#im literally so nervous to start this art account

[balkanbitchart]

In delirium of sickness I joined the total drama fandom

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[libbytwq]

hey can i be sappy for a moment, i feel like getting a thing off my chest (positive vent)

I love you all in the SMG4 Tumblr community so much. Y'all are absolutely epic and amazing and so creative and just. chill.

I've always been so nervous about joining set fandoms/fandom communities, cuz usually the community is huge and overwhelming, toxic, scary, crazy, and the idea of being in those communities and interacting with people in those communities and being in there not just to post a dingle fanart from it and dip, but to help be a big part of the community and whatnot sounded... overwhelming.

Then I slowly began getting super hyperfixated on SMG4, much more than I usually am, leading me to post more about it. Fanart, things I notice, goofy theories... more than just me saying a couple things i like about it, posting a fanart, then moving onto something else.

I started kinda just exploring the SMG4 tags and gradually, I began recognizing most of the people in this community more and more -- recognizing art styles, etc. I noticed how small a community it was.

And it was a mostly chill community. I wasn't really seeing much drama or questionable things, maybe some criticisms about the show or theories or whatever, but nobody was at each others throats. Plus, the fan OCs were super neat.

I had begun posting more and more SMG4 content, drawing fanart, their OCs, and the fact people were so just... chill and welcoming about it was so nice. It wasn't nearly as scary -- we are all just vibing here. Most of the artists you look up to will probably see your work, and give it attention too.

It feels super strange to be considered an SMG4 Tumblr artist, having people literally enjoying the things I make and making things for me when they make things for SMG4 fanartists... its honestly super surreal. But so so exciting and euphoric.

Cuz yall are so awesome!! Yall make my day so bright. Yall are the best.

I'll be honest, when I first was slowly being a part of the SMG4 community -- sometime right after summer vacation began -- I had been dealing with some petty but difficult irl person issues.

I don't want to get into it too much, but I had basically messed up in a pretty bad way (enough to make me feel bad the moment I did it, but not enough that we couldn't move on and mature from it), and the people involved were hurt worse than I thought they were, and instead of trying to talk it out they resorted lying about being my friends for months before school ended, and over summer break, tried to cancel one of my Scratch account and drag my followers there into drama that they had no business being in, for the simple reason being "you don't deserve all that fame".

Despite their attempt at trying to cancel me not really working out very well, it very much affected me negatively and made me very very scared about using Scratch again. I still post projects there sometimes, but i felt weird when i do it. I felt like those people were watching my every move, waiting to try and drag me down again. It felt so strange and scary to feel like the people I once cared so deeply about are breathing down my neck, waiting for me to make another wrong move and add it to their proof of why I'm an awful person.

It sucks ass.

The SMG4 community here on Tumblr, despite none of you knowing I was going through anything at all, you all helped a lot. Just existing.

Being a welcoming community that I feel safe to be silly and normal in.

I've never been the best at expressing appreciation, but let me just say:

I think of you all so highly and I never want you to change.

Keep making silly art. Or fanfics. Or AUs. Or OCs. Or whatever you like doing in this tiny close-knit fandom.

Keep doing everything you're doing to make this community mean so much to me.

❤️❤️❤️

...this sounds like im leaving the community,, IM NOT I just wanted to get it off my chest cuz ive been experiencing the emotions™ yknow, sorry that its not like my regular posts lol, im not gonna post like this much LMAOOO

TL;DR: yall are fuckin awesome please keep being awesome forever and ever ily bye

[bi-as-in-bi-bitch]

hello! how did you know you were bi?

the way I reacted whenever asami sato came on screen was in no way normal enough for me to be straight

nah but seriously:

wow, i have not thought about that in years... its actually pretty hard to pinpoint exactly when, but ill try to go over the main points:

i realized i liked girls in seventh grade, in the middle of a private religious school, while i was thinking about how pretty jenna coleman was in doctor who.

i wa sitting next to my extremely conservative best friend. and i immediately panicked and said to myself "no, we're not doing this."

i repressed myself for a while, kept saying to myself that i liked guys, only guys. i had major crushes on danny phantom and my 6th grade math teacher and this bollywood actor (hrithik roshan in dhoom again)

so i said to myself that i couldnt possibly be gay, i liked guys!

but girls were so freaking pretty. why did my heart race when a cute girl smiled at me? why was i so scared around the girl i really really wanted to be friends with? why couldnt i stop staring at my geography teacher like that?

i honest to god thought i was lying for attention. idk whose attention, its not like i told anyone i was having these feelings.

i kept it so so repressed and convinced myself i was lying to myself.

then i went to high school and met people that were pan, bi, gay. i made an instagram, a tumblr, a wattpad account for my doctor who fics, and i started to learn this whole new vocabulary on how to describe sexuality and gender preferences and whatnot.

i finally came to the realization that i am not gay, i am not straight: i'm bisexual. guys are cute. girls are cute. liking one does not diminish how much i like the other.

i was so happy to have a way to describe myself. but at the same time, i went through a phase of hating myself for liking girls. i felt like i was a weirdo when i took notice of a cute girl. it took me a while to get over it and start accepting that what i am and how i feel is not wrong, im not hurting anyone by having these feelings.

i accepted that i was bisexual when i was 15 years old.

i started coming out to my friends around tenth grade. i remember i was so nervous and my hands were clammy. i said i was bi, and they laughed and patted me on the back. i went on a walk with my best friend and she noticed the pride bracelet i had on, and asked me about it. i remember being so scared when i muttered 'i'm bisexual,' and she immediately got the biggest grin on her face and punched me in the arm (shes not good at physical affection), and told me she was so proud of me and happy that i felt safe enough to come out to her.

coming out to people at my age isnt as big as a deal to me anymore - i go to an arts college, literally every other person is some flavour of queer - but when i was growing up i didn't know that it was something that existed.

im proud of my identity and i wish i could share it with the world. i wanna hang bi flags in my room and wear pins that say 'i'm bi' on them and wear cuffed jeans and flannel shirts and carry a big sword (HUGE part of being bi). but i live in a conservative family, and ik that the older generation (my parents and their siblings) are never gonna understand me, so i cant be fully out, but that doesnt mean i cant be proud. i have stealth bi pins. i made a painting with predominantly pink, blue, and purple colours, and hung it up in my room. i own two plastic swords.

i made this sideblog mainly to rb posts that i wanted to find later, but i wanted to have something with my name on it where i could be blatant about the fact that i find men and women so goddamn attractive. hence, 'bi as in bi bitch' was made.

i wonder if this was helpful at all? i kind of went on a ramble there. is there anything you want me to elaborate on?

[rinhaler]

ANGEL BABY UR GONNA BE OKAY!!!! but I totally understand I get nervous before appts too :/ but everything’s gonna be alright!!!

UGHHHHH LUXE PLEASEEEEEE U GET ME!!! he’s….hes so fine and so tough i just wanna *car crash noises* i just started watching it recently and haven’t read the manga yet but good lord that’s a whole daddy right there if he doesn’t get me pregnant I’m gonna get HIM pregnant s2g!! 🗣️🗣️🗣️

now I got some questions for u young lady I’m curious!! How tall are u?!? And I remember u said ur picky so what’s ur fav food? Least fav? Ive been a vegetarian since I was 13 so I guess I also qualify as picky heh. And when did you get into writing and art?

I literally think ur so cool pls indulge me ❤️❤️❤️🧋

omg how far into it are you? I gotta watch the newer stuff still but I used to be OBSESSEDDDDD I probably will be again when I get back into it hehehe

ALSO OKAY

I'm 5'6/5'7ish

FAV FOOD I always love a greasy pizza takeaway with some cheesy chips, elite food <333 i hate stinky food so im not a big fan of things like onions or tuna, if it stinky i probably don't like it sadfghgfds

I think I've always been into art since I was super young!! My nana and parents were always buying me little paint sets and my first ever memory is handing a rly ugly drawing to my mam of me and her 😭 but yeah I've always been into art but only recently started taking it seriously and trying to find my style. I studied it in college and then uni and I have a masters in (i cant remember if it's fine art or art and design but i have an art masters degree)

and writing!! i think ive always loved writing too bc i remember rly enjoying writing little stories for my friends based on them and their crushes in high school and i remember when i was in my last year i wrote an entire novel (it's awful). but it was when dystopian stuff was super popular so i used to be SO excited to get home and write it.

I only started getting into fanfic like four years ago? when i started getting into anime i was like oh my god i need to consume as much content as i can i need somewhere to find fan art and memes and blah blah so i made a brand new tumblr dedicated to it. and to be honest i didnt even know fanfics were still a thing??

i remember it being a really cringe and weird thing for people to be into while i was in school so i was soooo shocked when i came across TONS of them when i made my account and i just got hooked and started binge reading so many and i was like omg i have an idea for a story im gonna write it!!

and i was rly infrequent with posting i just did like two or three and focused on my fan art and meme reblogs but then i joined a discord server and i just fell in love with writing and the community and the vibes, it was amazing.

and four years later here we are hehehe

sorry for talking so much i am a rambler <3333

[opalescient]

haikyuu fic recs — the most beautiful, lovely, breathtaking masterlist (vol. I)

so i’ve been binging fics to cure my sadness, and i thought that these select masterpieces were too magnificent to not be plastered on every billboard ever. some tore my soul into shreds, while others melted said shreds back whole, but all of them made me feel some form of sheer, unadulterated love, so. please enjoy! 🥰⛅️✨

note: all of these fics are exquisite and you should read all of them, but if you’re short of time, those with ☆ are my all-time favourites!

daisuga

butterfly in the subway by bigspoonnoya ☆ | T

Sugawara Koushi has no idea he's already in love with the man he's supposed to hate.

i lovelovelove how all the concepts tied in together like a perfectly wrapped gift

also very wholesome, made me feel so inexplicably warm. like, love can exist everywhere!!! despite everything!!! that’s just so inspiring

i revisited this many times, i think it was (one of) my first haikyuu fics and honestly. it set the bar so high and i have no regrets

you’d fit my lonely arms so perfectly by boxofwonder ☆ | G

“Oh. You're. Not Asahi.”

Calmed down enough that he can speak again, Daichi takes a deep breath, his smile settling on his face easily and wide.

“Not as far as I know, no.”

-

Suga accidentally calls a stranger instead of his best friend, tells him all about his burned batch of cookies before realising, and that particular mistake might turn out the best one he ever made.

major, major fluff

the buildup!!!

god this made my yearning for love so much worse

the perfect stranger by downmoon | T

There’s a man standing outside Suga's door.

Scratch that. Start over.

There’s a man he doesn’t know standing outside his door, holding his sleeping nephew in one arm, with another kid clinging tightly to his free hand.

so domestic please read the entire series from start to finish it has my whole heart

shoyou and tobio as their actual kids 🥺

these two parents are so in love it makes me wanna cry

asanoya

silica sand by lilien passe ☆ | G

Overworked, over-stressed programmer Azumane Asahi works on the top floor of a Shinjuku skyscraper. Nervous around his coworkers and terrified of the long drop on the other side of the window, Asahi falls into a miserable routine, only to have it broken one day by a simple message on the outside of the glass.

PLEASE. so well-written it makes my heart glow and ache simultaneously

made me ascend into asanoya heaven

such a brilliantly unique concept i love it A+

qué syrah syrah by loudlucy | M

Asahi wants to be a Master Sommelier. It's the highest honor in wine service, and the certification would allow him to live the life he's always envisioned for himself. Too bad the certification test is notorious for being the world's most difficult.

Most people fail their first time taking the exam, and Asahi is no exception, but he has more difficulty than most dusting himself off and getting back on his feet. Enter Nishinoya, a young man who shares his same dream, and who believes in their goals so fiercely it forces Asahi to embark on a delicious and sensuous journey of viticulture and validation.

AKA The Wine Tasting AU that literally no one even knew to ask for.

NOTE: You Do Not Need to Know About Wine to Understand This Fic!

another super unique concept!!! (´∀｀=)

my god their chemistry is amazing

the writing made me feel things ngl

stop my bones from wondering by cerasi ☆ | T

After graduation, Asahi hides from the world and needs help from a few sources to find his way back.

i want to write sonnets and sing ballads for this fic, it’s that beautiful

as always, Top Notch Writing *chef’s kiss*

no but i seriously... can i kiss the author? asking for a friend 😳👉🏼👈🏼

iwaoi

star-crossed by starlitcities | T

“I never thought I’d see the day that I’d envy a human,” Oikawa admits, showering himself in tiny suns, because he can actually feels those, like a fusillade of warm kisses on luminous skin that leave marks. To humans, they’d be freckles. Skin stars, Oikawa calls them. He didn’t make that up, a human did.

“Who created the rule that we can’t touch, I wonder,” Iwaizumi ponders, floating heedlessly through space.

“Maybe it’s because we can fly. Humans dream of flying, right?”

“I don’t think so.”

gsjsgsjshsjshsjsj star!iwaoi

they’re LITERALLY STARS

beautifulbeautifulbeautiful i love how the author conveyed the beauty of touch and humanity 🥺🥺

please bless yourself further with the sequel sun-kissed

conquering the great king by suggestivescribe ☆| E

Iwaizumi blinked his gaze over to Oikawa, "Last time was supposed to be a one time thing," he said, voice low, lacking some conviction.

Oikawa's lips twitched into a smirk and he brought them hovering just over Iwaizumi's, "One time thing, Two time thing, what's it matter as long as it's not a Relationship thing?"

yes.

in fact, this entire series (breaking the rules) features daisuga, kuroken, asanoya and it’s SO GOOD. every single one.

but anyway, character development!!!!! plot!!!!!!!!! writing!!!!!!!! i’m here for it all

tsukkiyama

campfire in your chest by deanpendragon ☆ | M

Kei realizes in their second year of high school that he’s probably been in love with Yamaguchi since they were ten. However hopeless he might be in handling that situation, Kei prays he’s at least not as hopeless as Hinata and Kageyama. But he just might be.

SO BEAUTIFUL

i am also a sucker for anything with stars, moons and all the love in between

no words to describe this work of art please just go read it and be blessed

under the lilac tree by raewrites | G

there’s a lilac tree in Kei’s backyard.

gorgeous in its simplicity

softtsukkisofttsukkisofttsukki

not as grandiose as the rest but the love written into every word, action and character is absolutely show-stopping

kagehina

saffron and cayenne pepper by dontsaycrazy ☆ | T

Cooking is hard. Even if you have your very attractive, very grumpy neighbor there to help you.

-

In which Hinata's lack of cooking skills are a danger to him and others. Luckily (or not), Kageyama is willing to teach him, if only for the sake of avoiding any burned down apartments.

the essence of their characters were captured so well and yet it’s like they’re completely new characters too? author, whoever you are, you totally owned this

this made me ship kagehina so hard

fluff! cuteness! lots and lots of cooing!

kuroken

the galaxy is endless (i thought we were, too) by cosmogony ☆ | T

soulmate

/ˈsəʊlmeɪt/ • noun

A person who was made from the same star as you.

-

// Kuroken AU where the last words your soulmate will say to you appear on your skin when you turn 16, and how Kenma and Kuroo learn what this means over the course of their lives.

ahhh here it is. beautiful, heartbreaking, soul-emptying agony. you want angst? choke on this, and your tears later on.

no but seriously please read this if you haven’t you won’t regret it at all i promise

written from kenma’s perspective so you experience every depth and multitude of emotion he does and it’s so raw and- brb imma go cry for a sec

knot in my heart by hearthope | T

There’s a picture. Kenma blinks, looking at the little calico cat, being held up next to the face of a guy with stupidly messy hair and a crooked grin.

Cute.

The— the cat. The cat is cute.

Just the cat.

-

Kuroo starts spending a lot of time at the flower shop Kenma works at. Kenma definitely isn't into him.

okay so i like it when authors unravel a normally stoic character’s full scope of emotion and give them depth, sue me.

anyway, back on the fluff train!

i absolutely f*ck with flower symbolisms, cats and bitchy best friends who have dirt on each other. the layers of romance, friendship and everything in between is so prettily developed 10/10

bokuaka

the jacket you never returned by daisuga ☆☆ | G

He leaned over, kissed Bokuto on the cheek, and smiled bitterly, eyes watery.

He will never remember. Not now, not ever.

What they were will now forever be forgotten.

-

"You used to call me Keiji, Koutarou."

YOU USED TO CALL ME KEIJI, KOUTAROU!!!!!!!!!!

i beg you to listen to Spiegel im Spiegel when it’s first mentioned in the story please

i read this and screamed through my tears for a solid 1.5 hours. i rarely cry.

no f*ckin regrets though i read this thrice already and it hurts so good every time

rules by conesofdunshire ☆☆ | E

In which Akaashi Keiji is an overworked accountant who stumbles upon Bokuto one night playing the piano in the lobby of his work. Bokuto is different, that much is obvious. But with such supreme musical talent and a smile so dazzling it rivals the sun, there's just something about him that brings Akaashi back every night.

this fic. this fic has my whole, broken, sobbing heart and laughing soul

gorgeous. breathtaking. magnificent.

bokuto is so WARM and akaashi is so STRONG and they both find the solace they need in each other and it’s all i want for me 😭😭😭

in another life by littleluxray | T

Sleeping didn't come as easy as it used to. Bokuto knew this, and now Akaashi did, too.

The hospital AU that no body asked for, but that I took upon myself to write.

this is a famous fic that i doubt any seasoned haikyuu reader wouldn’t know, and RIGHTLY SO BECAUSE, the PAIN. the pain. the pain.

i could feel my lungs shrivel up and my chest cave in on itself. fatigue and rest are things i struggle with too so this whole story resonated with me from start to finish, and it broke me. in like, the best, most revitalising way

i would read this again but it still haunts me at night. i need to heal from the first time before i have the guts to try one more time HAHAHA 😆💔😭

tea-stained polaroids by dalyeau | G

“I'm gonna date that,” Bokuto declares solemnly, and Kuroo throws a plastic spoon at his head.

mmmmmmm pretty photographer + personalised coffee cups + cute baristas = diabetic fluff fic

i smiled so much throughout this you have no idea. cheeks achey but so good

i may have squealed a little at the ending

kurotsukki

moonfall by batman | T

There is no unlearning Tetsurou, after all. There is only leaving him.

-

(Five things of Tetsurou's that ended up in Kei's home, and one that never left.)

the writing!!!!!! is pure beauty!!!! sheer grace!!!!!!! the construction of the AU and the romanticism and hsjsgsjshsj

didn’t cry but. heart ache and bittersweet smiles are another level of misery that is just as fulfilling

yea just pleasepleasepleaseplease go read it thank you and have a good day

hidden gem by realmSpinner | E

Things get complicated when everything you thought you knew about a guy changes, and they get even more complicated when you actually start liking those changes.

That guy working with you AND becoming your neighbor? That's just a cherry on top of the cake of confusion.

this AU was refreshingly different, and amazingly so

top!tsukki??? sign me the f*ck up

the whole plot, man. perfection.

pings by barfs ☆☆ | T

[5/02/16, 3:50:17 AM] Tsukishima Kei: Please wake up.

[5/02/16, 3:50:23 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I hate begging. You know I hate it.

[5/02/16, 3:50:34 AM] Tsukishima Kei: I bet you’re snickering at that, wherever you are.

[5/02/16, 3:50:53 AM] Tsukishima Kei: But, it keeps hurting and I don’t know why and it feels like shit and I know you could tell me why, but you’re not here and I would really appreciate it if you’d just wake up.

[5/02/16, 3:51:02 AM] Tsukishima Kei: You’re laughing at that too, aren’t you.

[5/02/16, 3:51:10 AM] Tsukishima Kei: Dying is probably up there in the list of top ten shitty things you’ve ever done, and you’ve done a lot of shitty things.

god.

you already know what’s coming, and yet. when it comes.

how the f*ck did the author make grief beautiful????????? (at the expense of me dying along with kei and everyone else i guess)

this fic will ruin you and bury you under all your pain (i hope you’re ready)

but also put you back together with the “sequel”

kyouhaba

close to the chest by darkmagicalgirl | T

It takes Yahaba thirteen years to realize he's different from the other kids, one to figure out how to hide it, and two more to learn to be happy just the way he is. Yahaba's journey ft. an extremely annoyed Kyoutani, best friend in the world Watari, and loads and loads of good senpai Oikawa.

cause i’m (not) alright with the slow, burn~

no fr, take slow and burn very seriously

overthinking yahaba? i understand. i do.

again, such an amazing fic; 10/10 recommend

safe here by crossbelladonna ☆ | M

“Raids are routine work,” Kyoutani tells to Yahaba before he can air the question. “Sometimes there is no sleep done until we accomplish something, say kill a certain ghoul. I guess they’re still going through the possibility that people in the accident are still alive huh?”

Yahaba quirks a smile, pushing his mask up his head.

“You’re alive.”

Kyoutani looks at him intently and all of the things that they’ve gone through for the past month seems to flash in his mind.

“Yes I am.”

i haven’t watched tokyo ghoul but i understood everything perfectly. such is the power of f*cking kickass writing

*cue ugly crying and a lot of unresolved angst*

like the grief??????? ruin me please thank you 🙏 (i think i’m a little masochistic)

rare pairs

mannequin men by surveycorpsjean ☆ | M

[bokuto/akaashi/kuroo/tuskishima]

The modelling world is full of hungry wolves, constantly clambering over the other, snarling and desperate. They fight, and they kill, trampling over anything in their path.

In this case, Akaashi fell in love with the wolves.

i did not expect this to be good, and it wasn’t. it was SPLENDID.

akaashi is so enamoured with them from the get go i love it

a tiny bit of angst that stabbed me in the heart, but the happy ending soothed it (thankfully, because if there wasn’t one i will sue)

characterisation, writing, plot development; everything is great. can you tell i’m running out of synonyms for ‘beautiful’

feel like gold by heronfem ☆☆ | T

[bokuto/akaashi/kuroo/kenma]

In which Kenma is unapologetic and comfortable with who he is, Akaashi learns a lot about himself in a short period of time, Kuroo is wildly in love and an eternal survivor, and Bokuto remembers that love doesn't cure mental illness, but having a support system sure helps a lot.

Or, the one where 4 young men get together, and are helplessly, hopelessly, utterly in love despite everything.

e.e. cummings?? poetry??? f*ck yes

so beautiful. i’m so star-struck by this fic it’s simply stunning

there are no words to fully capture how worth your time and heart and mind reading this fic is so please. do yourself a favour, and fall in love with this fic with me

the sky and guilt are the only feelings i have left by oopsthisisqueertoo ☆☆ | not rated

[bokuto/akaashi/kuroo]

Akaashi is at his wits end. He feels nothing. He's quickly crumbling as a human being. He wants nothing but sweet release of death. In his fourth year of college he drafts a plan for his suicide. He is to graduate, publish writing for others to be inspired by, and slip quietly away. Shortly after, he meets a dog walker named Bokuto who asks him out and Akaashi reluctantly agrees. Nothing matters anymore and he treats Bokuto like an obligation. Until he's not anymore.

TW: SUICIDE ATTEMPTS & DEPRESSION

this was... this gutted me entirely and filled my body with too many shades of agony

arguably one of the best haikyuu fics i’ve ever read

so beautiful in the most painful way fathomable; strongly recommend

april to may by surveycorpsjean | T

[bokuto/akaashi/kuroo/tsukishima]

They're an odd family.

The four of them? Parents?

But still, they're a family.

So they'll support each other until the end.

aaahhhhh third gym as parents 🥺

so much fluff. i also love april and may

they’re still so in love there’s love in every millimetre of this fic :”)

that’s it for now! i’ll add more if i come across anymore good fics. i hope you enjoyed this list! if you have any requests/fic recs, or if u just wanna chat, feel free to just ask! hehe 🥰 k aight bye~

[toutallyahoe]

oh and tou, have you read my short liquido thirst fic that i sent to you at dm?(still cant get over these bois lmao) fever + horny made me go full writer mode (rather than artist mode...im sorry my drafts 😭😭) and i was contemplating whether to just send it to ur inbox so anons can also enjoy it or publish it on wattpad bcz this fandom aint feeding us enough tmr contents 😤😤 im also nervous asf as that was my first time writing a fic; amateur writing, grammar errors, typos and stuffs so i was hoping a pro like you can leave a comment on it (santos thirst fic is also otw 😉)

i still havent read it bby because i need your permission to read in docs but im sure its good! dont worry, ill always be very happy to get any type of content for any of the dumb football lads so akdbajdnwkjejfjwjejsnnf

also, bby, i literally have shitty writing, especially when i first started it (lil tou use to write so many cringe fics. thank god i purged it all and killed me old account haha) and im still even trying to make my own writing style as i do switch it from time to time, whether it be unconsciously or not

but seriously, i will always be fucking happy no matter what content you give me bean! art? fucking flawless and amazing artist! fics? my beautiful sweet baby is so goddamn talented!!! love ya you amazing and talented darling 💙💙💙

[archaicsanguine]

Okay ik nobody asked but my nervous system is kicking my ass and im incredibly bored so here are my vrisrezi brainrot thoughts for some reason

i feel like they would flicker between black pale and red feelings but mainly they would be somewhere around red and pale. at least in my personal brain au

they would totally b the kinda couple to repeatedly break up w each other and then the very next day you'd see them making out in the park and you'd just be like. what the fuck

they absolutely vandalize government buildings together. vriska prob has to convince tz but she caves eventually. if they end up getting caught they start yelling slurs at the cops and run into the sunset together.

theyre literally so fuckin. hdufviwoejqpwobeuihwoqjnw;jbeihfuwnoevj

They hate eachother n they love eachothr, n they can fix eachother and they are absolutely doomed to kill eachother fuck you

...That wasn't really a headcanon but still.

im probably gonna post some art of them later bc. this is supposed to be an art account.

[wntersfire]

GET TO KNOW ME TAG GAME

Before I start I would just like to say (tw alcohol for now and question 19) sorry for any spelling mistakes or if I ramble a little. To cut a long fuckin story short I mis read the measurements of my shot glasses and so instead of having two cocktails I’ve had the equivalent of four in the space of an hour and a half. Being british, im not gonna let a good drink go to waste either so im onto my third/sixth now.

Tagged by @clints-lucky-arrow (an actual goddess among us mortals)

1. Why did you choose your URL?

So this reason is two-fold. One, I didn’t watch star wars growing up because I was dumb and didn’t understand the politics (it wasn’t until my boyfriend sat me down and explained it literally in January of this year that I actually got it) but I loved Sci-fi and space so the next best thing was Treasure Planet (2003 film, Available on didney+) My favourite scene is the ending when Long John Silver (spoilers) is about leave before he can be arrested and Jim confronts him. Seeing how much his character has grown, Silver says to Jim, “Look at you, glowing like a silver fire. You’re something special, Jim. You’re gonna rattle the stars, you are.” It literally makes me tear up every single time I watch it and its one of my favourite lines of all time. Second, this was actually quoted in one of my favourite book series ‘Throne of glass’ by Sarah J Maas. I adore the character of Celeana and again one of my favourite quotes from TOG is when Queen Elena says to Celeana“ You could rattle the stars. You could do anything, if only you dared.” Every time I read that line I literally get chills and I actually have plans to get this tattooed on me lmao

2. Any side blogs?

Yes my fanfic blog @second-stars-totheright (I like puns and I used to love peter pan)

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

I joined when I was 13 for the fanfiction and lurked for a very long time, just reblogging and liking things until I deleted it when I was 17. Re downloaded the app and got my account back back around February of this year (when I was 19, now 20) and since then I’ve found it much friendlier and actually interacted with people this time around, and actually started posting my work on here!

4. Do you have a queueue tag?

No. This is my general postings blog so I just kind of stick anything funny or worth keeping here, but I probably should make one!

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

As I said to read fanfiction (anyone wondering it was 5 seconds of summer fanfiction. Anyone who judges me in the comments its fair game 🥺) but I re-downloaded it this year because I noticed with my work on Wattpad, while I had some do really well (one has gotten 130k+ views) its very difficult to actually interact with readers and get feedback. I’ve only accumulated that high of a number after 5 years of it being on there, and so tumblr is just so much more personal!

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

I did it this morning as I was getting tagged in this lmao. I wanted a cartoon girl who looked like me but because I had a specific colouring (ie my hair is black with a blonde streak at the front & my eyes have both blue and green segments because I have heterochromia) I couldn’t find any that looked like me so I recoloured a cartoon girl I found on pinterest.

7. Why did you choose you header?

The white clouds fit the stars theme and it looks pretty with the purple. ✨💜

8. Whats your post with the most notes?

“That girl is a problem | Javier Pena x Agent!Reader part 1” with 105 notes on my fanfic blog.

9. How many mutuals do you have?

I am still a little tumblr idiot when it comes to this so if someone could tell me how to find out I'll edit this

10. How many followers do you have?

72 on here, 107 on my fanfic blog (AND I LOVE ALL OF YOU ACROSS BOTH OF THEM MWAH, MWAH KISSES FOR YOU ALL 💜💜💜)

11. How many people do you follow?

165 (it was 700+ but the other day I unfollowed a bunch of accounts that haven’t been active since I followed them when I was 13. There were LOTS)

12. Have you ever made a shit post?

I mean all you have to do is look at the Nomad memes I make (UNAPOLOGETICALLY I might add 😤) for @clints-lucky-arrow to know I absolutely have. That series has a hold over me im telling you. I black out when I start reading and I awake with a bunch of meme editing apps open and my feelings tugged at from her amazing writing.

13. How often do you use Tumblr each day?

If I’m with my boyfriend which is like two days a week, rarely, but now I’ve finished uni, I’m on here all the god damn time. I feel so comfy and safe interacting with you all, not to mention some of you guys are funny as hell.

14. Did you have a fight with a blog once?

Not really on here, I haven’t received any hate luckily but I prefer not to spoil how comfy I am here with arguing.

15. How do you feel about ‘you need to re-blog this’ posts?

I’m a little confused by this I dunno whether I’ve just never come across any like this or if Stars is being a bimbo on the tl again. However, I only reblog things I’d like to keep for future reference or if something deserves to be shared to everyone else like a fic rec or a piece of art. (As Mack said, I’ve re-blogged so many in the past promising me money or luck and I am still broke as shit so what does that tell you).

16. Do you like tag games?

Yes!! I love reading everyone elses and getting to know my mutals better!

17. Do you like ask games?

Again yesss because it means I get to send love to my mutuals and get to know them better! I tend to not participate though just read their responses because I sometimes feel like I’m bugging people clogging their inboxes even though I know that’s the point idk I’m a hell of an over thinker sometimes 🥳

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

It’s been said before but @clints-lucky-arrow (wow you rlly owning this post bby girl) but I just remember lurking on Nomad early February and liking and reblogging her chapters so I could keep them to re-read cause that’s how much I instantly loved it and when she followed me I realised who she was and lowkey had a starstruck moment bcus id been ciaght up in her work for weeks and too nervous to make contact. Also @arduadastra, I saw her work all over the pedro tags for so long and now I’ve gotten to know her she is the sweetest girl!! We usually fan over Javier Pena gifs together, she’s solely responsible for ‘That girl is a problem’ bcus of her gif sending at 1am giving me Javi thots and now it’s my most successful one on my blog. And most recently @pedrosgirlx followed me this morning and her work is genuinely some of the best I've seen on here, as I said this morning it is the Sistine Chapel ceiling of Mando art it is actually jaw dropping!! I cant believe all these creators are rlly giving us this content for free and yet being so talented AND the nicest people I’ve ever met!!

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

No, although I hold a lot of them dearly as friends. 15/10 would treat you lovelies to a drink of your choice if we ever met (any of you from the uk who drink I’d get you a pitcher from Whetherspoons)

20. Absolutely no pressure tags:

anyone who wants to join! a lot of people I would have tagged have already posted theirs so go for it if you like the look of it!

[dxsloyal]

Welcome to Lizzie’s huge ass Im not dead update post

It’s been, oh god, over a year since I posted literally anything. So, here’s an update on what’s been going on. This is probably gonna be really long. Also some trigger warning for talk about d3ath. 

Let’s start with last year: Played way too much of FF7 remake, did a semester of college, started posting more on Tik Tok, used anime boy asmr to forget about the shit that was 2020, and that’s all I can remember. 

This year was a much different story: In January, my grandpa passed away due to complications. My mom and sister went to see my grandma in Florida to be with her along with my uncle and we held a celebration of life party for him back in May. I got to see my cousins and learn some stuff about my grandpa that I never knew before. We’re all doing just fine now.  I made my own game for a class with a bunch of really cool people last semester. I did art, animation coloring, textures, and concept art. I started playing genshin impact and now Im a Klee main. I started playing an old dating that I havent played in years, but I started playing Be my princess again and my god is that game still a guilty pleasure. I’m playing DND and my character is a hot pink six-armed Spider tiefling Druid/cleric of Loki. Her name is Marceline and she’s engaged to a nobleman who aboslutely loves her. We’re gonna fight a dragon next session and Im so nervous.  But I guess I should get to a bigger question: what am I gonna do with this blog?? Well, I’m still gonna keep the account and I do still check in every now and again to see whats going on. But I think it’s safe to say I’m not really revamping or formally coming back to rp. Sarah is still my number one girl and I wanna play her in a dnd campaign one day as an omage to her. If anyone wants to catch up via discord, tik tok, or even play with me on Genshin, I would be more than happy to message u that info since I’m super active on those. But yeah, I guess that’s my update post!! I would love to talk to u guys again and see what kinda shit I missed. 

[purplesurveys]

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Are you one of those lucky people to own a walk-in closet? lol lucky people. No I don’t have one of those. Is there a random object you own that has a huge personal significance? Well it’s more significant today because we had our virtual graduation this morning... so I’ll go with my graduation sash. Ever since I started university I’ve always wanted to wear my own sash in a physical ceremony so again, it sucks that our batch got affected by the pandemic. Do you use Google? For just about everything, yeah. Would you like to go swimming right now? That would be soooooo so nice. I’ve been going through old vacation photos and I really miss the beach. Can you play electric guitar? Nope.

Do you have an HDTV? My parents do. When was the last time you drank something through a straw? Around a month ago when my dad bought milk teas for me and my sister. Have you ever tried to teach yourself a different language? I didn’t teach myself per se, but I have tried my hand learning Spanish on Duolingo several times. It always comes in phases – I get passionate about learning and use the app for weeks, then it kinda burns out after a while. Right now I haven’t used it since I got sick in May. How long was your last phone call? A little longer than an hour, I think. It was pure silence though; we just wanted to hear each other’s surroundings. Do you need to repaint your nails? No, I never get it painted. Has there ever been a horoscope that came true for you? Psh. Are you a fan of industrial metal? Holy shit I feel so stupid right now. I thought this was referring to a literal kind of metal and I thought, that is such an odd thing to be a fan of...Google quickly taught me that it is in fact NOT a material for building infrastructure jdsskfjskf. Anyway, no I am not a fan. Are you one of those people who chew two pieces of gum, not one? Yeah, occasionally. I don’t like how one piece loses flavor all too quickly so I go ahead and pop two in. Do you have a wall calendar? Not since 2008. We only had a wall calendar in our old house; when we moved here we started to rely on digital clocks and our phones to tell the time. Have you ever taken the pictures from a calendar and used them as posters? I haven’t had a calendar like that, so no. I’ve done this with magazines though. Can you handle the cold? Hahaha no, I can’t. I was already in so much pain in 20ºC weather in Sagada, and I fared much worse in 12ºC Japan weather. I would still pick living in a colder climate in a heartbeat over a tropical one, though. Have you ever been to Canada? Nope.  Do you believe in superstitions? Just one superstition involving my university that doubles as an inside joke, so it’s not like I take it 100% seriously. It’s a generations-old joke that’s impossible to ignore if you’re a student, so I just jumped in. When was the last time you took a taxi somewhere? It was from the airport to back home, but I forgot where we landed from. Bohol I think? Palawan? I don’t even know anymore. It was so inconvenient I begged my dad that we stop using taxis as transportation for our future trips. Would you ever join the army, airforce or navy? No. How old is the person you last kissed? 22. Is there a friend that you can always rely on to get you out of a jam? I don’t think so. When it comes down to it they all have their own different things going on and I can’t just call them whenever and expect them to come to me, and that’s okay. Generally though, I think my most reliable friends are probably Andrew and Angela. What was the most embarassing thing you've had to buy? I’ve never felt embarrassed by anything I had to buy, but it can get a little uncomfortable trying to buy napkins when my dress or pants are already soaked. I get over it quickly though, since menstruations are normal lol. Have you ever tried to balance the light switch between off and on? When I was a kid. I haven’t tried it in a while. Do you believe in ghosts / supernatural occurences? They’re fun to think about, sure, and I do enjoy watching the supernatural episodes of Buzzfeed Unsolved where they go ghost-hunting. I like to think that they somehow exist, but I still also very much maintain my skepticism at all times. Have you ever mistaken a person's gender? I’ve used the wrong pronouns accidentally but I always correct myself and apologize once I’ve noticed my blunder. What was the most expensive thing you've broken? My old iPhones. I’ve also sported a few dents on my car, but I wouldn’t say I broke the car. Has anyone texted you yet today? Not text, but online chat. We had our virtual graduation this morning so my inbox was swamped with congratulatory messages and such. Did you stay calm during the whole swine flu scare? I did, but I mean I was 11 and had no clue how serious it was supposed to be. I remember cheering when they suspended classes for a week because of a local swine flu case, so yep – still ignorant back then. Is there a light on in the room you're currently in? There is, but it isn’t turned on. Are your feet touching the floor? Nope, they’re on the bed. Have you ever been in a car accident? Mild ones, nothing too life-threatening. Do you usually make back-up plans? Yeah man I’m so anxious I always have at least plans A-C lined up in my head and ready to go whenever necessary. Can you focus well in high-stress situations? Usually. Without the aid of mascara, do you have long eyelashes? I do. I get compliments on it all the time too. I didn’t realize it was apparently a nice feature to have until more and more people pointed it out haha. Is there a kind of music you listen to that helps you release your anger? Yeah I have a playlist that’s lined up with all of my favorite loud, angry punk rock music specifically for when I’m pissed off. Are you one of those people who keep their feelings bottled up? I can, particularly whenever I feel like it’s not worth it to blow up. Is one of your friends extremely odd but you love them regardless? Not really. Aya’s pretty weird but I wouldn’t call her extremely odd. Is there anyone you dread going into public with? My mom when she’s mad. Are you a victim of writing run-on sentences? For the most part, I wouldn’t say so. If I write a run-on sentence it’s almost always in an informal setting where I’m more loose with punctuation, like if I’m chatting on IM or writing an answer on here. Still, I try to avoid them and I never do it in a formal situation. Graffiti: an art or an act of vandalism? They can be both. Some people who genuinely just want to fuck around vandalize, like how I’ve seen “Mark <3 Erica” in spray paint on public walls or some similar shit lol. But a lot of graffiti are art as well; many have important messages or symbolisms to say. Do you buy things online? I’ve done it a few times. Not regularly. I like being able to see and touch something before buying it. Are you easily frightened? I definitely am but at the same time I’m really into horror movies and serial killers and a ghost-hunting series? Hahaha it’s weird. I guess I enjoy the thrill that comes with having those interests. Do you have a favorite model? Over the years I’ve loved Elizabeth Jane Bishop, Kiko Mizuhara, Taylor Marie Hill, Gigi Hadid, Bella Hadid, and (controversial pick!) Kendall Jenner. Have you ever watched Titanic? So many times. Honestly, one of my favorites. What's your current facebook display picture of? It’s my official graduation photo wearing my graduation sash! :) I finally changed it last Friday after I got the email saying I’m on the list of graduates. How about your IM display picture? My main IM is my Messenger, which also uses my Facebook photo. Is there anyone whose hair you envy? Gabie’s for one. Hers is really smooth and silky and wavy. Would you act in a movie if it offered a role? If I was going to be a mostly unseen extra in a blockbuster film and still be paid like $600 for it, then I don’t see why I wouldn’t take it. Does speaking in front of people make you nervous? Only if there’s going to be an unscripted aspect to it that’ll make me have to come up with answers on the spot, like miting de avances or thesis defense. If I have a script or even just a general gist of what I want to say, I have no problem improvising and speaking in front of a crowd. Can you read in a moving vehicle or does it make you sick? It makes me sick but it hasn’t stopped me before. Have you ever dated someone who was extremely shy? I’m the extremely shy person... Or have you dated someone who took things too fast? I felt that way with Gab at first when she wanted to have sex like two months after we started dating, though I was scared mainly because it was going to be my first time and I wanted to make sure I was comfortable. Now that I’m a little older, two months seems like a healthy amount of time. Does the idea of driving 220 mph sound exciting to you? Sounds terrifying. It could be fun, but only if we’re in the middle of nowhere where there’s loads of space to go that fast and no chance of crashing. Everyone has a weakness, what's yours? Food. Do you or anyone you know have an account on Deviantart? I had classmates in high school who had accounts but I’m not sure if they still have it, or if Deviantart is even still as active as I knew it to be. Thoughts on the Dunkin Donut commercial that says "America runs on Dunkin'"?  It’s a creative slogan but if I was American I wouldn’t want a doughnut place claiming to represent my country. It cute though. Do you bother buying movies on DVD anymore or do you just download them? I watch them on Netflix, which is still technically like buying them since we pay for the subscription anyway. Do you listen to Daughtry? No. Do you get your eyebrows waxed? I don’t. Waxing looks so painful to me. How do you take your coffee? Lots of creamer or milk, a little sugar. I like trying out different coffees, but when I’m simply relaxing I do want my coffee as least bitter as possible.  If you have a dog, what breed is it? I have an aspin mix, though we never figured out what Kimi’s other half is. And I also have a beagle. Have you found someone who makes you unconditionally happy? I don’t know if 'unconditionally’ is possible but yes, I do have people who make me very happy. Do you have a friend who always seems to be dying their hair? Not anymore. Jo used to dye her hair like every month though and she must have been able to go through the entire rainbow. She looked sooo good in each of the colors. Would you swap names with a friend? I love all their names but I don’t see why that would be necessary. Do you plan on going to university? I did. I graduated today. Guys who wear muscle shirts, yes or no? Idk man, they can wear whatever they want. Are you a fan of Carrie Underwood? No. I liked some of her singles when I was younger, but I’m not a fan in that I have her albums and know her lesser-known songs. Do you make playlists on iTunes? I used to, when I still used iTunes. I make playlists on Spotify now. Have you ever forgotten someone's birthday? I don’t think so. Are you scared of being left behind? Yessir. I’m super competitive, so I hate the feeling. Do you remember your last dream? No. I’m really bad at remembering them unless they’re nightmares or insanely strange. I do know that I dreamt while we were watching mass earlier on the television though, hahaha. Do you know someone who is an obsessed Star Wars fan? So many people in my circle are. Is politics something you don't care about? No. If there’s anything I give tons of fucks about, it’s that. What's a movie/tvshow/book/series that is way overrated? I’ll go with the first things I thought of...in that order: To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before; Stranger Things (it’s good, but not as good as people hyped it to be); I don’t really read anymore; and what do you mean by series? Just realized I only gave 2 out of 4 answers lol oh well. Do you think Barbie presents an unhealthy image to young girls? I don’t like how its physical features are still unrealistic; but I appreciate their attempts at diversity. I can’t say it was upsetting seeing a Filipino-themed Barbie :) Is there a pet that you desperately want? All I ever wanted were dogs, and now I’ve got two of them. Would you ever get your bellybutton pierced? Nope. Are you musically talented? Hahahahaha Have you ever shot a gun? Not a real one, so no. Athenna’s dad had this practice gun he used for target practice (duh) and I messed with that a few times. Do you have a friend that always changes their mind last second? That’s Gabie. She’s lucky she’s my girlfriend and that I love her, because it’s actually a big pet peeve of mine. Are you not afraid to voice your opinion? Yup. The only time I don’t say it out loud is if it’s unnecessary and if it’s going to be simply disrespectful. An example would be when my uncle offered to make me a carrot cake for my grad gift, and I just said yes because it was already generous enough for him to offer me a free cake when he runs a food business. In reality it’s not my favorite cake at all; it wouldn’t even be in my top 20. Are you one of those people who are always pushing their limits? Yes, I definitely overwork myself to the point of exhaustion and burnout. But I honestly prefer doing things and being busy than sitting around. Is there a word that you will always find humorous? Bubbling. Because Drake and Josh.

Do you frown upon immature people? Typically. Have you ever slipped on ice and hurt yourself? This may have happened to me once or twice when I was still regularly visiting the ice skating rink at the mall. People were always super nice and helped me get up, though. Do you try to have an intimidating impression? I don’t try. Apparently it’s naturally the vibe I give off. Living in the big city or chilling in the country? BIG CITY. Always the big city. I’ve gone to the country/province so many times; I already know what it’s like there. I’ll always prefer a noisy city. No one seems to obey the legal drinking age, do they? Hahahaha a lot seem not to. I know so many high school kids who’ve had a drink before turning 18. Do you like your country's flag? Sure. I like that we can switch up the colors depending on if we’re at war or not. Have you ever made a totally amazing snow fort? I’ve never even seen snow before. Do you use Bounty Paper Towels? No. Are you the one usually behind the camera or the one in the picture? BEHIND If you get married, will you have a traditional wedding? Traditional, yes. Religious, no. Do you feel you’re slowly losing one of your friends? No. But now that I’m no longer in school, I really hope I’ll continue to be friends with my orgmates. I’ll certainly keep in touch as much as I can. If you draw, what's one thing you always have trouble with? Everything about it. Is there someone you know moving away any time soon? No. I do know my friend’s sister had already moved and started her new job in California, but when the pandemic started she had to go back here. This virus is just ruining so many great things for everyone, man... Allergic to anything? Nope. How many cars have you owned? Zero. I drive one; can’t say I own it because my parents bought it. What are you going to do after this? Maybe take another survey.

[hyphypmic]

Doppo, Saburo and Samatoki crushing on/dating a barista and coffee connoisseur? (If you're comfortable with it, male reader please) thank you!!

Alright, before I get started on the pile of NSFW requests (which by the way I’m very excited about), here’s some fluff! Hope you like this anon!

Doppo

This man lives breathes and drinks coffee

No seriously, his blood is more coffee and caffeine than actual red blood cells

Anyway, he always gets his order in a hurry, but the one time he looked up and saw the barista at the counter, he dropped his wallet, fumbled for his words and just… fucking died

“SORRY!” Like really loudly.

As in, he really says sorry a lot and drops coins before he manages to pay the poor guy

Barista may or may not be flirting with him

“You okay honey?” He says while batting his eyelashes.

Doppo while slightly trembling: “Nnggg yes.”

Barista “accidentally” brushes his fingers against Doppo’s and Doppo kind of just pales because he’s so fucking cute

when the barista calls for his order and gets him fucking name right Doppo literally loses his shit and scrambles to the counter.

“Sorry!”

“Don’t apologise for anything.” The barista winks at him

Doppo nods and just kinda stumbles away and when he sees the number on the cup he almost drops the coffee and he turns around

The barista is waving at him and Doppo waves back and scurries away before he can be late for work

Doppo texts barista in that cute fluttery manner where he rapid fire sends his nervous thoughts

The other man finds it ridiculously cute and legit the moment he asks for a date, Doppo just drops his phone and says yes

Saburo

Oh you know, teenagers and their Starbucks

Saburo is with his friends when he sees the other teen making their drinks

Teen is an intern, so no uniform yet

Saburo is completely tongue tied so his straight friends have to order for him

Friends tease him as they hang around Starbucks and he keeps staring at the barista

Friends also pressure him to go up to the counter and ask for the guy’s number

“He’s not even gay!”

Friend: “bro. He has the pride flag on his uniform, talks like he’s gay, and and and, he was clearly flirting with you.”

“No he wasn’t!”

“HIS SHIRT LITERALLY READS I NEED A BOYFRIEND HONESTLY SABURO ARE YOU BLIND”

“IT COULD BE JUST FOR SUPPORT”

“SABURO IM GONNA FUCKING DRINK YOUR VENTI CARAMEL FRAPPUCCINO WITH EXTRA CARAMEL SYRUP IF YOU DON’T DO IT”

“FUCK YOU”

Anyway, Saburo musters the courage to walk to the counter, except he doesn’t ask for the number. He just wordlessly hands over the cup to the barista.

Barista is confused, but he turns the cup over to find that Saburo wrote his number and a little “I think you’re cute” on it

Barista is a blushing mess (they’re both blushing messes)

Well, it all works out in the end and they really hit it off through all the social media platforms

Ofc he automatically has to go through the buster bros filtration system, but when he makes coffee for the two he passes

Jiro and Ichiro are actually happy for him

Samatoki

His boyfriend is a barista

The Almighty Yakuza boss is dating a barista who can get his order right every time

And no, Yokohama bad boy used to only order the coffee right up the Starbucks menu

But now, his boyfriend predicts what he wants based on his mood

Mr. Ha Ko actually fucking likes pumpkin spice lattes, so boyfriend kinds saves some for him

Yes they have a coffee machine at their home and boyfriend always makes the cutest art and Samatoki (very secretly) takes pictures and instagrams all of them

Nah his account ins’t that popular, but to the followers, it’s ridiculously cute

Also no one (except MTC) knows its the Yokohama bad boy

When Samatoki goes to the Starbucks his boyfriend is at, he really hardcore flirts with his boyfriend as if they’re not together and puts the entire yakuza act

He like leans on the counter and flirts hard

Yes they have made out in the backroom after many of these flirtations

Like Samatoki fake complains about his Matcha Latte with Soy Milk and whipped cream and demands to see the barista

However, everyone working there just knows and just ignores the crashing going on in the backroom

Oh samatoki tries making coffee at home and… well tbh it’s not bad

Here we go: coffee tutorials thank you and good night

Also cute couple selfies that involve drinks

Jyuto and Riou love him for the drinks and the fact that Samatoki is very much like a puppy and very very calm when he’s around

“Is Samatoki… actually…. Leaning on his shoulder?”

“Unless my eyes deceive me Jyuto, he is.”

Samatoki stares at these fondly at the warehouse and threatens anyone who teases him about it

[underneathmyfallingstars]

I hope you don’t mind me adding to this, but it does sadden me that this subject even has to be brought up in the first place. It’s common knowledge that everyone is held captive to social networking algorithms. Writers (and even artists in all other forms), work hard to hone in on their talents and it’s an intimate thing sharing those pieces of writing/art so publicly.

Not to go off-subject, but a few years back, I was going through the same issue on my own writing blog (it’s still up and I want to get back into it, but I haven’t been able to use it in over a year). I had this one follower who would privately message me her fangirling feedback, and while I loved getting her messages (don’t get me wrong guys, I fucking lived for those messages and adored her for them), it always struck me as so odd that she’d like the post but never leave the feedback on the actual story posts themselves. So one day, during another Tumblr IM session she and I were having — I asked her about it. Turned out, while she loved the stories and the fandoms she was engaging with, she absolutely didn’t want her followers on her main blog account to know about her fanfiction habits. Her blog was set to a certain aesthetic, and that’s how she gained her following — she didn’t want to rock that boat and I think she was nervous that she may even get judged for it too.

So, I started asking around to others I noticed on my story posts who would simply like but otherwise not reblog or engage. I wondered if there was something to my friend’s fear. Turns out, other followers too had similar sentiments: They didn’t want people to know they were engaging with the fanfics on the down low. Reblogging them, would out their reading materials to their followers.

I even had a few folks who would like my story posts right after I posted, just long enough to come back and read it later on when they had the chance, and then take their likes away again. Yeah, that shit was completely disheartening and mildly irritating.

What saddens me most, is that fanfiction is not this shameful obscure activity that should be secretly engaged in. Yet, because of people making fun of those “weird Wattpad stories” and other snide remarks I see in passing in different places and comment sections all over the internet, it drives people into complete hesitancy to the idea of publicly supporting their favorite fanfiction authors openly. Which tragically means a lot of talented folks, will go completely unnoticed because platform algorithms depend on engagement. It’s the lifeline that literally every social media platform runs on. Fanfiction seems to be the thing many people secretly enjoy in private, but will remain quiet about if someone else starts ripping on fanfiction stories in front of those same people who enjoy it.

In closing, if you’re one of those folks who like the stories but don’t wish to engage because you feel like you could lose followers or don’t want people to make fun of you: you can always make a secondary/side blog for your story/fanfiction needs and your main followers would never know. I have a few of them myself. And I engage whenever I can, because I get it — websites like Tumblr require engagement in order to boost creators.

Anyway, I hope that last idea helps a few of you. This way, you can protect yourselves on your main blogs and still help these writers and creators out here, whilst you enjoy their amazing work.

Post after post after post… heart like… no engagement.

PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS LITERARY WILL YOU PEOPLE WHO DO THIS REALISE WE NEED ENGAGEMENT FROM YOU! 

That little comment telling us you loved it, that takes seconds to type? It means EVERYTHING TO US. That review you want to leave in more detail, but think you might be bothering us, or fangirling too hard? YOU’RE NOT. We sit there squealing with JOY to read all the parts you loved! That reblog? Do you know how thrilled we are to see you like something so much that you wanted it on your dash too?? 

It’s nourishment for us when you do this. We’re tired of having to remind people to engage. Our free to consume works are not free to create, unfortunately. Time and energy go into crafting a piece of writing for you. Your comments and reblogs are what replenishes us to continue doing it all over again. 

I know I sound like a broken record, but the whole process of engagement is broken. Spare a few beautiful people who read my stuff, most of my best engagement is from my fellow author friends, because they understand the assignment! 

It’s about time others understood it too. 

[pacman-tattoo]

Hi! I have a headcanon request- how would Sincerely Three interact with their soulmates in the AU where whatever one person writes on themselves would show up on the other's skin? Thanks so much!

omg this is cute and u said soulmate au and im automatically in love

gonna put this under a readmore

also im assuming u mean x reader but if u want like, actual ship Sincerely Three (because i love them a lot tbh), just ask again and be like ‘tris ur dumb’

evan hansen

alright so u met evan once after u kept scribbling little notes to yourself like “work on english paper” and “buy more pens” 

eventually that stuff got smudged and u forgot until all of a sudden there was a “did you do your english paper?” in small, neat handwriting

:0

no, but thank you!

it basically becomes just little reminders to each other and then u just kinda realize

u dont even know ur soulmates name

so u introduce urself and evan responds back with his name and

its kind of familiar???

huh

where do u know this oven handsoap evan hansen

shrug

‘evan?’

‘h-here’

oh my god what the fuck he’s been in ur math class all year how the FUCK did you not notice

‘[y/n]?’

‘uh, here’

evan and u make eye contact because wait.

‘it u’

after class u two introduce urselves to each other formally tbh

jareds jealous btw because wow evan found his soulmate wtf

evan sometimes scribbles on his arm sometime to remember stuff

sometimes u doodle on urself and evan finds it cute like, no matter how good or bad it is??

imagine like

in the future

moving in together

sometimes u go grocery shopping and u just have evans neat lil handwriting on ur arm of everything u need to get

sometimes u get lil ‘i love you’s on ur arm after a while??? and its rly sweet??? bless

evan tends to write in blue ink btw

usually light blue if he can but dark/regular blue ink is also fine

u caught him once doodling a tree on his arm.

why was he doodling a tree? heck if u know

u just caught the tree on ur arm and ur like ‘fuck thats adorable’

jared kleinman

u and jared probably met when u two were like, 13, since jared was probably drawing on himself or some shit and u were like ‘kleinman i fucking see u, stop drawing dicks’

he snorted a lil and then had to pretend he wasnt doing shit when ppl looked his way

13 year old boys tho, guys gals n nonbinary pals.

u two probably clicked pretty quickly

u dont end up dating until like, sophomore year tbh

but after that u two are inseparable

“charge ur phone, idiot”

“shut up kleinman”

“love u”

“love u too dumbass”

jared would 100% be the person who would just start writing on himself and then he sees ur not replying so he just texts u 

“write back”

he has drawn at least one (1) meme on himself

just

u fuckin look down and theres a fucking meme on ur arm

“jared im gonna fucking kill u”

ok but just casual little messages to each other

ur going over to jareds? u get a note on ur arm thats basically “get more gummy bears” or some shit

evan just watches u and jared furiously writing on urselves

what are u two even saying

he doesn’t know

he just knows that u two go through pens rly quickly

everyone knows

u two go to the store and argue about what color pens u wanna buy

playing lil games like hangman on urselves tho

connor murphy

can i just link maia’s soulmate au because nothing i say can top it because its a really realyl fucking beautiful piece of writing and i love it a lot and y’all should read it. heck, ask me and i’ll link u to it and her account if u dont know her already (she’s on hiatus as of rn i believe but her writing is

no? okay

so connor strikes me as the kind of person who just draws on himself because paying attention??? no

who pays attention anymore

not connor

so u just get doodles. so many doodles.

u dont rly mind

its cool

connors surprised that he has a soulmate bc eventually u write back a ‘i like ur art’

connor’s actually in ur english class.  which is the only class he doesn’t doodle on himself

ok do urself a favor and stop reading and go read maia’s soulmate au because its a thousand times better than anything i can come up with

thank u

dumb 3 am talks

dumb reminders to each other

dumb doodles 

u write little reminders to him a lot more than he does u

ok but seriously go read maia’s soulmate au because its perfect

heck

ask me

and i will straight up link it to u

bonus! all three ;)

so one day u notice theres writing on your hand. it’s a little smudged and it’s basically like “ask mom for refill on pills” or something small like that and ur like ‘huh’

u dont write back to that specific one at first but later u looked at ur hand and saw that whatever ink the person had been using is much more smudged and ur like ‘huh i wonder if they ever got their meds’

so u write down ur forearm asking

immediately theres a ‘what? i dont take meds’ in very quick, neat handwriting

and ur just like ?? before theres… more handwriting that actually matches the question from earlier

‘no, i didn’t! thank you’

‘wait evan what the fuck’

‘that wasnt you?’

‘no’

‘or connor?’

… evan??? connor????

theres a brief period where no one writes anything

then all of a sudden u get a “so who the fuck are u”

“[y/n]”

ok.

yall kind of assign ink colors just so u all know whos writing what sometimes

like, yeah handwriting but its easier just to know ‘oh, connor is trying to say something’ bc theres purple ink on ur arm

connor is purple, jared is green, evan is blue

ur ink tends to be red

dumb writing at 2 am

its mainly between u and connor and sometimes jared

but sometimes evan writes

usually he’s asleep tho

why dont u kids text

for the au.

thats the only reason

its basically chaos

u… actually live away from them and one weekend ur like ’fuck it, im driving out to meet these losers’

so u tell em

holy shit ur coming to meet them

:0 so they offer to meet u somewhere???

a la mode

best ice cream 

bless

so u punch it into google maps and an hour later u see like

three fucking nerds standing around outside

ur sitting in ur car

so u just write

‘hey fuckfaces’

they just

all look around like ‘wtf’

u get out of the car

formal introductions

they’re all???? cute??? is this fuckn legal

they… look like how they write?

does that make sense

like. evan’s handwriting is small and neat and kinda smudgy at times - and he just… looks like a nervous bean to you. jared’s is quick and sloppy and ends up taking more space than a paragraph from connor does - and jared looks like the sort of dude full of personality. connor’s handwriting is small and runs together and kinda unreadable sometimes and it just

they look like how they write

its weird idk

u all end up getting ice cream and talking

finally u guys actually like

exchange numbers

since u keep getting shit about ink poisoning

so sometimes u will drive out to see these dorks

what kind of luck did u have that you ended up only a town away tbh

uh

general headcanons

warmest cuddle sessions

dumb notes to each other

includes memes

‘jared just text it-’ ‘no’

u just get ‘come visit us u fuck’ on ur arm once

writing on urselves when ur all int he same room

and literally sitting right next to each other

zoe walked in and she’s just like ‘… okay.’

u have a bad day? u take a nap

u wake up and theres a lot of just lil lovely things written on ur arms???

sweet dorks

(and at least 1 meme)

(because theres always 1 meme)

thats all i got

[naturesass]

im genuinely curious, why do u ship ike and lucina? btw ur art is cute

First of all, thank you for the compliment! 

But oh boy, I’ve been waiting for this one.

(The doc version reads better and has more images, but don’t forget to reblog this if you read it there!)

Well, grab a nice bucket of buttered popcorn and a can of soda–pull up a chair and recline a bit with a nice blanket, because I’m going to tell you the legendary story of how Ike x Lucina came to be.

Way back in the year 2015 (feels like eons ago!) I started talking to this random chick named @hollyfig (Holly). I won’t spill all the sappy details into this essay that actually is about two fictional characters, but long story short, she got me head over heels into Fire Emblem. With me now poisoned to love Lucina, and her drowning in her love for Ike, we decided to play Smash Bros. together. Basically, she didn’t like me beating her all the time and so we started to play on teams. We starting playing more with her as Ike and me as Lucina, and then it began.

We both draw pretty frequently, our minds are naturally constantly creative and spanning out to discover new things. On August 20th, 2015, school girl little me sent a picture over to Holly, shamelessly saying I had been discreetly thinking about them as a couple. I got lucky and she admitted it to, and then it began. We simply started sharing art and it blossomed.

Now why, you ask? Well, when you share something in common with someone, you sort of just build off from it. Our conversations about them quickly became more frequent (we are normal people too, we talk about real life stuff) and they simply just grew into something we never expected with 10+ AUs under our belt. Texts turned into drawings and headcanon talks turned into fanfictions.

Let’s really look at why now.

First off, Lucina is a strong girl. She traveled back in time, met her then-alive-soon-dead father (unable to give away her identity at first glance), and stopped an apocalypse from happening. She’s a gorgeous, blue-haired general of her childhood friends who is level headed, can’t take a joke, and has horrible taste in clothing. She’s stubborn at times, but will talk and stand up for herself when she needs to. In my personal opinion, and in Holly’s as well, we believe that no one in the Awakening universe is really suitable for Lucina–they don’t deserve her for how perfect she is.

Now let’s look at Ike. Let’s be straight up with each other alright–Radiant Dawn Ike is hot. He’s a man who lets no one get in his way at all and will do anything he needs to do to reach his goal for what he knows is right. He’s a beefy man who is incredibly talented with his sword and will protect the people he loves and cares for. He’s stubborn sometimes too and very blunt with what he has to say and lacks the mannerisms.

Take a warrior-princess and a brutish mercenary and what do you get?

The ultimate love-story.

The both have similar characteristics like both being stubborn when they know they need something done. It would be fairly easy to read each other if one was upset about something. In general, they have different experiences in their life, like Lucina being in royalty for her younger years while Ike was being trained rigorously by his father.

Whether it be in just general romance or becoming parents, they would balance each other out. Ike is strong and will get in touch with his feelings if he needs to with Lucina. Lucina would break his tough exterior down and show him immense care. They both are strong alone, but with someone to lean on who is so similar, it makes life more enjoyable for them both.

Let’s just talk about them meeting in general Smash Bros. right now.

Ike and Lucina meet, Lucina being the newcomer obviously. They think nothing of it, ask for a few spars as fellow sword fighters. They realize their skills in combat are nearly unstoppable with his powerful, slow hits and her speedy, quick slashes. They start practicing together more and more, both just naturally caring people.

It grows into more without themselves even knowing. Suddenly, Ike will take hits for her, Lucina will check up on him to make sure he’s okay. They don’t leave each other’s mind, but the problem is they both think they don’t deserve each other.

Take into account insecurities for some creative liberty and a bit a flavor: Lucina’s lacking a figure compared to other girls around her and Ike is gorgeous. Ike’s trying to get a princess’s heart–he doesn’t even like royalty and wants nothing to do with it.

Eventually, Ike takes the step and they become a couple. They’re literally invincible on the field.

It’s more complex than it sounds, trust me. I can’t explain all of it so easily, there’s so much that actually happens that Holly and I are constantly talking about. We add characters, plot twists, just general sad moments because we all have that hunger. I think mostly any pairing could work honestly if you have someone to talk to about them, it’s all about building the pairing up into what you want them to be.

Before I end, take some things into consideration:

Since Lucina is a bit sheltered most times, Ike guides her a bit with love in general

Size difference in general–Lucina’s like a small stick and Ike towers over her with his beefy arms. She looooooves to be hugged by him

As much as Ike loves to feel like he’s protecting Lucina and being the big spoon, Lucina loves to feel his back muscles and be the jetpack

Instead of Ike buying an engagement ring, he takes some metal from Ragnell

Ike dominates her most of the time, but Lucina can turn things around (Ike blames “Grima’s blood.” Shark week can get uglyyyy)

Whoever wakes up first tends to stare at the other, sweeping their hair out of their face and just watching them in such a peaceful state

Lucina absolutely hates when Ike takes hits for her because she’s strong enough to take them, but Ike refuses to see her hurt

Ike is a nervous MESS around Lucina at first just unsure about how to properly express his feelings

There’s so much more, I can go on, but we like to keep things private too. But please, consider these two blue lovers. I feel like people have constantly been curious about this from both of us–I post art publicly here because I feel like it’s what I mainly draw now and she reblogs it, I know people are wondering. Now you know, I hope you consider, and let us know if you’ve fallen down the hole with us to.

[stardust-draws]

So basically my biggest hero and artistic influence just reached 10k followers and im sooooo unbelievably proud and happy for her!!

I made a tumblr account like 3 years ago and didn’t touch it because i literally had no idea what it was or how the hell to use it. So its May 2016 and literally like 5 months prior i discovered this show called star vs the forces of evil and i can honestly tell you my world turned upside down. No joke i stared at the screen and said “i don’t know who they are but i ship it” I HAVE THE SNAPCHAT!! So anyways im super new to tumblr and i final open the app and it asked me what i like.

I typed in starco (i learned the ship name through Instagram). Literally like the first post was one by a user named atomicmangos and it was of Star and Marco missing. And me being me i was like OMFG YESS MY BBYS!! I don't think i've ever clicked the follow button so fast. Another month does by and i see she does these live streams on join.me. I've never been to a live stream so i was actually really nervous. I downloaded the app and entered her chat room. IT WAS SOOOOO AWESOME!! AND BY FAR THE BEST DECISION IVE EVER MADE IN MY WHOLE LIFE!! There were only like 7 people there and i got to know all of them!! It was such a comfortable environment and i honestly couldn't have asked for a better group of internet friends.

   I met my current best friend because of those live streams!! 

 She asked us we wanted to see and i literally started throwing ideas everywhere!! I didn't think she actually liked them until SHE ACTUALLY DREW ONE OF THEM!! She drew 2 of my ideas. That may not seem like a lot but to a young artist it really opened my eyes and saw a new light on artist. They do listen to their fans. The thing with mangos is she doesn't treat us like fans she treats us like family. Its like when ever i go to her streams i'm home... all her ideas and her au's inspire me to draw. Because of mangos i've now decided what i want to do for pretty much the rest of my life. I want to be an artist. Like her. I may not be the best at it but i'm trying. I know i'll get there one day because she told me so. She's there for you whenever you need to talk and she's really supportive of anything you do. I am honestly soooo lucky to befriend someone like her. She's so hard working and i know she has a lot of work with school so the fact that she makes time for us really does mean a lot. She's inspiring and kind and talented and over all just an amazing person!! I hope we mean a lot to her like she means a lot to us. Im sooo happy and honored to be a part of her mango fam and i will never leave. Why would i! It's my home. 

 Those beautiful pieces of art work above were drawing i suggested and SHE DREW THEM!! LOOK THATS MY NAME!! COMETS SAYING!! But as always creds to the Amazing: @atomicmangos

[softgaypunk]

Get to Know Me (its a tag im just gonna fill it out because Identity) 

1. What is your middle name? Logan

2. How old are you? 18

3. When is your birthday? december 9th

4. What is your zodiac sign? sagittarius ♐️

5. What is your favorite color? yellow

6. What’s your lucky number? i dont have one

7. Do you have any pets? 3 doggos, 2 cats, and a bunch of fish

8. Where are you from? my parents are from italy and ireland, i was born in north carolina, raised a lil in new york, but mostly from maryland

9. How tall are you? i'm smol, only 5'3"

10. What shoe size are you? 5 in mens (i know i got teeny feet)

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? i only wear 3 pairs

12. What was your last dream about? i dont remember 

13. What talents do you have? im really observant and im good with coloring

14. Are you psychic in any way? i mean i pick up on things that a lot of other people dont and sometimes i can predict a future scenario but i dont think of myself as psychic

15. Favorite song? cant pick

16. Favorite movie? cant pick

17. Who would be your ideal partner? well im attracted to all genders- ideally they would be my best friend above all things, but mostly funny, supportive, and kind

18. Do you want children? nope

19. Do you want a church wedding? i dont believe in getting married

20. Are you religious? im ~spiritual~

21. Have you ever been to the hospital? yea

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? not really

23. Have you ever met any celebrities? i met trixie mattel? thats about it

24. Baths or showers? showers are more efficient & baths are more calming- it depends on what im in the mood for

25. What color socks are you wearing? bright blue

26. Have you ever been famous? i had a really popular instagram account a few years back but then i deleted it (i wouldnt call myself famous tho lmao)

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? no

28. What type of music do you like? alternative, soft, raspy

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? nope

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? usually six

31. What position do you usually sleep in? curled up, on my side

32. How big is your house? my parents house is typical suburban but my home is a small dorm room

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? a bagel

34. Have you ever fired a gun? yea

35. Have you ever tried archery? i have (i failed badly)

36. Favorite clean word? ethereal

37. Favorite swear word? fuck :)

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? 2.5 weeks

39. Do you have any scars? yea but most have faded a lot

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? mhm

41. Are you a good liar? i wish i was but im not

42. Are you a good judge of character? kinda

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? i can! im decent at a southern accent and i used to be able to do a british accent

44. Do you have a strong accent? southern i guess

45. What is your favorite accent? russian but i cant do it

46. What is your personality type? infp

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? all of my shit is from goodwill or salvation army so

48. Can you curl your tongue? sometime

49. Are you an innie or an outie? innie

50. Left or right handed? right handed

51. Are you scared of spiders? no i think theyre really cute! they have 8 eyes too

52. Favorite food? mac n cheese

53. Favorite foreign food? i like papusas

54. Are you a clean or messy person? clean

55. Most used phrased? holy shit

56. Most used word? either fuck, smol, or 'lil'

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? not very.. maybe 5 minutes?

58. Do you have much of an ego? fuck ass no

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? lick for a lil and then i Cronch

60. Do you talk to yourself? yes

61. Do you sing to yourself? yes

62. Are you a good singer? meh

63. Biggest Fear? bunies & abandonment

64. Are you a gossip? tea is tea ☕️ (if its harmless. if its problematic shit i call it out.)

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? i dont fucking know, my memory is shit

66. Do you like long or short hair? on other people, long. on me, short

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? ya 

68. Favorite school subject? creative writing or art

69. Extrovert or Introvert? introvert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? no

71. What makes you nervous? bunnies, loud noises, literally existing

72. Are you scared of the dark? sometimes

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? grammar, no. racist/homophobic/transphobic/ableist/other problematic thinking? hell fucking yes i do

74. Are you ticklish? too ticklish

75. Have you ever started a rumor? probably in middle school

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? yea and i hated it

77. Have you ever drank underage? yea but i dont like drinking anymore

78. Have you ever done drugs? just weed

79. Who was your first real crush? i called him baby brown eyes and i dated him for a year

80. How many piercings do you have? 2 right now (gauged ears) 

81. Can you roll your Rs? depends on the word

82. How fast can you type? on my phone, very, on my laptop, slow as a turtle

83. How fast can you run? i used to be really fast but now i can barely run at all bc Dysphoria and Bouncing Chest are not good together

84. What color is your hair? dark brown

85. What color is your eyes? they change but usually green

86. What are you allergic to? grass, pollen, dust, cats, mold

87. Do you keep a journal? no

88. What do your parents do? ruin things

89. Do you like your age? yea its ok i guess lmao

90. What makes you angry? problematic things

91. Do you like your own name? i named myself so yea i like it (it means blessed in hebrew :) )

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? im not having a child

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? gender is a constricting construct

94. What are you strengths? good friend, good observer, v affectionate

95. What are your weaknesses? confrontation

96. How did you get your name? i looked up baby naming sites and found 'A' names (because thats what my deadname started with) and found asher!

97. Were your ancestors royalty? hell no both sides were poor as hell

98. Do you have any scars? this is the exact question from 39

99. Color of your bedspread? i use a brown soft blanket

100. Color of your room? at college, tan, at parents house, grey