#im so annoyed it's my first actual day off in a long ass while and i was out the door running errands

[d3l3t3d-deactivated]

I HATE APPLE!!!!!!! IM GOING TO KILL STEVE JOBS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!

[multimadstoner]

Wakey Wakey

Alright first one out of the vault we'll see how this goes send in some requests if youd like me to add onto this or if you have any ideas of your own!

Pairing: Eric Coulter X Pregnant! Reader

Warnings: None just fluff

Bacon. That's the first thing you smell when opening your eyes, looking around the room you fail to find your fiancé in, you proceed to get out of bed and find the amazing smell.

"Eric?" You asked walking into the kitchen and wrapping your arm around him, looking over him to see what he's making, bacon, sunny side up eggs and potatoes are what greets you.

"I was just about to come wake you up, Four's been nagging me to get down to training for an hour."

"AN HOUR???" You almost trip over your own feet while running to the shower, why he let you sleep in that long is a mystery. You quickly start pulling out your clothes for the day, setting them on the bed when Eric walks in.

"Stop worrying, it isnt good for the baby." He said while ushering you to sit down and off your scampering feet, already aching from being up too long.

Yes, your pregnant. About 6 months actually, it caught both you and Eric by surprise (as surprised you can be without using a condom) since it was soon after your engagement that you found out, but Eric put any doubt in your mind that he would leave when he started crying. Yes the Eric Coulter, feared leader who makes initiates hang off the chasm, was crying.

"I wouldn't be worrying if you woke me up a couple hours ago so we both could be on time." You said while trying to shimmy down your shorts which were becoming hard to do with your belly growing every couple weeks or so.

"You never like being woken up and with the baby coming soon, Max agreed that you shouldn't have to wake up at the ass crack of dawn like everybody else." As caring as your fiancé may be, its quite annoying when he makes decisions without telling you about them at all.

"Eric, we talked about this, just because I'm pregnant doesn't make me any special, I can wake up the same time the initiates do with no problem."

"I know baby but humor me a bit just on this, I would be this way with anybody growing a person inside them that somebody just so happens to be the love of my life'"

Curse this man and his sweet sweet words.

"Fine, but only because im starving and the bacon smells good." You said while Eric came to help you out of his hoodie you refuse to sleep without, his comforting smell helps to fall asleep when hes off on patrols or late nights with the initiates.

He may seem all hard and mean to the rest of Chicago, but in here, in your apartment of 3 years, he is a whole different man. Don't get me wrong he has a temper and swears like a sailor but you are the calm to his storm while also being the bullet to his gun, always by his side and willing to protect him even when he doesn't need it.

"I love you" ,he said walking over and kissing your head as you finally were able to strip and start getting the water turned on for your shower, turning around you wrapped your arms around his waist and lean in so that your face is hiding in his neck while saying "Love you too," you said rising up on your tippy toes to give him a sweet kiss, one that of course he tried to deepen. "Keep doing that and we'll never leave," he said while mumbling against your lips. Hesitantly you pulled away and started taking out a towel.

"I'm gonna go set up our plates go shower you smell like the initiates," he said jokingly while slapping your ass when you turned to check the temperature. "You weren't saying that last night when you made me sit on you to do push ups." You yelled while finally hopping into your shower knowing that the your big tattooed brute was outside ready to protect you and your baby.

[byhuenii]

✩°｡ ⋆⸜ matching halloween costumes w/ jjk men

AN: listen yes i know IM 5 days late to halloween but who gives a fuck! i love me halloween i love me some matching halloween costumes and i love me some jjk men. simple girl with simple needs 🤷‍♀️ Fem!reader BTW

Included: Gojo Geto Nanami Toji Choso !!

Gojo Satoru - Beast Boy and Raven

at first he was totally against the idea of turning his hair green because duh it was what made satoru satoru! but with some little convincing he caved in (YES!)

he knew of beast boy and raven is what he told you but he didn’t he really didn’t have a childhood to which he could watch cartoons, so he had to look up beast boy and robin he even watched some clips of just beast boy and raven. he wanted to fit the role—the more he watched the more he was convinced yeah he is beast boy.

and when the costumes finally came in on time for shoko’s halloween party, he was already in character. instead of calling you princess baby he now calls you mama. you can’t lie it makes you giggle at how dedicated he is. and to be honest he really just wanted to see you in that body suit with tights and a cape. before and during the party he couldn’t keep his hands off you. (he is so beast boy :c)

Geto Suguru - Woody and Bo Peep

at first he was confused like, why would you want to be dolls? why couldn’t you be like mario and princess peach? but no you had to convince him to be woody and bo peep. it took some actual convincing a whole powerpoint presentation.

he knew of those two already since you loved doing toy story, it was your comfort movie. your go to movie. your my personality movie. he still never got the whole appeal of it still. it wasn’t like you two were doing anything it was just going to be a simple chill at home handing candy to kids while satoru and shoko were there being themselves annoying geto. so when he put the costume on the day of halloween he looked himself in the mirror laughing. you who was confused thought he liked it oh so wrong. he thought he looked stupid,

you were already in the living room with satoru and shoko talking. he wanted to walk out without the costume but he knew you had always wanted to match as bo peep and woody—he put it back on and sucked it up. satoru being satoru of course laughing at suguru but he didn’t care suguru did it for you. (he would look so cute as woody with his long hair/man bun DONT @ ME.)

Nanami Kento - Flynn Ryder and Rapunzel

DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON NANAMI. that man is such a gentleman he doesn’t care what you guys are for halloween, as long as you’re happy that’s all that mattered to him. he never cared for halloween it was just a silly holiday to dress up, this was serious for you SERIOUS BUSINESS.

the two of you binged watched every single disney princess movie and you came to the conclusion he liked tangled the most. there was just something about the movie he liked it. you immediately ordered everything for the costume so when he finally out it on, it was game over. it was like he was fit perfectly for the role as flynn ryder. he thought he looked good but when you put on the costume you looked amazing to him,

something about the corset and longer hair did something to him, got him giggling kicking his feet! you could say the same. the white open top button with the vest…it was like his normal attire but just more flynn ryder. safe to say he had kiss stains all over his face

Fushiguro Toji - The chef and Remy the rat

Listen you are basically already toji’s sugar mommy cause that boy cannot hold a job and for that why don’t we give him a job on halloween as a one of the many chefs from ratatouille!

you moreover the rat wouldn’t maybe say remy but definitely a cute ass rat! toji was all for it until you put on the ears. he looked at you all weird like you were some human sized rat which you weren’t. you literally had a grey corset white skirt and rat ears. CUTE rat ears. he wouldn’t even kiss you or hug you because he thought he would be seen as a rat lover like what??

you didn’t care you looked cute and took picture cause at the end of the day your goal was just to make you and your greasy boyfriend look cute together, maybe you should’ve done ghost face but who cares you were a cute rat.

Choso Kamo - Peter Parker and Gwen Stacy

it was a last minute costume, both of you weren’t going to do anything but remembered you could just walk around Shibuya! …well itadori invited you two because he knew you two would laze around on the couch watching cheap horror movies on the TV with some popcorn that was probably too stale for you two to eat.

and with last minute costumes calls for last minute shopping and what did you find? some spiderman suits. i mean take what you can get and don’t throw a fit! choso was skeptical cause its just a bodysuit, he would be exposed! but he still bought it, and man that shit formed his body perfectly, his abs were outlined his biceps.

the two of you ended up just throwing on some sweats/cargos over the bodysuit and called it a day. choso had the mask hang out of his front pocket, you just wanted to grab it wrap it around his neck and pull him into infinite kisses. yuuji thought you two looked so cute with the matching costume! if yuuji likes the costume and you like the costume that is all that mattered to choso, he was happy loving every moment he spent with you and yuuji.

[scekrex]

Hi!! I love ur stories sm and im gonna ask anonymously for my first time cuz im lowkey shy LOL 🥲..

I was wondering maybe a Adam x Male reader where they had a huge argument, reader mentions something mean about Eve or Lillith to Adam after he says something petty, and Adam reacts without realizing and accidentally hits Reader. (by instinct) Then in shock, reader storms out and doesn’t come back home for a couple of days. (Or you can make it as long, or as short as you want!) You can make it as angst to your liking, and maybe add a makeup (fluff) at the end!! :)) I just think it would be interesting to see.

Thank you, and take care of yourself ! ❤️

Can do, the fluffy end is probably not as fluffy as it could've been but idk it just turned out the way it did ig

All this pain and the words that I cannot say, at least I'm trying

pairing: Adam x male!reader

warnings: language, hitting (without consent), low-key toxic relationship

note: not beta read bc fuck you

The air felt tense, the vibe wasn’t as happy and cheery as it had been only moments ago and your neighbors were complaining about the loud screams and yells that kept coming from your apartment and yet neither you nor Adam got it together to simply leave in order to calm down. To be fair, it was your apartment so if someone was in the position to leave it was Adam. The argument between the two of you wasn’t just a tiny thing, it might have been the biggest fight you ever had with him.

The screaming and yelling was loud, the arguments were weak - not only his but yours were too. And yet you both found yourself too prideful to actually admit that to that. Hell would freeze before you would give him the boost of being right by admitting you were wrong, no way you’d admit to that to someone like Adam. And then he said something that caused you to snap.

“Maybe if you wouldn’t be so fucking complicated it would be easier to love your bitchy ass,” Adam yelled at you, his voice already sounded raspy and broken, his body language told you that he was not the only one who was slowly growing tired from fighting - you were too. You clicked your tongue, then responded in a quiet yet annoyed tone, “At least I didn’t lose the fucking women God created for me and only me, you did. So be my fucking guest Adam, if it’s so hard to love me, break the fuck up.” The shock in Adam’s eyes was visible, it was paired with betrayal that he felt, the comment had hit exactly the right spot to actually hurt the brunette and while you regretted it immediately, you did not apologize for it. “Leave them out of this, this shit’s between you and me, bitch,” the first man growled angrily and suddenly the betrayal and shock were overplayed by anger - pure rage vibrated through his body and he made it obvious. You simply crossed your arms over your chest, why though? Why did he get to say mean things about you and you were not allowed to shoot queally mean things back at him? “It’s not my fucking fault you were a horrible person in Eden - horrible enough to make the devil seem nicer. Maybe I’ll go down and suck Lucifer’s dick-” you were not able to finish your sentence.

Adam raised his hand and slapped you across the face. It stung, the part of your cheek that he had hit turned red but worse than that was the fact that he hit you. He had never hurt you physically before, yes there had been fights, yes there had been arguments but never had he hurt you before in any form or way. Your mind was blank, your body felt numb except for your cheek and all you were able to do was to stare, stare at him, stare at his hand, stare at the wall behind him. Before Adam was able to apologize through the fog that had clouded your brain lifted and you stormed off, you grabbed your backpack on your way to the front door and just as the brunette you called your boyfriend was about to say something, you slammed the door shut. From the hallway you heard how one of the picture frames fell to the ground and broke, you couldn’t care any less.

-

Adam just stood there and watched because what else was he supposed to do? He knew it was too late to apologize, he knew he fucked up badly and that there was the possibility of you breaking up with him and if he was completely honest with himself he deserved it. He had never been the perfect boyfriend you deserved, he had always been out of line, loud and simply too much but you had always assured him that that was simply who he was and that you loved him for who he was - but was that still the case? Did you still love him after that? Because it was one thing to pick fights with each other far more often than other couples did but it was a different thing entirely to hit your partner, Adam was very aware of that. And yet he had still raised his hand against you, a thing he had sworn to himself to never do had been done and he wasn’t able to simply undo it. A weak apology wouldn’t do either, not after that.

He wanted to go after you but he knew you well enough to be aware of how stupid that idea was, the fight would only continue outside of the apartment and he would only cause things to escalate even more and that he really didn’t want. He wasn’t even sure why he hit you in the first place, it had just… kind of happened? He didn’t know. What he did know was that you were gone and that you’d surely spend the night at someone else’s place and while he hated the idea of it, he was smart enough to know that it was for the best to have a little distance between you and him for the night. Surely you’d come back the next day and you two could sort things out.

-

But you didn’t come back the next day. Or the day after. Or the day after that day.

Adam was freaked out to say the least, he was worried you might secretly dump his ass, stop by when you knew he wasn’t home to pick up your stuff and just disappear. His wives had left him and he was convinced you would leave him just like them. You weren’t his husband yet, you could simply disappear if you wanted to and that scared Adam, it scared him deeply. Because deep down he knew that afterlife without you wouldn’t make any sense, that he was simply a lost soul without you by his side.

He was sitting on the couch, waiting for you to come back, he had canceled all the appointments and band meetings to simply sit on the couch of your apartment and wait for you to come back home, that was all he wanted. He wanted to know you’re safe. But he didn’t know shit because you weren’t answering his calls or responding to his texts, you did read them though. It was driving him crazy to not be sure of anything despite the fact that you were gone.

Where were you?

When would you come back?

Would you come back to begin with?

The brunette jumped off the couch when he heard a key in the lock and his face reflected the relief he was feeling when he saw that you were the one opening the door. Without thinking twice he rushed over to where you stood, the front door still open behind you. The first man pulled you into a bone crushing hug, mumbling sweet nothings under his breath as his wings wrapped around your body in protection. “Fuck, you’re back,” he whispered, sounding so lost, so hurt, so scared. You weren’t hugging him back but you also didn’t try to push him away or get out of the hug in general.

What were you supposed to do? Hugging him back felt wrong after he hit you but pushing him away seemed even worse - yet you wanted an apology. An honest and emotional apology with an explanation of why he did what he did. But you got none of that, instead you listened to Adam who was brabbling everything that he had worked so hard on to bottle up inside of him. “Don’t fucking leave me, do what you want, punch me, scream at me, kick me out but don’t fucking leave me.” And if Adam would be more emotional than he was he would’ve cried, would’ve broken down in front of you while holding you. But he wasn’t emotional and therefore didn’t cry. What he did was that he made sure you understood how desperately he needed you in his life.

And while that was not what you wanted - an apology - it was okay for the moment.

[kae-eee]

all my thoughts about apple white i can remember rn because im so unnormal about her

she’s been best friends with dexter forever after, ashlynn and briar are just her main friend group because they’re the most popular fairytale princesses

shes a little envious of dexter who’s allowed to just wear his glasses without an issue

walks into walls and trips on the stairs regularly, she plays it off well

she had the biggest crush on ashlynn when they were like 13, it never fully went away

a little part of why she was so hurt during true hearts day

shes known the charmings her entire life and always took to the twins more than daring

her mother wasn’t happy about that

her favorite color isn’t red

apples make her throat feel fuzzy, what could that mean?

i also think she’s allergic to honey or dairy idk

hella people were scared to tell her who actually woke her up, she didn’t find out till a while later

and she very much faked now being head over heels for daring after she woke up until someone told her

she also thought he was just getting cold feet now that he was avoiding her

wearing her crown so much gives her migraines

and i think it’d be worse for her than other royals because hers is probably bigger

really really easily annoyed

dislikes blondie due to her lack of respect for boundaries, she’s only told raven and dexter this

coldest take but she’s autistic

snow won’t get her tested

queen of masking

does not stfu (yapple white!!)

talks fast as fuck too (yapple white!!!!)

had the biggest fuckin fit when one reflection broke up

i think her and darling were also quite good friends when they were little, but they had different interests and grew apart

im not exactly a dappling shipper, but apple romanticized the hell out of darling once she came to terms with who woke her

also it took her a really, really long time to come to terms with it

super easily annoyed (i cant remember if i already said this)

and her lowest grade is her diplomacy class because of it

shes still acing it though

i think she likes to make jewelry but doesn’t often because it roughs up her hands

like metal jewelry not bracelets made of beads, those wouldn’t mess up her hands

deadliest puppy dog eyes you’ll ever see

noise sensitive

refuses to think about her gender identity and expression because she has a nagging feeling she may bump into something that she’s not ready to unpack

i’d like to think she could hear during her enchanted sleep but then idk how she wouldn’t know daring didn’t wake her

very judgy, trying to unlearn it post way to wonderland

learned it in the first place from her mother

doesn’t text with emojis at all

horrible at replying to messages

hemophilia

broke a bone or two on the way down the well

and those spots ache when it rains

cat person

and she really fucks with orange cats

i wanna say she texts like a grandma

it’s ominous as hell

“hello briar…i’ve seemed i’ve fallen ill…may you inform me on our assignment for princessology… good day..”

the type to remind the teacher of the homework

enjoys to dissect things, but that’s not very princess like is it?

raven snores and apple debates on smothering her every other night

girly needs her beauty sleep

awhile after she’s found out darling woke her up and her destiny may not be as straight cut as she thought, her identity crisis hit her around eleven or twelve at night on a random ass thursday, and raven has to talk down a sobbing screaming apple and get her to go to bed because neither of them are unpacking all that comphet right at that very moment

another cold take but the biggest control freak ever

type of girl to hijack every group project, and come in with her own presentation the day it’s due

a sour over sweet person

but sweet over savory

her mother would’ve dyed her hair if she wasn’t scared that it would get messed up

because blonde hair is better than fried hair

that’s all i’ve got for now, maybe I’ll add to this eventually.

[ganondoodle]

so, doing this as an extra post bc i dont want to spam op nor invite more disaster into their post (sorry)

(i get annoyed, i get frustrated, but i rarely get pissed off, so if this sounds aggressive to you, it is; i have had enough of arguing with people -even if most of that arguing has happened on twitter-)

someone had replied (and later apparently deleted) something along the lines of "well zelda wanted to restore hyrule at the end of botw and what is so bad about ganondorf always being the bad guy in the way that he is?"

so first off, while i know hyrule and KINGDOM of hyrule is often used as an equally interchangeable word to refer to the world there, i dont think she meant the kingdom or its or its monarchy when she said that (does she? i dont have the end in my head rn and pretty sure its a lil different than english anyway) and much more the LAND of hyrule, its still in shambles even if people have found ways to live with it- that is an interpretation of me mostly, you can think what you want in that regard idc

secondly .... im not gonna get into that rant bc you cannot be seriosuly asking what is bad about how ganondorf is presented, treated in the games (espeically in totk) and his role and "writing" (oh geez i dont know maybe all the racism and stereotypes?? also, frankly boring ass writing, if your villain can be replaced by a cloud of toxic goo incapable of speech and nothing would change except saving money for voice actors that dont fit the role that is not a great look- hes never gotten much but totk is a new low)

then theres this reply

astro-shark3113 replied: "You're kidding right? If she cared about reinstating the monarchy then why is the castle still in disrepair after five years? Why does she become a teacher and live in a cottage with her boyfriend instead of taking on duties as princess? She clearly wants to help people and be a leader but she can do that without wanting to be a Queen. Please be real"

i am not kidding and i AM being real, i think you need to look at the game without your rose tinted glasses for a second; the castle is still in ruin? what the hell do you expect, theres no soldiers and very few servants left, repairing anything is quite impossible in that time and frankly not a priority (not proof of her not caring lol) also there is a plan for it at the very least given the camps with the hyrule crest all over it in the ruins of castle town- we dont SEE her as a teacher, or living a "normal" life, that happens in between the game, its flavor text, what HAPPENS in the game is her being taught a lessson on who she needs to be and what hyrule needs to be (pretty in your face too, she gets sent to paradise past of the "first" king that is some supposedly godly thing from the HEAVENS and watches him and his queen die at the hands of the eviiil guy, the last scene in the game mimics perfectly the scene where everyone that god king got under his rule swears undying loyalty to her ffs); she does live in that house, but what other option is there, set up camp in the collapsing throne room all alone?? nigh everyone from that time is long dead and the only one she actually knows is link who happens to have a house (bc impa doesnt care i guess idk), with her ""boyfriend"" is also interesting, a "boyfriend" that apparently is locked in the basement, lives in the woods or straight up dematerlializes when theres no big bad in need of stabbing bc why the hell does no one fucking know him in hateno??? not even the kids that come to the house EVERY SINGLE DAY?? and taking on duties as a princess, she very much does? just bc she doesnt get physically carried around in a castle doesnt mean she isnt doing royal stuff (also, again, that happens BETWEEN the games, not actually in totk), she still sees herself as the princess, everyone calls her that, she herself calls herself that (if the memorial stones are anything to go by) and everyone listens to the most overtly stupid and nonsensical stuff that zelda puppet says (even her friends follow that order without even asking back???) after over 100 years of there not being a kingdom as such its pretty weird how everyone immediately, even the ones not alive for the calamity event, snaps into blindly following her orders

"she can still lead without being a queen", did we play the same game?? totk? TEARS of the KINGDOM?? (its zeldas tears, she IS the kingdom) that game?? the game couldnt be more directly telling you that its whole point is that royal family holy and good and how much everyone has to sacrifice to uphold the holy kingdom bc its the only thing that keeps evil man from overtaking it!! including turnign herself into a farmable, glorified stone pedestal for the entirety of the actual game and then that sacrifice not meanign shit bc she just gets deus ex machina'd back (i didnt need her to stay a dragon, though it would have been the better choice if she still didnt get an active part in the game i would kill for her to have been a capable companion instead of the stupid ghost sages, and you dont even get to actually do anything for it, it just happens), not even the nuclear pebble is lost, how great! she and everyone else that is a leader of their people has a nuclear pebble now!! they will not let a bad evil man be a threat ever again!! like the point to bring her back in that utterly unsatisfying way is that otherwise the royal line wouldnt exist anymore, its a blessing of her ancient ancestors!! woohooo!!

and the thing is, i LIKE botw zelda, i liked her character, that she wasnt the typically maiden princessy type, her struggle (even if i find the way she unlocked her powers lame), i do NOT like totk zelda, after the intro of the game she is a princessy maiden standing prettily at the side of the god king that rules the only thing keeping evil at bay, the level of how much totk disrespects her makes me mad on her behalf but i have ranted about that alone enough as well

and with this i am DONE talking about this game, i have ranted so much about it, made my points carefully clear over and over, said that i dont have the nerves left to be nice anymore about it given how much shit alone on twitter i had to live through just bc i dared mildly critisizing the damn game, if you comment some snarky "be real" thing again im just gonna go straight to blockign people bc i am done with this

[blues824]

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa do you watch vtubers? i saw the requests were open and was gonna request housewardens with a reader like vox akuma but i was hesitant because i didn't know if you watched vtubers or not. twst and nijisanji(en) are my big hyperfixations rn and I put vox's streams on in the background while im playing. (you don't need to watch vox's streams to get his persona down if you wanna do this request actually. watching 'the vox akuma experience' on youtube would be enough ;-;)

I do watch VTubers! Ninomae ina’nis was the first one I’ve watched since I had a request a while back, and that brought me into the world of Vtubers. Gender-neutral reader.

Riddle Rosehearts

When he heard that you were a voice demon, he thought you were something akin to a siren, but in demon form. He appreciated how you dressed very formally, and how you remained polite in all of your interactions.

Then you started getting comfortable with being in Twisted Wonderland. That’s when you busted out the lewd and crass jokes, the flirty comments, etc. and he was just so freaking flustered all of the time. You even once got close to his ear and said that his shoelace wasn’t tied in a very seductive manner just to mess with him.

He would’ve collared you by now if you weren’t a demon who could easily overpower him. You had battle experience that he has only read of, so you were nearly indestructible. You never took your amusement too far, though. After all, you didn’t want your beloved queen to get too angry.

You and Trey team up to make meals for Heartslabyul. Riddle tries to help you both (because he’s jealous whenever you two hang out by yourselves in the kitchen), and he’s not all that bad. You don’t play pranks on him like the Vice Housewarden. The Housewarden absolutely loves every type of food you make.

Leona Kingscholar

At first appearance, he thought you had a stick up your ass. I mean, you had a very formal way of speaking, plus you dressed in a suit every single day. However, he eventually found out that you were the exact opposite person he thought you were.

You both got to a point that you flirted with each other more than you just casually talked to each other. One thing that became apparent was that you both were very competitive in charm and seduction and would always try to make each other flustered.

He doesn’t mind the fact that you are a demon, as long as you don’t do anything that annoys him or disrupts the productivity of his dormitory. The chances of that happening are very slim because you’re usually napping with him.

He loves the dishes you cook for him, even if it contains vegetables. You somehow make the veggies taste so good that his mouth waters when he smells the food. You have essentially replaced Ruggie in the Savanaclaw kitchen with your awesome cooking.

Azul Ashengrotto

If you weren’t a voice demon, he would have tried to find a way to get you under a contract. Unfortunately, your magic was demonic and therefore not the type of magic that can be taken away like that. He also appreciated how you dressed formally no matter the occasion.

When you started bringing out the flirting and the lewd jokes, he was more flustered than he has ever been in his whole entire life. He couldn’t even imagine returning the behavior since he stuttered trying to talk to you in general.

He also doesn’t mind that you are a demon. In fact, with your permission, he uses it as a threat to other customers who don’t comply with the rules of the Lounge. It tends to scare off unwanted people, and helps profit stay stable.

Azul asked if you wanted to try cooking for the Mostro Lounge because your food was really good and could probably sell. You made gourmet food, which is much different than they originally had on their menu. So, your cooking went on a secret menu.

Kalim Al-Asim

He wasn’t wary of you at all. He thought your clothes were interesting because surely you must get hot in that suit. Then he grew worried whenever you visited Scarabia since it was always hot in the desert that was the dorm.

He absolutely had no idea what you were saying or trying to do when you were trying to flirt with him until Jamil explained it to him. That is when his face just goes completely red and he feels so dumb. He mentally beats himself up for not getting what you said at the moment you said it.

This continues and he is just so flustered all the freaking time. You were just flirting with him over and over. He eventually uses his innocent charm to compliment you and ‘flirt’ with you in return, but he always fails to make you blush. 

He wishes he could eat your food, but he doesn’t know if it is poisoned or not. So, you offer to have Jamil watch you cook so that everyone is sure you didn’t sneak anything into the meal. He is so happy, and when his Vice Housewarden gives the ‘ok’, he digs in and is in love with all the different flavors.

Vil Schoenheit 

He almost squealed in excitement when he saw how good you looked. You knew how to dress very well, you did your makeup well to accentuate your features, you were basically his dream significant other. He praised any higher being above that you walked into his life.

You both tend to flirt with each other since it proves to boost self-esteem. Everyone besides Rook gag at how lovey dovey you are. The hunter volunteers to be the flower girl at your wedding (reminds me of when Hercules Mulligan was the flower girl at Hamilton’s wedding, iykyk).

He also doesn’t mind that you are a demon. It wasn’t like you would go ballistic and slay everyone out of nowhere, so he was relaxed around you. You often play as his voice of reason with all the wisdom you’ve accumulated over the years.

You both work to promote healthier eating, and you try to cook for the dorm and have a few of the Pomefiore members help out. You refuse to cook fish since you don’t like the smell or taste, you just incorporate more of other foods to replace it and Vil is okay with it. He can tell that the entire dorm is just a bit healthier as well.

Idia Shroud

He most definitely squealed because you looked and acted like his favorite VTuber Koe Daemonium. Mans worshiped you. He considered himself as one of your kindred, and when you told him that he was your lover after a while, he nearly died of joy.

Idia gets nose-bleeds whenever you act more seductive or lewd. Ortho always thinks that he’s having a brain aneurysm and tries to perform medical aid only for you to tell him that he was just a tad flustered.

He also doesn’t mind that you are a demon, what he’s worried about is you taking a liking to someone else and leaving him for them. He is insecure and shy, so he wouldn’t be very surprised if you picked someone over him, and this worries you. So you make a vow to him to always make him feel loved.

One way you do that is you make him food, and good food at that. You were aware that he didn’t get adequate enough nutrients in his diet, so you fixed that problem for him. Idia reported feeling better than he had in a long time, and you were glad that you could be a part of the process.

Malleus Draconia

Oh, goodness. We have a demon and a dragon; in my mind, they are both very possessive creatures, and it shows with you and Malleus. You like to make sure that you both will be safe when one of you is going somewhere without the other.

He doesn’t understand what you are trying to do when you flirt or say something lewd to him, so Lilia kind of has to act as a translator. Of course, he tries his best not to get flustered when he finally understands what you were trying to say. Instead, he reciprocates your affection.

Lilia absolutely adores having chats with you. You both have past battle experience, you enjoy gaming, and you both dress well. Silver likes hanging out with you and sparring against you. Sebek absolutely despises you, and it’s mostly because you are a demon and therefore “aren’t a good example for Waka-sama”. You didn’t care, though.

Everyone became grateful for you when you took over cooking, saying that Lilia deserved a break. The old fae didn’t mind being treated by his future child-in-law, and the food you made was heavenly (get it?). Malleus makes a big deal, saying how the future co-ruler of the Briar Valley shouldn’t have to cook for anybody, but you laugh it off and say that it’s fine.

[rzyraffek]

Hi hi!! I’m here to request something with my bbg Vincent Sinclair! your thingy doesn’t exactly specify which slashers, so I think I’ll ask for Vincent and Michael Myers just so u have an idea u can write abt if you don’t know the other!!

Okay okay, so what about a reader with a bad attitude? So for Vince, I would assume that their relationship starts with the reader defending Vincent from Bo. Like, Bo just starts calling Vincent names (like the mean truck man he is >:[) and Vincent is just taking it, then the reader steps between the two twins and just starts BURNING Bo with every insult they have.

“Oh, he’s the freak? Well at least he knows how to keep his mouth shut and isn’t asking everyone with a *female anatomy* to *adult fun* every ten seconds.” or something vicious like that-

and Vincent is just dumbfounded that someone has the balls to speak up against Bo.

and for Michael, same thing, but the reader is just being so mean when he starts chasing them! Like, they try to hide behind a door and they make sure that Michael saw them, so when he opens the door, the reader just flips him off and kicks him away from the door really harshly-

or, just being really really hard to catch. Like if they climb somewhere high and he can’t get to them, the reader just sticks their tongue out and flips him off again with the snarkiest attitude!!

anyways, that’s all I gots for now! Feel free to ignore this lol, but if you don’t directly respond to this ask but do use the idea, I ask that u credit me!

u look lovely today, and I hope u have an amazing night/evening/morning/day!

<3

First of all, for some reason I got no notification that somone requested anything and I have no clue how long it was sitting in my inbox. Second of all thats great idea cuz in most of fics reader is always very meow meow shy uwu bebi, which is sometimes annoying tbh, they should be rude sometimes. Requests open

Slashers with badass s/o

Vincen Sinclair

Bros used to this kind of treatment, name calling, mean words, yelling ect

This relationship started by s/o just simply asking Vincent if he's alright after Bo yelled at him

Any kind of affection makes him blush like teenager girl after watching twilight for first time

In his free time he will just hold s/o hand and walk behind them like lost puppy

Imagine: "yo vinc get over here you lazy ass" vincent:😰🏃 "well BO maybe if you stopped acting like such drama queen and get rid of this nasty ass attitude then MAYBE people will start helping you without fear of losing a limb or sanity?" 🧍🧍‍♂️

Tbh the only reason that Bo didn't commit murder on s/o is that vincent is actually very happy now and even that Bo is a horrible human being he doenst want his bro completely emo

Lack of ideas so im just going to put some mean words to Bo here

"Dont worry vincent, hes just jealous cuz he cant hold conversation with women for more than 4seconds without scaring them to death. litteraly"

"Aw baby dont be sad, just compare your hair routine with his. Im surprised hes not bald to be honest"

Live laugh love Vincent

"Nonono dont be upset, how about we draw together huh? Can you go pass me crayons from your workplace😇i totaly wont whoop your brother while you are away"

If s/o is just rude to Bo face, Vincent will be so so happy that they protect him but so so worried that s/o is about to evaporate due to Bo anger issues

"You calling him a freak? Better look who has stable relationship and lack of anger issues L bozo"

Also now Vince is 24/7 with her bcs not only shes great, protects him and provides comfort🥰

Micheal Myers

"AHAHAH looozer can't climb the ladder? Yo old as hell man go to retirement home"

S/o calling him granma to bully him

"Yo man stop begin such stalker or im going go call yo sister (in some versions laurie is his sister if u dont agree just ignore this part lol) and she gonna beat you up

Micheal spawning behind her, inside her house:🧍 "😨 yo sup Myers wacha got there? A a knife? Eee cool cool"🏃

"If you have such blood-lust go kill rats in my basement they keep stealing my food"

🧍 Myers emoji

Im sorry if its unfunny or boring I watched house of wax when it came out so like long time ago and I kinda forgor vincent and bo personalities. And Myers personality is basicly 🧑‍🦯old man

[nighthaterfrfr]

Do you have any more headcanons/thoughts about your Steph and Max as half-siblings AU? :)

BRO IVE BEEN OK

ive been wanting to discuss this for so long but for ppl who want to know (mostly background)

-i think that max and steph share the same dad, he seems like the one to sleep around. however, he settled w steph's mother and a secretly pregnant max's mother ended up w his ass of a dad.

-for a while, maybe 13-14 years, they never knew about their relation to each other. however, max and steph definitely saw the other one in school. max was praised as a football prodigy and steph was infamous for being a slacking and skipping mayor's daughter.

-they look somewhat similar. from the nose, ears, eyes, hell even the hair? there are small differences here and there, but they were definitely called siblings by their classmates

-they were also quite good friends. apparently, once u find out both ur dads are assholes, u bond. max would invite her to all his football games and she somehowb goes. these two were best friends, practically inseparable.

-one day in 7th grade, solomon was complaining to ms tessburger abt his affair. steph was overhearing about how it's odd to see one of kids succeed at something, while the daughter he has is doing nothing of importance.

-like any teenage girl w a completely shitty relationship w her father, steph was enraged, and a bit jealous. finding out she was related to max unlocked a bit of a one-sided hating towards him

-max however, always knew that he had a sister. before his mom divorced, she told him stories abt his birth father, and how when she was with him, she had no idea solomon already had a girlfriend.

-she reached out to steph's mother and had informed her of what happened. however, since she couldn't get out of the marriage jst yet, her mother instead acknowledged and thanked max's mother.

-ofc, max's mom never told him who his sister was. knowing him and his father, she feared that sudden new relation between him and the mayor's daughter may get to his head. so, instead she jst told him that he had a sister in hatchetfield.

-from around mid 7th grade to early 8th grade, max noticed how whenever steph was forced into a group w him, she'd always looked pissed off. annoyed. generally angry.

-in the 8th grade during lunch, max came up to her table, asking "the hell is wrong w me??? we used to be close u fuckin', uh... DINGUS!" this offended the hell out of steph and she umped out of her seat and started to swing punches at max. as any middle school in america does, a bunch of students started recording and posting it.

-steph and max sat in the principal's office, both with a lot of bruises and some bloody hands and noses. as solomon lauter and jagerman's father walked in, both of them stared at each other. eventually, max's father got into a full blown yell w solomon.

-as the two kids watched their fathers yelled at one another, that was when steph turned to max and finally revealed why she was so distant. "apparently, ur my fucking brother or smth."

-max sighed, looking at steph w a disappointed glare. "im sorry for being.. ur brother, i guess?" he replied, the two laughing as he explained his side of the story, and further strained the relationship between steph and solomon

(alr onto actual headcanons)

-they do love joking abt being half-siblings around their friends. despite it being true, theyre all so confused on if either max or steph is lying or not.

-the first person for max who found out that his sister was steph was kyle. he couldn't rlly believe it, but he jst kinda vibed. so max telling him went rlly chill.

-on steph's side however, when pete found out she had max jagerman as a brother, she was immediately bombarded with questions and pleas from pete. she tried offering these ideas to max, but he dismissed them, telling her "i need to remain on top, steph!" secretly, he does go easier on the nerds. by a little bit.

-max and steph spend the most time together outside of home, more at school or wherever. whether its going bowling w max's teammates at some bowling lanes, or hanging out in the lakeside mall jst the two of them.

-neither of them ever had a proper enough relationship w their family, so spending time w each other relived them of that disappointing truth a little bit.

-one time, max got so pissed at steph he threw a football at her from like, 40 yards away in order to get her attention. unfortunately, steph being preoccupied on her phone did not notice the absolute perfect throw coming right into her head.

-safe to say, he apologized and ran to her, trying his best to relieve her of a bruise.

-because of this incident, steph had wanted to begin learning how to play football. max was her teacher, and he sucked at it. like, explaining anything to her was alien to steph. however, over time, she slowly got the hang of it, and was good to a point when max stopped teaching her

-sometimes after a nighthawk game, if u stay jst long enough, u can see steph and max throw a football at each other from pretty far. and if ur lucky, seeing steph trying to tackle max. but most of the time, that mostly leads to the funniest image of steph falling ever.

i have a lot more, but my ask IS open yall lmaoooo

[luminousbeings-crudematter]

yo im cumming to simons cooking tutorial videos anon your reply was everything i imagined and better. he's such a dreamy and annoying dickhead i need him so bad. was wondering, does simon also wear his ring on a chain around his neck? is he ex military in this au? does his wife start exercising w him or does he have to drag her to go for a run with him to see the sunrise? what does simon wear in and out of the kitchen? id love to hear more of their dynamic they're probably my favourite couple atm... LOLLLL

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING I LOVE TALKING ABOUT THESE TWO!!!

I have tried to answer them best I can!

Does Simon also wear his ring as a chain around his neck?

Yes! At first, both of you agree to do this because you want to keep your wedding private. You had a quiet ceremony, just the two of you, and you want to savour it. The rings also become a sticky issue when you get in your head a bit about what people will think. So you just continue to wear them around your necks. It never fails to make Simon's heart swell to three times it's size when he sees you from across the kitchen in the middle of a very busy service, fiddling with the chain. He knows that if you wore his ring on your finger, you'd be turning it round and round. It's only when you get hit on by a dude on a staff night out, that Simon gets so mad, and so mad possessive, he actually buys you another ring that you can wear on your finger. When you turn up to work with it and Soap sees it, he squeals in a pitch only dogs can hear.

Is Simon ex military in this AU?

He is not, though you do think that when you first start working for him. Simon's just a big boy.

Do you start exercising with him or does he have to drag you to go with him?

Oooh this is a good one! Big surprise, Simon is a bit of a gym bro. He's not addicted to it or anything, but recognises that the weird, unsocial hours he works means that any sort of meaningful routine to go to the gym goes out the window. He goes when he can, and the man's all about the strength training. In relation to you (the reader), you tell me! Are you a gym person? If you are, then here's how it goes: You try not to go to the gym together. He is...far too attractive and distracting while he bench presses your body weight and runs on the treadmill for so long without a break. You've been the beneficiary of his stamina though, so you can't complain too much. If you're not a gym person: You feel him wake up at the ass crack of dawn one day, and you just assume he's off to the gym, so you murmur a sleepy see you later babe. But he's sitting on your side of the bed, brushing your hair back and you smell fresh coffee, so like a fiend, you make grabby motions for it. He convinces you to go for an early morning walk with him, and he takes you to his favourite spot in the city. You kiss him with the sunrise at his back, and it makes him feel like he's a fucking God.

What does Simon wear in and out of the kitchen?

In the kitchen: Chef whites, always. Long-sleeved chef jacket (occasionally rolled up neatly to his forearms). Black chef's trousers. Timberlands. Out of the kitchen: Dark jeans and a black hoodie or black jeans and a black hoodie. When he's around you, out of the kitchen (and occasionally in the kitchen): Nary a stitch of clothing.

Thank you for your questions!! I love you, anon, you are so special to me!!

[the-official-account]

Episode 21 liveblog

"safely is relative for agent spar" HOLY SHIT a five foot drop is a lot to be fair but spar just shot off. Like how he fucking ran down jasper. Why is he so fast???

*QC and Spar jump through the hole in the wall and start booking it across the street.*

*vellum gives a long suffering sigh*

Brief moment of silence for the two missiles that ruined my 2048 game as I was going for the highscore—actually oh shit I already got a high score.

This is central to my podcast listening expirience

I might be able to save it????

The episode has been on pause for 20 minutes while I perform emergency number square surgery......

It was not a success.

SUPER NUEROTYPICAL BEHAVIOR. ANYWAYS. BACK TO THE SCHEDULED PROGRAMMING

The episode has been going for four minutes

I WILL BE RUNNING UP THE NEAREST WALL, THANK YOU 😂😂

"there shouldn't be, but there is" yeeeeah I don't trust a SINGLE person in that crowd now

Timby can't catch a break, huh?

"emerald first"

"what emerald?"

"I WAS FUCKING THERE"

[this is the point where Edil loses the post and then is lucky enough to restore it...the vibes of the day are sub par]

Timby is SO annoying I love him.

"Sindershore is the town with the most backflipping skill per person" is actually a statistical error. QC Georg, who can do so many backflips per minute that scientists debate whether he qualifies as the world's first combustion engine, is an outlier and should not have been counted

this looney toons chase sequence is my favorite thing.

THEY BOTH JOKERED

"I didn't mean for candlenights" BFKGSODVDKD I'm pretty sure candlenights is distinctly like an open thing? But I'd have to check

"he decided to he a rat, and I decided to break his legs, and he decided to blow up the hotel room" THATS AND INTERESTING...I mean! I respect being self aware!

This scene is very good and vellum is very good I just have no thoughts in my brain. It's like "Ah! As a member of law enforcement you are doing the bare minimum" but the bare minimum is RARE and vellum is ❤️vellum🥰

XBALA AND JAKUB ARE TOGETHER!!

"pretty good! Well MMMMM! A bomb just went off! But personally good!" He's so <3

Please don't be a time freezing criminal Jakub. I'm cool with like. Like sure be gay do crimes, just not magic crimes that can hurt people real bad.

Jakub has a cruuuuuush.

Xbala is a gearhead, likes to drive & tinker with cars and such.

I NEED to see Xbala and Vellum getting into it.

Spar's feeling jealous fosvsksvsks.

QC IS JUST FUCKING GECKO-ING ON THE CAR IM DEAD.

Midtro groooooove. Midtro jam.

Spar having lurking enemies that he hasn't noticed is SO perfect.

Oh. My. God. Vellum's demi ass loving cheesy romance is such! A! Mood! This is so perfect. [Edil will remember this]

THE QUEER CREEPER ALSO LIKING THE BOOK DUSPDGSKDVDLDB

"wouldn't you like to know" BFKSGSHEGOS????? BITCH?

OH SHIT THE OTHER NOTE.

OOOOOH, oh shit it's not the emerald.

VELLUM SAID FUCK THAT JSVSKSGS icccceeeee cold.

ARE THEY BONDING OVER PAPERWORK RIGHT NOW?

Yk what Timby's whole deal with not getting collected to Crystallis is like. Honestly, valid?

Oooh vampire mastermind. Sick. Why would they want diamond tho? I wonder if they might somehow know diamond's looking for a way to reverse biomancy. Voracity is a rad name. He should get that eye thing and grab the other from brick!

VELLUM OPENED THE BREIFCASE OH MY GOD

I love them. I love them so much.

JAKUB GOT EIGHT SUCCESSES.

The emerald has a tracking spell........int-er-EST-ing

"honestly you were a little pathetic today" WOOOOOOOOOOWBWHWVAJAHSH

Crime time

TIMBY GOT PICK POCKETED. FUCK.

OH SUCH ANYA. NOOOOO.

Spar stop being funny I'm scared

I wonder if they can use timby'a perfume to go to the concert anyway

MY FIRST NAME IS MERIM FELSPAR?

I....

I......

Busbdjdhdjdv???? HUH?

[horce-divorce]

I have hard boundaries for myself about how I use social media that I've followed for the last few years. Ever since I briefly left tumblr and tried twitter, I took so much psychic damage from that experience that I had to make new rules about how I use the internet. Setting app timers did nothing for me, so I compromised: im allowed to use social media daily to my heart's content (which I found isnt actually all that much)- as long as isn't the FIRST thing I open when I wake up.

For YEARS it was my habit to crack open my eyes and click into FB or Twitter or Insta before I even got out of bed. It was like this compulsive Need to Know What's Going On Out There. what did I miss while I was asleep? Never much, but always some new drama, some new political blunder, some new Person of the Day everyone was dunking on. I hated it, but I COULDN'T stop. I physically couldn't resist.

So lately I've tried to replace that habit with, just, something else. Anytime I feel the urge to click into social media, I try using another app instead. Usually it's a game (dvc has been great for me bc of the social feature, but just as often I'll open up my coloring book, wordscapes, or any other game that keeps me busy for 2 seconds and fulfills the "click button get dopamine" urge). Especially first thing in the morning. My brain needs a solid 2-3 hours of consciousness before I can handle social media.

A cool life hack I learned recently is that it's easier to get up in the morning if you do something you actually LIKE to do first thing in the day. it's done wonders for my mental health. I went from "ugh, morning again? It was literally morning yesterday," to feeling like Spongebob hopping out of bed going "IM READY!" every day. Clicking into social media was NOT something I was doing because I liked it. Gaming is something I do because I love it. I love checking on my dragons, it makes me feel HAPPY to have looked at them, i make new friends playing games bc we already have something in common (ive rarely made new friends on social media. I used to make friends ALL THE TIME playing games like neopets, roleplaying and posting on forums, and building little websites and things- ive even made a bunch of friends on tumblr. Never on FB, though). It's a world of difference getting up and checking on my animal crossing villagers, who fill me with glee and delight, vs looking at FB first thing in the morning and feeling bitter about all the people I know who aren't paying attention to me.

So anyway, this has worked SHOCKINGLY well for me? Usually just clicking another app and looking at it for a minute fulfills the urge to have clicked the FB button, or whatever, which then goes away- and I have sated my craving without pissing myself off, and without creating additional urges by going on social media. I have been using social media SO MUCH LESS since I started doing this and I've been feeling amazing for it. And it's not always games. I also use more practical apps like Bearable and Habitica. Sometimes I'll even click thru my photos or notes instead of clicking the social app.

This morning, I broke my habit. For the first time in weeks or maybe even months, I woke up and clicked FB and Insta first thing. I shared a post or two lately and I was hoping my friends had seen it, but I knew they hadn't even before I looked. 2 likes, no comments. I clicked into Instagram and saw a Reel from Kevin James Thornton, a comedian and whole media personality who has over 600k follows on Instagram alone, pleading with his existing fans to choose to check up on him and to sign up for his email list instead, because the algorithm only wants to hook new followers. The 600k existing ones aren't good enough. Gotta have that exponential growth or else our shareholders will be very cross with us!

I realized this morning what it is about FB that makes me so irate, the thing that creates additional urges to post my whole ass and pick fights and be as annoying as possible: because I hate feeling like I'm being ignored. And this is a feeling social media manufactures for you CONSTANTLY. You log on and ONLY see posts that are already popular, posts that are already "getting engagement." Everyone else is clearly online commenting and interacting with all this other stuff except for yours. Why aren't you good enough? Don't they like YOUR posts? Why are they ignoring you? What did you do wrong?

You can KNOW wholeheartedly that Facebook gives incentives to certain posts/posters and that it does the opposite with certain topics, especially socio-political ones. You can know that it's the algorithm refusing to show your posts, and not your friends ignoring you. But still, you have a page, people know how to find you- can't they come to your page to check? Did they forget you exist? Do they just not care? You can SEE they're online, and they can see YOU'RE online, so what's not clicking???

In me, at least, this WILDLY increases the urge to post something dramatic, incendiary, or outrageous just to get a response. OH, you guys don't like me when im being polite and quiet? You'll really hate me when I decide to be annoying on purpose!

Which then increases engagement, providing you with positive reinforcement for posting "controvertial" things, starting fights, posts that provoke people into responding... If you wont choose to interact with my posts? Fine. I'll make the urge fucking irresistible. A positive reinforcement for fighting and doing other unpleasant things we don't like, and supposedly don't want to use social media for, and yet.

It's not merely that posting misinformation and getting in fights is profitable to these platforms. Why is it profitable? Because the more you engage with (read: fight) random strangers, the more other, new people are also exposed to your inflammatory conversations, which in turn sparks a response in them, and so and so forth.

If we all just gained 600k followers and then stopped, and we all saw every update they made, and we all just hung out in our own corners and minded our own business? Sure, that would be lucrative for the creators with all those followers, but Instagram wouldn't be experiencing exponential growth- they need MORE new users, MORE old users spending MORE time on the app, following MORE people, leaving MORE comments, SEEING MORE ADS, because they need more and more and more for their shareholders. Influences are the product just as much as regular users.

I'm thinking about that post that talks about how, as income inequality gets worse and the middle class shrinks, advertising gets more and more aggressive, despite people's ability to spend shrinking with each new day. This feels similar somehow? Like, people are starting to get wise to the fact that social media makes us feel like crap, and that the excuse of "I have to use it to stay connected to everyone else" falls flat when you're not actually connecting with those people. Even as the internet continues to shrink, more and more people are getting fed up with social media and using it less, or leaving outright, because it's becoming less and less usable, more ad-ridden than ever. And yet it reinforces the need for those platforms to get more aggressive, to bring in more users to replace the ones they're losing. It's a never ending cycle of "we have to cause you psychic damage! in the interest of roping in more people to damage psychically :)" and we all know we're doing it, and we all hate them for it, and yet we can't stop.

Once again I have to mention that absolutely fucking BIZARRE interaction my bf had the other day. Someone he knew "liked" a comment that was spreading misinformation and a very anti-treatment sentiment about DBT. He messaged this friend privately to ask if they really thought that. They told him, "I dont know what DBT is. I just click 'like' on any comment someone I think is cool makes." When my bf pressed them further, along the lines of, "why would you do that?" They said "for engagement." This was not an influencer, this is not a brand or a page or a business account they were using. It was a personal account w a few hundred friends. I just CANNOT get over this. Clicking buttons just because they're there, "for engagement" lmao. Engagement for whom, my good bitch? They might be interacting with your posts, but this is not "your" platform. The engagement isn't for you, sweaty. But ok.

I dont have a conclusion or any suggestions here. Just an observation. What a fucking mess. Social media demanded that we all make ourselves available 24/7, trained us to React instead of to care, convinced us all that we are each some kind of personal brand that requires social marketing to maintain, got us to pick fights with each other constantly as a result, made the internet a miserable place to be, and we have thanked them for the privilege.

Anyway. No more letting the algorithm tell you what to care about today. Contact me thru a series of intricate rituals or not at all. If it's really that important you can send me a Neomail 👍

[reallilystuff]

HOOHOOOOO IM. midgame i think. not sure how far in it is but the sky's red like in the og games. the plot is getting JUICY we're getting to the MEAT AND POTATOES.

quick warning for a whole ramble abt my thoughts on Pokemon Legends Arceus characters n stuff under the read more i'm not exaggerating its LONG (for my standards, considering my usual short lil posts), probably has mild spoilers

also cogita....she so purrrdy..... i was actually wondering when she was gonna be coming along since i've seen so much debate over her connection to cynthia. wondering if volo and cogita are actually related or if they just look really similar. it's actually bothering me

about the blond bi twink with long hair previously mentioned, i don't think volos going to be THAT bad. all i know about him is he has an end battle (saw a soundtrack thumbnail on youtube a long while back something about a wielder??? does he like. wield simps bc thats all i see on pinterest comments 😭) and i've HEARD he's a little shit but idk how and im dodging spoilers like my life DEPENDS on it. he LOOKS so evil tho. he's just a lil creeture tho...... mans is CHILLING over here.

speaking of little shit. KAMADO. WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS GUY. OHHHH MY GOD. "yeahhh send the 15 year old out. just get that guy out of here. if they die then rip bozo lawl" WHAT IS HIS PROBLEMMMMM.... tbh i think he's actually gonna end up being evil or something. as like. a lil twist. as a treat. cyllene's kinda goated tho. she's like. warm and icy at the same time. does that make sense. i think she has SO much character potential rn and its making my brain run at jet speeds

everytime i see rei that poor little meow meow has a funnier face expression. speaking of which im starting to wonder if barry has an ancestor at all??? where is he. put up the missing posters. that little weirdo was one of my faves back when i played pokemon pearl. LET ME SEE HIM....NOW!!! 🌩

sabi is cheryl i think!!! and cheryl mention makes me so happy

that avalugg bossfight had me fucking TERRIFIED btw. i swear what is it with the games i've been playing recently making me realize i have whole ass new fears (roblox pressure and this one because HOOOOLY THAT THANG WAS HUGE. I DIDN'T EXPECT NEITHER THE TRENCHBLEEDERS(pressure) NOR THE AVALUGG TO BE THAT MASSIVE.) that particular boss fights funny because like. dark souls type boss fight + touhou(its likely not touhou but the bullet patterns reminded me of it). it's a good day to be an infernape user

irida's really starting to grow on me tbh kinda thought she was annoying at first and also. she just. teleports to you after battles i swear how does she TRAVEL that fast. girlies sprinting over to themc just to argue with adaman right in front of us. but like!! she's actually just cool!!! also holy shit some of the dialogue the pearl clan givesyou makes me feel bad for her (and also mild relatability emphasis on mild)

also lots of adaman simps too weirdly enough??? don't get it tbh he's just a guy. is it the eyeliner. the hair. what is it.

nothing to say about lian or mai bc i have no idea who their descendants are supposed to be. i think mais ancestor was in platinum? so that probably explains it but idk who lians is. is it that one person from alola with the donkey i forgot their name. i don't have a clear image so that might make me sound bonkers if im off WAIT NO I REMEMBER IT WAS THE GIRL WITH THE BRAIDS. yeah probably not related. think their eyes just looked similar in my head. anyways

nothing to say about melli but i saw an image that just said he's bi but no one wants him and YEAH LMFAOO. i kinda dig the disgusted expressions he has they're just. so evident. lmao. thought he was a girl up until they mentioned him with he/him pronouns and it was like WHA....... oh okay cool. also thought he was fantinas ancestor (give me a break it's been a while since i've played any pokemon game) bc.....porple hair....yea.....

idk what else to say other than my only complaint is HOOOOLY the character customization in this game is barren. i think kalos spoiled me with all its prettiness and cute outfits ngl but DAMN can i get ONE. PASTEL PINK. ITEM. and not hot barbie pink. no hate to that shade it just doesn't look right with this games lighting to me, it just appears kinda red/purple instead. other than that i'm fucking mcloving it so far.

another thing there is a singular black hairstyle which. eh i guess it's one step towards improvement (kalos didnt have that i think? cant remember) but im REALLY hoping legends za has more black-aligned hairstyles when it comes along. PLEASE I CANT KEEP DOING STRAIGHT HAIR. PLEAASE. braids cornrows curly hair space buns dreads theres SO MUCH TO EXPLORE. idk if i'll buy scarlet/violet but im hoping that game actually has options since i've heard nice things abt the hair customization. other than that i aint know nothing

but also like. really hoping this is just midgame bc i feel like the warden/noble things went by SO fast....im 60 hours in and most of it was shiny hunting (that kadabra changed something in my brain i'm never going to be the same). if i spend only another hour playing and the game ends im gonna be so sad like actually. especially because i think im overlevelled rn so the games already pretty easy (ranging from lv. 67 to 72 i think?)

swear to god i need to stop being late to every fandom i arrive in i cant take having to dodge spoilers like this while needing to know everything abt the game 💀

on a better note the nostalgia crying i experienced is starting to wear down thankfully, i mean its not a bad thing anyways it was just. starting to kinda annoy me lol

slenderarceus be like Collect my Pokemon

[slttygeto]

Inarizaki's manager

synopsis: pretty self explanatory. i finished watching the second part of the last season and the twins got my heart<3

featuring: miya atsumu, miya osamu, kita shinsuke, suna rintaro, aran ojiro.

warning: none! but this is long i warn you 😭

reblogs are appreciated!!

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inarizaki

when you first applied to be said team's manager, you had already heard a few rumors about them

some called them arrogant, some called them childish and some called them 'the ones on kita's leash'

you had yet to find what the fuck the last one was about

the coach told you to wait by the bench for them to arrive, they were very serious about volleyball practice and that was something you were very happy about. at least you werent going to chase them to get their asses to gym.

you decided to be nice enough to prepare their bottles of water and towels and put them next to where they usually sat like the coach had told you, he said that "number 7 and 11 usually spat in each other's bottles" so you had to watch out for that too.

it wasn't until you were cleaning the balls that were stacked up that the door of the gym slammed open, and a bottle of water flew right past your head, almost hitting you.

and you stood there, frozen, with a towel in hand and mouth hanging open in shock.

"atsumu you piece of shi-" and a dirty shoe landed near your foot

"guys stop, let's make sure she's okay!"

a beefy, very tall guy approached you. he looked like he was the one who carried most braincells in whatever shitshow of a team this was.

"are you okay? I'm ojiro aran and I'm sorry, he didn't mean to hit you like that, he was chasing his twin brother and we weren't expecting you to be h-" cutting him halfway, you placed a hand on his chest.

"aran, why are you apologizing instead of mustard over there?"

oh

oh

"mustard?" the grey haired male chuckled at the nickname given to his twin brother and you crossed your arms over your chest.

"don't laugh too hard at him ashtray, you're on the same boat"

mustard and ashtray?

first time someone didn't call them the "twins" right off the bat.

suna was having the time of his life watching the way you treated them. it wasn't an everyday occasion for a girl not to swoon over the miyas.

"hey don't call me mustard, im atsumu and he's actually called dumbass but you can call him osamu—" "i will actually kill you"

you watched their interaction with a piercing glare. you were about to walk away before a guy with gray hair and black ends popped right behind you, scaring the living shit out of you.

"everytime I think that you guys can't get any more stupid, you surprise me" the coldness and bluntness of his voice had the twins freezing in place and based on the pout on atsumu's face? yeah that was his name, you figured out that this wasn't the first time he gets scolded.

good for him.

"kitaaaaaaa-" "don't get more annoying. this is the first day for our manager, don't make her quit her job and scare her into never applying for a job again"

and then that was it for the rest of the practice.

okay maybe he was too blunt.

and kita? that's what they meant by the ones on kita's leash?

you didn't talk to many players and just stuck to handing them bottles of water and towels when needed, you did make sure that the gym was clean before leaving it but it seemed as if "kita" was the one in charge of that. was he their parent?

it went like this for a while. you showing up to practice, limiting your interactions with everyone, doing what you're supposed to do and then leaving.

until one day, the twins had gotten into a fight.

you had promised yourself that you wouldn't interfere, but something about the way osamu was looking all gloomy and not poking fun at his brother who liked to pretend like being called annoying didn't hurt him made your heart ache.

were you starting to develop a soft spot for them? absolutely not.

you didn't try to separate them when they fought. you had always hated when fights got physical but it seemed as if other students found this really funny. irritated, you walked towards the gym doors to close them.

"sorry, this isn't a free show," oh how you were going to be called a bitch for that. but they were causing unnecessary commotion over a sibling fight.

the next day, the twins came to practice with bruises all over their faces but they did seem like they have made up. and you didn't know who to ask except for aran, the only decent person there that you talk to.

"um...excuse me," you approached aran with a towel, the only excuse you had to talk to him without seeming like you were being nosy.

"yes?" aran looked down at you with a smile. you never approached the full team during practice so this was a first

"are they okay?"

"who?"

"atsumu and osamu,"

not mustard and ashtray? this was new

"of course they are, don't worry about them they're brothers of course they'd fight, but they love each other too much not to make up literally the same day," aran gave you a small smile, amused at how you sighed in relief at that. you were really worried, weren't you?

"okay good, this way the team's chemistry won't be affected, they seem like very important team members to you guys," you said as you kept staring at the twins' interaction with suna, they were watching something on the latter's phone, something really fascinating if they all looked so into it.

"everyone is important but atsumu and osamu, whenever they're together, it's like they understand each other. maybe it's a twin thing but it literally looks like magic," you never paid attention. you were always taking notes of what the coach said that you never bothered to look at them on court. maybe you were going to do that today.

"but you're important too, coach said that you're the ace," aran rubbed his neck sheepishly. he wasn't used to such nickname, let alone from their new cute manager.

"ah well, i still believe everyone is very important,"

"give yourself credit aran," you patted his shoulder before walking towards the trio sitting on the floor.

"come on get up, practice starts soon," you announced, crouching down to give everyone bottles and towels

"managerrrr you never told us your name!" atsumu said as he pulled away from his brother, almost pushing him away.

"I didn't?" "nooo you were too busy being mad at us to tell us your name,"

you shrugged your shoulders before getting back to your feet.

"not my fault you're annoying, and my name is (name)"

"can i call you (nickname)" "absolutely not."

"(nickname) actually sounds very nice," kita announced from behind you. does this man always have to surprise you?????

you didn't know what it was about him, but him being the captain made so much sense and it earned him so much respect from you. if he said that nickname was cute then so be it.

"okay, you can call me (nickname)"

"WHAT? ARE YOU BEING BIASED RIGHT NOW?" "no, he's just very respectful unlike you. and he's the captain so i cant really say no to him,"

"i would hate to abuse my power over you miss (name), you can always refuse when something i say annoys you or gets an unpleasant reaction out of you—"

why is he so formal

"kita....kita, it's alright, i like the nickname really,"

"hey i wanna give you my own nickname," suna announced from his spot on the floor, green eyes boring into yours.

"well go ahead?" you replied, clearly not getting the hint that he was trying to make you...nervous?

"can i call you mine?"

oh no he didn't.

"...suna, that's not how you flirt,"

"you can call me rin, baby," "i know for a fact that I'll be calling your mom if you don't quit playing with me."

you were definitely starting to get more comfortable with them. aran watched with a smile how you were now more comfortable talking to everyone at once and was hoping that you were like this more often.

after practice, as you were cleaning behind along with everyone, you noticed the way atsumu sat away from everyone, probably thinking hard.

"what's wrong mustard?" you approached him with your bag in hand, good thing this team helped each other with cleaning otherwise you wouldn't have been done on your own.

atsumu looked at you once before looking towards the wall again. someone was thinking hard, huh?

deciding that if he wasn't going to say anything, you might as well just join him in his silence so you sat down next to him, staring hard at the wall and unaware of the stares the rest of the team was giving you two.

atsumu had days like these but he usually dealt with them on his own.

"I'm an arrogant cunt, aren't i?" well that was unexpected, and you really didn't know where it was coming from either.

"trust me I'm not trying to be a pick me or fish for compliments but i can be one hell of an annoying asshole when i wanna be," atsumu carried on with his speech, your eyes wandering around his face to look for any sign that he was joking. he wasn't, he looked genuinely tired.

"it's not my fault i love volleyball, and I want everyone to love it as much as i do,"

now you understood. from what you've seen, atsumu definitely did love volleyball a tad bit more than the rest and that love translated into him being mean to everyone else in order to "push them to do their best", yet somehow not everyone understood that and they just assumed that he was being a cunt.

you didn't think he was a cunt. he was very sweet, you saw him help a stray cat once when you were on your way back home and you had to admit, it was adorable.

but you weren't going to sugarcoat things for him. he didn't look like he liked that anyway.

"you might be annoying but you're not a cunt, tsumu." you handed him a snack before standing up, patting his head gently. "cunts don't care for their brother the way you do, or take hours to save a cat stuck on a tree, or even make their teammates laugh. you have people who love you, keep them," you patted his head before walking away, your bag in hand. you bid everyone goodbye and closed the door to the gym.

osamu watched as his brother's shoulders trembled a little and he smiled.

atsumu needed to hear that.

inarizaki was grateful to have you, even if you had been with them for not so long.

[lighthousegod]

Hiiiii this was over a year or 2 ago I think but I have an update !!Huge giant tw, this is a Vent Post and a huge bummer!! I am focusing on negative interactions with one person and a decline of my mental health (not bc of the relationship, but definitely not helped by it). Depression can make you think your friends don't give a shit about you, but remember this isn't everybody. If you're depressed or generally insecure, I'd click off of this, fr. Official trigger warning ⚠️

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I was reading my old post abt this person cause I remembered it, and I wanted some perspective.

To the person who reblogged,

Thank you for the advice!

Seeing your advice now, I kinda wish I would've seen this and taken it more to heart. I'm not sure when you reblogged, but our situations WERE(are?) Weirdly similar (hope that worked out better on your end, btw). Only thing different was that my friend is ALL about cutting ppl off. If someone does something, anything, deemed toxic and abusive to her or somebody else, she can just start hating them. Like a switch. Crazy shit, but anyway-

So. I did not get rid of the friend. And I'm still having issues with her. Surprise fucking surprise. Except, get this-

WE'RE ROOMMATES NOW. ROOMMATES.

IM SUCH A DUMBASS, MAN.

*Thomas Sanders Voice* Storytime!

Here is a timeline of the last year or so

-we both have a shitty encounter (not criminally shitty) with a guy from previous university. She gets a lot more hateful about it than me. She lies to me to go hang out with friends the day after who give her a shoulder to cry on, while I sit alone in my dorm the whole rest of the weekend. I tell her she's an ass for that, and she apologizes. I forgive her.

-me and friend's major gets cut from our university, forcing us to leave and find somewhere else to go. I had just made new friends.

-I move back in with my parents and my mental health takes a dip. (I'm transmasc and closeted, and they are very much unsupportive/conservative/alittlebitinsane)

-I hang out and sleep over with her frequently through the summer, and she claims to be a safe haven from my religious and conservative family (her family is supportive of her lgbt identities)

-I apply to a diff university for an animation degree and get in. She applies way later, for a different degree, and gets in as well.

-I tell her my depression is getting really bad and into suicidal ideation territory, so I need her to give the constant complaints a rest. She says shes sorry and agrees. She says she will try to be more considerate (this is the third time she's said this to me so far). She doesn't.

-one night before we leave for college round 2, at a sleepover, as we discuss our respective bad father figures. She drops an "oh, but mine was worse." I make an annoyed face and she immediately backtracks. Says she didn't mean it and that she actually thinks mine is worse (??). I tell her I forgive her, but I'm lying.

-we decide to get an apartment with a couple in a complex near the university. There's a shuttle that drives to the school, and I drive myself to night classes. Friend can't drive, doesnt have her license. She's 22. I take her everywhere else she needs to go as long as she asks.

-its okay at first. Made some friends, but they're her friends too. My depression is somehow worse. She doesn't really know. I stopped talking about my issues after the summer. Her complaints are worse because she's unable to find a job.

-our relationship turns into one where she brings me food at work (part time at uni) and barely speaks to me for days besides that. She randomly becomes very friendly at times and I soak it up like a fucking sponge, until we stop again. Goes back to one word replies.

-my new friend I met thru a classmate looks at her the wrong way and she tells them they triggered her ptsd at the fucking dennys dining room table. We're all uncomfortable. I tell her that was fucked up on Halloween night and she cries in my car. She says she's spiraling because she can't accept when she does something wrong. So she's at least a little bit aware. We go watch rocky horror at midnight.

-I go home for Christmas. I have a huge falling out with my dad. I start having what I call "grief episodes" where I mourn nothing for days at a time. I don't tell her. I visit her for her birthday and hang out a few times.

-one night, me and her go to meet up with some ppl from out of town. It's raining heavily on our way back and she has the map. I run right up on a median, where the road split. I couldn't see anything and already have bad anxiety around driving, she is aware. She didn't have the map up. She was texting when it happened. I stop letting her navigate.

(She did ask me if I was alright the day after. I tell her no, but there's nothing she can do about it, so "its whatever". I don't want her support anymore, but im still angry i never had it. I want to leave her, but I don't want to be alone. A standstill.)

-i get a good psych appt. Before driving us both back for the next semester. First few weeks are fine. Friend gets a job waiting tables at a new spot a mile down the road from our apartment. I drive her to and from every chance I get. She pays for gas every other refill.

-i tell her she could walk to work during the day, since theres sidewalks all the way there. She won't. She gets rides from coworkers when I'm not available, and complains about the ride when she sees me next.

-i ask if she's still saving for a car. She's been giving me gas money, and occasionally covering the 10 pm "dinner" we have after her late shifts, since the job started, so I'm not pushy about it. She says no, and that her dad's getting her an electric bike instead. I know I will be giving her rides until we graduate, unless I just stop answering texts. She continues to give me little to no notice before she needs rides despite me asking for it.

-she complains about walking, biking, and the job itself. She brags about how she's androgynous when I try to bring up gender dysphoria. She goes on rants about my own parents even though I haven't talked about them in months. At this point, I'm very short with her most of the time. I don't like getting to comfortable.

-I start new meds and start having bad nightmares again. I still pick her up on nights, but I tell her I can't go get food every evening because I have to fix my sleep schedule. She says "that's fine." She tells me I should try a new medication. I've tried at least 6 in the past year, but she didn't remember. She says "I think it's depression."

-I start going to group therapy for depressed/anxious college kids. I connect to them more than I ever have to friend. She's going too, a different session than mine. "Time management" or something. I don't ask about it. She doesn't ask about mine.

-she sent me a text saying "did you eat" last Sunday after she gets home from a morning-afternoon shift. I replied "why are you asking me that." I Hadn't. She knows I struggle with food, but she's never asked that, so I was taken aback. Almost offended that she'd try to care, and then-

"cause if you don't actually need food rn i'm not gonna ask you to drive somewhere for me only"

-i take us to dennys to eat again, and think about the Halloween before. I'm not sure if anything has changed.

- sometimes we laugh and it's like we're back before, when I didn't know she was this way. So selfish and focused on being liked. She's shown me how fake she really is over these years, and I'm desperate to have a real friend. I don't trust a word she says. I'm really reluctant to trust any of my friends and acquaintances anymore when they say they care. I worry they just want to seem good, but they don't actually care about me. She's said that to me before. "I care the most about seeming like a good friend to people."

-im dreading summer again, but I'm not letting myself run to her like I did last time. No fuckin way.

I don't say this for sympathy, and I don't really consider it a full on vent (it's more coherent, I hope). I don't want pity, even tho this post is a total fuckin bummer. It's more for me to remember how this was. And how a hard time showed who I could and couldn't rely on.

To the person who reblogged this, I really hope you got some better friends. If you're still around that person, do not base your whole being on them. Don't let yourself revolve around them. They are not a baby, or made of glass. If you can separate, do it. Please try to build up a real support system if you don't have one.

And that goes to whoever else is reading this. Fr, if you relate to my ass you prob do need to seek our a professional, but also.

This is a genuine fucking cautionary tale. If you have friends that seem legit, please hold onto them. Tell them what's going on. Make sacrifices for them, stay up at night when they're sad even if it's gonna make you tired the next day, tell them you love them even if it feels weird, go get them if they have car trouble, give them hugs as often as you can. If they can't do the same, don't wait. Don't let them talk you into second chances.

And if you have any advice on how to change- be more friendly, more open, less bitter, and able to build real supportive friendships and relationships- drop the recipe pls 🙏 I got a lot of work to do

This isn't miraculous related, just a vent. Using this site like reddit cause reddit sucks.

So like. Hear me out here.

I've had some shit friends before. Like, the gaslight, gatekeep, getawayfromme kind. And I ended that relationship, and the friend I have an issue with now is WORLDS better than the toxic ones I've had in the past. So trust me when I say I know this could be worse.

However,

Every time I talk to this friend I just get SO pissed off. She has PTSD, as well as OCD, and she just got taken off of some medication a few weeks ago, which has made things really hard for her. And I've been trying to be patient and be there for her. But I'm about to be at my mf limit y'all.

So the main issue is the complaints. Usually, I dont mind complaining, I'm pretty pessimistic myself so I do understand. It's hard not to. But god, every conversation we have is about how horrible her life is. Any time we talk, it always wraps back around to how "her brain hates her" and she can't catch a break. It's exhausting.

It's pretty clear that shes not lying, though. Something really is wrong. She has been missing class cause she has trouble making herself get out of bed, and her grades are steadily dropping. I know she doesn't want that and really beats herself up about it. And I have empathy for her, because I really do understand. I'm diagnosed with depression myself, and man, it takes me a LONG time to get myself ready in the mornings for that very reason. I take a lot of steps to make sure I have no other choice but to get out of bed. I even tried to share some of those strategies with her, like setting your alarm or phone far away from where you sleep so you have to at least get up to turn it off. Of course, she provided an excuse to why she cannot do that.

Now, more recently its gotten worse. I can't tell if I'm fed up or if she's gone downhill, or both. To preface, we spend a LOT of time with each other. We're both in college, and we're basically each others only friends. We knew each other in high school, so this isnt a new friendship. I could go on for another essay length post ab how I wish I would've forced myself to make friends at the beginning of the year instead of relying on her, but that's not what this is about.

So, she has OCD. She also has a lot of health issues, like allergies and asthma and all that. Pre-serum steve rogers comes to mind, except not that severe, of course. So, with these things combined, she's become a bit of a hypochondriac. Any time she has a cold, it's basically the end of the world. She'll convince herself she has a fever even if she hasn't taken her temperature, and hole herself up inside her room saying she's too sick to walk. Of course, when it all comes down to it, she usually doesn't have anything specific wrong with her, just a bad cold. Or maybe nothing at all. Now, I should preface that with this pandemic, I am certainly not saying she shouldn't be cautious. However, at this point, she has been tested and she is indeed negative for covid. She didn't even have a fever. And yet, I am still eating lunch alone, like I have been for days. I'm still receiving texts about how miserable she is for having to do her laundry or attend class in her state. I'm not her, so I can't say that this sickness is being blown out of proportion or not, but man is it exhausting anyway.

This situation where she leaves me to fend for myself for days, complaining the whole time, only to come back and have me by her side to keep her company, has become a trend. It's hard to let her wallow in her dorm alone like I do, because I'm usually so sick of sitting with my own thoughts that I take any opportunity to have some human interaction. If she's done self-isolating, I'm there. Even if I leave her company feeling worse than before. This is a weird issue to deal with as an introvert, so I'm navigating is as well as I can.

The last issue I have is the one I'm the most unsure about. This is because, as much as I've been complaining about her, she is actually a good friend to me most of the time. She is one of the only people that has ever let me talk to her about my problems, and recognized them as real problems instead of dramatics. For a while, I thought our relationship was strong, considering how many times we had talked about our respective traumas to each other. I truly can't thank her enough for letting me talk through some hard times over message with her.

But it's been a lot different lately. When I talk about my issues, it always circles back to hers. Her past is horrible, and the reason for her ptsd, so I completely support her talking about it openly instead of internalizing it. But man, she talks about it a LOT. I think its partly my fault, as I have trouble controlling my tone when talking about my mental health, past, etc. Its hard for me to be vulnerable like that, so I usually have a sort of neutral, emotionless tone. Even leaning towards the lighthearted side sometimes. Because of this, I assume she thinks its fine to talk about her problems too, because I dont sound upset. But when she brings up her issues, it does usually end up with her being sad or angry and me replying with a lot of "yeah, that's awful" and "man that really sucks, why would he do that to you." Its not that she DOESN'T listen to me, like I said, I do talk about my problems to her. It just feels disingenuous when the conversation always ends in us talking about her trauma, even if I started it by opening up about my own. And because I talk about mine some too, it feels wrong to tell her I'm not in a good place mentally to talk about hers. I'm really not in such a bad place that I cant handle her talking about her past, or even her present struggles. But it feels like mine are just- idk, overlooked? (Not to mention, any time I've confronted her about these things she apologizes profusely, but ends by telling me she's already internalized what I've said to her, and that she needs to talk to her therapist. Of course, she covers it with a lighthearted, self deprecating tone. But I still feel like shit. And somehow, she's the victim again.)

I've been struggling a lot lately, with a lot of similar issues (depression especially, although I have mental illnesses that she doesn't share, and vice versa. I realize our situations are not the same.) And I've even told her, or tried to. I know that people deal with depression in all different forms, but it's hard not to feel a bit of resentment when she complains about not being able to get out of bed. Like, god, I know. I really, really do. I have to scare myself awake with my alarm and force myself out of bed to turn it off. I have to wake up such a long time before my class starts because I get stalled with every step I take. So much of my mornings are spent staring at the floor in a loop of thoughts about how badly I want to get back in my bed and pretend I don't exist. But, lo and behold, I get to class. I cant afford to miss. And I know skipping class isn't good, it feels awful, I know that guilt well. But still, listening to her complain about not going to class feels like listening to someone complain about not being able to run into fire because they're not fireproof. No one's fucking fireproof. But still, here I am, covered in burns every day. Listening to someone whine about how horrible it is to watch everything burn from their window.

No, I don't feel the guilt of not trying. But that doesn't mean it's easy. That doesn't mean I come out unscathed.

[kqiji]

Haven't seen anything Genshin related yet so let me help, enemies to lovers with Tartaglia.

anon. your brain. YOUR BRAIN??? IM MELTING. (this is kinda long its just me rambling about childe and living out my e to l fantasy hELP IM SRORRY)

ENEMIES TO LOVERS, FT. CHILDE

- oh my god you cannot imagine the amount of irritancy you will feel during the enemies stage, and maybe even the lovers because childe is an asshole.

- childe knows how to press your buttons, in fact, he fucking spams them until you're malfunctioning and this close to beating his ass and folding it into quarters.

- whenever you both would pass by each other, he'd give you a small and sly smirk, sending a small wink your way as he proceeded to talk with whoever was beside him.

- he would make sure you get all the worst jobs possible, he wants to put you through hell and back.

- he wants to break you down, make you so vulnerable to the point where you'd actually get over your 'enemy' feelings for him.

- this was harder than he thought, you were flawlessly completing all the horrible tasks, you were resilient and brave. you did everything on time, and did it correctly as per the tasritsa's orders. he was shocked, blown away even.

- hm, looks like you're a good competition after all.

- ever since then, he would try to team up with you. often asking to be assigned on missions with you, even if it was for the stupidest things like defeating a few enemies.

- he didn't ask to be assigned with you just to look and observe you, psshhhhhh what are you talking about??

- he can't help it, you're just so fucking attractive. the way you would flawlessly take down anything and anyone really had an effect on him.

- arguments.

- you both argue over the simplest shit, even if you were on a top secret mission that required both of you to be alert.

- he would just find ways to irritate you and would always try to take it to another level, maddening you and making you an almost-coworker-murderer.

- then, slowly and after a painfully long time, you both started making progress, as your purple haired co-worker called it.

- less arguments occurred, which was surprising because that ginger would nitpick everything you do and always find something to tease you about.

- one day, you decided to call in sick due to a rising fever and horrible physical condition. and so, you stayed home, taking care of yourself so you could return to work in tip-top condition.

- that same day, when you were asked about by scaramouche to childe, " where's that kid who's stuck by your side? ". he claimed he didn't care, and that he was feeling quite pleasant due to your absence.

- " why would i care? at least they're not gonna talk my ear off anymore on missions for the day. " he sighed contently, but deep down, something felt off.

- he couldn't quite pinpoint it at first, but after going through the day with just himself and not having anyone to annoy, it hit him.

- he missed you.

- of course this was never brought up when you came back, but you realized childe was acting weirder around you.

- he started offering you help during the day, buying you lunch and even volunteered to bandage you up after a little conflict. he was also getting flustered so easily now, his cheeks and the tips of his ears painted a flushed red.

- you suspected childe from having ulterior motives at first, but as time passed by, you noticed he was doing it from the kindness of his heart. like even has one el oh el.

- you started questioning your feelings for the ginger a while later, pondering on whether you even hated him or not.

- one day, you both had nothing to do so you just walked around liyue, walking and looking at the shops.

- he invited you for lunch, introducing you to the restaurant his friend zhongli had brought him to once. you jokingly asked if he was going to poison you with a laugh, and when you got no response, you turned to face the male, only to be surprised with a mesmerized childe who had a flushed face.

- once you both moved on from that awkward encounter, you both situated yourself on a nice table with an amazing view of the sea.

- you couldn't help but look at childe, who was already staring at you with a huge and cute smile plastered onto his face.

“ childe if you smile like that again, oh dear archons i’ll eat it off your face. ”

“ you’re smiling at me. ” you spoke up, “ sure i am. ” he retaliated.

“i’m literally looking at you and seeing you smile at me right now.” you huffed, rolling your eyes as a blush creeped up onto your face, proceeding to divert your attention back to your meal.

-“ i hate you, you know that. ” you reminded, “ i know. ” he spoke back. " i hate your smile.” you spoke again, only to be met with a “ i know. ” you rolled your eyes, why isn't he getting fazed?

“ and your face. it’s so unpleasant. ” you spat, trying to give the male a deadly gaze, only to be met with a small laugh and another “ i know. ”

you grunted in frustration, those pent up feelings coming out of your mouth without realizing. “ i’ve hated you for so long so why is it that i can’t seem to get you out of my head now? ”

you quickly looked up at the stunned male, eyes widening as you realize what you said, " th-that's not what i mea— "

he quickly cut you off, " it's okay. i like you too, can we go on a date? "

your heart swelled at the confession, a huge weight lifting off your shoulders as you willingly revealed a smile to the man sitting on the opposite of you.

this is so sad to write MY TURN WHEN SOBS.

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