#im going to be streaming tonight and probably tomorrow

[paranoidgemsbok]

im in bloodborne mode once again

[todayisafridaynight]

daigo-gets-trolled kinda fuckin panel

[bibleofficial]

my stomach hurts so bad i’m literally dying

[flyingspicerack]

Okaaaay daydreaming time then sleeby nienie eveyone!!

[ultra-raging-ghost]

I REACHED POST LIMIT SO HERES MY POST FROM 9:20 ONWARD

"Goodbye my three little ones, your father has to go"

"Im sorry chat, i guess ill just speak from the heart. the way i lost dapper and pomme i dont think i really.. had time to process, so losing him like this feels like losing all three of them at the same time"

Visiting bagis... poor zeno fucking died to a rooster LMAO i missed bagis place so fucking bad

searching for pepito.... where is my baby.... where is my little pepito, there pepito is

Bad doesnt really know what to do with himself, hes still sad but richas is like. Officially gone. Which is a crazy thing to process. I was having a hard time dealing with it but i think richas' final goodbye made me feel a lot better about it,it doesnt feel like theres a nail in the back of my brain now, im a little more content with this at least. Wont really be happy about it, but more content with it

We're gonna go leave a richas flower (blue orchid) at bagi's old base <3 just like how we left a cornflower at a place special to pomme.

hehehe agent 18/panks_ is in chat and theyre tormenting bad for fun

Offering pepito the opportunity to visit one last place, bad plans on coming back and visiting a couple final places sometime soon, not tonight but soon. Probably gonna end after pepito picks where to go

pepito cant think of anywhere, bads picking one more place to go

PEPITO TIME AT THE OFFICIAL DAPPER TIME SPOT??? LETS GOOOOO

Pepitos gonna be temporarily dapper while in the official dapper time spot <333

bads back, i got so comfortable in the old house that i forgot we have to leave. Just a wave of sadness washed over me, it feels like leaving home all over again, it feels like we should be able to walk into the old spawn from dappers train station and see pierre and pomme and etoiles again

pomme in chat... assuring bad she and dapper wont be leaving any time soon. Bad promises us he has some really fun stuff hes been working on he thinks we'll enjoy, this journey isnt over

while waiting for pepito we're reminiscing on when he had to triangulate the Dont have Your Gun thing that was playing that he couldnt find LMAO

currently visiting the old subway bad was building with dapper underground.... the new terrain generation generated a FULL end city RIGHT next to it!!!!

gonna visit bobby fields another day, thats another day issue, but dapper wanted to go see it with him lol

Bad found out Lullah and Richas were leaving yesterday, sounds like he didnt know chay was leaving till today

BOOOOOOOO BOOOOOO BOO IS HERE!!!! HELLO BOO!!!!!!

Pepitos playing around in the balloons Boo left <33

Bad: Yeah i remember when pomme and dapper came in one of these end cities and scared the muffins out of me Pomme: ?????? Pomme: bro you were dead Bad: I STILL REMEMBER.......

We're gonna go play Wordlos (or however you spell it) one last time before leaving the old spawn <3 gonna see if we can get it to work!!!

kinda works!!! Kinda!!! It mostly works!!!! gonna play!!!!!

"I am so proud of your spanish uncle bad!!! its a great advance to know how to explain something, its the most important thing"

We're looking at the paintings, this is it for the day. Richas logged off with bads statue painting so hes probably never gonna see that again LMAO "thats why we get screenshots"

Pepitos saying a little goodnight to the ghosties <33 pepitos gonna eat all of us up because we're so cute. "I see everything, too. EVERYTHIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGG". Pepitos telling us to rest, eat, and drink water, and do our favorite things. We deserve it, to remember not to be sad it ended but be happy it happened at all <3

Bads planning on streaming tomorrow, hes not 100% sure what we'll be doing but he isnt gonna let this crank his steam

Pepitos planning on getting on tomorrow! or whenever! pepito doesnt know when pepito gets on LMAO

Thats all for todays stream, ending at 10:15, goodnight bad, richas, pomme, and dapper <3

[littlelalu]

Unplanned Encounters | Milo Manheim (Part 1)

Note: Hello, I want to thank everyone who has been reading / liking my posts. I am glad some people actually like my weird fan fiction ideas lol

This first part is mainly Fluff. The second part will be the naughty stuff ;) which will be posted tonight or tomorrow.

Warning, some cussing.

Y/N = Your Name

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I hadn't planned to be home this early, but my boss let my department get off early due to work being slow. I didn't mention it to my boyfriend, Michael, because I wanted to surprise him. He has been busy working late nights, and haven't had much time together. I already planned on going out for dinner and a movie with him.

As I stepped inside. I heard laughter coming from our room down the hall, then a woman's voice. I froze. I started to panic as I walked closer to our bedroom. Door was closed. My hand was shaking as I reached for the doorknob to open the door.

I saw Michael and some girl in our bed. They both turned to look at me. I was in shock, speechless. I didn't even cry, yet. I turned and ran out, ignoring his pleas to “wait for him” and to “hear him out”. My vision blurred as I ran to my car. I turned the key in the ignition and began driving. The steering wheel felt cold under my grip as I drove around the city. My tears streamed down my cheeks. I didn't know where I was going, but I can't be here right now.

After driving around for an hour, I pulled into a bar across town. I turned off my car and sat there for a while. My thoughts were interrupted by my phone buzzing. I saw his name flashed across the screen. I ignored it and put my phone on mute.

I got out of my car and began walking towards the bar. As I pushed the bar door open, I noticed there were not a lot of people in here. Mostly everyone is either playing pool, arcade games, or with a group of friends. The bar itself was empty. I decided to sit towards the end side of the bar.

The bartender walked over to me.

“Hey. What kind of drink do you want?” He asked nicely.

I gave him a weak smile. “Can I have Long Island Iced Tea?” I asked softly.

He gave me a sympathetic smile like he knew what happened. He quickly made it for me.

“Thank you,” I said.

“No problem. Let me know if you need anything else.

I probably shouldn't be drinking right now, but I did need a little distraction. How could he do this to me? 2 years down the drain like that. I took a long sip of my drink, feeling the taste of the liquor burn my throat.

In the corner of my eye, I could see someone sitting two stools away from me. I didn't want to look up.

“Rough night?” A soft voice asked.

I looked over at the person sitting next to me.He was tall, had short curly or wavy dark hair that was slightly messy. I felt like I had seen him before but my mind is too tired to think. I nodded to his question. I looked down at my drink again.

“Wanna talk about?” He asked. Not in a pushy way, he was genuinely concerned.

I took a deep breath first. “I caught my boyfriend cheating on me. I was released early from work and wanted to surprise him. Little did I know he had a surprise for me.” I said sarcastically, while signaling the bartender to make me another one. I guess the alcohol was helping me now.

“Oh shit… I’m sorry. “

“It’s not your fault.” I said. The bartender brought my drink and I took a sip of it. “I just feel so stupid for trusting him for 2 years. Makes me wonder if there were other women.”

He put his hand on my shoulder. “Hey, love can blind you. Don’t be hard on yourself. You did nothing wrong. He fucked up by letting you go.”

I looked up at him, and smiled. He seemed sweet and caring. “Sorry," he said as he removed his hand.

“No, it's fine. I am sorry. I don’t even know why I am telling you this.”

“Well sometimes it's easier talking to a stranger at a bar. It makes it less complicated for you, "he joked.

“Yeah… I guess you're right”

“Im Milo”

“Milo…” I repeated and thought about that name. Wait. Holy shit . “As in… Milo Manheim?” No wonder he looked so familiar.

He laughed. “Yeah. That’s me. What's your name?”

“Y/N” I extended my hand. “Nice to meet you”

His soft and warm hands shook my hand. “Nice to meet you, too.” He paused, then added “Are you feeling a little better?”

“Honestly, Milo… “I said “I am still hurt about the situation, but I feel more calm now.” I felt relaxed. Not sure if it was because of the alcohol or because something about Milos presence was comforting.

“That’s great to hear. You looked very sad when you got here. Now you have the most beautiful smile on you”

I blushed. “ Well, all thanks to you for being with me tonight.”

He chuckled. “Anytime.”

“What are you even doing here in Texas? I never imagined you being here”

“Well, I am taking a break from my chaotic life before I go and film soon. My best friend, Mason, is supposed to meet me in a couple of days. He's driving from Cali”

“Sounds like someone is going to have some fun” I said playfully wiggling my eyebrows at him.

He laughed “Yeah we are, but I honestly am having fun talking to you right now.”

I smiled at him.

“So… are you going back to your apartment?” He asked.

“Hell no. I do not want to be near there for a while.”

He nodded “I understand. How about a friend you could stay with?

I can't remember if my best friend is working tonight. “I have my best friend, but she lives almost an hour away. I may just get a hotel for the night.”

“Well… I actually have an extra bed for now in my hotel room. It’s Masons, but he won't be here yet. You can take it if you want. I know we just met, but I don’t mind helping you. You had a rough night already.”

I looked at him surprised. “Are you sure? Aren't you scared that I may murder you?” I playfully joked.

“Oh god.. Haha. No, I trust you already.”

“I'll take your offer. I can't drive though. I had 3 drinks already and I'm tipsy. Can you drive?”

“Really? You aren’t scared that I will kill us both?” He said, mocking my comment from earlier.

“Hahaha” I said sarcastically and gave him my keys.

“Are you ready to go? It's getting close to 10.”

“Yuppp.” I got up and began walking, but stumbled slightly.

“I got you,” Milo said. He put it around me as we walked out. He was helping me walk straight.

He clicked the unlock button on my keys and saw a small car in the middle of the parking law turn its lights on. He walked me to my car, opened the passenger door and helped me get in. He quickly walked to the drivers side and got in. I grabbed my phone I had left and turned it on. Over 100 missed calls and over 200 messages from Michael. I gasped.

“Everything okay?” He asked, concerned again.

I showed him my phone. “Is this him?”

I nodded.

“Put your phone on Do Not Disturb. Don’t let him ruin your night again.” He said in a serious tone.

“You’re right…” I managed to say. I set my phone to dnd.

“Good. Now we can enjoy the night.”

He put the address to his hotel on my phone and began to drive. He also clicked my Spotify account to play some music for us. Milo and I talked a bit more about each other's lives, which were very different. Yet he was the most down to earth guy I have ever met.

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NOTE: Keep an eye out for the 2nd part ;)

[he4rts4alexis]

Can I request a Stan Marsh smut where reader got caught skipping class and got put in detention with stan

Detention

Pairing: best friend!Stan Marsh best friend!fem Reader

Warnings: profanity, smut and angst

I got a little into it I LOVE STAN S LIL TO MUCH🤤

You understood your relationship with Stan very well. You were nothing more than a best friend the best friend who he'd fuck if he was having a hard day or the best friend he'd fuck if one of his other girls cancelled on him. Some nights he would tell you he loves you and other nights he would go hook up with random girls but you were tired of it.

You were tired of chasing him you were in love with him. You were definitely aware of that fact, even some of those around you were aware

He considered you his best friend you were always there when he needed you. You always let him talk about his girl problems or sex life. He also might be one of the top students in your college class, but he wasn't smart enough to see the signs and maybe to blind to see his own feelings. Everyone has a breaking point, and maybe you were reaching yours. You looked up at him through your eyelashes. He wasn't even looking down at you, his hand was just tangled with your hair as he fucked your throat. You don't know why you come back after you tell yourself not to. Time and time again you told yourself to stay away, but you always go running back. Maybe it's because of this little delusion you had created in your mind. The one where he loves you back the way you love him. The one where he means his 'I love you's'. The one where he doesn't have to complain about other girls, or have hook ups, because he already has you. But then again it was just a delusion.

You heard him talk, every once ina while being interrupted with a quiet groan or a whispered "fuck". he was going on about how his ex was liking all of his posts and how she swiped up on his instagram story. You were right there in front of him, you were the one making him feel good, yet he was still thinking and talking about someone else. Why?There was only so much you could take. You felt your jaw begin to ache from the stretch, and your throat was beginning to feel raw. Jeesh, how long has he been going at it? You don't know. You didn't even notice when the tears that had been pent up began to stream freely down your face. He finally looked down at you with a smirk, his thumb wiping away the tears. The lumnp that had formed in your throat made it harder for you to breathe, and before you knew it, you were pushing away. Coughing, sobbing, chest heaving as all the feelings you had pushed to the side had finally tumbled down on you. "Y/n-" "Don't." You put a hand out, gesturing to him not to come closer, "Im fine. i just

remembered that I had an assignment that's

due tonight," "Oh, alright," moving on, "Oh, do you think you can make it movie night tomorrow?" He asked, tucking away his still erect cock back into his sweats, he'd probably call someone later about that. You wiped your tears as you stood up. You winced as your legs cramped from having stayed in the same position for who knows how long. You nodded. You sniffled as you made your way to the exit. You swore you heard him say bye, but you didn't hesitate to shut the door. You cried on the way back to your apartment. You didn't really know if you would make it to movie night tomorrow. Pretending everything was alright felt like

detention. You were like a child being punished for

something you did. The "Something you did,", being in love with

your best friend.

edited: IM JUST NOW READING IT REALIZING IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH DENTITION BRO IM SO SORRY 😭😭

[jupitercl0uds-art]

i might start streaming on sundays so i think i'll do a test stream tonight! seeing as its a test itll probably just be general going on the puter activities so like dont expect consistency. i'll probably play sonic adventure, NiGHTS, parappa 2 etc and draw lol

ive had a twitch for a while but since one of my friends stopped streaming minecraft so i might change the profile

there'll almost definitely be music, probably mic but my mic stand broke so it'll probably just be my laptop one unless i can fashion a new one before then

EDIT: NEVERMIND IM GOING TO SUMMER SCHOOL TODAY I THOUGHT THAT WAS TOMORROW

[aimwigs]

love all your dad wig so much i could read it forever thank you for all the blurbs

IM GLAD YOU'RE ENJOYING!!! i'm having so much fun writing them. here's another that you can read below the cut or on ao3 about waking up in the middle of the night with a baby

When the familiar fussy cry comes crackling through the baby monitor on the nightstand, QT rolls over and screams into her pillow.

He honestly fucking gets it. It’s only about two weeks ago that Ryan started generally getting through the nights without waking and as of two days ago, they’re back where they were two months ago, with long nights spent switching off and trying to coax her back to sleep. According to her pediatrician, she’s teething which isn’t always an issue when it comes to sleeping through the night but since she already had some issues with sleeping through the night up until pretty recently. QT gave her Tylenol before bed, but they’ve still been up with her a few times tonight, the latest being when Ludwig rocked her back to sleep only twenty minutes ago.

“I’ll get her,” he offers, patting QT’s arm and climbing out of bed because he’s an awesome partner and an even better dad.

Without lifting her face from the pillow, she mumbles something incomprehensible in response. He assumes she’s thanking either him or some sort of higher power for the fact that she doesn’t have to get out of bed.

Ryan’s entire face is bright red when he picks her up, tears streaming down her cheeks and snot dribbling from her nose as she thrashes her arms and legs around violently. It breaks his fucking heart to see her struggling like this— as much as he hates getting up in the middle of the night he understands that it’s only because she’s hurting.

He picks her up and balances her at his hip, gently bouncing her as he grabs her blanket from her crib and pushes it into her pudgy hands, just so she has something to focus on. Her screams quiet to sniffles as she shoves it into her mouth and tries to gnaw at it— poor girl.

It feels almost robotic as he walks downstairs and grabs a washcloth out of the freezer, a handy tip that QT’s sister passed down to her when she mentioned Ryan had started teething the other day. They’ve done this so many times and sure, it helps, but it only soothes the pain for so long before the tears start up again.

Sitting on the couch with her, Ludwig carefully rubs the freezing washcloth against her gums, coaxing her to gently chew at it so the cold can numb her aching gums.

As she chews, quieting finally, he grabs a tissue off the coffee table and wipes her face free of boogers and tears before leaning down and pressing a soft kiss right where wispy blond hair meets her forehead.

“You’re okay,” he whispers, wrapping her in her blanket and hugging her to his chest. “I’ve got you.”

She starts to relax a little, allowing the washcloth to fall from her mouth, and he reaches up with his thumb to gently massage her gums in the way that he saw in some YouTube video he watched about this.

When he hits a bump on the bottom, he freezes and withdraws his thumb so that he can look at her mouth. Sure enough, barely visible near the middle of her mouth is a tiny pearly white tooth. Her first fucking tooth.

“Oh my fucking god!” he says, loud enough that Ders peers over to them with interest from the cat tower across the room.

He debates waking up QT for this. On one hand, it’s definitely a big first. Teeth mean chewing. She’s literally going to be chewing her whole life! But the tooth will also still be there when she wakes up tomorrow and she did seem pretty fucking exhausted.

Fuck it. He’s pretty sure that she’ll be more excited by the tooth than pissed about being woken up at four in the morning. She probably hasn’t even fallen back to sleep yet. Moments like these are meant to be shared, so he stands back up, bouncing Ryan at his side, and walks back upstairs.

“Babe?” he whispers, creeping back into her bedroom.

“What?” she mumbles into the pillow, still immobilized by being woken up in the middle of the night for what feels like the millionth time. Parenting is seriously fucking hard.

“I need to show you something,” he tells her.

She flips upright and turns on the light in an instant, a  panicked look on her face. “Is something wrong?”

He looks from Ryan, half-asleep in his arms, to her. Okay, he can see how that might have sounded slightly worrying after they literally just woke up to her sobbing.

“No, no, no. It’s a good thing,” he tells her, sitting on the bed and handing Ryan over to her.

Ryan smiles a little and reaches up to grab at her nose, making QT laugh and press a kiss into her hair, even though she seemed frustrated by being woken up just a few minutes ago.

“Look,” he tells her, reaching over and carefully pulling down her bottom lip so that QT can see the tooth.

QT’s eyes widen. “Holy shit! Is that?”

“She has a tooth now,” he confirms.

She turns to stare at him for a moment, looking absolutely stunned. “I’m going to fucking cry or something. That’s an actual fucking tooth!”

He nods. “Logically, I knew that teething meant her teeth were coming in but I don’t know why I figured she’d just sprout a full set in a month or something.”

QT snorts, reaching down to run her finger along the tooth. “Lud, that’s seriously fucking stupid.”

“I’m not a baby expert. I’m learning, okay?” But he’s barely even focused on what he’s saying, he’s just watching his little girl, sleepy and confused about why her parents are so excited right now.

“You got a little tooth now,” QT says in her baby voice. “Soon enough you’re gonna be able to eat all sorts of stuff just like your Mom and Dad. I’m gonna make so many tasty little treats just for you one day.”

She reaches down and boops her nose, earning a giggle.

How did I get this fucking lucky? he thinks as he watches his partner and his daughter. It’s the middle of the fucking night and all he can think about is how grateful he is for everything he has.

Being a parent is seriously fucking hard. Babies are so fragile, and there are so many little things you have to do for them, and it makes balancing work harder, and it puts an extra strain on your relationship. It’s all fucking worth it, though, because he gets to have little moments like these, sitting in bed with QT celebrating Ryan’s very first tooth.

[the1975attheirverybest]

sat waiting for tonight’s show so i’m back to tell you about last night!!! matty looked so beautiful without that fuckass moustache🥺

that setlist was actually insane like the birthday party 4 songs in???? i thought of you ofc it was so good😭 and MENSWEAR when he was like “let’s see how excited you can get” and i heard that intro i went absolutely mental

also he did the whole love jt if we made it dance!!! we were literally doing it in sync i was so in shock he was doing the whole dance

and carly coming out for about you!!!! i genuinely couldn’t believe it when i say her on the stage, and polly jc2005gba was so beautiful omg

will probably be back tomorrow with more details i’ve currently forgotten about lmao, and i get to do it all again tonight ahhhh!!!!

-🪩xx

OH MY GOD BESTIEEEE im so so so HAPPY FOR YOUUUUU 🩷🩷🩷🩷 you got such a wonderful set list!!!!!!! And omg roadkill too which he did not sing ONCE in the US HAHA. Oh and IAWD(S) 😭 what a beauty. Idk he seemed really pleased with the energy of the crowd. Like more so than normal. Looked like a gorgeous show in so glad you ended up going. And now you get to go tonight as well 🥹🥹🥹🩷 I’ll def be watching the stream and rooting for you.

Menswear was absolute madness. Totally unexpected where that came from!!!! Even I screamed at home hahaha. And he’s looking so sexy and so good. Hann fuckin killed it. George. Polly. Fuckin John Waugh. Jamie and gabi everything and everyone looked like they were having the best time. And you know it was filmed so you’ll get to relive all of it once the Amazon prime thing comes out it’s gonna be so great!

[justinefrischmanngf]

hiiiii nessa i like hanging out in ur ask box it’s comfy in here ! bought this record for $4 the other day at a bookshop :) me and charlie did a deep dive to find it and turns out this version is not on discogs (the american release is 😮‍💨) anyway how are u i forgot to ask ! also did u end up having work? ur probably finishing work if u did and then gym soooooo if u see this like tomorrow then thats cool too. i think a lot about ask boxes as a concept and how theyre so good for me to say hi into. i also like phone numbers but theyre not the same 🤠 ive been listening to welcome to nightvale and thinking about the long monologues cecil does. he kind of talks like he uses tumblr…… like he’s the original girlblogger :^) i just ate delicious curry on a wrap and i’m looking at my empty coffee mug from this morning thinking about coffee and how good it is. the powerpuff girls decal is rubbing off because i microwave it when it says do not microwave. any day now it could explode. actually ill show u a photo of it too. email voice see attached ! im listening to lil nas x right now i love lil nas x so much :) sorry i dont text more i like hearing from u the days just blur together so easily……. oh also u dont have to answer every single one of these thoughts theres a lot here 💗

omg hiiiiiii paris v v happy to have you in my inbox i'm glad it's comfy in here ! <3 what a cool record omg i love that for you <3 i'm sure i've asked you before, but i have a weird memory so: do you have a record player? i still haven't bought a cd player..... i am pretty good ! i think i'm going to try and watch gentlemen prefer blondes tonight because i have a lecture on it tomorrow so that might be fun ! how are you !! i did not end up having work, but i did end up asking my manager if he needed me to come in and he said no but "tomorrow's gonna be fucked so we'll have fun then" which is slightly terrifying, but i'm somewhat insane and am kind of looking forward to it as well (i'm intrigued mostly because i know why it's fucked and i am looking forward to seeing how the Dilemma is going to be solved) & i was in fact at the gym when you sent this :^) ask boxes are so good for saying hi into i agree <3 i need to get back onto welcome to nightvale.... i say this every time you bring it up but i promise i will do it sometime! i have been thinking that i need to get back into history podcasts, i miss them, do you have any recommendations? + back to your point, LOVE a good long monologue, sometimes you just need to stream of consciousness-it fr !!! yay for delicious curry on a wrap that sounds lovely <3 as does coffee <3 i love your powerpuff girls mug it's so fun!! i hope it doesn't explode lkdjnfgb & woo for lil nas x ! i don't actually listen to much of him perhaps i need to listen to him more.... i'm listening to girls can tell by spoon rn...... don't apologise for not texting it's okay ! my number is always there it's all good <3 and i am also not the best texter.......... it is so difficult to keep track of time truly </33 i hope your night is going well !!

[adifferentisaac]

some thoughts // some media (01)

when i had originally started writing this post homer radio episode 4 had just released (10PM). by the time i’ve restarted this post it’s now 5:12AM. i spent the last 6ish hours diarizing emotions as best i could and romanticizing the various things i was able to focus my attention on over the course of the night. i don’t really know what happened nor do i have the mental capacity to explain how the original post was lost but it was. a good place to start would be what this is. i guess posts like this are a bit like diary entries. ideas and thoughts that i have. feelings and emotions i feel. to me it’s a little more introspective than it sounds as my fingers click these words into existence through my iphone keyboard. i’m high as shit.

homer radio is fun. these caught my attention.

in the episode there’s a heavenly transition between a dialogue with gravity and give you the world. i think the same sample is used for ye’s life of the party (I THINK)

at this point is it even worth introducing myself

i’m isaac i’m blogging again i’m 24 allie brosh, theRadBrad and frank ocean are the blueprint i stream i’m everywhere just like the air u kno that’s why i luh tomorrow iykyk baby idk what to tell you im probably as close as you can get to gym rat without being gym bro. i hope.

it was around here in the original post that i’d been monologuing about mental illnesses & health, trauma and depression but i’m way higher now and a lot lot less willing to go over everything again but i hit my brother on the signal around the same time and the message reads pretty similarly albeit much shorter

one day at a time

twitter was hot earlier in the night i don’t know if they still are that website is upon calamity apparently that hoe boutta get shut down i was getting cooked for not knowing that anteaters were real animals i’m not sure where i would’ve seen one be fr? disovered capybaras earlier this year in much the same fashion.

this interaction stuck out to me

also seagull management i think this phrase is really funny i got a good laugh out of it

not twitter but the rabbit shaking his head and frowning at the ferret got me bad. idk why the shit was so funny but it brought me joy

anyways

i should’ve streamed tonight. i was tired after the gym. i feel bad for not making the effort. frustrated.

that new call of duty game is cool by the way. it pisses me off really bad and i’m not very good at it but it has moments. the frenetic style of gameplay is engaging.

since i started typing this like an hour has gone by i need to be asleep so i’m gonna wrap this up

i have feelings and thoughts and they’re in my head and really i don’t have anyone to share them with in such an intimate way as this so i figured why not share it to my little audience of none or everyone depending on how you look at that sort of thing.

flowers for u babe xoxo

-Isaac

ps.

[madisonrooney]

i saw rent again in august (and rewatched the proshot last week), i saw on your feet again tonight, and im seeing aint too proud tomorrow, so i think after that might be a good time to reevaluate my musical top 10.

there are no new contenders but the problem is my 3-6 are so close and i just really dont know how i want to order them.

like #1 isnt changing. that goes without saying. that goes without saying that it goes without saying. (i dont even need to name it i dont think)

#2 is mamma mia and thats not changing either. tho i havent seen it in a couple years, i read that super long vogue article about it last month and it just reinvigorated my love for the show for the umpteenth time. im seeing it again next month and im sure thatll just solidify it more.

3-6, in order, are bronx tale, on your feet, aint too proud, and rent. bronx tale i saw again last year and i rewatched the movie in august so its fresh enough in my mind. i love them all on roughly the same level so i just dont know what to do. on your feet and aint too proud flip flop bc they have similar premises. i feel like i was more...vocally annoying about aint too proud lol but idk something about on your feet feels more personal. i learned a ton about gloria, emilio, and their family after seeing the show and theyre just very down to earth on social media, and i even saw emily estefan in person about a month after i first saw the show so something about it is very tangible. but aint too proud is super close bc its the era i love and its even more similar to jersey boys (damn you des mcanuff). itll be interesting to see how seeing them back to back effects my opinions if at all.

rent is the outlier tho. its the main reason im even thinking about doing this. brainrot for that show has been coming and going for almost 5 years and every time it hits, it hits hard. with the production i saw in august, rewatching the proshot, and seeing anthony rapp in concert this week, it hasnt been off my mind in a while. im thinking it could move as far up as #3, but im just not sure. on one hand, theres so much more content for it, but that also isnt really fair to the other shows since they havent been around for nearly as long. plus, it having been around for so long and having been such a massive hit, it becomes less personal to me. but that hasnt been all that much of a problem to me, probably bc the "hype" was over long before i even got into it. its far from an obscure favorite to have, but its not like hamilton or wicked or something if you ask me. the other three tho are much more niche to have as favs. plus its just so different from them!! with on your feet freshest in my mind, im trying to compare them rn and its just so hard to!!

anyway as most of my posts like this are this is mostly for personal record and just to let out a stream of consciousness but. if you care there you go. well see how i feel after tomorrow.

[atiny-piratequeen]

Hey, Miss Fie!! I know it's been a little while since I last sent an ask but I've been suuuper busy! Between finishing my coursework for my professors and getting ready to start up a small business I've been soo distracted hehe. But!! I just posted a super fluffy OT7 nct dream fic here on ao3!! And I'm proud of it :3

How have you been lately? I know my asks have been few and far between (I doubt you've really noticed but y'know!) and that's just because of how busy i've been and how nct dream practically rules my life at the moment ehe! But I gotta say,, I friggen love bouncy!!

All this blabber to say,, I hope you're doing super well :3 ily!

~ AJ 🧸✨

Trust me baby, i noticed. I just figured you were doing school work and such.

CONGRATS ON POSTING!! Ill probably read it tomorrow. I have to finish drawing and get ready for tonight's twitch stream but tomorrow I'll sit down and give it a read! Good job!

I have been. Hm. Having a series of mental battles but yknow. We here and stuff. I think the most exciting thing going on around here atm is building up the Ataraxia verse.

Im glad you're having a good time with the Dreamies and i hope you're being fed well content wise!

The whole album is a banger. Ateez does it again. My babies i expected no less.

I love you too bubby ❤️ i hope you're doing well, too. Stay hydrated!

[thoughts-and-gayers]

holy shit there is NOTHING scarier than the fire alarm going off in an apartment building and youre on the third floor and its midnight so you desperately grab for your comfort item and your phone and slip on shoes (it wasnt hot or smokey at all so it didnt feel urgent) and going to wake up your stepmom who doesnt even want to bother with evacuating and then leaving the building clutching your things and texting your dad (whos at work) and best friend about whats happening and then two fire trucks show up and you see people streaming out of the building (but not as many as probably live there) and dogs are barking and you can still hear the fire alarm while in the parking lot and its so fucking loud and grating and

then

the two firetrucks leave

the alarm is turned off

and youre still in your panicked state, trying to figure out how the HELL youre going to get to sleep tonight because for FUCKS sake youre playing trumpet in a PARADE tomorrow AND you have your favorite class (math) and you dont want to seem like a bad student even though you KNOW that youre a "pleasure to have had in class" because youre autistic

fears im so fucking tirwd

[keefwho]

May 14 - 2023

10:33 PM

This evening is very lonely, no friends or streams to keep my occupied. I dread tomorrow like usual and don’t know what to do with myself until bedtime. It’s hard to relax which sucks. I don’t want to spend a night stressing just to wake up and have to stress over commissions. Just one of those nights though I guess. 

Im also starting to sink into that sulking mindset. Pitying myself for not being enough and feeling jealous about all the things my friends do that I can’t. I feel left behind. As shitty as I feel hopefully I can be strong and put in the effort to be who I wanna be tomorrow. 

10:54 PM

Tonight is just gonna suck and I gotta accept it. Lonely, depressing, whatever. It is what it is and it probably won’t change. 

I feel so strongly that I’ve fallen off as an artist and keep failing to pick myself back up in the way that I want. I don’t prioritize canon character drawings as much as I should. Things that would benefit more people and bring in more attention. I don’t draw enough of my own ideas in general and I’m too afraid to explore new things. I have been for so long. I feel like I used to be so much more creative and daring. Now I’m backed into a corner where I do the same things over and over. And I’m spread thin considering how much 3d work I do now, and that stuff feels like a total waste of time given how much effort goes into it and it bring in no income. Sure it’s fun, I actually like doing it and that can’t be understated. But I know how I am with fun things. They all seem like a waste of time until I can figure out how to treat myself better. 

11:19 PM

Im just sitting by myself in Sky and watching Bluey tonight. 

Sometimes I’m just sad, and very angry. Angry at all the things I can’t control and all the ways I’ve been mistreated by others and by life in general. Tonight I just want to be upset and get it all out. I know I’ll pick myself back up and be strong again, I have to because I have a lot of work to do. But right now I feel indescribable upsetness. I curse everything that bogs me down and makes life shittier. I curse myself for not being able to handle it sometimes. I hate everything right now. 

Have a cry, pick myself up, dust myself off, and keep going. 

12:40 AM

Why the FUCK is it so late. 

Also of course the only streamer I almost kinda like that I was gonna fall asleep with starts playing the most dogshit game that I do not want to be tuned in for. The night is ruined. I know nothing but despair. I AM ALONE NOW. I just wanted to be cozy, damn.