#im projecting myself to chuuya

[elkieanddoppo]

chuuya moving on from dazai bc he ran away (betrayed) the mafia and didn't even bother telling him beforehand. he thought dazai could trust him now. they were literally in a relationship and had been since they were 16.

it was 2 years later, he was walking to a bar that he has been going to ever since dazai betrayed him. chuuya insisted that he has moved on from him but really, whos gonna believe him when he still drinks and cries because of that bandaged freak.

he enters the bar and walked to his usual seat. he noticed a blonde man sitting beside it. he sat down and ordered his usual.

while waiting, he could not stop looking at the guy beside him. he was so gorgeous. even though he can only see his side profile, chuuya thinks hes the most beautiful person he has ever seen.

the blonde noticed that he was staring and turned his head to him, "whatre you staring at me for? do you want a fight huh? im not in the mood right now." the beautiful dazzling blonde with red glasses said. chuuya noticed that the guy brushed his luscious hair with his hand as he still looked at chuuya

'oh my, his eyes is so. i can get lost while looking at it. also his hair, damn. i wonder what his hair would look like while hes fucking m-- I MEAN WHAT WHO SAID THAT' chuuya coughed and looked away while blushing.. "uh im sorry, it's just that youre so beautiful- I MEAN HUH UH I MEANT THAT IVE NEVER SEEN YOU IN THIS BAR BEFORE haha dont get me wrong.."

the blonde was surprised by the ginger's outburst but he calmed himself down and chuckled.

"calm down. im sorry for kinda assuming that you want to fight,, as i said i had a really bad day today."

chuuya looked at the other.

"don't worry, it's my fault for staring.."

the blonde smiled, "my name is kunikida doppo. it's a pleasure to meet you." he reached out his hand to the ginger.

"oh, im nakahara chuuya. you can just call me chuuya tho." he said as he shaked kunikida's hand.

"wait but we just met. i believe that it is inappropriate to call someone their first name when they--"

chuuya reached to kunikida to tuck a strand of hair behind his ear, "please, kunikida-san? i hate when people call me by my last name."

kunikida blushed at his action, "well, if you say so." he said as he drank from his glass again. "then quit calling me kunikida-san too." he murmured. if the man he was talking to was not the nakahara chuuya, then no one would have heard it. however, chuuya heard it loud and clear.

chuuya chuckled and drank from his glass that arrived a while ago when the two of them were talking.

"should i call you kunikida-kun then?"

"i- um." the blonde cleared his throat. "you can...ll...ppo"

"hm? cant hear you, darling. speak up."

"what.. darling?! chuuya, are you already drunk?"

"oh, sorry. did i make you uncomfortable?" chuuya scratched his head.

"oh uh no." he paused for a second.

'it felt right...' he thought. he ignored the thought by shaking his head.

"uh you can call me doppo, i guess" kunikida said as he looked at his glass of sake and gently shook it.

"i can?"

"yeah." kunikida smiled sweetly.

'god hes so beautiful.' chuuya thought as he smiled back

"alright, doppo."

the only people that had called him that were: the armed detective agency president, fukuzawa yukichi, and his parents. kunikida was not used to anyone else calling him that but since he was the one who insisted...

he felt himself smile. he looked at chuuya who was staring at his wine. he looked so empty when he entered the bar but now he was full of life. this look he has now suits him better. he wants to make this man happy.

however, theyve only just met. so he must wait. wait until he has truly get to know him better.

kunikida raised his glass, chuuya noticed it.

"cheers?"

chuuya smiled and raised his glass too.

"cheers."

[gildeddlily]

I wanted to prank you somehow for april fools but i didn't come up with anything so please pretend this is funny and laugh

I am (laughing) (relieved you didn't they made me believe the worst things on earth) (happy this hell is done, see you next year)

[chuuyaa-nakaharaa]

I love you too.

*You could feel a finger poking your cheek...*

Gooooooood morning sleepyhead~

— @dazaii-osamuu

Mm.. Good morning.

[computerpopup]

Woop woop! That’s the sound of the police (android detective from Europole).

“I saw that Chuuya and many others were on this site, so I have downloaded it to my mainframe. Oh, and the regular phone that I was given.”

“This looks like fun. I am glad to be able to interact with humans on this medium.”

AU:

Adam came back from Europe on leave, post stormbringer, for an indefinite amount of time. I need a Chuuya to interact with (or multiple or all im not picky yeheheh).

I don’t currently have any ideas for the android agency he wanted to make, open to suggestions!

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WAAAHH IVE DONE IT!!!!!! adam roleplay blog *rubs hands together mischievously.*

what made me want to do this was bc i forced myself to friend to read stormbringer as the first piece of bsd content theyve actually ever consumed besides me ranting about it. they called adam a babygirl and their favorite. he is a babygirl and a boyfail!!!

ive seen a LACK of adam blogs, so yippie!!! i made one.

this is my first rp blog!!! plz be nice!!!!

mod uses any pronouns, i do not care what i am called :)

adam is also an any pronoun girly. he just views them as words to be used in referral to oneself (totally not projecting) since he was he was given a male design, he/him is usually the go to. he really doesn’t care though.

basic dni, i am very lenient on nsfw jokes (as i make a lot myself irl) and “weirder” things, just keep in mind that —

— i am a minor!!!!

i am neurodivergent (as are all bsd fans), so please be patient with me :33

dni list will be updated as needed beyond basic dni

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[altruistic-meme]

Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks...

hi dear!!! i definitely don't mind AT ALL i love getting questions!!!! i probably have answered this question before, but this is one of those things that's subject to change pretty often as i find new characters and they take over from older ones :] so i will probably never give the exact same answer twice dksvjsdfh

ok ok that said, let me see... in no particular order:

Damianos of Akielos (Book: Captive Prince trilogy) quite literally THE man of all time. THE man of my dreams. he is such a beautifully written character who is so complex and interesting to read!! he is so gentle and caring despite his size, and he has a confidence i can only aspire to.

Neil Josten (Book: All For The Game trilogy) unhinged maniac 🧡 no but genuinely he is such a good main character. everything about him and his narration pulls you in to the story. he is the most unreliable narrator. his perspective is so skewed. also my namesake!!

Nakahara Chuuya (Anime/Series: Bungo Stray Dogs) i may or may not have somewhat of an obsession with him right now. he is literally so pretty that i throw my phone. but also he is so unbearably human in an incredibly tragic way, and he is that way because he actively chooses to be. he is a high ranking member of the mafia and he loves dogs and he promised his dying friend that he would save someone else and he is so loyal and bright. i am going to stop while im ahead bc 90% of my thoughts right now are about Chuuya so i could genuinely go on forever.

Victor Nikiforov (Anime: Yuri!!! ON Ice) he is so sad

Hinata Shoyo (Anime: Haikyuu!!) he is just so fucking BRIGHT!!! unlike Victor, Hinata is the exact opposite of me in almost every sense. it is so hard for me to watch anyone else when he's on the screen. he is just joy and energy incarnate and i want to be his friend so bad.

Spiderman (TV Show/Movie/Comic) this is a cheat because it's just. every iteration of spiderman. i love him. just your friendly neighborhood spiderman!! i have such a soft spot for Miles Morales' spiderman in particular due to the spiderverse movies, but i also really loved all of the live action spiderman movies. and we can't forget the tv show!!!

Prince Wilhelm (Show: Young Royals) fucking babygirl. yet another sad wet cat of a character who i project onto immensely. he is just so complex and interesting and so real and flawed and just. listen. having the weight of the world rest on your shoulders as you struggle with trying to make friends and fight your anxiety and handle your mother all by yourself is something i have dealt with too. i can't put into words all my thoughts about him right now, but rest assured there are More.

Hiccup Horrendous Haddock III (Book: How to Train Your Dragon series) don't get me wrong, i love the movie version of him as well, but they are such different characters. and the book version of Hiccup has an incredibly special place in my heart. httyd is such a comfort read for me, and it was huge for me getting to grow up with Hiccup. he is just a fucking little guy and he goes through so much. but he keeps going. he didn't deserve any of it and he fights so hard to make sure no one else has to go through it like he did. gods i love him.

Charlie Spring (Comic: Heartstopper) same as with Hiccup, i love him in the show as well but to me the characters are so different and i just relate so much more to the comic version of him! he is a mess and i love him and relate to him. i wish i had what he has. i am also so proud of how far he has come!! and he reminds me to be proud of myself, too. also see; sassy motherfucker.

Kenai (Movie: Brother Bear) a strange choice, maybe, but this movie means SO much to me. it is a huge comfort movie. and Kenai, by virtue of being the main character, clearly gets the leg up as the favorite. but it's so amazing seeing him grow as a person (or. well. bear). he's funny, he tries so hard, he wants so much. and he's just a kid!! he learns so much!!

there are definitely some patterns in my favorite characters that i am going to choose not to look too closely at :') i have so many characters i adore. this was so hard ;;;

[franz-kafka17]

Hello, my name is Franz Kafka. Im a 23 year old scientist. My current project is research on current timelines conflicting. I also do research on the gifted and the world in general. As for the question of myself being gifted? Who knows.

Yeah decided to add an oc to the mix bc Im bored lmao

Franz will not be rping ships and stuff hes here bc I thought it was funny. He is gifted but I haven't finished working on it lmao.

Same admin as @chuuya-nakaharapm

His appearance: (picrew for now)

[osarina]

Going to casually obsess over that Beast PMreader universe drabble with Chuuya. I'd be interested to see this new reader, if you ever felt like fleshing this out more or making a mini series (you have a bunch right now though so please don't feel pressured) since she would be so different from our usual reader.

Also while it isn't a direct parallel, Chuuya and reader meeting with her tending to his wounds just reminds me of the first part of Badlands where Dazai's reader finds him in a similar dire state (everything connects back to Waterloo lol)

I absolutely love all of your ideas and your series, especially with how there are always parallels like those. It feels very fitting for a series like Bungo Stray Dogs!

NONNIEEEEEE u have no idea how much i want to actually. i wanted to do a mini series about chuuya & his girl from civzai AND this beast version of it(i keep adding so many projects to myself LOL), but i keep hitting road blocks because ... pmreader is such a critical person in chuuya's life and i have no idea how i would refer to her from chuuya's point of view (or the new reader's) so until i get over that hurdle, the chuuya projects are on the back burner

UGHHHH I MISS WATERLOO </3333 i actually had the waterloo song pop up on my fyp the other day and i pouted so hard because i miss writing it so much </3 truly everything does connect back to waterloo

AND THANK YOU SO MUCH BTW <333 im giving you the tightest hug i appreciate you sm

[kentopedia]

Oh my gosh i just read your chuuya x reader where he saves her from enemies???

Nd im BEGGING you to write the aftermath PLS

hehe i'm glad you enjoyed it, thank you for reading!! i don't see myself writing any follow-ups to that fic, just bc i have so many other ideas and projects i'm currently working on. but i'm always flattered people asked, i appreciate it <33

[heqrts4chuuya]

Hey pookie mwah mwah mwah ily 😍😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 (I’m not anonymous this time :3)

The only two asks I ever got and they were these...

Im gonna use it as a chance to talk about my Project Sekai and Bungo Stray Dogs crossover! (Below the cut)

So the main focus of the crossover is the group "Chasing Light" which is basically Nightcord but Atsushi, Naomi, Dazai and Chuuya.

Now you may be wondering "why them?" and I'll be honest I have no clue... But it works so well and they each have their own reasons for being there! Maybe I'll make a relationship (/p) chart with them...

I was gonna post the art I made for this AU a while back but then I remembered how absolutely awful it is so maybe I'll make new art and post that.

Another thing is that they have a sekai and it's called "Shattered Sekai" (im not gonna go into detail cause that would require its own post). For the Virtual singers that are there, I didn't restrict myself to JUST vocaloids so I'm just gonna list the first 5.

- Meiko, she was the first one there, she's very mature and kind and caring, she does have a bit of a short temper but instead of blowing up she gets angry in a playful kind of way. She's observant and tends to take the role of a guide while still letting them figure out things for themselves.

- Nekomura Iroha, she appeared during what you could call Atsushi's "first focus event", she's more adventurous and has a confident and outgoing personality.

- Kagamine Rin, she appeared during what you could call Naomi's "first focus event" she's playful and curious, she tends to approach difficult problems by pretending she doesn't know about and using metaphors.

- KAFU, she appeared during what you could call Dazai's "first focus event". She's very non-reactive, calm, cool and gentle. Out of all the Virtual singers (so far) she's the bluntest. She doesn't beat around the bush and is very honest about things.

- Utatane Piko, he appeared during what you could call Chuuya's "first focus event" he's sort of like a caring older brother. He's a very good listener and tries to approach things in an unbiased way hiding how much he truly cares unless he truly feels that the other needs to know it and won't withdraw cause of it.

Anyways that's all for now! Also ily pooks muah <3

[amores-percussit]

All of them for bsd!doll (chuudollzai for one’s talking about f/os)

- tired

😋

rose ✦ is your s/i more like yourself, or are they more of an oc you project on?

tbhsies kind of both, DOLL has a lot of my habits and embodies a lot of myself but just like. differently

sunflower ✦ what is your s/i's name? did you have any reasoning for chosing that particular name?

IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT CHANGING DOLL’S NAME, she has the same name as me because. shes my s/i 😋 but idk what other name i wld change fit her

hydrangea ✦ what species is your s/i?

shes human 😋 or is she? no one really knows

lavender ✦ what does your s/i look like? (images or written description work!)

DOLL stands 5ft with a lean but toned build, though the boots she wears gives her some extra height. She wears a mask that covers her face and is rarely seen without it, only few people know what her face looks like. There is a design of angel wings covering where her eyes would be on the mask, two pairs of closed eyes beneath it. Her hair is white and black with a streak of red, usually kept up in a elaborate style. Adorning her hands are gloves with white lace, the rest of her outfit is a combination of white and a muted brown with accents of gold and black. She usually wears a black coat on her shoulders kept with a thin gold chain

tulip ✦ how does your s/i dress? do they have a specific aesthetic when it comes to their outfits? (feel free to show examples!)

DOLL dresses very formal, like something straight out of fancy ball formal 😋  but she does dress casually like with baggy clothes whenever hes at home

peony ✦ does your s/i have any powers or special abilities?

DOLL already has her ability, but i could expand more on what demonic powers necessarily means ?? It allows Doll to regenerate quick, morph and distort her body with black tendrils, super strength and speed, and probably more but im so eeby rn

daisy ✦ can your s/i fight? do they know how to use any weapons, or know any martial arts?

absolutely, DOLL is notably the strongest member in her organization. she’s skilled with multiple weapons as it was a part of training, fighting was just another thing she was raised to do

orchid ✦ what is your s/i's personality? is it the same as your own?

shes definitely somewhat more put together and very strong minded, its like if you took my personality and amplified some parts of it

lily ✦ do you try to fit your s/i into canon, or do you just do whatever you'd like with them?

KIND OF ??? i try to fit him into canon but i dont stress too much about it

poppy ✦ do you have lore surrounding your s/i, or is your s/i more or less just there to project on with your f/o(s)?

YES i have a lot of lore for him 😋😋😋

azalea ✦ does your s/i's identity (gender, sexuality, etc.) differ from yours in any way?

nope not really 😋

daffodil ✦ does your s/i have any sort of animal companion(s)? why those animals specifically, if there are any?

rabbits 😋 a lot of rabbits seem to come to him

iris ✦ do you associate any animals with your s/i? which one(s), and why?

RABBITS BC IM A RABBIT AND IT FOLLOWS ALL OF MY S/Is

hyacinth ✦ how did your s/i meet your f/o(s)?

dazai and DOLL used to be childhood besties but they both didnt know it, they met when ANGEL & DEVIL became allies with the PM and then chuuya became a part of the PM

chrysanthemum ✦ free question! tell us anything you'd like to say about your s/i!

DOLL rarely uses her ability anymore unless it’s really necessary. Her ability doesn’t have a time limit, whenever it turns off is unpredictable and depends on if Doll can get a grip on herself properly

[mimic-of-hysy]

soukouku?

WHICH MOTHER FUCKER

WHO ARE YOU AND WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME UNWELL ON MAIN

soukouku, honestly, is one of if not the Ship Ever. i live and breathe from them. everything about Chuuya and Dazai is perfect. i have written for them more than i have anything else in my life. they mean everything to me. im gonna try to keep this as short as possible. there is no character i project onto more than Chuuya Nakahara himself. i dont even care that he way i write the pair is one that isnt popular, they are so incredibly important to me, and i am not exageratting when i say that i would not be the person i am now without soukouku. so much of the way i understand myself has come from writing about them from chuuya's perspective

let me judge a ship

[incomprehensable]

i am a completely regular member of polite society :)

[makkiroll]

Shrimps go

[voidcat]

– three cheers

characters: dazai osamu, nakahara chuuya, you

warnings: non,, just mentions of drinking,, maybe dazai lowkey ooc? idk im tired its midnight

a/n: certain cheap wines with slightly above average alcohol level that hits rather fast are mimiced as "dog killer" here... dont worry no dog was ever harmed, at least, not that i know of. happy birthday dazai lets listen to twin fantasy at 3am next time <3

when dazai heard a knock on his door in the middle of the night, he had little idea as to what the cause might be.

and out of all the possible scenarios that couldv'e taken place, he certainly didn't expect to see chuuya and you standing,

–you with a huge grin on your face, a telltale sign that you are up to no good; and chuuya, hands stuffed in his pockets, head turned to the side, looking bored with his hunched shoulders.

"not that i'm not happy to see you but what is the mea-" dazai begins before he can finish.

something big, flat and hard pushed onto his chest, you throw your hands up: "happy birthday!"

that sure is one way to put it, and it seems he has forgotten, again.

"before you begin with the refusals, hear me out! alright? alright!" it's almost funny how energetic you sound right now, compared to the state you are often in during the day.

"so, it is simple. here, in your hands is a vinyl of Bury Me At Makeout Creek and here-" hands stopped midair, you turn to chuuya quickly, opening and closing your palm to his face.

("where is it?" you hurriedly whisper as chuuya reaches for whatever it was kept between his right arm and side.)

"and here is a bottle of, uh, what did they call it there again?" another look shot at chuuya for help but he just rolls his eyes. pushing the bottle to dazai, you shake your head with a shrug.

another action fall short as you snap your fingers with an 'aha!' "dog killer! at least, that's the best i could translate it, i suppose."

dazai cannot help but perk up at the unusual title of the wine. when looking at the bottle, nothing of the sorts seem to come to eye.

his reaction must've caught your attention. "nevermind the name. just know that it's like, cheap wine that hits quickly, y'know?" he takes another look at the bottle with a rather unattentive bow on top and the vinyl you've wrapped up nicely.

"so here's how it'll go down.-" cheeriness put aside, a sense of graveness takes hold of your voice.

"at around 2am, you'll put on this vinyl, and don't worry, you can use my record player, it's set up in your room already." he figures he doesn't want to learn when or how you found a way in... one can ony hope it wasn't at a bad moment.

"then open this bottle of wine and chug it," you raise your index and point at it as you say so, "-as you listen to the songs over and over. and think." from pointing to poking, you do so as if stabbing him. "really think, over the lyrics, over yourself. i dont care whether it's self projection or seeing others in it as long as you get the full experience of it."

as you speak, your presence stands out more with each note you hit, chuuya blends into the background more and more, and what else to be expected when his body screams 'i was dragged here!'.

but the two of you know him better than this, to the point if he wished to stay at his place, he would so, that nothing could drag him, not even god itself, if it exists.

dazai cannot help as a little smile makes way to his face. to how serious you've gotten all of a sudden when talking about mitski or how chuuya took the time to dress and accompany you in the middle of the night.

"hey! don't make that face." your agitated voice snaps him out of his thoughts, as well as chuuya. "we all know how you rest your ear against my door whenever i'm blasting this album at 3am. do you know how hard it was to find? i got it for you before myself..." you shake your head with crossed arms.

rubbing over his ear, chuuya gives you a glare "warn me next time you're gonna scream, won't you?"

flaring up your hand to his face, you brush him off with a 'sure sure, whatever you say.'

it's weird, and joyful. chuuya keeps glaring at you, growing more and more impatient, while you jump from one expression to another, definitely too much and too quick to handle in the late hours of the night.

still, dazai wants to smile, or laugh at how the two of you bicker by his door. he wants to do something, say something, but he's not sure what it is. he wasn't even expecting this to be honest and he is still somewhat convinced he is currently stuck in a dream.

he cannot recalling telling you his birthday, ever, so it must've been chuuya to inform you of it.

he catches onto a "what am i even doing here with you to nutjobs anyway?" from chuuya, as you poke his side, making him jump for the second time, and let out a cheery "because you love us, don't ya!"

turning his head away in a blink to avoid your and dazai's gazes, chuuya shoves his hands back into his pockets rather harshly this time. quietly he mumbles something about the two of you being the 'banes of his damned existence' and 'what a mistake it was', followed by typical words and curses he lets out until his muttering halts as he stares at the two of you with wide eyes.

"...w- what are you two idiots staring at?" is all chuuya can let out before you clap your hands in excitement. "he didn't deny it!" you yell at dazai while he picks up from where you've left with a "look at this, chuuchuu loves us!"

one second covering his ears and next his fists balled up at both sides, moving in anger, chuuya tries to get over the loud musings of the two of you.

('w- wha-? no! thats not what i said! hey are you assholes even listeni-)

dazai spots the tears coming from your eyes, not that you're bothering to hide them now, as chuuya still jumps in his place but you all know the tantrum he is throwing is fake.

cluthing the items to his chest again, dazai speaks with a gentler and quiter voice: "well, in honor of chuuya admitting to loving us,"

("-hey! who said anything 'bout admitting!" chuuya's squealing falls on deaf ears)

"and of you getting older, don't you forget it!" you sneak in,

"sure sure, that too." dazai chuckles. no point in trying to make you forget it, or you forbid, allow dazai and chuuya forget.

to his dismissive tone, you cross your arms again but your expression tells you're not angry at him. "why don't you two come inside and we can act out that plan of yours together?" he completes his suggestion.

"we're gonna need more than one bottle, ya'know," chuuya snatches the bottle from him as he smiles and makes way inside, patting his arm as he passes dazai.

"i'll set this up then." you grab the vinyl, albeit, less harsher. "and i'm sure i've hidden a bottle of vodka somewhere here." you call out to chuuya.

maybe it's time dazai did a little inspection at his place after all...

"happy birthday again osamu." you say to him with a smile, smaller than the ones you've granted them so far, but one that reflects into your eyes as well.

dazai decides in this moment, as he leans against the door frame and watch the two of you run around to prepare as if it's your place, that maybe birthdays aren't so bad after all.

[nkhrchuwuya]

hi! how are you? hope you’re doing extra great!

if i may, could i ask why chuuya is your favorite?

do you, perhaps; find something unconventional about him to be cool or attractive?

feel free to ignore this haha, just felt like interacting with one of my fav blogs.

- 🍧

hey darling! thank you so much for passing by~ i'm not ignoring this ask, i love talking to you guys! it's so lovely when u guys want to hear from me about stuff 🥺

ok i was trying to get this into a few paragraphs but it ended up much longer than i thought it would be so you get a read more 😂 that's how much i love chuuya apparently! warning: it's a really long post, i promise.

when i first got into bsd (when it released in anime form!) i actually really, really, really liked dazai. easy number one. no one to follow. he was my absolute favorite, my little menace. it was only, hm, in 2020? when i got back to bsd that chuuya really stood out to me.

and that time, i thought, well, obv, i like dazai, so i'd end up liking chuuya too. because they came as a pair, right? one half to each other's "only you can see through me."

but then the more time chuuya spent in my head the more i realized it's not because of dazai that i liked him. his being paired up with dazai was part of it, sure, but it was only one aspect of it.

the rest of it is as follows, in as cleanly a way i can put it:

i really like how chuuya's made of all fire and ash and spark. he's always burning for something every time he comes out on screen- he's never just idle. that's an energy i personally do not possess in the real world, so seeing a character just take on the world with such an openness is so lovely to me. like, especially if you look back and see that his heart's been stamped on and so much has been taken away from him, too.

i also really like his dynamics with arahabaki, inside him. maybe that makes him half-fire, half-god. i love that he's not afraid of the darkness inside of him, the darkness that surrounds him, because he's made peace with it. because it's his home- or at least part of it.

i love his struggle with humanity. this is actually something i really loved tossing in my head with dazai too, but with chuuya it takes on a different flavor, especially since he's on the "dark side." i feel like his constant discourse with himself about what it means to be human is constantly shaping him to be a better human in the process and! how can you not love that?

this is more personal than any other reason but i also like chuuya because i consider myself to have a monster inside me too. no god of destruction like him, but with fangs that sink through the heart too anyway. it's kind of a pointing at the mirror situation - if he can do it why can't i?

and this part is cheesy, but i also really like chuuya because in my head he can stand as an embodiment of love. the way he pours his everything into the port mafia because of his loyalty to it. the fact that he still, although grumbling, goes back to dazai because of their (history of) partnership. there's that quote dazai said (i think?) about how the opposite of life is not death but a loss of passion, and to me chuuya is all raging fire (if i haven't said this enough) and he will continue to burn and that's so exhilarating to watch.

and will i really love a character if i'm not even the littlest bit scared of them? fearful adoration, probably? i don't know how he does what he does, living like that facing forward all the time, and that scares me. i feel like if it were me, i'd burn myself with my own fire. and im scared of him because i know if it was him, he would do it willingly anyway.

and that's all! i promise i really cut down so much from this already but i have so many thoughts on chuuya it's ridiculous. and maybe, yeah, i'm projecting a little too much on him at this point, but if it's not harming anyone, right?

i hope this answer was. something close to what you were looking for, anon 💀 i spent the entire afternoon trying to draft this because i didn't know where to start, but this is the best i've got!

[manjiroro]

HEY KAI! CONGRATS ON 500!!!!! <333333 i was hoping i could join your 500 event? i kin a lot of people but my top kins are probably kenma, gojo, bakugou, and chuuya. I'm an ambivert leaning more towards introvert, it depends on who i'm with. if i know you really well i won't hesitate to be loud whether its in public or not. i tend to keep to myself in social situations, and i project myself as loud and annoying when it comes to talking to my friends but that's usually just to prevent people 1/3

500 milestone event (closed!!)

hello!! thank you for joining and im so sorry for the delay wjnsmdd i hope you like this and the drabble too !!

i match you with.. MATSUNO CHIFUYU

chifuyu will be the one to match your energy perfectly

i see you and chifuyu going around being chaotic messes together

but at the same time if your energy level isnt that high, he’ll tone it down for you

in public and social situations, fuyu will do most of the talking so that you wouldnt have to

he plays games with you most of the time and he often recommends you some too

chifuyu is a great listener i feel, if youre gonna rant to him he’ll be the one to listen to you

he might not be the best at giving advice but if you want him to he’ll try his best

oml he’s a fast replier i just know it, send him a text and he’ll immediately replies you, the only exception is when he’s busy but other than that, he makes time for you

chifuyu knows you can protect yourself with your knowledge of karate but he’s protective of you and he wants to show how strong he is for you :(

if and when you lie to him, he isn’t quick to notice, he’ll take some time before he finds out

but he’s understanding so instead, he’s just gonna reassure you that he wouldn’t get mad and that he’ll make sure you wouldnt feel the need to lie anymore

your darling boyfriend driving his bike in the middle of the night with you wrapping your arms tightly around his torso, although still slightly sleepy from him tapping on your bedroom window while you were still in a deep slumber. chifuyu made sure to drive slow so that you wouldn’t fall off if you were to fall asleep.

your darling boyfriend driving his bike in the middle of the night with you wrapping your arms tightly around his torso, although still slightly sleepy from him tapping on your bedroom window while you were still in a deep slumber. chifuyu made sure to drive slow so that you wouldn’t fall off if you were to fall asleep.

“baby, baby~ we’re here”

he cooed while lightly tapping your arm, you let out a small hum. he chuckled at how adorable you sounded while groggy, he gently removes your arms from his waist and gets off the bike.

you took the time to look at your surroundings, you were on top of a small hill, where there wasn’t anyone in sight, leaving you, chifuyu and the lights from the street lamps and stars.

chifuyu gently picks you up from your seat and places you on a mat. in front of you were all sorts of snacks and looking up, you were mesmerised by the amount of pretty stars decorating the sky.

“y’like it? i’ve.. actually been planning for this.. i know how much you like stargazing”

turning to your boyfriend who takes a seat beside you, wrapping an arm around your shoulder. you nodded, smiling at him and pressing a small kiss to his lips.

“i love it fuyu and i love you”