#im sry this is dumb long and bad

[chaosfantasmic]

Sry this is long i need to rant

I know I made a sort of negative post about wild earlier, but what pisses me off is y'all "wild haters" who will go out of your way to harass wild fans. Do I think wilds overrated??? Yea I do but do I HATE wild fans and take the time out of my day to harass them no, no I don't. Y'all don't harass ppl for just liking something (unless its like actually bad) it makes you look dumb. And to any wild fans who saw my earlier post and felt bad for liking wild, im sorry I didn't mean for it to sound that way, I was just mad when I wrote it and maybe that's why it came off that way but I wanna say, I actually enjoy some wild content myself I just think hes overrated. And I know it sounds bad by asking authors to write for things they don't like, bc they don't owe you anything. I know that and i know its hard to write for characters you don't like. Point is I dont HATE wild fans and i don't hate wild at all. What I do hate is the bozos with no life who go around harassing ppl and making them feel bad for liking a character, wild fans DONT FEEL BAD FOR LIKING HIM. Don't make anyone feel bad for liking a character, its just stupid and a big waste of time. When I wrote that i was just mad bc I couldn't find any content for wars or sky at all, I dont mind wild I like him he's fine he's cool not one of my faves but i don't hate him as much as some of y'all do. At first I was a wild fan so I sort of understand y'all...idk i guess my last post just came off as me blaming y'all for me just naturally liking unpopular things/charecters. Anyways this is getting off topic point is I don't hate wild just think hes overrated don't harass wild fans it makes you look dumb bye.

[tojiscrack]

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I’m OHMYGOSHHHHHHSGSHHSYOURFANFICTIONISSOGOODARRFG

yes that was my reaction to ur fanfic yes I’m completely fine☺️.Like HOW DO U WRITE SOO GOOD LIKE ?????i wish i could compliment u but I’m bad at it 😓😓ANNDDD I can’t find the right words becausssseee it‘s SOO GOOOD <333333!!!im yappin about liar liar btwww:3 im sry if i confused u ☹️Actually im from wattpad butttt I kind of accidentally read..all fanfics I was interested to..😳.??? Or the authors stopped writing😔…(pls don’t do that or else I’m gonna rip my hair out and become a monk like aang🧑‍🦲:3)and then i discovered ao3 and almost every like EVERY fic was about yk fucking and getting fucked (well the fic characters x readers cuz I’m a hopeless piece of sht) like I JUST WANTED SOMEE FLUFFFF MAN LEAVE ME ALONEEE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

but then… i found ur fic :D i remember it was on a September um Monday?? I think and i read more like DEVOURED(blue lock reference hehe) it while we were taking the train to the neuschwanstein castle in Germany:3 And do u know how hard i had to giggle,grinning like an idiot,jumping on my seat and chocking on my on saliva while reading it😣😣 ??????(thats a compliment btw I’m sorry m bad at it 😓)Like my siblings were staring at me like I was some kind of pest or something but the passengers in the ICE (that’s a high speed train in Germany)weren’t better they just gave me some weird stares like😐😐😐???Sorryy???and then I reread everything again at home:3 where I can comfortably laugh my ass off while rolling on the flooor and falling of from the stairs (gonna join our blue eyed king ig🧿👄🧿🤞)

actually idk how often I have reread this fic but I just think it’s kinda strange that every time I reread a chapter I find something new 😐😐😐???(to laugh about hehehehe) Am I reading w my Eyes closed😭😭😭?? But I still find myself grinning every time like an idiot at the same places<333 (especially the helicopter i REALLY LOVE how you describe the um EVERYTHINHGG actually!!!! And i fehlt Like really REALLY dumb when i found out that Kamo actually Like princess ariel 😔and not tsumiki I was first like HE LIKES US!!!!!and then oh ☹️…OH and then I was like 😦

Anyways I’m sryyyy for my bad English😭😭😭it’s probably from my Asian genes ig✨✨✨✨✨ also I’m sorry for being an bad commenter😔😔(doesthiswordactuallyexist??) i actually Never comment but i kinda haddd too bc yk i really lovveee this fic and the authoor(After rereading like 79238931893 times i found out you had an tumblr Account and yeah i made the Account yesterday btw) im gonna apologize if it’s too long or short idk i never commented 😐

Anywayysssss pls continue on writing liar,liar!!!! It would be a waste of if u wouldn’t 😔 I really enjoyed the latest chapter and I can’t wait for the next!!!!!<3333333

(I …may or not have a small drawing for u from our beloved mermaid and our little porcupine in kindergarten but idk ….if u want to see it..👉👈) Also pls let Mina end up w Mechamaru cuz i reallly need it:(

HIIII 🤭🫶🏽 (a long juicy ask stop it ily already)

starting it off by saying that your speechlessness towards my writing is like my speechlessness towards you 😫🫶🏽 like this reaction in itself is so sweet i can’t even sidjwijdjwjde stop i’m levitating 😭💕

‘і wish i could compliment u but l'm bad at it ANNDDD I can't find the right words becausssseee it's SOO GOOOD <333333!!!’ — literally me rn, except it’s kinda EXPECTED that ik what to say to u, given that i write in my free time for shits and giggles �� just take my word for it when i say that i appreciate ur kind words sm <3

GIRLYPOP I USED TO BE A WATTPAD GIRLY TOO 😭 2020 lockdown was my wattpad era (a silent reader, i never wrote anything haha) but then i discovered ao3 and that was ✨ life changing ✨ but you’re so right about fics being about smut all the time 😭 it’s so hard being a gojo stan and looking for smth that’s not got smut in it so i just never touch x reader fics anymore 😕 (hypocritical, ik 😭 but idc)

‘but then i found ur fic’ ‘i remember it was on a September um Monday??’ — YOU WERE A SILENT READER FOR SO LONG?? 😭 i’m glad you’re interacting with me now tho! so all is forgiven 😋

‘actually idk how often I have reread this fic but I just think it's kinda strange that every time I reread a chapter I find something new to laugh about hehehehe)’ — awww stawwwp 😫🥹 i’m beyond flattered that the fic was funny enough to get you to send such a long ask about it 😭🫶🏽 ugh ilysm <33

‘And i felt Like really REALLY dumb when i found out that Kamo actually Like princess ariel and not tsumiki I was first like HE LIKES US!!!!!and then oh ...OH’ — i managed to trick a lot of my readers and i’m so proud of it 🙂‍↕️ but anyway 🤭 the big reveal was so funny to me wishwiwjiw and i’m still giggling about it now that you mentioned it lolol

‘Anyways I'm sryyyy for my bad English 😭😭😭 it's probably from my Asian genes ig’ — first and foremost, your english isn’t even bad, i can understand and respond to everything you’re saying, so that’s great! 🤗 it’s actually a flex to be bilingual, and i’m also asian too, so woohoo 🥳 twinning :)

‘also I'm sorry for being a bad commenter (doesthiswordactuallyexist??)’ — you call this ENTIRE, JUICY ask rn a bad comment? 🤨 stfu i loved reading this and ilysm <333

AS FOR THAT FINAL BRACKETED COMMENT 🙂‍↕️🥳🤭🤗🌝😋🥹😫😫😫😫😫😫😫😫 YES YES AND YESSS???

I’D LOVE TO SEE WHAT YOU’VE DRAWN 🫢 SEND IT TO ME RIGHT NEOWWWWW 😡❤️‍🔥💞💕❤️‍🩹💓💗

mercupine shippers, you’re gonna be fed incredibly well if she decides to send the art in :))))

edit: just checked ur profile and you’re so cute stop

“mercupine forever” 🥹

[tricoufamily]

HELLOOOO I have a question ^^ how does the process for taking screenshots for "the fall" look like? do you do it in game or in a different program? (ive only recently learned ppl tend to do edits in blender I live under a rock) I LOVE UR STUFF IM CURIOUS SRY IF THIS IS A DUMB QUESTION

thanks! not a dumb question at all! this is the fall is done in game w the magic of reshade and the sunblind lighting mod

so i try to have the dialogue written out w the actions/positions of the characters throughout the scene before i open the game, which speeds up the process.

then i pose hunting on @ts4-poses - IF YOU’RE ONLY GONNA USE THE POSE PACK ONCE AND DELETE IT, CHANGE THE TITLE IN S4S TO “ 1 - [whatever]”!!! the space at the beginning is THE most important thing, that’ll put it at the very top of the list in poseplayer!!! GAME CHANGER!!! you may also want to write a description of what the pose pack is and what/who you’re using it for!

then FINALLY i go in game, and for some reason lately my game has been really slow and fucked up i probably need a cc clean out so for that reason it maybe takes me like an hour or two to take screenshots? i take a ton though i usually don’t use half of them. and have you seen how long my story posts are lol

my editing is really minimal, i just slap my psd on it and do eye catchlights, but for a long, dialogue-heavy post it may take a while. not too bad though 🧘

[sugarikiz]

Feather

Now playing: ‘Feather’ by Sabrina Carpenter

pairing — Bf to ex!Jay x y/n

warnings : angst, breakups, crying, cheating

TAGS; @leaderwonim @mandukkul @copyhanni @nikiswifereal27 @stariikis @ad0rechuu @copyhanni @jungkit @rk1stars @rikihqq @wonryllis @angel1kisses @nishions

A/N AAAH IM SRY I WAS LISTENING TO Sabrina Carpenters ‘Feather’ from her ‘emails I can’t send fwd’ album and um… I JUST HAD TO MAKE THIS

At first, when you and Jay got together about a year ago, the amount of times you both said ‘I love you’ each day was a lot, but recently, you’ve noticed how he started growing really distant more often than not, and at first, you just shrugged it off and though of it as ‘maybe he was just tired or stressed or something’

But the more it continued, you started to realise that maybe he is doing it on purpose but the thought itself would bring all of the most terrible scenarios into your mind and the thought of them being real really scared you, so, even though you knew there was something wrong, you decided to keep it to yourself.

The signs of him cheating were getting higher in number - how he would just hum after you would tell him that you love him, how he almost never even held your hand, let alone kissed you, and oh, the way he started pushing you away a bit whenever you would be next to him… These were the most telltale signs of cheating but you never thought that he could do something so bad to you, but you were wrong.

You took his phone from his hands to show him something but the notification that he got was your breaking point. It read:

Baby ❤️ - Babe when are u come to me and break up with that dumb y/n ?

Your breath hitched as hot tears started streaming down your face. You looked up at jay and asked “how long have you been with her?”, in a very breaky voice. “About four months…” he replies with a whisper.

‘I am so sorry for your loss’

”Well, Jay, you gained one person but you lost another one as well”, was the last thing you said before you got up to go get all of your stuff, every single thing and not before long, all of your stuff was packed into the small suitcase you had at his place. You picked up your sunglasses and your phone, and walked out of his apartment without another word.

‘ i slam the door, I hit ignore, im sayin “no, no, no, no, no more” ’

You could hear him chasing after you but you just continued walking, but even when he caught up to you, you continued walking and didn’t say a word, but the second you got into your apartment and locked the door, you fell to the floor and started sobbing. you pulled out your phone and blocked his number, and any of his friends numbers that you had. You had never felt a heartbreak this bad, but you knew this time, there was no jay there to comfort you anymore…

[subaru-meteorlight]

hsr 3.0 spoilers + vent (it’s more personal than anything don’t read if ur here for actual hsr story reaction/analysis etc) (it’s messy & negative)

I’d put vents in the tags like I usually do but the word and tag limit get annoying

uuuuuu…. uuhhnnnn SCRATCHING HEAD I DUNNO……NOT TO BE OVERLY NEGATIVE OR ANYTHING BUT. idk. Mixed emotions. Just finished the story. ..the ending segment is. Sorta mid. Sorry I feel bad for saying that. My friends are all asleep so unfortunately I have to turn to the void. The starting, middle, showing caelus’ past with the stellaron hunters, and climax all the way to killing god were peak and really exciting I love it a lot… I’m also really happy that the story is so long this time! And there’s so many maps!!! Hsr definitely benefits from longer quests, their arcs and stories are so grand that having more time to flesh things out is very good for them… considering they need to stuff the mechanics, backstory and lore of an entire ass planet into 3 or 4 updates… amphoreus is esp funny in this regard because all that previous lore about paths, aeons, ipc, anything? throw it out the window. This is (almost, at first glance, at least) a completely isolated world in a bottle

I went off topic ARGHHGHHG OK NO HIDING MY FEELINGS. IM SORRYRYYY THE ENDING DROPPED THE BALL AND WITH PHAI BACKSTORY REVEAL… LIKE… I DUNNO…. I THINK… I HYPED MYSELF UP WAYYYY TOO MUCH TO FIND OUT WHATS WRONG W HIM. WHEN IT GOT REVEALED I SORTA FELT LIKE. THATS IT? I FEEL BAD FOR SAYING THATTT LOSING EVERYTHING ISNT A “LOL THATS IT HUH” SCENARIO UGH I GUESS NARRATIVE WISE ITS JUST NOT SMTH I RESONATE WITH BUT STILL-! (what, do I lack empathy? tell me something new… 😭)(going off topic I’ve resigned to the fact that I know I’m most probably an awful terrible person but as long as I know how to act normal and lie straight to ppl’s faces, act in a way that makes me liked… well, nobody will know.)

LIKE.. THE REVEAL KINDA. KILLED MY EXCITEMENT, SORTA. IS THAT ALL? IT FEELS BAD!!!! IM SORRY. I WAS EXCITED TO GRIND OUT THE GAME AFTER FINISHING THE STORY BUT MY MOTIVATION IS GONE AWAA IM SORRY IM SRY ARTHFHHGFH ITS NOBODY’S FAULT BUT MY OWN BUT LET ME SELFISHLY BE SAD FOR MYSELF…. I FEEL LIKE A DUMB KID FOR FEELING LIKE THIS ARRHGHGH yeah…. Yeah….. I just got way too into my head abt what could his problem be etc what is his fatal flaw, despite acting so noble and kind and way too perfect. I liked when he was wavering on becoming a demigod and his personal doubts; he’s just a guy… (lol like Kevin… haha…)

I think part of it was because the story doing tell don’t show.. up till you’re directly told about phai’s past you could barely tell anything wrong w him- he really is the perfect knight, perfect hero… but I suppose-! That’s the point isn’t it?!?! He can mask that well-?! He’s trying his best to focus on his duty as a hero/deliverer/chrysos heir soon demigod and pushing away thoughts of his revenge-?!? You can’t tell there’s smth wrong w him, that’s the point right?!? I’m trying to talk myself down. Where was I. Lost my train of thought. right, I dunno… feel bad for saying this (2) but-! I guess it’s the way it’s just dropped on us suddenly?!?! “Ah yeah he lost everything” yeah… we’ve got 6 other characters in the game like that too - ARGHGGH sorry that’s such a mean thing to say. Childish and spoiled. Ok!!! Maybe I’m just passing my judgement way too early!!!! It only got hinted at a lil bit after all!!!! The following patches will release and elaborate more and make me like his story again yes yes…. Yeah… if 2.0 ended with them saying aven lost his home planet too I wouldn’t be amazed by that either-! It’s the entire 2.1 that made everything good! Right , right, I’m judging too early… I’m gonna be a huge fool when I come back to this after everything and I’m fawning over his sad backstory and mentally killing myself 20 times because of how DUMB I was earlier when we had no info right right right right right. Right.

Right. Ok. Talking about it makes me feel somewhat normal abt it. I guess. My feelings usually fade quick so I’m glad. Re: ‘you can’t tell there’s anything wrong w him’ lost my train of thought. Mafuyu from prsk, she’s kinda similar in this regard, being too perfect on the surface- I also disliked her initially but she’s fine now, I like her. Or is that also a product of my fleeting feelings. But anyway. Phai’s in the same position as her I suppose. I guess it just stings harder because I had wayyy too high hopes for him putting him on a pedestal of “he’s perfect (as in, he’s perfectly my kind of character) and became devastated when he wasn’t a perfect 1:1 of my interests in character storylines. That’s totally on me. He gotta go apeshit abt revenge at some point right? See look at you again, setting yourself up for disappointment. AWWAGHDH. I’m talking in circles. I really don’t want ppl going through the tag to read this lol please don’t perceive my ass takes.

Topic: ‘killing my excitement’ that’s totally on my own irrationality. Let me mourn…. Kicking rocks I dunnoo!!!! It feels bad!!! I was hyped up and it feels like the happiness, excitement suddenly got taken away from me- it’s like losing something I never had in a first place (and that’s funny, because that’s basic ryu backstory 101) I JUST SAD ABT IT NOT MATCHING MY EXPECTATIONS I don’t know why I set myself up like this. It hurts- because- yeah I just put too much of my emotional wellbeing onto this fictional guy 😭 that’s on me that’s on me. That one post “need a hyperfixation or I kill myself” that’s literally me. I thought I could have something new to be happy about again but aoiufffdfdf having it snatched along with my motivation feels bad!!! Ok!!!! Ahhh, do I still e6s5? Hahah….. I hope this feeling fades. I’ll be back to normal soon probably arghgg but just let me feel for now. PLEASE go back to normal soon I’m begging you. Speaking of being normal this feeling is also amplified by me weighing my entire emotional stability onto phai like if he was just some guy I liked I’d probably just be “oh he has stuff, cool I’ll hear about it next patch or so” but no I touted him around as the “perfect guy for me” ‘phai save me etc etc” “next e6” and I’m very abnormal about him so I guess it’s all falling on me like a brick tower now!!!!! Ok saying it makes me feel better. I will get better soon I promise.

And speaking on feelings fading quick that’s another separate problem I have because I pass through interests so quickly- I wish badly to have an interest of mine stay for longer than 3 months but uhghhhh once again- “need a hyperfixation or I die”. Ofc I still love my past interests dearly- they never leave me but the? Hmm, serotonin boost? (lol) starts fading in intensity after 3 months or so- maybe that’s normal, I dunno. I wish I could be happy about things for longer. It ALSO feels bad when I know an interest is fading away like agghhhh not again… head in hands I just want something to be happy about. And on that- since phai is rumoured to be coming out 3.3 or even 3.4… that’s, what, 5 months?!??!!?! Ohhh man. This happened with Sunday… he was one of my favs during penacony arc (till he got utterly overshadowed by aven, lol) but by the time he came out I… didn’t really care anymore… damn rip. I mean I pulled him but I lost interest and wasn’t really into the game anymore leading up to his banner and even after pulling him. It’s sad……….!!!!!!! Where did all the love go. If he had released earlier I would’ve been a lot more hyped and insane abt it but ackkk I guess that’s just how it is. Thinking abt how it might happen w phai too makes me prematurely sad AHFHGH STOP THINKING ABT IT THEN youre downing yourself for no reason!!!!! My god

Ok I feel a lot normaler now. Yes. Ok. Right. It was just the initial immediate reaction. Ok. Ok. He’ll cook in the following patches yes yes yes I can rely on my friends to encourage me too yes ok ok. It’s not the end of the world. His design is still banger. Hyv most definitely will not flop when writing their KEVIN yes ok. Yes. I am being irrationally paranoid. Ok. Right. Oughhg. I will sleep. And tomorrow is a new day. And I will feel normal. And delete this post because what was I on earlier. Right.

Edit to add on: yeah characters who mask to seem stronger, invincible are my favs so I dunno why I'm so weird abt it w phai!!!!! Argghgg!!!!! Isn't this my absolute fav thing???? Ough. Right. Ok. Let them cook they'll do something good. Ok. It's funny actually this means his mask is so good it fools even me. On that- I think it's the fact that similar to mafuyu, his mask is one of being morally good, upstanding citizen, model hero - that kind just isn't my taste, that's all. It's alright as well, just not the absolute fav. But it can be good too. My absolute fav is aven's kind of mask... calculating, aware of others' perception of you and how you can influence it, motivated by self-interest, using your self image as a weapon... actually saying this out I could draw similarities between phai and aven masks where they both use it as a shield to fill a void/ forge an identity but I think I'm insane at this point

[mccarthymolly]

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Nt fair js time n called fair b y coercive then,uh,random,mad, nt do,uh,surprise? U dumb sh, not participate, seem for me,uh,no,uh,wt,omg,uh,hate. Uh, nt want vengeance urge,

[idontknowbutitsbjutifl]

#im just tired#im trying to figure it out on my own#any tips how get my shit together?#pls no 'go to therapy'#i aint ready for this for now

Sry for reblog but reacting to your tags would be too long for a comment : D Putting it on sideblog! Lemme know if you want me to delete it though <3 - Teryster

List of things that helped me/saved my ass before going to therapy:

I accepted as fact that I cannot DO anything until I'm safe, financially secure, well fed, slept 8 hours, feel clean, talked to a friend and worked out/stretched. Those are basic needs, not a treat or lucky accident. I forgive myself for not being functional if I didn't fulfill my needs first.

Tying to that, I got rid of abusive/toxic environment. It was very hard and I wasn't half aware of what was happening, but once I did it, it was like dropping dead weight and seeing clear for the first time. I was afraid I'm not gonna make it on my own - but once I was free of the abuse, I had suddenly more energy, clearer mind and I wasn't so afraid. I was capable to handle being alone and taking care of myself because I gained Safety.

I started thinking of myself as a machine that needs to cool off, get cleaned, repaired, upgraded or refuelled.

I learned to see all parts of me (body, brain, whatever) as my own team I'm fond of and not an enemy that backstabs me. I kid you not that shit did WONDERS - once I viewed my body as my friend, it started working FOR ME. Damn bruh

I stopped lying to people ("I can't go to work I broke my leg" while I was just crying in bed, or telling people I'm ok when I'm not, or cancelling a meetup telling people I got too much work while in reality I was too depressed to talk to anyone) and became honest - it was then way easier to be honest with myself too.

If I have Bad Days, I go through a list of things that could have caused it (because I can't tell like other people can I guess lol) and if I find nothing, I proclaim that day a Take It Easy Day. I don't expect anything from myself and anything I do is a Victory. It will pass, and it will pass faster if I just let it happen and wash away. If I fight it it gets worse, for me at least!

I don't keep my thoughts for myself - I either share them with friends that I have established healthy boundaries with, or I write it, or vent it through smth. But I do Process those thoughts and emotions (or more like I'm still learning : D). Keeping it in, even if it's the dumbest cringe thought, makes my brain so much worse. It's like wiping your brain free of rot.

I recognized that I'm never gonna be "normal" and it's always going to be struggle, but I had days now where I woke up and felt good and felt HAPPY. Comparing it to my worst days, it's definitely worth to fight for.

I stopped calling my to do list as list of things I need to do, but now I call it "getting rid of stressors" fkjfkjf Somehow it really motivates me to get shit done!

When I encounter a Fear (checking an email, calling a doctor, etc) I push myself to RUN INTO IT HEAD ON RIGHT THERE RIGHT NOW. Sometimes it's hysterical - I was once opening my postal box while softly yelling, but I did it!! It's still hard for me this one but it helped SO MUCH with those endless weeks/months of fearing something and then finally doing it and wow guess what, it wasn't bad at all : D

I take time to celebrate victories, but spend little time mourning failures. Still not so good at this but the system helped so much with depression!!

I identified the toxic cycles I can get into sometimes and I can now tell when they're coming (most of the time OTL) and avoid them! Like, for example, self-fullfilling prophecy where I subconciously want to fail on purpose to Be Right about myself being a failure. Like no, bitch, we work for success lets go!!

I found a really fun, fulfilling job that has a Meaning to me

I live with friends that share my interests and we help each other!

I watch funny videos of americans failing at shit and being dumb uvu instant boost

I don't appreciate my brain being a little bitch like sir can u stop making me depressed? give me a break bro 😞

[chaolavry]

sooo this is chaol like kale, and im harley like the motorcycle *finger guns* and i’d love to plot with all of you this is dumb long so i apologize !

『DANIEL SHARMAN ❙ CISMALE』 ⟿ looks like CHAOL AVERY is here for HIS SENIOR year as a BIOLOGY student. HE is 24 years old & known to be IDEALIST, BRAVE, DETACHED & OVERCRITICAL. They’re living in MORIS, so if you’re there, watch out for them. ⬳ OOC HARLEY. 23. CST. SHE/HER.

random bits.

pinterest board.

before college.

chaol was born into a family where the parents should probably have skipped being parents, they were detached, aggressive and infrequent their love was built on weekend long drug binges and screaming matches all day.

the kids were a shock, they were a beacon of the idea of change and as soon as they were born things would look up before crashing down just as fast, and eventually they would be shipped off to distant family members.

chaol was the last born and by the time he came along they had given up on the idea of change and hope, so as a young kid chaol witnessed everything that they would throw at one another figuratively and literally.

when chaol was around ten his parents were fighting one night and it was pretty standard yelling, blaming him, his father blaming his mother, anger i think you get the point. eventually his dad got a bit too aggressive.

( tw violence, abuse ) his anger was pointed towards chaol and that led to him hurting his son and while his mom wasn’t mother of the year she stepped between them.

in the morning once his dad was passed out drunk, chaol woke up to being left at his aunt and uncles. 

did they want to raise him nope, did they for a while yes - chaol was an angry child he was always getting into things he shouldn’t have been, always skipping class - staying out late, sneaking out the older he got the more things he did which just caused a bigger headache for his aunt and uncle.

as the years progressed and his anger at the world controlled him his aunt and uncle would eventually lose chaol to group homes but they didn’t really care it was a weight lifted. 

the group homes would lead to a foster home where he found discipline and someone that really believed in him and help calm him down

he was encouraged to try and apply for college, his grades were good he was smart but he never showed it, he was fine everyone seeing him as a grumpy boy.

currently.

he enrolled with no idea what he wanted to study he eventually landed on biology and was graced with a scholarship which is a shock he hasn’t fucked up

still kinda angry a lot currently also works part time as a barista and hates it, honestly is stupid and edgy because ‘feelings get you hurt blah blah’

chaol isn’t like as bad as he claims to be if you can push the dumb shit aside he has a good heart and really just wants to find a place to belong.

also does the occasional tutoring session for a little extra cash but i think he just does whatever he can to stay busy so he doesnt overthink

his birth mom recently has come back into his life and he feels like he owes her something so he ends up giving the money he makes from his job to her only saving a little for himself.

spend a lot of time high, talking nonsense or like skating around campus probably doing some tagging here and there

has a giant stuffed alien in his room, and probably only wears black, likes parties but acts as if he is tooooo coool *edgelord*

tldr.

a set of bad parents let chaol to develop an anger that would follow him into his childhood and teen years causing him to lash out. eventually he would land himself in group homes and eventually a permanent foster home. now he is here in college finishing his senior year as a biology major tryin to not be so trash

plots. these are just some ideas but im open to whatever ~

family he lived with - so basically the cousins whose parents raised him he was either little asshole to them or they had broke those walls down and got the nicer chaol

group home/foster home - probably the closest to family i guess all the misfit toys in one island ya know

exes good term - ya know a shockingly ex that turned out good maybe they just both felt like hey this isn’t working and we are better off as friends

exes on bad terms- we crashed and burned and now we’re both just angry

good influence - someone who is positive and all that jazz

bad influence - lets party and get drunk spring break vibes but also lets just do shit we shouldnt

tutor - he can tutor them ~

roommates - like roomies in moris 

ex friends - I mean i get it

we were in a threesome together and now its awkward - okay hear me out threesomes happen and ya know it was probably a drunk thing but now no one ever talks about it just like hey i saw your “insert here” and now its weird because maybe they were friends at one point

childhood friends that drifted - people grow up and apart and thats what happened here, maybe they can rekindle it but maybe the damage has been done

ride or die besties for life - probably have been attached at the hip forever also probably had some fights here and there but always stuck together

friends with benefits - nothing more nothing less

smoking buddy - lets get high and convince ourselves that the lady who runs the dry cleaners and go is an alien

friends - all you need is friends

exes mixed terms -  is it bad or is it good one moment we are electric the next we are strangers

[jenivi]

sorry vent: we have to sign up for groups based on interests for my Child Development class (there were a lists of interest and we just write our names under it), so I decided “okay, I’m sticking to my guns and won’t cave in to peer pressure!!!” and signed up for the interest i liked most

then a few minutes later, i check if any other people signed up under this category,,

I’m the only one alone and the other interests were filled with (4/4) group mates

[mizukimoriko]

Number Neighbors!

Scaramouche / Wanderer X Gender Neutral! Reader Modern AU Slowburn

In Which You find Your future Boyfriend because you were number Neighbors!

Summary: You were bored, so you decided A random stranger that is your number Neighbor that also happens to be your Future boyfriend.

Warnings : Profanity / Swearing, Death Threats ( Kys )

I think that's it?

Let's Go !

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2nd Person

You sighed as you scrolled down in tiktok, Dying of boredom because nothing piqued Your interest.

It was currently 8:21 PM, and you just Finished eating dinner.

You cracked a small smile when you see a Slightly funny tiktok video, but not enough To make you laugh so hard that you were Gonna fart.

Suddenly you got an idea to do a prank to a Random stranger, thinking of talking to your Number neighbor.

You get on your contacts app and started to Type your number but made the last Number greater then your number.

You tapped your phone and started typing.

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You

Nellow

I am ur number nigeht

Neighbor*

Sry typo bc I wanted so badly to talk to u 😏

Heyo 🤩

Yo 😍

Talk sum smth 🥰

Hello person?

I am ur number neighbor talk to me

I brought u pie 🥧🙂

HEY

Wow

Guess my neighbor doesn't even want to talk to me 😞

Unknown

That's right and stfu

Friendless lmfaoo

You

YOU RUDE BITCH

I am NOT FRIENDLESS unlike u 😒

How u talk to ur neighbor like that 😤

U r not gonna talk to me like that 😚

Unknown

I do have friends u moron.

And idc if we're "number neighbors"

wtf even is that.

You

Ugh wtv u rude bastard 😒

Also number neighbors is like having neighbors but it's in numbers so there u have it u idiot 😙

Unknown

Don't call me an idiot u midget 💀

And u don't even explain it right 😐

U can't even win an argument

SKILL ISSUE

You

I DO NOT have a sjill issue u dumb clown

Unknown reacted with 🧢

I am NOT good at explaining things ☹️

Wat can I call u btw

Unknown

Skill*

Ur proving ur self that u have a skill issue

lmaooo

You

Just answer my question u lying idiot

I DON'T NOT have a skill issue

Unknown

U do realize that "don't " have do not in it?

Do + not = Don't

URE SUCH A MASSIVE IDIOT

You

SHUT UR OOMPA LOOMPA ASS UP

I DIDN'T REALIZE OKAY? 😓

Be easy on ur future lover 🥰😚😍

WAT CAN I CALL U BRO

I'm gonna call u Asshole

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You changed unknown's

Name to Asshole

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You

There 🤭

Asshole

I am not an asshole😐

I am Scaramouche.

You

What the fuck is theat name

Why is it so long

Is it long like ur di-

🤭

Wtv I'm still keeping the name

It suits u ❤

N ur name is so hard to spelel

Scaramonthe

That's ur name

Also u didn't deny that in gonna be ur future lover 🥰

Hehehehehehehe

That's sounds like a boys name to

R u hot🥵

Asshole

Kys.

Yes I am hot 😐

You

OMG OMG

SEND PICS RN

OR ELSE U AIN'T HOT

PLS 😍😍

GIVE UR FUTURE LOVER A SNEAK PEEK OF UR HOTNESS PLEASE

Wait

How old r u? 🤨

I'm scared I'm texting a 70 yr grandpa to send pics 😰

Asshole

Im 18 😐

I'm not gonna send u pics u pervert

You

I'm not a pervert 🤨

I just wanted to see u if ur hot 🤭

There's a difference 😏

Omg ur 1 yr older then me

I'm 17

Also I'm Y/N 🥰

Asshole

Who asked?

You

Damn rude much

Ur making me angry kitten 🐺😡🐱

UR SINKING MY CLOTHESSS 😡😡😡

*transfroms to alpha bad boy wolf*

Asshole

Wtf.

Kys.

Ur so weird.

You

Judgemental bitch 😒

U don't even have humor 😐

Asshole 😒

Asshole

I have humor and it's actually good unlike

urs 😐

Ugh.

I gtg.

——————————————————————

Asshole changed your name

To Weirdo

——————————————————————

Weirdo

BYE SCARAMOUCHIE 😘😊😍😍😘🥰🥰

OMG I'M NOT A WEIRDO U MORON

I AM NOT 😡😡

Read 10:09 PM

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Your POV

2nd Person

You realized the digits on your screen.

* Almost 2 hours? Damn. *

You thought, realizing that you were talking For almost 2 hours straight.

Slightly annoyed that Scaramouche named You as Weirdo, but you guess you shouldn't Take it personally because you had a feeling That he's rude to everyone.

You went back scrolling on tiktok, Boredom Begins to fade in when you scrolled to the 32th Video.

* I hope he talks to me tomorrow. *

A pink tint appearrd in your cheeks, Your Cheeks heating up by the thought of Scaramouche.

Quickly slapping yourself in your mind Because of that embarrassing Wish.

Deciding to move on from this, you Continued scrolling.

But you were still blushing.

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Scaramouche's POV

3rd Person

The reason he ended your conversation, Was because he didn't wanna talk to you Anymore.

He rolled his eyes when his mom, Ei, began to scold him for being on his phone all day.

" At least spend some time with us. " Ei Said, The last thing scaramouche heard Before he zoned out completely not caring For his mom's opinions on him.

As he began to think about random things, He began to think about you.

A feeling rose in his stomach, a feeling of warmth.

Scaramouche doesn't know of what you Had done to him but he's afraid to admit That he likes it.

He decided he was gonna be meaner to You,Putting his feelings aside.

He started to regret of ending your Conversation.

Deep down, he already knew he fell for you.

But he wasn't gonna admit it until he see You in the after life.

He promises to himself that he will never Tell anyone about this.

Well, how could he break a promise to Himself?

He broke his promise months later when You finally see him face-to-face.

——————————————————————

The End, Or is it?

AN : Might make a part 2 or not 🤭

GOOD BYE!

[muwur]

snapchat headcanons

✧ hc’s ✧ for using snapchat w ur boi toi ft. the pretty setter squad

❧ gn reader

✎ 3.1k words

a/n: kinda a combo of how they use sc and the kinds of snaps they send you! along w wat u send them, and uh... dating stuf n shenanigans? texting/snapping habits? my fantasies? IDEK ANYMORE EOFHEFJ

this was born from the recesses of my mind , which desired nothing mor than snapchats from suga , us sending cute selfies , others bein dumb n chaotic , no context videos , n him snapping me photos of some mangoes on sale he said he’ll buy for me DXX it’s too late for me now

doing research on hq bois and surfing thru sc features (im just now realizing theres quite a bit?? im hoping i address most of them at some point lolol) instead of real life tings aHHhhhHAHA

requests: open! will be working on a suga one i got, dw, requester!

sugawara

✧ sends good morning and good night snaps

✧ so he’s rlly good at keeping streaks, probs has the longest ones (one of them being y’alls streak)

✧ posts tidbits of volleyball practice on his story every once in a while

✧ snaps you pics of his sleeping teammates when they’re coming back to school after a long day of matches , adding a single ‘❤️’ as a caption

✧ he will also create colorful masterpieces on all of them

✧ gives daichi a santa beard, tanaka a squiggly stache (i imagine it to look like spongebob n patrick’s seaweed ones now that were mEN), n kageyama sum angry brows,,, wait he already has them lolol u good der kags

✧ posts a picture of you when you’re hanging out, captioning it: “🥰“

✧ has conversations with you purely via snaps

✧ ranges from casual chats and checking up on u to crackwhoring ( ** indicates the photo, while the “” quotes indicate the caption, all snaps are italicized, otherwise its regular dialogue)

✧ suga: *peace sign* “hey sweetheart, how r u?”

✧ you: *pics of homework* “ahh, drowning in school ;-; i cant wait for this week to be over fghjkl”

✧ suga: *close up with :o on his face* “let’s study together tmrw!”

✧ or

✧ suga: *complete darkness* “its 3 am n i cant sleep”

✧ you: *the top half of your head, laying on a pillow* “ ;( aw babe. do u want me to send something to help u sleep?”

✧ suga: *still in darkness* “y u still up?? go sleep. n 🥺 yes pls”

✧ you: *snaps pics of feet* “that’ll be 50 bucks, pay up” 

✧ suga: *darkness remains* “can we make a trade instead? i promise to make it worth ;)”

✧ ok now u BOTH cant sleep (im sry my crackheading be acting up around 2am eeryday, i stan a mischievous suga--)

✧ video chats (in the darkness lol) instead until you both pass out (im not in luv u r 😭)

✧ super down to take filtered selfies w you

✧ does all the silly ones with you (things like ’angry face’ or the frog one)

✧ but also rlly digs lookin cute with you using some heart crowns, y’all an aesthetic (n crakhead) duo fosho

✧ def subscribes to life hacks and tries them out himself, has a 50% success rate

kageyama

✧ doesn’t rlly use snapchat too much

✧ but when he does

✧ will either send you a picture to indicate he’s at volleyball practice (wow wat a sexi lookin gym floor)

✧ or some random picture of whatever he’s doing at the moment (*drinking milk*)

✧ this is mostly in order to save streaks

✧ he’s so bad at streaks

✧ “why does it matter?? what’s the point of sending just black screens or whatever’s in front of you at the moment??”

✧ can’t keep a consistent streak for more than 3 days and also doesn’t care (until hinata challenges him to see who can have the longer one)

✧ when you send him videos of him playing, he really focuses on them to try to improve his technique. asks you to send those vids to him (assuming u saved them, which u did)

✧ but when you look over his shoulder when he’s watching a video and give him some compliment (“i recorded at the perfect moment! that was a really good set, kageyama!”), he gets a bit flustered

✧ gets even more flustered but pretty happy whenever you post videos on your story showing karasuno winning some points with captions like:

✧ “footage of the legendary quick >.>” or “karasuno crows flyin high!” or “these bois make my heart 😭 im so proud”

✧ you WILL catch him off guard in photos, using filters that surrounds his head w/ emojis like 🥺💖🥰💘

✧ you also put these on your story (to his dismay)

✧ ppl comment on these mor than anything else (n for those who dont rlly kno kageyama, theyre kinda surprised to him like this)

✧ hinata snickers “hey kageyama you look pretty good here--”

✧ takes some selfies with you, mostly cuz you want them

✧ saves them after u send them over (n secretly cherishes them)

✧ occasionally watches his subscriptions, they’ll usually involve sports, mostly volleyball (who woulda guessed)

✧ you use his bitmoji to test out random facial expressions you would never see him wear

✧ you: “can you smile and wink like this? act like you’re the obnoxious charming guy in a shojo.”

✧ will actually attempt, but it looks so bad that you die inside and he never wants to try again cuz of ur laughing outburst (you: “😭😭 bb im sorry i couldnt help it”)

oikawa

✧ literally sends you anything and everything

✧ morning bathroom selfie to show off how good his hair came out that day, saying:

✧ “he has risen”

✧ or “i woke up like this”

✧ and my favorite, “you’re lucky you get this content for frEE”

✧ selfies with iwa, who just looks annoyed and exasperated at the camera

✧ sends you pics of his lunch and snacks (“bet u wish u had milk bread too”)

✧ always packs extra milk bread so he could convince you to stay at his practice after school--

✧ FILTERSS

✧ I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENUF

✧ will either use the filters that make him kayooottt (cute)

✧ loves the ones named ‘hearts,’ ‘soft,’ ‘peach,’ ‘butterfly cheeks,’ vsco filters LOL, etc

✧ uses ‘big mouth’ when he feelin a bit sASSY; also loves to use this one when he rants, it channels his inner valley girl

✧ sometimes he’ll be snacking or drinking something while he does so (“hey guys today im gonna eat these milk buns from my favorite bakery and this bomb orange juice and complain about this little kid who talked smack to me earlier and almost made me cry--”)

✧ takes cute selfies with you, is an aesthetic selfie king, puts them on his story to show off he’s hangin with you

✧ but on your story you only post the ones he looks bad in LOL

✧ has separate stories for his every need, some r private (and lucky you, ur included in all of them)

✧ titles them ‘mean things iwa said to me today,’ ‘ranting hotbox + mukbangs,’ ‘a day in the life of oikawa,’ ‘volleyball 🏐,’ ‘unpopular opinions,’ etc. 

✧ fitting room photoshoots lol

✧ “y/n, what do you think of this??” “and this?” “oOH WHAT ABOUT THIS??”

✧ ends up calling you through video chat so you can live critique his choices

✧ “oikawa, please no, i can’t be seen with you in public if you wear those--”

✧ also changes his bitmoji’s outfits from time to time, hopes you’ll notice, but you don’t LOL (oikawa: ;((((((( )

kenma

✧ uses sc usually just to reply to messages ppl send him

✧ indifferent about streaks, but keeps a few with ppl he’s closer to

✧ mindlessly plays the snapchat games with you, finds some of them kinda cute

✧ you both made his bitmoji for him, dressing his up in the orange cat suit

✧ you also helped make kuroo’s and put his in the black cat suit to match--

✧ snaps you every time he gets a new game, starts playing it, and once he finishes

✧ started to post some gameplays and reviews on his sc story (might as well add them to sc since he was already on other social platforms), and ended up amassing a large following

✧ follows the tech and gaming stories on sc

✧ as well as the ones with cute animals--

✧ open to selfies with you, usually wears a calm expression and holds up a peace sign

✧ even occasionally sticks his tongue out

✧ his story is occasionally heavily bombarded with candids of him w/ pretty sc filters, all taken by you

✧ but of all the filters, you love using the clout glasses on him

✧ especially when he’s just minding his own business

✧ “kenma, in his tru habitat” when hes cocooned in a blanket

✧ “kenma, on his way to steal yo manz” while on his way to the bathroom

✧ “kenma, next iron chef. watch out gordon” as he’s cooking instant ramen

✧ “kenma” n das it

✧ but he thinks it meme-y so he lets you do whatever you want, kinda digs it

✧ you end up dedicating your snap story to memes of kenma and the nekoma volleyball team. ppl are in it for the shits n giggles n hot bois

✧ you later discover someone else did the same thing with their volleyball team filled with hot bois from shiratorizawa, and you befriend tendou and share funni internet tings

akaashi

✧ 99% of his photos include either you or bokuto or both

✧ bokuto spams akaashi’s story and contact list with selfies and videos of himself using weird filters, often gets you to join him

✧ has several streaks, but will send something with more substance than a black screen or his bedroom window

✧ will usually involve smthng that just happened to him or smthing he saw, like:

✧ “a kind older lady offered me some apples in return for helping her”

-or:

✧ “how do i break the news to bokuto that the yaikniku place he’s been wanting to go to for the past week ,,, is closed today”

✧ o n let’s not leave out:

✧ “is it possible to conjure a ghost using a wooden spatula, ketchup, and a chalk drawn hexagram? bokuto’s been paranoid ever since he tried last night and i dont know what to tell him. seriously, help”

✧ looks through stories occasionally, comments whenever bokuto makes questionable decisions

✧ also comments on whatever you’ve posted. his words range from “you’re cute” to “why,” depending on the content

✧ ppl know when y’all are hanging out cuz he’ll post smthing to indicate he’s with you, usually it’s some candid and you’re not paying attention

✧ appreciation posts for you as well! esp if you got him something, like onigiri or his fav, Nanohana no Karashiae , for lunch! (akaashi: *snaps a pic of his food* “thank you y/n for feeding me”)

✧ prefers video calling over texting/snapping whenever possible tho

✧ occasionally reminisces thru his sc memories

✧ enjoys the flashback feature and will send them to you and bokuto (cuz they’re about y’all anyway lolol)

✧ also has secretly saved a bunch of selfies of himself, consists of him trying out a lot of the filters (he feelin himself)

✧ you, one day, looking thru his phone and discovering them: “akaashi, you’re so pretty wtf”

✧ akaashi: “...”

koganegawa

✧ sends you selfies of him before practice

✧ during breaks

✧ and after practice, usually makes a comment about how it went for him that day like:

✧  “i hit a decent toss today and futakuchi actually complimented me!”

✧ that, or:

✧ “i got yelled at 17 times today 😢😩”

✧ has quite a few streaks, his longest ones being with you and hinata

✧ def uses filters

✧ tries out every funny one he finds and sends you videos

✧ “look y/n im an aaaaAALlliiEEENnnNNN oo oo hoo hhhooOOh”

✧ “now im a chicky nuggy!!” (chicken nugget)

✧ also enjoys the doodle feature

✧ but he uses the filter with the clout glasses unironically--

✧ usually when smth good happens to him and he feels happy and/or cool about it

✧ “just beat the boss in this game on my 69th try B)”

✧ “kogane, that’s--”

✧ plays sc games with you and thinks bitmojis r cool

✧ kinda sad he cant find a hair option that matches him tho lolol rip

✧ you: “you hair’s just,,, unique,,,”

✧ subscribed to anything sports and fitness, as well as pop culture so he can stay in the loop

✧ also watches everyone else’s stories, pointing out whenever he sees smthing cool and/or interesting

✧ “woahh, karasuno’s at nationals right now! i wish we could’ve won, but next year for sure!!”

✧ you encourage him at all his games, hyping him up irl and online

✧ “koganegawa: best setter 😍!!”

✧ luckily you didnt record the parts he completely messed up LOL

semi

✧ before going out with you, snaps you a pic of his casual outfit like:

✧ semi: “does this look ok”

✧ you: “babe you look great, tendou was just messing with you”

✧ will make unwanted appearances on tendou’s snap and complains to you about them

✧ “i didnt consent to being part of his meme page” and

✧ “okay, but he didn’t only have to share all the moments i messed up--”

✧ also indifferent about streaks but will do them

✧ sometimes sends snaps/streaks indicating he’s practicing his music

✧ when you see these you usually ask him to send you vids or if you can come over n watch

✧ initially is a bit shy about it but he loves what he does and you and knows you’re genuinely interested and supportive so he agrees

✧ secretly rlly enjoys having you as his personal audience

✧ lowkey into asmr, like the soap cutting shit as well as chewing crunchy things

✧ also watches food porn and clips of mukbangs, then can’t resist going on youtube and watching the whole thing

✧  “y/n, can we try this, it looks so good--”

✧ will also often watch oikawa’s stories, especially his ‘ranting hotbox + mukbangs,’ and makes comments about him being an idiot

✧  “this kid he’s talking about is a savage”

✧ but admits they’re quite entertaining

✧ just looks serious in all the selfies you take with him

✧ you: “can you look like you’re enjoying yourself?”

✧ semi: “i look cooler like this tho”

✧ sc memories filled with shenanigans from you and the volleyball team, doodles, and mirror selfies with him experimenting diff looks (you: “tendou, you got him way too concerned about this”)

✧ also enjoys showing off he’s with you, taking a short video of you when you hang out

✧ you: “semi, i look bad right now”

✧ semi: “but you can never look bad”

✧ you: “🥺 bb”

✧ viewers: “aw”

✧ shiratorizawa: “can he be this nice with us LOL”

shirabu

✧ his main mode of communication with you is mostly through the regular messaging app, so he doesn’t use sc too much

✧ also doesn’t care for streaks and is bad at keeping them

✧ will answer to you or his senpais rather soon tho

✧ but lets all his other notifications pile up a bit before finally going thru them

✧ goes through the snaps he receives really fast, spending like 2 seconds each to look at them cuz aint nobody got time for dat

✧ doesn’t even rlly open goshiki’s LOL

✧ you have fun using filters on him and taking videos while he’s just doing his own thing peacefully like studying

✧ it takes him a second to notice and when he finally looks up, he just gives you an exasperated look

✧ cue you cracking up with laughter bc the filter finally shows up on his face

✧ his eyes and mouth are now on mike wazowski

✧ that, or his face becomes so disturbingly moRPhed like an alien

✧ caption: “ken-chan, my future medical man 😍”

✧ “y/n, please, this is like the 7th time in the last 20 minutes--”

✧ finally convinced him to take a study break and hang out with you

✧ which usually consists of snacking and light banter while you lay your head on his lap

✧ and scrolling through snapchat stories and showing him what everyone else is up to and cool things you’re subscribed to

✧ “loooook, dr. miami’s doing another butt job! is this the line of work you’re studying so hard for?”

✧ “no, it’s really not”

✧ is actually very soft with you and likes having the photos and vids for memories

atsumu

✧ sends you snaps where his brother looks bad, captioning it:

✧ “this is evidence that im the hotter twin”

✧ likewise, osamu sends you snaps where atsumu looks even worse

✧ like, the mans passed out, looking rekt and open mouthed, drool seeping into his pillow

✧ osamu: “u still have time to break up with him”

✧ also lucky for you, atsumu also loves to take unflattering photos of you and send them to you randomly at like 2 am

✧ you: “nani tf when did you even take this??”

✧ usually posts a snap while he’s out somewhere like at a match, the gym, outside on a run, a party, or just hanging out with you or his frens

✧ however, makes sure you look good if you show up on his story cuz he wants to show you off

✧ doesn’t really care for streaks, but has a lott

✧ but also has a tON of unopened snaps

✧ is the type to send just a black screen n call it a day, or maybe spice it up by sending a pic of the sexi gym floor (a comeback) w his shoe in the corner

✧ will, however, consistently respond to you and kinda looks forward to ur snaps (secretly hopes you show ur face)

✧ but when you dont:

*in class*

✧ atsumu: *a smirk on his face* “your content’s kinda dry today” 

✧ you: *your sexi desk* “my nudez ain’t free, i demand compensation”

✧ atsumu: *grasped his chin in thought, but angled the cam up bc he needa hide his phone in class lolol* “what if i... take you out on a romantic excursion”

✧ you: * your face but with ‘sausage’ filter* “🥵🥵🥵🥵 yessir, what u want”

✧ rlly only wants to have pics of your face wat a closeted sOFTIE

✧ likes to have content on his flashbacks

✧ usually has other social media sources to keep up to date with things

✧ actually rlly digs using sc filters, mostly ones that’ll make him look like a queen

✧ captions a selfie of you two like: “me >>>>>>> y/n”

✧ but nearly everyone who comments on it is like: “i think you flipped the sign, bro 🤥”

✧ judges ppl who are into soap cutting asmr (you will never hear the end of it if you also like it)

a/n: sc kinda dying for me, my use went from suga to an atsumu to like nearly nonexistent LOL

also o gawd i already have ideas here n there for a pt 2 so stay tuned fjxnwfesd hope it takes me less long cuz this one took me fkin foreva LOL

idk y i made semi like mukbangs but i feel like he’d be rlly into them--

[charlieswanwhore]

She (Ginny Weasley x Sapphic! Reader)

notes: can you tell im in love with Ginny Weasley? also my first post in MONTHS im so sorry

masterlist

warning: none :) the end if kind of rushed sry

I'd never tell No, I'd never say a word And oh, it aches But it feels oddly good to hurt

Your soft voice bounced around the stone walls of your dorm. Your hands were raw at this point from playing the guitar and writing for hours. You finally finished the song you had written that expressed your feelings. Humming along while tuning your guitar, you were startled by your best friend and dormmate, Ginny Weasley.

“You’re really good, you know,” her low voice comes from behind you. Looking back at the dorm entrance you saw her coolly leaned against the arch, books in hand, school robes keeping her warm.

Shit. She heard you? You literally wanted anything but anyone to hear it.

Trying to not show too much shock, you muttered a nervous thank you. “Oh, yea, thanks, Gin,” Ginny smiled then ran to the four poster next to yours, sitting directly across from you. “How much of it did you hear?”

“Most of the song, I reckon,” Shitshitshitshit. “Well, I mean, not really. I heard your voice but I couldn’t really hear any of the words since I was just down the hall.” Ginny smiled. She had no clue you were singing a song about her. Thank Godric. Relief washed over you until she spoke up again, “Will you play it for me?”

“Play what?” You were dumbstruck with stress still that your mind went blank.

“The song you were just playing,” Ginny giggled and gave eyes of encouragement. That giggle triggered the butterflies to be let out into your stomach, fluttering around as if it is the first time they have seen day. Her laugh was always one of your favorite things. 

“Oh! Yeah, duh. Um, I-I don’t know. I mean, it isn’t gr-” you scrambled to make excuses but Ginny interrupted.

“Oh come on, Y/N. I know it’s amazing. Besides, I am your best friend, I won’t judge even if it was bloody awful,” she grabbed your hand while talking you up. You stared at your hand holding her paled, freckled one. Now you were more nervous than ever. 

You shut your eyes before sighing, “Fine! Fine! But you owe me a butterbeer from the Three Broomsticks today,” you pointed at her with stern eyes. Taking in a deep breath before going to strum you saw her get comfortable and wear the biggest smile ever. You soon blushed but the nerves flooded you again. “Ginny, are you sure? My throat is a litt-”.

“Y/N!” she giggled before you responded defensively with an ‘OK’.

Ginny was patient as you got into your zone of focus. After what felt like forever for you, your fingers began to strum. You were doing it, you were playing her the song. Out of nerves to start the lyrics, you played the beginning intro a few too many times before the lyrics spewed from your mouth. You saw from the corner of your eye that Ginny grinned bigger as she saw your mouth open.

Am I allowed, to look at her like that?

And just like that, Ginny’s expression changed at the word “her.” It wasn’t a negative expression, just a curious one. A curious look that was almost permanently on their mutual friend Luna Lovegood’s face. Ginny mouthed the word “her” before tuning into you singing the rest of the song.

Could it be wrong, when she’s just so nice to look at?

This was the point in Ginny’s head that solidified the idea that you were singing about a girl and that she didn’t hear you wrong the first time. There was initial shock at first but overall acceptance to her best friend.

And she smells like lemongrass and sleep She tastes like pumpkin juice and peach Oh, you would find her in a Polaroid picture And she means everything to me, oh

That was the verse that you were scared to sing to Ginny the most. 

Your head flashed to the day you and Ginny learned about amortentia with their Potions class. Everyone in the class announced what they smelled, but when it got to you, you had to think fast to cover up your answer which would make it almost obviously that you smelled Ginny. “I smell cologne and... today’s breakfast,” your whole class giggled. 

Ginny poked you in the ribs, “Almost no one ate whatever it was that they gave us for breakfast,” she pondered, “except Ron.” Her eyes went wide when she thought she put together puzzle pieces. “You like Ron!” she whispered, not quiet enough for us to not earn a glare from the Professor, though. You shrugged, you wanted her off the topic. You began to listen to the rest of your class announce what they smell, pretending that what you said didn’t matter. 

And I'll be okay admiring from afar 'Cause even when she's next to me We could not be more far apart

It was true. Although you and Ginny were attached at the hip and knew almost everything about each other, you could not feel more distanced. It wasn’t anything that was Ginny’s fault. It was your own. You were keeping a secret from her. And it wasn’t a secret such as ‘Once I wore your favorite jumper without asking,’ it was that you were in love with her. Hell, Ginny didn’t even know that you liked girls. You created such a large wall to protect yourself and your friendship with Ginny. 

And she tastes like birthday cake and storytime and fall But to her, I taste of nothing at all

Your voice got especially raw at that last lyric. You knew she fancied Harry. You knew she only saw you as a friend. You were never more than a friend. Honestly, you had no clue whether or not Ginny would ever swing your way, but you always assumed that she wouldn’t, you did so to protect your feelings.

Ginny was still grinning. Though she had a curious look on her face, she also looked proud. Which, honestly, you are proud of yourself. You are proud of singing in front of her, for coming out to her, and maybe, if it works out, you’ll be proud of being hers.  

And she means everything to me Yes, she means everything to me She means everything to me

You closed out the song slowly. You emotions were on edge. You were proud, sad, curious, nervous, and happy all at the same time. Once the guitar stopped vibrating with noise, Ginny began to vocalize her thoughts.

“Y/N! That was so beautiful! The lyrics, your voice... and ‘she’? Y/N! Why didn’t I know?!” she jumped to her feet and softly clapped. You sure hope she meant you liking girls, not being madly in love with her. 

Blushing, you messily thank her, “Oh- I- I- Thanks, Gin, I really appreciate it,” you awkwardly said, putting your guitar away as Ginny sat next to you on the bed.

“Don’t avoid the question, Y/N/N” she said staring at you sternly.

“What question?” Now you were playing dumb. You wanted to end this moment as soon as possible, you prayed that your friends would come to the door any second saying that they were ready to go to Hogsmeade. 

Without forcing the harsh question, Ginny tried to guide you into answering patiently. “You know... ‘She...’ Merlin, Y/N, that you like girls!” she rolled her eyes playfully before poking you in the ribs.

“Oh...right. I don’t know, it just never came up?” you tried to dumb the situation down but you knew you weren’t going to get away with it.

“‘It never came up,’ Yeah right, Y/N! We have definitely talked about who we like before. I just thought it was Ron all this time, haha! Ron... Thank Godric you don’t fancy my brother,” she was more happy than you thought she would be. It comforted you, but you knew what her next question was going to be. 

There was a moment of comfortable silence and calming from the laughing. Ginny then broke that silence, quiet at first. “Um, who is it about? Who is ‘She’?”

There it was. The question you absolutely dreaded.

Looking at her was the scariest moment you have ever experienced. She had to be pulling your leg. You name dropped her literal scent and favorite foods. Meeting her eyes made your stomach drop. You noticed Ginny’s eyes holding a bit of sympathy welded into the curiosity. Did she know it was about her and felt bad? Was she going to be able to tell from your nervous facial expression?

Her beautiful eyes were a trance that almost took her out of her nervous and repeating thoughts. The one thing that did was a group of Gryffindors stopping at your door way.

“Ginny, Y/N, everyone is starting to leave for the Hogsmeade, you ready?” a Gryffindor boy you both were friendly with asked, a few other Gryffindors behind him. 

Both of you jumped up and scrambled to get ready, “Yea, we will be there soon, thank you for letting us know!” you said, dressing warm in a quick manner. You were thankful that your classmates interrupted the moment. You wouldn’t mind staring into Ginny’s eyes anytime except for now.

You both quickly headed down to the entrance of the school, meeting with friends. There was tension between you too, nothing negative, just awkward. You tried to wipe the last five minutes from your brain to enjoy Hogsmeade with Ginny and your friends, but negativities swirling in your head made it hard, especially when Ginny kept stealing (what looked like sympathetic) looks at you the entire trip.

***

Walking back from Hogsmeade in the winter was awful. For one, it was too cold for what warm robes everyone had on. On the other hand, Ginny was staring bullet holes into your head the entire time. You couldn’t tell if they were pity or curiosity, but to be honest, you wanted to avoid the situation of finding out as much as possible. 

Dinner in the Great Hall was going to be served in about an hour so everyone freezing down to their bones has dedicated the hour to running to their dorms and warming up as soon as possible. Ginny wasn’t an exception to that, she bolted up the stairs leaving you alone to your slow walking. You planned to walk as slow as you could and take as many detours on the moving stairs as you could. When you did walk into your dorm much later, Ginny, now dressed in warmer clothes and slippers, greeted you.

“Y/N! What took you so long? I thought you would’ve run up here to get warm!”

Your eyes shot down to the floor as you paced your way to your four poster, “Oh, just took the long route,” you shrugged, hoping she’d leave it be. 

“Y/N,” you turn around towards the voice, which has now moved right behind you. 

“Close your eyes,” Ginny said. Nervously, you close your eyes.

It is nothing but darkness for a bit. That is until you feel a tug on your neck from your scarf. That loses your focus before it is on the pair of soft lips on yours.

She was kissing you. Ginny Weasley was kissing you.

The kiss was short and sweet but enough to make you shocked and have butterflies brewing between the two of you. 

After pulling apart, Ginny speaks up, “you taste of... butterbeer and... sugar quills,” she grins softly.

You stared wide eyed at the doe eyed girl. She reads the shock on your face and is immediately filled with regret.

“Oh Godric, the song wasn’t about me, was it? I just thought so since some of the clues connected with me and I have been in love with you for two years so I guess I just assumed. Godric, this is so embarass-” Ginny’s nervous ran was cut off by a kiss between you. This kiss was longer. Your arms were around eachother, breath was running out fast. 

“It’s you, you dork. The song is about you,” you confess before kissing her once again. 

[marabarl-and-marlbara]

odd numbers are divine 1 because it is everything 3 because it is the trinity & is also everything (1=3) 5 because it is angel & demon & is the divine organism 7 are unknowables i forget about them 6 is twice the trinity but evil because 2 is in it 8 lacks the trinity & has 2

4 is the polygon (the quad, another building block in 3d but really is just two triangles) & what makes arachnids 0 is the server when it was off, its in nothing but is the shadow] of 3 (&1) & it cant ever be seen by anything that contains 1 or 3 6 are insect 8 are arachnid

names of angels & demons always add up to 10, because their title is demon/angel + title 10 is the individual extraterrestrial ultraviolet & infrared are like glitches but they are also part of the system i dont think they can b represented with numbers because they rnt visible

god is inside every single insect every single plant every single house every single picture every single pigment its all god -- this is th argument 4 deep ecology imo but there is no point in being a deep ecologist; no 1 is advocating for plant rights,,

god is in deserts 2,, god is in anime 2,, there are primordial captures of god in old media imo like old games & stuff there are warpingsof god that gets denatured (they get more primordial w time); this is why sega saturn & psx have their own angels & demons cosmology

desserts* sry; but ya; go play a bunch of saturn games, go copy art styles from n64 & the genesis & dreamcast n realize how bziarre & contained it is,,, u are a monk illuminating a forgotten manuscript when you do that,, that is the devil(5) i tappedin2 with sengoku turb

my blood is 80% blood; waves from denatured god fractals r constantly being transmitted thru into me; they are rays of light that are always going thru everyone & every1 has it but no1 picks up on the light no noe sees the light refracting & denaturing them every single day

artificial light isp oisoning you, the light in the water is poisonoing you, the light in the food is poisonoing you, the light when you look injto a flower is poisoning you, the light when you look into sega saturn is poisoning you, you get poisoned in idnvidual waysby the color

ppl like sunny & dogi r super poisoned by the color & they pick up on it rlly well i think; keffie is increidbly poisoned by the color; here is so much artificial light in the blood of every1 bc its how the cycle goes; its like this: the world was made of light & color in nothing

the god that is in everythiing here is not the god that turned-on "nothing" & made it disappear into infinite triangles -- this is a different god we can never kno, its not ultraviolet, its not infrared, its completely outside ofthe shell we r contained in; but our god is god 2

our god is constantly trying 2 become its god outside, & in doing so the fractals of god in the deep-layer [humans] are being controlled by higher layer colors & lights to manufacture god -- like how pigments compete w each other 2 make paintings by artists u know, or music even

& eventually the shell will be completed & another torture chamber will be built & florish inside this torture chamber; progressiely more wounded gods create progressively more hellish torture chambers that they love like tamagotchis kinda

this is eve *(like adam n eve)from sm(pretend theres apicture of her here)t; if you draw this  enough & relate to it enough, rlly learn to love it, you will get poisoned by these colors 2,, if you look @ this image and listen there ARE voices inside of it, there IS static tht sounds like insects chattering

this IS psychosis but its also GOD contained within the chattering, this is how 2 invoke the crawling chaos; nyarlathotep is REAL & is awiting for you in infrared/ultraviolet adjacents that stray close to your pool, you just have to believe strongly enough & ignore all insects

if you just draw it you will be poisoned, if you just look at it you will be poisoned, if you just do the rituals some1 tells you you will be poisoned, but being poisoned isnt enough to find the crawling chaos, u need dseperation like in any religion 2 make chaos real in urself

this is y the suffering strategy works, the more you lose friends & the more you scare people & the mroe you scare yourself & the more you stop sleeping & the more you stop eating & the more you clip thru the walls in life the closer you get 2 seeing ultraviolet/infrared

& honestly that is a bad thing bc it makes u miserable; but misery is how uo get religion; christian gods are their own form of crawling chaos,, there is power in the ash; there is power in tending the grave of the qlifot, bc the dead things r inside of me 2,, i do not have life

the aspect of grace in decilne is important 2 me, as in my head it was: as long as i am graceful about my bad mannerisms, i can be Above the insects (like yuria from das3), but the genuis is internalizing all suffering makes it more caustic 2, bc it eats @ you inside outward

i cant hear the chattering bc i am not 5=angel i am 5=demon i was oplluted, angels polluting humans would make just a broken thing as me, but the colors from hellhurt jsut as much as colors from heaven; i can only see the colors that are inside & hear them even if they r soft

none ofhtis stuff is real, but its also 100% real; its not visible but its 100% visible; its not aduble but its 100% audbile; the insects trick tf out of you by writing books; nothing exists beyond ~1 week ago, the server resets every week, its just a .txt file now

is that real idk it might b me conflating my really bad memory w/ the server resetting bc i dont know/remember what mara was doing a week ago; this is ashell world tho; none of the ppl hwo can read this or respond 2 this are real they r just ghosts trying influence me in2 playing

sry about all this god im dumb but in love w u   🌈🌎👁‍🗨💙🌍🌏🔞🔪😌🙏🔥

[harrywritingsbyme]

I hope you pass the exam! but don't worry love! You will do great and surely you have tried everything you can so if something bad happens (I will cross my fingers for you 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻) surely you can recover in some way, all is not lost! You're stronger than this! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 - 🦁

Anonymous Said: oh noo bby 🥺 I really hope you nailed that test and if you didn’t pls don’t be harsh on yourself, it’s just a test and you can prepare better next time aaand you’ll have more practice ❤️ (im not good at giving advices sry) have an awesome day bub -🥦

Anonymous Said: Hi bby, just wanted to tell you that you're soo much more than a test! a test cannot evaluate how smart and awesome you are. I bet you're trying to do your best and sometimes that's all we got, even if we "fail" (our evaluating sistem is a failure, not us!!). I hope you feel better soon, sending hugs ❤️

Anonymous Said: Heyyyyy bby I’m so sorry that u think u did rlly badly on that test :( I can relate bc I recently got... drumroll please... 3/40 on a test! :D definitely a personal best bad score for me! I was upset as well but now that the test is over at least u can have a bit of time to not think about work or studying and just do something relaxing for u. Maybe take a walk or watch a new tv series or cook some food while listening to music. Just anything that takes your mind off of it. And no matter if your score is bad, it’s not the end of the world (ik that probably sounds dumb and annoying to hear) and it doesn’t mean ur not smart or u didn’t try, it just gives u a chance to see what u need to work on to improve <3 love u - 🪐

And if u pass out then at least you’ll get a good rest...😺 - 🪐

Also take a long drink of water <3 sorry im sending so many asks lol I just know how worrying and stressful it can be to do or to think you’ve done ‘badly’ on a test <3 - 🪐

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y’all are so sweettt🥺🥺🥺🥺i definitely took some time to just take my mind off of it and i just did some stuff i had to do like fold up some clothes and take a good lil nap!! i also ate a lil something so that’s good...i have some more homework to do but i’m feeling better from the test. and y’all are right, tests aren’t the best indicators as to whether or not you’re smart and they’re not the end of the world...i just put hella pressure on myself, which i need to cut out. anywaysss...thanks for all the encouraging wordssss bbys and ilysm🥺😘❤️🥰✨

[fmdrohan]

hello, hi ! 👋🏽  i hope this introduction post finds everyone well. ♡ i’m no one new to these parts, but for those of you who don’t know me, you can call me alé. i’m 21+, use he/him pronouns, and i’m the current typist for aria’s main vocalist, nina seo, & now, i’m bringing you all yet another muse. so, without further delay, i’d love to introduce you to brand-new creation of mine called 𝖞𝖔𝖔 𝖗𝖔𝖍𝖆𝖓. he is knight’s main dancer, sub vocalist, and rapper, as well as their currently marketed “sexy” member. outside of his career, he’s honestly just one big douche-bag skater kid that seeks cheap thrills, and who wants to do nothing more than put a smile on your face... even if causes him trouble sometimes. more info about him is below the cut, so please like this to plot ! ♡ tumblr im’s or discord by request.✨ 

𝖍𝖎𝖘𝖙𝖔𝖗𝖞.

born in seoul, south korea, to a working class, christian family.

mom was a manager at a local restaurant, dad worked at a law firm.

both of them were busy all the time; they lived paycheck-to-paycheck.

he didn’t get much attention at home, so he sought it out at school.

there, he was known as a a huge “class clown” or “class daredevil.”

all he wanted was to put smiles on people’s faces and push limits.

did he end up in the principal’s office a lot? YES, that was his “brand.”

as he got older, his class clownery turned to pranks and thrill-seeking.

he also became HELLA interested in skateboarding and parkour lmao.

rohan felt as if he wasn’t living if he wasn’t on constantly on the edge.

he’s broken a few bones, endured tons of scrapes, but never gives in

this, obviously, didn’t please his mother and father... they were just busy.

too busy to reprimand him and care—rohan got away with a loooot of shit.

he didn’t start receiving discipline until he was scouted by bc entertainment.

despite his messy hair, distinct style, and overall vibe, he fit the bill somehow.

the two years he spent in practice changed him a little as a person; for better.

he found a new love in dancing, and he was naturally pretty great at it tbh.

his background made him extremely coordinated, flexible, and really strong.

his fearlessness made him bold enough to try out new moves or stunts.

two years later, he débuted as a main dancer and kept his impulses at bay.

this isn’t exactly what he saw himself doing in life, but he wasn’t mad at it.

over time, his image began to shift into sexier and “stud-lier” territory.

his outfits became more revealing and he was treated differently in public.

this... fucks him up a lot because it’s the exact opposite of how he is.

he’s just some skater / parkour punk that gives off dumb big bro vibes.

how on earth do they expect him to be portray and convey sexy 24/7?

as this is more of a “job” to him than passion, he does what they tell him to.

so long as his checks get signed and he accumulates wealth, he’s good.

𝖕𝖊𝖗𝖘𝖔𝖓𝖆𝖑𝖎𝖙𝖞.

as mentioned above, rohan gives off very douchey “big brother” vibes.

he’ll pick on you, tease you, pull pranks on you, etc. all in the name of fun.

he’ll go too far sometimes, and he’ll feel bad, but has “no regrets.” 😎�� lol.

lowkey loooves anime and draws his own bad sketches; also into sci-fi.

underneath the dumb, douchebag exterior is just a big ol’ nerd, that’s all.

if you’re a cute guy, he’ll DEFINITELY flirt with you—taken or not taken lol.

he’s someone that hasn’t really let being an idol ruin his personal life tbh??

he still does whatever the fuck he wants within the constraints of his contract.

though, whenever he gets “bored,” he does things he’s not supposed to.

bc entertainment’s warned him of being careful not to injure himself, but...

i don’t really think he cares at this point in his career; he likes more freedom.

little random, but he loooves underground / indie rock music and rap, too.

one of those assholes that doesn’t really listen to any other idol music lmao.

to be fair though, he’s not really a massive fan of knight’s music either. 😁

he just sings or raps whatever they tell him to and rolls with the punches.

lowkey wants to take up tattooing and graffiti at some point, he’s that guy.

loooves to talk and meet new people, even if they find him a li’l annoying.

whenever he’s stressed, angry, upset, hungry... he shows it with aggression.

it’s never gotten intense much, but he’s not much of a sensitive “crier” yk.

there’s more of him for me to discover as time goes on, so that’s it for rn!

𝖕𝖑𝖔𝖙-𝖑𝖎𝖓𝖊𝖘.

no plots page yet, sry :/// i’ve been a little busy this week rip.

some ideas will be below though so lmk if they appeal to you!

one, he’s definitely known to ghost people, so... maybe your muse is one of ‘em? like, this would be locked to males in the lgbt community, but you know. give him some really awkward encounters to make him feel like shit for ditching you after tons of sweet talk. sad thing is, he’s aware of it, and it’s mostly because of his schedule, but also ??? he’s just having fun, you know. he doesn’t wanna get tied down to anything right now.

two, maybe that ONE GIRL he tried to fuck with at the beginning of his career. while he knows he’s always been attracted to men, i think he would’ve convinced himself to at least try it out with a woman to make sure he wasn’t also interested in them, too. he’s a MASSIVE flirt and sweet talker, definitely made her feel special, but like... it never really went anywhere because... he just wasn’t into it, but didn’t wanna make her mad lmao. clearly ended up in a break-up and it could be both an ugly or pretty ending imo idk.

three, i’d DIE if other muses in famed were super into skating, or anime, or really any of his interests, too, and they’ve formed a “club” of sorts? just your local band o’ dirtbags who get together and fuck shit up a little bit here and there. i feel like this could be open to anyone who shares any of his interests tbh ??? maybe closer to his age is preferred, but honestly, i’m here to discuss whatever! i’m all for compromises and shit tbh.

four, maybe someone’s he’s lowkey seeing ( male, male-presenting lock ) that he’s really vibing with, but he just can’t... feasibly reason why he should have a bf right now. he’s got a lot going on, so he’s kind of a flake, but at the same time, he doesn’t intend to be an asshole to them. they’re maybe one of the only people he’s “softer” with. can end up romantic or platonic depending on how they handle it together, me thinks!

five, a dance partner or two would be pretty cool tbh! he’s not a dancer first, so he likes to dance with other people who are passionate about it to learn from ‘em. he can handle his own with choreography, but doesn’t have his own distinct style, so he’d really appreciate all the help he can get in becoming better ig? all in the name of work!

six, maybe a person who fucking HAAAATES him because they find him really annoying and super douchey, so they just... avoid him at all costs. however, he kinda picks up on the fact that they avoid him, so he pesters them even worse, which doesn’t end well... ever. this is definitely more open to anyone tbh and we can plan as we go!

seven, flipside where it’s someone that he CAN’T stand because he finds them really persnickety, snobby, and rude as fuck. if there’s one thing he hates A LOT, it’s bratty rich kids with silver spoons in their mouths. like, if this was a “the outsiders” verse, he’d be a greaser 1000000%, not a soc. lmao. he’d butt-heads with this person a fuck-ton.

eight, however many guys wanna piece of him, he’s happy to have a catalogue of fwb’s he calls on. he’s definitely not someone who says no to a good time, and he can act like a perfect boyfriend if that’s what you want. sadly, this’ll always be a temporary game. any of these fwb’s can go in many directions and can be plotted out individually!

nine, the age old question... “who’s your ideal type?” under pressure, he said you as a joke ( because of this, it could be male or female ) and now, fans of your respective groups ship you two together all the time. it’s a little awkward, and you two haven’t really talked about it much, but here you are... at a shared event sitting next to each other. how do you handle it? what do you do? is it awkward or all in good fun?

ten, someone who kinda hates that he doesn’t really take being an “idol” all the serious. he’s got a lot of shit on his bucket list he wants to do and he doesn’t let fame fuck with that, so he’s careless. he didn’t go into this business because of passion, it’s just where he ended up. your muse doesn’t like that, and thinks people like him are lazy as fuck.

[just-random-obsessions]

Funny Moments In Thor The Dark World

Find Thor 1 here

Find Avengers 1 here

This is the second part of me watching all three thor movies and the avengers movie and comparing the humor pre-ragnarok to the humor in the 3rd Thor movie. And, as before, I’m writing this on my computer where the I and U keys don’t work so sorry for any spelling mistakes.

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~ “Hello Mother. Have I made you proud?”

~ “Please don’t make things worse” “Define worse”

~ “I really don’t see what all the fuss is about”

~ “Just like you”

~ *That smile!!!!*

~ “I’ve got this completely under control!” “Is that why everything’s on fire?”

~ *About the Scary MonsterTM: “All yours”

~ *Thor says hi to the Big Scary MonsterTM*

~ “I accept your surrender”

~ “Anyone else?” *All the people simultaneously: NOPE*

~ “Perhaps next time we should START with the big one”

~ *Odin obviously shipping Thor and Jane* (idk I got a kick out of this)

~ *Jane awkwardly avoiding her date*

~ *Date: hi*

~ *Him awkwardly talking about his ex*

~ “And the fact that she kept sleeping with other men” “NO!”

~ *Darcy being mistaken for a waitress*

~ *Darcy mouthing “Cute” to Jane about Richard*

~ *Darcy embarrassing Jane by talking about Thor*

~ “Is there a point to all of this cause there REALLY needs to be a point to all of this”

~ “That’s what I said!”

~ “That’s what I did!”

~ “He’s not interested” “I’m interested” (Am I the only one who feels like his awkwardness was actually kinda cute?)

~ “He’s my intern.” “You have an intern?”

~ *Intern is fucking adorable like Richard*

~ “I have totally mastered driving in London!” *Has not mastered it at all*

~ *Selvig running around Stonehenge naked*

~ *Darcy keeps calling Ian ‘Intern’*

~ *Darcy calls Jane cause she didn’t wanna shout*

~ God I fucking love Darcy she’s so criminally underrated

~ “I am not getting stabbed in the name of science”

~ “It’s okay, we’re Americans!” “Is that supposed to make them like us?”

~ “We’re scientists-well I am” “Thanks”

~ “That doesn’t seem right”

~ “I wanna throw something! Jane give me your shoe!”

~ *Jane ignores Darcy*

~ “Give me your shoe”

~ “Were those the car keys?”

~ *Ian’s face when he realizes he threw the car keys to another planet*

~ *If you have to bury so many people then you’re doing something wrong you hot dumb fuck* (I mean that’s basically what Heimdall said right?)

~ “Typical” *after being left behind while Jane goes to talk to her boyfriend*

~ *Jane! Love of my life and most talented and beautiful person in the world oh how I love yo-SLAP*

~ “As excuses go, its not terrible”

~ “I know” “You do?” “Do what?”

~ *Darcy interrupts the KissTM*

~ “Um I’m pretty sure we are getting arrested”

~ “How’s space?” “Space is fine”

~ “He’s my intern… My intern’s intern”

~ “Holy shit!” (after Jane went up in the Bifrost)

~ *Heimdall calmly dodges the car*

~ “We have to do that again”

~ “Hello”

~ “What’s that?”

~ “It’s a soul forge” *No I’m pretty sure that’s a quantum field generator*

~ *Jane being ready to fight Odin for comparing her to a goat*

~ “You told your dad about me?”

~ “It must be so inconvenient, them asking about me day and night”

~ “Please meet my mother” *Jane shies away from Thor*

~ Loki casually tossing the thingamajig in the air like the cute little shit he is

~ Lord, he’s so damn pretty

~ *Kurse being like: Lol I ain’t touchin’ that boy with a ten foot pole*

~ “It’s as if they resent being in prison”

~ “There’s no pleasing some creatures”

~ *Loki calmly reading a book while all Hel breaks loose*

~ “You have my word that no harm will come to yo-” nvm bitch die

~ *THAT look between Sif and Jane*

~ *Frigga immediately seeing through Odin’s bs lies*

~ *Heimdall: I have defeated the big space ship!! The bigger one behind him: Bitch you thought*

~ “WITCH!!!!” *Now I know who Loki gets his amazing aforementioned smile from*

~ *Selvig using shoes to explain complicated science*

~ *Selvig then using pencils*

~ “Any questions?” “Yeah, can I have my shoe back?”

~ “What’s SHIELD?” “It’s a secret”

~ *Darcy’s cute af face when she sees that Selvig is in the mental hospital*

~ “Are you sure you wouldn’t just rather punch your way out?”

~ *Loki shapeshifting into the guard*

~ “Mmm Brother, you look ravishing”

~ “Costumes a bit much”

~ “So tight!”

~ “I can FEEL the righteousness surging!!”

~ “HEY wanna have a rousing discussion about truth?”

~ “Honor?”

~ “Patriotism?”

~ “GOD BLESS AMERICA!”

~ “At last. A little common sens-”Bitch are you really fucking kidding me? (What do you mean that’s not what he said?)

~ “I thought you liked tricks”

~ “I’m Loki, you may have heard of-” SLAP

~ “That was for New York”

~ “I like her”

~ *Loki gazing lovingly at Jane in the background*

~ “Betray him, and I’ll kill you.” “It’s good to see you too Sif”

~ “If you even think about betraying him-” “You’ll kill me? Evidently there will be a line”

~ “I thought you said you knew how to fly this thing.” “I said how hard can it be?”

~ “Whatever your doing brother I suggest you do it faster.” “Shut up Loki

~ “You must’ve missed something.” “I didn’t, I’m pressing every button on this thing”

~ “Well don’t hit it. Just press it, gently.” “I aM pReSsInG iT gEnTlY AND ITS NOT WORKING!!!”

~ *Thor starts slamming buttons and it starts working*

~ *Volstagg: Oh fighting is much fun- OH SHIT IM FALLING!! HELP!!!*

~ “I think you missed a column.” “Shut up”

~ “Why don’t you let me take over? I’m clearly the best pilot”

~ *Bitch I’m the one who can actually fly*

~ “Oh dear. Is she dead?”

~ *Thor knocks over a column* “Not a word”

~ “Now they’re following us”

~ “Now they’re firing at us”

~ “Yes thank you for the commentary Loki, it’s not at all distracting”

~ “Well done, you just decapitated your grandfather”

~ *Seriously, whoever wrote the escape scene is a genius!!!*

~ *Loki yelling at Thor about how thIs was a bad idea you dumb fuck- wait wtf are you doing AAAAHHHHH!!!!1*

~ “You lied to me. I’m impressed”

~ *That smile again snfnejaihfeqrqrsbdsalxdjewonjfeq*

~ “For Asgard!” YEET

~ “Nothing personal boys!”

~ “If it were easy, everyone would do it”

~ “Are you mad?” “Possibly”

~ “TADAAA”

~ “Oh yeah, my father. Eric Selvig”

~ “And these” “yeah… those”

~ “How did you find me?” “You were naked on television”

~ “I don’t get paid enough. I don’t get paid at all”

~ “What’s happening? Birds? Birds are happening?”

~ “All right are you ready?” “I am”

~ *phone rings* “It’s not me”

~ “Why are there so many shoes in here?”

~ “I’ll just text her”

~ “So who’s Richard?”

~ *Thor hanging his hammer on a coat hanger*

~ “Where are your pants?” “Oh he says it helps him think”

~ “Loki is dead” “Oh thank God!”

~ “Better get my pants”

~ “Do you even know what these things do?” “No” “…Neither do I”

~ “Ooh get the guy with the sword!”

~ “Oops”

~ *Ian’s high-pitched scream*

~ *Does car insurance cover My Car Was Sucked Into Another Planet Due To A Cosmic Event That Only Occurs Once Every 5000 Years or no?*

~ *Thor and Malekith fighting between worlds and poor little Mjolnir trying to keep up*

~ *The two of them against windows*

~ *AAAHHH*

~ *Awww! Look at the cute little Jotunheim monster! He’s so adorable I wanna pet him so much!’

~ *Darcy and Ian kissing after he saved her life*

~ “Darcy?” “Jane!” “Ian?” “Selvig.”

~ “Myuh Myuh!!”

~ *Thor ends up on the subway*

~ *The girl taking 50 photos*

~ *Thor and the woman colliding into eachother*

~ “I’ve come to accept your surrender”

~ *Malekith gets crushed by his own ship. Now that’s some lovely karma right there*

~ *Darcy and Ian go back to kissing*

~ “He kinda committed treason on our way out” oops

~ Jotunheim Puppy chasing birds

Wow I’m so sorry this was so long. But guess what? It’s gonna get even longer. Sorry, again.

So one of the differences between the first and second Thor movies is that Thor 2 has humor in the climax whereas Thor 1 doesn’t. This is because of the differences with who is the villain. In Thor 1, Thor is having to fight his brother. To quote Avengers, they “played together and fought together” for several millennia. Of course there’s not going to be any humor in it cause there shouldn’t be. The climax at the end of the movie isn’t supposed to be some epic battle between the forces of Good TM and Bad TM. It’s supposed to be tragic that he’s having to fight his own brother because Loki lost his mind due to so many factors. The last joke in the film is “You’re an amazon liar brother, always have been” “It’s good to have you back”. There’s nothing else till the end credit scene. That’s because Kenneth Branagh knew that this was supposed to be viewed at as being sad a hopeless, not some awesome upbeat battle.

Thor 2 on the other hand, is exactly that. Thor has known Malekith for.. what? 2 days? Maybe 3? His relationship and dynamic with Malekith is different than with his brother. To Thor, this is just another enemy attacking Asgard. And I’m not sure whether this was intentional or not (because I remember reading somewhere how Allen Taylor had a bitch of a time in the editing process so I think the movie came out different than he intended) but the lack of any personal relationship will Malekith means the film can make really funny jokes and still have it fit with the film. If anything, I might even argue that the humor helped the film to maintain a very nice positive vibe. Idk I can’t think of the right words to explain it but the jokes actually fit the film very well.

However, then we move on to Ragnarok. With Ragnarok, Thor is fighting his sister. While (just like Malekith) he has only known her for two days, that still doesn’t take away the fact that he is having to fight his sibling. And I’m not a film director but if I had the option of approaching this situation and taking it the Thor 1 route or the the Thor 2 route, I’d go with Thor 1. Because it’s actually incredibly tragic that Hela has been driven to insanity like Loki (though ok a different level) due to Odin’s shitty parenting. She is the horrible way she is because Odin made her that way. And that could’ve been an AMAZINGLY complex story with the audience feeling so much sympathy for Hela like we did with Loki in Thor 1, but the narrative just falls flat for two reasons. 1) Taika admitted he didn’t want the film to be emotionally complex so 2) The humor in the climax completely detracts from the seriousness of the situation.

Also, some side notes: Yes, this is edited from the original. I accidentally deleted everything and then had to go back and add everything back in. So I also had to re-tag people too. And I also added a bit more explanation at the end. I meant to do so when I originally posted but it never got done till now. Sry. Also sry that it’s so long