#im exhausted and cant wait for tuesday

[tiredflowercrown]

You reblogged that "Puppy want a fucking break from it all" post like, twenty times. Are you okay?/genuine

✨️No!✨️

I've worked almost 46 hours in 4 days and I work at least 14 hours in the next 2 days

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[beetlebug-bii]

Heya, first of all im sorry for that terrible joke i made in the comment section xD

I'd like to request a Solomon x Reader

I'm a sucker for him and can't find good ffs or more like not much of him TT

Scenario:

Song to listen to if you want too

( hammock - then the quiet explosion)

So I've been thinking of a scenario where MC is kind of annoyed from the brothers always near them and clinging on them, so that they have no privacy.

Solomon ( who has a crush on them) sees that the reader is exhausted and takes her to a quiet place to rest with him ( the rest is your imagination)

I loved the joke so much lmaooo

Alright this is my first one in a long while so please cut me some slack! I did my very best so I hope you like it! O7

How To Cure Depression (Solomon x GN!Reader)

You

Cannot 

Be

Serious

This is the third time this week

THE THIRD TIME THAT YOU HAVE WALKED INTO YOUR OWN ROOM TO HAVE IT BE IN SHAMBLES 

IT IS TUESDAY!?!?

HOW IN THE WORLD

IN A HOUSE THIS BIG

IS YOUR ROOM ALWAYS THE CENTER OF ATTENTION 

OH THATS RIGHT

BECAUSE EVERYONE WHO LIVES HERE BREAKS IN

AND THEY START FIGHTS WHEN SOMEONE ELSE DOES THE SAME THING

You just

Cant

Take it anymore

Lucifer is always critiquing your organization and how clean the room is

Mammon is always stealing your stuff

Levi and Satan are judging your interests all. the. time.

Asmo steals your clothes for selfies

Beel gets food on the floor

and Belphie messes up your bed at least six times a day

Why do they always have to do this

They have their own rooms

Why cant you?

you are so sick of cleaning up after their mess

so tired of always having to mediate fights

and that's why you're here you suppose

You couldn't even handle being in the house to listen to their excuses anymore

So you came here

The courtyard of the Royal Academy of Diavolo

It's the only place you can even feel like you can breathe right now, and even now you're struggling to keep the tears in

You close your eyes and take a breath, your head resting on your knees

Theres a nice breeze today…

It smells like flowers almost…

You can feel the sun shining on your skin too…its so warm…you missed that feeling…

Wait a second

aren't you underground right now?

Why is there a breeze??? Even if there was a breeze, why does it smell like flowers?? 

And there definitely shouldn't be a sunlight feeling??

Finally taking a moment to look up, you lock eyes with the one and only shady wizard 

You almost want to sigh

There goes peace…goodbye peace…you will be missed…

But the way he's looking at you is…different

He's missing his signature smirk that always seems to be plastered on his face

Instead it's been replaced with something slightly softer…kind…

"Hey" he took a few steps forward

Leaning down next to you, and wiping a teardrop from your cheek

"...hey…" you said back, still unsure

Solomon sits beside you, leaning against the large stone wall hiding you from the rest of the world

"What happened?"

And with that

You broke

You cried on and on and on

Sobbing about how overwhelmed you were, how nothing you did was good enough, how exhausted you were all the time

You really hadn't meant to

But by the end you were just a bundle of tears

You were expecting a comment on how small your problems were

or maybe even a laugh because what did you expect? They ARE demons after all…

What you weren't expecting

Was Solomon gently taking your hand

And whispering a slight follow me

Gently he led you deeper within the courtyard, getting ever so slightly lost between the hedges

"Close your eyes" he said, with a slight smirk

and in that moment you werent sure if you should trust him

On one hand, he has yet to bully you

On the other, you might commit homicide if he starts now

You sigh and close your eyes

After a few moments of absolutely nothing happening you open them

And poof the wizard is gone

Are

You

Serious

He led you into what is basically a hedgemaze and then left!?

You huff, more annoyed now than you were before

You could go commit arson

You could ask diavolo so politely

He would probably say yes ri-

AAAAAAAA

you let out a short scream as a hand shoots out from within one of the hedges

You can hear Solomon laugh slightly from inside 

oh you motherfu-

The hand grabs you and pulls you in

After being yanked through the bushes, you find yourself in a small cove…

Flowers filled the ground, and the grass was so soft….and there was sunlight- how?

"Where…" you whispered, still a bit awestruck 

A place like this definitely shouldn't exist in the devildom…

"This is a little piece of home" Solomon explained, while taking a seat on the soft ground, "I made it with an illusion spell of sorts…I come here when things get difficult" 

You gently sat next to Solomon 

Taking it all in

Who knew the shady wizard had a soft side…

Solomon pulled your head down to his lap, one hand gently running through your hair while the other pulled out a book

He softly began to read

"I don't trust stairs…they are always up to something"

…huh

"Where do ghosts become pilots?...fright school"

…no

"Why did the cookie go to the doctor? It was feeling crumby"

…you were going to kill him

…but maybe later

You laughed and gently swatted Solomon's book of "1000 dad jokes to cheer up people with depression"

How sweet of him

Solomon laughed and poked at your cheeks

you really were beautiful when you smiled

Not that he could say that of course

…not yet

He wanted to savor this moment by your side for just a bit longer

Just the two of you

Safe in your little bubble

Away from the rest of the world

Solomon gently pet your hair until you fell asleep

Watching with a gentle smile

Before placing a small kiss on your forehead

He would give the brothers a piece of his mind later

[gayspock]

ok one moment

like something something. i feel like im doing a shit job at somehow every aspect of my life no matter what it is. no matter how big or small. and i think the only things ppl ever say is that everyone feels like that but i still cant help like at least other people have at least something to hold on to. i fucking suck at everything and ive not been happy with anything ive tried to do for years and i wish it was melodrama. ive gone out and tried new things. ive broken down every time and been too burnt out to ever continue. try to not be self-conscious and to not be jealous of how easily people can sit there and thrive but i just end up hating myself and crying. i wish i had the focus to even just do menial shit like read. invest myself into something. but i cant stay cognizant for more than 10 fucking minutes any more and then im gone. and theres flashes of energy and frenzied bullshit and sometimes it can carry me forward but then i look back on everything i did and feel sick because i was obviously just fucking withit. sloppy crap you know. something something. it just all feels like more work and effort and none of its remotely rewarding it just feels like im trying to prove to people that im trying and i dont like any of it and its all too exhausting . so in the end its like ive done nothing and maybe that doesnt matter because i dont reallyhave anyone to prove it to anyway. cause im shit at that too. and its youre not meant to meausre how fucking good you are at being friends with people like that but i cant even fucking help it any more do you know. what i am good at is staring at the wall for hours and imagining i dont exist any more like a rancid self pitying bastard. does anyone else like to stare at the wall. i think its been years and years and ive not made any progress or got anywhere and just got steadily worse and i keep waiting for it to matter but it never seems to etc. etc. i feel really pathetic that the last time i consistently talked to people irl was 5 years ago now and even then i just felt alone constantly and like i meant nothing and that everyone would forget mein a heartbeat and knowing i was always right about it sucks. something something desperate loser. god fuck me in the head im gonna go to work again on tuesday and have people ask me what i did for four days straight fuck me man wheres my pretend im not on the brink of fucking offing myself hat.

[forestryfae]

i dont. understand. when are they expecting us to be able to do laundry. i have an hour in the morning i guess but i physically cant get myself out of bed unless its absolutely the last minute and they dont wait for you to hang up your laundry, theyll just drive away from you.

theres also an hour right after i come home from work but generally i need it to change clothes or shower and to regain some of my energy.

after dinner theres like 2 hours but jesus christ i JUST got back from work and i share laundryday with another guy, i have no idea how much laundry hes gonna do

then theres a meeting every other monday and a dumb bullshit hike that takes like 2 hours then were back around 7:30 or 8 i think and generally after a long tiring hike where noone waits for you so you dont get even one break even tho your legs are burning there isnt much energy for laundry. and then theres that one meal we get afterwards as a reward or whatever for the hike and then at 9 they lock the laundryroom.

so theres like 1 and a half hours there too ig but who has the fucking energy. we need showers too. and to eat. so like yeah theres like a few hours here and there and one load of laundry takes half an hour with the big machine but thats still a very tight schedule. esp considering they REALLY want us to go on the hikes cus its An AcTiViTy ThAtS gOoD fOr YoU.

like. i have limited energy and i only have so much time in the day. i can only do so much in one day before i run out of energy and i need to be allowed to be tired and need to rest too. i dont function well on tuesday evenings specifically because im exhausted. its why i take wednesdays and fridays off. i need the extra rest and time. like. idk how to even explain it without sounding lazy and whiny and kinda pathetic for not being able to do a million things a day back to back. but i actually need time to decompress and shit. idk.

the point ismondays are a shit day to do laundry, i dont want to do it on wednesdays cus i like to have time off but im expected to clean my room the millisecond i wake up and im more often than not woken up with "good morning, what are you going to do today, i think you should do laundry and cleanyour room" like thanks now i cant get out of bed until 12 and i cant do anything i was planning to do cus yall wont stop fucking pestering me if i dont do whats expected of me every single minute im alive, and they never fucking check when i actually do clean and usually cleaning my room results in 'you missed a spot'. like why even botver. its so fucking stressfull and i dont know how to stop bekng stressed and when people try to help they make it worse and itpisses me off so much, i hate having people mess witvmy stuff and moving shit around and touching fucking dirty clothes then moving clean stuff.

like jesus christ im allowed to be tired. i need to be allowed to have hobbies and free time that doesnt result in my brain being occupied by being pissed cus someone told me what im Supposed to do instead of just allowing me to fucking do what i need or want to do. like can i get five fucking minutes where i dont feel guilty cus i dont shower fast enough or i dont mop the floor fast enough and i dont walk fast enough and im not strong enough to just do shit without ever getting tired or needing rest.

were not even doing real therapy rn, i wanted a psychologist and i still havent gotten one, i wanted to talk to the economics guy and i still havent been able to, i cant talk to anyone who isnt my primary contact and i have no idea how to even reach out to her plus shes not always working so i dont always see her, and like. a lot of the time i feel like whatever i say is just Too Emotional and its not actually worth the time but my guy my parents have been treating me like i dont deserve to exist in front of them since i was a fucking toddler and when i got bullied in school my parents thought that was my own fault for getting angry that i was being treated like shit. i didnt fucking grow up with people who cared about me unless it suited them, im fucking allowed to be upset and confused and terrified and worried about shit. it makes perfect sense that i dont understand any fucking thing and im struggling so fucking much. i should be getting help and getting rid of the shitty fucking house and getting diagnosed and maybe even medicated. i should be in fucking therapy and i should be talking to SOMEONE about shit instead of sitting in my room crying every weekend cus i dont know whats wrong with me and im starting to get worried that im just too fucked up to be fixable or atleast able to be liked by people

in other news the laundrymachine was taken and theres stuff hanging to dry cus the people working here did laundry today and now i have to wait until saturday and i have like 2 tshirts and 2 pants and one bra and one sweater thats clean and that will not last until monday

[hakugreenfinch]

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[icewindandboringhorror]

that Inability To Function Like A Regular Human mood when you’ve had to leave the house two days in a row so you can already feel that your body and soul have aged by 600 years and know it’ll take about two entire days of rest just to recover back to any somewhat normal level of energy

[domesticateddog]

it’s honestly terrifying knowing my mom just went to sleep alone right now. like im not gonna walk in and check her pulse bc she’s fine and had the defibrillator put in but ill definitely have some ptsd over this. i kept waking up last night like 10 times and every time my first thought was watching my mom having compressions and me grabbing her hands and yelling her name and seeing how blue/yellow her toes looked. like she was already dead. i grabbed her hand and i thought “oh my god this is the last time my mom will be warm” not that that means anything but like. idk. and then i have to shake my head like an etch-a-sketch and go OK BUT SHE LIVED STOP THINKING ABOUT IT AND SLEEP OR SING A SONG IF YOU HAVE TO JUST STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. and eventually i do go back to sleep

[fandom-imagination-ss]

Day 5 of 31 days of Halloween

Imagine: Asking Steve Grant out on a Date to a pumpkin Patch to collect some Pumpkins and get some Apples. 

Never in your life asked another person out you always waited for them to do it. and Most of the time they did. and if they didn’t you figured it was the universe’s way of saying that they weren’t the One. Then Steve Grant entered your world.  He was Far to Sweet and Kind and way too good to not Notice. you first met him when you went to the museum to get inspired for your new Greek mythology book,  so you went to get inspired. and you were. Not for the book but for Life. when you meet the Shy, brilliant Gift Shop Keeper. 

for weeks you would go to the museum talk to Steve and give out Subtle Hints to ask you out. but He never did.  the Universe wasn’t going to give you Steve that was for certain. you decided that morning when you planned to go to the museum that the Only way Steve was getting out of going on a Date was if he physically Said No. then you could move on with your life and just accept that you were Not meant to be. but Not knowing was killing you. 

getting too the Museum around noon and did a bit of research on something you needed for your book. you went to the shop to see Steve orgainzing the stuffies. you smiled walking over, “Hey Steve “ he turned smiling brightly he looked exhausted like always. dark circles around his eyes as he smiled anyways.

 “Oh hello how are you wasn’t expecting you today.” 

“I told you i was coming by on Tuesday.” He blinked saying yes of course as you spoke, ‘Anyways Im about to head out but i wanted to ask you something.” you breathed deeply holding your notebook in hand you felt foolish. and your hands were calmy. God is this how Every person felt who asked someone out? this pit in the stoumch, cant form words. uneasy feeling? it was AWFUL! why the HELL do people Willingly do this! 

“what is it?” he looked at you curiously as you spoke, “Pies..” 

“Pies?”  he tilted his head slightly stunned normally it was Him who made no sense as you breathed deeply, ‘I make home made Pies.. Apple pies and well. I need a Jack- o-lantern for halloween.. and well... I was curious if you wanted to go out to a Pumpkin Patch and collect a pumpkin or two and some apples.” 

Steve eyes grew large as a wide smile formed on his face. “your asking me out on a date?” 

you nodded your head, “trying to yea.” 

he rubbed his face as he spok,e “oh thank God! i’ve been trying to get the courage to ask you for ages.” you laughed at that. “Oh thank god! i was so worried you would say No!” 

“what never!” 

A wide Smile Crept on your face,  you nodded your head, “well good. so this weekend?” 

“Yes!” 

[chasingpj]

🎉 you back! and happy holiday to you too 💕 honestly i cant wait to see what post you gonna post later (i will admit im excited for young god series).

anyway i have hard time choosing which blurb i want..i guess i will choose 35 with persassy- i mean percy jackson.

btw enjoy your holiday course my mom gonna make me be her maid this christmas (love u to mom). Byeeee

[𝟒:𝟒𝟐 𝐩𝐦]

“You make me miserable, you know that?”

pairing: percy jackson x gn reader

warnings: no

category: slice of life, fluff

a/n: haha, oh no! my mom does the same. i always end up helping her in the kitchen and cleaning the house for guests 😭 i'm planning on posting the new chapter soon! sometime this week or next week so stay tuned. i hope you enjoy this, my love <3

“Harder!” Your demand barely leaves your lips before Percy presses hard on the apex of your foot. “Ow!”

Percy squints, playfully annoyed, as you snatch your feet away from his lap, and he sighs at the sight of your 100th pout of the day. “You said harder.”

“Not that hard!” Carefully, you adjust yourself on the pillow fluffed behind your head thanks to the boy in front of you. “Perseus Jackson, I’m afraid you have forgotten what today is. May I remind you?”

Percy’s face drops at the sound of your awful attempt at a posh English accent. “Hmm. I’m pretty sure it’s Tuesday,” he says, scrunching his face when you dramatically gasp.

“Not just any Tuesday; it’s my birthday!” You declare once again, giggling at the way he rolls his eyes. “And our agreement is that today, you will do everything I ask of you, PROPERLY.” The little plastic princess wand in your hand points right at the tip of his nose, and just as Percy glances down at it, you raise your foot in its place. “Now I suggest you make a second attempt at giving me a foot massage, or you’re fired.”

“You make me miserable, you know that?” Percy huffs, his lips unable to resist tugging upwards in amusement. You’re spoiled, incredibly so, and well, it’s definitely his fault. This birthday butler agreement wasn’t really his idea, but it was too funny to deny, especially since you’re being as ridiculous as you can be just to mess with him.

“Then how come you’re smiling?” You arms cross over your chest, and another exhausted sigh leaves Percy’s lips. With his miserable expression contrasting the brighten in his eyes, he returns his gaze to you.

“Because if I don’t smile, I’ll cry.”

join in on my welcome back celebration <33

[its-gtta-go-smewhere]

ADHD tips and tricks

being unmedicated has taught me some things on ADHD and maybe my tips and tricks can help others, too. so here we go <3

-lists help. pin them to your wall!

so far i have: Series i wanna watch, series to rewatch for emotional regulatiuon, stuff in my i need to do longterm, fun stuff i want to do, tasks i need to do for my thesis, dishes i want to cook some day etc. if you feel lost look at your lists and choose what you want to do most. ask your self "do i want this or that" instead of "what could i do?"

i also like to categorise things as high focus or low focus. when i have a very bad day i will only do low focus tasks, so i can still be protuctive even if im a mess. but i need my lists since i cant come up with stuff to do right away

-boxes to keep everything organised

i have a box for stuff on my desk, stuff i need for cleaning, cat stuff, clothing i might wear again, stuff u need to leave the house etc. when you tidy up its just throwing things into boxes, and you can pick a box at a time to clean them out so its not overwhelming.

-if you have trouble starting an assignment start by creating a place/atmosphere to work on it.

example: i cant bring myself to work. do i feel like sofa, desk or bed as a workplace? i choose sofa. i remove distracting things,put on calming music, i make myself a snack and put it at my chosen workplace, i get something to drink. put my laptop there, with all documents open and then i start to snack or sip on my tea. this seems to please the rng adhd gods and they give me focus 70% of time.

-put it away dont put it down/ im too lazy to make a mess

put stuff in its box/ at its place and not just down somewhere where it does not belong. if you made a mess its exhausting to clean, you need to motivate yourself to tidy up and thats hard. remind yourself that you are a lazy fuck whos easily overwhelmed by chaos so try to avoid that/ take care immediatly cause its faster than waiting until it accumulates into chaos.

-sunday is a checkpoint to set reminders for the next week/ plan the nest week. breakfast is a checkpoint for planning the day.

got an appointment? set a timer on sunday, set it one hour before the appointment so you dont forget or be stressed by fear of forgetting. need to take out trash every tuesday? set a reminder on your phone. want go somewhere? set a reminder on your phone.

-everything worth doing is worth doing poorly

be patient with youself! ADHD is not only different for everyone and its also a disabilty. routines are hard to keep up but it can be very beneficial if you master them or even if you only stick to them halfhearted.

-"that was a fun train of thought, lets move on"

so a lot of us talk to ourselves, at least inside our head. Sometimes when i notice that my brain hyperfixates on things or keeps replaying the same thoughts over and over because it gives me the dopamine i crave i tell my brain "that was a fun train of thought, but lets move on now". It does not always work, but its worth a try. i can stop thinking about something. i cant make my brain focus on the next task immediatly, but i can make it let go of whatever it holds on to. acknowledging that the thoughts are fun somehow helps, at least for me.

[t-underneaththeradardancing]

a long one digression mostly

u dew no - imma teeny bit ob com like 4 reel af  - mostly in a good way if imma on a good foot or even keel but on a bad day not as much fun and not productive   tmi thursday or wuz that tuesday and it aint a newsflash but 

and fuck the memories - teen age t wuz no fun let me tell u - yah moments and thats all we got i wrote - fuk that when it comes to the bad ones -yet here and now i am and u would think it gonna take a miracle - did i post that yet ? as u surmise posting the 60s mostly women groups - mostly black - top 40 radio that slip in thru the soul station - then i got psycho for reel then after i got my soul  psychadelicized as the chamber bros sang - imma more in soul groove so maybe post that later - at the time more into stone hendrix traffic airplane zappa - miles always - 

anywaves and ways and means 

its a miracle - every day - not the grateful dead fantasy - just stayin alive lol and no im not ill or dyin - bizzy bee in - remember be-ins ?  remember laughter robert - oh t such a name drop iz ur brain nothing but lyrics and stage patter - remember the couple times u try stage patter lol - omfg

did i mention play w vita yesterday - audience of 1 - yah - performance post mortem  - remember them ? like it wuz yesterdaze - i steel alot i jest reel eyes from andrew loog oldham - loved his liner notez - wait t - a digression - this far along - really ?  u must reely plan on fuck all doing - wattu mean u writing poetry - watthefux u say its thursday  - back to post mortem - at vitas - rare - reasons - already long day - errands that absolutely needed rushing - no snarks and my ear took a while - unfamiliar somewhat guitar not blondie - cant turn up loud - a houseguest who loves our album plays it over and over - impromptu - t had been playin along to ella - vita study - we wuz a little ragged but magic for moments - both exhausted frazzled af no appetite not even for destruction - not feeling well enuff to bee baked - in a weird af trance and technical probs - all together now - tek hate t - still - every fiber in performance - forgot to trust fingers - idgaf - i take it  - and i eye wuz super duper looper everything a deja vu hyper - so every miss step diss in my head space and i duz the manly thing and overplay  - and the audience dont care - she happy we playing for her and its casual af but u no creatives and performers - even ones w stage fright - and t haz played thru panick more than -  btw hadda mask 9 separate x and each one a mild panic witch exhausts me  -so yah we play - together - at the same time - 1st time in a while for more than a minnit  - soon maybe perform for real - but said that b4 - it could b months and months yet - waiting on vinyl anyway - idk wattup w cd but soon after - keeping the sacred art thing going - sort of marketing promoting - surviving 

[babygirlwolverine]

hi Sophie ♡ I made time to send you this because you had your exam and your surgery today. I hope it went awesome, sorry to hear that surgery didn't go quite as expected because of what happened to teddy but I'm sure you did awesome anyways.

now to answer...

oh my sweet Sophie, pls don't apologize for taking your time to answer. I work, study and try to be here for most spn news, i get it and you're working in becoming an amazing vet and you write beautiful stories and manage to even do events like the one for your milestone, so don't worry ❤ that being said... my heart skipped a beat when I saw your answer and I was eager to send you this too

I'm 100% in with cinnamon and apple!

I adore Rapunzel! Tangled was awesome and I love the song I see the light. It's just one of thee best scenes ever with all the lanterns (can we have lanterns???).

Yes to mountains, it'll be the perfect view, specially in autumn.

Your writing is perfection, I know I'm only one person and is not much but I love it ❤ and I know I'm not the only one, people just tend to love what you write.

I think I won't stop blushing for the rest of the month after you called me your fiancé ajsndjdks 🥰 I'm melting over this, your vows probably will end me.

Now music. I listen to almost all music. I'm more a soft songs girl but I listen to almost everything. Being able to do that made me discover some beautiful songs from small artists. Sleeping At Last is my favorite artist right now. I love Ed Sheeran and JB too. My favorite song from Ed is Perfect and from JB is Hesitate, makes me weep everytime. Just the I'll thank the oceans for giving me you and then is the all I won't hesitate for you, like is everything. I really love love songs. Oh I love Taylor Swift too.

I had an stressful weekend and week but it's ok, thank you.

I hope you get to rest a little bit this weekend

ly💍🌷💜

hello my sweet darling angel <33 my sincerest apologies that it’s taken me so long to reply to this message! thank you so much for sending this message to me when i had my exam and surgery (funny thing was i literally got the message from you as i was leaving the clinic after surgery and i was exhausted and then i saw your message and i couldn’t stop smiling and i sat in my car and read your entire message before i drove home hehe <3) that exam did go well (i got an 80% on it) and lucky the surgery went well too despite the last minute change in patient. I did get to help out a little during the procedure which was awesome. Our next surgery is this upcoming Thursday and I’m going to be the anesthesiologist (lots of pressure) but I’m excited!

yesssss, answer time hehe!

oh my sweetiepie! I really am so sorry it takes me so long to answer sometimes, but i really appreciate that you’re so understanding of everything i’m balancing! also can i just say how amazing you are with balancing working, studying, and being online for a majority of the spn news, like holy hell you’re a superhero for managing to keep on top of all those things. you thinking I’m gonna be an amazing vet has got me crying omg thank you so much! gosh, i dont think my stories are that good, but hearing you say they’re beautiful makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. awww shucks, thank you for liking the event i hosted for my milestone. I just wanted people to feel included and to share that special feeling with other amazing people in the fandom. ❤️ wait wait omg i made your heart skip a beat??? that’s literally so precious i want to wrap you up in warm blankets!

yessss im so happy you agree with cinnamon and apple scents for our wedding! gotta bring in those lovely rich and comforting smells!

omg i may have just giggled with happiness over you saying you love rapunzel! that’s my favorite song in the film omg that whole scene with the lanterns and the way her and eugene sneak glances at each other because they’re falling in love is so soft. (OHMYGOD yes yes yes we can have lanterns at our wedding i swear i literally just went 🥺🥺🥺 at your adorable idea!)

ooooh yay, I’m so glad you like the idea of mountains for the wedding. you’re so right the view will be perfect in autumn with all the changing leaves!

you’ve just made me blush for the hundredth time by calling my writing perfection. Trust me, coming from you, that literally means everything. Gosh, i dont know how i got so lucky to have people who love what i write. I just never thought my writing would connect with people, and to know it brought us together, that’s like a dream come true ❤️

ajdflkjadfkjssa I MADE YOU BLUSH!!! you’d better get used to it because I’m loudly proclaiming you’re my fiancé to anyone and everyone heheh! okay but literally every time i think ’you cant get any cuter’ you literally get CUTER and I cannot handle it! you melting? precious. knowing my vows will mean so much to you? adorable. your reactions? lovable. your sweetness? perfection.

oh yay, I’m so glad you’re so open to music of lots of genres. soft songs are my weakness. just another thing we have in common <3 I’d love to hear some of your favorite small artists so that i can listen to them too. I’m going to search Sleeping At Last as soon as my exam is over on Tuesday! <3 omg I’m so glad to have found someone else who also loves Ed and JB! omg Perfect is an amazing wedding song hehe. also omg Hesitate is literally one of my absolute favorites (I cried when they played it live on the HB tour before covid)! You plucked out my favorite lyrics I’m gonna sob omg i literally tear up every time I hear joe sing “i thank the oceans for giving me you, you saved me once and now i’ll save you too” because that’s the kind of love i want 🥺❤️ love songs are my favorite they’re just so pure and honest and raw, like you can actually feel the love in every single word in the song. I’m not much of a taylor fan, but i do admit she has some great bops and she’s a super talented artist.

oh no, my love, I’m so sorry to hear that you had a stressful week and weekend. I hope you’re doing okay now? did you have a better weekend this past weekend? did you do anything fun? can i do anything to make you feel better?

ilysm 🌷💍💖💜🥺

[nerdangels]

Me all day: im literally so exhausted i cant wait to go to bed

Me the second im in bed: hey what if i drove myself insane going over every detail of tuesday night in my head

[raavasgf]

hi, b! 15, 16 and 49

Hey cilla 💫❤️

15. Whats the weirdest thing that happened to me

On tuesday i had the most aggressive sneeze attack ive ever experienced 💀 i would sneeze like 3 times every 2 minutes it was exhausting 😭 thats never happened and it was so weird

16. A netflix series that your favorite?

Sex education is currently my fave. Cant wait for it to come back. Loved bly manor as well

49. What scents do you like

Okay so these scents are from glade but theyre my go to:

Sheer Vanilla Embrace

Lavender vanilla

Elegant Amber & Oud

And this one apple scent

But im very particular about the smells in my room and its one of the very things that make my space my own so 😭

[sanjizuku]

my experience as an extra on cherry

hi!!!! i wanted to make a post about my experience on tuesday the 19th. so i got the email at 7pm on monday but didnt read it till 11pm so my ass was freaking out and my call time was 6:30am so i had to figure out who would drive me and what outfits i should pack and called off "sick" for work lmao so the night before was a mess and i got 0 sleep not even 10 min LMAO. so i get to the place at 6:15am and we did all the paperwork and stuff that took a little while. and then went to the wardrobe team so they can confirm your outfit was good (in the email it had certain colors and looks they wanted) my outfit was perfect. i wore green cargo pants, black turtleneck, leather jacket and black combat boots. then, we ate breakfast and around 7:30am we went to shoot the first scene. basically we were on the campus and it was a scene where tom was hallucinating so we all had to walk in a very fast pace (i was literally dying bc i have asthma) bc they will be putting a slo mo effect on us bc well hes hallucinating. we did this take like 20 times and it was exhausting lol. but then after that, we went inside a little to warm up (all the scenes we shot that day were all outside in the freezing cold) . next scene was a scene where tom and ciara were on campus and they run into eachother and talk basically lol. we were all in like 2 lines and the crew memeber instructed us to either go straight, in front of the camera and tom & ciara or around them on the other side and i did every angle. i cant believe how close i was to him. his american accent. omg. but we did this scene SO. MANY. TIMES. we started at 9am and stopped at 2:30pm to take our lunch and holy fuck i couldnt feel my feet. we got handwarmers tho during the time so that helped a bit. we took our lunch and then went back out to the same area and then they did a different scene, still talking to eachother but different lines. we did this scene so many times too bc they shot it from different angles(like the camera facing tom and then facing ciara). were still walking around them and in front of them and the same stufff. when we werent filming and we were all just chilling waiting to start, tom was laughing and smiling so much and was talking to the crew and russo bros alot he had so much energy meanwhile i was freezing my ass off and could barely move but its ok LMAOOO. but it was cool to watch tom acting irl and then just chillin on the set lol and also harry was there and both of them were always goofing around. btw ciara had the cutest outfit on i was obsessed with her shes so cute. they were always touching up tom and ciaras makeup prob bc of the cold and fixing toms wig. at some points, the lady was fixing the back of it and pulled hard for some reason and toms head just goes flying back and his face was like "wtf" lmao. the crew are also so laidback and cool. at one point they literally just had takeout food boxes on top of the camera 😂💀. whenever we had to reset to our spots i always had to squeeze between all the crew and tom and ciara and the russo bros to literally get back to my spot so all u hear from me is "excuse me sorry sorry" lmao. at one point when we werent filming yet one of the cameras was pointed at my direction and i did a peace sign at it 😫 i hate myself. the last scene we did that day, tom and ciara were sitting on a picnic table and they were doing a wide shot, so all of us were scattered around the campus doing different stuff like i was with 5 other girls and out part was like admiring this art piece that was there and talking. that didnt take long we were done in like a half hour. ummm and basically that was it. im so incredibly grateful for this entire experience. i will cherish the memories of it forever. and im so proud of tom for putting all his effort into this film hes going to do such an amazing job and i cant wait to see it.