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sporeclan · 9 months

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All grown up <3

#clangen #clan generator #warriors oc #warrior cats #sporeclan #only two of them got to get their names :((((((((#you all have no idea how much i wanted to instantly burst into tears when spottedfrost saw mousegrove doing her best. sobbing. wailing even #also i love you piperkit. she cant stop talking about snails ever to the detriment of her family's sleep schedule and i love her for it #sc moons #sc:mousegrove #sc:piperkit #sc:finchkit #sc:spottedpaw #sc:spottedfrost #sc:cliffpaw #sc:cliffthicket #sc:foxspeckle #sc:oakfox #sc:minklake #sc:fadedtuft #a little fun fact i looked through the files to see what mushroompaws name wouldve been and it was mushroomprance... so cute </3 #im keeping cinnamonpaw's name a secret for now in case he ever returns #edit: i forgot to add the ages and genders................ sigh.............. its what i get for drawing while tired and exhausted

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sualne · 1 month

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my voice has started to drop and ive been in a near constant state of gender euphoria this week :DD

#im so happy (≧∇≦)#i also disturbed the shit out of my jet lagged & sleep deprived little sister who hadnt seen me in weeks lmao #edit: but like imagine youre all kind of exhausted from work and holidays and heat and everything and when you come back home to #your transexual sibling you dont vibe too much with and the mf speak to you with another man's voice 😂😂 her face was the #funniest shit i cant wait to meet the rest of my family and see their reaction. its so funny cause plenty of them thought i had already #started hrt years ago so idk idk it's going to be funn

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ink-blot-thoughts · 5 months

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It is so eternally funny to me that the Fatui have acquired every single gnosis peacefully... except for Venti.

Zhongli had his contract, Yae Miko traded Ei's, Nahida also traded hers and Ei's, and Neuvilette just gave that shit away. Like we're introduced to them as stealing all the Gnoses and then they drop that shit immediately.

Even worse, they steal it from Venti. Fucking Venti. Mr Had a 500 Year Nap. Mr Tells His City To Be Free and Fucks Off. Mr Steals Wine For Himself. That dude. That's the one it was necessary to dropkick.

Like Signora could have sauntered up with an apple in one hand and a bottle of wine in the other and Venti would have given up his gnosis faster than you can say 'Freedom'.

And even if we go with the theory that Venti knows much more than he let's on, he would've have probably given it away anyway considering what we know now about the third Descender and all.

Like Signora had zero need for the bitchslap-dropkick-combo but she needed the Fatui to have a girl boss reputation so she did anyway. Rate. We stan a proactive Queen ig.

#genshin impact #genshin impact fatui #fatui harbingers #genshin #genshin lore #gnosis #like seriously its fucking Venti #its so funny to me not even Scara try to kick Ei's ass for the gnosis #like everyone else gets peace but Signora had to go to Mondstadt and decided nah thats shits personal im dropkicking him #In front of the church too like she did not give a fuck #i like to think she reports back to the tsaritsa who sighs loudly and internally wonders why the fuck she recruited all these batshit people #also rip Raiden she didnt even get to give away her gnosis despite the fact it was traded twice lmao #its the middle of the night and i cant sleep but im exhausted so yall get my insane genshin posting yw x

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deoidesign · 2 months

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I adore reading your rambling tags, don't stop posting things there 😩

Don't you worry. I think I might be incapable of stopping idk what happened I never used to tag ramble

#asks #anon #i do really love talking. clearly LOL #but ive also been working on listening the past few years #and thays pretty cool too #i had to learn how to think before i speak. like legitimately im not hearing the words I say #im thinking about my next sentence while i say the current one #its exhausting and i never remember what I've said HWJJJSDJEJ #but people tell me im direct and deliberate and clear so idk...#but listening is also really hard...#conversation in general is really hard #i stll love it of course #its just very tiring for me #which is PART of why I like to do this when i cant sleep cause of nightmares or whatever #tires me out haha and also is a great distraction #and is good practice! for me #so idk i just like it. and its nice to know its not annoying #i wouldn't post hardly any words at all without the safety of the tags #they're not rebloggable so thats a relief #you have to opt in to read them #the space is limited. etc etc #so. im glad it is wn option and im glad its a welcome one!#no intention to stop #thank you for the reassurance on it #delete later #maybe. I'm so tired i need to check later to see if i wnt to delete it #anxiety meds working yay i can sleep bye

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roachemoji · 7 months

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#bo posting #croutons #but also this is a #vent #i need tbis cat to let me sleep through tge night just ince #im so tired and im waking up just #exhausted emotionally #im so anxious still #im terrified and catastrophizing #forcing myself not to isolate even though ever fiber of my being is screaming at me to #convinced that no one believes or understands the extent of how bad things r rn #and that bc no one believes me #everything i do is seen as.... purposeful #or personal #convinced theres nothing i could say or do that would accurately describe how i feel #and more convinced i already need to know what would help before i can ask for it #and since i dont know i cant ask for help #🫠

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funshinebf · 3 months

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i need 2 do this to amber more than i need oxygen rn.

#its loving my gf and needing to snuggle her like kittens in a basket hours #my post #unfortunately im also EXHAUSTED so i cant message her cause im gonna sleep now 😭#fucked up. i need to be able to talk to her even while im asleep #maybe if my brain is kind to me tonight.. i shall see her in mine dreams.... sighs longingly #amber #amber if u see this GOODNIGHT I LOVE YOY SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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cephalopaints · 1 year

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more of these guys

#splatoon #splatoon 3 #artists on tumblr #splatoon oc #art tag #ocs #clownin' around #koya #taki #just like hook line and sinker they both use koya n taki as stage names but i cant ever think of real names lol #you can also kinda tell i like drawing koya more #its really early for me to be sleeping but im so exhausted I Want To Sneep #portfolio

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bluesidedown · 7 months

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I just want to fly to Tibet and not think about character growth or the future or navigating relationships

#im so tired. and like I'll survive it but then i have to continue on and survive the next thing too.#right now im thinking about my next year and just. the rest of february and march sound just barely manageable #april and the start of may will be pretty good probably #the summer idk probably fine #but then. finishing my second degree. working. paying off loans. looking for a job i actually might sustainably want.#i cant. imagine having to do all of that.#i feel like i do so much complaining on here lately im so sorry #irl i feel like i cant complain to anyone cuz objectively im getting to do one of the coolest things imaginable #and like. im really thankful and whatever and thats what i have to project to my irl people. its just also incrediblyy hard and exhausting.#whatever its after midnight and while i feel like this a little bit most of the time sleep will help. it will all feel slightly better #in the morning

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opens-up-4-nobody · 6 months

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#remember when i could draw? when i had time to draw and color?#bleh. im just sorta exhausted and dont feel good and starting to get overwhelmed by all that i need to get done #weirdest version of being sick ive had. i dont have a fever but i feel hot and my throat hurts and i have to take deep breaths but not #really coughing so im like??? am i sick???#ugh. i dunno ive been going to sleep at like 9pm and its only 7 and im so tired but i have a paper to read #maybe ill read it in the morning and not do pigment analysis tomorrow... but i wanna see those god damn pigment >:-(#i dunno. im also just kinda frustrated bc im running into things that my mum was in control of the info on #so its like: well i cant access my fasfa account. i dont kno where my vaccine info is. i dont kno if my mum had uterine fibroids before it #all turned to cancer. i dunno. im just tired #also i bitched out on a pap smear bc it hurt too bad. so ive had a day.#but ive got a birth control perception again. i dont wanna take it but like i cant really aford to go out of focus and go out of commission #via pain. so like i guess i gotta. ugh. it better not fuck with my medication #hopefully ill wake up tomorrow and all will be well in the world #unrelated

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saeshiraw · 1 year

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tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one?#the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

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mchiti · 9 months

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guys I'm very sorry if I'm so slow at answering asks, replying to messages, notifications etc

to be honest I'm overworked but more than anything my mental health is bottom low for real. I'm writing this so I can pin it. I come on here when I have 5 minutes but my social energy is generally very low. idk i forgot how to study and these last exams ever are being unbearable and my anxiety has become chronic since last year I guess. I'm very sorry if u see me on here and maybe I don't reply, I just suck at everything lately kfjhds I'll be back full force sorry again 💗✨

#it's 1 am I have to work tomorrow I CANT SLEEP look im genuinely miserable I think I should go back to some therapy after I finish this #if I ever idk #so sorry we can't enjoy afcon as I wished. also #sorry I haven't replied to asks about this or hakim etc it's just. its easier to watch some league games but to follow the whole of afcon #I guess I'm not able to at this time like sorry. If I spent less time crying over studying and actually getting work done I guess.#just exhausted I literally work full time

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toytulini · 1 month

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its clean its fucking clean i cleaned it

#toy pic post #undescribed #40gal #then dad dismissed how much fucking effort it took whether intentionally or not and i got so angry cos i already was having to #outsource reward chemicals or whatever the fuck to chocolate covered pretzels and a soda #and i was so overwhelmed from exhaustion and overstimulated to be fucking graciously regulating my emotional responses to him saying #Stupid Shit that i just got so angry i had to sleep #but i was. really determined. to manuafacture some kinda fucking reward. so i played viddygame until i fell asleep #bc that seemed like it would be better for my brain than straight up rage napping #anyway. i will. attempt the 90gal tomorrow. todayrrow. im going to. get up and get a snack and then brush my teeth and go to bed for real #bc i just cant stop fucking Horse Sleeping. i guess #so close #still much to do. i have to do the 90 and put the plants back on top of the 40 but its already so much quieter in here #which is good for me not being driven insane by. the sound of my failure to do a task.#shit i still need to dose fertilizer as well. i will try to do that before i go back to sleep #but i was too fucking angry to be thinking about Ratios of Liquid without exploding so its good i didnt attempt it earlier probably #anyway.POSTIVES: ITS CLEAN. I CAN SEE IN THE TANK AGAIN. THE PLANTS I SHOVED IN THE TOP ARE GROWING CRAZY #EVEN IF THEYRE A BIT UGLY AND LEGGY. I DIDNT FIND ANY DEAD FISH. THE KUHLIS CONSTANTLY SWIMMING UNDER THE ALGAE SCRUBBER #WAS A LITTLE ANNOYING AND INCONVENIENT BUT ALSO. CUTE AND ENDEARING. I LOVE THE STUPID NOODLE ANIMALS #i got a lot done today even if it wasnt all i wanted and many of the tasks were tiny. it got the big fucking task done that was hanging ove #over my head for weeks and making me feel intensely guilty. and now its so QUIET. like the 90 is still loud sure! but its just One of them #now!#the fucking palpable relief

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spiderlegeyelashes · 1 month

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i dont feel very good

#im exhausted and i feel like ive run out of things to do #and like if i start the things i could technically be doing jt wojld be like doing it with my left hand #bc its late and dark and im exhausted and these things are complicated #and i cant do the easy things bc jt stinks in the rest of the house #and in my room iv4 done all i can for now #im exhausted but bc of the adhd meds im also um #how to put this #its like im still plugged into a powersource #like a laptop running too long #liiiike okay i do have energy i do technically yes it is energy what i have #but i am worn out and if i try to do anythung i will do it slowly and poorly and i will shit my pants #u know?#this is why i hate these meds #at least when ur exhausted normally u can just go to sleep #but this thing keeps u forcefully running #my head hurts my body kinda hurts i cant focus BUT! still on #this laptop is about to overheat if it stays like this #😑

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semiotomatics · 10 months

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lol, new fear unlocked: disappointing my therapist when i have bad days -_-

#this has been an original post #personal spewage #clouds gets therapy #like idk. i told her this week was gonna be tough for me bc of my period #but i also said last week was better than expected and she was so happy for me #and we were both so hopeful that this week would be better too #and then it. wasnt #well it wasnt all bad #but yesterday and today have sure sucked lol #im just so. mad #like. this is so unfair #i have a concert tonight that ive been looking forward to _literally all year_#technically since last year #but i have cramps and i couldnt sleep and its pouring out and i dont have rainboots and i just. cant #or dont want to. whichever #and i know its okay. i know ill get another chance to see him live (tonight wouldve been my 4th time seeing him anyway lol)#but i still just. want to go #i wish i wasnt in pain and exhausted and depressed and just. like this #i wish i wasnt like this #edit: was just reminded that this is actually the SECOND time i had tickets to see him live this year but couldnt go #fucking sucks man #at least i did get to see him live on my birthday #that was. the best

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your-fave-is-bi · 2 months

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Temps over 30 degrees are stupid. I hate it here.

#personal tag #the apartment isnt horrid at dealing with heat but it aint the best #on account of. the amount of windows #ive also once again confirmed that 27 is like. too high for me. 26 inside temp i can kinda deal with. but just barely #i think thats the highest it got inside today so overall i think we did good with keeping temps as low ad we could #but man. its too fucken warm #i cant fucking sleep like this. im exhausted and yet.

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kummatty · 11 months

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ive had a few professors now tell me that I should rly consider getting a phd bc im "at that level" already - it's so strange to stratify 'intelligence' in that way and at the same time I feel deflated in my classes a lot bc I wish discussions would go deeper . the idea sounds nice but then again it sounds like hell on earth. I don't know how I can justify making so little for 7 years and trying to support myself and i rly don't care to work that hard and push myself, nor do I think I have anything particularly special to research or add to, I'm curious im a scholar I like reading and learning and thinking but I'm not sure a phd will be worth it, im not sure i can find an intellectual home in academia.....im getting a headache

#and i dont need to be thinking abt this now #but ofc i am instead of doing my work #or sleeping #something abt being in school makes u ripe for existential crises #also the ableism...... im reminded of it all the time and im almost certain my body and brain cant handle it #it takes me a long time to get to articulation and that in and of itself can be so exhausting #but it would carve out time for some of things i value including language learning

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