#im sure somebody already posted these i just didn’t see them on my dash

[lyekisses]

me when pete

[legendofzelda4life]

Not Used To This

This was for day ten (yesterday) hopefully this is the last time I have to leave the post till the next day lmao.

Today we have Twilight and Sky platonic angst.

Will it become fluff? Will somebody die? Who knows, but let’s see.

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“Who’s fucking world are we in now?” Legend asked, rather annoyed. They had only switched worlds a day before so switching this soon was annoying.

“Does anybody recognise it?” Time asked. Everybody shook their heads.

“Is everybody here?” Twilight asked. His eyes looked over each person, counting, then his eyes landed on Sky.

It was obvious the Skyloftian was having trouble taking in air, well if the heaving chest was anything to go off of. Sky noticed the Ordonian boy staring at him and he just waved his hand to show ‘I’m fine’.

“If we know what’s good for us, we should keep moving.” Warriors said. The rest of the boys nodded before beginning to walk.

They were in a grass field when they came in so, based on the sun, it was easy to find north. If the boys knew anything about Hyrule, it’s that Hyrule Castle is always somewhere north.

Instead of walking up the front like usual, Twilight fell to the back and decided to walk with Sky.

“You okay?” Twilight asked, sparing a glance at the hero next to him.

“Ye-yeah I just…” The boy took a deep breath, adjusting his collar. “I’m not used to this.” He said. It made sense. They had been to Skyloft at one point, the air was crisp and had nearly made some people like Wind and Legend pass out. Whereas here, the air must’ve felt heavier to him and harder to consume.

It was for nearly everyone.

But it affected the Skyloftian the most.

“Do you want us to stop?” Twilight asked quietly, causing the boy to shake his head. “It’s fine.” He waved his hand. “Alright…” Twilight wasn’t too sure about this.

Not even five minutes later, the Skyloftian walked up to a tree and went behind it.

Twilight had stopped to wait for him and could hear the boy throwing up.

This…

This was not fine.

Sky walked back out, wiping his mouth, heaving a deep sigh.

“Better?” Twilight asked.

The boy shook his head.

“Wanna stop?”

Another head shake.

“Okay then.” The two walked to catch up with the others but Twilight made sure they stayed a few feet behind. He didn’t want to overwhelm Sky when he was like this.

A cough came from next to Twilight, followed by a few more, then stopping with a thud.

Twilight only just managed to catch Sky.

“Woah buddy, wanna stop now?”

Sky didn’t see a point in arguing and nodded.

Twilight looked up and saw Warriors at the back with Wind on his shoulders.

“Oi, Sailor! Captain!” Twilight yelled out. Both boys turned, eyes landing on Sky - whom Twilight had layed in his lap. He saw the two boys exchange words before Warrior’s came over.

“Wind’s telling Time we should stop.” Twilight nodded, not looking at the scarfed hero. His eyes were fixed on Sky.

Twilight was continuously growing more concerned for the boy in his lap.

Sky was one of the more responsible people. Sure he was curious and child-like at times but without Sky’s radiating calmness, everybody would go crazy.

It didn’t help that Twilight looked up to Sky.

Sky was like an older brother to him. Time would fit the role if they weren’t, y’know, related.

But it hurt Twilight deeply to see Sky in so much pain.

“Why *cough* does it hurt so much, Twi?” Sky asked, curling in on himself. “I don’t know, but I promise we’ll help you until we can leave.” Twilight said, feeling his heart break. Sky was so important to him, he couldn’t imagine the group with Sky gone.

It would fall apart.

“C’mon rancher, I’ve got him.” Legend tried to pick up Sky but was stopped by Warriors. “Oh shut up you twig, give ‘im ‘ere!” In response, Legend glared at Warriors before lifting up the sky child with ease.

“We should probably just set up camp now.” Legend said, looking at - a rather shocked - Time. A little confused, he looked at the rest of the Link’s who also had their mouths agape.

“Dear Goddesses is it really that surprising I can lift things without an item?” Legend asked, annoyed at everybody. “Vet, no offense, but yeah.” Wild whispered the last word and Legend sighed. “I hate you all.” No matter how hard he tried to hide it, Hyrule saw the shadow of a smirk on his face.

Eventually, the boys set up camp and layed Sky down.

It hadn’t taken long for Legend’s arms to get tired. Ten minutes at most. It was still a while but after they started playing pass the parcel - without opening said parcel - it became clear that everyone except Four, Wind, and Hyrule could hold Sky.

Twilight, by far, held him the longest and most often. He didn’t pass Sky off unless Warriors literally pried the boy from his arms. After Twilight, Warriors had held him the longest, passing him to Wild once his arms were tired.

Yeah, Wild held him easily.

Time held him for the shortest amount of time but it was enough to help the boys’ arms rest before Sky was passed to Legend once more.

It had been a few hours since they had set up camp and Twilight was on third watch from 2300-0000.

“Nghn.” Twilight heard a groan behind him and whipped around, unsheathing his sword, only to see Sky sitting up.

“Sky… you scared the shit outta me.” Twilight laughed.

Sky gave him a blank stare before standing.

“You guys should’ve kept walking.” The boy sounded annoyed. “Why?” Twilight was confused. Usually Sky was hellbent against going anywhere when someone was sleeping.

“Because.” He said, looking away with a shrug. Twilight laughed nervously. “No, seriously Sky, why would we’ve kept walking?”

“Because I’m…” Sky mumbled the last part so Twilight walked up to him. “What?” The rancher was genuinely concerned.

“I’m a waste of time!” The hero of skies all but yelled.

SLAP!!!

“No! You’re fucking not!”

“Yes! I FUCKING AM, TWI!” Suddenly Sky broke into a coughing fit.

“Shit, Sky, I’m sorry.” Twilight reached out to help but had his hand slapped away.

“Leave me alone.” Sky hissed before turning and walking away.

Twilight made him…

Mad.

“Oh just go after him already and let us sleep.” Legend whined from behind him.

“Yeah, stop staring into space and go.” Wild encouraged.

Without turning to the boys, he nodded his head confidently before leaving.

He ran…

And ran…

And ran.

“Sky!” Twilight yelled.

No response.

The boy could hear a river nearby. “Maybe Sky went to it.” He mumbled.

He was right.

The sky child was lying on the ground, taking shuddering breaths.

“Sky!” Twilight was relieved.

Until he realized Sky had passed out again.

Fuck this place.

Twilight picked up Sky before dashing to the others.

“That was quick.” Four said.

“Is he okay???” Alright out of everyone, after Twilight, the sailor was the most concerned.

“Yeah, but he’s getting worse.” Twilight said.

“Wild found a portal!” Twilight looked up to see Hyrule at the tree line, breathing like he just ran a mile.

The boys ran to it without another word.

Upon entering the other world, it was immediately recognised as Twilight’s Hyrule. “We’re in the Faron woods. We should head to my village.”

“How far?”

“Like ten minutes.”

The group turned to Warriors, extremely confused.

Well, except for Wind and Time.

“He’s been more places than you can guess.” Time explained.

“Uh-huh, what about Lorule?” Legend asked.

Warriors looked at him. “You mean Lorule as in Yuga and Ravio Lorule or…?” The captain trailed off as a shocked look fell upon Legend’s face.

“What the fuck…?” He whispered.

“What? It’s not that-”

“No! Wars turn around!” Legend exclaimed, looking past the scarfed hero.

“What the fuck!” Yep, that was Warriors.

“Dear Hylia, just ignore it. It’s only a bulbin.” “Twilight, I know what a bulbin is! I don’t fucking like them!” Warriors yelled.

“Let’s just go.” Wild grabbed Sky from Twilight and sprinted as far south as he could.

He made it to Ordon within five minutes, everybody else not too far behind.

“Ilia!” Twilight yelled out.

“Link! Hey- you need help?” A girl asked, looking at Wild - who shook his head.

“Look we just need a place to get him rested ‘til he wakes up.” Wind said. Ilia’s eyes looked over everyone before stopping on Warriors.

“Th- they’re all you from other times.” She said. “Yes, now can we go?” “Sure but I’m asking a lot of questions pretty boy.” She gave Twilight an intense stare.

Hyrule groaned.

“What is up with us and girls with attitude???” He said quietly, causing Four to giggle.

A day later

Twilight was sitting next to Sky’s bed.

“He up yet?” Time asked. Twilight shook his head. “I wish old man.” He chuckled. “Yeah, yeah we know. Food’s ready by the way.” “Alright I’ll come over in a sec.”

Twilight stared down at the sleeping boy and chuckled.

“You always were a sucker for sleep.”

“I told you I’m not used to it.”

Twilight jumped.

“What the fuck how long have you been up for?????” Twilight asked.

“About an hour. Maybe less.”

“Idiot.”

Sky was engulfed into a hug.

“Wha- what?”

“I called you an idiot, you really scared me, passing out like that.”

Sky shrugged.

“Not used to it I guess.”

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Hey look, nobody died but it didn’t centre around Twilight and his sadness/stress as much as it was meant to.

Why do I suck at writing angst????

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[artnerd1123]

A Familiar World

All Nerds Start Somewhere ——————————————

A regular trip to the library brings two sorcerers more than just new books...

The masterpost for AFW can be found here. The chapter post for AFW can be found here.

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This isn’t a traditional chapter by any means, but it’s definitely one I had fun with!!! Especially cuz my pal @vaaloirr​ co-wrote it with me! Since Alex and Journal are friends and eventually bfs in canon, we wanted to get some content out for them. What better way than fixing up n posting rps? :D

Also, it’s a good excuse for some baby lucy. What a cute kitty she is ;w;

Y’all will prolly see more of these as we get to em!!! Enjoy a first meeting for now ;3c

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Belle: Settling in is always strange. It’s even moreso in a new town, so much different than one’s old home. There’s so many different faces. Different places. Everything is new, and nothing’s quite the same. And, of course, it’s to be expected when you move from the country to a forest. The new town was nestled between trees, with huge crowds and buzzing magic. Home never would’ve thought of such a thing. ... ah, right. Home. That was another part of settling in. It meant completely changing your definition of “home.” For Journal Drapht, home was where his books were. And what better place to help him establish that than the library?

Journal had just finished browsing for the day. He’d spent most of his time over at the magic books, of course. There was so much more he could learn here! No way he was about to squander that. Not when he needed all he could get. He’d found enough beginner spells to have him set for weeks. It was perfect. What was also perfect was the legends section. He’d never seen that many books in one place in his life! And they were all about stunning magic, or awe inspiring show sorcerers, or- better yet- all sorts of terrifying monsters. Yeah, the library was perfect. It came as no surprise that Journal’s stack of books was a mile high. He was just doing his best to carry it all to the desk. “Next time I’ll get a fuckin... wagon... sheesh,” he grunted. Hopefully they’ll let me check all these out…

Vaal: Settling in was a strange thing indeed, especially when your idea of 'settling in' was getting settled in an apartment for a week before heading to the next town. Staying in one place for more than a couple of weeks was... strange. Especially for someone who had spent most of the last, what, ten, eleven years on the road? It was an adjustment in and of itself. Never mind all the new people, new places, new... everything. He'd only been in merchant towns a handful of times. At least all the rotating sets people sort of emulated the effect of moving constantly. Though, Alex Manson wasn't at the merchant town, at the moment.

The one thing Alex could complain about consistently when it came to his town was the lack of library. There was only one library, the school library, and if you didn't attend the school, you couldn't check anything out. And book merchants weren't always around. But! Thankfully, there was a good library in the next town over. It was. A whole day's worth of walking to get there, but that was fine. Sort of. His legs really didn't like him after these trips. And then there was the walk back. Ugh. Slightly less fine. But he had books to return. Lots... and lots of books. With a combined two days to get there and back, he wanted a supply of books that was worth the effort. He had a carriage bring him here, and he could walk back without the books. He had a sizable stack, one that blocked his vision, as he walked in. Okay, just gotta... find the desk... At least he had his little familiar in his hood, purring quietly. She seemed to enjoy the walks. She might have been asleep for all he knew. He couldn't leave her home... she got anxious without him. And it was good to get her out of the apartment every now and then. Show her that the world is bigger than their little two person apartment.

Belle: Journal tried to keep moving slow. He didn’t want to lose any books accidentally. It would be rather hard to pick them back up without dropping them all over. Rather unfortunate, then, that the slower he went, the more tedious it felt. He could hold a stack of books for hours! His arms wouldn’t get tired for a while. But he could not stand moving slow. It was so... unproductive. He had so many things to do at the apartment. He couldn’t afford to go slow. The sorcerer’s pace quickened a bit. He tried glancing around his book stack, but he couldn’t see anything. Great. Hopefully people would move out of the way. He just kept walking quickly. After all, who wouldn’t move when they see a person with a huge stack of- WHACK! Journal let out a yelp as he collided with an unseen obstacle, stumbling backwards. His books went spilling everywhere as he fell. He landed hard on his tailbone. “Oof- ghhh- owww-“ he groaned, wincing. That’s gonna bruise... He sat up shakily, rubbing his backside. What had he run into...? Was there a pillar, or-? The sorcerer’s face went pale when he registered the other person. Who he’d... smashed... into... Oh. Oh no. “... shit. H-hey, uh- I’m- im really sorry, are you ok???” He asked anxiously, stumbling over himself. What a horrible mess he’s made of things…

Vaal: Alex just walked... ever so carefully... he didn't want to bump into anyone, or anything. Not only did he have all these books, but he had Lucy curled up in his hood. She didn't need to be jostled. Now where was the Revaew damned desk- shouldn't it be close to the front door? Did he already pass it??? Revaew, that would be just like him. He had too many books! He brought too many back, because he wanted to get it all done in one trip, when he could have done it much more manageably in two, sure he'd have to pay a fee for bringing them in late, but it would be better than this! A lot of things would be better than this. He just hoped that he wouldn't bump into anybody. Hopes that were almost immediately dashed. Alex yelped as well when he suddenly ran into something. He wasn't going that fast, was he? He couldn't have been! Did somebody in a hurry bump into him? That had to be it, right? Well, either way, his books were all over the floor now. "Ah fffffu... Revaew..." He groaned, reaching a hand up to his ribs. Yeah, that was going to bruise. He glanced up at the voice. Oh. He did run into another person. Well. This was going to get awkward fast. "I'm fine, just a little bruised..." He replied, letting out a sigh. He was hearing something else too. Sounded like... like... whimpering... what would- Oh. The sorcerer immediately reached into his hood, checking for Lucy. She was still there! Thankfully, she hadn’t fallen out. He took her out of her little space, held her in his arms, gently bobbing the shaking little familiar up and down. "It's okay, it's okay-" He whispered, trying to calm her a little bit.

Belle: Journal sighed as well, shifting uneasily. At least the stranger didn’t seem angry. Or upset. Not on the surface, anyway. That was... nice. He winced again at the sight of all their books. They’d gotten all mixed up, hadn’t they? That was gonna be fun to sort out. He opened his mouth to ask about it, but never got the chance. His brows furrowed in utter confusion as the stranger pulled a cat out of his hood. A blue cat. One that was not all too furry, and quite distressed. What in the...? Is that a familiar??? he wondered, baffled. They reminded him of Roo. Another cat one...? Are... are all familiars just... cats??? A reasonable assumption for one who’s only met two familiars. But that didn’t matter right now. The distressed noises were tugging at his older sibling instincts. “Oh no... Did your familiar get scared?” He asked hesitantly. Worriedly. “Maybe hum for her a little. I-it might help, since she’s against your chest- she can feel whatever sound you make.” Did he know this from experience? Perhaps. Baby siblings need care as much as baby kittens. ... they were such a cute familiar... “... What's their name? They’re a cute lil thing,” he said softly. Just watching curiously. Seems the presence of a baby has distracted him from anxiety.

Vaal: Alex continued to bob Lucy up and down and whisper little reassurances. She was in a new place, she was jostled when he fell, and she was rudely awakened from her nap by said fall... not a great day for the little lass. He raised a brow at the others... suggestion? ... oh. Kay. He started to hum a little bit, nothing really... from a song, or anything, just. Something that sounded like. Something. He didn't know, he didn't hum much. But it did seem to help. The little familiar started to shake a little less, and she curled up a bit closer to her originator's chest. She stopped whimpering, so that was a good sign. After a moment, she started to slowly glance around, and her eyes almost immediately fell on the stranger. Who was that??? He seemed interested in... something. He glanced back up at the stranger in question when he asked his question. "... her name's Lucy." He said, quietly, shifting his hold on her a bit so she could be a little more comfortable. "And she is pretty cute, yeah..." He added, smiling softly. The familiar just curled up a bit in response. She gave a little wave, and then started to climb up onto the sorcerer's shoulder, perching herself there. Alex just let out a sigh, and looked at all the scattered books. Revaew, those were gonna take forever to sort out... Lucy's attention was still firmly on the other sorcerer though, her gaze filled with the mix of anxiety and curiosity you would expect a kid to have when meeting someone new.

Belle: Journal smiled a bit at the name. Lucy. A very nice name. Seemed fitting for the lil gal. He gave her a small wave and smiled in return. “Hi Lucy... sorry about the rude awakening...” he said quietly. She looked shy, and he didn’t blame her. Some kids were just nervous around strangers, and that was ok. At least her shoulder perching was cute. He gave her another smile before turning his attention to the books. ... they really were a mess. A big mess. Sheesh. He couldn’t even tell which books were his, now that he was looking at them. Amazing. Hopefully the stranger would know which were his... “I-I really am sorry about the mess,” he sighed, looking to the stranger. “I was carrying too many books for my own good. Do you know which of them are yours, uh-“ he paused. The sorcerer realized he didn’t know the other’s name. Whoops. “Oh- er- where are my manners- I-I haven’t even given you my name-“ he chuckled sheepishly. “I’m Journal. As in the kind you write in. What’s your name...?” Hopefully the name alone didn’t weird him out…

Vaal: Alex glanced up at the sorcerer again when he started to talk. Oh. Okay, apparently they were going to be talking. He was kind of hoping they could just both start to pick up and sort out their books in silence, but. Apparently he just. Wanted to keep talking to him. Okay then. And here he thought the only person he was going to be talking to was the person at the front desk. "... I'm Alex." He replied, trying not to sound as nervous as this made him feel. Lucy just stayed perched on his shoulder, looking to the other quietly. You could get a good sense of her size there. She was about as big as her originator's head, which of course made it easy to, say, fit in his hood. She was just curious about what Journal was all about. He seemed nice! The blue haired sorcerer glanced around at the books scattered on the floor. "... mine were mostly DragonStone books." He mumbled, already starting to pick a few up. "I had a couple of other stories though... and a few magic books for practice..."

Belle: Journal tried for a reassuring smile as the other- alex- spoke up. Alex! Another nice name. He seemed pretty nice, too. Though he did look sort of anxious... Guess that’s one thing we have in common, he thought grimly. But that wasn’t where the similarities ended. The sorcerer blinked in surprise as Alex continued. Magic books? Stories? DragonStone books??? Good lord, no wonder they were all mixed up. They had the exact same books. Maybe even literally. Oh Revaew, how cool would that be? He’d have found a fellow book nerd. He fidgeted a bit, trying not to look too excited. “W-well, uh, you might wanna make sure you’re picking up the right books,” he said hesitantly. He glanced down at the pile. Sure enough, there were two of the third DragonStone book. He held them up for Alex to see. “Iiii... had the same stuff.” He chuckled sheepishly. “Y’all read dragonstone? I thought I was the only one in town who read those!” There was a haltingly hopeful look in his eyes. Five minutes in, and Alex has already managed to bring out the nerd in him.

Vaal: Alex raised a brow when Journal mentioned that he might have to make sure he's picking up the right books. What? What did he mean by that? Of course, his answer came quickly. He blinked, looking pleasantly surprised. "Oh. Well. Would you look at that..." He mumbled, sounding a bit pleased with this development. "Yeah, yeah I read DragonStone. I just finished the fourth book, and I'm hoping to grab as many more volumes as I can..." He cleared his throat, as his tone started to shift to a more awkward one. "B-but I don't actually... live in uh. In this town. I live in the next town over...? To the west-ish? My town just... doesn't have a library. So I come to this one." Lucy was just looking quietly amazed at these developments. Wow! They read the same books! Maybe they'd be friends??? Alex could use more friends. She thought to herself. And I'd like more friends too... After a moment, she hopped off her originator's shoulder, and wandered over towards the other sorcerer. "H-hi!" She said, giving another wave. "It's! Really nice to meet you!" Her voice had all the charm of a nervous little kid trying their best to make a good first impression. Alex was happy to see her making an effort to make a new friend. It was heartwarming.

Belle: Journal lit up at Alex’s positive answer. Hey!!! He did find another nerd! Nice! Now if only he knew how to charm his way into talking with Alex about their shared interest... not that. He should be using charm. That only worked to keep people off his case back at his old town. And, unfortunately, it didn’t seem like Alex lived here. Drat. Sighing, he shrugged, handing Alex one of the books. “That’s fair. We’ve got a pretty good library here. I think I spend more time wandering around here than I do at home,” he joked. It was almost true, though. If he wasn’t training with his magic, he might as well just stay here all day... just sorting through books, like he was now... A quiet thump pulled him from his thoughts. He looked up curiously, gaze catching on the icy familiar making her way over. Oh? What was she up to? He smiled gently at Lucy when she spoke. She even sounded adorable… what a sweetheart. He liked her already. He set down his books so he could give her some proper attention. “Well, hey there lil lady,” he replied softly. Still smiling. “It’s nice to meet you too. You just along for the ride? Or are you lookin for some books too?” He briefly considered giving her a pat, but decided against it. He didn’t know if she was ok with those. “I bet I could point you towards some good ones, if you wanted!”

Vaal: Alex snorted when Journal mentioned that he probably spent more time here than at home. Yeah, he felt that. He really felt that. He had to spend a lot of time here to make the trip worth it, to be honest. "Yeah, I spend... a lot more time here than I probably should." He replied, handing him a magic book he knew he didn't have. "I kinda have to, because... well, it takes a day to get here... and then a day to get home... if I spend like... five minutes here, then the trip just doesn't feel worth it, y'know?" Lucy's little icy tail was thwipping from side to side as the sorcerer spoke. He sounded! Really nice! And he liked so many of the same books... at the question, she gave a little smile. "I like the dragonstone books too!" She replied, picking up the second book off the floor. "This one's my favorite so far..." Alex raised a brow at the others’ little conversation. Hmm. He should. Probably say something too, huh? "... my favorite book so far is the third one." He added, as he was getting all the books that he was sure were his in a neat little stack. "But that could change... there's plenty more in the series. I'm really liking it so far, though... really good books... especially when you animate 'em." Did he sound nervous? And anxious? Yes, and yes. But he was trying.

Belle: Journal smiled wider as Lucy and her originator spoke up. He still had books to gather, but he’d stacked enough that they weren’t everywhere anymore. He could just talk with these two. It was nice. He’d missed talking with... well. With friends. Lucy’s declaration made him chuckle. That book was huge compared to her! So cute. Though, Alex’s last comment gave him pause. Animate? “... well, I’m really fond of the fifth one, honestly,” he replied. Holding up his hands, he grinned knowingly. “No spoilers! But it really is a doozy, I’ll tell ya that. ‘S a fun one to read by lamplight. Especially if it’s midnight. Gotta get that atmosphere, eh?” He sounded plenty confident as he spoke. The series was one he loved, after all. Even his anxiety couldn’t ruin that. ... however, it popped back up a little bit. “I uh... I just... have one question for you,” he spoke up timidly. “What’s, uh... what did you mean by animate? If- If I said that right?” He ran a hand through his hair, his smile turned nervous. He always got this way about magic. It was a longtime hyperfixation of his, but he still knew less than he’d admit. “I’ve never heard of that before. Is it a book thing...?”

Vaal: Alex smiled at the little 'no spoilers' comment about the fifth book. He appreciated that. It would be so easy to spoil it. He probably would have accidently spoiled it, with how much he loved the books... and how much he loved talking about them... the mention of not knowing about animating books caused his expression to shift to a more confused one. He had... magic books. So. Obviously he knew magic... ... maybe he was new to it... He thought, internally debating how to answer. "Hmm... well..." He started, a little bit unsure how to explain it. His social anxiety certainly wasn't helping. "It's- it's like- well, you know spells where you like... uh... fuck..." He paused, and took a breath. "You know, like, illusion spells? Like, easy ones that look all smokey? Animating a book is basically doing that. It's a simple little spell where you enchant the book, then it opens, and... like... little figures pop out, and it plays out all the scenes in the book. So. You get to watch what happens, instead of just. Read." He shrugged. "It's pretty neat." "It's super cool!!!" Lucy added, bouncing on her feet. "That's why I like the second one!!! I think it's the best one if you animate it!" The sorcerer snickered a bit at her energy. She was so cute. He was really glad she seemed to be having a good time, despite the... rocky start. "We like to have little animated book nights after long days. It's a good way to unwind."

Belle: Journal listened closely, head tilted to the side. He nodded along as Alex explained. Ok... smoke spells, yeah. Those were what he’d started with. So it should be easy. And it was- what??? You could cast those on books??? How had he never figured that out??? His look of nervous intrigue shifted to utter fascination as Alex and Lucy continued. “Oh shit- that sounds awesome??? That’s- that’s really something you can do???” He chattered eagerly. “Damn, I know what I’m doing tonight. I might as well go through the whole DragonStone series again! Thanks!!!” He paused for a second, seeming to realize Lucy was listening. “Uh- Sorry about the language. Force of habit,” he said sheepishly. He glanced over at his book stack. Animating books... oh, he was already ecstatic. But… he didn’t know if he wanted to... Y’know. Leave the library yet. He had his book stack, sure. But he also had two new... hopefully friends...? “... hey, uh, since you two like dragonstone, could I... uh... make a recommendation?” He asked hesitantly. “Or a couple? Since, uh, since this is your book day and all. Maybe I could... I dunno, show you the best spots to find books in that shelf maze back there?” His smile was still confident, but his gaze was shy. He didn’t wanna overstep boundaries. He just wanted to hang around a bit more. “I don’t have anything else to do today. Not till I get back to my apartment, anyways.”

Vaal: Alex chuckled a bit at Journal's excitement, seemingly glossing over the swear. He had sworn around Lucy a few times. She knows that 'shit' is a bad word, she's not gonna say it. He's let that slip out more than a few times."No problem, I'm sure you'll have a great time." He replied, letting out a little sigh as he continued sorting through his books. Okay... that should be all of his books? He hoped they were. He didn't want to grab Journal's DragonStone books. They were the same books, yes, but he was returning his. He started to check the inside cover of the books for any 'return by this time' stamps when the other spoke up again. He raised a brow. That was... a nice offer, to be sure. Hmm. He thought about it for a moment, as he continued looking through everything. "Hmmmm... I mean, I don't see why not...?" He replied, glancing at Lucy. She seemed excited at the idea. "Thank you, I guess." The familiar just made a little face at her originator before turning to the sorcerer. "I think that's a great idea! Alex always complains about getting lost in here." She glanced at him again, snickering at the face he was pulling. "He'd get lost on his way to this town if there were any turns on the road here!" "I-I would not???" He sputtered indignantly. "My sense of direction is not that  bad!" "What about that time we spent a whole day walking around town because you forgot where the apartment-" "I will ground you."

Belle: Journal looked delighted when Alex said yes. He tried to hide it, but the happy glow in his expression was going nowhere. He! Was gonna! Get to share good books!!! Not to mention he could hang out with Alex and Lucy! Hopefully he could call them friends properly by the time they had to leave. That would be nice. Even if... Y’know. They didn’t live here. That’s a problem for later. As Alex and Lucy bickered, he had to put a hand over his mouth to keep from laughing. These were his favorite sorts of conversations to hear. You just knew  there was a story behind em. Even if they’re only mentioned in passing. “Well, I dunno if I can help with the town problem,” he started, getting up. “But I can certainly help with the library one! How about I stick my books in a reserved spot, and you turn yours back in? And then I show you around?” His eyes sparkled eagerly, one hand gently patting the top of his book stack. Ah, yes. The excited pats. “It’s easy once you pick up what spots the different genres are in!”

Vaal: By end of the little bickering session, Alex had his arms crossed, giving Lucy a stern look. The familiar was just sticking her tongue out at him like the little kid she was. Adorable. Absolutely adorable. He simply nodded at Journal's words, picking up his stack of books, and prompting the little familiar to climb up and get settled in his hood again. Though she had her head rested on his shoulder now, wanting to see everything going on instead of just napping the day away. "Sounds good, sounds good..." He said, looking around the pile of books he had. "Lets just hope I don't fall over again..." The sorcerers managed to find the front desk fairly quickly, now that they weren't. Well. On the floor. Falling over apparently helped them get their bearings. Alex got all his books returned and sorted out, still feeling a bit sheepish about just how many he had. And he was probably going to leave with just as many. After everything was sorted out, he turned to Journal, looking... nervously neutral, but still optimistic. He was letting a little smile creep across his face, but that was about it. He was just nervous about looking too excited. Anxiety issues. Lucy looked excited enough for both of them, though. "Okay, uh... feel free to uh. Show us around, I guess."

Belle: Journal hefted his book stack up with ease, following happily after Alex. The librarians on duty ended up making him just. Take a box. It would be easier for them to keep an eye on the books he wanted if they stayed together. Especially since they could put boxes behind the counter. Journal just apologized sheepishly for how many he had. Evidently, it isn’t he thinks about until checkout time. By the time Alex was ready, Journal was practically bouncing in place. He didn’t want to look too eager either, but a tapping foot and shining eyes betrayed him. He just!!! Loved the library! He loved the books! He had a new- er- acquaintance?- who wanted to be shown around and also loved books! And he had a cute familiar! What was there he shouldn’t be excited about? He lives out of town, his mind grumbled. Shut it, he thought in return. “Sooo... I think we can start with legends, since that’s always nice,” he said nonchalantly. He motioned for Alex to follow him, heading confidently towards the shelves. “And then move over to magic books, and then the series like DragonStone...” Excitement crept into his voice the more he spoke. He kept glancing at Alex and Lucy as he walked- both to make sure they kept up, and to gage interest. He wanted to make sure they liked whatever he was chattering about. Hopefully this was helpful and nice for the two of em…

Vaal: The two of them happily followed along, Lucy obviously looking happier than Alex, but he was letting that little smile on his face get bigger as they walked into the maze of shelves. Yeah, he would already be lost if it wasn't for Journal. Speaking of Journal, he was... he was pretty nice. He was a nice guy, maybe a little nervous? But he could understand that. It'd be nice to have a friend in this town. It'd be uh. Nicer to have a friend in his current hometown, but a friend in the next town over was still pretty good. Better than no friends, that's for sure. "I think that sounds good." He replied, giving the familiar on his shoulder a couple of pats. "I don't think I need more magic books right now? But it never hurts to look over a few... just in case there's something interesting that I wanna learn." He shrugged, almost throwing Lucy off balance. "I'm more interested in the legend and DragonStone stuff, to be honest..." He was also interested in having someone to talk to about those legends and DragonStone stuff, but he felt like that'd be a little weird to just... say. To somebody he just met.

Belle: Journal paused talking to listen as they walked. Ah! Good to know. And good for his excitement, honestly. He hadn’t had an opportunity to really get into legends until... well. Until a month ago, really. He had many widely known legends to catch up on! Lots of things to learn! It made him happy. And fueled his dreams of recreating them onstage, one day. Alex likes dragonstone, legends, magic... he’s really nice... has a sweet familiar... and I found him in a library. Could I find a better friend if Revaew herself made one for me? he wondered to himself. What came out, though, was none of that. He spoke as he kept walking, making little gestures as he did so. “Oh! Right, of course! I was just gonna take you around so you knew where stuff was,” he chuckled sheepishly. “We can definitely loiter in the legends section...” He fell silent for a moment. Considering. “... it, uh, it’ll be nice to have some company looking at them, honestly. I’m not as knowledgeable as I’d like to be,” he admitted, rubbing the back of his head. “If- if it’s ok to do that! I mean, we’re doing a tour to get you acquainted, not for legend hour.” Unless you’d like that, his gaze seemed to say. Revaew. He was so awkward. Hopefully Alex could pick up the hint... if not, that was ok! Just... having a buddy would be nice. That’s all.

Vaal: Alex was happy to be wandering the library with someone- two someones, even! It was Lucy's first trip to the library, though he thought she was going to be asleep the whole time. He wished she didn't have such a rude awakening, though. At least she seemed to be enjoying herself regardless. He visibly perked up a bit more at the mention of loitering in the legends section, and gave a chuckle at the mention of not being as knowledgeable as he'd like to be with legends. "I know a lot about legends, honestly." He replied, his face making it clear that he was starting to reminisce. "I got to hear about a lot of them from my uncle..." He cleared his throat a bit awkwardly. Okay, that's enough, he didn't ask for your life story. "A-anyway, I'd love to, uh, loiter in the legends section for a bit. Would you mind, Lucy?" "Nope, that sounds good!" She said, giving a little smile. "As long as we can pick up the other DragonStone books for animated book night, I'm happy!" He chuckled. "Yeah, that's what I figured, but I thought I'd ask."

Belle: Journal perked up a bit at Alex’s mention of hearing legends from an uncle. So they were passed on orally... from family, too... explains how I knew nearly nothing but the horror stories, he grumbled mentally. But Alex wasn’t here for childhood losses. No, he was here for loitering in the legend section. And Journal was too. “Hell yeah, legend loitering,” he smiled, giving Alex a thumbs up. “Maybe you could be the one recommending legends for me, eh?” His tone was joking, but also hopeful. “I’ve, er, kinda been hoping for someone to talk legends with. I mean!!! My roommate is nice! But he’s... well. We’re, uh, still getting used to each other. A-and that’s not the point.” He chuckled ruefully as they walked into the section. He stopped to just... admire the books. There were so many... they were so different... so cool... even the scarier ones... He looked back at Alex with a contented smile. “... welp. We’ve got time. Books are all ours.”

Vaal: Alex nodded at Journal's mention of a roommate. Yeah, he could get that, sort of. It was just him and Lucy in his apartment, but he still had to get used to being in an apartment for more than a weekend. He was still adjusting. Every morning he had been waking up expecting his uncle to come in and tell him that they had to pack up. But no. He was. Staying. In one place. Hopefully he could get used to it. If he couldn't, he could probably just move around more, like most questors do... though, he would prefer to stay in one spot. For Lucy's sake. He wanted her to grow up in a home, not a house. Or, apartment, rather. He wanted a lot of things for her... hopefully he could provide. He looked over all the books on the shelves, his eyes betraying his excitement, the familiar on his shoulder looking more visibly amazed. He gave a whistle, prompting her ears to twitch a bit. "So many books, probably not as much time as I'd like..." He mumbled jokingly. Well, sort of. He was amazed by how many titles he recognized... his smile suddenly widened as he noticed one book in particular. "Oh! Hey!" He grabbed the book, his smile softening as he turned the cover over. It seemed to be a kids story about a kid and a dragon. "I remember this book... I used to read this all the time, back when I... I..." His voice trailed off as his smile faltered a bit. He shook his head, trying to brush it off before Journal could notice. "... i-it was my favorite childhood story." Lucy was just looking over aaaaall the books, her expression one of absolute childlike wonder. Look at! All!! Of those books!!! There were so many!!!

Belle: Journal was practically glowing with happiness as Alex and Lucy looked on. They were excited! It made him feel nice. He hummed contentedly as he perused the shelves. So many names... he felt like he’d hardly made a dent in all these legends. But the ones he knew, he knew by heart. And he was slowly adding to his mental library. When Alex spoke up, he glanced over curiously. Oh! A legend book!  Looked like a kid’s book, and from Alex’s words, he was right. Though... was something wrong? Journal blinked, and Alex looked ok again. He... wouldn’t mention it. He knew how it was with slip ups. The sorcerer just smiled in return, leaning over to take a look. “Ooh, looks sweet!” He replied. “Like a classic kid’s book. I think I had one like that... hang on, lemme look at the shelves...” He stepped away to search. It wasn’t long before he trotted back over to Alex, a book in hand. “Here! This is the one I read to death when I was little.” He held it out. It was about a show sorcerer, from the looks of it. Full of many adventures. It was one of those books he’d kept wedged behind his bed frame at home… memories. Journal shrugged timidly. “It’s... uh... kiiinda the only legend I really knew since... somewhat recently,” he admitted, sighing. He waved a hand, as if to brush it off. “Which! Is why! I’m glad the library has so many!” He swept his hand toward the shelves, tension leaving in favor of childlike eagerness. “‘S plenty to learn and to read and to fall in love with. ‘M real happy about that.” He glanced at Alex, a trace of nervousness in his gaze. He liked legends. He was already showing him around the library. Maybe he could... “... hey... uh... I know we literally just bumped into each other, but. Uh. Would you maybe wanna talk legends if we met up again...?” He asked nervously. “Or- like- Y’know, if we were pen pals we could write back and forth, if- if that’s cool. J-just an idea, it’s fine if you don’t wanna or anything!” Oh Revaew, please let that not have been awkward...

Vaal: Alex wasn't sure if Journal didn't notice his slip up, or if he just wasn't prying. If it was the former, he was glad, if it was the latter, he was thankful for the consideration. Either way, he raised a brow when he suddenly trotted off, and it was still raised when he came back. Though he quickly started smiling again when he saw what book it was. "Hey! I know that one!" He exclaimed, as he quickly started reminiscing again. "I used to read that one a lot... it was one of my uncle's favorites too." He gave a sigh, his mind trailing off as all the good old memories came flooding back. Any memory with his uncle was a good one. At the mention of pen pals, though, he blinked. Pen pals? Like, keeping in contact? Well... they just met, but. He seemed nice. And they seemed to have quite a few things in common, so... "... I mean, I don't see why not." He answered, giving a slightly nervous, but still genuine, smile. "It'd be nice to have someone to talk books with! And maybe I can show you that book animating spell, it's a, uh, pretty simple one." He definitely felt like things were moving a little fast, but then he remembered a saying his uncle had: 'Friendships can happen in a month or a minute.' This just so happened to be the latter. And he was alright with that. Lucy, meanwhile, was still enraptured with all the books. As the two were talking about pen pals and all that, she pulled a book that caught her interest from the shelf, and showed it to Alex, nearly bonking him in the back of the head with it. "Can we take this one?" She asked, giving him those hopeful little kid eyes. "I thought it looked neat..." It seemed to be a little mystery book about a sorcerer thief who left glass flowers as a calling card. He raised a brow at it, and gave a little smile. "... I mean, it does look neat... sure! It'd make for a good book night treat."

Belle: Journal’s smile was both delighted and relieved at Alex’s response. He hadn’t managed to mess up his question, and he’d gotten a pen pal! Nice. I mean, technically nettles is a pen pal. But. Still. I can talk legends and books and magic with my new one, he thought happily. The sorcerer was content to chat with Alex about details as his familiar looked over the shelves. Her sudden book snatching and eager words made Journal chuckle. “Oh, I’ve seen that one around! Haven’t had the chance to read it yet,” he hummed. “If it’s good, let me know! I can, uh, add it to my ‘to read’ list.” As if that wasn’t long enough already. “... Y’know, I bet we could both swap a couple book recs, now that we’re here...” He sighed softly as he looked around again. So many books... so little time... At least he had company today. It felt a lot nicer to browse books with these two. And they would probably be there for awhile. That was perfectly fine with him.

Vaal: Alex wasn't really expecting to get a pen pal today, just some books, but it definitely wasn't something he was against! Besides, it would probably be a little easier on his social anxiety to get to know Journal through letters at first. Of course they'd hang out sometimes, but... well, he assumed they would, anyway. That's like. The end goal of pen pals, right? To get to a point where you can hang out as often as you write to each other? He really didn't know, he's never had one before. He was probably really overthinking this. He smiled again at the mention of book recs. Ooooh yeah, he definitely had some stuff to recommend. Another good thing about this! He could share all his favorite books with someone! And maybe talk about them too, if he liked them as much as him. Though he might not, because... well... He liked some of these books a lot. He could talk for hours about a single book no problem. "Well... if you like DragonStone, then I might know a couple of other books you might enjoy too..."

[aharris00britney]

ASKS 06

Ummmm stuff I’ve ignored and let build up ;-; MM hairlines, a pic of me, default replacement hairs, donation stuff, using my hair conversion meshes, a male hair wip, recolor requests, and other stuff UwU

Anonymous said: face reveal?        

lmao this is from October but I never take pics of myself besides snapchat so UwU

@wildfire607​ said: I love your content for the game! I have my notifications on for you. Much love from Texas. ♥️

omggg thank you!!!! literally I don’t feel like people would have notifications on for me ;n; again, thank you so much <3

@standardheld said: Hey there! I know you don’t take requests so take it as an idea. Maybe you’ll like it. Otherwise, please don’t feel forced to do anything! So here’s the idea: I haven’t fount an adult’s version of you YeoJin hairs with big pigtails. Remember Cassandra Goth from The Sims 2? It think it would look beautiful and I know you’ve got the necessary talent. If you like the idea, please let me know :)        

Hello!!! Lmao I am kinda swamped rn to start ‘new’ things BUTBUTBUT I don’t mind if somebody uses my conversion meshes like YeoJin Hair since all it is is a conversion. So if u wanna do it or wanna ask some other people, feel free!! <3   

@pxelsquid​ said: The WIP hair in your play list post is so beautiful! I can’t wait for it!

Thanks! Planning to get it out in the next week or so

Anonymous said: What do you use donations for?

(answer in bold) lmao I actually don’t get many, at least not enough for them to go towards anything. But I do get a few dollars every couple of months (and that still makes me super happy to see ty to anyone who has donated ever UwU) lmao so I don’t really know what the donations go towards though I guess packs?? which rn I prob wouldn’t buy a pack w/donation money bc irl stufffff but I would think donations on a sims account should go to more sims stuff if you don’t need to money for personal life situations :)

Anonymous said: Hello! Would you ever consider some of your hairs for male sims?

You should be able to disable to masculine filter and see them?? If not go in S4S and edit the tags to let it be seen

Anonymous said: about your last hair: NOPE. 

all night all night all niiiiiiiight ✨

Anonymous said: I’m so happy you made the Jennie Hair without headband! I really like it so far. Good job!

Yay!! I’m glad you like it. Thank you so much <3

Anonymous said: When will you be releasing the braids on your post /post/168877609911/ ?

Yeah!! They’ve been done a while, hopefully they should get posted soon. Here is a link if u want early accessssssssssssss UwU

Anonymous said: why did u and yoshi break up?

Richard ( @cas-fulleditmode ) shares the same fetish as me (M*** P**f) lmao im kiddingggggg UwU me and @ayoshi​ are married in Korea still

Anonymous said: BOOOOOI! HAVE YOU HEARD “BLACK DRESS” BY CLC? IT. IS. LIT

i dont think u get…. my k-pop obsession ;-; lmao I literally keep up with like every girl group and watch the album teasers/everything UwU I still prefer Where Are You? to Black Dress though.

Anonymous said: Are you friends with grimcookies?

to an extend I think so, yes. We have only messaged a few times in the past week or so bc of memessssss

Anonymous said: Can you please post some eyes or tell me where I can download cc eyes? I hate the eyelashes that sims has.

My resource page has the eyes I use and the no EA eyelashes mod link :)

@saurussims​ said: Pass the happy! 💛 When you get this, reply with 5 things that make you happy and send this to the last 10 people in your notifications!

My birthday is this month so I’m happy about that lmao

Loona

my pug UwU

my friendssss

getting new clothing

Anonymous said: aghhhh your sim style is so nice! Have a nice day!

Thank you so much!!

Anonymous said: Hello! ^_^ I just dropped by to tell you how much I appreciate your hard work in making hairs. I don’t know how much time it takes you to make such wonderful creations, but they definitely made my sims better-looking for your CCs are amazing and they are of matching lengths and styles that really made planning my sims’ hairstyles easier <3 Sorry I’m too broke to donate, and all I can do is THANK YOU :( But please know that you deserve all the praises you get. More power to you and your blog! <3

omggg this is so sweet ;-; thank you!!! I really really really appreciate stuff like this. <3

Anonymous said: Would you consider making more hairs (preferably a long, casual style and maybe a ponytail?) with the Candie/Maja bangs? They’re soooo cute!

I have made another hair with those bangs. Hopefully it gets posted soon :)

Anonymous said: Can you please make the laundry day hairstyles base game compatible?

I actually didn’t buy laundry stuff lmao college/senior payments are taking all my money rn so I prob won’t get any packs anytime soon :P

Anonymous said: all i want in life is curly maxis match boy hairs ahhh :((((((((

aweeee I am really bad at male hairs or I would try :( this is a male hair I did the other day and it is super super basic but like I’m surprised it wasn’t super fucked up ;-;

@jacazul​ said: ✨💛 This is the Amazing Person Award! Once you are given this award you are supposed to paste it in the ask of eight different people, who, in your opinion, deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it is sweet to know someone thinks you’re amazing inside and out 💛✨ <3333

Thank you!!! <3

Anonymous said: how do you get all your sims to look so cute??? every time i think i’ve made a super cute sim i see one of your sims on my dash and i’m like WHOA NEVERMIND THEN. seriously tho what are your secrets

ummmm I use all my sims and then just do ‘make twin/sibling’ and then I get a clone to mold like clay wedgfhv

Anonymous said: which recolor palettes do you recommend for hairs? I like the EA colors but I would like to try some others.. especially after seeing the hair color you put on your sim with the jennie hair in your latest post

Obvi I like the anathema palette bc I put my hairs in that, but the saccharine (?) is really really good and there are tons of hairs in that. and the WMS palette is so so so good there are just too many swatches for me to do that palette tbh

Anonymous said: Are you going to make more hairs that are ombre accessory compatible?

Maybe! I am not sure tbh, it depends on the mesh I use and abunch of other factors :)

Anonymous said: Question, I love your Jisoo hair, it’s well done, but the ombre part, what’s the file name and how do you download it? I’m a noob when it comes to this. Sorry to bother you.

file name -> JisooHairOmbreNaturals[AH00B].package

just put it in your mods folder like you would normal CC. It is in accessories :)

Anonymous said: I’m legit falling in love with you and all these cc’s ❤❤❤

<3333 Thanksssssss UwU

Anonymous said: not to rush you but are any male sims coming out soon :0

My male sim has been in my drafts with all the CC links and everything the past MONTH but I haven’t had the motivation to export his download file omggg. He is on my gallery @ spotharris if u really really want him right now

@bob10112006

​ said:

I love you and thank you for your cc and can you make not so berry cc?thanks!

People have made recolors of my cc in not so berry colors :) check my sideblog @aharris00britneyrecolors​

Anonymous said: Hi! Are you planning to make the Go Won hairs into a bob? the same hair and all but shorter. I just think it will look really nice as a bob.

Maybe?? no plans as of right now though

Anonymous said: please upload your red-ish haired sim! :) x

Already did, check my sim download page

Anonymous said: damn, those new hair really sucks. sorry… but. yeah.

well maybe if you stanned LOONA then you would like them UwU

Anonymous said: I checked out your sim page, they’re so gorgeous! I remember at some point last year you mentioned maybe sharing Briella after you stopped using her, and I haven’t seen her in a while in your posts. Have you considered sharing her or is she just officially retired? She was a very cute sim and is iconic!

Briella wasn’t actually my sim! Her original download post is here

@ayoshi​ said: Are you gonna tell your followers why you didn’t give me a valentine gift or…???

Me and @cas-fulleditmode​ were too busy to take a stop in korea sorry UwU

Anonymous said: heey :) could you maybe put the hairlines your were talking about in the latest post for download? i use hairlines myself and i really like your hairs in tge palette you are using and i can’t find any hairlines in it soo? could you do that? :)            

the hairlines I made are actually in the saccharine palette bc so many clayified hairs come in that palette lmao. They are kinda messy rn but if I eve use them on a sim download ill link them there :)

Anonymous said: Could you please recolour some of wild-pixel’s hairs in the palette?

Anonymous said: can we give you recolor requests?

Idk if I will do recolors that often but when I do I kinda just do what hairs I find myself using at that time :P

Anonymous said: Will u ever upload girl from “tell me why, why i’m so lonely” post?? Please consider it, she is soooo cute 😍😍😍

I didnt save her :(

@investedwheat40 said: Would you ever consider uploading your joy hair as a default replacement for that one hair Zoe Patel wears?

Prob not since it uses different textures/shadows and stuff, it would be the same size and stuff as the normal Joy hair

Anonymous said: Is there any way to download you models? Because I live how they looks and really want to use them.

I got this before I made my sim download page, but lmao here is a link to my sim download page :P

[hqtbells-blog]

thanksgiving blessings.

I want to preface this saying that this week, I completely lost it.

I feel comfortable being honest. For all intents and purposes, this blog is essentially my personal tumblr when it comes to venting/sharing about my day/reblogging my likes. Maybe this is a mistake because sometimes I mesh too close with my characters and it can be hard to draw a line but I’m horrible at keeping up with any blogs except my roleplay ones so..that’s why you see so many random posts that are promptly deleted before I clog up the dash.

But yeah. This week I lost it. I learned I was on the verge of losing something very near and dear to my heart, I got in an argument with a person I care about very much, I lost my job right before the holidays, and my Granny, my second mom, was placed in the hospital for the second time this month. In the span of..two-three days. I mean, when it rains..it pours, right?

I’m laying in bed and wondering what the fuck do I do. I’m not shy in enclosing the information that I do suffer from an anxiety disorder and moderate depression. I’m on medication for it and I think I’ve got a better handle on it than I used to but God, I had to go on my mom’s Xanax this week because I just laid in bed and bawled my eyes out, wondering where the fuck do I go from here? I didn’t want to get up. I didn’t want to talk to anybody. I’m lucky enough that I have friends who push past all that and continue to get me to talk, even when I give them one word answers or snap at them but I just felt..lost. And numb. And so, so sad. I felt like everything was piling up on me and I didn’t know how much more I could handle.

I hadn’t told anyone in the group, apart from a few people, what was going on with me because I hadn’t wanted to seem as if I was seeking attention. Isn’t that silly, that we’ve been conditioned to feel that we’re “attention seekers” when we’re just expressing our feelings? But I posted a post explaining my lack of activity and the feedback I got from it flooded me. I sat there, crying again, but for a completely different reason. People cared. People cared enough to pray for my family and me, people cared enough to take the time and message me, people cared to even check up on me the next day. It blew my mind and it warmed my heart and I’m not exaggerating, it made me feel like if I just..got up and attempted to move forward, things would be okay.

My Granny’s home now. Tired and weak, but home and she got to spend Thanksgiving at home with us. I have a few job interviews that I’m praying I’ll get so I don’t have to spend another Christmas selling all my jewelry to buy my mom exactly two Christmas gifts. And even though some things in the group are hazy and I might feel lost and stuck and nervous about my future here..I’m gonna be okay. Because of the people in here, constantly acting as my second family.

I’d like to share my appreciation for a few people.

Katie @elizajanetc - You’re my best friend here. Truly. I cannot put into words how thankful I am for you. The past few nights, you just..answering me and encouraging me and telling me you were listening made me so grateful to know you even if I was horrible and couldn’t express it. You are always there for me. No matter what kind of mood I’m in, and you’re the most loyal and trustworthy person I’ve met in all my years of roleplaying. Sometimes I feel like I take too much from you but that’s just you, you’re just so generous and kind and giving. And aside from the pillar of strength you are for me, you’re also hilarious. And fair. And an incredible writer and an even more incredible friend and you are constantly showing me your appreciation. I can only hope I show even half of that back to you because I would be so lost without you. You’ve brought so much to my life. Your struggles are my struggles, your joy is my joy, your pain is my pain. Thank you for indulging my Troian gushing, thank you for introducing me to The 100 and putting up with my caps lock reactions, and thank you for giving me a friendship both ic and ooc that’s gonna stay with me forever.

Sam @theflashgrant It’s funny because there’s so much love and appreciation for you in my heart but I feel like nothing I say can ever be good enough to thank you for what you’ve done for me. You’re the longest ship partner I’ve had, you’re essentially a real life relationship for me and we’ve truly been through it all. When I try and think back to a time without you in my world, I go blank because you’re a constant for me whether that be through a ship or through a friendship. We have a special friendship that no matter what, we know we’re going to be okay and we’re going to have each others backs. Forever. “I’d go down swinging for you.” And I really would. I wanted to do an appreciation post for Treegan, and I probably will, but I’m going to bawl the entire time writing it because they’re such an incredibly important ship and I don’t care what anyone else thinks - they were fucking epic and that is large in thanks to you. Thank you for always taking a chance on me, thank you for never failing to be the first to share with me Keegan news, and thank you for never truly leaving. You are so special to me.

Katie @dianna--elise I can’t put into words how much you’ve done for me either. Apparently I can wax on about everything but how much love and appreciation I have for people because honestly, no words ever seem good enough. You’re an incredibly strong woman. And you have a strong personality. You don’t take peoples shit and you stand by your beliefs, and that’s so admirable to me. I may not always understand or share your opinions but at least I know that when you speak, it’s coming from the heart. Passion is the most attractive quality in a person to me which is probably why sometimes we clash so hard..but we also mesh so great. I really believe you’re gonna save somebody some day, because you’ve already done your fair share in saving me. Thank you for the endless TV rewatches, thank you for letting me call you ridiculous nicknames, and thank you for being the kind of person who never fails to reach out.

Bella @ole-cole We’ve only known each other nine months and we already feel comfortable enough to call each other out on our bullshit. I think that’s great, even if it can be exhausting sometimes (cause let’s be honest..we both deal with a lot of bullshit, mostly from me). I had no idea when I met you that I’d enter such a great ship with you and that’s the beauty of our friendship - completely organic, a happy accident in the making. You have listened to the weirdest things come out of my mouth..or well, from my keyboard to your messenger and you have always been there to be a listening ear for me. You’re my precious little Brit and I love confusing you with my American ways. You’re so talented, in every way, from your drawings to your way with words, and to your photographs. You’ve got such beauty in you. Thank you for the daily blonde!Cole pictures that never fail to brighten my day, thank you for always sending me links to things you know will make me smile, and thank you for not giving up on me. Seriously.

Kris10 @itscaitylotz Ahh. My phoenix. My spitfire. My little hellion. You’re so fucking feisty and in you, I have found a soul sister. We are just always on the same wavelength and even in our writing, we seem to be naturally drawn towards the same things. You’re like a bolder, more determined, slightly sassier version of me and I admire and look up to you so much. You really go after the things you want and you have a take no prisoners attitude that I need to adapt because you’re living your best life right now. And you’re so sweet. And kind. And..comforting, that’s the best word I can use to describe you. Your pep talks even rival mine and you always refuse to let me lay down and accept defeat. With you in my life, I know I always have my own cheerleader and I hope I’m that same person for you. Thanks for all the trouble Troian and Caity get into, thank you for always messaging me back paragraphs when I need a little pick me up, and thank you for giving me a new girl crush once I fell in love with your Caity.

Christinanana @revival-gomez I miss you so much. Come back to Florida. Please? I didn’t see you enough while you were here, and now I’m really regretting all the times I could’ve driven up. Meeting you that one day was so much fun and God, you’re so fucking cute in person! I could’ve just hugged you all day. You’re hilarious and I love our IMs where we just send grumpy faces at each other and basically have the most insane conversations because that’s just how we communicate. We’ve known each other for so long now that there’s a comfort and ease with each other and I really hope that never goes away because I consider you one of my closest friends here. Thank you for making sure I was still breathing once Troian walked by me, thank you for always offering to have Disney dates with me, and thank you for never failing to remind me I don’t know what a McChicken is.

Caiti @srslycandi We haven’t talked in a while but that doesn’t really worry me because I know that you’re there, and you know that I’m here. You’re still a sweet girl, always doing her best to make everybody feel included and loved and special and that makes you the most special in itself. I love you and I just want the best for you, always.

Bonnie @hyfdanielle I’m genuinely so happy we’ve been talking more. Katie always tells me how wonderful you are, and having the opportunity to write with you and create a beautiful friendship here with you has been the best. You’re really talented, and so creative and kind. I mean it, you’re just really easy going and you’re always making the effort to make people you talk with feel special and important. I can’t wait to get to know you better too.

Brandy @melissabenoistiisms God, you’re literally Melissa ooc-wise too, it’s amazing. You’re always messaging me with the cutest things to say and making my day. I love that we made a great brotp come to life with our combined efforts and that it’s all the more special with our little touches. I appreciate everything you do for me, and I love seeing BECAW! It makes me giggle, because you’re so darn cute.

Lindsay @somadelaime You’re always willing to plot and you bring life and heart to the Riverdale cast here. Thanks for everything you do. Ina @so-ashleighmrr Ina, God, you’re the fucking best. Always willing to talk, always willing to listen, and being the biggest Lili and SH fangirl that just boosts my ego way too much. I adore you! Kate @s--amell I know we haven’t really talked much, but you reached out to me that one day and helped me so much. Thank you and I hope to plot/write with you soon. Pedro @ffstaron My cutie pie. Always making me blush with your sweet words and flirty ways. You’re a sweetie and yep, I still listen to that playlist you made me. It’s my favorite. I adore our KJ/Lili brotp because KJ is just as adorable and funny as you. Thank you for always being so damn precious. Charlie @angelkarliekloss You never fail to include me in things and you always act like even if we go days without speaking, you still consider me important. It means so much and I have loved all your characters here. Thank you so much for always being so kind and fun to talk to. Kim @xosharnabur You’re always fair and generous in asks, and I love your Sharna. You really should too, she’s great and I promise that things will eventually turn around for you. Just keep doing what you’re doing. JJ @alycia-jdc We’ve never really talked OOC but I adore you. Your Alycia is so great, as is your Darren. You’ve got a way of really connecting with people and just having the most fun conversations. Keep up the great work. Nikki @hcurly You are never allowed to leave because I’d miss you so much. Genuinely the sweetest person I know and never fails to leave a smile on my face with your kind heart. I adore you too, and I hope you never forget that. Beth @ffszefron We haven’t talked in so long but my love for your writing and characterization hasn’t wavered. You’re so talented and creative and special and I love interacting with you whenever I can. Even when you encourage me to watch your legit insane brothers. Kenna @tylrsgn Thank you for always saying kind words when I’m having a bad day and even in the past, doing manips and whatever else you could to help me. Your characters are all so different too and I think you’re very brave and bold. Keri @vcncssa Oh my God, your graphic skills amaze me. I think you’re so interesting and inspired and I love both your girls, they’re always so much fun to talk to and you’re a delight in real life. B @so-taylorswift Thank you for reviving my love for Taylor and letting me tag her in literally every T-Swift thing I can find. I get to release my inner fangirl and you’re honestly the best and most tolerable Taylor we’ve had in a while. Jaq @sonataliadyer Remember when you called me a Queen? Nah, that’s still and always will be you. You’re truly a master at writing and plots and I aspire to be like that. I always feel EVERYTHING with your characters. That’s true talent and you’re a genius. Minnie @so-saoirse I love you, I love you, I love you, you are so fucking precious and such a gem of a human being. You NEVER fail to make me happy on the dash and you should be universally loved by everyone because you’re that amazing. Thank you for everything you do for me. @heylizzo I am so sorry I don’t know your OOC name or that it slipped my mind (I am basically a human Dory) but you’re always reaching out to me in times of need and reminding me there’s good people left in this world. Plus, Lizzie is a fucking boss which makes me believe you are too. You’re amazing. Rebecca @wtftaissa I love your name. ;) You’re always a lot of fun to write with too and random note, I love that you literally thank everybody who sends you anons or questions for memes. It’s so cute. Mar @ashleybenzoxoxo We haven’t talked in a while, and I miss writing with you but I hope your life’s going good. We always have such great Troiley interactions! Ally @ffsdylan Um, I love you to the moon and back. God, where have you been all my life? Dylan/Lili is the brotp I never knew I needed and you’re so hilarious and warm yourself. I swear, you must ghost write or predict real life Dylan’s life because you’re so great at playing him. I’m mad at you for making me want to hug him all the time but..you’re an awesome friend and I’m very lucky to know you. Megan @sosebastianstan You’re great and we should definitely talk more. Thanks for always being a sweetheart when we do. @witneycarson I’m sorry, I can’t remember your OOC name either (I’m the worst) but you’re always fun and nice to talk to and thank you for always being up for plots, no matter what character I have! @nina--dobrev and @theeshaymitchell, two of the cutest shipping partners here. I loved Dobsley and I love how friendly and sweet you two are together and apart. Please come around more. Kelso @sokoritellymomoa Thank you for always being willing to write and talk to, you’re great. :)

Last but certainly not least; the admins.

Tini, you’ve created a safe haven and your work is tireless and endless and vastly appreciated, especially by me. This is my safe place. You’re incredible and I think you’re gonna go so far in life. @vanessabutterfly-hudgens Krista, you work really hard too and you strive to make things as fair and fun as possible. I appreciate your effort and thank you for always being willing to talk to me about anything. @marg-robbie Holli @itsmekatiecassidy I’ve really appreciated our talks lately and how understanding and generous you are. I hope everything is going okay for you as well and I’m praying for your family too. Thanks for always being a bright spot on the dash and making me laugh. Bellie @fckwilla I’m really happy we’re interacting more and more again and I have a feeling our characters are gonna be in for a wild ride together. Sorry for continually changing my hiatus status and driving you to probably pull out your hair. ;)

I finished this all before midnight so I can successfully say -

Happy Thanksgiving.

xo Becca

[edierone]

Found a whole goddamn notebook in the dumpster this time

no idea whose handwriting this is or why they’d write it or who it’s supposed to be about but it’s fun isn’t it? happy ficlet fantasy friday!

Drifting up from a warm, dozy sleep, she feels the bed shifting under her, and the weight of an arm draped across her. She smiles, keeping her eyes closed, snuggling against him. He keeps moving, though, instead of settling in, and she mumbles, “What’re you doin?”

He’s propped himself up on one elbow behind her, the arm over her doing something complicated.

“Taking a bed selfie.”

“Huh?” She still hasn’t opened her eyes. What the fuck time is it, anyway?

“A bed selfie.” 

Like that explains it.

One eye, then the other, slides reluctantly open, and she can make out his iPhone a few inches away in the dimness. They’re both in the frame, grainy and low-res; her hair is spilled out over the pillow, her bare shoulder exposed, his muscled arm disappearing into the corner where his hand is holding the phone. His thumb touches the button.

“It’s gonna be a week till we see each other again — I need a souvenir for when I get lonely,” he says.

Aww, he’s gonna miss me!, she thinks, charmed. Better give him something good to keep him warm up here.

“Hi, sexy!” she purrs, rubbing her backside against him.

He laughs, low in his throat, then kisses her temple, caressing her face with his own. He leans over her, resting his phone hand on the bed next to them.

“Mmm … love you,” he murmurs against her ear.

“Love you too,” she sighs. She turns her head to get his lips properly on hers, but something catches her eye.

“Babe — you’ve got it in video mode,” she giggles.

“What? No I don’t — oh yeah — ha! Nearly made a bed selfie sex tape. Hold on a sec —”

He squints at the phone, holding it back out a bit, then touches the button again, stopping the recording.

She kisses him lightly, eyes slipping shut again, and says “Send that to me tomorrow, will you? I might get lonely too.”

She knows he’s smiling in the dark, she can hear it when he says, “I’ll send it to you right now.”

“Mkay,” she sighs, feeling the heaviness of sleep creeping up again. She’s not sure how many minutes have gone by when she hears him again, all the cozy flirtiness gone from his voice.

“Uhhh … hm. That’s not — how did I  — shit.”

“What is it?” she manages, vaguely alarmed by the flat worry she hears. Before he can answer, there’s a distinctive ping from her own phone on the bedside table.

She’s awake now. “Did you schedule a tweet for this time of night?”

He looks at her, confused. He has no idea what she’s talking about. She sits up, turns on the lamp and reaches for her phone, and sees a notification illuminating the screen.

And there it is, the reason for that sound, the custom tone she’s had put on her phone solely for his posts that tag her on social media sites: He’s somehow managed to tweet something, minutes ago, from his public account, and mention her.

“Bed selfie - miss you already,” it says, and then the video.

“Oh no …”

Her heart is triphammering, she feels a little sick. He looks at her, face full of dread.

Wordlessly, she holds it up for him to see. He presses the “play” icon, and they watch, heads together.

The camera is unsteady, and the lighting is isn’t great — but the sound is clear, and it’s absolutely, definitely her, and him. Together, in bed, obviously intimate and comfortable … and sexual as all hell. Twenty-four seconds. Time stamp, 3:23 a.m. today.

“Ffffffffuuuuuuuuck,” he groans.

“Oh shit,” she breathes.

“How do I get it back? Can I delete that? Oh goddammit —“

“Christ — how did you even DO that? Why do you even have the app on your own fucking phone?”

“I was — I don’t know! I sent it and then I went to check my email and then I looked back — you know I don’t know how this shit works! I thought I was messaging it to you — it’s fucking three thirty in the morning, I can’t —”

“Give me that!” She takes his phone, deletes the tweet, but knows that’s not all there is to it. She shoves it back into his hand. “Call whatsherface, Kylie or whatever her name is, the girl that does your social shit — call her right now. Or text her — both! Get hold of her right now!”

He’s frantically trying to do just that, while she opens her own Twitter app and deletes the tweet from her feed. It’s only been sixteen minutes since it was posted, and it’s the middle of the night, maybe nobody saw it?  

Yeah, no.

It’s 3:45 a.m. in Vancouver, but it’s midday in Europe, and early risers are already up in New York. Fuck.

She watches, fascinated, as the number of notifications on her page begins to climb. Against her better judgment, she takes a look at what’s coming in — not sixty seconds after the time stamp, there’s a lot of “holy shit” and “OMFG” and “this is real! I live!” and so on.  She opens her stealth tumblr account — same fucking story. There are screen caps already! What the fuck is wrong with people? It reminds her of one of those virus-outbreak movies, where one sick person infects ten more and they infect twenty more each and yada yada the breakdown of civilization. This won’t end civilization, but it sure as hell might fuck shit up for the two of them (including, probably, the final nail in the coffin of that other thing she’s had going on the last few months).

And then, shortly after they’d deleted the goddamn tweet, now five minutes in the past, a flood of “wait, what happened?” “WTFF what is going on” and “THE LINK WON’T WORK THE TWEET IS GOOOONE!”

Meanwhile, he’s located Katey or Kimmy or whomever, who’s now yelling at him from someplace with loud voices and music. She’s only half-listening to their conversation, but the gist of it seems to be that there’s nothing they can do now but damage control — they deleted it from their accounts, sure, but any number of people have seen it, re-tweeted it, screen-capped it — and downloaded and saved the video for re-posting.

Annnnnd here’s one on her tumblr dash: “i am the goddess of true love! I bring you deleted video, resurrected! Look upon my works and rejoice!”

The video is in it. Fuck. She touches the play icon, hears “It’s gonna be a week till we see each other again” — double fuck.  It’s the real thing. It works. “Mmmm, love you …”

He finally hangs up on Kristie/Kelly/Kyra.

“ …You’ve got it in video mode” [giggle]

She hits pause, afraid to look at him right now. They’ve been so, SO careful, and protected themselves so well — everything ambiguous, smokescreens deployed, deniability maintained … well, mostly. Nothing they can’t handle. But this here — this is the smoking gun. She wants to shout at him, to ask him what the fuck he was thinking, how could he be so careless, how could he expose them like this, why didn’t he just wait till tomorrow to send it to her like she asked? Put on his goddamn reading glasses, for fuck’s sake?

But she knows he already feels awful, so she just squeezes her eyes shut and tries to breathe calm into her body. She doesn’t want to have a screaming fight right before she flies to another continent. This isn’t the old days — she’s fucking calm and fucking mature and they will deal with this like fucking grownups.

He sits on the bed, folded up with his head on his knees. An inarticulate groan comes from his general direction. “They’re gonna dissect this like the fucking Zapruder film,” he laments, and she barks startled laughter.

He looks up at last, surprised that she’s not trying to strangle him.

“How bad is it?” He gestures toward her phone.

Cringing slightly, she selects a representative post from tumblr: It’s the video, reblogged from the alleged “goddess of true love,” and right underneath it, a gif of Elmo in front of flames. The post has 290 notes already. The tags are a jubilant, nonsensical volcano of words and phrases she only partly understands — fucc me uppp, slay my entire ass, asdfjkl;lskj, platonic adult friends, i love dying and death and being dead, MURDER ME, why are they like this NEVER STOP, fight me, they’re gonna kill me, im spiraling, it’s a dumpster fire and i’m in it.

“Whyyyyy …” he moans, dropping his head into his hands.

“Most of America is still asleep, too. Just wait. It’s going to be so much worse.”

More inarticulate sounds of misery from him, then: “You know, if somebody assassinated the fucking President, the news wouldn’t spread this fast,” he mumbles. It’s only a slight exaggeration.

She flops dramatically onto her back, addresses the ceiling: “So. What do we do now? Deny and obfuscate?”

He laughs, loud and happy, for the first time since the phrase “bed selfie” came into their lives. “Fuck yeah!”

He stretches out and rolls over onto her prone body, covering her like a blanket, starts kissing his way down her neck. She shoves at him — not very convincingly — and grumbles “What’re you doing? Shouldn’t we start doing damage control?”

“Now??? Nahhh … it’s already out there.” He kisses her deeply, then murmurs into her ear, “We’re gonna do the time — might as well do the crime.” Reasonable, he’s always so reasonable …

“Hard to argue with that,” she says, shivering a little, running her hands over his broad back. Her heart speeds up and heat pools at her center, her physical responses to his touch as reliable as ever, yet still somehow surprising even after all these years. “Guess we’re pretty well fucked —”

“Oh, yeah,” he says against the hollow of her throat, then raises his head to look her in the eye — his expression the same one that’s gotten them into this kind of trouble a thousand times in the last 25 years, and will a thousand times more. “We’re definitely gonna be that.”

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@justholdinghandsok @becksndot5 @whatfallsaway @iva69s @guitargirl48 @emceecapitalc  @inkcollectorus @lostlastsforever756

[theys-a-joke]

Albert/Reader : In Sickness and In Health

Request: it’s just them alone at the lodging house because Race/Albert is sick and Reader doesn’t want to leave them alone???

Here it is! I had @lovethyfanperson look over this, amazing, I love her, 10/10, and she really seemed to like it so I decided to post it now! Be warned, it does delve into death, but only for a short bit. 

Here’s the ao3 link! 

It had been a pretty bad selling day. You and Albert had gotten caught in the rain while selling, and had to run back to the lodging house as quick as you could. You managed to run in between buildings keeping somewhat dry, but Albert ran straight back to the lodging house. By the time you got back, he was still soaked. A couple of the other boys were damp too.

“It smells like wet dog in here.” You stated as you entered the main room.

“Yeah and I bet you smells like flowers huh.” Albert said from across the room. He had changed into some drier clothes and was lying on the floor.

“Ise likes to think so. Ya know, I thinks that what this place needs.”

“What?”

“Flowers.”

“Ya really thinks so?” “Yeah, ‘specially on days like today, with everyone bein down n all cause o’ the rain.”

“If youse wanna pick ‘em go right ahead doll, but while youse is out, could you get me somethin to eat?” “You want I should get youse a seltzer too? And why is you lyin on the floor?”

“I ain’t feelin too good, and floor feels nice.”

“Oh. Maybe you shouldn’t sell papes tomorrow and get some help.”

“I don’t need help, alls I need is some rest.”

“Well, then maybe youse should get to your bed then, here, I’ll help ya.” You crouched down to help him up, putting his arm around your neck. His skin felt warm, though it could’ve been from the humidity. You helped, more-so dragged, Albert to his bed and he laid down.

“Thanks for helpin me out doll, though I’m not sure I needed it.” “Albert, I practically carried youse to your bed. I think the sickness is gettin to your head. Get some sleep.” You were leaving the room when he called out.

“Thanks for carin doll!” You laughed as you made your way to your bed, a couple guys shushing you along the way. You whispered an apology as you passed and got into your own bed. You hoped Albert would be alright tomorrow.

THE NEXT DAY

When you didn’t see Albert while you were getting ready, you knew something was up. You went to check up on him and suffice to say, he had gotten worse. He was paler than usual and his red hair was matted all over his face. He looked miserable. You slowly walked up to his bed so as not to startle him and spoke gently.

“Hey Albert, how ya feelin?” All you got in response was a groan.

“That bad huh?” You held his hand and rubbed circles on the back of it with your thumb. His skin was scorching.

“I’ll go tell the others youse is stayin in today, okay?” You got a muffled response that you determined to be an ‘okay.’ You went to the main room with all the boys about to leave.

“Hey guys, Albert ain’t feelin too hot today, poor guy, so he’s stayin back.”

“Youse gonna stay with him?” Specs asked.

“Somebody’s gotta take care of him.” You shrugged as you responded.

“Just don’t get into too much trouble while we’re gone eh?” Race said.

“Yeah sure.” You smiled, glad they understood, and headed back to Albert.

“Hey, I’m back, and I’m gonna be here all day if youse need anything alright?” “Thanks.” He managed to say. You pushed the hair out of his face and felt how hot his skin was again. You needed to do something about that.

“I’m gonna go get youse a cold cloth alright?” You left his bed to go get some rags and some water. You brought them both to Albert’s room and dabbed the wet cloth on his face. He sighed happily at the coolness. After a while, Albert seemed to have fallen asleep again. You left the cloth on his forehead in hopes of cooling him down a bit more, and decided to make yourself useful while he rested. You tidied up his room a bit, picking up and folding clothes, organizing some of the things the other guys had left, etc. Once you were done, you decided to go to Jacobi’s to get something for Albert.

“Good mornin Mr. Jacobi.” You greeted him politely.

“Ah, good morning (Y/N)! And what are you doin here? Shouldn’t you be out sellin papes?” He greeted you back, you were his favorite of the newsies, and was always glad to see you.

“Not today sir, Albert got sick from yesterday’s rain an’ Ise is staying behind to help him through it.” “Well aren’t youse a good friend. Did ya come for somethin to help ‘im feel better?” “As a matter of fact, I did. What sorta things do ya have?”

“Well, for what Albert mighta gotten, I’d suggest a good, warm soup.”

“Wonderful, I’ll take it, how much?”

“It’ll be 7 cents.”

“7 cents?! This better work some miracles. Oh, could I also get a seltzer?” You remembered what Albert had said last night about wanting a seltzer and decided to get him some. “Sure thing, that’ll be 9 cents.” “Here’s a dime. And do you mind if I take the bowl and glass? I promise to bring ‘em back.”

“Sure thing. Here you go,”  He handed you your items and penny, “and tell Albert I hope he gets better.”

“I will Mr. Jacobi, thanks again!” You headed back towards the lodging house, careful not to spill the soup or seltzer. It was a challenge trying to open all the doors, but you managed. Albert was still sleeping when you got back. You put down the soup and seltzer and gently shook Albert to wake him up. While you were out, he seemed to have taken off his shirt, probably because of how hot he was feeling.

“Hey, I brought you something, could you sit up for me?” You helped him sit up, and brought over the soup.

“Whadya get me?” He asked, his voice still hoarse from waking up.

“I went to Jacobi’s and got you some soup. He said it’s supposed to help you feel better.” “Really?” “Supposedly, here,” You handed him the bowl and spoon, encouraging him to eat, “Do you want me to feed it to you?” That made him chuckle.

“Sure.” And so you fed him. About halfway through the bowl you remembered the seltzer.

“Oh! I got you something else!” You put the bowl off to the side, and dashed to get the seltzer, hopefully it was still bubbly.

“Here.”

“You got me a seltzer? How much money did you spend on all this?” He was happy that you had brought him something to eat and drink, but mad that you had probably spent a lot of the money you earned.

“Don’t worry about the price, just enjoy what I brought you.” He seemed to growl at your response, but kept quiet. You didn’t need him getting mad while he was sick. He needed to rest up.

“Thank you, (Y/N), for this. It means a lot.”

“Anytime Al! I care about you and wanna make sure you get better. Can’t have my partner dying on me now can I?” It was meant  to be a joke, but after you said it you knew it was the wrong thing. Albert looked down, suddenly very interested in his blanket. The thought of Albert dying brought tears to your eyes and he looked up again.

“Hey, don’t cry. I ain’t ever leaving you, youse is stuck with me. Ya got that?” He pulled you closer to him and held you tightly.

“I got that.” You whispered from against his chest, your tears going as quickly as they came.

“Here, why don’t youse lie down with me for a while?”

“I’d like that.” The two of you lied down, Albert’s arms still around you, his skin cooler than before. You enjoyed being held in his arms, it was comforting. After a while, you realized how close to Albert you really were, and how defined his muscles were. You came to the realization that you had never seen Albert shirtless before. And looking at him up close, you had an urge to touch him. You gently traced the outline of his chest and abdomen with your finger, only stopping when you heard a laugh from Albert. You wondered if he was having a funny dream, or something similar, though you dismissed it and went back to tracing his muscles. The he laughed again, a bit more this time. Wait, was he ticklish? There’s was only one way to find out. You began to tickle Albert, gently at first, and then increasing in force. He was laughing so hard that he woke himself up and once he realized what was happening, he began to tickle you back.

“No, Albert, please!” You managed to get out between breaths. You were laughing so hard and trying to get away from Albert that you didn’t realize how close you were to the edge of the bed. You promptly rolled off in an attempt to remove yourself from Albert’s tickling, falling onto the floor. All the while you were still laughing.

“Woah, you okay doll?” Albert’s tone became concerned for a moment, as you had just rolled off the bed.

“I’m fine, I fell what, a foot? Nothin too bad. I’m more hurtin from laughin so much. Speakin o which…” You got up off of the floor and tickled Albert again, but only for a short while, and then ran away so you wouldn’t get tickled back.

“Ay (Y/N)! Get back here!” Albert shouted from his bed, he was already getting up to chase you.

“You  gotta catch me!” You shouted back.

“Oh I will!” He saw you running from one room to another and set after you. The two of you played this game of cat and mouse for a good while, going through all the rooms and all the levels of the lodging house. He had nearly cornered you a few times, but you managed to just barely escape, tickling him and getting tickled in the process. Though he had gotten you eventually somehow by sneaking up behind you while you were in the main room.

“Gotcha!” He said as he scooped you up in his arms. You shrieked as he picked you up.

“Okay, okay, you win! Now can ya put me down?”

“Nope. Youse made me run around so now wese is gonna take a nap.” He shifted how he was holding you, so instead of by your waist, he was carrying you bridal style.

“Ugh. Fine. But no more tickling! I can’t take it.”

“I promise if you promise.” “I do. And I’d shake your hand but it looks like youse is carrying something.” You chuckled and curled up closer to Albert’s chest as he walked back to his bed.  Soon enough you were back at his bed, but you weren’t laid down, oh no. He dropped you. What a guy.

“What a gentleman you are.” You remarked after being dropped.

“Ain’t I doll?” He climbed into bed next to you.

“You want I should tuck you in too?”

“Sure?” Albert tucking you in sounded suspicious, but you gave him the benefit of the doubt because he offered to tuck you in. Wrong choice. Instead of tucking you in, he just tossed the blanket over your face.

“Gee thanks Albert.” Your voice was muffled from the blanket, but the sarcasm was loud and clear.

“Anytime doll, now, you thinkin of sharing the blanket?”

“Nah.”

“I’m hurt! You wouldn’t share with me, your favorite person. Don’t you care if Ise is cold or not? What with my sickness an all?” “Albert, you just chased me throughout the lodging house, carried me to the bed, and threw the blanket on me, I think you’re fine. But because I’m so nice, I will share with you.”

“Aww, what a sweetheart.” You took the blanket and covered both you and Albert, though difficult, you did it. “But my favorite person is Crutchie, not you.” “That’s fair.” He pulled you closer and you closed your eyes, ready to take another nap.

“Goodnight (Y/N).” He said and kissed your forehead. You smiled into his chest, tempted to start tracing his muscles again, but deciding against it.

“Goodnight Albert.”

[fluffyshua]

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Word Count: 1473 (including that A/N halfway through it)

Tags: I dunno, it’s kinda like a mix between fluff and angst but it doesn’t really go anyway??

Pairing: Reader x Hoshi/Soonyoung

Prompt: Person A likes Person B and Person B finds out through social media, messaging, email, etc.

I give up on trying to name my fics. like. I. actually. can’t.

You were sitting in your best friend’s, Soonyoung’s, room on his bed and scrolling through your Instagram dash, occasionally laughing at a stray meme here and there.

Soonyoung was ‘revising’ at his desk, with his ear phones plugged in and ignoring you, but every now and then, he would look over at you, and stare for a good minute or two, thinking you wouldn’t realise, before looking back at his work.

You had realised, and it was making the atmosphere of the room far more uncomfortable than what it should be, with two best friends in the room.

On that note, you cleared your throat, and got up, off of his bed.

“I’m going to the bathroom.” You told him, to which he nodded in response.

Maybe the thing your friend had told you was true after all.

She had had a little crush on Soonyoung. Thankfully for you, it wasn’t a big one, as she always had crushes on random people, even ‘cute strangers on the street’ and she had asked him out.

But he had declined her feelings, telling her that he already had someone else that he liked.  Obviously, she had asked him who that lucky person was, but he replied saying that he didn’t trust her to keep it to herself, as the one he liked was one of her friends.

It took her very little deducting, but she had ended up with the conclusion that he had liked you, and to be honest, you were very skeptical about that. 

You and Soonyoung had been friends you entire lives (A/N: Cliche, I know. Deal with it) and you really did not want to ruin your relationship with him. 

Sure you might have had some feelings for him, but you were selfish, and wanted to stay with him just that bit longer, so if he did reject you, the two of you would have been friends for at least an extra month of so.

With that thought in your mind, you chose to hide your feelings, and ignore how your heart always beat that extra beat faster when he smiled at you.

You stared at your reflection in the mirror of the bathroom.

Who were you kidding?

Soonyoung would never love you.

He was a popular little social butterfly and all these other pretty girls, way prettier than you, did love him, and eventually, he would love one of them back. 

He would never go for you, the ugly fat thing that always stayed by him throughout his life. 

No, he wouldn’t want you.

Tears started to well up in your eyes.

Thoughts really are your own worse enemy.

You rubbed them away, furious at yourself for letting yourself get so weak.

When the redness in your eyes had faded away so that you didn’t look like you had been crying, you unlocked the bathroom door and walked back towards Soonyoung’s room.

You were just in front of his closed door when your phone vibrated, signalling a text from somebody. That somebody being Jihoon, which was actually pretty surprising as he never texted you first, unless it was to ask you what the heck Soonyoung was doing (which being stupid was mainly your answer)

The text read ‘Jun!! look at this guy. he keeps texting me about her. im tired of all this crappy bs. tell him to stop!!! save me!!!’ Which was then followed by a screenshot. 

You laughed for a split second over Jihoon’s extra texts, before the smile slipped from your face as you read the actual screenshot.

It was a screenshot of a Soonyoung’s and Jihoon’s texts, and as you read it, your eyes kept widening as you took in the words.

soonyoung: she just went to the bathroom soonyoung: i really wanted to just ask her out… Jihoon: just ask her out already ffs Jihoon: i’m tired of dealing with all of this bs soonyoung: no, it’s probably just random and we’ve been friends for so long. i shouldn’t…

and the rest of the texts were cut off.

You couldn’t believe it. There was no way that they were talking about you, but you had just only went to the bathroom.

You texted Jihoon back with a ‘You should really look at who you’re texting to first…’ With which he replied to instantly with a ‘fuck. wrong number. you did not see that’. You laughed and texted back with ‘lmao, no kidding.’ To which Jihoon read but ultimately chose to ignore you.

Putting your phone back into your pocket, and with a sort-of-newfound-renewed-happiness, you walked back into Soonyoung’s room.

He was sitting exactly as you had left him, at his desk, and apparently still ‘studying’.

“You took a while,” he murmured, as you walked over and plopped yourself back onto his bed.

“Hmm. I got a text from Jihoon.” You said slowly, watching his reaction from your position on his bed.

His eyebrow raised, and he looked at you questioningly through the corner of his eye.

“It had a screenshot. Of his and your texts. That he was supposed to send to Junhui.” You dragged it out even slower, and watched as his ears tinged slightly red.

“What? Show me…” He motioned for you to come over, and you got up, showing him your phone.

He read the screenshot at least three times, before humming, and looking back at his work.

You cleared your throat, trying to break through the awkward silence.

“So, who’s the girl?” You needed to ask. You couldn’t just assume that it was you, even if all of the evidence just screamed at you that it was. You needed assurance and the only one who could give it to you directly was Soonyoung. 

He murmured something under his breath, so softly that you couldn’t hear what he was saying aside from a couple of blurred comments.

“What? I didn’t get that. Could you-” You had started, but Soonyoung interrupted, and started to glare at you.

“If you’re going to tease me, I suggest you-”

“I genuinely didn’t hear you,” you butt in, knowing that he was the type to get annoyed at little things like that.

His ears tinged a slightly deeper red, and he looked away.

“I said, that it’s you. The girl is you.” He muttered, looking at you through the side of his eye to see your reaction.

If you hadn’t seen that screenshot, then you would’ve been really surprised. 

Besides for those occasional glances and a couple of little blushes every time you hugged him or was near him, you never would’ve guessed that Soonyoung had a crush on you.

“Oh.” 

“Oh? Seriously? You know what, forget it. Just ignore Jihoon and his stupid texting sk-“

“NO!” You blurted out suddenly, which caused Soonyoung to literally fall off his chair out of surprise.

“Oh sorry… Are you okay?” To which he nodded once, before getting himself off of the ground and brushing himself off.

“It’s just- You like me?” You whispered, unsure of yourself.

Soonyoung rolled his eyes, and looked at you with his eyebrows raised. “I’m pretty sure that’s what the screenshot said.”

You weren’t really sure how to react to this. Never in your years of living had you had to deal with your best friend confessing to you, and you were surprised.

“Well then,” Soonyoung coughed, pulling you out of your little trance, “Since you are clearly not accepting-“

“Who says I’m not accepting your feelings?” You cut him off again, feeling annoyed. “You always assume things too quickly, and most of the time, they aren’t even true!” 

Soonyoung, however, chose to ignore you, well, the last half of what you had said.

“So you like me back?” He looked at you hopefully.

“Well, yeah.” You scratched you cheek gingerly. “I was just shocked that you liked me, I mean, there are all these other pretty girls around you, and who knows? You could’ve liked any one of them.” You nonchalantly confessed your feelings, since you were now kinda assured of his feelings for you.

“Well, I wouldn’t have noticed those other girls anyways. I was way too busy.” He shrugged, and continued to look at you.

Your eyebrows twitched at his obvious lie. “Busy with what?”

He smirked lightly. “Busy with looking at something way more beautiful.” 

You cocked your head, confused. “What?”

He stood up, and took your face in his hands, causing you to blush a deep red.

“Looking at you, that is.”

And with that, he kissed your forehead.

“Oh, shut up.” You hit him playfully, feeling your heart thump quickly in your chest. “That was so cheesy”

“Only for you, only for you.” He mused.

And with that, you smiled up at him, feeling the happiest you’d ever been in your life. 

“Soonyoung. You really are something.”

quickly posts a fic before going on hiatus

I have this little idea that 96 line complain to each other about each other lmao. 

[grandschemed]

All salty questions please

1. how salty are you feeling right now?

i had my cup of coffee and it’s 9:15 and i don’t have any work to do at work at the moment so u know?? i actually feel pretty good i’m chill it’s all good but please continue reading under the cut for more salty unpopular opinions by yours truly :*

2. what are your unpopular opinion(s) of the fandom you’re rping in?

3. what rp trends are you so over and can’t wait for it to die?

4. have you ever made a call out post or wanted to?

i don’t think i have??  i’ve never really had an issue with somebody to the point that i felt as if i needed to make a callout post which thank god??? i’m grateful i’ve ( for the most part ) had really positive experiences so far 

as for callout culture itself ?? i have mixed feelings about it bc the majority of callout posts i’ve read seem kind of Harsh bc ur essentially damning this person from the roleplay community forever esp. bc i personally don’t think roleplaying is That Deep u know??  like theft is annoying and whatnot but idk if it’s something i’d call somebody out for personally - MAYBE I WOULDN’T MIND CALLOUT POSTS if anons didn’t go overboard telling said individual to die / kill themselves ??? 

HOWEVER i think there are instances in which callout posts are necessary esp. when calling out tumblr users for being a racist / pedophile / etc. THAT’S SUBJECTIVE AS HELL i know but pedophilia is GROSS AS FUCK and SO IS RACISM and god forbid i accidentally follow / write with any of those people because ew ew ew EW it’s good to know who to avoid in the community at the same time so ... Yeah i’ve got mixed feelings about callout posts

5. a ship everyone in the fandom you’re in loves, but you can’t stand?

since i’m a multimuse part of 1002 fandoms i’ll focus on haikyuu!! except i’m pretty sure i’m going to get my ass roasted alive but i really can’t stand i/waoi LMAO but that’s mostly out of bias and the fact that a lot of i/waoi shippers have ruined it for me by viciously hating on u/shijima as a character calling him a r/apist and saying that u/shioi is abusive when u/shijima has done literally nothing ever to abuse o/ikawa like what ?? if anything i/waoi is the abusive ship considering i/waizumi’s the one who physically hurts o/ikawa all the time LOL

shitty shippers aside idk i/waoi’s personally just not really my jam?  to be honest all the super popular hq!! ships aren’t rly my jam - i don’t even really have good explanation for why i dislike i/waoi as much as i do from an unbiased point of view but i prefer them as friends ?? in all honesty ??  JUST MY 2 CENTS THO 

6. have you ever sent something to one of those burn book blogs?

lol no i might be extra but i aint That Extra laughs in all seriousness i rly haven’t had any major problems w/ other roleplay blogs to the point that i was tempted to send something to a burn book blog

7. has someone made you unfollow/block them without a second thought because of a petty reason?

i’m trying to remember if there were any instances in which i did so for a petty reason but most of the time ??? i usually unfollow if somebody writes something Inherently Problematic / over-the-top purple prose / they don’t follow me back ... there was one time when i unfollowed somebody bc i asked them for their autoplay bc i rly liked the song and i just wanted to listen to it??? LMAO but they thought i was going to steal from them just bc we wrote the same muse and i was like Bro. I JUST LIKED UR AUTOPLAY what the hell i just wanted to listen to it 200 times in a row on youtube chill so i unfollowed them bc lmao how dare you assume i’d steal from somebody in the first place Get Over Yourself Susan

8. are you good at dealing with personal problems?

i’d say so?? again i usually don’t rly have roleplaying issues but problems aside from those i usually like to vent on twitter and i feel Much Better after that??  im a pretty chill person irl and shit doesn’t rly get to me so i can come off as kind of blunt / insensitive but i feel like i get over most stuff pretty quickly - there’s no reason to get Angry and make somebody suffer when somebody tries to fuck you over imo??  True Vengeance is aspiring to be happier / richer / more successful / fulfilled than that person will ever be - that’s my Fuck You to those people y’know?? 😂😂😂 life is so much better when i focus on me and figuring out what i can do to fulfill my emotional needs - i feel very lucky with what i have and all my friends and family who cherish + support me of course though !!

9. what’s your opinion on duplicates?

i may come off as a confident self-assured person but even i get shaken time to time y’know??  but for the most part i don’t rly mind duplicates??  in fact i like to try to befriend them to get over any anxiety i might have over duplicates and i think it’s a silly thing to be uncomfortable by duplicates personally bc again roleplaying rly ain’t that deep you guys - in fact you guys both like the same character so you guys chose to write the same character??  duplicates + i already have a connection in that sense!!  also duplicate muse threads are SUPER COOL to write in my opinion bc it lets your muse face themselves and they can rly see themselves for who they really are which i think is Always Cool because i love writing threads in which i get to explore emotional depth with my muses ?? PLUS DUPLICATES ARE COOL bc it’s kind of interesting to see how other people interpret the same character you write bc everybody has different opinions 

i know the anxiety might be there but i think the best advice my mom has ever given me is not to compare yourself to other people even if you think they’re better than you or something and i know that’s hard advice to follow for everybody but roleplaying is a hobby and it’s done for fun - there’s so many other things you can stress about in life so why let roleplaying be one of those things??  focus on yourself and focus on your muse and developing that muse with other people and people will want to come to you to write with them.  preferences will always be a thing - it’s only natural but focus on having fun with your muse as opposed to worrying about other people!!

10. any fandom(s) you don’t want to rp in or crossover to?

11. are you for or not for purple prosing?

12. has someone in the rp community ever made you upset/cry?

i don’t think..... so??  upset maybe but not to the point of crying??  i mean again i’ve never really had a truly terrible experience but i did have an ex-writing partner who used to constantly guilt trip me until i finally broke it off with them because it was starting to affect my real life relationships and whatnot and i didn’t want to bear that burden anymore as much as i wanted to be their friend but i couldn’t singlehandedly bear all of their problems for them anymore because it wasn’t healthy for me nor was it good for them so i cut them out of my life for both of our sakes - i’ve had great times with this person but ultimately, i’m glad i did what i did and i’m proud of myself for being able to focus on my own emotional needs

13. ever told someone not to follow/rp with a particular person because something that happened to you in the past?

i ... can’t remember laughs I DON’T THINK SO???  people have told me not to write w/ certain people before when i go into new communities blind but for the most part i don’t think i’ve really had an overly terrible experience to the point that i felt i had to tell other people not to roleplay with / follow them ... i’ve been very blessed with a good experience so far!!

14. ever knew someone that everyone loves but you can’t stand?

i would say ‘can’t stand’ is kind of harsh but i dislike them because of a petty reason???  it’s fine tho bc they stay in their lane and i stay in mine - it’s all good imo.  i for the most part have enough decency not to hate on other people’s ships but this person kept telling me about how much they dislike my ships to my face on a consistent basis which again PETTY and i know they weren’t in a good place at the time but shrugging emoji idk i just thought it was kind of rude ??

15. have you ever done something out of spite?

i do everything out of spite im jk but seriously if you tell me i can’t do smth i will only do said thing with 100% more effort out of sheer spite like THERE WAS SOMEBODY who told me i couldn’t ship a certain ship so i proceeded to flood my dash with 300% more ship content you’re welcome headass spite is a Great Motivator

me: i’m a chill person and im going to be the happiest person ever :)also me: u test me bitch and im coming for ur entire life

16. what would you say to the one who hurt you in the past?

i hope you are incandescently happier than you were before.  i hope you are in a better place and i hope you are still writing with people who appreciate you and can give you the attention you deserve.  i hope you are a better person today and i wish you nothing but the best in a life without me, but i do not miss you nor do i ever want you back in my life.  i cherish the good times we had together, but we are better off without each other regardless of what you might still think and i hope you don’t.  i hope you recognize what you did and i hope you are a wonderful person today.

17. what are your opinions when someone makes negative posts constantly on their rp blog?

if you make more negative posts than roleplay content i’m gonna unfollow you??  i understand you’re having a hard time with your life but honestly i followed you to write with you - it’s not that your well-being doesn’t matter to me but i write to have fun + destress and ultimately, roleplaying is about myself??  im not doing this for other people - im doing this for me.  i don’t mind occasional negative posts ( ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY’RE TAGGED !! ) but if you’re consistently complaining about how much you think you suck compared to everyone else or how you think nobody wants you around, then i’m going to unfollow you because i came to write with you because i thought you were COOL!!  i know people just want to vent ( LORD KNOWS I VENT A LOT even if it’s about little stuff ) but consider making a twitter / a personal tumblr in which you can do so instead of your roleplay blog which is for roleplaying ???  idk that’s just my opinion but i try to keep my roleplaying blog strictly related to the content - i don’t even want to flood my blog with too many ooc asks bc u guys didn’t follow me to read my constant ooc posts ( even if i feel like i write a lot LMAO ) - u guys followed to write w me !!!!

18. do you hold grudges for long?

i say no but at the same time i’ve been really bitter towards an ex-best friend for three years now.  NONE OF THESE GRUDGES ARE ROLEPLAY-RELATED but again my way of vengeance is to be way happier and more successful than her and never ever see her again because that’s the decision she made??  we used to be Super Close but then she got a boyfriend and her entire life revolved around her boyfriend and we never spent any more time together after that like ??? it’s clear who she chose over me so if she doesn’t want to make the effort to spend time with me then i see no effort to give her any thought.  also the fact that she, as a white individual, complained to my other best friend behind my back that i’m apparently too “sensitive” about popular media.  like really?  wow, must be nice to have all the representation you could possibly ever ask for, karen.  get the fuck out of here with that attitude /:  

also SUPER PERSONAL but i’m salty about my kind-of-ex because he basically acted like he was really invested in me when he was still hung up on somebody else and i let myself be emotionally vulnerable around him until he confessed to me that he just wanted to be friends because he was still into his ex and then proceeded to neglect our friendship because he’d spend all of his time with his ex ( who he predictably got back together with + who turned out to be a really shitty selfish manipulative person who he broke up with anyway ) which was Fine i was already used to that anyway with SEE: ABOVE FRIEND but then after he broke up with her he’s tried to come back into my life on various occasion because he’s never had as Great of a Friend as me and frankly i can’t forgive him or myself for making myself invest any sense of emotion into him it makes me so angry to think i was actually upset because i actually cared a lot about him and he made me feel like i wasn’t good enough and how fucking dare he make me feel like that ever?  i’m the Fucking Best and he deserves absolutely nothing from me he deserves perfect indifference and i hope he never ever feels fulfilled in his life i wish him a great and terrible lack of satisfaction for the rest of his miserable life xoxo i’m going to be SO MUCH HAPPIER THAN THAT ASSHOLE i’m years and years better off without him i hope he pines for my friendship for the rest of his life

19. wild card: ask the mun any type of salty asks.

20. if you’re feeling salty right now, this ask gives you a free reign to pour out your frustration.

i feel like question 18 let me do that so i’m good but also ??? fuck the gangsta. novel ??? for its HORRIBLE characterization of worick + nic’s relationship ???  the gangsta. novel treats their relationship as if nic is some dog/servant to worick which in itself is gross in concept because haha yay a poc character forcibly being subservient to a white character THAT’S COOL :)))))))) but also ??????? uh AUTHOR ARE WE READING THE SAME MANGA ?????

worick has never treated nic as a dog / servant even when they were children - worick even taught him how to read / write ??? worick and nic were e/o’s first and only friends for a long while ??? they’ve lived together for so many years - they canonly share shirts, they’re business partners, worick was genuinely hurt to see nic in so much pain.  not only does worick NOT see nic as a dog / servant HE LOVES NIC ???  HE LOVES HIM SO MUCH THEIR RELATIONSHIP MEANS SO MUCH TO ME they’ve been through so much together and worick since he was 14 has literally supported the both of them via Really Horrible Means that i won’t get into - i’ll leave it up to your imagination but he split the profit he made from what he did with nic ???  there’s no way worick would’ve done that shit if he viewed nic as somebody beneath him esp. when survival was so difficult for two 14-year-old boys with no funds or resources they’ve survived together through thick and thin and there’s a special relationship they have and i love worick and nic okay I LOVE THEM SO MUCH EVEN IF THEY MAKE SHITTY DECISIONS AND WHATNOT nobody will ever convince me otherwise 

also if you’ve made it to the end i commend you and thank you for reading my salty opinions / personal problems / issues :* i hope you all have a wonderful day :**

[sketchesandnonesense]

alright it’s time again for Becca Overthinkin Things n Talkin To Herself

right now is really weird for me because it seems like?? there’s alot goin on and i’m Anxious bout it but I’m doin p well managing it???

my lil ask blog for Candy has got a fair amount of attention n it makes me really happy to see people like my weird clown robots, n I’m getting better at drawing them quickly so that’ neat. 

it’s a good distraction doin asks n things to keep my mind busy instead o scrollin through my dash n startin to overthink. and one o my goals for this year was to start some sorta project, like an ask blog! n i did it!! go me!!

but it’s not so busy that i feel like i can’t leave it alone for 2 minutes

 so that’s rlly nice

n what I’m rlly anxious bout is stuff that should be more in the forefront of my mind but silly clown robots have managed to keep it at bay like

Work is only gonna go downhill most likely and I’m gonna haveta find myself a new job here as soon as we move houses

did i mention we’re moving?

bc we are

i don’t know when really

but mom n pop n bones are all hoping sooner rather than later

and im so anxious bout making sure everything’s packed up safely n moved out and bout the house we picking being good nuff for a year while the garage apartment i keep hearin bout gets built 

and im hoping we’re not tooooo too out in the sticks so that i can y’know have a job that’s not a 30 minute drive to the nearest civilization because my shitty lil focus would be at a 1/4 tank by the time i get to work on day 2.

and so when i bring a friend home it’s not like “if i didn’t know you i’d think you’re tryin to take me to a dead end to murder me” lmao

bones keeps talkin’ bout startin’ to do youtube stuff n idk I’m hopin for the best but i ain’t expectin it to become My Life like how they are

i wanna dye my hair but i know it’s alotta work to upkeep n idk maybe sometime after we move 

or after i finish n take pictures of my Milly n Fem!Gus cosplays that still need to be d o n e like jeez 

they’re simple!! why!! can’t!! i get my shit together!!!

atleast i got my first proper swing dancing dress finally

and i look cute as FUCK in it jus sayin like i felt rlly pretty that day at the con

kinda wanna animate lil doodle me in that dress swing dancin’ w/ somebody bc idk it’d be Cute but at the same time A Pain To Draw bc how swooshy the skirt would be

s p e a k i n g of s w i n g d a n c i n 

i?? might have a datemate??? I mean we’re givin dating another try n i’ve managed to not muck it up in the whole hour since he asked me out but i ain’t sayin it’s official till I know I won’t manage to fuck it up tomorrow

one thing i’m worried bout though is one friendo o mine

we’re close as can be n i love them with all my heart just

not romantically

bc they’re fairly younger than me (like more than 3 years) and they’re gonna grow alot in the next coupla years n i wanna love and support them n how they grow as a person

but i don’t wanna date em

bc A. the age gap is big enough to where it’s Bad n there’d be a power imbalance it’s just how things would go n B.i wanna see them happy with someone closer to their age, maybe even closer in distance, and who’s overall better for them. they deserve better.

still love em

just not That Way, you feel?

though i think i Do feel that way bout someone else

n im p sure they might be readin this

ya nosy

but anywayss

though it’s alot more subdued than before

like

back when I Mucked Up and scared poor Potential Datemate half to death being an overly mushy nerd i was feelin butterflies for days, heart a gooey mess, still trying to figure out how to deal with the feeling i was having bc it’d been so long since i’d felt that way

now?? i feel alittle butterflies but it’s not an unmanageable amount like before

do i still feel mushy n stuff?? heck ye but it’s def alot more chill now if that makes sense

idk 

I’ve sorted through my feelins abit now n im better bout how i handle em

n kinda thought of a funny lil allegory for how i’m gon try n approach all this bc I’m a fuckin Dork

a relationship can be like swing dancin, takes alotta work to get real good at it, n for things to get real complicated you need alotta trust in eachtoher and understand eachother. You start out simple n you start out slow while you learn the steps and you get aholda the rhythm, once you get used to it you can dance faster n you start seein how eachother dance, who leads, what eachother’s lil tells of ‘hey let’s do this move’ are, yknow? like when you’re dancing with someone n they’re gonna go for a twirl and they don’t need to say nothing or really communicate it that overtly it just sorta flows together. and the real fancy stuff doesn’t seem like too much a challenge when you trust eachother enough and can read eachtoher to know what to do.

but it’s important you go slow n learn the steps and eachother first, because startin to swing and not knowing your partner that well can be very awkward if neither knows who’s leading and one’s trying to pick up the other for a trick they don’t fully know.

tryin to jump straight into the deep end just ends up with people gettin’ hurt

so you take it slow n figure things out first, then once you get synched up and learn the steps you can try new things

there’ll be toes stepped on and shins accidently kicked but hey it’s all part’a learnin

idk this whole metaphor is super cheesy n probably doesn’t make that much sense but whATEVER

It’s my dang ramble post i’ll do what i want

n i’ve been cussin alil less bc of the candy blog bc i Refuse to swear on there bc Candy n her crew are Family Friendly gosh darned it

so that’s kinda funny

aah i need to get to bed already

have a bit o music for gettin to the end of this nonsense

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gHCgp-jA8SY