#im also not bashing maddie in this

[transgenderastarion]

@theheartofthe118 ive been thinking a lot about chimney's relationship w his dad since im doing my pre-season 7 rewatch and u know? I am actually lying on the floor screaming crying pouding my fists because the writers keep pushing the "you should love and forgive ur family because there ur family" and like. Ok i can see them pushing that narrative with buck. I can see that they want to send the message that forgiving family is hard but possible.

But then mid season 3 when albert runs away from seoul and chimney confronts his dad about it he LITERALLY says he only has 1 son. No acknowledgement of Chim whatsoever. That's as good as a disownment. Clearly he wanted and wants nothing to do with Chim.

Maddie (? I think) was the one who convinced him because of Jee, but it makes me a bit sick that Maddie pushed so hard to "fix" their relationship even though it was so clear that neither of them wanted that.

Im trying to rlly put into clear words why this irks me? Because theres good and bad elements obviously. Forgiving family can be good, etc etc. But i think it's really attached to the fact that I was in Buck's exact place with parents who were good people but not good parents.

But i think maybe for me it's what do specifically Chim and Buck get out of this? Basically harassment. And the ONLY reason Chim's dad decided to stay and try was because of Jee. Not because of Chim, or interest in him, or the life that he built but because he gave him a grandchild.

It's like he has this picture of his family in his head with his ex wife, his new wife, albert, and Jee Yun, and Chimney is just like a black scribble on every picture. Why the hell should chimney forgive years and years, a lifetime full of neglect and STRAIGHT UP DISOWNMENT because Maddie thinks family is "important"

[firstprince-ao3feed]

don't say anything (except i love you)

by lou1spr1nce “How long have you two been together?” a voice asks next to him. Eddie startles at the low British tones, almost forgetting that he walked over to the bar with Henry. Eddie shakes his head and looks away, his cheeks flushing at the fact that he had been caught staring. “We’re not.” Henry looks down at Eddie, confused. “No?” He pauses for a moment, looks in Buck’s direction and then back to Eddie, reassessing. “But you’re in love with him?” he asks gently. Eddie thought about lying, but there is something about Henry that makes it almost easy to tell him the truth. Eddie also had a feeling that had he tried to lie, Henry wouldn’t believe him anyway. Eddie’s gaze finds its way back to Buck. Taking in his curls, the look on his face, the way he seems so relaxed and at peace. Buck hasn’t looked this happy in a long time. “How did you know,” is all Eddie responds. “Because you look at him the same way I used to look at Alex.” OR Eddie takes Buck along with him and Christopher to Austin, Texas for a Diaz Family Reunion™ at his uncle’s LBJ lake house, where Eddie’s cousin’s new fiancé, Henry, decides to play cupid for Buck and Eddie Words: 2292, Chapters: 1/8, Language: English Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV), Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: M/M Characters: Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Alex Claremont-Diaz, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, June Claremont-Diaz, Ellen Claremont, Oscar Diaz (Red White & Royal Blue), Nora Holleran, Minor Characters, TK Strand, Carlos Reyes (9-1-1 Lone Star), Mateo Chavez (9-1-1 Lone Star), Judd Ryder (9-1-1 Lone Star), Grace Ryder (9-1-1 Lone Star), Marjan Marwani, Maddie Buckley-Han (mentioned), Howard "Chimney Han (mentioned), Henrietta "Hen" Wilson (mentioned) Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Additional Tags: Mutual Pining, First Kiss, Getting Together, someone is trying to play cupid, i decided these characters should know each other so i became their god, Minor Tommy Kinard Bashing, im sorry i wish there was more, ill try harder next time, Gay Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Bisexual Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz and Alex Claremont-Diaz are Cousins, Christopher Diaz Has Two Dads, alex and henry meddling era, the whole buck and eddie thing, Canon Compliant, Fangirl Evan "Buck" Buckley, karaoke bar, a few bets for silly times, Christopher Diaz is a National Treasure, i hope you find this funny because i made myself laugh writing it, diaz family reunion, Buckley-Diaz Family (9-1-1 TV), Idiots in Love, POV Alternating via https://ift.tt/lNXFqpJ

[jojameswinter]

I’m DYING to analyze jiara please tell me what you think: Im so curious to know if the writers are gonna make it seem like Kie had a thing for JJ since season 1 or if they’re gonna make her start catching feelings for him and she realizes the major shift in her feelings towards him and starts to see him in a different light and she’s like oh no I’m falling and it kinda freaks her out because the only thing we got in season 1 was her saying “did you tell JJ” but that honestly could have been taken two ways either she didn’t want JJ to know because she did have a crush on him or she didnt want him thinking she would be easy and kiss him too or about breaking the no pouge on pouge macking or maybe she didn’t want to hurt JJ’s feelings because she rejected him when he tried the locked door and then we got the moment of Kie hugging JJ in the hot tub but that’s honestly what any friend would do in a situation like that so I can see why it can also be taken in a platonic way it wasn’t until season 2 that I started feeling a vibe and shift in Kie’s feelings towards jj when she told Luke do you have any idea how special your son is and then when they were teaming up in the season 2 finale and also having the surf trip convo she realized JJ is a lot like her and wants the same things she wants which is to travel etc and he protected her from getting hit with the machete which led to JJ almost drowning and Kie realized if he died he would have died protecting and trying to save her so that pulled out feelings she didn’t even know were there and she realized she didn’t want to lose him she was so scared so all of that really made it easier to open the first episode of season 3 with Kie starting to look at JJ in a romantic way…

I think they will play up on past feelings...to what degree, who knows, but I mean...it's all right there with the crumbs you mentioned. Also, there’s possibility of a younger/baby pogue flashback that could explain/show some things??? We know JB for sure and “young Sarah” is listed on IMDB (not 100% reliable accd to ppl that know - not me, lmao). If we got young jiara I WOULD COMBUST. 

"Did you tell JJ?" to me can only be taken in the way that she has some sort of crush/feelings for him BECAUSE of what comes after. John B being like "why do you ask?" with a suspicious look and her bashful "Just wondering. It's not..." comment. The way she trails off? I think if it were anything other than a crush on JJ she'd just answer JB directly?? I mean, whatever they meant for it to be in script who knows, but this is how Chase/Maddie played it and it def seems like crushing to me. Personally, the differences in how she treats JJ compared to JB/Pope even in S1 also read very much that she has different feelings for him, even if she can't totally explain it yet.

And yeah with the hot tub - she would be there for any of her friends, no doubt, but the way JJ lets her be there for him is really something. It also demonstrates to us the way they’re able to be vulnerable/break down to one another and can read what the other needs (sometimes it’s something subtle like “hey, you alright?” and sometimes it’s a hold me situation). Notice that Pope is sort of like a deer in headlights until Kie instantly knows what to do for JJ. I know a lot of us have said we’d love to see it in reverse where JJ’s the one to comfort Kie in a more overt way and we might get that S3!!!!!

That said, I do think there is still a shift of sorts on Kie’s part - some kind of acknowledgement of her feelings or feelings intensifying, etc. All the things you mentioned, the “special” comment to Luke, the container, the lifeboat - all these moments where she’s like OH...oh. 

You’re right, the crumbs definitely did set it up like the feelings are stirring now. Still, I didn’t expect things to move along as significantly as they seem to be! Granted, we really don’t know a lot, but we know the romantic still that broke us all is episode four, so???????? There could be time jumps too though, so I guess we’ll see - VERY SOON!!! I AM FERAL!!! I NEED PPL TO CHECK ON ME AND MAKE SURE I’M STILL BREATHING EVERY NOW AND AGAIN!!!

[ghostboyhood]

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

60. Do you believe in aliens?

HI VOID/MADDIE!!

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

uhmm idrk if this is unique but i have a really severe phobia of pregnancy and anything related to it....? when my mom was pregnant i would get nauseous touching/watching her stomach move, had to look away at the ultrasound i went to, threw up during the pregnancy unit in school, and js like... the idea of something growing inside a person, makes me wanna bash my fists against the wall and scream and cry 😍

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

ouuhhh okay... probably scotland??? its SO green and beautiful up there. where i grew up it was the opposite of green and literally seeing a tree thicker than my arm makes me freak out 😭😭 id like to just walk around nd see all i can yk? my family is also scottish n shit so thats smt ig,, honestly im not 1000% sure bc its hard to travel out of the country so i dont look into it as much ykwim? nothing tropical though im not rlly a fan of the beach or ocean n shit, id much rather see trees and old buildings

60. Do you believe in aliens?

im gonna say yes..? i dont think theres a single chance we are the ONLY living thing in the entire universe and beyond, theres no fucking wayyy.. i dont necessarily know WHAT they may be, humans, what we imagine aliens to be like, something we cant even comprehend, etc, but i do not believe for a second we're the only thing here

[ao3feedbuddie]

beating the odds (without a tennis racket and with a firehose instead)

read it on the AO3 at by pastelwolfie " tennis ball will approve of no one but perfection for her buck. he needs - at the very least - someone who will love him for him, and not consider him less than. it’s a low bar, isn’t it? god. tennis ball needs to raise her standards. someone who worships the ground buck walks along, and worships him as he is, flaws and all? better? someone who worships buck for who he is, knows what he needs, but is also someone buck can love back? there we go. maybe, if tennis ball manifests it hard enough, someone perfect will appear. … why, hello, eddie diaz. ”   // the lives of found-families and lovers, as told through the perspective of an invested, eager, possessive and slightly creepy tennis ball. or; the pov character is a hardcore buddie truther, but is also kinda horny for everyone. also she’s a tennis ball. the definition of a crack fic, but it’s also weirdly possessive and also, somehow, a character study i’m proud of? there’s a surprising amount of heavy feelings in here. it’s an odd concoction of things. title is 100% a sex joke fyi. if it wasn’t abundantly clear. Words: 21572, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death, Rape/Non-Con Categories: M/M Characters: Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Bobby Nash, Howie "Chimney" Han, Maddie Buckley, Henrietta "Hen" Wilson, Athena Grant, Ravi Panikkar Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Evan "Buck" Buckley & Bobby Nash, Maddie Buckley/Howie "Chimney" Han, Athena Grant/Bobby Nash Additional Tags: Abby Clark Bashing, Supportive Athena Grant, Evan "Buck" Buckley Loves Eddie Diaz, Bisexual Evan "Buck" Buckley, Evan "Buck" Buckley Whump, Domestic Violence, Angst, Mutual Pining, Getting Together, Canon Compliant, Crack, Crack Treated Seriously, POV Outsider, Firehouse 118 Crew as Family (9-1-1 TV), Suicidal Thoughts, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Canon-Typical Violence, Character Death, Character Study, unhinged behavior, Unreliable Narrator, Near Death Experiences, Beta Read, wow i feel cool using that tag, ps to my beta im so sorry, mild to aggressive bashing of everyone who isn't buck, did like a josh and made timely greys anatomy references, Dr Wells is her own warning, hey 911 what the fuck was up with that??, Mild Sexual Content, ?? maybe pov character is horny af, and also discussion on buck 1.0 read it on the AO3 at

[jeysbvck]

hey i dont watch the 911 show but im really curious what the maddie character needed to forgive herself for

why is the pretty milf on my dashboard sad

okay so i'll start this off by saying maddie is the cutest person in the world and she needs to be protected at all costs💖💖 she's one of my all time favourite female characters (this isn't going to bash her i just love giving maddie & JLH praise!)

also, this will be under the cut bc although my blog is full of 911 spoilers, a lot of them are out of context!

so, in the first gif of the gifset i reblogged, she was forgiving herself for not dying next to her abusive ex bc he kidnapped her and tried to kill her, and she killed him in self defense.

the second gif is her being told to forgive herself bc she has PPD, and her baby slipped under the water while maddie was giving her a bath bc maddie closed her eyes (it was literally seconds but maddie didn't know that) ultimately the baby was fine, but maddie ran away bc she didn't feel the baby was safe.

so basically maddie is traumatised and she needs protecting and if anyone ever has a bad thing to say about her i will personally fight them!

[buttercupbuck]

hey Alicia

so, were in the middle of fandom drama again, and I'm just so sad but also thankful to you for being so nice about things

firstly because I'm not trying to instigate more confusion here, so I'm trying to stay out of it and mostly because I kinda see what point both sides are pressing but I also can't ignore some things

I love Aisha, and Corinne and Angela, but I also love jlh - not because she's white, but because I think she's great and it's hard to see people comparing things and trying to create a mess when there's no need to be one

I'm not white - I'm latina - but I'm also "white passing" so this kinda of thing already make me uncomfortable because I heard my entire life that I have it easy and yes, I really think I do, all things considered, but that doesn't mean I'm not entitled to an opinion

because yes, poc people have it harder but you can't just go full 8 or 80 like it justifies everything - people success are not simply based on that and it's fucked up to assume so, mostly because we don't what they've been through

pain is relative, and you can't measure it in certain terms

I've heard my entire life that I wasn't white enough or latina enough and I'm so done with hearing that I don't get to say things because people have it harder than me - of course they do, there's always going to be someone that does

and I'm honestly fucking tired of hearing that I can't like someone I like, a character that makes me happy, because me liking her it's just because she's a "white woman doing the bare minimum"

I'm not a child, I have the discernment to look at something and think about it and just because I like a white woman doesn't mean I'm dumb or that I can't think for myself, just like liking characters of color doesn't make someone above acting entitled and taking conclusions about things

and the fact that it became a big thing? I hate it, because it's in moments like this that people start chosing sides, as if what I like defines me as a person

this is fucking internet, you don't know other people, no matter how much you like to think you do

sorry for the big rant, I just needed to get it out of my chest

yeah idk where people got it into their heads that the most racist thing a person can do is appreciate a white woman on tv but they clearly haven't gone outside in a while so it's not surprising

but i mean don't worry about having an opinion on all of this because all these people apparently doing the heavy antiracist work of bashing jlh are white as far as i know. they somehow made themselves out to be the authority on racism in fandom (when weirdly i've never seen them say shit about actual occurrences of racism in fandom) so like. don't worry about them is all im saying - you're defo allowed to feel some sort of way about all this bc it's fucking ridiculous

but yes like it's so frustrating. maddie isn't even my favorite character but the fact that people (and in particular, one WHITE woman) are so dismissive of any other reason why people might like her other than the fact that she's white is so insane. i don't like plenty of characters and yet i can understand that there are things about them that people DO like!

and like you said, liking characters of color doesn't make you antiracist, and making SUCH a point about how much you love them and hate white characters is just,,a little weird to me tbh!! especially when a lot of these people are white and brag about how they only care about characters of color...tis a little fishy to me

[fufesworld]

9-1-1 season 4 finale thoughts

So after 4x13 and the promos for next week episode and how we are all losing our minds i have some thoughts about buck/eddie/buddie (english is not my first language so bare with me)

i love buck and buddie as much as the next person but PLEASE PLEASE dont forget that this episode is about eddie and him being shot, of course this will bring a lot of suffering for buck, but dont take the spotlight from eddie. but something that in general we all have been asking (at least thats what i saw) is for more eddie screentime and for him to deal with his ptsd from the war and this is the perfect oportunity to delve into that

talking about buddie, i have two things to say. one, if they dont end up together this season or next ones, i beg you DONT COME FOR THE ACTORS/SHOW, yes it’ll suck cause it something we have all been waiting for but that does not give anyone the permission to harass the actors (REAL PEOPLE with emotions). besides its just as important to have mlm relationships on screen as it is to have strong and love-filled platonic ones. its not often that you see male friendships which are as strong as theirs, where they are allowed to be emotional and find support on the other.

also dont bash the show because let me tell 911 is an amazing show that does not revolve around one ship.

dont forget one of the reason this show is so loved by its fans is all the beautiful stories in it. Only the portrayal of how a family doesnt look one way is amazing: we have bobby and athena and michael and david and the kids,hen and karen with denny and them being foster parent (and the reality of that situation), maddie and chim who had a kid without being married fist, eddie being a single parent with chris, all of the dynamics between the members of the 118 and the dispatch and probably more that im forgetting right now.

this without mentioning all of the important subjects they talk about like the racism that michael and the kids faced when they were stopped by the police, and how hen and chimney had to fight for their place once on the 118, or how in last episode the doctor didnt care about hens mom because she is black.

the show also doesnt shy from talking about mental health and how helpful going to therapy is, and more recently how post-pregnancy can affect a person and their mental health.

tl; dr, dont forget buck is not the only character on 911 and even if buddie doesnt happen that doesnt mean the show is horrible (or that their relationship is not important) and you should stop watching (i mean you do you) because there are a lot of amazing storylines to enjoy in it

[johnbroutledge]

OTPs and NOTPs

i was tagged by the wonderful @faewithfangs. thank you love. i cannot tell you the dread i have going into this. :P 

OTPS

evan buckley/eddie diaz; buddie, 911 on fox

maddie buckley/chimney han; madney, 911 on fox 

hen wilson/karen wilson; henren, 911 on fox

tk strand/carlos reyes; tarlos; 911 lonestar

grace ryder/judd ryder; grudd; 911 lonestar

luke patterson/reggie peters; ruke, julie and the phantoms

alex mercer/willie; willex, julie and the phantoms 

jj maybank/john b. routledge; outer banks

kelly severide/stella kidd; stellaride, chicago fire

kelly severide/matt casey; sevasey, chicago fire 

and a whole bunch more, idk. 

NOTPS

im prefacing all of this with, i understand WHY people ship it, and i respect that and will never like hate on, bash, or start drama over your ship, but yeah, it’s not my thing. 

julie molina/luke patterson; juke, julie and the phantoms. right so im half in and half out with this one. i kinda ship it i kinda don’t. like its cute but also boys a ghost, so like, no matter how cute it is....

sylvie brett/matt casey; brettsey, chicago fire. i love them both so much i really do, i just. something about it just doesn’t vibe with me? i could maybe change my mind one day, when i figure out WHY it bothers me so much cause like objectively its adorable, but. eh. which also brings me to its not really about dawsey either cause....

gabby dawson/matt casey; dawsey, chicago fire. this started out adorable, i really loved them, and then it just....became really toxic. like. really really toxic. which i will probably never forgive the writers for, but whatever. 

I am gonna tag @ashavahishta @thisissirius @madamewriterofwrongs @gracieli @oneawkwardcookie @matan4il @tarlosbuddie @from-nova @buddie-brettsey @sayankotor @evaneddie and anyone else who wants to play!

[dontmesswithnoheroin]

somebody just submitted this into my inbox and im wheezing omfg

If you can still give Gal Gaddot dignity and acknowledge her humanity even when she doesn’t care about the lives of thousands of Palestinian people under military brutality and war crimes, also partook in idf, then WHY can’t you do the same for Sia’s autism misrep scandal and the rest of them? WHY?! They probably feel the same as Gal when you fling them poop too! So cut this selective “teaching a lesson to”?! Leave all alone or call all out, don’t be a double standard shitfuck! 

Look, don’t throw literal shit at Gal G-dot, but don’t deny her slipups and crimes too! #FreePalestine 🇵🇸

Come on, it is obviously known she did:

- Serve in the IDF during the 2006 Lebanon fiasco

- Expressed her support and praise IDF from time to time even after her mandatory service, her most famous one being the 2014 Gaza bombings which lost 4 boys. Even Holocaust survivors in the Haaretz spoke out against that incident saying it’s gone too far. Never apologized or retracted that. That specific FB post also still up.

- Allegedly responded poorly to a former friend’s r*pe and blamed the friend while defending the perpetrator

- Talks about her military service with pride and “how it has helped her play WW” despite simps’ claims that she hated IDF but was forced to do that

- Subtly mass stereotype all Palestinians and MENA Muslims as ‘terrorists’ and ‘inferior stock’ in her community. Have you seen WW84’s hateful writing?

Why people don’t care about Palestinians or military brutality war crimes in this case:

- “Gal is too hot and cute!!!12!! I’m gay for her!!!11!!”

- Gotten too attached to her thru watching her “relatable moments” and funny or sweet-presenting propaganda where she “being herself”…'psycho’ actresses sure can mask well, can’t they?

- Tried to hamster away her exact words by claiming she sorta apologized in some other way or “said something to counter that!!11!!1”. She only stood up for Arabs with Israeli citzenship ONLY, still not the Palestinian neighbours so simps stop bluffing! And saying “peeaceeee” multiple times is so vague. Does that word to Gal imply taking Palestine land and genociding the children?!

- pull the “Palestine is not oppressed” card. But when you just attack neutral run-of-the-mill Palestinian citizens and families and prevent vaccine supplies from them and go beyond apartheid, you know you’ve crossed some serious lines and can conclude Palestine is oppressed too.

- feel sympathy for her even though they hypocritically say “you shouldn’t feel sympathy for supremacists or terfs or military bootlickers!!!11!!“ 

- they have become stupid simps for her

All while no problem attacking and cancelling other people like Sia, Gina, Letitia Wright - NOT defending or condoning their deeds too but Gal is in such a similar boat don’t excuse it. At least Sia never was a sergeant or cheered on the bombing of a certain area 

How do you scrub this kind of idiotic self-righteous hypocrisy and pious smugness?!?! If you can still give Gal dignity and acknowledge her humanity even with blood on her hands and beliefs, then WHY can’t you do the same for the rest of them? WHY?! They probably feel the same as Gal when you fling them poop too! So cut this selective "teaching a lesson to”?! Leave all alone or call all out, don’t be a double standard shitfuck! And Maddie Ziegler supports Sia but that does not mean she is defending the movie, she was just doing interviews!

Edit: Admit that the USA’s coverups and censorship of Gal’s pro-idf and borderline supremacist views also helped some!

You know America is all about stanning Israel and military, same with their allies, so obviously not letting too many know about Gal’s statements and putting out good propaganda of her to cover it would boost. 

When US wants her as a token, they will have her as a token.

Edit 2: Just to be clear, Israel can have their areas but let Palestinians have some land too. And don’t go genocidal on them for it 

Okay sis first of all I haven’t even seen Wonder Woman, if I simped for Gal Gadot some years ago it is because I am a wlw and was not aware of what she stands for. I’ve had this blog for over 10 fucking years of my life, starting when I was 15. I simped for a lot of bad people and I probably used the n-word, the r-word and a bunch of shit I’m not proud of. This blog is a personal journal to me, something I’ve used to grow in years which were really hard in my life, and I’ve probably posted a bunch of shit that should have never been posted. If I’ve ever defended Gal Gadot, among the 30,000 posts I posted on this blog in the past, then I admit, I was wrong.

But you literally coming here writing me this essay, it’s hysterical to me that you took your time to write this all out. Obviously you have some frustrations in your life that makes you write this shit, I know that all my frustrated posts on this page at celebrities, billionaires, etc, all come from simple life frustrations and I come here to vent. I post my posts as if nobody was ever gonna read them because I’m a nobody on this site, and nobody in life in terms of reach. It’s funny to me that you decided to equate some post I made years ago (how did you even find those??? i have literal 1000s of pages on my tumblr) with what I say about Sia. Autism happens to be very personal to me. And although I feel very strongly about what’s going on in Palestine and support the Palestinians (which I also posted about in the past, I’m pretty sure I also reblogged shit about Gal Gadot you mention but I guess you haven’t found those posts on my blog), I do not have as much of a personal connection to it, so I don’t post about it as much. And I’m still bewildered, where did I say I like Gal Gadot??? Last I recall I posted about Gal Gadot organizing this fucking disaster of a pandemic celebrity song contest.

But anyway, all this being said, you literally cannot come to people and bash them for not being ideologically pure. I’m 26 so I don’t give two shits about what you think of me, but there are teenagers on this site that really take this stuff personally. That get anxious about not being the perfect humans, invested in all issues at once. Everyone fights their own battles, sis. We can’t all support all causes at once. I will never support Israel but I can’t single handedly change the situation of the Palestinians, and especially not through a fucking tumblr post. So while I’m gonna post this, because maybe some people want to get educated about what goes on, why don’t we just quit making people feel guilty for not being aware about every single bad thing any celebrity did at all times? Like, I think the volunteer work I do with refugees in my country in real life helps much more than bashing celebrities online about their ideology on a blog nobody is ever gonna look at twice. 

Maybe I’m too old and this is just a troll but it’s pretty incredible to me that you come into my inbox calling me all kinda shit. If you’re having a bad day, a frustrating time in the pandemic, sorry sis. Me too. Hope this venting helped you. 

Yours truly,

Double Standards Shitfuck <3

[carry-on-my-wayward-hobbit]

So my flat mate invited her friends down to celebrate their birthday the day before mine and suggested we do a joint birthday sesh which’s be fine but I won’t be able to invite all of my friends bc logistically we just don’t have enough space in the house, but now if I have a sesh the day after on my actual birthday then no one will wanna go out bc they’ll all be dead from the day before

[introverdt]

EEEEEE !!! i really love your bernie so far. you really nail her voice and like??? write her inner dialogue really well. i also just love the metas you post on her *chefs kiss*

JUDGE ME PLEASE.

 aAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.  mADDIE --- HONESTLY IM AWFUL AT WRITING BASHFUL CHARACTERS ---- so i means  A LOT  to me for you to say that i fuckin nailed it and i just hAVE A LOT OF LOVE FOR OUR HERMIT GIRL AND FOR U TOO OFC THANK

[gettin-bi-bi-bi]

I have a friend who I like just fine it’s just that we are not compatible at all. The thing is that she was in drama w our other friends who ditched her for that reason. Like she’s nice and stuff and there’s nothing wrong with her at all she’s just kinda boring. She’s quiet, shy and not that mature and I’m loud, edgy and analytical. She’s just on her phone all the time (tbf everyone in our grade is) but it makes me want to bash my head in from boredom. If she’s the one who’s depending one (1/2)

she can put some effort into the friendship so I won’t have to feel like I’m monologuing. It’s like she doesn’t dare to have an opinion. She cares way more abt me than I do about her which makes me feel guilty but like I can’t help that! I already fake my feelings/personality on so many occasions and mask my insecurities behind a ton of faux self confidence it’s super exhausting if I have to fake my internal fucking emotions too. She’s always sad bc she doesn’t have any friends at (2/?)

school so I started hanging out with my bf and his friends more cuz I wanted to actually talk to someone for once but then our teacher asked me to hang out with her more bc I needed to “take care of her since she was so alone”. I tried talking to my parents about this (just saying that I personally thought that she was boring I still do hang w her) but they got mad at me for being selfish. I’m extroverted and get no energy if I can’t talk to ppl so thing along with my parents saying that (3/?)

A bad person just for expressing my feelings about a friend really takes it toll on my mental health, cuz I knew I was a bit of a bitch k, but this was one of the times where I thought I did something moral but I guess I have to think a certain way too :) I’ve considered skipping school bc I don’t want the responsibility of making sure she’s happy (like she won’t eat if I’m not there) and I’m just so tired all the time I barely have the energy to get changed. If im truly the asshole in this(4/?)

situation then I’m honestly better off not trying to be a better person in anyway bc I’ll never achieve that standard. This sounds super guilt trippy but I just needed to vent and everyone irl just seems to blame me (even my bf thinks I’m being rude but I may have said some not so nice things when talking too him so that’s fair tbh). My parents (especially my dad) always think I’m being selfish so I’ve sorta adopted that persona but I truly believed I was being nice this time.

I’ve thought very hard about what to tell you because I understand you’re a teenager, going through puberty, trying to do things right / do what people expect you to do while at the same time wanting to be “loud and edgy”.

I also understand you just “want to vent” here but I can’t help but leave you with a little piece of advice, mostly for the sake of that girl in your school but also because you came to an advice blog (about bisexuality, but whatever...) so that’s what you’ll get here:

Don’t ever be friends with someone out of pity! If you find her boring and don’t want to be her friend then don’t pretend to be her friend! You keep trying to justify to yourself why the two of you don’t fit together as friends so take the necessary consequences and not be her friend. You don’t have to go straight to hating her. Just be a friendly, neutral schoolmate to her. But don’t make her believe you can be anything more than that if you don’t want to be more than that.

Furthermore it’s not your job to make other people happy or please them. But the bare minimum you can do is be honest with people. It’s fine you don’t want to be friends with someone. You don’t have to justify it, you don’t have to feel guilty for it. But be fair enough to be honest and not lead someone on!

Maddie

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since yall kept fuckin asking heres 1-155. Go ahead and see how fucking lame I actually am

1: Full name: Madison Lyn (I’m not putting my last name on the internet lmao)

2: Age:19

3: 3 Fears: heights, elevators, being alone for the rest of my life 

4: 3 things I love: cats, coffee, sleeping

5: 4 turns on: (I’m gonna make it nonsexual okay): body mods, humor, good vibes, nice laugh

6: 4 turns off: (gonna make these nonsexual too): rude, nasty, conceited, takes days to reply lmao

7: My best friend: girl: @bohoangel guy: @bostonnanner

8: Sexual orientation: pansexual

9: My best first date: haven’t had a best one yet, need someone to change that lmao

10: How tall am I: 5′8

11: What do I miss: lots of things and people both too many too name

12: What time was I born: 2:06am

13: Favourite color: blue

14: Do I have a crush: still crushin on my last man

15: Favourite quote: either some vine or “I’m here for a good time not a long time” I have way too many favs

16: Favourite place: my room, best friends house, or beach house

17: Favourite food: buffalo chicken or alfredo

18: Do I use sarcasm: of course not 

19: What am I listening to right now: music ;)

20: First thing I notice in new person: smile

21: Shoe size: no

22: Eye color: hazel

23: Hair color: naturally brunette currently red

24: Favourite style of clothing: gothic, pop punk or hippie/boho

25: Ever done a prank call?: I havent personally 

27: Meaning behind my URL: I needed to change my url of 8 years and I wanted something short and easy to remember but I also wanted it to be a band so it would fit my blog and surprisingly this one wasnt taken

28: Favourite movie: I have way too many 

29: Favourite song: again way too many

30: Favourite band: AGAIN way too many

31: How I feel right now: I feel fucking exhausted 

32: Someone I love: okay now Im sad 

33: My current relationship status: okay NOW Im crying but single

34: My relationship with my parents: welp my dads dead and my mom and I are okay

35: Favourite holiday: Halloween or Christmas

36: Tattoos and piercing I have: no tattoos yet and I have my nose pierced and first and second holes pierced on my ears

37: Tattoos and piercing I want: too many

38: The reason I joined Tumblr: I was 12 that should be enough

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: No. In fact I could never hate him and I dont think I’ll love anyone like I did/do him.

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: eh sometimes

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? last text over imessage yes

42: When did I last hold hands?: I have no idea

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: I dont do anything really so not too long

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?: dont out me

45: Where am I right now?: my room

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: @bohoangel

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: both

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?: mom

49: Am I excited for anything?: nah

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? @bostonnanner

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?: eh

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?: yesterday

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?: I mean idc but it’d just be fucking weird cause they’re kissing in front of me 

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?: plenty of people lmao

55: What is something I disliked about today?: I’ll do yesterday since today hasnt really happened. But it was fathers day and my heart was hurting so bad cause I miss my dad more than anything and really wish he was still here

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: my fuckin soulmate bitch

57: What do I think about most?: in all honesty, my ex

58: What’s my strangest talent?: I can do this smile thing that nobody else can do and it makes me look like a frog

59: Do I have any strange phobias?: probably

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: in front

61: What was the last lie I told?: that I was a child of God

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: video chatting but I dont mind either

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: fuck yes and fuck yes

64: Do I believe in magic?: I’m a god damn witch bitch

65: Do I believe in luck?: I believe in karma

66: What’s the weather like right now? according to my phone its currently clear and 61 degrees

67: What was the last book I’ve read?: I have no idea

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?: eh

69: Do I have any nicknames? Maddie, Mad, Mads

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?: I had a staph infection in my foot that went back and forth across my foot and then up my leg (doctor said if my mom didn’t bring me when she did I would’ve died cause it would’ve gone to my heart)

71: Do I spend money or save it?: spend it 

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?: nope

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? ye

74: Favourite animal?: cats

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?: I have no idea

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?: oh shit I’ve never thought of this

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?: good question

78: How can you win my heart?: Be Italian 

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? I honestly have no idea

80: What is my favorite word? bitch

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: I get asked this way too much

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?: probably some hippie bullshit

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?: I’ve had relatives in jail but I dont think anyones in jail rn

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? theres too many lmao

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? probably if I’ve smoked or drank or have done anything bad but only if my mom was asking

86: What is my current desktop picture? its just basic 

87: Had sex?: nah

88: Bought condoms?: nah

89: Gotten pregnant?: nah

90: Failed a class?: nah

91: Kissed a boy?: ye

92: Kissed a girl?: ye

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?: nah

94: Had job?: ye

95: Left the house without my wallet?: ye

96: Bullied someone on the internet?: nah

97: Had sex in public?: nah

98: Played on a sports team?: ye

99: Smoked weed?: ye

100: Did drugs?: nothing hardcore just smoking weed

101: Smoked cigarettes?: nah

102: Drank alcohol?: ye

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?: I’ve tried

104: Been overweight?: no answer

105: Been underweight? also no answer

106: Been to a wedding?: ye

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?: ye

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?: ye

109: Been outside my home country?: nah

110: Gotten my heart broken?: of course

111: Been to a professional sports game?: ye

112: Broken a bone?: ye

113: Cut myself?: ye

114: Been to prom?: ye

115: Been in airplane?: ye

116: Fly by helicopter?: nah

117: What concerts have I been to?: pink, metallica/volbeat, warped tour 2016,2017,2018, jingle ball, some birthday bash, I cant remember if I’ve been to any other ones lmao

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?: not entirely 

119: Learned another language?: not fully

120: Wore make up?: ye

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?: I’m a child of god

122: Had oral sex?: nah

123: Dyed my hair?: ye

124: Voted in a presidential election?: not yet

125: Rode in an ambulance?: couldve a couple times but my parents decided to drive me

126: Had a surgery?: nah

127: Met someone famous?: I guess? 

128: Stalked someone on a social network?: who doesnt do this

129: Peed outside?: ye

130: Been fishing?: ye

131: Helped with charity?: I think so

132: Been rejected by a crush?: who doesnt get rejected

133: Broken a mirror?: probably

134: What do I want for birthday?: lots of things

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?: I have no idea

136: Was I named after anyone?: No but I have the same middle name as my aunt

137: Do I like my handwriting?: ye

138: What was my favorite toy as a child?: I have no idea

139: Favorite Tv Show?: American Horror Story, Bob’s Burgers, The Office, or Drunk History

140: Where do I want to live when older?: New Hampshire

141: Play any musical instrument?: I can play the violin and piano and can also sing but idk if that counts lmao

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?: its barely noticeable but literally right under my left eye (like right at the edge of my dark circle lmao) I got attacked by a dog and it bit me in the face and I had to get stitches but I bitched out and had it glued instead lmao

143: Favorite pizza topping? cheese

144: Am I afraid of the dark?: depends where I am

145: Am I afraid of heights?: ye

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?:nah

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?: haha yeah

148: What I’m really bad at: everything

149: What my greatest achievements are: I fucking graduated from high school. Like I would never wish what I went through on anyone ever not even my worst enemy. It was worse than hell

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: I honestly dont remember 

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: lots of stuff

152: What do I like about myself: my eyebrows

153: My closest Tumblr friend: I cant say @bohoangel cause I’ve known her since 5th grade so I’ll say @bostonnanner even though we met on omegle years ago lmao

154: Something I fantasize about: lots of things

155: Any question you’d like?: literally whatever anyone wants to know

[thereviewchannel-blog]

The 100 Season 5 Predictions

Most of us already know that season 4 ended with a mysterious ship entering Earth’s atmosphere and basically touching down right beside Clarke and her new Nightblood. What we don't know is, who is in that ship? How did Clarke and Maddie survive? And what about Bellamy, Raven and the others? What about character growth? Season 5 is going to be a brand new show. I think its going to be different from all the other seasons. Will the fans like this change? These are some of my predictions for season 5 of the 100.

Prediction #1, The Mysterious Ship:

A ship touches down, and we are left with one of the biggest cliffhangers in the 100’s history. Who is in that ship? As sucky as it is to say I don't think Bellamy, Raven, Monty and the others are in that ship. First off the ship has the words Eligius Corporation written on the side of it. I think it also said Cell Block-R (Couldn't really see it too well.) Then Prisoner Transport. Could whoever is in this ship be prisoners from another Ark in space? Or from a planet colony. Now for this I have two theories. The first being that I think it’s really interesting that the show is introducing a “Wayland-Yutani Corp”. Eligius might be the 100’s Wayland Corporation. How crazy would that be?! What does this mean though? Well if you're a big fan of anything from the Alien movies or anything in that Ridley Scott universe he’s created then you know that Wayland Corp. isn't the most upstanding ethical company to work for. I mean look at poor Ripley. All the sh*t she had to go through. What if Eligius Corp was either working with Becca’s company Infinity, or had Becca working for them. Could the nightblood have something to do with all of this? Could those people be part of a prisoner experimentation to create nightblood for planet mining or colonizing another planet? Would these people be the originals waking up from cryo-sleep or would they be the descendents? My second theory isn't so exciting, or interesting but This could be a ship from another Ark. Perhaps a private company that didn't want to be under the laws of the Ark, which was built by the world Governments. Question is are these people(Yes people, no they wouldn't bring in aliens that's ridiculous. . I hope.) good or bad? Well I think this is going to set up a brand new “Problem”. You know how the 100 likes to throw one problem right after another at us? It's just how it is. Will these new space people be able to live with the Grounders? With Clarke, Bellamy and the others?

Prediction #2, How Did They Survive:

How does Clarke and Maddie survive? You’ve got to think that Primfya would have killed off all the animals, most of the plants and veggies. So what did they live off of? They wouldn't just leave that unanswered would they? How do the others survive on the Ark? I think season 5 is going to be a lot of flashbacks. Theyre going to show us in bits and pieces how everyone evolved, and survived. We’re going to see flashbacks on the Ark, on the ground and within the Earth Where Octavia has risen to be Commander.

Prediction #3, Character Growth/Bellarke Predictions:

Will there be character growth and what does that mean for certain individuals? What does that mean for the show? Most certainly there will be. There were two key important things I read in an interview with Jason Rothenberg. The first being he stated (Paraphrasing) that “Clarke was the Head and Bellamy was the Heart.” As fans of the show we know this is a major running theme throughout the show. Whether you’re a Bellarke fan or not, there's no denying that Bellamy and Clarke treat each other like a crutch, and play on one another's strengths.Clarke needs Bellamy's passion, and impulsive nature. Otherwise she comes off as cold and detached. Bellamy needs Clarke's strong will and her factual decision making to make the tough calls that Bellamy cant or doesnt want to make. I don't know if anyone else got this impression while watching the season 4 finale but the time jump forward you could see Clarke looked different. I don't mean her appearance, her short hair with the red little streak, I mean she looked more at peace. I think this season is really going to show just how much Clarke has finally forgiven herself for all the things she has done. She found Maddie who looks to be about 12 years old so Clarke likely found her when she was 6. I think raising Maddie and saving her, has not only made Clarke bond with her on a maternal level but I think it was kind of her redemption. Clarke saved her and she felt like she had finally done something good that didn't require anyone’s sacrifice. I think Clarke will have finally forgiven herself for all the people she’s killed. Now I think Bellamy is going to be very different. I can’t say he’s forgiven himself, because Bellamy is one of those people that can never forget the things he’s done. I think that ties into his brooding, and impulsive nature. Though this season I think we’re going to see something different. Bellamy will still be the Bellamy we all know and love but I think he’ll be a bit stronger, emotionally. Bellamy has always been a leader. In fact Octavia tells him that right before the radio cuts out at the end of season 4. She tells him that these people look up to her and that it should be him or Clarke. We all know that Raven, Monty, even John will all follow Bellamy willingly because Bellamy has always had that leader personality. Though, this time he won't have his crutch to lean on, Clarke. I think this season is really going to emphasize just how much Bellamy will have to be the Head and the Heart. He will have to be the Clarke and the Bellamy. As a leader on the Ark he will have to make decisions based on fact and not his emotions, which is something he’s not really used to doing. I think that's really going to change just how much he needs Clarke. . Meaning, he won't need her anymore.

Another important thing Jason Rothenberg said in an interview is that these characters, have been separated a lot longer then they have been together. That’s a really good point. I am a huge Bellarke fan but when I read this, I was genuinely surprised. From the moment the 100 touched the ground to the moment Bellamy, Raven, Monty and the others have to go into space it’s only been about 7 months. Bellamy, Raven, Monty, Clarke, and Murphy, along with a few others have all only been on the ground together for about 6 to 7 months. They will all be apart for 6 years. Thats a long a time. Which brings me to the most depressing prediction I have. Bellarke. . . I think there will be no Bellarke in season 5. “MAYBE” at the end of season 5 we will start to see Bellamy and Clarke get closer, to the point there might be a Bellarke in Season 6 but no Bellarke for season 5. :( I know, sadness. The reason I think this is one very annoying character by the name of Echo. The show has made it a point that Bellamy and Echo have a chemistry. Now Im not saying for sure that Bellamy’s gonna come down from space with his arms around Echo, because he could very well end up with Raven. After all he and Raven do have history. A naked history lol. But for some reason I have a gut feeling it’s gonna be Echo. . That wh**e.. Lol jk. Now originally I had thought that Bellamy might come down with a girlfriend, and a kid. Ugh dreaded I know. Clarke is the only one who can have his babies. But I had read that having children actors is very difficult to work with, and I’m really banking that that's true. Hoping. Hopefully someday we will have a Bellarke. They wouldn't end the show without a Bellarke right? Right?! I mean, it’s cannon! It’s in the damn books! I think it will also be interesting to see Octavia in a different role. The Grounders treated Octavia like she was the new Heda. Their new leader. This is something that has never been introduced to Octavia’s character and I look forward to seeing her fill out that role. 

I didnt really like season 4, without bashing too harshly on the season, because I’ve done that already, Im hoping season 5 will be better. Even if Bellamy does come down from space with a girlfriend. Though the last episode was really good and I liked the cliffhanger it left us with. Now we just have to wait for 2018. Whoo, fun. Better get out my 100 books for a Bellarke fix.

[loveaghostking]

What happened with your friends? You're a smart girl Maddie I know you're doing the right thing

some of the boys decided to show their true colors and were bashing on lgbt pride month and were talking shit basically and i got fed up and decided i was done with them. some of my friends also let that behavior slide and it makes me feel sick to my stomach that they do even tho they are apart of the lgbt and they have friends (me and others) who are also lgbt and its like why the fuck dont you stick up for yourself and others?! idk im just done hanging around certain people, im not going to put myself in an uncomfortable place. and thank you for believing in me, i appreciate it! come off anon friend!!