#im rebuilding it into smth so much better

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[phagodyke]

woke up feeling ruffff but took my meds and went back to bed for a while n I feel a bit better

[the-moon-files]

So I have tried to request this prompt from someone else but I don't think their blog is that active anymore. If your willing I'd love to request the following.

Prompt: Reader is bisexual and gender neutral.

Reader is considered fairly attractive and gets flirted with pretty often by basically whoever gender wise. And maybe reader and Zelda even end up flirting a little bit. Reader would have a similar lackadaisical flirty personality as Warriors has.

I wanted to see how each of The Chain would react to this with the context of them having secret feelings for the reader.

2nd official request, woo look at me go 🏃💨

Sun: Gender-neutral Reader (”you”/they/them)

Orbit: Headcanons-ish

Stars: Zelda (Assuming they meant BOTW), + the classic Chain of Links <3

Comets & Meteors: Content Warnings: mild cussing, mild typical loz violence, Mildly Suggestive, & Trigger Warnings: none known.

Please comment if I missed any. /gen

so i like to think that modern flirting is radically different than their medieval flirting,

like mayyybbeee Wild can handle it, but even then, they have royalty/knights still, so hes still gettin flustered lol

and i like to think u learned that difference the first time Wars complimented ur new/strange modern fit, and u returned the energy?? except 10x stronger (to them)??

youve played the player, and beat him at his own game, the Captain of the knights is sputtering and shit LMAO

(he said smth like, “their beauty is god-like in this otherworldly clothing“ and YOU said smth like he’d “thank you, youd look better in my bed than in armor 👉 😎 👉 ” lmao)

funniest part is, bc its so natural, i can see u immediately shooting off smth and forgetting it instantly, much to the Links collective shock 😭

u go to towns and notice theres always 1 hero around to steer u away from shopkeepers, townsppl, etc so u wont flirt w/them LMAO

(when u finally notice, u just, “ohh i get it now, so im only allowed to flirt with someone named Link, ohhh, okayy” and they just, “NO we didnt say that-!” “No its just their bold flirtations are not for the weak of heart-!” “Yes.” “CAPTAIN-”)

the only one who they cant steer u away from is Zelda.

afterall, they kinda have to inform the Princess/now Queen of the kingdom, whats going on w/them traveling with Link (Wild) around time and space

the sheikah tablet had been disconnecting + reconnecting to Purah’s both fascination and worry

so as theyre invited to eat dinner and explain in the rebuilding castle, everyone’s absorbed in shadow talk or smth, and u can see Zelda’s struggling to follow along, u just casually bring it back to her, as she’s also trying to write notes and theyve moved on too quickly w/o her

“wowww, all these men and not a single one’s gonna offer the lady any, ‘hi, hello, how is the most beautiful girl in the world today?’ “

and the gapingggg from the links shut them right up, while Zelda goes all pink and coughs, and agrees that they should move on to more chill topics lol

and u can crack anybody tbh, Zelda giggles at ur compliments all the time, even in work mode, u can deffo get Wars to blush to his ears, and even Time to look away first in a flirty + staring contest lol

Legend might actually put his hands up like he’s prepared to fight u anytime u try to flirt at him when its just you two, before he realizes what hes doing and stops LMAO

oh and u absolutely get a lot of mileage out of that one lol

the best reactions have gotta be, in order of most to least extreme: Hyrule, Sky, Wild, Four, Legend, Twilight, Wars, Time

Rulie, Sky, Wild and Four fall into that classic, shocked-heart-eyes, full blush up to their pointy ears, etc category when u get them,

they are also very easy to get lmao

Four is the best at recovery, or ducking away, but if its the Colors, its this type of obvious lol, w/the obvious ones like Red and Blue, Green takes a little more to break, and tbh Vio could go toe-to-toe w/u better than Wars tbh before he crumbles under the pressure lol

Legend, Twi, Wars, and Time faces may not change a lot, bc theyre trying to save it lmao, but the way their cheeks go pink and ears twitch is how u know ur gettting to them (along w/legend’s defensive reaction to getting cornered LMAO)

Twi has caved and covered his face w/his hands before lmao

one day youll get Time to break more than an ear twitch, and looking away, One Day.

(Wind is in fact, having the time of his life, watching you absolutely hilariously wreck these otherwise v serious heroes, hes glad u got them to finally relax a little, but also its hilarious seeing Wars and Legend red faces, and occasionally stealing Wild’s tablet to take funny pics of them all to blackmail later lol)

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idk how good that was, as im kinda bust at flirty banter between characters, so i hope this suffices ur need to flirt w/everyone lol

also i feel i should apologize for not rlly including pronouns? it just kinda comes w/writing reader stories to put them in 2nd person to both make intimacy for readers w/their little avatar im controlling for them, and to purposefully remove the need for gendered pronouns :/

so im sorry i couldnt quite figure out how to make it where “they/them” got used much, i promise i love all pronouns, its just a skill issue tbh lmao

btw

send any prayers, blessings, or good vibes u got my way tomorrow bc im getting wisdom teeth surgery and i am intimidated✨

ill post more asks (i have multiple asks!! <33) after im lying in bed lamenting my painful fate,

mostly just worried ill react badly to the drugs, also the idea of being knocked out during surgery is a little scary so what can i say

have a great weekend guys!! thanks for reading if u did :)

Peace out,

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[ginnsbaker]

https://www.tumblr.com/ginnsbaker/720963002130710528/i-hate-reader-so-much-like-all-of-their-actions

Hii so I don’t have an emoji but can i be 🧃(if its taken let me know and I’ll pick something else) and im just gonna reply to some of the things you said :)

I get the delayed onset ptsd thing because it actually happened to me after a really bad relationship and I didn’t even realise i had ptsd until i was in therapy (partly cos i thought i was being overly dramatic 💀)

Also i kinda feel like the only anon who isn’t actually mad at piet because even tho he cheated himself in that situation hes playing a role much more important to him and thats protective brother which is made worse by the fact his sister is his only family left and she almost died EVEN WORSE the same way as a parent

Im glad you said something about yelena being fucked up cos no one else was and I thought it was just me i definitely agree shes the least fucked up so far but that isn’t hard when wanda and reader are right there i think yelena is in love with the idea of reader and who they once were rather than who they are now like reader is not the same one yelena loved all those years ago but she doesn’t see that. Everything you said in your response about yelena makes sense to me i think we’ve all at one point thought we could “fix” someone or at least tried and in my circumstances that never ends well because you can’t fix people like that especially not when they don’t help themselves. One of my favourite quotes is “sometimes, we have to be broken down so that we can be rebuilt into what we’re actually meant to be” and i think that’s what’s happening here the reader has been completely torn down until their last atom and trying to feel whole without rebuilding. I think that quote could also apply to reader and wanda’s relationship in a way. But yeah i get why yelenas sticking it out we’ve all done it with someone who definitely didn’t deserve us but love makes you do weird things especially while you still have the rose tinted glasses on i hope for her sake she takes them off soon

I haven’t got too much to say about wanda (surprisingly) but you’re right and that quote from the perks of being a wallflower has been in my head while reading this for a while now. You’ve also made me think more about my views on cheating because until i read your book i never thought I could forgive a cheater but there’s something about the way you wrote wanda that makes me want to and that was from really early on probably when reader is talking to nat and wanda comes i think in the diner. I can’t really explain why i think part of it is because in my own experience when my gf cheated on me the thing that bothered me the most was I couldn’t tell what parts of my relationship were real and all the times she said she loved me i had been lied to. In wanda’s case for some reason i still don’t think she ever lied about loving the reader and i know thats a contradiction because she cheated but theres just something that makes me think that and part of it might be i still don’t understand her reason for cheating and like i said am waiting for a big hoaxy reveal that is was blackmail or smth because thats how little it makes sense. I was actually planning on keeping this part brief so my bad 😂 but i hope she has therapy and learns to view herself better and accept love and i mean read love not being used.

Reader is definitely the villain of the story i know theyre trying to hold it together but surely they must realise the damage they are causing snd the GIANT need for therapy

🧃 Emoji is yours :) I don't have many anons yet, so much of the emojis are still available.

I'm sorry to hear about the bad relationship you had. No one deserves to go through it, although it happens to a lot of us. But thank god, we're survivors, aren't we?

Yeah, thank you for saying that on Piet's behalf. I'm an only child, but that only made me more protective of my friends who I treat as my siblings. My best friends have all cheated on their partners at one point in their lives and I had numerous fights with them for it, but at the end of the day, I'm their ride or die, I will protect them at all cost.

Well, said about Yelena. Can't really add anything more to that.

Re: Wanda - with your own experiences, I think the greatest struggle is the trust. That was the one that was broken, not the love. (Am I correct?) You can't trust your past, your present and your future. And that is such a struggle when you love someone, but you're not certain if it's real for them. Thanks for sharing something so personal, even if you're on anon.

I'm going to tell you as early as now, there's no big, shocking reveal that will make you think "oh, so i get why she cheated, because of that reason, maybe i'll give her a pass". Like you said, the cheating makes little sense. And that's the biggest conflict in the story-> it doesn't make sense, why do it?

The only reveal I can spoil is Wanda's own fucked up childhood and the little issues she has with her marriage to R that piled up unknowingly. R is good, and faithful and supportive, but it doesn't mean you can 100% supply all your partner's needs. Like I said, in IFISS which was told in R's perspective, R thought her marriage was perfect and loving. But did Wanda feel the same?

Whew that was long! But I live for these kinds of discussions, because I haven't let any friends in real life read this story, lol not even my gf cause she's not really a reader.

Thanks again for sharing your thoughts :) hope to hear from you in the next chapter.

[m1ckeyb3rry]

You’re fr doing us all a favor by writing about deconstructed popular tropes I LIVE for it!! I’m crying don’t remind me abt hollyhock Karasu or else I’m gonna start swerving again and I’m gonna forgot that otoya is the male lead

I loved the pi ending I feel like the balance of bittersweet was just right with all the tragedies that happened along the way plus Yuta losing his ce

You’re cooking too well with oaeu the ideas are genius but I’m DYING THE KARASU ONE??? LMFQOOOO HOW TO BECOME A HOMEWRECKER 101 “aiku is so experienced with that” is BRUTAL HAHAAH so true though I’m so excited!!!!

All hail irl tullia counterpart!!! Tell her Karasu nation (and bllk and jjk community too) owe her one for getting you to post your writing omg but I’m actually crying and laughing so fucking hard the epigraph is too good

I love chigiri bestie content….actually I love chigiri content in general too but he also just fits so well in a best friend role too!! I’m crying maybe the peregrine Nagi was the friends (reo) we made along the way LMAOO it’s ok what’s a good long Nagi fic without reo meddling in the storyline

DHDGSHS it’s ok…trust it’s coming soon!! Im pissing myself WHAT is that edit the first pic of Rin as Sukuna has me rofl wtf (yeah what’s sad is how his face card is giving more than wtvs going on in the current match smh) WHAT IN THE TARGETED AUDIENCE?!?! Bro I need more yotd on my fyp now that you’ve shown me this but omggggg also I’ve been Lowk kinda obsessed with the song they used something about the harmonies hits hard but that’s besides the point erm anyways. ok but like…….strike while the iron is hot yk…don’t wanna lost the motivation for these fire ideas…yk…..having inspiration and motivation while writing truly brings out the best flavors so I meaannnnnn whatever works yk! That’s true though I thought both of those slapped I wouldn’t have guessed that you weren’t working with any inspo for those at all

DISCORD KITTEN HAHAHAAH REAL new idea for the bllkverse is bllk gaming/streamer/youtube era I’ve seen fanart of people drawing the characters over some iconic meme YouTube videos and they’re so funny

SAMEEEE epinagi is actually serving us starving children because speaking of DID YOU SEE THE CH?? I love you epinagi thank you for the meal and delicious panels of the characters we don’t see in the main series

- Karasu anon

DECONSTRUCTING POPULAR TROPES IS SO MUCH FUNN!!! LMAOO omg that’s so real though like yes otoya is the male lead…but karasu…🥹😩😓

agreed i think it felt satisfying because it’s not like a disney-esque happily ever after ending where everyone is happy and alive it’s more of a “making the best with what we’ve got” type of deal where things aren’t perfect but at least they have each other and they can kind of rebuild a new life?? like there’s a hint of hopefulness even though they’ve lost sm

LMAOAOAO IT’S LITERALLY AIKU GIVING KARASU LESSONS ON HOW TO RUIN A RELATIONSHIP now ofc normally karasu would never be a homewrecker but like…is it homeWRECKING if the home is already in shambles 🤔

irl tullia counterpart is fr the goat we owe so much to her 🤩 THE OAEU EPIGRAPH IS SO GOOD definitely my best work…yk aiku has the most devious grin on his face while saying that meanwhile niko’s just like 😐

FJSNDJS considering the current point that we’re at in the story is reo trying to get reader to be his friend it really is just all abt reo rn 😭 but reo slays we love him it rlly isn’t a nagi story if he doesn’t play a massive role!! and at least i’m not making him all psycho or a freak or smth…chigiri content always slays truly he has no better role than as a bestie imo

OKAY WAIT QUESTION DOES TIK TOK SHOW YOU MY ACCT WHEN I SEND THIS VIDEOS TO YOU??? I JUST LEARNED IT DOES THAT SOMETIMES LMAOAAO DO YK MY FULL GOVERNMENT NAME AND EVERYTHING I’M CRYING this actually is freaking me out i turned the option off so nobody will get my acct suggested to them in the future but i’m terrified at how many people have already seen it…genuinely sickening to think about…i’m like actually so paranoid about people from irl finding me online and vice versa so this is stressing me out so much 😓 i don’t rlly mind if you know because we’re besties so i would literally give you my socials and not care but like random people on tumblr 😰 ick ick ICK

THE RIN AND SUKUNA EDIT HAD ME CRYING IT’S SO RANDOM 😭😭😭 but agreed his face card serves more in the edit than it has in the entire pxg vs bm match 😓 anyways AHHH YES YONA EDITS i have so many shinah edits saved i think i ended up rewatching them because i was searching for audios so my fyp remembered that i love yotd and put the edit on my fyp!! and agreed that song is rlly good the way their voices blend together is so nice (bruno mars is insanely talented but he drops songs once in a blue moon so people always forget that i feel)

EEK that’s my thing i don’t want to put the oaeu off for so long that i stop caring abt it 😓 so i think i might just start it and post and honestly it is what it is…people have waited this long they can wait a couple days more…i’ve posted a lot of request stuff recently i think so everyone will just have to be okay with me taking my time 😩

I LOVEE WHEN PEOPLE MAKE MODERN MEMES AS CHARACTERS FROM MEDIA it always slaps…it’s like smaus but actually done properly instead of butchering the characters beyond belief

I DIDDD I JUST READ IT AND OMG KIYORA CONTENT??? truly aligned w the miraverse there also the way karasu is all “we’ll fight meatheads with meatheads 🥱 so here’s the ball kiyora 😋” VILLAINOUS LMAOAOA also nagi looked extra majestic fsr…and zantetsu having literal train aura was so randomly funny to me because everyone else has cool animals and motifs and shit (chigiri + panther, barou + lion, kaiser + roses/thorns) meanwhile zantetsu is just a literal bullet train 😭 he’s so goofy i hope he has a moment in pxg vs bm i miss him

[faerune]

lil info dump about the robbmira brood :3c

eddard - their firstborn. called ed by his close friends and family. mentored by sansa to be her heir when she passes. they have a really great relationship and he really respects her. spends his whole childhood learning to listen to the women around him imho. he’s incredibly intelligent and loyal, possessing the good traits of both is parents - politically savvy and a dutiful, noble heart. he’s more serious like his mother. it’s not surprised that he’s known as “good king ed” during his reign. he finishes a lot of his mother’s projects in rebuilding the north and nurturing art, culture, tourneys, etc. in true northern fashion. he’s also very devout in his belief in the old gods.

rickon - their secondborn! he’s more timid about ruling despite being first in line to inherit mira’s seat of hawkharbor when she passes. he isn’t very booksmart but he’s very loyal, gentle-hearted and kind. a huge mommy’s boy and also loves his sisters a lot. as such, his younger sister lyla he sees as better to inherit hawkharbor over him which mira respects greatly and robb comes to understand when rickon joins sansa’s queensguard. he really wants to protect his family. he serves in his brother’s kingsguard as well. im thinking he has a little smth smth with someone he’s Not Supposed To because i love forbidden love

lyla - the picture of her mother in looks and personality but inherited robb’s warmness. she idolizes mira and mimics her when she’s young :’). she’s very much a Mom. a rule follower and does Not Have Time for her younger (or older) siblings shenanigans. even more serious than ed. she feels she has a lot to live up to. very intelligent and is a good ruler when rickon abdicates the hawkharbor seat. she’s got the sharp mind and temperament to continue slate’s good name. 

ayara - named for arya, she bears a remarked resemblance to said aunt much to arya’s excitement. she loves horses and is often off riding when she should be studying much to her mother’s exasperation. she’s quite good with a bow and can rival ed in sword fighting. i’m not quite sure what she ends up doing in her adult life but she’s quite the troublemaker and very wry and sarcastic. lives for making lyla and ed’s jobs harder.

catelyn - one of the few robbmira babies who get the tully red hair! soft-hearted and such a daddy’s girl. the apple of robb’s eye. she loves to garden and read. also very devout like her big brother ed. a bit shy but if you get a few drinks in her at feasts she loves to dance. really, really wants to be a Lady and a mother to which mira is like ok that’s not ALL you can be and she’s like but that’s what i want. and mira is like ok ok ok. so robb and mira really work to find her a good, kind husband im thinking in a similar fashion to the maiden ball for aegon iii. 

bryden - EMO KID. he’s the baby but hates being doted on. wants to be Independent and is sulky a lot of the time. spends quite a lot of time with his nose in the books and next to lyla is probably one of the smartest of the six kids. i honestly can see him either becoming a member of eddard’s small council or joining the night’s watch. he’s basically if aemond and jon snow had a baby

[lunatic-fandom-space]

Okay, Im onto ep 6 and I think I kinda figured out why I suddenly got so bored bc like. yea this is really boring in general rn but I wasnt that suffering this much when I started and I think its bc they dont have those cutscenes in the beginning anymore. I feel like those gave me a lil something to look forward to and make this a bit less tedilus but now theyre not there anymore :( also I really wanna see Zane again and it pains me that he doesnt show up until like ep 40 smth

Okay, I think I'll probably put a small timeskip here and do like the equivalent of a montage of Aphmau repairing her house n interacting w/ the villagers some more

So yea, Aphmaus moving into her new house, thats a good opportunity for some Aph/Emmalyn bonding and interactions w/ the other villagers. Also, depending on how this episode goes, I might want either Garroth or Zenix to help out too, but I'll wait to see how this ep goes first

Oh god this entire episode is literally just Aphmau moving huh

Maybe Aphmau built a lil chicken enclosure thingy during that aforementioned timeskip and some other stuff like more wooden paths n stuff

Anyway, Aphmau finishes moving in, maybe we can have some villagers like her friends n stuff wanting to celebrate that a little or smth but shes just like "nah sry guys, Im tired from all this moving" and takes a nap

Vischers death scene is fine ig?? I'll probably tweak it a lil bc it honestly just seems kinda comical the way it is now. (Ive read some of the comments and one of them even mentions that they laughed at Vischers death here, but that it was pretty impactful in the remake, so maybe I'll watch that for some ideas) I'll probably add a close up or too or maybe write that scene from a perspective that focuses more on him

Aphmau in the OG doesnt wake up from that explosion at the docks even though she lives pretty close by?? Idk, I feel like theres not really a point to that and I think having her wake up all confused and afraid, maybe going out to check on the village first before then going to the docks would be better? If we completely take out that scene of Vischers death and just see Aphmau sleep and then get woken up by this loud explosion noise, it could even make for some good tension

Also, theres this weirdo outside of Aphmaus house?? I'll move it back to a bit later but keep it the same otherwise bc I dont remember wth hes doin there

At the docks, I think we should linger a bit more on the destruction and just generally have Aphmau be a bit more upset but otherwise everything is the same, Zenix n Paul are still there even though its pretty late in the night/early in the morning (maybe add a detail abt Paul looking tired)

I'm keeping the Convo between Zenix n Aphmau as well as the one between Paul n Aphmau the same, but I'm switching their places so she approaches Paul first bc hes the civilian, he just lost his best friend and would probably have the bigger reaction and just be someone that Aphmau would be a bit more worried about as opposed to the guard who should be more used to stuff like this

So yea, shes still kinda distraught but goes over to Garroth like Zenix told her to, their convo is also the same as the OG

Aphmau accepts and tries to make plans for building a boat and for potentially rebuilding the docks while she goes around town. Shes thinking about how exactly she'll approach this bc building a boat is kinda difficult on your own but shes like not supposed to tell anyone else that this happened while walking around the village and sees Brendon, so she goes over to talk to him

The convo plays out like in the OG with her telling him about the docks but ommiting Vishers death. Also, it takes place outside somewhere, not just. in his house that Aphmau just waltzted into bc she can

She feels relieved that she has at least one person to help her know and decides that thats probably enough, maybe have her walk around and consider telling it to other people before she comes to that conclusion though

After that, she gets home and just keeps trying to think up plans on how to fix things, its p difficult when someone died and shes supposed to build a boat so she can bring his bff and his dead corpse home but yknow, she manages. somehow. Alternatively, she could have a sort of quiet reflective and/or mourning moment instead, Im not fully sure in which direction I wanna go in when it comes to her character

OKAY im done w/ this one I hope I can work up to at least ep 10 today

[matoitech]

oh holy shit you know what i think i just realized why trigger is adamant about not ‘labeling’ galo and lio (beyond just like, homophobia of saying ur chars r in love and married and then refuse to say the word gay). i may b able 2 follow the thought process here. bear with me a sec while i get my thoughts in order its a pretty simple thought process and im going to try to speak... neutrally about it despite how much i want to jump right into trying to unpack it. 

so. at the end of promare galo and lio set their universe on fire and destroyed/healed everything. right? no more squares (promepolis / oppression) or triangles (burnish symbol / revolution / freedom / whathaveyou ) bc now we’ve got a circular lense flare (complete freedom from boxed shapes in general). there are no more burnish. there is no more society. they can rebuild from the ground up now.

you could say that what trigger is trying to say here is that revolution involves destroying ALL LABELS (here i gesture to the first paragraph where i mentioned the ‘we will not label galo and lio’ thing). instead of solving the problem of burnish and not burnish ppl coexisting, make it so there is no differentiation (by just. making the burnish ‘normal’ but that is its OWN POST i have talked about many times before)

SO FROM WHAT I CAN WORK OUT. THE INTENTION HERE COULD BE READ AS TRIGGER SAYING “THERE ARE NO GAY PEOPLE AT THE END OF PROMARE, BECAUSE THERE ARE NO STRAIGHT PEOPLE EITHER” AND BOY IF THAT ISNT.... A TAKE SOMEONE COULD THEORETICALLY HAVE. feel like we’re rapidly spinning back in2 the issues of pretending there r no differences between ppl instead of like, accepting that Not Everyones The Same and thats Cool, but look theres a LOT to unpack with this already and i genuinely dont know where to begin so i will just say. well trigger, you tried. and in this situation i can say and truly mean: this movie was never meant to be examined like this, but i definitely enjoy doing it anyway, even when it gifts me things like this that i didnt really WANT but now its out there i guess? and i might be super wrong (it took me like. this is the nearly two year mark of the movie being out for me to even think about it) i just think like. can u fucking imagine if trigger said this and all the posts id have to launch in2 then 2 try and untangle it all, which is smth im holding myself back from doing even now. (oh also 2 b clear im not uh. saying the burnish r a gay metaphor btw lol the burnish + galolio being gay thing r two dif things im looping back in2 the No Labels topic)

so yeah <3 thanks for coming to the show i have no idea how to end this i spent all my braincells just like, considering this as a concept and i wash my hands of it now <3 i still stand by galo and lio still have like one of the better gay relationships and writing i can think of in media despite the sort of weird and amusing decisions trigger makes sometimes about like, marketing?? anyway enjoy

[herecomesnaya]

oh my gout.... i clapped my hand over my mouth. one of my fav authors is autism and adhd (MJAYBE) and ocd and depression/anxiety LIKE ME!?+ (crying emoji) (crying emoji) (crying emoji) (hands clapping) (the vegetable that looks like a penus) that's so cool! what the fuck!!! i could bite a chunk out of my table right now (but i'll settle on shutting the fridge's door ten times and drink seven gulps of my water instead and worry about anoning correctly hahahahah FU) sorry this is just. really

this is so cool. and you work at the same time and you write fics regularly and talk to strangers online? you're insane. not like that UH but, like. in the good way, you know? like cool? wow. im sutnned. i'm 21 you're evne.... wht. i was also just checked for personality disorder and possible bipolar etc at the hospital. if you need advice on autismming and adhding and that jazz i'll gladly send you some links or smth? or info? adivce? if i have them... somewhere. i'm professional autism everyda

yyyeaah, i *tips chin* actually had a depressive psychosis and rolling eyes to the ceiling for 6 months, and between that 2 out, then 3 after that in confinement of-sort. not to brag or anything ;). it's taken me lots of time to recover and i'm studying again, was out for two years when it happened, but. trust me, all that jazz, that rodeo-- takes time. you have to learn yourself all over again. you have to learn how to human your way. and think back on all you knew, and reconstruct. build.

there's a quote i'd like you to know. it goes like this, ''it is no measure of health to be functional in a profoundly sick society.'' by jiddu krishnamurti, i think

AS WELL AS!!!! ''true positivity is not the absence of negativity, but to deal with the negative in a positive way.'' i think that's how the quote goes, but i'm not sure.... idk who said it.... maybe someone whispered in nmy ear in the walmart.. eyah

i just Want You To Know that this is seriously so fucking cool.... that you're genetically enhanced yet disadvantaged hybrid cyborg daddaya.... WROW. it's really made my day. and you write so amazing. now i know WHY *slams hand on table*. it's night, tedchnically. but honestly, now my goal as a villain will be scissoring with a colleague of choice on every rich man's bed in gotham city,

either way! im heading to bed but, i just wanted to say, really say, i hope i haven't freaked you out or anythong, but i really wanna wish you luck. i really believe in you. this is really cool. sounds so fucking cheesy but.. we love dick che... ok. bedtime. but seriously. i really admire what you do and how you hold up. all that. just keep on keeping on. thank you for being you and doing what you do! =)

awww, thanks so much for all this, anon! I will admit, it’s been a struggle sometimes (especially since this genetic disorder o’ mine has disabled me physically, along with the Fun Mental Stuff), but I’m determined to make things work despite my limitations! I like to say God knew I was too powerful on my own, so had to nerf me... if I was able-bodied and neurotypical, it’d be over for these bitches

I’m definitely in the “reconstruct/rebuild” part of my life, lol. I spent all of my late teens and most of my early 20s in a job that I thought I was gonna stay at for my whole life, and then my disability happened, and now I’m self-employed and trying to balance my health and my ability to make money (since the government won’t help me in any measurable way) ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

it’s definitely difficult! not being able to do as much as I used to physically, and being held back by mental health issues, is pretty annoying (and that’s not even getting into all the stuff outside of my control, like politics and family matters and whatnot). I wanna talk to people online and write tons of fic and do a lot of work, and just generally be a functional person! but I’m definitely gonna remember those quotes of yours, lmao, they’re a real mood

but either way, I’m glad there are people out there that enjoy the stuff I do put out, and that I can be some kind of an inspiration just by doing what I can do right now! hopefully things will get even better in the future. it’s the roaring 20s, right?? time to spread our wings and get things on track!

so thanks for writing, and thanks to you and everyone else who’s sticking with me during this time! I know I don’t interact or update quite as often as I used to when I first started out, but every message I get and every like button y’all click or whatever really helps. truly. I just hope I can continue to grow and give you all even better content in the future!!

[snaileo]

Umataro Tenma (any version you want)

i might do a mix, like how i feel about umataro overall. but mostly ATB umataro

How I feel about this character

if it wasnt for atb being my first exposure to this whole franchise, i probably wouldnt like him as much as i do. I feel bittersweet about him, like seeing him already so troubled in ATB and knowing what happens in the future, its like the time at lab 7 is that one shining moment in his life, and he doesnt even know it. With the character overall, I like how different each incarnation can be and it makes his character fun.

All the people I ship romantically with this character

literally...its just hiroshi.

My non-romantic OTP for this character

him and getting the help he needs before the Shit Show that is his life wrecks him (but for real probably him and motoko if we’re talking about ATB, which ive stated before)

My unpopular opinion about this character

hmmmm. i dont know. im never good with answering this question bc i dont communicate enough with others to know which opinions are unpopular and which are not

One thing I wish would happen/had happen with this character in canon.

god, maybe tenma having his breakdown, building atom, and instead of abandoning him, he makes it work, he tries to rebuild his life and process his grief in a healthy manner, he tries to be a better father and doesnt treat atom like tobio 2.0. He doesnt isolate himself or atom & lets them be a normal family. i think the 1980 anime was on this track before atom was kidnapped and he and tenma were never reunited. 

ANYWAY I think in this AU tenma was at first hesitant to tell atom about tobio, but he realizes its important for tobio’s memory to live on, so he sits atom down and they have a long talk. he doesnt start off with “tobio is dead” he instead starts off by telling he has an older brother, showing him pictures, telling him stories and atom is enjoying every second of it but doesnt understand why his father looks so sad. “When can i meet him” atom joyously questioned. And thats when tenma had to tell him the other half of the story. and eventually he takes him to his grave to meet his older brother. 

in canon? i wish tenma, specifically 2k3 manga tenma, had a support system to lean on after his son died bc the only ones ever there for him were ochan and yuko (2k3 Manga) but they werent enough to keep his head above water. idk tenma rly did need help and this fact doesnt excuse his actions but just smth thats very obvious. another thing i wish had happen was that 2k3 tenma realized how much of a dickhead he was before it was too late.

another thing i wish would happen is he and hiroshi marry...but like that goes without saying lmao...like what if atb really is that college AU slowburn 

[phantomrubies]

If Infinite was going to get an redemption how would you like to see it happen? he deserves love and support to get through what he went through and has the potential to be redeemed and fix the damage he did, he just needs someone too care for him and help him

aaaa well, lemme see. i’ve stated in a couple of asks prior to this one that i can see gadget/the avatar going to search for infinite post-forces; hence why they left!! since infinite vanished and his fate remained a mystery, i find it plausible?? after a while of determined seeking, i imagine gadget would finally find him, alone and in hiding while recovering or smth. since being defeated, he’s adopted his desperate “i’m not weak” mindset even further because he took it hard and is desperately trying to tell himself otherwise from what he thinks. he expects no pity from gadget and is surprised when he’s told that he’s not weak at all; that defeat still doesn’t make him weak, and most certainly not pathetic.at first he rejects gadget’s attempts at aiding him because he thinks he shouldnt need help, but gadget persists. as annoying as it is he can respect the determination at the very least and is almost just a little touched that someone came back to look for him after all his terrible deeds. gadget is determined that nobody gets left behind, not even infinite. he reassures him often that he’s strong, that he can still better himself as a person, and that there’s a second chance. it takes a while for infinite to truly believe it, probably a few months or so, but he appreciates having gadget by his side. gadget shows him love and compassion and positivity, and teaches him there is beauty in the world. its pretty slow burn to the point infinite doesnt even notice his outlook changing at first.the resistance and most people in general are wary and sceptical of infinite but he gradually proves himself by committing good deeds and helping to rebuild their world, even if he can’t undo his past actions; which he heavily regrets. gadget doesnt brush off how bad it was for infinite’s sake, but he does make sure to let infinite know they dont need to define him if he continues to better himself and tries to be sure he isnt dwelling on it too much. i can also see any surviving members of the jackal squad seeking out infinite too, and they also show him support. idk sdfggf im a lil sleep deprived rn and this isnt even anything solid im just kinda rambling, sorry kind anon but i rly appreciate the ask regardless !!

[makeyouleave]

Just like video game designers put super hard bosses/puzzles in their games to teach the player a new skill or encourage them to try a different approach, sometimes in real life shit breaks us, absolutely demolishes us so that we can rebuild ourselves in ways we couldn’t before. I’ve been thinking bout that in reference to a recent heartbreak and it’s v comforting. I’m sick as shit and my hair is being held up with an arm band but gosh does my soul feel so light ~Oswald

hey im putting all ur asks in this series below n then responding just bc it takes up a bit of space but i want them all to b together

To continue off of my last ask, God really did //that// for me huh? Like oof, it was pretty well orchestrated imo. I got kinda complacent and lazy with my life and (mental) health. So wam bam God drops a big old heartbreak (worsened by miscommunication) on my doorstep before taking away my crush’s (and at the time, fp) WiFi so I could only talk to him in school. Which was stressful the 1st week. Yknow how I handled the stress? I went to the gym and exercised at home regularly ~Oswald (1) 

Right, so now that I’m going to the gym two things happen: 1.) I realize that I need to make sure I eat enough so I have energy to compete with myself. 2.) I start seeing one of my old friends on a regular basis bc we exercise at the same times. It’s great bc he knows how to properly navigate a gym and stuff! So now I’ve built a habit of exercising regularly as well as trying to eat on a daily basis which is absolutely great!! ~Oswald (2)

But if I want to make sure I eat regularly I need to do smth about my depression and also re-establish my eating times. So I ended up finding content on tumblr that made me feel better while I sipped on chocolate. Eventually I started watching yt vids (mainly gaming vids which usually get released around noon &3pm) while eating a small lunch. So I’m still working on it but I’m slowly building up an eating habit (this morning I had breakfast! ) !! ~Oswald (3)

So now that I’ve been watching a bunch of yt vids I got sucked back into more educational channels (like Vsauce oof) so I’ve been actually paying more attention to what I’m watching and I honestly love learning so much, so that’s really helped with making me feel better overall. I’ve also started reading articles hopefully I’ll start reading books again soon!! ~Oswald (4) 

I’ve been waking up around 2-3am for a while now. So I’ve learnt to waste time bc I don’t like doing things so early in the morning. Anyhow, out of a burning need to do something, anything fulfilling, I’ve started drawing in the morning and….wait for it….. writing in my prayer journal! I feel like that is just the glue that’s gonna hold everything together for me? Idk it’s relaxing as heck and I just, ive been feeling really light bc of them (prayer and art) ~Oswald (5)

I’ve been feeling a lot better about myself recently. Certainly not as amazing as I could be but I’m getting there! “Cyclical but progressing” is smth I’ve been saying a lot bc Ik that this good run I’m having rn will come to an end. But the hope is that when things get bad they won’t be as bad as/I’ll be able to handle it better than last time. Also that I’ll be happier for longer next time around. ~Oswald (6)

To think it took one painful thing at the beginning of this month, coupled with some God orchestrated coincidences, to bring me to where I am now is just a big old wow for me!! Gosh I’m so!!!!!! ~Oswald (7) [hopefully all my messages sent. Hopefully this one sends of nothing else]

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hey i know this is ridiculously late but i didn’t want to jus delete this ask bc im rlly rlly proud of u for growing and. allowing urself to come back stronger int he face of adversity u have a rlly good mindset and. ur rlly rlly strong ur gna do so many amazing things n get so much better !!!!! motivation and passion and consistent Drive is smthn i rlly need to work on and ur an inspiration tbh thank you for having faith in urself and what u could be 

[survivorsuriname]

Episode 9 - Stupid Alliance

Xenia

What a Tribal. Loved it. Jake had everyone wrapped around his little finger. No one was taking an initiative to talk since they would run to just one person, Jake, get the info and just follow his game play. Such people do not deserve their spot in the game. Jake did deserve his spot an could have easily won however he became too overconfident and complacent.He forgot that EVERY vote is important. The social game is exhausting but I feel it is more important that the Physical and AS important as the strategic. This was the biggest move so far and I planned it. Knowing the right time to strike is the biggest plus you can have this game.This vote was our ONLY chance to create a new voting block outside of Juliana coz had Emily gone as Jake had decided, Kenjie and I would be sitting at the bottom of the Juliana alliance. I asked Elizabeth last vote  who the vote was and she said " I need to talk to Jake about it" LMAAAOOOO! Who do you think we are taking out next? ;) Sean is the key vote for our new voting block. It only helps that Kenjie has an advantage and I have an idol. My aim for final 3 is Kenjie, Geri and me. The real game just started and right now I feel comfortable with my new voting block but never comfortable enough. I need to keep looking for idols and advantages. I am playing to WIN. Wish me luck :p <3

Kenjie

Haha everyone thinks its geri plan to vote jake. They dont know i planted all of that. The geris message about his idol they dont know i ask geri to send me that message so that u guys believe hi had a fake ifol. Lol and I forwarded it to all of you so that u all think geri is playing me. Lol

Its top 8 still im continue making jake and vi  believe that jake wants me out thats why i need to do what i need to do. But they dont know its all my plan to make take out jake.by the help of the fake message of geri. Lol

Blake

So i had a plan and I got beaten to the punch. Now Xenia still wants to keep Geri and I'm not sure what my next move is. My only hope is going to be pulling in a Sean/Me/Liz F3 somehow but honest to god I cannot see a way of that happening. Just gonna try and rebuild my relationships and do whatever. :P

Elizabeth

fuck. Jake was my closest ally in this game. Stupid alliance voting him out xD I mean it was a good move on their part but now I feel like me and Blake might get targetted next.

Blake

Everyone in this game is so fucking full of shit it's insane. They claim to be with me but leave me in the dark about everything. Xenia asks me whether I want Liz or Emily out, I tell her Emily, she tells me Liz is going anyway. What the fuck is the point in asking me? Everyone is lying, I don't give a fuck what people think, and I am not just going to be someone's bitch goat. Fuck Jake honestly for being a fucking liar too and walking around like his fucking shit doesn't stink. Fuck everyone in this game honestly. Done with everyone and their fake bullshit.

I got someone to be complacent. I have ONE shot to take majority back for myself. If it works, I am good. If it doesn't, I am next. That's better than sitting around doing nothing. LET'S FUCKING GO BITCH.

Kenjie

Top 8 i make this YING YANG idol to make geri scared of turning on me. Ying yang idol is an idol that i made up by my self. An idol that can be use when the votes are read. And when the owner of this idol is voted out or one of his allies hi can use it and save him self and put the votes that hi resive to other person hi wants out. I use this beffore and its very effective i hope this time it will give me another charm.

Top 8 tonight is the night i will know if geri is really believed in my fake YING YANG idol. I hope another plan will happen. By telling geri that hi is always a target and hi needs me and xinia. I cant believe blakey still telling everything to geri. But they dont know geri runs to me.

Vi

Man so much for playing normally. No more alliances, time to just randomly vote again. Kenjie is a bastard that over thinks things. I offer my loyalty on a silver plate and then he goes and burns it bc he thinks it's fake. Kinda like the salem witch trials. guess it's time to be the real witch and do some voodoo magic or smth. *sigh Blakey is a traitor also but that's okay. He knows aleks so I'll just protect him now. Man orgs suck when people are untrusting

[matoitech]

How do you think Galo's perspective of the world changed post movie ending and what does he do (ex: does he stay a firefighter or dedicates his life to adopting ex-burnish children or both etc. lol)

i love that ‘dedicated to adopting burnish kids’ is an option like post canon galo is running an orphanage now BUT YEAH LETS GET IN2 IT. i think ive talked before how its possible galo would have issues w his job in burning rescue now in post-canon knowing that he was manipulated into it just to get him out of the way, trying to figure out how much of you and what you wanted was genuinely what you wanted vs what someone else was manipulating you into and making u think was ur idea.. so i think its possible that galo potentially doesnt stay w burning rescue / firefighting n does smth else, but im not sure what that would b necessarily, i think he’d definitely still want 2 make a career of helping ppl. i agree w the idea he could leave promepolis w lio when lio goes 2 help burnish (ex burnish?) across the globe and make sure theyre being treated well, i dont know how attached galo would be to promepolis and the ppl there since i think he likes his coworkers (mostly) and is friends w some of them but i dont know if that attachment would b enough 2 keep him there especially if lio needed 2 leave (i see a lot of fic summaries where lio leaves and galo stays and its Angst or whatever but in my head its likelier they both stay for cleanup, lio keeps in contact w other burnish factions across the world meanwhile, and then galo leaves w him several months later if thats what they need 2 do). like firefighting is obviously one of galos special interests so at this point of thinking abt promare i kind of doubt he’d stop firefighting, but its possible! i like seeing ppls ideas about what he’d do instead. i do not think he would make any attempt 2 become a political leader though lol any time i see someone like galo runs for mayor au im like.. galo?? GALO?? i dont think hes interested in Leading anyone hes just happier helping out. i think bc ppl know he has trouble following orders they think he automatically must want to give them but i do not see that happening personally

as for how his perspectives changed.. well definitely what ur kind of trained 2 believe in promepolis w all the propaganda is a very limited view of the world already so lio definitely helped a LOT in for lack of a better word opening galos eyes more 2 things that not burnish ppl who lived in promepolis at least were ignorant of.. definitely i think he dedicates a lot of his life and time to trying to rebuild the world better and safer 4 everyone w lio. i think that was prob smth he wanted 2 do b4 i dont read him as being uninterested in politics or something, he has personal stake in a lot of shit and also hes the kinda person who’d want 2 help anyone suffering from an unfair system anyway. also think movie events probably kicked a lot of his shit back up i think him and lio deal w a lot of trauma from past stuff as well as recent movie events

also i dont think hed right away adopt kids w lio or smth lol i think they need some time 2 be just young kinda stupid 20 somethings and grow as ppl and together in their own relationship first. maybe someday!