#which is sitll wild like.. im sure most peope could do a doctors appointment and a trip to the store on monday and then a therapy | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

icewindandboringhorror · 7 years ago

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that Inability To Function Like A Regular Human mood when you’ve had to leave the house two days in a row so you can already feel that your body and soul have aged by 600 years and know it’ll take about two entire days of rest just to recover back to any somewhat normal level of energy

#finallye.... my two day long anxiety headache can perhabps fade #my ability to feel okay and accomplish tasks is like some ancient arcane magic with heavy consequences #every extra day i utilize the abilitiy to go outside and ride public transport and etc. i must pay back in full the next two days #when im so exhausted i can hardly feed myself and so anxious and tired and foggy that i cant focus on to do list items #which is sitll wild like.. im sure most peope could do a doctors appointment and a trip to the store on monday and then a therapy #appointment on a tuesday and still have a fairly well functioning rest of the week and be able to get stuff done before and #after both appointments hbhbbhbh #but my body and mind are just like 'well we just did All That bitch so we're not doing anything for the rest of the day and if #you think we are then you're s fool lmao'#even by the time i was at the therapist after the stress of being out on the bus and etc. the waiting room was really full #and there were like 7 conversations at once and just a lot of sensory stuff and i could feel myself kind of acend to another plane where i #stop processing my environment completely because my ability to be present has already been used up over the past two days #'so how have you been?' *silence for 30 seconds while all the tiny men in my brain run around screaming trying to process the #fact that words were just spoken to me and formulate new words to say back* ".....oh hmm.............yeah.....im.........okay'#anyway the ancient vampire prince (usually i am a silly mage boy but since i have aged so much from stress over the past few days #i am feeling more distinguished and old and tired.. an ancient vampire instead) is back inside of his hermit dwelling and can relax at last #with no more responsibilities for the rest of the week so... hopefully i can not be too entirely exhausted and actually finish a few things #i have made progress on that dream survey results thing lmao.. recall that from months ago.. and i have some art stuff and videos.. hell #vibeo... it always takes me so long to actually work up the motvation for video stuff but i have some bhbbhb #i want to do some sort of costume soon just because i havent done one in a while (ive been more focused on music and games and worldbuilding #) and also a scultpure since i havent done one of those in even longer but.. im still waiting for like.. an inspiration to come across #but i think probably soon since thats usually how it happens.. i start getting a vague feeling of 'hmm i should do this thing soon' like a #few weeks before i actually get a sold idea and the motivation to follow through so.. mmaybe sculpture or something in the coming weeks #IF my fool ass can function well enough to commit to the revolutionary and impossible act of like.. finishing a single item of my to do list #jbfwhjebfwhf

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