#im fuckibg dead

[remvamp]

IM GONNA LOST ITTT /POS

THATS ME. THATS MY ART. I FUCJIBG MADE IT INTO A COMPILATION

[alex-just-vibing]

GOD FUCKING DAMNIT.

[itsaboutspies]

One upon a time hot take: hook should have stayed dead at the end of the (season 5?) hell arc

[sensitivegoblin]

Vent

[urgayoldercousinmags]

hi my bestie is mia rn so i'm ranting to ya'll and im just here to remind you that rEMUS JOHN LUPIN LIVED FOR TWELVE FUCKIBG YEARS WITH NOTHING BUT HIMSELF AND HIS GUILT AND THE KNOWLEDGE THAT HIS TWO THREE BEST FRIENDS WERE DEAD AND THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE HAD BETRAYED KILLED THEM. HE SAT AND DRANK AND HAD TO GO THEOUGH THOSE TRANSITIONS EVERY MONTH WITHOUT HIS BEST FRIENDS AND HAD TO LIVE WITH HIMSELF KNOWING THAT EVERYONE WHO EVER LOVED HUM WAS GONE. HIS PRONGS AND WORMTAIL WERE DEAD, AND HIS PADFOOT, HIS LOVE, HIS SIRIUS, WAS WORSE THAN DEAD. HE THOUGHT THE MAN WHO HE LOVED AND TRUSTED WITH HIS LIFE AND WHO JAMES HAD TRUSTED WITH HIS LIFE HAD BETRAYED THAT TRUST AND GOTTEN THEM ALL KILLED. AND I BET HE SAT IN GUILT FOR YEARS THINKING THAT IT SHOULD HAVE BESN HIM. HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN KILLED. BECAUSE JAMES AND LILY HAD THEIR BABY BOY WHO NEEDED THEM AND PETER WAS SO YOUNG AND HAD JUST GRADUATED SCHOOL. aND ON THE NOTE OF HARRY, REMUS WAS LEFT WITH THE KNOWLEDGE THAT THE LITTLE BABY BOY WHO LOOKED JUST LIKE THE KID HE HAD HEXED SNIVILUS WITH COUNTLESS TIMES AND HAD THEY EYES OF THE GIRL WHO HE READ IN SOLITUDE WITH AT THE LIBRARY AND WHO TUTORED HIM IN POSTIONS, THAT BABY BOY? HE WASNF ALLOWED TO HAVE HIM. HE COULDNT HAVE THE LAST THING LEFT TO REMEMBER THAT THE BEST PART OF HIS LIFE WAS REAL.

anyways, remus fucking lupin. sorry for the rant but i'm feeling things and as previously mentioned, my bestie who is normally rant to is mia so. hope they're alive.

[animoogus]

I just fucking hate being alive i want to be dead ao so so fuckibg bad but im too chicken to commit to it. I cant even fall asleep to at least not have to be conscious WHY whats the point of any of this when theres just being upset and waiting for another day to pass with no reward at the end or anything.

[3000s]

i didnt know i had a minecraft mod that spawned these bigass destructive dragons that killed villagers and griefed shit and destroyed an entire village and i kept trying to get rid of it somehow cause ive been playing that save file so long and i love my house and my setup and it was fuckibg up the first village i even found so now everyones dead i cant trade shit any more i tried commands like /kill dragon whatever that doesnt work and it has like 25000 hp so it would take me lije an hour on creative mode to kill it and anyway i figured out a setting to stop it from griefing shit but now everytime im in that area it kills me

[smileymoth]

Im being mentally ill sorry chat

I need to kill myself at this point because I'm never going to get better in any way shape or form. I cant eat healthy because I get fucking weird about it. And I'd be okay with it because frankly I don't care if I make myself sick but at the same time I'm scared I'll die at 40 from heart failure because starvation kills your organs and your heart. But I'd not eat healthy in the first place so would it even matter. I hate that I can't say that I wish I was skinny because that means I'm scum of the earth bc i hate fat people even though I dont I just hate myself and everything to do with me because I'll never be enough for myself because I have crippling dysmorphia that makes me want to kill myself. I can'tlook at myself in the mirror i cant look at photos of myself because i hate my body so bad but i cant change it because i keep fucking eating i need to stop fucking eating i need to start counting calories again if i ever want to be skinny and get surgey god its such a long way to go to be skinny i wish i was underweight i wish i hhadnt gained 25kilos over the span of 3 years i need to kill myself because its all my fault its my fault i cant eat or work out properly or be healthy about it because im too depressed to cook for myself and im addicted to sugar and i have no energy or motivation to do things ever. What if its my fuckibg meds that raise my weight so much what if i went off them what if i stop taking them and eventually kill myself because being dead is bettef than being fat right thats what rhe doctors probably want you to beliebe. I look soooo normal on the outside im like smiling and laughing and i looknormal and happy to other people because i have nothing to prove to them for me beung sick beside them knowing i take meds and me joking about being suicidal. I dont have lost weight nor any scars to show them . God i wish i had the courage to cut my arm up so bad i had to get stitches but i cant because i lovr my mom and my mom loves me toi much and i dont want to worry her i already am terrifued of her seeing the small scars on my thighs . I cant even tell if cutting helps because it gives a nice adrenaline rush but then itd over and i feel guilty bc itll leavw scars that people can see i wish people didnt care aboyt scars i wish they healed and disappeared faster so i wouldnt havw to hide them but i also want them to see because i feel like its the only way i could prove to them that im ill and not just joking about it. I need to starve mtself and get skinny because theb maybe someobe will tell me im pretty because ill finally wear pretty clothes and i need to get rid of my tits and i need ro lose the weight for that abd im so scared i wont be able to . Its only 10 kilos it shouldnt be so scary to lose but i lost 5 in dec/january so before i even went to thw gym and now ibe lost nothing in 2 montjs and its so scary i hatw it i hate that im mentally il i hate that ik not ill enough for anyone to care . Im so pathetic it hurts really i need to kill myself but i cant because of my mom and it sucks . Im never going to get better and im never going to feel pretty enough or good enough in my life im always going to feel like a failure so why am i even trying anymore . I want to die but i dont i just want to be happy but i cant do that so i want to kill myself instead but i cant kill myself soim just stuck in this limbo of wishing i was a better person that im never going to be. I wish i had the self control to just not fucking eatif i cant make proper healthy food for myself i dont deserve it i dont deserve good thibgs i need to get beat up on the street by someone i dont deserve good rhings because i havent earned them im always gking to be a little freak thafs not enough for herself or the world because shes a depressed fat probably autistic freak whose only wish is to be happy and find love that i wont get becayse i cant talk to people. I also need to stop posting my mental breakdowns on tumnlr bc its not helping anyone but here we are. Im not a good person am i

[shinysparklesapphires]

IM DEAD I AM GONE DECEASED I CANT BELIVE. ITS FUCKIBG REAL EHIEVEH

Lmao

[dittolicous]

sighs. i have had so much free time because of my cut hours but its. still left me with nothing to do, since i have to save as much money as possible while looking for another job. so i sleep, wake up, look to see if there are any new job postings on indeed/linkedin/ziprecruit/monster/etc, dig farther into google for more sketchy job openings, think about what company sites i can check for direct jobs, check those sketchy 'surveys for money' sites,... and then i go back to sleep. because well. cant be hungry or waste money if ur asleep.

i just. im miserable. i have so much time but i cant even enjoy or use it because im going to start bleeding money i dont have soon. im fucking terrified of not being able to find a new job, of being stuck in this... dead end job. unable to get off this damn island. it makes me sick. so im bored and guilty and scared and i just gucking hate this!

im so fuckibg tired of living in this godforsaken world where you only deserve to live if you give up everything. honestly, i wish someone would just. fuckibg come beat me up. wish my parents had actually fucking hit me instead of just yelling and insults. wish i was missing limbs or brain fuction or just. anything. anything to get the world to see i cant function.

im an empty brained idiot. i dont have any passion or self. how am i suppose to live? id rather be a fucking shattered glass than an empty jar. but thats what i am.

god i just. how???? how????? how do people... live????? how do you create and make.... your brand or personality? i cant make any of that. im just here. breathing. not for any reason. thats how its always been. everytime i see jokes about what kind of 'weird kid' you were i want to cry. because ive never been fucking anything! i wasnt a horse girl or a cat girl or train person or dinosaur nut or a monster fan and never cared about Egypt or rome or didnt care for legos or cars or model building or WHATEVER. ive just! been here! with nothing! im not ANYTHING. i dont have hobbys. ive nev r had hobbies.

ive always been alone and empty. disconnected from the world. disconnected from the community. disconnected from everyone.

my life is nothing. has been nothing. just a waste of time and space. nothing to show but misery and anger. theres no escaping it. i wish i was an actual person instead of this empty sack of nothing.

get hobbies they say, thatll help, yeah surs. sure. hobbies. to store in my roach and rat infested house, where i hide away in a tiny room because its the only space i have that i can control. with the money that i dont have. alone. because im terrible at bonding with people. because why would any human wanna hang around me? and because i tire so fucking fast.

i just. i wish i was fucking dead. im tired of this stupid fucking world. thinking things might get bettrr jusy to have reality forced into my face. im a piece of garbage npc who would have been better never being born.

[begaydodrughailsaten]

Tw child abuse and neglect

sorry for this tumblr but im very pissed and if i write it in a diary my parents will find it and we will all get in trouble and i feel like this is to heavy to dump on my friends but i need to fucking vent

I was woken up at FIVE AM this morning to my step mom YELLING at my step sister, and after laying in bed to afraid to move having a panic attack till they all left for school and work I finally got up and started cleaning the house

Fast forward to 7 pm tonight me and both of my step sisters are getting ice cream and venting and i get the full story of this morning my step mom woke my sister at at 4:40 (they had to leave at 7????) to do her hair (only took 20 minutes dont know why she had to get up that early????) and my sister keeped saying "im really tired and i know that makes me moody can we not talk i dont want to accidentally say something mean to you" then my step mom said "GOD WHY DO YOU HAVE SUCH AN ATTITUDE, YOU AND YOUR SISTER I DO SO MUCH FOR YOU AND THIS IS HOW YOU TREAT ME?" (Thats the part that woke me up) then my sister said "can you not yell at me like im a little kid" (she was not yelling back I could barley hear here) and my step moms response to this was to SMACK MY LITTLE SISTER ACROSS THE FACE WITH A BRUSH

GOD THAT BITCH IS SP FUCKING LUCKY I JUST LEARNED THAT BECAUSE IF I LEARNED THAT THIS MORNING WHEN IT HAPPENED I WOULD HAVE PUNCHED HER I FUCKING SWEAR I WOULD HAVE BEAT HER ASS THAT IS YOUR DAUGHTER YOU PIECE OF SHIT YOUR DICK HUSBAND WANTS TO HIT ME?? OKAY IM FINE WITH THAT IDC YOU WANT TO HIT *MY* FUCKIBG LITTLE SISTER I SWEAR TO GOD IVE NEVER TALKING TO HER AGAIN IVE TRIED TO PLAY NICE AND KEEP THE PICE BUT NO IM DONE WITH HER AND THE SPREM DONER I HAVE TO LIEV WITH IF EITHER OF THEM TOUCH ANY OF MY SIBLINGS EVER AGAIN I WILL BEAT THERE ASSES I SWEAR

MY BABBY SISTER HAD TO GO TO HER ROOM CALM HERSELF DOWN SO SHE WOULD STOP CRYING BECAUSE HER MOM JUST SMACKED HER AND PUT ON MAKE UP BECAUSE OF THE BRUSE THAT WAS GOING TO FORM AND KNOW HAS TO HELL PEOPLE SHE FELL AT CHEER PRACTICE FOR FUCKES SALE SHE IS 14!!!! 14 YEAR OLDS ARE SASSY SOME TIMES SHE CLEANS AND COOKS AND BABYSITES ANF IS A GOOD KID SHE ASKED YOU TO LEAVE HER ALONE ONCE AND YOU FUCKING HIT HER FOR FUCKS SAKE YOU MOTHER FUCKER I WANT TO FUCKING PUNCH HER SO BAD I NEED TO BEAD HER AND SHOT HER AND STAB HER

GOD I WANT HER DEAD I WANTMY BIO DAD DEAD I WANT TO SEE MY FUCKING MOMMY AGAIN

[dekusleftsock]

I’m going fuckibg insane trying to piece together this content dump

Why. All at once.

ALSO WTF IS THIS

WHY DID THIS COME OUT AT THE SAME TIME

WHY IS ALLMIGHT’S POSE LIKE THAT? WHY IS IT MADE LIKE A BL COVER? IS ALL MIGHT SOMEHOW RELATED TO THEIR HEARTS/REALIZATION???????

IS HE BEING LEFT BEHIND? IS THERE A REALIZATION? IS HE DEAD? WHY IS DEKU NERVOUS LIKE THAT?

ALSO WHAT DOES THE NEWEST MANGA COVER MEAN????????? WHY IS IT LIKE THAT?? WHAT DO THE COLORS MEAN? I LITERALLY CANT FIGURE OUT HIS REASONING FOR ANYTHIG RN

Why. Did. Horikoshi. Reference. Controlling your heart. Now.

Why is there a fully colored illustration for a chapter that has basically no content, only parallels and that STUPID BIT OF DIALOGUE THAT SOMEHOW HAS TO DO WITH TOGACHAKO ABOUT HOW HE COULD HAVE HAD EVERYONES EYES ON HIM SOONER

WHY is togas/Twice’s wrist cuff things orange and green and not red and green

Why is the chapter cover in izuocha colors, unless it’s referencing tsu?????????????

IM SO CONFUSED! I feel like I’m in the fnaf fandom all over again.

And it’s not fun like it usually is because I’m just stuck and FRUSTRATED

AND WHY IS NO ONE ELSE SAYING ANYTHING? ITS LIKE THERES THIS GIANT CONTENT DUMP AND I FEEL NO ONE IN THE FANDOM IS SAYING ANYTHING AND I FEEL LIKE ITS EITHER THAT IM LOOKING INTO IT TOO MUCH, THE FANDOM ISNT SEEING IT, OR EVERYONE IS AS CONFUSED AS ME AND JUST ISNT TALKING ABOUT IT

This post is not one you have to reassure me on for literally anything I’m just FRUSTRATED AS ALL HELL

There’s so many answers but no questions to those answers. And normally, I’m content to wait, or I figure out wtf is vaguely going to happen next.

[deviant-kl700]

-the anticipation is killing me

-these beats are banging

-HOLY ITSELF HAPPENING

-is my thing glitching?

-idk what happened there lol

-ah balls it wasn’t just me thanks squiggles

-WHAT DO YOU MENA YET

-well squiggles I really liked everything slimecicle. But I think we should remember the name Bart just in case

-this music reminds me of drawfull waiting music

-squiggles really likes frank. Maybe frank has importance or Bart ig

-bye squiggles! What a blorbo and a half

-IS THAT A BOMB STRAPED TO HIS NEVK

-DONT THROW TGE KEY U SILLY STUPID

-I lost the game

-jermba

-AA NO IM STRESSED IS HE FUCKIBG DEAD

-“I think I did ten thousand” JERMBA STOP

-cough cough I’m sick!

-WE GOT IT!!!!!!!!!

-I’m so smart frfr

-oh hey camera crew love u

-rats rats we are the rats

-RANBUS NOTICE THE FUCKING BOMB ON UR NECK PLEASE

-CHARLIE BLIMEE?!

-BUT HES A TOWEL NOW

-CHARLIE BLIME STRATE UP EATED THE KEYS

-JERMBA IS HAVING A LEASURELY TIME

-what is this invisaline

-HES FULL OF SLIME

-SHUT UP SQUIGGLES

-MY GETTI?

-okay so ranbus is strate up killing people with the mind control mask

-ranbus is straight up but not straight

-STO STALLING

-“THEY CALL ME LIGHTING MC EAT”

-Charlie slime is the funniest ever

-FINALLY THEY MENTIONED THE FUCKING BOMB GOOD GOD

-NO I SAW THIS ON TUMBLR ITS LITTERALLY A SAW TRAP

-SHITSHITSHIT

-he has so many wives and children

-SNEEG IS BACK

-oh there’s frank?

-WHY IS FRANK THE FUCKING CONSTANT

-not complaining

-is he fake?

-HAHAH HES SMALL

-HE LOOKS LIKE snow mister Hahahaha

-I THINK I LOOK LIKE GIGACHAD

-NO WE ARE GOING TO HAVE TO

-Austinshow gay hahaha

-it’s SNEEGs old hat!

-BAD HAT BAD HAT NONONONONO

-SNEEG is not coming back

-my auto correct loves to tell sneeg

-aw niki. I didn’t realize that was here

-WHATS THE DEAL WITH SNEEGS GETTIBG TRAPED

-SHOWFALL MASKS?!

-you KNOW I’m making one of those

-even jerma thinks that’s weird

-NEW CHARACTER ARC NEW HAT

-also when he was mind controlled he puts his hat on backwards pretty good tell

-I think her blazer is messing with her mic

-*crying violently* HEY GUYS WELCOME TO THIS NEWYOUTUBE VIDOE

-YOU CAN VOTE EVERYONE

-YESYESYES YOU CAN VOTE EVERYONE

-you can only pick two

-JERMBA U WERE TOO LATE

-IM SORRY I CHECYERD

-he’s LITTERALLY dead weight

-WHATS HE DOING WITH FRANK

-NO HIS JAW DROPPED AND SO DID MINE

-fussy.

-singing silly pop songs because I’m stressed

-coralline moment

-candy land core

-HIKY FUCK ITS WHAT CHARLIE ATE

-IT WAS A PART OF MOUSE TRAP

-I agree mouse trap is impossible

-FUCK I ACCIDENTALLY DIDNTSAVE

-NOW THEY R IN TGE DONT PRESS TYE BUTTON ROOM

-ITS FUCKING HOLE IN THE WALL

-way more then one person could fit through that

-SNEEGs gonna be like Kenny I feel

-I saw ranbus behind the chair ooooo

-flickering led = loss of snowfalls control

-THEY RENTED OUT A MALL?!

[creatordisc]

just witnessed the worlds most breathtakingly beautiful person on the planet incident im fuckibg dead

[usamironpa]

IM BACK FROM THE DEAD AND MY FIRST STATEMENT IS THAT I FUCKIBG LOVE ALL 2 U FROM APOLOGY TOUR!!!!

I LOVE APOLOGY TOUR BECAUSE EPIK SONGS FROM STOLAS AND VEROSKIA!!! I LOVE VEROSIKAAAAAAAAAAAA

[muckmagister]

nudges you with my shoe bc i found you laying face down and motionless in a dark scary forest and i'm making sure if you're dead or not

im trippjng so fuckibg hatd rightnow