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Get over the fear of being seen.

Stop caring about how you’re gonna be perceived. Stop doubting yourself. Stop aiming to be perfect. Stop ruminating.

Accept who you are. Hype yourself. Invest in yourself. Be audacious. Trust in the greater outcome. Allow yourself to be seen as you are.

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girl help everything i do feels like a performance

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life would be sooo good without my curse

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Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

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can someone recommend some beginner normal behaviors for someone looking to become normal

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i'm full of love but i also have the hater's curse and once a day i gotta say some bitchy shit or i'll explode

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i cannot hate myself into a version of me i will love.

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— Franz Kafka, Letters to Felice

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my mind is poisoned do u still wanna hangout

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I Am Asking Me To Endure It

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executive dysfunction is legitimately physically uncomfortable. i’ll be trapped between two things, weirdly caught on how-much-time-it-might-take-me. i take hours worried im going to take hours doing things. i’ll sit on the floor for the entire day, caught up in the middle of not-doing the chores i actually do want to be doing.

& the amount of mental energy that goes into it. & the legitimate amount of anger and discomfort and self-hate. is not “being lazy”.  it’d be a lot less work if i didn’t have to fight myself to just get up and do it. 

i just need you to understand it’s not effortless. it’s never effortless. it’s not “okay let me just get up and finally start doing this.” it’s more like. i am slamming my foot on the pedal but the car is in neutral and nothing is moving. it’s more like shouting instructions into a dying telephone. it’s more like being trapped in a small electric box, and someone who hates me is administering shocks. 

im trying. im trying. please help me get up.

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fuuuuuck i have needs and wants and desires :( sadly they needto put me at the bottom of a deep as fuck hole and pour cement over me because of this

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I am good. I am loved.