#im not putting this in the main tag yall deserve better

[magicalgirlsirin]

bronya zaychik is my fave char ever and i love her with c12 being the best chaptr ever but then all i ever see posts talking about how great welt is. then in canon every single thign bronya does right involves INGORING him. like him insisting reason can only make things exactly as known like shes wrong for inventing a new gun. anyway truth is bronya ignoring welt. plus its official bronya's only in apho2 as hanser asked, so making welt herrsher of reason again makes no sence other than just wanting to not have bronya in story. alien space is about welt AGAIN and takes place after. hsr? yep he's a major character now. please let me be free of this boring man

why come into my box to shit on a character that i responded to your initial ask with me rambling off a bunch of shit i like about said character

please make peace with the fact that welt is quite literally no joke dawei (one of the founders of mihoyo the company)'s self insert and as such he can do whatever the fuck he wants

you are both overestimating and misinterpreting how welt contributes to bronya's arc. the purpose behind the gun demonstration from the story part you're thinking of is for welt to show bronya that "knowing" and reconstructing through the reason core isn't infallible, and that assessments have to be made for more than just previously established information. he was telling her that she needs to learn more and be able to inference when using reason's powers. clearly the concept of inferencing is lost on you

welt does not majorly feature in apho. he is considered the inciting incident and kicks around a bit, but apho 2 is more about setting up the sky people, void archives, and a bit of post canon happenings for schicksal. bronya is an anti-honkai task force leader and is playable. welt is not. are you out of your fucking mind

welt is a supporting character to bronya's arc. bronya's arc is about accumulation of knowledge, legacy, and truth. accumulation of knowledge is in regards to everything she's learned, and how she needs to sort out what is necessary to move forward (ie her survival instincts were helpful in the context of the harsh environment of her childhood, but she needs to come to terms with the fact that she can process the world through more than black and white). legacy, in the form of the herrscher of reason core, which makes her contend with not only her will, but the will of 300,000 people who only agree to band together for the sake of fighting for humanity. this is all pulled together with truth, in that humanity's inevitable truth is that truth changes inevitably. even with all the information she's learned, everything she's gained through looking at the past and from her own experiences, she will always find something new that alters her perception.

i laughed out loud. welt is not a major character in hsr. i just think he was chosen to be in hsr wholesale because see point 2, but also because he is the only major hi3 character from the story thats not playable or a boss

again please fucking make peace with the fact that welt is a self insert for a literal founder of the company and as such he can do whatever the fuck he wants in the studio did you just not know this its not like its particularly hidden information

have some kind of day

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im rbing again fuck y'all new additions / silly ☣️/🪼(jellyfish) Nyx/Jazzy - I decided to rb this again because like I CAN. and want to because like it still cheers us up

but a lot of the stuff has gotten better (thank you to the soldiers who helped, the system im sending this to, jams who ill send this to proper, nic @funnygalaxycat, @abyssal-cyberstorm @munchcrvnch, @chibi-piplup, yuriathon members, ect ect i ahve like so many ppl im not tagging every one i cannot and im still nervous timid boy)

also cider u were a help but ik he likely wouldn't see this, he's helped us and esp ribs and blaze alot

we are noticing our positive effects more on others!! which is helped by the people we care about (friends, acquaintances, moots, ect!) being alot more open about telling us we are cherished and appreciated

we are trying to get better at that as well, especially because some of y'all.. really easily forget that you have worth and downplay your own accomplishments & act like they're not really big things!!! but they are!!

you sillies are more brave and courageous than us!! you actively help us be more brave!! and make fights alot less scary!! getting like 50 dms by 15 ppl is not that scary anymore!!

it's just the friends!! who fuckin love us!!

☢️->👽 Prodigy/(Doxie)/lamet- i changed my emoji XD

yeah im only here to say :3!! im happy i like fronting, and ik i need to do more work and apologize to someone but there's some other older conflicts I want to take care of burying the hatchet and dealing with those before then, and heal a bit more.

ok bye im yippieing away

🧯Conner -

I'm proud of everyone of the ppl we hang around, and esp our friends, yall have grown a ton and have made progress. clap your own accomplishments as well, bask in that glory for a bit. this was written to one person but like, was also thinking of others because i love our friends but same time we are all a bunch of sopping wet cats "But honestly to us, though we have a limited view of you behind the mask and guards you put up,

That you've still improved alot, you might've done some things similar but each time you got at least a bit better at climbing out of holes you found yourself in than in the past

You've gotten alot more honest, along with having more of a backbone to actually put up & keep up boundaries & let ppl know when they upset you rather than bite your tongue as much

You've improved alot! and I'm proud of your progress along with like everyone I've been able to see the progress of insys, outsys here and those not here in this specific server"

🎱Ribs - yippie my friends love me! i know this well!

they tell me this openly! i am not scared to be unapologetically autistic with my autistic friends!

🔥Blaze -

this was about ( https://www.fourfullmoons.com/ ) but i wanna talk abt it more !! show my love

like the cameo was well I tagged you, you know who you are.

mainly I was thinking about why man, crab man, and some others who do not matter for the toxic people. along with the people who helped us out (and in many ways they dont know) like Nic, Jams, ashopia yellow fellow, abyssal cyberstorm specific like nimbus u silly, munch u helped too, sami helped, many others list could go on.

gayle before this made fun of me because I STILL cant get the words out that i'm happy that things are alot better since a certain server (that terrible roleplay server) and that like. I feel more comfortable saying "hey i care about you" than I was back when I formed

🍋 Gayle - you deserved it mf, I WROTE THIS BECAUSE OF YOU i will expose you on main.

you put up a shield but you care even more when you can than ribs. AND HES literally heart-core while you're more brain-core (ironic as it is for your sources)

also im exposing ribs because he hides how much he loves because he's afraid of being hurt

HE SAYS THIS ALWAYS WHEN WE TALK TO A FRIEND

esp if they knew us when we used doxiethepasta as our account https://toyhou.se/~bulletins/2151709.mike-in-icon

he's literally in the icon in front stage so he made that shitpost

okay im posting this i have icecrea

🌼Just a gentle reminder that you bring a special kind of light and warmth to the world that often goes unnoticed by you, but it is so incredibly meaningful. Despite everything you've faced, you keep moving forward, and that’s something to be really proud of. Celebrate accomplishments, big and small. Your existence matters. You matter. The world is absolutely a better place with you in it, there is no argument there. Keep believing in yourself and growing, because you make a difference just by being you. Everything will eventually be okay and you are worthy of proving that true. 🌼🌼Just a gentle reminder that you bring a special kind of light and warmth to the world that often goes unnoticed by you, but it is so incredibly meaningful. Despite everything you've faced, you keep moving forward, and that’s something to be really proud of. Celebrate accomplishments, big and small. Your existence matters. You matter. The world is absolutely a better place with you in it, there is no argument there. Keep believing in yourself and growing, because you make a difference just by being you. Everything will eventually be okay and you are worthy of proving that true. 🌼

OUR REACTIONS TO THIS,

Never know how 2 react when ppl actually say love affirmations to us wholeheartedly but ty ty

ESP LIKE when we're in these depressive isolation episodes that we get in

Though we're getting better at dealing with em

[finndoesntwantthis]

Wrestlemania Predictions:

Figured i make this, mostly just so i could keep track of what the matches are. I name the WINNER as who i think will win, and then on some i say who i would prefer wins. :)

- Women’s Battle Royal: i wish this was put together better, and i wish it wasnt just used as a throw away for CERTAIN women who should be top talent, but oh well. i know the girls will do their best to put on a good match. WINNER: Lacy Evans, but i want Asuka.

- Men’s Battle Royal: all comments from above, but also at least we know this will make us laugh because of Colin and Michael. WINNER: Braun Strowman, but honestly i want Jeff Hardy :)

-The Miz vs Shane McMahon, Falls Count Anywhere: excellent build up and this match is gonna be BANANAS YALL. im already disappointed that it will once agian not end in a fast food parking lot five blocks away, as all FCA matches should, but its still gonna be good. WINNER: I feel like Shane will win, but obvs Miz deserves it.

-AJ Styles vs Randy Orton: The most random match on the whole card and yet????? Im so excited??? Love AJ, love his snarky comments to Randrew, and i expect at least 20 RKO’s out of nowhere. also AJ has to defend the entire Bullet Club’s honor! WINNER: AJ Styles

-Triple H vs Batista, No Holds Barred: So my father, Triple H, hasnt had a win at Mania in a while, and the Batista line in the set up to this where he’s all “you’ve never beaten me” makes feel like this is all just so Trips can get a win lol but the whole build up has been fun, and hopefully these old men just have a nice time. WINNER: Triple H

-Roman Reigns vs Drew Mcintyre: So i am looking forward to this because Drew is a fantastic bad guy and watching him beat up the shield has hurt my entire soul, but in a fun, wrestling kind of way. my hope is that Dean comes out and helps Roman win but IDK, if that doesnt happen then i will be depressed for a full year. WINNER: Drew, but yeah i want dean to help ro win :/

Kurt Angle vs Baron Corbin: HATE IT THANKS. best case scenario is that John Cena comes in and beats up Corbin and retires Kurt like we want him to. it could happen. WINNER: Kurt Angle, let the man retire in grace.

-Cruiserweight Championship, Buddy Murphy vs Tony Nese: I love the flippy boys, so i know this will be fun no matter how much WWE doesnt promote it. WINNER: Tony Nese

-Raw Tag Team Championship, The Revival vs Ryder/Hawkins: what a cluster fuck this has been. it should be revival vs aleister/rico, but WHATEVS. fuck tag team wrestling i guess. what i really hope happens in The Revival attacks ryder/hawkins, and then gets on the mic and rants about their treatment (it’s what they deserve) and then perhaps the Hardy Boys come crash the match and win the titles. Probably not tho, that’s too good of an idea. WINNER: The Revival

-Smackdown Tag Team Championship, Usos vs Aleister/Ricochet vs Nakamura/Rusev vs The Bar: Once again everyone in charge of booking forgot about tag team wrestling. I still think the match itself will be good because everyone in there is fantastic, but the build up was all wrong. WINNER: Aleister/Ricochet, but i want the Usos to retain :)

-Women’s Tag Team Championship, BossNHug Connection vs IIconics vs DOD vs Samoan Slaughterhouse: This is going to be one of the best matches of the night! Im actually very happy they 4 established teams as part of, because it allows for more women to be on the main card, and to show that the tag team division is Legit. WINNER: BossNHug, but i’d love either DOD or IIconics :)

-United States Championship, Samoa Joe vs Rey Mysterio: So Rey might be hurt which makes me sad because this match is gonna be RIDIC. these two together should be a lot of fun! Hopefully, if Rey is injured, he gets replaced by Andrade or Ali. WINNER, Rey (or replacement), but i hope Joe retains because i love him.

Intercontinental Championship, Bobby Lashley vs DEMON KING FINN BALOR: i mean yeah we all know how this is gonna go lmao Finn is gonna make Bobby look the best he’s looked in match all year. But you know what? We get The Demon at Mania, and thats all i really wanted. WINNER: Finn, obvs :)

Universal Championship, Brick Loser vs Seth Rollins: so this might be the biggest heart break of the night, just because......it’s the only Hero Loss of the night that wont totally kill the entire crowd. Like yeah we love seth and he deserves the win but......roman also deserved the win last year. I also want Dean to interfere in this match tho :) WINNER: Bork Laser, im sorry, i just think Seth is gonna have to take this L for the team :(

WWE Championship, Daniel Bryan vs Kofi Kingston: this match will put everyone to tears and we all know it. im gonna cry probably as soon as it starts. It will probably be match of the night, and the one everyone talks about for the ages, that’s just a fact, no matter who wins. WINNER: please for the LOVE OF GOD let it be Kofi, i think it will be, but if im wrong, i will never get over it.

Winner Take All, Women’s Championship, Becky vs Charlotte vs Lousy: this match will also be bananas, but i wish it was built better. the smackdown championship shouldnt be in here, but i will live. my one hope is that lousy doesnt win, i really really hope they dont give this to her, she didnt deserve to be champion at all yet anyway. i have no idea who will win this, even though we all know it should be becky. i just dont trust Vince to make the right call when it comes to women, because historically..... he doesnt...... WINNER: IDK, but it should be Becky 

Other things: 

I think Elias will get beat up by John Cena, if John doesnt involve himself in Kurt’s match.

Undertaker isnt listed for anything....... but i still hope he shows up to eat up 20 minutes of entrance time and do something ridic, like.....chokeslam Vince to hell? Yeah that would be good

Im sure Alexa will do a wonderful job as host :)

[artificialqueens]

Open Up When (Shalaska) Chapter 1 - Kayden

an: im back back back again nearly a month later with the first chapter WHOOPS tbh chapter length might drop bc like???? i wanna please the people ANYWAY here yall go

The letter felt heavy between the blonde’s fingers. Even though she had only opened the envelope a few seconds beforehand, it seemed as if she had been curled up in that position for years. Just reading Sharon’s handwriting. By reading Sharon’s handwriting, Alaska meant that she had only read the “Dear Alaska”. Her eyes traced over each stroke of the letters. She could imagine Sharon hunched over a desk, chewing her pen before falling back in her desk chair and groaning loudly. That was what Sharon would do. There she was, scratching her way back into Alaska’s thoughts. The girl let out a sigh. It was too late now to back out. She traced one slim finger down the edge of the paper and began reading.

“Dear Alaska,

You’ve opened this because you’re sad and I’m not there. Obviously.”

“Ah fuck.” She muttered. She’d forgotten what was on the front of the envelope. The part that would reveal what the letter would contain. The most important past of the damn thing. She was so interested in the contents that she immediately turned it over and used one acrylic nail to rip it open. Man, she really was a psycho ex girlfriend. Whatever, it was open now.

“I’m so sorry I can’t be there to comfort you baby. I really am. You know it makes me sad when you’re sad. I hope I can return to you soon with all of your favourite foods and make you feel better again.”

The words felt bitter on the blonde’s tongue. Alaska wanted her favourite foods. She wanted to cuddle up on the couch and watch shitty daytime television. She wanted- No, she needed Sharon to comfort her. She could’ve if she wasn’t the one destroying Alaska’s heart and mind. Alaska shook off the thought and continued reading.

“Since I can’t let you cry into my shoulder and pull my hair into styles I can’t pronounce the names of, I decided to list some of my favourite memories and I’m praying to some non-existent god that they cheer you up. I swear I’ll be there for you soon”

Alaska let out a small chuckle. Well, at least it seemed like one. She enjoyed Sharon’s twisted sense of humour. She missed it.  Her fingers wiped away a tear that was threatening to escape. The blonde was going to try not to cry millions of tears by the end of the letter.

“Firstly, remember the first time I said I loved you back? The time we nearly got kicked out of a department store? I still can’t believe you did it. You broke down my walls.”

Of course Alaska remembered. It was the first time that Sharon actually said those words to her. She leaned back against the end of her bed as she recalled that eventful day.

May 12th, 12.04pm

Alaska pulled her hair back into a messy ponytail as she glanced through what to wear on her date with Sharon. Even though they had been going out for four and a half months already, they hadn’t done two things. One, they hadn’t come out as dating. It was obvious as to why. If Alaska, co-head cheerleader and part of the popular group, came out as gay, she would be horrendously bullied. If she was exposed as being gay AND dating the punk rule breaker Sharon?  Her name would be plastered over every bathroom stall. Sharon was used to it but she couldn’t bear to see Alaska’s reputation destroyed. The other thing was that they both hadn’t said ‘I love you" yet. The blonde had, multiple times. Whether it was a playful side comment while they were laughing over cups of tea or the more serious times, those words always seemed to be uttered by Alaska. Was she slightly disappointed? Yes. However she was fully aware that Sharon wasn’t as trusting in relationships and that it was hard for her to open up.  She needed to respect that.

The blonde pulled out a pleated skirt. It was a pastel pink and came to a little bit above the knee on the cheerleaders long lanky legs. It was perfect for any date. That reminded her, where was Sharon even taking her? She pulled out her phone and began typing out a quick message.

To: Noodles❤️:

can i at least have a hint as to where you’re taking me ??? >:(

From: Noodles❤️:

No, you may not.

A frown crossed the girl’s face. She had never liked surprises. Her mother had thrown her a surprise party for her 12th birthday and she had a horrible panic attack. The girl let out a small prayer that history wouldn’t repeat itself. She couldn’t let Sharon know about her anxiety. Sharon already opened up to Alaska about her past and how it fucked her up. Alaska needed to be the strong one in the relationship.

She slid her skirt up her thighs and adjusted it, turning to look in the mirror. The skirt was cute, but not with her oversized top that she wore to sleep. She took another look in her closet. After a few seconds of searching, She found a basic black singlet top that she could wear her favourite sweater on top of. She changed her clothing, tossing her pyjama shirt in the laundry basket and struck a pose in the mirror. Man, this outfit was adorable. She blew herself a kiss and pulled her hair out of the ponytail it was in. Light blonde locks fell over her back. Using her slim fingers, she shook it a little to let the hair fall more naturally before moving over to her drawers to find a hair brush. Something was off however. She was scrambling to find the brush in silence. After putting on some love song playlist, she continued to look.

When her quest for the hairbrush was over, she let the bristle slip through her sun kissed locks, letting it untangle every knot. After allowing her brush to do its main purpose, she began to use it as a microphone, badly screaming the lyrics to some bad quality 90’s ballad. She twirled around her room, the edges of her skirt lifting upwards to expose more of her lightly tanned thighs. Her lips parted to reveal a toothy smile as she sat down in front of her vanity, still singing the song, this time quieter and with more of a melody than her earlier screaming. She pulled open a drawer to reveal palettes upon palettes of makeup. After going through all her drawers and picking out the makeup she would wear, she decided to send Sharon another text.

To: Noodles❤️:

just starting my makeup now xx how are you going ??

No response just yet. She expected that from Sharon. With her it was respond anywhere from three seconds to three weeks later. She placed her phone down and began to apply her foundation. It was a small while later that her phone vibrated, when she had just begun to apply eyeshadow. The blonde jumped, nearly ruining the entire look.

From: Noodles❤️:

Haven’t left bed yet. x

The blonde let out an eye roll and a small chuckle. She was still so confused as to how her girlfriend always looked stunning whenever she saw her even when she was wearing the same clothes that she had for the past week and her hair was a complete mess. Alaska finished up her eyeliner, the small flicks at the end not being completely straight, but then again, neither was she. After finishing up her full look with a touch of mascara, she headed downstairs to put on some sneakers and to deal with her mother.

As she tied her laces, her mother came into the room. Alaska’s mom wasn’t much shorter than her, and had aged well. Her hair was dry from re-bleaching it all these years. She wore clothing that was vaguely bohemian but still had a very strong ‘mom’ feel to it. She took a step closer to her daughter and began to speak.

“When am I going to meet this boyfriend of yours? He seems like such a sweetheart, taking you on all these dates and things. Much more romantic than your father. Will I be meeting him soon? How about I walk you out and come meet him?” She smiled. The younger blonde put her hands up.

“That won’t be necessary, okay? You’ll meet them eventually.” She put her bag over one shoulder and headed out, giving a small wave to her mother before slamming the door.

To: Noodles❤️:

hey im at the end of the drive waiting

To: Noodles❤️:

just had more questions from my mother

To: Noodles❤️:

she wants to meet u badly yikes

Alaska sighed into the cool air, letting the wind realign where her hair sat on her shoulders. She lightly rubbed one arm and leaned out in time to see Sharon’s car turn the corner. The entire car looked like it was going to fall apart any minute. The pain was chipping and dents decorated every side. On the contrary, Sharon was looking like a million dollars. Perhaps it was the bias that Alaska had due to her being absolutely head over heels in love with the goth. She grinned and waved as the girl pulled up on the curb and rolled down her window.

“Babe, if I knew you were going to dress up this well, I would’ve planned something fancier.” Sharon chuckled.

Alaska rolled her eyes and got into the car, closing the door behind her. “This is really nothing, I swear. Where are you taking me anyways?” The blonde fastened her seatbelt and leaned over to plant a quick kiss on her girlfriend’s cheek. Sharon awkwardly smiled. “C'mon, it won’t be that bad, will it?” Alaska pouted slightly and placed one hand onto the shorter girl’s thigh. “Will it?”

Sharon nervously laughed. She had been shocked by how gorgeous Alaska had looked and suddenly felt guilty about not taking her girlfriend on the trip she deserved. Her eyes became fixated on Alaska’s facial features. She became so focused on all the tiny details that made the blonde look like a goddess that she didn’t realise that she had been asked a question.

“Hm? I’m sorry I just-” Sharon shook her head and rubbed her eyes slightly, “got a little distracted. What was it you were saying?”  She attempted to laugh and shrug it off that she just got lost in Alaska’s beauty but she could tell by the blonde’s sudden outburst of giggling that it hadn’t worked.

tags- open up when, kayden, shalaska, sharon needles, alaska,

“Don’t worry about it, I’ll find out the answers soon” She managed to get out through laughter.

The first half of the car ride was smooth, filled with small talk and large periods where Alaska would just admire her girlfriend. Around the middle of the car ride is when the anxiety started. What if the reason Sharon hadn’t said she loved Alaska yet was because she didn’t? What if she was going to leave Alaska in the middle of the woods? What if Sharon was only dating her to get rid of her? The blonde could feel her breathing get quicker and she fiddled with the folds in her skirt. What was it that her councillor told her to do? Alaska racked her mind for the answer.

It came to her after about a minute of quietly panicking. Best scenario, Worst scenario, Most likely scenario. Best scenario? Sharon took her down to the dock and married her right then and there. They’d both escape to New York and raise two cats. Alaska grinned at the idea of it. Worst? Sharon ditched her in a forest and tied her up to a tree and let her be eaten by woodland creatures. Why wouldn’t have Sharon done it earlier in the relationship though? Realising that it was unrealistic, Alaska could feel her heartbeat settle as well as her breathing. What would most likely happen? They’d go on a date like they had done for the past couple months. Now calmer, Alaska began to drift off in her car seat.

May 12th, 1:47pm

As they pulled into the parking lot, Alaska woke up, batting her eyelashes and stretching as much as possible given the confined space she was in. Her eyes still plagued with sleep, she looked out the window to see where her date would take place. The image that laid in front of her was… Kmart. She turned quickly around and gave Sharon a questioning look, not sure if this was the final destination or not.

“Sorry it’s not quite what you expected” Sharon rubbed the back of her neck and averted eye contact, assuming she had let down her date.

Alaska ran a hand over Sharon’s thigh, her fingers meeting skin where the rips in her jeans were. “It’s absolutely perfect”

They walked across the parking lot, fingers interlocked. As they reached the door, Sharon pulled her hand away. Alaska frowned slightly but knew it was for protection. If someone they knew was there, it would be easier for Sharon to duck away if Alaska wasn’t touching her. Or  if homophobes approached they could claim to be just friends. Overall, safety was more important right now.

They made their way into the store. It was much smaller than Alaska remembered but the last time she had gone she was much younger. She wanted to see how it had changed so she grasped onto Sharon’s hand (after checking for any people who would possibly see) and began searching.

Alaska ran down through the aisles, dragging her girlfriend behind her. Even though Sharon was about to completely fall over onto her face, she was happy. Alaska turned slightly to check on her girlfriend every now and then to make sure she was keeping up. They had made it to around halfway when Alaska came to a quick halt, causing the slightly shorter girl to completely fall over due to not gaining balance back quickly enough. Sharon laughed whilst the cheerleader desperately tried to check if she was injured.

“Angel, I’m fine” she reassured the vaguely panicked girl.

“Are you sure? I’m used to falls like that because of cheerleading but you won’t be so you might be really badly injured and I know first aid!” She rambled before realising that people were looking over very concerned. “She’s fine! She’s ok! I’m just overreacting!” She nervously giggled and tried to use her hair to hide her now blushing face. Sharon chuckled as she looked at the woman who had come over, worried about them. She looked to be in her 50’s and wore clothing that made her seem like she was much older. The woman smiled at the blonde and turned her head to look at the girl on the ground. Her brow furrowed and the corners of her lips turned downwards.

“You there, in the black. You look like a faggot dressing like that!” She pointed at Sharon. Alaska balled her fist and prepared for a fight but relaxed when she made eye contact with Sharon and realised she had it under control.

Sharon finally got off the ground after the slur was shouted and stood there calmly, giving a small nod to her girlfriend when she realised that she was about to throw some hands.

“You know what?” She began, taking a small step towards the woman and saw Alaska step behind her out of her peripheral view.

“I dress like this because I am a faggot. I’m a major flaming homosexual. I love holding hands with girls, I love taking girls on dates and I absolutely love eating girls out. Especially good girls. You think they’re all nice and pretty and will never stray away from faith and you’re wrong. They quiver under my fingertips. I pleasure girls way better than your husband has ever pleasured you. You hear that? I’m a goddess in the sheets. A fucking goddess. Don’t try and tell me I’m going to hell. I know I am. However, telling by your age, you’re going to get there before me. So be a darling and save me a seat, won’t you?”

Alaska wanted to go over and kiss her right then and there but didn’t. She didn’t know why she decided against it, but she did. After the woman had stormed off, she ran into Sharon’s arms, draping her own arms around her girlfriend’s neck. “That was… fucking amazing” She leaned closer in, resting her head on Sharon’s collarbone.

“Yeah it was,” Sharon paused “But we should leave before we get thrown out, don’t want to damage my little angels reputation.”

Alaska pulled away from the hug, rolling her eyes.

“You know I’d ruin it for you.”

May 12th, 2:28pm

After purchasing drinks, the girls decided to wander around the parking lot for a little while. The day had quietened slightly and the two girls walked side by side. Alaska appreciated the fact that most of the bustling people had stopped. Now only two noises lingered in Alaska’s mind; Sharon’s footsteps and the breaths that escaped both of them. She turned her head to smile at her girlfriend and discovered that Sharon had been looking at her the whole time they had been walking.

“What’cha thinking about?” Alaska let the words bounce off her tongue and escape through cherry coated lips.

“How much I love yo- Oh fuck.” Sharon began to splutter and panic, “I didn’t mean it, I mean I do but” She was shut up by the feeling of a finger pressing against her lips.

“It’s ok, I understand.” Alaska pulled her slim hand back towards her. The shorter girl shook her head.

“You really don’t understand. You don’t understand at all. Whenever I look at you the entire world and all the stars realign. Whenever you smile all colour comes back to my world. Whenever we kiss I can taste happiness and I haven’t tasted that since… forever ago. Everyday I wake up wondering how you’ve stayed with a freak like me. When you said yes to me asking you out, I went home and woke up the next day wanting to get out of bed. You’ve made me want to live again. So you really don’t understand how much I love you. I really do love you. I used to be so afraid of saying that. I thought you would hate me or that I’d end up being wrong about it. I know now that I’m desperately head over heels for you. You make me so fucking happy. God, if there even is one, I’m so fucking in love with you.”

That’s when Alaska realised. She, head cheerleader and one of the popular girls, had fallen completely for Sharon. The same Sharon who skipped class to smoke and played the bass guitar and flipped off teachers and had absolutely gorgeous hair and eyes and- Oh fuck. She really did love Sharon didn’t she?

The blonde grabbed her girlfriend’s hand and raced back to Sharon’s run down piece of metal she called a car. They both jumped in, this time to the back seat. No longer caring who saw them, the girls both became entangled. If a passerby were to look in, they wouldn’t be able to tell where Alaska stopped and Sharon began. When their lips weren’t touching, they were intensely staring at each other.

That’s when it all faded back to black

Present Day

Alaska moved one her hands from the paper to her face. Hot and wet. She wiped some of her tears away. Reading the entire letter would take forever if she continued to have full blown flashbacks like this. She needed to figure out why Sharon had left her and she needed to know soon. But I mean, it wouldn’t be THAT harmful to finish that letter first before moving onto the letters that she knew would make her upset at everything. Alaska stood up and looked out the window. It was dark. Really dark. She knew she couldn’t continue reading right now, she needed rest.

Alaska changed into a new shirt for the first time in a week, glad that she had finally cleaned up the closet. She lay down and decided to check her phone to see if anyone had messaged her. Turns out there were three messages.

From: Willam the Pig:

cant wait to see ur ass tomorrow u missed so much holy fuck

From: Courtney 🐨:

Looking forward to finally catching up tomorrow!!! I’ve missed you so much!!! : )

From: Russian Doll:

If ur not coming tomorrow im gonna eat ur son and also u

The blonde let out a huge sigh, realising she had to go back tomorrow and see everyone. All the teachers already hated her for talking during class but she’d have to do a whole lot more talking tomorrow to find out everything that happened. Knowing her school, the drama would be intense. Last time she was away for a week she came back to Alyssa starting drama with everyone and she meant everyone.

Most importantly, Sharon would be there. Does she remember the letters? Does she care? Should she get her clothes back tomorrow? Would she show up to cheerleading practice? What about science class?

Alaska would have to think it all over in the morning.

[wengoku]

Why do you hate Reaper76? From what I can tell from others, the main issue is that it's abusive (even though most fan art is either set when they were best friends, or at a time when they've already made up), it has a lot of stereotypical kinky yaoi fan art (guess what, that happens with literally EVERY gay ship. You're precious Doomfist/Reaper pairing will get the same treatment) and that its a white guy with a Hispanic guy, because apparently mixing races is bad.

 anon, lemme tell you, that i used to be the BIGGEST r76 shipper. like if you look through my blog, the VERY first post on my blog is r76. ive even written some fics for them, though i dont share my ao3 atm. i starting shipping it around the same time i got the game, aka, july of last year. i was attracted to the ship mostly because of gabriel, i’ll admit-- i interpret him as afrolatinx and as a black person, i latched onto him the same way i’ve latched onto lucio and black widow.

i hate the ship because it took until about halloween for the racists in the fandom to drive me out. 

i loved the ship SO much that i’d check the ao3 for it every single night, and that was the literal downfall. i checked it every night and so i PERSONALLY watched as more and more racist, stereotyping fics appeared, over and over-- fics that fetishized gabrel and his race, fics that made gabriel larger and meaner and scarier than jack, fics that made gabriel out to BE an abuser towards jack, or fics where gabriel was a dog that existed just to make jack happy. fics where gabriel had no characterization other than being jacks happiness or misery-- fics that portrayed jack as immediately likeable (because hes white) and fics that portrayed gabriel as immediately intimidating (because hes brown). fics that waxed poetry about jacks pale skin and cornflower blue eyes, but only mentioned gabriels looks to point out his thick thighs or massive cock. fics where gabriel straight up kidnapped jack and raped him. im not making any of these up. these are all fics i saw in the tag that distressed me, over and over again, because i was just a black kid that wanted nice content of a ship with a character i could personally relate to. 

i looked on tumblr, and lo and behold, i saw the same thing! gabriel towering over jack (when theyre the same height), gabriel being scary, gabriel being accused and abused and demonized, “sexy thighs” gabriel and nothing else, meta (i used to love reading meta-- now i cant stand overwatch meta regarding the old soldiers at all) that sympathized with jack and portrayed gabriel as a jealous demon who deserved to die and is obsessed with jack. i followed blogs, and was immediately bombarded with white washed art, and then excusing of the whitewashing. 

i was fresh out of anime fandom-- overwatch is the first gaming fandom ive ever been in and also my first fandom where there’s so many poc. i think r76 was one of my (if not the first) interracial ships where one of the characters was darker skinned. i became more and more jaded, every single time i opened ao3 or went into the tag. i know it sound silly, because its not real, but there was a time when i genuinely broke down into tears because i couldnt stand how gabriel was treated. id seen the “kinky yaoi” dynamic with mlm ships before, and this was WHOLLY magnified. 

its not just because its “a white guy with a hispanic guy”. thats not my issue at all? i used to really love jack, too? i wrote aus and rped r76 with my friends? and its not just that mixing races is bad, because a black man and an afrolatinx man is an interracial ship too? completely ignoring all of my other interracial ships?

i hate r76 because very few people could bother to treat gabriel with even ONE shred of the respect they afforded to jack. i hate it because i was literally driven away by the blatant, overreaching racism. i hate it because of all the times gabriel was “the dark man” or “the latino” in fics because you’d NEVER call jack “the pale man” or “the caucasian”. i hate it because yall motherfuckers dont know how to act.   

can i say that every r76 shipper is bad? no, of course not. but until the r76 community puts itself together and addresses the racists and harmful stereotypes that it harbors, then yeah, i fucking hate it. and no, im not gonna say, “not all r76 shippers”. this is the last time im answering an ask like this and if you wanna try to change my mind or genuinely talk to me about it, then you better PM me or message me off anon. 

and btw? i know that doomfist/reaper might end up with some bad apples, but i have more faith in a ship that was born by a majority BLACK (because yes, the first shippers i saw including myself, are black, or mostly poc) fandom because i know that we’re less likely to apply harmful disgusting stereotypes to ourselves. so if youre feeling butthurt about “doomper” and people having fun, then maybe consider doing what ive had to do for months-- suck it up.