#im so passionate about him it’s unhealthy

[eldxrberry]

I LOVE YOU PORTGAS D. ACE‼️‼️❤️❤️🔥🤘🔥

[spaghett-onaplate]

teehee i now have a very very wonderful photo

[risingsunresistance]

[malewifesband]

EDIT: if this post has made you think about whether or not you are autistic, im really glad! i hope you get some better understanding of yourself and are able to find community and support

however before you go and tell a therapist and seek an official diagnosis please read this thread and consider the points made therein:

autism is highly stigmatized. be fully informed about what you gain and what you lose from having an official diagnosis before seeking one.

EDIT OVER ENJOY THE POST

people do correctly identify that laios is autistic fairly often but a lot of the reasoning begins and ends with his special interest and social difficulties, but honestly it goes far deeper into the build of his character than just those two things

his pain tolerance is wildly inconsistent, unable to tolerate a drop of hot oil (or any heat) but able to shrug off both his leg being bitten off and it being reattached

hes sensory seeking in the extreme. he rubs the bat bones against his face, pets and fluffs the shapeshifter tail.

his desire to eat monsters comes from three very autistic places. 1) the rules for why monsters are not okay to eat but animals are are arbitrary to him so he cannot follow them easily: he cannot understand the 'feelings' argument others make. 2) this too is a sensory seeking behavior. he wants to experience these new things, new flavors and new textures. 3) it completes his knowledge of the monster in question to also have data on its edibility. because he cannot draw that arbitrary line around all monsters, he wants to evaluate them case-by-case and see if real patterns emerge. butchering and eating the monsters improves his knowledge of them greatly and highlights their importance in their ecosystem, as well as making him a part of that same ecosystem

he cannot emote the way others expect him to. he compartmentalizes his feelings (to an unhealthy degree) because he needs a pragmatic solution. so as long as there is a problem to solve, that matters far more than evaluating his emotions and allowing himself to experience them. while this is also a coping mechanism for ptsd, it is a trait found in many autistic people regardless of trauma, as we have trouble sorting the feelings we have and often need time to think about what we feel, so it becomes easier to simply not do it and pretend we dont need to. laios emotions certainly affect him, with or without his processing them, but others do not see what they expect to see and thus dismiss that he is feeling what they would feel

he is incredibly gifted with pattern recognition, observation, and analysis within realms he understands. to understand subjects that dont come easily to him, he must filter them through his established schema (his special interest--this is why they are so special! they help us sort the world). when he isnt sure about the social cues and details hes observed in the shapeshifter arc, he filters it through the lens he understands best: monsters. he was making correct observations about his friends all along, but he could not be confident in that the way he was about their behavior when it came to his interest (chilchucks caution, senshis passions, and marcilles carelessness)

[breedbun]

i want to strangle him.

warnings; possessiveness, obsession, not much more

desc; i cooked but im too damn lazy to actually write the sex part. lmk if y'all want the sex part later im too lazy :(

notes; im so gonna write howl, kaeya, and kaeya as howl fanfics after this istfg

"Did you really think you'd get away with this, comrade?" Tartaglia breathed down your neck, clutching your waist tight with his fingers digging into your skin. He's clearly angry, hostile, aggressive. And you know exactly why.

Getting used to the quiet, cold atmosphere of Snezhnaya when Tartaglia brought you all the way to his nation for a little public meeting between the Harbingers was an interesting time. Between watching Tartaglia eye you shamelessly, buy you endless amounts of lingerie and appealing clothing, you were also the subject of a few other of his colleagues.

Take Columbina, for example. She was teaching you the principles and needlework of sewing. Even if most Harbingers were absolutely insane and out of their minds, it's safe to say that some of them, too had.. normal hobbies. Whilst you accidentally pricked your finger with a needle, Tartaglia was just about to rush to your side and save you like he should as your prince charming, however.. Columbina takes the opportunity far too cheerfully. Gently holding your hand like a mother to her child, she'd lick your ever so small wound and taste your blood. You were just bewildered and you couldn't help but do anything except freeze up.. as usual.

The other day, Pantalone overheard your ranting to your dearest Tartaglia, words spilling out your mouth as if you had been holding these words in forever. What you endlessly and very passionately spoke about, was a rare flower that grew with gems growing naturally from the inside as it's nectar hardened. The flower's crystalline gem only lasted about 4 hours, before it'd start to mould and decay into nothing worth more than a speck of dirt. What did Pantalone do? Of course, since your beauty caught his eye, he had gladly offered this one of a kind, magnificent flora in amber, as it was preserved to keep the gem beautiful and shiny forever. As gorgeous, as unique and rare as the flowering diamond was, it wouldn't ever match up to your glowing self. To buy this, and see a smile crack from your face, would be the most utterly satisfying thing Pantalone could ever ask for. Delivering it in an exquisitely expensive jar, your little heart nearly burst out your chest, you even made a little jump and a squeak as Pantalone so kindly handed the precious treasure over to you.

Tartaglia had still been looking for that exact same flower, for you.. yet, he stood by a corner, silently glaring with blazing fury in his eyes. It was more than obvious, just how much the other Harbingers absolutely loved to see that envious look of possessive, unhealthy jealousy on Tartaglia's face. It was beyond amusing, his nose wrinkling, the way he'd barely be able to keep a poker face, the way he wanted oh so badly to rip them to pieces, yet he could never. Not when it'd risk not just him, his family, but you too.

Other small things, such as Dottore's disgustingly gruesome humour through presenting you with a clean, white, and very much real human heart in a special pink box.. that moment when Pierro had held your wrist in his large hand much too easily, kissing the back of your knuckles as a pink blush crept up your face.. when Arlecchino got the absolute nerve to invite you to be the House of The Hearth's "mother" as a male, to be her "wife" as a male, "jokingly".. when Sandrone deliberately called you a work of art, and she'd love to dissect—Pulcinella's special treatment with you!— He had absolutely ENOUGH. If he couldn't teach them a lesson, he'll just have to fuck it into you, then maybe your cute squishy pout can convince all of them to stop.

Maybe they'll find how envious Tartaglia was, knowing that they could flirt and pull moves on you all they wanted, but he was the one you would ALWAYS pick in a room full of their bunch. He was the one you stayed faithful to, he is the one you WILL marry, he is the one who will have children with you. He is the one you love. He is the one you will never forget. He will make sure of that.

@breedbun

[sewerdraws]

Make it for me // Put it on me

it's here ... the convoluted spy x spy x sniper shoe themed page.... very much inspired by this song .

if you wanna read my incoherent thoughts about the ship and this piece in particular it's under the cut !! (warning for sex mention and v unhealthy dynamics)

Basically two ships i rly like are sniper x spy and spy x spy (going from the assumption they are two different people who are somehow magically uncannily similar) and i started thinking about mixing the two...

I imagine red spy and red snipes as having a pretty close friendship and strong sense of camaraderie (they are of few words but understand each other very well) with unspoken attraction towards each other and lots of awkward tension (that sometimes has to break out 😏), basically even with their close friendship they still have too much pride and too much of a shell to admit their feelings to themselves and they're so messy aaaah

where red spy's personality is pretty close to canon, blu spy is v different. he keeps to himself because he's very unstable, much more anxious and paranoid. red has some kind of weird superiority complex / identity crisis over him and toys with him (you hate in others what you hate in yourself etc etc...)

blu spy has an unhealthy obsession with red snipes to the point of being stalker-y. his relationship with red spy switches between trying to gain his favours to get closer to red sniper, and trying to kill him / impersonate him to trick red sniper. i have yet to think about how red snipes reacts to it all but i'm sure i can fit a lot more unhealthy relationships in there :) !

the idea for the art here is that shoes are Gay and Horny. but also. sniper's making the shoe for spy, a craft that takes patience, skill and passion. spy, who is notoriously picky about his clothing, trusted him with this part of his appearance. sniper making the shoe is an act of service, but it stems from the trust between them. meanwhile blu spy only gets to put the shoe on, a trivial gesture that red spy could have done himself, and that also puts blu physically beneath him. idK MAN shoes.

anyways they haven't left my mind for the past 3 days im temporarily naming them the toxic trio until i find something better but there will be more art and if you read all of this we are siblings in arms and i love u

[bleeding-star-heart]

These tags on a reblog of my Anders analysis are another problem I have with DA:2's writing

#god i have so many feelings about this#cuz i romanced anders my first playthrough#and i hated that our relationship did a 180 as soon as I was like#“im not gonna let you gaslight me into doing war crimes”#was it OOC?#i don't know#I can't say#I haven't studied anders as a character or taken the time to contemplate him enough to speak on it#but i just know it was such a turn off that i started a new game entirely EDIT: I have removed the word "gaslighting" from this meta owing to the fact that technically, Anders isn't gaslighting, because gaslighting is something different. Gaslighting being trying to make someone doubt their perception of reality, among other things. What Anders ACTUALLY does falls under emotional manipulation. I would say to the OP that yes, indeed, this is VERY "out of character", so to speak. Most definitely for JUSTICE, the spirit inhabiting Anders's body. But also for Anders as well. Think about it: emotionally manipulating one's romantic partner is an inherently unjust thing to do. It is not something two people who respect and love each other do. Yet the spirit of Justice is completely silent when it happens. A being that supposedly embodies nothing but Justice simply...allows his host to guilt his lover into doing something they disagree with. He does not protest or try to stop Anders from engaging in a truly toxic form of emotional manipulation. If written properly, Justice should immediately have called Anders out on this. Which should prompt either an apology from Anders or a long, seemingly one-man argument between the two. But that doesn't happen. In fact, Justice only shows up if you, as Anders's rival, manage to turn him AGAINST blowing up the Chantry. And then, only to railroad Anders back into the role of terrorist. This, combined with Justice's general lack of reaction to any injustice or violation of rights that DOESN'T have to do with mages, causes him to become little more than a cheap plot device. Now as to why I don't believe a properly written Anders would do it, either. Anders at this point in the story is a revolutionary, yes. He is passionate about his cause. But he is also MORE than that. And part of that 'more'-and also WHY he's a revolutionary-is that he was a victim of a controlling, emotionally manipulative institution. One that bombards people like him with all kinds of unhealthy messaging. Messages like: the outside world is guaranteed to hate you, your (unchangeable) nature is inherently wrong and sinful. As well as: you can't trust yourself at all, you are one bad day from being a monster, you need to let us control you for your own good. Anders probably saw more than one person like Keili-that girl in the Mage Origin who actively believes she's evil and prays to 'not be a mage'. He probably encountered a lot of mages with varying degrees of religiously based self-loathing. He probably had some himself. And he lived in the Ferelden Circle. He's also a person who not only left a toxic institution, but actively sees and complains about how toxic the institution is. People who've suffered from toxic environments/relationships and RECOGNIZE how toxic those environments/relationships were, tend to value healthy relationships/environments. They try and work on themselves to remove any lingering psychological effects of that toxicity. It is highly likely that Anders would NOT want to repeat the kind of emotional manipulation he and others were subjected to. While he might not agree with Hawke about methods, Anders would not believe guilt to be a good tactic because guilt is one of the very tactics the Chantry used on him! Guilt about being a target for demonic possession, guilt about what the magisters did, guilt about being a mage in general.

Guilting his partner into agreeing with him, is, essentially, him doing what the Chantry did to him. And if the writers had put any thought into his character, they would have realized that too. And thus, if they were smart, or and simply give the player the option to permanently decline the quest with no negative consequences. The other option is to lean into that, and purposefully make it a character flaw, that he's too blinded by trauma to see that. But the writers did NOT have the time to be able to successfully pull that off. Thus, yeah. They make Anders, who suffered from religious based emotional manipulation...into someone who emotionally manipulates his partners. Which is yet another thing done in the name of a less-than-stellar ending and plot beat. EDIT: I have removed the word "gaslighting" from my part of this meta owing to the fact that technically, Anders isn't gaslighting Hawke, because gaslighting is something different. Gaslighting being trying to make someone doubt their perception of reality, among other things. What Anders ACTUALLY does falls under emotional manipulation. Which I still don't believe a properly written Anders OR Justice would do, for the reasons stated above.

[awaitinganorphanera]

Who was going to tell me that in order to produce a fic I actually have to write it >:((((( ??? WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE WORDS DONT JUST APPEAR IN THIN AIR IF I STARE AT THE BLINKING CURSOR LONG ENOUGH WITH MY BRAIN FILLED WITH SO MUCH IDEAS RAHHHH !!!!

Anyway, I just wanted to share a small tidbit of a Hanahaki au CobyMeppo fic/draft/idea/prompt/shitty compilation of words that barely make sense that I've been working on since FEBRUARY but never fucking finished and am currently still struggling to even continue as embarrassing as that sounds because idk whether its cohesive or good enough to even share on Ao3 Its just the idea of Helmeppo developing and struggling through Hanahaki disease would be so neat imo due to how most CobyMeppo shippers head cannon Helmeppo's feelings being unrequited at first (or not at all) and how he just adores Koby so fucking much that he becomes so ruined. I cant. Apologies if the structured and the way it's told is messy and incoherent, I've added the lil space in the indent thingy to depict a different part of the fic since im not very good at transitioning. I haven't written anything in so long and I wanted to pump so much bits that I didn't even weave anything properly so, HERE IT IS: (a lot of it IS corny and a bit cheesy so be forewarned akjsjasjsa)

Koby always liked flowers. Surely then, Helmeppo thought, Koby would like him too. Helmeppo, who dwelled within his prickly walls, each barbed with Rose thorns. Helmeppo, with his muddled virtues, swelling and desiccated like stains from Poppy sap. Helmeppo, with a chest riddled with budding blossoms, all watered by his desolate, weeping heart. Could such qualities appeal to the man he grew to love? Perhaps, Helmeppo thought, and perhaps too, he should have known better.  Known when his feelings had begun to develop into something more than simple tolerance, more than respect, more than adoration and even more than intense attachment to the pink-haired boy. At least then, he would have prepared for the worst. Or at least… That's what he assumed when the worst began. It was a blur, how it started. Helmeppo was always self-aware, extremely conscious of his feelings. He knew of jealousy, anger, longing, all traits that contributed and resulted from his desperate and gnawing want to appease his father. His father, of course. His own blood and bones, the same person who probably caused the beginning of all– this. Was it really a surprise? Helmeppo couldn't think of any fucked up thing in his life that hadn't ultimately been caused by Morgan. He grew to learn how to read the room, read the faces, read the tones, he grew to know his father's thoughts without actually knowing anything about his father's feelings. Did he even feel? Feel for his son? No. Of course not. The only thing Morgan could feel for him was apathy.  Sometimes, Helmeppo wished his father hate him instead, wished that he was worth hitting. At least then, he would have experienced treatment that came with passion and effort, treatment that resulted from feeling, treatment that made him feel at the barest, like he meant something.  The lack of care and lack of anything that Morgan bothered to show to his son was barely even the surface of reasons why Helmeppo is even suffering through this. The cause that made Helmeppos brain chemistry rewire and for his damn neuromodulators to rearrange. To see something as small as a single act of genuine care be perceived as a trick, a lie, a dream that he’d so desperately want to fall into and relive despite the possible consequences. He should have recognized how unhealthy and apparently not normal these thoughts were, should have known that his emotions are unstable and too much, should have seen how horrific he grew to be. But even then, Helmeppo thought, would that have done anything to prevent the illness he'd eventually succumb to?

Of all the horrors in Helmeppo’s life, he would have thought that seeds growing inside his lungs would have been the most and hopefully (though doubtedly, considering his luck in life) last traumatic event that would truly, bring him to ruin. But of course, the world, just like how Helmeppo always found himself to be, would never have enough, and just like the breaths he was left to breathe, would leave him dwindling in the years to come. It started as a blur, again, just like any day in the ship he found himself settled in. A gift. He thought, better than what life offered him when he woke up back in shells town. Or at least that's what he’s been telling himself.  Morgan was cruel, sure, but at least he was familiar. He was easier to navigate, easier to chart and read and hide from.  He couldn’t do this here, when things still felt new. He knew of Garp and his capabilities, but he didn’t know the limits of his patience, he had no clue what and how many things would warrant the usage of his fist. He knew of the shady business of the Navy and the World Government, knew of its structure and how it works; the tutors paid by his father made sure of that much, but he never got to live through it.

SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME TIPS ON HOW TO TRANSITION PARTS IN WRITING, I SUCK ASS AND AM OPEN TO CRITIQUES AHJSJAS

[stormblessed95]

Indigo Release

This might be my favorite Namjoon Solo album (including his mixtapes, i know it's his first official album") it was so good and so pleasing and just generally fits the mood ALWAYS. I loved it and it was so emotional. And the fact that the first lyric of the entire album is "fuck the trendsetter" sets the tone perfectly. I'm not going to get into it too much honestly. But I loved it. I have a lot of thoughts. And I do love Joon an unhealthy amount. Thank you RM for gifting this to us and sharing your music.

The music video was STUNNING his Tiny Desk performance was amazing. Tears in my eyes, im so proud of him.

Chapter 2 is so good for them and it's been so good to us too. And seeing Jimin pop up in the live and the other messages of support posted so far too. Makes me want to cry. They will always always be there for each other in everything. I love them so much

Jhope, "my favorite friend"

Jimin, he is just like us 🥺

"Namjoon who we love" 😭😍🥰

I'll edit and add if any more get posted. I'm just so in love with and proud of how he is doing his promotions and of this music. How all the members are. I had to make a post for it. My favorite songs are probably All Day, Lonely, Change pt 2 and Wildflower. But I loved every song too honestly. They were all so good! And the way Namjoon talked so fondly and respectfully about each person he collabed with on this album too. You can tell this is truly his labor of love and passion.

He put so much into it. You can absolutely tell and hear it in the music too. Perfection! Keep streaming! Joon deserves all the good things in life and to see the success this album will be!

[g0nta-g0kuhara]

Do you have any crossover ships with Gonta? Like characters from dr1/dr2 I mean

Not necessarily Romantically but I do have a lot of crossover interactions that I really like with Gonta!!

Gonta & Byakuya: I've long had the headcanon(?)/AU idea of Byakuya knowing Gonta since he was very young because both of their families are powerful and influential. In a universe where the v3 cast and the dr1/dr2 cast exist together, I hced that Byakuya was tasked with babysitting a pre-raised-by-wolves Gonta at least once. Ive had this idea for a fic about Gonta's disappearance from his perspective for a while, but since Im not as into dr1 I don't think I could execute Byakuya's characterization super well.

Gonta & Taka: I think these two would get along SUPER well. I feel like Gonta would be able to be fast friends with anyone who is very passionate and loud. Gonta would really admire Taka's mastery of etiquette and academics, and while I'm unsure of if Taka would have the best words to tackle Gonta's self-esteem issues directly, I think he would genuinely admire Gonta's persistence at wanting to be a gentleman and how hard he works. Not to mention, both face a lot of pressure from their families legacies. These two would be great together.

Gonta & Sakura: Sakura would LOVE to train with Gonta, and I feel like her gentle but firm encouragement would be so valuable to him. In non-despair aus with all three casts, I always imagine these two as friends.

Gonta & Mondo: Insert screenshot from UTDP of Mondo saying to Gonta "you're like a really big... puppy dog." I feel like Mondo would at first feel the need to like. Try to prove to Gonta that he's tougher than him, just because of how big Gonta is. But would quickly realize Gonta's not like that at all and is a sweetheart. And would become quickly endeared to him. (there might be really cute ship potential here. I like the idea of Mondo getting a little bit of a crush on him)

Gonta & Chihiro: Gonta would be SO HAPPY to help Chihiro with feeling like she isn't strong enough. Maybe not in the best way, because I think he would rush to try and protect her from everything which isn't Exactly what she wants, but I think after she expresses this Gonta would switch to trying to help her in other ways instead. Chihiro would be really nice to him and I think they could be friends.

Gonta & Gundham: I THINK THESE TWO WOULD BE BEST FRIENDS IF THEY EXISTED IN THE SAME UNIVERSE. MY GOD. There's a reason I have a tag for them [#bugs & beasts]. Their interests are very similar, of course, but it goes beyond that. Gundham understands very well what its like to struggle socially, and probably would be able to see a lot of himself in Gonta. I also think that while Gonta might struggle at first to keep up with the... flamboyant way Gundham speaks 1. I like the idea that at first his hamsters translate for him and 2. I think he would eventually figure it out. Gonta regularly yes-ands the more weird personas of the other characters (ex, himiko's magic) and I think his respect for the way Gundham sees himself would be a breath of fresh air for him. Both are lonely and desperate for acceptance by the group (Gonta more actively, Gundham more sadly accepting his place on the outside), if they were in the same story nothing could have stopped them.

Gonta & Sonia: Sonia would be absolutely delighted by Gonta's backstory, being raised by wolves, and I bet she would love to teach him etiquette and how to act royally. Gonta would be absolutely obsessed with her. I mean, she's a princess! I think to Gonta, a prince would be almost the pinnacle of gentlemanliness. He would want to treat her with so much respect, maybe to the point of stressing himself out hgdjskfs

Gonta & Nagito: These two... would have a weird relationship. I'm always saying how Gonta needs a hypeman badly and I think Komaeda would be that in the weirdest, most unhealthy way possible. Nagito would be obsessed with Gonta as an ultimate (as he is with any ultimates) and would discourage his self loathing by trying to reassure him by his weird view of talent and what being an ultimate means. Gonta, unfamiliar with his ideology, would probably half heartedly take the compliment while also concerned about how much Nagito puts himself down. I don't think Nagito should be left alone around him LMAO

[phosphorescentspaceman]

yoglabs fluff - technically medical fraud

(for reasons im gonna tag everything as fluff or angst for the next few weeks if it applies. block it if you need to, it'll be here when you come back.

Xephos started to see another person in the breakroom. Exactly four people had the clearance to be in here and one was Honeydew who avoided Yogslabs like the plague when he wasn’t actively with Xephos (some scientists had confused his willingness to help with Xephos’ research as his availability as a test subject. They had been disabused of this notion, but Honeydew didn’t really love being shoved into antigravity chambers without warning - apparently dwarves had a very particular proprioceptive ability and it Did Not Agree with anti gravity). One was a legacy clearance, and the other was Xephos himself who avoided breaks like a plague. He was desperate for a cuppa after spending 50 unsuccessful minutes trying to micro-inject dna into a specific cell with shaky hands. He had enough of trying to work through the caffeine withdrawal. 

Still, Lalna obviously had clearance, but he normally just went home rather than hang out on site. Yoglabs wasn’t built to be comforting. He was hunched over a set of papers, frowning at them like they’d offended him. Xephos started the kettle before bothering to ask.

“Friend? What are you looking at?”

Lalna jumped, startled, before breaking into a warm smile. “Xeph!” he glared down at the papers. “I’m just taking a renewal exam for my medical licence and it's a pain in the arse.”

“I feel like I should fire you for being qualified! That's not the Yoglabs guarantee, is it?” Lalna laughed brightly.

“It's not difficult - but some of it is really stupid.” Lalna turned the paper towards Xephos, allowing him to see the questions he was looking at. It wasn’t overly complicated, but - 

���Name a recent medical innovation? We are medical innovations!” 

Lalna pointed at it vigorously. “I know!” he paused, before snickering childishly. Xephos was distracted from his staring by the kettle clicking off. 

“You know?” 

“I'm gonna talk about that clone based antibody treatment we cooked up, and then I’m going to cite myself as a reference. Ha!” He looked so pleased with himself, Xephos was sure his face was doing something stupid. He slid a cup in front of Lalna, resting weak, diluted milk monstrosity the other drank in front of him, before settling down with a nice strong cup with plenty of lemon. Lalna looked at him, curiously. “Don’t you have that cell lineage tracing thing you’re doing with the clonal stem cells?” 

“It’s probably best that I don't work on that right now.” Lalna nodded, with the expression of someone who knew what it was like to hate an experiment with an unhealthy passion. “I could finish the easy stuff for your questions? Just give me some you’ve filled out so I can copy your terrible handwriting.” Lalna laughed. 

“Yeah, yeah, doctors and their handwriting, it's a tired joke Xeph, get some new material.” Still he slid over some of the sheets and a spare pen.

“This is insultingly easy. I don’t have a medical degree. It should not be this easy.” 

“I KNOW RIGHT?”

[a-strange-inkling]

You wrote in the NYE fic that Eddie & Chrissy are diagnosibly codependent... so do Eddie and Chrissy see this as a negative or a positive aspect of their marriage? Does it affect their abilities to do things as individuals? I think it's kinda cute... but Im just wondering. Also, out of all the friends, are Eddie and Chrissy the most stable couple?

Ah! I love waking up to great questions!

Yes, they are diagnosably codependent, because of their shared trauma and their perpetual fear of losing one another. While they aren’t officially diagnosed and if they would be, they’d be classified as high functioning, it has been suggested by Chrissy’s counselor who has already officially diagnosed them with separation anxiety. They can be apart, go to work, pick up the groceries, get the girls where they need to be, etc, etc. But there is a great emotional and mental strain on both of them when they are separated for long periods of time (especially Eddie).

I’ll definitely tackle that topic more in the Chicago Era and New York Era. It’s so heavy and fascinating.

For Eddie and Chrissy, their bond is very deep and special. They don’t see any part of it as negative. They know where their codependency/separation anxiety stems from (where others don’t) so they have a better understanding of it. When they’re together, they’re fine, it’s not an issue, but it does become an issue with situations like Eddie’s first tour. The girls are just too young to come along, so Chrissy has to stay in New York with them and it’s very difficult on both of them. Eight whole weeks apart. Eddie almost calls it off, but Chrissy doesn’t let him. She knows it’s too important for him to pass up. Like everything in their life, they continue to grow and heal the best they can day by day. It’s not always perfect, but they do their best.

All the couples have their own strengths and weaknesses. Steve and Gwen are pretty healthy and stable, they’re very compatible and want the same things in life, but there’s some strain because Gwen doesn’t know about his Upside Down history and he’s scared and hesitant to share that with her. Same with Robin and Vickie, the domestic day to day stuff is perfect, but when Robin’s trauma flares up, it can be difficult to deal with since Vickie doesn’t understand that part of her. Nancy and Jonathan, as we all know, run hot and cold, they’re passionate and loving, but there is a lot of conflict with Nancy’s ambitions and Jonathan’s anxiety and devotion to his family. They tend to fight often, but always manage to resolve their issues in the end and come out stronger than before.

Eddie and Chrissy are probably the most stable in terms of harmonious partnership. For being so different from one another and having all these odds stacked against them; coming from extremely different backgrounds, their past familial abuse, the paranormal traumas they’ve experienced, their varying physical and mental health issues; I think they’re kind of a marvel for the other couples.

They love each other deeply, of course, and depend on one another, but they also really like one another as they are. They’re best friends as well as spouses. They rarely fight and if they do it’s short lived and they try to learn from it. They see a problem, they fix it. With both their past parental abuse and witnessing unhealthy and broken marriages, they are determined to break that cycle.

Thanks for the ask!!

Sorry it was a big long winded! 💖💖💖

[seeingteacupsindragons]

Um hi!! Aspiring writer here I just wanted to ask if you had any tips on actually getting down what you want your story to be about and forming a general framework for the plot and events?

I have so so many ideas but they stay ideas because I have no clue how to go from there?

Thank you thank you if you do decide to answer and apologies if im bothering you or its a bad time but I think you’re writings very neat and conveys emotions and characters very well so i wanted your input!

Hi! Thank you for compliments, etc. I appreciate that a lot, and emotion and character are really what I think I’m best at.

Structure (framework) and plot are…well, not, but I’ve been working really hard at getting better at these things lately, so I’ll see if I can’t come up with something to give you a hand.

Generally, my writing starts with a story “seed.” This is basically a character and a concept. They look something like “modern fairy tale with an aro ace witch protagonist” (actual story I have written) or, like, “teenage boy finds himself magically bound to a wizard and forced to obey him” (other actual story).

Sometimes this seed is from a prompt or something floating around in my head as a good idea. Sometimes this seed is from the first couple random paragraphs of something I wrote just to write something—it’s hard to write a couple of solid paragraphs without A Character in A Situation.

So for that first story seed, the first couple paragraphs of “modern fairy tale with the aro ace witch” I started with “witch protagonist hanging out on a broom and contemplating a couple and wondering how he could play the role of a fairy tale witch about them.” Because…I don’t know, that was just the first stuff I typed, and it seemed fun to have a witch actually intentionally playing their role in fairy tales?

And then I just keep spinning the Scenario for a while, making stuff up as a I go along. Okay, he’s on a broom above the sky, what if he also has a familiar, what is the familiar saying, what kind of ideas is the protagonist having, how does he even know these people, etc., etc., etc.

And then once I have enough building blocks of just playing improve on a seed for a bit, I take a look at what’s there and what I can do with it. Switching stories here, basically, I have things like, “Oh, only the teenagers are doing anything to fight back against the magical disasters destroying their city…this sounds like a climate change metaphor.” Or, “Hmmm, I have this situation where the characters’ own passions are negatively affecting them…sounds like they have an unhealthy relationship with art/work/etc.” Sometimes this happens mid-first draft. Sometimes this happens after I have a full draft that was created entirely on playing “yes and” with a scenario.

Once I’ve identified these bits and pieces that seem like they’re threaded into the story in multiple places and what’s standing out to me as prominent in the story, it’s time to make sure everyone else sees them. Plot points that are distracting or don’t contribute to a thread get cut. New ones get added to say something else about the topic, or changed to really emphasize a point I want to make or to clarify what was happening, or to sew various story parts together.

In the book I’m writing at the moment, the first draft had this plot arc about a secret underground coven that like, worshiped the main character’s people. It got cut, because while I thought I was going to say a lot about putting people on pillars and how it’s unhealthy, I didn’t really have anywhere for that thread to go, it was kind of messy and weird, and a lot of stuff I wanted to do worked better when I shifted it to focus more on the main character learning to work with people who were resistant to him and bolstering another character and incorporating their opinions into the Discussion—and also I had some idea of where to go with the latter and not the former.

Let’s take a story seed is about the second daughter of a royal family becoming queen, because I haven’t written this story, dangit.

There’s not really any plot points in that seed. Maybe one way toward the end of the book!

So you need to add some more stuff to get it going. Let’s open with her hanging out with her best friend who’s the first son of an Earl.

Now we have a lot. We have plot points about whatever they’re talking about or doing while hanging out—what activities they like to do, or what’s going around them. And, I’ve got a ready-made juxtaposition in there for their succession stories and how they happen and the challenges they face and the story is now about, idk, coming into power or coming into responsibility, or growing up, or facing expectations and what you do about them. And I can use all of that stuff from the first sentence of the paragraph to emphasize those bits.

If they’re about coming into responsibility, you get to write plot points where the two discover all the things their ancestors have been managed silently and behind the scenes (how are they told this? Are they also managing things silently? Like what?). If it’s about what you’re going to do with power, you add in a plot line about them discovering how their parents failed (how do they discover it—is it something they mentioned doing or were seen doing?).

Each of those subplots (and if you’re writing about growing into responsibility, there’s a lot of different ways that manifest and each can have its own subplot branch) branches out into more and more ideas and things you can do to emphasize each point and say what you want to say about whatever the plot/theme is.

I don’t know where you are in your ideas you can’t write down—if you just have a seed, or you have a seed and one theme/point/thing you want to write about and don’t know how to actually branch that into plot points. I think you’re at the latter. So what I say here is: the plot points you pick/choose/write are the ones that seem like they’re going to give you something to say about it and contribute to what you want to say.

If you want to write about growing into power, maybe you don’t need that plot point about our princess sneaking out to hang out with the Enemy, but you do need a scene where she teaches her younger sisters. Hanging out with the Enemy might fit better in a story where she’s learning how to heal political rifts. If the story you’re writing is about both, cool! You can figure out a way to have one or two of those scene do double duty as both and then keep both scenes. Maybe you don’t need a scene where she learns how to handle a sword in favor of a ball where she’s introduced as the heir apparent.

And then there’s…well…how things get resolved says a lot about the topic, you know? If you have a character with an abusive mom, and at the end she forgives her mother, that Says Something Different than if she cuts dies with her mom. And what is says depends on a lot of details, of course, but it’s really important to keep in mind that how the story ends really is your final statement on the matter.

I…hope this helped? I think I answered your question anyway. This is about where I’m at with my writing and how I’m trying to make it work, anyway.

[fawnxx]

boys are so mean , like so so so so mean

i’m gonna quote a message I received today from the boy i’m always talking ab in my previous posts

“ The problem is with knowing you so long and seeing how you constantly disrespect yourself it’s made my respect for you whither away and that’s why I started to act the way I act. You actively do unhealthy things to yourself and it’s repulsive tbh and the only time I don’t think about it is when im fucking you. Besides that that’s the only reason I can barely hold a convo w you “

and I wanna add for context like I do not talk to him really ab any of the stuff I post on my blog, he wouldn’t ever really know that I post ab thinking it’s so hot to be used and all the horny nasty shit I post on here. like I cannot believe this is real life and he actually feels and thinks this way of me, and also the way it’s just simply not true. i’m not gonna go off and prove that I do do things that help me, but this message specifically really really really affected me and made me feel so sad. the only word I can use is sad like I feel like a child, he’s mean in a child like way, I feel like i’m at recess and a boy just said something soul crushing to me again. I’m calling him mean because there’s no other word I can think of. he’s simply just a mean boy. he’s said so many things to me that are mean but it’s never bothered me the way this has. it struck something in me so deep and actually makes me sick to my stomach thinking ab , all I wanna do is call him and cry and just beg him to understand that I am an actual human being who makes mistakes and learns and grows and betters herself , like I can be so good. I am a good person , I’m optimistic, i’m kind , I have real friends who love me , friends i’ve been able to keep my entire life, i’m a good daughter, i’m doing well for myself , I love my job , i’m eating more than I used to at least, im passionate ab things and people and i’m sensitive in my heart , and I will never not be sensitive and i deserve basic respect from someone who expects my body on call whenever he wants. I liked him as a friend before any of this even happened , that’s all I wanted from him, he made me open up just to use everything I said to him as a reason why he doesn’t respect me. i cannot fathom ever speaking to someone the way I get spoken to , never even thinking of the words to create the sentences that this man says with no thought and no care. anyways I could go on forever and I know nobodies gonna read all this but I needed to get it out

[dykeyote]

jedidiah a a martin my one true love

ugh ............ if i MUST talk about that VILE CREATURE . that LOSER . that ASSHOLE . <- was hoping someone would ask despite it being the obvious choice

sexuality hc: if you ask him he goes ehehhnnhh? mmm,,, hmmmm. uhhh,, rrrmmmmm,,,,, and will keep making mumbling noises of thought until u suggest a possible sexuality and then he'll agree w whatever u say

favorite ship: im fucking insane crazy about sydidiah but thats the obvious choice . so ill also say that soridiah and jeddieann are also quite dear to my heart for my more underrated choices

favorite friendship: YOU ALREADY KNOOOOWWWWWW its yvonne and jedidiah i LOVE them i think abt them daily and rotate them in my mind at top speeds they make me insane

least favorite ship: again ive not like .... Seen anything i find super objectionable??? but idk it could exist and i havent seen it but im not gonna make up a ship to dislike that i havent seen yk

a random hc: he loves sharks but also has a fear of them and it makes him feel terribly guilty bc as a shark enjoyer he knows abt how the fear is irrational and causes harm and all that . he loves researching them and learning abt all the little shark facts but then if he goes to the beach and swims (which he loves bc he loves water but thats not really a hc thats just true) hes like what if a shark eats me rn . fuck im the problem ):

general opinion: i love him with everything i have in my soul and also i wish i could kill him singlehandedly . i hate him with a passion and also i want him to be happy and healthy more than anything else in the world . him and i are like an intensely codependent and unhealthy blorboship that would takr tumblr by storm if we were fictional characters in a tv show

[artemiseamoon]

Listen I love the TF guys an unhealthy amount. Still. To this day.

look at them

I love them. I will always be the absolute softest, full on fluffy and emotionally mushy for Will tho. I love them all, I’m obsessed with all of them. I need them all in my life - where are my 4 boyfriends? They are my dream reverse haram.

Just saying tho I’d hubby-up Will so fucking fast. IM SO SOFT AND WEAK FOR HIM! The others too, but Will first. Frankie is def husband #2.

Don’t get me started on Frankie just - the chokehold this man had on me - just take this in

Look at him, ahhhhhhhh

Now back to Will-

👏🏾 FUCKING HUSBAND MATERIAL👏🏾

And don’t get me started on my headcanons about how passionate Will can be in the bedroom. Yeah he’s in control and calm and level headed but in the bedroom - don’t let his calm demeanor fool you. To me, Will is very romantic, loving, attentive . Sweet observant hubby material 100%. He can be a soft lover but, to me, also down right filthy behind closed doors esp if he trusts you. His inner freak will come out. You know what they say about the quiet ones - No one has to agree, that’s the great thing about headcanons, this is how he comes off to me. Soft dom who can be harder when he’s feeling in the mood - those vibes - he has lots of secret kinks - lots of praise and body worship of his partner - next level aftercare - massages when you get home - CUDDLING IN BED (I’m getting emotional here)

Like, okay, my reverse harem fantasy. Hooking up with Benny and Santi immediately. On the spot. Just right to it. Individually or at the same time, I am happy with either.

I’d wait a little longer with Frankie just cause I’m a slut for angst/longing with Frankie. The build up x Frankie is just - it worksssss for me and the payoff would be *chefs kiss*

And Will, tho I’d of course want to jump his bones on sight, I’d also be in love so trying to wait for the perfect moment. Maybe shy. Maybe we can have a date or two before - let my self get romanced by this handsome m’f - oh my heart.

Anyway, late night thoughts. That’s all.