#im perpetually terrified that my partner has only settled for me and will get sick of me eventually. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

cryptcatz · 9 months ago

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so sick and tired of constantly stressing over the thought that the people that love me actually don’t or they will inevitably get sick of me eventually because i am inherently unlovable. why can’t my brain just let me be loved in peace? why must i be scared the whole time, waiting for the moment when they abandon me? why can’t i just bask in it while it lasts?

#im perpetually terrified that my partner has only settled for me and will get sick of me eventually.#nothing about him even begins to imply this but im worried about it all the time #i feel like this about friends too. people tolerate me. but im never anyone’s first pick #personal #hm not sure what to tag #mental illness #actually depressed #insecurity #actuallyautistic #< since a lot of my autistic traits are what make me feel just barley tolerated #autism #actuallyadhd #tired of crying to myself cuz i feel so worthless and inherently awful + broken #abuse recovery #doesn’t help that my parents have told me that no one will put up with me or love me like them #because of me and my physical disability/chronic illness #vent #sorry im just. having A Time rn

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