#im really really really struggling right now

[eternal-sunflowers]

god money would fix SO much of my life. like people say it can't buy happiness or whatever, but it CAN buy stability.

and ooooh boy, stability feels a hell of a lot like happiness when you've been shit poor or struggling your whole goddamn life

money would solve a vast majority of my problems. genuinely

[actualbird]

who do you think makes the most money amongst the NXX men. we have luke with three sources of income (NSB, antique shop & private detective gig), marius whose a literal CEO of the biggest corporation, vyn who has his own research centre + is a psychiatrist + nobility (not sure if that counts tbh given his complicated relationship with his haspran lineage) and artem whose a lawyer. i feel like marius makes the most, and then it’s kinda debatable between vyn and luke, but artem’s for sure last, and that’s wild because he makes BANK. he’s only in fourth place because someone has to be there 🧍‍♀️

anon, i need you to know this simple question sent me into a spiral. it had me googling things like "How much does James Bond make annually???? (adjusted to present day inflation)" and wondering things like "hold on, what currency do we use for this, because Stellis uses their currency of Stellins and the income will definitely depend as well on the strength Stellin as a currency and the cost of living within Stellis, but oh god we don't really have any good information on how much Stellin is in comparison to IRL currencies, but fuck, i do need to pick a currency to base this off of or else we're not getting ANYWHERE [PULLS AT MY FUCKING HAIR]---"

okay. all that said, this question sent me through so many tabs of googling, but after all that research and my own headcanons and views, here is my answer.

1ST PLACE = marius von hagen

obviously. he's the CEO of one of the most powerful and influential corporations in the country of Stellis. he makes like a gazillion bajillion fuckoff-illion Stellin annually, we dont even have to find a number for him because he's definitely at the top.

did you know canonically, marius never checks the price tag of any of the things he buys? yeah. i think that says enough

2ND PLACE = vyn richter

im not going to do any numbers or math for vyn either because i agree with you that vyn is at second place. vyn technically has the following sources of income

psychologist/psychiatrist

owner/co-founder of Giannovyn Mental Health Research Center

visiting professor at the School of Psychology of Stellis University

being Royalty (but this is...complicated)

being a visiting professor is basically negligible, income-wise. i come from a family of teachers so i know teachers, even at a university level, are paid horrendously. but his practice as a psychiatrist and the income he gets as the owner and co-founder of his research center must be Big Bucks

as for the being Royalty part.....i dont think thats Income, per se, but vyn definitely doesnt need to WORRY about money tbh. worst comes to worst, shitbag dad eirik haspran will throw svartish currency at vyn's face, which vyn will ABSOLUTELY HATE, but that doesnt get rid of the fact that it Is money that he's got access to.

in terms of attitudes and behaviors in regards to spending, his placement of 2nd place seems to align here: vyn lives with many fancy luxuries!! nowhere near as extravagant and out-of-this-world as marius, but it's There: the clear see-through grand piano in his pre-moving-in-together bedroom, the upper class hobbies and interests like wine tasting and horse riding, that kind of stuff. so i think he fits here in 2nd place.

INTERMISSION = i need to take you through my process, methodology, and struggle here (so you understand what i WENT THROUGH)

okay now it was artem and luke that tripped me up the most for this response. my gut instinct when you said artem was last place just made me go "that can't be right...."

i originally tried to solve this conundrum by doing actual math and conversion. my process was:

search the job's annual salary in China (because Stellis is based on Chinese cities in general. this would mean we would be working under Chinese living costs and the Chinese Yuan)

convert those values into Philippine Peso simply so that i can comprehend the numbers

compare who's higher!!

but then that made me realize a big issue with this process.....artem's job is easy, he's a Senior Attorney. but luke....what the FUCK is his actual job title for the NSB??????

in Main Story 05-01, he describes himself as part of the "Financial and Technological Crime Section" of the NSB, and he joins the NXX Investigation Team as a "special investigator" but like....WHATS HIS TITLE. WHATS HIS POSITION. WHATS HIS JOB DESCRIPTION AND WHAT ARE HIS RESPONSIBILITIES???

on NSB missions or during his NSB era, luke has been seen doing undercover work, hacking (idk a more formal term for this), combat training for new recruits, AND THE LIST GOES ON. essentially, searching for his "job" in the first place tripped me up

hence why i landed at this reddit page

it seemed like a lost fucking cause to use actual IRL sources for luke's job so i went into the realm of fictional secret agents, james bond being the most known and, well, luke pearce is basically james bond at this point, what with everything he's had to do already.

HOWEVER, i won't be using the exact numbers that the above reddit thread came up with, because those numbers are based on the living costs and culture of Europe. that fucked up all the numbers ONCE MORE

SO WHAT I INSTEAD DECIDED TO DO WAS extrapolate the answer based on Vibes and Living Conditions

"zak why did you tell us all of this if you were gonna disregard it anyway" because you all need to know how much i wENT THROUGH, FOR THIS ASK SKJFBDLSKFJSD.

3RD PLACE = artem wing

he may have a normal job but consider the fact that he bought a penthouse apartment straight out of college.

additionally, after consulting an Artem Knower, she mentioned and reminded me of the fact that Pax is Themis' client. so artem is getting them BIG PAX BUCKS.

his living conditions are sleek, elegant, and luxurious. not at the same level as vyn and marius, but it is very swanky. in his pre-moving-in-together apartment, he literally had his own private cinema room. his kitchen had two ovens. these are signs that he makes BANK.

4th PLACE = luke pearce

"but zak!! luke literally has THREE SOURCES OF INCOME!! AND ONE OF THOSE IS BEING A GOVERNMENT AGENT!!!" to that i say:

the income from Time's Antiquities is honestly negligible because 1) its main purpose, canonically, isn't actually to be an establishment but instead a front for his PI business. yes, he does do restorations and make sales, but that's not his priority. and 2) HE DOES SO MUCH SHIT FOR FREE. LUKE, THIS IS NO WAY TO RUN A BUSINESS!!! KBSLFBLDS

the income from his Pearce Private Investigations is also somewhat negligible because, again, HE ALSO DOES CASES FOR FREEEEEE or at the very least is very flexible about payment

as for being a government agent........the government does Not Pay Its Employees Well

"but unlike artem, who has an apartment, luke has an entire 3-floor building to himself!!" yes he does! but he did not buy that. it was canonically left to him by his deceased parents

with those matters out of the way, i wanna say that luke making the least among the boys (WHICH DOESNT MEAN HE MAKES LITTLE. he definitely still makes Money, just not as much as the other three) makes sense given his Vibes and Living Conditions

in terms of vibes, luke is a very simple boy. he tends for "low-brow" hobbies and indulgences and food. in terms of living conditions, his pre-moving-in-together living space, which was just one floor of his 3-floor building, was very simple as well, even cramped. his bed was on a palette on the FLOOR. LUKE, FOR GOD'S SAKE, SURELY YOU MAKE ENOUGH TO GET A PROPER BEDFRAME //SHAKES HIM

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conclusion = never make me do this again

i went through a crisis trying to answer this ask. people are allowed to have different opinions of course, but this is My View. i hope this response was at the very least entertaining. KBKSJFSDF

[darlingdaisyfarm]

hey! im sorry to make another post like this, but i feel like i need to say some things. because honestly, if i don’t, i won’t be able to move on from it.

further text under the cut because i don’t want to flood your feed with this

when i posted that anon message, i wasn’t expecting.. well, anything, really. i just felt very awful, i dumped my feelings out because i got emotional and i was ready to just delete this app and not come back. i thought, okay, that’s it, i embarrassed myself for the last time, im done. but when i came back, suddenly there were all these kind messages from people telling me they care, and i think it’s only because of you all that i’m still here. you all mean so much to me, i don’t think i’ve ever felt this supported in my entire life. i don’t know what i did to deserve this kind of kindness, but it means everything to me. so thank you, thank you so much to everyone who didn’t just walk past me when i needed it the most, i really needed to hear that. i cant help but smile when reading your words. i appreciate each of you.

the truth is, that anon text hit me like a knife to the chest. and i hate that it did. i hate that i let a random person make me feel sick about my own hobby, my own blog and everything i’ve ever shared here. but the thing is i’ve always felt this way. hesitant, always unsure if i even have the right to take up space here, i guess a lot of that comes from the friendships i used to have.

because ive always been that friend. the one who listens, who gives. who’s always there when someone needs to vent, to cry, to talk about their passions, struggles or random thoughts. and i never minded, i loved being there for people. but when i tried to share smth about me, it was always met with indifference. like what i had to say wasn’t worth anything. and after years of that, i started believing it myself. even now, posting this, i still feel awkward. like, it’s hard for me to even write this without thinking, should i delete this before anyone sees it? that’s where the anxiety comes from and it’s smth im still working through

so when that anon said what they did, it was like hearing all of my worst thoughts spoken out loud. as if they reached inside my brain, pulled out every insecurity i’ve ever had, and threw it right in my face. ive always felt like im being too annoying. i know i post a lot, but every time i cant help but feel so cringe about it. and i fight it because i dont like being constantly embarrassed for just being myself, but it’s exhausting.

so yeah, when i saw that message, i just felt so damn embarrassed about everything, like i was making a fool of myself this entire time and just didn’t realize it and i hate feeling that way.

and the part that really got to me was the comparison. it hurt more than anything, it made me feel like no matter how hard i try, ill never be enough, that all the effort, all the time, all the small moments of pride i let myself have were just misplaced. i know I’m not perfect, i know there are better writers, faster writers or just people who seem to create more interesting ideas or plots or describe characters way better, but i didnt mind? i mean i was just trying to find space where i can express myself without fear, but then that comparison just made me feel so sick of myself. like “oh look, they’re better, so mb you should just give up.” it made me feel like i don’t have the right to take up space here at all

its hard to explain, but that comparison just made me feel like i was less than

i wouldn’t say i’m a perfectionist, but i am very critical of my writing. i put a lot of effort into my stuff, especially since english isn’t my first language. it’s twice as hard to make sure my sentences are right, that i didn’t mess up the grammar, that i used the right words. and when you pour so much effort into smth and then someone just comes and shits all over it, it kills any desire to create or continue smth. makes you feel like maybe you shouldn’t create anything else. hell, i know that sounds dramatic, but that’s how it feels. and i hate that i’m letting this ruin smth i loved

and the part about taking too long to update... i don’t know what to say to that, i’m not a machine, i write when my brain lets me. when i have an idea, an image in my head, when i feel inspired. and i did have inspiration. i spent a whole week writing that last fic, actually enjoying the process, i felt proud of it, which is rare for me. excited to share it with people. and for what?

and the worst part is, i was planning to start posting my art too. i wanted to finally get out of my comfort zone, to share smth i’ve been afraid to share for so long. but if this is the kind of reaction i get for just writing, then what the hell is gonna happen when i post art? i blocked the last anon who sent me hate, so this is someone new then? meaning there’s two people now who actively dislike me enough to go out of their way to make sure i know. and i know, i know, i shouldn’t care about whether people like me or not. but fuck, it’s hard, i’m a professional overthinker, and unfortunately, i don’t think i’ll be quitting that job anytime soon.

i already had so much going on in my personal life. so much i was trying to get off my mind by being here, writing, sharing things that make me happy, talking with people. and then i open this app and see that, and suddenly it’s like, what’s even the point?

i know i’m being a sensitive crybaby. i hate to be this way. and i get that it’s the internet, and people can be jerks and assholes. but i REALLY don’t understand how much poison you have to have in yourself to send this hateful shit to a complete stranger. i just don’t get it. i’ve never left hate on anything, not even on stuff that isn’t for me. it just feels so pointless?

and as for the thing about Stan’s speech in my fics - im not american. english isn’t even my first language. and you have no idea how much effort it takes to get his voice even close to what it should be, he is one of the hardest characters for me to write. so fuck you, anon, you suck. genuinely

but... as much as that anon’s words gutted me, the kindness i received in response meant even more, it reminded me of why im here in the first place. to share things i love, to create, to talk with people who actually care. what im trying to say is thank you for making me feel less alone. i’m honestly just.. overwhelmed, in the best way. i was drowning in self-doubt, and your kindness and support pulled me out. i don’t take it for granted. i love all of you ♡♡ ive read all your messages, and ive never felt SO damn appreciated

[monsterqueers]

So ive been using linux for a good while now, and its now officially my daily driver. Windows is now permabenched in a removed hhd in a drawer unless something awful happens. (Good riddance, havent truly enjoyed windows since xp)

And from this I think that people urging others to move to linux are not doing so in the correct way.

Instead of trying to push a friendly distro and insisting it will work for everything and everyone, instead check if the hardware they are using specifically is good for linux and if so what families.

One computer will be a breeze with any distro, another could have a few quirks but be basically fine, however another of the same year and manufacturer could be an uphill battle thats straight up unusable even for someone who knows how to do the kernel edit workarounds for all but specific distros, if that.

My desktop took linux mint like a dream, 100% painless with no fucking about to make it work and even no need for an ethernet cable to get things started. My dinosaur laptop (may it rest in peace after other components died) had a few issues but also worked very well with little effort with mint. My current junk laptop is an uphill battle that will require arch AND edits to the kernel paremeters to work without being filled with screen flashing and full system freezes at random and im still gearing up the gumption to give it another few attempts to actually pull it off.

Each of these computers is a VERY different experience, and if your prospective switcher is using a computer that doesnt play well, its NOT going to work, they will get frustrated, and they will give up. They have to work with what they have.

Instead of going right to telling them to switch and that anything is good, Encourage people to search up their pc+linux compatibility if they are looking to switch to determine if its viable for a newbie who doesnt want to struggle, then offer a distro that has a live usb/dvd version if possible for them to test without install, and a big enough userbase that troubleshooting is as painless as possible.

If its a laptop, archwiki has lists of those by maker (linked in the page given) with notes on what has been tested in that family of linux.

This, I think, above all, is the most important thing when trying to get people to switch:

MAKE SURE THEIR HARDWARE IS GOOD FOR IT

Not just the pc, but the peripherals too; their mouse, their mic, their webcam, their keyboard- these things are not always supported well.

Linux can be fast, easy, and really comfortable and painless with little to no troubleshooting or tedious workarounds to get your stuff to work; but you have to be using the right hardware.

Yes, make sure you have alternative programs lined up that are actually good (stop reccing gimp when krita is a way better P$ alternative for people trying to draw digitally), and maybe consider talking about how to run wine in a newbie friendly way for things they might need for work reasons that dont work on linux normally(and accept that it might not work even with wine), but above all, make sure that its not just being phrased as 'a you problem' when it might be their system that is the issue there.

For prospective switchers that tried but gave up because of glitches or freezes or things otherwise not working: It wasnt you being bad at computers. Sometimes it just doesnt work with that hardware well and there is nothing you can do. People dont warn you about this, but its a very real issue.

If you still want to try linux, when you eventually get a new computer in the future, look for one that seems to be supported by linux well- some pcs even come with linux preinstalled for you even (dell does this with ubuntu and ubuntu has skins that looks windows esque). Asking specifically for linux compatible or linux preinstalled computers signals to developers to make more computers that work with linux, and makes it easier to get linux friendly stuff.

If not, there are windows 11 neutering tools out there in the wild that are very useful and are a plenty fine alternative to switching. You should only switch if you want to switch.

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

Hello!! I wrote a self ship thing based on @mintmatcha 's "Inevitable" fic, i highly recommend yall read it!! Anyways, i wanted to share it so here yall go :3

How many margaritas had she drank tonight? Three? No, technically two: the first two margaritas were bought during happy hour and were filled to the brim with ice, so they counted as one in her mind.

Regardless, she was drunk. Really drunk. And it felt good, so so good. That fuzzy feeling in her head, the swirling when she swayed back and forth. She’s lucky her friend was a designated driver and got her home okay. Lord knows that she would’ve gotten into trouble left on her own.

She stumbled into her apartment, barely remembering to lock the door behind her. Reggie mewled at her, back arching as she rubbed against Sunny’s legs. Sunny tried to reach over to pet her, but the world was too wobbly and she tumbled forward, barely keeping herself up.

“I think it’s time for bed, sweet girl,” she slurred, kicking off her shoes.

She found her way to the bedroom, somehow, giggling to herself for some unknown reason. She peeled off her clothes, tossing them somewhere on the floor before finding the bed. She slid beneath the sheets, groaning softly. Her face hit the pillow and she sighed, eyes closed. Her head was spinning, unable to calm down. Why was the world moving so fast, even when she wasn’t looking at it?

She was tired, but she wasn’t. She wanted to stay up, but she wanted sleep.

She wanted to get fucked.

She moaned softly, turning onto her back, peeking her eyes open. She could masturbate, but she usually used porn for that, and she didn’t feel like looking at anything, and her fantasies were jumbled right now.

She could… Should she?

She thought of the guy she sexted a while ago, what was his name? Norman? Nathan? Yeah, Nathan! That’s who he was! She remembered the phone sex being decent enough to turn her on, but his voice just didn’t do it for her. Maybe he was still awake? She could text him and keep it at that, no voices, just text. She could get off better that way.

She grabbed her phone from her nightstand, pulling it up. The names were hazy, but she found his and clicked on it. She had deleted the chat a long time ago, not caring about keeping the memory of it.

Heyyyyy <

Are you up? <

She waited for a response, grabbing her vibrator in the process, struggling to turn it on. When it touched her clit, she received a response.

> Yes. What do you need?

She giggled, holding the vibrator between her legs as she typed.

You sksksk <

> What?

I want you silly billy <

> I’m sorry, I’m confused.

She scoffed, rolling her eyes.

Do you wanna sext or not <

> What?

Omg nevrmind <

She dropped her phone beside her, trying to focus on her clit instead. Her phone kept lighting up beside her. It kept distracting her from her eventual orgasm. She groaned, picking up the phone again and looking at her messages.

> Are you being serious? Don’t tease me, Sunny.

> What do you mean sexting?

> Why do you want to sext me?

Didnt you have fun last time? <

Three dots appear, then disappear, then reappear again.

> I don’t think you’re texting the right person, Sunny. Check your contacts.

Omg if u dont want to sext then just say it dont be a pussy <

She puts the phone down again, increasing the speed on the vibrator, trying to focus. Her phone lit up again and she let out a loud groan, grumbling to herself as she turned it back on.

> You want to sext me?

> Fine.

> How do we do this?

She smiles, feeling victorious as she starts typing again.

What are you thinking about?? <

> I don’t know. Nothing.

> I’m wondering what you’re doing.

Im touhing myself <

> How?

She brings up the camera, holding up her phone and taking a picture, sending it.

> Oh my god

> You have a vibrator?

> Jesus Christ

> Is that what you like? You like sex toys?

Mmhm I lik em a lot <

> What kinds?

Dildos and vibrators and butt plusg <

The dots appear for several moments.

> Fuck

> Damn it

> That’s so sexy

> Do you have those things or do you just like them?

No I have them <

> Go get them

> Please

She giggles, turning off the vibrator and getting her other toys. The sick feeling was subsiding, leaving just the fuzziness left for her to enjoy as she got back into bed with her toys.

Got em <

> Show me

She sets up her toys, taking a picture and sending it to him.

> Shit

> Fuck

> Is that a clit sucker?

Yea <

> Jesus Christ. You’re going to make me crazy.

> What do you want to do?

Wat do u want me to do <

Several dots, again.

> I don’t know. I never thought this would happen before.

> Do you want to use the clit sucker?

Sure <

She grabs it, turning it on, placing it over her clit and letting out a soft moan.

> How is it?

Good <

> Just good?

Yea just good <

> What would make it better?

Youu <

> Jesus

> Can I see?

He’s so much more polite this time. Last time he kept making demands, asking her to call him ‘daddy’ and shit she wasn’t really into. Maybe a woman put him in his place and he learned from it.

She snaps another photo and sends it.

> Jesus Christ you’re wet

> Do you usually get that wet? Is that normal for you? Or is it because of me?

Hmmm both <

I can get really wet <

but only if the person turns me on ;) <

> You’re going to drive me crazy

> Is it enough? Would you like more?

More more more pls <

> Turn it up higher for me

She does as he asks, moaning a bit louder.

> Does it feel good?

Yea so good <

> What are you thinking about?

You sksksk <

> What about me?

She didn’t know. She didn’t know much about this guy besides the photos he shared and his name. Best to stay general.

Thinkin about you fucking me <

> Really?

> How long have you wanted me to fuck you?

She thought for a moment.

Since I first saw you <

> Really?

> You’re messing with me.

> This is a joke isn’t it?

> Did HE put you up to this?

She pouted, typing fast.

whatre you talking about I just wana fuck you why is that so hard to understand <

are u mad at me pls dont be mad I just wanna be with u <

pls dont be mad at m <

> I’m not mad at you.

> You seem sincere.

> It’s just hard to believe. I’ve liked you for so long. I never thought you would go for a guy like me.

She furrows her brow.

What?? what do you mean ur so hot and sexy why wouldn’t I like u <

> You’re just so pretty and sweet. I know other men who would kill to do this with you.

What lol thats so weird whatre u talking about <

can we go backk to the sex pls I wanna cum <

> You’re right. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t worry about it.

> How can I make you cum?

She smiles, biting her lip.

Tell me how I turn you on <

> What doesn’t turn me on about you?

> I love your hair. It’s so cute and curly. I want to touch it.

> Your eyes. They’re so pretty. It’s hard not to stare into them constantly.

> And your lips. They’re perfect. I’ve wanted to kiss you for so long.

Omg pls say more <

> Well, your body is beautiful. I’ve always been fond of curvier women. You always look so soft and inviting. I wish I could touch you.

I want you to touch me <

> Where?

Evrywhere <

> Your breasts?

> Your hips?

> Your thighs?

Yes yes yes <

> Your stomach?

She feels her cunt twitch, her tummy tighten, but she’s nervous. Did she ever show this guy her stomach? Did he have a fetish or something?

Nooo im shyy <

> Why sweetheart? Do you not like it?

I dont like my tummy <

> Don’t say that. Your stomach is beautiful. I’ve seen it when you wear tight clothes and it’s perfect. It looks so soft.

> Please don’t think like that dear. You’re so beautiful.

U think so?? <

> Yes, I do.

> You’re so beautiful, Sunny. I think you’re gorgeous.

Do u want me?? <

There’s a pause in the texts, making her pout.

> Yes. I do.

> I really, really want you.

> Does that bother you?

No!! thats what I want!! I want u to want me <

> This doesn’t feel real. This feels like a dream.

I wanna cummm <

> Oh my god I’m so sorry

> I got distracted. I’m sorry

> You want to cum dear?

Yesss <

> You can cum sweetheart.

She turns up the clit sucker again, moaning louder, tossing her head into her pillow. She can feel it building, her legs kicking, her finger turning up the toy more until she’s pushed over the edge, falling falling falling in the most blissful way.

It soon becomes too much, and she pulls the toy away, turning it off. She catches her breath, seeing her phone light up.

> Did you cum sweetheart?

Yesss <

> Did it feel good?

Uh huh <

> Good. I like to make you feel good.

She giggles giddily, kicking her feet. What had changed with this guy? He seemed like a dream boat now.

> It’s late. Are you tired? Would you like to go to bed?

Did you cum?? <

> No. I haven’t been touching myself.

Wat why <

> I did this for you, not me.

What noooo it’s no fun if im the only one who cumsss <

There’s a pause, making her irritated.

> You want me to cum for you?

Yes pls <

> God. I love when you say please.

> Okay. I’ll touch myself for you

thank youuu <

There silence for a while, and she perks up when his text comes through.

> Would you like to see?

She scrunched her face. She really didn’t, but she didn’t want to seem rude.

sure <

She waits, and a few moments later, there’s a photo.

> I’m not used to this, so I’m sorry if it looks odd.

Her eyes widen. He was long, and thick. Was he always that hard for her? Maybe he used a penis pump or something to make himself bigger. That was a thing, right?

Ur huge !! <

> You think so?

Uh YEA ur so big wth why havent we fucked irl yet sksksk <

> Because I didn’t know you liked me.

> Do you really like it?

Yea <

I wanna suck ur balls <

Dots appear then disappear. She worries that her fetish freaked him out.

> Jesus

> I almost came

> Do you really want to suck them?

She smiles, confidence building.

Yes <

I love balls <

I lov touching them and sucing them <

I wanna suck them and feel ur cock on my face <

> God

> That’s so sexy

> I’m imagining it

> I wish I could feel you right now

Wat wuld u do?? <

> I’d make love to you the way I always imagined

> I’d set you down on the bed and kiss you

> I’d kiss your body down to your pussy and taste you

> And after you cum on my mouth, I’ll push my cock inside of you

Her hips start to shimmy, her lip bitten raw.

Thats so hot <

it makes me wanna cum again <

> Again?

> God

> You’re insatiable

> I love it

> I’d give you everything you wanted and more, darling

> I’d make you cum so much you couldn’t bear it any longer

> Only then would I cum inside you

yuo wanna cum in me?? <

> Yes

> So badly

> Do you not like that?

I love it <

I lov breeding <

want u to breed me <

She grabbed the dildo, rubbing it over her slick pussy before pushing it into her entrance, moaning at the sensation.

> You do?

> God

> I have to admit, I’ve thought of it

> I’ve thought of breeding your sweet cunt

> I’ve thought about filling you up with my seed more times than I’d like to admit

She moaned, searching for the vibrator in her bed, sighing when she found it and turned it on, placing it on her clit. She glanced at the phone, wanting to type back, but her hands were busy. She paused, searching the message options before finding the voice message option, pressing record.

“Sorry,” she breathed, moving her hands back to her cunt. “My hands are busy.” She giggled and moaned, hips thrusting into her hands. “God, I want you so bad. You’re so hot. And your dick, oh my god! Fuck, I want you to fuck me hard. And fast. I wanna cum on your cock so bad.”

She stopped the recording, sending it off and continuing to masturbate. Her phone flashed a minute later.

> Fuck

> FUCK

> Oh my god your voice

> You sound so good

> I could cum from your voice alone

She giggles, pressing the voice message again.

“Do you want to?”

> God

> Yes

> Please

> Let me keep hearing you

u wanna call?? <

There’s a long pause, and she frowns, starting to feel insecure.

And then, the phone rings.

“Hello?”

“Hello.”

“Oh my god, your voice!” She squeals into her pillow for a moment. “How is your voice so hot?!”

“You like my voice?”

“Oh my god, I love it! It’s so sexy, holy fuck, I wanna sit on your face.”

“I’d let you, for as long as you want. I want to make you feel good.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah.”

She giggles, moaning when he groans.

“God, I love your laugh.”

“Does it make you hard?”

“I don’t know if it’s possible for me to be any harder than I am now.”

“That’s so hot, baby.”

She moans, louder, smiling when he groans softly in response. His voice seems different this time, deeper. Maybe it’s because he’s whispering? He was a lot louder last time.

“You sound like an angel.”

“You think so?”

“I do. God, I wish I was there. I wish I could touch you.”

“That would be so nice. I want you to fuck me for real.”

“Really?”

“Uh-huh. Want you to fuck me into the bed.”

His groans send shock waves to her pussy, and she moves faster, her voice corresponding with each thrust.

“I love hearing you moan.”

“I love to moan.”

“You do? You’re not faking it for me?”

“Nuh-uh, no way. That’s dumb. I hate faking shit.”

“Good. I want you to be honest with me.”

“I am. Are we gonna cum or not?”

“Yes, yes, I’m sorry for distracting you.”

She scoffs, smiling, turning up the vibrator again which only makes her moan. She tosses in her bed, gasping as she thrusts faster.

“God, I wish you were here to do this. My hand is getting tired.”

“I wish I could, darling. I’d take care of you the way you deserve.”

“Yeah?”

“Yes. I’d make you cum as many times as you want. I’d fill you up like you want. I’ll do anything you want me to do.”

“Would you cum for me?”

“Yes.”

“Good, because I’m gonna cum soon.”

“God, me too. Please cum for me, Sunny. I want to hear it.”

His pleas spur her on, her cunt clenching around the dildo. She feels her orgasm building, a fire burning in her belly, growing brighter and brighter. She bites her lip and moans high, the sound turning into a squeal.

She gasps, feeling it grow closer, closer, and suddenly it’s there, hitting her like a brick. Her eyes widen and roll back as she groans gutturally. She hears him say her name before he groans as well, breathing hard into the phone.

She’s panting, and he is too. She turns off the vibrator, tossing it somewhere. She pulls out the dildo, licking it clean, sighing as she does.

“What are you doing?”

“Licking my cum off my dildo.” He groans through the phone.

“Please. I’ll get hard again.”

She laughs, putting the dildo down and laying on her side, sighing, content.

“Are you tired?”

“Yeah.”

“It’s late. You should go to bed.” She hums in response, but doesn’t move. She hears shuffling and a sigh. “I need to go to bed too. I need to wake up early.”

“Mm.”

“I…” There’s a pause. “I’m going to hang up. Goodnight, Sunny.”

“G’night,” she says, face smushed against her pillow. She hears a chime, realizing that the call ended. A part of her wishes she could’ve had some aftercare, but the rest of her doesn’t care as sleep overtakes her.

She wakes up to the sun hitting her in the face. She peeks an eye open, immediately closing it and groaning, turning over in bed. She left the light on. Her cunt was still soaked from the night before.

She thought about last night and smiled. Nathan was a lot sexier this time around. She was genuinely considering having sex with him in the future, not just over the phone. She stretched, reaching for her phone, groaning when it was at 20%.

She plugged it in, getting up, going to the bathroom. She took a quick shower, moisturizing her newest tattoo and putting on a robe, heading back to the bedroom. She grabbed her phone again, eager to look over the texts that turned her on so much last night.

Huh.

Nathan wasn’t in her messages. Who did she text last night? She scrolled back to the top, looking at her most recent messages. Her mom, her coworker, Nanami—

Wait.

Her heart dropped when she saw Nanami Kento’s name show up, the last message from her, asking if he wanted to call.

No. No.

She opened the messages, her heart racing, skimming things over.

“Oh my god,” she whispered, covering her mouth. “Oh my god!”

She panicked, turning the phone off and shoving it under her pillow.

Fuck. Fuck! Oh god, she was embarrassed, so fucking embarrassed. She wanted to just die. She wanted to crawl in a hole and rot and never be found.

She couldn’t do this. She couldn’t handle this. What was she going to do? How could she ever face him again after everything that happened last night, how she talked, how she acted? Oh god, she was so embarrassed. She could disintegrate from the shame alone.

She left the room, pacing around her apartment. She tried to distract herself by feeding her cat, making a coffee. Coffee was probably a bad idea, but she wasn’t thinking straight.

She returned to her room, staring at her pillow as she sipped her straw.

She couldn’t hide from this. She needed to face it, rip the Band Aid off in one clean motion, get it over with.

She steeled her nerves. She set down her coffee on her nightstand and slapped her cheeks with both hands.

Just fucking do it already.

She slid back onto the bed, sneaking a hand under her pillow to grab her phone. She brought up Nanami’s contact, her hands shaking as she typed.

Can we talk?? Like on the phone?? <

She took in a deep breath after she hit send, her breath hitching when her phone vibrated instantly, Nanami already calling her. Her stomach twisted as she answered the call.

“Hello?”

“Good morning.”

God, his voice sounded so good. No wonder she came last night.

“G-Good morning.”

“Did you sleep well?”

“I-I guess…”

“What did you want to talk about?”

Her throat closes up, her eyes pooling and suddenly she hiccups, covering her mouth.

“Sunny? Are you alright?”

She sniffs, the tears falling so easily.

“N-Noooo…”

“Oh, Sunny, are you crying? Why are you crying, sweetheart?”

“I-I’m sorry, Ken! I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to text you. I feel so stupid.”

She hears a sigh.

“You were drunk, weren’t you?”

She hiccups.

“H-How did you know?”

“The way you texted was different. And you’ve never spoken to me like that before. You thought I was someone else, didn’t you?”

“I…” She sniffs. “I-I mean, y-yes.”

“I knew it. I knew it was too good to be true. Fuck.” He groans. “Damn it. I’m sorry, Sunny. I took advantage of you last night. I took advantage of you in a vulnerable state. Fucking hell. I’m so sorry.”

“I-It’s not your fault. I was drunk and horny and I texted you thinking you were this other guy and…” She trails off. Silence overcomes them.

“I understand.” He sighs. “We can forget about it. I won’t treat you any differently. Just ignore everything I said and we can go back to normal.”

“I…” She thought about what he said, how he wanted her in all these specific ways, the way she had hoped, the way she had dreamed. “I… don’t want you to hate me.”

“I could never hate you, Sunny.”

“I acted like such an idiot.”

“Please don’t talk like that.”

“But I did! I texted my crush while I was drunk like a big dummy and now you probably think I’m some sort of slut who would put herself out for anyone and—”

“Woah, woah, wait. Crush? What do you mean crush?”

“I…” She squeezes her eyes shut, opening them and breathing in shakily. “I have a crush on you, Ken.”

There’s a pause, then a breathy laugh. She feels her stomach drop. She knew it, he thought she was an idiot, a fool, a fucking child who—

“I can’t believe it,” he says. “You… You texted me thinking I was a different man but in reality you liked me the whole time?”

“Y-Y-Yes…”

“God, I…” She hears him take a deep breath. “I need to see you. I need to talk to you in person. Are you free today? Would you like to go get some coffee? Wait, no, lunch would be better. Would you like to get lunch?”

“I…” Her eyes dart in front of her. “You don’t hate me?”

He laughs, her stomach doing flips.

“Quite the opposite, Sunny. I just need to see you.”

They meet at a restaurant with private booths, curtains covering them from the other patrons.

“I thought we could use some privacy,” he says as he closes the curtains, sitting back down across from her. She can’t look at him, too embarrassed. Her body is hot, her hands sweating as she twists her fingers.

“Sunny.” She glances up at him. He’s well put together, as always, his glasses hiding his eyes. He reaches up for them and takes them off, sticking them in his pocket. “Let’s talk about what happened.”

“O-Okay.”

“So,” he folds his hands in front of him, “you got drunk last night and texted me, thinking I was someone else.”

“Yes.”

“And you thought I was that other person the whole time.”

“Y-Yes.”

“Do you like that other person?”

She shrugs awkwardly, then shakes her head.

“No, not really. We met on a dating app and we’ve only sexted once and it wasn’t even that good.”

“But you chose to sext him again anyways?”

“I was… lonely… and horny…”

“I see.”

The waiter comes to get their drink orders, disappearing again.

“Despite what you thought, you texted me.”

“Yes.”

“And, according to you, you have a crush on me.”

“U-Uh-huh.”

“For how long?”

“I…” Fuck, she felt so small under his gaze. She felt so silly. “P-Probably since we met.”

“That’s a long time.”

“Well… you were very charming when we first met.”

He scoffs, his lips curling.

“Many would disagree with that.”

“Well, they just don’t see you like I do.”

He hums. The waiter comes back with drinks, asking for their orders. She’s not really hungry, but she orders something anyways, something she’s sure she’ll like enough to take home to eat later. When the waiter leaves, he looks back to her.

“Do you believe anything I said last night?”

She glances at him, then back down at her hands.

“I… I don’t know.”

“Read it again.”

She inhales deep, taking her phone from her purse. She pulls out the texts, scrolling to the beginning and rereading them. She cringes at how she acted, but her heart races at his words.

“Who did you think put me ‘up to this’?” He groans.

“Gojo. He’s known that I’ve liked you for a while. Not that I’ve told him; he just guessed correctly. He keeps bothering me about it.”

“Oh…” She keeps reading. “You… you’ve liked me for a long time?”

“Yes?”

“H-How long?”

He sighs, crossing his arms.

“For a good while. Almost as long as I’ve known you.”

She bites her lip, continuing.

“You really like my hair?”

“Yes.”

“And my eyes?”

“Yes.”

“And my lips?”

“Yes. I meant every word I said, Sunny.”

She huffs, skimming through the rest, focusing on his words instead of her own.

“You… I just can’t believe it’s real. I can’t believe you really feel this way about me.”

“Why not?”

“B-Because you’re you! You’re handsome and smart and nice and it’s just crazy. Why would you want to be with me when you could have any girl you want?” He scoffs.

“Any girl I want.” He shakes his head. “And what if I said that the only one I want is you?”

“I wouldn’t believe you.”

He looks to her and relaxes when he sees her smiling softly.

“Do… you only like me sexually?”

“No. I like you because of who you are.”

“But… you do like me sexually, right?”

“Of course.”

The food arrives. The two of them start eating quietly, exchanging short glances every now and then.

“I don’t know what to do,” she confesses.

“What do you mean?”

“Like… I’ve wanted to be with you for so long and it felt like it would never happen, so now that it is happening, I just… I’m lost.”

“Would you like to be with me?”

“Duh, of course.”

“Then, shall we be together?”

She swallows.

“Like… dating?”

“Yes.”

“Like boyfriend and girlfriend?”

“Yes.”

“Huh…” She blinks, shaking her head. “It just doesn’t feel real.”

“Well, it’s certainly an unconventional way of starting a relationship.”

She giggles and he smiles softly, taking another bite of his food.

“Can… we go on dates?”

“Of course.”

“And hold hands and kiss?”

“Naturally.”

“Can we…” She leans forward, blushing. “Have sex?”

“I would like it, eventually.”

She squeaks, covering her face in her hands, kicking her feet.

“I’m gonna explode!”

He huffs, smiling as she wiggles in her seat. She moves her hands to her cheeks, staring back at him.

“Can we start dating right now?”

“If you’d like.”

“Can… this be our first date?”

“If you want it to be, although I’d prefer our first date being someplace nicer.”

“This place is nice! It’s very nice, I like it here.”

His lips curl.

“Then, this is our first date.”

She smiles, making him smile. They go back to eating, her queasiness subsiding.

“Ken?”

“Yes?”

“This is a really nice date.”

His heart feels full.

“I’m glad you like it, Sunny.”

[crushedsweets]

hey crushedsweets!!! i've been thinking about making my own vn in google slides like you did, do you have any tips/advice?? (like how you added different routes and how you put music in the bg)

hello hello!!!

okay so it's kind of hard to explain it all over text. if i get Enough requests i MIGHT do a tiktok video but as of right now, ill try it here. ALSO EVERYTHING IS PROBABLY ALREADY A TUTORIAL ON YOUTUBE BUT IM HELLA ANNOYING AND REFUSE TO WATCH TUTORIALS T_T I JUST STRUGGLE N FIGURE IT OUT

honestly this is such a shitty explanation so i might do the tiktok tutorial if i have free time next week (cuz im on spring break now LOL)...

also, if you guys want, i might make a copy of the slideshow and give yall full access to it so you can poke around to try and understand it cuz my "tutorial" is ASS

DIFFERENT ROUTES

okay so. i don't really do different routes, i just give 3 decisions that funnel into the same route so the game FEELS like a game...but its not rlly one.

i'll try to take it step by step:

make options. make sure you already have the following slides/routes created

make the blue textbox cover the entire beige box. if you don't, then when players click, it'll direct them to the NEXT slide, not the route you want

Click on the blue lines of the textbox and click CTRL+K. You should already have the route slide created, in which you just input the slide number. IF YOU WANT PLAYERS TO RETURN TO CERTAIN SLIDES W/O GIVING THEM THE OPTION SLIDE, HERES AN EXAMPLE..(?):

>the "stay in bed" option is on slide 14. >this options directs you to slide 16. >slide 16 is a joke option. because of this, i want the player to go BACK to slide 14 to make a serious decision. >to do this, i turned EVERY asset into a CTRL+K link that sends you back to slide 14. this includes the background, text box, beige text holder, the apple png >this way, no matter where the player clicks, it sends them back to slide 14 (so they can make a real decision) >this gives you full control of where the player goes, even if its going backwards

EXTRA TIPS:

after every choice-slide, i created this warning slide. this makes sure that even if the player doesnt click correctly(i.e clicks the background, uses spacebar), they'll know there was a mistake and it'll send them back

I ALSO PUT THIS RED SLIDE BETWEEN EVERY "ROUTE CHUNK". what i mean by that is..

>as you can see, there is the decision on slide 196. >the first decision on slide 196 sends you to slide 198. >so slide 198-204 is a "route chunk". >when players finish that route chunk, i link(CTRL+F) ALL ASSETS on slide 204 to slide 215 >i do this because slide 215 is the end of the "route chunks" and leads you to the direct story. slide 204 AND 213 both link to 215 >this allows readers to progress smoothly regardless of what decision they made, since all decisions are meaningless in my VN (sorry)

>HOWEVER, this means you have to try and make sure all decisions leave no tangible impact on the story - i try to make them impact the player, not the MC (i.e leaving canine teeth in the drawers so the PLAYER will feel uneasy, but the MC never mentions it again)

i use these red slides to separate the slide chunks for two reasons:

makes it easier for me to keep track of route chunks when editing

if there is a mistake, players know to go back one slide so they can fix it. this way, they wont be progressing through random, unclear routes

okay. that was the best i got for the routes.

NOW FOR MUSIC

honestly? i dont even remember what website i used, but...

FIRST, you need to download a youtube video with whatever music you want. i think this website should work

SECOND, you now have an MP3 youtube video. GO ONTO GOOGLE DRIVE, click NEW, click UPLOAD FILE, then upload the MP3 file

THIRD, go into your slideshow. click INSERT, click AUDIO. now you should have the audio on your slideshow.

FOURTH, now its all up to preference. you should have a little audio icon pop up. click AUDIO ICON, click FORMAT OPTIONS, click LOOP AUDIO.

YOUR AUDIO SHOULD PLAY THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE SLIDESHOW NOW!!! :3

extra:

i havent done it cuz i was getting busy and just wanted to finish it, but honestly, you could probably change the audio throughout your slideshow - upbeat music to scary music when the scenes change, etc. maybe even layer them? i dunno. thats for you to play around with, cuz I DUNNO cuz i didnt do it. but yahh

ok... thats all... im so ass at explaining but i might make that tiktok. but my laptop screen is cracked so im embarrassed recording pics of it HAHAHAHA

[sirfleetfoot]

RULES OF BEING OTHERKIN #1

Being authentic and true to yourself is the only way you are 'supposed to be/act like' (insert entity). If anyone else disagrees it only tells you about them.

[xxplastic-cubexx]

after finally playing scarlet witch long enough to get this icon ive decided that you really have to love wanda to get this icon

anyway Bonus cause Heh....... Fam.....

[milkweedman]

All my projects are in time out right now for being terrible and impossible. Which is to say, i am starting a new crochet bag. Crochet bag will be good to me..

[zkiner]

I just remembered that though i posted a wip of a game im working on, i never really talked about the idea of it.

Basically last year i came across this post

and havent stop thinking about it since. And since im a huge enjoyer of Zimvoid i took it upon myself to create something like that (with 0 knowlege of making games but that dont matter).

So yeah, this is a zadr dating simulator.

[chrliekclly]

How did you get your job on sunny? I really wanna go into the entertainment industry.

iv told th story b4 but i got onto th show bcuz i just happened to b n th right place @ th right time

was working on smthn completely different nd drunk on th camera truck during one of our wrap days me, the DIT, nd the loader wer talking abt fave tv shows nd when i said tht always sunny was mine th loaders just like "oh lol funny im the 1st AC on that. i can get u some days if u want" ???

so i...did some days...then i did a season...and now im core crew i guess

[yoldels]

Thh crew save me Thh crew....

I wanted to post drawings + some headcannons of all of them at the same time but that's taking too damn long so I'm doing it in parts instead

[nabaath-areng]

I couldn't settle for which specific one I liked better--

[javierduffy]

stuff

[thebirdandhersong]

I don't think I've ever been this reluctant to teach Sunday School in my life, and that's probably because a) I was so burned out by constant and frequent involvement in ministry from my previous church and I'm not over it, a year later, or b) I feel pressured into it. which is bizarre, because it's not like the pastor told me to volunteer. He just asked me three times, because he knew I had leadership experience in ministry, and said they needed people. which. How am I supposed to say no when you tell me there's a need.