#im so angry and scared that ive been just laughing hysterically all day because i cant regulate my emotions 🤡

[bitchybylershipper]

could you at least consider lowering gas prices if you're going to take away my rights :3

[snailstrail]

tw vent; cw tics

so this has been plaguing my mind and ive talked about it before to a few friends but i felt like i had to act like i didnt really care but fuck i do care and i dont know why.

the other day i was having a really bad tic attack and there was a lot of chaos going on in the house and i felt like my tics were adding onto that unpleasant energy so i left as not to be a bother to my family. we live in an apartment complex so i went to the public laundry room. it was getting late so i figured no one would be there.

i was in there just ticcing, not having a nice time because they were so bad i could barely get a breath in between. my best friend came with me and they said they heard people and i got kinda scared because ticcing in public feels really embarrassing to me. im turned away from the doorway, where these people are, trying to ignore their existence as i uncontrollably say "kill yourself slut" over and over. i can hear them laughing and i get really dizzy. they responded to my tic telling me to kill myself (which i didnt take too seriously). and then. i hear my own tics play back on recording on top of them laughing hysterically.

i was fucking mortified. ive never felt so humiliated in my life. so me and my pal get up and just leave. on the way out i see these two teenage girls still laughing, just standing there still in the doorway. after we left, so did they. why were they even there if they didnt need to do laundry?? so im walking back to the apartment, still ticcing very intensely, with tears streaming down my face. i just wanted to die in that moment. on my way back even more people saw me and it sucked.

i feel so embarrassed and angry. who just records a disabled person obviously having a bad time for their own amusement??? that is not very nice at all. i never wanna go outside again.