#im alive... i guees

[zer0-devoox]

check, and we're almost at 200 devils here... I'm like "wow where do you all even come from?"

thank you with all my veins and bones!!! ❤️

[hwspoland]

few poland things

he was pagan then atheist for a bit and then catholic for even shorter bit. now he's jewish

hes the only jewish nation in europe

doesnt take anyone's shit

'do no harm but take no shit'

he l o v e s horses. that ones canon but honestly - the best part of his canon characterization imma tell you that

he has no polish accent when he talks in different languages - he was really anxious about it especially in 20th century

he kind of mixes all english accents but he tries to go with just one (thats the only thing he fails at when it comes to languages but honestly he kinda likes the way he sounds talking like that)

very protective of his non-english friends when they make some grammar errors. he once punched arthur in the face when he tried to point out mistakes ivan did on the world conference

loves belarus and ukraine very much

same with estonia and latvia

about estonia- hes kinda bitter about estonia wanting into nordic for one reason - basically 'potop' as its called aka swedish-polish war of 1660-1665 started by sweden taking 'inflanty' which was a partnof europe poland sweden and russia really faught each other for. and guees who inflanty was - yes, estonia.

i dont understand why people think latvia and estonia (lithuania for fucks sake but im ignoring him and let it stay that way) find feliks annoying - they loved him very much and still like him

poland cares about belarus a l o t and he hates lukashenko. feliks think he manipulates his little bela

ukraine lived with poland for c e n t u r i e s and theyre really close friends! (or even lovers if you will - ship whatever ya want sweeties)

when someone is talking really dumb bullshit he feels attacked and uncomfortable honestly. there were times when someone said something super stupid and ignorant and he just straight up vomited (not on this person of course, hed feel bad for the rest of eternity)

he really likes light. just- he finds light super interesting and beautiful

blind on right eye because of the scar he got in warsaw uprising (also?? dont e v e r insult any of the uprising cus you wont make it out alive honestly)

y e s he does have pink tracksuit but the pink is with orange tint rather than red one

[reason32123]

My affixiated stare when im out and about is straight ahead. I keep a poker face as soon as i leave my house so that chances of something happening to me are kept to a minimum. I mustve forgotten something. Oh wait, i just remembered that my so called mother has my drivers license. That means that this is all just a thing with me being a person from the neighborhood whose a guy who listens to their parents. Its either that, or im just a social person who happens to take everything ever, seriously. No, i didnt lose my sense of humor. Ive been through trials and tribulations as a not a man which turned my sense of humor inwards and also which made me an unsociable person. Im terribly accurate about any kinds of assumptions made about a persons social media page. Its true, my lawyer made it all go away. Im even certified as an architect and as a lawyer because of how the judge addressed all of the specific details about the whites of my eyes. Rolling your eyes at me? You couldve done better when it comes to someone whom you spend time with, is or isnt what your thinking. Im actually a guy who goes by social skills. Which i learned from interacting with my so-called parents and especially from interacting with my little sister, Mimi Chung. In short, im the ideal type of person who fits the description who fits in with others and is also a lawful abiding citizen in my society. My society is run by me with great pre-cognition to whats possible with the mind, body, and soul. You just want to talk? Ive had a cake splatted onto my face before. I know what it feels like to be disenchanting towards someone who thought that they were falling under the category of a rolling stone when it comes to their music. A rolling stone. It sounds so picture perfect for someone like me. A rolling stone has to be the ideal musician and also the ideal gang member. My insecurities as a not a man can eat me alive. My short comings as a not a man can come roiling out of me at the drop of a dime. Preach, what youve been told by your pastor. Listen, to what others say about you. Do, what you have to do in order to survive. Only then, will you make it in the music industry, like i did. Fragrant smell of burning cigarettes scamper about my room. The streets have taken on a life of their own. In order to survive, i have to seek out help from those that are older than me. Youve probably figured out everything about me, by now. My internal clock for hibernation is far from winding down. I guees that this is it. My last graces and pardons from the world which i used to live in as a student. Tattoos on your face? It must mean something to you unless your some kind of a celebrity. It all matters, whether or not evil outweighs good. An imagination is what you seek, at the end of all of this.

[lilmorfin]

My thoughts

#2

Hallo!

Gue marxxx. diumur gue yang 19 tahun ini (iya emang udah akhir teenager banget gitu ya hehehe) gue mau confess 1 hal hehe..

Seumur idup gue hingga tahun yang ke 19.9 ini gue baru pacaran 1 kali. ini emang cinta monyet sih dan di pengakuan gue ini, dia adalah pacar pertama gua tapi bukan cinta pertama gua.. ngg.. dia patah hati pertama gue juga sih (patah hati yang bikin gue kejer sampe 3 hari wkwkwk najis alay banget sih gue yaampun).. btw ini karna diri gue yang naif dan bener-bener POLOS banget dulu selalu sukses terbuai sama harapan kecil yang dia kasih setiap hari.. you know~ dikit-dikit jadi bukit yekan

tapi walaupun begitu gue ga pernah sekali pun benci, karena gue inget kata-kata ini saat pertama kali mampir ke kuping gue

"lu jangan terlalu benci orang, siapa tau dia bisa jadi orang dalem lu nanti"

and i was like...

mulai dari situ gue ga bisa benci orang, mungkin kesel mah iya but life must go on.. dan gue pernah sih liat twit orang gitu and said

"kalau orang benci seseorang, tapi masih bisa ngomong dan bercengkrama sama seseorang tersebut apakah itu munafik? bukan, itu namanya hidup"

and yeah. that's all

trus akhirnya gue move on selama 1 bulan dibantu temen-temen gue yang paling gue sayank banget huhu.. my gurls! wait.. i mean my bitjs, if y'all see this.. im typing these while imagine y'all faces in my mind cause i love you guys so f much!

dan move on gue berhasil cuy thank God, God has given me the most powerful self-control system (of healing a fresh brokenhearted) ever hehehe

Mulai dari sini gue belajar untuk lebih menghargai diri gue sendiri. i deserve better. im doing (my life) on my own. i stepped on my foot. so i must doing full great job. especially for my self.. uu-u chayank

gue lebih memilih untuk merehatkan, menghargai, dan menyayangi diri gua secara lebih.. meskipun masih suka stress dan overthinking lately night tapi tentang diri guee jugaa so gue ga rugi-rugi amat yekann.. i decided not to do any relationship for awhile. gue mau membahagiakan diri gue dan orang-orang yang gue sayang banget banget banget. meskipun kadang ada rasa iri kalo liat temen gue yang lain lagi update story bareng pacarnya, but at least gue bahagia sih liat temen-temen gue (yang udah bantu gue selama masa-masa ter 'yikes') bahagia

Gue seneng diri gue yang sekarang lebih dewasa, lebih mandiri, lebih bisa ngontrol hal-hal yang berkaitan sama gue ataupun membantu orang lain.. gue seneng :) hehehe

makasih pengalaman, makasih teman-temanku dan keluargaku for loves, supports, smiles, attentions, and sights at me in calm when havin' so much in mind.. or late night talkin in phones for hours hahahahahaha

tau ga? sumpah aku bahagia.. y'all the reason i stay alive in this cruel world tht i face hourly

gue akan jadi diri gue ketika apapun itu.. please have me as ur 'anything' as always 💚