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backstabber128 · 1 month ago

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Despite everything, it's still you ❤️‍🩹

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akascow · 22 days ago

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jumping off the idea of what that one person said about no one actually knowing what happened to jayce and viktor bc they literally got sucked into themselves in like a 10th of a second in real time and literally no one saw it happen (ekkos eyes were closed) so everyone can probably assume jayvik went radio silent and just fucked off to be gay somewhere else without notice lmao

which isnt entirely too far off from what happened tbh HAHA

#but like fr im sure ekko assumed they got disintegrated like heimerdinger tho 🫠 (lmao-ing to hide the pain)#jayvik #jayce talis #viktor #viktor arcane #jayce arcane #arcane #arcane spoilers

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geddy-leesbian · 14 days ago

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Hey, hope everything’s ok? I’ve missed you’re post the last couple of days.

I didn't mean to disappear off the face of the earth and make people worry dgsgsg. I just got my covid and flu vaccines and my depo shot all in one day, and then had to have a tooth surgically extracted by an oral surgeon the day after and all of it hit me harder than expected. Felt fevery and generally shitty from the shots, then in pain from the extraction. The pain is manageable with the painkiller I was prescribed, but they do make me feel drowsy and out of it. And the roots of my upper molars go far enough up into my sinuses that I've got a tiny hole in between my mouth and sinuses from the extraction which feels really fucking weird and I'm also on a preventative antibiotic to make sure I don't get a sinus infection while it's healing, but the antibiotic also makes me nauseous so yeah it's rough out here rn

Still not feeling 100% and up for posting (I just wanted to check-in real quick) but I have a few posts I'm looking forward to making when I'm finally out of the pain meds/pain itself brain fogs 🫶

#if i don't keep up on the painkillers then i end up in too much pain to think clearly #they do completely control the pain if i keep up taking them on schedule but then they also make my brain mushy and weird in a different wa #i thought i was out of the woods tonight managing w just ibuprofen but it got bad again and i had to take half of a Good Shit pill a bit ag #i feel rlly bad for not making a post in advance bc i know i had a relatively recent vent post but the timing was coincidental #this was purely a physical health thing but im sure it would have looked like it was bc i was feeling sad and unappreciated if u were #checking in on my blog bc aside from some passing mentions abt the tooth extraction there wasnt anything abt my physical wellbeing #i checksd dms a couple times before now but not. my inbox until just now sorry yall 🫠

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bondagebimbo · 2 months ago

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LOVE when the pharmacy decides to fucking dick around with my meds so badly that now I’m off my mood stabilizer, my pain meds, and my fucking birth control (in a few days) because they’re insisting I should have extra fucking bottles of each one and I DONT because they don’t let me pick up more than a one month supply of narcotics at a fucking time so do explain where these extra bottles are, hmm ????? and they didn’t have enough caplyta ordered last time to even give me my usual 3 months supply of that so … ???? get your fucking heads out of your asses and give me the fucking meds you owe me ??? like ??? but I’m in a nasty headspace right now so if I call the pharmacy this morning, I’m going to be that cunt ass customer they bitch about all day because this isn’t the first time they’ve done this. in fact, the first time, they straight up committed insurance fraud by marking one of my scripts as filled and picked up WHEN, IN REALITY, THEY FUCKING LOST THE SCRIPT AND HAD NO RECORD OF IT BEING FILLED OR PICKED UP IN THEIR SYSTEM, BUT YET, MARKED IT AS SUCH AND CHARGED MY INSURANCE AN ALMOST 8 GRAND FOR THE FUCKING 3 MONTHS OF MY MOOD STABILIZER THAT I. NEVER. RECEIVED. I’m genuinely about to report this entire pharmacy to the pharmacy board because I’m so fucking done with this place. it needs to be shut the fuck down because you’re telling me, out of an entire pharmacy, y’all share the same IQ point AND dead brain cell, collectively ??? then don’t fucking work in healthcare where people rely on you to know your shit and keep track of their fucking meds because you’re just constantly making shit worse on people since you can’t seem to not fuck around with these meds and not ‘lose’ scripts. fuck out of here.

and I’m pretty much out of weed, which is usually my back up pain management method, without the money to afford a delivery order by their cut off time to order in 3 hours because I just paid my fucking bills and have SOME to go towards it, but not enough for delivery to be free, and I’d still have to walk my ass to one of the ATM’s nearby because they don’t accept my bank as a prepaid method OR any of the cards I have on my person. 🫠

I can literally feel my back spasming and seizing on and off while I’m laying on my fucking side, I’ve had a migraine with a stupid ass aura for almost a week now because chronic migraines fucking suck and i was REALLY hoping this one would be over by now, my muscle inflammations that my pain meds are supposed to limit are already beginning to start their itching deep in my muscles so soon they’ll blossom into a whole fibromyalgia fucking episode and become entirely inflamed, my joints in my hands fucking hurt because of the dreary weather so I really need to get into a rheumatologist at some point soon as well and get that shit figured out, I’m nauseas as fuck from all the pain, and I’m moody, hormonal, and just feel like fucking death physically.

I’m just. I give up.

this shit is exhausting and painful and so mentally fucking taxing to constantly deal with and I just want a fucking break from all this fucking shit. I wish I could just … not exist … for even just a little while with how fucking painful existing actually feels right now 🫠😭

#i hate that CT weed is so fucking expensive #half a fucking ounce shouldn’t cost me $250 …….. not when I can go to MA and get an ounce for $108 after tax ……..#but I don’t have a way to MA because my fucking best friend. who made plans with me OVER THE WEEKEND. HER. SHE INITIATED THEM.#canceled on me last second even though I texted her early the night before when I know she would see it 🫠#nope instead she waited from the text I sent at 6:30pm until noon the next day to cancel because her period is kicking her ass #NOT FOR FUCKING NOTHING BUT SO THE HELL IS MINE ???? AND IM ANEMIC ??? AND DEALING WITH ALL THIS EXTRA PAIN ON TOP OF IT ????#and I know I’m being irrational and insensitive because pain tolerance is a sliding scale for everyone #but like fucking come on you do this 3 out of 4 times YOU make the plans to hang out and I’m fucking over it.#plus I’m the one that always pays for everything and does she ever even OFFER to hit me back for the COUNTLESS ounces of weed I’ve got her #all because she couldn’t afford it so I said I’d cover it and she never paid me back. I’ve bought her at least a grand’s worth of weed #just over the last couple months and she’s never ONCE offered to pay me back for a single one #like ……… I don’t expect it. I give if I have it. but you can’t even just offer ??? like the invitation to pay me back would be enough to no #leave m ragingly pissed off and feeling used as an atm again for yet another ‘friend’ because they don’t even OFFER to be considerate #of course I’d say not to worry about it but it doesn’t even cross your fucking head to ask if I want anything towards it #like the next time you get paid ??? when you go and spend your own money on weed that day but can’t reimburse me for anything IVE paid for #oh and I always have to give her gas money if I even simply just want to hang out because she’s always fucking broke somehow #and she works in healthcare like bitch I know what you make and you can’t play that you don’t have enough to get by or throw me 50 bucks #towards YOUR weed that I’m buying every once in a fucking while when I’m already paying for everything fucking else #I’m so angry and I know I’m being irrational and bitchy but this is what happens when you’re tripped off your meds cold turkey #and one of them is a mood stabilizer that makes it so you DONT feel this way about people and aren’t so bitter when you’re let down 🫠🫠🫠#because now my rejection sensitive dysphoria is going to be triggered even easier than usual and I’m just.#I actually fucking give up. I don’t even know what to do here. the pain going through my body is so fucking intense #I keep losing my train of thought because everything hurts and then every once in a while a DIFFERENT pain acts up and throws itself in too #I just. I just can’t fucking win.#I hate fucking struggling with my mental state like this when I’m off my meds.#and because I have to be a month without my stabilizer/pain management/birth control it’s going to take me ANOTHER month to get readjusted #to those in my body so I won’t feel normal again until nearly fucking mid to end January the earliest #and that’s fucking bullshit. I’m going to fucking **** myself by the time I get back on these fucking meds since it’ll take that long #fucking hell I just. I give up. I give in. I’m self isolating and cutting myself off from everyone because it’ll be in THEIR best interest #for me to do so when I can’t control my mind like this. I’m so tired of feeling so fucking shitty and I’ve only been off them for two days

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bitchfitch · 1 year ago

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joy of joys that definitely isn't going to be detrimental to my health and ability to function over the next few days: the post office lost the box containing the next months supply of my meds. and the pharmacy I get my pills from won't be open again till Monday. and getting them delivered will probably be another three or four days after that. Boy howdy is this going to be a fun and relaxing week.

#None of the pharmacies in my town are like. any amount of reliable.#this is the First time in a year of just getting my meds delivered that its failed to arrive before the last bottles were out #anyways im off my adhd. depression. anxiety. blood pressure. inflammation. pain. sleep and allergy meds for the next few days.🫠#im hoping all my comorbities going untreated at the same time makes them fight each other to the death. rendering me cured.

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alienaiver · 1 month ago

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i miss uuuuu

#i have zero brain 🫠 im melted into a puddle of overstimulated nd pain 😭#we've had snow and extreme cold weather so im completely disabled rn 😭#nohr.txt

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wolfeyedwitch · 1 month ago

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Me going into surgery: *takes mental notes on everything* this is gonna give me so much authenticity in my whump writing.

Me waking up after surgery: uuuuuugh. (But this is gonna give me so much authenticity in my whump writing)

#i had breast reduction surgery #and my pain meds are currently wearing off! yaaaaay! 🫠#but yeah. everything from the way various nurses/techs/doctors interacted with me and around me #to how the anesthetic felt going into the iv #to how a not-careful-enough nurse teaching my mom how to strip and empty my drains rocketed my pain scale #all of it's gonna make my writing so authentic #and now i will authentically take a nap after being worn out #but yeah. had surgery #im doing fine #love yall #might be a while before i do any more writing