#im so anxious rn. do i fucking post this or not

[thesiaswritingblog]

The Past Is In The Past (So Why Do I Feel This Way...?)

Silly oc x canon oneshot. It's just like what they say; DONT LIKE DONT READ;!1!11!1!1!11!1!1! /s

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Tyler Morrison vividly remembered that day.

It was his first few months of his second year of middle school. At the time, he was more shy and introverted, yet friendly and kind. He didn't had that much friends, honestly.

Everything changed when he came in.

After a few months into his second year of middle school, Tyler and his classmates were introduced to a new addition to their class. A young boy with dark blue hair and yellow stars in his eyes then came to their view. At first, the boy didn't had that much of an expression on his face, but then that changed once he put on a smile and introduced himself.

David Chiem was his name.

Tyler was a bit familiar with the surname 'Chiem'. The Chiem family is pretty known for being rather important people. They have achieved many achievements and all in all are people who others look up to. Tyler heard that David's sister, Diana Chiem, is still in high school and has already made some pretty high achievements, such as creating an invention of sorts.

Before David came into his class, Tyler really just sat alone in a corner of the classroom. However, once David sat next to him, he knew he had to converse with him. The two kind of got along after the conversation, before things went silent between them again.

Days after that, Tyler noticed that David made so much friends in the span of a few days after his arrival to the school, and that David's such a loved student there. Because of his popularity and how loved he is by the other students at school, Tyler always viewed him as some type of royalty, while he himself is just some commoner.

One day, Tyler was eating lunch alone, like any other day. That was until David approached him and offered to eat lunch with him. Tyler wouldn't know what would've happened if he hadn't accepted that offer. Ever since that day, the two were pretty much inseparable.

A lot of students were shocked to see that David would befriend such a shy and timid boy like Tyler, and some of them even got jealous at their friendship that was just formed a day ago. That pushed them to eventually say hurtful things towards Tyler, or in other words bullying him.

It went on for a week, and by the next week, David had to stand up for the boy. Tyler did still felt sorry enough about that day, despite him remembering very well that David didn't mind it at all. He remembered how David smiled at him and told him that he's happy to help a friend in need.

A few weeks after that day, a test came up for their class. In the end, David was the top student who got the highest grade in the class, while Tyler is the third lowest one. Tyler got a bit....jealous. Eventually, not having some kind of care in the world, Tyler confronted David about it and swore that he'll get a more higher score in the class' next test.

That's how their rivalry happened.

By the next test, David still got a higher test score than Tyler. Tyler was a bit furious about this, but promised to himself and David that he'll do better, but then the cycle just repeated for the rest of the school year. Tyler did got more higher scores compared to his early test scores, but he still wanted to try to be better than David.

Eventually, without them noticing, they're already on their third year of middle school. Tyler felt like a mad lad for being able to survive this far, but it was honestly worth it to him. After the first test of their third year, David still had a higher test score than Tyler. Tyler knew that he can't exactly try any harder, but an encouragement from David himself was enough to pull himself together and try harder.

Eventually, he fulfilled his goal in the class' math test. Tyler remembered David congratulating him with that same smile, but then that's where things go downhill between them. Once Tyler saw the smile David gave him, he knew damn well something was off about it.

Ever since then, he tried getting to the bottom of it no matter what. He searched high and low and even observed David more often when they're out and about together. After so many weeks, Tyler almost gave up.

Key word: Almost.

Just when he was about to give up, Tyler saw David alone on the rooftop that evening, talking to himself about how he really hates his fame and how much of a manipulator he is. Hearing that, Tyler felt shocked, but looking back at it from a more mature point of view, it's to be expected from someone who's smile seemed so off on that day.

After that evening, Tyler stopped talking to David, and David 'didn't understood why'. Absolute bullshit. Eventually, their whole third year in middle school ended, and then they went to high school. Tyler was honestly really shocked to find out that David went to the same school with him. Tyler also recalled that David got massive attention from all over the world through his supposed 'inspirational speeches'. The blue haired bitch literally started his whole fucking career in the end of his second semester as a third year in middle school, and then the next thing Tyler knew he's popular?!

"I guess that's to be expected, coming from the Chiem bloodline." He said to himself one time, but still, it felt so odd to him. Eventually, after awhile of high school, David stopped coming to school. Tyler was initially confused on why, until a classmate filled him in on it.

Turns out David got scouted by Hope's Peak Academy. Tyler wasn't entirely shocked about the information, considering that David's known worldwide at that point, but a part of him still felt a little shocked. He didn't talked too much to David for the rest of their middle school days and their high school days, and now someone's telling him that David's gonna go to some prestigious school for talented students?

On that day, Tyler felt like he....regretted not talking to David much during his last few days at the school they went to. Thinking about it now, Tyler kind of missed David, but he'll never admit that out loud.

And now Tyler sits on his sofa, in the living room of his house, watching silently as his TV showed footage of David showing his supposed 'true self' infront of his classmates at Hope's Peak Academy during a class trial in a show.

Oh how Tyler is disappointed of the truth. He didn't wanna believe it, but he has to believe it now.

Why the fuck does he feel this way...?

[enteragoodnamehere]

i wish I didn’t have the scared all the time disorder it would be really nice if I wasn’t scared all the time

[karinyosa]

guy who needs emotional support to get stamps from the usps building

[pocket-mobster]

i was gonna post smth like "if i had found out 2 years ago that u can insert a nasogastric tube urself it wouldve ruined me" which is wild cuz its ruining me Right Now

[yoylechess]

hey buddies, love you

[lovsome]

venting :-) sorry

[glacierclear]

Having some mad fuckboy!Leon thoughts rn

After he's unlearned all the stuff he taught himself and is basically done with the whole fuckboy thing oh man he would be SO soft. Holding your hand? Check. Cuddling at his dorm? Check. Being more gentle and loving during sex? Also check.

Also, stealing his hoodies. He'd melt for sure

oh, for sure. healed fuckboy!leon would be a SIGHT TO BEHOLD.

he wouldn't be perfect...

progress isn't linear. he'd stumble a lot. make a lot of mistakes and backward steps. you would need to be patient. you would need to be careful. especially in the early stages. because damn, he's trying. he's trying so hard. and you need to acknowledge the effort, even if it's hard to see, because any praise towards this will mean so much to him.

it'd come out especially on his bad days. he's more impatient. short-tempered. lashes out over seemingly mundane things. you'll need to be firm but not demeaning. catch his tells, his habits, and figure out the real reason he's behaving the way he is.

you'll need to slowly teach him the true depth of his words. that they hurt you just as much as they hurt him. he's unfamiliar with the idea of accountability, so you need to teach him about consequences. let him know you're upset and angry at him. but just because you're upset doesn't mean he's irredeemable. he'll assume any pushback is you ending things permanently. he needs the space to fuck up and forgive himself.

and damn it all, he's the jealous type. possessive. protective as all hell. it's toxic, and you need to teach him boundaries. it'll be tough. he worked so fucking hard to get you, doesn't he deserve to have you the way he needs? but no. you need freedom. he'll learn eventually, but be prepared to send a lot of "im safe and i miss u" texts to him when you're out with friends.

speaking of toxic. the toxic masculinity will be hell to unpack. sometimes it's nice! he insists on you being passenger princess. he insists on picking up the bill (well, once you're actually dating). he doesn't mind taking care of spiders (and fine, just because you asked nicely, he won't kill them). but...the bads get real bad.

displaying any kind of vulnerable emotion is like pulling teeth. when he's nervous, scared, anxious...he'll take it out on others. or himself. early progress will be made when he's blackout drunk and spilling everything to you. he reveals the deepest, most fragile parts of himself on these nights. it's like he's an entirely different person. and the next morning he'll do his best to sweep it all under the rug, but you have to fight for it. accept him and love him despite how "totally fucking lame" he acted (his words, not yours).

that being said. the good parts? oh yeah. Boyfriend Material 100%.

he'd do anything for you. anything. don't even say shit as a joke because he'll do it. at a certain point he doesn't even care if his friends think he's being stupid. you're his whole world. he'd wear stupid t-shirts for you. go to that concert you're dying to see even if he thinks the music sucks. he'll bash his head into a wall and learn to bake french pastries if it'll get you to smile. through hell and high water, he'll follow.

and yeah, he weans himself off social media. stops posting thirst trap photos and cuts ties with his sneaky links. but the lack of external validation is felt, and it kind of falls on you to fill the void. clingy won't even begin to describe what he is. he'll resort to begging. he will. late to work in the morning? that's not his problem. you're staying in that damn bed and you are cuddling him. you think him wearing tank tops in the middle of December is just a dumb mistake, but you catch on quick when he starts to shiver and needs to huddle you for warmth. "you want me to die of hypothermia? c'mon, babe. get closer." and yeah. those ice cold hands are going straight on your stomach. have fun.

part of the excitement will come from truly learning who he is as a person. most of his herculean facade is a persona. he doesn't actually like beer. he likes dry whiskey and refined clear liquors. he doesn't actually enjoy parties. the crowds make him nauseous, and he can always blame it on the alcohol. he's not actually all that into sports. you figure out he has a well-loved public library card and he knows the mystery section like the back of his hand. he's vibrant. shockingly intelligent. gets that light in his eyes when you nudge him about his interests. it'll be hard to get him to admit it, but his favorite part of the week is huddling on the couch watching nature documentaries with you.

and it's a two-way street. he remembers everything about you. early on in your relationship you casually assume he'll never keep track of the important dates. that's the stereotype, right? you couldn't be more wrong. birthdays. anniversaries. doctor's appointments. your fucking dog's yearly vaccine. he won't necessarily go all-out, not until you're more of a long-term thing, but what he does is meaningful. sincere. you won't get $500 of flowers and chocolate for valentine's day, but he'll abduct you from work, drive you out far, far into the countryside. lay out a patchwork blanket and stare at the night sky. he brought your favorite brand of pita chips and sneakily worms a gift box in your hand. it's that stupid $15 thing that's been sitting in your online shopping cart for weeks that you could never justify buying. and yeah, he'd appreciate a blowjob under the stars, but seeing you happy is enough.

and you could never begin to imagine how loving and passionate he can get during sex. it's totally different than his usual flavor. casual hook-ups and one-night stands are merely a fraction of his power. he tends to avoid intimate gestures on those nights. no eye-contact. hardly any kissing. he likes it rough and he likes it fast. but with you? he takes his time. commits your body to muscle memory. his gaze is intense, and he watches every reaction, trying to map out your flesh like a cartographer. he'll happily make out with you for upwards of a couple hours before you even begin the real foreplay. and you always cum first. always.

oh, but if you're not a fan of PDA...he might be a problem. he's proud of you. you're the hottest thing on two legs as far as he's concerned. he'll have no issue grabbing your ass, wrapping a hand around your waist, kissing along your neck, whispering the most obscene things in your ear. it's not even to make a point. there's no rhyme or reason. he just wants to. and you're right there. and what right does the world have to tell him to stop? does it make people uncomfortable? who cares. he'll lay off if it really bugs you that much...but if he catches anyone staring at you too long he'll ramp it up. it's almost aggressive. you turn to scold him, noticing how his eyes aren't even on you. he's staring at someone else. someone who's looking at what's his.

he's a yes man, too. if you need restraint and careful guidance in your life...he's not the one. he'll support any weird, out of the blue hobby you want to pursue. if you even joke about quitting your job he'll egg you on. "i'll drive right up there and tell your boss i'll fuck his wife!" and you have to talk him down. he'll punch the sun for you. he'll be behind every impulsive purchase. every 4am trip to walmart. every instinct to feed your id. any "little treat" you want to have he'll get it. because you deserve the best. if you ever want to have a stable bank account you need the be the voice of reason. because it's not gonna be him.

yeah. he'll have a lot of problems. don't worry about that. but, at least with fuckboy!leon, you'll almost never have any doubts that he loves you. once you manage to pin his heart on his sleeve, it's there for life and it'll always be yours.

[minnieposting]

i want to talk about robins trailer again!

following up from this post + a cool thread i saw earlier compiling lots of details i didn't notice in the trailer! (and the morse code post)

mostly really interested in the fact that this whole thing is filmed and directed by sunday

(sc from twt thread)

i said earlier that robin must feel like she doesn't want to let down both sunday and the family, both as his sister and the "pride of the family". but this clearly shows that he's the one pulling the strings, or at least one of them.

(as i type this out, i realize the usage of "pulling the strings" could relate back to the imagery of puppets we've been seeing. they are present in robin's trailer and also seen in the 2.2 penacony trailer)

(and of course, another puppet on strings...)

not sure where i'm going with this because tbh i got side tracked because i had the realization while writing. just some cool consistent puppet imagery, obviously symbolic, just don't feel like thinking about this rn lol

ANYWAY, my original train of thought was going towards sunday being a huge pressure on her, whether intentionally or not, he's clearly got his own shit going on... but i also feel like this gives new meaning to something else i pointed out a bit ago (post)

sunday is always right behind robin! she's always in the spotlight while he looms in the shadows. another thing tho, the same person who posted that twt thread i linked to pointed out that our bird friend is seen in the corner watching robin perform (x)

in the upper right corner!

(though, ive seen speculation that the bird is not sunday's but the dreammaster's! either way, sunday is still the most involved with her in the context of my post...)

now, going back to what i really want to talk about in the first place - director sunday. i do think this is more symbolic than anything, and coming from robin's perspective as this is her trailer.

sunday is a perfectionist obsesed with control and robin's public image may not be spared from that. she may feel that sunday is essentially breathing down her neck, whether or not sunday is aware he's making her feel like this. i've always thought that sunday's perfectionism and his obsessiveness have bled into his love for his sister and their relationship as a whole. again, she clearly does not want to let him down specifically, especially when they're supposedly working towards a childhood dream.

it's just! this whole thing about freedom, or the lack of it. robin is a caged bird and that's become explicit in her trailer. who knows wtf sunday's deal is, but he's also clearly under SO much pressure, he's the head of the oak family and ALSO needs to be nothing less than perfect. dude had a whole speech about it. i also imagine they both don't talk about any negative feelings related to this, maybe even wanting to keep up appearances around each other too.

i feel like i dont have anything else to say. i just mainly wanted to talk about some observations and stuff. i am very much looking forward to 2.2 coming out later, im SO excited to dig into sunday because he is the most intriguing and mysterious to me. their relationship is just so so so interesting, im so excited to see it in all of its glory later.

and mandatory note bc i am an anxious person, i do a lot of talking out of my ass and this is just exactly that.

(uh i scrolled up to read this post over and saw i linked back to a morse code post and didn't talk about that at all. well there's SOS morse code in robins trailer! that's fucked up! what else can i say)

[deliveringspookzandtreatz]

tbh i should do a heartfelt post so uh

Thank yall for just being the fucking coolest. Like all of yall. I was.. honestly scared and confused about rp blogs on tumblr and everyone was usually older than me by a bunch. So why the hell would someone rp with lil old me?

ik i said it a bunch but legit. if pineapple did not follow me thinking i was the type of rp blog that she had, i wasnt going to do JACK SHIIIT. I been eyeballing pineapples blog when i was 17 (tbh i made this blog like..very recent after my birthday) like 2 months? april i think?

So like. yall thank pineapple for the blogs- legit i would not be here with rp blogs if it wasnt for pineapple

ofc i got so many friends who also mean the world to me like all my mooties <3/p

without yall i would've lost motivation and dumped the blogs i think. Without yall i would still be mostly scared to interact with people. HELL TODAY I REACHED OUT TO SOMEONE!! I RARELY DO THAT!! LIKE IM HEALING SLOWLY I AM BEING MORE BRAVE!!

i been so fucked over by people, been told awful false rumors on other sites i. still anxious people are behind my.back trying to get me "canceled" for no reason, stalking me, etcetc

but.. the rpc the corner im in. i love it. i love it so much. it helps me a bunch. it helps me be more braver, be more myself, tells me adults are still fucking whimsical and loving and that when i get older i dont need to "grow up" i can just be myself, i dont got to pressure myself to be something im not.

i dont think i deserve my moots, my friends, people i look up to that became my moots, and all the nice things that i got from being a rp blog.

yall legit made this year so fucking better for me. i dont.. reslly know where i would be rn. I know that sounds so sad but i have to be honest. i think this blog and my friends saved me a bit. im forever thankful. thank you for everything everyone. i love you all/p

you take care of yourself, happy holidays if you do em, and if not have a good day for me please <3

[cthoniian]

hi. thought the ooc was at an end eh? wronggggg.

so. things are still up in the air with my mom. none of it good. i currently have a little extra time on my hand. but im desperately chasing dopamine. so. im going to probably just??? do whatever drafts / asks strike me from whenever vs trying to get to my oldest first.

im also not claiming that anything will happen. sometimes it’ll just be me posting ooc all day. i am so fucking depressed and anxious i can barely function. so.

all my bad qualities!! about to be worse.

if you’re interested in writing on discord lmk. thats where im gonna direct as much of my attention as i can rn. bc it offers me a chance for, hiding???? idk.

im really not okay and it’s nothing anyone can do because life is a fucking dick and i have to function the best i can.

im also in a lupus / eds flare and i feel fucking awful even aside from what’s going on with my mom.

long story short, her cancer has seemingly metastasized into her blood? so it isn’t a tumor, but just, cancer in her bloodstream. and her mobility and pain and mental health has been officially going down. she’s currently in a specialised health / rehab facility for likely about a week. and we won’t know what comes next for the cancer journey until the 11th.

this also means, what was supposedly nearing the end of the worst, instead heralds the beginning of the worse. i don’t even know if she wants continued treatment or if she’d rather let cancer take its course.

i keep having breakdowns and sobbing today. so. im gonna go read my silly novels and write my silly replies. and pretend that for tonight, im okay.

[blonde-tori-spring555]

ugh i hate when i feel on the verge of a panic attack

imma rant for a sec soz, u dont have to read the whole thing

...

im just so stressed rn, with school, family, friends and ive got like two auditions i need to prepare for and tbh i just feel anxious for no reason, i feel like im getting 'bad' again, like were i was just in my room and doing the same thing everyday and my brain hated that, and i just felt numb, like i dont think im depressed or anything like idk, i feel like i should explain what happened to originally make me feel like this, i wont go into full detail ect, but yeh

basically i was friends with this girl (we met at performing arts classes) and she i guess never rlly treated me amazing and was always slightly werid for example (not saying this is weird but from the way she is irl and they way she sounded seemed strange) so last year i was facetiming her and i was like "oh btw ive got a bf now", and she kinda seemed a bit Awkard, like her smile faded and she was just kinda like "oh thats great for u" a bit numbly (i should probs mention she isnt straight and for all ik she is bi) and then instantly changes the subject to "oh btw i was thinking of asking out-" and yeh we talked about it, anyway i spoke to my mum how i thought it was a bit weird and my mum said "oh hahaha maybe she has a crush on u" and im (pretty sure im) straight so like i didnt know how to react, anyway fast forward she started to act rlly weird and yeh, like kinda being a bit dramatic about stuff, anyway one week, this was in October, i didnt rlly text her because i was rlly busy, i was hanging out with my school friends and stuff, and i wanna say she could of text me and i would of responded, maybe not right away but i would of told her i was a bit busy if she had asked, but no, one of our friends told us she was upset that i hadnt been texting her and that i should, yk so i did, and she didnt respond, then she left our performing arts gc (with our friends in it from there) so i asked her why and two days later she responded saying she felt she didnt fit it, and at this point i was kinda sick of this drama so i was by choice not gonna text her for a few days and take care of myself, then one day while at school she send me a fucking video (like a capcut edit) basically calling me and my friends from theatre bad friends, and saying i need to send it to them, anyway i didnt and we told the woman that owns our company, and btw my mum knew the whole time, from when she started acting strange, and my mum was saying to the woman that owned the company, that she will call the poice if needed and if it has been sent out and posted (the video had my face in it), then she text me calling my mum stupid and calling me stupid so i blocked her, and after that i told her we are not friends and to leave me alone, then in December i repeated we are not friends but im not sitting here being pissed anymore so like forget about the shit and move on BUT WE ARE NOT FRIENDS, anyway this bs has been dragged on for like 5-6 months and she fucking keeps harassing me to the point ive had to block her on all platforms. anyway yeh :)

[uravityxo]

hello friends,, i just coming here to say smth !! im feeling a bit anxious rn about everything and i wanted to say some stuff and then add some of it to my pinned post too :3,, putting this below cut as its a bit negative !! so warning for that <3

first thing ; i am autistic and have adhd,, i find social cues a bit confusing and sometimes i just miss them,, i can also misread things or interpret them the wrong way !! i am also a very enthusiatic rp partner <33 i like to talk lots and i message people i think are happy with me and dont mind my rambles !! however ,, if ive ever got the vibes wrong and my messages are TOO MUCH - please, please, please let me know,, i never want to bother anyone or anything !!! i am just a super happy gal who likes to yap yap yap away. if i ever say anything that upsets you or anything, let me know! its never my intention to hurt anyone, i can just be a bit silly sometimes,, !! sometimes i just need brutal (or maybe polite) honesty !!

second thing ; i am overwhelmed right now by what to do on this blog, i know i've made lots of posts and i know this is for fun ,, but theres so much in my drafts i am struggling to even write as i see the number in my drafts and shut down :(( i am trying though ( i really am!) !! today is izukus birthday so im going to focus on writing that stuff today,, but yea,, i am really struggling to deal with stuff </3 so im sorry i am posting one reply every few days,, i wish i could do more !! but yes,, anyways !!

third thing ; i can be a bit forgetful!! when it comes to blog rules, interactions and dnis and stuff,, so if i ever mess up a rule or get something wrong i apologise SO much !! i wanna get things right and i do check rules often for blogs to remind myself but i may slip up and that stresses me sometimes :((

fourth thing (sorta) ; please let me know when i fuck up!! im just a lil dude trying to get by in life,, i just like having friends and stuff but sometimes i do wrong !! and whilst it isnt intentional its still smth which is important to apologise about and talk it through !! if i ever do you wrong ,, just know your feelings are valid and its okay to be mad and get angry at me !! just let me know what i did so i can improve on things in the future <33 :3

[roboticshades]

Intro thingly ig idk helllp???

HIIIHIII, i am Moff, its what most people call me, but my name is Mason, you may call me that too. (i SUCK at spelling btw)

proshipper/darkshippers/bad com shippers DNI!!!

i am a big yapper and i have so much i wanna say rn, but illl keep it to a minimum ig. Im 14, turning 15 in 2 months, cool ik. im a transguy (not transitioned yet tho), omnisexual (i prefer guys but girls are pretty too) and im poly (i have only one partner rn tho, shes awesome!❤️) im also black and i do in fact use reclaimed slurs, that i can use.

I like the malevolent podcast a lot, fnaf, and so on. I also am a kinnie and a fictionkin..?, my fictionkins are, Chat noir(maybe), Davepetasprite (Maybe) Karkat (me trust.) and Lil hal (ME.). My main kins (not fictionkins) are, Gamzee, Vriska, Jade and Angel Dust, yes i fuck with hazbin hotel (not the creater), dni if its a big problem to you. I also love the ship, johndave!!!! i also kinda like making headcanons for characters.

uhhh BE MY FRIEND!!! ANYONE HELP. i make freaky jokes so be warmed, i tend to yap a lot about my life and stuff. i do randomly start ranting/venting, with heavy topics. SO IF YOU DO MESSAGE ME ON HERE TO BE FRIENDS, TELL ME IF YOU ARE OKAY WITH THAT BEHAVIOR AT THE START OF THE CONVERSATION!!! i tend to get annoyed and anxious VERY EASY. ALSO ONLY AGES 12 TO 16, CAN BE MY FRIEND!! (only a exceptions have been made) also match my energy, do not be nonchalant..

All ages can interact with my content i post here but only ages 12 to 16 can be my friend. plz do not message me on here as a 18 year old or older, only for a good reason. (again only a few exceptions have been made)

I LOVE TO WRITE SOMETIMES AND WHAT NOT, UHHH YEAAH!!! that is all for now! ALSO EVEN THO I MAKE FREAKY JOKES, DO NOT MESSAGE ME WANTING TO GET FREAKY IN A SEIOUS WAY, you will be blocked.

[catladymasterofsqirl]

Hi I’m cat they/them I have adhd a severe anxiety and mobility issues so I suck at lots of stuff that normal people can do so tell me any tips for really anything. I like to draw play video games read and other stuff idk really how to describe it tho

If I block you it’s probably cause you are posting things related to the election rn and I am very anxious to the point of like hdkwbdjej I will probably unblock you after the election is over

I’m in like 20 fandoms but you will most likely just see sbg and omori posts here because that’s what most of my mutuals post about and I’m to scared to make my own fandom posts also it doesn’t show in my posts but I have been in the danganronpa brainrot amount of hyperfixation for 4 years now I think so like yea

I also make image ids and write subtitles for videos to try and make this site more accessible to everyone I’m new to this though and also the part of the reason I write subtitles is because i struggle to comprehend words I can absolutely hear just can’t like comprehend so if I am doing something in incorrect formatting please correct me i will not be upset

I no longer have a terf / trans misogynist/ trans misondrias block list due to the fact that im fucking stupid sry lol

If you wanna check out my art then go to #sqirl art

I’m addition my sister who is enby but likes being called my sister cause they wanna be just like me (they don’t even know I’m enby so don’t you dare say they are faking being enby to copy me I will fight you) loves when I post their art or draw their ocs so to see cute sibling bonding over art go to #smypie art

For silly lil shit posts and that go to #sqirl shit

I also run the barron rp account and stuff but everyone already knows that lol

But yea I saw most people have like descriptions and stuff so thought I should add one too lol

Also fair warning I may talk about trauma related things and unhealthy coping mechanisms on here mostly sh but sometimes it may be other things along with suicidal tendencies and thinking everyone hates me if that bothers you please block me I don’t want to accidentally trigger anyone ever and I won’t be offended if you do

[dorothyblackburnoc]

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hello :3 welcome to the Dorothy blog!!! this is me the owner Marshall also known as @uglycryingyloser(my main acc) and i will be joining the ramshackle rp or just posting my daughter here cause i have a lot for her and i just wanna share some of it here, also just a quick thingy: I AM A MINOR so please no nsfw or being weird, im fine with ships but like keep it pg vro💔 ALR NOW FOR DOROTHY AAAAAAA

──────🔮info for oc☀️───── Dorothy Blackburn is one of the town members of ramshackle, her mother was a witch coming all the way from Mexico before settling down with some guy in ramshackle and started a business together then the two getting married and having Dorothy along with her sibling Charlene. during their time together via being homeschooled and just being at home in general, the two start learning about witchcraft and even start to practice it themselves, obviously since (at least in my rp/au thingy..) witchcraft isn’t that well known or antagonized it wasn’t long before word got around and they were immediately outcasted the second the rich community got word of this and then it was used against the two as bullying and blackmail material while also being actively burned alive at the stake

yea definitely not traumatic she’ll be fine but yea that’s her background <3 onto the bonus part of her trivia and dialogue :3 (optional to read btw although would recommend)

──────💛Dorothy trivia🌙─────

She is bisexual.

She will not rest until she gets a spell right.

She plays the flute.

She is an awful liar

Her safe space is the Library and her home

Her love language is gifts and physical touch for both platonic and romantic relationships

[ GIFTS TO EXPECT WHEN GIVEN: dead rats/mice, odd liquids in bottles(potions), drawings, leafs, dead flowers, rocks, etc just rlly odd gifts in general ]

She actively tries to do her witchcraft in private so she isn’t constantly trying to get burned alive by the rich community 

She gets very excited when she starts talking about her interest and people she adores, potentially going on rants just about the topic and rambles.

The reason people call her “cat witch” or “big-eyed witch” is because she does have big eyes, somewhat resembling a cat

She whispers. Alot. This will be important for her dialogue which is actually something we’re gonna cover rn

─🕯️DOROTHY DIALOGUE AAAHHH🌟─

OK OK OK AHAHJAKWJWKWKOWKQKKW AAAAA im so happy to share small details like this,

Ok so first off IM NOT GONNA FUCKING TYPE OUT HER FULL NAME 💔 so I’ve decided to make an emoji combo for her to make it more easy to type so here it is in my goofy ass notes app🔥

also this is what it’s gonna look like for rp, [AHGHEM]

🔮👛: “𝒽ℯ𝓁𝓁ℴ?” [ she whispered, stared at the them, her iconic eyes staring intensely at the character as she psychoanalyzed them in her head. ] the reason why she whispers is because mainly she’s an overall socially anxious woman like she has ZERO social skills or anything she would not survive a house party💔 also she just intensely stares at people so think of like boba cat eyes and that’s her, no she doesn’t know she does the eyeball thing half the time until she looks in a mirror😔

and for me the owner for Out Of Character (OOC) interactions it’s like this:

{ OOC: heyy chat }

but yea that’s it uh YAY!!! if you want to start rps or ask anything abt her just use the askbox :3!!!! that’s it but if you read the whole thing I hope you have the best day and things go well <3

[angel-fruitcake]

Hello just need to vent with someone else cause I feel like im stressing all the people around me irl feel free to not answer if you dont want to its ok really ill understand (im just writing this to you cause i saw you posting about it)

Im not american but ive spent the last months watching the campaign (mostly from misha but also in general on the internet) amd i was scared. Then biden stepped down and I felt relieved and hopefull that harris could actually win this cause "whos gonna vote HIM again? Right???" Then (or maybe before ive lost semse of time) the assassination attempt happend and I got scared again cause he had just gained if nothing at least the coolest picture he could ever wish for. But after that so many people, celebrities and not, started endorsing her and I thought there was still hope

I remember how anxious i got in 2020 and the exact moment of relief seeing Georgia going blue. And that was bad because of covid and all the stress of that slow counting but this felt worse

I spent yesterday rewatching destiel episodes to celebrate the anniversary but also to distract myself from the election but at night I just could sleep i was so scared. I talked about it with all my friends and family but they were not feeling it like me. Like tes they were scared a bit but not... not in the same way. Maybe its because its my first year out? Half out (family still doesnt know) like... i fear for the queer people (and in gemeral all the people who might be endangered) in the us cause now i feel more in the community maybe? Idk but I couldnt sleep at all

This morning I woke up and spent the morning on the destiel tag and on the AP map watchung it going redder and redder every hour and now... i dont even know what to feel

Im at loss of words thoughts and feelings. I DONT KNOW

Im scared like if I couldve done somethng for it or if it could directly affect me. It will sure but not today tomorrow or in january. It will be slow and scary and ill have to watch it happen without tje possibility of doing anything about it. Just like i have seen two wars start and my vote been wasted into nothing when my own country elected the far right just this june

Im hopeless and so fucking scared rn and my friends look at me amd dont get why I feel like a lone freak going crazy over somethung i shouldnt care about when I know I actually have to and they should care too and idk how to warn them i dont know what to do

And im not even american. I cant begin to imagine how it feels to know you have even done anythung you could and it changed nothing

So right now I wanna tell you all of you americans that you are not alone. That we are as scared as you are. Maybe it might be totally useless know this but... to me just seeing on line people going nuts makes me feel less crazy so yeah

sorry for the bad english my brain cant think straight rn (or ever lol)

omg anon i'm so sorry i didn't see this until just now !

it's perfectly ok for you to vent in my inbox. let all your fears and worries out, don't bottle them up. i'm glad you at least won't be directly affected in the immediate future, and i hope to god it stays that way.

i'm very scared as well, especially being a woman of reproductive age in america. i live in a red state too, so i already have less freedoms than my friends and family in blue states. i don't know what the future holds for america or the world, and that thought is terrifying. but all we can do right now is cling tight to our loved ones and take care of each other the best we can. i hope things will turn out okay for us all 🫂💕

ps. keep watching those destiel episodes if they bring you even a little bit of comfort. i know they definitely do for me when i feel like i'm being suffocated by the weight of everything around me