#im so deeply tired

[soupdwelling]

i couldn’t not draw this

based off of this:

[rendevok]

The sensation of waking up next to you ❤️💙

+bonus doodle:

…and they mimir’d happily ever after the end. ❤️

(ID under cut!)

Miles is roused from sleep by sunlight shining on his face. Slowly, his eyes adjust to the light, until finally, his scope of awareness broadens to a body he had been sleeping on.

Page 2

Miles looks up to the figure that holds him, and upon seeing, his eyes widen in recognition.

Miles looks up to the figure that holds him, and upon seeing, his eyes widen in recognition.

The bottom panel of the page shows minimal details of a window shedding light onto the bed and blankets as seen from a higher view in the room.

Page 3

On the other side of the bed, Phoenix rests, his head propped by the headboard. His hair is messy from sleep, and his expression is thoughtful. The light of the morning highlights his features.

The sun shines through the blinds of the window.

Phoenix finally notices his observer, and turns to look at him.

Page 4

Phoenix takes Miles’ hand in his, and lifts it to gently kiss the ring on Miles’ finger. They both move to share a kiss, and their hands shift to hold one another. Miles’ ring sparkles in the sunlight.

Page 5

They link their fingers as they kiss, and the morning creates a quiet atmosphere around them.

They part, but remain close, their fingers fully interlocked. Phoenix greets “Good morning,” with a tender, loving expression as he looks at Miles. Miles’ own expression is soft, unguarded, and fixed on Phoenix.

Page 6

Phoenix and Miles settle back into their shared bed; the morning sun illuminates them. They both smile softly, seeming happy and at peace. Miles rests his head under Phoenix’s neck, and his hand on Phoenix’s chest. One of Phoenix’s hands rests over Miles’ own on his chest, while his other hand holds Miles closer, revealing a matching ring of his own. Both rings shine softly in the sunlight.

Bonus image

A small simple drawing of Phoenix and Miles having fallen asleep again while holding each other as in the final page of the comic.

End ID.]

[companion-showdown]

Which companion is the most normal person?

TOURNAMENT MASTERPOST

[daftmooncretin]

if captain kirk irresponsible? why huge baby cow eyes???

if captain kirk bad captain? why-

you thought i was gonna talk about his voluptuous titties fat ass sparkling personality and unflinching moral character ? no.

if you say kirk is a bad captain i will kill you. I will shoot you into space like they did to bill shatty when he wouldn’t shut tf up about going to space

except unlike bill shatty ill send you up naked and defenceless into the vast chasm of space your lungs will explode and your eyes will fall out or some shit (i saw that in a doctor who episode)

kirk drift is getting out of hand and my response to this is ending all kirk drifters and repopulating the earth with kirklophiles such as myself and my dad paul.

[nabaath-areng]

" I'm drowning in this gloom that cannot be concealed My sighs are deep; I was thrust down into the darkness. Ceaseless rain... it's futile; alone I tread forth, Hand in hand with strength... "

[nyxi-pixie]

constant themes of control over chuuya im SICK!

With N, he's property. an experiment. something owned.

With the Sheep, he's so loyal to them and still it isn't enough. he does one thing for himself and that alone leads them to believe that he's a traitor. an attack dog with motivations outside of protecting and defending its owner has no use at all. its better to kill the mutt before it poses a threat to you. shirase literally uses dont bite the hand that feeds you rhetoric in the arcade 'you had nothing before the sheep took you in' (and bearing in mind his very first interaction with chuuya was literally feeding him), and his response when chuuya exercises the slightest independence is to attempt to put him down. a good dog doesnt act for itself. a good dog doesnt get frustrated when its owners get themselves into danger. it just defends them, mindlessly, persistently.

verlaine can't let chuuya have anyone else. needs him isolated and dependent only on him. possession masked as protection. a view eased by the way he denies chuuyas humanity.

mori controls chuuya through the mafia - starting with the direct oversight of the flags. he has to be surveilled because his loyalty isn't enough, the threat on the sheep still hanging over his head isn't enough. he needs to have no chance of getting out. this has mellowed out a lot since, because chuuya is a loyal enough beast that he can be trusted to stay once he's found a home.

fyodor wants control of him during meursault and whether or not he believed chuuyas act is irrelevant. chuuyas the queen in that chess game, the most powerful weapon on the board. a piece in a game, an object to be used.

the only person who looks at all of this and takes issue with it is dazai. AND STILL!!!!! in recognising the sheep are in the wrong and manipulating them to remove chuuya from their herd, hes taking chuuyas agency away and making decisions for him. its controlling even when hes trying to do the opposite. (not to mention the constant dog jokes and the maid thing.) to some extent his actions in fifteen come from a place of his weird thing about autonomy and freedom (which is probably also why hes so careful about corruption and so horrified by Q but. separate issue.), but theres also more than a little possessiveness behind it.

[crybabydaydream]

really bugging me how all this conversation and discourse about polyamoury is cropping up and I'm not seeing anyone use the word

amatonormitivity

If you don't know this word you should learn it, its a really relevant concept to this conversation

[honeybyte]

!!

[shorthaltsjester]

i do not want to dig a hole but i am too much of a laura bailey pc enjoyer to not make this post so:

selfishness ≠ a lack of kindness 

selfishness is a theme that has come up with all of laura's main campaign pcs. that doesn't mean that her characters are always making selfish choices or that they don't care about the rest of the people they're with or that they're not good. it's just that, for the most part, the first thing they're thinking of when they take action or make choices is themselves. 

in jester and vex both it is more typical and obvious selfishness. vex's developed because she needed it to keep herself and vax alive and as safe as possible and it grew into a behaviour that she had to actively work to avoid. it's evident in her greed, her theft of the broom, her reaction to her own death which relied heavily on i'm okay/i survived to which keyleth reminded her that she wasn't the only one who had to witness and reckon with her death. in jester's case, she grew up in an environment that literally trained her to make every decision based on two things - her mother's opinion and her own. so, when she's out in the world without marion for the first time, her choices are those that will benefit her and her actions are those that consider her own thoughts and not really many others' (aside from the traveler's). 

it isn't a criticism of either vex or jester to say that they are characters who act selfishly. in fact, i'd argue that to claim otherwise does a great disservice to exactly how immense both of their character arcs are. because the nuance of both jester and vex is that they are selfish, and they also hold extreme room for self-sacrifice and empathy. vex is much more brash than jester is, and jester is much more trusting than vex, but both of them are characters who begin with selfish impulses who grow with them. neither ever truly shed those impulses, but they use them in new ways, typically transforming them into impulses towards things that are in the best interest of the party. 

you may have noticed the lack of imogen in this post about laura bailey pcs and that's because of two reasons. one, we are an unknown amount of time into her story, i can't analyse her development the same way i can vex and jester's. two, imogen's selfishness isn't the blatant quasi-self-aware selfishness that we see in things like jester complaining about her lack of money to caleb or vex stealing a broom. instead, imogen's is very internal, like a lot of laura's character work with imogen. it is a bit similar to jester’s in the sense that it comes from a lack of awareness moreso than vex’s practiced behaviour, but imogen’s is a lot more tied to inherent beliefs she has about the world and the people in it.

as a consequence of her powers, imogen sees people's thoughts as their entirety, she holds it above their actions to be the truth of who they are - to act against what they think or to say something that doesn’t cohere with what they’ve thought is akin to lying, so for her to act empathetically is to act in tandem with what someone else’s thoughts are, not how they act, which is typically not all that wanted. the same as vex’s greed and jester’s naivety, this is a trait that makes narrative sense and it’s one i find quite compelling, especially when read in the vein of someone struggling through trauma that has made them assume that the world is against them. imogen’s cynicism is coherent cynicism, i can’t say that in a similar situation i wouldn’t have the same predisposition towards the world.

the part that is particularly self-interested comes in if you look at how imogen has actually been treated in the campaign (quite well) in comparison to the cynicism that she’s developed from her past (something that speaks to a world out to get her). certainly, a bunch of shitty things have happened to imogen in the time we’ve known her, but the same can be said for everyone in bell’s hells and pretty much everyone in exandria at this point in time. but, in a fight to save the aforementioned world, imogen’s focus was getting her mother back on her side. which, while very consistent with her character and a choice that i enjoy, is a very selfish one. the fun thing (to me, obviously) about imogen is that she has, more than most, an insight into the opinions of others and she also tends to seek others’ opinions out and genuinely engages with them and supports their choices. but she still very much acts towards what she thinks is best. it’s one reason i enjoy looking at the dynamic between her and orym as one between foils, as orym tends to be stalwart in his beliefs and doesn’t care too much for other’s opinions if he’s already sure of his own, but his actions tend to favour collaboration and protecting others.

as i mentioned earlier, imogen is a harder case to look at because she is still in the process of her story. however, the circlet is clearly influencing how she interacts with the world and in the wake of the solstice, the hostile reaction towards ruidusborn people has started to become more and more apparent and i’m interested to see what route that ends up leading imogen down and how it will influence her relationship with the rest of bell’s hells. (for better, i think, based on recent conversations, but if it's for worse i will be just as seated and excited).

all of this is just to say, please stop assuming that claiming a character has a trait you think is a bad one is criticism or a hate post. in light of the fact that i know that people who don’t believe this will continue to not believe this, i’ll encourage anyone confused about the ability of a character to be good and kind and selfish all at once to look to what the text itself says, specifically scanlan’s words to pelor when asked what vex means to him:

“Her name is Vex, and she is greedy and mean sometimes, and she can steal a lot. She’s a little bit not the greatest person, but her flaws highlight everything that is right about her, which is she does all these things to protect her friends and her family. She would give her life for any of us and for anyone who was truly in need. And she’s not perfect but she’s the most perfect of all of us.”

would you look at that... an ability to be a multitude of things, some in conflict with one another. i know that's hard for fandoms to believe, especially about female characters with agency, but i promise its true!

[naamahdarling]

Augh

[gophergal]

Insane Engie? WHAT ABOUT INSANE HEAVY WITH F9 FACE & B8 COLOUR? Justice for our 'most sane' mercs, Misha is just as blood thirsty as his beau

anyone who says this man is The Sane One needs to rewatch meet the heavy and listen to his voice lines. also poker night.

[EXPRESSION MEME]

[spider-man-2o99]

“why are you always only ever talking about, like, spider-man 2099’s childhood and mental health issues instead of posting panels of him Biting People” uh. because... spider-man 2099 the comic book... also does this.?

[leafatlaw]

Keeperchampion, On ex best friends and losing more than you ever had

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[ideasarestuckinmyhead]

Some more bittersweet thoughts.

When Al was in the city do you think he had days he couldn't look himself in the mirror bc all he saw was his Father's disappointed face?

Like, his father couldn't belive the boy he raised lovingly turned into a con man. Or even smelled something that his mom always wore or smelled like? Just ended up crying bc he just really needed his parents one day.

But I can't help but think about Seth too. Like when he came back to town around Christmas he said Al almost looked like his dad right? Do you think he couldn't look Al in the eyes some days? He'd get a glimpse of the people who raised him when his parents couldn't. The people that tried to give him what he didn't have, do you think he ever feels guilt clutching his throat?

Almost choking him? Do you think he ever paused and thought of how they would think of him now? The little brown haired boy that had those eyes filled with child wonder, now being so dull and devoid of life? Or the hatred he had chasing him to be spiteful of everything?

I wonder if Boo reminds Al and Seth of Alphonse's parents. Like Boo's cooking taste like Al's mom's, or even their hugs felt like his Dad's. Or even how they sounded for a quick second. You know how sometimes someone sounds like a person you lost and you don't belive it and whip your head to them. Just to see a glimpse of the person you lost just wanting them back?

Or even hearing their voice when no ones home and you can't help but cry bc you just wanted to hear them one last time. I wonder if Alphonse will ever look at those pictures of his parents again. Do you think he's forgetting what they look like slowly? How their voice is? What they're touch was? Would he be as tall as his dad by now? Would his mom still be able to give him a bone crushing hug?

I bet Al has those days he sits and thinks. My parents would have loved them, when Boo does something he parents would have done. Or even in general how Boo changed him for the better, well more like helped him. And if Al ever did marry Boo do you think he would sob bc his parents couldn't be there? Not being able to see their little boy marry someone he loves so much? That impacted his life so deeply? That stuck with him even when shit hit the fan?

Would he have two chairs in the front row for them? Just to have them bc he didn't have the heart not to? Do you think he ever visits their Graves? Or has he not bc the guilt he has weights him down? If he does do you think he talks so much about Boo? Along with everything that happened with Seth? Derek? Just keeping his parents up with his life.

Do you think Seth ever visited their Graves? To apologize for keeping Al away from them? For stealing him away and breaking him down? Do you think he ever misses that warm house in his childhood when things were simpler for him? Before the judgmental eyes and the vindictive whispers caused him to leave it?

I have lots of questions and honestly the more I think about them the more I wanna cry.

[boyfriendyke]

there r a lot of things about the myth of psyche and eros that makes me a little insane but one of them has always been the tasks from aphrodite and the unfairness of it. they're not intended to be possible. they're so obviously not meant to be possible, and psyche isn't fucking hercules, you know, she's not a demigod or whatever, she's mortal and these aren't mortal tasks!! it's why psyche has to be helped with each one, fucking by like ants and river gods and shit. and so like. idk. i know ppl see psyche and eros as like a story about love and shit which obviously it is but as a kid psyche and eros always felt like a story about being able to accept help

[greasydumbfuck]

also just for the record. no matter how much utterly stupid shit i say or draw about him, frank actually makes me so deeply sad. this old man should be picking up his grandkids but he cant. i think about him too much and im so sad