#im sorry idk why im making my tumblr a diary

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

asked someone “will you do (the cringiest shit on the planet) with me” over the phone and it somehow worked out??

[beesorcery]

google how do i tell my dad that the reason i keep bringing up elon musk's transphobia isn't that i've got gen z political tunnel vision that makes me blind to his "innovation" in electric cars but because i am desperately crying out for you as the father of a trans child to feel just as outraged and angry as i am that that man has so much power

[mercurymacaroons]

woagh 2 posts in one day

[romanticfistfightz]

i hate having to go sit alone listen to music on day TWO of being at a friends lake house while the others chill and drink at the campfire but im with 4 other people and like. my bf and friend is fine but theres two dudes i dont really know much and apparently thats done it . and yesterday it was just a car ride and short campfire so nothing much. but i love having friends who understand im clinically insane and need to sit alone for two hours or will be dying and its not an issue . or my friend says its not a problem so ill believe them so i dont have to overthink 👍 anyhway time to watch like 2 eps of spn or something and hope itll pass cuz i feel like im gonna drown myslef in a lake if someone talks to me

[olberic]

ranking anime i’ve watched in 2023:

as expected, here’s this year’s top 10 for how much i personally enjoyed the anime i’ve watched this year. ive watched more than this, but god i watched so many bad ones…. even number 10 sucks but everything else was worse. sad!

as always thank u gifmakers for ur service 🫡 the world would be nothing without u all

10. the legendary hero is dead! (2023)

dont watch this show. it sucks and its bad. hey. come here. hold my hand. now lets just watch and enjoy the OP ok? don't worry about the rest.

9. my daughter left the nest and returned as an s-rank adventurer (2023)

i have to admit this show charmed me. its not the best thing ive ever seen but its nice. comfy. yknow? i haven't finished it but it's enjoyable. can't rank it higher until i finish it

8. sabikui bisco (2022)

if it werent for the positively nonsensical jump in the middle of the show and the way theres just like. a lot of gaps? it’d rank higher. it’s a very cool premise for a show and i like the bisco/milo dynamic, and [SISTER] is fun as hell. it didnt wow me though overall, and while i enjoyed it i was hoping for more.

7. trigun stampede (2023)

im sorry trigun stans i simply didnt love it. i see the appeal i really do but it just didnt hook me. i really liked the animation and the storyline. im intrigued by whatever the fuck is going on with those plants and yall have said theres a tallgirl in the next season? so i’ll keep watching. i just didnt love it

6. that time i got reincarnated as a slime (2019-2021)

in contrast to #7, i can see why this show is weak HOWEVER i just enjoyed it. i like it. huge fan of how much gender the protag has. i love how they get new powers. i enjoy that it can be interpreted as an extremely bisexual show. it was well paced and the slime diaries OVA was a great addition. a lot of the characters really stuck with me too and its like. idk. one of my favourite isekais i guess

5. buddy daddies (2023)

this should rank higher. its so fun. its SO fun. its silly and it doesnt take itself seriously. i laughed in every episode. the dynamic between the guys is great. the dynamics between them and the kid is great. just a really solid show if you can stand the queerbaiting. i dont even care

4. bocchi the rock! (2022)

the bocchi side of tumblr is right this show rules. i like how real bocchi’s social anxiety feels (literally how it felt when i had it). the characters are entertaining, the show’s well done, they even have solid music (which band-based shows dont always do right!). its really funny and its really earnest and its a joy to watch

3. demon slayer: swordsmith village arc (2023)

i included the entertainment district arc in last year’s list so this arc makes the cut. im always late getting around to watch the new stuff and i dont want to read the manga but god DAMN does this show hit different. incredible fight scenes. i loved everything they did for the hashira backstories. i love whatever the fuck is up with genya. it even gave me some akaza to sustain me for the next year or whatever. ik this show gets overhyped but its normal hyped. to me.

2. frieren: beyond journey's end (2023)

oughhh frieren… ive only known this show for a few months but it means to much to me… i dont even wanna talk about it because its so good i just wanna watch it again. go watch frieren if you havent already its anime of the decade. to me

1. gundam: the witch from mercury (2022-2023)

ive never seen a gundam before but i will be watched them after this! what can be said about it that hasnt already been said on this site. the romance storyline is impeccable, the fights are awesome, the moral questions it posed were excellently covered. by the end of the first episode i was speechless. by the end of the last episode i'd cried like 4 times over the course of the show. this thing made me cry to happy birthday. what the fuck

[gemsofthegalaxy]

Personal post incoming weeoooo

Might.... do some more reading about PCOS being considered intersex (or ..intersex variation? Sorry im not familiar with terminology) because. Idk. Its.. neat? I know its not medically classified as such rn but i also know a growing amount of ppl W pcos consider themselves that way anyway bc fuck doctors dictating our lives when they barely understand our syndrome anyway.

And like, I remember the first time i heard about the idea that some people consider PCOS to be inherently related considered to be intersex it sort of knee-jerk distressed me a litttttlleeee bit. because i am a (afab/cis) woman and considering myself anything close to not-woman is distressing for me, and i blame this partly on the ""male pattern"" symptoms of PCOS, mostly hair growth. So i felt like by considering myself intersex it would like, invalidate my womanness in a way i am already stressed about,

But also i know like..... your sex or body or hormones or whatever dont actually dictate whether you are a woman and i KNOW that logically?? I have trans friends and loved ones for instances. but of course, you always want to exempt yourself from the positive things as if that cant possibly apply.

But yeah idk if its just me in this moment or if this is sort of coming out of a long while of little things percolating in my brain but i also Know i need to find self love and beauty in the body i have because i will Never be a skinny, hairless, high-heel wearing Standard BeautyTM type girl even tho i ame Very Femme. And i need to accept that i can be those things in the body i have because i cannot have another body even if i wanted plastic surgery or could afford/tolerate hair removal etc it's just not gonna happen that shits expensive and ..hmmmmmnnn.. anyway

And before you ask yes i need therapy lmao.... my former therapists and I have never addressed the body image issues because i always default to working on my anxiety but its like? Idk why i do that??

It almost doesnt make sense bc yes the anxiety is distressing but also it hasnt actually held me back that much, it hasnt prevented me from making friends bc i Have Friends, it hasnt prevented me from getting my Masters, moving several times, or having a job I like so i feel like if i do get therapy again I need to be way more intentional about what I want to work on OTHER than anxiety (its also like. Idk. Working on anxiety in ISOLATION from other stuff is also like?? Only ever gonna be so helpful. I wish holistic healthcare were actually possible imagine that)

Sorry 4 the rant and using tumblr as a diary but oh well. Its the several days between xmas and new years what else can i be doing

[princeofcyberpunk]

ok i have 2 do this myself

could i survive a danganronpa? no i feel like i'd be the funny comic relief guy everybody likes and the player is like "wow i sure hope he doesnt die" and then i do as like the second death

Could i survive your turn to die? idk i havent gotten into this yet. artstyle is silly tho

could i survive squid game? no id die immedieatly at red light green light my autistic ass cant process stopping that fast

could i survive a saw trap? uhhhh idk saw is dumb

could i survive in breaking bad? yea if it was like how memes portray him

could i survive in Walking Dead? yes! i have been thinking about this since that show aired when i was like a little kid. GUYS. HIDE IN FUCKING COSTCO AND BARRICADE THE HUGEASS METAL DOORS. U HAVE UNLIMITED FOOD AND A GIANTASS PLACE TO HIDE IN.

could i survivein house MD? what

could i survive Death Note? yea easy just dont piss off mr. tumblr sexyman and ur golden

could i survive Fruitsbaskets? im sorry isnt that shit a shojo why is it on this list

could I survive batman? if im not evil yea

could i survive minecraft? I THINK IF I EVEN SO MUCH AS GLANCE AT THOSE GODDAMN BITCHASS FUCKING SPIDERS I WOULD DIE

could i survive in nosferatu 1922? what

could i survive hotline mimi? what

could i survive TF2? idk i just know it from memes

could i survive pokemon? YES OF COURSE THAT SHIT IS MY SPECIAL INTEREST.

could i survive FNAF? believe it or not i know nothing about fnaf but i think i would by just like. not taking the job...?

could i survive AP US History exam? bold of u 2 assume i qualify for all that

could i survive Dark Souls? yea i would use a flashlight and make it a Light Souls :)

could i survive Kitchen Nightmares? no gordon ramsey yell at me one time and i imedieatly disintigate :(

could i survive Diary of a Wimpy KId? oh absolutely growing up is realizing greg heffley was literally never based once

thoughts.

could i survive a danganronpa? NO. i would betray everyone and die in fifth trial.

Could i survive your turn to die? YES. no reason neede.  suck sou silly

could i survive squid game? NO. my bones are made of metal

could i survive a saw trap? YES. as long as it’s not rigged.

could i survive in breaking bad? YES. saul goodman

could i survive in Walking Dead? Tv NO. zombie bites me in a walgreens.

could i survivein house MD? YES. i have boob s so house spares my life in the final round.

could i survive Death Note? YES. i know how to act like a normal teenage boy. and i would fuck misa and never kill L so i would live .

could i survive Fruitsbaskets? NO. that damn rat.

could I survive batman? NO. batman drops a flare on me 1000 times and i die.

could i survive minecraft? YES. but they put me in plains biome

could i survive in nosferatu 1922? YES. i know about world war 1 and

could i survive hotline mimi? YES. my mask is an anteater and i eat the ants

could i survive TF2? YES. im friends with sniper.

could i survive pokemon? NO. i dont know the pokemon an dthey can sense this like horses.

could i survive FNAF? NO. me and rotting guy have fun nad i get eaten

could i survive AP US History exam? YES. i gotta 4.

could i survive Dark Souls? YES. you have unlimited life in there.

could i survive Kitchen Nightmares? NO. gordon ramsey bakes me into a dish because i made him licorice pizza.

could i survive Diary of a Wimpy KId? YES. i bravely fight gregg in 1v1 combat and i win, using the civil war tactics his father taught me.

need i say more?

[ashcadence]

Um heyy! Pretty long time mutual here but I kinda realized I dont know much about your interests? Im gonna be honest I kinda forgot why I followed you(im so sorry)

So please take this as an invite to info dump/talk about your interests!!!

Hi!!!!!!!

This is probably going to be very rambly 'cuz I just had a drink and I'm starting to feel the effects of the alcohol lol

You probably followed me because I posted a lot about Moriarty the Patriot a year ago before I started using Tumblr as basically my diary. I kinda feel bad for the people who followed me for Moriarty the Patriot then ended up with me using main as a diary lol. I still follow a lot of people who primarily post about Moriarty the Patriot because I still love that series, I just don't have many thoughts about it anymore.

I've only been on Tumblr for a year and there's been a sharp change in interests during that time. When I first started on here I wrote a lot of Moriarty the Patriot meta and was really into fiction writing. I'm not really into writing as much anymore though.

I don't really have interests as much as I do hobbies if that makes sense.

Recently, I've rediscovered my old passion for music, specifically singing. I'm slowly working on some original songs, recording some covers, and hopefully releasing an EP by the end of the year. I've gotten really into musical theater, and I'm trying to learn how to sing that more classical style and it's been certainly going lol

Idk if this counts as an interest, but I'm also a voice actor semi-professionally. I do get paid gigs here and there but most of what I do is just stuff for fun! It's a hobby that I occasionally get paid for. I like seeing what I can stretch my voice to do!

Ooooo! I really REALLY love birds! I love all birds but I specifically like learning about extinct birds. I can info-dump about extinct birds all day. If we're talking about birds that aren't extinct I know waayyy to much about North American ducks. I have a bucket list of ducks I want to see before I die.

I'm also very passionate about traditional art and I can talk about different drawing and painting techniques for hours. I don't delve into digital art that much as technology is the bane of my existence.

As far as media I've been really enjoying Hazbin Hotel recently. I'd probably be posting more about it on Tumblr, but I have friends irl who are also into the show so I tend to talk to them about it instead of posting about it on Tumblr.

That's the highlights I guess. I'm kind of one of those people who don't really have one specific interest that trumps them all. It's kind of a jack-of-all-trades kind of deal

[fr3akinthecorner]

100 guns 100 clips fuck your brother nigga hey u like uzzy snubbz? yes he's cool well he likes your playlists! that's good i'm glad he likes them why do u type so slow? i have weak hands no u don't! ur phone is just heavy! hey do u like eboy content? yes why? you're good at it! thx so are u omg u know who this is? yes who? the chinese guy with the buzz cut! yes me! u have a crush on me? yes i do well i can take u to china i know but it's gonna take time but at least i have something to do for the years ahead i need like 2 years dude what?! it's keeho u can't go to china well then he can come here how long? 3 years omg hahaha! ok fine lol sorry but i need to lose weight from my stomach mt st helens lol what? i like him yes she does like me! are u tired? no i slept how long? like 4 hours oh ok you're good um ok thank u i can't play the playlist game rn it's hard just play! were having fun! ok ill tell u when i start omg ok so why aren't i high? idk um u need to focus thx good advice i guess ok so like i can't write my diary on twitter it's too hard im just gonna use tumblr btw the meth is good it's just my body is making me sober feeled it sucks well just wait i know hahaha ok so i like posting on twitter more tho this sucks but i love that i don't only have to talk to keeho he's really annoying sometimes well he is your daddy! possibly... i don't look like him yes u do! no only sometimes i think he did something to change the way i look do u like the way u look? no i don't and its not body dismorphia its my thick face what?! your face is not thick today it is! well just deal with it baby ok bb i love you ily 2 omg you're so shy! yea so what? it's ok she's coming home tonight it's keeho you are fucking crazy like there is something wrong with you keeho why?! you're a dreamer i'm more logical we could never work out so im staying home for now and yes im keeping my cashapp card i know u don't want me to have money what?! no you're not keeping it! omg hahaha you're right he is kind of crazy he's a psycho but like i feel better after laurel ridge wtf?! i know hahaha but it did help me but im on vacation from the manga prob for a couple months idk man are u mad about it? no im not bc i have spotify now and netflix im not into manga that's why i'm married to ellsworth kelly to live outside of the manga it's better for me but i thought that you didn't love him? if he's south korean then i love him we have to go! bye!

[chiyoso]

hiraeth! how are you doing today?

got a 59, 35, 42. 56 and 57 for your ask game.

it's a lot BUT I AM I N T R I G U E D

hehe! hey pretty <3 feel free to ask more, because i love intrigued people 🤭

35) favorite subject

i've ALWAYS, always had an affinity for music no matter what. i realized it late though, but because of my mom's wants of me being good at music in general, i developed a natural talent for teaching violin/piano in my own way that amazes her.

e.g. i helped a clearly struggling student of hers, and it was the day of the performance + we only had 1-2 hours of practice left, a piano student, she was having a hard time with counting the beats, and being on beat, having trouble with pacing as well, which i picked up almost immediately, and my mom was busy making preparations so she couldn't help. but i stood up and decided to because i just- idk? i really just wanted to help!

and i wasn't aware that this certain action of mine would lead to a successful performance, with a damn headmistress of a school offering me a free college scholarship because of my own performance + my sudden deeds

bam. (i think i overshared and retold my story about the free college scholarship lmao)

more info under cut! ❤︎

42) favorite books

hrm, i don't have a lot of books to read in this time now BUT

my favorite books growing up was diary of a wimpy kid (i swear i was so addicted to it, and i finished all books of it, PLUS THE MOVIE??? RODRICK??? OMG)

those fairy books i forgot the names but i think the titles were literal names of the fairies? idfk

bridgerton (cough) i'm a sucker for this genre

i can't think of anything else since i dont read much anymore, but i want to say that my favorite genres are; fantasy, romance, dark mature content (no, not 50 shades of grey) smut duh, sci-fi and i think thats pretty much it!

need recommendations... i wanna read some books where we flirt with some shadowy, dark eldritch horror or even the grim reaper himself (im so fucked omg)

56) favorite food

ITALIAN FOOD BABY, but i've been growing fond of uhh... chicken liver. i'm also really open to trying lots of things

ranking: most favorite

1. italian cuisine

2. fried japanese foods

3. korean cheese tteokbokki and tteokkochi

4. tbh convenience stores go hard too for my broke ass

5. philippines food

pizza reigns supreme.

...along with fries dipped in ice cream.

57) favorite animal

cats. any cat. (except for the furless ones im sorry)

cats remind me of scaramouche, lyney, neuvillette, blade and jing yuan so much, i wanna have a black cat along with a white one with gold eyes.

59) why i joined tumblr

now this... hrm

i genuinely forgot why i suddenly downloaded the app... shit.

dammit, i forgot. fuck. i just know i joined when me and my ex were at an all time low and the verge of breaking up.

i remember why i stayed and decided to write myself, i got inspired, heavily inspired and horny from the star rail fics i kept encountering, like my sexual drive just went through the roofs because of this certain welt yang x stellaron hunter blowjob fic, and some aspects of it, like welt and her not trying to get caught — my cynosure reader is inspired by that, doing lewd shit in secret.

and then i kept encountering fics, over and over. showering support to all which was so rejuvenating for my mental health, and then i encountered nat's al haitham fic, encountered you through my first story, and nat's mutual who guided me when i received anon little shits talking about my tagging lmao, yall were the three pillars that kickstarted my writing career genuinely

but if i can try harder to remember why i joined tumblr... i was uhhh, i was heavily depressed, dealing with my ex's shit, life, etc, and i was just mindlessly looking for something, anything, to give me energy, anything eventful for my overly draining situation.

that's all! ehe, ily aine <3

[randombubblegum]

hi Sydney okay I’m just saying in advance I hope this doesn’t come off as weird but. im a little younger than u (24) and I unfortunately hang out in a circle of ppl who are constantly talking abt how old they are despite only being in their 20s and I honestly admire how fun and exciting ur life seems like it honestly feels like ur living the ideal 20something life instead of being like….well im not 19 anymore so my life sucks LOL I hope this doesn’t come off as weird but when I look at ur blog and see ur romanticizing ur adventures and just drinking and having fun and being young it really cheers me up lol

DUDE!!!!! T___T wtf this is so nice……… like im so touched youd send this……….. the thing about being in your 20s is you ARE so fucking young youre literally a kid!!!!!!! ive always been sort of the young one in every friend group ive ever had by 2-3 years and i think thats sort of given me this mentality that im young but the thing is i AM young. and so are you!!!!!!!!!! honestly sorry to your friends but this attitude SUCKS like holy shit theres no way to make yourself feel older than complaining about being old when you arent. ill make the occasional joke that im old (esp online since it skews so young) but i dont rly think i am……. all my friends are still out here having hobbies and interests and parties and get-togethers well into their early 30s so i think im lucky to know i can keep being like i am now for years to come lol……. honestly you need better friends!!!! -__- or at least you need to stop them when they go down that conversation path bc its a bummer and not true LOL

also thanks for liking my adventures >__< honestly its funny, i only post like one tenth of what im up to irl on tumblr compared to like twitter or whatever i just figure no one following me on here rly cares what i do in real life lol so i feel rly shy >< even doing that diary thing lately has made me kind of embarrassed LOL idk why tho!!!! i rly do have tons of fun in my real life!!!! its hard sometimes because i think i was having more fun before covid hit and i was free and easy bouncing between friends on both coasts like being a socialite was my job but…….. i have a lot of fun now too even though im 3 years older than i was then?? i still love my friends and i still love going out and drinking and being social in a big group of other ppl my age and going on adventures just because i can……….. i hope anyone reading this will keep having fun no matter how old you get lol :’) my happiest times in life have been after i turned 21 for sure!!!!!!!

listen youre not old at 20, keep the rose colored glasses on and romanticize your own life, surround yourself with people who make you feel young………. if life ended at 19 then id have died cold alone miserable and half-starved in a doom room bed. thank the fucking lord it doesnt

[garrothromeave]

the hell is mystreet season 6??

(warning, long post ahead)

ok so before i start this

1) ive never posted shiiiit on tumblr before so watch me suffer, im just here to talk about stuff that my friends who dont know anything about aphmau have to listen to me rant about for hours on end

2) i havent seen mystreet in like years (except season 3, i watch that frequently since im laurance and shadow knight deprived) so please bear with me because i might be completely wrong on this lol. it’s just like, pointing out things i remember

3) im sure someones already talked about this but who cares

4) im gonna do this stupid thing where i just explain myself a bit at first, if you dont want to read that just skip to the part where you see “the actual thingy:” in bold and italics 

5) mild disclaimer; i am completely aware that jessica is not a professional writer. i know that she did her best to appeal to her fans, and honestly, respect for that. while this post will come off as aggressive and probably look like hate, that’s not my intention in the slightest. it’s just... intense criticism. im sure y’all probably already know that, but yeah, just stating that anyways. i do believe that jess is doing her best, and in no way do i want to dismiss any hard work she’s done. that being said; prepare for a very strongly opinionated post.

haha watch there be 10000+ typos in this making me look like a complete dumbass

ok here we go 

one of the main reasons i stopped watching aphmau back in 2017 was the mess that was season 4. like, in the first few episodes of the emerald secret, i thought “woah!! this is kinda cool, im a sucker for mystery!” because of course i was, it was something new and something exciting. the only problem i had with it at the time was kim, but that’s just because i always found her annoying and out of place. i just didn’t understand why garroth dragged her along and honestly i still don’t to this day BUT, moving on.

anyways, as the season progressed, 13 year old me was of course just “:0!!” the entire time--that is, up until the reveal of the main villain. i remember watching the episode, seeing the reveal of ein, and then stopping. like, just for a quick break, but i was still just overwhelmingly disappointed. like, and this was the time when pdh was airing and ein just got made alpha (i think?) and i had really really liked eins character in pdh. either way, that really sucked and actually opened my eyes to a lot of things.

one of the main things bein’ the fact that this was supposed to be a slice of life kinda series that decided to take a turn to a more edgy kinda approach. which, i guess i regularly wouldnt mind? but seeing as mcd was kinda bein neglected at the time it just didnt sit right with me. BUT WHATEVER, point is i stopped watching mystreet all together at the end of season 4.

like, a whole year later my brother tells me that shit’s getting intense in season 5 + 6 of mystreet, and my brilliant self decided to give it a shot--but i refused to watch all of season 5, so i only stepped in when ein made an appearance. so whenever that was, that’s where i picked up because i didnt care enough to see 

and y’know--i honestly didn’t hate it at first. in fact, i found it oddly cool. it wasn’t enough to get me into aphmau again, but it was enough to where i was intrigued. i dont know why, but i never watched the finale, so i didnt see the ending until just a few weeks ago--but back then, i thought it was neat. looking back on it however... im just so confused. 

side note: only got back into aphmau this time around because of mcd. mainly because like, i adore the first season and the first half of the second season. and being nearly 18 now, im a lot more appreciative of plot and well-written characters n junk. 

the actual thingy:

ok back on track. imma stop spilling out my story of how i got back into aphmau, and lets just skip to what rewatching mcd made me realize of season 6′s plot and shit:

-emmalyn. how the fuck does ghost even remotely exist? if she’s emmalyn as claimed, then why have we already seen emmalyn in the mystreet universe alive? look i get that creators can do whatever they want with their stories but at the same time please provide some sort of explanation good god. and maybe they did and i just havent seen it, so if there is one--let me know. but until that day imma just sit here confused as fuck

-ok so imma just be real, the whole ‘ultima’ thing is just... not great. in my opinion, anyways. like... i saw someone mention this in another post, but if this ultima stuff was like, a really big deal, why isnt it mentioned in mcd? though i suppose since its a curse of sorts, it could be later on past the time period in which mcd takes place--but even then, how did it manage to make its way into aaron’s family bloodline? 

-WHY IS EVERYONE AT STARLIGHT ITS JUST SO CONVINIENT like what happened to this place being the most expensive shit on the planet or whatever, and how the gang happens to run into like, the werewolf trio and blaze and kai and guy and nate all of these people like god damn life doesnt WORK LIKE THAT 

-im sorry but turning people into relics? thats... thats the best you could come up with? plus, like, how does that even work? in mcd it’s established that relics are separate entitles that choose their wielder, based on a ‘personal’ connection (being a descendent of a previous wielder) or if they’re a good match personality and (i think?) moral wise. so the whole turning-people-into-relics doesnt make much sense to be honest. 

-irene really over here using her god powers to only keep her friends alive like god damn not a great god if you ask me 

-can i talk about how incredibly predictable aphmaus death was? like i just kinda sat there waiting for it to happen and when it did i literally went “haha! wonder when she’ll be revived” because god forbid we actually kill off characters 

-when aphmau + demon warlock fought in the irene dimension there was no passage of time whatsoever in the real world whiiiiiiiiich really bothers me because they fought in there for at least a few minutes

-speaking of aphmau and the demon warlocks fight does it bother anyone else that it had to be aaron who took over the fight?? like we get it hes the big protector blah blah blah but god damn it wouldve been cooler if aphmau had fought this battle as her. aaron fighting this battle was so underwhelming

-...love. like, thats the only thing thats needed to break out of a forever potion? love? LIKE YEAH, GOOD GUYS GOTTA WIN SOMEHOW, but its just so cliche and overdoneeee

-oh yeah and also when travis went bonkers and became the demon warlock or whatever, why’d he only take over katelyn and garroth?? like, zane had been influenced by the potions in the past as well? DONT GET ME WRONG--i do love some good brother edge, but uh, the demon warlock was just bein kinda a dumbass by not possessing zane too just sayin’

-can aaron please go to fucking jail for mass murder now like holy shit, he just got sent home on a fuckin boat. also why did blaze forgive him for killing him thats not even remotely realistic. then again, nothing in mystreet has ever been realistic when it comes to characters and motives and personalities, (cough katelyn being actually abusive and travis being an actual pervert) but yknow whatever

-katelyn and kawaii chan literally added nothing to the plot whatsoever. like lets be real, katelyn lost her personality the moment season 5 started and kawaii chan just kinda sits there :I

-ok im sorry this was bound to come up but cmon guys imagine laurances potential if he was in season 6 like god damn this is beyond maddening. AND YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD HAVE BEEN A REALLY REALLY COOL PARRALLEL?? IF IT WAS LAURANCE WHO SNAPPED GARROTH OUT OF HIS MIND CONTROL THING, because it would mimic laurance’s speech to get garroth to snap out of his rage in season 1, episode 100 of minecraft diaries. like how fuckin rad would that have been? missed opportunity 

-also?? why does kim/ghost know magicks?? like, if i remember correctly, emmalyn is a scholar--not someone who knew magicks. i mean, i guess research? study?? but its been established that knowing how magicks works =/= being able to use magicks. i dunno, just doesnt seem right i guess. maybe its explained, i wouldnt know (yes i know that makes me look like a dick leave me alone)

-melissa should have stayed dead. LIKE, NO, ITS NOT AS SIMPLE AS “haha it takes more than a few bullets to kill me”??? look ive got nothing wrong with melissa (cough lie cough) but yknow it would have just been cool a character... stay dead? for once? its just too fuckin cliche that shes alive god damn

-can i also just say the only good thing that came out of season 6 was travis’ dads sacrifice like damn that made me actually sad

-howww was lucinda turned into a relic. or yknow, anyone else? like im sure they explain it better in the actual show i just dont remember, but its just that easy? turning anyone into a relic? granted, a normal person wouldnt be able to produce a good relic, but idk man. IM JUST SAYING; that the only really powerful relics that aphmau should have been able to wield is the one that aaron + zane produced because shad relic and esmund relic moment. lucinda isnt even like, connected to a divine warrior. ALSO, another point, if its seriously that powerful of a relic getting one from just a magic user like lucinda, why go through the trouble? i mean i guess ofc youd want the “all powerful” one that the ultima produces but i mean damn whats the point

-ok this is just going to bother me but in one of the episodes (i think might have been in season 5 actually) where that like, guardian dude was chasing aphmau and zane and at one point they split up and the dude just chuckles at zane diverting paths and goes under his breath “youre not the important one here”, suggesting that aphmau somehow is? first of all, id argue that any ro’meave is significantly more important than aphmau was, especially not knowing much about her other than that shes with aaron. i might be missing some bits an pieces, but if i was that dude id forget about aphmau and go after zane 

-killing off derek for shock factor sucked, and i know the moment was supposed to be really sad because like “oh :( aarons dad is sacrificing himself for his son” but lets be real dereks still was a shitty father and i dont think his reasons for doing what he did was very good at all

-less about plot or more like: why the absolute fuck did the gang bring kim along instead of, oh i dont know, a life-long friend? like, laurance or dante maybe?? im sure its explained, i never saw aphmaus year or most of season 5, but god DAMN id hate to be apart of this friend group AND GOD LIKE, imagine reconnecting with an old friend who ends up getting closer to your best friends and taking priority in their lives over you (cough laurance) like god damn lol

-im just going to preface this one with: i dont remember everything that’s happened, so if im wrong i apologize in advance--but (you actually can correct me if im wrong and please do) didnt like, irene reincarnate her friends in order to give them better lives? I DONT KNOW IF THIS IS TRUE, ITS JUST WHAT I REMEMBER--however, if im correct, then:

a. why the hell would she bring back someone like zane, or gene, or ivy, etc.

b. why the hell do they all have the same exact names? first and last? again, im aware that the whole mystreet+mcd tie wasn’t originally supposed to be there, but i dont think that means such a coincidence can be excused? its just a bit much if you ask me.

c. why the hell is the fact that (as much as i literally hate this) aaron is a decedent of shad being ignored? like, you’d think that something like this would be something thats actually important, or something the demon warlock couldve taken advantage of. or are we completely erasing every other connections to divine warriors besides aphmau + irene? because even if irene did reincarnate them or do whatever it is she did, does she even have the power to sever the connections between them and their ancestors? my guess is, no.

d. speaking of irene why on earth was aphmau able to talk to/see irene, they’re literally the same person are they not? did she like, fuckin reincarnate herself without actually doing it?? BUT--i will give it to them, the demon warlock did refer to aphmau as something along the lines of being “one of the 3 parts of her broken soul” or something like that. however, my point still remains. also what are the other two did i miss that or is it never explained

now; if irene in fact did not ‘reincarnate’ her friends then please ignore that little bit right there :)

but yes, those are a few of the problems i have with season 6 off the top of my head. i would go into like, season 4 and 5 more as well, but i honestly didnt feel like it. at some point i might go into other things, like how important laurance could have been to the plot of these later seasons, or HELL, even dante. i might also go into what could have made season 4, 5, and 6 actually good--maybe... a rewrite? perhaps? but im getting too far ahead of myself, so i just leave you with this for now.

and i know that as soon as i post this 15 more things are just going to pop into my head BUT im going to try and not edit this post because why stress myself with that even more

anyways thank you for coming to my tedtalk 

[nostalgiaispeace]

2089.

What’s your name?

ashley

Where do you live? kentucky

When’s your birthday? december 24th

What’s your astrological sign? capricorn

Do you actually believe in that stuff? no. it’s fun tho

How old are you? 30

Do you have a high school diploma or the equivalent? yeah

Do you have an undergraduate degree? If so, in what? never finished

What is your favorite…

Quote?

i don’t have one

Color? orange

Song? i dont have one

Band/singer? lana del rey

Book? harry potter

Author? jk rowling

School subject? -

Science (chemistry, biology, physics, etc.)? -

Math (algebra, geometry, calculus, etc.)? -

Language? french

Operating system? apple

Instrument? piano

Letter? I don’t have one

Number? 3

Car? 1967 chevy impala

Pattern (polka spots, stripes, plaid, etc.)? plaid

Word? -

Animal? Kitties!

Country? europe

Drink (alcoholic or otherwise)? coffee

Food? pizza

Restaurant? mexican

Website? tumblr

Sport? gymnastics

Flower? lilies

Ice cream flavor? chocolate chip cookie dough

Television show? supernatural

Shirt? i don’t have one

Shape? star

Eye color? brown

Hair color? blonde

Movie? titanic

Gum flavor? peppermint

Random Stuff About You

Do you have your drivers’ license?

Yes

Have you ever been swimming in an ocean? yeah

What’s the last song you listened to? -

Do you prefer coloring pencils, crayons, or markers? coloring pencils

Can you make any origami figures? If so, what? no

Do you still sleep with a stuffed animal? yeah

Do you get cold easily? no

Have you ever been to a chiropractor? no

Do you have great eyesight, or do you wear glasses or contacts? glasses

Do you know how to play chess? no

Do you know how to play checkers? no

Do you like Sudoku puzzles? no

Do you like word searches? no

Do you like crossword puzzles? yeah

Do you like logic puzzles? no

Can you play any card games? no

Do you play board games? yeah

Do you do jigsaw puzzles? no

Do you listen to the same song on repeat for a long time, even occasionally? i do

Do you take any prescription medications on a regular basis? yes

Would you prefer to be too hot or too cold? neither

Do you like to swim? no

Have you ever been to a farm? yeah

Do you like instrumental music? yeah

Do you drink diet soda? yes

Do you drink soda? yes

Have you ever put Mentos into soda? no

Have you ever combined baking soda and vinegar? yes

Did you ever make Oobleck in science class when you were a kid? no

Do you know any HTML? not anymore

Have you ever read any of Shakespeare’s work? many

Do you write poetry? sometimes

Do you read? yes

Can you throw a frisbee? not well

Do you watch a lot of television? not really

Do you think that you have a good sense of humor? yeah

Are you a mean person? i can be

Do you have any bruises? If so, how did you get them? no

Does the thought of public speaking make you nervous? no

Are you afraid of heights? yeah

So, what ARE you afraid of? fish

Are you listening to music? No

Has anyone ever called you ‘disturbed’? i dont’ think so

Have you ever been kicked out of a place? If so, where? And why? no

Do you take a lot of these surveys? yeah

When was the last time you fingerpainted? idk

When was the last time you sent an e-mail? idk

A text message? today

Called someone on the phone? today

Tripped over something? today im’ sure

Do you like chocolate? yeah

How many pillows are on your bed? 6

Do you have any pets? yeah

Have you ever been on a horse? yeah

Have you ever climbed a tree? yah

Do you like art? yeah

Do you use any sort of social networking site? yeah

What time is it? 8:47pm

Have you ever been in a car accident? yeah

When was the last time you felt embarrassed? today

Did it rain today? yeah

Have you ever had a poison ivy rash? no

When was the last time you felt immensely happy? today

Do you take a multivitamin or any other supplement? yes. prenatals and iron

What household chore do you absolutely hate? all of them

Tell me something random about yourself. i’m pregnant

Can you cook? yeah

Do you like to be silly? yeha

What kinds of things have you wanted to be 'when you grow up’? singer. actress.

Have you ever been on a boat? yeah

Do/did you like school? i liked college

Do you have a camera? on my phone

Have you ever been bitten by a tick? No

Have you ever seen a wild snake? no

Have you ever gone hiking in the woods? yeah

Do you have a lot of friends? no

Do you keep a diary/journal/blog? not really

What color are your eyes? brown

Do you like snow? yeah

Would you prefer to sing or dance in front of other people? sing

Would you prefer to sing or dance when you’re by yourself? both

Can you spell really well? no

Do you mind poor grammar? i do

What’s your favorite texting/IM abbreviation? omg and lol

Do you wear a watch? no

Do you shop at thrift stores? no

What is your dream job? to be a stay at home mom

What is one thing that really freaks you out? fish

Do you like bananas? Yes

Do you eat meat? yes

Do you drink coffee? not since i’ve been pregnant

Do you clean your computer screen often? no. i should tho lol

Have you ever sneezed onto your computer screen? yeah

Let’s talk about numbers.

How many people live with you?

1

How many digits of pi do you have memorized? 3.14159

Can you count using binary numbers? no

How many states have you visited? a lot

How many countries? none

How many browser windows/tabs do you have open? a lot

How many times have you blinked in the past minute? idk

How many seconds are in a minute? 60

Are you afraid of mathematics? no

What’s the square root of 121? 11

Sorry, sorry, the nightmare is over :) How about some more random questions to let you relax?

Have you ever read the webcomic xkcd?

no

Can you play an instrument? no

Can you read sheet music? yes

What’s your favorite kind of sandwich? italian sub

Do you have a bedtime? no

Have you ever gone sledding? no

Have you ever carved a pumpkin? If so, what kind of face did you make? yeah. a normal one

Do you ever make funny faces at yourself in the mirror? yeah

Have you ever played the classic shaving-cream-in-the-hand prank on someone? no

Do you think that’s a mean thing to do? yeah

Do you like cake? yeah

Do you like pie? yes

Do you like popsicles? love

Do you use the television or computer more? Computer

Do you have a favorite chair to sit in? yeah

Are you getting tired of this survey? yeah

Do you like to wear hats? no

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? Yes

Do your shoes provide lots of arch support? no

Do you like to go to yard sales? no

Have you ever had a yard sale at your house? yeah

Do you like apples? allergic

Do you like peanut butter? yes

Do you like licorice? nooo

Do you like lima beans? ew no

Do you like limes? yeah

What color are your bedroom walls? off white

Guess how many questions you’ve done. I don’t know either, so just guess. no

What’s your favorite color to wear? black

Do you tell secrets when people confide in you? depends

Do you listen to your music with the volume up really high? depends

Do you like to try new foods? no

How many different programs are you currently using? just firefox

How many different operating systems have you used? i’m old so alot

What time is it now? 8:53pm

Are you wearing socks? no

Are you comfortable with yourself? no

Do you lose small things (like your car keys) often? no

Is your mind in the gutter? No

Have you ever broken a bone? no

Are you more of an introvert or an extrovert? Introvert

Do you read the dictionary for fun? no

Tater tots or fries? fries

Do you like to wear flip flops? no

Are you more of an optimist or pessimist? pessimist

Do you like animals? yeah

Do you like little kids? yes

Are you a 'people person’? no

Have you ever seen a rainbow? yeah

How was your day? chill

What do you plan to do tomorrow? work

When was the last time you did laundry? today

Have you ever played Snake? yes

Have you ever played Scrabble? yes

Are there any television commercials that really get on your nerves? all of them

Do you like scary movies? yes

Are you itchy anywhere on your body? yes

What’s the title of the last book you read? a pregnancy book

Do you read more fiction or nonfiction books? a good mix

Are you a member of any clubs or organizations? Nope

What color is your favorite pair of socks? i don’t have any

Do you own a lava lamp? No

Do you have anything else to say? no                            

[loveireandblog]

:) %% not my ass bein back on tumblr 😃😃😀lmao meh idk I love my digital wasteland diary!! ok also my other post that I accidentally lost looped this in w me being some sorta loud learner it's urm very annoying I wish I could stop actually what makes it so fucking loud please I rly like getting real real real real real up close n personal w an emotion and able to articulate them, it's important.

but urm I am but a ball of phlegm to my gemini venus that spits me out lmao I am scattered and tired , also I approach astrology like some sorta anchored motif ok don't have to ask me if I believe in it im having fun and the more I believe in it the more I have found recently I actually don't want to another day I see a pattern another day I'm like 🛑 no that's a tangent if ever I saw one sorry LOL

anyways today is mother's day n basically I was like well fuck it I'm gonna order summat nice in bc this celebratory practise should not be for her omg my original post had so much more fire in but this is me having to remember what I said basically urm her??? no me lmfao I HAD TO DEAL WITH HER. Me being sad today is a level of depraved I don't fucking deserve!

then I started to question out loud LMFAO why WHY WHYAHUSHSUSU WHY why do i feel so casual abt this n well unfortunately the issue with my mother is a lot less frustrated than most of the things going on in my life at any one moment lmao. God bless!

[faersflower]

not tryna be a bitch but im just wondering, what the *point* is, of reblogging/replying to s5 content, or whatever, with your emotions? i mean obviously i get being angry and im still angry too and i dont agree with the people who r upset that we r still angry. but i just do my best to ignore the people who r excited. i dont reblog their content or anything. i just interact with my circle of tm friends i still follow who still make stuff. and share posts with them to rant at in private. idk

hi last anon here sorry im kinda regretting sending that last one cause i feel like it came off different than i was intending but i just saw your post and ive been trying to figure out how i feel about the whole thing for a while cause im always hyperaware that people who make posts can see my reactions. ur post is just the one that i happened to see when i was thinking about this (1/2)

cuz i saw other conversations about people reacting and stuff in the tag and its just that im a little confused and lost at this point how to best interact in fandom after something like this. im sorry if i came across as rude and i kinda feel like i did by accident but im just trying to understand cause even tho a lot of people are being bitchy about it some people are also making some points and i dont know how to feel about it. sorry again for dumping this on you (2/2)

Okay! This is A Lot ™ but I am kinda the most Middle Lane person I guess. So *cracks knuckles*

To open I will also kind of explain myself a little bit. I myself am a fan content creator for The Magicians. I make edits, fanart, cosplay, and write fanfic for The Magicians! Also really niche and specific text posts where I go off for 45 minutes about a single Eliot outfit but that is just me being a weirdo that is Very Into Costume Design.

About your Ask;

As for avoiding the people that are excited about it I myself sort of do that? I still follow a lot of the content creators mostly because they are friends of mine. There are a couple that I definitely do not follow though because they are a little bit too enthusiastic so I myself do avoid them!

Most of my rants are in private group chats with people that are like-minded with what happened in The Magicians. So I'm not sure what you're getting at with going at me with that particular comment. The post that I made is not about The Magicians in general it's more about the fandom because there are a lot of people that are angry at people who are upset and angry still. And it was more about that and sort of an ableism sort of situation from a while ago. This is an old post that I reblogged today it's not a post that I made for today.

Not to be my stereotypical self I guess (I'm sort of like the flower child of the fandom if you will ⁠— I talk about flowers a lot as well, anyway.)

But we are all just humans. We all went through the same event. We all handled it differently. Some of us are handling it better than others yes that is correct. But those of us that are still upset are allowed to still be upset. Those of us that are excited or allowed to be excited. Do what you want be how you want Express Yourself how you want!

I mean from what I'm aware of and I was a part of Tumblr back in 2011 until 2014 before I took a break until March of last year? But especially with personal blogs that just have like an undertone of magicians to them a lot of people use personal blogs kind of like an online diary so they just kind of post how they feel? Idk posting emotions is just like "why do you write music?" "Why do you create art?" "Why do you write?"

Which can all roughly be answered with The Mortifying Ordeal of Sharing Pieces of Ourselves. We're just sharing how we feel/think/process/what we find interesting/etc into the void that is the universe and hoping for a connection out there. We're just trying our best.

That's really all I'm saying here!!

Really the whole argument that others are having (not really me, but i digress) is about tagging. And it's a bunch of people wanting to dictate how people tags things. Which I understand if it's under an umbrella tag like "The Magicians" or "Eliot Waugh" everybody that is following those tags is going to see it. So if you are tagging it with umbrella tags be prepared for people to notice it that you might not expect to.

I tag my s5/anger posts as "the magaykins" like do what you want! Do what makes you feel best about what you are putting out into the universe! But it is going out into the universe and other people will see it.

Again, I am fairly neutral as far as all of this goes. I'm really middle of the lane like I'm still upset about what happened and everything and I am not excited for season 5 but I'm still contemplating watching season 5. But I'm not like Always Making Angry Posts, either. In fact I am mostly just posting generic Magicians content lmao. I mean right now I'm working on a painting that's a scene from season 1. And then I have another painting planned but it's not from a season, it's technically from the books.

I'm just doing my own Weird Little thing here. I'm not particularly angry I just have 2 Frustrated At the Fandom posts.

Because I am! I'm just frustrated with people trying to dictate how people should feel and project on Tumblr about this particular fandom! We're all in different head spaces! We are all entirely different and separate people and we can all processes in our own ways and we're allowed to do whatever we want it's just frustrating to see people try to control others in the fandom.

That's my particular frustration.

Also just the fact that there is such a huge divide in the fandom between being excited for season 5 and pretending that season five doesn't exist. But I understand ⁠— and I get it, and there's nothing that I can really do to change that, but I also hate that we are so divided by this. But that's a Whole Other Thing. And I can't change that one, sadly.

Also I think that the people that are excited about season 5 feel like the people that aren't are like mad at them for being excited??? We aren't.

We just want to be sure that any triggering content related to the events from 4x13 are Tagged so the people that get triggered by the imagery from that scene are taken care of.

That's all ⁠— from what I am aware of from my perspective. I don't know about others this is just me.

Your local flower child, Eliot costume obsessive weirdo, that goes by Key.

[staboteur]

11, 16, 8 ^^/

It’s Salt Time (accepting)

//warning it’s a bit long fdlskjfahk i just,,, i have words. many words

11. Have you ever received anon hate?

//no actually, in all...... 5ish years that i’ve been on tumblr

//even if I did, the hate obviously wasn’t memorable enough for me to have a recollection of it lol

16. How much does it take for you to get angry/upset? How long does it usually last?

//it... it does not take much for me to get angry or upset and it always lasts a good while (depending on the amount of bad vibes im feeling, it could slow simmer for weeks)

//the real question I think should be “How much can I take before I actually explode at someone”, which is “a fuck ton, sometimes too much, because I take too much shit from people when i really shouldn’t”. Whenever I’m angry or upset, I tend to withdraw and do something else for awhile, usually video games, sometimes venting on my vent blog (i find it’s always good to have an outlet for my feelings). If i can’t do either of those things, i try to shut up. Usually, that works bc shutting up means the person or thing i’m angry at has nothing to respond to, so the problem is averted, but sometimes the person won’t drop it and depending on a couple variables, i can get really fucking hopping mad lmao I think the last time i got that mad was like... a few months ago, on a discord server that had mods who were mistreating a friend of mine and she left, they asked me why, and i blew up at them bc the shit had been going on for months already at that point and i was sick of it. that friendship didn’t work out though like... see paragraph 3 of the next question

//basically if the issue persists and gets really really big i’ll take more drastic actions (like how at this point im ready to ask my roommate to flat out stop smoking weed in the apartment bc im getting migraines and shit from putting up with this for a whole semester hoping that she’ll find a better place to smoke than inside our room, which is literally against dorm policy)

8. Has anyone hurt/betrayed you?

//not to be edgy, but like yeah, a lot. I still often think about them, bc it’s usually something i did that made them say the things they did, so it’s not so much betrayal as hurt. I choose my friends really really carefully, so betrayal is usually not what happens? If anything i’m usually the one doing the ‘betraying’ (though it’s usually because someone thinks they know me better than they actually do, and that very same person turns out to be a gigantic asshole towards someone who im actually friends with).

//there have been instances where people have seen something i did (such as saw one of the vents on my vent blog) and took it really seriously and blew it out of proportion when my vent blog is clearly described as a place where i put my unfettered thoughts (usually the extremely negative ones). It’s like screaming into my pillow or writing in a diary, it’s just a place for my worst thoughts so i can get them out. that way, i can be a more pleasant person to be around. But they saw that and assumed i was just,, hiding drama from them or something and decided to cut contact (aka blocking without a word until i asked them what’s wrong from a different blog bc before that point, i had no idea they found my vent blog and read it)

//and other times, it’s a friend who ended up bottling up all their feelings about me and one day, blew up in a sorta low key way and informed me that they’re cutting all contact. Like if they had just said “sorry, i don’t think we vibe” (or something more seriously worded), it might’ve hurt less and made me feel like less of a shit human being, because i’m really bad at making and keeping friends, and things like this just make me feel like making friends aren’t worth the trouble. Like they tried to make it sound like it was their fault (but it was really my fault but shhh not really no no, it’s not you its me, that whole thing), but like... it was really my fault and im a bad friend. Idk maybe i am a bad friend, but i’m trying to work on it, and i’m sorry my efforts weren’t enough but i guess we just don’t vibe as well as we thought we did. Like i trusted them with my issues, i told them things that i had never told anyone else about before, and they just... tell me im a bad friend and leave a few months later. idk man i know i wasn’t entirely a good friend, but i was trying my damnedest

//basically i just feel like people stop liking me after they figure shit out about me that i try to keep under wraps bc those things don’t define who i am, and i’m doing my best to move on from them. Like yeah, i do have problems with bottling shit up, so instead of bottling things up, i vent on my vent blog. I’m not forcing anyone to read them, and i’m certainly not expecting anyone to. I also had a host of other problems in the past, and im working on them, and like... idk people seem to think that i’m two faced for hiding those things about me, but like.... why wouldn’t i? When people seem to hate those parts of me so much?? I’m trying to change, and it’s starting to work, but there’s still bits of me that aren’t perfect, so i have to hide them or people get angry

//like it’s a weird headspace to be in, bc the first major friend issue i had was when someone cut contact with me without ever telling me what’s wrong with me, so i spent like 4ish years trying to figure it out, and when i finally did, i basically came out of it with the idea that i’m too fucked up for anyone to ever possibly like being around therefore i must pretend im not fucked up in a major way. and then when people finally do tell me how i fucked up our friendship (mostly not telling them or showing them how bad of a person i am before they got invested), it just affirms my idea that people don’t want to put up with me, and honestly? i don’t blame them, like i can barely put up with me on a daily basis, how can i expect a stranger to do it? I think honestly i have only one friend who’s been able to put up with all my bullshit and problems and issues and i seriously have no idea how she does it. she’s a real mvp and she’s amazing and i have no clue why she hasn’t given up on me yet but she hasn’t, and im really lucky to have her