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Sunshine (pt 2!) - pitfighter!vi (Arcane)
NSFW tags - porn, fantasizing about sex, switch!reader, sub!vi, dom!surprise character, pussy-eatting & fingering (r!receiving), face-riding (vi!receiving), bit of angst, lowkey evil reader ngl, kinda rushed
authors note - okay, it's here guys!!! this could probably be a stand-alone, but i strongly recommend reading part one first. i hope you love it! i hope the grammatical and spelling errors are not that bad, i really wanted to get this out before act 3 😛😛😛 ----------------------------------------------------------
you felt your hands shake as you lifted your head, meeting vi's fucked-out gaze
the pit in your stomach grew as you realized she didn't just accidentally call you Cait,
she was imaging you were Caitlyn
vi tilted her head, bringing her hand up to your cheek
you pulled your head away, throwing yourself up and nearly stomping to the bathroom
a shattered woman stared back at you in the mirror, and you could hardly stand it
rushing, you picked up everything you'd need for the night and slammed the door on your way out
you heard vi follow you out the door, calling out and asking what was wrong
her voice was enough to break you, and you felt tears stream down your face as you continued to a hotel a few blocks away
you had never felt a pain this deep before, and you found yourself questioning how often she thought about cait while she was with you
the thought killed you
you always liked caitlyn, but you hated her now for taking away vi
your violet
the violet you picked up and put back together while she killed herself for a woman who left her, sobbing, on the ground
suddenly, an all-consuming idea to get back at vi filled your mind,
how much would it hurt her to see the two women she lost together?
that's when you decided you needed to find caitlyn kirraman
it wouldn't be difficult, she was well known as the piltover military leader
you had both grown up in the same circles, which is why you were so surprised to find out about her past with vi
not that it mattered now,
you couldn't think of anything other then showing vi exactly how you felt, ruining her with the same name she had used to ruin you
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you had spent the morning traveling back to piltover,
your parents welcomed you back with open arms, consoling you as you told them about what vi had done
the day was spent getting ready to find Caitlyn,
you had to make yourself look presentable after spending the night sobbing
caitlyns home wasn't far from yours, so you picked out a bottle of wine and made your way
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the kirraman house stood tall, beckoning you up the stairs,
every step you took was one step closer to your vengeance against vi,
and that's all it took to encourage three firm knocks against the wood of caitlyns door.
the door opened to reveal a red-headed officer, she eyed you up and down before her thick Scottish accent pierced your eardrums
"junior officer nolan, what's your business here?"
you sighed sweetly, putting on your best act
"im here to...see an old friend" you hated how insincere you sounded
officer nolan, however, didn't seem to notice
she stepped back, inviting you in and even leading you back to a big conference room
you hasn't seen caitlyn in years, her youthful features had sharpened, and she kept her blue hair tucked under her cap,
it was impossible not to feel a mix of inferiority and attraction as you gazed at her
the wine bottle clicked as you set it on the table, prompting caitlyn to swivel around and meet your intense gaze
"who are you?" her accent sent shivers straight down your spine, but you had to remind yourself why you were here,
more, what you were here for.
"it's nice to see you too, caitlyn" you chuckled, again feigning sweetness
her eyes softened as she seemed to recognize you, a relieved sigh leaving her parted lips,
"i apologize, i've been a bit...on edge, as of late." a soft chuckle escaped you,
because she couldn't possibly imagine how much worse it was going to get.
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weeks had passed with caitlyn, and you spent every available moment by her side
tending to housekeeping, amoung other, more personal matters
every moment you spent with her, you became more infatuated
you compared every part of her to yourself, questioning what made her linger in vi's mind while you had been together
it was very conflicting, as you were starting to realize exactly why she stuck
and every day that passed made you question if your affection towards her was an act.
these thoughts plagued your mind, when it wasn't filled with memories of vi
love was a confusing feeling for you,
and this triangle you had fabricated was not making a whole lot more sense
you spent nights laying in bed with caitlyn,
your hands drifting across the body that vi hadn't gotten the chance to know,
but somehow managed to love
much more then she had ever loved you, if she had at all
thoughts of leaving caitlyn had, of course, come up,
letting her feel the pain she had put vi, and (although indirectly) you through
but you knew that it would have been a waste of your time
you had spent time creating this scenario, and you were so close to the end
the last step was ensuring vi got a good look at you and cait, a real up close and personal look
luckily, cait frequently left you alone in her home when she was on missions
and her specific kirraman house parchment was not incredibly hard to find
so, as caitlyn slept, you drafted a note. one that would ensure vi was exactly where you wanted her
' vi, i need to speak to you. tommorow, midnight, sneak in the way i showed you...please. -cupcake'
you had it brought directly to vi's door, and moved into the next part of your plan, waiting.
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the day seemed to drag on, caitlyn had endless amounts of visitors requesting her audience
you expected she would need her favorite form of stress relief at the end of the day
and you had no. idea. how right you were.
right at 11:45, just as you expected, caitlyn came into your now shared room
she immediately shed her uniform, huffing as she made her way over to the bed, where you lay waiting
cait shoved you down by the shoulders, making your back hit the bed as she straddled your legs, her strong thighs enclosing you
your moans echoed on the walls as she kissed down your torso, stopping only to hastily untie the robe covering you
the clocks hands ticked away behind her, showing '11:50', '11:53' and finally, right as she was spreading your legs, '12:00'
you made sure you were facing the window, while cait laid out on her stomach
hungry hands reached up, grabbing at any piece of flesh they could reach
all the stress of her job was taken out on your abused cunt,
you had barely felt the warm satisfaction of her tounge on your clit before she was ramming two fingers inside of you at a brutal pace
you'd never admit it, but you absolutely loved when cait treated you like this
when she reminded you that she owned you, regardless of why you came to her
vi was rarely allowed to see you this way, you made sure that she was satisfied above all else, and she used that
she used you
you suppose caitlyn did too, in a way
and suddenly, a thought you'd never had before was all you could think of
caitlyn continued her brutal ministrations on your clit as you imagined vi above you,
her cunt smothering you, absorbing your moans as you teased her entrance
you imagined cait standing, leaving you needy and wet, and watching you, directing you
telling you how exactly to touch each other, exactly what she wanted to see
you were pulled out of your fantasy when you heard the window slide open quietly,
cait was far too enamored with you to hear vi's soft gasp as she laid eyes on the two of you together
you lifted your head, making direct eye contact as caitlyn messily licked up and down your cunt
vi watched in shock as you arched your back, gripping the bedsheets tight as you reached your peak all over caitlyns face
her soft moans were drowned out by your intense ones, you made sure to give vi a show as you came undone
cait lifted her head, moving up to kiss you before she realized you were looking directly behind her
glaring, more then looking actually
she whipped her head around, meeting vi's tear-brimmed eyes
they both looked between you and each other, you could see the millions of emotions passing through them as their eyes finally stayed on you,
you offered a simple shrug, pulling your robe back over as you sat up
your voice rung out in the painfully quiet room,
"doesn't feel so great, does it?"
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okay gang idk how i feel about this yet?? i will defo come back after act 3 drops and clean it up a bit, i just wanted to get something out. i hope you like it soso much, i love the idea and im hoping my execution isn't too bad! as always, please please pleaseeeee leave all the insane requests, i love them all and it's so nice to get inspiration and just to know what you all want to read!!
#arcane#arcane smut#vi smut#vi x reader#vi arcane#sub!vi#caitvi#caitvi x reader#caitlyn kiramman#caitlyn arcane
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so much you have added to fx backstory au in your head you say… please feel free to take this excuse to share to your heart’s content… 💐
alex from the future here: this started as a note i was gonna let rot in my drafts and turned into A WHOLE ASS SCENE WITH DIALOGUE AND E'RYTHIN so i decided to copy and paste it here... anyway i have THOUGHTS about feng xin's family and especially his SPITFIRE of an older sister, shen liang...
I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS and omg thank you for sending an ask im overflowing with thoughts of them... see #fx backstory au for more
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sometimes i like to think about young Shen Liang before her brother was born...
yknow that excited phase some girls have about babies when theyre like 13?
my girl was READY to be a big sister
ready doesnt even being to describe it...
"Xin-er!" she'd talk to Shen Wangxi's belly relentlessly as if he'd already been born... if he even was a "he"
she'd be happy with a didi or a meimei she did not care
she read every bit of prep material from the royal library at least 3 times over
she talked with her mom about how she'd be the best jiejie ever...
she was SO EXCITED
So much so that Shen Wangxi knew Shen Liang could take care of her brother.
That is, until Feng Xin was born...
The event essentially trades her mothers life for her brothers... Shen Liang has the capability to care for her didi, but she isn't too interested in the parasite that stole her mom from her...
But this "parasite" continues to grow more fond of her regardless of how horribly she treats him.
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"Jiejie is family. I love my family. And Baba tells me all the time i need to protect the things I love. I'll protect you jiejie!" A tiny Feng Xin puffs out his chest and makes a face that he thinks will make him look tough.
"Like how you protected mama?" Shen Liang mutters to herself, standing up from the dirt she'd been kicked down into by that goodfornothing bully and uselessly patting dust off her robes before knocking past him.
"Enough, A-Liang. He's three, he doesn't understand."
No. You don't understand. "Get lost, old man." Shen Liang quips toward her father.
Feng Yang lets her leave. Teenagers. At least she was safe now. This harassment was getting out of hand. He'd hate to take it directly to the king.
"But..." a tiny voice pokes out from behind the contemplating Xianle general.
Feng Yang bends down to pick up his son and rest him on his hip.
Tiny hands grab the fabric of his robes as Feng Xin rubs his head against his fathers chest to comfort himself and he mumbles, "Jiejie... I'll protect you, jiejie, I promise."
Feng Yang's heart aches from his son's words. It swells in his chest until it almost pops and then...
"Baba?"
"Yes, Xin-er?" Feng Yang answers softly with a smile.
Feng Xin chews on the age-old words of the Feng family code, and then speaks. "Well... what does a man do... when he can't protect what he loves." His voice attempts to mimic the commanding tone of his fathers own.
Well... "He tries to get stronger."
Feng Xin's eyes brighten.
Feng Yang is blessed to have this child as his son.
"Baba?"
"Hm?"
"When will I be strong enough to protect jiejie?"
"I don't know." I wish I did. "Sometimes protecting someone is not about how strong you are." I wish I could protect her too. "Sometimes you can't be strong enough to protect someone who doesn't want to be protected."
"Even if you love them?"
"Even if you love them."
Feng Xin's tiny brows furrow in contemplation until his young mind hits a logical dead end. It doesn't make sense to him.
So...
Feng Xin does what he always does when he doesn't know what else to do. "Baba is silly. Of course jiejie wants me to protect her." He hopes.
He prays. Wishes. Believes. Much like the name his mother gave him implies, Feng Xin has faith.
He was born with it. And like any child with a gift from his mother, he'll never let it be taken from him.
Feng Yang tests him. "And how do you know she wants that?"
"She lets me peel her oranges!" Feng Xin looks down and excitedly acts out the motion with his hands.
Yeah, and then she doesn't feed you. It had been beyond difficult for Feng Yang to feel safe leaving Feng Xin in Shen Liang's care. Just the thought of him thinking this way about his daughter made his stomach churn. But recently, even Shen Liang's 'starvation as a form of discipline' was now the least of his concerns.
Oddly, Feng Xin never complained and the treatment went unnnoticed. It took a visit from the royal physician to tell Feng Yang his son was malnourished. Feng Xin never denied that his jiejie sometimes "forgot" to feed him, but he didn't stand for the accusations the physician made about her either. He adamantly refused to cooperate until Feng Yang had asked the man to conclude his visit with the reassurance he'd address his son's care. Stubborn. Just like his mother... Just like his sister too. Feng Xin made his baba promise to never make him see another doctor who talked bad about his jiejie. Feng Yang couldn't deny him.
The feeding was less of an issue now, given the new one (bruises popping up on his skin) but it was best not to bring up Shen Liang's new actions to the little one right now.
So Feng Yang simply says, "But she doesn't share her slices with you."
"I don't need them. I'm strong." He puffs out his chest again and then has the idea to flex his arms like he was heroically nocking an arrow on his toy bow. "Maybe if jiejie eats them, then she can be strong on her own and I don't have to protect her!"
"Maybe. But why do you keep peeling them for her?"
Feng Xin's voice mellows, as sincere as a 3 year old can, but he responds without missing a beat. "I really like peeling oranges for jiejie."
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Shen Wangxi I don't deserve our son, Feng Yang thinks.
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...more to come 🤭
#IM SORRY THIS IS SO LONG I DIDNT MEAN IT TO BE#but its so tragic...#I SAY AS IF I DIDNT WRITE THIS AU MYSELF#im evil and i will never apologize for it#fx once heard from sl that an orange calmed him down when he was a baby#so he decides ON HIS OWN to try to peel oranges for his sis whenever she is 'upset' ie: isnt treating him well#he sucks at it at first but he learns... and for some reason sl never really forces him to stop... so he keeps doing it#its the only thing she has left of her mother when they used to peel oranges for each other when it was just the 2 of them#oh and at the start of the dialogue shen liang gets harassed for having foreign blood bc they arent from xianle#but bbie fx has had enough and wants to 'find the boys (not 'men' he is adamant about this part) that hit his jiejie and go and beat em up'#<-his own words#basically i love bby fx#oc shen liang#oc feng yang#oc shen wangxi#fx backstory au
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something thats always been on my mind about the eah destiny system is that a lot of the time i dont think the book actually needs to play a factor ... especially w regards to briar — sure she can opt out, can say No Thank you to the curse but i dont see how that stops anything ? the original sleeping beauty didnt consent to be cursed to sleep , we know the stories change and just have to keep the essense of the fairytale ? so whats actually stopping faybelle cursing her anyway . . . just trust ? hope ??
#💬#ever after high#bribelle#so what im really saying here is lovers to enemies toxic doomed yuri bribelle where faybelle curses her and waits out the 100 years by (..)#her side even knowing she will never be able to offer an apology thats enough .#faybelle respecting briars choice not to follow her destiny would also be neat but ..... i have to assume faybelle is going to be under#a LOT of pressure to follow through w it anyway ....#side topic its odd to me personally that faybelle was never considered as a raven replacement <— unless she was and i forgot#evil queen dark fairy .... very similar ..... it seems like that could fit the same niche as the huntsman or the charmings#but i suppose snow white is a MAJOR story in the eahverse#i dont knowwwwwwwwww ... !
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I'm mid-James apology and holy shit this is actually a GOOD apology?? MUCH better than the first one if nothing else.
Will update if anything dramatic happens.
Edit: check the notes and the replies. I had just woken up, this was the first thing I did lol. Yeah it was bad.
#okay he DID just say he had permission to upload Evil Queens and didnt say if that was before or after the plgrsm#but other than THAT i dont see any major issues yet#dimond speaks#NEW TAGS: Yeah no this was shit. he purposefully misdirected the conversation away from some stuff while#overexplaining other things to try and make himself look better. classic james idk why i fell for it#i have since rewatched Todd in the Shadow's video and a vid on his first apology as a refresher#hes doing the same tricks again but far more organized this time around and with actual editing to 'acknowledge' he's listening#which he isnt because he didnt address half the allegations against him#i had just woken up and ive never been the best at spotting lies anyway so yeah. im gullible i know.#you dont have to tell me i already feel stupid lmao
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was once again glancing at the lackadaisy reddit and i genuinely feel a little crazy about how people perceive the wick and mitzi arc from retinue to sneakthief? or, honestly, their arc in general. to act as though wick is some patron saint greatly amuses me when it’s implied by mitzi and the comic that wick had either proposed a business deal himself or had been very amendable to talk about it after their kiss and / or other intimate acts last night … mitzi didn’t pull this out of her ass! she did not put this upon wick randomly. it was something they mutually agreed to do, and given how hard wick tries to wiggle away from the conversation without outright saying no ( aka giving excuses to stall ) i would even guess he essentially already agreed to such a deal, in the throes of passion, only for him to not fully mean it later. this doesn’t mean it was right at all for her to then steal from wick! this isn’t me excusing that! but wick isn’t some poor meow meow either in this scenario, even if he is the ‘lesser’ evil overall.
and tbh i also think the conversation was doomed from the start : wick was horrifically exhausted and was still too shaken up by rocky’s ‘joke’ to fully engage with mitzi, as well as finally having church’s warning start to weigh on him … and then there’s mitzi, who wasn’t faring any better! what with viktor out of commission, asa turning on her, mordecai threatening her, and then having spent most of the afternoon hearing her dead husband’s name be thrown around. in order to hurt her and scare her into obedience, mind you. like, neither were in any state to discuss business or romance!! so it’s no surprise it went poorly. especially when both of them were equally sore and testy during their date.
#my posts.#lackadaisy#anyway i have WAY more to say about this and wick & mitzi’s arc in general but this’ll do#my very illiterate rambles lol#i think the fandom is so enamored with wick that they fail to see he’s someone who is flawed#and someone who ( as tracy’s said a time or two ) isn’t morally superior than the other characters in any way#yet people act as if wick is only some quirky little guy who’s just sooo sweet and that’s it you guys :)#he needs SAVING from the big bad evil woman!!! he is just so blind to her wicked intentions :( he’s being led on …#which to me is so far from the truth. wick had no issue throwing his investors at mitzi for her to schmooze up#and even tried HELPING her schmooze them!! he knew her intentions either the second he got her letter or soon thereafter & was cool with it!#like i love wick so bad but just like rocky there’s a habit of woobifying him …. which is tragic and sad to me#lackadaisy is full of complex characters PLEASE stop dumbing them down into helpless victims who just stand there waiting to be saved!!!#wick can still be complex and a little fucked up and it can still be wrong that mitzi stole from him#him being a flawed character who can and does do wrong doesn’t cancel out mitzi’s bad act#and vice versa#anyway. i love them SO BAD they could never make me hate you wickmitzi#( if none of this makes sense my apologies its 9pm and im sleepy and im overwhelmed by my thoughts about them <3 )
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I bet being antiracist to not be considered 'problematic' seems a lot less appealing when you realize it actually takes work to unlearn notions you've been internalizing from basically day one and that there's not really any excuse around that
#this is about how white people generally do not think about race unless its explicitly mentioned in a discussion#when it is infact never irrelevant and effects literally everything#im the evil black that has to ruin your fun by 'making it about race' i will not apologize#moth.txt#deyas diary#im black tag#making a seprate post instead of adding onto what i was just saying bc it was abt fandom when this is abt like. literally everything tbh#its weird how race is simultaneously not in peoples minds and also is often the first thing someone will notice abt you#makes sense tho#things like this are infinitely frustrating but i like talking about them but have like no space to bc irl#im surrounded by white queers who shit themselves when someone brings up race bc it makes them uncomfortable#antiracism#white fragility#ah yes thats the term ive been blanking on
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this is actually worse than when i was witch hunted, im not even sure im gonna be able to participate in keeptober, i have no idea how far these rumors have gone and if the host believes them
#like my friends still love me#and ill have them#thats not what im scared of this time#its just like#i would never do any of that?#and yet#im being blocked over it.#i thought#i thought people knew i wasn’t a bully#im not apologizing for growing a semblance of a spine#im just frustrated because now everyone thinks im#like#some evil bitch#i want to be able to participate in fandom events#and i don’t know how many ill be allowed to even join
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im so tired
#its exhausting living here#im the bad guy in every situation#every time i dont accomodate her stupid bullshit whims im evil and creating conflict#dean you arent allowed to get lunch for yourself bc she wants to do a baking project &youre too Disgusting to be in the same room as her fo#*food#dean you arent allowed to listen to music out loud in your room but she can play her music in the living room while you have a migraine#dean you have to ask her what food she wants from town bc she doesnt feel like texting mom herself#dean you have to stop laughing because she thinks your laugh is annoying#dean you arent allowed to eat the bread that was bought for you because she decided she wanted it#dean you arent allowed to wear the one piece of mens clothing youve ever gotten to buy apart from plaid shirts bc she thinks youre too fat#dean you arent allowed to correct her when she says things about you that are objectively untrue#dean she wants to hang out in the living room go back to your room so she doesnt have to be around you#dean she wants a book for english class you have to give her one of yours#dean you arent allowed to be angry at her for ripping the cover off one of your favorite books & nrver apologizing that was years ago#dean you arent allowed to make plans with your friends this weekend bc she might want to hang out w her friends & wants to keep moms schedul#schedule open to drive her#dean you arent allowed to eat until she serves herself#dean if youre making food & she refuses to eat bc you were in the kitchen thats your fault#dean how dare you say her hair looks like sam winchesters#dean you cant be angry when she calls you fat & ugly & disgusting & tells you to kill yourself you shouldnt let it get to you#sui mention#dean you cant get new pants bc she wants to buy this dress that she’ll never wear#dean its not a big deal when she misgenders you she waa just joking#dean shes not ableist bc youre the only autistic person she thinks is faking it for attention#im just so goddamn tired
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//stumbling in coughing up blood// one last thing about the whole AI art thing. Ok another really funny aspect of It All is that thing people do where a artist isnt explicitly Anti AI Art and then people get all "well how am I to know their art isnt AI then?? Maybe its all been AI this whole time! Whos to say! Theyre clearly untrustworthy and a AI sympathizer!". Like we've invented a brand new kind of mcarthyism and its super weird.
#I was hatereading reviewbombing reviews of late night with the devil and there were alot of people being like#'well how do I know every visual asset wasnt AI? That the script wasnt AI?!' like alright lets like dial back#like what even is this. Its a good example of how alot of people are just seeing AI Generation as like a evil corrupting source.#I think if my stuff ever like Gets Attention this will immediately happen to me and I'll have to#get into detail about all my weird neuroses that will lead to me never using AI stuff in my art#apology video type of thing where Im crying really hard about what if the robots are better at it then me#ok ANYWAY
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Me, thinking that I have finally made a breakthrough in processing a years old friendship betrayal: wow! this is great! maybe this won't weigh so heavily on my mind now 🥰
My subconscious, scheming up YET ANOTHER dream in which said friend and I make up and rekindle our friendship, only for me to wake up and be devastated by such a cruel joke:
#like this is just sick!!!!!!!#THREE YEARS ive spent trying to make peace and i FINALLY actually feel like ive gotten as much closure as im going to get#and that there really was no salvaging things and that it had nothing to do with me really#and then my brain is gonna make me live out a million little scenarios of what would happen if we ran into each other ????#and of course in the dreams it never goes realistically- realistically i know she wouldn't be nice and receptive and sentimental#she would be indifferent or outright mean#which would at least help reaffirm for me that we're better off not in contact#but nooooooooo the dreams always have us hashing things out and apologizing and then having a wonderful time catching up#im being haunted and tormented by visions and dreams and the evil haze of nostalgic memories!!!!!!!!#my post#things I can't get over
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Feel like one of the best ways you can convince someone that no, villains with compelling motives that have sad backstories are not terrible writing compared to straight up born evil villains who just want to kill everyone and be done with it, is to tell them that Warrior Cats writes born evil villains constantly while literally preaching “That’s how evil works, you can’t CHANGE, you’re either touched by demons at birth or you aren’t!” and it blows chunks
#brokenstar tigerstar hawkfrost darktail one eye etc etc would all be so much more interesting if they werent so one note#and just had ‘’born evil’’ slapped on as their explanation for being evil#‘’ew why are you woobifying tigerstar’’ because i think a villain who feels emotion besides ‘’evil’’ and ‘’angry’’ and actually does care#about his clanmates but is also a bigot that deserves to be beaten down is more interesting than canon#to get like real world political here… abusive people and bigots like. are not one note born evil demons#they have loved ones and reasons for turning out the way they did. and im not saying that to go ‘’so you need to give them grace!’’#im saying that because the line of thinking that every bad person is a super obvious mustache twirling villain with no soul#makes it so that people justify abuse and crimes from REAL people. like ‘’oh my friend says some racist things but he isnt BAD! he loves me!#would an abusive person be nice to his wife in public? of course not!’’#and its rhetoric like that that lets abuse and bigotry thrive. if you put the world in categories of born evil and born good#then you will dismiss all the ‘’good’’ people in your life who have done horrible things with ‘’but she donated to charity once’’#i mean. hell this LITERALLY happens in wc where the ‘’born good’’ characters are abusive and murderously xenophobic#where characters like clear sky and blackstar just get a sticker like ‘’oh you cant be TOO mad at them! theyre good at heart!’’#‘’ignore all the times they killed vulnerable people for the crime of being born somewhere they didnt like! they were nice to a kid once!’’#the message there is literally ‘’bad people cant REALLY be bad if theyre nice to people sometimes’’#like. im not even mad at clear sky being motivated by witnessing his loved ones starve to death for why hes such an abusive control freak#thats an interesting reason to become a villain especially since the change happened when he was put in a position of power#the problem is not him having a sad backstory. the problem is the erins think his sad backstory means he was never that bad#and anyone who’s upset at him can go eat shit and die cause he looked sad#like. i get this line of thinking often comes from writers doing this for abuse apologism and just wanting to see abusers be held accountabl#accountable#but how exactly does it help victims of abuse to portray abusers and bigots in a christian ‘’touched by the devil’’ light
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i really dont know what to expect from magolor epilogue and im honestly not expecting a ton of story (lore stuff, absolutely bc magolor is kinda stuffed w lore as a character already) but ngl i do sorta hope theres at least a little bit of a hint of him improving or feeling bad or redemption so that people stop saying that he exists to be abuse apologia bc “he never got a real redemption arc”
#yknow ignoring that kirby as a series doesnt quite has a steady narrative#by this logic dedede being good now is abuse apologism bc he was a villain once and hes not allowed to improve and his arc was offscreen#and hes had a few villainous moments so obviously hes a poorly written character who ur suspicious for liking bc it means ur manipulative#u may think im exaggerating but fans back in the day were literally comparing him to abusers like. no?#tbf i mostly saw this during the point when this website was like ‘’redemption arcs are bad writing inherently’’ w no nuance#and trying to apply what went wrong with su to every property ever whether it fit or not#magolor is a fuckhead. yeah hes a dick. u dont have to like him but its so wild how ppl will act abt him#and its not even comparable to msot examples ppl compare him to like lusamine#w lusamine the argument was ‘’oh shes sad and she was a good mom once so she was never REALLY evil. ignore her verbally abuse lillie pls’’#magolor’s actions were never painted as something he couldnt control or that were misunderstood and well intentioned#hes a villain and the game is aware of that and thats why yknow. he literally got vaporized in the original#the ‘’oh he was only being possessed and controlled’’ thing was a misconception on fanons part. before rhe soul fight anyways#the reason he keeps coming back is bc hes a popular character that people like and wanted to see more of#and the reason his actions are brushed under the rug is not bc of a manifesto of why abuse is ok#its bc the devs were like ‘’wow itd be cool if u could race magolor in this game’’ and its not insensitive bc magolors plan was not based#in reality. idk this discussion annoys me lol#its fun to rag on him and bully him but trying to go ‘’if u like him that’s suspicious bc u like an abuser’’ is ridiculous#echoed voice
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living with someone with untreated mental illness is like. i understand why you're like this and i do empathize but also like. jesus fucking christ get some help before i throttle you i stg
#i hate my sis so much. like i get it. i really do. a lot of how she acts is due to mental illness and trauma but at the same time she also#just really shitty. like ik recovery is different for everyone and you move at your own pace but she just. isnt recovering at all it seems#like its been 6yrs since we got out and my mom and i have worked really hard on getting better and changing our behaviors#all the while shes just getting worse and worse to be around. like shes legitimatrly turning into my (abusive) father#its terrifying honestly but we cant do anything about it bc you cant talk to her#you say like ''hey this thing you did upset me can you please try to not do that again'' not angry or anything and she starts crying and#yelling bc youre triggering her and its not fair and nobody loves her and like. i get that some people cry a lot and thats fine! i get that#but its literally impossible to talk to her about anything bc she acts like shes the victim and youre fuckin evil for telling her to please#not put her dirty clothes on my shelf i dont like that please. like thats not an unreasonable request and im not being mean about it! but#im the bad guy for doing anything that critisises her.#and she treats my mom like shit. like i could deal w her being a bitch to me but to momma? fuck no.#i dont believe you owe your parents shit but my mom has been a fucking saint when life dealt her a hand that shouldve made her a devil#she did her absolute best and *she* was the one that sacrificed everything to get us out#and my sister treats her like shes an incapable selfish idiot.#and she never lets me talk. shell talk for an hour about smth she knows i dont care about but when i try to tell her like. hey my fav band#is putting out a new album or smth im real excited about. she gets on her phone and just ignores me.#and she KNOWS this triggers me badly its made me suicidal before and yknow what happened then? i had to apologize for making HER feel bad#she talks over both of us but it you start talking when she was THINKING about talking she has a fit#and she actively tries to gaslight my mom. like im dead fuckin serious my mom has to ask me if smth really happened bc my sis told her it#did/didnt and she has to get me to confirm the truth for her#and she treats her pets like crap she should not be allowed to have pets bc she just loses interest in them and stops taking care of them#and we have to pick up the slack#its literally just like being with my dad again. walking on eggshells all the time#my mom cant watch tv at night bc ellie gets pissed at her for ''waking her up''. even tho she claims she never sleeps.#i hate her so so much i want to punch her i want her to move out i want to never ever see her again#but rn we cant afford to live on our own. so we have to stay with her#anyway.#vent#tw abuse
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fun fact!!! my opinions about colours are purely subjective and based of biases I developed from my upbringing. it's indigo to me and that's all that matters <3 peace and love!!!
a gentle reminder
#THIS POST WAS NEVER MEANT TO GET THIS BIG#THIS IS HELL ON EARTH#so many people telling me I'm wrong#I KNOW!!!!!!!!! IM JUST BEING A BITCH ABOUT WHICH COLOURS HAVE WHICH NAMES TO ME!!!!!!!!!! RRAHRJHRJHARARRHGH#also this is a general guide not an 'indigo can ONLY be these colours' etc etc guide#I am well aware that indigo was originally a blue dye#it was originally named by the catholic church to change the number of base colours from 6 (EVIL) to 7 (not evil)#as a colour between blue and purple#and later became a shade of purple in the minds of the public#so as a compromise indigo is blurple. to me <3#ANYWAY#like you said. who cares????#if I sound mad apologies this is all in jest. mostly.#I am a little bit sick of people dragging this back from the grave to give me a hard time but I'm trying to be good humoured about it#like. its colours bro its ok. shhh#I've come to realise that a LOT of strangers are seeing this post not realising that I'm The Guy Who Draws Crazy Expressions For Fun#and I don't actually feel this rabid and furious about indigo
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hes doing it again
#i hate angst i dont wanna be an eddie angst guy but wow do i have to so often#for personal catharsis relatiation of a certain brand of steve angst that i have to see everyday for some reason#you know! you know what :)i complain about it all the time! :)#where suddenly eddies some big fuckkng asshole douchebag who hurt steves feelings#and steve is insecure and eddie has to fix it with love 😍 but if eddies insecure its about how that hurts steve somehow#and eddies a big dumb idiot who made steve cry and now everyone hates him and makes him grovel im siiiiickoffff iiiit#sick of what if eddie was using being an asshole as a defense mechanism and hurt steve when they were 12 😍 and steve is still#traumatized by it and eddie has to be like sorry im so mean and evil and stupid ill never do it again.#and rhen steve and everyone else holds it above his head forwver anyways. even though its NOT! okay for people to mention steves pastactions#and also steve was mean as a defense mechanism!!! so actually he wasnt an asshole and we should all let it go!!#but then eddie was mean as a defense mechanism heres why tbat makes him a Giant Evil Man and#LIKE FUCK! FUCKING...!!! THEYRE. THE SAME. TBEYRE THE SAME HIGH SCHOOL EXPERIENCE IN DIFFERENT FONTS#thEYRE THE SAME KINDA JUDGY SOMETIMES BITCHY BRAND OF YOUNG MAN. IM BEGGING. FOR SOME F#i dont mean that eddie cant make mistakes i just want it to not always be so blatantly STUPID AND FRUSTRATING AND NOT A MISTAKE HED MAKE!#its just. steve is allowed to make mistakes too and i like when he does!#steve is allowed to make a mistake and have to apologize i promise it wont kill you#sorry rant over i feel weightless and free now i need to reiterate these complaints once a month i think or ill be taken and executed
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Woke up again and he still wasn't next to me god is dead
Waking up every day and remembering that he's not real
#leon kennedy x reader#leon kennedy#re2 leon#re2 remake#resident evil#leon s kennedy#re2#leon s kennedy x reader#not apologizing for excessive keywords i know yall feel the same!!#hes so puppy#it's the universal experience#im mentally unwell#i need him#i have never needed someone so bad in my LIFEEEE#looking for gifs and the rose tyler one gaveme whiplash with how hard it took me back to 2014
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