. „No...“ she breathed it out after a moment. „Maya...remember what you promised me.“ I said, raising my eyebrow at her. „But..no.. it can't...“ she stuttered. She got in sitting position, hugging her legs. „Me coming here, to Duskwood..you had to do something you didn't plan on, right?“ „Something like that, yes.“ I answered her honestly. „Oh, god.“ She said desperately „I completely messed your plans, didnt I? I ruined everything for you.“ She lovered her head on her knees. „Hey, look at me.“ I told her, and she slowly lifted her head. I moved to her, sitting also. „I don't blame you for anything. It was my decision. I wouldn't do anything differently, belive me.“ „But, because of me, things got even more complicated for you, again.“ I smiled „I don't care.“ „How can you say that?“ she asked in disbelief. „If it means I can be with you, I really don't care.“ She looked at me for a moment, suddenly throwing herself at me, hugging me tight. „I am so sorry for

everything I've put you through.“ She said. I hugged her back even tighter „Nothing to be sorry about, angel. “ She held me tight for a moment more before moving away „How can you still call me that, after everything?“ I smiled, taking her hand „Because nothing changed.“ I leaned, kissing her softly. „Thank you. I really dont know how you can still put up with me, when all I ever did was complicate things for you.“ she said a bit gloomy, lowering her head. „Don't you ever think like that.“ I said, and she looked back at me. „I'm right where I want to be. It's all that I ever wanted since I met you, to be with you. And nothing will change that, ever.“ She just looked at me, her eyes getting teary. She hugged me again, burrying her head to my neck „I really don't deserve you.“ she said. I smiled, wrapping my hands arround her. She wasn't even aware of how much my life changed for better because of her. „Oh, I'm pretty sure it's the other way arround, angel.“ She lifted her head „ You just say that to make me feel better.“ „No, I really mean it.“ I said. „ But if it makes you feel better, then that's just a bonus.“ I grinned at her. She laughed, shaking her head „You're impossible.“ „Hey, don't steal my line!“ I said teasingly. She laughed „Wait, I tought your line was ' You're amazing '.“ „It is.“ I said. She grinned „Then this one is mine now, you can't have both!“ I laughed „Fine, fine, you can have it.“ She got serious again „Ok, joking aside, tell me just one more thing, please. The people you 'work' for now, are they the ones you took the information from?“ „Oh, god, thankfully not.“ I said. „Then who are they?“ „That, unfortunately, I can't tell you. For now, at least.“ „All right“ she said „I won't ask more about it, I said so. But, can you at least tell me, for my peace of mind, what you do now, is it something you detest?“ She actually got me thingking with this question. „Hm, no, definitely not.“ I said after a moment. „I still do what I'm good at, just in a way I'm not used to. I don't know how to explain it better without telling you something I shouldn't.“ She was silent for a while. „Thank you.“ she said „For telling me all this.“ I smiled „No need to thank me, angel. Did you at least get you curiousity satisfied now?“ „Oh, I got more then I expected.“ She said gravely. I chuckled „Well, be careful what you wish for next time.“ I said teasingly. „Mhm, I definatly will.“ She said and laughed. „Well, I do have just one more question.“ „You do?“ I asked, raising my eyebrow. „Yes.“ She said all serious. „Can I see what's in that bag finaly?!“ she grinned, and I shook my head. „What?“ she protested „I'm hoping you have something to drink in there, I'm thirsty as hell.“ I laughed handing her the bag „I'm sure you'll find something to your taste in there.“ „Ohmygosh“ she squealed out checking the bag „You had all this stuff in here, and you let me starve and be thirsty all this time!“ I chuckled „The bag was here all this time, you could just take it.“ I said, reaching in the bag to take a bottle of water myself. She slapped my hand „Hey, what's that for?“ „Wait for your turn.“ She said serious. „That's what you get for keeping things from me.“ „Aww, don't be like that, angel. At least give me the water so I don't dehydrate, I think I deserve that much.“ I said trying to be dramatic and act hurt. She looked at me for a moment, taking the bottle and handing it to me „Be happy with this. I'll think about if I will share the rest with you.. Jakey.“ I laughed „Thanks. And please, don't call me that“ I groaned pleadingly „I never liked it, anyway.“ She grinned „Oh, I'm SO gonna use it just to annoy you from now on.“

Mayas POV

The sun was slowly starting to settle down. I stared at the calming water of the lake, thoughtfully licking my fingers from the melted chocolate we just finished. My mind was still processing all that Jake told me. Even though he left out some things, I learned a lot about him. And I was happy he did it, and amazed how open he was with me, I felt so much closer to him now. My feelings for him got even stronger, I liked him even more now. Liked...is that the right word to describe how I feel? I knew better. A smile forming on its own on my lips, and the warm feeling spreading throuhg me from just the tought of it was a clear sign – I was in love. „What's on your mind?“ he asked me, wrapping his hands arround me from behind. I smiled and leaned back against him „ I was just thinking, how I wish this day could last a bit longer.“ He smiled „Glad you liked my little surprise.“ „Oh, I loved it, belive me. The whole day was like a beautiful dream.“ I said and smiled. But the smile slowly vanished from my face. „Unfortunately, reality is hitting back at me like a wrecking ball.“ He sighed „I'm sorry, angel. I wish things wer different, I really do.“ „I wish that, too.“ I said. I turned my head to look at him „But, I'm lucky I don't have to go through it alone. I'm glad you're with me.“ He looked at me, his gaze determined, the reflection form the lakes grey water in his eyes giving that determination even more intensity „As long as I breathe, and as long as you let me, I will always be here for you. You will never be alone.“ I just stared at him, what he said sent tingles all over my skin, and before I knew, the words just left me. „I love you.“ I tensed and my eyes widened, as the realization of what I said hit me. He just looked at me. I got up sitting, turning to him. „Ok, ok, don't freak out on me now.“ I said. „But it's true, I do love you.“ My heart was beating fast, and the words just continue to leave me. ��I know it's crazy, right?! We barely know each other, but I can't deny how I feel.“ I was beginning to sound a bit histerical by now. I dared not to look at him, I was affraid what I might see on his face, so I lowered my head, staring at my hands. „It's just.. I don't know.. Just feels right, you and me, being together.“ I was talking fast, scared what he might say if I stop. „It was like my life was missing something, and then you came along. You wer that one missing puzzle piece in it, and now the picture is complete.“ My voice started cracking. „Dont worry, I dont expect from you to say it back. I mean, who could blame you if you don't. I completely jumped you just now with it.“ My hands started to shake, and I clasped them, nervously rubbing them together, feeling my palms sweat more with every passing second. I stood up, hoping my legs won't betray me from how nervous and terrified I felt. I took a few steps towards the lake, a knot forming in my throath. What have I done - I tought to myself desperatly. „You know what, just forget it“ I started, not turning arround, staring at the lake „ Just forget everything I just said. I take it all back. Just pre...“ „Don't you dare!“ I was cut mid sentence by him, and I turned arround. He was already on his feet. „What?“ I asked bewildered. „You can't take it back.“ He said, coming towards me. „Don't take it back.“ he said stopping in front of me, his voice trembling a bit. „Don't, because...“ he started, his eyes glistening „Because, I love you, too.“ I gasped, and just stared at him, as the sound of my heart beating frantically echoed louder and lounder in my ears. “From the moment you entered my life, I knew things will change. You made my head spin. A complete stranger.“ He said, and I just continued to stare at him. „ But I was so drawn to you, I couldn't think of anything but you. It was driving me insane, I could barely function normal!“ He paused for a moment, catching his breath. „ And you wer, you are, the best thing that ever happened to me. You changed my life for better. With you, I finaly feel alive again.“ He was looking so intensly at me, his eyes

glowing. „ And I can't find the right words to tell you how much you mean to me and how much I love you .“ My head started to spin, and I threw my hands arround his neck, feeling as if the earth beneth my feet was dissapearing. But it was my own feet giving up on me, I didn't realize I was holding my breath all this time. His hands quickly wrapped arround me, pulling me tightly to him. „You all right there, angel?“ he asked, not taking his eyes off of mine. „Im fine.“ I said after a moment, my feet steady again, air coming back to my lungs. „Good.“ He said rising his eyebrow „So, you won't faint or something if I kiss you now?“ I smiled, shaking my head „Oh, shush it, and just kiss me already.“

As we walked hand in hand back to the motel, I couldn't shake off the goofy grin from my face. This day turned out to be perfect. I was happy, and nothing, nor anyone could change that. Whatever happens from now on, I knew I will be all right, as long as I have him by my side.

How little did I know.

[grimbeak]

How Pirate Jay Au Jay deal with the rest of the seasons 

DotD: 

*I haven’t watched this ep in 4+ years so Im just gonna focus on the bruise at the end

*Very happy that his bf is no longer a ghost! Now he can give surprise hugs without faceplanting on the floor! (Kai comments that they’re ‘going to be even worse now’)

*Oh yeah and he’s happy to see Morro bc that happens ig 

S7:

*Spends most of it having literally no idea what’s going on

*Acronix tries to manipulate him ab his mom and Jay’s like ‘bitch stfu’ so it doesn’t rly work out

*He honestly doesn’t care ab the fact that Wu’s dying all that much bc he’s only known him for a few months (and he’s still a bit upset about the whole ‘banishing my mom instead of trying to talk to her’ thing)

*He doesn’t have Ed n Edna to worry ab so he just fucks around a bit before going ‘fuck it’ and grabbing the timeblade before anyone else can get to it

*he didn’t have a vehicle he just ran

*pirate coat flowing in the wind 

*Anyway Kai eventually rants to him ab his parents being supposedly evil and jay’s like ‘oh no,,,, how awful that must be for you,,, can’t relate,,,, at all,,,’ which earns him a smack on the head

*Ray and Maya see this new lightning master and are like ‘um is no one else concerned about this’ 

S8:

*Jay searched for Wu for a year (despite not givin a fuck lmao) purely to spend a year with his boyf. That was the only reason. 

*He is freak tF out by Lloyd’s voice change:

‘WHAT’S WRONG WITH HIM’ 

‘he’s fine it’s just puberty- you literally went through this jay’

‘NORMAL HUMAN FUNCTIONS DON’T WORK PROPERLY IN THE CURSED REALM MY VOICE NEVER CHANGED BITCH’

‘is that why you’re still so short’

‘FUCK OFF I NEED TO EAT MORE APPARENLY’

*Harumi is just unimpressed with him her description of him is smthn like ‘the pirate ninja who has no self control’ 

*He instantly knows she’s the traitor but no one really listens to him

*He laughs at them when they figure out he was right

*Jay gets a very quick rundown of what happened with Garmadon and is no longer laughing 

*uhhh canon events happen ig

S9:

*Yeah pretty much canon events as well except for the fact that Jay is freaKING OUT about the fact that there are DRAGONS

‘jay we can make magical dragons’

‘YEAH BUT THEY’RE MADE OF ENERGY AND OUR OWN EMOTIONS THESE ONES ARE NOT’ 

*He still loses it for a bit but instead of him just giving up completely it’s more like he’s drunk

S10:

*No proposin yet because they’re literal children and also shits goin DOWN

*goin down like cole

*sorry

*They have to physically restrain Jay from jumping down after Cole when he falls

*when kai re-makes the golden weapons jay’s kinda like ‘ohhh so that’s what the nunchucks looked like b4 you guys melted them cool cool’ 

*Cole’s back!! Jay’s happy!! Everyone wins!! 

*no one wins bcuz Lloyd’s dead. When he comes back Jay offers him an invite to the club of ‘we died but not anymore’. Zane and Jay were previously the only members. 

S11:

*uhhh what happens in this season again 

*nothing important so lets move on

S12:

(Pre-season 12, Jay gets an odd feeling, and finds Clutch Powers just about to open the teapot of tyrahn. He smacks him and goes ‘no’ before kicking it into the ocean. Ninjago city is safe once more.) 

*Nothing really changes except for the fact that he actually calls the cult that he made a cult and they only cause anarchy 

*Cole just points to where the crowds are running from and is like ‘jay’s over there’ 

*Also Jay has literally no idea what’s going on in this video game world bcuz like everything is just weird and he hasn’t really had time for games with all the heroing going on 

*Bruise happens n they dance

*Jay is horrible at dancing but they do it anyway

*Canon stuff (except Nya dies in the car with Kai for bruise reasons)

*Cole sacrificing himself at the end fuckin hurts bcuz last time Jay died in Cole’s arms,,, now it’s the opposite (sorta lmao) 

*At the confrontation with Unagami, Jay’s just like “look dude the people who were supposed to protect me threw my mom who was pregnant with me into the cursed realm without even giving me a chance to live, so let’s just both agree that our families suck and move on” and Unagami’s like “Sure that makes sense” 

*They bond over having no idea what anything is at any time

S13: 

*Jay is so proud of his boyfriend getting a season

*Jay please stop breaking the fourth wall I’m trying to write

*Vania tries to flirt with Cole, Jay responds by fuckin making out with him in front of everyone

*y e a h

*the queen tries to marry him and jay’s like ‘uh i have a bf’ and she’s like ‘not anymore’ and nya’s like ‘im his lesbian sister let me fight you for him’ and the queen’s like ‘do you wanna get married instead’ and nya’s like ‘uh no i have a gf too’ and the queen is like ‘well i can’t marry the green one he’s a minor’ and lloyd’s just so confused 

*Cole does his Thing with his new 3 poly uncles 

*Uh stuff happens

*

*

*Bruise

*No one’s really sure who the queen ended up marrying but they’re never going back there just in case

The Island:

*Jay likes his flower crown. He wears on the brim of his pirate hat.

[dessarious]

Misconceptions, Miscommunication, and Misinformation Pt93

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Damian had once again tried Selina’s room first only to find she wasn’t there. When Chloe texted him back that she was with them in her suite he was annoyed but not surprised. He really didn’t need the woman telling them things about him. The grin Chloe shot him when she opened the door just made him start cursing internally. When they entered the living area, it got worse.

Selina and Marinette were on the couch and it looked like they were going over designs for Selina’s new wardrobe. That wasn’t the problem. The problem was Luka sitting a bit away from them strumming softly on his guitar and notating it in his notebook. When he said he was going somewhere for inspiration Damian hadn’t even considered that the Grand Paris was an option. He’d done everything he could to stay away from the other boy when his family was present.

“Damian! I’m glad you’re here. I’ve got some of the designs we talked about before sketched out and I wanted to get your opinion on them.” His focus returned to the girls as Marinette was rifling through her notebooks looking for his designs. She really was the most unorganized person he’d ever met.

“I’m sure they’re fine.” Selina and Chloe were both glaring at him but he didn’t care. Marinette had proven to have good judgement on these matters and he was confident the designs were up to her normal standards. There was no reason for him to look at them to say so.

“Maybe but there are a couple things we didn’t go over that I want to get your preference on.” His annoyed sigh brought more glares from the others but Marinette just smiled at him.

“You may as well just give in and get it over with, you know how stubborn Mari is.” Luka didn’t even look up to make the comment. Damian could only roll his eyes.

“Fine, but don’t yell at me like you did last time when I picked something that went against your ‘design sensibilities’.” He wished he were joking about that but Marinette’s hour long tirade about his complete lack of fashion sense was still fresh in his mind. Marinette actually blushed.

“I said I was sorry.” Yeah, sarcastically and more of a ‘I’m sorry you’re such an idiot’ than an apology. He opened his mouth to point that out but caught Luka shake his head out of the corner of his eye. Apparently this was one of those arguments he wasn’t likely to win.

“Let’s just get this over with.” Selina was eyeing him strangely and he didn’t like it. She was far too observant for his peace of mind and it put him on edge. Marinette started going over patterns and cuts and in the end he just asked what she thought was best and went with that. It was easier for everyone that way. About an hour in Luka got up and came over to look at the sketches.

“What do you think about adding some emerald accents to this one? It’ll make his glare stand out that much more if the material compliments his eyes.” If anyone else had said that they’d be bleeding on the floor. As it was Damian was doing everything in his power not to blush.

“Oh! You’re the boyfriend!” Selina’s declaration was enough to make him groan. This was exactly why he stayed away from Luka. “No wonder the boys haven’t figured it out.”

“What is that supposed to mean?” He had no idea which one of them she was insulting but if it was Luka she was about to get thrown off the balcony.

“Just that they’re expecting you to have found someone closer to your personality, or for you to act completely different around them. This dynamic is far too inconspicuous for them to catch onto, especially with the way you’re actually getting more stiff when he’s in the room rather than relaxing.” Chloe and Marinette started giggling at that and he just glared at them. They were the only ones who had seen him and Luka in their ‘natural state’ as they liked to call it and made fun of him constantly for refusing to act that way when anyone else was in the room.

“Then how did you figure it out?” Selina actually rolled her eyes.

“Please, name one other person who could say something like that without you assaulting them. You didn’t even fire back verbally.” Damn it. This was going to be a disaster. “Don’t worry Damian, I’m not going to say anything. Even Bruce said they would all wait until you’re ready and I’m not about to subject anyone to that insanity. At the same time, I figured you would want to know that I figured it out.”

“Calm down Dames, she means it. Not to mention I’ve told you that I’m not worried about your family. You’ll understand when you meet my mom.” Damian could only scoff and even Selina was giving him a ‘oh you poor innocent being’ look.

“I assure you there’s no way your mother is anywhere near the level of insane that my family is. Not to mention there’s only one of her and my siblings just seem to keep multiplying.” The girls laughed but Selina was just nodding. None of them understood the shit storm that would be unleashed when they all found out about Luka.

“Yeah, sorry blue boy, but he’s right. Maybe if Jason were locked up somewhere for the initial announcement everyone would survive it but as things stand it’ll be far better if they get over the shock of Damian having a boyfriend before finding out it’s the most laid back person in the universe.”

“Don’t call him that, he has a name.” Selina just gave him a bland look.

“And then there’s the fact that Damian will take every single thing they say about or to you and find an insult in it even if there wasn’t one intended. There will be bloodshed and I’m sure neither of you wants that.”

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[englishstrawbie]

i loved your maya/carina cute headcanons and im excited for the rise in stefania's screentime(season regular!!) but the way they managed to still do That to marina with less than 15mins screen time has me crossing my fingers for the best! in the final dawn(lol)before we get station 19 back, is there anything you'd like to see?

Thank you! Oh, there are so many things I want to see.

I want to see Maya work through her trauma. Therapy, talking to her mom and her brother, confronting her dad about what happened. I get that we won’t see it in any depth, because this is an ensemble show, but I want to see something of it. I really don’t want to start the season being told that everything is good and right. 

I want to see how it impacts her relationships. Carina, obviously - she has a lot of work to do to make things right. I don’t want the declaration of love at the end of season 3 to be all that is needed to fix their relationship. But I also don’t want a season of angst for them, I need some happy!Marina in my life!

I want to see them domesticated. I want to see them coming home to each other at the end of a work day (I know that’s not going to happen immediately because of the Covid storyline), celebrating the highs, sharing the lows, crying on each other’s shoulders after a rough day. I want to see them cooking together, Carina teaching Maya some traditional Italian dishes. I want sweet and funny. I want to see them getting to know each other, sharing stories. 

I want Maya to be there for Carina when she’s dealing with Andrew’s Bipolar diagnosis. I want to see them face a crisis together. I want them to see each other at work. I want to see Maya looking on proudly as Carina kicks into doctor mode. I know it’s a cliché, but I love a cliché and I want a scene where Carina gets upset or worried because of the danger that comes with Maya’s job. 

I was listening to Christmas music yesterday (I know it’s November... don’t judge) and I want to see them decorating a Christmas tree together and waking up on Christmas morning together and exchanging gifts. 

Also, I want an intimate scene without tank tops because OMG it drives me crazy! 

I also want to see how Maya’s acknowledgement of her abuse impacts her relationships with her team. Season 3 was all about how her dad’s training style had influenced her, she trained her team like her dad trained her. Now she understands that the way he treated her was a form of abuse, I want to see how it impacts her leadership style. 

For Carina, I want her to have a storyline on Station 19 outside of her relationship with Maya. I’m still cynical about what an OBGYN can do on a show about firefighters and I’m glad to see she is still listed as a guest star on GA, so I don’t know how much is going to change in terms of her screen time. I really want to see her interact with the rest of the Station 19 crew, I think Carina & Vic & Travis would have some good banter, whereas I feel like Dean won’t know what to make of her sometimes! 

[plainvanillapotato]

the 100 diaries S2 E11

 quarantine diaries: may 30 2020

season 2 episode 11: “Coup de Grace”

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS GOING ON.  BELLAMY??! WOAH what did they put down bellamy’s throat

they really took Monty my favorite character. keep fucking hell man.

When maya tells you act fine when you’re not fine. Cue the Katy perry audio

I’m also going to note that i never thought that jasper the boy that was speared on day one would out live finn. but here we are.

that looks like dirty water. youre not supposed to drink pond water Abby.

octavia. Damn ok. But for some reason i just don’t find this character development to be that realistic. Like one minute she’s this damsel constantly in distress and now she’s supposed to be this badass warrior???

who are these mountain men? Jason borne?

only bellamy could look this good in tighty whities

that girl spit in my bois face. No.

yes jasper. confront dante. woah that escalted quickly. that sword tho. woah grandpas got them moves. jasper did a single tear wow the acting skills.

im on indras side on this one. Kill him. Kill him now.

im sorry but lets get back to the fact that the mountain men looked at prettyboy bellamy and said harvest. i think the real plot hole is that the mountain people think that bellamy is just for harvesting?! this is how i know the writers of the 100 are testing me because i know my boy is too fine to just harvest for blood.

soooooooooooo the writers are telling me that the mountain people looked this guy:

THIS GUY

AND THEY SAID HARVEST??

not to mention they did so while he was shirtless. and im just appalled by the utter disrespect

Honest to god waht?! some say too hot to handle i say too hot to harvest.

i swear this is the biggest plot hole i have ever seen in my life

i get that the sorting process is not a beauty pageant and that the only other option is the cerberus thing that would only lead him to become a reaper. but no one can look at bellamy and just think that hes only good as a human blood bag. abolutely not

wow they really had maya find bellamy. fine maya fine. i didnt like you at first but here you are moving up

“what so special about him but hes dead” i found this comical for some reason and idk why.

this fight with bellamy and the guard is really brutal....mark me down for both scared and horny

wow they just a radiation free zone so fast. thats a little convient too for me.

Kane trying to comfort Abby about Clarke...abby and kane. ship??

bellamy playing a guard again?? Ok full circle.

Maya said ‘I’m in’.....maya and bellamy. Ship??? She be like ‘jasper who? Bellamy is the sky person for me!!’

lovejoy how ironic

now bellamy just looks like a skater in that hat. who did costuming? literally the boy looks like sean malto!!!

‘I’ll come back for you”...bellamy and the grounder girl? Ship?

jasper coming to save monty!!! i was so worried!! that hug. the bromance is very much alive!!

dante said watch me bitch to dr. Tsing. Dante really being an unexpected ally. I really though he was going to be a bad guy. Bitch had me fooled

hey abby dont think about it too much. Think about it more like nature coming to claim the weak.

So this elevator scene. I cant believed that really worked. But i guess maya is just that trustworth. Little do these mountain men know

Ofc the son becomes the usurper

yes clarke. kill him. Kill him now. Make him pay for Monty.

This would have been a good time to bring up your father Clarke. Like you could have been remember mom when you killed dad and when you sent me to die on earth. 👀

Bellamy is giving zuko vibes with that black eye

ofc its lovejoys son. ofc....that’s rough buddy

monty and jasper taking on the parental roles. I Stan.

you tell her raven. But also what clarkes job??? honestly!!! what is it??

ofc its clarke is the one to pick up on bellamy. “mayas with you?” is clarke jealous?? jk

im mean not getting killed is a big deal bellamy. the odds are against you.

what is this music?? it is not setting the right vibez

cage is reminding me of steve carell in the office. best boss mug. that mug cut was goooood. it was so clean. My favorite transition so far. But also Monty handing Harper that mug while holding her hand....ship???

yes clarke take matters into your own hands. she said fuck you mom. she said “you main be the chancellor but im in charge” (36:40) clarke has BIG DICK ENERGY. Jaha who clarke is the real moses. let our people go she said. But tbh I don’t trust clarke.

6 hours?! I would die.

why did the clarke say “if bellamy dies, we all die” with a smile. like she is literally smiling . what was the vibe the director trying to go for here?

[hartthews-rilaya]

Sunshine On A Cloudy Day

"I love you" she says with a shaking voice, she’s been saying it for years. Each time meaning it more than the last, meaning it in a different way than Riley does, because she’s Maya Hart and she cant let herself be happy.

She’s been trying to tell her how she felt about her for weeks now, she’s said those 3 words that used to terrify her more times in the past month than in the entirety of their friendship.

But she still doesn't understand.

~

It took her years to finally say those 3 little words to her, unlike Riley who told Maya she loved her a week after she first met her in kindergarten.

~

It was a particularly muggy day outside, a rarity for October in New York, Maya and Riley were currently playing make believe on the playground, when stupid Tommy Flanagan started marching up to them.

It wasn't really a secret he was the kindergarten bully but until today he had left Riley alone, it was probably safe to say Maya hated Tommy Flanagan, the only problem was she didn't know why but she was sure there was a good reason.

And then he did it, the thing that made her hate him, he told Riley to "ditch the dumb blonde" and come play with him by the swings, Riley looked at him like he had just said the worst curse word she could think of, her mouth hung slightly agape before she recomposed herself and in true Riley Matthews fashion replied with a short polite "no thank you."

Apparently Tommy didn't accept this as a good enough answer, and continued to pester her, "Hey! It wasn't a question!" he was closer now and his face looked like a tomato, but Riley just continued to ignore him, Maya actually kind of admired her right now if, it were her in this situation she probably would have already punched him by now. But Riley just keep playing with Maya pretending he wasn't currently yelling at her and calling her names no 6 year old should know.

Taking notice that his insults and words were making no visual affect on Riley, he did the one thing he really shouldn't have, he pulled her ponytail. Riley screamed and told him to "knock it off!!" but he just pulled harder. She was crying now and that's when Maya learned she would rather eat 1,000 pieces of broccoli than ever see Riley Matthews cry.

It boiled her blood in ways she couldn't yet explain, and without even considering the consequences she tackled Tommy Flanagan to the ground and started hittinghittinghitting him. Soon the teacher pulled her off him but not before she broke his nose. That was the first time she ever got detention.

As Maya made her way back to class she were surprised when Riley attacked her with a very tight hug.

"oh my goodness! Maya are you okay? Are you hurt? Did you get in trouble?"

She was talking a mile a minute which truth be told wasn't unusual for Riley but she sounded out of breath and so deeply concerned it confused Maya to no end, why would she be concerned about her? Maya thought she would be mad at her for hurting him or at least disappointed that she used violence instead of her words which Riley hates, but she just stared at Maya with slightly glassy eyes that were darting all over her searching for any signs of injury, she was still holding on to her hands abnormally tight as Maya tried to ease her worries.

"Riles, shush i'm fine, okay i'm perfectly fine I just got detention no big deal."

Maya said shrugging her shoulders to show how completely cool she was with that fact, as if she wasn’t currently freaking out about how she was going to it explain to her mom, who was already dealing with so much after her daddy left a few weeks ago for a business trip he hasn't come back from.

However her attempt to ease Riley’s worries only seemed to make it worse as her eyes widened like saucers and her voice raised a few octaves higher.

" YOU GOT DETENTION? OH MY GOODNESS MAYA IM SO SORRY"

Riley practically yells pulling her back in for a hug that was somehow tighter than the last, it made Maya’s stomach flutter and cheeks heat but she didn't know why.

"Oh, this is all my fault I shouldn't have let you tackle him, I should have just dealt with it myself, oh peaches i'm so sorry!"

She sounded like she was on the verge oh tears, how could she think this was her fault? Maya was the one who broke his nose she didn't do anything!

"Riles this isn't your fault, its mine I did this to myself don't blame yourself." Riley loosened her grip on Maya ever so slightly and maneuvered to look at her.

"peaches, why did you tackle Tommy?"

"because he was hurting you and id rather have detention everyday of my life than have anyone hurt you."

She said it like it was obvious, but something filled in Riley’s eyes that she couldn't quite place, it looked almost like affection? Her eyes refilled with tears and this time they ran down her face.

"thank you, thank you, thank you, oh peaches that the sweetest thing anyone's ever said to me, I love you."

She froze, unable to know what to do, her muscles tensed involuntary, did Riley just say what she think she just said?

"You what?" She ask completely caught off guard her heart racing,

"I love you." Riley repeats a confused look on her face,

"y-You do?" She asks unable to process what she said.

"of course I do peaches you're my best friend."

Riley said it like it was a fact of the universe, you were best friends and she loved you.

Maya’s heart felt like it leapt straight out of her chest for reasons unknown, she had never had someone tell her they loved her besides her parents, and it felt so new and soft that she couldn't quite believe it. Riley looked at her expectingly but before she could say anything the teacher and Tommy stepped back in the room, she told everyone to sit back down and Maya’s never been more grateful for class to continue.

She didn't know why it scared her so much to say 'I love you too' to Riley, she did love her she knew she did, then why couldn't she say it? Her mind kept traveling back to her dad and him telling her he loved her before he left, and how he hasn't come back. Maybe if she tells Riley she loves her and gets attached, she'll leave too.

But Maya’d never been so sure of something in her young life, she loved Riley Matthews. She just couldn't tell her.

~

"I love you too, peaches" Riley replies, not even glancing up from her homework, to engrossed in the 'fascinating science' to really pay attention to her.

They’ve been doing homework for the past hour, or rather Riley’s been doing homework and Maya’s been watching the light move over her face as the sun goes down.

This is when it gets harder to bite her tongue, when its 5:37 p.m and her hair's amber, her skins golden, and her nose is in the homework Maya doesn’t understand. The sight reminds her of the that song she loves.

" So this is where I leave you .. sitting in a palace covered in gold inside my head .. this is where I see you .. on a bed of roses when I want to kiss your silhouette"

Maya started humming it absentmindedly, and her face was overtaken with a grin as she heard Riley start humming too, very low, she doubted she even knew she was doing it.

Maya watched the sight in front of her, Riley had her 'very serious concentrating' face on, a purple cat pencil in her mouth, humming to the song, and she was lightly swaying back and forth. The sight made Maya’s heart clench and twist, and she was overwhelmed with the urge to say it again, to say it a thousand times until she was sure Riley knew, and even just a couple more times to see how her face lights up.

But she refrained, she held her tongue, she’s already said it four times today and soon Riley’ll start to catch on and then what will she do? Tell her? No. It'll ruin everything, she'll hate her, she'll think she’s disgusting, and Maya can deal with a lot of shit in life but Riley Matthews hating her is not one of them.

She looks back to the homework she hasn’t even started and sighs. She has too much on her mind to even think of school right now. She lets her mind wander and finds herself thinking about the first time she told Riley she loved her.

~

Its been 3 years since that fateful day in kindergarten when Maya got detention for the first time and Riley told her she loved her.

Since then Riley tells her at least 3 times a day that she loves her, she never makes Maya say it back and she doesn’t.

Riley pretends it doesn't hurt, but Maya can see it in her face, the anticipation after she says it waiting, hoping she will say it back, and the way her eyes fall and sulk when she doesn’t, she tries her best to keep the smile on her face but Maya can see right through it.

She wishes more than anything she could tell Riley just how much she loves her, but its now been 3 years since Maya’s dad left and went off and got a new family, and she’s pretty sure its her fault because, isn't everything?

And Riley's too good, Maya already knows she don't deserve her, she’s just waiting for the day she realizes she can do so much better, but until then Maya needs Riley with her for as long as she can have her, and she won't do anything to make her leave sooner.

Its selfish, god its so selfish, not telling her, hurting her, so she doesn't hurt Maya, its wrong and mean and it kills her. But she can't lose her, not yet.

Riley is the sun, she makes her world turn, her plants grow and her life have light, and if she leaves then Maya will lose everything, her sun, her life, her world, her warmth, and her light.

But still no matter what, with out fail Riley still manages to tell her she loves her everyday, and more likely than not multiple times a day, and Maya still stays quite.

But today is different, today is the sun's birthday and she couldn't buy her anything cause, she’s 8 and jobless, and her mom barely has enough money to keep the lights on and food on the table. Maya tried to tell her mom she would happily starve in complete darkness if it meant getting Riley the present she deserves, but her mom just laughed, ruffled her hair, and told her that Riley wouldn't want her to starve.

She figured she was probably right, but were still bummed. She decided to paint Riley a picture because she always told her how much she loves her art, even though she doesn’t know why her art isn't special, but Riley likes it and that's whats important.

The only problem is what do she paint the girl who looks like a painting herself?

She tries to paint something as beautiful as she is but its not possible, nothing is as pretty as her. She tries to ignore how that sounds, because shes her best friend don't all best friends think each other are the most beautiful thing in the world?

She brainstorms a lot of ideas and finally land with painting how she makes her feel, its cheesy but she knows Riley’ll love it.

She gets to Riley's house at about 8 am. She wasn’t supposed to come till noon, but she couldn't wait any longer to see her. she drug her mom out of bed and had her drive her to Riley's. She drops Maya off outside Riley’s apartment building while she runs to get breakfast. Maya pretends to be going to the front doors till she drives away then she B-line to the back alley way. She climbs up the oh so familiar fire escape that leads to the sleeping suns room and parks herself right outside her window.

Maya takes a moment to calm herself down. She doesn’t know why she suddenly got so nervous, what if she doesn't want you to come early, what if she doesn't like her present, what if-

Her inner tangent is cut off by the sound of a bed shifting, she sees Riley turn slightly, still asleep with a dopey smile on her face, Maya wonders must happen in her dreams that could make a smile that bright. Her heart flips upside down in your chest at the sight, and she can't help the smile that appears on her own face because of it.

Maya gently and quietly opens Riley’s window; which she leaves unlocked just for her, and crawls inside trying not to make to much noise. She lays her now wrapped painting down on the bay window and makes her way over to Riley’s bed. She climbs under the covers on the opposite side of the bed, this would be consider weird and slightly creepy if this wasn't an almost daily occurrence.

They had both become very used to Maya climbing in through her window without warning and just falling asleep next to her. She’s never minded though. In fact she always cuddles into her whenever she notices she’s there whether awake or asleep, this time was no different.

She had barely finished laying down before Riley’s small arms were wrapped around Maya’s torso, she smiles to herself at the immediate warmth that fills her heart at the touch. Her stomach feels like she ate butterflies for breakfast and she can't understand why.

She stays there for 20 minutes, perfectly content to just lay next to her best friend all day, when Riley finally stirs awake, she looks at Maya with sleep worn eyes and hair covering most of her face, she smiles at her with that heart melting grin and Maya swears in that moment, Riley’s a masterpiece painted by someone more talented than she will ever be.

"Morning peaches," she says in a whisper that probably wasn't intentional.

"Morning sunshine," she smiles at the nickname "hows my birthday girl?" Maya asks.

Riley buries her face into Maya’s shoulder, and she ignores how the butterflies act like their cage was just shaken, "tired." Riley replies, her voice muffled.

"Well we can stay here and sleep in for a few more hours if you want, orrrr we can wake up your parents force them to make us breakfast and get the best birthday in the history of the world started." She perked up, shouted an over enthusiastic "okay!" then jumped out of bed.

Maya smiled for the like hundredth time since she’s been here, watching how jumpy and happy Riley was. She had already made her way out of her room by the time Maya managed to get out of her bed. She found her in the kitchen sitting jittery on their usual stool, Mr. and Mrs. Matthews were already making chocolate pancakes, looking entirely exhausted, but she could see how happy they became whenever they looked at Riley.

They all ate breakfast, and then went and got changed, Maya who had already been dressed upon arrival stayed in the living room waiting for Farkle and a few other friends from school to show up. Riley came down in a bright sparkly yellow dress, she looked even more like the sun than usual.

Farkle showed up about 20 minutes later, and Maya’s mom 10 minutes after that. At around 3 p.m everyone else showed up, and they had cake, which was decorated as a purple cat Riley's favourite animal, and then opened presents, well all except Maya’s, she were waiting to give Riley hers till they were alone. Everyone played games until about 6 p.m when everyone had to leave, Farkle stayed for another hour until he too had to head home.

However Maya’s mom had brought her clothes from home so she could stay the night because she had to work late, and also Riley begged her to the point of near tears until she gave in.

It was now 7 p.m and Maya and Riley had just made their way back to her room. They were sitting on the bay window discussing the events of the day, Maya was growing nervous over the anticipation of giving Riley her present. Finally after 20 minutes of chit-chat she pulled the wrapped painting out from behind one of the pillows on the bay window were she had hid it this morning on her way to breakfast.

She announces that its finally time to open her present and Riley squeals, and grabs the present out of Maya’s hand before she can say anything. She opens it carefully like she always does, and she just stares at it, an unreadable expression on her face.

The painting was of a field in the summertime, there were flowers of every colour, and grass swaying in the wind, bunnies running amust the field, and trees casting shadows all around, but the most important thing in the picture the center piece was, yes you guessed it, the sun, breathing life and warmth into everything else. She used practically every colour she had to make the painting and Riley's uncharacteristic silence was gnawing at her anxiety.

"I'm sorry I couldn't buy you a present Riles, I tried to paint you something but its not very good im sorry" She looks down at her shaking hands feeling like a failure for not being able to get Riley the present she deserves. She’s startled by Riley’s small and frail voice when she finally speaks up.

"It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen peaches." it couldn't have been more than a whisper, barely audible. Her voice was wet and her breathing uneven, and when Maya looked up she could see tears in her eyes threatening to fall at any moment, but she was smiling, she was happy, she liked it!

Riley pulled her into the tightest hug imaginable, crushing her bones along the way but she didn't care, Maya would give anything to stay like this forever.

"Thank you so much Maya this is the best present I've ever gotten in my whole life" she said so truthfully she couldn't help but believe it, but then something happened something she didn't expect and didn't plan. Maya spoke before she had even realized she was thinking it.

"I love you Riles" it was said quickly and quietly, she hoped Riley hadn't heard her but from how close they are, that was nothing more than wishful thinking.

Riley gasped so loud she thinks she burst her eardrum. Riley pulled back, and when Maya finally came back from the shock she looked up to see her once teary eyes, now look more like waterfalls, the tears streaming down her face, but she was smiling the biggest and happiest smile Maya’s ever seen.

"You love me?" she asked almost like she couldn't believe it, and it made the guilt fill her chest.

"Of course I love you honey, I always have it just took me a while to say it I'm sorry." She apologized.

"No don't you ever be sorry, not everyone is as comfortable with saying it." she sounded almost mad that she would ever be sorry, and Riley pulled her back into another bone crushing hug, this time soaking the back of her shirt with her tears that were still falling.

"I take it back peaches, the painting wasn't the best present I've ever got, this is." Maya laughed, but the words made her heart swell two times its size.

"You still like the painting though right?" She asked jokingly already knowing the answer, Riley pulled away and just looked at her, her tears had finally stopped, but her eyes were now puffy and red, and she was sniffling, but she was still the most beautiful thing in the world. She smiled her Riley smile.

"I love the painting peaches, it comes as a close second." she laughed too at that, and layed her head on Maya’s shoulder.

They stayed like that for hours until her parents came to tell them all to go to sleep. When they got in Riley’s bed they resumed their cuddle position from the morning, and as Riley drifted off to sleep smiling like a loon, Maya quietly whispered, "I love you Riles," "I love you too Maya." She fell asleep soon after, and for the first time since her dad left, slept soundly with a smile on her face.

~

Maya’s face lite up at the memory and she glanced over to the wall to her right, to look at the painting hanging in its frame.

Mrs. Matthews called up for dinner, but the sun was too engrossed in her homework to hear. Maya closed her untouched books, and slid off the bay window and crawled her way towards the brunette. She didn't even hear her so when Maya spoke softly into her ear she jumped a little.

"Hey Riles, dinners ready." Riley looked at her and smiled, finally closed her books and stood up, Riley held out her hand to help Maya up. Which she happily took, and the two of them walked to Riley’s kitchen together, still hand in hand.

Maya loved Riley Matthews. She’d never been more sure of anything in her whole life.

She just wished Riley loved her in the same way.