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mmmairon · 8 months

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You happen upon two renowned public figures about to smooch on a bench in the gardens…wyd?

#happy Thursday pass the yuri! 🥂🎉#guys when I say I am so busy #this is the most I’ve drawn in over a month and I had to force myself to do it #life is quite different right now and im just trying to get through the next few months #my inactivity will probably continue #sorry about that #clorivia #Clorinde x navia #clorinde #navia #genshin #my art #genshin impact

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beeduoo · 5 months

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originnssssss who remembers origins i Loved origins

#origins smp #i heard theres been like three failed origins revivals WHAT EVEN HAPPENED i was only there for the first one😅#beeduo #otubbo #oranboo #beeduo fanart #i rewatched some origins streams a little while ago oh my god theyre SO FUNNY #DUDE DOES ANUONE REMMEBER THAT ONE STREAM I COUDLNT FIND RHIS ONE STREAM #IR WAS LIKE THE ONE WHERE TUBBO WAS SINGING SUGAR BY MAROON FIVE and they were being really Funny thay shit h #ad me CRYING in 2021 Please i swear this happened imnot crazy but also they might have been separate streams actuallu i dont rememebr its #been wayyyyyyy too long #BUT IT HAPPENED I PROMISE Sorry i've been gone for a while ive been very busy lots of Things going on went to Six flags then jad a surprise #bday party then i had to buy shoes for prom then Go to prom and also i do figure skating and am out like every day idknt have Time im sorry☹#had a crepe yesterday it was sooooo goood im like learning to drive too that shit is boring as hell my dad kept gettign 😑 bc i couldn't stop #yawning DRIVING IS SO BORING its not my fault😭😭😭😭#ok what else ohhhh. y god i locked in SO HARD for this physics essay u guys dont even knowim getting ONE HUNDRED on that trust i just really #wanted to share ok i love you bge #WAIT ACTUALLT SORRU IM LIKE REMMEBERJNG THE ORIGINS STREAMS K WAYCHED #RANBOO WAS SO FUCKING FUNNT IN THOSE STREAMS TOO LIKE I REMEMBER NIKI WANTED TO SEE THEIR BASE and tubbo was like ooh maybe we can put like #water down here for you niki we need a water system and ranwas like Do we though?I WAD WAYCHING THAT .LIKE DAMMMNNNNNN OM LIKE GIGGLING WRIT #ING THIS RIGHT NOW I CAN HEARTHE CLIP HE DID NOTTT WANT HER IJNTHEIR BASE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#I NEED TO FIDN THAT STREAM WHERE IRS LIKE TOMMY AND JACK A D FHEHRE LOKE TALKING ABOUT DUOS AND THEN JACK SAYS THE MOST OUT OF POCKET SHIT I #VE EVER HEARD LKKE I LITERALLU HAD TK PAUSE. H PHONE AND BURST OUR LAUHJIMG MY JAW WAS ON THE FLOORRRRR DO U GUYS R EME ER WTF IM TLAKING AB #OUT IDK HOW TO FIND THESE STREAMS Oh my god u really Had to be there early 2021 that was liye the funniest era of mt life i wlild be #Tearing up from lauhjimg every day I MISS WAYCHING STREAMS LIVE CHAT WAS SO FUNNY I wishe it was archivedI WISH MORE STREAMERS KEPT CHAT ON #SCREEN i defiently understand why most didn't like Wyd when chats annouing ad hell but also Me 3 years later is interested in what the pub #lic had to say.... ok Now bye

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 20 days

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trying to psych myself up to finally do oc refs by doing fandom-related refs instead: volume 1

wanted to update my yuma from whatever tf this au is so he was a bit more unique... takes inspo from a lot of different things while also trying to be its own sorta thing? which is fitting given the au ;)

bonus chibi now that i'm also figuring out how tf to do chibis lol:

#my art lol #synth v yuma #yuma synthv #synth v #synthv fanart #synthesizer v #vocaloid #vocaloid fanart #YES I KNOW ITS DIFFERENT but at this rate its the umbrella tag. all vsynth shit goes under there just like on main 😔#sorry for the annoyign watermarks i just dont want this to get stolennn/traced it'll b my joker arc. is2g #like thats never happened to me before as far as i know but now that my art is getting 'better' i begin to get scared that it will happen #if my fanart got stolen i'd def sting a little yeah but not hurt AS bad as if someone stole my original shit. THAT would hurt #one of many reasons why i post less personal oc stuffs. although as mentioned above i AM in an oc mood so i wanna draw em maybe...#and stuff like this is a step to develop a PROPER FUCKING REF STYLE bc i SUCKKKK AT MAKING REFS LOL 😭 BUT I SHOULD GIT GUD #i have a few other refs planned for vocaloid au (i guess???) related shit but they're not done yet. this one was also a wip that i just??#impulsively decided to redo & finish bc i wanted to draw but nothing else i was trying to draw came out right. advantages of many wips #i have SOOO many things i could say abt some of the things that went into this redesign but i dont wanna come off as pretentious 😔💔#obviously it was primarily inspired by the vimalion yuma design but. there's moreeee that i can't explain here bc tag limits and im shy #i do think i want to try and be more intentional with my character designs now so i'm seeing how that goes as i redesign some old ocs #man though this kind of stuff makes me remember i used to LOVEE doing this stuff. and now its even crazierr given art improvement #uaurhghh my head is buzzing w/. so many thoughts. THIS ALWAYS FUCKING HAPPENS I GET SO MANY IDEAS WHEN IM BUSY GFD #this is actually from today though unlike some other things i might eventually post. that'll make more sense soon #and fuckkk i forgot the chain necklace thing on the chibi yeah but i couldnt get it to look good. whatever

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marblerose-rue · 5 months

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completed my sophomore year of college :-) (and now im gonna sleep for the next 2374039475347 years)

#meandering #HI GUYS SO SORRY FOR GOING SUPER AWOL longtime followers will know this is usual for me HAHA #first semester where i end things off with all a's :-) safe to say changing my major to art was the right choice #(what was it before?) bio HAHAHA im not super cut out for it which is unfortunate given my love for biology but thats okay #i hope u are all doing well!!! hopefully i can get back to drawing as usual #things have been very busy as of late but now that im on break i will Not be as busy which is cool #i am currently drawing spottedleaf as a request from a friend just to get back into the swing of things so keep an eye out for that #and for the folks who read my tags if yall wanna make a request for me to draw a warrior cat u may do so ^_^ i wont answer them but i will #hopefully see them and get to them and i'll just use them as practice to get back into the swing of things #but i will not change my requests are closed thing HAHA but thats ok bc if u read these tags u know u can do so

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thebirdandhersong · 2 years

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hey will be off tumblr for the rest of the week - things are Happening again and my head feels ready to explode.........would really appreciate prayer again. I'm constantly feeling like I'm on the brink of something (I don't KNOW what) terrible and I need to figure things out without before my body really DOES decide to shut down from the stress and the strange depressive dread that has been very difficult to shake this month. I would like to not feel like crying or throwing up at certain points in the day and also would like to not be so exhausted in the heart and mind area so that I can actually deal with these things. Especially since finals are looming ahead

#wish i had my support network but what with all my friends being so busy #with school work engagements marriage pregnancies housing issues #and my priests both up to their ears in work and all my older sister figures #having issues and more important things to deal with and my family being one of the sources of high stress #i dont have anyone to talk to or go to at the moment #so i need to figure that out before i have another health crisis because my body's starting to give up on me #(again)#on top of that there needs to be planning in place for the summer and next fall and graduation #i just want to stick my head in the ground like an ostrich and stay there!!!! instead of wading through this mess during midterm season #and having to start finals the WEEK after midterms end #complaining again sorry #i am so tired and trying to be cheerful/distracting myself only lasts a few hours #im trying. i promise im trying. but the world seems rather bleak right now #and it is very hard not to feel so very alone #anyway i love you all and i'll see you soon

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sharkjumpers · 10 months

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aughhhh (clutches my cursed eye.)

#Sorry to vent on tumblr but i have nowhere else to talk right now:#i was doing so good in school but ive taken a steep decline and it feels like everything is Over and i'm failing. its literally just three #classes. all i can do all day is cry and stare at the wall and i dont feel like anything really at anything i do. i dont know what to do an #its killing me. Im gonna do something that lands me on national television. im in pain all day and have a migraine every day and when i don #im busy sobbing the rest of the time. i know its just because its that time of the year but that doesnt really help me at all. im trying my #hardest and it still isnt enough. Wat am i supposed to do. Theyre putting me down tomorrow.#i have not felt this bad in a while and its not Nice and I Dont Like it and I cant pull myself up. i cry as soon as i wake up. Who is #putting me through some matt murdock depressive episode simulator.#i need help but theres nothing anyone can help with and i dont want to be here*#*here meaning the state i live in.#i am so Alone here.#i feel little and stupid

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themyscirah · 1 year

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Get out of my life, Hal Jordan, while I'm still sorry I killed you!!!!!

#THIS LINE GOES INSANEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #absolutely LOSING IT AYDUANDJAHDHASUQGSHWGDG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#bro. bro. brooooooo #also the connor bastard joke right before that lmao #but BROOOOOOOOOOOOO #sorry i just- error 404 swishy.exe is not responding #bro. bro. bro.#i just- ehriahsqjsuegshsj #the keysmashes there are like crunching noises to me actually. im literally just as fjahdaidhashshdh like a dog w a bone #BROOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #also we are 100% going to pretend im here for hal and that i didn't somehow get distracted again and am now reading the connor origin arc <3 #BROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #also i have read a lot of comics today so yay. i have done absolutely 0 homework though which is a little 😅 butttt #its friday though. yeah im gonna be busy all day tmrw but who cares. we're reading green arrow comics #ANYWAYS I JUST- GET OUT OF MY LIFE WHILE IM STILL SORRY I KILLED YOU GOES INSANE #never going to emotionally recover from this. .........anyways #hal jordan #oliver queen #dc comics #swishy liveblogs #anyways something something if anyone cares ill post some of the panels i saved from this issue but im nuetral on the idea so only if #someone wants me to #WHILE IM STILL SORRY I KILLED YOU!!!!!!!!!! BROOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!#sorry sorry okay i think i have it out of my system now #<<<<liar #blah

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kkoct-ik · 9 months

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i can def relate to having an abusive mother, the worst part is that people always assume mothers to be good people. thankfully my dad and mother don't live together so i chose to stay with my dad permanently but my dad's girlfriend is constantly talking about how i should make up with my mother because "you only get one mom" and she completely ignores me when i try to talk about how abusive my mother was

yeah. ugh. sorry about your situation anon. it sucks and im sending sympathies

#ask #i just dunno what to do with myself #as if complex trauma isnt enough im now dealing with a lot of complicated situations regarding what to do now #i dont live there anymore. but my siblings do. hi guys i have 4 younger siblings #and me as much as everybody else just wishes there was a nice family to help us develop stable and normal #so im doing my damn best. im trying to stay in contact with the kids. im hoping they have a better support system than i did #but family policy means the teens get no texting privacy no internet time. so as if i can fucking stay in touch and look out for them anywa #i dont think i can do anything. it feels inevitable that every kid is gonna get completely fractured like me #and the only other alternative risks making it worse and uncomfortable when its none of my business anymore #(taking up my therapist on calling cps. lol)#i cant talk about it with my siblings (no real access to them) and it makes me insane #i cant talk to my dad because he has enough shit and i dont want to drive the family to pieces #i cant talk to my mum because she has a habit of abusing the kids and then telling them its because *I* made her mad; blame me #what am i meant to do #as if the past isnt a lot to process right now. im also dealing with the present that this is probably ongoing and theres fuck all i can do #sorry for venting. im in hell. im trying to be normal and failing spectacularly #abuse #domestic abuse #for cw #i wish i didnt have to worry. i wish this was never a problem in the first place

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luciality · 9 months

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iggypan

#shut up luci #delete later #i cant keep thinking of alice going to japan for a meeting but deciding to arrive early to do some casual tourist things bc its been so long #since shes done tourist things. anyway this is like the early aughts or late 90s whatever. she goes to the bridge to see all the cool fashio #fashion and maybe take pics like a rude tourist. maybe even check out the shops and buy something cute. and shes like WOAH so many cool styl #styles. heavily inspired by me england i am england i invented punk me personally i did that. and goth. whatever the hell this lolita is #is also clearly inspired by european fashion. and vw's mini crini line.#she just thinks jfash is neat. doesnt rly get all of it but she likes it. its cool. but then as shes taking picture like a rude person #she notices one girl look straight at her and then duck and turn around and speedwalk away. and iggys like oi wait im sorry i'll delete the #picture im sorry miss i didnt mean to be rude! and when she catches up to her shes like ?!?!?! sakura??? why are you dressed like this???#and sakura is like ahhhh i didnt know you would be here. sometimes i dress up when i am not working. it is fun i have some friends who like #to meet up here. yes humans. ahhhh >_< i really didnt mean for u to see me like this..... and iggys like oh its no big deal i dont mind.#i think this whole lolita thing suits u. hahaha remember when i used to dress all punk and gothic and whatnot? what you wear outside of work #is your own business. plus its cute :3 like u :3 hey maybe next time we can dress up together and go clubbing or to a concert. er...#a live as u say. haha lol. and sakura is like mmm perhaps. that might be fun. and then alice is like Right now how do i get to the maid cafe #from here. and sakura is like >_> ok um which one.#i love them

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caruliaa · 11 months

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girl u r so misery irony poisoned and playing further and further into tht mindset and spending time with people with tht mindset bc u blatantly hate being vulnerable and open to the point of pushing away someone whos told you time and time again tht its okay to be open and vulnerable with them and that theyd be with you as long as it took for you to be vunerable having lied to them by saying vulnerable things and acting vulnerable in ways u didnt even mean then taking them back after pushing them out of your life without ever having the courage to admit the obvious reason that its that you have issues with being vulnerable that you have to work on in order to have proper relationships with others its insane

#taylor swift was right. guess maybe i am better of NOWTHAT !! WEDONT !! TALK !!!#do genuinly feel sad for them tht the “important men who think important thoughts” (to keep up with the song theme sorry im insane)#tht theyre surrounding themselves with now ik r like .the type of ppl always mocking things that are too ''cringe'' or sincere #and making self deprecating and including them in self depreciating jokes nd encouraging them to make them about themself #bc ik just gonna make them like. more miserable !! but yk they where the one tht decided theyd rather be miserable and ''cool'' instead o #vulnerable and they decided they dont want me around so its not my business anymore ! i guess i dont have a say now that we dont talk #i wish i cld help them to work thru this but i offered to multiple times saying despite how difficult it might be id be there #and they said no and ykw. there are things and people out there #more deserving of my time and energy than someone who does that. and the one thats most true about looks me back in the mirror each day #so i shoud probably put a lot of that love and energy into them bc theyre someone who really deserves it !!!#okay done . enjoy youre miserable irony poisoned cringe life [REDACTED EX BEST FRIENDS NAME] bc the best thing abt it #is gone and wont come back unless you try to be better !!!#flappy rambles

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#hmm its been an interesting week i suppose #very busy in a good way. but that is always how it starts. i make myself so busy and it feels good and then i wobble and fall out of my body #so im feeling wary. also bc ive been under sleeping more than ususal but im not really tired but im also not boiling out of my skin with #energy. i just feel ok. so thats good. but also a demon in the back of my head is always like: then stay up all night. lets see how far we #can push this. which is not good. and in fact ive been proscribed like basically emergency mood stablizers to knock me out if i start like #losing my mind and not sleeping lol. bc i dont wanna b getting ready for something big and like completely unavailable to control my #ability to think. and ive also been proscribed birth control to get a handke on my fucked up hormones. so we'll see if that makes things #less all over the place. hopefully it works bc im so busy i kinda dont have time to like freak thr fuck out #but i am a lil apprehensive bc like i can count on my hormones to make me feel things when a lot of the time i dont have much emotional #range. so its like fuck finally i can cry abt this. or like fuck this is so beautiful. but then i also cant function sometimes #so i guess i just gotta see what happens. sigh. also the typical frustrating in having to read so much. like ppl hear im dyslexic and r like #oh do u want accommodation? like literally wtf r u gonna do to help me as a grad student? it just takes an agonizing amount of time to #understand thing. i have my computer read to me and i suffer. theres literally nothing else to b done abt it. and fucking next week i have #to teach a fucking lab abt reading scientific papers. they have to read a paper in class. fuck off. those r the types of exercises that make #me feel so fucking stupid. like do this thing right now. read it right here and answer questions abt it. and i fucking read it and retain #fucking nothing. im fucking 26 and literally in my grant writing class i have to apologize to every person before i give them feedback like #lol sorry i can barely fucking read. i fucking cant understand language. its fine but it sucks. theres nothing to do abt it. it just makes #me mad i have to teach a class that would have made me cry as an undergrad. so ill prob hold their hands thru it more than the other TAs #will. bc fuck u im not making them read a whole fucking paper in class. fuck u #plus the frustration of not being able to express myself well in thr moments. like theres a delay in my brain so i feel so dumb when im #trying to convey myself off the top of my head. like give me time and ill write it all out for u i just cant actually process wtf ur saying #to me. also i probably spaced out for a sec so i missed part of the convo lol. frustrating but at this point its just how it is. it makes me #more empathetic when i have to teach i guess. like listen ive got all kinds of fucking learning probs i just wanna help u learn something #how can i help? fucking dyslexia. god. i dont wanna prep for class this weekend. ive gotta show up like yea i kno reading papers is hard at #first but it gets easier! fuck u. its worth the suffering if i enjoy to topic but its always suffering. but thats what i get for going into #academia. thr dr who proscribed me stuff was like well sounds like u have a stress trigger and ur a phd student where life is stress... u #gotta figure out whats gonna work for u. sometimes thats a career change. not in like a pushy way just like: if what u do makes u suffer #then wtf r u doing? and hes got a point. but in contrast to what i was doing this is a massive improvement #well see if its manageable. ugh. i just wanna draw #unrelated

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01themagician · 1 year

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jitters today and last minute running in a circle yesterday... jesus its like first day of school for real for real except im the child AND the parents in this scenario

#i just hope i dont get sick ... fingers crossed!!#wasnt late for the train and slept an ok amount though. so were doing great so far!#even took in this cute skirt yesterday and am wearing it today!!! the look is so cuuute im glad #01 my post #09 personal #sorry i havent posted the last challenge prompt of photoing my study space etc. was busy with random shit yesterday n forgot #still need to do some cleaning and take out the trash... sigh sigh sigh. right now im only thinking abt UNI 1ST DAY!!!!

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brainrotzora · 14 days

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recent ffxiv livetweeting. spoilers through the end of arr patch quests btw.