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Wrote out a big long phone call rant to have with my mother later because as much as I hate it she is my closest irl spiritual confidant 👍 here’s hoping her response to ‘hey I’ve been spiritually depressed and disconnected for like 8 months and for some reason these last two weeks advocating for Palestine has me feeling alive and burning with divine passion and love in a way I’ve never felt before in my life’ isn’t like. ‘Talk to your psyche abt your meds hun’
#ra speaks#personal#religion#oh god these tags got out of hand. look away I’m rambly today.#outing myself as deeply spiritual and devout on main oops#‘aren’t you gay and trans and -‘ listen Israel the person received that name after literally wrestling with gd in the desert#I’m allowed to put my faith leaders in a spiritual headlock for past and present crimes while I live my joyful life#maybe a physical headlock too. I’m down to body slam some wueerphobic racist pos who claim to be faithful while never exercising such faith#also lmao of the idea of a queer leftist being deeply spiritual makes you uncomfortable…bro everything about me makes ppl uncomfortable#I’m bi gender I consider myself a trans gay man and a nonbinary dyke at the same time. I’m disabled and ugly and autistic. im not palatable#accept the inherent apparent contradictory nature of the varied human experience and move on.#sorry thought about that post complaining abt observant jews being excluded from the conversations about queer jews like#you don’t have to get it. you don’t have to think it’s real! but it’s real to me! it’s important to me!#so are you gonna be my transphobic uncle and call me sick and deluded the same way he talks about trans people?#or are you gonna keep your mouth shut accept that you don’t have to understand someone to respect them and move on with your life.#anyways uh. here’s hoping I don’t lose my voice or start crying like I did while typing the script up.#vocational woes
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people are really so weird and so fatphobic huh
(and oops most of my commentary is in the tags XD)
#people really out here acting like some chocolate is gonna kill you#idk maybe you should check how stats and data actually work and not just blindly trust things that get it wrong and such#because hate to break it to ya but increased risk does not equal absolute risk#it just increases the risk which is normally only by a small margin and doesnt mean anything in reality because it doesn't mean that it's#absolutely 100% going to happen that's not what risk or increased risk means#anyway this reminds of when a friend of mine took part in a study#and they were like oh yeah you have a 6% chance of a heart attack in the next 10 years#they asked if they lost weight would that decrease by a lot and the person was like uhh by like 1% it's really not the big deal everyone#makes it out to be people are just fatphobic because that's the society we've built that at all times you must be skinny#or you aren't worth anything or worse when people act like you're such a strain on the system#and that you dont deserve to have healthcare like i will scream#everyone needs to stop being so damn weird about it!!!!!!!!!!#it's literally fine it's so literally fine#you know actually thinking about increased risk with alcohol and smoking - to which is totally your choice and up to you btw#i knew someone who smoked like a chimney and drank like a fish and lived to his 70s and died of something completely unrelated#increased risk is just that increased by a certain percentage which is like not a lot in the grand scheme of things to really put it into#perspective when you have like 1 in 100 chance and the increased risk is 100% that just raises it to 2 in 100 which yes is just 1% to 2%#i will scream when people act like food is going to kill you - especially when it gets so bad people act like fruit is bad for you because#of sugar like i will cry i will start sobbing because all of this is why im pretty sure most people have disordered eating#if not full on eating disorders and that's the real concern how our attitudes make people change their behaviours and develop mental health#conditions because society is just so insistent on this one issue that you can't escape it's bad it's so bad and i hope one day#we get past all this and people can just live how they want without others getting on their backs#fatphobic people are the reason why so many people i know think they're worthless and ugly and i just that's so upsetting to me and yes yes#there's the major issues like doctors ignoring symptoms in favour of just lose weight! and then just send people into the world with 0 help#in that oh and oops now they've got an eating disorder when the problem in the first place was not weight <.<#and even if it was (which it rarely ever is) it's like okay where's the help then because there is no help and then study after study is#like oh btw dieting doesnt work lol and then what do you do what do you do im gonna start screaming hdfghsdfg#anyway sorry these tags are long im just so tired and so frustrated at the world and i hope one day people get over themselves
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maybe it’s the withdrawal talking but i would like to learn how to become less invested in people that give me crumbs while expecting me to basically perform girlfriend level tasks of emotional effort with no reciprocation.........what i really liked about this most recent dalliance was that i was never at any risk of having to work on MY problems, i was never at risk of really being known at all, he didn’t care to know me! he doesn’t care to know me!.......and it’s like ah, can i really put all the blame on the man when I’M the one who is still getting what i want: something interesting enough to captivate me for a time with no risk of real intimacy (because narcissists and the self centered do not care enough about you to ever get to know you)
#sometimes even when you weren't the one perpetuating harm in a situation#you still have to take a good hard look at yourself in order to grow and ask How Did I Enable That or Put Myself In The Situation#for me my fear of real intimacy has been driving me for my entire life towards those who do not give a FUCK about me#but who want to use me as their own therapist/emotional outlet still#it was always so easy right!!!! i did not dream of being loved i dreamed of being useful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i want to be brave enough to dream of being loved!!!!!!!!#last tag made me cry when i wrote it lmao.....i love myself now and it rocks....im gonna want better 4 me#luz.txt
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there's nothing more wrenching than self perception. it's so paralyzing having a clear vision who i want to be, but being held back by the vessel shackling my soul. i am forced to wander my body in search of a placeholder for my desired identity. this sounds so narcissistic, but i place appearance as an determining factor of my worth. i would never subject anyone to this sort of judgement but me. i don't know why. the constant cycle of building myself up just to tear me down leaves me so drained. all this but i still cannot identify a root cause. i want to be attractive so bad, yet i don't know why. it's so painful because deep down, in the moments of clarity, i know i will never be attractive, no matter what i do. i have given up. i cannot change my bone structure, i cannot change my facial features, i cannot change anything. it's so painful to view everyone around me as shards of what i yearn to be. it's even more painful to look at my siblings, because they are both conventionally attractive people despite the "flaws" of my parents (and my parents are decent looking too). it's almost as if every negative, undesirable trait joined to form the frankenstein called myself. sometimes, i wonder if i have body dysphoria. but i'm pretty sure i don't. i think i just have confrontational bias. i don't want to be "ugly". i desperately scramble for an excuse. i try to search for reasons not to be myself. i don't want to believe the person in the mirror is me. i want to believe the shitty photos of myself are just just reflections of insecurities, but pictures reflect reality. i see my friends' photos and can acknowledge them as accurate, so isn't it the same for me? only 2 people have ever complimented my appearance and both are my friends. i think they said it to make me feel better. my appearance has crushed my identity. my appearance has held me back from perusing my passions. i can acknowledge all of this and everything else, yet why am i still stuck in this cycle of hatred? i feel so trapped and paralyzed in my own body. anyways thats my hourly vent/rant/ted talk. i know ppl prolly arent gonna see this but i really need to get this off my chest D: If u relate to anything i talked abt, pls know that u arent alone. if u need someone to talk to, u can always talk to me <33
#vent#i hate myself#but i love satosugu#put the fries in the bag#im gonna explode#hawk tuah spit on that thang#its lwky humbling how much i cry abt my appearance#chat is this real#idk what else to tag#togachako canon#i cope by being a dti addict
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send nudes • bang chan
M D N I 18+
Summary: You accidentally send a nude to Chan and well…he takes it as a chance to act on his hidden feelings
WC: 2.4k
Tags: smut, afab!reader, dom/tease!chan, porn with little plot, piv, unprotected sex (just don't), fingering, oral (f & m receiving), creampie, mutual pinning(?), handjob, chan is a tease, reader calls chan; chris, chan, christopher, channie), use of pet names (baby, sweetheart, good girl, etc), not proofread, im prob forgetting some- sorry (brb gonna touch some grass)
“Shit shit shit!” You quickly pulled your shorts back up as panic spread throughout your body. You quickly look at the open messages to see if the picture has been seen yet. Ugh this is why you don’t send nudes! You screamed at yourself. About twenty minutes ago you were flirting over text with this random guy from tinder when it started escalating into pictures being sent, you took a picture and was going to send it to him but you unknowingly sent it to your best friend.
You hadn’t noticed until about five minutes ago when the tinder guy hadn’t replied yet, you noticed the notification of the image sent was under Chan’s contact and well now you’re trying to figure out how to delete the picture.
You already tried deleting it from your messages but that only deletes it on one end not both.
Suddenly the ringing of your phone fuels the flames of your anxiousness. You dwell on whether you should check the caller ID, peeking at the screen your heart drops, it’s Chan. “Oh fuck.” You snatch your phone, not answering it, before running out of your dorm, down the hall towards Chan’s dorm. His dorm isn’t far from yours so by the time you get there your phone is still ringing. As it’s about to hang up you finally answer it, banging on the front door.
The wood door swings open revealing a confused Chan. God you couldn’t even look him in the eyes.
“Hi,” Chan chuckles, not acting like he’s seen something that he wasn’t supposed to, you sigh in relief, “I was about to text you-”
“Don’t do that!” You cut him off, pushing past him to grab his phone. “Hey?!” He exclaims after you snatch his phone, Chan makes a move to grab but you quickly dodge him, opening his messages app.
“Don’t delete it!” Chan huffs out annoyed. You stop, dead in your tracks, Chan takes the chance to take his phone back, shoving it into his pocket. “What do you mean don’t delete it.” You burst, heat spreading throughout your face like a wildfire. When did he see it?! You thought to yourself as you took out your phone and looked back on your messages, it displayed ‘read 1 minute ago’.
“Chan…” You push, when he doesn’t reply simply wearing a smirk on his face you start getting even more flustered, “Christopher! What do you mean don’t delete it?!” Your face is as red as a tomato at this point, your heart pounding so fast you can feel it in your ear.
Chan lets out a bubbly chuckle, you only ever use his real name when you’re either pissed or are in a teasing mood- you are not in a teasing mood, “I’ve got blackmail. And besides, it's fun seeing you flustered.” The smirk he wore was just straight up menacing. “This kind of situation is weird and makes me flustered- Did you just save it?!” You shriek as you watch him take out his phone and scroll through your texts. Chan smirks at you as he shows his phone’s screen, the save button clearly pressed. “Why would even- Chris!” You cry out his name, he finally puts his phone down on the desk by his bed with a shrug.
“You forget I’m a man.” You stand crossed armed as you stare at your best friend, “Yeah okay, but keeping a nude of your best friend is kinda weird.”
“Would you rather me send you one too?” Chan asks calmly as if it weren’t the most absurd thing he’s ever said. You scoff, eyes blown out by his question, sure Chan’s a flirt and likes teasing you, but it's never actually gone this far between the two of you. Just a simple mistake opened this pandora box.
“Who was that meant for anyways?” The Australian asks, sudden curiosity leading him on. “That’s none of your business-“
“Well you sent me the photo, I should at least get an explanation, no?” Chan raises his brows. “The guy from my date the other day.” You admit embarrassingly, Chan lets out a laugh while shaking his head, “The one that you complained about for the next three hours after your date.”
“I was bored okay!” You throw your arms up in defeat, plopping down on his bed.
A few moments of awkward silence washed over the two of you- well more awkward for you- before your phone interrupted the silence. You checked the notification, rolling your eyes as you opened the message from Chan. Holy shit. The grasp you had on your phone loosened as the electronic tumbles onto your face, smacking you right on the forehead. “You that shocked by the picture?” Chan hums in amusement. You gape at him after massaging your sore forehead, “Well no shit, you just sent me a dick pic!” You shove your phone in his face.
On the screen was a picture of Chan’s crotch area. His gray sweats not hiding the boner he obviously sports, his veiny hands holding onto his intimate area. A sudden realization dawned on you, “Did you just take that?” You stared between him and the same colored sweatpants that he wore. Now it’s his turn to be flustered, sure he had fun teasing you but now thinking about it, it wasn’t exactly appropriate to take a dick pic in front of his best friend even if she wasn’t aware of his actions. Brushing it off, Chan shrugged with a smug face.
“God you’re infuriating sometimes.” You shake your head. “Oh c’mon, you can say it’s hot, your’s was. It’s the reason I’ve got a bone-“
“Chan!” You squeak, your hands covering your face. Chan was too blunt for you sometimes. “You still need help with this?” Chan says, gently guiding your hands down from your face to show you the picture that you had sent him earlier. You pout, thoughts in your head weren’t lining up to how your body was reacting, “Help?” You shake your head in confusion trying to understand what his words meant. Chan hesitantly trailed his hands to your inner thighs, instinctively you spread them apart which he takes as a go-ahead.
“Wait, wait, wait!” You stutter, realizing where this could be going, “We don’t have to do anything, if you don’t wanna.” Chan said, retrieving his hands from your legs. The warmth of his hands still burning your skin despite them not being there anymore. “No, I wanna-” Your mouth moved quicker than you could process, you slapped a hand over it. Chan raised a brow at you in his regular teasing manner, you simply shook your head at him, “Chan…you’re my best friend, I don’t wanna change that.” That was a lie, you did want to change that, you really want to change that, but losing Chan was something that always prevented you from ever telling him how you felt.
“Who says it has to change?” The curly haired boy leans over your body, dipping his bed at the weight. Your hands come up to his shoulders, not knowing whether to push him away or bring him closer. “Chris.” You sigh, eyes closing in thought. “Keep your eyes close, if you want me to stop just tell me…okay?” His words fanned across your cheeks as he spoke softly into your ear. You squirmed at his words but nonetheless kept your eyes shut.
A sudden touch to your thighs made you flinch, the hand hesitantly tapped your knee for your consent, nodding in response. Chan let out a shaky breath as his hands nudged your thighs apart, revealing the wet patch that stained the lining of your shorts. Did you get turned on by the tinder guy? No, it was by Chan and his insufferable teasing, he’s what got your arousal pooling. Chan hums, his breath breezing over your hot skin, sending shivers down your spine. “This okay? D’you trust me?” He asked as his fingered trailed along your throbbing cunt, you bit your lip in pleasure, nodding frantically, yearning for more friction.
Chan begins rubbing his thumb in circles on your clothed clit while his other fingers slip between your slick folds that stick to your panty. Moving your loose shorts to the side, you feel him dip his head down, licking a stripe up your cunt. “Channie.” You whine, hands flying to his curls, entangling them with your fingers. The sudden rush of pleasure has you opening your eyes, the sight of your best friend’s face between your legs, lickking at your most intimate area sends another wave of arousal straight to your core. Your thighs instinctively tense around his face, Chan gaze lifts to you at the action, locking your eyes and you're done. Chan’s eyes stared into you longingly, the smirk that made his way to his face when he sneakily maneuvered your underwear to the side had you writhing under his hold.
Chan continued his assault on your cunt with his mouth, sucking at your clit, swirling iit around your fold. His fingers brought you even closer to the edge as they ever-so-often sunk inside, never past his fingertips as if he was teasing you. That familiar knot formed in your stomach as your thighs began to shake, the movement not going unnoticed by Chan. “S-Stop!” You say closing your legs in an attempt to get him off, he sticks to his previous words and obliges to your command. “You okay?” Chan looks at you, a pang of worry flashing in his eyes, his mouth and chin was wet with what you’d assume is your arousal and his saliva mixed, he subconsciously licks his lips as you stare at them.
You nod in response before climbing onto your knees pushing him back onto the bed, “What are you- Y/N?!” Now it was Chan’s turn to turn pink, his heart pounded in his chest as he watched you pull the waistband of his sweatpants down revealing his hardened cock. “This okay?” You ask innocently, contradicting your actions. “Fuck yeah, this’s okay.” He sighed.
You stared at his dick, the very same one he had sent a few minutes ago, you never thought you’d ever be in this position with Chan. The tip was leaking with precum and the veins on the side evident from the lack of friction, he wasn't too big like the ones you’ve seen in those exaggerated pornos but he’s definitely above average. Your hand wraps around the base of his cock, pumping it a few times, precum coating it making it easier to slide up and down. “Jesus, fuck, you’re so pretty, such a good girl, baby.” Chan rambles as you lean down, placing a small kiss on the tip. Tongue trailing down along the veins before coming back to the tip and taking it into your mouth.
Rolling his head back in pleasure, Chan gently takes a fistful of your hair so that it doesn't get in your way. You hum in appreciation. Chan almost cums, the vibration of your hum going through his shaft towards that knot forming in his abdomen. Hollowing your cheeks, you attempt to take more of him but Chan stops you, pulling you off of him with a pop. “Why’d you- mmph.” The feeling of his soft, plump lips cuts you off. His lips were gentle yet rough against yours, lust and desire making the kiss messier. Without your lips coming apart, Chan guides you to the bed again, laying you down under him. Lips dancing with one another, he adjusts your shorts and underwear to the side again, prompting a gasp from you, he takes the opportunity to slip his tongue alongside yours.
You moan into the kiss as he presses the tip of his cock to your entrance. Your eyes meet once more, he has that same worry in his eyes, asking if he can continue. “Fuck me Channie…please.” Before your words could fully come out he’s already snapped his hips into you, bottoming out and letting you adjust to his size. “You okay, sweetheart?” The pet name draws out an erotic moan from your lips, you nod frantically as you wrap your legs around his waist, pulling him closer. Chan places your knees atop his shoulders, leaning into you as his hips smack against the back of your thighs. The echo of wet noises bouncing off the dorm room’s wall, Chan has never been more grateful that his roommate, Minho, wasn't in town. “S’close, Channie.” You moan into his neck, your nails clawing at his clothed back. It barely occurred to you that you were both technically fully clothed. “God I like you so much, you know that baby?” Chan mumbled as he drilled into your cunt. “Channie, I like you too- oh my fucking God.” You curse as he reaches your g-spot, hitting it dead on. “Actually?”
“Mhm, shit, liked you for a long time.” You say between moans and whimpers, your climax nearing as your legs begin to shake. “Fuck, gonna make you cum. S’fucking pretty.” Chan slurred as his hand made his way to your clit, rubbing circles onto it. Your orgasm hit you like a truck, you don’t think you’ve ever orgasmed like that before.
“Almost there, where d’you want it?” Chan pants over your whines of overstimulation, “Inside, I’m on the- holy fuck- on the pill!” The sensitivity of your cunt begins to be uncomfortable. Your words send Chan over the edge, spilling his hot cum inside of you.
Chan slowly pulls out before plopping onto the mattress next to you. “You really mean it?” He pants, chest heaving. You look at him confused, your mind too hazy for anything at this point. “You like me?”
“Heh, yeah…I do.” Chan leans over and gives you a sweet kiss on the lips. Rolling out of the bed, Chan comes back to you with a towel and some water. “Thanks.” You smile, taking the bottle of water. “Lemme get you some clothes from the closet.” As he makes his way to the closet an idea pops into his head. Chan snatches his phone before walking into his shared walk-in closet.
The ding of your phone grasps your attention, you reach for it and read the most recent message. It’s from Chan.
Send nudes ;)
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i thought there was no tag limit on desktop, i was wrong. these are for the end
DRUNK WALK HOME
prologue: rejection
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"and i sit on the curb 'cause it's the prettiest night / with no one else in sight / you know i wore this dress for you / these killer heels for you" -drunk walk home by mitski
She paces in the space behind the bar, by an overflowing dumpster and the piles of wooden crates. Her head is fuzzy and vision slightly blurred, the alcohol in her bloodstream making her feel slow and heavy. There’s a lit joint between her fingers, and she can hear the low thumping of bass pulsing through the walls.
The downing of three whiskey sours has done little to quell the budding nerves in her gut and in her chest. And she’s contemplating going back for fourth, wondering exactly how coherent she would need to be for her feelings to be taken seriously, and sincerely hoping that the answer is not at all.
She tries her best to keeps her thoughts from spiraling, to keep the words ‘failure’ and ‘rejection’ away from her conscious thoughts, abruptly and forcibly switching her train of thought every time they do. She inhales slowly, and tells herself that tonight, things will change, that one success will lead to others, and she won’t be the one shrouded in disappointment anymore.
And she’s grateful when she’s jerked from these thoughts by the excited exclamation of her name and a wind-knocking force that lifts her off the ground and spins her. She shrieks, briefly, as Bokuto laughs in her ear, holding her against his chest, keeping her arms pinned down to her side.
“What are you doing out here?” he asks as he eventually places her feet back down on the ground. “It’s no fun without you in there!”
Bokuto smiles, looking down at her, bright and wide, and it makes her smile. It’s hard not to smile around Bokuto, the energy he has is infectious. Persistently positive and unexpectedly wise. It fills her to the brim with something sweeping and sweet. “Just need a break,” she tells him, lifting her joint to her lips and inhaling briefly. She turns her head to exhale.
“Well, I’ll hang out here with you till you’re done,” he tells her, grin unrelenting.
And it’s a reassurance to her. The way he looks at her, bright shining eyes and warmth radiating, it makes her feel stupid for doubting him. Because she doesn’t see him look at any of his other friends like that. Because the way he talks to her, it’s different. She feels her smile grow, and her cheeks feel sore. It’s different, she tells herself.
“That’s good, actually, because I have something to tell you.”
Bokuto raises an eyebrow. “Something good I hope?”
She nods. “Yeah, I’d hope so.” She takes a moment to inhale, to try and steady her breath. “Bo, I’m in love with you. Like, in love with you.”
His smile falters. For a second. She notices it immediately, and her heart falls to her stomach. “In love? With me?”
“Yeah.”
“Oh.”
And all confidence she had is siphoned out of her, drained and puddled on the floor around her. Her tongue dries, and she suddenly loses the ability to make eye contact. Her gaze is on her shoes when she says, “How-how do you feel? About me?”
The alcohol in her blood suddenly makes her dizzy. “I do love you,” Bokuto leads, “but I think I just love you like a friend. I don’t think it’s the same.”
His voice is different. It doesn’t sound like his. It’s all she can do to nod and blink the tears away. “Yeah,” she says, strained. “Yeah, that’s fair.”
Bokuto reaches a hand towards her. She steps away from it, and he drops it back to his side. “Thank you for telling me.”
She laughs. Quickly and bitterly. Her vision blurs worse. She can’t see anything except the pavement beneath her feet. “Yeah, no problem.”
“Do you, do you wanna go back in with me?”
“Nah, I’ll stay out here for a minute. I’ll see you soon.”
“Okay.”
Bokuto leaves her out there alone. She hears the door close behind him, metal creaking, and there are no reasons left to hold back her tears now. She drops the half-smoked joint and stomps out, before she starts on her long, drunk walk home.
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#'eggyrocks tagged you in a post 'drunk walk home 'rejection''#[FLATLINE NOISES]#CAN YOU LET ME STAND UP#IM BARELY OVER THE INTRODUCTIONS#also doing live reactions bc im ill#i read the little blurb from the song and i need to chain smoke 700 malboros#ok im actually about to have heart palpatations#the thumping of this song while shes pacing?????? IM SCARED IM SCARED IM GONNA CRY NO PLEASE#'she wont be the one shrouded in disappointment anymore' you are a war criminal.#NONONONONONONON BOKUTO GO AWAY#I CANT DO THIS IM GONNA CRY PLEASE MY LITTLE HEART CANT TAKE THIS#ugh cause i see what youre fucking doing eggy bc i do it too!!! making it seem all happy and positive and then you tear my heart out with#a rusty spoon and then put it in a blender and then throw it down the toilet#im on to you.#im just gonna read the rest of this chapter with my eyes closed#ohhh fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you#hes gonna 'hang out with her' youre a monster#rationally i know that this needs to happen so that we get to my MAN but idk i cant stand to see her get rejected#i already have such a deep attachment to yn in this#WAIT WHAT????? GIRL NO SLOW DOWN#IN LOVE???????#im dry heaving#OHHHHHHHHHH FUCK YOU.#LOVE YOU LIKE A FRIEND IS THE WORST THING YOU COULD EVEERRRRRRRR SAY#dont touch me bokuto im in your walls#holy fuck im actually crying#help.#and she starts her drunk walk home' good night. issei ill be seeing you real soon as a dead corpse#mollys book reviews#special tag for drunk walk home so i can revisit it often <3
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brocon | a. oliver
✮ tags ; afab + fem!reader, unrequited love (from reader but not to oliver), presence of honorfics (nii-san mostly), incest (incestual roleplay and one sided incestual affection lol), oliver is not the older brother but he wishes he was, Too Casual About Incest in this one, oral (m!recieving), mentions of cervix fucking + deepthroating, cream pies, casual sex, 18+
✮ wc ; 2.5k
✮ a/n ; im reading too many doujinshis. everyday i become a little more insane. i miss you all. i also hate this guy.
c. consider this like a prelude by the way. im definitely going to expand on this universe rip.
also im dead fucking tired so tenses are all over the place. im gonna skip class tomorrow i think lol
✮ synopsis ; oliver is not put off by your brother complex. he probably should be.
Oliver isn’t very meddlesome.
He’s a captain, but that’s as far as he’s ever willing to extend himself when it comes to getting deeply involved with other people. He loves soccer, loves strikers, etc. Annoying shit is tolerable if it’s for the love of the game.
So in terms of his willingness to interfere, it starts and stops at soccer.
The same is not true for relationships. Never has been really. He isn’t sure if he’s always been like that. He got his heart broken in high school, before his career took off and get much time to think about what he wanted after.
He’ll never claim to be paragon of morality. Whether or not he’s pre-disposed for it, he’s been around the block and doesn’t take anything too seriously. A lot of what he’s down for just depends on where he’s at and he stands to gain.
But, he’s always been straightforward about it so whatever.
From experience, he prefers dating women with a lot to lose - career driven types. Long term, they’re the easiest to break up with because they rarely chase after him and have little desire for the spotlight. He likes cute, innocent types too, for different reasons - but it can get messy easily so he has to be off season to fuck them or date. His type in men depends on what he’s feeling. He likes getting topped by quiet, stoic men and likes topping slutty pretty boys.
Case and point, Olivers type is whoever wants to fuck him and he wants to fuck too. It’s not complicated and isn’t defined by any particular thing. When it comes to appearance and personality - well he’s fine with whatever. He’s not really interested in being exclusive. He likes to have fun and like freely, or something like that.
His only real criteria for sex and partnership are: discreet, sane, want to fuck him.
You fit one of those parameters for sure. You’re very discreet.
But while you and Oliver are sleeping together, it’s not him you actually want.
Oliver met you a few months back. You were by yourself in the bar of a nice motel and dressed to the nines, crying alone over a drink. The game plan was simple. He would chat you up, console you, and bring you to bed. You both get to feel good, and you get to forget for a while.
An attempted act of kindness and sincerity.
He did just that too. Slid up next to you easy, bought you a drink. You were mostly sober - told him you had to drive early the next day. Alcohol was just to soothe your broken heart. You broke down after that. Red-rimmed watery eyes, barely keeping it together - it didn’t take much effort for Oliver to get you to open up. Apparently someone you loved had just got married. You even gave a speech for the wedding. Sobbed a little about how you’re happy he’s happy but you’re devastated.
Oliver offered you a shoulder to cry on. Whispered in your ear real sweet about licking each others wounds for the night. How he’d be happy to help you forget. You went back to your hotel with little fuss. And he’s a half decent bastard after all, so he didn’t go too hard on you during the sex. Gave you boyfriend treatment as a consolation prize for your efforts. Foreheads pressed together, arms around his shoulders, lots of kissing and making eye contact.
That kind of sex is fun sometimes, at least when it’s not very serious.
You had great compatibility in bed. Some post coital pillow talk also revealed that your mutual interests meshed pretty well - so you decided to see each other again for the purposes of fucking. Oliver needs a reliable partner who won’t try to ruin his career and you need a shoulder to lean on and forget about your true love.
It was working out well for him really. And like he said, he’s not really the type to pry into other peoples affairs.
For better or for worse though, having frequent sex with someone usually gets you acquainted with random aspects of their life. The friends parts of friends with benefits usually means you’re seeing some part of them you didn’t sign up for.
It took three months of sleeping with you, around the 8th time you met up for sex, for him to realize who your unrequited love actually was.
He thought it might’ve been someone off limits from the way you spoke about it. Though you tended to avoid the subject altogether.
Had he known he was going to get involved with a girl that has the worst brother complex he’s ever seen, he would’ve reconsidered seeing you again.
Maybe. Or maybe not.
Truthfully, Oliver is less bothered by brocon thing than he thought he’d be. He hadn’t realized because of anything you told him. Just that once, you were laying on his chest when you got a call in the middle of the night from your older brother.
You’re not the sweet type, to put it bluntly. Oliver would categorize you as the working professional sort with a lot to lose - high spec and calculating. Aside from the night he met you, he’d never seen you act in a way he would consider needy or childish - even after sex. Or ever, really - even when something happens that might garner that response.
Seeing the way your eyes lit up, the way your whole demeanor changed as you spoke with him on the phone. It didn’t take a genius to figure it out. He didn’t have plans to confront you about it at the time. It wasn’t really his business, or at least that’s what he told himself.
At a certain point though, he felt like he couldn’t dance around it.
He brought it up on a whim one night. Regretted it because he liked your current relationship and didn’t want it to end, but he felt it had to be done.
He doesn’t know what exactly he was expecting, if anything at all. He thought you’d cuss him out or something. Tell him to fuck off and mind his business. Tell him to not be gross, maybe.
But he didn’t expect tears, nor did he expect the childish sadness that came along with the mere mention of you beloved nii-san.
That had made him wanna pry.
It wasn’t hard to get you to open up about it. Frankly, he didn’t actually give a shit about the incest part, so you felt safe enough to tell him when he asked. Your older brother was basically your whole life. You’re half siblings, abandoned by the same parent. You had a rough upbringing but your older brother took care of you and sacrificed a lot. You realized you were in love with him in middle school and kept it in since. He’s about four years older than you and his wife is a very gentle person.
Oliver isn’t concerned about the details. He’s nosy - so he asks but he wouldn’t’ve forced you if you didn’t want to talk about it. But it seems like you really did, since you were happy to tell him anything on your mind.
You were…different after that. After he knew, you relaxed considerably. He didn’t think of you as guarded until you stopped being that way and started acting more… docile.
Oliver doesn’t mind that change either, which is shocking for him. Usually you’re far off but after you cum, you soften up and act kind of… cute.
You’re a little clingier, and generally speaking - sweeter to him when you’re guard is down. It’s not like you’re doing it on purpose. You never ask Oliver to treat you any softer or get demanding with him. And there’s never an instance where he has to worry about if that’ll change because as nice as you are to him, it’s clear as day that no one in the world will ever surpass your affection for your older brother.
(Once, after sex, Oliver asks you what you like about about your older brother. The question comes as a shock to you both, but mostly to him because he isn’t sure why he thinks to ask. You’re happy enough to answer it though. According to you, he’s perfect.
He’s kind and thoughtful, gentle and doting, tall, strong and handsome. You’ve got little hearts in your eyes when you say all this. You add towards the end that part of the reason you sleep with Oliver is because they’re so different you can forget all about it.
He laughs at that, but he isn’t sure how sincere it is.)
As time goes by, Oliver never gets totally used to the change. As soon as you get a call or text from your beloved nii-san, you perk up like all the life has been breathed back into you. He hears you talk sometimes and it’s clear that your brother also probably has a bit of a sister complex.
You’re more open around Oliver sure - but it pales in comparison to when you get a call from him. How could a person be so different? He assumes the answer is love, but he can’t wrap his head around it having that much impact on your character.
Oliver tries not to think about it.
You’ve continued sleeping together out of habit and as time went by - you started to hang out for no real reason. It’s remained casual. You never want anything from him except dick and sometimes attention, but its clear that it isn’t from the one sided hope of becoming his girlfriend. And he knows almost too well that you don’t care for him in a special way because he knows what that looks like on you - and every kindness you’ve shown him is just who you are.
It’s not like Oliver isn’t keenly aware of all of that.
But it doesn’t stick until he offers up roleplaying with you on a whim.
He suggests it to fuck with you really. And maybe because he’s a little irritated by it. He wants to upset you a little, petty as it is. See how you react. He was expecting you to get pissed off, maybe even cuss him out a little over being a jerk.
That is not the reaction he receives. Instead you flush all over. Your hands fist on your knees and you get shy over just the prospect. He’s had you bent in every position known to man but he’s never seen you more embarrassed then the very idea of uttering the name nii-san in relation to sex.
You do have a moment of sobriety after the fact, hit him with your pillow and tell him not to be a dick.
But then, he can’t let it go. So he grabs you by the wrist and says it’s fine. It’s what he’s here for isn’t he? Always has been.
Only seeing it does it start to really click.
It’s the most intense sex you’ve ever had , and it doesn’t feel profoundly fucked up until you take his dick into your mouth. Hearts in your eyes while he strokes your hair, swallowing his cock - nuzzling it, kissing, it and being so devoted he doesn’t know if he’s the most unlucky man alive or the least.
You’re always a sight for sore eyes when you’re hoping to please him somehow. You’re a little haughty in bed in a way he’s into—
But fuck, it’s different when you’re doing it for your big brother. He’s never seen you so horny in his life. Touching yourself so desperately while you’re deepthroating his length, eyes rolling back into your skull as you swallow him all the down to the base. Moaning into it even as you gag and hiccup and spit.. Drool clinging to your lips, stretched all the way to the corners - wetness sliding down the curve of your neck and chest. Your face flush, damp tears clinging to your lashes while he strokes his thumb against your cheek and tells you the same few words over and over.
Nii-san’s so proud of you. You’re being so good for your me. Over and over, reinforcing it again and again. Hearing the words and just thinking of it seem to be enough for you.
It’s about the same when he does finally fucks you. Oliver gets into it at the end. Puts you in a full nelson and fucks you stupid, the head of his cock battering into you and demanding to be let in. You feel good split apart on his dick - pussy stretched so tight it barely fits him.
You always do your best to take him, but he sees what the affection does to you. You get so horny that you spread your legs without being fucked open on his fingers first. Your body is responsive to it. He almost feels bad for your brother, not getting to know what it feels like. Oliver is only playing pretending but your cunt squeezes his dick so tight, holds onto him like it doesn’t want to let go. It’s not even the real thing yet your body is keen on milking him. Built and bred like it was made for your older brother to fuck.
He’ll never get the chance too. Oliver relishes in it more than he can be honest about.
Once he’s inside, you tell Oliver in a lust drunk haze that nii-san can have whatever he wants. That’s when he knows you’re running on nothing but lust. And by then, he is too. You whimper when he moves - say yes when he hisses that he’s gonna fuck you deep enough to flood your cervix. Nod desperately when he offers to fuck your cervix open too.
It’s nothing but filthy bullshit but the words come out easier as his cock keeps slipping out of you from how wet you are over the thought alone.
It finally settles in when when you’ve nearly fucked yourself unconscious. Riding his cock with your tshirt pulled up over your tits, eyes closed and legs wobbling - saying it over and over. Begging for your brother who you love so dearly while you fuck on him with all the strength in your hips.
Seeing that makes him realize that he’s not a stand-in.
Only because it’s an impossible outcome in the first place.
It’s the first time he cums inside of you, and the first time you cry after sex. Oliver holds you afterwards. You whisper a thank you so sincere to him afterwards he loses his fucking mind, all soft and watery and needy. Don’t protest when he pulls you into a bath or holds you.
You stay with him through the night and he realizes right about then that he’s completely and utterly fucked.
It’s his karma, he assumes. Wanting a girl who has a severe brother complex is Oliver’s own special hell - hand crafted to make him feel as fucked up as possible.
But damn does he want you bad anyway.
#tw oliver aiku#oliver x reader#bluelock x reader#oliver smut#bluelock smut#incest cw#im delirious as fuck sdkjhsjdflmkj#writing tag#me when i post this in the middle of the night and disappear HEKSDJKSD
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𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩 𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐚𝐥 - 𝐥𝐬. 𝟏𝟖 | 𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝟒𝟎𝟒: 𝐏𝐍𝐅 |
𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝟒𝟎𝟒: 𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 - 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐭𝐰𝐨
summary: if you love her, you have to let her go. who the hell came up with that? content warning: vacation romance. profanity. a couple of suggestive lines. one line of dark humor (toaster bath). fluff and angst. sibling dynamics (bullying). friendship. hard launch (but sad). emotional support esteban ocon (shrugs). heartbreak. this might count as getting together/breaking up. pairing: lance stroll x fem!black!reader
from serene: i feel like i have to reiterate that this does have a happy ending (in the next part). i think my tags are over dramatic asl but, i’m not trying to getting jumped in my inbox for miss tagging anything. also, i know lance isn’t a “popular driver” (whatever that fuckin means) but i’m in love with this smau, and i will not be accepting any judgement xxx
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instagram • ynplays • december 14th • cozy in a cabin ⚑
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ynplays: falling love with canada🇨🇦🍁🏒⛸️🌨️
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ynplays: sega cries after he walks us back to our room at night and leaves 😫
➥ user1: she’s just a liddol girl 🥹
➥ user2: the puppy has spoken u have to keep him i don’t make the rules 🤷🏿♀️
➥ user3: so...you have no choice but to run away with him into the sunset.
yoursister: booooo we get it you've been brainwashed by a canadian man 🙄🙄🙄
➥ ynplays: when was the last time you smiled today
➥ yoursister: it's difficult when ALL you do is yap about your crush on this hockey-core man 🤢
➥ ynplays: he gives himbo hockey player IM TELLNG YOU !!!
➥ user4: so he's canadian 😶
user5: his name starts with an L, he's approx 6'0, is brunette with brown eyes, and he's canadian with hockey player vibes👐🏻
➥ user6: i could walk two (2) steps outside of my house in ottawa and i'd run into a man who fits this description 😭😭
➥ user7: he sounds like every other bitch???
➥ user8: let's go through every minor and major hockey league roster again
➥ yourfriend1: "again?" who TF has time for that
user9: tagging THE nhl is crazy 💀
➥ user8: i'm telling you he's a hockey player
➥ user10: idk man he doesn't look like a hockey build in either of these photos🤔
igstory • yoursister uploaded!
[caption1; me and sis] [caption2; fuck. i guess they're kinda cute together 😒]
yourfriend2: did you see them doing snow angels together 🥺🥺☹️ yourfriend2: that had me smiling ngl...they're adorable yoursister: yeah, i'm just happy there's no red flags she's ignoring, he seems like a genuine dude
user11: do you improve of this lance? 6'0, brown eyes, brunette, canadian hockey player 🙂 yoursister: uhh i fear for his life,,are u gonna put a hit on him or smth yoursister: also he is not a hockey player lol user11: oh🫣 yoursister: i'm pretty sure he's like a car engineer or smth? i think i heard him say that
twitter • december 16th
instagram • ynplays • december 16th • sanctuary ⚑
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ynplays: i don't want to leave.
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nhl: not me crying 😩 - admin
➥ user12: huh
➥ user13: nhl admin relatable
yourbestie: aw babe. enjoy your last five days here :)
➥ ynplays: i only have five days left 😟
➥ yourfriend1: oh girlie...it'll be alright
➥ yourfriend2: i always hate this part of the vacation
yoursister: please ask lance if he's willing to take you off my hands. permanently preferably.
➥ ynplays: are you familiar with the term sympathy?
➥ yoursister: oh you're sad for real
➥ yoursister: 😕 therapy session in the hot tub now ladies
➥ user14: this is depressing me
user15: hey, you can just elope? i don't think you've added that to your toolbox yet
➥ ynplays: too sad to even consider it rn
➥ ynplays: nvm he invited me to his cabin later 👅✌🏽
➥ user15: use protection 🙂↔️
user16: i feel like this should have a sensitive content warning
➥ user17: my day is ruined
➥ user18: and my disappointment is immeasurable
➥ user19: THERES 104 DAYS OF SUMMER VACATION🗣️🔊
➥ user20: read the room man @/user19
twitter • ynplays • december 21st
instagram • lancestroll • december 24th
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lancestroll: winter break has never felt so short. i missed you the second you stepped away from me. happy holidays, baby.
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estebanocon: it’ll get better eventually mate ❤️🩹 believe it or not
➥ lancestroll: finding it hard to believe rn
chloestroll: come have some hot cocoa with me
➥ lancestroll: yn liked hot cocoa
➥ scottyjames31: oh mate…
➥ user21: okay, i'm concerned for my health. there's some sort of clear liquid leaking from my eyes
➥ user22: FUCK man this is sad 😕
astonmartinf1: chin up lance - admin
➥ alpinef1team: feeling for you mate - admin
➥ mercedesamgf1: sad it ended up like this for you lance - admin
➥ user23: the f1 teams are assembling like the avengers in infinity war for this
➥ user24: an unforgettable day in f1 history
yourmom: fix this. liked by lancestroll
➥ user25: w mama 🤩
➥ user26: tell him ma'am ‼️‼️
yourbestie: thank you for being good to her when you had her
➥ lancestroll: don't thank me for that.
➥ user27: cooking up my toaster bath actually
user30: well this is not the hard launch i wanted to confirm our theory.
➥ user31: brb about to create them in the sims and make them get married and have 6 children, sega, two cats and let them get old together
➥ user: realest cure for heartbreak
user28: no way they decided not being together at all is worse than being long distance
➥ yoursister: that's what i sad but nobody listens to me
➥ user28: why'd they do it???
➥ yoursister: my sister can be incredibly stupid about returned feelings. and for some reason she chose now to "protect her heart"
➥ user29: she deserves her happy ending and needs to allow herself to have it 😭😭😭
twitter • ynplays • december 25th
imessage • lance -> yn
© httpsserene 2024
#f1 x reader#f1 smau#f1 x black!reader#lance stroll x reader#lance stroll x black!reader#lance stroll smau#lance stroll x y/n#f1 x y/n#lance stroll fluff#f1 angst#f1 fluff#f1 x female reader#serene’s chapters.#⋆⭒˚。⋆. series special: formula 1#♡ ༘*.゚ love interest: ls.
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repetition (a pick-a-pile)
in honor of my friends kai ( @klxudykai )and nile (who doesn’t want to be tagged), i want to do a little pap! this will be black white and purple themed for them too (their pfp colours)
i know both of them are going through cycles of repeating their actions over and over, and it is hard for them. i know it’s frustrating — hell i hate repetition. but you find peace in it.
this pick-a-pile is just advice for your manifesting and/or shifting journey. there is no real theme, but i asked spirit to bring up something you need to repeat for each pile.
this pap is intuition and shufflemancy-based. i am not using tarot nor cards at all for this. this is also for entertainment purposes. take my words with a grain of salt AND please do not use this as legal or life advice.
now, inhale and exhale. believe in your intuition, and pick a picture.
[1 ; 2
3 ; 4]
pile 1 the spiral.
hi pile 1! here’s confirmation for your pile : cycles, crying, cynical, the letter c (in your name of in the name of your significant other. casey and clark stand out.), puns, clairaudience, crown, clowns, (a lot of words w the letter c jesus christ..), underwater, drowning, sinking, the sea, oceans, water (s), fix your face, black, sexism, activist, reality shifter, cyclones, spirals, “i feel like im not seeing any signs/progress”
well pile one, you could feel like you are stuck in a cycle. just a torpedo and you’re getting hit with the same things over and over. you’re wondering why things aren’t changing, why this won’t end, but it’s because YOU won’t change. this is the harshest i think i have ever been in a pick a card, but you really need to get over yourself. realize you aren’t the person you should be, throw that person away and reinvent yourself. you want a lot in life, and you aren’t going to get it if you don’t decide to change yourself. the universe chose you for a reason, but if you keep having your own pity party, you aren’t gonna get anywhere. stop getting mad when you’re being told the truth. it isn’t there to hurt you. it’s there to help you. the truth is a tool. and as long as you keep ignoring it, you keep hiding from the monster inside your closet, it’s never gonna leave. it’s gonna haunt you. it’s like a negative spirit. lure it out and keep it coming. it is gonna hurt, but it’s worth it.
your required repetition is “continue to listen and change yourself. transformation.”
the waiting season is one where you need to work, don’t keep sulking.
now to interpreting your song, her by poppy. you have been trying to be someone else that you are not, for someone else. the chorus
“I'm getting to know her And all of her anger You won't recognize her If you encountered I'm getting to know her And all of her anger Picked herself up Put her back together”
you need to change and you know it, and you don’t know how. start with your anger, your sadness, a strong emotion and unravel it. unwrap it like a gift. keep pulling to you get to the root of the cause — hold it.. nurture it… and get the mud off it.
see this as a new start, pile one. i love you. you need to know you’re strong, and you can do this. don’t get annoyed, because i know you’ve been told this before. fix your face.
pile 2 ghouls
hello pile 2! here’s confirmation this is your pile!!: fairies, love, purple, green, heart chakra and third eye chakra, shadows, “on a silver platter”, polite, scars, romance, sacred, girl blogger, skull and bones, doja cat, fear of success, screaming, pink, sexuality, white, sensuality, fire and ice, opposites, blood, self sabotage, royalty, alternative, goth, knight, disability, multilingual, this specific dynamic, vampire
simplicity. simplify everything. that’s all spirit is saying. don’t over complicate things. that’s like all spirit is saying u guys 😭😭
they r literally saying clear your mind, just be the person you are meant to be. listen to your intuition, be creative, have love in your heart, even when times are hard, and let emotions flow.
spirit told me your manifestations are actively coming in 😭😭 idek why you’re reading this pac! like there are no notes, nothing else you need to do. just listen to your intuition and be in tune with yourself. god i love this pile bc yall r js so sweet and light hearted — like there’s so much hidden positivity here that’s waiting to come out.
good job on how far you’ve come, and hav fun where you’re going! love you pile 2!
pile 3 — unclear memory
hi pile 3! here’s your confirmation: ��even a worm will turn”, disappointment, ditsy, protector, big eyes, proposal, hobbit core, hermitcraft, minecraft, silence, under another’s control, blush, light colours (pastels), resting, new opportunities, distractions, distant, chapell roan, wlw.
you’re over possessive but you cut out your heart. or someone else cut it out. you need to get your priorities straight. there’s so much going on in your brain. they all lead to the same thing, don’t they? like how a spider web meets in the middle.
you’re sad, i can tell, but you won’t let anyone know. you think you’ve done enough, or even too much, but in reality you’ve been distracted. you’re trying to hide your main in overworking. doing too much.
your repeating advice is “get back on track and focus on your morals”.
but dont become some else. become yourself. stop holding grudges. get yourself back.
pile 4 — kisses
hi pile 4! here’s confirmation this is your pile: shadow work, brooklyn nine-nine, wolf pack, furry, july, suicidal but continuing, height difference, jumbled thoughts, flowers, blue and pink, wash off the makeup, ombré, counting crows poem.
this is my dogs favorite song 😭😭
pile four, you have been looking for outer validation when you don’t need it. you’re searching for signs, for love, for confirmation you’re on the right path when you really jay need yourself. you’re putting yourself down and other people/the universe on a pedestal. YOU ARE THE UNIVERSE!! REALIZE THAT!
what you say goes. what you want will happen. and that’s that.
your advice is as follows ; “you need to just rest.”
and i think that’s great advice. sit down and relax. listen to music, meditate, be at peace. work on yourself. try journaling too!! it will help.
thank yall for reading!! <3 i hope this helps someone. finishing this at 5:55 pm btw!!
#abyss .speaks#shiftblr#reality shifting#shifting#desired reality#shifting community#reality shift#black shifters#shifting motivation#shifting realities#tarot pick a card#pick a card#pick a card reading#pick a photo#pick a picture#pick a pile#pick a pile reading#pick an image#tarot pick a pile#pick one#Spotify
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⚠️ potential (general) silvio spoilers below !!
⚠️ slight spoilers for (future?) silvio event mentioned
nsfw mentions below the cut; mdni 🔞
you know how silvio has that one "secret" room where he keeps everything emma's given him, sort of like a personal treasure room? imagine silvio taking emma in that room, propping her up against a standing mirror in the room. him shooting her a cocky smirk before telling her something along the lines on "this goes to show i only give the best care to all my tesoros". (insinuating she and all she brings into his life are treasured and well taken care of as a result)
tldr op just wants to bang silvio in the memorial room and give him.. several more gifts there <3
#I'll be real with you chief i absolutely forgot i wrote this post at all... but goddamn is it giving me some ideas rn 😩👏#for as much as silvio grew on me i never expected his stories to go the way they did#like he's SO devoted holy shit#but also such a lil shit still and that's prob i love him sm now#we'd either get along too well or choke each other out (win/win tbh)#anyway he's so fuckin attentive of emma and the smexy scenes??? romantically obscene... idk how else to put it#like one epilogue he literally went down on her for so long his knees were screaming in pain....#screaming crying throwing up just thinking about it#and they like bathe together and he washes her hair and they're all grosslt adorable and cuddly & shit????#fuck im not even that big of a romantic but silvio (and luka/yuki) just..... they just do smth to my funky lil heart... mhhssgsgag#ikepri spoilers#silvio spoilers#if i was gonna talk this gd much in the tags i shouldve just added it to the reblog ffs#aerin.tagrambles#i think#srb#ok i screenshot and added the tags just in case idk
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charles' playlist 🎶
pairing: charles leclerc/fem!reader
type: instagram imagine/social media au
notes: not proofread and not revised so please expect errors hehehe please lmk what u think by replying or messaging and if u wanna be part of my taglist! <3 decided to add fans' reactions through tweets! this is a bit long ig?
about: in celebration of your birthday, charles dedicates a song to you every instagram post.
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charles_leclerc The happiest of birthdays to the love of my life. Today, the world became an even better place because it gained someone so kind and loving - you. For one of your many gifts, I've picked out a few songs to better encapsulate the way I feel about you and just how thankful I am I got to live in the same life as you.
1. She Chose Me - Bruno Major
"Every night I thank the lucky stars above me, someone as beautiful as she could freely love me and she really loves me. From time to time I ask myself, why was it I and nobody else? The most beautiful girl that I'd ever seen and she chose me."
Eternally grateful I get to call you mine. Despite the highs and lows we have battled together, you chose me - how privileged am I?
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yourusername CHARLES????@?@ I LOVE YOU WHAT IS THIS
mercfan WHAT THE HELL U CANT JUST SURPRISE US LIKE THIS
princecarlos I KNOW oh my god hes so fucking sweet 😭😭😭😭😭
lewishamilton No don't do this I think I'm going to cry (by the way, Happy Birthday, Y/N!)
yourusername you and me both, lew 😔 thank you! say hi to roscoe for me please
lilymhe happy birthdayyyy, my favorite girl 🎉 see you soon!
yourusername thank you, my lily :(( we will drop by soon!
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charles_leclerc 2. Baby I'm Yours - Arctic Monkeys
"Baby, I'm yours and I'll be yours until the sun no longer shines, yours until the poets run out of rhyme. In other words, until the end of time."
Okay this one I admit I just liked the melody but hey, the lyrics are for sure accurate, yes? I remember when we sang this at 3AM because we both couldn't sleep. But it couldn't be more right - I'm yours and I always will be, for as long as you'd have me.
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c16c55 oh my god i cannot do this today will i ever find love like this
leclercsainz Gonna go sleep on a highway
pascale_leclerc Happiest Birthday, my dear Y/N! Come over soon when you can ❤️
yourusername we will! i miss you all 🤍
yourusername there's no one else id rather sing karaoke with at 3am 🤍 je táime, amour! also, are you kidding? im keeping you forever 🧘♀️
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charles_leclerc 3. Beyond by Leon Bridges
"I'm scared to death that she might be it, that the love is real, that the shoe might fit. She might just be my everything and beyond, space and time in the afterlife,"
You are everything to me, chérie. When I first realized that I loved you, it shook me to my core. I was terrified of how greatly I felt for you; but here you are, the greatest thing that ever happened to me. You were the leap of faith I will always be thankful for and the only sure thing amongst all uncertainties. Have the happiest of birthdays ❤️
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yourusername i am out of words, i love you so so so much, my favorite person 🤍
charles16clerc YEAH WTF charles im gonna need you to pay for my therapy
carlossainz55 Never knew you were such a romantic, mate 😆 happy birthday, Y/N! Isa misses you!
charles_leclerc Only for her actually
yourusername thanks, carlos! tell her to come visit me soon <333
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tagging: @slytherheign <333 mwah
notes: this is my first time trying out putting tweets! how was it so far? hehe lmk ur thoughts!
#charles leclerc insta au#charles leclerc x female reader#charles leclerc x reader#charles leclerc x you#formula 1#f1 imagine#formula 1 insta au#formula 1 social media au#f1 fluff#f1 fanfic#charles leclerc#f1 x reader#f1 x oc#f1 x you#charles leclerc fanfic#charles leclerc f1#charles leclerc fluff
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european travels | Connor Bedard x k hughes au!
↳ part of connor bedard x kailey hughes au!
@kailey.hughes: thankyou to the one's who made this trip financially possible -- wouldn't be anywhere with out yall 🫶🏻
tags: connorbedard, _quinnhughes,jackhuhges & Hughes_06
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@/lhughes_06: you are very welcome
↳ @/jackhughes: like youre the one shelling out
↳ @/_quinnhughes: wait! k told me neither one of yall were contributing..
↳ @/connorbedard: she bamboozled you guys so badly...
↳ @/lhughes_06: like you didnt know bedard
↳ @/connorbedard: found out a week before lmao
@/trevorzegras: glad to see youre milking them for everything they're worth
↳ @kailey.hughes: learned from the best 🫡
@/kent.johnson: youre making con con blush with those two pics
↳ @kailey.hughes: what can i say? hes a model
@/masonmctavish: Connor for vogue - next!
@/connorbedard: artsy gal
↳ @kailey.hughes: 😚
@madisenbedard: omg the fomo is real rn😭
↳ @kailey.hughes: next time !
↳ @/edwards.73: I want to experience a hughes euro trip
↳ @kailey.hughes: come get ur stray dog @/lhughes_06
@/alexturcotte_: where was my invite? 🥺
↳ @kailey.hughes: @/jackhughes EXPLAIN
↳ @/jackhughes: what can I say? lost in the mail.
@/nicohischier: you came all the way to europe and didn't even visit? how rude.
↳ @kailey.hughes: how rude of @/jackhughes for not putting it on the itinerary when we booked our trip
↳ @/nicohischier: oh yeah, first practice back is gonna be loads of fun
↳ @/jackhughes: LOOK WHAT YOUVE DONE K
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@/connorbedard: kailey hughes fanpage, but whats new?
tag: kailey.hughes
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@kailey.hughes: ilu
↳ @/connorbedard: ilu more
↳ @kailey.hughes: not possible 🫶🏻
↳ @/adamfantilli: accept the defeat bedard
↳ @kailey.hughes: no fr
@/kent.johnson: I wish he traveled the world with me ):
↳ @kailey.hughes: didnt y'all play for team canada together? its my turn
↳ @/lhughes_06: yeah kj its our turn
↳ @kailey.hughes: BYE
↳ @/kent.johnson: BYE LITTLE HUGHES
↳ @/connorbedard: take this to the gc pls
↳ @kailey.hughes: which one??
↳ @/masonmctavish: theres multiple ?!?!
↳ @kailey.hughes: unfortunately I was added to a 'bc only' chat🙄
@/jackhughes: dont like the hand placement
↳ @/_quinnhughes: i dont like it either
↳ @kailey.hughes: omg the drama queens have arrived
@elblue6: so grateful to have you join us this trip, its great to have you apart of the family again🤍
↳ @/connorbedard: thankyou mama el! appreciate you and jim so much
↳ @kailey.hughes: im gonna cry mama
@/madisenbedard: looking like a goddess always
↳ liked by @/connorbedard.
↳ @kailey.hughes: stop thats you
↳ @madisenbedard: I wish gf
@/elblue6: italy-london trip was a success!
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@/jackhughes: we know who's the fav child
↳ @/lhughes_06: and it isn't even a hughes
↳ @/_quinnhughes: nope its a bedard
↳ @kailey.hughes: then its me !
↳ @/lhughes_06: whatever you say!
@/connorbedard: thankyou for having me this trip, had an amazing time!
↳ @/elblue6: you are most welcome! now we just need @melaniebedard and @/madisenbedard to join us next time
↳ @/madisenbedard: I agree!!
↳ @melaniebedard: just tell me where and when and ill be there
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@/kimberlybrisson: looks like you had a lot of fun! PLUS all four kiddos were reunited 🥺
↳ @/elblue6: the best part 🤍
@/lhughes_06: cant believe connor got a single photo and we didn't
↳ @/jackhughes: no fr, im still salty
@/chantaltkachuk: awe we need to get the 7 of them back together!
↳ @/elblue6: we do!
@/melaniebedard: how about a vancouver trip??
↳ @/elblue6: dont have to tell me twice!
#connor bedard#connor bedard x k hughes au#star crossed lovers au#quinn hughes#luke hughes#jack hughes#vancouver canucks#chicago blackhawks#new jersey devils#nico hischier#ethan edwards#adam fantilli#kent johnson#connor bedard blurb#connor bedard imagine#equallyshaw masterlist#mason mactavish#trevor zegras
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can we talk about how @the-hilda-librarians-wife is just out here writing poetry in the tags like it’s no big deal
@sketchbookweek Day 3 - Sun & Moon / Family
you know I had to bring up my sketchbook kid Mattie for this one. in my mind this is like…impromptu midnight storytime bc someone woke up the entire household and now she’s almost settled no one wants to get up or go back to bed
(Kaisa has become a little more comfortable with openly doing magic by this point, partly because of reconnecting with Tildy in season 2 and partly because no matter how shoddy her spells come out, they never fail to entertain her kids, especially her youngest. Kaisa does the best stories in this house. no child can resist magic floating pictures)
#i meant to post this ages ago and lost it in my drafts NO#anyway Im v happy you liked it wife this makes the days I spent endlessly editing and fixing it worth it 😌#also this made me realise I FORGOT TWIG. twig did NOT care for storytime he’s got better things to do ig. dammit I knew I’d forgot somethin#anyway oh my god..OH MY GODD wife I’m gonna cry a)I can’t believe you were gonna write a curses sequel abt them 🥺🥺#and b)this is SO WHOLESOME ough.. ‘I can feel your love in it’ WAHH#I am by no means trying to put pressure on you or anything but just know that if you did still decide to write this I’d be SO here for it 🥺#but also I am already here for it I frickin love the stuff you come up with for Mattie and this sounds so cool aaaaa#ngl there is so much I wanna talk abt with kaisa’s ~magic experience~ and how it plays into mattie’s upbringing#bc this woman is Trying but she has issues and I need to post abt it at some point 😭#anyway aaahhh I absolutely love that this is something you’ve been thinking about too and it’s SO sweet. hell yeah skbk brainlink..again#OH btw I’ve read curses..made myself stay awake enough to read it on the day bc I rly wanted to finish it and then fell asleep immediately#I’m trying to find like one spare moment to actually put my thoughts down but tl;dr for now I freaking loved it I’m going feral over here#thank you sooo much for writing it I’ll be thinking abt it for the rest of my life. I’ll come back sometime with something coherent#Also jsksj yeah I think when I planned this I meant for the batw ref to be a bit more subtle and then that went out the window at some poin#and yknow what this is the hill I’ll die on. everyone is tired ofc kaisa’s gonna insert herself and her wife#into the story for fun and see how long it takes anyone else to notice. canon now 😌#!! Kaisa would so oblige with a sequel for mattie. I feel like as it is she’s got a real copy of batb & is just making it wlw as she goes#oh also why yes I remember that old drawing wife#the fact that I couldn’t read the task right haunts me everyday 😌#Jk but anyway *clutches heart* 🥺😭 I love that you remembered that and made something poetic out of it and this#You’re out here making more sense of my art than I put into it in the first place 🥺 ough#also YEAHH starlight is so freaking CUTE and I love it so much 😭😭 and NEBULA for Hilda oh my godddd. adorable 🥺#she Wouldn’t want Hilda to be left out you’re so right#Hilda probably thinks it’s a bit silly but also likes it and secretly thinks it’s cool 👉👈#anyway thank you for the tags I’ll be thinking abt this forever <3#hilda ocs tag#mattieverse
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chibi p
its like 4:26am right now i finished this at like 4:20am i couldnt sleep til i finished it i love this pretty boy
okay goodnight people
and also heres a version with sparkles and cat graffiti
okay goodnight for real now
and i wanna say this : im calling him p cause i havent finished the game yet and idk what im supposed to call him yet, nobody spoil it for me i will actually curl up and cry
im gonna put carlo in the tags cause thats what i see people calling him but whatever if this is not carlo then happy scrolling goodnight
#lies of p#lies of p carlo#lies of p fanart#lies of p art#lies of p carlo art#lies of p carlo fanart#lies of p pinocchio#lies of p pinocchio fanart#lies of p pinocchio art#pinocchio fanart#pinocchio art#my art
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swinging out the gate with pure filth but i recently stumbled upon a scout voice line that made me cream my pants (tumblr doesn't allow links as anon so i'm putting extra parentheses to make sure it doesn't appear as one (https://wiki.teamfortress.com/w/images/4/48/Scout_domination20.wav))
anyways it got me heavy thinking about dom scout because i really truly think this boy is a sadistic motherfucker. huge ego and need to be the best, especially growing up the youngest sibling? having someone stupidly fucked out for him blows his mind.
and i KNOW for a FACT he has a daddy kink, too, and wants a real title to hear the power he has in the moment (plus there's another scout voice line that says "come to daddy" so it's essentially confirmed because i said so).
he's still a little bit of a teenage horndog about it, rolling his eyes back and getting a little nervous when you actually do submit, because he was prepared for a fight.
i would almost say he prefers it, wanting the struggle and the power that comes with quelling the flame in you but never fully, trying to push buttons to get you to give him a shove or a nasty remark so he has an excuse to pounce on you like a predator.
"yeah? you like that? gettin' fucked on daddy's dick?" almost really talking to himself when he drills into you as fast as he physically can, positioned in missionary because he wants to see that pretty face (and tits).
he wants to see overstimulation paint your features, you know that. he also wants to see that feisty side of you just so he can tame it. you push his abdomen the best you can, hands really just shoving his shirt that he didn't bother to take off. it's not working, and all he can do is laugh at your pathetic attempt.
you yank the dog tags that dangle in front of your face, sort of wet because of the sweat he's pouring, not due of the physicality but rather that he's so worked up and thrilled that he's heating up. the chain wrings around the back of his neck a little, not necessarily doing the damage you hoped for. in fact, you can see a switch flip and his eyes darken. uh oh.
his hands slam around your neck, having previously been attached to your waist, and squeeze so hard your vision goes fuzzy at the edges and all the blood rushes from your head. "you wanna choke me? how's it feel ta be fuckin' choked, huh? stupid bitch." he's degrading, harsh because he knows he can be. your eyes well u with tears, threatening to spill, and he grins like a wolf. he loves it.
"oh, what, you gonna cry? you gonna cry now?" he spits at you. that's all it takes before the waterworks start, cooling your warm cheeks and letting him know he's won this round.
there's nothing that stops you from cumming on his cock, completely overwhelmed by feeling and so far gone that it doesn't even matter. scout's overjoyed that he's got a pretty girl so fucking stupid for him that she can't even control her body anymore. he gets so high off the feeling that he can't help but bark out every filthy thought and word he has, a reminder that he is conscious enough to talk and you're so braindead you can't form a word.
"aww" he wipes your tears with the pad of his thumb, "don' cry kid, i'm not even bein' that cruel!" he taps his thumb against your lips, scowling when you turn your head to avoid his digit. he grabs your chin to force your eyes on his. "open up and suck my fuckin' thumb or ill replace it with my cock and fuck your face."
im making my mark as 👽 emoji because i will 100% be back to write more
HELL O?? HELLO 👽!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW!!! MAKING OUT WITH THE SIDE OF YOUR NECK RIGHT NOW AS WE SPEAK
thank you so much for sending me this, a bit blown awayy right now, i must say. top-tier scout characterization, on GOD. He is MEAN. he is literally a one man bully squad- of course he's gonna overdo it act like a total maniac getting nasty with his obsession.
i love this because i love writing Scout as on the more dominant side, but in a almost playfully sadistic kind of way.
#tales from the ask box#👽 anon#im so locked in on you right now#ok but it's crazy bc i have this scout piece i've been working on and i like it a lot#and it was sooo fun to touch on something a bit different#yandere x reader#x reader#yandere self ship#yandere tf2#yandere team fortress 2 x reader
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Until next time posty - Q.H
@suzy.q : at least when I was in jail I got some rest in 🥂
tagged : @_quinnhughes @lhughes_06 @jackhughes
location : with my boo thangs
jackhughes : you only went bc mom told us we had to take you...
↪ suzy.q : jack... do you want another shoulder injury? 🥴
lhughes_06 : I dont like that youre related to us and post things like this
↪ suzy.q : THINGS LIKE WHAT LUKE?!?!?!?!?!?! A CONCERT?
nicohischier : oop sister hughes popped offffffff🫡
dawson1417 : why is there a zipper on your leg???? are you not real???😳
↪ suzy.q : I was wearing boots?????? are you good ?????
john.marino97 : OMG im crying, im gonna miss yall so so much!
tmeier96 : oh I understand the caption now
↪ suzy.q : oh timo ...
bssmith2 : your outfit is cuteee
ehaula : post Malone is a GOD ... rude of you not to invite me.
tofff73 : honestly you dont deserve to have seen post
curtislazar95 : and as per usual.... where tf was my invite???
holtz_10 : this is cute
dougieham : so while im at dev camp sweating my titties off this is what youre doing !?!?!?!?
↪ suzy.q : I have nothing to do with your team sir
reannelazar : a living breathing idol, youre so cute!!!💖
_quinnhughes : we get it you saw post malone.
kevinbahl88 : omg postyyyyy
ninahischier : please let’s go to a concert when i come visit?!🤩🥰
bboeser : i’m appalled that i wasn’t even contacted for an invite
zadorov_16 : cuties
eliaspettersson : its just offensive to see my best friend do anything without me ....
matthew_tkachuk : gangs all here, but none of u are Stanley Cup Champs
↪ suzy.q : Matthew... kindly stfu
kuzya_096 : oh
tdemko30 : thatcher approved.
bradytkachuk : thanks 4 the invite u hoes
arturssilovs1 : my cappy boy
elblue6 : you guys are such cuties together!!
colecaufield : BLAST
nilshoglander : oo
A.N :
sorry this took a year to post idk what is going on w my motivation... any whooooo.... I changed my desktop Tumblr to light blue instead of how it normally looks and idk how I did that so if anyone knows how to put it back please help.
@fortkachuk and I have cooked up something spicy so watch for that.
im very bored today but I have no motivation to write its weird.
lots of luv
tagged : @skylershines @quinnylouhughesx43 @noahkahansorangejuice
#hockey#nhl#nhl players#nhl imagine#instagram edit#luke hughes#jack hughes#nico hischier#quinn hughes#curtis lazar#nils hoglander#cole caufield#arturs silovs#brady tkachuk#thatcher demko#matthew tkachuk#elias pettersson#brock boeser#nikita zadorov#dawson mercer
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