#im trying to paint and paint messy . i think messy is my default but! still!!!

[ayilings]

you pitiful thing

[telehxhtrash]

Hello, Tele. :p Mito, while happy to have her son back, knows he'd rather be somewhere else. It's in his eyes, his smile, the way he looks far off into the horizon with a longing a boy should never know.

YSABEL I LOVE THIS SO MUCH. YES. YES. omg. yes. IM SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG TO REPLY MY BRAIN WOULDNT COOPERATE jdfknkgjhd (omg i got carried away - with that talk about how gon probably sent letters to mito and the hc that he packed crayola to draw his adventures - i literally dont write but this made my heart go doki doki <3<<3 so pls excuse my bad writing i got carried away jdfbgjkdfng)

It was the dulled spark in Gon's eye, the way he'd avoid meeting Mito's gaze when she asked him about his adventures. It was his smile, the way it seemed to hold more bitterness than the usual enthusiasm that he was used to express. It was the muffled cries at night, and how Mito hated hearing the familiar syllables roll off Gon's tongue. It was the way his fingers trailed on his phone, the deep sighs escaping his lips when he thought no one was looking.

Despite knowing there was little she could do to help ease the longing in her son's heart, Mito still tried her best. Asking him to help her cook tonight's dinner. Insisting he does his homework. Sending him to the port to try if he can be of help.  Anything to ease the pain in his heart, even for a few minutes.

She found that gardening helped him. Gon said it helped him staying patient, and the slight downward curl of his lips and knit of his brows as he gently brushed the blue forget-me-nots’ petals suggested that his words took on an additional meaning.

Trying to keep him busy soon became insufficient, and wistfulness soon became Gon's default expression.

As much as she loved having her son back, Mito knew his place wasn't here anymore. She knew that his home was somewhere else, with someone else.

Holding the box as close to her heart as she could, she slowly made her way up the stairs. The coarse voice telling her to come in as she knocked on the door further comforted her in her decision. He had been crying.

As she sat on his bed, Mito gently placed her palm on top of Gon's hand, striking reassuring motions to try and ease his pain. As she carefully opened up the small wooden box, Gon's eyes started to sparkle with joy, and the small frown he was wearing quickly turned into elation.

"Are these...?"

Mito smiled. "I kept them all." she nodded. "I thought you might want to re-read them as you grew older."

Gon quickly reached into the box, grabbing the pile of paper. His expression of glee as he gently removed the small ribbon holding the pile together reassured Mito that she had been right to keep all the letters Gon sent while on his journey.

She knew these letters by heart. They were the only connection to her son at the time, and reading them over and over again anchored their content deep in her brain.

But seeing Gon refamiliarize himself with what he wrote made her feel like it was her first time experiencing the letters. The way his handwriting, however sloppy it was, always featured a loop on his "i" . His choice of words, messy, but always reflecting just exactly how he felt. And more importantly, the drawings.

It started with a small skateboard, meant to demonstrate the "extremely awesome and very cool trick" his new friend had done. Multiple drawings of cats, with a note that read "Killua is so cool and he reminds me of a cat!!". Clouds filled the background of the next letter, as Gon had said that they were the best thing to compare Killua's hair to. As Mito read "I just want to rub my face in it because it looks so fluffy!!!", her eyes started to water.

Gon went over each and everyone of the letters silently, occasionally letting out a small giggle as he found one of the letters particularly amusing. Mito pretended like she didn't notice the red hues painting her son's cheeks.

After a few moments, Gon leaned onto her side, voice shaking.

"Aunt Mito.... I- I really miss Killua.."

"I know honey. I know." she hushed into his hair.

She hoped the slow rocking motions were enough to lull him, she hoped it'd be enough to keep the sadness in his heart at bay for a little while.

Then, as if it took every last bit of hope he still had in him, Gon raised his head to look at her.

"Do you think he misses me too?"

It didn't even take an instant for the reply to escape Mito's mouth.

"Of course he does. Just because you're far away from someone doesn't mean you can forget about them."

Gon seemed to be biting his lips as the crease in his brows indicated that he was deep in thought.

"I really want to see him again Aunt Mito..." he finally let out. "...But I'm not sure he'd like to see me."

Mito hadn't spent a lot of time in Killua's presence, but she knew from the look in his eyes as he fondly gazed at Gon that he saw him as the most amazing person on Earth. There was absolutely no doubt that the other boy missed him just as much.

"Why don't you ask him?" she asked him softly.

Gon looked at her like she had just solved the secrets of the universe. Like the thought had never crossed his mind. With a small nod and a determined face, Gon reached for his phone, his fingers tracing the familiar phone number.

As Mito slowly got up to give him some privacy, she couldn't help but softly smile as she heard the words her son said with so much love.

"Hey Killua."

Gazing at the night sky through the kitchen's window, she prayed for these two young souls to find their way back to each other again. If there was one thing she was sure of, it was that during his long journey, her son found something more important than anything in the world.

[biotic-boshtet]

Mass Effect Tag Meme

unofficially tagged by the lovely @jedirangerpenguin

im bad at tagging folks soooo tag you’re it, if you want, if you dont? thats cool too

I am a fan since: uhhh hang on, since at least 2015? i know i did most of my playing in 2017 though because i took a gap year

Favorite game of the series: Mass Effect 3, mostly because theres So Much To DO as far as story goes and side quests, but close second is Mass Effect 2 bc boy do i love the drama.

Mshep or Fshep? i have never finished a run with mshep sorry, femshep by default lmao

Earthborn, Colonist, or Spacer? ive only played spacer, but i’ve read the differences and i am sorry, but this is my emotional support spacer!shep, also, i like being able to talk to my mom so

Biotics or Tech? biotics, always biotics, why use tech when i can throw things aroundwith blue magic?

Paragon or Renegade? i always go hard paragon in ME1, then slip up in ME2 because those scars are so cool, but i reign it in a touch in ME3. so, generally paragon, but just enough renegade for cool scars

Favorite class: vanguard babey! gotta zip across the field to slam into a guy and then punch him to death, i love getting up close and personal with those biotics

Favorite companion: Kaidan is my boy, but after him, Garrus and Tali are tied

Least favorite companion: ok Samara only gets off the ship for her related missions because i think she’s boring

My squad selection: for ME1 it was always Kaidan and Ash, then Kaidan and Wrex or Garrus after Virmire, in ME2 i tended to go for Garrus and Tali, or Grunt and Jack, depending on how chaotic i felt, sometimes swapping one or the other out for Thane

Favorite in-game romance: Kaidan, because, god, he’s so sweet. it was all over the moment he tried to leave Shepard an out, just in case. i love the messiness of Horizon in ME2, and how raw things still are in ME3, but he still wants to try? thats the shit

Favorite NPC: Joker! he’s so fun and he’s so much more than comic relief, he’s grounding and good and not to be a sap, but he’s right up there with Shepard as one of humanity’s finest

Favorite Antagonist: hmm, i don’t think ive got a favorite, but Morinth was really intriguing, and i get why we didn’t see more of her, obviously, but it would’ve been nice to see, like, the effects of her activities outside of Samara’s loyalty mission

Favorite loyalty mission:  Tali’s! i love love love having to dig around the Alarei for evidence to clear her name, and also yelling at the Admiralty Board with that good good paragon rant

Favorite mission: Priority: Tuchanka, its really one of the first missions in ME3 where it feel’s like everything is coming together, we’ve got groups working together for a common goal, we’re curing the genophage, we get to see Mordin again, not for long, but he’s got work to do, we get Krogan history! we even get fuckign Kalros eating a reaper!

Favorite DLC: ok so Citadel, but Leviathan is a close second

Control, Synthesis or Destroy: destroy, mostly because i feel weird about control, and synthesis feels a little anticlimactic

Favorite weapon: my fists, the amount of times i charge in and then just punch some guy? worth it

Favorite place: Virmire is so beautiful i hate that its such a sad place

Favourite Quote: i really really like, “THERE’S A REAPER IN MY WAY, WREX!” , but "Hell, Garrus, you were always ugly. Slap some face paint on there and no one will ever notice." will always be very very cherished by me

[cozyteez]

Hii, do u have any tips for writing fics?? I’m so used to writing research reports, lab reports, and formal essays that creative writing has become something I really struggle with. I guess it’s having the freedom to write anything and not knowing how to make sure it’s not corny. I tried outlining a fic one time but it was so frustrating LOLOLOL. Anyways, I love your ateez fics. They are so cute and creative!!

hi !!!! im like rlly touched u asked me and i feel u actually that's why i started this blog; im a biomedical engineering major so as u can imagine i dont get to take much creativity with what i write because writing papers and reports and proposals are so formulaic and u gotta stick to the facts so that being said i actually tested out of all my college writing classes so all my writing knowledge is from ap english in hs lmao so take it w many grians of salt

the #1 thing i do when im feeling sort of unmotivated about a story or maybe like like dragging myself thru mud to write it is to just write the "fun" part first. to me the fun part is usually the climax or maybe the like the "wouldn't it be cute if..." moment that came to mind that inspired me to write a blurb in the first place! then usually once i sort of get the ball rolling on that my brain will help me out and keep the momentum going by thinking of maybe "oohh okay maybe this can happen next" or "oohh and what if this led up to it" or !! just stop there !! something ive learned from my mx writing blog which is like a year older than this one was that you don't owe anybody context especially for a blurb so maybe it really is just 3 sentences of a cute moment u thought of like its whatever ur the one writing it

now for longer fics im going to be honest jongho's first love is my first and only completed attempt at a multi stage coherent story. and that was fueled purely based on the fact that when i look at jongho he just gives off sort a really excited sort of innocence that i wanted to further explore and personify through the idea of him experiencing love for the first time but even then i really struggled w the last part because that's where my personal experience stopped and i had basically nothing to go off of because ive never been in love so i did have to kinda wait for ideas to come to me. for prince yunho i have posted 4 chapters but have all the way through chapter 15 drafted. and by drafted i mean it's like 3 sentences of the overall idea. again, the fic was inspired by the duality between yunho's on stage vs. off stage persona where if somebody was to watch an ateez performance for the first time they may find him very serious and maybe even intimidating but atiny would know that his off stage persona (the one he choses to create for us anyways) is very silly and happy-go-lucky and approachable, which is why prince yunho is seen as narameth's strong and stoic pride and joy but in reality he's sort of clumsy but means well. so i let that and his relationship w xenia who is an original character (OC) sort inspire stories or interactions that i force into a plot line. so for example i believe when i first started thinking abt a prince au for yunho i thought "wouldn't it be funny if the first scene started out painting him as this strong and serious man and then cut to him choking on food or something" and that sort of inspired the idea of him being nervous abt the speech and then xenia came out of that because he needed a complementary character imo since i knew he was gonna be kind of one dimensional and then his backstory with xenia inspired other ideas and then one day i was sad and wanted a hug so that inspired a piece of the plot line and so on. so basically: let an idea or even an aspect of somebody come to you and just write it down, let it inspire other ideas. and don't be afriad to completely start over. i wrote a whole chapter for prince yunho and deleted the whole thing because i hated where it was going and started back from scratch. sometimes you have to revisit things abt your characters and their relationships with others to get a new idea. there's a story in every person and every relationship you just have to find the clues

here's an example of what i mean by "write the good part first". this is typically what the very first draft of a blurb will look like for me

((( blah blah blah basically its raining and y/n is sad bc wooyoung broke her heart two weeks ago idk maybe go into it maybe not)))

y/n is all sad and feeling sorry for themselves on the couch theyre past crying but still feel pretty shitty plus it's storming and cold outside. great

there's a knock on their door ofc they have the cliche "who could that be moment" even tho they lowkey know. we literally all know

so yeah wooyoung's there soaked in rain eyes puffy y/n thinks he's been crying

-this would be the "fun part". i'll fix all that garbage up top later or maybe even change it completely idk yet-

"y/n? i - uh. hi"

he sheepishly rubbed the back of his neck while you crossed your arms over your chest, fighting the urge to close the door and walk away for good

"hi? really wooyoung? is that the best you can do?"

(((wooyoung does smth idk)))

"well i just -"

"you just what? showed up here in the rain after you broke my heart and didn't even bother to tell me why? this isn't some romance movie, asshole. you can't just come here late at night and expect to find me all sad and willing to take you back because i'm not. so say what you're gonna say so i can get back to my life"

your face was red hot and you trying very hard, probably too hard, to fight back tears. ((( idk talk some more abt y/n's emotions then what wooyoung is doing)))

"look, i made a mistake i-"

"oh my god! why did i know you were gonna do this. i just knew as soon as i saw you-"

"will you let me get a fucking word in!?"

well that was new. in the entire time you'd known him he had never raised his voice at you like that, your shock causing you to immediately close your mouth and fold your arms back into yourself (((make y/n seem more scared))) noticing your reaction, he lowered his voice back down and instictively reached for you, heartbroken at the way you jerked away from his touch

"please y/n, i'm sorry. i didn't mean to raise my voice it's just that i need to tell you that i regret what i did i regret breaking up with you so fucking much and you don't have to take me back i just need you to know how much you meant, no, mean to me. i still love you, a lot. there's not a day, an hour, a minute, or a single second that goes by that i'm not thinking of you"

"then why?"

your voice was small and wavering, your tears now dangerously close to spilling down your cheeks

"why what?"

"why did you break up with me like that, just all of a sudden"

he pushed his hands into his pockets and looked away

"because that morning i woke up before you and when i looked at you asleep next to me, i saw myself spending the rest of my life with you and it scared the shit out of me"

"why did it scare you?"

"because i just figured you didn't feel the same. i was selfish and wanted to save myself heartbreak down the line and so i told you i didn't wanna be with you anymore, but that was a mistake because it turns out i can't function with out you, i can't breathe without you i can't live without you, y/n. i shouldn't have let you go"

tears were now freely flowing down your face (((okay brain no work anymore y/n kisses him duh and then ofc they make up wooyoung prob says smth cheesy and y/n is like ur lucky i love you or smth ahaha the end)))

tl;dr -> don't be afraid to get messy. creative writing is not nearly as structured as academic/scientific writing. write whatever u want first it can even be the middle of a huge fight scene or some dialogue u think is funny. if ur stuck read what you have or maybe just take a break and let an idea come to you. a story doesnt have to come together til the very end so it can be as messy and out of order as u want until u wanna post it. also i would always use the third person omniscient point of view for a longer story like a chaptered fic as a default and only change if it would impact the plot in a negative way. this is where the narrator knows what every character is thinking/feeling and im p sure a teacher in middle school told me it was the easiest to write and follow

[allurefm-blog]

hey ! my name is link ! i go by he / they pronouns , am 21+ & live in the cst timezone ! i’m an obnoxious aries , but i promise i’m nice for a clown . i’m excited to be here ‘cause i’m a slice of life h*e . & this here is my weirdo tommy , who i hope you’ll like a lot . under the cut , you’ll find some misc. info & wanted connections , but here’s his dossier & pinterest board , which has more information for you . feel free to like this if you’d like to plot & i’ll swing by in your ims ( or ask for discord which is honestly easier for me but it’s okay if you don’t ) !

☕ . ˚ ◝  (  kim jongin. genderfluid. he/they. ) thomas “tommy” song is a twenty-five year old gemini. the deja brew barista’s go-to order is matcha lemonade and grilled cheese. they like to listen to tempo by lizzo feat. missy elliott while they wait for their order. the employees of the deja brew think they are inconsistent but swear they’re totally versatile as well. maybe that’s why collected sketchbooks that remain empty, horror movie marathons, band tees paired with perpetually messy hair remind me of them.

misc. info : ( content warning for : emotional abuse & neglect, negative religious imagery )

they’ve always lived in the la area & don’t really see themselves leaving even if they hate it here sometimes for whatever reasons they made up in their heads

their father owns several businesses & is generally well off. he has people convinced that he’s a really good guy but in private he’s an unbearable asshole. just really nitpicky about everything & overbearing in forcing his opinions on his family

their mother was a struggling actress & the few projects she was in flopped & then she became too old by society’s standards to get work & tommy’s dad ragged on her for it, poking at her appearance / weight until she finally gave up & settled for being his assistant

not only is their dad just a dick he’s also extremely catholic which intensified his already aggressive personality. for as long as tommy can remember their dad nagged him for anything possible. they never seemed to be “enough of a man” for him which absolutely tainted the way they viewed themselves

this plays a large part into why they decided to dump the idea of being a man period. all their life they never felt comfortable with being masculine & felt like a failure any time they tried but it wasn’t until their late teens that they felt comfortable identifying as nonbinary

they also suffer from a lot of catholic guilt. their dad was that typical shitty religious guy who went on homophobic rants at random so those views affect them even now

while they consider themselves closeted & default to saying they’re straight when asked they don’t keep up with it very well. any time a pretty guy makes eye contact with them they’re gonna go for it then beat themselves up for it later

they’re a thot. they enjoy physical intimacy but don’t really believe in the idea of romantic love ( yep his dad ruined that for them too ) so they prefer to sleep around than try to get close to anyone

whatever relationships they’ve been in they probably ruined it by not being affectionate or caring enough because they never learned how to be like that with another person ( whatever feelings they and their mother shared were more out of pity than actual love )

also they might be a cheater. i haven’t fully decided if they have or not but they definitely consider it constantly when they’re dating ( if you want some kind of plot like this let’s goooo )

so basically they struggled growing up but just emotionally & mentally. they were great in school but they hated the experience & everything along with their parents caused them to become pretty anxious & introverted in their adulthood

they can & will go out but they prefer not to & they’re terrible at socializing. things can be pretty awkward with them without them meaning to. & their sense of humor is very dry so it can come off as mean ( again without meaning to )

they’re really interested in drawing & painting but they went to college for computer science & honestly it makes them pretty miserable but they’d rather suffer than deal with their dad jumping down their throat

they took a couple of years off from school to gather themselves mentally ( basically had a breakdown in the middle of a semester & their dad still drags him for it ) but are in their senior year now

they only answer to tommy. if you call them tom or thomas you’ll just get a scowl in response then ignored

basically they’re both a fake goth & art hoe. they wear black sometimes but not constantly but always refer to themselves as a goth & they buy more sketchbooks than they need ‘cause they never draw in them ( they prefer using napkins & their textbooks )

they roll up their jeans and their sleeves because they’re bisexual

dogs are some of the only things that will make them outwardly happy if you want them to lose their mind then just show them a dog or even pics / videos

they love matcha it’s their favorite flavor but they actually hate coffee despite working in a cafe. but they’re really good at making latte art & getting tips because they’re pretty & and good at flirting with customers

they’re obsessed with horror movies. they relate a lot to movie monsters for trans reasons & find them comforting even when they’re super gory. currently their favorite movie is midsommar so you can catch them going off about it a lot

they love slushies & smoothies. if it’s blended & has a lot of sugar then they fuck with it heavily. also most of the time they’re too lazy to make their own food so they use drinks a lot as meal replacements 

they can’t cook worth a damn. they probably get most of their food from deja brew

they love plants a lot & keep a bunch of them at all times 

they’re a hipster they love collecting vinyls & patches for their many denim jackets

they love going on drives to anywhere everywhere at random. they don’t need a destination they just wanna drive

they sleep in small four hour bursts & are pretty much always tired

they love pizza & pasta. if it’s italian they’re a stan

they’re super clumsy. probably run into things or trip five times a day

they’re secretly dramatic & gets upset when their friends / lovers don’t give them enough attention but they will never bring it up other than through playing it up 

they collect band tees even for bands they don’t listen to & they don’t care if they get called out for it

wanted connections : 

rooommates ( one or two )

exes ( any gender. it can be messy or friendly. i’m willing to have tommy be the issue since they can be rather uncaring & we could even do a cheating plot if you want maximum angst. also bonus points if they’re exes that are still “involved”. )

hookups / fwbs ( any gender. singular experiences or regular type things )

childhood plots for those who’ve lived in la ( childhood friends, first kisses / crushes, all that good stuff )

high school sweethearts

their first sexual experience with someone masculine. i want the awkward teen ( or early twenties whichever ) experience & it’s probably something that tommy gets ( dare i say it ? ) shy about even now

flirtationships that don’t go anywhere

maybe a regular customer that they keep flirting with & the customer thinks they actually have a thing for them but they don’t & it’s weird & awk

maybe they fuck up your drink and your muse is mad about it but they try to flirt their way out of it with either good or disastrous results

your muse is the person that has to deal with this behavior

one-sided crushes ( don’t mind who has the feelings ! )

mutual pining but they’re both idiots & have no idea

anything from this tag 

party buddies. horror movie buddies. video game buddies. road trip buddies. any of these can be combined

tinder date ( it can go well or not )

literally anything you can think of i’m probably down for it

[irageneveart]

hello! i was wondering what program&brush settings you use for your artwork? im new to digital art and i really like the way you colour! Especially those light effects they're so extra cool!

omg Anony you’re such a wonderful being, thank you for liking my art enough to ask me that!

now watch me failing trying to explain things to you lmao. I’m self taught and I’m in no way the best at this, so what I’m going to tell you might still be flawed but this is how I do things o/

hmm it’s gonna be long so I’ll put it under a cut!

1) I’m using Paint Tool Sai for everything in my art but if I still feel the need to, I’ll use Photoshop to correct colors and lighting. for example in this progress gif:

you can see where I decided “no, I don’t like this cold blue feeling” so I went to Photoshop (because it allows changes much easier than Sai when it comes to colors) and I changed it to a warmer purple! you can always play in Photoshop and try to see different versions of your art, different colors will give off different feelings

most of my artworks don’t look the way they do at the end because while drawing I tend to be focused on other things (line, where to place shades, lighting, etc) while when the picture is done I can focus on the feeling I initially wanted it to have!

2) My usual brushes are really basic. also ignore my ugly writing.

Sketch: I use this to sketch because it has a nice and easy flow, I can get messy lines that look good (the latest Brahms Heelshire drawing I did is entirely drawn with this one!)

you can always switch between your brushes depending on what feeling you want your art to have

Lineart: this one has nice, smooth and bold lines. I like to play around with it’s size. I believe it’s the basic one Sai has

little advice: if you’re not happy with your lineart try to alternate heavy lines with tiny ones. for example:

you can see how bold her hair is, but adding thinner lines to the glasses, the folds of her clothes, hair etc. it will create a better dynamic of your picture and will leave the eye of the viewer to run around it! I’m honestly awful at explaining stuff fdkjsnjkfds ofc this is a personal preference but my linework improved since I started to think like this

Base color: this is the color tool sai gives you, I changed my names so I can’t remember its default name. I like it to be bold because when I was little I used to color entire coloring books, so even now digitally I like to color every bit like I’m using crayons haha. time consuming and useless but shhh. basically I put down every base color with this one

Acrylic: now this one is tricky, when I got it the first time I wanted to use it to shade, but using it I discovered it’s much better for blending. after I put down the main colors and shades I just use this one to blend them together and I sometimes paint with it too

Blending: it’s literally the blur brush Sai provides you xDD

now keep in mind that using its settings (the things near the “Normal” option!) you can get different types of blur! always play around to see what looks good in your art. also remember that not every shadow has to be blurred or blended out, there are many ways shadows can look, using both blurred and heavy (cast) shadows in your art will definitely improve it. using real life references might help

Airbrush: the very brush Sai gives you. I’m using this one mainly for lighting. what I do is basically put down a hard light, like literally take a light color and place it where I see fit on the character, then I give it a bit of glow with the airbrush. one thing I noticed is that depending on the surface, the glow will change!

in this one you can clearly see the light on his cheekbone, but then there is a much weaker light on his face, that’s made with the airbrush and then blended into the structure of the face.the glow on the cheekbone and the ear is made with airbrush, using orange and playing around with the layer modes (overlay and luminosity, these are your best friends when it comes to lighting!)

lastly I want to present another best friend for us artists, the eraser

you can make highlights with the eraser too! you can cut the light in different shapes to give different feels and many other things, the eraser is definitely your best friend and not only in erasing mistakes. try to play around with it sometimes

Other things I learned:

try to use a different color for shading, using the exact color but darker will only make your art look dull, lifeless. the same goes for lighting! there are lots of tutorials on color theories and practices out there to help you with it

don’t be afraid to get wild, use oranges, reds, blues, purples in your skin and play around with the layer modes, you’ll see how much more alive it will feel. also don’t be afraid to try different styles, constancy is not the friend of a creative mind. experiment, try things, go out of your comfort zone. make it fun, make it personal. if you like drawing dogs then keep drawing dogs and enjoy it! don’t let labels and others to influence you and your spirit

ik this is obvious but never compare yourself with others. your journey is yours, you have a different hand, a different brain and a different being. this also goes to drawing things others did already! who cares there’s 0284e4895 other pictures with Kitbull already? draw yours, it will be unique and special because it has something from YOU in it, and no one can replicate that not even with tracing

watch people online! of course when you sit down to draw it will be completely different, but involuntarily you’ll learn and exercising you’ll find your own way of doing things. there might be much better ways for drawing lighting than I do, but this is how I feel good and I like to do it!

I know you hear this everywhere but really, practice, daily if you can! in October 2017 I tried to to the inktober challenge for the first time, I haven’t finished it and I was late anyway but I can tell you that trying to draw daily definitely improved my art. now I’m able to draw a picture per day with not much effort (yesterday I was able to draw three pictures with pretty good quality! o/ always start small and be proud of every step!!)

lastly, don’t be hard on yourself. every picture is a lesson, doesn’t matter how it came out. maybe the anatomy is wonky af, but you learned and your brain will remember what not to do next time. try and try and try and never say “my art sucks”, say “this pic doesn’t look how I wanted, but I still like it. I’ll do better next time!”. the moment you start to like your art you’ll see how much it will start to shine hehe

I might come out with more stuff but this is already really really long xD  just be yourself, love your art and enjoy it!! lots of luck for you Anony, I hope I didn’t bore you and this will be helpful for you and others! :D

[baekzhang]

11 questions tag (x3)

i was tagged by @oh-beyond​ and @arcoiiza​ aND @yeolology​ WHILST I WAS WRITING THIS SMH

ill put it all under the cut bc too long

selma’s questions

You find yourself with your bias in an elevator that breaks down…

1. He is a whiny baby… what do you do? How do you act around him?

i’d prolly ignore him if he annoys me

2. Do you act around him like you know him or like you don’t?

let’s say i’d admit to know him, but would play cool. in the end im stuck in a damn elevator i have other troubles 

3. There is an obvious language barrier… do you try talk to him in his language (google translate, etc…) ? Or do you go for English and he can figure it out himself?

i’d try to pronounce English in a Korean way and use some Korean words to sorta garbage my way through this 

4. He starts crying… do you decide unstanning him? Or do you lend your shoulder to cry on?

he remeins my bias (besides baekhyun cries like every day lol). id try to comfort him?? but i really suck at this stuff id be like “the probability of someone finding us is around 75% so don’t worry”

5. He finally faints in your lap… do you take advantage? You stare? You touch his eyelashes to make sure they are real? His cheeks? Anything else?

id probably let him sleep and maybe stroke his hair and try to figure out the situation (cant think well when someone CRIES IN MY EARS)

6. He regains consciousness and he asks you if you’ve touched him… would you be honest?

id probably be sarcastic and then tell him that i really didn’t do much

7. Do you try making him laugh? Or you act all uninterested to create a mysterious aura so he gets curious? What is your tactic?

if he’s still sad and all id try to make him laugh bc a laughing baek is better than a sobbing baek

8. If you decide on telling you stan him. What would be your questions to him? Would you admit he’s your bias or make him jealous telling him you like a different member?

uhhhhh...since im a multibiasing ho id prolly tell him that i admire him and stuff. like i wouldn’t hide that i bias him but i wouldn’t go too into detail about it

9. If you act like you don’t know him, would you still try to impress him?

impressing is very subjective since we are stuck in an elevator, but sure id try to make a good impression on him

10. You are taken… if he asks you if you have a significant other… would you lie?

depends on whether i actually like my s/o lol. like if its basically already shitty between us id say i don’t really have one (and break up immediately after i got out of that dumb elevator). if i actually do love my s/o id tell him that i have one (and maybe still break up lmao)

11. The lights of the elevator go off and he’s scared and gets too close and his hands are too handsy… would you stop him? Or…?

he’s scared so i wouldn’t be mad, if his hands get somewhere...uncomfortable...id prolly try to wiggle out of that grip bc i dont want to startle him

alba’s questions

1. Are you allergic to something?

haha, yes. pollen, dust, grass

2. What’s the colour that makes you feel at peace?

idk...blue? (not royal blue ok)

3. Are you a messy person or a tidy person?

messy! definitely messy

4. Old house full of memories or new house to start again?

tbh start anew 

5. If you had to choose between amazing sex with someone who doesn’t love you back or bad sex with someone who adores you, what would you choose?

someone who adores me doesn’t mean someone that i adore...tbh id go for the amazing sex lmao unless i like the bad sex person then id go for the bad sex 

6. Are you afraid of any animal?

moths, spiders, bugs in general, scorpions (arachnids can just fuck off okay) and whatever lurks in the deep sea can stay in the deep sea

7. If you are studying do you concetrate better at morning or at night?

night, im too moody in the morning

8. What is your opinion on eBooks?

i guess they are good for when you don’t wanna carry too much with you, but personally i prefer holding the book in my hand and feeling the paper and all

9. Do you have stuffed animals? If so, which is your favourite?

i used to have a lot of these, and i still have a stuffed tiger!

10. Are women their worst enemies?

wait...what?

11. What is your favourite food?

currently it’s chicken fricassee 

bee’s questions

1. What’s on your desk/workstation? 

currently all my papers for uni, stationery and my calculator (+trash lol)

2. I’m taking you for bubble tea. I’m getting a watermelon milk tea - what are you getting?

...the last time i had bubble tea was years ago like VERY long ago idk the flavours?? is there lemon ice tea?? 

3. What’s your most memorable childhood cartoon?

Ducktales!

4. We’re going to the cinema - what movie that’s out rn would we go to see?

Atomic Blonde

5. Do you paint your nails? What are your usual colours and what do you have on now?

uhhh, rarely. rn i have no colour on, but usually its dark blue (chanel’s blue boy)

6. What’s your default outfit? Is it smart or casual?

casual. tbh anything that is comfy 

7. If you had to show your bias one of your most embarrassing moments, which one would it be?

tbh any of the videos where i was drunk

8. Recommend me a coffee and a good album?

a coffee what...uhhh...starbuck’s caramel macchiato and THE WAR/REPACKAGE GOOD SHIT REALLY GOOD SHIT A MUST BUY

9. What does your room look like? What colour are the walls, what’s your bedding like, are there any decorations?

small asf, blue walls, bed by the window, not many decorations

10. What’s your top 3 favourite smells?

perfume?? or what??? 

jimmy choo - eau de perfume 

versace - bright crystal

chanel - coco noir

11. What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

sprained ankle, torn muscle fibre (hurts a lot)

my questions: (i suck at questions okay)

1. do you have any pets?

2. When you write a fanfic, do you write it on mobile or desktop?

3. favourite subjects in school?

4. what is your biggest fear?

5. any pet peeves?

6. current favourite song?

7. favourite pizza topping?

8. any movie where you had to cry?

9. dumbest thing you ever did?

10. nickname you hate the most?

11. your otp?

i tag: @soowritings @naenoeul @heonseoks