#im very bad at learning languages because of my auditory processing disorder

[the1312daysofchristmas]

i know the politics of why but every other person i went to school with is in taiwan and im at a point where im like how good exactly is that scholarship. should i start learning mandarin.

[00-theguardians-00]

Hello im Finstel you can call me finley or fin!

This blog is still in work so yeaaah might undergo some changes

This blog is mostly about the guardian's so it's not only about the Xmas au if you want to ask one of them please tell me who and i will awnser :]

My other trumblr blog is called @morpheus-the-sandman hop in if you're interested and take a look around!

The pictures hight difference is by the way referenced by clowns drawing just so you know!

im not good at writing and my grammar isn't that great so forgive me for typos :'D I also didn't used Tumblr as much so I'm still

Important none of the stories are Canon to clowns og project!!

!! Boundaries!!

Yes you can

✅ make fanart absolutely tag me please!!!

✅ Shipping? Yes ofc but please only ocs sonas or yns yeah you can also ship Eddie and frank since I ship it too

✅ Im also okay with interactions trough I can't promise I will do all of them I mostly do what I feel like and if I don't feel like it I don't do it it also might take a bit

Donts❌

Please no applecest no wallycest no proships!!!❌

No nsfw with these aus mentioned here!!!❌

Don't do Ai bots of my aus I'm doing alredy bots but it takes a bit I get really exausted after a bit of working on bots like I get sleepy and all it takes a bit I know I'm working on them for quite a while now but still have patients I'm also not an expert when it comes to bots I'm still learning!! ( not sure if I make any ais of the aus here I see idk)

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Don't message me privately if I don't know you please if I know you for a bit from my comment section you can ask me if you can message me and I might say yes , please have patients with me I don't feel comfortable calling you my friend so soon so I just call you a mutual if I know you for a longer while I might call you a friend! I had a really bad experience with an ex friend of mine I knew since my childhood and that left marks , I might get easily overwhelmed or exausted so I might dip or don't talk at all please don't feel like I'm ignoring you or anything I'm not I'm simply not feeling like talking or it is to much at that day for me!❌❌❌

🌟Things about me that are important 🌟

my pronounce are she/her, he him, im genderfluid and aroace bisexual ❤️

I have auditory processing disorder or called

(APD )

Wich makes me slower I might forget alot of things or I also have hearing problems sometimes like when somone calls me it doesn't end up in my brain I'm also very sensitive so sounds loud notices specifically

I also take a while to understand things so be patient with me

(HSP ) I am a highly sensitive person

I also have social anxiety

I'm really sensitive like I would say emotionally there are often times where I do take things too serious or something please tell me talk to me about those things if I understand stuff the wrong way

I'm 23 years old and German

I only speak English and German I can't speak other languages

🌟Refs of my sillys🌟

What's the Xmas au about??

What is the Xmas au about??

Well I think you can guess Basacally they make gifts for everyone

Wolly Julie yn and Sally are outside to check the houses and make them ready for Santa home to enter before he comes

Eddie brings the letters from everyone to Santa home

Frank makes sure everything goes after plan

Howdy does work both as a shop keeper but also helps around and carries heavy things

Poppy well she bakes

Barnaby also helps around!

They are also able to travel trough aus

If one of them talks it's gonna be red

Because I'm planning on bringing in this blog also other aus so stay tuned!

[adultingautistic]

Does anyone have a list of specific ways people can struggle with communication so I can compare it to my experiences?

I didn’t have a list laying around, but I can make one now for you!  If anyone has stuff to add, please do so!

There are SO MANY areas of communication, so let’s go through each one.

Listening

I’m a garbage listener.  It’s probably the area I struggle most with in communication.  First, I have Auditory Processing Disorder which means my brain fails to interpret sounds as comprehensible speech.  When someone talks, they often sound to me like their speaking a foreign language.  I hear the sounds, but they don’t make any sense to me.   This results in me saying “What?” “Can you repeat that?” “Say that again?” ALLLLLL the time. Basically constantly.

NEXT, I am very, very literal when I hear words.  People say phrases that “mean” something else, but I only hear the actual words they say.  People who know me really well know this about me and expect my clarifying questions, but when I meet new people, this gets me into a lot of socially awkward situations.

Third, I miss non-verbal cues.  Facial expressions, tone of voice, and body language all basically go over my head, unless they’re really, really obvious.  So this means I miss sarcasm and think the person is being serious, most of the time.  It also makes me pretty bad at getting jokes :\

Lastly for listening, I don’t know when it’s my turn to start talking.  People accuse me of “cutting them off and not letting them finish” ALL the time, when I swore they had stopped talking.  This goes under listening skills because knowing when someone has finished talking is a listening skill, that I don’t have.

Speaking

I am told that my voice is “abrasive”, “obnoxious”, “annoying”, “rude”, “too loud”, and a whole slew of other negative things.  I don’t know what it is about my voice that is apparently so God-awful to hear, but I get told this alot.  I can’t do anything about it.  I’m told that my “tone of voice” is wrong ALL the time.  I’m told “It’s not what you said, it’s how you said it.”  Which, makes no sense to me.  Why aren’t you listening to what I said?  Who cares how I said it, listen to the words! (this is, apparently, incorrect)

I am also told that I speak with “too much emotion”.  I get very excited and talk very fast and gesture so hard with my hands that I knock things over and I really really really really want to tell you about the thing, and I completely fail to notice that the listener isn’t interested in what I’m saying.

I also used to be called “blunt” and “tactless”, but this I’ve been able to work on.  I’ve gotten enough direction from allistics that I’ve been able to learn how to “soften” my language (basically it just means add in a loooot of extra, unnecessary words).  I’m still called “straightforward” and “to-the-point”, but those are more socially acceptable things to be.

Reading

I don’t have dyslexia or any other definitive reading impairment, but I still struggle to read.  If the words aren’t exactly left-to-right in straight lines, my brain doesn’t know what order to read them in, and I won’t get the same message everyone else is getting.  This type of writing happens everywhere- advertisements, signs, comics, art, anything where the words aren’t you plain old straightforward text, and I’m doomed.

I also struggle with regular text, too.  I have to be at 100% energy in order to read more than a few paragraphs.  My brain gets too “full” of the information and then I have to stop and do something else while I process what I read.  I’m not sure how to describe it.  But I can’t read say, a whole news article at once.  I have to read a bit of it, then go do something else, then come back and read some more, etc.  If anyone knows what this is called that’d be cool to know.

Writing

I struggle the least here.  Everyone who’s read my writing says “You’re an amazing writer!” People say I’m very clear and poignant in my writing and that I explain things really well.  But I can only write things like stories, or posts, where it’s not a conversation.

If it’s IMs or an email chain, I’m screwed.  All my struggles with listening and speaking come out.  I’ll read an email, respond to the first sentence, then later realize there was more, and send another email to respond to the rest of it, then realize there was a THIRD sentence and send a third response...

I also completely misunderstand what the person was saying to me OFTEN, so much so that most of my emails are actually questions asking for clarification.

With IMs, I’m told I type too fast.  This goes along with being told I talk to fast- I have something to say and I NEED TO TELL YOU and I’m very excited, and apparently I don’t let a person get a word in edgewise.  I think I’m waiting, for what I think is a long time for someone to respond, but then they say I typed too fast, and I can’t really get a handle on it.

Non-verbal communication

Facial Expressions: My mind doesn’t process them.  I forget to look for them.  I am aware that people have them and if I concentrate I can guess what a person’s emotion is from their face pretty accurately.  But I forget to look for it.  I’m talking to a person and I think they’re happy when they’re actually upset, and I don’t notice it until they say the words “I’m upset.”

The other side of the coin is making facial expressions.  Apparently, I do them “wrong”.  I get asked “Why are you angry?” so often when I am totally not, and when I ask people why they thought I was angry they say “Your face looked angry.”  I don’t know what it is about my face that makes me look mad all the time, but I’m so....not.  I also forget to smile.  I’ve worked really, really hard at remembering to smile when I see a person, as that is a form of greeting.  I still have to think hard to remember to do it.

Body language: I reeeeally struggle here.  I mean, I completely fail to even notice body language.  When someone points it out to me I’m like...*mind blown*.  I’m not talking about hand gestures, because I understand those, I’m talking about when someone says “Oh, he looks like he wants to leave.” and I’m like...you can tell that?  

As far as my own body language goes, it “makes people uncomfortable”, whatever that means.  *giant shrug*

So, there’s my personal list of the areas in which I struggle with communication.  There are actually a lot more!  I know I couldn’t think of everything off the top of my head.  But it’s probably a good place for you to start.  Good luck, anon.  I hope this post helps you figure out where your own struggles are, so you can begin to find ways to compensate for them.