#im so BAd at irish IM A FAILURE gOD ;A;

[birbfeeder2artisticboogaloo]

Playlist Shuffle!!

thank u @minnarr for tagging meeee!! 💚💚💚

Rules: You can usually tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. Put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, and then tag 10 people. No skipping!

(i don't have a spotify, so i'll use the audio files i've already got downloaded on my computer, hope that's ok!! 😅)

òran a phrionnsa (the prince's ballad) by kathleen macinnes it's quite long bc it's like a romanticised story about bonnie prince charlie and the jacobites, with lots of allusions to mythology and folk history and such. idk i just think it's neat and i'm rly proud of myself for being able to recite the whole thing ok 😅

lon-dubh (blackbird) a gaelic cover of the beatles song by julie fowlis!!

sadhbh ní bhruinnealla by liam ó maonlaí (my fav cover as well! 🥰)

coisich, a rùin by capercaillie

hò bha mi, hè bha mi by julie fowlis

eilidh by robert robertson (my recording is BRILLIANT bc he's performing casually in a pub!! truly stunning!! sorry i just wanted to gush about it 😅)

cairistìona by kyle carey

thig am bàta by julie fowlis (again) (sorry i just really love her. this song SLAPS btw. THE DRUM BEAT is. amazing. and the story behind it is interesting as well 👀)

OK THIS IS. THIS IS GETTING RIDICULOUS. IT'S JULIE AGAIN. I HAVE TO SKIP IT NOW COME ONNNN

........it's julie again ._. im a broken birb ._.

FINE. YOU WIN MADAM.

hè gràdh, hò gràdh by julie fowlis. it's about cows. no i won't elaborate.

bodaich odhar hogha gearraidh by juLiE fOwLiS. it's about old men from hogha gearraidh fighting some other dudes or something. also there's fionnlagh and the piper's lad and tormod the deaf blacksmith asdfghjk fUCK THIS IM TIRED OF BEING EXPOSED. BIRB OUT >:V

TAGS. I DOn'T. JUST. EVERYONE. EVERYONE. U'VE ALL BEEN TAGGED. U ARE ALL TAGGED NOW. GOOD DAY SIR

[thaliatimsh]

if its alright! wrt the 'directors commentary' asks, honestly anything /Anything/ for 'imperfect life', oof :0

ONE DVD COMMENTARY TRACK COMING UP BECAUSE HELL YES you may ask me about this one. GOD I HOPE THIS READ MORE WORKS OR I’M GONNA DIE OF SHAME. For those of you who’ve missed my pleas: imperfect life is on AO3 here. read it or i cry.

Okay I reblogged that post with not much of an idea about what I’d actually have to say but imperfect life is at least at the forefront of my mind lol

First things first I’d had an idea for a fic about Hodgson At Mutineer Camp that i wanted to write floating around my head for a while that was. I suppose centred on the sheer Betrayal of GIBSON YOU CHANGED MY SHEETS FOR THREE YEARS? WHAT THE FUCK? And as I did more research abt both of them and found that they’d been on ships together & that it was likely that either Hodgson or Peglar got Gibson his job? Fuckin wrote itself, especially seeing as in show-canon Bridgens is the Peglar Papers Steward.

Anyway I’ve said this before to everyone who’ll listen but I will say it again: I think Hodgson is misinterpreted & underappreciated by a lot of the fandom &  it makes me SAD and also ANGRY.

Like: I once saw someone say that he was “mad about Jopson’s promotion, so fuck that guy”? NO. He MISSED Jopson’s promotion! He would have gotten a KICK out of Jopson’s promotion! You BASTARDS! Hickey picks on him SPECIFICALLY because he’s out of the loop! I’ll kill you!

Ham jokes? I’m coming to your HOUSE. man’s as ‘obsessed with ham’ as any self-respecting naval officer starving to death in the arctic

Then there’s the “Who is this?” being taken as some kind of a-okay for cannibalism instead of a guy who saw someone shot dead just last night and then spent the morning burying said dead'un being literally scared out of his mind by a greasy lil rat with a knife and Tozer blocking the tent flap with a fuckign RIFLE. DAMN YOU ALL.

Do I think he’s a complete FOOL? YES. Do I think he ever had any kind of malicious intent? NO. Okay anyway I’m gonna talk a bit more abt that later so let me go back to the next part lmao

So Part 2 of the George Henry Hodgson Saga was then to figure out why he had to go stay with his aunts - this ALSO came pretty straight to me, for whatever reason. I think it might have started off as just his parents pleasure jaunt, but as I was thinking about later scenes with Jimmy Fitzjas I came up with a thing abt - Im not gonna find the reference now but in the battersby book there’s a bit abt William Coningham going to take the waters at bath or whatever for Weak Lungs which OBVIOUSLY made me think of my favourite comsumptive Of All Time Fryderyk Franciszek Chopin & the countryside retreats he & his sister Emilia took for their symptoms as teenagers (and unforch Emilia died of tuberculosis aged just 14… rip)

ANYWAY I had some VAGUE idea that George n Fitz could have some kind of Passing Discussion abt Brothers With Shite Lungs that obviously never came to fruition but. Lol whatever, it gave me a reason for why My Parents Sent Me To Stay With Two Aunts.

UH. Right, so then like the third leg for this to stand on was that Fitzjames and Hodgson had ALSO served together & Fitzjames had: 1. recommended Hodgson to the expedition 2: mentioned him TWICE in his Voyage of the Cornwallis 3. Mentioned him in his letters to the Coninghams from disko bay (one of the only Terrors mentioned - there’s a passage abt Fitzjames going to look at the icebergs with Fairholme and Hodgson. ANYWAY; show-canon Hodgson has a sense of humour and I really think he tried to make the men see him as approachable, at least compared to the other Terror officers and that reminds me a lot of how the historical Fitzjames seemed from mystery man! Seeing as they KNew each other I think it’s not unfair to suggest that he’s trying to emulate an older and more successful officer! He wants to succeed! He wants to have fun and to be loved by The Men!

My friend said something very Prescient abt this to me recently which was that THere are a lot of similarities between Hodgson & Fitzjames and it’s kinda like. Fitzjames is the Ideal, and Hodgson just misses the mark. He’s the average man’s James Fitzjames and because he doesn’t know about Fitzjames’ surplus of political luck that only makes him feel more of a failure. Fitzjames gets a bullet that gets him compared to Lord Nelson, Hodgson gets in the gazette as ‘slightly wounded’. Even their monologues! Fitzjames gives a soul-baring confessional he’s never talked about before to someone he respects and he gets! Affirmation! Gets told that he’s a good man and brave and loved! Hodgson gives a soul-baring confessional he’s never talked about before to someone he respects and gets! FUCK ALL! A MAN SITS IN SILENCE! He has to fucking! Walk out alone after all of that! FUCK!!!

Okay so this whole fic just sat in my brain for probably like six months until I literally sat up in bed because I worked out the last piece of the puzzle

(Drac has an epiphany, July 4th 2019, colourised)

Which was, of course, 'Hodgson went to boarding school’ - which is what all of this ends up hanging off of! Boarding school culture! The younger years are servants for the upper years, who in turn are responsible for the younger students!  including discipline etc so like… if a younger year brought something up to their “fag-master” it’d be sorted by them and maybe prefects, without getting schoolmasters etc involved.

WHICH is why George doesn’t tell the captains about what happens to Neptune, because he’s out here trying to be a good fag master and get it sorted himself! His own fag master fucked him over by getting the schoolmasters involved when they oughtn’t have been! He’s not about to be Archibald Harrington-Thurlowe! He’s not okaying the mutiny! He’s trying to minimise the damage *on his own* like a fuckin idiot!

IF YOU CALL HODGSON A MUTINEER I’LL COME TO YOUR HOUSE N MAKE YOU GET LOST AND ABANDONED AND END UP EATING YOUR BOOT BEFORE GETTING 'RESCUED’ BY THE SAME GREASY RAT WHO LITERALLY MURDERED YOUR PAL AND TRICKED YOU INTO SLAUGHTERING CIVILIANS! I’LL. I’M NOT HAPPY.

I’m just basically so upset about 'one perfect moment in a whole imperfect life’ being a childhood memory that he was taught to see as so shameful to compare it to cannibalism under duress? FUCK.

A whole imperfect life in GENERAL has me fucked up! He just kept trying and kept just missing what he was aiming for! I mean. That’s relateable. Not one part of a life turning out as you expected or planned? ME!!!! Your achievements add up to nothing and no matter how hard you try you end up a footnote! FUCK offfff

I had some difficulty with the religious angle for a while because. hm. okay. To start with the religious angle IN-CANON is just.... not correct. Catholics don't let you drink the blood. The church of england DOES... and that's what most of these men ARE. The Papist Speech as a whole was cobbled together from one of Crozier's ~Visions~ in the book - and it's important in that case that Crozier is IRISH... Poor analogy, writers! Putting aside that he was also... SEVEN... maybe he was an unusually tall seven-year old, people assumed he'd had first communion/been baptised & no one wanted to cause a fuss... I mean the guy has lead poisoning so it's fair to mis-remember but... YEAH. Messy, which is a shame because it's a powerful monologue very well-delivered, shame it's complete fucking nonsense 😂 (not to be like... SMH Americans but... smh Americans...)

Anyway, as I wrote it? that’s me. I wasn’t raised religious - my dad’s an old-school small-town Continental Catholic, my mum’s agnostic but raised CofE (but *her* dad was raised Jewish (also continental) during WW2), I think they couldn’t be fucked with the drama, I never went to church or anything and as a kid when we had prayers at school assembly I didn’t know what I was doing!!!! I felt bad because I couldn’t fathom God as a concept!!! I still can’t! But as a kid it’s like. I don’t understand and on account of that I’m afraid I’m going to Hell. tfw you write what you know.

ALSO there were definitely a couple of times where I wrote G H Hodgson as played by B W Wooster and I will not be taking constructive criticism on that.

ANYWAY My brain has kindof turned itself off now but I guess this is just. My own personal backstory to this jhsgfjhs. I actually probably have about 400x more to say but it’s fully evaporated. thank you SO MUCH for asking me though. i die.

[piraticalarchive]

REALLY  LONG CHARACTER SURVEY. RULES. repost, don’t reblog ! tag 10 ! good  luck ! TAGGED. no one. I stole it TAGGING. @twisted-but-pretty

BASICS. FULL  NAME : Killian Jones NICKNAME : Captain, pirate, Hook AGE : 32 in main verse BIRTHDAY : March 21, 1685 ETHNIC  GROUP : White/Caucasian NATIONALITY :  Irish LANGUAGE / S : English, Gaelic, Latin, Greek, bits of Spanish SEXUAL  ORIENTATION : Bisexual ROMANTIC  ORIENTATION : Demiromantic RELATIONSHIP  STATUS : usually involved with either Milah or Guy. Verses vary. Other than that - hes just a flirt  CLASS : a bastard born of an English lord in English society, a Captain of suitable rank in the King’s Navy, pariah once he becomes a pirate HOME  TOWN / AREA : Was born in Waterford, Ireland - went to school at Eton in Berkshire, England near Windsor. CURRENT  HOME : On board the Jolly Roger, or in Nottingham with Guy of Gisborne, or Storybrooke. Verse dependent PROFESSION : Pirate Captain ( though verse dependent)

PHYSICAL. HAIR : black, tends to curl ever so slightly along the nape of his neck. EYES :  Blue eyes that harbor a sort of melancholic look, but also an aura of danger. Average size. Excessively expressive eyebrows NOSE : slightly pointed, turns up ever so slightly at the end FACE : Soft and slightly round, charming smile, unremarkable chin. Considered by most to be quite handsome LIPS : more on the thinner side, often chapped from the salt of the ocean and chewed extensively. COMPLEXION : fairly flawless BLEMISHES :  n/a   SCARS : A fairly generous and horrid one across his left wrist, one right under his right eye and a fairly large one across the expanse of his back TATTOOS : None  HEIGHT : 5′11″. WEIGHT : 180ish lbs. BUILD : Lanky. Wiry.   FEATURES : handsome features  ALLERGIES : None. USUAL  HAIR  STYLE : can be messy and disheveled from the wind, but more often than not its styled. He takes great care in making sure his appearance is more than acceptable. It comes from his upbringing USUAL  FACE  LOOK : He appears fairly jovial, though on occasion he can be quite intimidating.  USUAL  CLOTHING : leather pants, some form of leather jacket. Usually loose fitting tunic style shirts under a vest. Prefers the colors red and/or black

PSYCHOLOGY. FEAR / S : fading out of all knowledge, death, his own blood (back to the death thing), failure, rejection ASPIRATION / S : to never die, to be the most infamous and well known pirate in the history of the world POSITIVE  TRAITS : witty, charming, strong leader, clever, knowledgable  NEGATIVE  TRAITS : jealous, arrogant, vain, manipulative, abusive, violent, impulsive MBTI : istp ZODIAC : aries TEMPERAMENT : choleric SOUL  TYPE / S : Performer / Leader ANIMALS : eagle VICE  HABIT / S : drinking, impulsively giving in to emotions FAITH : catholic, but hardly pays attention to such things. GHOSTS ? : no  AFTERLIFE ? : doesn’t care REINCARNATION ? : no. ALIENS ? : no POLITICAL  ALIGNMENT : in a more modern verse, if pressed, Killian is most often fiscally conservative and socially liberal. In canon, Hook is very anarchist ECONOMIC  PREFERENCE : In canon he comes from the household of a British Lord, but is considered a bastard. In most modern verses, he and his family are incredibly low on the socioeconomic ladder SOCIOPOLITICAL  POSITION : wanted criminal EDUCATION  LEVEL :  in canon, he attended both Eton and Bailol. He was a part of the King’s navy before defecting. 

FAMILY. FATHER : Patrick David Jones (Lord in canon) MOTHER : Eveline Jones SIBLINGS : Liam Jones (legitimate child of his father) EXTENDED  FAMILY : N/A NAME  MEANING / S : strife/battle/small/fierce HISTORICAL  CONNECTION ? : in canon he was the boatswain to edward teach (Blackbeard)

FAVOURITES. BOOKS : In modern he likes Treasure Island and The Old Man and the Sea. In canon he will read anything he can get his hands on. MOVIE : likes adventure movies such as Indiana Jones. Likes Bridge over the River Kwai. Also a fan of campy horror films 5 SONGS : Hotel California, The Immigrant Song, Hurt, I’ll be Good, Into the Jungle DEITY : God HOLIDAY : not a fan of holidays. Though if he had to pick, Christmas. Especially in modern times when he is spending it with Guy  MONTH : March SEASON : Summer PLACE : The Jolly Roger  WEATHER : clear skies and smooth seas. SOUND : waves crashing, steel against steel, clanking of tankards, low murmur of a tavern crowd, seagulls. snapping of the masts SCENT / S : salt spray, leather, spices TASTE / S : apples, rum, salt, roasted chicken FEEL / S : sun on bare skin, salt water sting in the eyes, hands running along rough wood, curved steel sliding on to wrist, curling fingers through the hair along the nape of Guy’s neck ANIMAL / S : not particularly fond of any animals unless pressed  NUMBER : 3 COLOUR : black or red

EXTRA. TALENTS : leadership, manipulation, seduction, fencing, navigation, swimming, drinking ( ;) ), sailing,  BAD  AT : controlling emotions, patience, staying out of danger, maintaining civility, science TURN  ONS : humor, wit, appearance, experience, cockiness, danger, secrecy TURN  OFFS : dullness, not aesthetically pleasing, disloyal, ignorance, short stature HOBBIES : drinking, sailing, fencing TROPES : Aloof Ally, Bold Explorer, Adaptation Personality Change, Descent into Addiction, Functional Addict, Misery Builds Character, Just a stupid accent,  AESTHETIC  TAGS : N/A GPOY  QUOTES : the ocean - poem by nathaniel hawthorne

FC INFO. MAIN  FC / S : Colin O’Donoghue ALT  FC / S : None. OLDER  FC / S : None. YOUNGER  FC / S : Logan Lerman/ Jordan Bennie VOICE  CLAIM / S : Colin O’Donoghue GENDERBENT  FC / S : None.

MUN QUESTIONS. Q1 : if  you  could  write  your  character  your  way  in  their  own  movie ,   what  would  it  be  called ,  what  style  would  it  be  filmed  in ,  and  what  would  it  be  about ?           A1 : Oh, crap ... is it cheating to say Peter Pan? I think it would follow the same premise of that movie but focus more on Hook than Peter. I would focus more on what led Hook to be the man he was, where that residual anger and those good manners came from ... what led him down the path to becoming a man both obsessed and terrified of death  Q2 : what  would  their  soundtrack / score  sound  like ?           A2 : A lot of the darker elements of the potc soundtrack combined with a lot of hanz zimmer. I would probably include some of the songs from the titanic soundtrack and definitely some nox arcana. Q3 : why  did  you  start  writing  this  character ?           A3 : He literally just popped into my head one day and I guess he’s here to stay seeing as how its been over three years now. I love the mess out of Captain Hook, I always have, and the elements of the character that Colin O’Donoghue brought to the table really nailed it down for me. While I am not OUAT based, I love the wit and charm that Colin exudes and I think its really fun to play off of. Hook is this character whose motivations always change, who can be selfish and a bully but who also can be romantic and a great drinking partner ... its just two halves of the same coin that I really appreciate Q4 : what  first  attracted  you  to  this  character ?           A4 : His cocky attitude. I loved his ego, that ‘better than thou’ vibe he gives off. I think I recognized a lot of that in myself along with a few other things. I have a lot more in common with Hook than I would ever admit and being able to play on those negative traits we share in a place where its not me actually hurting anyone or breaking social ties .. it is pretty freeing.  Q5 : describe  the  biggest  thing  you  dislike  about  your  muse.           A5 : The facade he constantly puts up. There are so many plot ideas and things I have with so many different muses but sometimes none of them ever come to fruition because Hook just never trusts the other character enough to be open with them. It also makes it hard to do these great ‘ we ride together, we die together’ type of friendships etc because its so rare for him to find anyone he feels that strongly about. He is very in it for himself except in very specific circumstances like with Amy’s Guy. Q6 : what  do  you  have  in  common  with  your  muse ?           A6 : SO MUCH. I think we can both be huge ego freaks, we both like to try and manipulate people to our own purpose. We both like travel and have a sense of adventure and enjoy a good drink/joke. We even have some of the same mannerisms Q7 : how  does  your  muse  feel  about  you ?           A7 : He thinks im too hung up on social constraints haha Q8 : what  characters  does  your  muse  have  interesting  interactions  with ?         A8 : literally everyone. But some of my favorites are with Guy of Gisborne just because that relationship has really forced my muse into a place he’s never been before and I absolutely love that. I also really like interacting with Jack Sparrow because that relationship sort of pushes Hook to be more aware of himself. He is jealous of Jack and he hates that he recognizes that fact so I’m a bit hopeful that maybe it ends up with Hook reevaluating himself a bit and adopting those qualities he envies rather than just pretending to hate them. I also love Hook and Vane. I dont even know how that started but their brotp thing they’ve got going on is always a good laugh for me.. Q9 : what  gives  you  inspiration  to  write  your  muse ?         A9 : listening to classical music, watching Peter Pan 2003, sometimes reading.  Q10 : how  long  did  this  take  you  to  complete ?         A10 : literal days. Maybe even more than a week hahah